Temptation Island (2019–…): Season 4, Episode 9 - Big Decisions - full transcript

Previously
on Temptation Island...

If I make it through a house

with 12 beautiful women
and I'm not cheating on her,

- I'll be really happy.
- I'm very proud.

- Hey! Cheers to that!
- Cheers to loyalty!

- Loyalty!
- The new loyal Luke.

I'm... ing fighting for love
in two different places.

And it's not because
I want to both,

it's because I
still love Ashley

because I care about her.

Are you, like, wanting
to get back with him,



or, like, what?

If somehow I see,
like, he's growing

or is a changed person,

we could possibly
talk about it and make it work.

I'd never, like,
come out and say, like,

"I want to marry somebody."

And now I know who that is.

And that's what I want.

In my head I'm like,

"What if he's the only person
that won't leave?"

He's not for you.
And it's been clear as day.

Ash, she still
keeps going back to what if

he's the only one
that won't leave?

I don't even know
what to do at this point.



I don't take anything back.
You know?

Marissa and I
got a little intimate.

A clip of that
will be shown to Gillian.

It's going to be
a completely different life

when I leave this island.

Oh, my God.
No way.

Oh, my God.
That's literally crazy.

See, that is
the other side of Edgar.

That is just... I don't know

where that comes from,
like, what?

It just reminds me of the shit
that happened, like, before.

Are you feeling
more hurt or angry?

First angry, then hurt, I guess.
I don't really know.

He didn't need to break
our rules like that.

Like, that is just
complete betrayal.

Like, he doesn't care
that I have to see that.

Why do you think he did that?

I think he's having sex with her

to get back at me
and make himself

feel in control again.

Mm.

Oh, I'm losing my shit.

I literally am losing this.

Like, this is insane.

There's no way out but through.

You have some time
to think about

what you need to say
and what you need to hear.

I know I will do that
in the moment,

but at this point, I don't
even have anything to say.

I don't want to know why.
I don't care.

Okay.

If that's true for you,
then I respect that.

And you can ask what you want

because the next time
all of you are here,

you'll be sitting
with your boyfriends.

You can head back to the villa.

Have a good night if you can.

Good night.

Oh, man.

There's a storm coming his way,
let me tell you.

This bonfire was disrespectful.

I feel like everything
we built was just stomped on.

Oh, baby!

- I'm angry.
- He doesn't deserve you.

We had very clear rules
that we set,

we discussed
over and over again.

What I saw tonight
was all the way.

There is nothing further
that he could have done.

, two years ago,
we went through

this exact same thing and it's...

It's off!
It's off, babies. It's done.

The promise is broken.

I came here for clarity
and there's nothing

more clear
than what I saw tonight.

Oh, my God, I'm going to throw

this shit
in the ocean.

- Oh, my God.
- Literally. What the?

- Ah!
- Throw it at the house.

We're going to go
to their house right now.

I will literally burn
this place to the ground.

No, all jokes aside,
I want to take an Uber

and drive my ass
straight into that house.

Let's just run.

We have enough energy
that we can run.

We'll... We'll collect
burnable materials.

Did you see that?
Let me just... It's okay.

Like I need a pass
from you to, like,

not send you
a message...

It's the picture
in the pocket for me.

Did you put that there?

I'm going to be so mute.

I'm not going to talk to no one.
Don't talk to me.

Oh, hey guys!

Do I have news for you all?

Who wants to hear it?
Gather 'round.

I got a story to tell tonight!

- Yeah.
- My boyfriend

is the first one not only
to have sex with another girl,

but to her.

Wow.

Just loud and clear
for everyone,

especially me, to hear.

What?

Are you kidding me?

Bro.
Shit went down, y'all.

These boyfriends,
you guys suck, man.

Embarrassing, he's planning on

leaving with her, apparently.

You're going to go
have a relationship,

and that's your first time
sleeping with her.

That was not how our first time

sleeping together was.

- Who next? Who next?
- Ashley's next!

Basically,
it was a clip of Lascelles

telling Trace,
"I love you."

And then Trace is like,
"I love you, too."

And they hugged
and they kiss at the end.

Lascelles is just making
the biggest mistake ever.

I don't think
she has anything that I have

to offer for Lascelles.

If he loses me,
then that's too bad,

because I'm not going back.

How you say, "I love you,"

to a girl you met
for four weeks?

- How are you?
- I'm good.

Are you done
being weird with me?

- Yeah.
- Why were you weird?

The reason I was weird, um...

Do you remember the conversation

- you had with me this morning?
- Yes.

- Do you remember what you said?
- I said,

"I am scared

"that I'm going to end up
back with Hania."

What was the other words?

Please.

What if he's the only person
that won't leave?

There. That hit me.

And then I come down here
and you're like,

"Oh, well,
it's cloudy but when you come,

"the sun comes out",
and I'm like,

"I'm not
the drug you need."

And for you to just be like,
"Cool. That's great.

"None of it mattered, I'm going
right back to where I was,"

sucks for me
because I'm a real person

and I share who I am

because I care about
the people around me.

Listen,
I shared that to be like,

"Here is my weak
and vulnerable part."

It doesn't mean
I'm actually going to act on it.

I needed a moment of clarity.

And you've been
a very safe space

and I overstepped the line,
obviously. I see this.

I don't want
for Hania to be able

to affect me this much
but he does.

Taylor's taught me
that I deserve...

more.

And I'm ready

for a love as intense as I am.

You being upset with me?

I hated it.

It's okay.
I just want what's best for you.

As a person to a person.

- Welcome, welcome.
- Welcome, welcome.

- You look good.
- Gather.

Ladies and gentlemen.

Tonight is a magical night.

Full of wonder, magic and lust.

Tonight at the bonfire,

the clip I saw with Gillian

and I presume
it's what's his face,

uh, getting intimate,

it's definitely
uncomfortable to watch...

your girlfriend...

do other things, um, with...

someone else.

But I mean, I kind of did feel

a lot of acceptance
because I'm having my journey.

I'm trying to be good tonight.

- So be good.
- I'm going to.

Get it! Get it!
Get it! Get it!

- I see you.
- That's all y'all get?

- That's all y'all get.
- That's all y'all get.

Y'all got to pay for the rest.

It's going to be a wild night

but I'm realizing that I'm truly

falling in love with Trace.

And I've been struggling
all night thinking about,

"How's Ashley
going to see this?"

And I'm just going through
all these conflicting thoughts.

It's one of the hardest nights
I've ever had to deal with.

You're like,
literally, matching.

- I know, because...
- She is my...

This was a leftover...

And you both have amazing butts,
let me just say, like...

- Hania.
- What the?

What?

- That's so annoying.
- Karyna.

Do you think I don't think
your butt is amazing?

- That's literally not...
- Do you think I don't think...

- What this is at all.
- Your body is incredible?

This is what I mean by,
"It's Hania World."

- I hope you know...
- This was not intentional!

- Okay.
- Whoa, don't yell at her.

Well, she's making it
about her right now.

I know but don't
yell at her, nonetheless.

- Don't yell at her.
- I don't have

some other
agenda right now.

- Okay, don't yell at her.
- I don't have the patience.

- It doesn't matter.
- I know it doesn't matter.

And I feel
embarrassed right now.

- Thank you very much.
- When you shout

and speak the way you do,

you try to make people
feel really stupid.

I'm not trying to make
anybody feel stupid.

- I know...
- I feel stupid.

And that's
what I'm trying to say.

I'll just
remove myself...

- No, you're fine.
- I'm not fine. You just said it.

- You're doing it again...
- You just said

- I'm being a asshole...
- Calm down!

Wow. Wow.

That's why
his girlfriend is, like,

so intrigued with this new guy.

Because he's actually
listening to her.

- Hania's not listening.
- Yeah. It's not that hard

to listen to someone
and care for them.

First of all, don't attack
any woman like that.

- Exactly.
- First of all.

And then storm off like
you're the victim?

Like, made it, like, about him.

- Yeah, and made it like...
- That's a narcissist, bro.

He is the epitome
of a narcissist.

That's a narcissist.

I woke up this morning

and I had the sudden urge

to tell Trace exactly

how I feel at this moment.

I've been struggling all night,

thinking about, "How's Ashley
going to see this?"

And how I'm going
to break the news.

And I'm just going through
all these conflicting thoughts.

I am trying to keep my composure

but I'm pretty livid
at this point.

I am so fed up
with this back and forth.

- Well, good morning, gentlemen.
- Good morning, Mark.

- Good morning, ladies.
- Good morning.

You're about to select
your final dates.

These dates
aren't your typical dates.

They'll be very romantic,
overnight dates

where you'll get a chance
to spend some special

one-on-one time
with one of the single guys.

Out of all the dates
you've chosen,

this will be the most important,

because the guys
you don't choose

will be leaving the island.
Ladies, are you ready?

- Iris.
- Okay.

Who gets to spend
their final date with you?

Deac, would you like
to go on a date with me?

I would love to, Iris.

- Perfect.
- All right, Deac.

Ash, what do you think?
Who's it going to be?

- Taylor.
- Taylor. Okay.

Gillian, who's going on
a final date with you today?

I think I'm going to pick Tommy.

Congratulations.

And then finally, Ashley,
who's going to be your choice?

I would like to choose Blake.

Blake.

Okay, ladies,
you've made your decision.

Congratulations, guys.

And gentlemen
who weren't chosen,

it's been a pleasure
getting to know you.

You can go ahead
and say your goodbyes

and then it's time
to leave the island.

Travel safe, guys.

I'm happy for those
that were chosen.

I would have loved just to spend

that one on one time
to connect with Iris.

But honestly, I just wish
Iris the best of luck.

- Bye, guys.
- Bye!

- Hold it down, all right?
- We love you guys.

Well, there we have it.
Four couples.

I know you're going
to enjoy these dates

and really use this time

to get whatever answers
you still need.

And I just want to let you know

that the next time
I'll see you four ladies

will be at your final bonfire.

Okay? Have fun.

I'll check in with you soon.

- Hello to the girls.
- Thank you, Mark.

Thank you, Mark. Hey!

- Hi, Mark!
- Hi, ladies.

Welcome. Gentlemen.

You're about
to select your final date.

So, let's get to it.
Luke, we'll start with you.

I would like to choose Paige!

Edgar.

I would love to have Marissa

join me on my date.

Okay.

Lascelles.
Who's it going to be?

I'm super nervous right now.

Trace and I just had
this argument upstairs

and I can tell
she's just over it.

Like, she's just...
That's the final straw.

I'm, like, shaking
because I know

if she rejects me again,
then that's the end

of our relationship,
and I can kiss everything

we ever had goodbye.

Trace, I know we've been
going through a lot of

difficult times together,
and I want to let you know

that I appreciate
you no matter what.

And you mean the world to me.

And I would love
if you would accompany me

on the last date.

- Let's do it.
- Okay.

I think that's a yes
from Trace, Lascelles.

Hania, what do you think?

Karyna, I know
we left things a bit tense.

And if you're willing,
I would still love

to take you with me
on the overnight.

I really have to think
about if I want to go

on this final date because...

his actions last night,
I am not okay with.

Well, Karyna?

What do you think?

Okay.

Ladies,
those who weren't chosen,

it's been a pleasure
getting to know you.

Take a moment to say
your goodbyes to the guys.

And then it's time
to leave the villa.

Is the reason
that you picked Paige

because you're afraid
that you wouldn't be able

to resist me on a one-on-one
overnight date type thing?

Because I feel like
I kind of got

the short end
of the stick out of that.

I don't know
really why you came here.

Sorry.

- Buy, guys!
- Bye, bye, bye.

Okay, I can sense from
what's been said here today

that some of you
are excited to go

and some of you have some stuff
that's yet to be resolved.

Well, use the time
on these dates

to ask the questions
and say the things

that you need to say,
because you're facing

some big decisions.

And the next time I see you
will be at your final bonfire,

sitting next to the person
you came to this island with.

Enjoy your final dates.
I'll see you soon.

I want to make this
the best date ever

but I still have questions,

things that I'm not really
able to process.

Trust was broken

- There's no way.
- Oh, my.

- There's no way.
- Oh, my God.

Oh, my God, I'm so nervous.

But I'm so happy
at the same time.

Oh, no!

This is my first time
doing a helicopter.

And I'm holding
Blake's hand so tight.

This experience
is a once in a lifetime thing,

and to do it with Blake,

it makes it
even more special for me.

This is actually
one of my dreams.

Island's absolutely beautiful.

Wow.

Look at this side, too.

- Right here.
- Oh, wow.

I'm really starting
to like him, you know?

And it's just
an amazing feeling.

I'm hoping to really
get a direct answer

on whether or not it's me
that she wants in the end.

I really like her.
You know?

She's been everything
I've been looking for.

And it's kind of...
It's kind of crazy

that it happened here
on this island.

This is my favorite date.

Top all our dates,
for sure, for sure.

Ah, look at this backdrop.

This is so pretty.

Today for our final date,

we're doing a dove blessing.

"Hold hands
and raise your arms into the sky

"to receive a dove blessing
to make your wish come true."

As much as I am grateful
that we're able

to have this intimate moment,
I'm just trying

not to kid myself any further

that this is something
more than what it is.

Because I've been told
now officially

that that's not
what it's going to be.

You don't want to bless us?

Give us our blessings, please.

We need them.

I wish I didn't say
what I said this morning,

especially before the date,

because I think it set the tone

in a negative fashion,
but I feel like

it was something
I had to get off my chest.

Trace, I know that one,
this conversation

is super tough,
but I do see myself with you

as my girlfriend
and hopefully more.

And I really hope we work it out

because I love you.

I feel like as soon as
I kind of started to believe it,

you kind of hit me
with another wild card.

It breaks my heart
to kind of feel so hopeful

and then kind of
get knocked back

into reality of that's not

really the case.

But I'm hurt,
I'm really hurt right now.

Like, I am.

It sounds like she doesn't
want to be part of my life.

And that sucks
because that was

the last thing I wanted
out of this whole situation.

I don't know
if I can ever forgive myself.

I have never been
pampered by a partner.

Oh, my God.

I really need this spa day.

Oh, my God.

It's so nice
to have someone being

attentive to my needs
and giving me a massage.

Hania wouldn't have done that.

I'm really tired of being held
to a different standard

than the people telling me
how to act hold themselves.

I'm just ready
to not be a sidekick

in someone else's story.

And that's not how it should be

for any single woman
or man on the entire Earth.

So, I hope
that your contact with Hania

goes the way
that it deserves to go

and how you deserve
to grow as a person.

I can't imagine
it going any differently

because he's go...
He's probably going to be

demeaning as.

Who cares?

- I'm going to go risqué with it.
- Oh.

If Ash could take
one thing away from our date,

I would hope
that when she's not around me,

she doesn't feel like she lost
that drug that keeps her going.

I would say
that you need time alone to heal

away from the very manipulative

type of human Hania is.

But I wish the best for you

from the bottom of my heart.

Okay.

Let's see what they got in here.

It's go time.

Through this time on the island,

I learned how to listen
to my own feelings

and I'm ready to tell Ash
exactly how I feel.

And so Luke and I

are going ring shopping

for the love of my life.

I never thought
I would be doing this.

That's wild.

You grew a lot

- in a short amount of time.
- Yeah.

Can I see... one of these
over here, actually?

Yeah.

Maybe the second one
in right there.

I like the sort of...
The metalwork of it.

- Yeah.
- Sort of hammered.

I think this is the one, then.

- There you go.
- Yeah!

It's kind of crazy
because you came in here

not even knowing
you were going to be doing this.

And when I came in here,

Iris and I had already
talked about this.

I wasn't sure
if I wanted to propose to her

at the end of it,
because I wanted to see

how each of us had grown
and came together.

But I'm here now.
Like, I've came this far.

If it doesn't feel
right in the moment

then I don't have to do it,

but I kind of want
to arm myself, man.

I'm going to take a look.

I'm in here ring shopping
with Hania for Ash,

but I'm realizing I've been
with Iris for five years

and all the questions
have been answered

during this journey,

except, will Iris marry me?

I want to propose to Iris
because I'm confident

that I've officially found
the woman of my dreams.

And I just want to spend
the rest of my life with her.

- This is... this is it.
- That's a sweet ring.

This is it.

- Congrats, man.
- I was kind of... I was kind of...

- Bring it in here.
- Oh, dude!

We're both... we're
both going into this. We're...

That's huge.

Whoo! Oh, my God.

This is so cool.

I've never spent 24 hours

with another male except Luke

in the last five years,
so this is going to be

pretty interesting.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

Deac is an amazing guy

and I could see him
as someone I could date.

Wow.

This is like,
exactly what I need right now.

- Yeah?
- Mm-hmm.

Before your big day?

Oh, man, I'm just
trying to figure out

what I'm going to say to Luke.

Yeah, I know you guys
got a lot of talk about.

I just don't know

if he really...

believes he's accountable
for what he did to me.

Yeah, well, definitely just
hold him to a higher standard

and hold yourself
to a higher standard.

Yeah.
I know what I deserve.

And I hope
he understands now, too.

Yeah.

- We'll see.
- Yeah.

In the short time
that I've known Iris,

I've seen the growth in her.

But I know,
you know, you can say

you have all this growth
but once you sit down

with that counterpart, that's
a whole different ballgame.

Okay, grab hands.
Three, two, one, go.

There we go!

Yeah, baby!

Today is me and Tommy's
last date.

We are zip lining,
which is really cool.

Tommy! Ah! Holy shit!

We're just kind of
living in the moment

but it's a little hard for me
to be present

because I'm thinking about Edgar

and the way
he's hurt me, and then

saying goodbye to Tommy,
which I don't really want to do.

Whoo!

It's so beautiful.

It's so serene.

I'm so excited
to have this date with Marissa.

I know that we both
really love horses

and it fuels me
a little more to know

that Marissa loves
horseback riding

just as much as I do.

It makes me feel good
about what is yet to come.

Ah, this is beautiful.

This is so gorgeous.

I thought that at the beginning
of this experience

that I wanted
to come back to Gillian.

But for right now,

I don't know
if that is what I want.

Oh, that feels great.

This wasn't the ending
that I was expecting

and it's still
hard for me to accept

because I still have
hope for the future.

I just hope you don't think
this conversation

is me saying, like,
"No, you need to leave with me

and just automatically
start our journey."

Like, that's not
what I'm saying.

Whether your future is with me,

whether it's not with me,
you have to just be

10 times more careful.

Because I've told you

that I've been traumatized

by my past relationships.

Like, I don't trust shit
nobody says to me.

And you still continue.

I just feel like
you just were not considerate

of how this really,
really could affect me.

I'm sorry I didn't put
myself in your shoes.

I think I was so wrapped up
in what I'm struggling with...

- Yeah.
- That I took that for granted.

But me saying I love you

and I'd move to L.A.

is a dream to me
that I want to come true.

Me just backtracking
is more logistical thinking,

not like emotionally,
it's more like,

let me figure out
my stuff at home

so then I can
fully go to L.A. with you

and start something new.

I just feel like
maybe you should kind of

thought about that
a little bit before

you have dragged me
this far in this process.

That's all.

Obviously, you're going to have
to have a conversation with her.

- Yeah.
- That is a part

of the final bonfire.

You can have your closure
and still continue

to be a man of your word

- in what you've said to me.
- Yeah.

Okay, because I'm done crying.

I'm done talking about it.

I don't want to push it
right now

because it is a sensitive time.

But I'm feeling
a lot more relieved

knowing that things have come
to a little more ease.

Let's just
be careful with our words

and let's just enjoy
being in this beautiful place.

- Absolutely.
- Okay, awesome.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

I feel like I kind of don't want

this whole journey
to just be over.

Why is that?

I just... I don't know.

What? Tell me. I'm here.

At the end of this journey,

I have to make a choice.

And I don't want to bring, like,

my extra baggage onto you.

I wouldn't expect you
to jump, like,

ship to ship but also, like,

I just want to know
everything that I've done

throughout this whole time,
like, had a point to it.

- No, it does.
- You know?

I am on the fence between
leaving with Blake,

leaving by myself
or working out things

with Lascelles
and leaving with him.

But I don't want
to think too far in the future.

I just don't want you to, like,

go back to something
that could hurt you

because I just want you
to have everything.

- And the shrimp.
- Fancy. This is crazy.

- And the shrimp!
- You look very handsome.

- Thank you, appreciate that.
- You look beautiful.

Thank you.

So, how are you feeling
about everything?

Honestly...

I feel like you and I...

could work really well together.

That's kind of how I feel.

Mm-hmm.

I don't know
if you feel the same

and it's fine if you don't.

I have loved
this entire experience

and being with you
has been enjoyable.

In the future, I don't know.

I really don't know
what that holds.

I think right now it's just...

I've enjoyed my time here
with you and we're friends.

I think that's where I'm at.

It's just, like, we enjoy
spending time together.

It's, you know,
definitely hard for me

because I feel like...

I may be a little more
invested in this

than maybe you are,
which is fine.

I like Gillian.
I like being around her.

I think she's an amazing woman,

but she's still very young.

She's still trying to figure out

where she wants to be
and what she wants in life.

So, we're in different points
in our life right now.

I mean, I still want
to talk when we leave.

Yeah.

So, I guess we'll figure out...

- what that looks like for us.
- Yeah.

Since we've been here,

I've obviously
gone through a lot.

You've kind of been
there for all of it.

Even the parts
that really affected you,

which I'm sorry about.

But in the midst
of all of that chaos,

I have found...

myself.

That's where you came in.

I feel very intensely for you.

Like, there is a whole
separate pain

leaving this island with me now.

I don't want
to hurt anyone.

You're not hurting me.

You haven't hurt me
this whole time.

I care about you
because you are nobody

I've ever met before.

And I want you
to carry it with you.

And when it's time
and you need me, call me.

I did not expect

to make this kind of connection
while I was here.

I'm not
a super vulnerable person

and he can tell
I'm holding back.

I always regret
not listening to my intuition

and I'm just trying
to trust myself

to lean in to the person

who has been
there for me the most.

Oh.

I want to be able to show him

that the walls can come down

and he does mean a lot to me.

How was your guys' day?

- It was very eventful.
- It was awesome.

Luke and I went
ring shopping today.

- Like, for...
- Oh, my God. That's so exciting.

Like, you helped
each other or individually...

I helped Hania.

But then,
as soon as I found mine,

- Luke here announces...
- Oh, my God.

- Stop.
- No way.

Let's go!

So...

I just want to see how Iris
and I are going to interact

as new people after this.

But I thought

what better way
to sentimentally,

like, lock in the next step

in our future together?

- Congratulations.
- Yeah.

And if you guys want to see...

Oh, my God, there it is.

- Ding!
- Oh, my God, it's gorgeous.

Wow! That's so exciting.

- I know.
- They're so different.

- I'm excited for you.
- Thank you.

I'm very shocked
that Hania wants to propose

after what I had seen
the past couple of days.

I feel like Hania is not ready
to be a husband yet.

What do you think she'll say?

I think she'll say yes.

I hope she says yes.
I really hope so.

Yeah.

It's just crazy

because I would have
never thought

I'd come here and meet
someone like you, ever.

I never thought
I'd meet someone like you.

So, I think
we're both surprised here.

I'm so surprised.

I'm very grateful

because, like, I want you
to be in my life...

forever.

So, I don't, you know...

After whatever happens here,

I'm like,
I just don't want you to leave.

I'm not leaving,
as long as you don't leave.

- I'm not.
- Okay.

- Promise?
- So, we don't leave.

Okay, good.

- So, thank you.
- You're welcome.

For everything.

And thank you for the greatest
adventure that is you.

And I want
more of it, to be honest.

I do, too.

This date with Edgar

has been the most
amazing experience

I've ever had in my entire life.

Like, the horseback riding,
the dinner.

- To the rest of the night.
- To the rest of the night.

The eye contact, the connection.

- Let's go.
- Okay.

Okay.

Sometimes it feels
too good to be true.

But, like,
every time I look at him,

like, I know it's... it's good

to be true.

Like, it's not too good.

- Good morning.
- You look very pretty.

- Thank you.
- Per usual.

- Thank you.
- How'd you sleep?

Good. This bed is so comfy.

This feels a lot more
comfortable than I thought

I would have been
if I was on the couch.

Last night, Trace and I,

we had a great time, alone time.

And I have found
an amazing connection

that I can't ignore.

So, I just want to, like,
kind of make sure, you know,

we're obviously
still on same page

because I feel like we are now.

You know, if anything,
it's just more of like,

okay, we've created
this connection

and we want to continue
to grow with each other

and have conversations and,
you know,

build up
our friendship even more

and then go from there.

I want to solidify,
like, our relationship

and show that, you know,
I'm not afraid to take a risk,

a huge gamble.

But it's for someone I love.

I mean, I would love that.

You know, I don't think
either one of us deserves to be

- back and forth, back and forth.
- No.

I want to say
that I feel confident

in his final decision
at this point, but there's still

a little bit of doubt,
just a little bit.

I always have anxiety
when it comes to Lascelles.

This date was amazing.

I don't regret a thing.

I think this is probably
my favorite date.

Taylor's affection and attention

and belief in me

has shown me
the kind of love I deserve.

And I'm not...
I'm not going to try

and earn that anymore.

You have made an impact.

You've made me
be more vulnerable

and open to people.

And I really hope on my side

- I made a difference for you.
- You did.

And that's what matters.

Ash has been there for me.
She's helped me a lot.

I feel that she's opening me up

in ways no other woman has.

But my biggest concern for her

is that she goes back to Hania
once they get back to Santa Fe.

You've been here
just reminding me

that I'm strong, which is great

because it's not condescending,

which is
what I've been dealing with,

is someone talking to me
like I'm an idiot.

Well, I hope
that you can take that

and what I've said
into all situations.

I, like, don't want this to end.

I slept great.

You want to eat breakfast?

Still haven't had breakfast yet.

Yeah.

I'm just feeling like
I'm on cloud nine.

It was so fun.

And me and Edgar got to enjoy

every room in the house.

And that's all I'm going to say.

So, Edgar,

how do you feel
about the upcoming bonfire?

I'm nervous, Marissa.

I'm nervous.

I think you'll be able to say
everything you want to say

and it will be over
before you know it.

A part of me feels like
this is a version of myself

that existed before Gillian.

But I love who I am now
and it feels great

because I'm able
to experience life fully

without any kind of filter.

I feel like you've changed.

And I think...

she really needs to see that.

You're a great guy
and it kind of sucks

to see her not appreciate that.

And I really want her
to take a look at you

and realize
what she was letting go.