My So-Called Life (1994–1995): Season 1, Episode 19 - In Dreams Begin Responsibilities - full transcript

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[BIRDS CHIRPING]

Angela: IN THE DREAM I KEEP
HAVING ABOUT JORDAN CATALANO,

I'M TRYING TO CATCH UP WITH HIM.



BUT IT'S HARD BECAUSE THERE'S
SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE FLOOR.

SOMETIMES MY FATHER IS THERE.

SOMETIMES MY GREAT
AUNT GERTRUDE'S FUNERAL

KINDA GETS MIXED IN WITH IT.

[DOOR SLAMMING]

THE END OF THE DREAM
IS ALWAYS THE SAME.

I CATCH UP WITH HIM.

I YELL AND SCREAM HOW
HE HURT AND BETRAYED ME.

HOW I CAN NEVER FORGIVE HIM.

HE JUST STANDS THERE LIKE
SOMEONE CAUGHT IN A STORM

WHO'S STOPPED CARING
HOW WET HE GETS.

THEN I WAKE UP.

THE STORM OF WORDS STILL
POUNDS THROUGH MY BODY.

HATRED CAN BECOME LIKE FOOD.



IT GIVES YOU THIS ENERGY.

YOU CAN, LIKE, LIVE OFF IT.

HALLIE, I CAN'T DISCUSS
THIS ON THE PHONE.

MY BAGEL BURNED.

OH, THAT JUST REMINDED
ME OF MY ENTIRE DREAM.

HEY, HEY! YOU UNPLUG
THAT FIRST, I TOLD YOU...

ALL RIGHT... OK.

I'LL MEET YOU AT
THE SPACE AT NOON.

ALL RIGHT.

MONEY GUYS ARE
STARTING TO WAFFLE.

COLD FEET. REALLY?

YEAH. WELL, I SAY GOOD RIDDANCE.

IF THEY CAN'T STAND THE HEAT,
GET OUT OF THE RESTAURANT.

YEAH! GO DAD!

LISTEN, EVERYONE. YOU WANT
TO HEAR WHAT I DREAMED?

UH, OOH...

MAYBE LATER. NO, THANKS.

DAD, SOMETHING IS REALLY
WRONG WITH THAT TOASTER.

WHERE'S MY OTHER MITTEN?

I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW.
HERE, FINISH MY BAGEL.

THAT'S OK. I'M NOT HUNGRY.

[DOOR OPENS] I DREAMED
ABOUT TONY POOLE.

Sharon: SERIOUSLY?

YOU HAD A DREAM
ABOUT RICKIE VASQUEZ?

WELL, IT WASN'T, YOU KNOW...

THAT TYPE OF DREAM.

WE WERE JUST DANCING...

IN THIS BIG VEGETABLE
GARDEN. HA!

I WAS WEARING THIS
DRESS I SAW ON THE NANNY.

[LAUGHS]

SO... HOW MUCH DO YOU,
LIKE, KNOW ABOUT HIM?

RICKIE VASQUEZ...

NOTHING.

BUT HE'S BEST FRIENDS
WITH RAYANNE GRAFF

AND YOU'RE, LIKE, FRIENDS
WITH HER, AREN'T YOU?

I'M NOT FRIENDS
WITH RAYANNE GRAFF.

I'M NOT!

I CAN'T BELIEVE
THIS. OK, JUST...

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DIDN'T
TELL ME THIS IMMEDIATELY.

I'M TELLING YOU NOW.

HEY, IT'S A BUMP IN THE ROAD.

EXCUSE ME. IT'S A LITTLE
MORE THAN A BUMP IN THE ROAD

IF OUR POTENTIAL INVESTORS
WANT ME OUT OF THE PICTURE.

THEY'RE INSECURE,
OK? IT'S NORMAL.

WELL, YOU SHOULD'VE
MENTIONED IT 3 DAYS AGO

WHEN IT FIRST CAME
UP! WHAT WERE...

HELLO.

HI. HI?

I BROUGHT LUNCH.

THAT'S GREAT. GOOD.

I'M GONNA GO OUT FOR A WHILE

AND GET SOME AIR.

HE'S COMPLETELY RIGHT. I... I
SHOULD'VE TOLD HIM THE SECOND I KNEW.

[SIGHS] I MEAN, IT'S
UNORTHODOX, YOU KNOW?

HE'S NEVER ACTUALLY
WORKED AS A CHEF.

TRUE...

BUT ALL HE HAS TO
DO IS COOK FOR THEM.

THAT'S ALL. THEY'LL BE
EATING OUT OF HIS HAND.

[SIGHS] WELL...

BETTER GET BACK TO THE
OFFICE BEFORE THEY FIRE ME.

YOU KNOW, UM...

IT OCCURRED TO ME
THIS MORNING, UM,

AND OLD FRIEND OF
MINE FROM HIGH SCHOOL

ENDED UP IN THE
RESTAURANT BUSINESS.

OH, YEAH?

WELL, AN OLD BOYFRIEND ACTUALLY.

[LAUGHS] I'M PRETTY SURE

THAT HE ENDED UP
RUNNING A BAR AND GRILL.

ANYWAY, I'D BE HAPPY
TO CONTACT HIM.

WHY?

JUST... UH, I DON'T KNOW.

MAYBE IT WOULD HELP TO TALK TO
SOMEBODY WHO'S BEEN THROUGH IT.

OH. UH, WELL, YEAH. SURE.

I'LL TALK TO ANYBODY.

[DOOR OPENS]

ALL RIGHT, HERE'S THE
DEAL. TASTING IS BELIEVING.

MY COOKING SPEAKS
FOR ITSELF, ALL RIGHT?

I HAVE TO DO WHAT I
DO BEST, WHICH IS COOK.

SO I WILL COOK FOR
THESE MONEY GUYS.

AND THAT WILL BE THAT. RIGHT?

RIGHT. RIGHT.

RIGHT.

Mr. Katimski: OK.
NOW ONCE AGAIN,

EACH OF THE VOCABULARY WORDS...

PREFERABLY SPELLED CORRECTLY...

MUST BE USED IN A SENTENCE.

NOW, ANYONE WHO
WOULD LIKE TO READ MORE

ABOUT GRECIAN URNS
FOR EXTRA CREDIT...

Boy: YEAH. SHOULD
SPEAK TO ME RIGHT NOW.

[BELL RINGING]

IT'S SO WEIRD WHEN YOU SEE
SOMEONE YOU JUST DREAMED ABOUT.

LIKE IT'S GONNA SHOW.

I'M GONNA GO DO THAT
EXTRA CREDIT THING.

I CAN'T BELIEVE WE HAVE TO USE
ALL THOSE WORDS IN A SENTENCE.

I MEAN, NOT ALL IN
THE SAME SENTENCE,

BUT, UH... STILL.

SO I'M STILL DOING
THAT TUTORING THING.

YOU KNOW?

YEAH...

SO GUESS WHAT? UH...

THERE'S, LIKE, A TERM FOR ME.

I'M A RUDIMENTARY READER
WITH LOW LITERACY SKILLS.

THAT KID, BRAIN, FIGURED
IT OUT FROM THIS MANUAL.

Mr. Katimski: SHOULD I CHECK TO
SEE IF I HAVE A FEW MORE COPIES?

Boy: OH, DO. YES, PLEASE.

BE WITH YOU IN ONE SECOND, KIDS.

SO, HOW'S EVERYTHING?

HOW'S DELIA FISHER?

KRAKOW, STOP
ASKING ME HOW SHE IS.

YOU TREATED HER LIKE CRAP
AND SHE IS WAY OVER YOU.

SHE LIKES SOMEONE ELSE NOW.

OH, YEAH? WHO?

THAT GUY ANGELA HANGS OUT WITH.

RICKIE VASQUEZ. WHAT?

Jordan: WHAT ELSE? UH...

OH, MY BAND GOT BACK TOGETHER.

WE GOT A NEW NAME. WE'RE, UH...

WE'RE RESIDUE NOW.

SO I'VE BEEN, YOU
KNOW, WRITING SONGS...

WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME ALL THIS?

I DON'T KNOW.

I MEAN, YOU'RE THE ONE WHO
SIGNED ME UP FOR TUTORING

IN THE FIRST PLACE, SO...

FORGET IT.

HE HAD THE NERVE
TO, LIKE, TALK TO YOU?

I DON'T BELIEVE HIM.

MM.

UGH!

OH, CHASE-FACE,
YOU'RE, LIKE, SHAKING.

UM...

I HAD THAT DREAM
AGAIN LAST NIGHT.

WHERE I'M, LIKE,
SCREAMING AT HIM?

OH! I JUST REMEMBERED
WHAT I DREAMED.

Mr. Katimski: ANGELA CHASE.

CAN I PUT YOU DOWN TO
SELL 30 TICKETS TO OUR TOWN?

[STAMMERS] OH, GEE WHIZ, ANGELA.

THIS IS 30 MEASLY TICKETS.

OK, YES. HA HA HA!

GREAT.

GOD, HE JUST WEARS YOU DOWN.

LAST NIGHT, I DREAMED

THAT RAYANNE GRAFF
AND I WERE APPEARING

IN THIS WATER BALLET TOGETHER

FOR, LIKE, CHARITY.

Man: HEAD'S UP!

OK, HERE'S HOW WE DO IT.

YOU TELL ME A
STORY, A TRUE STORY

THAT HAPPENED, LIKE, TO YOU.

AND, UM, I TAKE CERTAIN, LIKE,
KEY WORDS FROM THE STORY

AND MAKE FLASH CARDS.

I BLEW IT.

WAIT, IS THIS, LIKE, THE
STORY, OR IS THIS JUST...

FORGET THE STORY.

I CAN'T THINK ABOUT
SOME CRAPPY STORY.

MY LIFE SUCKS TOO MUCH.

YEAH? HOW COME?

'CAUSE SHE HATES ME.

AND I DESERVE IT.

YOU KNOW WHO I MEAN, RIGHT?

YEAH.

TODAY AFTER KATIMSKI'S,

I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HER

THAT I WAS...

YOU KNOW...

SORRY OR WHATEVER.

SO? WHAT HAPPENED?

NOTHING.

UH, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

SAY YOU'RE SORRY.

WELL...

WAIT, YOU CAN GO UP TO ANY
GIRL AND GET HER PHONE NUMBER,

YET YOU'RE AFRAID TO TELL
ANGELA CHASE YOU'RE SORRY?

SO?

NOTHING, IT'S JUST IRONIC.

WELL, SO WHAT?

WHAT'S "IRONIC"?

UM, WHEN YOU REALIZE

THE, LIKE, COMPONENT OF
WEIRDNESS IN A SITUATION.

HELP ME, BRAIN.

HELP ME FIGURE OUT SOMETHING
GOOD TO SAY TO ANGELA.

NO. UH-UH. NO.

LOOK. YOU DID AN
UNDEFENDABLE THING, OK?

NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT. I MEAN,

YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT.

IT'S LIKE YOU CREATED YOUR OWN
PRISON AND NOW YOU HAVE TO EXIST IN IT.

THAT'S PERFECT.

GIVE ME SOME MORE
STUFF LIKE THAT.

NO, NO! ABSOLUTELY NOT.

IT'S NOT... Teacher: SHH!

THE PHONICS MANUAL
DOES NOT COVER

THAT TYPE OF SITUATION,
OK? THE PHONICS MANUAL?

Girl: SHH!

I CANNOT BE INVOLVED.

WHATEVER YOU SAY OR
DON'T SAY TO ANGELA CHASE

IS COMPLETELY
BETWEEN YOU AND HER.

OK.

RELAX. I'LL FIGURE
IT OUT MYSELF.

FINE.

THAT'S ACTUALLY FINE.

I MEAN... GOOD.

YOU FIGURE OUT WHAT
YOU WANT TO SAY TO HER,

AND I'LL DO SOME CALCULUS.

AND WE'LL JUST
WORK INDEPENDENTLY.

DEAL.

WHAT HAVE YOU GOT SO FAR?

[EXHALING] YOU THINK
I'M UNHAPPY? ME?

WELL, IN MY HUMBLE OPINION, YES.

DON'T SAY "IN MY
HUMBLE OPINION".

THAT'S ANGELA TALK. THAT'S
HOW ANGELA CHASE TALKS.

WHAT, ARE YOU
TRYING TO DEPRESS ME?

FOR YOUR INFORMATION,

I HAPPEN TO BE A
VERY HAPPY, UP...

PERSON. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKIN' AT?

NOTHING.

IGNORE HER.

SHE'S JUST A NATURALLY
HAPPY, UP PERSON.

OH, BY THE WAY, I PUT YOU DOWN

TO SELL OUR TOWN TICKETS.

NO, DON'T PUT ME
DOWN. TAKE ME OFF.

I HAVE, LIKE, NO
FREE TIME AS IT IS.

ALL RIGHT. RICKIE?

HI.

HI.

YOU'RE WORKING
ON OUR TOWN, RIGHT?

OH, YEAH. HE'S THE
STAGE MANAGER.

I MEAN, NOT THE PART
OF THE STAGE MANAGER,

BUT THE ACTUAL...

WELL, YOU KNOW, I WOULD
REALLY LIKE TO GET INVOLVED.

WITH THE PLAY, I MEAN.

OH, OK. WELL, WE NEED
MORE PEOPLE TO SELL TICKETS.

GREAT! SIGN ME UP.

ME, TOO. HEH.

HEH HEH. OK. WELL, UM...

I'LL LET YOU GUYS KNOW
WHERE YOU CAN PICK THEM UP

AND EVERYTHING. GOOD.

'BYE.

'BYE! HEH HEH.
OW! WHAT? STOP IT.

OH, YOU KNOW WHAT.

SO SHARON CHERSKI TOLD
ME THAT DELIA HAS IT FOR YOU.

HAS IT FOR ME?

WHAT? THAT'S, LIKE, AN
EXPRESSION PEOPLE SAY, RIGHT?

UH...

RIGHT?

YEAH.

Patty: [LAUGHS] TONY, I DID NOT.

TONY?

CAMILLE CHERSKI
GAVE ME YOUR NUMBER.

[LAUGHS] OK, SHE GOT
IT FROM HOWARD PICKETT

AT THE LAST REUNION.

BECAUSE I ALREADY TOLD YOU.

I NEED YOUR ADVICE.

HA! OK. ME, TOO.

I'LL SEE YOU FRIDAY.

[GASPS] OH, GOD!

DON'T SNEAK UP ON ME LIKE THAT.

MOM... MOM, WHO'S TONY?

MOM... MOM, WHY
ARE YOU BLUSHING?

MOM, DO YOU REALIZE

THAT YOUR VOICE
JUST SOUNDED, LIKE,

COMPLETELY DIFFERENT?

REALLY?

OH, MY GOD. MOM, HE'S CUTE.

I TOLD YOU SO.

YEAH, BUT I CAN'T TRUST
YOUR JUDGMENT OF CUTENESS.

MOM! YOU WENT HITCHHIKING?

NO, NO. THAT IS A
TOTALLY FAKE PICTURE.

THAT NEVER
HAPPENED. AND IF EITHER

OF YOU GIRLS EVER
ATTEMPT SUCH A THING...

MOM? YOU REALLY HAVEN'T
SEEN HIM SINCE HIGH SCHOOL?

OH, LORD. I HAVEN'T EVEN
THOUGHT ABOUT HIM IN YEARS.

I HAD A DREAM
ABOUT HIM LAST NIGHT.

I DREAMED...

I WAS TAKING OUT THE GARBAGE

AND SUDDENLY I REALIZED
THERE'S SOMEONE THERE.

AND IT'S PRINCESS DIANA.

OH, NOT ANOTHER
PRINCESS DIANA DREAM.

WHY? DOES MOM DREAM
ABOUT HER A LOT OR SOMETHING?

NOT THAT OFTEN. ANYWAY...

ANYWAY, SHE'S ALL UPSET ABOUT
THE DIVORCE AND EVERYTHING,

AND SHE KEEPS REPEATING,

"PRINCESSES JUST
DON'T GET DIVORCED."

AND I SAY, "I KNOW, I KNOW."

AND THEN I SEE HIM.

TONY.

AND I THINK, "WOW.

"HE LOOKS JUST THE SAME."

AND...

THAT'S ALL I REMEMBER.

SO DO YOU LOVE HIM
MORE THAN YOU LOVE DAD?

DANIELLE...

NO, HONEY. THAT'S OK.

NO, IT'S A RIDICULOUS QUESTION.

WELL, THAT KIND OF THING
GIVES ME NIGHTMARES.

WHAT KIND OF THING?

THAT YOU AND DADDY
COULD GET DIVORCED.

DANIELLE, SHE'S GONNA
SEE HIM FOR ONE HOUR

TO TALK ABOUT RESTAURANTS.

ANGELA...

WELL, I MEAN,

A PERSON CAN HAVE
FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE

EVEN IF THEY'RE NOT, LIKE,

THE PERSON ANYMORE.

SWEETIE,

TONY POOLE IS
SOMEONE THAT I KNEW

LONG, LONG AGO.

LONG, LONG AGO.
LIKE A FAIRY TALE.

THAT'S RIGHT. BUT
HE'S NOT WHO I CHOSE

TO MAKE MY LIFE WITH.

I CHOSE YOUR DAD.

BUT DID YOU, LIKE, LOVE HIM?

I'M NOT SURE.

WITH TONY, IT WAS...

IT WAS CRAZY.

WE REALLY DID SOME...

PRETTY CRAZY AND
WILD THINGS BACK THEN.

[LAUGHS] I DID!

WHAT CAN I SAY, BUT, UH...

IT'S ALWAYS TEMPTING

TO LOSE YOURSELF WITH SOMEONE

WHO'S MAYBE LOST THEMSELVES.

BUT EVENTUALLY...

[SIGHS]

YOU WANT REALITY.

THAT MAKES SENSE.

[DOOR OPENS]

I'M HOME!

SO I CALLED TONY
POOLE THIS EVENING.

REALLY? HUH.

BOY, WAS HE SHOCKED.

YEAH, WELL, I BET.

OH. IT WAS NO BIG
DEAL, BELIEVE ME.

HIS WIFE ANSWERED THE PHONE.

ANYWAY, IT TURNS OUT

THAT HE WAS IN THE
RESTAURANT BUSINESS

FOR, LIKE, 12 YEARS. OH?
WHERE IS HE NOW, PRISON?

HE HAS A JEEP
DEALERSHIP IN HARRISBURG.

SO, UM... I INVITED HIM

TO STOP BY ON FRIDAY NIGHT.

JUST IN CASE HE HAS
SOME PEARLS OF WISDOM

TO DISPENSE.

UNLESS... I MEAN, IS THAT OK?

OF COURSE IT'S OK. IT'S
PROBABLY A GOOD IDEA

TO GET OTHER PEOPLE'S
EXPERIENCES WHO'VE BEEN THERE.

YEAH, EXACTLY.

I WON'T BE HERE, THOUGH.

I'M COOKING FOR THE
INVESTORS ON FRIDAY NIGHT.

OH.

SHE HAD A DREAM
ABOUT RICKIE? MY RICKIE?

SO WHAT DO YOU THINK? I MEAN,

DOES HE EVER, YOU
KNOW, WITH GIRLS?

BECAUSE SHE IS A REAL SWEETIE.

[BELL RINGS]

BUT I THOUGHT SHE, LIKE,
CRAVED BRIAN KRAKOW.

[RAYANNE HUMS]

COME ON. WE'LL BE
LATE FOR HOMEROOM.

Jordan: OK, LET ME SEE.

THAT THING ABOUT THE PRISON.

JUST BEG HER FORGIVENESS.

I MEAN, TELL HER YOU'RE SCUM.

THAT YOU'RE LOWER
THAN SCUM. THAT YOU'RE...

YOU'RE NOT FIT
TO LICK HER SHOES.

I'M SORRY, I DIDN'T MEAN
TO GET INSULTING, I JUST...

WHAT ABOUT THAT OTHER THING
YOU SAID YOUR PARENTS ALWAYS SAY?

MY PARENTS ARE PSYCHIATRISTS,
OK? YOU CAN'T GO BY THEM.

A... WHAT KIND OF WISH?

UNCONSCIOUS WISH

TO PUNISH YOU. I MEAN HER.

GOT IT. Sharon: ANGELA, COME ON.

ANGELA?

I'M GONNA BE LATE FOR HOMEROOM.

WHAT?

I DID AN UNDEFENDABLE THING.

I CREATED MY OWN PRISON...

AND I HAVE TO EXIST IN IT.

MAYBE I HAD A...

WISH...

OR WHATEVER...

TO PUNISH YOU.

AN UNCONSCIOUS WISH.

YOU'VE HEARD OF THEM, RIGHT?

NO, I... I THINK SO.

I CAN'T BELIEVE...

WHAT YOU JUST SAID WAS...

REALLY AMAZING.

I... I KNOW.

OK.

OK WHAT?

OK, NOW WE CAN
HAVE A SERIOUS TALK.

WE JUST DID.

OH, COME ON. YOU
CAN'T HIT A PERSON

WITH SOMETHING THAT PROFOUND

AND EXPECT THAT TO BE
THE END OF THE DISCUSSION.

YOU CAN'T?

OH. UH... I FORGOT.

I, UH... I'M LATE FOR HOMEROOM.

[SIGHS]

I WAS SO CLOSE YESTERDAY.

BUT IT WASN'T ENOUGH.

SHE'S, LIKE...

STARVED OR SOMETHING.

IT'S GOTTA BE WRITTEN
DOWN SO I CAN'T SCREW IT UP.

WELL, SO, WRITE HER A LETTER.

NO. NO!

I AM NOT WRITING A LETTER
TO ANGELA CHASE FOR YOU.

I CAN'T.

OH, RICKIE, IT WAS LIKE A DREAM.

I MEAN, YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE

THE BRILLIANTLY INSIGHTFUL WORDS

THAT CAME OUT OF HIS MOUTH.

GO AHEAD. I'M
LISTENING. AND THEN,

YOU KNOW, JUST...

JUST AS I'M REALIZING
THAT THERE'S HOPE

THAT WE COULD
ACTUALLY COMMUNICATE?

HE RUNS AWAY.

I MEAN, I HAVE NEVER BEEN
SO COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY...

OH, ARE THOSE THE POSTERS?

UH, YEAH.

CAN I TAKE ONE HOME
TO SHOW AMBER?

SURE.

AMBER'S LIKE, TOTALLY JAZZED.

TURNS OUT IT'S,
LIKE, HER BIG DREAM

TO HAVE A DAUGHTER
IN THE SCHOOL PLAY.

OH, REALLY?

I'D BETTER GO.

UNH! GET OUT OF MY WAY!

WHY DOES SHE DISLIKE ME?
WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO HER?

SO, WHAT'S NEW?

I MEAN, IS ANYTHING, LIKE, NEW

WITH ANYBODY WE BOTH, LIKE, KNOW

OR ANYTHING?

WELL, IF YOU MUST KNOW,

SHE'S IN SHOCK.

ONCE AGAIN, SOMETHING
JORDAN CATALANO DID

HAS LEFT HER COMPLETELY
AND TOTALLY MYSTIFIED.

IT WAS ME.

I MEAN...

I TOLD JORDAN WHAT TO SAY.

WHAT?

I CAN'T, LIKE, DEFEND
IT. IT'S UNDEFENDABLE.

BRIAN, I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.
YOU'RE USING JORDAN CATALANO.

WHAT? HE'S USING ME.

YEAH, BUT... BUT
YOU'RE USING HIM, TOO...

TO, LIKE, EXPRESS YOUR TRUE
FEELINGS TOWARDS ANGELA.

OR WHATEVER.

OH, MY GOD. YOU'RE RIGHT.

Delia: CAREFUL.

SOMEONE COULD STEP ON THEM.

THANKS.

DELIA, COME ON.

SO, UM, DON'T FORGET.

PUT ME DOWN TO SELL TICKETS.

BOY. SHE REALLY LIKES YOU.

UH, HEH...

I... I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE IT.

I MEAN, IT'S SUCH, LIKE,
AN UNFAMILIAR EXPERIENCE.

I MEAN, DO YOU REALIZE

HOW MUCH EASIER MY LIFE WOULD BE

IF I COULD JUST LIKE HER BACK?

I MEAN, BRIAN...

THIS COULD BE MY CHANCE

TO BE STRAIGHT.

OK. SO WE AGREED
ON THE RACK OF LAMB

WITH THE GREEN PEPPERCORN
SAUCE, RIGHT? UH...

NO, COME ON! COME ON,

IT'S COMPATIBLE WITH
THE SAUTEED FOIE GRAS,

WE KNOW WE WANT
THE CREME BRULEE...

OK, FINE. LAMB.

LISTEN, UM, I SPOKE
WITH ALEXANDER.

HE'S GONNA COME
UP WITH SOME, UH,

VISUAL AIDS, YOU KNOW.

GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO PICTURE.

GREAT. SO IT'S
MESSIEURS MONEYBAGS,

PLUS THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHERS,

PLUS... OOH. IS PATTY COMING?

NO. NO.

THAT'S JUST AS WELL, I BET.

MAKES ME LESS NERVOUS.

ACTUALLY, SHE'S
HAVING THAT GUY TONY

OVER TO THE HOUSE THAT NIGHT.

YOU KNOW, THE OLD
BOYFRIEND FROM HIGH SCHOOL?

SHE'S GONNA GRILL HIM ABOUT
THE RESTAURANT BUSINESS.

[GIGGLES]

I THINK SHE'S KIND OF CURIOUS.

YOU KNOW, HE MEANT A LOT TO HER

AT A CERTAIN TIME IN HER LIFE.
I MEAN, IT'S OK. I CAN HANDLE IT.

CLEARLY.

NO! LET'S SAY THEY EVEN...

YOU KNOW, FLIRT A
LITTLE OR WHATEVER.

I MEAN, THAT DOESN'T MEAN...

OH, YEAH. I KNOW.

A PERSON CAN ENJOY THE ENJOYMENT

OF FLIRTING WITHOUT...

EXACTLY. WITHOUT
ANY INTENTION OF...

YOU DON'T MEAN ANYTHING.

WELL, EVERYTHING MEANS
SOMETHING, YOU KNOW. BUT...

RIGHT. EXACTLY.

OF COURSE, THERE'S NO LAW

THAT SAYS YOU CAN'T ACT JEALOUS.

WHAT?

NO. I MEAN,

WE DON'T PLAY GAMES LIKE THAT.

I DON'T CALL THAT A GAME.

THEN WHAT DO YOU CALL IT?

CONSIDERATE.

HMM. HMM.

HUH? UHH.

HMM.

"DEAR ANGELA,

"I KNOW IN THE PAST
I'VE CAUSED YOU PAIN.

"AND I'M SORRY."

"AND I'LL ALWAYS BE
SORRY TILL THE DAY I DIE."

"AND I HATE THIS
PEN I'M HOLDING,

"BECAUSE I SHOULD
BE HOLDING YOU."

"I HATE THIS PAPER UNDER MY HAND

"BECAUSE IT ISN'T YOU.

"I EVEN HATE THIS LETTER
BECAUSE IT'S NOT THE WHOLE TRUTH."

"BECAUSE THE WHOLE TRUTH IS...

"SO MUCH MORE

"THAN A LETTER CAN EVEN SAY."

"IF YOU WANT TO
HATE ME, GO AHEAD.

"IF YOU WANT TO BURN
THIS LETTER, DO IT.

"YOU COULD BURN THE
WHOLE WORLD DOWN.

"YOU COULD TELL
ME TO GO TO HELL.

"I'D GO.

"IF YOU WANTED ME TO.

"AND I'D SEND YOU A
LETTER FROM THERE.

"SINCERELY, JORDAN CATALANO."

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

HEY. OH, HI.

WHAT ARE YOU READING?

HAVE YOU EVER JUST, LIKE,
COMPLETELY GIVEN UP ON SOMEONE,

AND THEN SOMETHING
HAPPENS AND YOU GO,

"OH, MY GOD. THERE'S
SO MUCH MORE

TO THIS PERSON
THAN I EVER DREAMED"?

HEY, COULD YOU GO?
HEY, KEEP IT MOVING.

SO YOU GOT THIS LETTER
FROM JORDAN CATALANO?

IT'S NOT JUST THIS LETTER,

IT'S, LIKE, THE MOST
INCREDIBLE LETTER

I'VE EVER GOTTEN, EVER.

BOY, YOU MUST'VE
REALLY WORKED HARD.

I MEAN TUTORING HIM.

BUT I REALLY... I
SHOULD THANK YOU.

IT'S OBVIOUSLY MADE
A REAL DIFFERENCE.

SO WHAT WAS YOUR
FAVORITE PART? I MEAN...

WHEN YOU WERE READING IT.
WAS THERE, LIKE, A CERTAIN PART,

OR... THAT MADE
YOU... BRIAN, I'M SORRY.

IT'S TOO PERSONAL. I MEAN...

OH, MY GOD.

I GOTTA GO.

[BELL RINGS]

I READ WHAT YOU WROTE.

I COULD HARDLY... LOOK...

I COULD HARDLY BELIEVE
HOW BEAUTIFUL IT WAS.

LOOK, I'M NOT...

I DON'T WANT TO PRETEND LIKE...

NO, I DON'T... I DON'T
WANT TO PRETEND, EITHER.

I'M GLAD YOU LIKED IT, BUT...

NO, I DIDN'T LIKE IT.

I LOVED IT.

I LOVED IT.

I HAVE ALL THESE DREAMS...

WHERE I KNOW
EXACTLY WHAT TO SAY.

THEN YOU TELL ME, YOU KNOW...

THAT YOU FORGIVE ME.

Rickie: BRIAN.

BRIAN.

IF YOU STILL WANT TO
SELL OUR TOWN TICKETS,

EVERYONE HAS TO PICK THEM
UP TONIGHT AT OUR PLACE.

I... I MEAN MR. KATIMSKI'S.

OH, SO THEY'RE
BACK TOGETHER, HUH?

YEP.

OF COURSE, SHE'S STILL
GONNA DIE SOME DAY.

WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE.

[LOCKER DOOR SLAMS]

BRIAN.

DID YOU DO SOMETHING?
OR SOMETHING?

BRIAN.

WHAT DID YOU DO?

[SIGHS]

I WROTE THIS LETTER...

TO HER.

OH, MY GOD.

AND SHE THINKS HE WROTE IT?

BRIAN, YOU HAVE TO TELL HER.

NO. LOOK.

I MEAN, WHAT
DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE?

SO THEY HAPPEN TO
BE, LIKE, TOGETHER.

SO WHAT? SO WHAT?

I MEAN, IF YOU, LIKE, ANALYZE

WHY CERTAIN PEOPLE END UP
WITH CERTAIN OTHER PEOPLE,

IT'LL MAKE YOU WANT
TO KILL YOURSELF.

[SIGHS]

[SIGHS]

TELL HER.

NO, IT WOULDN'T BE RIGHT.

[STAMMERS]

SEE, HE ASKED ME FOR HELP.

I HELPED HIM. I CAN'T
GO BACK ON THAT.

DARN IT!

Girl: SHH!

I'VE GOT A RUN.

[TOILET FLUSHES]

YOU WANNA KNOW
SOMETHING REALLY...

LAUGHABLE?

I HAVE NO FRIENDS.

I MEAN, ANGELA CHASE...

FORGET IT. WE OBVIOUSLY
CANNOT DISCUSS THAT.

RICKIE VASQUEZ?

TOTALLY NOT MY FRIEND.

TINO?

NOT DEPENDABLE.

[TOILET FLUSHES]

YOU'RE PROBABLY THINKI"

"SO WHAT? YOU, LIKE,
DESERVE TO HAVE NO FRIENDS."

I MEAN, THAT IS WHAT
YOU'RE THINKING, ISN'T IT?

[SIGHS]

I HAVE NEVER MET ANYONE
LIKE YOU, YOU KNOW?

YOU WILL SAY ANYTHING,

AND A PERSON CAN
SAY ANYTHING TO YOU.

YOU'RE... YOU'RE JUST LIKE..

NON-SHOCKABLE.

OR SOMETHING.

IT'S KIND OF...

IT'S REFRESHING, ISN'T IT?

YEAH.

IT IS KIND OF...

REFRESHING.

REFRESHING.

SO YOU DO.

HAVE A FRIEND.

I MEAN,

MAYBE NOT THE ONE YOU WANT,

BUT...

[SIGHS]

I SCREWED UP.

DUH SQUARED.

[SIGHS]

ANGELA!

Angela: IN A MINUTE.

OH, HERE. LET ME GET
THE DOOR FOR YOU.

I'M GONNA DROP
HER AT KATIMSKI'S.

SHE'S UP IN THE
STRATOSPHERE TODAY.

HEY, YOU KNOW, UM.

IF YOU WANT ME TO COME, I
COULD CALL TONY AND CANCEL.

OH, NO. THAT'S FINE.

HONEST.

[SIGHS] WELL, SEE YA.

SO, DO WE HAVE TO, YOU KNOW,
ACCEPT, LIKE, CHECKS AND STUFF?

UM, HERE'S ALL THE INFORMATION.

Man: KIDS, I'LL BE
WITH YOU IN A MINUTE.

HEY, YOU MADE IT.

HI. YEAH. MUAH.

SO, WHERE WERE YOU ALL DAY?

LIKE I CAN'T GUESS.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
WHAT CAN'T YOU GUESS?

ANGELA, I KNOW ALL ABOUT IT.

I KNOW ABOUT THE LETTER.

YOU KNOW ABOUT THE LETTER?

HOW COULD YOU KNOW?

BRIAN KRAKOW. THE
REASON FOR ALL PAIN.

[LAUGHS]

Delia: THESE DIRECTIONS
DON'T MAKE SENSE.

Boy: YEAH, MR. KATIMSKI, THESE
DIRECTIONS DON'T MAKE SENSE.

Mr. Katimski: I
KNOW. I'M COMING.

UM...

YOU REALIZE THAT BRIAN
WROTE THAT LETTER, RIGHT?

WELL, YEAH. I... I KIND
OF FIGURED THAT.

OH, OK. GOOD.

I DON'T FEEL SO BAD
FOR BLABBING IT, THEN.

I... I KIND OF FIGURED
YOU'D FIGURE IT OUT.

WELL, YEAH.

Katimski: OH! ENOUGH TICKETS!

GEE WHIZ. ANYBODY
WANT TO GO OUT FOR PIZZA?

YEAH. YEAH!

UM, COULD I HAVE A RIDE HOME?

SURE.

OK, EVERYBODY. COME ON.

LET'S BLOW THIS POP STAND.

Rickie: UM, UH.

I'LL BE RIGHT DOWN.

OH, OK.

Girl: DAVID, WAIT UP.

[LAUGHS]

I CANNOT GET MY ZIPPER ZIPPED.

UH, WELL, LET ME TRY.

UH, DELIA?

UM, MAYBE WE SHOULD, UM,
GO SOMEWHERE SOMETIME.

OK.

YOU KNOW, LIKE, UH...

TO A... A MOVIE OR SOMETHING.

I'D LIKE THAT.

'CAUSE, UM, I... I REALLY THINK
WE'D BE GOOD TOGETHER.

OK. BUT, UM...

YOU'RE GAY, RIGHT?

WELL, I... YOU KNOW, I...

OH, I'M SORRY.

I DIDN'T... NO. IT'S... IT'S OK.

THAT CAME OUT SO RUDE.

NO. SEE, I... I TRY NOT TO, UM,

NO, I... I... I
DON'T LIKE... UH,

[SIGHS]

[PENCIL CLATTERS]

YEAH.

I'M GAY.

I JUST DON'T USUALLY
SAY IT LIKE THAT.

HOW DO YOU USUALLY SAY IT?

I DON'T USUALLY SAY IT.

I MEAN, I'VE...

ACTUALLY NEVER SAID IT...

OUT LOUD.

WOW.

I FEEL KIND OF HONORED.

I HAVE TO BE HONEST.

[GIGGLES]

I HAVE THE BIGGEST CRUSH ON YOU.

[LAUGHS]

ANOTHER FIRST.

SEE, I PRETTY MUCH
FIGURED IT OUT.

IT'S PARTLY BECAUSE I THINK
YOU'RE THE MOST FANTASTIC PERSON.

PLUS, YOU'RE AN AWESOME DANCER.

AND PARTLY THAT BRIAN
KRAKOW REALLY HURT ME.

I MEAN, I'M SORRY.

I KNOW HE'S, LIKE, A
FRIEND OF YOURS AND ALL,

BUT HE IS THE MOST SELF-CENTERED,
LOW-DOWN DOG OF ALL TIME.

HE USES GIRLS AND THEN,
LIKE, TOSSES THEM ASIDE.

I GUESS I'M JUST SORT OF IN THE
MOOD TO HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEBODY

WHERE IT CAN'T HURT TOO MUCH.

BE MY GUEST.

UH, DELIA.

IF I WERE ATTRACTED TO GIRLS,

I'D BE ATTRACTED TO YOU.

[LAUGHS]

[SIGHS]

[HUMS]

[KNOCKING]

OH.

HI.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Patty: OK. WELL...

WHAT CAN I SAY, HUH?

THE BEST-LAID PLANS.

YOU, TOO.

[LAUGHS] BYE.

[SIGHS]

MORE?

WELL, I HAVE TO SAY, FROM
EVERYTHING THAT YOU'VE TOLD ME,

I THINK IT'S CLEAR

THAT YOU NEVER REALLY
MEANT TO HURT HER.

IT'S LIKE YOU THINK

YOU'RE SAFE OR SOMETHING,

'CAUSE YOU CAN JUST...

WALK AWAY ANYTIME.

BECAUSE YOU
DON'T, LIKE, NEED HER.

YOU DON'T NEED ANYONE.

BUT THE THING YOU
DIDN'T REALIZE IS

YOU'RE WRONG.

YOU ALWAYS WEAR
THIS MUCH MAKEUP?

UM...

WELL, IT... UH, I WAS
EXPECTING COMPANY TONIGHT.

AN OLD FRIEND. THAT
WAS HE JUST NOW

ON THE PHONE. SEEMS THAT, UH,

HE HAS A TOUCH OF
THE FLU OR SOMETHING,

AND HE TOOK ALL
THIS DECONGESTANT

AND HE WAS AFRAID TO DRIVE.

[LAUGHS]

THIS WAS A PERSON WHO
DROVE SO RECKLESSLY

WHEN HE WAS 17 THAT MY
PARENTS WANTED HIM DEAD.

[LAUGHS]

WOW. IRONIC.

YOU'RE RIGHT. THE
LAMB WAS TOO RICH.

HEY, YOU'RE PRO-BUTTER.

THEY NEED TO KNOW THAT UP FRONT.

THE SAUCE WAS OVERWHELMING, I...

NO, NO. THE SAUCE
WAS INCREDIBLE.

IT WAS A POEM. LISTEN...

Man: AHEM...

I'M SORRY. I HAVE
TO SAY SOMETHING.

OUR COMPLIMENTS TO THE CHEF.

HEAR, HEAR.

Woman: CONGRATULATIONS
TO BOTH OF YOU.

Man: I AM VERY MPRESSED.

[APPLAUDING]

OK, ANGELA. HERE WE ARE.

BYE, CALL ME.

OK.

[GEARS GRINDING]

[DRIVING AWAY]

[TELEPHONE RINGING]

IF THAT'S A GUY NAMED
TINO, I'M NOT HERE.

[RINGS]

HELLO?

WE'RE IN THE RESTAURANT
BUSINESS. ME INCLUDED.

[EXHALES]

SWEETHEART, THAT'S GREAT.

WELL, WHAT CAN I SAY?

I'M THE BEST.

SO, UM...

IS HE STILL THERE?

OH, NO.

SO WHAT WAS IT LIKE,
SEEING HIM AGAIN?

LIKE OLD TIMES.

I HAVE TO ADMIT I'M
SOMEWHAT JEALOUS.

REALLY?

HA. WELL, I'M REALLY GLAD.

ME, TOO.

OK.

UH, I'LL BE HOME SOON.

OK. BYE. BYE.

[HANGS UP PHONE]

GOT ANY MORE MILK?

I JUST...

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

HA HA! YOU ALWAYS BELIEVED IT.

I MEAN, YOU ACTED LIKE... AH.

IT'S JUST AN ACT.

DON'T YOU KNOW THAT?

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

WOW! WE DID IT.

YEAH, WE DID IT.

WE DID IT! [LAUGHS]

OH! GOD.

UH...

UH, I'M WRECKED.
I GOTTA GET HOME.

YEAH. ME, TOO.

UH, LET'S... LET'S CLEAN
UP IN THE MORNING.

[SIGHS]

OK, UH, SO... I'LL SEE YOU.

RIGHT. BYE.

UH, BRIAN?

BRIAN, LOOK AT ME.

UM, THAT LETTER I
TOLD YOU ABOUT...

RICKIE SAID YOU WROTE IT.

AND I HAVE TO KNOW, BECAUSE...

KNOW WHAT? THERE'S
NOTHING TO KNOW.

OK, WHAT RICKIE PROBABLY
MEANT IS THAT, SEE,

JORDAN CATALANO ASKED
ME TO, LIKE, PROOFREAD IT

FOR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS.

YOU PROOFREAD A LOVE LETTER?

IS THIS LIKE A GAME TO YOU?

UM, HARDLY. BUT YOU ADMIT

THAT YOU WERE INVOLVED.

I'M NOT ADMITTING ANYTHING.

THIS IS A JOKE, RIGHT?

THE... THE TWO OF...

OH, GOD.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I FELL FOR IT.

IT'S OBVIOUSLY A TOTAL LIE.

NO, I MEANT EVERY WORD.

I MEAN, THE PERSON WHO WROTE IT

MEANT EVERY WORD. PROBABLY.

BRIAN? I DIDN'T WRITE IT.

BUT, BRIAN, YOU SAID...
FORGET WHAT I SAID.

FORGET THIS WHOLE CONVERSATION.

HOW?

YOU LIKED IT, THOUGH, RIGHT?

IT MADE YOU, LIKE...

HAPPY?

YEAH.

'CAUSE THAT'S
PROBABLY ALL THAT...

YOU KNOW, MATTERS.

TO WHO?

TO, YOU KNOW...

THE PERSON WHO WROTE IT.

[FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]

Jordan: ANGELA?

HEY.

HEY.

HEY, BRAIN.

HI. HEY.

COME ON, LET'S GO.

DON'T WORRY. YOUR
MOM SAID IT'S OK.

SEE YA, BRAIN.

SEE YA.

[CAR DOOR OPENS]

[CAR DOOR SHUTS]

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