Six Feet Under (2001–2005): Season 4, Episode 1 - Falling into Place - full transcript

See, we think we know
what we're capable of...

but maybe there's even more
to being human

than even the scientists
know, right?

I dig science.
I dig oceanography the best.

I mean, this acid
that we're on right now...

is made by science.

That's what so fuckin'
mind-blowing about it.

It's scientific.

I love you.

I love you too.

Bruno, your...



your face is all, like,
glowing from underneath.

It's like you're one
of those lava lamps.

It's like you're
made of human taffy.

I am.

- Let me try.
- No, come on.

I wanna show
you something.

I made it!
I didn't buy it!

Hey, Bruno, man,
nice party.

- Crambone, it's all happening, man!
- The moments?

The motherfuckin'
moments, man,

- they just keep on comin'!
- Right, right.

Where are we going?

Higher.

Come on.



Oh, wow.

We shouldn't
be up here.

No, we should
always be up here.

See... that's
the tragedy of life.

The fucking tragedy, Sandy,
is that we're all...

My name is Cindy.

See?

That is a beautiful
name too.

There are so many
beautiful names!

I just want to tear
every fucking name out,

and love every name.

And the hearts,
and the blood...

- Let's go back to the party now.
- No, I gotta go.

Oh, wow.

Bruno?

# We have got
to get it together #

# We have got to get it
together now. #

I'm sorry.

Don't be.

I had nowhere else
to go.

It's not a problem.

Where'd you get yourself
so messed up?

It doesn't matter.

Some bar.

When do I get
to self-destruct?

- And when do you?!
- Claire.

I mean it.

I'm sick of
Nate's bullshit.

I hate that he didn't come
to our mother's wedding. I'm sick of...

I'm just sick of everything
being so fuckin' awful all the time.

I'm sorry, but I am.

I'll take Maya tonight
if you want.

No, it's okay,
I'll do it.

It's obviously
my thing.

Good night.

Good night.

- Sweet dreams.
- Thanks.

I feel like I've been eating
this cake for 12 months.

I wasn't gonna
say anything.

Well, I guess
I better get going.

You could stay over tonight...
if you want.

Here?

Yeah, if you're too drunk
to drive or whatever.

- I guess I could do that.
- And what's wrong with here anyway?

- Nothing...
- Here is where I grew up.

Nothing's wrong with it.
I've just never stayed over your house.

- That's all I meant.
- Well you can. That's all I meant.

Look, I'm tired, okay?

My mother just married some guy.
Let me be a little edgy.

Be whatever you want,
I don't give a shit.

- So stay over.
- Okay!

Jesus.

I have to drive to Santa Barbara
to pick up her body.

To pick up
my wife's body.

Go to sleep.

I can't.

It's all so impossible.
It's all so fuckin' impossible.

Just sleep, Nate,
it helps.

- It's weird.
- What?

It's quieter here
than over at...

Your place?

Yeah.

Yeah,
it's quieter.

And stranger.

What's so strange?

Oh, I don't know,
the thought that I just got blown

in the same bed where my mom used
to read me "The Runaway Bunny"?

And "The Five
Chinese Brothers."

Oh God.

What is that?

Is that Claire?

No!

George!

George!

Oh, that was nice.

It certainly was.

I'm married again.

And?

Nothing.

I just never thought
I'd be married again.

Are you happy?

Very.

Me too.

I'm sorry your children
couldn't come to the wedding.

Well, they were...

very busy.

I get it.

I'd like to meet them,
though, sometime.

Brian and Maggie?
Sure.

You know so much
about my family,

and I know so little
about yours.

I'm sure you'll
meet them someday.

- At my funeral, if not before.
- George!

- If they even bother to come to that.
- George, I'm serious.

Look...

you've lived
your life one way,

I've lived
mine another.

The costs
are different.

But I can
tell you this,

every day
when I wake up,

I'm glad that
I'm alive,

and if people don't like
the way I've done things,

that's their business.

But right now,

I'm so very happy
I've found you.

And I'm looking forward,
not back.

Okay?

Do you think
we were too loud?

It's...

possible that we
were too loud, yes.

- Nate?
- You don't have to say it,

I know.

Bye.

Goodbye.

Call me if you
need anything.

Yeah, I will.

I waited up until,
like, 4:00.

- He never showed up.
- God, I'm sorry.

No, I couldn't
sleep anyway.

Could you
believe that?

I was like completely
scandalized.

I never knew the word "George"
could sound so obscene.

Good for them.

- You want some more coffee?
- Yes, please.

We have all got to get out of this house
if they're gonna keep doing that.

Out of the state.

Out of the universe.

What happened to you?

Lisa's dead.

Oh shit.

Her body washed up near
Carpinteria a few days ago.

Some kids found it.

Fuck.

It took the lab till yesterday
to figure out it was her.

Do they know
what happened?

She drowned.

She just...
drowned?

That's what
they said.

No evidence
of anything else bad.

But she could
swim, right?

Yeah, it just...
just looks like she drowned.

God.

So I have to...

go to the coroner
up there and get her.

I'll come with you.

Thanks.

Nate, what happened
to your face?

I got in a fight.

Good morning,
morning glories.

I hope we didn't keep
any of you folks up last night.

They found
Lisa's body.

She's dead.

Oh, Lord.

I'm sorry.

So am I.

So am I.

Angelica?!

Sweetie, I gotta
be at work in like 10 minutes,

David's going up
there with Nate, so...

Wait a minute, honey, okay?
Angelica, come on!

Gimme a second.

Why were you so late
last night?

I was at work.

We had this body come in,
this young girl.

You don't even
want to know.

Thank you for taking
such good care of us.

Angelica, I'm serious!

So, Keith.

So what about him?

You guys are
back together?

No.

He was there
this morning.

He was a little drunk last night,
I let him stay over.

I was being polite.

Polite and horny.

And horny.

Thank you for
bringing that up.

I never really thought Lisa
and I'd be together forever.

I always knew something
would come along and end it.

I just didn't
want it to be me.

You wouldn't believe how
much time I wasted thinking,

"Please don't let it
be me that fucks it up."

- And it wasn't.
- No?

Good for me.

You smell terrible.

Cavity fluid, sorry.

The smell of it just
permeates everything.

It always smells
so cold and lonely.

But then also weirdly sweet,
like an old lady's hair.

That's Velvetone.

Moisturizer.

It's to mask
the other smell.

I'll take a shower
before I come to bed.

When I die, I don't want
any of that stuff in me.

- Yeah, I don't blame you.
- No, I'm serious.

I don't want to be chemicalized
and boxed up.

I just want to be taken out
to some open space

in the forest somewhere,
buried right in the ground.

Nothing between me
and the earth that made me.

You don't want
to end up in a graveyard.

Nate, the whole world's
a graveyard.

Anybody home?

- Hello?
- It's Joe.

From across the way?
The guy that you didn't...

go on a date with
last night?

Oh, hi, yeah.

Come on in.

- Hey.
- Hey, what's in the bag?

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm all right,
I guess.

Well, what's the matter?

Oh, a friend
of mine died.

- Oh God, I'm sorry.
- Yeah.

I can go if you...

No, stay.

Stay.

I've just been sitting here
staring into space all morning.

I've got to get my shit
together at some point.

- Chinese food?
- Uh, yeah yeah.

Do you want some?
I got a little extra

just in case
that you were around.

It's not a date thing.

It's just
a neighbor thing.

All right.

- You eat shrimp?
- Mmm.

There is some salt-and-pepper
shrimp in here somewhere.

I eat everything
but mushrooms.

I don't like
mushrooms either.

They're too much like
parts of people, aren't they?

They just taste
dirty to me.

- Here.
- Thanks.

- What's funny?
- I don't think I've ever had a neighbor

who just
stops by before.

So, how is it?

It's interesting.

I don't want
to go in there.

Okay.
I'll handle it.

Thanks.

This is the worst one
I've had in a long time.

It's like those whales,
when they die.

- You know what happens?
- No.

Their guts turn to cream
and they explode.

All that's left when
they wash up on shore

- is a big bag of blubber...
- This is my sister-in-law.

Oh, shit shit shit.
I'm sorry.

- I thought you were here on business.
- I am,

and this is
my sister-in-law.

You shouldn't talk
like that about anybody.

- Just wait, hold on a sec.
- What?

It's her jawbone.
They used the dental work to ID her.

And here's your
death certificate.

- I can help, if you want...
- I've got it.

- I'm really sorry, man.
- You didn't know.

I just need
to drive for a while.

That's fine.

Oh God, Jesus.

Aw fuck.

Oh God, let's get
the fuck outta here.

- Hey, Barb.
- Hi.

I miss her so much.

It's so screwed up.

I know.

Where's Maya?

Napping.

You guys have to come up
to Santa Cruz to the farm.

She'll have a blast
with the kids,

and Hoyt is so great
with the little ones. She'll love him.

Yeah, we will.
That'll be fun.

And you remember
Simon and Shawn.

Hi.

- Hi.
- Hi.

So, which one
of you is which?

- Him.
- Him.

Do people like ask you that
every time they see you?

- Mmm-hmm.
- Mmm-hmm.

Sorry.

How was
the flight?

Very, very long.

Flying over those mountains
is a little scary to us.

L... I took
a couple of Ativan.

But you found us okay?
Once you got here?

Nope, good directions,
no problem.

- And the hotel?
- Everything.

Those were good,
good directions.

Love that MapQuest.

Oh, that's a good site.

Helluva site.

Extremely helpful.

I'm still a little...
shaken up.

Of course you are.

My little girl is...
dead.

You want to take
a peek at Maya, maybe?

Yeah, that'd be great.

- You're Michaela.
- I am.

I'm David.

I remember.
I met you at the wedding.

I'm sorry about
your aunt Lisa.

We're not gonna
have to see her, are we?

No.

That's a relief.

Are you, um...

- do you want something to eat?
- Not me.

But I bet the rest
of 'em do.

They all
love to eat.

I have had this goofy feeling in my ear
for, like, a week now.

I think it started the other day,
you know,

when I took the boys
to the beach.

- Angelica?
- What?

I was...
I was wondering maybe,

if it wasn't time for you to start
looking for a new place.

Is he making
you do this?

- He is, isn't he?
- No.

You know what?
That's bullshit.

Don't you think it's time
you get on your own two feet?

I have always been there
for you, Vanessa,

- whenever you needed anything.
- And I've been there for you!

When it's easy for you. When it fits
for you, you're there for me. Shit.

Watch your mouth
in front of my kids.

I'm sorry, but this ear thing
is driving me crazy!

- Angelica...
- No, you know what,

don't even talk to me, Vanessa.
Don't even talk.

Congratulations.

I'm gonna go
pack my things.

Come in.

- Can I escape in here for a second?
- Sure.

This house is crawling
with people.

There's nowhere to hide.

What are you doing?

I'm trying to break
my eye open.

Ouch.

That's what
Olivier called it.

It's learning to see
things differently,

without all the same
tired associations

we've made all our sad lives,
blah blah blah.

That one's pretty cool.

Yeah, that one is cool.
They're all really cool.

It's fucking
Nan Goldin, hello.

So you're back together
with Keith, huh?

I don't know,
maybe.

Do you wanna be?

Hmm.

What I want is...

I think I could be happy
going back if I could...

Break your eye
open a little?

Yeah.

If we both could.

- Why, is it that hard?
- You tell me.

Yeah, it's the hardest
fuckin' thing in the world.

Yeah, it is.

What about you?
Are you seeing anybody?

- Got a thing for anybody?
- Are you kidding? Ugh!

Everyone is an asshole
who ultimately fucks you over.

I am totally
done with that.

I'm thinking about becoming
like a crazy hermit recluse.

- You won't always feel that way.
- Yes, I will.

- What?
- David.

Everybody's waiting for you
in the dining room.

Gotta go.

Thanks for
the hideout.

Thanks for listening
to me complain about my

cushy, alienated life.

Any time.

Okay, here we go,
gentlemen.

That's not
what Lisa wanted.

With all due
respect, Nate,

you only knew my daughter
for a few years.

I think I have a little
better idea than you

of what she would
have really wanted,

if she hadn't been
so busy throwing everything

- in my face with her strange ideas.
- Mom...

No, Barb!

She is getting
cremated

and she is going
in the family mausoleum

in Coeur d'Alene.
That is final.

Peg, at times
like these...

David, the Kimmels
have always done it this way.

Tell him, Ed.

We've got a real nice
space set aside for her.

It's almost like
a little chapel

unto itself up
on the hill there.

That's not what she wanted,
does that matter to you people at all?

Did she have a plan,

or a will or something
that we could consult?

- Of course she didn't.
- Honey.

- She wanted... she didn't want...
- What?

She didn't want to be embalmed.
She didn't want to be cremated.

She just wanted to be put...

back into the earth somewhere.

No casket, nothing.

That is just the sickest thing
I've ever heard.

Mom.

To be eaten

by bugs and worms?

Yeah, well, you should know
that a lot of her

already has been eaten
by sharks and fish and shrimp!

- Nate!
- Stop yelling at me!

Tell him
to stop yelling!

She just wanted to return to the earth
is how she put it.

Well, ashes to ashes,
dust to dust, right?

Seems pretty clear
to me.

I can't believe that you
wouldn't want to honor

- your daughter's wishes about this!
- It seems to me...

What?

I think we all need
to be a little more aware

of each other's
grief right now,

and a little less
aggressive.

It would be nice
to do something

that bears some relation to what
Lisa would have wanted.

Thank you.

But if that's
not possible...

I'm sorry, I can't
deal with this.

David, you're gonna
have to deal with this.

Um...

why not...

Why not what, David?

Let's all start to try

thinking in terms of

a middle ground.

- Yeah.
- Hey, it's me.

Hey.

What's going on?

Not much.

Or a fuckin' lot,
I guess.

Where are you,
can you talk a second?

Sure.

Yeah. I was just on my way
to grab coffee with these...

two absolute idiots who think
they're revolutionaries

because they just went
to their first flash mob.

So the later I am,
the better.

Say something,
speak.

Well, um...

you know
my sister-in-law Lisa,

she was missing for, like,
a really long time.

They just
found her body.

She's dead.

Holy fuckin' shit,
Claire.

Yeah.

It's really fucked up,
isn't it?

Claire,
I'm so sorry.

Yeah.

Nate, she's their
little girl.

If something happened to Maya,
you'd be a nightmare to deal with.

That's not the point
and you know it.

It's their last chance
to be her parents.

- I'm her husband, so the fuck what?!
- Should I, perhaps, leave?

No! Look, you know
I'm with you on this.

I'm sorry, that's not painfully
fuckin' obvious!

That's because, you asshole,
I'm trying to keep everybody happy!

- Well, it's working.
- I know it's not working!

I think I could
go re-alphabetize

those unclaimed cremains
while you guys...

Arthur!

Or I can do that later,
also is good for me too.

You just honest...
you just tell me,

do you think it's okay
for that fuckin' hydra...

which, incidentally,
was what Lisa called her, okay?

Do you think it's okay
for her to burn my wife up

in an oven and stick her
in a drawer?

When all that Lisa
wanted was to be

outside somewhere
under the stars?

No, but what you're suggesting
is against the law.

We could lose our license.

Look,

I know you want to do
a good thing for Lisa.

They do too, so do I.
We all want to do a good thing.

I'm over here.

What can I do
for you?

I'm looking for
someone to, uh...

I wanted to make
a confession.

Do I know you?

Uh no, no.

I didn't want to go
to my own church.

Oh, okay.
Well, have a seat.

We're not
going in there?

Well, we can
if you like.

But nowadays, a lot of people
prefer to do it face to face.

Well...

okay.

I say everything else
the same, right?

Like,
the official way?

You can say it
however you like.

- Okay, okay.
- Okay.

Uh well,

I'm... I'm married,

and I have two kids,
but the other night,

I went to a strip club
called The Seventh Veil?

Uh... I'm not really
familiar with it.

Oh, n-n-neither was I,

but this guy made me go,

and I met this girl,
and I let her give me a...

you know.
She, uh...

she orally...

Do you know what the scriptures
say about the sanctity of marriage?

Uh yeah, yeah yeah, kinda.
You know?

I-I-I know the basic position
of-of the scriptures,

and, and...
whatever, yeah.

Good. Do you know
the act of contrition?

Yes, sir.
Yes.

Uh, "O, my God,

I am heartily sorry
for having offended Thee.

I detest
all my sins,

but most of all because
they offend Thee, my God,

who art all good
and deserving of all my love.

I firmly intend
to confess my sins,

do penance, and amend my life.
Amen."

That was fast.

Hello?

Hi, it's me.

What's up?

I just wanted to know
when Lisa's funeral is gonna be.

Nate?

Yeah, I'm here.

It's tomorrow, 10:00.

Do you want me
to come?

Uh...

- honestly, no.
- Okay.

It's just there's a shitload
of people here, Brenda,

all kinds of Lisa's family
from Idaho. It's a mess.

You don't have to explain.

- Is that all right?
- Sure.

You do what you got to do
to get through this.

Yeah, I'm trying.

Thanks.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

My sister Lisa
didn't believe in borders.

She didn't see the edges
and the lines in between things

that most of us think
keep life manageable.

And this meant if you were
her sister growing up,

she would always come
into your room without knocking.

Or she would come
into the bathroom

and open
the shower curtain

just to tell you about
some article she'd read,

or some boy she'd met.

And it meant later on

that she would...

call me on the phone,

sometimes
very very late at night,

just to tell me about

a new recipe
I needed to try,

or...

more recently,

some new,

completely amazing thing

that Maya had done.

Or about how well things
were going with Nate.

It also meant that
she looked for ways

every day to reach out
to the people around her,

to extend kindness to strangers
when it wasn't expected.

And to push everyone
around her to see the things

that unify us
with nature,

with each other...

with life itself.

Lisa didn't
believe in borders

and that's why I know
that wherever Lisa is right now...

she's...

everywhere.

She's everywhere,
and that means she's home.

So you ready, guys?

- Yeah.
- Yeah. I guess.

This was one of Aunt Lisa's
favorite songs.

One, two,
three, four.

# You,
who are on the road #

# Must have a code #

# That you can live by #

# And so
become yourselves #

# Because the past #

# Is just a goodbye. #

That was
an amazing service, Nate.

Lisa would
have loved it.

So where is she gonna be buried
or scattered or...

We're gonna put her ashes in the family
mausoleum in Coeur d'Alene.

Oh good.

Idaho, good.

See, I didn't even know
she was from Idaho.

We've lost three friends
in the last month or so,

it's kinda
taking a toll.

Oh, you poor thing.

And we're not even
40 yet, you know?

What's it gonna be like
when we're 50, or 60?

There's so much
death.

And Maya, what is
she gonna do?

She's never gonna
know her mother.

I don't know how
you deal with it.

Thanks for coming.

Yeah.

I'm just sorry
it's under such

totally crappy
circumstances.

But, it's so good
to see you.

What have you
been up to?

Not much.

Making bad art.

Saying stupid things.

Continuing implementation
of my master plan

to be completely forgotten
when I'm gone,

and totally forgettable
while I'm here.

You?

Not much.

I got an abortion.

When?

Like, right after
we broke up.

So, okay,

give me a minute,
did you

just tell me that

we got pregnant,

that you had an abortion
and it was mine?

Ours, yeah.

And you didn't
call me?

You didn't think you
should at least tell me?

I'm telling
you now.

Why are you telling me now
when there's nothing I can do about it?

Because
I'm lonely.

Because I need somebody
to talk to about this.

Claire, I could've
been there.

I could've
done something.

Russell, believe me,
there's nothing to do.

There would have been
if I'd been there.

Like what?
I wasn't gonna have it.

I know that.

I could have
comforted you...

With what, flowers?

Balloons?

- Believe me you'd already done enough.
- Jesus.

- Look, I'm sorry that...
- Just give me a second.

Okay, just...

just give me a second
to get used to the idea

of living with this
for the rest of my life.

- Are you fuckin' kidding me?
- No, I'm not!

I'm not kidding you, Claire!
It's fucking sad!

It's fucking sad
and it's fucked up!

I mean,
did you cry?!

Did you?!

I cried more than you have ever cried
in your whole life!

Then give me one fuckin' second to feel
bad about this, okay?

Just a
motherfuckin' second?

Is everything
all right in here?

Yes, George, we're fine.
Thank you.

Okay. Sorry.

Do you need me to come with you
to the crematorium?

No, thanks.

It'll be good to have
some time alone.

I could run by

in the morning
and get the ashes.

It's on my way, Nate.
It's cool.

No, thanks, Rico,

I told them Lisa's folks have
to leave first thing tomorrow.

They'll do it when I get there
and I'll bring her right back.

All right.

I'm really
really sorry, Nate.

Thanks.

Well, I'm gonna
go straight home.

Okay.

Say hi to Vanessa
and the kids for me.

I will.

So I'll see you
in about an hour?

Yeah.

A lot you could do with this.
Take a beautiful handkerchief

and drape it over the top
and you'd be in business.

Hey.

Hi.

Nate's gone?

Yeah.

I hope this whole
thing helps him

move on.

It probably will.

If I lost you, Keith,
I don't know what I'd do.

You'd find
somebody else.

I don't want
anybody else.

I really don't.

And neither do I.

Then why do we...

- Keep fuckin' it up?
- Yeah.

Because we're human?

If there was
a way to start over,

if there was actually
a way to start over,

I'd do it,
I really would.

But is there even really
a way to start over?

Really?

- Just even in general?
- I don't know.

I mean, I was
talking to Claire,

she's trying to see
in this new way,

you know, for her art.

I don't know how
it happens.

I don't know where the new
comes from, you know?

The genuinely new.

God, I don't.

So stay with me.

Maybe we'll
find out together.

Things would really have
to be different though, Keith.

- I think so too.
- I mean it, I can't...

I mean, I don't want to sit
through anymore therapy.

I don't either.

But we have
to look for ways

to bring the good things
we feel about each other

more into the way that we
get through each day.

See, that sounds a little
like therapy to me.

Well, it's cheaper.

Yeah, and it's true,
I know.

I gotta quit my job,
that's the one thing I gotta do...

- I think you should.
- No, I mean it this time.

Everybody in security
is a fuckin' asshole.

- Then quit.
- I'm gonna!

Jeez.

So did we just...
what did we just do?

- Did we just get married?
- No!

It seems kinda like
we did.

Yeah, well,
don't overthink it.

Come here.

What were you
just watching,

when I came in?

I have no fuckin' idea.

Well, put it back on,
whatever it was.

Just something.

Very very cool.
Isn't this great looking?

Hey.

Hey.

You must go through
a lot of money feeding all these cats.

Actually, I think it saves me money,
in the long run.

See, this way, I get to walk
by all the homeless people

and think to myself,
"You know, I'd love to help you out,

but I take care
of cats."

You don't do that.

Yeah, I do.

That was nice the way
you dropped by the other day.

No, that was selfish.
I just wanted to see you.

Well, I appreciated it.

- Any time.
- Like tonight?

I could be free.

So could I.

Come here.

So what do you
wanna do?

- I'm so sorry.
- Here you go.

Thanks for everything
you've done for us.

Thank you, Nate.

I'm sorry things
got so complicated.

I am too.

Well, things have a way
of doing that, though,

don't they?

They do.

Well, bye.

Take care.

I'm glad you're
in my family.

I'm glad
you're in mine.

Come on, guys.

- Watch your step there.
- Everybody in.

So are you gonna go?

Yeah.

There's still some stuff to clean up
down in the basement though.

I'll take
care of it.

Thanks.

Oh God.