90 Day Fiancé: Before the 90 Days (2017–…): Season 4, Episode 14 - Hard Habit to Break - full transcript

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OH, MY GOD.

‐OH!
‐OH, LANA!

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT ‐‐
SEVEN YEARS, SHE'S HERE!

LOOK AT YOU!

I CAME OUT TO MY PARENTS
BECAUSE...

I WISH THIS TRIP WENT
DIFFERENTLY, BUT IT'S OVER.

TAJ OBVIOUSLY
LOVES HIS DAD,

AND THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO
IS CREATE ISSUES.

SO, FILING THE K‐1 VISA
MAY NOT BE IN OUR FUTURE.

SHE'S GONE.
HER STUFF'S GONE.



ROSE SAID THAT
SHE WANTED TO LEAVE,

BUT SHE DIDN'T EVEN
SAY "GOODBYE."

I FAILED.

I OPEN YOUR PHONE,
AND SEE THIS.

I WILL NOT BE HUMILIATED
BY THIS NIGERIAN WHORE,

AND HIM WRITING,
"I LOVE YOU."

BLOCK THEM, AND CLEAN UP
THAT PAGE TONIGHT,

OR WE'RE NOT
GETTING MARRIED.

HI!

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I DID NOT KNOW
SHE WAS COMING.

I HAD NO IDEA.

WHAT? NO, THE BIGGER QUESTION
IS WHY ARE YOU HERE?

WAIT, HOLD ON A MINUTE.



YOU'RE THE ONE
IN THE WRONG HERE.

YOU'RE THE ONE
WHO ISN'T WELCOME.

YOU CAME HERE.

YES, YOU ARE.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?
GEOFFREY, WHAT'S GOING ON?

I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU.

DON'T YELL AT ME!
DON'T YELL AT ME.

NO NEED TO YELL.

IT'S BEEN WEEKS SINCE
GETTING BACK FROM RUSSIA,

AND I HAVEN'T TALKED TO VARYA
THE WHOLE TIME.

SO IT IS CRAZY ‐‐
ABSOLUTELY CRAZY ‐‐

SEEING VARYA...

IN MY DRIVEWAY,
AT MY FRONT DOOR.

I WASN'T READY FOR THAT.

I FEEL REALLY,
REALLY BAD.

THIS WHOLE SITUATION
IS NOT FAIR TO MARY,

BECAUSE THIS IS NOT
HER FAULT.

AND I'M SURE MARY HAS A LOT OF
CHOICE WORDS THAT SHE COULD SAY,

BECAUSE I HAD TOLD HER,
"VARYA'S DONE. WE'RE OVER WITH."

AND NOW,
VARYA'S AT MY DOOR.

NO, I THINK ‐‐

IRRITATES YOU?

IRRITATES YOU?
YEAH.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME
RIGHT NOW?

THE ONLY THING THAT'S IRRITATING
IS YOU BEING HERE,

SHOWING UP
ON THE DOORSTEP.

COMPLETELY NOT HER FAULT,
BECAUSE I INVITED HER.

YOU KNOW WHAT? FINE.
THAT'S FINE. SHE CAN ‐‐

STOP TALKING. I'M NOT SPEAKING
TO YOU AT THE MOMENT.

YOU NEED TO BE QUIET.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHAT'S GOING ON RIGHT NOW.

I DON'T KNOW WHY
SHE'S HERE.

I DON'T KNOW.

IT'S EMBARRASSING.
I FEEL LIKE A FOOL.

I JUST...

I FEEL EXTREMELY FOOLISH.

AND I...

I DON'T LIKE
FEELING THIS WAY.

IT'S NOT FAIR.

I FEEL REALLY...

I'M IN A POSITION
RIGHT NOW.

I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE COMING,
FIRST OFF.

IT'S A SURPRISE.

NO, IT'S NOT
A BAD SURPRISE.

IT'S JUST A...

I'VE GOT...

I MEAN, I'VE GOT...

SHE DOES. AND SHE KNOWS
THAT I WAS HURT.

AND I CAME BACK,
AND SHE WAS THERE.

DON'T TALK TO ME.

THERE'S NO REASON
TO BE DISRESPECTFUL.

NONE. NOT AT ALL.
DON'T DO IT.

‐IT'S NOT REALLY HER FAULT.
‐THAT'S NOT OKAY.

IT'S NOT HER FAULT.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON
RIGHT NOW.

I DON'T KNOW WHY
SHE'S HERE.

WHY ARE YOU MAD AT HER, THOUGH?
LIKE...

WELL, I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD
SPEAK THAT WAY TOWARDS HER.

THERE'S NO REASON
TO BE MAD AT HER.

SHH! I AM NOT JOKING.

WHAT DO YOU EXPECT, WHEN YOU
COME HALFWAY ACROSS THE WORLD

TO SURPRISE SOMEBODY
THAT YOU TOLD HIM, "NO."

BECAUSE WE
HAVEN'T TALKED.

IS THAT NOT A KIND OF
A HINT, MAYBE?

HE JUST STOOD THERE, AND JUST
DIDN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING,

OTHER THAN JUST TWIDDLE
HIS THUMBS AND CROSS HIS ARMS.

I MEAN, IT'S LIKE
WHAT THE ACTUAL DUDE?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I FEEL DUPED.

I FEEL BETRAYED.

AFTER SEVEN YEARS
OF CHATTING ONLINE,

AND FOUR FAILED
MEETING ATTEMPTS,

I AM FINALLY WITH LANA.

I CANNOT BELIEVE
SHE'S WITH ME.

AND THE FACT THAT WE'RE ABOUT
TO HAVE OUR FIRST DATE

TOGETHER IN PERSON
IS INCREDIBLE.

WOW. LOOK AT THIS.

ALL THE PHOTOS I SAW BEFORE
COULDN'T PREPARE ME

FOR HOW BEAUTIFUL
SHE IS IN PERSON.

"WOULD YOU LIKE SOMETHING
TO EAT OR DRINK?"

IT IS POSSIBLE
FOR COFFEE?

YES. YES. DA.

USING THE TRANSLATION
APPLICATION IS GREAT.

I SAY A MESSAGE
IN ENGLISH,

AND IT TRANSLATES
TO TEXT AND AUDIO.

AND IT'S JUST LIKE
NORMAL CONVERSATION.

"TRANSLATION ON THIS DEVICE
IS MUCH EASIER

THAN I THOUGHT
WITH YOU."

MM‐HMM.

"BUT WE WILL GET ALL THE ENGLISH
LESSONS THAT YOU WANT."

DA.

THAT'S BECAUSE IT
IS NECESSARY FOR ME

TO SPEAK ENGLISH,

NOT JUST UNDERSTAND
LIKE I DO NOW.

DO YOU RECOGNIZE THAT ENGLISH
JUST FROM SEEING IT?

YES.

THAT IS WHAT I THOUGHT AFTER
THOUSANDS OF HOURS IN CHAT.

CHOCOLATE.

OH.

‐PHOTOS.
‐YES.

"LATER, I WILL LET YOU
PICK THE ONES WE KEEP,

AND WE CAN DELETE
ANYTHING ELSE."

I REALLY LIKE HOW IT'S GOING
SO FAR WITH LANA.

I JUST WANT TO SEE
MORE AFFECTION WITH LANA,

AND SEE HOW...

OH, YEAH.

"IT IS VERY HARD FOR ME
NOT TO LOOK AT YOU.

I WANT TO LOOK AT YOUR EYES
ALL THE TIME.

IN REAL LIFE, LANA IS EXACTLY
WHAT I EXPECTED,

AND I'M OVER THE MOON.

BUT I DO HAVE
SOME QUESTIONS FOR HER.

"SO, I WAITED FOR YOU
AT YOUR CITY."

"I HAD TO DO ANYTHING
I COULD JUST TO SEE YOU,

JUST TO MEET YOU.

AND THEN, AFTER I
WAITED FOR YOU,

I ACTUALLY DROVE TO YOUR HOME,
AND I COULD NOT FIND YOU,

BECAUSE THE ADDRESS
YOU HAD GIVEN ME WAS WRONG.

"I HAVE SOMETHING
TO TELL YOU."

"I HIRED A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR
TO FIND YOU."

AFTER SO MANY YEARS
OF COMMUNICATION TOGETHER.

"I HAD TO FIND OUT
IF YOU WERE REAL."

"I FIRED HIM,

SO NONE OF THAT
REALLY MATTERS ANYMORE,

BECAUSE OUR FUTURE
FUTURE STARTS NOW."

I THINK THAT TO ME
IT IS TIME TO GO HOME.

LANA GOT QUIET
AFTER I TOLD HER

THAT I HIRED
A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR.

I HAD TO TAKE A CHANCE,
AND TELL HER,

BECAUSE I WANT EVERYTHING
OUT IN THE OPEN.

WE JUST NEED MORE TIME FOR US TO
GET COMFORTABLE WITH EACH OTHER.

RIGHT NOW, WE'VE ONLY HAD
TWO HOURS TOGETHER.

TWO HOURS IS
NOT NEARLY ENOUGH.

I NEED MANY,
MANY MORE HOURS.

BUT I'M CONCERNED.

DID I BLOW THE RELATIONSHIP
ON THE FIRST MEETING?

I FEEL SAD
TO BE LEAVING LIKE THIS.

I WAS HOPING SHE WOULD
SHOW UP AT THE AIRPORT

JUST TO, LIKE, SAY "GOODBYE,"
AND GIVE ME A HUG.

I DON'T CARE
WHAT OUR PROBLEMS ARE.

HE SHOULD'VE PROPOSED
BY NOW.

I'M DONE.

I'M GLAD TO BE BACK
IN THE US.

I DON'T WANT TO TELL PEOPLE
WHAT HAPPENED BECAUSE I AM, NOW,

I'M A FAILURE.

WHAT A TRIP.

TODAY'S MY LAST DAY
IN AUSTRALIA,

AND I'M LEAVING TO GO TO
THE AIRPORT, AND FLY BACK HOME.

THIS TRIP WENT BY SO FAST,

AND IT ENDED IN
THE WORST WAY POSSIBLE.

ERIKA AND I,
WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN.

WE HAVE NOT TEXTED AT ALL.

MY RELATIONSHIP
WITH ERIKA IS OVER.

I'M SAD.
I'M DISAPPOINTED, YOU KNOW?

I REALLY DID LOVE HER.
I STILL DO.

YOU KNOW, YOU DON'T JUST,
LIKE, STOP CARING FOR SOMEBODY

BECAUSE YOU BREAK UP.

ALRIGHT.

IT'S GOING TO BE SO WEIRD.

I HAD SUCH AN EMOTIONAL
EXPERIENCE HERE,

BUT MY MOM STILL DOESN'T KNOW
ABOUT MY BISEXUALITY.

AND TO NOT BE ABLE TO TALK
ABOUT THAT WITH HER,

I'M JUST GONNA BE
BOTTLING IT UP THIS WHOLE TIME.

THANK YOU.

I FEEL SAD TO BE
LEAVING LIKE THIS.

THE LAST TIME I WAS AT
THE AIRPORT, ERIKA WAS HERE.

I WAS HOLDING HANDS
WITH HER.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT
THIS IS WHERE WE ARE NOW.

I WAS HOPING SHE WOULD
SHOW UP AT THE AIRPORT,

JUST TO, LIKE, SAY "GOODBYE,"
AND GIVE ME A HUG.

I WOULD JUST SAY, "I'M SORRY
THAT THIS ENDED THIS WAY,

AND IT'S NOT
WHAT I WANTED.

THIS SUCKS."

GOT IT.

I DON'T REGRET
COMING HERE.

THAT'S THE RISK THAT YOU TAKE
IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP.

I TOOK A HUGE RISK,

AND I LEARNED A LOT
ABOUT MYSELF.

AND I WILL ALWAYS HAVE
A PIECE OF ERIKA IN MY HEART.

AND I HOPE, ONE DAY,
WE CAN TALK.

YOU'RE SITTING HERE,
BITCHING,

TELLING ME
I'M CAUSING ALL THE PROBLEMS
BECAUSE I'M BITCHING,

BECAUSE IT'S A DAY
BEFORE MY MARRIAGE,

AND THERE'S NO PROPOSAL.

YOU'RE MISSING THE POINT.

OUT.

USMAN.

IT'S.

I DON'T CARE WHAT
OUR PROBLEMS ARE.

HE SHOULD'VE PROPOSED
BY NOW.

I'VE DONE EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY
CAN TO BLEND INTO THIS CULTURE,

BUT HE CANNOT BLEND TO
THE AMERICAN CULTURE

FOR THE MARRIAGE
PROPOSAL.

YES.

USMAN, I CANNOT FIND
NO DAMN BRUSH IN HERE.

USMAN?

I THINK HE'S ‐‐
‐COME OUTSIDE.

LET'S CHECK IT HERE.
‐IT'S NOT IN HERE.

WHAT?

WITH PEACE?

IF WE CAN BLEND
BOTH CULTURES TOGETHER.

THEN, YES.

MM‐HMM.

YEAH.

IT WAS EVERYTHING
I WANTED.

IT TOUCHED ME.

IT'S SOMETHING I'LL REMEMBER
TILL THE DAY I DIE.

HE'S MY EVERYTHING.

AND NOW, I'M READY
TO MARRY THIS MAN TOMORROW.

AFTER I LEAVE HERE,
I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW

THEN I'M GONNA BE ABLE
TO SEE YOU AGAIN.

YEAH.

WHEN DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WOULD
BE ABLE TO COME TO SEATTLE?

NO.
I HOPE IT DOESN'T RAIN.

THIS IS MY LAST DAY
IN MELBOURNE WITH ASH

BEFORE I GO BACK
TO SEATTLE,

AND I HAVE A LOT
OF MIXED EMOTIONS.

IT LITERALLY HAS FELT LIKE

I'VE BEEN IN RELATIONSHIP
BOOT CAMP THE LAST TWO WEEKS.

IT'S BEEN AMAZING,
AND THEN, IT'S BEEN CRAZY.

AND BECAUSE OF
ALL THE CHALLENGES,

I REALLY DON'T KNOW, AT THIS
POINT, WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS.

IT'S A GORGEOUS
VIEW HERE.

THIS IS REALLY PRETTY.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M
GONNA BE LEAVING TOMORROW.

MM.

YEAH. WE HAVE TO, LIKE,
KIND OF FIGURE OUT

WHAT WE'RE
GONNA BE DOING.

I RECOGNIZE THAT THIS ISN'T
JUST A YEAR DOWN THE ROAD,

TO BE ABLE TO HAVE YOU
NEXT TO ME PERMANENTLY,

YOU KNOW,
TAJ BEING 9 YEARS OLD.

I GUESS IT WOULD BE MORE LIKE
FIVE YEARS DOWN THE ROAD.

WE BOTH REALLY HAVE TO
BE EXTREMELY DEVOTED

TO THIS RELATIONSHIP
TO WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT.

MM‐HMM.

WE DO HAVE CHALLENGES,
BECAUSE I HAVE MY SON HERE, TAJ.

SO, I WILL HAVE TO BE
DOING A LITTLE BIT

OF TRAVELING TO THE STATES,
BACK TO THE AUSTRALIA.

AND HE'S MORE COMFORTABLE
WITH THE SITUATION.

BUT I WANT TO MAKE IT WORK,
AND SHE WANTS TO MAKE IT WORK,

SO I WANT TO
ACTUALLY MOVE FORWARD,

AND BUILD
SOMETHING TOGETHER.

THIS IS NOT
A SHORT‐TERM PROJECT,

AND IT IS GONNA BE
A CHALLENGE. I KNOW THAT.

'CAUSE WHEN YOU'RE
LEAVING TOMORROW,

I'M GONNA
MISS YOU A LOT.

I'M ALREADY ACTUALLY
DREADING THAT.

I AM, TOO.
YEAH.

BUT I KNOW THAT
I WANT TO BE WITH YOU.

I KNOW I'M GONNA
MARRY YOU.

LIKE, I KNOW THAT.

I HAVE IT IN MY MIND.

I KNOW I'M GONNA
PROPOSE TO YOU.

BUT...

AND WE CAN START
LIKE THAT...

YEAH.

I COMPLETELY AGREE.

'CAUSE, I MEAN, I GOT TO
EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING WITH YOU,

I THINK IT'S IMPORTANT THAT
YOU COME AND SEE MY LIFE,

MEET MY FAMILY.

AND I ALSO HAVE A TODDLER,

SO THAT'S A COMPLETELY
DIFFERENT SCENARIO IN ITSELF.

AND I THINK THE MOST TIME
I CAN SPEND WITH YOU...

BEFORE I CAME
TO AUSTRALIA,

I THOUGHT THAT,
BY THE END OF OUR TRIP,

WE WOULD BE ENGAGED,
AND MOVE TOWARDS MARRIAGE.

BUT I FEEL LIKE WE STILL HAVE
A LOT TO WORK THROUGH.

I FEEL GOOD KNOWING THAT
WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE.

SO, WHEN DO YOU FEEL LIKE

YOU WOULD BE ABLE
TO COME TO SEATTLE?

SO, YOU'VE APPLIED FOR
YOUR AUSTRALIAN PASSPORT.

CORRECT. THIS IS APPLICATION
I'VE ALREADY DONE...

WHEN DID YOU APPLY
FOR IT AGAIN?

I CAN'T REMEMBER.

BUT THE THING IS THAT
IT TAKES A PROCESS OF ‐‐

IT CAN TAKE THREE MONTHS,
SIX MONTHS, TO A YEAR.

A YEAR?

IT CAN TAKE UP TO A YEAR.

GOTCHA.

SO, BASICALLY,
EVERYTHING BANKS ON YOU

GETTING YOUR
AUSTRALIAN PASSPORT?

YEAH.

I'M GONNA BE, LIKE,
REALLY WORRIED ABOUT THAT

THE ENTIRE TIME.

BECAUSE AFTER
I LEAVE HERE,

I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHEN I'M
GONNA BE ABLE TO SEE AGAIN.

YEAH.

I'M GONNA LEAVE HERE,
AND THEN,

IT'S GONNA BE HARD
FOR ME TO COME BACK.

SO, IT'S LIKE...

I JUST WANT
TO MAKE SURE

THAT YOU KEEP ME
UPDATED ON THAT.

I KNOW THAT...

OKAY.

WELL, LET'S REALLY
HOPE THAT...

THAT I GET A PASSPORT.
YOU GET YOUR PASSPORT.

YEAH.

OH, MY GOD.

YOUR TEDDY BEAR.

HOW'S ROSE?

I HAD THE BEST CHANCE AT LOVE,
AND I SCREWED UP.

BUT A BIG PART OF ME STILL HOPES
ROSE MIGHT TALK TO ME AGAIN.

WE WERE MOVING
THAT DIRECTION.

THAT'S WHAT WE WERE
TRYING TO DO.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT
I'M SUPPOSED TO DO, HERE.

MY ADVENTURE TO THE PHILIPPINES
TO MEET ROSE IS OVER.

SHE BROKE UP WITH ME.

I'M BACK IN SAN DIEGO.

GLAD TO BE BACK
IN THE U. S.

I DON'T WANT TO TELL PEOPLE WHAT
HAPPENED BECAUSE I AM NOW ‐‐

I'M A FAILURE.

YOU'RE GONNA GO CRAZY, TEDDY,
WHEN YOU SEE YOUR DADDY.

YEAH, YOU ARE.

OH, MY GOSH.

OH, MY GOD.

YOUR TEDDY BEAR.

I MISSED YOU, TEDDY.

HI.
HI, MOM.

I'M SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU.

WHAT A TRIP.

WAS IT FUN?

OH, MY GOD, MOM.
IT WAS...

IT WAS FUN,
EXCITING, CRAZY.

THERE'S SO MUCH
I HAVE TO TELL YOU.

HOW'S ROSE?

ROSE IS OUT.

ROSE IS OUT?

YEAH. SHE'S...

NO ROSE. NO ROSE.

NO ROSE?

OH.

I'M SO SORRY THINGS
DIDN'T WORK FOR YOU.

I KNOW.

IT MAKES ME FEEL SAD THAT THINGS
DIDN'T WORK OUT FOR HIM.

COME ON. LET'S GO.
LET'S GO HOME, BUDDY.

BUT THIS SITUATION
WAS A LITTLE BIT SCARY,

AND THERE WAS A LOT OF DOUBTS
IN MY MIND.

HOW CAN YOU FALL IN LOVE
WITH SOMEBODY ONLINE?

I THINK HE HAD SET HIS HOPES UP
WAY TOO HIGH.

I WANTED TO ASK HER
TO MARRY ME,

AND THEN, BRING HER OVER
ON A K‐1 VISA.

BUT I ASKED HER WHAT SHE WANTS
OUT OF OUR RELATIONSHIP,

AND THAT'S WHEN SHE TOLD ME
SHE WANTED TWO KIDS.

I'M NOT EVEN READY TO BE
A FATHER TO PRINCE,

LET ALONE FATHER TWO MORE KIDS
AT 54 YEARS OLD.

WHEN I TOLD HER I DIDN'T WANT
MORE KIDS, THAT UPSET HER.

AND I WOULD ASK HER
ABOUT HER PAST, MOM,

AND SHE DIDN'T WANT
TO TALK ABOUT HER PAST.

I MEAN, SHE WOULD CLAM UP.

YOU KNOW, SHE KEPT TELLING ME,
"MY PAST IS MY PAST.

I DON'T WANT TO
TALK ABOUT IT."

SO, WE GOT IN
A BIG FIGHT.

AND IN THE END,
IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR HER, MOM.

IT WAS TOO MANY...

SHE DIDN'T THINK
I TRUSTED HER.

DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?

GIVE YOURSELF
A LITTLE TIME,

AND MAYBE WE HAVE
TO MOVE FORWARD.

OH, I KNOW.

YEAH, ED.

THAT'S MY BEST ADVICE
I CAN GIVE YOU.

I HATE BEING SINGLE AGAIN.

I HAD THE BEST CHANCE AT LOVE,
AND I SCREWED UP.

WHAT I WANT
MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW

IS TO PICK UP MY HEART,
AND MOVE ON.

BUT THERE'S A BIG PART OF ME
THAT STILL HOPES

ROSE MIGHT TALK
TO ME AGAIN.

I'VE GOT TWO WOMEN
IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW

THAT ARE VYING
FOR MY ATTENTION.

VARYA HAD CAME
ALL THE WAY FROM RUSSIA

TO TRY TO RE‐ENERGIZE
OUR RELATIONSHIP,

WHERE IT'S BEEN ‐‐
IT'S FELL OFF.

I MEAN, OUR RELATIONSHIP'S
COMPLETELY FALLEN OFF.

AND THEN, YOU HAVE MARY, THAT'S
A COMPLETE INNOCENT IN THIS.

AND I FEEL VERY,
VERY BAD FOR HER.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT
I'M SUPPOSED TO DO, HERE.

WHY WOULD YOU NOT
COMMUNICATE WITH ME, THOUGH?

IT'S LIKE THE BIGGEST THING,
IS COMMUNICATION.

DID YOU WRITE
A MESSAGE SAYING

"I'M COMING TO AMERICA
TO SEE YOU?"

I MEAN, IT'S JUST...

I MEAN, I AT LEAST
COULD'VE PLANNED BETTER.

IT WAS NOT HER FAULT.
LIKE, IT WAS NOT HER FAULT.

WE WERE MOVING
THAT DIRECTION.

THAT'S WHAT WE WERE
TRYING TO DO.

IT'S NOT...
OKAY.

I LOVE YOU, VARYA.
I DO.

I DON'T FALL IN LOVE,
AND THEN FALL OUT OF LOVE.

YOU JUST DON'T DO THAT.
I JUST...

THIS IS, LIKE,
A HARD SITUATION.

SHE'S THE ONE THAT
SAID "NO" TO ME.

SHE'S THE ONE THAT TURNED
MY PROPOSAL DOWN.

AND NOW, SHE'S DONE A COMPLETE
180 ON HER FEELINGS.

AND IT'S HARD FOR ME TO KNOW
OR NOT WHETHER IT'S GENUINE.

HOW LONG
ARE YOU HERE?

DO YOU HAVE A HOTEL,
OR ANYTHING, OR...?

SO, HENCE YOU BRINGING
YOUR SUITCASES?

BUT YOU'RE JUMPING TO ‐‐
AS IF WE'RE GONNA JUST JUMP

RIGHT BACK INTO OUR SITUATION,
AND OUR RELATIONSHIP.

I DON'T KNOW THAT
I'M THERE YET.

THIS IS A SURPRISE FOR ME.

I MEAN, ALL THESE EMOTIONS
ARE RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD.

HERE'S THE WOMAN
THAT TURNED ME DOWN,

HERE'S THE WOMAN THAT I'M
SUPPOSED TO BE MAD AT.

VARYA TOLD ME "NO"
TO MY PROPOSAL,

AND I'VE MOVED ON
WITH MY LIFE.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW
WHAT I SHOULD DO.

I CAN'T TALK
THROUGH EMOTIONS

THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW
THE ANSWER TO RIGHT NOW.

WE HAVEN'T COMMUNICATED.

WE HAVEN'T HAD ANY
COMMUNICATION WHATSOEVER.

THERE'S BEEN...

THERE'S BEEN SUCH A LAG.

DO YOU SEE THAT?
THAT'S THE POINT I'M MAKING.

AND THERE WASN'T
FROM MY SIDE

BECAUSE I WAS MOVING ON
WITH MY LIFE.

AND I KNOW YOU FELT IT.

AND I KNOW THAT'S WHY
YOU'RE HERE RIGHT NOW.

RIGHT?

NO.

SO, I WILL TRY MY BEST
TO GET HIM BACK.

"SO, ARE WE GONNA
HAVE ANY BETS?"

"IF I GET THEM ALL DOWN
IN ONE BALL, I GET A KISS."

OKAY.

I GOT TO DO WHATEVER I CAN
TO GET A KISS FROM LANA.

TIME TO GET A NEW CAR SOON.

OUT WITH THE OLD,
AND IN WITH THE NEW.

I WAS THINKING MAYBE
THE JAGUAR.

MASERATI ONE, MAYBE.

OH, IT'S NICE.
IT'S ITALIAN.

ITALIAN STALLION.

‐ ON TO BIGGER AND BETTER!
‐ MM‐HMM.

I SEE YOU WITH, LIKE,
A MILLIONAIRE, BILLIONAIRE.

SOMETHING BETTER!

IT'S BEEN A COUPLE WEEKS
SINCE I LAST SAW TOM.

IT WAS REALLY HARD
TO MOVE ON,

BUT I'M EXCITED, YOU KNOW,
TO RECREATE MY VISION

OF HOW I SEE MY FUTURE.

YOU'RE STARTING FRESH

‐I'M STARTING FRESH, STACEY.
‐AND NEW, SO...

‐OH, TRUST ME.
‐THAT'S GOOD.

‐I'M DONE.
‐YEP.

I'M GOOD. I'M HAPPY.

AND YOU'RE MANIFESTING
SOMETHING NEW IN LIFE

AND RELEASING THE OLD.

NO MORE NEGATIVITY.

NO MORE OF THIS ENERGY
AROUND ME.

THERE'S NO GOING BACK, EVER.

NO MORE, "I'M SORRYs,"
OR, "I LOVED YOU LIKE A SISTER,"

OR WHATEVER ELSE HE
WAS TRYING TO SAY.

EXCITED TO RID THE NEGATIVE
AND BRING IN THE NEW.

YEAH.

I'VE MADE SOME BAD
CHOICES IN RELATIONSHIPS,

AND I CAN BLAME MYSELF FOR THAT.

I JUST NEED TO LEARN FROM IT
AND USE THIS TIME

TO LOVE MYSELF,
BETTER MYSELF,

AND FOCUS ON MY FAMILY.

WE'RE FIGHTERS ‐‐
WE'RE GONNA STAY STRONG

AND NOT GIVE UP
ON WHAT WE DESERVE AND DESIRE,

WHICH IS, YOU KNOW,
HAPPINESS AND LOVE.

I KNOW.

IF MICHAEL WAS HERE,
HE WOULD NEVER LET...

TOM OR ANY OF MY EXES
TREAT ME LIKE THIS.

I KNOW, DARC.
HE WAS OUR PROTECTOR.

‐ALWAYS WILL BE.
‐OUR BIG BROTHER.

YOU KNOW,
HE'S IN HEAVEN NOW

AND WATCHING OVER US
AND THE KIDS,

AND HE'LL ALWAYS BE WITH US.

WHEN MY BROTHER,
MICHAEL, WAS 24 YEARS OLD,

HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH
A VERY RARE FORM OF CANCER

CALLED EWING SARCOMA.

HE PASSED AWAY JULY 11, 1998,

AT THE AGE OF 27,

AND HE FOUGHT
AS HARD AS HE COULD.

HE WAS OUR ROCK.

HE, YOU KNOW,
HAD SO MUCH STRENGTH,

AND HE WAS OUR PROTECTOR.

I FEEL HIM WITH ME
EVERY DAY,

AND EVERY TIME WE GO
THROUGH A ROUGH PATCH,

WE WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH HIM.

HERE.

OH, MICHAEL.

OH, MICHAEL.

‐GOT YOU YOUR FAVORITE FLOWERS.
‐GOT YOUR SUNFLOWERS.

YOU WERE THE BEST BROTHER
IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD,

AND WE MISS YOU.

HE WAS ONE OF A KIND.

HE WAS ONE OF A KIND.

FAMILY IS EVERYTHING TO US ‐‐
OUR KIDS,

THEY'RE OUR PRIORITY,
THEY'RE OUR NUMBER ONE.

OUR BROTHER ‐‐ WE MISS HIM
AND LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

HE WAS A GOOD PERSON
AND LOYAL AND LOVING.

DARCEY DESERVES
SOMEONE LIKE THAT

IN HER LIFE.

HE'D WANT BETTER ‐‐
HE'D WANT BETTER FOR YOU

RIGHT NOW, DARC ‐‐
TRUE LOVE.

HAPPINESS AND HEALTH.

HE WOULD HAVE ALREADY SAID,
"TOM'S NOT THE ONE FOR YOU."

I KNOW.
HE WOULD'VE KNOWN.

‐HE WOULD'VE KNOWN.
‐BUT HE KNOWS ‐‐ HE KNOWS

WE'RE A LITTLE
STUBBORN IN LOVE.

WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT?
MICHAEL WAS A REAL MAN.

YEAH, HE WAS.
HE WAS ALWAYS LOYAL,

AND HE WAS ALWAYS THERE
‐YEP, STRONG.

FOR HIS ‐‐
HIS GIRLS, YOU KNOW?

I MEAN, HE LOVED LOVE.

YEAH.

LOVED BEING IN LOVE,

LIKE US.
‐YEAH.

YOU KNOW? HE WORE HIS HEART
ON HIS SLEEVE, TOO.

THANK YOU FOR LOVING US

AND LETTING US REALIZE
WHAT WE DESERVE.

I FEEL RIGHT NOW
I CAN JUST BREATHE.

I CAN JUST MOVE FORWARD
WITH MY HEAD AND HEART

HELD HIGH,
BECAUSE FAMILY'S EVERYTHING.

IT GIVES US HOPE.

IT'S PEACEFUL.

AND IT'S KNOWING THAT,
AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY.

EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE OKAY.

YESTERDAY,
AFTER SEVEN YEARS,

I FINALLY GOT TO MEET
LANA IN PERSON,

AND IT WAS WONDERFUL.

BUT AFTER I TOLD HER
I HIRED A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR,

SHE WAS A LITTLE UPSET,

AND SHE ENDED
OUR FIRST DATE EARLY.

FORTUNATELY, SHE SEEMS
TO HAVE FORGIVEN ME.

I'VE TALKED TO LANA
ON THE WEBSITE,

AND SHE'S AGREED TO MEET
FOR A SECOND DATE TODAY.

WE ACTUALLY SET UP A TIME
TO GO BOWLING.

I'M JAZZED.

IT'S GONNA BE
AN AMAZING TIME.

I DIDN'T ASK HER FOR
HER PHONE NUMBER BECAUSE,

SINCE SHE DOESN'T SPEAK
ENGLISH, IT'S MUCH EASIER

TO USE THE CHAT WEBSITE
THAT HAS TRANSLATION.

LANA AND I HAVE TO DOCUMENT
OUR MEETING.

WE HAVE TO TAKE PHOTOS
SHOWING US TOGETHER.

THIS IS REQUIRED
FOR THE K‐1 VISA PROCESS.

BUT LANA TOLD ME
PRIOR TO THIS TRIP

THAT SHE'S GONNA
HAVE LIMITED TIME.

SHE REALLY ONLY WANTED
A FEW DAY MEETING

BECAUSE OF HOW BUSY
SHE WAS GONNA BE.

I DON'T WANT TO SPEND
JUST TWO DAYS WITH HER.

I WANT A LOT MORE TIME.

I WANT TO GET TO KNOW HER, AND
MAKE SURE SHE'S THE ONE FOR ME.

LANA.

OH. BRR.

HOW YOU DOING?
HOW YOU DOING?

OH, IT'S SO COLD TODAY.

YES.

SO, YOU'RE LOOKING SO BEAUTIFUL
TODAY, JUST LIKE YESTERDAY.

THANKS.

GOT SOMEPLACE
I WANT TO TAKE YOU.

AT FIRST, PERHAPS,
WE WILL WALK TO MAKE PHOTO.

YEAH.

WE'RE GONNA GET
SOME PHOTOS FOR VISA.

MM‐HMM.

EXPERT.

IT'S VIDEO.

LET'S GET OUT
OF THIS COLD.

RIGHT NOW, IT FEELS LIKE THE
CLOSEST I'VE EVER BEEN TO HER.

IT'S TIME TO GO BOWLING.

SHE'S GIVEN ME
ALL THE INDICATIONS

THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP IS HEADED
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

BUT SHE'S NOT SHOWING ME
THAT MUCH AFFECTION.

IT'S DEFINITELY UP TO ME
TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE.

SO, ARE WE GONNA
HAVE ANY BETS?

HMM.

"SO, IF I GET A STRIKE ‐‐ IF I
GET THEM ALL DOWN IN ONE BALL ‐‐

I GET A KISS."

OKAY.

OKAY.

YOU REMEMBER THAT I USED TO
BOWL PROFESSIONALLY, RIGHT?

I USED TO BE
A PROFESSIONAL BOWLER ‐‐

40 YEARS AGO,
WHEN I WAS IN MY 20s.

SO, I KNOW THAT
I CAN GET STRIKES.

FIRST?

FAST?

SLOW.

UH... FAST.

OKAY. YOU ACTUALLY
THREW IT STRAIGHT.

MM‐HMM.

OKAY, SO,
THIS WAS BEFORE.

NOW, THIS TIME, HERE,
WE'LL TRY THIS ONE.

THINGS ARE GETTING
BETTER AND BETTER,

BUT I GOT TO DO WHATEVER
I CAN TO GET A STRIKE,

SO I CAN GET A KISS
FROM LANA.

NO.

UGH.

OH.

SO MAYBE I GET THE KISS JUST
BECAUSE I CAME ALL THE WAY HERE?

NO.

COME AND GET IT.
COME AND GET IT.

OKAY.

DID YOU THINK I WAS
GONNA GET STRIKE?

OH, WOW.

THAT'S GOOD. GOOD.

LET'S TAKE A PHOTO.

DID YOU MEET
ERIKA'S FAMILY?

YES. HER MOM
AND HER DAD.

MY MOM KNOWS THAT ERIKA'S
MY FRIEND, AND THAT'S IT.

I TRAVELED 7,000 MILES
TO MARRY THIS MAN.

I TRIED.
AND I FAILED.

WAIT, WAIT.

NO. GOODNIGHT.
I'M DONE.

I'VE JUST LANDED
BACK IN NEW YORK,

AND I HAVE BEEN IN TRANSIT,
IN AND OUT OF AIRPORTS

FOR PROBABLY, LIKE,
THE LAST 48 HOURS.

THE LAST TIME THAT I SPOKE
WITH ERIKA WAS THREE DAYS AGO.

WE'RE NO LONGER
ON SPEAKING TERMS.

WE'VE REMOVED EACH OTHER
OFF OF ALL SOCIAL MEDIA.

I'M TOO TIRED
TO FEEL SAD RIGHT NOW.

I'M JUST EXCITED TO SEE
MY TWO DOGS AND MY MOM.

BUT I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO TELL HER.

HI, GUYS.

OH, MY GOSH.

STEPHIE.

YES, I'LL GIVE YOU...

IT WAS GOOD, YEAH.

ALRIGHT.
WELL, I'M EXHAUSTED.

SO, LET'S JUST GO HOME.

MY MOM KNOWS THAT ERIKA
IS MY FRIEND, AND THAT'S IT.

AND IT REALLY BOTHERED
ERIKA TOWARDS THE END

THAT I DIDN'T KNOW
WHEN I WOULD COME OUT TO MY MOM.

MY SUITCASES
ARE SO HEAVY.

IT'S HARD BECAUSE I'VE HAD THIS
REALLY EMOTIONAL EXPERIENCE,

AND I AM SAD.

AND ALL I REALLY WANT TO DO
IS TALK TO MY MOM ABOUT IT,

BUT I CAN'T.

SO, IT'S A LONELY FEELING.

SO, HOW WAS
YOUR TRIP, BABY?

WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME
A LITTLE BIT ABOUT IT?

SO...

IT WAS EXHAUSTING.

LIKE, EVERY DAY, I WAS DOING
SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

I WENT TO
THE OUTBACK.

AND I THINK, JUST, LIKE,
THE MOST MEMORABLE THING I DID

WAS THE CAGE DIVING
WITH SHARKS.

OH, MY GOSH.

I CAN'T BELIEVE
I DID THAT.

I CAN'T BELIEVE
YOU DID IT.

I JUST REALIZED, A YEAR AGO,
YOU WERE HAVING TRANSFUSION,

AND NOW, YOU ARE
SWIMMING WITH SHARKS.

THAT'S AMAZING.

IT IS AMAZING.

BUT I WAS JUST FREAKING OUT
A LITTLE, BECAUSE...

I'VE COME A LONG WAY.

I KNOW, HONEY,
BUT STILL,

I THINK IT WAS
REALLY RISKY.

YOU JUST NEVER KNOW.

YEAH, BUT, YOU KNOW,
I TOOK SUCH GOOD CARE

OF MYSELF
WHEN I WAS OUT THERE.

LIKE, I WAS REALLY MAKING SURE
TO HAND SANITIZE

AFTER EVERY ACTIVITY,

AFTER ANY TIME
I TOUCHED SOMETHING.

I'M GLAD.
BUT I WAS SO WORRIED.

AND THE ONLY THING
THAT KIND OF DISTRACTED ME

WERE THE DOGS,
YOU KNOW?

DID YOU MEET
ERIKA'S FAMILY?

YES.

I MET HER MOM
AND HER DAD.

WHAT ELSE DID YOU DO?

UM...

THAT'S ABOUT IT.

MY MOTHER AND I HAVE
SUCH A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP.

SHE BASICALLY RAISED ME
ON HER OWN.

AND EVEN THOUGH ERIKA AND I
DIDN'T WORK OUT,

I STILL WANT TO TELL HER
THAT I'M BISEXUAL.

BUT I'M SCARED.

THERE WAS, LIKE, ONE NIGHT
THAT I WAS THERE

THAT I DIDN'T HAVE
A GOOD TIME.

HOW COME?

ERIKA AND I, LIKE,
HAD A DISAGREEMENT.

SO, WHY DID YOU FIGHT?

I JUST THINK IT'S BECAUSE
SHE DOESN'T KNOW ME VERY WELL.

YOU KNOW, WE BECAME
REALLY GOOD FRIENDS ONLINE.

AND ONE OF THE PROBLEMS IS,
SOMETIMES,

WHEN PEOPLE MEET ME
THROUGH THE INTERNET,

THEY'LL THINK THAT
I'M ONE WAY.

AND THEN, THEY'LL MEET ME,

AND THEY'LL SEE THAT,
LIKE, I'M NOT...

EXACTLY. I MEAN, YOU ARE
MUCH MORE CONSERVATIVE

THAN SOME PEOPLE THINK.

YEAH.

WELL, YOU KNOW,
IT HAPPENS.

BUT YOU'RE OKAY?

YOU'RE STILL FRIENDS,
OR...?

MM‐HMM.
YOU ARE?

YEAH.

MY MOM KNOWS ME
BETTER THAN ANYBODY.

AND SHE KNOWS
SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT.

IF I EVER WANT
TO MOVE ON FROM THIS,

I NEED TO BE ABLE TO TALK
TO MY MOM ABOUT IT.

I NEED TO BE ABLE
TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS,

BECAUSE IF I JUST KEEP BOTTLING
IT UP, I'M GOING TO EXPLODE.

GET BACK TO YOUR NORMAL LIFE,
AND RELAX.

I'M SO READY.

‐LISA?
‐YES?

THIS MORNING, USMAN FINALLY
PROPOSED IN PERSON.

AND I SAID "YES."

USMAN'S FAMILY JUST ARRIVED
FOR THE WEDDING,

WHICH IS TOMORROW.

AND I'M GETTING
MORE NERVOUS.

OH, MY GOD.

IT'S GETTING
VERY REAL NOW.

THERE'S A WOMAN.

HI, MOMMY.
YOU MADE IT.

FARUQ, I FINALLY GET TO
MEET YOU FACE TO FACE.

MY NAME IS FARUQ,
I AM USMAN'S BROTHER.

SHE'S BEAUTIFUL.

YEAH. SHE'S HIS
FIRST DAUGHTER.

ALRIGHT. ARE WE GONNA
TAKE THEM UP TO THE ROOM?

OKAY.

OKAY.

BECAUSE...

SO...

MM‐HMM.

OKAY.

I THINK YOU SHOULD.

ACCORDING TO HIS MOTHER,
THE REASON FOR THE CLEANSING

IS YOU'RE WASHING AWAY
THE SINS FROM YOUR HANDS,

FROM YOUR FEET, YOU KNOW,
EVERYWHERE,

BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO BE PURE
BEFORE YOU PRAY,

BUT IT'S ‐‐ IT'S VERY
WEIRD TO ME

THAT WE'RE GOING TO DO THIS
IN THE TOILET.

‐OKAY.
‐HERE.

BUT I WANT TO RESPECT THEM
AND THE WHOLESOME MUSLIM

TRADITION, SO I JUST DO IT.

MM‐HMM.

OKAY.

MM‐HMM.

LISA.

OKAY.

‐SO WITH MOMMY? OKAY.
‐YEAH.

IT'S BEAUTIFUL.
IT LOOKS VERY CLEAN.

MUHAMMED, FARUQ,
IT MEANS A LOT TO ME,

AND I KNOW IT MEANS
A LOT TO USMAN,

TO HAVE BOTH OF YOU HERE
FOR THE WEDDING.

AND I WANT BOTH OF YOU
TO BE VERY HONEST WITH ME,

BECAUSE THAT'S ONE THING
USMAN AND I HAVE, IS HONESTY.

I WANT TO HEAR THEIR OPINION
ON THE ARGUMENTS THAT WE'VE HAD,

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
HE DOESN'T ALWAYS LISTEN.

AND USMAN IS VERY CLOSE TO
HIS TWO ELDER BROTHERS.

HE RESPECTS
WHAT THEY HAVE TO SAY.

SO, HE WILL LISTEN
TO THEM.

THERE'S SOME ISSUES I'VE BEEN
EXPERIENCING WITH USMAN.

OKAY.

SO, HE'S BEEN
A LITTLE STUBBORN.

I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING,
FARUQ, BUT I'M NOT ‐‐

I'VE SAT HERE
FOR 21 DAYS.

I'VE GIVEN YOU MORE
THAN YOU EVEN REALIZE.

NO, YOU'RE SITTING THERE
CRITICIZING ME.

I'M NOT DOING IT.

I'M ASK YOU TO DISCUSS THIS
WITH YOUR BROTHERS.

NO. NO. BECAUSE I'M NOT
SITTING HERE ANY LONGER.

I TRAVELED 7,000 MILES
TO MARRY THIS MAN.

I TRIED.
AND I FAILED.

SO, GOODNIGHT, GENTLEMEN.

‐LISA?
‐IT'S DONE.

‐LISA?
‐I'M DONE.

YOU HAVE A LOT OF HOOPS
YOU HAVE TO JUMP THROUGH.

THAT'S THE SCARY PART.

HE DOESN'T EVEN REALIZE
HOW HARD IT'S GONNA BE

MOVING FORWARD,
FOR US.

I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW LONG
IT'S GONNA TAKE.

THIS IS VARYA.

VARYA CAME
ALL THE WAY FROM RUSSIA ‐‐

A SURPRISE.

IT IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE
THAT SHE TURNED UP HERE.

BUT MARY WAS
ON MY COUCH.

YOU GOT IT, BABE?

GOT IT.

TODAY, I'M GOING BACK TO
MY NORMAL LIFE WITHOUT ASH.

I'M GOING TO
MISS HIM SO MUCH.

IT'S NOT VERY FUN
TO DROP YOU AT THE AIRPORT.

BUT IT'S ACTUALLY
TO DROP YOU.

SERIOUSLY, THOUGH, LIKE,
THIS IS OUR LAST RIDE TOGETHER.

STILL, I'M NOT TRYING
TO THINK ABOUT YOU

RIGHT NOW, DRIVING THERE.

I HAD A REALLY GOOD NIGHT
WITH YOU, THOUGH.

I THINK IT'S HONESTLY
GONNA HIT ME HARD

WHEN I'M ON THE PLANE,
AND HE'S NOT NEXT TO ME.

I'M GONNA MISS YOU.

I'M GONNA MISS YOU, '
TOO, BABY.

I'M GONNA
REALLY MISS YOU.

I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE
FOR HIM.

BUT HE HAS A SON HERE,

AND IT DOES WORRY ME,
IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD,

THAT HE DOESN'T EVEN
REALIZE HOW HARD

IT'S GONNA BE,
MOVING FORWARD, FOR US.

IT'S HARD,
WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT,

BECAUSE, OBVIOUSLY, LIKE,
YOU HAVE A LOT OF HOOPS

YOU HAVE TO JUMP THROUGH
BEFORE YOU'RE ABLE TO COME...

COME TO YOU
COME TO ME.

I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW LONG
IT'S GONNA TAKE.

THAT'S THE SCARY PART,
YOU KNOW?

OKAY.

NOW, I HAVE LOOKED AT
AVERY, AND I FEEL LIKE...

I LOVE YOU.

I'LL MISS YOU, BABY.

I'LL MISS YOU.

I LOVE YOU A LOT.

ALRIGHT.

I GOT THIS.

I LOVE YOU, BABE.

I'M GONNA MISS
HAVING MY BEST FRIEND.

AND I'M GONNA
MISS THAT.

I NOW KNOW WHAT IT FEELS
LIKE TO HAVE HIM NEXT TO ME.

AND IT'S SO HARD KNOWING THAT
I'M NOW GOING TO BE

ON THE OTHER SIDE
OF THE WORLD FROM HIM AGAIN.

I AM REALIZING THAT
I CAN'T JUST REACH OUT,

AND HOLD HIS HAND,
OR KISS HIM ANYMORE.

AND IT HURTS.

BUT I TRULY BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE
A UNIQUE CONNECTION TOGETHER,

AND THAT, EVEN PUTTING
9,000 MILES BETWEEN US,

THE LOVE THAT WE HAVE CAN
LITERALLY CONQUER ANYTHING.

OUR FIRST FANCY DINNER.

THERE'S BEEN NOBODY ELSE
THAT MAKES ME FEEL

LIKE I FEEL WITH HER.

IT MAKES ME THINK,
"OH, I'M IN LOVE."

I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO INVITE
YOU TO MY HOTEL TONIGHT.

OKAY.

IT'S OUR SECOND
DAY TOGETHER.

LANA AND I HAVE HAD
A GREAT TIME BOWLING.

IT MAKES ME FEEL
REALLY GOOD

THAT THINGS ARE GETTING
BETTER AND BETTER.

I'M HERE WITH MY GIRLFRIEND,
LANA, AT THE FRIENDSHIP ARCH.

OH, THIS IS COLD.

LANA AND I
ARE GOING TO DINNER.

I WANT TO DO SOMETHING
MORE ROMANTIC,

BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE
A FEW DAYS LEFT IN UKRAINE,

SO I NEED TO TALK TO LANA ABOUT
GETTING ENGAGED BEFORE I LEAVE.

HELLO.
‐HELLO.

MADE A RESERVATION.

MAYBE YOU NEED
A BIG WINE ‐‐

OR TEQUILA.

BAKED CHICKEN.

I'M LEARNING
SOMETHING NEW.

YOU ORDERED RABBIT?

YES.

OKAY.

WE CALL THEM
"BUNNIES."

"OUR FIRST REAL DINNER."

AT THIS POINT,
I'M NOT THINKING ABOUT

THE FAILED
MEETINGS BEFORE.

OUR FIRST FANCY DINNER.

THERE'S BEEN NOBODY ELSE
THAT MAKES ME FEEL

LIKE I FEEL WITH HER.

IT'S THAT'S THAT FEELING
THAT I HAVE THAT MAKES ME THINK,

"OH, I'M IN LOVE."

"I AM HAVING A VERY GOOD TIME
WITH YOU AT THIS DINNER."

YES. I, TOO.

YOU, TOO?

I'VE SEEN ENOUGH IN LANA THAT
I KNOW SHE'S THE GIRL FOR ME.

I JUST NEED TO FIND OUT
WHAT SHE'S THINKING.

SO, THE K‐1 VISA PROCESS
IS FOR FIANCES.

WE SUBMIT THE PHOTOS
WITH IT.

IT TAKES BETWEEN 9
AND 12 MONTHS.

AND I KNOW
WE TALKED BEFORE

ABOUT OFFICIALLY
GETTING ENGAGED,

BUT IT MUST BE
BEFORE WE GO TO U. S.

"WHAT DO YOU NEED TO KNOW TO
KNOW THAT I AM THE ONE FOR YOU?"

"I WOULD LIKE YOU TO
BE WITH ME IN AMERICA.

SO I'D LIKE TO MAKE YOU KNOW
FOR SURE THAT YOU WANTED ME.

AND YOU KNOW THAT I WOULD
REALLY LIKE TO INVITE YOU

TO MY HOTEL TONIGHT."

I THINK IT'S
A BIT EARLY FOR THAT.

I'VE BEEN WAITING SEVEN YEARS
TO BEGIN MY LIFE WITH LANA.

SHE STILL WANTS
TO TAKE THINGS SLOW,

BUT I'M REALLY HOPING

THAT SHE WILL SHOW ME
THE AFFECTION I NEED

SO I CAN MAKE THAT DECISION
TO PROPOSE TO HER THIS TRIP.

GEOFFREY AND MARY,
THEY'RE REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS.

I'M HAPPY
YOU'RE HERE, ALRIGHT?

I'M GLAD THAT
YOU'RE HERE.

YEAH. I MEAN,
THERE'S A LOT OF STUFF

THAT'S BEEN GOING
THROUGH MY HEAD.

THERE'S A LOT OF STUFF
I'VE NEEDED TO PROCESS.

THERE'S A LOT OF FEELINGS
THAT'S BEEN HURT.

I WANT TO MAKE THE MOST
OF THIS SITUATION RIGHT NOW.

I WAS COMPLETELY TAKEN OFF GUARD
THIS MORNING.

VARYA SHOWED UP IN TENNESSEE,
ON MY DOORSTEP.

EVEN THOUGH
I'VE BEEN DATING MY FRIEND MARY,

I REALLY STILL
HAVE FEELINGS FOR VARYA.

SO, I'M GONNA LET HER STAY HERE
FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS,

AND SEE WHERE
THINGS COULD GO.

TONIGHT, I HAD DRINKS
PLANNED WITH MY FRIENDS.

MARY WAS SUPPOSED
TO COME WITH ME.

THEY'RE HER FRIENDS, TOO.

THANK YOU.

BUT INSTEAD,
I'M TAKING VARYA.

WHERE ARE THEY?

RIGHT HERE.

‐HELLO.
‐HEY.

‐HI.
‐HEY, GUYS. HOW ARE YOU?

DOING WELL.
HOW ARE YOU?

THIS IS VARYA.

VARYA CAME
ALL THE WAY FROM RUSSIA.

VERY NICE. VERY COOL.
A SURPRISE. THE SURPRISE.

THIS IS THE VARYA.

SO, THIS IS HER.

‐HI.
‐NICE TO MEET YOU.

I'M VERY SURPRISED
TO SEE VARYA HERE.

IT IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE
THAT SHE TURNED UP HERE.

YOU KNOW, I'VE SEEN PICTURES,
AND HEARD ABOUT HER,

AND EVERYTHING,
AND ALL OF A SUDDEN...

YOU KNOW?

SO, YEAH, SHE RANG THE DOORBELL,
AND SAID, "SURPRISE."

VERY COOL.

BUT MARY WAS
ON MY COUCH.

MARY GOT UPSET, AND LEFT,
WHICH IS UNDERSTANDABLE.

THEY GOT IN
A LITTLE SKIRMISH.

BUT I'M INNOCENT IN THIS,

BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW
VARYA WAS COMING.

OUR RELATIONSHIP,
IN MY MIND, HAD ENDED.

GEOFFREY WAS HEARTBROKEN
WHEN HE CAME BACK FROM RUSSIA,

AND I THINK THAT'S WHY
HE KIND OF STARTED

HANGING OUT WITH MARY.

SHE'S BEEN THERE FOR HIM
MORE THAN ANY WOMAN

THAT I'VE EVER KNOWN HIM
TO BE AROUND.

IT'S ALMOST LIKE ONE OF THOSE,
IF IT'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU,

YOU DON'T REALLY KNOW
HOW VALUABLE IT ACTUALLY IS.

THAT'S MARY.

BUT GEOFFREY,
I THINK, WITH HIM,

HE ALMOST HAS TO HAVE
SOMETHING NEW AND EXCITING.

IT WORKS FOR HIM, BUT HE'S
KIND OF REACHED THAT POINT.

LIKE, IT'S TIME TO
MAKE A DECISION.

I REMEMBER, YOU CAME BACK,
AND YOU WERE UPSET,

AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHY.

AND THEN,
NOW, I KNOW.

IT'S NOT SOMETHING
WORTH BRAGGING ABOUT.

YEAH, I GO TO RUSSIA
TO MEET THE GIRL OF MY DREAMS,

AND I ENDED UP ASKING HER
TO MARRY ME

AFTER THIS HUGE,
AWESOME VACATION,

AND SHE TELLS ME "NO."

YOU CAN'T SPELL "NOT NOW"
WITHOUT "NO."

YOU SAID, "NOT NOW,"
WHICH IS BASICALLY "NO."

AND I TOLD YOU
WHEN I WAS LEAVING,

"LISTEN, I'M DONE.
I'M MOVING ON WITH MY LIFE."

AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS
THAT MARY FELL INTO THAT.

I THINK THAT'S DEPENDENT
ON EACH PERSON.

AND MAYBE...

VARYA, YOU GOT TO PLAY.
IT'S TWO PEOPLE AGAINST TWO.

YOU KNOW, GEOFFREY AND MARY,
THEY'RE REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS.

SHE GENUINELY
CARES ABOUT HIM.

SHE'S HERE FOR TWO WEEKS,
BY THE WAY.

‐WOW.
‐YEAH.

WE'LL HAVE TO GET TOGETHER
AND DO SOMETHING ‐‐

GO HIKING OR SOMETHING.

YOU KNOW THIS IS ALL
THROWN ON TO ME TODAY?

YOU'RE A GOOD GUY, MAN.
IT'LL ALL WORK OUT.

IN MY MIND,
OUR RELATIONSHIP FIZZLED OUT.

I LEFT RUSSIA SAYING, "I'M NOT
GONNA PURSUE THIS ANYMORE.

I'M DONE."

I PUT EVERYTHING
INTO IT.

I BOUGHT A RING.

THEN, YOU THROW THE WHOLE
MARY SITUATION IN.

I HAD MOVED ON.

I GUESS WHAT I'M SAYING
IS THAT

THE SITUATION I HAD WITH MARY
WAS GOOD.

YOU'VE GOT TO MAKE
THAT DECISION.

IT'S A TOUGH ONE.

‐HEY.
‐HEY.

‐HI!
‐OH, WOW.

OH, MY GOD.

‐WHAT A SURPRISE.
‐HOW ARE YOU?

I'M GOOD.
HOW ARE YOU?

NEXT TIME ON
"BEFORE THE 90 DAYS"...

I BLOCKED TOM, BUT HE TRIED
TO REACH OUT TO ME AGAIN.

I'M NOT GONNA BE PLAYED
FOR A FOOL, YOU KNOW?

I GAVE MY HEART.

AND I DON'T NEED
THAT.

I KNOW I DIDN'T
LISTEN TO YOU.

I'M JUST READY TO MEND MY
RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAUGHTER.

IT WAS HARD, BECAUSE
YOU WERE BLOWING ME OFF,

AND ESSENTIALLY SAYING,
"I DON'T,

I'M JUST GONNA
DO WHATEVER."

I WASN'T 100% TRUTHFUL ABOUT THE
REASON WHY I WENT TO AUSTRALIA.

I FEEL SO NERVOUS
ABOUT COMING OUT TO MY MOM.

BUT IT'S TIME TO MAKE PEACE
WITH WHO I AM.

THINGS BETWEEN ME AND ERIKA
TOOK A MORE ROMANTIC TURN.

I FOUND OUT MY MOM
IS STILL TALKING TO WILLIAMS,

SO I HIRED
A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR

TO FINALLY GET MY MOM
SOME ANSWERS.

UM...

COME IN.

DO YOU STILL
WANT TO MARRY ME?

YOU CAME ALL THE WAY
FROM RUSSIA

WHEN YOU TURNED DOWN
HIS PROPOSAL.

SO, WHY THE
ARE YOU HERE?

‐HEY, BABY.
‐HELLO.

LANA AND I HAVE TALKED A LOT
ABOUT GETTING MARRIED,

BUT TIME IS RUNNING OUT,
AND I NEED TO KNOW

THAT SHE'S ON
THE SAME PAGE WITH ME

BEFORE WE CAN PROGRESS
ANY FURTHER.

I HAVE SOMETHING FOR YOU,

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW
YOU'RE GONNA REACT.