Total Bellas (2016–…): Season 5, Episode 3 - Bellas Without Borders - full transcript

‐ Oh, shoot, there he is.

The last time I saw my dad,
it was five years ago.

‐ The biggest thing about having a book

is not for anyone to be surprised.

‐ Well, I'm assuming your dad

is gonna take that paragraph out.

‐ Which one?

You know, with my dad's addiction,

there are just some things that
I really wanna keep private.

‐ The thing I wanna protect
is the four of us.

We are way too close to let
anything come between us.



‐ Of course, Artem, I want
you to move into my house.

I couldn't imagine bedtime without you.

‐ Right now, this is my sister

going from 0 to 100
within, like, one week.

‐ I would love for you to meet my dad.

‐ You want me to meet your dad

for the first time when you
didn't see him for how long?

‐ Yeah, I need you.

Do you at all think that
we are moving too fast?

‐ Oh, my gosh. ‐ Mi casa es su casa.

‐ That is so beautiful.

‐ Look at here. ‐ Oh, my gosh.

‐ It's, like, taking me a second

to just be like, wow,
I have family here.



I know there are things
that I've held onto

that I realize I need to let go.

Like, why didn't my mom
do this differently?

‐ If I could change what
happened in those 15 years

of my first marriage, I
would do it in a heartbeat.

‐

‐ Dude, Nicole. ‐ What?

‐ Like, we're wearing the
same shirt with no bras.

- ‐ Me too.
- ‐ Oh,.

Is this aerial yoga?

‐ Oh, we get to hang?

‐ Welcome, hi. ‐ Hi, I'm Brie.

‐ Brie. Christine. Nice to meet you.

‐ I'm Nikki.

‐ After the experience with our father,

my sister and I planned
this wellness spa trip

for my brother and my mom

because we're feeling
really good right now,

and I want JJ and my mom to get onboard

and feel the same way.

‐ If you come straight
underneath the rigging.

‐ I think I'm, like, sideways.
I'm pretty sure I'm sideways.

‐ Draw the hips and side
to the backs of your legs.

You guys are pros, yes.

The more you can do nothing,

the more relaxed you can become.

Feeling the ebb and flow,
breath in and out of the body.

‐ I hate meditation.

I hate sitting in one spot
for more than three minutes.

‐ Inhaling.

Exhaling.

Yeah, and just feel tension releasing

in the physical body.

I gave it a go because I understood

what they were doing,

but I found my way to my meditation.

‐ Namaste.

‐ What happened to JJ?
‐ Yeah, where'd JJ go?

‐ Did he leave?

‐ What brought you out here for, like‐‐

‐ Nice, congrats.

‐ JJ never takes these
kinda things serious.

‐ Ever.

‐ Oh, my gosh. ‐ J.

‐ JJ's just a hummingbird.
He can't stop, so‐‐

It was worth a try. ‐ It was.

‐ You guys are doing things you love.

Doesn't mean that‐‐ ‐ No, no,

but when we pick things,

we thought of what we all
would love together.

‐ Must be thinking about you guys,

'cause you didn't think
about me at all.

‐ Next time we just need to have, like,

drinks while we do it.
‐ Well, there you go.

‐ And then he might stay. ‐ Yeah.

‐ And then I walked in while
you guys were all out,

and mom's like...

‐ Ooh‐la‐la. Thank you.

‐ Oh, look how gorgeous.

‐ I love this place.

‐ So tomorrow would have
been Pop‐pop and Nana's

64th wedding anniversary. ‐ Ohh.

‐ And she told me on the
way over here, she goes,

"I still celebrate it."

‐ Growing up in Brawley,

my Nana and Pop‐pop

they really put in these
strong values in us,

family, love, fate.

My grandparents really just made me see

the positive, happier times in life.

‐ It's funny that you bring up Nana,

'cause planning on seeing
her next week with Brie

since I really need to
get Artem to meet Nana.

I know, I only have brought
home one guy to Brawley.

‐ I don't know if I should
bring Birdie on the trip,

and I didn't know if you
wanted to watch her,

but I didn't ask you‐‐ ‐ What day?

‐ It would be Wednesday, Thursday.

We'd come home Friday. ‐ Wow.

‐ Like, evening.

I mean, Bird loves being
with you and Johnny.

Nicole and I really
want to go to Mexicali

to see my dad,

and we're gonna stay in
Brawley, California,

which is a couple towns
away from Mexicali,

and Nana's in Brawley,
all of our cousins,

so I thought it'd be perfect.

Like, bring my mom, she
could babysit Birdie,

hang out with Nana. It'd be perfect.

But I'm a little nervous to ask her

because I'm like, "Oh,
I don't want to get

in another big fight again."

‐ Please tell Mom what
else we're doing.

We're gonna go to Mexicali
to see Dad and his family.

‐ Seriously.

‐ For years, it was almost
like we were searching

for something that was so empty,

and now having our dad back in,

it was like, "Let's
go where Dad lives,"

and going to Mexicali, this
is a really good opportunity

to bring up, you know, his
chapter and bring up our book,

but it makes me nervous.

I think it's an amazing opportunity,

since we're there, to really get close

with his wife and his kids.

I mean, they are half‐siblings.

‐ I hope that you guys are honest,

because right now I feel
like you're bull me.

You're kinda going, "Oh,
we wanna go see Nana."

No, you don't. You got a
plan to see your dad,

and we're gonna say we're
gonna go see Nana.

‐ No, this is what we
thought, we thought‐‐

‐ And you didn't even want me to go.

Like, why wouldn't I want to
go see my mom, my brother‐‐

‐ Which I agreed. I told Brie.

‐ First of all, I just read their book,

and it's painful to read.

Nicole keeps saying after
her dinner with her dad

that he's really changed, and
he's taken accountability.

‐ I've learned so much.

I've promised to my God

that I would never, ever
hurt another woman again,

that I would be a different
man, and I've kept‐‐

‐ And you are, Dad.

‐ I hope that's right.

And then now they tell me
the rest of the story,

that there's a trip to
Mexicali to see their dad.

I'll take care of Birdie,

'cause I'd rather Birdie be with me

than gallivanting around with you.

So you guys owe me.

You owe me for a lot, but
this trip you really owe me,

and I'll never let you forget.

‐ Whatever.

Okay, you guys, let's get
this show on the road.

‐ What the hell, is it Christmas?

‐ No, but I thought because‐‐

since it's, like, our first time

going over to Mexicali,
I wanted to get, like,

Dad and his kids, like, a lot of gifts.

‐ We call ourselves the Bella Claus.

‐ My dad is married to Ana,

and they have two kids,
Ezekiel and Alexia.

I haven't met Ezekiel, and he's four.

And I haven't seen Alexia in forever,

and she's 11.

I just want to bring
gifts, a lot of gifts.

I know what my dad has, and
they don't have a lot.

‐ Well, you know, if you're
gonna give all of this to them,

you're not gonna see them
for the rest of the trip,

because they're probably
gonna be busy playing.

‐ Oh, is that it? ‐ No, it's very true.

‐ I'll play with them.

‐ I think Nicole is extremely nervous

for me meeting Nana, because
she's taken so much

examples from her, and
it's really important

for her to do well by her,

and bringing me is a big deal.

‐ Does anyone need air
adjusted or anything?

‐ Mine feels good, way back here.

‐ ‐ Whoa.

‐ Do you know how to drive a minivan?

I should be driving. ‐
Oh, my gosh, you guys.

‐ Okay, no fighting.

‐ The swerving makes us nauseous.

‐ What swerving, Brie?

‐ At least you're not tailgating,

and I appreciate that.

‐ Yay, family trips. They're the best.

‐ ♪ So hurry up and let's roll ♪

‐ I'm really happy to go to Brawley

and go to Mexicali, but
I'm a little bummed out

because Bryan can't make the trip.

You know, he's always wrestling.

He's gone every week,
and even though Bryan

won't be there, I know I'm
still gonna have a lot of fun.

This is where we went to school,

and it has not changed.

‐

‐ So Brie felt like I gave

everyone head lice in the school,

but I was just the
first one to admit it.

‐ No, you gave everyone head lice here.

‐ I was just the first one to admit it.

That's where Brie peed her
pants in front of everyone.

It went through her pants
and created a big puddle.

‐ Still my pants.

‐ You guys, that's the
house that you were‐‐

you would go to after school.

‐ No way. Is that?

‐ I remember that house, actually.

‐ I remember the porch.

‐ I think that's the babysitter.

‐ That's her. ‐ So let's
go say hi to her.

Hi. ‐ Hello, everyone.

‐ Hi, how are you guys? ‐ Yeah!

How are you? ‐ Hi, how are you?

‐ And do you remember babysitting them?

‐ Oh, my gosh, how are you?

‐ Lo and behold, there's Mona,

the twins' babysitter,

and I don't think we've seen
her since we moved away,

and the twins were seven years old

when we moved back to Phoenix.

‐ You lost so much weight.

'Cause on the TV show,

she looks a little heavier.

‐ Yeah, I do.

‐ But your boyfriend is gorgeous.

‐ Ohh. ‐ Whoo!

‐ Let's all get a photo.

‐ Let's do it.

‐ She's so cute. ‐ She is.

‐ Oh, Mona, it was so good to see you.

‐ I know, mija. ‐ We'll see you soon.

‐ Anytime you come back to Brawley,

you can come and say hi to me.

‐ Yes. ‐ We'd love that.

‐ Nice to meet you. ‐ Oh,
nice to meet you too.

‐ You're so nice.

‐ You know, I always go to
Brawley just to see my family,

but I never truly just kinda
go to my old stomping grounds

or the place where I grew up,

and just speaking to
our old babysitter,

it just makes me think about
my beginnings, my roots,

like the things that start to form you,

and the things that you
just connect with.

‐ How cute was that?

‐ That was so cute.

And Brawley will always
be, like, a special place

because of that.

‐ So where are we going right now?

‐ To the house we grew up in.

‐ Oh, wow.

‐ We are going to all the places

that played a part in my
children's childhood,

and it's hard for me.

I thought I had closure,

and I don't.

‐ That's where you lived,
that's where you grew up?

‐ This right here.

‐ Bird‐Bird, this is where
Mama and Dodo lived

for a little bit when they were young.

How does it make you
feel, Mom, seeing it?

‐ To be honest, I wanted to leave.

When I had the twins,
their dad and I decided

to move to Phoenix,

and we stayed there for a few years

and came back to get into
the family business.

I was done living in a small town.

I loved being in Brawley
for the time we did,

and I loved it for you kids,
but for me personally,

I was ready to go back to Phoenix.

‐ Because of Dad?

‐ Yeah, it's just like I
couldn't hide anything here.

In those 15 years,

there was a lot of highs and
lot of very, very lows.

‐ I was really sad
when we left Brawley.

‐ I was so sad.

‐ It was a really, like,
good time for us.

‐ In Brawley, I moved
away from my family.

I know deep in my heart
part of the reason

I took myself five hours
away from where I was raised

is because I could
hide my relationship,

and, um, if I could talk

to that 21‐year‐old, I
would say, "Get out."

‐ Hey. ‐ Hey! Welcome!

‐ Hey, Dad. ‐ Oh, my gosh.

‐ Mi casa es su casa. ‐
That is so beautiful.

‐ Let's get all the
talk out about Mexico.

‐ You don't have to sound angry.

‐ You guys think your
way, and I'll think mine.

‐ We're about to see Nana.

‐ And this is Nana's house.

‐ Go knock on the door. ‐
Come on, let's go see Nana.

Come on. ‐ Mom!

‐ Nana.

‐ And Artem. ‐ And this is Artem.

‐ How are you? ‐ Hey, how are you?

‐ It's so nice to meet you.
‐ Nice to meet you too.

‐ Thank you for having us.
This is amazing.

Are we gonna see‐‐ are
we gonna see the room?

‐ See what room? ‐ Room.

‐ Look, look. ‐ We're
not sleeping here.

‐ Yeah, you're not sleeping here.

‐ You don't sleep here
till you're married.

‐ Yeah.

Nana can't know that
you guys share a bed.

‐ My mom is the same way.
Don't worry about it.

‐ Is she? ‐ No.

‐ Oh. ‐

‐ Nana has rules.

There is no sleeping

in the same bedroom
when it comes to Nana.

And if you are not married
or at least engaged,

you don't share a room
at anyone's house.

‐ I'm so happy we've met. ‐ I know.

‐ I know, finally. ‐ I hear
you're quite the cook.

‐ I like to cook, yes,

but I think she's always making
some more than what it is.

‐ No, he's just very humble about it.

‐ I promise. ‐ Well, I
don't cook anymore,

but I've got a lot of plates

and I bought a bunch of food.

Whatever you want, be comfortable.

‐ Thank you, it means a lot.

‐ You're gonna have to cook
for Nana one of these days.

‐ Nana, have you eaten?

‐ We're all ready. ‐ Let's eat.

‐ I'm starving. ‐ I'm starving.

‐ My grandparents,
they were so involved

in raising my sister and I,
and I've always put them

on, like, the biggest pedestal,

so the fact that she is loving Artem

means everything to me,
because if she didn't,

I'd probably have to
break up with Artem.

We're gonna spend the night.

We're staying at the Brawley Inn,

and then we're gonna go
to Mexicali tomorrow,

see our dad.

‐ You're having dinner with your dad?

‐ We're hanging out with him all day.

We're leaving in the morning. ‐ Oh.

And you'll be with him all day?

‐ Yeah. ‐ Now, Artem's gonna be there?

‐ Mm‐hmm.

‐ Oh, good. ‐ Yeah.

‐ Oh, oh, that's good. Okay.

How about a glass of red wine?

‐ Oh, that'd be nice.

‐ And you know where the wines are.

‐ You guys ready?

Love you, Nana. ‐ Have a
wonderful time, okay?

‐ Thank you. We won't
be gone that long.

‐ What do you mean you're not
gonna be gone that long?

You're gonna be gone all day.
‐ I'll keep you guys updated.

‐ That's long.

‐ Okay, love you guys. ‐ Love you guys.

‐ Bye.

‐ I've never been to Mexicali before,

so I'm excited.

‐ I'm very excited to go to Mexicali.

‐ Yeah.

‐ I feel, like, excitement,

but I kinda feel like‐‐ like an "ohh."

Like an "ohh" feeling,

because bring up our book to my dad,

it's hard because this is
such a sensitive situation.

This man is so a part of my life,

and I know his feelings
are gonna be hurt so bad.

Are you guys nervous to cross?

‐ No.

‐ I mean, you got something to hide?

‐ ‐ Yeah.

‐ Ah. ‐ Just kidding.

‐ This is so cool!
Mexico, here we come!

‐ Hey! ‐ Oh, my God, I love it.

‐ Welcome. ‐ Hey, Dad.

‐ Bueno, mi amor. Hola, Brianna.

Como esta? ‐ It's been so long.

‐ Artem.

Coma esta?

Mi esposa, my wife.

‐ Hi. ‐ Oh, yeah, Artem.

‐ Welcome to your house.
‐ It's so beautiful.

‐ Dad, this is so nice. ‐ Wow.

‐ Ana, you look so amazing.

You look so beautiful.

‐ Thank you. ‐ Muy bonita.

‐ That's right.

De nada.

Ah, gracias, gracias.

‐ So they're only a year apart.

So they're the triplets, no more twins.

‐ Triplets.

‐ Now the triplets are in Mexico.

‐ Yeah.

Did Dad just call us
and Ana his triplets?

'Cause that's kinda...

that's‐‐that's weird.

‐ It could actually because
we do look like triplets.

- ‐ Wish I had her ass.
- ‐ And her.

‐ Well, I'm almost
there, but hers were‐‐

hers are natural. ‐ Hers look real.

‐ Well, no, hers are real.
‐ Hers are real?

‐ Yeah, she doesn't have implants.

‐ Damn.

‐ That's what I said.

Oh, my God, JJ looks like a monkey.

‐ So in January, the 20th,
we'll be married 15 years.

‐ Isn't that crazy? ‐
Isn't that crazy? Yeah.

‐ Look at Dad.

‐ My brother and my dad
don't talk right now,

and they've had a broken
relationship for a while.

As kids, like, when you get hurt,

it's hard to‐‐ to erase that pain.

‐ And you? ‐ Me too, yeah.

‐ Artem, you have to learn too,

'cause your father‐in‐law
speaks Spanish,

so you have to speak.

And your mother‐in‐law right here too.

‐

‐ Joking about him being father‐in‐law,

I don't really find it super funny,

because maybe one day
that's gonna be the case.

So saying those things

kind of makes me feel like, okay,

let's not kind of joke about that,

because it is serious for me.

‐ You should have spoke to us more.

‐ Yeah, you should have taught us.

‐ Yes, it is my fault, so...

‐ Nicole told Artem that she'd rather

have her kid speak
Spanish than Russian.

‐ I want them to speak
both, actually all three,

English, Spanish, Russian.

Then she had to butt in
to start drama and goes,

"Well, what if it was
one or the other?"

‐ No, no, no, Russian was not in there.

‐ And I said, "Well,
obviously Spanish."

‐ Don't say that, because
he's proud of his heritage.

‐ I'm just kidding.

Look it.

‐ So this is the ice
breaker that I'm so happy,

and I say it because I want you guys

coming here more often and everything.

‐ Yeah. ‐ Yeah.

‐ Salud.

‐ Cheers.

‐ Hey.

Hola! ‐ Yes.

‐ So nice to, like, be here. ‐ Yeah.

‐ I'm bummed that, like...

‐ Baby steps, baby.

‐ I know, baby steps. One day.

‐ He'll realize. I'm a changed man.

‐ Yeah.

I bet it bums you out.
‐ Of course it does,

but it's like, I'll just
keep doing what I'm doing.

‐ I know you guys will
reunite and reconnect.

I pray for it.

‐ And it's all gonna come together.

All the negativity,

I've come a long way to
fall back down to that,

and I'm not gonna go to the past.

You wanna talk about
it just to bring it up

for a bad vibe, I don't wanna hear it.

‐ No. ‐ 'Cause that ain't me no more.

Talking to the wrong guy.

‐ So, Dad, did Nicole and I tell you

that we have been writing a book?

‐ Oh, you are?

What about?

‐ Our life.

‐ Yeah.

‐ Oh, my gosh. ‐ Look at here.

‐ It's, like, taking me a second

to just be like, wow,
I have family here.

‐ All I've ever thought of
is it would be so amazing

to walk down that aisle,
but then when I get close

it's like I can't even breathe.

Am I going to be stuck in something

that I don't wanna be in?

Because that's how you
were for so long.

‐ So, Dad, did Nicole and I tell you

that we have been writing a book?

‐ Oh, you are? What about?

‐ Our life.

Childhood to kinda like now.

‐ Since you were born? ‐ Yeah.

‐ We all have a past, but
we're living for today

and for the future, and I'm
not that man 18 years ago.

I'm a whole different man today.

‐ Being here at lunch, I thought maybe

I could kinda bring up the book,

but when I brought it up, I
could tell he kinda like,

"Oh, wow, you're making a book."

Kinda disregarded it and
just feeling the tension,

it made me feel like, okay,
this isn't the time.

I don't want an argument to happen

like it happened with my mom.

‐ I mean, this is who I am now. ‐ Yeah.

‐ Let's talk about me now.

‐ Oh, look it, is that Wonder Woman?

‐ It's like us.

‐ The triplet you never had. ‐ Triplet.

‐

‐ Have you ever had Mexican candy?

‐ No.

‐ Nicole, we need to
get him Mexican candy.

‐ Oh, let's try some Mexican candy.

‐ Yeah.

‐

‐ This is the salt you like?
‐ Ooh, Artem.

‐ Yeah, it is. That one's salt, right?

‐ Yeah.

Should we get this for
spicy margaritas at home?

‐ Hey, girls. ‐ Oh, Dad.

‐ Oh, hey, guys. ‐ Hey,
how are you doing?

‐ Hey, hey. ‐ Oh, my gosh, gosh.

‐ Look, who's here. That's Ezekiel.

‐ How are you? ‐ Alexia.

‐ Ezekiel, hi. Can I have a hug?

‐ Yeah, how are you? ‐ Hi. Fine.

You? ‐ Good.

‐ ‐ How fun.

‐ Are you shy?

It's wild.

It's just at my age you
don't think you're gonna be

introduced to something like this,

so it's, like, taking me a second

to just be like, wow,
I have family here.

‐ He loves piñatas.

He already wants his little piñata.

‐ Ezekiel, what's your favorite one?

‐

He's looking for his favorite one.

‐ How cute is that?

Bringing up our book to my dad,

what I'm realizing is, like,

we‐‐we can't do this right now.

I have finally reconnected
with my father,

and then I just don't
want to damper the moment

or change it by, like,
talking about my book.

I just feel like maybe I
need to let it go right now

and save it for another time.

‐ Should we be all together
to take a picture?

‐ Yeah, we need someone
to take one all together.

‐ Yeah.

‐ Wow, this is gorgeous. ‐ Yeah.

‐ Whoa.

‐ Oh, wow. ‐ This is so cool.

‐ So that's the border right there.

Do you see the fence? ‐ Oh, yeah.

‐ See, that's the United
States on that side

where it's pretty plain over there.

‐ Brie, come here real quick.

We have to remember
the toys we brought.

‐

‐ Do you think some of this
stuff is too young for Alexia?

‐ Maybe.

‐ We brought a bunch of gifts

because we feel like we've
missed too many birthdays

and Christmases. ‐ Oh, shoot.

‐ And we know it's a
lot, but we're like‐‐

‐ I don't know, I feel like
we might have to get Alexia

some other stuff later. ‐ Yeah.

‐ 'Cause I know if she
likes Barbies anymore.

‐ No. ‐ Thank you.

‐ Oh, you're welcome. We're
gonna get you more stuff.

‐ Yeah. Mwah.

‐ Brianna, I need to
talk to you and Nicole.

‐ Yeah.

‐ So there's something I wanna
ask both of you to do‐‐

well, not for me, for all of us,

is Alexia's very proud of both of you.

And unfortunately, a lot
of the kids at her school

do not believe that
you're their sister.

‐ Really? ‐ Oh, my gosh.

‐ Yeah, they don't, and
they really don't,

and they‐‐they bully her about it like,

"No, you're not." ‐ Aww.

‐ And for her, a dream come true

would be that if you both can
visit her school tomorrow.

‐ Oh, my gosh, we would love to.

‐ Would you love to do that?

‐ But I do have to get back to Bird.

Or should I stay the night?

‐ Well, you have your daughter.
‐ I know.

‐ It's okay, but, Nicole,
you'll show up and‐‐

‐ We'll show up, yeah.

‐ And we'll just do something
really nice for her.

She has no clue that
this is going to happen.

‐ I think you guys will
have a really fun day.

‐ Thank you. Thank you for doing that.

‐ I'm having such an amazing
day here in Mexicali,

and I would do anything
to stay the night

to see Alexia at her school,

but I know my mom probably
won't go for that,

so I'm gonna head back to Birdie,

but I'm happy that Nicole and Artem

will be there for Alexia.

‐ Hello. ‐ Hey, Mom.

‐ Hey, girls, what's up?

‐ Oh, look it, and boy. ‐ Hello.

‐ Oh, Artem, I forgot about you.

‐ Oh, it's okay.

‐ So... ‐ Yeah.

‐ Brie's gonna be in
the car by herself.

‐ Oh, why?

‐ 'Cause Artem and I are gonna stay.

‐ Oh, I'm gonna just
be extremely direct.

I didn't come on the
trip to be a babysitter

for you guys to go find your roots.

Hola. ‐ Hola.

My sister, Alexia. Alexia, come here.

Yes.

This is my sister, and
if you mess with her

I will body slam you through
any freakin' school desk.

It's amazing to see, like, Dad
in a really amazing place.

‐ I'm here to support you, but Jesus.

It was enough.

Sometimes you need to
give people credit.

‐ Mom, we always give you credit.

‐ You haven't talked
about your dad in years.

‐ Because I knew it was gonna
turn into an argument,

and it did.

‐ We just haven't had enough
time to really soak it in,

and it's just so beautiful here.

‐ I‐I'm gonna just be extremely direct.

I didn't come on the trip to
be babysitter for you guys

to go find your roots.

Brianna, if you woulda told me

you were spending the night,
I woulda been a bit pissed.

‐ Well, you don't have to be pissed,

'cause I'm coming back.

‐ Yeah, well, I'm gonna go
back into Birdie and Nana.

Okay.

‐ We're gonna experience
Mexico tonight.

‐ Just don't get food poisoning.

‐ Hey, I'll at least lose
some weight if I do.

‐ Yeah. ‐ Bye.

That was kinda cray.

You know what I say we do on that note?

Take a really hot selfie.

‐ Right now? ‐ Dude,
look at the background.

‐ Actually, I look really good.

‐ My boobs look massive.

‐ So we'll see you guys there.

Mwah. See you later, bye.

Are you excited? ‐ Yeah.

‐ Ohh! ‐ To see the school.

‐ Mi papi chulo.

‐ Hey, what's what? ‐ Bad boy.

‐ 'Cause it sounds very sexual.

‐ You're my bad boy.

‐ Papi chulo, what?

‐ That she gets bullied at school

because people think she lies
about us being her sister.

‐ Oh, sisters, yeah. ‐ That's so sad.

And then it makes me
feel a little guilty

that, like, for so long
I didn't talk to my dad

or that side of the family,

and so that probably made it worse.

And it's like you don't
realize the effect when‐‐

My dad and I, we had the issue,

but look at the effect it
did to the whole family.

I think people sometimes
don't realize that.

I didn't.

Hey.

Oh, my God, I love this school.

Oh, I have chills.

It feels so good right now
walking into Alexia's school.

Like, knowing, like, she has no idea,

and Artem and I are about to
walk up and be like, "Hey!"

‐

‐ Oh, cute.

Ah, Ezekiel.

Aww.

Gracias.

‐ Hey. Bye‐bye.

‐ Oh, cute.

‐ Oh, look at Alexia's face.
Straight ahead.

‐ Where is she? Alexia, come here.

Hey, you.

Oh, my God, good to see you.

‐

‐ Oh, look it, there's Brie.

‐ ‐ Hi, Brianna.

‐ Oh, my God, is that Alexia?

‐ Artem will keep you with us.

‐ Okay, awesome.

‐ Hola. Hi, hola.

Hola. ‐ Hola.

‐ I'm so happy to be here with you all.

So, un poquito Español.

‐ No, but they understand English.

Oh, but tu hables inglés.

I'm very happy to be
here with all of you

and to be here for my sister, Alexia.

Alexia, come here.

Yes.

I'm going to make sure that
this whole damn school

knows that this is my sister,

and if you mess with her,

I will body slam you through
any freakin' school desk.

It's so amazing to see
how happy she was

being with all of her friends

and all of the kids that
she goes to school with.

I feel very blessed that I
can do this for my sister.

That was so fun. ‐ Yeah.

‐ Aww. I love your school.

‐ Can you say to Brianna
thank you for coming

just for me? ‐ Oh, I will.

‐ Aww. ‐ Bye.

‐ So much. Bye.

I think you need to actually
piggyback ride me over this.

I'm, like, of course in YSLs.

‐ No, your‐‐ your feet are gonna sink

Why don't you walk barefoot in?

‐ But I have to say, we had
an amazing time in Mexicali.

‐ Yeah, it was so fun.

And it was cool 'cause we
went to the school today,

and it was really cute
seeing all the kids.

‐ I was so sad I missed it.

He's gonna take you real quick, okay?

‐ Let's go get wa‐wa.
‐ You go get wa‐wa.

And come right back. ‐
Bring Dodo back some.

‐ Let's get all the talk out
about Mexico and Mexicali

so I don't have to hear
it for, like, four hours.

‐ Ew, Mom. ‐ "Ew, Mom."

Honestly, like, I love that
you guys had a great time,

but let's just talk about it
and get it out of our system,

and then we can talk about
our lives or whatever.

‐ Okay, well, you don't have to sound‐‐

Hold on, Nicole. You don't
have to sound angry about it.

‐ There's no anger.

‐ The way you just said it right now

sounded like you had an issue. ‐ Yeah.

‐ If I'm being perfectly honest,

it's just like, I'm
here to support you,

but Jesus, it was enough.

‐ Mom, we know that
Dad left you hanging,

but sometimes with you
we feel like we always

need to try to be so
positive, and it's hard

because there was negative things

that we had to deal with.

‐ I love that you guys
had a great time,

but what I'm saying is the
way you guys are talking,

that it was so amazing,
I would just ask

that let's just talk about it,
get it out of our system,

and then we can talk about our lives.

‐ Well, you don't have
to sound angry about it.

‐ There's no anger.

‐ The way you just said it right now

sounded like you had an issue. ‐ Yeah.

‐ I'll just follow you, Bird.

‐ I get you're all excited,

but then maybe understand that
maybe everyone in the group

isn't as excited, and it
would be, like, torturous.

‐ Okay, so once again,

it's us having to walk on egg shells,

not able to express how
much fun we had with Dad.

I almost feel like you
wanted us to come back

and have a negative experience.

‐ No, I don't want you to
have a negative experience,

but just put yourself in my shoes.

Do you think I wanna hear
about it for four hours?

‐ But don't you want us
to embrace who we are

and what we're made of. ‐ 100% I do.

‐ You and Dad, it sucks
'cause you guys had

such an unfortunate relationship,

but no matter what,
that's still our dad.

‐ This conversation isn't about you

having a relationship with your father.

I'm glad that you do.

I just might not want to hear it 24/7.

‐ Nicole and I always get anxiety

or we get, like, nervous to
ever talk to you about it,

because we always feel
like‐‐ ‐ That's on you.

‐ You left us in that environment

till we were 15 years old. ‐ Wow.

‐ It's not like you left our father

when we were two or three

and it was like this guy that
maybe wasn't in our lives.

That already did so
many deep cuts with us

that Brianna and I are
trying to figure it out,

and as we want to become more whole

and just have these happy lives
and not hold on to pain,

we have to go through these things.

‐ I don't know, I felt like there was

this part in my heart that
just felt a little empty,

and yesterday it really felt filled.

‐ It's amazing to see, like,
Dad in a really amazing place.

Like, he's very positive,

and he owns up to, like, his past

and what he's wanted to
change, and, I mean,

I think that's amazing.

‐ Just because in the
last, I don't know,

three, four weeks you guys have decided

to have this relationship, how
'bout sitting there and go,

"You know what, Mom, every
time we were disappointed,

"you were there for us, and
every time we went back

"and tried to rebuild the relationship

you were there for us."

What I hear is like, "You
were always this bitch

that didn't want us to be around Dad."

That's not the case.

Sometimes you need to
give people credit

for what they did do for a long time.

‐ Mom, we always give you credit.

‐ You never, not since
we've talked about this.

We haven't talked about
your dad in years.

‐ Because I knew it was gonna
turn into an argument,

and it did. ‐ I just‐‐

Yeah, I don't even feel
like talking about it.

I just feel like it's,
like, beating a drum.

Like, you guys think your
way, and I'll think my way.

‐ But, Mom, the thing is‐‐

‐ I don't know how you guys
ended up being who you are.

‐ Nana and Pop‐pop.

‐ Okay, you always do
that in interviews.

‐ But, Mom, that's‐‐

‐ You always bring up Nana and Pop‐pop.

I'm like, "Hello, was I even involved?"

‐ But, like, you just said,
like, how between you and Dad,

'cause it's your relationship,
and what I'm saying is‐‐

‐ And, another wound.

You know, and it's sad for me.

Whatever J's anger and his pain is,

eh, it's just, it's a lot to process.

‐ Okay, well, we won't talk
about it the whole four hours.

‐ No, please don't talk about it.

‐ Boo.

Boo.

‐ This is gonna be a long car ride

because right now none of us know

exactly what to talk about,

because Nicole and I are
feeling two different things.

My mom's feeling something else,

and we're just not all
on the same page.

I feel like my mom needs

to just kind of figure
out in her life, like,

what is it that she really
wants to get go of, release?

What is it that really bothers her?

I don't want my mom to
always feel triggered.

‐ Napkins.

Oh, you wanna get it or‐‐

‐ Yeah, sure, I'll go get it.

‐ Hello.

‐ Hello. ‐ Hello.

‐ I think the kids and I just
need an honest conversation,

just the four of us.

‐ Hey, Mom.

‐ Family meeting already in session?

‐ Whoa, look at this. ‐ No,
but the food is ready.

Artem can't come or Bryan or Lauren.

It just is the four of
us, like we always were.

‐ So, Mom, what's up
with the family meeting?

‐ Okay, so we all know
what's been going on lately.

J, you and I met after the girls,

we found out, you know, Brianna and I

had a conversation about‐‐

‐ Are you talking about our
blowout or our conversation?

‐ Right, but it's been on my mind,

heavy on my mind recently,

and what I wanted to do
is just the four of us

to get together, no distractions,

and just if there's
anything on your chest‐‐

it's like an air‐out
situation right now.

Air it out. What?

‐ No, just I wasn't
expecting you to say that.

‐ I'm shocked you don't have wine.

‐ But, no, that's why I said‐‐

‐ Not a tasting flight, like
tequila tasting flight.

‐ Free meals. ‐ Yeah, right.

But so here's the thing though.

I want you guys to say to
me anything you wanna say.

I want us to, like, get past

our feelings from when you
guys were growing up.

‐ The one thing I'm just gonna say,

and you guys can speak is, like,

Mom, like, there has been
no doubt with any of us

that you are super mom.

Like, honestly. You really have.

You've been such a great role
model as being a wonder mom,

and I even know Dad says
that about you a lot.

Dad knows that he left you hanging,

and he knows you're the reason
why you kept us a unit.

But I think sometimes with you

what we get scared is we feel like

we always need to try to be so positive

because we want you to always
feel like you're great,

'cause you are a great mom.

But sometimes it's
hard because there was

negative things that
we have to deal with.

‐ I mean, I don't know, but even then,

I've never felt like‐‐ I
don't know, growing up,

you were just always
awesome to me, you know?

Like, I looked at Dad,
and I was scared of him.

I was never scared of you.

No, you're the one that I went to,

not, you know, ran from.

‐ For me, reconnecting with my dad

means a lot,

and I want my brother
to be a part of it

'cause I want him to reconnect,

but at the same time, he
has to do it on his own

on his own time.

‐ So don't ever feel fault, ever.

That would make me feel bad,
'cause that's not what it is.

It wasn't your fault.

‐ I know there are things
that I've held onto

that I realize I need to let go.

Like, "Why didn't my mom
do this differently?"

‐ I know there are things
that I've held onto

that I realize I need to let go.

Like, "Why didn't my mom
do this differently?"

And also I feel like
because of my childhood,

it's caused me not to
have trust in men.

I do see where I carry
that into my relationships

and even just committing.

All I've ever thought of
is it would be so amazing

to walk down that aisle,
but then when I get close

it's like I can't even
breathe because I'm like,

"Am I going to be stuck

in something that I
don't want to be in?"

You know, and I think I just carry that

because that's how you
were for so long, stuck,

and I think that's what I learned.

Sorry, Mom. ‐ No, no, that's okay.

I think when people have children

they assume that they
should stay together

no matter what for the kids.

You hear it all the time.

"For the kids, I'm
staying for the kids."

And I don't know if I
realized at that time

it was affecting my
children as much as it was.

‐ I think, for me, it's just
nice that you acknowledge it,

because you never have, and
I think we've never felt

like we can, you know, talk about it.

We've talked about it amongst us kids,

but it feels good, you
acknowledging it, you know?

And it's nice when you
don't have the anxiety

of walking on egg shells,
whether it's, you know,

about us seeing Dad, because it's like,

but I love my mom so much I
don't ever want to ruin that.

‐ If I could change what
happened in those 15 years

of my first marriage, I
would do it in a heartbeat.

It's painful because we're
only doing the best we can do.

We're only doing what
we think is right,

but no one wins, nobody,

not the parents and not the kid.

JJ, does it look familiar
when we would meet

and I'd have my notes for JBN.

‐ You have notes? ‐ You have notes?

‐ Oh, goodness.

‐ When I want to have a
conversation with someone,

I always write a letter
so I don't forget to say

some of the things that
are important to me,

and just so they know how I
feel about everything going on.

First of all, I appreciate everyone

letting everyone speak, and
it's gonna be interesting

when I read this letter,

and I might not be able
to get through it,

so you might have to read it.

'Cause it's, like, we are the same DNA,

'cause there's some stuff
I wrote that almost

all three of you each said,

which is very strange, isn't it?

Um, okay.

I was stuck on the first
two words, but...

‐ You got this, Mom. ‐ You got it.

‐ "I'm sorry for the things

"you saw and experienced as children.

"I wish I would have made
it better for you all,

"and I don't mean perfect,
because perfect doesn't exist.

"I wish the good times
outweighed the bad,

"but I accept responsibility.

"Who I am today would have
gotten the three of you out

"a lot sooner than I did.

"All I can offer is to say I'm sorry.

"I love you three with my entire being.

"I'm very proud of the
adults you've become,

and being adult is not easy."

‐ Aww, I love that, Mom.

‐ Thank you. ‐ Yeah, we do love that.

‐ Sometimes it can be hard
being a child of a divorce,

but what I hope and pray for so much

is that my mom can let go of the past,

that she can move on, and
that nothing gives her

such a trigger that it makes
her sick to her stomach.

Last thing I'd ever want her to feel

is that reconnecting with
my father means, like,

she's in the dust.

Like, I would die for
my mom in a heartbeat.

She'll always be first, always.

‐ At the end of the
day, the four of us,

we've been like a team no matter what.

We can call each other at any time,

and we all are there
to help each other.

And I'm sorry. I wish I
could change things.

‐ You can't, but it's okay.

How 'bout we just send you
our therapist's bill.

‐ Yeah.

‐ Everyone has a journey in life.

I went through what I went through

to end up where I'm at now,
because I'm in a great place.

I have a wonderful man.

We respect each other,

and really this is what
I want for my kids,

to have healthy relationships.

‐ Well, should we toast to water?

‐ You never cheers to water.
That's bad luck.

Bartender. ‐ No!

‐ Next on "Total Bellas"...

‐ Lauren and I were
thinking that Nicole favors

obviously Birdie a
touch over our girls.

‐ J. ‐ Brianna.

‐ When you're gone, all I want
is peace of mind at night.

Our house has been broken into,

and then our car was just stolen.

My, gosh. Freaking bullets.

‐ Nicole can't come to the barbecue.

‐ Yeah, but you also don't know
what she's doing right now.

‐ What is she doing? ‐
JJ, what is your deal?

‐ You're always late, you
always favor Birdie.

I don't wanna change you.
‐ Then don't change me.