The Alzheimer's Project (2009–…): Season 1, Episode 1 - The Memory Loss Tapes - full transcript
Seven people living through various stages of Alzheimer's disease are profiled in this verite documentary.
YOU MIND IF I TAKE YOU
THROUGH SOME TESTS OF YOUR MEMORY?
GOOD LUCK.
ALL RIGHT. SOME OF THE THINGS
I'M GOING TO ASK YOU TO DO ARE
GOING TO SEEM KIND OF HARD FOR YOU.
JUST DO THE BEST
YOU CAN, ALL RIGHT?
AND I'M GONNA START JUST BY
ASKING: WHAT'S THE DATE TODAY?
THE S...
THE F...
OF WHAT MONTH?
- AUGUST.
- OKAY.
AND WHAT SEASON OF THE YEAR?
UH, SUMMER.
OKAY.
DO YOU KNOW WHO THE
PRESIDENT WAS BEFORE BUSH?
I THINK I CAN SEE HIS FACE
BUT I CAN'T THINK HIS NAME.
IT'S BILL...
CL...
STARTS WITH "CL"...
- NOT COMING, HUH?
- NOT COMING.
AHEM.
YOU'RE STILL DRIVING, CORRECT?
- YEAH.
- OKAY.
AND ARE YOU LIVING ALONE YET?
YES, WITH MY DOG.
OKAY. WHAT'S YOUR DOG'S NAME?
- SKIPPER.
- OKAY.
AND WHERE YOU LIVE... IS THAT
A HOUSE OR AN APARTMENT?
I LIVE IN THE HOUSE THAT
MY HUSBAND WAS BORN IN.
WOW.
HOW LONG HAVE YOU
LIVED IN THAT HOUSE?
1952 WAS WHEN WE BOUGHT IT.
BEEN THERE EVER SINCE.
HERE COMES OUR FEATURE
LADY... OH, SHE'S GOT HER BOOTS ON.
OH, YOU'RE GONNA
DRESS OLD-FASHIONED.
OH, I LOVE
ALL THOSE HATS.
THEY CAN'T FIND
ANYBODY ELSE IN TOWN
THAT'S GOOFY ENOUGH TO DO THIS,
SO I SAID I'D DO IT.
- - Man over
loudspeaker: WELCOME TO BIRCHWOOD.
STARTING THIS PARADE OUT HERE IN
THIS LOVELY BIRCHWOOD, WISCONSIN.
WHOO!
BESSIE! BESSIE!
- HEY!
- HELLO!
IT'S HARD
TO EXPLAIN IT...
JUST HOW...
HOW IT ACTS.
I CAN...
KNOW PEOPLE BY LOOKING AT 'EM.
AND NOW, THOUGH, IT'S GETTING SO
I'M NOT DOING TOO GOOD
A JOB AT THAT EITHER.
BUT THEY REMEMBER ME
AND THEY TELL ME WHO THEY ARE.
AND I GO, "OH, YEAH." AND
ABOUT 10 MINUTES LATER
I'VE FORGOTTEN AGAIN.
IF YOU TOOK THIS MEDICINE
TO KEEP YOU FROM GETTING WORSE...
- WELL... -... WOULD YOU
BE SATISFIED WITH THAT?
THAT IT WOULD KEEP YOU
FROM GETTING WORSE?
THERE ISN'T MUCH I CAN DO
BECAUSE IT'S GOING TO COME
REGARDLESS WHAT I TAKE.
I KNOW THAT. THERE
IS NO CURE FOR IT.
THERE IS NO CURE FOR THAT.
- NOT SO FAR.
- NO.
IF IT JUST STAYED
WHERE IT IS NOW...
IT WOULD BE FINE
IF IT COULD STAY.
- GREAT.
- YES, LIKE HARRIET, MY SISTER...
SHE FEELS LIKE SHE
HAD TWO YEARS MORE
THAN SHE WOULD IF SHE
HADN'T TAKEN THIS MEDICINE.
- THEY KEEP DOING
RESEARCH, SO... - YEAH.
YOU'RE LIVING IN...
IN A GOOD TIME.
NO, AS FAR AS I... I NEVER...
I NEVER FEEL LIKE I'M GIVING UP.
NO. I...
THAT'S WHY YOU DO SO WELL.
YEAH.
THAT'S ENOUGH.
MM-HMM.
I CAN'T REMEMBER THE NEXT LINE.
- I'M LEAVING.
- YES, YOU'RE LEAVING.
READY OR NOT, I'M LEAVING.
BYE, MOTHER. I'M NOT GONNA BE
COMING SO I'M BABYSITTING SKIPPER.
- HAVE FUN.
- YEAH, OKAY.
IF I DIDN'T KNOW
SHE HAD ALZHEIMER'S,
- I WOULDN'T THINK SHE DID.
- MM-HMM.
I'D JUST THINK, "WELL, SHE'S 88
AND SHE'S GETTING FORGETFUL."
'CAUSE WE ALL ARE GONNA
GET LIKE THAT, I THINK.
WE'RE WATCHING FOR TO
LEAVE, LIKE, THE STOVE ON AND...
SHE HASN'T... SO FAR DONE THAT.
RAH.
I DON'T WANT TO
BE A BURDEN ON MY KIDS.
I JUST KEEP MY FINGERS CROSSED
THAT I CAN ELIMINATE
IT FOR A WHILE.
LIKE ME TO SHOW YOU THE WAY?
- YEAH, I'M KINDA LOST.
- SURE.
RIGHT DOWN THIS WAY.
I'M KINDA LOST.
- LADIES, THEY'RE READY.
- OKAY.
LATE AS USUAL.
WE ARE THE HAPPY
NUTS... OH! HAPPY NOTES
FROM BIRCHWOOD EAST.
WE REPRESENT
THE CHURCHES IN BIRCHWOOD.
UH, SO IF YOU KNOW
ANY OF OUR SONGS,
PLEASE SING ALONG.
HER BROTHER
SAYS... - WHAT DO I DO THEN?
- YOU DO THIS ONE NOW.
- OH, OKAY.
AS TIME PASSES, WE SEE
HER RECALL AND ALL
THIS DETERIORATING
LITTLE BY LITTLE.
IS THERE ANY OTHER
WOMAN IN YOUR FAMILY
THAT HAS ALZHEIMER'S?
THE ONE THAT'S THE
OLDEST OF US... SHE'S 93
SHE DON'T KNOW HER FAMILY;
SHE DON'T KNOW NOBODY.
SO, YOU SEE, WHEN THEY
SAW SHE WAS LOSING IT,
THEY GOT PILLS FOR HER.
AND, UH, THAT'S
WHERE I GOT THE IDEA
OF TAKING THE PILLS FOR MEMORY.
MM-HMM.
SEE MY
BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS.
OH, MY.
THAT IS PRETTY.
YEAH, THERE'S TWO OF 'EM.
AND HERE'S MY TOMATO.
THERE'S A REASON WHY I PUT
THOSE MARIGOLDS IN BETWEEN...
IT KEEPS SOMETHING OUT.
I FORGET WHAT IT IS.
THIS IS MY RHUBARB, SEE?
THAT'S WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE.
FOR THIS PIE THAT I'M MAKING,
I NEED FOUR CUPS OF CHOPPED...
CUT-UP RHUBARB;
ONE CUP OF SUGAR;
TWO WELL-BEATEN EGGS.
AND THAT'S WHERE
MY MEMORY DON'T...
I HAVE TO READ
THIS A MILLION TIMES
SO I MAKE SURE I GET IT RIGHT.
OOH, I THINK I'M GONNA
GET AL OF THIS IN THERE.
WE HAVE A FEW PIES
LEFT YET... PUMPKIN.
AND WE GOT LEMON.
OOP! EXCUSE MY FINGERS.
EVERYBODY KNOWS BESSIE.
SHE WAS THE GRAND MARSHAL
IN THE BLUEGILL PARADE
A FEW YEARS AGO.
SHE TELL YOU SHE USED
TO BE IN HARMONETTES?
I'M... I'M STILL IN HARMONETTES
AND SHE WAS WITH US.
IT'S NOT AS EASY
AS IT USED TO BE
WHEN YOU COULD GO THROUGH
IT TWICE AND YOU'D KNOW IT.
YEAH, BUT, BOY, I WAS SURE GLAD
I HAD THAT LITTLE GAL NEXT
TO ME FOR THE HAPPY NOTES.
WHO WAS THAT?
DON'T ASK ME; I DON'T
KNOW WHAT HER NAME IS.
THAT'S MY PROBLEM, YOU SEE.
I PROBABLY DON'T
REMEMBER HALF OF THE NAMES
OF THE GIRLS AT ALL, SEE?
I HAVE TO STOP AND THINK
OF YOURS ONCE IN A WHILE.
IT'S ALL RIGHT; I'LL TELL YOU
WHAT MY NAME IS IF YOU FORGET.
THAT'S WHAT'S SO DISGUSTING.
I FEEL SO GOOD BUT STILL
YOU CAN'T REMEMBER THOSE
THINGS THAT YOU'D LIKE TO...
LIKE TO KNOW.
I SHOULD KNOW HER.
HER FACE IS FAMILIAR.
SO, BESSIE,
WE MET EACH OTHER
IN MAY OF THIS YEAR.
YOU REMEMBER MEETING ME?
NO, YOUR FACE IS NOT
EVEN FAMILIAR TO ME.
OKAY. I WAS THE ONE WHO PUT
YOU THROUGH THE MEMORY TESTS...
- OKAY. -... A FEW MONTHS BACK.
THAT... THAT I REMEMBER DOING.
OKAY. WELL, WHAT WE WANT
TO DO IS TAKE YOU THROUGH
SOME OF THOSE SAME
SORTS OF TESTS AGAIN TODAY
JUST TO SEE HOW THINGS
ARE GOING FOR YOU.
- OKAY.
- FAIR ENOUGH?
GOOD ENOUGH.
WHAT IS THIS THING?
UH...
WHAT'S IT USED FOR?
ADD THINGS ON?
OKAY, VERY GOOD.
FOR THIS NEXT PART I'M GONNA
READ YOU A LIST OF WORDS.
I WANT YOU TO LISTEN
CAREFULLY AND WHEN I'M FINISHED,
I WANT YOU TO TELL ME AS MANY OF
THOSE WORDS AS YOU CAN REMEMBER.
HERE WE GO:
CLOUD, FISH, PAINT,
DENTIST, LADDER,
CHICKEN, BANANA,
TELEPHONE, TRUCK.
FISH, LAKE...
UH...
HOW CAN ANYBODY FORGET...
THAT FAST?
OKAY.
SHE KNOWS SHE'S
GOT THIS CONDITION
BUT SHE DOES NOT DWELL ON IT.
SHE CERTAINLY EXHIBITS,
HOWEVER, THAT SHE IS...
AND WE OFTEN SEE
THIS IN THIS DISEASE,
THAT IT DOESN'T TAKE
YOUR INTELLIGENCE AWAY.
- NO.
- OKAY? SHE SAYS, "OKAY,
I KNOW I HAVE THIS CONDITION.
HOW CAN I WORK AROUND IT?"
MOTHER ISN'T EVEN BAD YET,
BUT I... I STILL FEEL STRESSED.
WELL, THERE MAY COME A
TIME WHEN SHE IS NOT AWARE
THAT SHE HAS MEMORY
PROBLEMS ANYMORE.
- RIGHT.
- IT'S ESSENTIALLY... WHAT'S THE TERM WE USE?
"PEOPLE FORGET THAT
THEY'RE FORGETFUL."
ANOSOGNOSIA... IT'S A LACK
OF AWARENESS OF SYMPTOMS.
AND THEY BECOME ESSENTIALLY
UNAWARE THAT THEY HAVE MEMORY TROUBLE.
YOUR MOM IS NOW SHOWING
KIND OF A SLOPE HERE.
AND SHE... FROM A
COUPLE MONTHS AGO OR SO
THAT WE'RE SEEING
A BIT OF A CHANGE.
WE CAN SEE IT STARTING
TO GO DOWN THAT SLOPE.
- YEAH.
- AND THAT'S...
- IT'S A HARD THING.
- IT'S FRIGHTENING
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, I
REALLY LOVE HER SO MUCH
AND SHE'S A BIG PART OF MY LIFE
- BECAUSE I LIVE RIGHT NEXT DOOR.
- YOU'RE SEEING HER EVERY DAY.
YEAH. IT'S GONNA
BE VERY HARD ON ME
WHEN I CAN'T CONVERSE WITH
HER AND ASK HER QUESTIONS.
YEP.
TILL THEN, SHE WANTS TO
LIVE THIS LIFE SHE'S LIVING NOW
WHICH IS, UM...
A REALLY GOOD LIFE FOR HER.
IT REALLY IS...
IT'S A SIMPLE LIFE,
BUT SHE ENJOYS IT A LOT.
WE'RE GONNA START
YOU AT A LOW DOSE, OKAY,
OF DONEPEZIL WHICH
IS ALSO CALLED ARICEPT,
OKAY? THE BRAND NAME.
ASSUMING YOU TOLERATE IT,
THEN IT CAN GIVE YOU SOME BENEFIT.
WHAT DO
YOU THINK, MOTHER?
HA. GIVE ME A
PILL AND THAT'S IT.
HERE'S TO THE PILL.
ALL GONE.
MOM TOLD US ABOUT TWO MONTHS AGO
THAT THE DOCTOR HAD
TOLD HER TO STOP DRIVING.
THAT MADE ME FEEL INADEQUATE
AND COMPLETELY DEPENDENT
ON SOMEBODY ELSE,
WHICH IS NOT A GOOD FEELING
AFTER HAVING BEEN,
YOU KNOW, ON MY OWN.
SHE WAS NOT VERY HAPPY WITH US...
- NO. -... FOR A WHILE.
I'VE BEEN TAKING CARE
OF MYSELF EVERY...
I WAS TAKING CARE OF MYSELF
BEFORE MY HUSBAND DIED.
BUT NOW,
THIS WILL BE A WHOLE
DIFFERENT THING.
- HOT! HOT HOT HOT.
- OOH.
WE'RE GOING TO
HAVE AN ASSESSMENT TEST
TO SEE IF MOM IS ABLE TO DRIVE.
EVEN THOUGH MOM WAS TOLD SHE'S
IN THE EARLY STAGES OF ALZHEIMER'S,
ONE OF THE REALITIES IS
YOUR JUDGMENT BECOMES AN ISSUE.
- HELLO.
- HI.
I'M GONNA ASK YOU
TO IDENTIFY THE TRAFFIC SIGN
AND THEN I'M GONNA ASK
YOU WHAT YOU WOULD DO
IF YOU CAME
ACROSS IT IN TRAFFIC.
WHAT IS THE NAME
OF THIS TRAFFIC SIGN?
MMM.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU
CAME ACROSS THIS SIGN IN TRAFFIC?
I THINK I WOULD STOP
AND MAKE A LEFT TURN.
I THINK.
OKAY.
WHAT IS THE NAME OF THIS SIGN?
MMM.
I DON'T KNOW.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU
CAME ACROSS THAT SIGN IN TRAFFIC?
I WOULD STOP AND SEE WHAT
EVERYBODY ELSE WAS DOING.
OKAY, LET ME WRITE THAT.
WE'LL GET IN THE
FRONT SEAT HERE.
OH.
WE'LL GET IN THE FRONT SEAT.
THERE WE GO.
SO WHAT WE WANT TO DO
IS WE WANT TO BACK
OUT AND GO TO OUR LEFT
WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE IT'S SAFE.
WHAT IS "REVERSE"?
THREE IS...
NO.
SO WE WANT TO USE THE REVERSE,
WHICH WOULD BE WHAT? WHICH
WOULD INDICATE REVERSE ON THAT?
NO, THAT'S... ONE...
MAYBE TWO IS REVERSE?
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TELL ME.
THE "R" STANDS FOR REVERSE.
OH, YEAH. OKAY.
"R" IS REVERSE AND
"N" IS IN NEUTRAL.
CORRECT.
OKAY.
I UNDERSTAND THIS IS A
DIFFERENT CAR FOR YOU
SO THAT'S WHY WE'RE WARMING
UP IN THE PARKING LOT HERE.
OKAY.
NOW WHERE AM I GOING?
HUH?
OKAY, WE'LL
FOLLOW LELAND HERE
UNTIL I ASK YOU TO MAKE A TURN.
WE WANT TO STAY IN
THE RIGHT LANE HERE.
MAKE THIS NEXT
RIGHT TURN COMING UP.
WE DON'T WANT... MAKE SURE WE DON'T
GO INTO ANY ONCOMING TRAFFIC THERE.
WE WANT TO STAY BEHIND THE CARS.
CAN I ASK YOU WHY
YOU'RE STOPPING HERE?
CAN I ASK YOU WHY YOU DID THAT?
- WASN'T IT A STOP SIGN?
- LET'S NOT STOP ON THE GAS...
NO, THERE WAS NO
STOP SIGN THERE.
IT WAS SOME...
THAT STOP SIGN
WAS FOR ANOTHER ROAD.
- IT WASN'T FOR THE ROAD THAT WE WERE TRAVELING ON.
- RIGHT.
IT WAS FOR A DIFFERENT ROAD.
NEXT TRAFFIC SIGNAL WE COME TO,
WE'LL BE MAKING A RIGHT TURN.
IT'S A BIG BEND IN THE ROAD.
AND WE'LL BE MAKING
A RIGHT TURN...
AT THIS TRAFFIC SIGNAL...
HOWEVER YOU CAN SAFELY GET US...
IF WE HAVE TO GO
PAST IT, WE CAN.
- YOU TOLD ME A RIGHT TURN?
- A RIGHT TURN, CORRECT.
AND I PASSED IT.
THAT'S OKAY... WE CAN
GET US TURNED AROUND
AND WE'LL GO BACK AND
THEN WE'LL MAKE A LEFT TURN.
THESE PLACES HAVE SO
MANY CLOSED-OFF PLACES.
I GUESS I... -
"RESIDENTS ONLY."
CAN'T GO UP THERE.
DIG IN.
OH.
OH, SHOOT.
NO. I'M TRYING TO DECIDE, SHOULD
I GO UP THERE AND TURN AROUND?
BUT I GUESS I'LL
DO IT LIKE THIS.
THIS IS THE
HARDEST THING I HAVE TO DO TODAY.
SO HOW YOU THINK YOU DID?
IF THEY TELL ME I CAN'T DRIVE...
YOU'RE GONNA BE JUST FINE.
I'M GONNA BE IN TROUBLE.
WE'LL COME AND TAKE YOU
WHEREVER YOU NEED TO GO.
THAT ISN'T THE POINT.
WE'VE TOLD YOU THAT 1,000 TIMES.
MRS. FOUNTAINROY WILL
COME AND TAKE YOU TO CHURCH.
THAT'S TAKING AWAY
MY INDEPENDENCE.
WE GO TO CHURCH WITH YOU ON
FOURTH SUNDAYS AND WE DRIVE.
THAT DON'T MAKE... THAT
DON'T HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH
ME GOING SOMEPLACE EVERY DAY...
WHAT I WANT TO DO.
BUT YOU SAID YOURSELF YOU
DON'T GO SOMEPLACE EVERY DAY.
I DON'T.
BUT I KNOW THAT
I CAN IF I WANT TO.
I'M GONNA SIT AT THE
HEAD OF THE TABLE.
YOU SIT AT THE
HEAD OF THE TABLE.
YEAH.
HONESTLY, IT'S BOTH
STEVE, MYSELF AND PAT,
YOU KNOW, RECOMMENDATION
THAT YOU CONTINUE TO FOLLOW
YOUR DOCTOR'S
ADVICE AND NOT DRIVE.
- YOU MEAN I CAN'T DRIVE AGAIN?
- NOT DRIVE.
- I CAN'T DRIVE?
- RIGHT.
OKAY.
REALLY, WHAT YOU ALL
ARE TELLING ME IS THAT
I HAVE LOST MY INDEPENDENCE.
WE...
YOU KNOW, IT SOMETIMES...
IT... YOU KNOW WHAT? I THINK
THIS IS A HUGE ISSUE FOR HER.
- OH, IT IS.
- AND IT'S NOT JUST YOU,
FANNIE, AND YOU KNOW...
'CAUSE WHEN YOU STOP DRIVING,
YOU CAN'T
GO WHEN YOU WANT TO GO;
YOU CAN'T DO THE THINGS
THAT MAYBE YOU WANT TO DO
WITHOUT A LOT OF EXTRA PLANNING.
WE LOVE YOU AND WE
WANT YOU TO BE SAFE.
AND IF YOU HAVE TO BE UPSET
WITH US WHILE WE KEEP YOU SAFE,
THAT'S OKAY.
THAT'S...
THIS IS... THIS IS
REALLY SOMETHING.
I'M VERY DISAPPOINTED
TO THINK THAT I CAN'T GO
WHERE I WANT TO GO ANYMORE.
HAVE A GOOD DAY.
YOU TOO.
- THAT WAY.
- WHAT WAY?
- THAT WAY.
- OH, THIS WAY.
WE HAD MOVED OUT HERE...
I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT I WANTED TO DO.
DA DA DA DA... I DID PAYROLL
AND ALL THAT KIND OF STUFF.
AND I SAT DOWN AT A COMPUTER...
THE VERY EARLY '80s...
AND THAT WAS THAT.
I JUST FELL IN LOVE.
AND I HELPED A
COUPLE OF COMPANIES
BECOME SOME OF THE
LARGEST IN THE WORLD.
I KNEW ABOUT DVDs AND CDs
LONG BEFORE THEY
EVER CAME OUT...
MAYBE 'CAUSE I
HELPED DEVELOP THEM.
I HAD PEOPLE THAT...
THEY WOULD SAY,
"YOU REALLY LOVE THIS,"
BECAUSE I WOULD SHINE;
MY EYES WOULD BRIGHTEN.
AND THEY'RE TALKING HERE AND I'M
ALREADY 15 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD,
YOU KNOW, SAYING, "NO NO NO.
WE'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THIS;
WE'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THAT."
I WAS A GENIUS.
NOW I'M JUST NOT.
SORRY, A MAN NEEDS NOURISHMENT.
MAN WAS NOT LET...
MEANT TO LIVE ON BREAD ALONE.
THE M&Ms THROWN IN
THERE... YOU'RE GOOD TO GO.
MM-HMM.
THIS IS MY BLOG.
THIS IS MY FIRST.
IT SAYS "I TRULY
HOPE THOSE WITH A.D.,
AND HELPING AND
SHARING, USE THIS BLOG.
IT GETS LONELY OUT
HERE IN MY OWN MIND
WHICH IS RATHER
CONFUSING... FRUSTRATED."
I HAVEN'T MASTERED
FINDING THINGS.
YOU KNOW, WHAT THE HELL?
I GET LOST IN MY OWN YARD.
I FORGET WHAT I AM DOING, HOW
TO GET BACK INTO THE HOUSE,
AND STAND THERE
WONDERING WHETHER...
WHATEVER I WONDER, AND THUS FAR
HAVE FOUND MY WAY BACK.
I HAVE GROWN AFRAID TO
LEAVE MY HOME... HOUSE,
BECAUSE I AM NOT SURE
THAT EVEN GOING TO THE MAILBOX
I WILL STOP AND
REMEMBER TO COME BACK.
I WAKE UP GENERALLY
AROUND 6:00 A.M.
AND THE NEXT THING I...
I AM REALLY AWARE OF,
IT IS 4:00 OR 5:00
IN THE AFTERNOON.
WHAT SCARES ME IS
NOT THE NOT KNOWING,
BUT WHEN WILL THAT LINE COME
WHERE I STEP OVER
AND I DON'T COME BACK?
THAT'S WHEN THIS THING
REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY
REALLY REALLY REALLY
BOTHERS... STARTS TO BOTHER ME
AND HIT HOME THAT...
GOT... GOT SOMETHING IN HERE
THAT I FOUND AND I
CAN'T REMEMBER WHERE...
WHERE I PUT IT.
TOOK MY GRANDDAUGHTER
TO THE PARK TO PLAY
AND WALK AND ENJOY HER COMPANY
AND DO WHAT GRANDPAS DO...
WHATEVER THAT IS.
BACK AGAIN!
I WAS CLUMSY AND
FEELING QUITE UNSTABLE,
BOTH UPSTAIRS AND BODILY SIZE.
LEAVING, THINGS WENT
TO HELL IN A HANDBASKET.
I FORGOT WHERE WE WERE.
LUCKILY, SHE TOOK MY HAND
AND KNEW WHERE TO GO.
THIS IS MY LIFE NOW...
ONE DAY AT A TIME.
IT LEAVES ME FURTHER
BEHIND AND I CAN'T CATCH UP.
YOU MADE ME DROP EVERYTHING.
- I DIDN'T MAKE YOU DO THAT.
- YES, YOU DID.
HE STARTED ON THIS
PROJECT THIS MORNING.
HE DECIDED IT
WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA
TO TAPE OFF FOR
PAINTING THE HALLWAY.
YOU KNOW YOU'RE GETTING
TO BE A PEST, WOMAN.
THAT'S WHY YOU MARRIED ME.
WHAT? FOR YOU TO PESTER ME?
YEAH.
I DON'T THINK SO.
I THOUGHT IT WAS FOR THE SEX.
- NO.
- NO?
- NO.
- OH.
GIVE IT UP, KIDDO;
IT'S NOT FOR THE SEX.
WELL, SURE AS SHIT FOOLED ME.
YOU KNOW HOW
THEY TALK ABOUT E.D.?
I DON'T HAVE E...
I DON'T HAVE E.D.;
I HAVE WHAT I CALL D.D.S...
"DEAD DICK SYNDROME."
IT...
SINCE I GOT ON THE MEDICA...
SOME OF THE MEDICATIONS
ON THAT... THE ONE
THAT WAS PUT ON...
IT BECAME INSTANTANEOUS.
THE FIRST DAY I
TOOK IT, IT WAS OVER.
IT WAS OVER.
I MEAN,
NOW ALL IT DOES IS
SWING IN THE BREEZE
AND PIDDLE.
I'M NOT DOING
WELL THIS MORNING.
MY... MY...
MY WORLD ISN'T TOO STABLE.
AND TO PUT IT QUITE BLUNTLY...
I DON'T EVEN WANT
TO SEE YOUR FACES.
YOU KNOW?
I MEAN, IT'S NOTHING
AGAINST YOU.
I JUST DON'T...
WANT TO BE BOTHERED AND THAT.
YOUR HAIR LOOKS NICE TODAY.
I'M
GLAD YOU FIXED IT.
THANK YOU. THAT WAS
SO KIND OF YOU TO NOTICE.
YES.
AND HOW ARE YOU AND LYNN DOING?
FINE.
WE... WE... WE... SHE
KNOWS TO LEAVE ME ALONE.
- "LEAVE ME ALONE."
- YEAH.
- "JUST LEAVE ME ALONE FOR A WHILE."
- LEAVE ME ALONE.
I'LL BE OKAY; EVERYTHING
WILL GO ALL RIGHT.
- OKAY.
- THE PERSON I WAS
IS NOT THERE ANYMORE
IN ITS ENTIRETY.
- YES.
- IT'S... IT'S GOING
AND IT'S GOING MORE...
A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH DAY.
YOU NOTICE CHANGES EVERY DAY?
THAT MUCH? I MEAN...
YEAH, I CAN FEEL
'EM. I CAN FEEL 'EM.
- I CAN FEEL THE
LITTLE SLICES... - UH-HUH.
LIKE SOMEBODY'S IN THERE
CHUCKLING AS THEY'RE SLICING,
SHAVING THE MEAT AT
THE MEAT COUNTER AWAY.
YOU KNOW, LIKE YOUR LUNCH-MEAT?
- YEAH.
- AND RATHER THAN TAKING SLICES,
- HOW THEY SHAVE IT.
- YEAH.
- AND IT'S JUST THAT LITTLE
SHAVE... LITTLE... - RIGHT.
LITTLE SCRAPINGS AND
LITTLE PIECES COMING OFF.
A TINY BIT BUT IT'S JUST...
- JUST... BUT IT'S...
- PROGRESSIVE.
BUT IT'S... YEAH.
I TOLD LYNN AND THE KIDS
WHEN IT GETS TO THE POINT
TO WHERE I FEEL
- THAT I'M STEPPING
OVER THE LINE... - YEAH.
GOING TO BECOME TOTALLY
A DIFFERENT PERSON...
- UH-HUH.
- THAT THEY WILL ALL BE GIVEN A HUG AND A KISS
AND SAID GOODBYE TO.
AND I WILL LEAVE.
AND I WILL TAKE CARE OF IT.
- YEAH.
- IT'LL BE OVER, SAID AND DONE.
IT WILL BE DONE TILL THERE
IS NO WAY TO SAVE ME.
THERE'LL BE NO WAY TO SAVE ME.
THERE'LL BE NO GUN;
THERE'S OTHER WAYS TO DO IT
THAT ARE 100% SURE
WITHIN SECONDS.
BUT IT'S NOT TIME.
NOT QUITE.
IT'S GETTING THERE.
YOU FEEL IT COMING?
YEAH.
IT'S GETTING THERE.
AS WE LEAVE THE
DEARLY DEPARTED HOME
OF JOSEPH POTOCNY
WHO IS SOON TO BE GONE,
WE FIND HIS NEW HOME.
IT SAYS "THAT'S HOME."
I WANT YOU TO KNOW THEY
KEEP ME IN THE CLOSET.
THAT'S MY HOME.
THAT'S WHERE I'M GONNA BE...
ALL CRUMPLED UP...
ALL THIS FATNESS HERE
CRUMPLED UP AND
PUT INSIDE THERE...
THE LITTLE BOTTLE. THERE'S
A LITTLE BOTTLE IN THERE.
IT'S DEPRESSING WHEN
HE TALKS LIKE THAT.
I MEAN, 'CAUSE...
I KNOW. I LOVE YOU TOO.
BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT
TO LOSE A PERSON THAT
YOU JUST CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT.
AND THAT'S WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.
ONE THING I HAVE
TRIED TO SAY TO THOSE I LOVE
AND CARE ABOUT...
MY FRIENDS, MY FAMILY,
WHOEVER THEY MAY BE;
I NO LONGER KNOW FOR SURE...
IS NOT TO CRY FOR
ME WHEN I AM GONE,
BOTH MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY.
SO WHILE I CAN SAY IT
AND HAVE THE WILL TO,
I BID ALL THOSE I HAVE KNOWN
A FOND FAREWELL
AND HOPE I HAVE LEFT
SOMETHING GOOD IN YOUR LIVES.
I AM NOT GOING TODAY,
BUT YOU NEVER KNOW... HA!
BUT I NEED TO GET THIS
OUT OF ME BEFORE I FORGET
OR DO NOT HAVE
THE TIME TO DO SO.
SOME OF MY FAMILY
WILL READ THIS;
OTHERS WON'T... THE
SAME AS FRIENDS AS SO ON,
BECAUSE THEY ARE AS
CAUGHT UP IN THEIR OWN LIVES
AND MINE IS NOT THAT IMPORTANT
IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS.
GOODBYE.
I DON'T KNOW.
I THINK SHE WENT OUT.
WELL, SHE WAS REALLY
WONDERFUL THIS MORNING.
SHE GOT ME DRESSED...
A NEW DRESS.
THIS OLD CLOTHING HERE...
YOU HAVE CROWNS IN YOURS?
YEAH.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
THEY'RE ON THE CHAIR.
THEY'RE ANIMALS
WITH LONG LEGS.
THERE'S SO MANY OF THEM THAT
WERE LIKE THAT IN THE BOXES.
OH!
HERE'S THE PARTY!
THAT'S IT!
BRUCE IS COMING. BRUCE HERE.
IT'S 10 TO 11:00.
IT'S GETTING INTO 12:00.
IT'S GETTING...
- WHO IS RUTH?
- RUTH IS A FRIEND THAT I MET HERE.
WE TALK TO EACH
OTHER IN THE MIRROR.
OH, OKAY.
YEAH.
I ASKED HER TO COME OVER BUT
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO COME OVER.
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO COME OVER?
SHE JUST STAYS IN THE MIRROR?
YEAH.
YOU GONNA SHOW RUTH
WHAT YOU MADE FOR HER?
- YEAH.
- OKAY, LET'S GO DO IT.
CAN YOU COME AND GET IT?
'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO DO WITH IT.
I DON'T THINK SHE COULD TAKE IT
BUT YOU COULD SHOW HER
WHAT YOU MADE, THOUGH.
PUT IT ON THE ONE IN THE WALLS.
- WHAT WALLS?
- PUT IT ON THE WALL.
WHAT WALL?
THE WALL BY THE BED.
- OVER HERE?
- NO, OVER THERE.
OH, IN THERE?
SHE LOOKS LIKE YOU.
NO.
I THINK SHE LOOKS LIKE YOU.
SHE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING TO ME.
MAYBE IT TAKES HER
TIME TO SAY SOMETHING.
OH, I DON'T KNOW. I'M
TIRED OF TALKING TO HER
THROUGH THE WINDOW.
YOU WANT TO MEET
HER FACE TO FACE?
NO NO.
- NOT TODAY?
- I TOLD HER MANY TIMES,
BE AT YOUR DOOR
AND I'LL BE AT MY DOOR.
- MM-HMM.
- AND YOU KNOW SHE HAD ME WAIT THERE
AND SHE NEVER CAME OUT.
LOOK AT THIS! IT'S A SNAKE!
DOES ANYBODY HAVE A KNIFE?
WHERE IT IS?
HERE!
THERE'S NOTHING THERE, YOLANDA.
IT'S NOT A SNAKE.
- YOU'VE NOTHING...
- YES, IT IS.
RIGHT, IT'S NOT A SNAKE.
YOU TRY TO MAKE EVERYTHING
SIMPLE BUT YOU CAN'T.
YOU CAN'T.
OH, GOD! IT'S
RIGHT ON TOP OF ME.
IT'S RIGHT
ON TOP OF ME!
IT'S COMING AFTER ME!
IT'S COMING AFTER ME!
IT'S COMING AFTER ME!
PLEASE TAKE IT
AWAY! I'M GOING CRAZY!
I'M GOING CRAZY!
PLEASE! HE'S RIGHT ON TOP OF ME.
WHAT'S ON TOP OF YOU?
WHAT'S ON TOP OF YOU?
PUT ME ON THE BED.
WHAT IS IT?
PUT ME ON THE BED!
WHAT'S WRONG?
- WHAT?
- WHAT'S WRONG?
I GOT ALL OF THEM OFF
THIS MORNING, REMEMBER?
THEY NOT IN THERE NO MORE!
THIS IS NO LIFE.
THEY ALL GONE! WE GOING
TO GET OUR HAIR DONE.
WHERE'S THE MAN?
PAT GONNA DO YOUR HAIR, OKAY?
YOU'LL BE OKAY WITH ME.
- HE'LL LEAVE.
- YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
TALK TO HER, SUE.
TELL HER IT'S OKAY.
- HI.
- YOU'RE WAVING.
HI, YOLANDA.
YOLANDA?
HI.
IT'S ALL RIGHT, DEAR.
- UH-OH.
- WE'RE ALL HERE.
WE REALLY ARE.
SEE? YOU'VE
GOT A FRIEND HERE.
OH, THE
SHAMPOO FEELS GOOD.
I KNOW!
WHAT I... WHAT I'LL DO
IS I'LL SMASH 'EM DOWN
SO THEY'LL DIE.
GONE?
- BUT HE'S STILL THERE.
- WHERE?
I'M GONNA KILL 'EM!
WHAT ABOUT NOW?
IS IT GONE?
NO.
IT'S STILL THERE?
I GOT A NEW WHEELCHAIR FOR YOU.
THAT'S MUCH...
THIS HAS GOT TO GO.
GET IT OUT OF HERE!
THERE'S NO MORE...
TAKE IT OUT OF HERE.
IS THAT BETTER?
- YES.
- YES, IT IS.
AHH!
HEAVEN!
- AHH!
- IS THAT WHAT IT IS?
- YEAH.
- OKAY.
YOUR HAIR IS PERFECT.
MY HAIR?
WHERE'S YOUR SON AT NOW?
I DON'T KNOW WHERE HE IS.
YOU DON'T?
IS HE HERE IN MARYLAND?
IT'S SUCH A
NICE DAY OUTSIDE.
KEEP EATING, SWEETIE.
I'M YOUR SON ROBERTO.
- WHAT?
- I'M YOUR SON ROBERTO.
THIS IS A VERY DEAR
FRIEND OF MINE.
I'M YOUR SON.
- WHAT?
- I'M YOUR SON.
YOU KNOW THAT.
- NO, YOU'RE NOT MY SON.
- YES.
WHERE IS MY SON?
IT'S KIND OF DIFFICULT
TO SEE YOUR MOM
AWAY FROM HOME AND...
YOU KNOW, BY HERSELF, BUT
SHE'S GOT GOOD FRIENDS HERE
SO THAT COMFORTS
ME A LITTLE BIT.
IT'S DIFFICULT AT TIMES WHEN
SHE DOESN'T RE... RECALL WHO I AM
OR MY NAME, SO...
REMEMBER, WE GOT PICTURES
OF THE DOG? REMEMBER DAKOTA?
PICTURES OF WHAT?
THE PICTURE WITH
DAKOTA, THE HUSKIE.
REMEMBER HIM?
WHAT?
THE DOG; THE HUSKIE. AND TIKI,
REMEMBER? THE GERMAN SHEPHERD?
OH.
YOU REMEMBER THOSE DAYS?
YEAH.
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THEN.
LOOK HERE, LOOK...
THIS IS THE ONE WHERE
THERE'S THE MOTHERS-VERSUS-
THE-SON BASEBALL GAME.
THAT'S MOM RIGHT THERE.
YEAH.
I... I TRIED TO GET TO FIRST
BASE AND I COULDN'T DO IT.
YUP.
AND THERE'S THE DOG.
THAT'S YOU WITH DAKOTA.
REMEMBER DAKOTA, THE DOG?
YEAH.
OKAY, I'LL SEE YOU SOON. OKAY?
SEE YOU ON THE WEEKEND?
YES, I'LL BE HERE ON SATURDAY.
- WHAT?
- I'LL BE HERE ON SATURDAY.
I'LL COME SEE YOU ON SATURDAY.
OKAY? AND I'LL BRING
ALEX AND THE DOG.
YEAH.
ALL RIGHT. LOVE YOU.
TAKE CARE.
ALL RIGHT, LOVE YOU.
- THANK YOU.
- SEE YOU.
HE STARTED SINGING
WHEN HE WAS A BOY SOPRANO.
HE USED TO SING SOLOS IN CHURCH
AND HE DID LOTS OF
THINGS WITH MUSIC.
HE TOOK SO MUCH
PLEASURE IN THAT.
IT MADE HIM HAPPY.
WE'D ALWAYS KID HIM
ABOUT HIS CRINKLY EYES...
AND... AND HIS LITTLE SMILE
AND HIS LOOK OF LOVE.
IT'S VERY SPECIAL TO ME.
WHAT A SWEET MAN.
AND SOMETIMES I
CAN'T LOOK AT IT AT ALL.
I SEE HOW MUCH I'VE LOST.
HERE WE GO NOW!
NOTHING THERE.
NOTHING THERE.
NOTHING THERE.
NOTHING HERE.
AND NOTHING THERE.
NOPE, NOT GOING THERE.
I'M GOING ELSEWHERE.
KATHY, SPENCER WHO?
YOU CAN COME IN, WOODY.
I WILL.
KATHERINE
HEPBURN AND SPENCER...
SPENCER TRACY.
WHO WAS...
WHO WAS MORTIMER SNERD?
CAN'T DO IT.
WHO WAS MORTIMER SNERD?
DON'T LIKE IT.
MORTIMER SNERD
WAS JACK BENNY'S...
THE LITTLE GUY
THAT SAT ON HIS LAP.
THEY CALLED HIM MORTIMER SNERD.
IF YOU HAVE A BAT
AND YOU HAVE A BALL
AND YOU HAVE FOUR BASES
AND A GLOVE, WHAT
ARE WE PLAYING?
NO IDEA.
- BASEBALL.
- BASEBALL!
OH, GOOD JOB.
GOOD JOB.
IF YOU HAVE A PIECE OF CHALK
OUTSIDE ON THE SIDEWALK...
WHAT'S UP?
WAIT... WAIT FOR ME.
- HUH?
- WAIT FOR ME.
WAIT FOR YOU?
- YEAH.
- I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'M GOING.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO KNOW WHERE
YOU'RE GOING AROUND HERE.
I WONDER WHERE ELSE I SHOULD GO.
WHERE ELSE DO YOU
THINK I SHOULD GO?
OKAY, THERE YOU GO, CLARA.
ISN'T IT A NICE DAY OUTSIDE?
ISN'T IT "BURBLY" LAND
HERE WITH ALL OF THE...
ALL OF THIS?
YOU WANT TO GO IN?
WELL, I'LL... I WANT TO DO
WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO.
THIS ISN'T A VERY NICE PLACE.
LET'S GO SOMEWHERE TOGETHER.
HE'S MY HUSBAND.
WONDERFUL.
WE'RE LUCKY.
YES, WE ARE.
I WONDER WHERE I SHOULD GO.
HI, HOW ARE YOU?
WE'LL GO IN HERE.
IS THERE ANYBODY IN HERE?
I DON'T THINK SO.
LET'S SEE.
NO.
YOU WANT TO SIT DOWN THERE?
I'LL SIT HERE.
THAT'S NICE. I'M
GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
YOU CAN LIE DOWN, SWEETHEART.
DO YOU WANT TO LIE DOWN?
- YEAH, I WANT TO LIE DOWN.
- WHY DON'T YOU GO OVER THERE?
LET'S GO OVER HERE.
THERE HE IS. HI, DAD.
HI! THAT'S WONDERFUL!
- HI, DAD.
- I'M GLAD WE'RE HERE.
- HOW ARE YOU?
- I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
HOW ARE YOU? HI, KATHY.
- HOW ARE YOU?
- GOOD TO SEE YOU.
- THANK YOU.
- ARE YOU HAVING A GOOD DAY?
- COME AND SIT DOWN.
- YES.
SIT OVER THERE. SIT RIGHT THERE.
- WE HAVE TO BRUSH HIS HAIR.
- SIT RIGHT THERE.
- HE WANTS YOU TO SIT RIGHT THERE.
- HI, KATHY.
- HOW ARE YOU?
- I'M FINE.
YOU LOOK VERY PRETTY.
THAT'S A PRETTY COLOR FOR YOU.
YOU KNOW WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO
TONIGHT? WE'RE GONNA GO TO THE GRUNIONS.
WE'RE GONNA SEE ALL THE GRUNIONS
AND WE'RE GONNA BE SINGING...
- WE'RE GONNA GO SEE THEM?
- YEAH.
- THAT'LL BE FUN.
- YEAH, YOU CAN SING IN IT.
- I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN.
- YES, YOU CAN.
I DON'T KNOW, BUT I'M GLAD
I CAN BE WITH YOU GUYS.
- SHOULD WE GO?
- MM-HMM.
- OKAY.
- SAY GOODBYE TO KATHY.
HERE WE GO. HI.
GOOD TO SEE YOU.
- HE'LL BE BACK LATER.
- WE'LL BE BACK LATER.
- OKAY.
- SEE YOU LATER.
SHOULD WE GO?
YOU CAN PROBABLY
DO IT BETTER THAN I CAN.
WHAT'S HAPPENING AT 7:00?
YOU'RE GONNA JUST FOR FUN
BE SINGING WITH THE GRUNIONS.
AND JUST, LIKE, THEY
CALL IT REHEARSING.
ARE WE GONNA BE
WITH THE GRUNIONS?
- YEAH, WE'RE GONNA DO THE GRUNIONS TONIGHT.
- WHEN, TONIGHT?
IN REALLY LIKE ABOUT 15 MINUTES
- WE'RE GONNA BE WITH THE GRUNIONS.
- THAT'LL BE FUN TO SEE THEM.
NOTHING IS STICKING AT ALL,
EVEN FOR A MINUTE OR TWO.
IT'S LIKE A SIEVE.
WHY ARE WE DOING THIS?
RIGHT NOW WE'RE GOING TO A GRUNION...
WHAT'S CALLED A GRUNION INVITATIONAL.
- IT'S JUST TO HAVE FUN, DAD.
- AND YOU LOVE THE MUSIC.
YOU'LL LOVE JUST
LISTENING TO THE MUSIC.
- YEAH.
- DO YOU KNOW THOSE PEOPLE?
- YES, I DO.
- DO YOU THINK I KNOW THEM?
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A
REALLY GOOD TIME; I KNOW IT.
WE'RE GOING AROUND IN CIRCLES.
KIND OF LIKE OUR LIVES
AND OUR CONVERSATIONS.
YES, ROUND AND ROUND WE GO.
WHERE WE STOP, NOBODY KNOWS.
- I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING HERE.
- WE ARE GOING TO A PARTY.
WE'RE GOING TO A PARTY?
- WE ARE GOING TO A PARTY.
- DO I KNOW THE PARTY PEOPLE?
- YOU DO.
- WHY ARE WE GOING TO A PARTY?
'CAUSE IT'S PRETTY FUN.
AND I'M GONNA LET EVERYBODY
OFF RIGHT HERE AND I'M GONNA PARK.
- ALL RIGHT.
- WHAT SHOULD I DO?
- SO I'LL FIND YOU.
- YOU'RE COMING WITH ME, SWEETHEART.
WHERE ARE WE GOING?
- RIGHT IN HERE.
- WHICH SIDE?
YEP, THIS SIDE.
RIGHT IN THERE? WE'RE
GONNA GO IN THERE?
MM-HMM.
LET'S SEE HERE... WE GOTTA
GO THROUGH THIS HALL.
- WHAT AM I DOING NOW?
- YOU'RE GETTING YOUR TIE TIED BY AN EXPERT.
YEAH, BUT WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN?
UM, YOU'RE GONNA LOOK BEAUTIFUL
AND YOU'LL PROBABLY
BE SIGNING AUTOGRAPHS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING.
WELL, THERE'S GONNA
BE A GRUNIONS CONCERT.
YOU KNOW, HE WAS A BIG
HOME AND YOUNG PERSON.
HERE'S MRS. TAYLOR.
- YEAH, HELLO.
- MARY TAYLOR.
YOU KNOW THAT... YOU KNOW THEM
BECAUSE SHE USED TO
CRAWL THROUGH THE FENCE.
NICE TO SEE YOU.
WE'D LIKE TO BRING
UP WOODY GEIST.
WOODY IS WHAT WE CALL A GRAP;
HE'S A RETIRED GRUNION.
AND WOODY HAS
ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE.
IT'S AN INTERESTING THING TO SEE
HIM ACTUALLY STILL SING WITH US,
UM, BECAUSE SOME OF THOSE
CONNECTIONS ARE STILL THERE
AND HE CAN... HE CAN
SING A LOT OF THE SONGS
RIGHT ALONG WITH US. SO WE'RE
GONNA BRING UP WOODY RIGHT NOW
AND WE'RE GONNA DO ONE
OF HIS... ONE OF HIS SONGS.
COME ON UP, WOOD.
SHOULD I COME UP?
WANNA SING "SHOOBY DOIN'"?
YOU CAN DO IT.
AH, ONE TWO THREE!
THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL.
- I'M JUST GLAD TO BE HERE.
- BRAVO!
FANTASTIC. YOU WERE FANTASTIC.
- I DON'T KNOW ANYBODY.
- YOU WERE WONDERFUL!
FANTASTIC.
WHAT A GREAT NIGHT.
- THAT WAS A GREAT NIGHT.
- IT WAS WONDERFUL.
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU.
SO HOW COME
WE CAME OUT HERE?
TO... TO SING WITH THE GRUNIONS.
OH, THE GRUNIONS
ARE NICE PEOPLE.
VERY NICE PEOPLE.
I'M GLAD WE CAN BE WITH THEM.
ME TOO.
THEY'RE NICE PEOPLE.
VERY NICE PEOPLE.
AREN'T WE LUCKY?
WE ARE LUCKY.
WE ARE LUCKY. I'M GLAD
WE CAN BE TOGETHER.
I'LL GET THIS ONE.
THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN.
AREN'T WE NICE TO BE TOGETHER?
WE ARE NICE TO BE TOGETHER.
I THOUGHT SO.
- I LOVE YOU, DARLING.
- I LOVE YOU.
- I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
- MM-HMM.
- ME TOO.
- GOOD.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, HONEY.
I'M GLAD WE COULD BE TOGETHER.
I WANT TO GO HOME.
I'M SCARED.
HELP ME.
HELP...
IT'S OKAY, MY DEAR.
HELP ME.
OH OH OH OH OH OH.
YEAH.
EVEN I LOOK OUT
AND SHE WAS RIGHT THERE,
YOU KNOW, IT WAS JUST THE CONSTANT
WORRY THAT SOMETHING MIGHT HAPPEN.
YOU KNOW, WHAT IF
SHE GETS OUT AND...
YOU KNOW, GETS LOST IN A
CORN-FIELD OR SOMETHING?
YOU KNOW, AND YOU HEAR ABOUT IT
ON T.V. OR IN THE
NEWSPAPER ABOUT, YOU KNOW,
"80-YEAR-OLD MAN
LOST IN..." YOU KNOW,
UM... "WANDERS AWAY
FROM HOME AND...
IS FOUND FIVE DAYS LATER
CURLED UP IN A CORN
FIELD DEAD" OR SOMETHING.
YOU KNOW, I JUST...
I FEAR THAT.
SOME FRIENDS FROM
MY SPINNING GROUP CAME
AND WE PUT ALL THIS FENCE UP.
BASICALLY, THE WHOLE
PERIMETER IS FENCED.
AND IT'S MADE A
WORLD OF DIFFERENCE.
- SHOULD I CARRY THIS?
- HMM?
CAN I HAVE THIS?
- - YEAH.
- CAN I HAVE THIS?
I'LL HANG IT UP ON
THE CLOTHESLINE.
- NO.
- OKAY.
WELL, DO YOU WANT TO HANG IT UP?
CAN I HAVE IT?
- HO HO HO HO HO.
- HEY, CAN I HAVE THAT?
HO HO HO HO HO.
OKAY, WHY DON'T YOU KEEP IT?
HO HO HO HO HO HO.
- HELLO.
- HELLO.
WHOOPSY-DAISY.
- BING.
- THANK YOU.
HO HO HO HO HO HO.
THIS BASICALLY IS WANDERING...
JUST SORT OF AIMLESS
WALKING ABOUT,
FIDDLING WITH THINGS.
OH, NO, WE GOTTA
LEAVE THE CAT FOOD.
NO, YOU CAN'T EAT THAT.
- YEAH YEAH YEAH.
- NO, THAT'S FOR THE CATS.
YEAH, I BETTER...
- HO HO HO HO.
- I NEED TO FIND A BETTER SPOT
TO FEED THE CATS, I GUESS.
YOU GOT SOME PEAS AND A
SQUASH TO HAVE FOR SUPPER.
OH, DON'T BREAK IT, PLEASE.
HO HO HO HO HO.
HEY, YOU SQUASH BANDIT.
SHE LEAVES LITTLE...
VIGNETTES, YOU MIGHT SAY,
THAT I FIND AROUND THE HOUSE
AND I TAKE PICTURES OF THEM.
IT SHOWS ME THE LITTLE
GLIMMERS THAT SHE'S STILL THERE.
I'M SENSING ANOTHER
PHOTO OPPORTUNITY HERE,
THE WAY SHE'S CAREFULLY
ARRANGING HER PEAS THERE.
WOULD YOU LIKE ONE?
- UM...
- NO? OKAY.
THIS IS ONE OF MOM'S PAINTINGS
THAT SHE DID MANY YEARS AGO.
SHE PAINTED A LOT.
UNFORTUNATELY, SHE PAINTED
OVER MANY OF THE PAINTINGS
WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED.
SHE... SO NOW WE HAVE A
LOT OF WHITE CANVASES
THAT WE KNOW USED
TO HAVE SOMETHING.
SHE ALSO PAINTED ON ROCKS.
SHE PAINTED A LOT OF ROCKS.
GROWING UP, WE WERE ALWAYS
WALKING ALONG THE LAKE,
PICKING UP AGATES
AND JUST WALKING.
LOOK AT THIS ONE, MOM.
- HMM? EAT?
- YEAH.
OH... OH, NO. OH.
THAT WAS A MISTAKE.
- CAN I HAVE IT, PLEASE?
- MM-HMM.
IT'S A STONE.
YEAH, MOM?
TAKE IT OUT.
- NO, I DON'T WANT TO.
- YEAH.
- I HAVE TO TAKE IT OUT.
- NO! I'M NOT GONNA...
YEAH. OKAY, SPIT IT OUT THEN.
YEAH YEAH YEAH.
- MOM, SPIT IT OUT.
- NO.
TAKE IT OUT OF YOUR MOUTH.
NO, I DON'T WANNA.
I CAN'T SEE IT.
MOM?
TAKE... TAKE IT OUT.
HERE. SPIT IT OUT.
WHERE IS IT? WHAT'S IN
YOUR MOUTH? LET ME SEE.
MOM, WHERE IS IT?
MOM.
- I'M SORRY, MOM.
- NO, I DON'T WANT TO GO...
I KNOW, I KNOW.
- AH AH AH AH.
- HOLD ON A MINUTE.
- THERE.
- THERE, I FEEL BETTER NOW.
WELL, THAT WAS A MISTAKE TO...
JUST WANTED TO SHOW IT TO HER.
- YEAH.
- SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER.
SORRY ABOUT THAT,
MOM. THAT WAS MY FAULT.
HO HO HO HO HO.
THAT WAS SO STUPID. I SHOULD HAVE
KNOWN SHE WOULD HAVE DONE THAT...
'CAUSE SHE ALWAYS
PUTS STUFF IN HER MOUTH.
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.
YOU WANNA COLOR?
MM-HMM.
- DO YOU WANT TO LOOK AT THIS ONE?
- MM-HMM.
YOU TIRED?
MM-HMM.
TWO? JUST TWO?
OH, YOU GUYS ARE READY.
I HAVE FOUR LLAMAS
AND SIX ALPACAS.
I RAISE THEM FOR THE FIBER...
UM, SHEAR THEM
AND WASH THE FIBER;
CART IT; SPIN IT UP INTO YARN
AND THEN MAKE
THINGS WITH THE YARN.
I USED TO WORK FULL
TIME UP IN THE CITIES
BUT I CAN'T DO IT
ANYMORE WITH MOM.
SO I'M JUST TRYING TO
MAKE ENDS MEET BASICALLY.
WHAT YOU GOT THERE?
WHAT'S THAT ONE?
- THESE?
- YEAH.
ONE TWO THREE TWO THREE.
TWO THREE TWO THREE.
- HO HO HO HO HO HO.
- OKAY.
YOU KNOW, I NEVER HAD CHILDREN,
SO I ALMOST FEEL LIKE I'VE
GAINED MOTHERHOOD SOMEHOW.
YOU KNOW, AND SOMETIMES
SHE DOES CALL ME "MOM."
SO MUCH OF HER ISN'T THERE,
BUT THERE'S STILL A
LOT OF HER THERE TOO.
WE'RE JUST GONNA GO
THIS WAY TO GET THE MAIL.
HO HO HO HO HO.
MOM?
- MOM?
- WHAT?
COME ON, MOM. WE'RE GONNA
WALK DOWN THE DRIVEWAY.
- HEY?
- WHAT?
YOU HAVE TO TURN AROUND.
GO THIS WAY.
COME ON, DOGS.
BO BO BO BO BO BO.
GOODBYE GOODBYE
GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE.
And a big ol' hello
to you, boys and girls.
Hi there. Good
to see all of you.
Don't we have some nice-looking
boys and girls in our clubhouse?
YEAH, BOY.
HEY, HONEY
BUN, WHAT YOU DOIN'?
WELL, I'M TRYING
TO GET OUT OF HERE.
WELL, LET'S
PUT YOUR LEGS BACK.
YOU GONNA CUT THE
CIRCULATION OFF OF 'EM.
- I JUST WANNA GET OUT.
- I KNOW IT, DARLIN',
BUT YOU CAN'T GET OUT THAT WAY.
NOW IS THAT BETTER?
HOW ABOUT NOT TRYING
TO GET OUT OF BED HERE?
'CAUSE I NEED TO GO COOK DINNER,
AND IF YOU'RE GONNA BE
TRYING TO CRAWL OUT OF BED,
I'M GONNA HAVE TO STAY IN HERE AND
WATCH YOU, AND I NEED TO GO COOK.
- I GOTTA GO.
- WELL, WE HAVEN'T GOT TO GO RIGHT NOW.
I'VE GOT TO GO COOK.
SO YOU BE REAL STILL
AND STAY HERE AND REST
- TILL I GET DINNER FIXED.
- OKAY.
AFTER I GET IT...
AS SOON AS I GET IT.
AS YOU CAN SEE WITH HIM
TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED,
IT'S THAT HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE
SOMEWHERE TO DO SOMETHING.
AND HE DOESN'T REALIZE THAT
HE'S IN THE BED AND CAN'T GET UP.
SO HE KEEPS TRYING,
YOU KNOW, WHEN... WHEN HE'S
IN ONE OF THESE POSITIONS.
NOW I GAVE HIM SOME
MEDICINE THIS AFTERNOON
THAT SHOULD HAVE
CALMED HIM DOWN,
BUT IT HASN'T DONE VERY MUCH,
YOU KNOW, TO DO IT, AS YOU CAN SEE.
BUT... AND WE MAY HAVE TO INCREASE
THAT OR START SOMETHING ELSE
IF HE STAYS THIS WAY,
BECAUSE IT'S NOT GOOD FOR HIM.
YOU GONNA DO ME A
MAGIC TRICK TODAY?
WELL...
I DON'T KNOW.
WELL, YOU KNOW YOU ALWAYS
DO ME ONE WHEN I COME.
YOU DOING OKAY TODAY?
MM-HMM.
UH-HUH. ARE YOU TIRED?
- NO.
- NO?
YOU CAN SEE BY LOOKING AT
HIM, HIS MUSCLES HAVE REALLY WASTED,
YOU KNOW, BECAUSE HE'S NOT...
NOT EATING LIKE HE SHOULD.
I RATHER SUSPECT
THAT IT'S THE BODY'S WAY
OF SHUTTING DOWN.
THEY DON'T NEED
AS MUCH NUTRITION...
UH...
AS THEY... THEY DID WHEN
THEY WERE MOVING AROUND
OR HEALTHY.
AND WHEN THE BODY
STARTS SHUTTING DOWN,
THEN... THEN YOU REQUIRE LESS...
FOOD.
NOW CLIFF HAD
OPEN-HEART SURGERY.
AND ALL THIS BUTTER
AND EVERYTHING,
THE HEART DOCTORS
WOULD FLIP OUT, PROBABLY,
TO SEE ME DO THIS.
BUT I FIGURE AT
THIS POINT IN TIME,
NOT REALLY IMPORTANT.
ALL THIS BUTTER
AND SUGAR... HE LIKES IT SWEET.
AND HEAVY CREAM.
NOW HOW COULD THAT BE BAD?
HE LIKES THINGS ALMOST
LIKE CHILDREN DO NOW.
OKAY.
YOU KNOW WHAT THIS TASTES LIKE?
WHAT?
MORE.
HE STARTED DOING MAGIC
WHEN HE GOT A BOX OF CEREAL
WITH A LITTLE
MAGIC THING IN IT...
GOT ENTHRALLED WITH MAGIC
AND STARTED BUYING THE MAGIC.
AND THAT ENDED UP BEING
WHAT HE DID FOR A LIVING.
THERE WERE 35 CHILDREN ON
"COUSIN CLIFF'S CLUBHOUSE."
AND HE DID SOME MAGIC SOMETIME
AND THEN THEY HAD "THREE
STOOGES" AND "POPEYE" CARTOONS.
AND EACH CHILD
THAT HAD A BIRTHDAY
GOT A BIRTHDAY
CAKE COME THAT DAY.
AND THEY HAD CAKES THAT THEY
CALLED "WHAM DOODLE" BIRTHDAY CAKES.
PEOPLE REMEMBER ALL THE THINGS.
HE WAS ON FOR YEARS AND YEARS
AND HAD 35 CHILDREN EVERY DAY
ON THE TELEVISION SHOW.
THERE'VE BEEN TIMES WHEN
HE'D HAVE EIGHT SHOWS IN A DAY.
I GOTTA DO A T.V. SHOW TONIGHT.
6:00 WE'LL SEE.
6:30.
AND I GOTTA MAKE ALL...
THE KIDDIES DISAPPEAR.
WOULD YOU LIKE TO SIT
UP FOR A LITTLE WHILE TODAY
AND EAT YOUR LUNCH?
WE'RE GONNA STAND
UP, OKAY? HERE WE GO.
- THANKS.
- NOW WE'RE GONNA TURN.
HERE WE GO.
THAT WAS A GOOD BOY!
MMM.
HERE YOU ARE... SOUP.
HE JUST KINDA
TUNES OUT SOMETIMES.
HE WILL LOOK TOWARD ME,
BUT I CAN TELL
HE'S NOT SEEING ME.
IT'S LIKE A... A GLASS...
JUST STARE, YOU KNOW?
YES.
DRINK MILK.
THERE'S
GONNA COME A TIME
WHEN HE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE
TO SIP THAT UP INTO A STRAW.
HE SOMETIMES HAS PROBLEMS NOW.
- YES.
- IF HE GETS TO THE POINT WHERE HE CAN'T EAT AT ALL,
THEN I WILL HONOR THOSE
CHOICES THAT HE MADE
WHEN WE MADE OUR LAST WILL,
WHICH WOULD BE NOT TO
PROLONG WITH ARTIFICIAL...
ARTIFICIAL MEASURES.
AND THAT WILL BE HARD
WHEN THAT TIME COMES.
WANT ANOTHER SANDWICH, HON?
NO, I'M THINKING ABOUT
HOW I'M GONNA GET NORTH
- TO DO A...
- YEAH?
A SHOW.
WELL, WHAT TIME ARE YOU
SUPPOSED TO BE THERE?
I'VE GOT TO BE THERE AT 7:00.
WHAT'S THE PROGRAM
FOR, DO YOU KNOW?
NO, I HAVE TO GET UP.
NO, DON'T GET UP; I'LL
GET THE CARD FOR YOU.
LET ME GO OVER TO THE DESK
AND GET THE CARD FOR YOU.
- WHAT KIND OF CARD?
- YOU ALWAYS PUT THINGS ON A CARD.
I'M SORRY, FOLKS,
BUT I'VE GOT TO...
I'VE GOT TO FIND THAT.
CAN... CAN YOU LOOK
IN THAT YELLOW THING?
IS IT THIS ONE?
HEY, THIS IS... THIS IS PINK.
- MM-HMM.
- SEE IF YOU CAN FIND THE YELLOW ONE OVER THERE.
SEE IF I CAN FIND A YELLOW ONE?
HERE. OH, HERE IT IS.
THERE.
WELL, GOLLY.
YOU READY
TO GO BATHE, CLIFF?
I'M... I'M OKAY. JUST
HOLD ON A MINUTE.
OKAY.
LET ME SEE WHAT THIS
IS... MY LITTLE BOOTS.
UH, YOU GOT A LITTLE BOOT?
YEAH.
WHAT HAVE YOU GOT, ANN?
HAVE YOU GOT... YEAH?
ASK
ANN IF SHE'LL CALL.
I'LL BET SHE'LL
CALL HIM FOR YOU.
HERE, HON. HERE'S YOUR MEDICINE.
HERE YOU GO. HERE'S
YOUR MEDICINE.
SCOOP IT OUT GOOD.
THAT ENOUGH?
THAT'S GOOD. THANK YOU.
HOW ABOUT YOU JUST GO LAY DOWN?
NO, NAH. I CAN'T GO
WITH THIS ON MY MIND.
CAN'T GO WITH THAT ON YOUR MIND?
OH, BOY.
HELLO? YES, THIS IS MRS.
HOLMAN. CAN I TAKE A MESSAGE?
OKAY, WELL, I'LL TELL HIM.
OKAY, THANK YOU.
- CLIFF?
- YEAH?
THAT WAS THE PEOPLE. THAT'S
FUNNY THAT THEY CALLED RIGHT NOW.
- HOW DO YOU KNOW?
- THEY HAVE...
THEY ASKED ME TO TELL YOU
THAT THEY HAD TO CANCEL THE SHOW
BECAUSE SOMEONE HAD GOTTEN ILL,
AND THAT THEY WOULD CALL YOU
BACK TO RESCHEDULE IT IF THAT'S OKAY.
WELL, THAT'S GOOD. LET'S
SEE IF WE CAN FIND OUT.
I CAN'T SEE. SHOOT.
- WHAT IS SHE DOING?
- SHE'S... BRENDA'S GETTING YOU IN HERE.
SHE'S THE ONE THAT
CAN GET YOU BACK
WHERE YOU BELONG.
THE MEDICATIONS
THAT HE WAS TAKING
FOR HIS ALZHEIMER'S
WAS TO TRY TO SLOW THE DISEASE.
WELL, IT'S GOTTEN
TO THE POINT NOW...
IT'S LIKE THE DOCTOR SAID:
"WHAT DO YOU WANT TO PROLONG?"
AND OF COURSE I
WANT TO PROLONG HIM.
I WANT HIM TO BE WITH ME
AS LONG AS I CAN KEEP HIM.
BUT THAT'S NOT FAIR TO HIM
WHEN HE HAS STATED THAT
THAT'S NOT WHAT HE WANTS.
AND HE REALLY HAS NO LIFE NOW.
UH, HE'S IN BED ALL THE TIME.
AND HE DOESN'T KNOW
ME PART OF THE TIME.
UH...
SO I THOUGHT HOW SELFISH OF ME...
HOW SELFISH OF ME.
I'M MAKING A PIE.
OH, I'M SO HAPPY.
I... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
YOU DON'T?
I DON'T KNOW.
SEE, I TOLD YOU MY WIFE
RIGHT NOW IS PRECIOUS.
YOUR WIFE IS?
- YES.
- WELL, WHO DO YOU THINK I AM?
WELL, LET'S SEE.
I DON'T KNOW.
YOU DON'T KNOW WHO I AM?
GOSH, I DON'T... I DON'T
KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THAT.
WHAT IF I TOLD YOU I WAS ANN?
OH, I'D DIE.
NO, I WOULDN'T. I'VE
BEEN TOO ILLITERATE.
I AM ANN.
- ARE YOU REALLY?
- I AM YOUR WIFE.
OH.
WE SURE ARE LUCKY.
YES, WE ARE.
OH, LUCKY, SHE...
YOU GOT GOOD FOOD.
- I HAVE?
- YES, BEHIND YOU THERE.
- YOU GOT... YOU'VE GOT SOME GOOD FOOD.
- I HAVE.
MM-HMM.
OH, COME IN THE
KITCHEN THEN WITH ANN.
THANKS.
WELL, THANK YOU
FOLKS FOR JOINING US.
WE'LL BE WITH YOU
AGAIN REAL SOON.
'CAUSE WE LIKE
TO BE ON TELEVISION.
GOD BLESS YOU.
OKAY.
- OKAY.
- GIVE ME A KISS.
OKAY, I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.
BYE, ANN.
THAT'S THE SWEETEST GIRL.
GOLLY.
OKAY, BYE.
Y'ALL BRING A LOT
OF ZING AND ZAGGER.
RIGHT.
AND UP HERE THE "ZABONIE,"
AND OVER HERE,
THE "ZABOMORY."
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I SAID,
BUT I HOPE THE CENSORS
ARE NOT LISTENING.
BYE!
BYE, FOLKS.
DON'T FORGET TO HAVE
A MERRY CHRISTMAS.
FORGET THESE MISFITS.
OKAY, BYE.
SEE YOU ON "SMELLEVISION."
HEY, MISS ANN.
HOW YOU DOIN'?
NOT TOO GOOD.
HEY, COUSIN CLIFF.
IT'S DR. ROBINSON.
WHAT WE'RE SEEING
IS THE FINAL TIME.
EVERYTHING JUST
KIND OF SHUTS DOWN.
THE BODY FORGETS
HOW TO DO THINGS.
WHEN SWALLOWING GOES,
DEATH IS NOT FAR BEHIND.
IT'S OKAY.
GOODBYE.
THEY HAVE SO MANY GOOD MEMORIES.
THANK YOU.
HE LOVED IT...
TODAY WE REJOICE.
WE'RE GRATEFUL FOR CLIFF,
FOR HIS LIFE AND FOR HIS FAITH;
FOR THE LEGACY, THE SMILES,
THE HAPPY THINGS
THAT HE LEAVES BEHIND.
THOSE ARE THE THINGS
THAT WE WILL REMEMBER.
HIS LOVE REMAINS WITH US...
... AND THE
MEMORIES THAT WE'LL SHARE
WILL KEEP US HAPPY;
KEEP US THINKING OF HIM
FOR YEARS TO COME.
EVERYBODY READY?
FIRST NUMBER COMING UP!
I-17!
B-8.
GOOD COOKIE.
WHERE'D I LEAVE MY CAR?
THAT MUST BE IT OVER THERE.
YEAH, I SEE THE RUST ON IT.
THROUGH SOME TESTS OF YOUR MEMORY?
GOOD LUCK.
ALL RIGHT. SOME OF THE THINGS
I'M GOING TO ASK YOU TO DO ARE
GOING TO SEEM KIND OF HARD FOR YOU.
JUST DO THE BEST
YOU CAN, ALL RIGHT?
AND I'M GONNA START JUST BY
ASKING: WHAT'S THE DATE TODAY?
THE S...
THE F...
OF WHAT MONTH?
- AUGUST.
- OKAY.
AND WHAT SEASON OF THE YEAR?
UH, SUMMER.
OKAY.
DO YOU KNOW WHO THE
PRESIDENT WAS BEFORE BUSH?
I THINK I CAN SEE HIS FACE
BUT I CAN'T THINK HIS NAME.
IT'S BILL...
CL...
STARTS WITH "CL"...
- NOT COMING, HUH?
- NOT COMING.
AHEM.
YOU'RE STILL DRIVING, CORRECT?
- YEAH.
- OKAY.
AND ARE YOU LIVING ALONE YET?
YES, WITH MY DOG.
OKAY. WHAT'S YOUR DOG'S NAME?
- SKIPPER.
- OKAY.
AND WHERE YOU LIVE... IS THAT
A HOUSE OR AN APARTMENT?
I LIVE IN THE HOUSE THAT
MY HUSBAND WAS BORN IN.
WOW.
HOW LONG HAVE YOU
LIVED IN THAT HOUSE?
1952 WAS WHEN WE BOUGHT IT.
BEEN THERE EVER SINCE.
HERE COMES OUR FEATURE
LADY... OH, SHE'S GOT HER BOOTS ON.
OH, YOU'RE GONNA
DRESS OLD-FASHIONED.
OH, I LOVE
ALL THOSE HATS.
THEY CAN'T FIND
ANYBODY ELSE IN TOWN
THAT'S GOOFY ENOUGH TO DO THIS,
SO I SAID I'D DO IT.
- - Man over
loudspeaker: WELCOME TO BIRCHWOOD.
STARTING THIS PARADE OUT HERE IN
THIS LOVELY BIRCHWOOD, WISCONSIN.
WHOO!
BESSIE! BESSIE!
- HEY!
- HELLO!
IT'S HARD
TO EXPLAIN IT...
JUST HOW...
HOW IT ACTS.
I CAN...
KNOW PEOPLE BY LOOKING AT 'EM.
AND NOW, THOUGH, IT'S GETTING SO
I'M NOT DOING TOO GOOD
A JOB AT THAT EITHER.
BUT THEY REMEMBER ME
AND THEY TELL ME WHO THEY ARE.
AND I GO, "OH, YEAH." AND
ABOUT 10 MINUTES LATER
I'VE FORGOTTEN AGAIN.
IF YOU TOOK THIS MEDICINE
TO KEEP YOU FROM GETTING WORSE...
- WELL... -... WOULD YOU
BE SATISFIED WITH THAT?
THAT IT WOULD KEEP YOU
FROM GETTING WORSE?
THERE ISN'T MUCH I CAN DO
BECAUSE IT'S GOING TO COME
REGARDLESS WHAT I TAKE.
I KNOW THAT. THERE
IS NO CURE FOR IT.
THERE IS NO CURE FOR THAT.
- NOT SO FAR.
- NO.
IF IT JUST STAYED
WHERE IT IS NOW...
IT WOULD BE FINE
IF IT COULD STAY.
- GREAT.
- YES, LIKE HARRIET, MY SISTER...
SHE FEELS LIKE SHE
HAD TWO YEARS MORE
THAN SHE WOULD IF SHE
HADN'T TAKEN THIS MEDICINE.
- THEY KEEP DOING
RESEARCH, SO... - YEAH.
YOU'RE LIVING IN...
IN A GOOD TIME.
NO, AS FAR AS I... I NEVER...
I NEVER FEEL LIKE I'M GIVING UP.
NO. I...
THAT'S WHY YOU DO SO WELL.
YEAH.
THAT'S ENOUGH.
MM-HMM.
I CAN'T REMEMBER THE NEXT LINE.
- I'M LEAVING.
- YES, YOU'RE LEAVING.
READY OR NOT, I'M LEAVING.
BYE, MOTHER. I'M NOT GONNA BE
COMING SO I'M BABYSITTING SKIPPER.
- HAVE FUN.
- YEAH, OKAY.
IF I DIDN'T KNOW
SHE HAD ALZHEIMER'S,
- I WOULDN'T THINK SHE DID.
- MM-HMM.
I'D JUST THINK, "WELL, SHE'S 88
AND SHE'S GETTING FORGETFUL."
'CAUSE WE ALL ARE GONNA
GET LIKE THAT, I THINK.
WE'RE WATCHING FOR TO
LEAVE, LIKE, THE STOVE ON AND...
SHE HASN'T... SO FAR DONE THAT.
RAH.
I DON'T WANT TO
BE A BURDEN ON MY KIDS.
I JUST KEEP MY FINGERS CROSSED
THAT I CAN ELIMINATE
IT FOR A WHILE.
LIKE ME TO SHOW YOU THE WAY?
- YEAH, I'M KINDA LOST.
- SURE.
RIGHT DOWN THIS WAY.
I'M KINDA LOST.
- LADIES, THEY'RE READY.
- OKAY.
LATE AS USUAL.
WE ARE THE HAPPY
NUTS... OH! HAPPY NOTES
FROM BIRCHWOOD EAST.
WE REPRESENT
THE CHURCHES IN BIRCHWOOD.
UH, SO IF YOU KNOW
ANY OF OUR SONGS,
PLEASE SING ALONG.
HER BROTHER
SAYS... - WHAT DO I DO THEN?
- YOU DO THIS ONE NOW.
- OH, OKAY.
AS TIME PASSES, WE SEE
HER RECALL AND ALL
THIS DETERIORATING
LITTLE BY LITTLE.
IS THERE ANY OTHER
WOMAN IN YOUR FAMILY
THAT HAS ALZHEIMER'S?
THE ONE THAT'S THE
OLDEST OF US... SHE'S 93
SHE DON'T KNOW HER FAMILY;
SHE DON'T KNOW NOBODY.
SO, YOU SEE, WHEN THEY
SAW SHE WAS LOSING IT,
THEY GOT PILLS FOR HER.
AND, UH, THAT'S
WHERE I GOT THE IDEA
OF TAKING THE PILLS FOR MEMORY.
MM-HMM.
SEE MY
BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS.
OH, MY.
THAT IS PRETTY.
YEAH, THERE'S TWO OF 'EM.
AND HERE'S MY TOMATO.
THERE'S A REASON WHY I PUT
THOSE MARIGOLDS IN BETWEEN...
IT KEEPS SOMETHING OUT.
I FORGET WHAT IT IS.
THIS IS MY RHUBARB, SEE?
THAT'S WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE.
FOR THIS PIE THAT I'M MAKING,
I NEED FOUR CUPS OF CHOPPED...
CUT-UP RHUBARB;
ONE CUP OF SUGAR;
TWO WELL-BEATEN EGGS.
AND THAT'S WHERE
MY MEMORY DON'T...
I HAVE TO READ
THIS A MILLION TIMES
SO I MAKE SURE I GET IT RIGHT.
OOH, I THINK I'M GONNA
GET AL OF THIS IN THERE.
WE HAVE A FEW PIES
LEFT YET... PUMPKIN.
AND WE GOT LEMON.
OOP! EXCUSE MY FINGERS.
EVERYBODY KNOWS BESSIE.
SHE WAS THE GRAND MARSHAL
IN THE BLUEGILL PARADE
A FEW YEARS AGO.
SHE TELL YOU SHE USED
TO BE IN HARMONETTES?
I'M... I'M STILL IN HARMONETTES
AND SHE WAS WITH US.
IT'S NOT AS EASY
AS IT USED TO BE
WHEN YOU COULD GO THROUGH
IT TWICE AND YOU'D KNOW IT.
YEAH, BUT, BOY, I WAS SURE GLAD
I HAD THAT LITTLE GAL NEXT
TO ME FOR THE HAPPY NOTES.
WHO WAS THAT?
DON'T ASK ME; I DON'T
KNOW WHAT HER NAME IS.
THAT'S MY PROBLEM, YOU SEE.
I PROBABLY DON'T
REMEMBER HALF OF THE NAMES
OF THE GIRLS AT ALL, SEE?
I HAVE TO STOP AND THINK
OF YOURS ONCE IN A WHILE.
IT'S ALL RIGHT; I'LL TELL YOU
WHAT MY NAME IS IF YOU FORGET.
THAT'S WHAT'S SO DISGUSTING.
I FEEL SO GOOD BUT STILL
YOU CAN'T REMEMBER THOSE
THINGS THAT YOU'D LIKE TO...
LIKE TO KNOW.
I SHOULD KNOW HER.
HER FACE IS FAMILIAR.
SO, BESSIE,
WE MET EACH OTHER
IN MAY OF THIS YEAR.
YOU REMEMBER MEETING ME?
NO, YOUR FACE IS NOT
EVEN FAMILIAR TO ME.
OKAY. I WAS THE ONE WHO PUT
YOU THROUGH THE MEMORY TESTS...
- OKAY. -... A FEW MONTHS BACK.
THAT... THAT I REMEMBER DOING.
OKAY. WELL, WHAT WE WANT
TO DO IS TAKE YOU THROUGH
SOME OF THOSE SAME
SORTS OF TESTS AGAIN TODAY
JUST TO SEE HOW THINGS
ARE GOING FOR YOU.
- OKAY.
- FAIR ENOUGH?
GOOD ENOUGH.
WHAT IS THIS THING?
UH...
WHAT'S IT USED FOR?
ADD THINGS ON?
OKAY, VERY GOOD.
FOR THIS NEXT PART I'M GONNA
READ YOU A LIST OF WORDS.
I WANT YOU TO LISTEN
CAREFULLY AND WHEN I'M FINISHED,
I WANT YOU TO TELL ME AS MANY OF
THOSE WORDS AS YOU CAN REMEMBER.
HERE WE GO:
CLOUD, FISH, PAINT,
DENTIST, LADDER,
CHICKEN, BANANA,
TELEPHONE, TRUCK.
FISH, LAKE...
UH...
HOW CAN ANYBODY FORGET...
THAT FAST?
OKAY.
SHE KNOWS SHE'S
GOT THIS CONDITION
BUT SHE DOES NOT DWELL ON IT.
SHE CERTAINLY EXHIBITS,
HOWEVER, THAT SHE IS...
AND WE OFTEN SEE
THIS IN THIS DISEASE,
THAT IT DOESN'T TAKE
YOUR INTELLIGENCE AWAY.
- NO.
- OKAY? SHE SAYS, "OKAY,
I KNOW I HAVE THIS CONDITION.
HOW CAN I WORK AROUND IT?"
MOTHER ISN'T EVEN BAD YET,
BUT I... I STILL FEEL STRESSED.
WELL, THERE MAY COME A
TIME WHEN SHE IS NOT AWARE
THAT SHE HAS MEMORY
PROBLEMS ANYMORE.
- RIGHT.
- IT'S ESSENTIALLY... WHAT'S THE TERM WE USE?
"PEOPLE FORGET THAT
THEY'RE FORGETFUL."
ANOSOGNOSIA... IT'S A LACK
OF AWARENESS OF SYMPTOMS.
AND THEY BECOME ESSENTIALLY
UNAWARE THAT THEY HAVE MEMORY TROUBLE.
YOUR MOM IS NOW SHOWING
KIND OF A SLOPE HERE.
AND SHE... FROM A
COUPLE MONTHS AGO OR SO
THAT WE'RE SEEING
A BIT OF A CHANGE.
WE CAN SEE IT STARTING
TO GO DOWN THAT SLOPE.
- YEAH.
- AND THAT'S...
- IT'S A HARD THING.
- IT'S FRIGHTENING
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, I
REALLY LOVE HER SO MUCH
AND SHE'S A BIG PART OF MY LIFE
- BECAUSE I LIVE RIGHT NEXT DOOR.
- YOU'RE SEEING HER EVERY DAY.
YEAH. IT'S GONNA
BE VERY HARD ON ME
WHEN I CAN'T CONVERSE WITH
HER AND ASK HER QUESTIONS.
YEP.
TILL THEN, SHE WANTS TO
LIVE THIS LIFE SHE'S LIVING NOW
WHICH IS, UM...
A REALLY GOOD LIFE FOR HER.
IT REALLY IS...
IT'S A SIMPLE LIFE,
BUT SHE ENJOYS IT A LOT.
WE'RE GONNA START
YOU AT A LOW DOSE, OKAY,
OF DONEPEZIL WHICH
IS ALSO CALLED ARICEPT,
OKAY? THE BRAND NAME.
ASSUMING YOU TOLERATE IT,
THEN IT CAN GIVE YOU SOME BENEFIT.
WHAT DO
YOU THINK, MOTHER?
HA. GIVE ME A
PILL AND THAT'S IT.
HERE'S TO THE PILL.
ALL GONE.
MOM TOLD US ABOUT TWO MONTHS AGO
THAT THE DOCTOR HAD
TOLD HER TO STOP DRIVING.
THAT MADE ME FEEL INADEQUATE
AND COMPLETELY DEPENDENT
ON SOMEBODY ELSE,
WHICH IS NOT A GOOD FEELING
AFTER HAVING BEEN,
YOU KNOW, ON MY OWN.
SHE WAS NOT VERY HAPPY WITH US...
- NO. -... FOR A WHILE.
I'VE BEEN TAKING CARE
OF MYSELF EVERY...
I WAS TAKING CARE OF MYSELF
BEFORE MY HUSBAND DIED.
BUT NOW,
THIS WILL BE A WHOLE
DIFFERENT THING.
- HOT! HOT HOT HOT.
- OOH.
WE'RE GOING TO
HAVE AN ASSESSMENT TEST
TO SEE IF MOM IS ABLE TO DRIVE.
EVEN THOUGH MOM WAS TOLD SHE'S
IN THE EARLY STAGES OF ALZHEIMER'S,
ONE OF THE REALITIES IS
YOUR JUDGMENT BECOMES AN ISSUE.
- HELLO.
- HI.
I'M GONNA ASK YOU
TO IDENTIFY THE TRAFFIC SIGN
AND THEN I'M GONNA ASK
YOU WHAT YOU WOULD DO
IF YOU CAME
ACROSS IT IN TRAFFIC.
WHAT IS THE NAME
OF THIS TRAFFIC SIGN?
MMM.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU
CAME ACROSS THIS SIGN IN TRAFFIC?
I THINK I WOULD STOP
AND MAKE A LEFT TURN.
I THINK.
OKAY.
WHAT IS THE NAME OF THIS SIGN?
MMM.
I DON'T KNOW.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU
CAME ACROSS THAT SIGN IN TRAFFIC?
I WOULD STOP AND SEE WHAT
EVERYBODY ELSE WAS DOING.
OKAY, LET ME WRITE THAT.
WE'LL GET IN THE
FRONT SEAT HERE.
OH.
WE'LL GET IN THE FRONT SEAT.
THERE WE GO.
SO WHAT WE WANT TO DO
IS WE WANT TO BACK
OUT AND GO TO OUR LEFT
WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE IT'S SAFE.
WHAT IS "REVERSE"?
THREE IS...
NO.
SO WE WANT TO USE THE REVERSE,
WHICH WOULD BE WHAT? WHICH
WOULD INDICATE REVERSE ON THAT?
NO, THAT'S... ONE...
MAYBE TWO IS REVERSE?
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TELL ME.
THE "R" STANDS FOR REVERSE.
OH, YEAH. OKAY.
"R" IS REVERSE AND
"N" IS IN NEUTRAL.
CORRECT.
OKAY.
I UNDERSTAND THIS IS A
DIFFERENT CAR FOR YOU
SO THAT'S WHY WE'RE WARMING
UP IN THE PARKING LOT HERE.
OKAY.
NOW WHERE AM I GOING?
HUH?
OKAY, WE'LL
FOLLOW LELAND HERE
UNTIL I ASK YOU TO MAKE A TURN.
WE WANT TO STAY IN
THE RIGHT LANE HERE.
MAKE THIS NEXT
RIGHT TURN COMING UP.
WE DON'T WANT... MAKE SURE WE DON'T
GO INTO ANY ONCOMING TRAFFIC THERE.
WE WANT TO STAY BEHIND THE CARS.
CAN I ASK YOU WHY
YOU'RE STOPPING HERE?
CAN I ASK YOU WHY YOU DID THAT?
- WASN'T IT A STOP SIGN?
- LET'S NOT STOP ON THE GAS...
NO, THERE WAS NO
STOP SIGN THERE.
IT WAS SOME...
THAT STOP SIGN
WAS FOR ANOTHER ROAD.
- IT WASN'T FOR THE ROAD THAT WE WERE TRAVELING ON.
- RIGHT.
IT WAS FOR A DIFFERENT ROAD.
NEXT TRAFFIC SIGNAL WE COME TO,
WE'LL BE MAKING A RIGHT TURN.
IT'S A BIG BEND IN THE ROAD.
AND WE'LL BE MAKING
A RIGHT TURN...
AT THIS TRAFFIC SIGNAL...
HOWEVER YOU CAN SAFELY GET US...
IF WE HAVE TO GO
PAST IT, WE CAN.
- YOU TOLD ME A RIGHT TURN?
- A RIGHT TURN, CORRECT.
AND I PASSED IT.
THAT'S OKAY... WE CAN
GET US TURNED AROUND
AND WE'LL GO BACK AND
THEN WE'LL MAKE A LEFT TURN.
THESE PLACES HAVE SO
MANY CLOSED-OFF PLACES.
I GUESS I... -
"RESIDENTS ONLY."
CAN'T GO UP THERE.
DIG IN.
OH.
OH, SHOOT.
NO. I'M TRYING TO DECIDE, SHOULD
I GO UP THERE AND TURN AROUND?
BUT I GUESS I'LL
DO IT LIKE THIS.
THIS IS THE
HARDEST THING I HAVE TO DO TODAY.
SO HOW YOU THINK YOU DID?
IF THEY TELL ME I CAN'T DRIVE...
YOU'RE GONNA BE JUST FINE.
I'M GONNA BE IN TROUBLE.
WE'LL COME AND TAKE YOU
WHEREVER YOU NEED TO GO.
THAT ISN'T THE POINT.
WE'VE TOLD YOU THAT 1,000 TIMES.
MRS. FOUNTAINROY WILL
COME AND TAKE YOU TO CHURCH.
THAT'S TAKING AWAY
MY INDEPENDENCE.
WE GO TO CHURCH WITH YOU ON
FOURTH SUNDAYS AND WE DRIVE.
THAT DON'T MAKE... THAT
DON'T HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH
ME GOING SOMEPLACE EVERY DAY...
WHAT I WANT TO DO.
BUT YOU SAID YOURSELF YOU
DON'T GO SOMEPLACE EVERY DAY.
I DON'T.
BUT I KNOW THAT
I CAN IF I WANT TO.
I'M GONNA SIT AT THE
HEAD OF THE TABLE.
YOU SIT AT THE
HEAD OF THE TABLE.
YEAH.
HONESTLY, IT'S BOTH
STEVE, MYSELF AND PAT,
YOU KNOW, RECOMMENDATION
THAT YOU CONTINUE TO FOLLOW
YOUR DOCTOR'S
ADVICE AND NOT DRIVE.
- YOU MEAN I CAN'T DRIVE AGAIN?
- NOT DRIVE.
- I CAN'T DRIVE?
- RIGHT.
OKAY.
REALLY, WHAT YOU ALL
ARE TELLING ME IS THAT
I HAVE LOST MY INDEPENDENCE.
WE...
YOU KNOW, IT SOMETIMES...
IT... YOU KNOW WHAT? I THINK
THIS IS A HUGE ISSUE FOR HER.
- OH, IT IS.
- AND IT'S NOT JUST YOU,
FANNIE, AND YOU KNOW...
'CAUSE WHEN YOU STOP DRIVING,
YOU CAN'T
GO WHEN YOU WANT TO GO;
YOU CAN'T DO THE THINGS
THAT MAYBE YOU WANT TO DO
WITHOUT A LOT OF EXTRA PLANNING.
WE LOVE YOU AND WE
WANT YOU TO BE SAFE.
AND IF YOU HAVE TO BE UPSET
WITH US WHILE WE KEEP YOU SAFE,
THAT'S OKAY.
THAT'S...
THIS IS... THIS IS
REALLY SOMETHING.
I'M VERY DISAPPOINTED
TO THINK THAT I CAN'T GO
WHERE I WANT TO GO ANYMORE.
HAVE A GOOD DAY.
YOU TOO.
- THAT WAY.
- WHAT WAY?
- THAT WAY.
- OH, THIS WAY.
WE HAD MOVED OUT HERE...
I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT I WANTED TO DO.
DA DA DA DA... I DID PAYROLL
AND ALL THAT KIND OF STUFF.
AND I SAT DOWN AT A COMPUTER...
THE VERY EARLY '80s...
AND THAT WAS THAT.
I JUST FELL IN LOVE.
AND I HELPED A
COUPLE OF COMPANIES
BECOME SOME OF THE
LARGEST IN THE WORLD.
I KNEW ABOUT DVDs AND CDs
LONG BEFORE THEY
EVER CAME OUT...
MAYBE 'CAUSE I
HELPED DEVELOP THEM.
I HAD PEOPLE THAT...
THEY WOULD SAY,
"YOU REALLY LOVE THIS,"
BECAUSE I WOULD SHINE;
MY EYES WOULD BRIGHTEN.
AND THEY'RE TALKING HERE AND I'M
ALREADY 15 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD,
YOU KNOW, SAYING, "NO NO NO.
WE'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THIS;
WE'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THAT."
I WAS A GENIUS.
NOW I'M JUST NOT.
SORRY, A MAN NEEDS NOURISHMENT.
MAN WAS NOT LET...
MEANT TO LIVE ON BREAD ALONE.
THE M&Ms THROWN IN
THERE... YOU'RE GOOD TO GO.
MM-HMM.
THIS IS MY BLOG.
THIS IS MY FIRST.
IT SAYS "I TRULY
HOPE THOSE WITH A.D.,
AND HELPING AND
SHARING, USE THIS BLOG.
IT GETS LONELY OUT
HERE IN MY OWN MIND
WHICH IS RATHER
CONFUSING... FRUSTRATED."
I HAVEN'T MASTERED
FINDING THINGS.
YOU KNOW, WHAT THE HELL?
I GET LOST IN MY OWN YARD.
I FORGET WHAT I AM DOING, HOW
TO GET BACK INTO THE HOUSE,
AND STAND THERE
WONDERING WHETHER...
WHATEVER I WONDER, AND THUS FAR
HAVE FOUND MY WAY BACK.
I HAVE GROWN AFRAID TO
LEAVE MY HOME... HOUSE,
BECAUSE I AM NOT SURE
THAT EVEN GOING TO THE MAILBOX
I WILL STOP AND
REMEMBER TO COME BACK.
I WAKE UP GENERALLY
AROUND 6:00 A.M.
AND THE NEXT THING I...
I AM REALLY AWARE OF,
IT IS 4:00 OR 5:00
IN THE AFTERNOON.
WHAT SCARES ME IS
NOT THE NOT KNOWING,
BUT WHEN WILL THAT LINE COME
WHERE I STEP OVER
AND I DON'T COME BACK?
THAT'S WHEN THIS THING
REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY
REALLY REALLY REALLY
BOTHERS... STARTS TO BOTHER ME
AND HIT HOME THAT...
GOT... GOT SOMETHING IN HERE
THAT I FOUND AND I
CAN'T REMEMBER WHERE...
WHERE I PUT IT.
TOOK MY GRANDDAUGHTER
TO THE PARK TO PLAY
AND WALK AND ENJOY HER COMPANY
AND DO WHAT GRANDPAS DO...
WHATEVER THAT IS.
BACK AGAIN!
I WAS CLUMSY AND
FEELING QUITE UNSTABLE,
BOTH UPSTAIRS AND BODILY SIZE.
LEAVING, THINGS WENT
TO HELL IN A HANDBASKET.
I FORGOT WHERE WE WERE.
LUCKILY, SHE TOOK MY HAND
AND KNEW WHERE TO GO.
THIS IS MY LIFE NOW...
ONE DAY AT A TIME.
IT LEAVES ME FURTHER
BEHIND AND I CAN'T CATCH UP.
YOU MADE ME DROP EVERYTHING.
- I DIDN'T MAKE YOU DO THAT.
- YES, YOU DID.
HE STARTED ON THIS
PROJECT THIS MORNING.
HE DECIDED IT
WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA
TO TAPE OFF FOR
PAINTING THE HALLWAY.
YOU KNOW YOU'RE GETTING
TO BE A PEST, WOMAN.
THAT'S WHY YOU MARRIED ME.
WHAT? FOR YOU TO PESTER ME?
YEAH.
I DON'T THINK SO.
I THOUGHT IT WAS FOR THE SEX.
- NO.
- NO?
- NO.
- OH.
GIVE IT UP, KIDDO;
IT'S NOT FOR THE SEX.
WELL, SURE AS SHIT FOOLED ME.
YOU KNOW HOW
THEY TALK ABOUT E.D.?
I DON'T HAVE E...
I DON'T HAVE E.D.;
I HAVE WHAT I CALL D.D.S...
"DEAD DICK SYNDROME."
IT...
SINCE I GOT ON THE MEDICA...
SOME OF THE MEDICATIONS
ON THAT... THE ONE
THAT WAS PUT ON...
IT BECAME INSTANTANEOUS.
THE FIRST DAY I
TOOK IT, IT WAS OVER.
IT WAS OVER.
I MEAN,
NOW ALL IT DOES IS
SWING IN THE BREEZE
AND PIDDLE.
I'M NOT DOING
WELL THIS MORNING.
MY... MY...
MY WORLD ISN'T TOO STABLE.
AND TO PUT IT QUITE BLUNTLY...
I DON'T EVEN WANT
TO SEE YOUR FACES.
YOU KNOW?
I MEAN, IT'S NOTHING
AGAINST YOU.
I JUST DON'T...
WANT TO BE BOTHERED AND THAT.
YOUR HAIR LOOKS NICE TODAY.
I'M
GLAD YOU FIXED IT.
THANK YOU. THAT WAS
SO KIND OF YOU TO NOTICE.
YES.
AND HOW ARE YOU AND LYNN DOING?
FINE.
WE... WE... WE... SHE
KNOWS TO LEAVE ME ALONE.
- "LEAVE ME ALONE."
- YEAH.
- "JUST LEAVE ME ALONE FOR A WHILE."
- LEAVE ME ALONE.
I'LL BE OKAY; EVERYTHING
WILL GO ALL RIGHT.
- OKAY.
- THE PERSON I WAS
IS NOT THERE ANYMORE
IN ITS ENTIRETY.
- YES.
- IT'S... IT'S GOING
AND IT'S GOING MORE...
A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH DAY.
YOU NOTICE CHANGES EVERY DAY?
THAT MUCH? I MEAN...
YEAH, I CAN FEEL
'EM. I CAN FEEL 'EM.
- I CAN FEEL THE
LITTLE SLICES... - UH-HUH.
LIKE SOMEBODY'S IN THERE
CHUCKLING AS THEY'RE SLICING,
SHAVING THE MEAT AT
THE MEAT COUNTER AWAY.
YOU KNOW, LIKE YOUR LUNCH-MEAT?
- YEAH.
- AND RATHER THAN TAKING SLICES,
- HOW THEY SHAVE IT.
- YEAH.
- AND IT'S JUST THAT LITTLE
SHAVE... LITTLE... - RIGHT.
LITTLE SCRAPINGS AND
LITTLE PIECES COMING OFF.
A TINY BIT BUT IT'S JUST...
- JUST... BUT IT'S...
- PROGRESSIVE.
BUT IT'S... YEAH.
I TOLD LYNN AND THE KIDS
WHEN IT GETS TO THE POINT
TO WHERE I FEEL
- THAT I'M STEPPING
OVER THE LINE... - YEAH.
GOING TO BECOME TOTALLY
A DIFFERENT PERSON...
- UH-HUH.
- THAT THEY WILL ALL BE GIVEN A HUG AND A KISS
AND SAID GOODBYE TO.
AND I WILL LEAVE.
AND I WILL TAKE CARE OF IT.
- YEAH.
- IT'LL BE OVER, SAID AND DONE.
IT WILL BE DONE TILL THERE
IS NO WAY TO SAVE ME.
THERE'LL BE NO WAY TO SAVE ME.
THERE'LL BE NO GUN;
THERE'S OTHER WAYS TO DO IT
THAT ARE 100% SURE
WITHIN SECONDS.
BUT IT'S NOT TIME.
NOT QUITE.
IT'S GETTING THERE.
YOU FEEL IT COMING?
YEAH.
IT'S GETTING THERE.
AS WE LEAVE THE
DEARLY DEPARTED HOME
OF JOSEPH POTOCNY
WHO IS SOON TO BE GONE,
WE FIND HIS NEW HOME.
IT SAYS "THAT'S HOME."
I WANT YOU TO KNOW THEY
KEEP ME IN THE CLOSET.
THAT'S MY HOME.
THAT'S WHERE I'M GONNA BE...
ALL CRUMPLED UP...
ALL THIS FATNESS HERE
CRUMPLED UP AND
PUT INSIDE THERE...
THE LITTLE BOTTLE. THERE'S
A LITTLE BOTTLE IN THERE.
IT'S DEPRESSING WHEN
HE TALKS LIKE THAT.
I MEAN, 'CAUSE...
I KNOW. I LOVE YOU TOO.
BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT
TO LOSE A PERSON THAT
YOU JUST CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT.
AND THAT'S WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.
ONE THING I HAVE
TRIED TO SAY TO THOSE I LOVE
AND CARE ABOUT...
MY FRIENDS, MY FAMILY,
WHOEVER THEY MAY BE;
I NO LONGER KNOW FOR SURE...
IS NOT TO CRY FOR
ME WHEN I AM GONE,
BOTH MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY.
SO WHILE I CAN SAY IT
AND HAVE THE WILL TO,
I BID ALL THOSE I HAVE KNOWN
A FOND FAREWELL
AND HOPE I HAVE LEFT
SOMETHING GOOD IN YOUR LIVES.
I AM NOT GOING TODAY,
BUT YOU NEVER KNOW... HA!
BUT I NEED TO GET THIS
OUT OF ME BEFORE I FORGET
OR DO NOT HAVE
THE TIME TO DO SO.
SOME OF MY FAMILY
WILL READ THIS;
OTHERS WON'T... THE
SAME AS FRIENDS AS SO ON,
BECAUSE THEY ARE AS
CAUGHT UP IN THEIR OWN LIVES
AND MINE IS NOT THAT IMPORTANT
IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS.
GOODBYE.
I DON'T KNOW.
I THINK SHE WENT OUT.
WELL, SHE WAS REALLY
WONDERFUL THIS MORNING.
SHE GOT ME DRESSED...
A NEW DRESS.
THIS OLD CLOTHING HERE...
YOU HAVE CROWNS IN YOURS?
YEAH.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
THEY'RE ON THE CHAIR.
THEY'RE ANIMALS
WITH LONG LEGS.
THERE'S SO MANY OF THEM THAT
WERE LIKE THAT IN THE BOXES.
OH!
HERE'S THE PARTY!
THAT'S IT!
BRUCE IS COMING. BRUCE HERE.
IT'S 10 TO 11:00.
IT'S GETTING INTO 12:00.
IT'S GETTING...
- WHO IS RUTH?
- RUTH IS A FRIEND THAT I MET HERE.
WE TALK TO EACH
OTHER IN THE MIRROR.
OH, OKAY.
YEAH.
I ASKED HER TO COME OVER BUT
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO COME OVER.
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO COME OVER?
SHE JUST STAYS IN THE MIRROR?
YEAH.
YOU GONNA SHOW RUTH
WHAT YOU MADE FOR HER?
- YEAH.
- OKAY, LET'S GO DO IT.
CAN YOU COME AND GET IT?
'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO DO WITH IT.
I DON'T THINK SHE COULD TAKE IT
BUT YOU COULD SHOW HER
WHAT YOU MADE, THOUGH.
PUT IT ON THE ONE IN THE WALLS.
- WHAT WALLS?
- PUT IT ON THE WALL.
WHAT WALL?
THE WALL BY THE BED.
- OVER HERE?
- NO, OVER THERE.
OH, IN THERE?
SHE LOOKS LIKE YOU.
NO.
I THINK SHE LOOKS LIKE YOU.
SHE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING TO ME.
MAYBE IT TAKES HER
TIME TO SAY SOMETHING.
OH, I DON'T KNOW. I'M
TIRED OF TALKING TO HER
THROUGH THE WINDOW.
YOU WANT TO MEET
HER FACE TO FACE?
NO NO.
- NOT TODAY?
- I TOLD HER MANY TIMES,
BE AT YOUR DOOR
AND I'LL BE AT MY DOOR.
- MM-HMM.
- AND YOU KNOW SHE HAD ME WAIT THERE
AND SHE NEVER CAME OUT.
LOOK AT THIS! IT'S A SNAKE!
DOES ANYBODY HAVE A KNIFE?
WHERE IT IS?
HERE!
THERE'S NOTHING THERE, YOLANDA.
IT'S NOT A SNAKE.
- YOU'VE NOTHING...
- YES, IT IS.
RIGHT, IT'S NOT A SNAKE.
YOU TRY TO MAKE EVERYTHING
SIMPLE BUT YOU CAN'T.
YOU CAN'T.
OH, GOD! IT'S
RIGHT ON TOP OF ME.
IT'S RIGHT
ON TOP OF ME!
IT'S COMING AFTER ME!
IT'S COMING AFTER ME!
IT'S COMING AFTER ME!
PLEASE TAKE IT
AWAY! I'M GOING CRAZY!
I'M GOING CRAZY!
PLEASE! HE'S RIGHT ON TOP OF ME.
WHAT'S ON TOP OF YOU?
WHAT'S ON TOP OF YOU?
PUT ME ON THE BED.
WHAT IS IT?
PUT ME ON THE BED!
WHAT'S WRONG?
- WHAT?
- WHAT'S WRONG?
I GOT ALL OF THEM OFF
THIS MORNING, REMEMBER?
THEY NOT IN THERE NO MORE!
THIS IS NO LIFE.
THEY ALL GONE! WE GOING
TO GET OUR HAIR DONE.
WHERE'S THE MAN?
PAT GONNA DO YOUR HAIR, OKAY?
YOU'LL BE OKAY WITH ME.
- HE'LL LEAVE.
- YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
TALK TO HER, SUE.
TELL HER IT'S OKAY.
- HI.
- YOU'RE WAVING.
HI, YOLANDA.
YOLANDA?
HI.
IT'S ALL RIGHT, DEAR.
- UH-OH.
- WE'RE ALL HERE.
WE REALLY ARE.
SEE? YOU'VE
GOT A FRIEND HERE.
OH, THE
SHAMPOO FEELS GOOD.
I KNOW!
WHAT I... WHAT I'LL DO
IS I'LL SMASH 'EM DOWN
SO THEY'LL DIE.
GONE?
- BUT HE'S STILL THERE.
- WHERE?
I'M GONNA KILL 'EM!
WHAT ABOUT NOW?
IS IT GONE?
NO.
IT'S STILL THERE?
I GOT A NEW WHEELCHAIR FOR YOU.
THAT'S MUCH...
THIS HAS GOT TO GO.
GET IT OUT OF HERE!
THERE'S NO MORE...
TAKE IT OUT OF HERE.
IS THAT BETTER?
- YES.
- YES, IT IS.
AHH!
HEAVEN!
- AHH!
- IS THAT WHAT IT IS?
- YEAH.
- OKAY.
YOUR HAIR IS PERFECT.
MY HAIR?
WHERE'S YOUR SON AT NOW?
I DON'T KNOW WHERE HE IS.
YOU DON'T?
IS HE HERE IN MARYLAND?
IT'S SUCH A
NICE DAY OUTSIDE.
KEEP EATING, SWEETIE.
I'M YOUR SON ROBERTO.
- WHAT?
- I'M YOUR SON ROBERTO.
THIS IS A VERY DEAR
FRIEND OF MINE.
I'M YOUR SON.
- WHAT?
- I'M YOUR SON.
YOU KNOW THAT.
- NO, YOU'RE NOT MY SON.
- YES.
WHERE IS MY SON?
IT'S KIND OF DIFFICULT
TO SEE YOUR MOM
AWAY FROM HOME AND...
YOU KNOW, BY HERSELF, BUT
SHE'S GOT GOOD FRIENDS HERE
SO THAT COMFORTS
ME A LITTLE BIT.
IT'S DIFFICULT AT TIMES WHEN
SHE DOESN'T RE... RECALL WHO I AM
OR MY NAME, SO...
REMEMBER, WE GOT PICTURES
OF THE DOG? REMEMBER DAKOTA?
PICTURES OF WHAT?
THE PICTURE WITH
DAKOTA, THE HUSKIE.
REMEMBER HIM?
WHAT?
THE DOG; THE HUSKIE. AND TIKI,
REMEMBER? THE GERMAN SHEPHERD?
OH.
YOU REMEMBER THOSE DAYS?
YEAH.
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THEN.
LOOK HERE, LOOK...
THIS IS THE ONE WHERE
THERE'S THE MOTHERS-VERSUS-
THE-SON BASEBALL GAME.
THAT'S MOM RIGHT THERE.
YEAH.
I... I TRIED TO GET TO FIRST
BASE AND I COULDN'T DO IT.
YUP.
AND THERE'S THE DOG.
THAT'S YOU WITH DAKOTA.
REMEMBER DAKOTA, THE DOG?
YEAH.
OKAY, I'LL SEE YOU SOON. OKAY?
SEE YOU ON THE WEEKEND?
YES, I'LL BE HERE ON SATURDAY.
- WHAT?
- I'LL BE HERE ON SATURDAY.
I'LL COME SEE YOU ON SATURDAY.
OKAY? AND I'LL BRING
ALEX AND THE DOG.
YEAH.
ALL RIGHT. LOVE YOU.
TAKE CARE.
ALL RIGHT, LOVE YOU.
- THANK YOU.
- SEE YOU.
HE STARTED SINGING
WHEN HE WAS A BOY SOPRANO.
HE USED TO SING SOLOS IN CHURCH
AND HE DID LOTS OF
THINGS WITH MUSIC.
HE TOOK SO MUCH
PLEASURE IN THAT.
IT MADE HIM HAPPY.
WE'D ALWAYS KID HIM
ABOUT HIS CRINKLY EYES...
AND... AND HIS LITTLE SMILE
AND HIS LOOK OF LOVE.
IT'S VERY SPECIAL TO ME.
WHAT A SWEET MAN.
AND SOMETIMES I
CAN'T LOOK AT IT AT ALL.
I SEE HOW MUCH I'VE LOST.
HERE WE GO NOW!
NOTHING THERE.
NOTHING THERE.
NOTHING THERE.
NOTHING HERE.
AND NOTHING THERE.
NOPE, NOT GOING THERE.
I'M GOING ELSEWHERE.
KATHY, SPENCER WHO?
YOU CAN COME IN, WOODY.
I WILL.
KATHERINE
HEPBURN AND SPENCER...
SPENCER TRACY.
WHO WAS...
WHO WAS MORTIMER SNERD?
CAN'T DO IT.
WHO WAS MORTIMER SNERD?
DON'T LIKE IT.
MORTIMER SNERD
WAS JACK BENNY'S...
THE LITTLE GUY
THAT SAT ON HIS LAP.
THEY CALLED HIM MORTIMER SNERD.
IF YOU HAVE A BAT
AND YOU HAVE A BALL
AND YOU HAVE FOUR BASES
AND A GLOVE, WHAT
ARE WE PLAYING?
NO IDEA.
- BASEBALL.
- BASEBALL!
OH, GOOD JOB.
GOOD JOB.
IF YOU HAVE A PIECE OF CHALK
OUTSIDE ON THE SIDEWALK...
WHAT'S UP?
WAIT... WAIT FOR ME.
- HUH?
- WAIT FOR ME.
WAIT FOR YOU?
- YEAH.
- I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'M GOING.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO KNOW WHERE
YOU'RE GOING AROUND HERE.
I WONDER WHERE ELSE I SHOULD GO.
WHERE ELSE DO YOU
THINK I SHOULD GO?
OKAY, THERE YOU GO, CLARA.
ISN'T IT A NICE DAY OUTSIDE?
ISN'T IT "BURBLY" LAND
HERE WITH ALL OF THE...
ALL OF THIS?
YOU WANT TO GO IN?
WELL, I'LL... I WANT TO DO
WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO.
THIS ISN'T A VERY NICE PLACE.
LET'S GO SOMEWHERE TOGETHER.
HE'S MY HUSBAND.
WONDERFUL.
WE'RE LUCKY.
YES, WE ARE.
I WONDER WHERE I SHOULD GO.
HI, HOW ARE YOU?
WE'LL GO IN HERE.
IS THERE ANYBODY IN HERE?
I DON'T THINK SO.
LET'S SEE.
NO.
YOU WANT TO SIT DOWN THERE?
I'LL SIT HERE.
THAT'S NICE. I'M
GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
YOU CAN LIE DOWN, SWEETHEART.
DO YOU WANT TO LIE DOWN?
- YEAH, I WANT TO LIE DOWN.
- WHY DON'T YOU GO OVER THERE?
LET'S GO OVER HERE.
THERE HE IS. HI, DAD.
HI! THAT'S WONDERFUL!
- HI, DAD.
- I'M GLAD WE'RE HERE.
- HOW ARE YOU?
- I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
HOW ARE YOU? HI, KATHY.
- HOW ARE YOU?
- GOOD TO SEE YOU.
- THANK YOU.
- ARE YOU HAVING A GOOD DAY?
- COME AND SIT DOWN.
- YES.
SIT OVER THERE. SIT RIGHT THERE.
- WE HAVE TO BRUSH HIS HAIR.
- SIT RIGHT THERE.
- HE WANTS YOU TO SIT RIGHT THERE.
- HI, KATHY.
- HOW ARE YOU?
- I'M FINE.
YOU LOOK VERY PRETTY.
THAT'S A PRETTY COLOR FOR YOU.
YOU KNOW WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO
TONIGHT? WE'RE GONNA GO TO THE GRUNIONS.
WE'RE GONNA SEE ALL THE GRUNIONS
AND WE'RE GONNA BE SINGING...
- WE'RE GONNA GO SEE THEM?
- YEAH.
- THAT'LL BE FUN.
- YEAH, YOU CAN SING IN IT.
- I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN.
- YES, YOU CAN.
I DON'T KNOW, BUT I'M GLAD
I CAN BE WITH YOU GUYS.
- SHOULD WE GO?
- MM-HMM.
- OKAY.
- SAY GOODBYE TO KATHY.
HERE WE GO. HI.
GOOD TO SEE YOU.
- HE'LL BE BACK LATER.
- WE'LL BE BACK LATER.
- OKAY.
- SEE YOU LATER.
SHOULD WE GO?
YOU CAN PROBABLY
DO IT BETTER THAN I CAN.
WHAT'S HAPPENING AT 7:00?
YOU'RE GONNA JUST FOR FUN
BE SINGING WITH THE GRUNIONS.
AND JUST, LIKE, THEY
CALL IT REHEARSING.
ARE WE GONNA BE
WITH THE GRUNIONS?
- YEAH, WE'RE GONNA DO THE GRUNIONS TONIGHT.
- WHEN, TONIGHT?
IN REALLY LIKE ABOUT 15 MINUTES
- WE'RE GONNA BE WITH THE GRUNIONS.
- THAT'LL BE FUN TO SEE THEM.
NOTHING IS STICKING AT ALL,
EVEN FOR A MINUTE OR TWO.
IT'S LIKE A SIEVE.
WHY ARE WE DOING THIS?
RIGHT NOW WE'RE GOING TO A GRUNION...
WHAT'S CALLED A GRUNION INVITATIONAL.
- IT'S JUST TO HAVE FUN, DAD.
- AND YOU LOVE THE MUSIC.
YOU'LL LOVE JUST
LISTENING TO THE MUSIC.
- YEAH.
- DO YOU KNOW THOSE PEOPLE?
- YES, I DO.
- DO YOU THINK I KNOW THEM?
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A
REALLY GOOD TIME; I KNOW IT.
WE'RE GOING AROUND IN CIRCLES.
KIND OF LIKE OUR LIVES
AND OUR CONVERSATIONS.
YES, ROUND AND ROUND WE GO.
WHERE WE STOP, NOBODY KNOWS.
- I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING HERE.
- WE ARE GOING TO A PARTY.
WE'RE GOING TO A PARTY?
- WE ARE GOING TO A PARTY.
- DO I KNOW THE PARTY PEOPLE?
- YOU DO.
- WHY ARE WE GOING TO A PARTY?
'CAUSE IT'S PRETTY FUN.
AND I'M GONNA LET EVERYBODY
OFF RIGHT HERE AND I'M GONNA PARK.
- ALL RIGHT.
- WHAT SHOULD I DO?
- SO I'LL FIND YOU.
- YOU'RE COMING WITH ME, SWEETHEART.
WHERE ARE WE GOING?
- RIGHT IN HERE.
- WHICH SIDE?
YEP, THIS SIDE.
RIGHT IN THERE? WE'RE
GONNA GO IN THERE?
MM-HMM.
LET'S SEE HERE... WE GOTTA
GO THROUGH THIS HALL.
- WHAT AM I DOING NOW?
- YOU'RE GETTING YOUR TIE TIED BY AN EXPERT.
YEAH, BUT WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN?
UM, YOU'RE GONNA LOOK BEAUTIFUL
AND YOU'LL PROBABLY
BE SIGNING AUTOGRAPHS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING.
WELL, THERE'S GONNA
BE A GRUNIONS CONCERT.
YOU KNOW, HE WAS A BIG
HOME AND YOUNG PERSON.
HERE'S MRS. TAYLOR.
- YEAH, HELLO.
- MARY TAYLOR.
YOU KNOW THAT... YOU KNOW THEM
BECAUSE SHE USED TO
CRAWL THROUGH THE FENCE.
NICE TO SEE YOU.
WE'D LIKE TO BRING
UP WOODY GEIST.
WOODY IS WHAT WE CALL A GRAP;
HE'S A RETIRED GRUNION.
AND WOODY HAS
ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE.
IT'S AN INTERESTING THING TO SEE
HIM ACTUALLY STILL SING WITH US,
UM, BECAUSE SOME OF THOSE
CONNECTIONS ARE STILL THERE
AND HE CAN... HE CAN
SING A LOT OF THE SONGS
RIGHT ALONG WITH US. SO WE'RE
GONNA BRING UP WOODY RIGHT NOW
AND WE'RE GONNA DO ONE
OF HIS... ONE OF HIS SONGS.
COME ON UP, WOOD.
SHOULD I COME UP?
WANNA SING "SHOOBY DOIN'"?
YOU CAN DO IT.
AH, ONE TWO THREE!
THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL.
- I'M JUST GLAD TO BE HERE.
- BRAVO!
FANTASTIC. YOU WERE FANTASTIC.
- I DON'T KNOW ANYBODY.
- YOU WERE WONDERFUL!
FANTASTIC.
WHAT A GREAT NIGHT.
- THAT WAS A GREAT NIGHT.
- IT WAS WONDERFUL.
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU.
SO HOW COME
WE CAME OUT HERE?
TO... TO SING WITH THE GRUNIONS.
OH, THE GRUNIONS
ARE NICE PEOPLE.
VERY NICE PEOPLE.
I'M GLAD WE CAN BE WITH THEM.
ME TOO.
THEY'RE NICE PEOPLE.
VERY NICE PEOPLE.
AREN'T WE LUCKY?
WE ARE LUCKY.
WE ARE LUCKY. I'M GLAD
WE CAN BE TOGETHER.
I'LL GET THIS ONE.
THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN.
AREN'T WE NICE TO BE TOGETHER?
WE ARE NICE TO BE TOGETHER.
I THOUGHT SO.
- I LOVE YOU, DARLING.
- I LOVE YOU.
- I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
- MM-HMM.
- ME TOO.
- GOOD.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, HONEY.
I'M GLAD WE COULD BE TOGETHER.
I WANT TO GO HOME.
I'M SCARED.
HELP ME.
HELP...
IT'S OKAY, MY DEAR.
HELP ME.
OH OH OH OH OH OH.
YEAH.
EVEN I LOOK OUT
AND SHE WAS RIGHT THERE,
YOU KNOW, IT WAS JUST THE CONSTANT
WORRY THAT SOMETHING MIGHT HAPPEN.
YOU KNOW, WHAT IF
SHE GETS OUT AND...
YOU KNOW, GETS LOST IN A
CORN-FIELD OR SOMETHING?
YOU KNOW, AND YOU HEAR ABOUT IT
ON T.V. OR IN THE
NEWSPAPER ABOUT, YOU KNOW,
"80-YEAR-OLD MAN
LOST IN..." YOU KNOW,
UM... "WANDERS AWAY
FROM HOME AND...
IS FOUND FIVE DAYS LATER
CURLED UP IN A CORN
FIELD DEAD" OR SOMETHING.
YOU KNOW, I JUST...
I FEAR THAT.
SOME FRIENDS FROM
MY SPINNING GROUP CAME
AND WE PUT ALL THIS FENCE UP.
BASICALLY, THE WHOLE
PERIMETER IS FENCED.
AND IT'S MADE A
WORLD OF DIFFERENCE.
- SHOULD I CARRY THIS?
- HMM?
CAN I HAVE THIS?
- - YEAH.
- CAN I HAVE THIS?
I'LL HANG IT UP ON
THE CLOTHESLINE.
- NO.
- OKAY.
WELL, DO YOU WANT TO HANG IT UP?
CAN I HAVE IT?
- HO HO HO HO HO.
- HEY, CAN I HAVE THAT?
HO HO HO HO HO.
OKAY, WHY DON'T YOU KEEP IT?
HO HO HO HO HO HO.
- HELLO.
- HELLO.
WHOOPSY-DAISY.
- BING.
- THANK YOU.
HO HO HO HO HO HO.
THIS BASICALLY IS WANDERING...
JUST SORT OF AIMLESS
WALKING ABOUT,
FIDDLING WITH THINGS.
OH, NO, WE GOTTA
LEAVE THE CAT FOOD.
NO, YOU CAN'T EAT THAT.
- YEAH YEAH YEAH.
- NO, THAT'S FOR THE CATS.
YEAH, I BETTER...
- HO HO HO HO.
- I NEED TO FIND A BETTER SPOT
TO FEED THE CATS, I GUESS.
YOU GOT SOME PEAS AND A
SQUASH TO HAVE FOR SUPPER.
OH, DON'T BREAK IT, PLEASE.
HO HO HO HO HO.
HEY, YOU SQUASH BANDIT.
SHE LEAVES LITTLE...
VIGNETTES, YOU MIGHT SAY,
THAT I FIND AROUND THE HOUSE
AND I TAKE PICTURES OF THEM.
IT SHOWS ME THE LITTLE
GLIMMERS THAT SHE'S STILL THERE.
I'M SENSING ANOTHER
PHOTO OPPORTUNITY HERE,
THE WAY SHE'S CAREFULLY
ARRANGING HER PEAS THERE.
WOULD YOU LIKE ONE?
- UM...
- NO? OKAY.
THIS IS ONE OF MOM'S PAINTINGS
THAT SHE DID MANY YEARS AGO.
SHE PAINTED A LOT.
UNFORTUNATELY, SHE PAINTED
OVER MANY OF THE PAINTINGS
WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED.
SHE... SO NOW WE HAVE A
LOT OF WHITE CANVASES
THAT WE KNOW USED
TO HAVE SOMETHING.
SHE ALSO PAINTED ON ROCKS.
SHE PAINTED A LOT OF ROCKS.
GROWING UP, WE WERE ALWAYS
WALKING ALONG THE LAKE,
PICKING UP AGATES
AND JUST WALKING.
LOOK AT THIS ONE, MOM.
- HMM? EAT?
- YEAH.
OH... OH, NO. OH.
THAT WAS A MISTAKE.
- CAN I HAVE IT, PLEASE?
- MM-HMM.
IT'S A STONE.
YEAH, MOM?
TAKE IT OUT.
- NO, I DON'T WANT TO.
- YEAH.
- I HAVE TO TAKE IT OUT.
- NO! I'M NOT GONNA...
YEAH. OKAY, SPIT IT OUT THEN.
YEAH YEAH YEAH.
- MOM, SPIT IT OUT.
- NO.
TAKE IT OUT OF YOUR MOUTH.
NO, I DON'T WANNA.
I CAN'T SEE IT.
MOM?
TAKE... TAKE IT OUT.
HERE. SPIT IT OUT.
WHERE IS IT? WHAT'S IN
YOUR MOUTH? LET ME SEE.
MOM, WHERE IS IT?
MOM.
- I'M SORRY, MOM.
- NO, I DON'T WANT TO GO...
I KNOW, I KNOW.
- AH AH AH AH.
- HOLD ON A MINUTE.
- THERE.
- THERE, I FEEL BETTER NOW.
WELL, THAT WAS A MISTAKE TO...
JUST WANTED TO SHOW IT TO HER.
- YEAH.
- SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER.
SORRY ABOUT THAT,
MOM. THAT WAS MY FAULT.
HO HO HO HO HO.
THAT WAS SO STUPID. I SHOULD HAVE
KNOWN SHE WOULD HAVE DONE THAT...
'CAUSE SHE ALWAYS
PUTS STUFF IN HER MOUTH.
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.
YOU WANNA COLOR?
MM-HMM.
- DO YOU WANT TO LOOK AT THIS ONE?
- MM-HMM.
YOU TIRED?
MM-HMM.
TWO? JUST TWO?
OH, YOU GUYS ARE READY.
I HAVE FOUR LLAMAS
AND SIX ALPACAS.
I RAISE THEM FOR THE FIBER...
UM, SHEAR THEM
AND WASH THE FIBER;
CART IT; SPIN IT UP INTO YARN
AND THEN MAKE
THINGS WITH THE YARN.
I USED TO WORK FULL
TIME UP IN THE CITIES
BUT I CAN'T DO IT
ANYMORE WITH MOM.
SO I'M JUST TRYING TO
MAKE ENDS MEET BASICALLY.
WHAT YOU GOT THERE?
WHAT'S THAT ONE?
- THESE?
- YEAH.
ONE TWO THREE TWO THREE.
TWO THREE TWO THREE.
- HO HO HO HO HO HO.
- OKAY.
YOU KNOW, I NEVER HAD CHILDREN,
SO I ALMOST FEEL LIKE I'VE
GAINED MOTHERHOOD SOMEHOW.
YOU KNOW, AND SOMETIMES
SHE DOES CALL ME "MOM."
SO MUCH OF HER ISN'T THERE,
BUT THERE'S STILL A
LOT OF HER THERE TOO.
WE'RE JUST GONNA GO
THIS WAY TO GET THE MAIL.
HO HO HO HO HO.
MOM?
- MOM?
- WHAT?
COME ON, MOM. WE'RE GONNA
WALK DOWN THE DRIVEWAY.
- HEY?
- WHAT?
YOU HAVE TO TURN AROUND.
GO THIS WAY.
COME ON, DOGS.
BO BO BO BO BO BO.
GOODBYE GOODBYE
GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE.
And a big ol' hello
to you, boys and girls.
Hi there. Good
to see all of you.
Don't we have some nice-looking
boys and girls in our clubhouse?
YEAH, BOY.
HEY, HONEY
BUN, WHAT YOU DOIN'?
WELL, I'M TRYING
TO GET OUT OF HERE.
WELL, LET'S
PUT YOUR LEGS BACK.
YOU GONNA CUT THE
CIRCULATION OFF OF 'EM.
- I JUST WANNA GET OUT.
- I KNOW IT, DARLIN',
BUT YOU CAN'T GET OUT THAT WAY.
NOW IS THAT BETTER?
HOW ABOUT NOT TRYING
TO GET OUT OF BED HERE?
'CAUSE I NEED TO GO COOK DINNER,
AND IF YOU'RE GONNA BE
TRYING TO CRAWL OUT OF BED,
I'M GONNA HAVE TO STAY IN HERE AND
WATCH YOU, AND I NEED TO GO COOK.
- I GOTTA GO.
- WELL, WE HAVEN'T GOT TO GO RIGHT NOW.
I'VE GOT TO GO COOK.
SO YOU BE REAL STILL
AND STAY HERE AND REST
- TILL I GET DINNER FIXED.
- OKAY.
AFTER I GET IT...
AS SOON AS I GET IT.
AS YOU CAN SEE WITH HIM
TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED,
IT'S THAT HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE
SOMEWHERE TO DO SOMETHING.
AND HE DOESN'T REALIZE THAT
HE'S IN THE BED AND CAN'T GET UP.
SO HE KEEPS TRYING,
YOU KNOW, WHEN... WHEN HE'S
IN ONE OF THESE POSITIONS.
NOW I GAVE HIM SOME
MEDICINE THIS AFTERNOON
THAT SHOULD HAVE
CALMED HIM DOWN,
BUT IT HASN'T DONE VERY MUCH,
YOU KNOW, TO DO IT, AS YOU CAN SEE.
BUT... AND WE MAY HAVE TO INCREASE
THAT OR START SOMETHING ELSE
IF HE STAYS THIS WAY,
BECAUSE IT'S NOT GOOD FOR HIM.
YOU GONNA DO ME A
MAGIC TRICK TODAY?
WELL...
I DON'T KNOW.
WELL, YOU KNOW YOU ALWAYS
DO ME ONE WHEN I COME.
YOU DOING OKAY TODAY?
MM-HMM.
UH-HUH. ARE YOU TIRED?
- NO.
- NO?
YOU CAN SEE BY LOOKING AT
HIM, HIS MUSCLES HAVE REALLY WASTED,
YOU KNOW, BECAUSE HE'S NOT...
NOT EATING LIKE HE SHOULD.
I RATHER SUSPECT
THAT IT'S THE BODY'S WAY
OF SHUTTING DOWN.
THEY DON'T NEED
AS MUCH NUTRITION...
UH...
AS THEY... THEY DID WHEN
THEY WERE MOVING AROUND
OR HEALTHY.
AND WHEN THE BODY
STARTS SHUTTING DOWN,
THEN... THEN YOU REQUIRE LESS...
FOOD.
NOW CLIFF HAD
OPEN-HEART SURGERY.
AND ALL THIS BUTTER
AND EVERYTHING,
THE HEART DOCTORS
WOULD FLIP OUT, PROBABLY,
TO SEE ME DO THIS.
BUT I FIGURE AT
THIS POINT IN TIME,
NOT REALLY IMPORTANT.
ALL THIS BUTTER
AND SUGAR... HE LIKES IT SWEET.
AND HEAVY CREAM.
NOW HOW COULD THAT BE BAD?
HE LIKES THINGS ALMOST
LIKE CHILDREN DO NOW.
OKAY.
YOU KNOW WHAT THIS TASTES LIKE?
WHAT?
MORE.
HE STARTED DOING MAGIC
WHEN HE GOT A BOX OF CEREAL
WITH A LITTLE
MAGIC THING IN IT...
GOT ENTHRALLED WITH MAGIC
AND STARTED BUYING THE MAGIC.
AND THAT ENDED UP BEING
WHAT HE DID FOR A LIVING.
THERE WERE 35 CHILDREN ON
"COUSIN CLIFF'S CLUBHOUSE."
AND HE DID SOME MAGIC SOMETIME
AND THEN THEY HAD "THREE
STOOGES" AND "POPEYE" CARTOONS.
AND EACH CHILD
THAT HAD A BIRTHDAY
GOT A BIRTHDAY
CAKE COME THAT DAY.
AND THEY HAD CAKES THAT THEY
CALLED "WHAM DOODLE" BIRTHDAY CAKES.
PEOPLE REMEMBER ALL THE THINGS.
HE WAS ON FOR YEARS AND YEARS
AND HAD 35 CHILDREN EVERY DAY
ON THE TELEVISION SHOW.
THERE'VE BEEN TIMES WHEN
HE'D HAVE EIGHT SHOWS IN A DAY.
I GOTTA DO A T.V. SHOW TONIGHT.
6:00 WE'LL SEE.
6:30.
AND I GOTTA MAKE ALL...
THE KIDDIES DISAPPEAR.
WOULD YOU LIKE TO SIT
UP FOR A LITTLE WHILE TODAY
AND EAT YOUR LUNCH?
WE'RE GONNA STAND
UP, OKAY? HERE WE GO.
- THANKS.
- NOW WE'RE GONNA TURN.
HERE WE GO.
THAT WAS A GOOD BOY!
MMM.
HERE YOU ARE... SOUP.
HE JUST KINDA
TUNES OUT SOMETIMES.
HE WILL LOOK TOWARD ME,
BUT I CAN TELL
HE'S NOT SEEING ME.
IT'S LIKE A... A GLASS...
JUST STARE, YOU KNOW?
YES.
DRINK MILK.
THERE'S
GONNA COME A TIME
WHEN HE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE
TO SIP THAT UP INTO A STRAW.
HE SOMETIMES HAS PROBLEMS NOW.
- YES.
- IF HE GETS TO THE POINT WHERE HE CAN'T EAT AT ALL,
THEN I WILL HONOR THOSE
CHOICES THAT HE MADE
WHEN WE MADE OUR LAST WILL,
WHICH WOULD BE NOT TO
PROLONG WITH ARTIFICIAL...
ARTIFICIAL MEASURES.
AND THAT WILL BE HARD
WHEN THAT TIME COMES.
WANT ANOTHER SANDWICH, HON?
NO, I'M THINKING ABOUT
HOW I'M GONNA GET NORTH
- TO DO A...
- YEAH?
A SHOW.
WELL, WHAT TIME ARE YOU
SUPPOSED TO BE THERE?
I'VE GOT TO BE THERE AT 7:00.
WHAT'S THE PROGRAM
FOR, DO YOU KNOW?
NO, I HAVE TO GET UP.
NO, DON'T GET UP; I'LL
GET THE CARD FOR YOU.
LET ME GO OVER TO THE DESK
AND GET THE CARD FOR YOU.
- WHAT KIND OF CARD?
- YOU ALWAYS PUT THINGS ON A CARD.
I'M SORRY, FOLKS,
BUT I'VE GOT TO...
I'VE GOT TO FIND THAT.
CAN... CAN YOU LOOK
IN THAT YELLOW THING?
IS IT THIS ONE?
HEY, THIS IS... THIS IS PINK.
- MM-HMM.
- SEE IF YOU CAN FIND THE YELLOW ONE OVER THERE.
SEE IF I CAN FIND A YELLOW ONE?
HERE. OH, HERE IT IS.
THERE.
WELL, GOLLY.
YOU READY
TO GO BATHE, CLIFF?
I'M... I'M OKAY. JUST
HOLD ON A MINUTE.
OKAY.
LET ME SEE WHAT THIS
IS... MY LITTLE BOOTS.
UH, YOU GOT A LITTLE BOOT?
YEAH.
WHAT HAVE YOU GOT, ANN?
HAVE YOU GOT... YEAH?
ASK
ANN IF SHE'LL CALL.
I'LL BET SHE'LL
CALL HIM FOR YOU.
HERE, HON. HERE'S YOUR MEDICINE.
HERE YOU GO. HERE'S
YOUR MEDICINE.
SCOOP IT OUT GOOD.
THAT ENOUGH?
THAT'S GOOD. THANK YOU.
HOW ABOUT YOU JUST GO LAY DOWN?
NO, NAH. I CAN'T GO
WITH THIS ON MY MIND.
CAN'T GO WITH THAT ON YOUR MIND?
OH, BOY.
HELLO? YES, THIS IS MRS.
HOLMAN. CAN I TAKE A MESSAGE?
OKAY, WELL, I'LL TELL HIM.
OKAY, THANK YOU.
- CLIFF?
- YEAH?
THAT WAS THE PEOPLE. THAT'S
FUNNY THAT THEY CALLED RIGHT NOW.
- HOW DO YOU KNOW?
- THEY HAVE...
THEY ASKED ME TO TELL YOU
THAT THEY HAD TO CANCEL THE SHOW
BECAUSE SOMEONE HAD GOTTEN ILL,
AND THAT THEY WOULD CALL YOU
BACK TO RESCHEDULE IT IF THAT'S OKAY.
WELL, THAT'S GOOD. LET'S
SEE IF WE CAN FIND OUT.
I CAN'T SEE. SHOOT.
- WHAT IS SHE DOING?
- SHE'S... BRENDA'S GETTING YOU IN HERE.
SHE'S THE ONE THAT
CAN GET YOU BACK
WHERE YOU BELONG.
THE MEDICATIONS
THAT HE WAS TAKING
FOR HIS ALZHEIMER'S
WAS TO TRY TO SLOW THE DISEASE.
WELL, IT'S GOTTEN
TO THE POINT NOW...
IT'S LIKE THE DOCTOR SAID:
"WHAT DO YOU WANT TO PROLONG?"
AND OF COURSE I
WANT TO PROLONG HIM.
I WANT HIM TO BE WITH ME
AS LONG AS I CAN KEEP HIM.
BUT THAT'S NOT FAIR TO HIM
WHEN HE HAS STATED THAT
THAT'S NOT WHAT HE WANTS.
AND HE REALLY HAS NO LIFE NOW.
UH, HE'S IN BED ALL THE TIME.
AND HE DOESN'T KNOW
ME PART OF THE TIME.
UH...
SO I THOUGHT HOW SELFISH OF ME...
HOW SELFISH OF ME.
I'M MAKING A PIE.
OH, I'M SO HAPPY.
I... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
YOU DON'T?
I DON'T KNOW.
SEE, I TOLD YOU MY WIFE
RIGHT NOW IS PRECIOUS.
YOUR WIFE IS?
- YES.
- WELL, WHO DO YOU THINK I AM?
WELL, LET'S SEE.
I DON'T KNOW.
YOU DON'T KNOW WHO I AM?
GOSH, I DON'T... I DON'T
KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THAT.
WHAT IF I TOLD YOU I WAS ANN?
OH, I'D DIE.
NO, I WOULDN'T. I'VE
BEEN TOO ILLITERATE.
I AM ANN.
- ARE YOU REALLY?
- I AM YOUR WIFE.
OH.
WE SURE ARE LUCKY.
YES, WE ARE.
OH, LUCKY, SHE...
YOU GOT GOOD FOOD.
- I HAVE?
- YES, BEHIND YOU THERE.
- YOU GOT... YOU'VE GOT SOME GOOD FOOD.
- I HAVE.
MM-HMM.
OH, COME IN THE
KITCHEN THEN WITH ANN.
THANKS.
WELL, THANK YOU
FOLKS FOR JOINING US.
WE'LL BE WITH YOU
AGAIN REAL SOON.
'CAUSE WE LIKE
TO BE ON TELEVISION.
GOD BLESS YOU.
OKAY.
- OKAY.
- GIVE ME A KISS.
OKAY, I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.
BYE, ANN.
THAT'S THE SWEETEST GIRL.
GOLLY.
OKAY, BYE.
Y'ALL BRING A LOT
OF ZING AND ZAGGER.
RIGHT.
AND UP HERE THE "ZABONIE,"
AND OVER HERE,
THE "ZABOMORY."
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I SAID,
BUT I HOPE THE CENSORS
ARE NOT LISTENING.
BYE!
BYE, FOLKS.
DON'T FORGET TO HAVE
A MERRY CHRISTMAS.
FORGET THESE MISFITS.
OKAY, BYE.
SEE YOU ON "SMELLEVISION."
HEY, MISS ANN.
HOW YOU DOIN'?
NOT TOO GOOD.
HEY, COUSIN CLIFF.
IT'S DR. ROBINSON.
WHAT WE'RE SEEING
IS THE FINAL TIME.
EVERYTHING JUST
KIND OF SHUTS DOWN.
THE BODY FORGETS
HOW TO DO THINGS.
WHEN SWALLOWING GOES,
DEATH IS NOT FAR BEHIND.
IT'S OKAY.
GOODBYE.
THEY HAVE SO MANY GOOD MEMORIES.
THANK YOU.
HE LOVED IT...
TODAY WE REJOICE.
WE'RE GRATEFUL FOR CLIFF,
FOR HIS LIFE AND FOR HIS FAITH;
FOR THE LEGACY, THE SMILES,
THE HAPPY THINGS
THAT HE LEAVES BEHIND.
THOSE ARE THE THINGS
THAT WE WILL REMEMBER.
HIS LOVE REMAINS WITH US...
... AND THE
MEMORIES THAT WE'LL SHARE
WILL KEEP US HAPPY;
KEEP US THINKING OF HIM
FOR YEARS TO COME.
EVERYBODY READY?
FIRST NUMBER COMING UP!
I-17!
B-8.
GOOD COOKIE.
WHERE'D I LEAVE MY CAR?
THAT MUST BE IT OVER THERE.
YEAH, I SEE THE RUST ON IT.