Nurse Jackie (2009–2015): Season 4, Episode 3 - The Wall - full transcript

Previously on Nurse Jackie...

Where are you going? Disneyland.

I know now that I
should have had dinner

because I was hungry,
angry, lonely, tired.

Quantum Bay is 100%
committed. We are invested.

O'Hara, I'm taking your office.
Gloria, O'Hara's taking yours.

Jackie, this Mike Cruz
character, he's a Nazi.

He burst into trauma...

He demoted me.
I'm back on the floor.

"You're only as sick as
the secrets you keep."

Everybody's always after
me for my fentanyl patches.



100 times stronger
than morphine.

Jackie was fucking me.

Your kid, she's your
ground zero. That's okay.

Oh, my goodness.
I miss you so much.

That was my kid.
She needed to see me.

Really? Because
from what I heard,

it sounded like she
needed to not see you.

You don't even see it.

What is it I am supposed to see?

You are a drug addict.

You gonna join us?

Absolutely.

So you did all that last night?

Yeah. Steps four through eight.



And I read step five to an orderly,
Jim. So he knows everything.

What you want, a gold star?
You have somewhere to be?

I've been trying
to get more done

ever since Grace came to see me.

I want to get better.

It's not a fucking book report.

Look, you said to bring it to the
group. I'm bringing it to the group.

All right, we got it. You
have something to say.

Why are you trying
to jump ahead?

'Cause I need to leave.

I need to be with my daughter.

And I know you're all
gonna jump down my throat,

but if your kid came in
here with two black eyes,

would you stay and do nothing?

Oh, my God. Someone punched
your little girl in both eyes?

No, eyeliner everywhere.

Makeup is a wonderful thing.

I stole more mascara when I
was a little girl. It changed my life.

Look, that's great. But this
eyeliner scared the shit out of me.

Jackie, you're
halfway through rehab.

Halfway in two days, I know.

But I have to leave, and I
would really like your blessing.

You want it all. You want to be
in rehab, you want to leave rehab.

I don't think anybody here is
gonna give you their blessing.

I'm not gonna give you a thing.

If my kid came in here waving a
machete, you'd all say, "Fine, go."

I did that once. The machete
and the black eyeliner.

My parents didn't do
shit, and look at me now.

You're looking for someone to tell
you it's okay to do the wrong thing.

This is not the place. Maybe
eyeliner is just eyeliner.

Yeah, well, I'm not
willing to wait and see.

So you're ready to go
because you're fucking special,

but I got to stay here
for two more weeks?

I got to stand up.

All right, Wayne,
please sit down.

All right, Charlie, no. Stop it.

Put it away.
Everybody, take five.

Go smoke, stand in a corner,
shake. Whatever it is you need to do.

McMurphy.

Why don't you come into my
office when we're done here?

When we're done
here, I'm done here.

I can't believe you're gonna
get out of this place before me.

Five more days in this
fucker. See you on the outside?

Yeah, see you on the outside.

Against medical advice, that's
how you're walking out of here.

So nothing I did here counts?

I walked out of Hazelden with two
cartons of cigarettes and a big smile.

The minute my
car left the grounds,

I started sweating
through my T-shirt.

I drove 15 miles an
hour for the first hour.

Well, you're not me.

Oh, yeah, I know.

'Cause I'm not a nurse.
'Cause I have one kid, not two.

Get the fuck over
yourself, Jackie.

You've been in
an incubator here.

You get out, the air's
gonna hurt your skin.

My skin's pretty thick.

Not anymore, it's not.

Most people who leave
before they're ready

end up back here or dead.

And what if I'm ready?
Isn't that possible?

Yeah, you're extraordinary.

You and the other seven
million addicts in America.

Ninety meetings, 90 days,
get a sponsor, blow my mind.

Scared?

Good. You should be.

Hey, I'm going to Queens.

I have a quiz.

That's all right.

Thank you, sister, for bringing
her out. You're welcome.

Hi, sweetie.

I thought you were working
more hours or whatever.

Look, I know that my job is part

of my life that you
don't understand,

and being away, and
everything that's happening

between your dad and me and...

It's not that you
can't wear makeup.

It's that you
can't wear it until

somebody shows you
how to put it on, okay?

And I don't know the
first thing about eyeliner.

Mom... So look...
No, I got you these.

They smell like cucumber.

I don't need them.

Honey, listen to me.

I am going to be around a lot
more. I'm not going anywhere.

So take these and
wipe off your eyeliner.

Let's just start there, okay?

I'm sorry, Grace. I
love you so much.

It's a 28-day program.

I'm trying to understand
why you got kicked out.

I didn't get kicked out. I left.

And the good news
is, you don't have

to have lunch by
yourself anymore.

I've had holidays that
have lasted longer.

What if I got everything
I needed in two weeks?

And what if you didn't?

I have you.

Look, you saved my life.

I'm not trying to get
away with anything here.

This is my fourth
step, a moral inventory.

Take it. Read it.

Believe me, I can do this.

What did they say when you left?

Oh, you know. I'm
like everybody else.

Avoid stress. I'm gonna
die out here alone.

God, it's like coffee
doesn't work anymore.

Don't flirt with me and ask
me to make this easier for you.

I love you, but I'm not
prepared to pretend

that I think leaving rehab
was a good decision.

They said you
weren't ready to leave.

I wish you'd been a good
patient and listened for a change.

You know where to find me if
things start to go pear-shaped.

What the hell am I doing?

Need to get your picture
taken. New ID badges.

Not gonna get anywhere
in this place without them.

Dr. Cruz.

Mike.

Well, I'm gonna stick with
Dr. Cruz until I apologize.

Look, if I can be
completely honest,

I'm having a hard time with
my husband and my kids,

so I took some time,
which is not easy for me.

So I'm afraid I made
a bad first impression.

I'd like to start over,
if that's possible.

So out of breath.

I'm sorry. I'm not used
to talking this much.

So, Disneyland,
not that relaxing?

I'm not into big groups.

Everyone's got to
go at some point.

Let's hope not.

You all right?

Yeah. Yeah.

You look like... You
look like you're waiting

for somebody to kick
you out of this place.

Well... Look, you apologized.

Let's keep moving forward, okay?

Okay, thanks.

I'm glad to be back.
Not that this place

is any magic kingdom, either.

Yeah, long lines, bad parades.

I'm working on it.

Okay.

Oh, welcome back.

Did you get my e-mails?

No. Really?

Did you check your e-mail? No.

Okay, well, you really should,
because a lot of what I'm going to say

isn't going to make any sense

and we're all about
efficiency now.

Zoey, what's the problem?

I've been making
this face a lot,

when someone asks me a question.

And I'm talking in
a voice I never use.

Oh, it's been
special around here.

Thirty-five-year-old female.
Had a D&C three days ago.

Severe abdominal cramps.

She's gotten enough
Dilaudid to knock out Rex Ryan,

but she's still
in a lot of pain.

Rex Ryan's a big guy?

Who's Rex Ryan?

Head coach of the Jets. Hello?
You people are barbarians.

Okay, let's transfer
her on my count.

One, two... No! No,
stop! Stop, stop, stop!

No, no, no!

Easy. We need to move
you so we can do our jobs.

Fuck fluids. Morphine, now.

Don't touch me! Don't touch me!

All right, what's her name?

I don't know.

Her name's Molly.

A little help.

Molly, I know you're
in an enormous

amount of pain, but
we're gonna help you.

I'm hemorrhaging.
No, you're not.

All right. Jackie,
can you run up to CT

and tell them we
need to jump the line?

I want her to have
a scan immediately.

Go up right now? Yep.

We're fine here. Okay.

No one's even commented
that I shaved my goatee.

You had a goatee?

You noticed, right?

It's not your fault,

but every 12 days, I
go through this thing

where I wish you were a completely
different person for 24 hours.

Like who?

I don't know. Just not you.

How do you want me to do that?

I don't know, but I don't
want us to be a couple

that starts looking alike.

Moving. I hate mouth sounds.

Can I ask you something?

Anything, Boo.

How do you make every
outfit look like pajamas?

Sam can do rumpled and
he doesn't look disgusting.

Whoa, that's harsh, dude.

It isn't. Maybe you
should start ironing.

Only men I knew who
ironed were Navy SEALs.

And I'm back.

SEALs? Plural?

So what are we talking about?

Outfits and ironing
and also SEALs.

I was hoping you'd say
"patients" or "treatment plans."

Sometimes she wants
me to be someone else.

Chloe.

People are who they are.

Now back to work.

Aye, aye, captain.

Do you think he was that
intimidating as a baby?

He must have been born that way.

Can I call you Chloe?

Hey, Jackie.

Dr. Cooper suggested
that I pick your brain.

Uh, okay.

What do you think about
mandatory maximums?

Uh... As in it is mandatory

that you spend only a maximum of

five minutes on
noncritical cases.

You're making a face. Am I?

I told him you don't
have Jackie on board,

you don't have the
nurses on board.

That's not true.

She's like Eva Peron.

She's Cuban, right?

Nope.

Mike's Cuban.

I don't know how
to respond to that.

Most people just say,
"Wow" or "Really?"

All nurses are
resistant to change.

We're a lot like all
Cubans that way.

Mandatory time
limits are useless.

I'm all for change, but
if you're going there...

Oh, come on.

This is the first
time you've had

your hair longer in
what, like 15 years?

No, it's what we like
about you. You're like a cat.

You don't give a
shit. Same scrubs,

same hospital,
same job for 20 years.

So we make some changes,
we get Jackie on board,

then we get them all on board.

Look at me, goatee, no goatee.

See, I'm fluid like that.
Changes are good.

What? I'm being nice.

Yeah, these... I
have to... These...

Thank you.

Oh, my God. What's wrong?

Oh, my God. What's going on?

Take a breath and
tell me what happened.

Look at my hands. Fuck.

It's adrenaline.
You're overwhelmed.

God, what is this?

Whatever it is, we can
get through it together.

Just spit it out.

Coop hurt my feelings.

Oh, no.

He basically said that
he never liked my hair.

Then my eyes got
hot, and I ran in here.

God, what is going on?
So now I'm gonna feel stuff?

He said he didn't
like your hair?

He didn't use those exact words,

but that's basically
what he meant.

Perhaps this is punishment
for fleeing from rehab.

So we should check you back in?

Oh, Jesus.

The last time I cried
at work, I was 27.

God, I need to wipe my face.

You don't have any tissues?

Of course I don't.

You like my hair, right?

Yes. Very much.

God... Oh. Oh, God, I'm sorry.

That's okay. I'm
sorry. Are you okay?

I should be asking you
that. You can give that to me.

Why don't you go
out to admitting?

We'll come and get you
when we're ready, okay?

She thinks it's an ulcer. I
say one thing about your mom,

who is awful, by the
way, she gets an ulcer.

It's not an ulcer.
It's pressure.

Not from you. It's not from her.

It's stomach pressure.

Can you show me
where you're feeling it?

Here.

Okay, well, your
stomach is here.

So come with me.
Let's go. Right now.

I told you.

Take that bag off.

Page O'Hara?

Get her out of
trauma if you can.

Damn, you called that one.

I'm sorry, what did you call?

Well, I'd like a doctor
to confirm before...

Oh, you're following
the rules now?

What, is she dying?

Of course, I was
mean and she's dying.

It's a good thing you came in.

I'm dying? I was kidding.

No, I think you may be
suffering from a mild heart attack.

No... No way.

I'm 35. We go to Equinox.

Well, you don't. Not
really. What? I go every day.

Roberta, your girlfriend
just had a heart attack.

You may want to watch
the way you talk to her.

I can't believe this.

Well, a lot of women
mistake it for something else,

so it's a good
thing you came in.

Heart attack.
Lesbians on the rocks.

Oh, darling, you shouldn't have.

Good catch.

Okay.

Oh, my gum. Sorry.

Good idea. All right.

Ready? I think so.

That's it?

That's it. Painless, right?

Yeah. See you.

Oh, my God, once. See?
That's what I thought.

One night in Chicago.

You said Minneapolis.

Jackie.

Did you get your new badge yet?

Yeah, it's right here.
That's your old badge.

Oh, gosh, sorry. So it
is. I did get my picture...

Look, you've been
tying up this bay for

over 30 minutes.
They're non-emergent.

Well, they are waiting
to go to cardiology.

Okay, well, move her out into the
hallway or back to the waiting area.

Look, 10 minutes max per
patient until we stabilize our budget.

You're not a therapist.

Thank God for that, huh?

Got to get her to cardiology.

Hey, if you guys
want to talk more,

you can come back
down after your tests

and we'll find
someplace to continue.

Okay? Fuck these time limits.

I think we were really
getting someplace. Okay?

Good luck. Thanks.

Hey, four tickets to your
favorite show. Welcome back.

Oh, okay. Thanks.

God damn it.

Hey.

I told Kevin about us.

He knows everything now.

So that might change
what you have to say to me.

Oh, damn it. Fuck you.

Fuck you.

Hey. I'm at the house.

Um, okay.

The girls needed to pack.

I know that Eddie talked to you.

I didn't want to wait
to see what happens,

so I'm calling you.

So now everybody
knows everything.

The girls don't know anything.

I assume you want
to keep it that way.

What don't I know?

I know things.

Yes, I want to keep it that way.

So I'm gonna keep them
an extra night, all right?

They're right here.

Okay, I can tell
that from your voice.

Gracie, say goodbye to your mom.

I don't need to.

Bye, Mom.

Bye.

Do you trust Mike Cruz?

No. That's not what he wants.
Not what you should want, either.

All right. You're doing a
nice job with that laceration.

Opening a Corona
with a lighter is stupid,

and you seem like someone
who owns a few bottle openers.

Bloody, bloody Matthew
Jackson. Let's see that paw.

Nice. Spring break!

Hey.

How's the office coming?

In transition.

There's some kind
of smell coming

from the radiator.
Can't do smells.

Do you have a minute
to sit on the bench?

Yeah.

So, Kelly Slater,

he's one of our nurses here,
stole these from oncology.

You have to deal with him. He
handed them to one of my nurses.

I'm not gonna tell you which
nurse 'cause this is me narcing.

Okay? I'm doing this.

You know I'm gonna
have to call the authorities

and have him taken
off the floor in cuffs.

I have that no-tolerance policy.

You comfortable with that?

I have to be.

Just don't thank me, okay?

Hey, Slater.

Go.

I don't know where you got
those, but somebody narced.

Cruz called the cops
and they are on their way.

So I'm going to
relieve you over here,

and you should
probably run for your life.

Never run. Running only
makes you look guilty as shit.

He's going in and out.

But when his eyes are open, he's
asking for his wife, who's in ICU.

All right? He's got
some brain swelling,

but they're taking
care of that, okay?

What's his name? Roger.

Where's Cruz now?

Old hallway near Mary.

You're one of the
good ones, you know?

Eddie told Kevin everything,

and now they are
barely speaking to me.

Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired?

Here you go, Chloe.

Who says no to vanilla milk?

I'm trying to be more
professional, please.

Hey, I'm looking
for Kelly Slater.

Yes, he works here.

Yeah, I know.

You know where he is?

No.

But I can certainly
help you locate him.

You got a GPS or something?

Or something.

This way, please.

Is she skipping?

A little bit.

If you like it, then you
should have put a ring on it.

You wanted to see me? Hello?

You think it still
smells in here?

Oh, yeah. It's a little
like something died.

You want to get that?

I can... No, this'll be quick.

Part of my job is to deliver
you safely into the future.

That means faster
diagnostics. But I'm not investing

in a bunch of handheld
ultrasounds without a test drive.

Now, they're a
godsend in obstetrics.

You tell me if they're
helpful here. Use it.

Oh, I don't need a reward
for narcing on another nurse.

I can't reward you,
if we don't find him.

So we move forward. Look,
I'm not interested in wasting time.

Just tell me if this helps
you do your job better, okay?

Sure. That's it?

Yep.

Unbelievable.

Kids, they break your
heart with a text message.

10 words, not even.

Efficient.

I don't think this is why
he gave that device to you.

Please. Just keep
looking at the screen.

We're not gonna see anything.
It's barely the size of a prune.

Just keep looking.

I would have told you
sooner, but I wanted to be sure

before I said...
You don't have to...

So do you know
who the father is?

Nope.

I want it to be a surprise.

What? What do you see?

It's a boy.

Oh, thank God.