I Am... (2019–…): Season 1, Episode 2 - I Am Kirsty - full transcript

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Hi, Mum! Hello.

Can you hold my bag?

How was it today? Good.

Come here, you.

Are we allowed to get
something in the shop?

Are we? Are we? Are we? Are we?

Mum said I can have some.

Please, may I have the
rainbow bouncy ball?

Can I have these Pringles?

You what?



That's massive.

That is massive.

That is just massive, I
thought you were getting...

Please, can I have it?
..A bouncy ball like that.

Yeah. OK, all right, then.

Yes! Yahoo!

Thanks, Mum!

Can you hold that,
sweetie-pie? Thanks, Mum.

Go and wait outside, go and
wait outside, thank you.

Can I have a bubble
wand as well, please?

Yeah. Thank you.

£14.02.

Thank you. Thank you. OK.

Look what I got.
Look what I got!



Bubbles! Bubbles!

Right, pass me
that. Bubbles! Wooo!

Right, you've got to share.

My turn.

Your turn.

How many beds did you make?

Made about 100 beds.

100! A thousand
beds. A million beds.

Come on, in you go.

It's OK.

Come on. Come on, then.

In we go, shoes off, remember.

Yep. Hello?

Can we watch TV? Yeah.

Mum, where's the TV?

Yeah.

And where's Steve?

Mum, why's there no
couch and no telly?

Mum, where's Steve?

Where is he? What happened?

Has a burglar been?

No, we haven't had a burglar. Has
someone stole all of it? He's gone.

What do you mean he's gone?

Yeah, what do you
mean he's gone?

Why?

What happened? Yeah, what happened?
Why's he taken everything?

Just go in your room and get
your homework done right now!

Bastard.

Why did he go?

What, darling? Why
did he go? Why? Yeah.

Cos he's a twit.

Come here.

Don't need him
anyway, do we? Mm.

Can you get a new couch?

Like a sparkly gold one?

Can we get a sparkly gold
one? A sparkly gold TV.

My darling.

Everything's going
to be all right.

OK. I love you.

I love you, too.
Night-night, darling.

Mia? Mm-hm? You want
to get a sleepy-byes?

Yeah. You have sweet dreams.

When are we going to get
a new telly and couch?

Soon. OK.

Yeah, we'll get the
big one as well.

Yeah? Yeah.

I love you, night-night,
sweetie. Night.

You're not cross
with me, are you? No.

You still my friend? Yeah.

Night-night,
darling. Night-night.

No talking, all right?
Straight to sleep.

Night-night. Night. Night.

You OK?

You all right?

Sort it out, come on.

Hello. You all right?

You OK?

Yeah, I'm all right, I just

oh, God, I'm sorry.

It's OK. Whew.

I feel a bit, a bit embarrassed
now, sorry. Don't be silly.

I'm a school dad, by the way.
Yeah, I've seen you, yeah.

Oh... You all right?

Yeah, I'm all right, yeah,
it's all, I'll sort it out.

OK. Yeah, I'm all right.

All right. I'm Ryan.
Kirsty. Hi. OK.

Yeah, sorry, I just, um.

I, um, I split up
with my boyfriend, so.

Oh. It's complicated, and, yeah.

I'm sorry to hear that.
It's all right. I'm fine.

Just got to sort it out, and then
get to work, and then get the kids

from school that's all and not let
them see me upset. OK. Yeah. OK.

Having a tough time, huh?

Yeah, he just, we've just got
nothing now because he's taken

everything, and it
was all mine as well.

What a scumbag.

Yeah, yeah, really
not very nice.

Hey. You all right?

Yeah, just, um, yeah.

Toni, it's really bad.

Basically, I didn't know.

He's gone.

He'd been gambling
with all the money.

So all my wages, he had a card and
he was basically using all my money

that was going in - and he was
meant to be paying the bills,

and everything, and
he's not paid nothing.

Shit, have you got...
Oh, fucking hell.

Have you called him? Have you
called? I mean, the first thing you

do is just call the companies
and explain what's happened.

Kirst, I know it's hard,
I know it's really hard.

I've been there believe me,
but there is always a way.

You just... Yeah... you're just
going to have to figure it out.

Because the most
important thing is

that you stay strong
for those girls.

I don't mean to
have a go at you,

he's a bastard, we
know he's a bastard.

No, I'm fine in front
of them, it's just.

I'm just really, um...

Oh, God I just can't get my
head around it, that's all.

You've just got to
rely on yourself.

Mum, what's for tea tonight?

Beans on toast.

I don't like beans on toast.

Well, that's what we've got.

Fuck's sake.

I don't like beans on toast.

I'll just have toast.

When are we going
to get a new couch?

Darling, please.

I've... Mummy's got to get
some more money together.

It's so boring, though.

This is so boring.

Do you want
triangles or squares?

Squares, please.
Triangles, please.

Right then, there you go.

There we go, that's
kind of a little table.

But we're having a picnic.

Right? Yeah.

We're having a picnic,
that's all. Yeah?

Such a good girl, do you want
to put it in the sink? OK.

You're not going to
get in the bath? No.

Why did he take
all of our stuff?

Because he's mean.

Because sometimes grown ups
can do really stupid things.

And he needed money,

and he was wasting money,
and he was gambling.

And that's really dangerous, so he
took my stuff to get more money.

And I don't want him
to come back, yeah?

Because we're better off without
him, just me, you, and Tilly. Right?

Do you miss him? No,
no. Cos I've got you.

And I've got Tilly.

Yeah?

You all right? Yeah, I'm fine.

OK, but there are going to be
some changes around here now.

Yeah? There have to
be. Just for a bit. OK.

We have to be really
careful with money, yeah?

So I can't get you sweets every
day or toys, just for a bit. Yeah?

Don't worry, your little
frown, don't worry.

Yeah? Yeah.

I love you. I love you, too.

Listen, Kirsty, I was going to,
I was going to say the other day

but I didn't feel,
well, it didn't feel...

I just wanted to say that
if, I could, you know,

I'm in a position where I can lend
you some money to tide you over.

Ah, no, I couldn't do that.

Really, it's not a big deal.

And if it takes some pressure off
you, I'd be delighted to do it.

Just so you can, you know,
breathe a little bit and...

I'd just love to
be able to help you

because it feels like it's
all piling on top of you

and if it's not one thing, it's
another and it's relentless and...

That's really kind.

When someone helped me out like that
a few years ago, and it was, I was

reluctant to accept it and erm, but
it, it helped me turn the corner.

Look, Kirsty, I just want
to show you that not all men

are bastards, you know, I
promise, because it would be.

Oh, you're nice.

I'd just really like to
help you out, if I can.

Aw, I think I'll be all
right but thank you. OK.

See you later. Yeah,
see you later. Bye.

Come in for a cuppa.
All right, ta-rah, bye.

Hi. Hello, Kirsty.

Yeah, I was wondering if I
could have any more shifts?

If there's any availability,
maybe the weekends,

it would be really helpful.

Kirsty, I've got serious
concerns about your performance,

the way you're doing your shifts
at the moment, you're taking

longer to clean the rooms
and they're not 100%.

I need you to be more efficient

and the work needs to be
done to a certain level.

If you want extra shifts, the
first thing we need to see

is an improvement in your work.

After that, we can see
what we can do to help you.

OK, I apologise for that.

I wasn't aware that I wasn't
doing a very good job.

OK.

OK, thank you.

Mummy? What?

Can we have some sweets? No.

Please. Please.

Please, Mum. What did I say?

Ssssh. Come on, no come on.

Why?

Please.

Please can we get some?

Mum, please?

Please.

I said no, leave it.

I'll just get those please.

What did I say to you before?

We're not getting
them, all right?

What did I say to
you before? No.

Right then, go and stand
outside then, right now.

Anything else?

No, that's fine, thank you.

Don't embarrass me like
that, do you understand?

Because I can't do it.

What did we talk about before?

Madison.

What did we talk
about before? Madison.

Come here, come here.

Tilly, I'm talking to you.

What did I say before? No.

And why did I say no?

Because you've made
me feel bad now.

I can't afford it, we had
this chat this morning.

I haven't got the money to buy
sweets, we had sweeties yesterday.

OK? I can't do it.

So don't ask me, all right?

Yeah?

Come on.

Now what did you
do at school today.

Nothing really.

You did nothing at school?

Well, I'm going to go to school
and tell them you've got to do

something, because you can't
go to school and do nothing.

Madison? Yeah?

Do you want to come
and get it? OK.

I'm going to make my tea.

Right, there's
squares and triangles.

They're both the same, OK?

"Repay your outstanding
debt to us."

What?

Mum, Mum?

Mummy, come here.

I'm just going to have to move.

I'll have to go, I'll have
to get the kids from school.

No, Kirst, Kirst, you
need to find a way.

I don't think there is a
way, that's the problem.

Kirst, listen. I just
don't know what to do.

I need to do a runner but
I don't know where to go.

I've got no family, I've got
nothing, I don't know where to go.

That's the problem.

I've exhausted
everything that I can do.

Listen,

there's always a way out of it.

It's...

I'm not asking you for money,
that's not what this is about,

I'm not going, "Can
you lend me the money?"

Because I wouldn't do that to
you and I know that you have,

you've got your own problems.

It's just, it's about what
you're prepared to do.

You can't tell anyone this,
Kirst, like, I'm telling you

because I've been
there and it helped.

Private massage.

Right. Sex work.

That's what I did.

Did it for a month, it
was hard but I did it.

Because I'd run out of options,
Kirst, I had absolutely nothing

and no way of getting anything.

It was the only fucking
thing I could do.

When I had that
money in my hands,

all I could think about was, "Great,
I can put food on the table",

"and make sure that Kaden's
all right" and that is...

You're amazing.

I think I'd be too scared
to do that, Toni, I think

like, you've either
got it or you haven't.

I'm not judging you, I would
never judge anyone, but I...

But that's what I meant when
I was saying it's what you're

prepared to do, and for me, that was
the only option that I could see.

Take that through.

Hello, hi.

You said to come round.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, come in.

How you doing?

All right.

The kitchen's just... OK.

DOOR CLOSES

Do you want me to
take your coat?

No, I'm all right, thanks.

Yeah, just in there.

This is nice.

Uh, I painted it last month.

It's nice. Bright and vivid.

Well, actually, it's quite red
and heavy, but I quite like it.

It was Mia's choice.

I like the butterflies.

So, how are you?

Er... I was just thinking
about what you said.

And, um, yeah,

I think I would like to borrow some
money, please, if that's OK? OK.

Thank you. Good,
good. Thank you.

It's all right. It's
the right thing to do.

Yeah, and I will... I promise
I'll pay you back. Don't worry.

I'll get it back. Listen,
don't worry about it. Just.

I'm not entirely
sure how much. Just

let me look.

That's loads.

That's three... You sure
you don't need that? No, no.

20, 40, 60, 80...

five.

So I've got 500 quid.

Now you can take...
You can take the 500.

Yeah, um, are you sure
you don't need it? Nope.

Is that all right?
It's fine. OK.

Listen

it's good. It's good you came.

Thank you. Um...

Don't worry. I don't want you
to worry about paying it back.

I don't want you to put
pressure on yourself, OK?

You pay me back when you can.

All right? I don't want this
to feel like another problem,

I want this to be
a... be a solution.

Hey. Yeah, I'm sorry.

It's all I seem to do at the moment.
I just need to sort myself out.

But this is going to
help, so thank you.

Great. Pay your bills,
get yourself a telly.

Yeah.

Um, I can't thank you enough.

And I promise I'll pay
you back, I promise.

And I'm not like... I've
never done this before

I've never borrowed money.

But you're so kind.

It's nothing, I'm
happy to do it.

Thank you. OK.

You all right? Yeah.

Can I pay some bills?

That'll be £343.06, please.

Thank you very much
indeed. Thank you.

Thank you. OK. Bye.
Take care, bye-bye.

Come on, we're going
to have a nice tea.

What are we having?

It's a surprise.

Come on, then.

I'm so sorry.

What?

We've had an accident
in the front room.

I'm so sorry. Guess
I've got to sweep it up.

What's that?

It's a couch and TV!

I know!

Did you get it today?

And what's that?

A table!

Yeah, so we don't have to
sit on the floor any more.

Are these new toys?
Yeah, for you!

Yeah! Thanks, Mum. Oh, my
darling, that's all right.

What do I need right there?
What do I need right there?

Thank you. Right.

Can I get dressed into my PJs?

Yeah, you can do what you want.

I'm going to make dinner.
Guess what's for dinner?

Macaroni cheese and
cake. Yes! Is it? Yeah!

Night-night,
darling. Night-night.

Night-night,
sweetie. Night-night.

Straight to sleep.

Straight to sleep.

I will hear you.

Ahh.

I love you. Love you, too.

The swimming baths, when I
was there the other day...

They've got new gym classes, so I
thought that I'd do some exercise.

I thought I heard the door.

Where you going? There's
someone at the door.

Who? I don't know, darling.

Hi. Hello.

How you doing?

Can I come in? Oh, yeah, OK.

I didn't know you
knew where we lived.

Hey, girls.

Hi.

Ooh, pizza and chips. Lucky you.

Do you want to come into
the kitchen? Yeah. Yeah. OK.

Just finish your
dinner, all right,

and then you can watch some telly.
Why's Mia's dad here? What, darling?

Why's Mia's dad here? Mia's dad's
here... He just wants to talk to me.

OK? It's all right.
Just watch telly.

You all right? Yeah.
Good day at work?

Yeah. Do you want
a cup of tea? No.

What's wrong? Nothing.

Listen, Kirsty, um.

I want you to start
paying my money back.

All right.

OK?

Yeah. I want 100 quid

now. I haven't got £100 now.

What have you got?

I'll have a look, but I don't
have £100 at the moment.

Well, have a look
what you've got.

Go back in there, Maddison.
Back in there, please.

All right? Yes. What did I say?

Thank you.

I've just got my shopping money.

I've got £55,

and you can have a look
- that's all I've got.

But I need that for food.

And I get paid tomorrow.

I don't understand, you
weren't like this before.

I'll take the 20 quid. Why
are you being so nasty?

I want 80... I want
80 more tomorrow.

I'll get your £80 tomorrow, but
there's no need to be so nasty.

See you! Bye.

Now, you've got to go to sleep.

Who is it?

It's Ryan.

I've just put my kids to bed.

I just wanted to come and
say I'm sorry, Kirsty.

I don't know what came
over me yesterday.

Can I see you tomorrow?

Can I just pop in and we can
clear the air? I feel awful, I...

That wasn't me.

I don't know what I was doing.

I don't know why I
would behave like that.

Please, I'm so sorry.

You just have to make it quick
cos I've got my kids in bed. OK.

What are we going to do, hey?

What do you mean?

I said I'd give you your money back,
and I will give your money back.

You're taking the
fucking piss out of me.

There's interest to
pay on the loan now.

What do you mean
interest? 50% interest.

It's £1,000 now, the debt.

It's 1,000 quid. But
that's... I can't pay that.

I haven't got £1,000.

I can get you your money back. I
said I'd get you your money back.

I wouldn't have borrowed it if I
couldn't get you your money back,

but I can't pay you £1,000
cos I haven't got £1,000.

I don't understand why you're
being so horrible as well.

I don't think you're very nice.

I don't understand it,
cos you were my friend,

you were being really nice to me
and now you're being horrible.

Great friend. Great
friend you are. What?

Great fucking friend you are.

Ryan, this is really dead weird.

You offered me some money and I took
it. Look, it doesn't have to be...

I'm going to pay you back. Are
you? Yeah, I said I'd pay you back,

but we didn't even talk about
if it's £10 a week, £20 a week.

I can get you the money, I said,

I've got more hours at work
and I can get you the money.

But it was like, I thought I
was going to be paying you back

in dribs and drabs,
not one massive amount.

I don't think that's
very fair and very nice.

We can think of
alternatives to money.

Now, I'm not just
talking about one fuck,

cos I don't find
you that attractive.

You're going to have
to work hard to pay me,

which means a fuck
whenever I want a fuck.

OK? For a long period of time.

So that's one option.

Or I could just be...

I think you better leave now... or
I could just be really unreasonable.

I think you better leave now.

I could fucking pull you out of
this fucking flat by your hair, OK?

Leave you on the grass outside,

and then torch this fucking
place with your kids in it.

Yeah.

I think you'd better go.

And I'll phone the fucking police.
Get out of my house. Go on, then.

Get out of my house.

Get out of my
house. Go on, then.

Fucking hell.

You have got a fucking week, OK,

to give me £1,000.

Or I'll burn your
fucking children.

Come on, then.

Here we go. Come on, then.

Excuse me, is it Michelle? Yes.

Could I borrow you for a minute?
Yeah. Just come here a sec.

Come here with me.

You all right? Yeah, I'm good,
thank you. Sorry, Michelle.

You all right? No,
don't you touch me.

You all right? Yeah, I just need
you to see something for me, please.

Right... Not here, not
here. No, don't touch me.

Two, four, six, eight... I
don't know why she's doing this.

One, two, four, six...
I leant her some money.

Two, there's £1,000 there,
right. You go and count it.

Thank you. I'm
sorry to bother you.

You've just seen me do that, haven't
you? Yeah, I've seen that. Yeah?

Everyone here's
seen that, right?

You've got your money.

Don't come near me, don't
come near my family,

and don't come near my
children. Do you hear me?

I'm trying to make
you a daisy chain.

Look.

Thank you.

Argh!

Race you, race you there!

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