I Am... (2019–…): Season 2, Episode 2 - I Am Danielle - full transcript

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What's your idea of the
perfect... person or relationship?

Well, for me, that is...

just someone that

is genuine, kind, um

they're willing to
do life with me.

Um...

Someone who's sensitive
to how I feel,

and someone who loves me for me,

like, they genuinely love me.

Like, they won't look



in another direction,

they have a genuine love for me

and I have a genuine
love for them.

Um...

Like, you journey together,
no matter what life may bring,

or what you may face.

You journey together and you

you accept each other's flaws

and you,

and you work
through it together.

And what if you meet that person

and then they don't
end up being like that?

Then it wasn't for me.

But, Danni, your
standards are so high.



This guy's going to
have to be a superhero.

Nice. Looks good.

Beautiful.

Looking good.
Karima, right? Yeah.

How are you, are you
good? I'm well, good.

You guys got started already.

Yes, we have, do you want to
have a look at some? Yes, yes.

Don't like the full
bodied look. OK.

The white is just not
doing it for me. Yeah.

Little bit more of a...

Do you want to bring down the
lights a bit on the main one?

Little bit. Yeah,
yes, please. Sure.

Ooh.

Got it?

Yes, please review
your amazing self.

Told you I was right.

I'm always right.

Beautiful, wow, OK, hold that.

Something happens to
Karima when I get on.

These are amazing.

Last couple of shots,
five, and then we're good.

Hello? Hey.

I just saw you in the corridor.

Yeah. How are you?

I'm good, yeah. Are you happy
with what you're wearing?

Uh, yeah. I really like this
jumper, I really like it.

And what about what
you have on your feet?

Yeah, they're different,
but, yeah, I like them,

they're nice. They're
comfortable. OK, good.

OK.

Nice, that's it.

What's your name?

Uh, Michael. Michael.

Are you Danielle, right?

Mm-hm.

All right, Karima, you
did an amazing job.

I don't want to waste your time,

so I'm going to swap you out
for Michael. Thank you so much.

Thank you.

Same deal. Yeah, with glasses?

Mm, yeah.

Can you take them off?

It's good.

Do you want me to
carry on? Mm-hm.

OK, let's try some without
the glasses, actually.

So we're going to do
halfway, yeah. OK.

Looks good. Keep going, nice.

Can I have a smile?

That's it, that's it, nice.

If you just fix the collar,

that's it, perfect.

Hey, Danielle, sorry
to disturb you,

I just wanted to say, thank
you so much for today.

It was amazing.

Oh, no problem.

You're amazing, so, yeah.

Hopefully we can
work again some time.

If... Sure...
you're up for that?

Sure, bless you.

Thank you. You did a good
job. Thank you. Thanks.

Do you want me to turn
the lights out for you?

Yes, please. Yeah? Thanks.

Transfer them? Yes,
yeah, thank you.

I can do that for you. Love you.

See you tomorrow.

See you tomorrow.

Dee? Ah.

I had such a good night,

and I met this guy
who, Danni, is so fit.

So, I don't know, I'm not going
to jump too ahead yet, I'm just...

I'm excited, it was fun.

It's too keen to text him
straight away. I mean,

obviously I want to come off
as, like, I need to be busy.

I am busy.

But I want to appear busier.

He got my number.

Yeah, he got my number.

Right.

Are you busy? Got a lot of work?

You seem a bit...

What? What do you
want me to say?

Nothing.

Just I had a fun
night, I'm excited.

Why are you always trying to find
your happiness in other people?

Why do you keep doing that? Why
can't you have anything stable?

Why do you feel the
need to go around with

so many different people?

I don't think I do that.

Why do you let people hurt you?

Like, you put yourself
out there to be hurt. Why?

And you keep hoping and
wishing that the next time

is going to be a
little bit better.

Yeah, but what else
is there to do?

I want to meet
someone but it's hard.

I want you to be happy as well.

I want you... I'm
going to have that.

I don't know when I'm going to
have it but I'm going to have it.

I don't know when.

I don't know how.

And you're right,
it is hard. Mm.

SHE SNIFFS

I hope you get what
you're looking for.

Love you.

It's not easy, you know.

I don't know what
the fuck I'm doing.

I'm just trying, that's
what I'm trying to do.

I know.

But I just don't want
you to settle for less.

I know what you mean.

Can I ask you something?

Yeah.

When was the last time
you were with somebody?

I...

I'd rather not talk about
it, is that all right?

OK.

I just wondered what you were

what your situation was
or if you had a situation,

or if you

cos I can't really
work out what you want.

It's just I've made a
promise to myself that

I wouldn't waste my time
with... with anyone.

I just don't want to do
that again. Mm. And...

And I don't want to be in
something that's not going to

result to anything.
I just don't want it.

I'd rather be by myself.

Alone.

You might just
want to be friends

and that's OK.

That's purely my intentions.

Yeah. I came in here
as thinking as friends.

Yeah. Nothing, like,
emotional, nothing deep.

OK, cool.

Like, I feel better now

that I know that this is,
like, a cool friendship.

Yeah. That's all
it is. Cool, good.

What, did you think it
was something more? No!

Why would I think that?

I don't know, maybe I read

into the messages a little bit.

Maybe. A little bit.

Maybe but, yeah,
I... I literally

just wanted to be
friends with you.

I really wanted to
get to know you.

OK. I guess I think
I enjoy your company.

That's confusing. Oh, OK.

Anyway... What?

OK, no, I'm not... I am...

I know, OK, cool.

Friends. Cool. Friends.

So, spud me, then.

Friends.

Yeah.

Yeah, that was my
intention, so, yeah. Yeah.

I've... I've got to go. I've got
a couple of meetings and, yeah.

OK, is it now? Yeah, but I
can cover the bill and...

No, no, it's fine, I'll
cover it. OK, cool.

You... Yeah. Are you sure?

Yeah, I might as well leave out
with you, then, if you're leaving.

OK. Yeah? Yeah.

Thank you. Thank you, bye.

Can I just grab the bill
for that table, please?

Yeah, sure.

Thank you. Right, thanks
a lot. Cheers, bye.

OK, yeah, I'm probably
going to head...

Wait, s...

Do you go...? Are you...?

No, because obviously
I live round that way,

so I can just walk
that way. Oh, OK.

So, yeah, do you know
which way you're going?

Yeah, I'm just going to have
a little walk down there.

What? Um... That way? Yeah.

OK. Uh, OK.

Well, uh, yeah,
enjoy the weather

and guess I'm going
to be going that way.

OK, all right.

See you. All right, see ya.

I'm back.

Hello.

You all right?

You look cute,
where have you been?

Out.

OK.

Well, OK. Where
did you go, then?

Somewhere...

Somewhere north.

Who have you been with? I
know all of your friends.

What's wrong with you?

Danni!

God, I can't even go out without
you asking me a question.

Danni! Always asking me stuff.

Do you want a tea?

Yeah.

You look so cute, what have
you been doing, where you been?

I just went out somewhere.

I don't know, I think it
was breakfast or brunch.

Something.

Right, what, a meeting?

I guess you can call it that.

Have you gone on a date?

That's not a no.

That's a yes.

Don't lie, I can see it.

Stop. OK, I'll stop
pushing, I'll stop pushing.

I can see you're glowing, the sun is
settling onto you, you're glowing.

It's weird taking
photos of the river

but you have to find,
like, metaphors.

I feel like images express
how you feel a little bit more

more than words.

I'm trying to come
into your world,

and see things how
you see things.

Can you teach me how
to shoot on that?

What do I do? Ah, god.

You just feel, feel and

let your instincts guide you.

Once you press this button, that's
a moment in time, so make it count.

Oh, that's super cheesy.

A nice spot.

Is everything all right?

You're hard to read.

Am I supposed to
be easy to read?

I find it hard to trust people,

and I don't think I can...

I don't know if I can trust you.

So? I respect that.

I can't break your heart, cos
we're not in a relationship.

I can't break your trust

because I'm still
getting to know you,

I guess, and you're
still getting to know me.

That being said.

I like this.

Whatever this is.

It's a start, right? Thanks.

I just want to know...

I don't know.

You do know.

You do.

But you're not
telling me nothing

and I'm just in a
place in my life

where I need certainty.

I don't have a lot of time to

accommodate.

I just don't.

OK.

I don't want something
that's meaningless.

I want... something more.

I want to know if
you're for real.

And if you're not, that's OK, ,

but I just can't
keep doing this.

I have things to do. Like, I'm
missing work, like, I'm meant...

I make...

I have to make ends meet.

I have to make ends meet and
spending time with you is nice,

but it has to be
for some reason.

If it's not for a reason,
then why are we doing it?

What's the point?

I just want to...

I just wanted to

let you know where I'm at

and what I want in life.

Sorry, I didn't...

I want to find that

that person to do life with.

I'm not here to waste your time.

I'm not.

I want you to know that.

I want to do this with you

and I mean it.

I'm sorry. OK.

I've messed up your shirt.

It's fine, it's fine.

It's fine. Sorry. It's fine.

Don't hurt me.

If there's anything that...
that can happen, if we argue or

I know we're still getting to know
each other and... and that's OK.

And if we fall out or anything
like that or we don't agree,

or we get on, whatever it
is, I'm cool with that.

But

don't hurt me.

Don't do that.

Pinky promise.

It's not a pinky promise.

It's a proper promise.

A real promise.

You're really special,
you know that?

Yeah.

Oh, my legs.

Oh, my...

Seriously? Yeah!

What's going on?

Mm?

What are you thinking?

You know when you meet someone

and then you leave,
like, super confused?

All the time.

I get confused by
guys all the time.

So a guy talks to you and
he tells you something,

how do you know he's genuine?

Like, how do you know
you can trust that?

If you can trust somebody?

Um...

Yeah, you can tell, you can see,

I think you can see
in someone's eyes

if they're able to,
like, look at you.

You know, like... sometimes
you know when I'm lying to you,

do you know what I mean? So it's
almost like that, a little bit.

You're always lying to me!
I'm not always lying to you.

But it's, it's kinda like that.

If they say something
that's kind of profound

and about you,

or they give you, like, a
compliment, I don't know.

Like, how do you know
that it's genuine?

I don't think you can
know if they're genuine

until you get to know
them a little bit.

Like, figure out
who they really are.

OK, this is me.

This is nice.

Do you want a drink?

Coming right up.

Here you are.

Welcome to my safe place.

It's where I come
to think about life.

Hmm.

Music on the decks,

and I stand here
and people-watch.

I want to know more about you.

You hide so much.

Why?

We all have our

we all have our secrets.

Why me?

You're a special human
being, you know that?

Has anyone told you that before?

No.

Good.

I don't wanna lose
you. You won't.

I promise.

Shall we go to my room?

Wow, beautiful.

Ooh. What?

What's happened? Need
more film? No. Oh.

See, good thing I brought
mine. Yeah, it's done.

Good thing I brought mine.

There's gonna be so
many pictures of me.

Let me see.

Ooh, gorgeous, gorgeous.

Oh, you're taking one of
yourself, I think. No.

Huh? You can get
in it if you want.

We look good. I know.

Woo, look at the sun. Woo,
look at the sun! Oh, my God.

Well, I'm gonna post that. I
think the last one's the best one.

Yeah, definitely.

What are you thinking about?

Are you gonna have some exes
coming out of the woodworks

after this photo?

Cos it's a nice
photo. No, course not.

Why would you think that? I
don't do that sort of thing.

Well, you haven't even
asked me anything about...

About? I might have some
guys running after you.

Do you have any crazy exes
that I need to know about?

Huh? A lady never tells.

Oh, so you could
potentially have a crazy ex

and they could be coming
after me and I don't know it.

I remember my mum saying stories
about my dad and her, back home.

How they fell in love
when they were kids.

And they grew up with that love.

They got married
and they had me.

And she felt like she
married her best friend.

Then they broke up.

And I promised myself
that I'd never want that.

Literally don't wanna be with
someone just for a moment

and then lose it all.

Have you ever
thought about that?

Just like

not breaking up.

And being married.

Love and marriage is something
that really matters in my life.

And I wanna share
that love with you.

Would you share it with me?

Always.

What's this?

A thank you present.

For what?

You're welcome.

He's special. I know.

Like, I feel proper happy.

What are you doing?
I'm not doing that.

I'm not doing that, no.

It's fun! Yes, you are.

One, two, three.

Take a video. Hang on.

Hey. Hey.

Good to see you.

How are you? I'm all
right, yeah. Yeah, good.

How are you?

Good.

Um... Yeah, long
time since college.

Yeah, it's been a
really long time.

Um, obviously, I...

I reached out to you

because I just feel like

you need to know.

I... I just...

I just... I feel like I've got this, like,
responsibility or something to tell you.

OK.

I saw your post,

and, it was like, the first time

that I'd seen Michael

in like, six years and it made
me feel quite sick if I'm honest.

Seeing how like

sweet and loving he was
being with you, but...

Basically, about,
like, six years ago,

me and Michael were,
like, hanging out.

And...

It... it wasn't that long, like
it was maybe the second time that,

that I saw him

but...

SHE SIGHS HEAVILY

we started to, you
know, have sex.

And, um...

It started, like, it started to
hurt and so I told him to stop.

I told
him a few times, Danielle.

I told him to stop.

But he just wouldn't stop.

And he didn't stop until...

until he was until he wanted to.

So, yeah, like...

Michael raped me.

And, yeah, and then that was
like the last time I saw him.

And so I think I just
tried to live through it.

But I think it has affected
relationships and how I am

when I'm intimate with people.

Like, I've really taken
on a lot of people's shit

and I just feel like you
just deserve to know.

I wish someone had told me.

I wish someone had warned me.

And, like, I just wouldn't want your
experience to be anything like mine.

I take it he hasn't spoken to you
about anything like this before.

Well, he needs to man up and
own up to it, cos it's going to

affect his relationships,
I mean, it's affected mine.

I don't need him to
say anything to me.

I... I don't need
to take it anywhere.

But...

Michael raped me, like...

Hey, you, what's...

You OK?

Danielle, what's wrong?

Talk to me.

Who's Natalie?

Wh... what? Who's Natalie?

I should've... I
should've told you.

I know what I done was
wrong, it wasn't right.

You know what you did?
Yes. I know what I've done.

Oh, so now you can tell me?

All these months I've been with you,
now you can tell me?! I'm really...

Listen to me. I don't want to
listen to you. Listen to...

I don't want to listen to you,
I don't want to listen to you.

I don't want to listen to you.

It doesn't make it right, what
I done, but that's not me.

You know who I
am. That's not me.

You make me sick.

You make me sick, you
make me sick. SHE SOBS

I didn't know how to deal with it,
I didn't know how to say it to you.

But what can I do?

With you, I found someone that I
love for the first time in my life.

I want to fix this.

I really want to fix this.

I loved
you with all I had,

I loved you with all I had.

I loved you with all I had.
I know, I should've told you.

Everything I had.

What can I do to fix this?
Please, I want to fix this.

I want to prove to you
I'm a different man now.

You're going to go
apologise to her.

If that's what it
takes, I'll do it.

You're going to go apologise to
her, you're going to go to her,

you're going to go to police,

whatever you've got to go,
you're going to go do it.

Whatever it takes, I'll do.

Want to make this right.

I'm not going to hide any more,
there's nowhere for me to hide.

I'll go to the police,

I'll be a better person
for you and for Natalie.

I'm going to do that.

I can't lose you, I really
can't, I can't, I can't.

I can't.

Danielle, please,
please. Danielle, please!

Please.

Hey. Hey.

I'm sorry about running away.

I understand.

To hear something like that
about your boyfriend, that's

that's a lot.

Um... I'm sorry.

I respect you so much.

And I thank you for being brave.

Letting me see what's the truth.

I just, I'm just really
thankful that you could listen.

Because like,
you know, I didn't want...

I don't... I don't wish him bad,

like, I don't think he
necessarily should be, like,

deemed a bad person
cos he did a bad thing.

So long as he can accept it.

I just didn't want you to go
through what I'm going through cos

it's really hard to live in denial
about... something like that.

I don't know what to do.

Thanks for coming.

I want you to know that
I've been to the police,

I've owned up to everything.

I want to make this
work, Danielle.

I'm sorry.

I love you but I
can't be with you.

I'm pleased you did
the right thing.

Ready?

Yeah, you guys look amazing.

I need a lot of strength.

Let me see a reason why I
should buy these clothes. Wow.

Wow, OK, hold that.

Oh, wow.

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