Being Erica (2009–2011): Season 4, Episode 3 - Baby Mama - full transcript

Previously on "Being Erica":

- What's this?
- Your card.

Erica, you are
a doctor in training.

I feel like you're
setting me up to fail.

This process is not
going to be easy.

Will you marry me?

Of course I will,
Ivan.

When's the last time
you took a holiday?

Had an adventure?
Met a woman?

What is this about?

It's about your life
outside of work.



I don't need a life
outside of work.

I have never liked anyone
like this before.

Is everything okay?

I'm pregnant.

Uh...

What?! Are you...
Are you sure?

Pretty sure.

Oh my...

You can't tell me
you didn't notice.

Well, I didn't wanna
say anything,

but I thought that you
just looked a little-

- Fat?
- No, I did not say fat.

And oh my God, Sam!

How long
have you known?!



And why didn't you
say anything?

At first,
I was in total denial.

You know I've always
had irregular periods.

Sorry, Adam.

- It's fine. - And so I thought
I was just gaining weight

until my nipples started
changing colour.

- Really? - Yeah.
- I'm just...

So then I...

I don't know,

I guess
I was just embarrassed.

I feel like a walking,
talking Jerry Springer episode.

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't be laughing.
I mean, it's not...

It's not funny,
it's just...

Have you told Mom
and Dad?

No.
You're the first.

And are you...?

I mean, I can't tell
how you're feeling.

Are you... happy?

Yes.

I love Lenin

and getting to have
a baby with him

just feels like...

A gift.

Oh my God, Sam.

Life works in funny ways.

Just when you think
you've got things figure out,

just when it seems
like everything's going

according to plan...

That's when something happens.

Tom?

Is that you?

Amanda.

Do you live around here?

Because I stop for a latte
every day

and I've never seen you.

No, no. I was, uh...
I was just on a walk,

I stopped in
for a coffee.

Oh. So...

Are you married
with 2.2 kids?

Uh, divorced.
One daughter.

Me too. Divorced.

But no kids.

Uh, Paul and I, uh...
split five years ago.

Well, I should probably
be on my way.

Of course,

but it'd be nice
to catch up.

Oh, yes.

No, that would be nice.

I'll give you a call.

Something small.

Something big.

Something that makes us realize
we aren't in control

and never were.

Something that lands
at our feet

and leaves us speechless

and unsure where to turn
and what to do.

Hello?

Yes, this is she.

Something that blindsides us,
leaving us gasping for air.

No thought in our heads except
how could this be happening

and what do we do now?

♪

Being Erica 04x03 "Baby Mama"
Original Air Date: October 10, 2011.

♪ It's clearer inside of me ♪

♪ who I will always be ♪

♪ open me up to my heart. ♪

♪ Feels like I'm seeing
in the dark, ♪

♪ Waking up to my life ♪

♪ to do it all over... ♪

♪ again and again. ♪

♪ Until the end ♪

♪ the sum of my dreams ♪

♪ and everything
I ever wanted to be. ♪.

No, I think
my mom'll be fine,

I'm more worried
about my dad.

Why, 'cause he's more
conservative?

No, because Sam and Lenin,
they're not married...

I know.
Who cares, right?

Well, I care about marriage.

Like should David and I
wear suits or tuxedos?

Gold rings or platinum?

Who should we invite,

and will those not invited
hate us for eternity?

It's just decisions
decisions.

Yup. Just some of the many
topics we'll be going over

at my big fat stag weekend.

So, pumpkin,
you ready to hit the woods?

Oh yeah, bring it on.

Now my best man Benny's
picking us up in five,

so chop-chop!
Down that latte.

Have fun!

I just, I wonder...

How do you think Lenin's
dealing with the news?

Oh, I don't know.

I don't envy him
though.

I mean, can you imagine
if I came home one day

and I told you
that I was pregnant?

It would be a disaster.

A disaster?

Well, yeah.
You know,

it's the kind of thing
you wanna plan, right?

Yeah. Mm-hm.

And plus, I don't know
if I even wanna have kids,

so...

What? Wait a minute,
you don't...

You don't know
if you wanna have kids?

Like, since when?

Uh, I don't know.
Since always.

It's not something
I've been thinking about it.

Why is this...?

Because...

I want kids
for sure.

I don't know
what you want me to say.

It's not something
I've been thinking about.

No, I mean,
I know and I get it,

and I'm not trying
to pressure you

into make a decision,

- but I mean, it's good that we-
- Adam? Come on.

Let's go, pumpkin!

Let's just cross that bridge
when we come to it.

Okay?

Yeah.

Bye.

Have fun.

Let's do it.

Come in.

Dr. Naadiah.

What can I do
for you?

Amanda Mathieson.

There's a name
I haven't heard in a while.

A woman who was
very important to you

once upon a time,

expresses an interest in
eeting you for coffee

and you throw her card
in the garbage.

Well, I have no interest
in catching up with Amanda.

Why? You still angry
with her?

No. Of course not.

The whole thing
is ancient history.

- Well, then why... - Why do I
have to justify this to you?

I don't wanna call her.

I don't know
what I would even say.

You heard the expression
"Things happen for a reason"?

Oh, come on...

I'm not suggesting
that you should

rekindle your romance
with Amanda.

I'm just wondering after
the promise you made to Dr. Arthur...

No, I've been
taking steps.

You've taken on
two more patients.

You continue to do nothing
but work.

You'll figure out
what to say.

Now, girls,
I just wanna warn you;

Your mom's in a tizzy.
You know her and parties.

Erica, did you
remember the eggs?

Yes, I did.

We got two dozen,
free range.

But honestly, how many parents
does Lenin have?

Gary, can you please help me
cut the bagels?

- Here.
- Oh, thank you.

Okay, so, um...

How did it go
when you told them?

Dad took it
surprisingly well.

- Really?
- Yeah.

And Mom?

Mom was a little...
quiet.

Well, she's probably
still in shock.

That's what I figured.

And, you know, all morning
she's been like-

Super stressed?

Yes.

I hope that Lenin's parents
aren't fussy.

Fussy? No.

Lenin's parents are
a whole other deal.

Look at that work of beauty.

And I'm not talking
about my handiwork.

I'm talking about
your fertility basket.

Your womb.

- Thank you.
- No, thank you.

For the gift of life.

So, how are you
handling everything?

Well, I'm always up
for an adventure,

and this--

probably the biggest adventure
I could ever face.

So, yeah, I'm good,

it wasn't planned--
at all.

But, uh...
It feels right.

Good.

By the fire
of your bright spirit

and by the water
of your radiant womb...

Oh yeah, by the way?
My parents can be a bit much.

What, are you...
Are you kidding me?

Look at my dad,

he just found
a new hero.

You were in the 63 march
on Washington? The march!

I was only 10
at the time.

Barb!

Gus was in the '63 march!

That's great.
Trifle anyone? Phoebe?

No thank you.

Just being here, Barb,

imbibing the sweet aura
of new life,

is sugar enough for me.

Okay then.

Everyone, I'm gonna pass
this bowl of beads around

and I want each one of you
to pick one that speaks to you.

It's for the birth necklace.

Our grandchild needs
all the positive energy

we can send his way.

Oh wow,
these are beautiful.

Mom, bead?

Are you sure that one
spoke to you?

Loud and clear, Erica.

Hand me that bowl,
please.

Yeah.

Yes!

That was great.

Everyone?

I wanna thank Gary and Barb

for bringing us here
to celebrate

this coming together
of two souls.

And to invocate
the spirit of love

growing within Sam's womb.

We couldn't be happier
to welcome all of you

into our family circle.

Barb and I would like
to say something, too.

Lenin,

welcome to our family.

I've never seen Sam happier.

- Right, Barb?
- Right.

So, let's raise a glass
to the happy couple.

To Sam and Lenin.
Mazel tov!

To Sam and Lenin.

I'm just gonna make
some more coffee.

Cheers!

Hey...
Is everything okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

I think that
the dishwasher

would disagree.

Mom,
what's going on?

I can't do this anymore,
Erica.

I've tried all day,
but I'm done.

I'm done pretending
like everything is fine!

Like everything is wonderful

when my daughter
has screwed up her life

because she was too stupid
to use protection.

Mom, whoa...
'Kay...

First of all,

Sam did not screw up
her life.

Mom, she's happy.

Sam just got divorced,
Erica.

She just got her career
back on track

and now she's pregnant
by someone

who she's been dating
for less than a year!

And I'm supposed
to celebrate that?

Shhh!

Your sister should not be
having this baby.

Mom?

Okay, you know what?

I get that
it is a lot to handle,

and she might be having trouble
dealing with it,

but don't offer
to host a party

and then sulk your way
through it,

and don't act
like it's the end of the world.

I mean, Sam, she's an adult.
It's not like she's sixteen,

asking her mom
to take care of her kid.

It's clear you have
a definite point of view,

which will be useful,

seeing as your mother
is your patient.

My mother is my patient?

Mm-hmm.

Makes you look at it
a little differently,

doesn't it?

Well, yeah. Yeah.

Because now I'm like...

I'm like why is she acting
that way?

You know, what is...
what is it about?

And? Why is she?

What do you think?

Well, I...
I have a theory.

Do tell.

See, Mom and Sam,

they've always been
very similar, right?

They follow the rules

and they care a lot about
how they're perceived.

But now, Sam,
I mean, she's divorced,

she's pregnant...

She's dating a janitor
not an investment banker,

and she's breaking
all the rules.

And you know what?
She's happier for it.

But then my mom,
it's like she can't let it go.

She's got all these
expectations

about how things
are supposed to be done.

You know, you grow up,

and you get married,
you have kids--

in that order.

Well,
that is a well-reasoned,

well thought-through
hypothesis.

Not bad, right?

And I think that I know
what today's assignment is.

Really?
Enlighten me.

I need to help
my mom realize

that this is about her,
not Sam,

and her expectations
are old-fashioned.

She just needs
to let go

and just be happy
for her daughter.

"Life is so constructed
that events cannot,

will not,
match our expectations."

Charlotte Brontë.

♪ Cheer up Sleepy Jean ♪

♪ oh what can it mean
to a daydream believer ♪

♪ and a homecoming queen ♪

John Lennon?

♪ Cheer up Sleepy Jean ♪

Oh...

♪ oh what can it mean
to a daydream believer ♪

♪ and a homecoming queen ♪

Miss Strange?

Oh!

Why am I in
the Brady Bunch?

Actually, the Brady Bunch
premieres is in just two weeks,

as part of the Fall television
schedule for 1969.

Oh my God!

You said you wanted
to talk to your mother?

Well...
There she is.

That's my mother!

It is.

Although technically,
not for a few more years.

I can't believe this.
How old is she?

Seventeen.

She just started
her senior year.

And I'm just supposed
to like walk up to her

and see if she's digging
my vibe?

Mm. Maybe let me
do the talking.

Miss Fraiberg?
Hi.

I'm Mr. Wexlar,
the new guidance counsellor.

Hi.

Am I in trouble?

No, no, far from it.

As a matter of fact,
you were recommended to me

as an honour roll student
with a perfect record.

So, I was hoping that
you could show Erica around;

She's new to our school.

Hey.

Of course.
I'd be happy to.

Cool.

Well, I'll let you two
get to know one another.

Good luck, Erica.

Erica...
That's a pretty name.

Erica what?

Lennon... owitz.

Well, uh, first bell's
gonna ring,

so we should probably
start the tour.

Groovy.

Uh, after you, Barb.

Okay.

Barb.

The lunch room is just
at the end of this hall.

What else?

That is the pit.

All the hippies and burnouts
smoke out there.

♪ you are my candy girl ♪

Oh. Warning bell.

Uh, your next class
is home-ec,

it's the second door
on the right.

Home-ec, huh?

Far out.

Not really.

Betty's a real fox.

Barb?

I got dibs.
Don't you forget it.

So? Who is he?

No one.

Really, you're into guys
like that?

And why wouldn't I be into
someone like Allan Milley?

He's a hunk.

He is a... a hunk.

I just...

He seems like kinda
like a...

Jerk.

Jinx, you owe me
a coke.

Oh yeah!

Okay, um...

Well, I guess I'll meet you
after class

and we can finish
the tour.

Swell.

Thanks, Barb.

♪ ba-da-da, ba-ba-da ♪

Your husband
expects a delicious meal

at the end of a long day.

His favourite dish

is the warm welcome
he deserves.

You've gotta be kidding me.

Turn to page 50 ladies,
for today's is the recipe...

Pretzel meatloaf.

Pretzel meatloaf?

I know.

Something my Nana
would make.

You're new, right?

I'm Nancy.

Hi, Nancy.
I'm Erica.

You're gonna
love it here.

Our football team?

Regional champions
three years running.

We have a first rate
glee club,

if singing's your thing.

No, not at all.

Well, hey, if you want,

I'd be more than happy
to show you around.

That's very sweet of you,
Nancy,

but actually
the guidance counsellor,

he already set me up
with a student.

Barbara Fraiberg.

Oh.

What?

Oh, well,
I'm not one to gossip,

but since you're new
you should probably know.

Okay,
this past summer,

Barbie got completely smashed
at Matty Gibson's party

and word is her
and Allan Milley

went all the way.

- "All the way"
- All the way?

Mm-hmm.

She was nuts about him,

everyone knew it.

And?

And it was
a huge scandal.

So if you'd like me
to show you around instead,

I'd be more than happy.

No.
I'm fine with Barb.

Thank you.

Touch up your makeup,
put a ribbon in your hair.

Looking fresh
is just as important

as a well set table,
ladies.

- Barb, hey!
- Hi.

How was home-ec?

It was, uh...
enlightening.

So, should we eat outside
or in the lunch room?

All the jocks
and cheerleaders

eat out in the quad.

Really.

Whatever you like.

Actually, Barb,
before we head off,

do you remember that guy...

The... the hunk?

Why?

Well, I just, um...

What?

Did you hear something
about me?

Someone mentioned
something about a party.

It's not true;
We did not do it.

I am not that kind of girl.

Look, Barb, it's okay.

Whatever you did
or didn't do,

it's none of my business.

Barb?

Barb!

Hey.

It's okay.

You've been at this school
two hours

and you've already heard
that rotten story.

All we did was make out.

He wanted to go further,
but I wouldn't.

So it's a lie.

Of course it's a lie.

But it doesn't matter,
because everyone believes it

and now I've been branded a slut.

I know it feels like
the end of the world,

but it's a rumour
and it'll pass.

No it won't.

Not when Allan's
the one spreading it.

Allan?

He's getting back at me

because I wouldn't do
what he wanted.

Huh.

Listen, Barb,
where I'm from,

girls don't put up
with that sort of thing.

Take me to Allan.

What're you gonna do?

You guys wanna hear a joke?

I don't got one.

Allan Milley?

That depends.
Who's asking?

I am.

I wanna talk to the jerk

that's been spreading
false rumors

about Barbara Fraiberg.

Hate to break it to you
but...

Those aren't rumors.

Okay. I'm gonna keep this
real simple

so that you'll understand.

If you ever tell a lie
about Barb again,

I will hunt you down
and make you pay for it.

Okay.
Sure you will,

you ugly skag.

I don't even know
what that means,

but I am offended.

I am a woman,
hear me roar.

Good enough.

Asshole.

All done!

I can't believe
you just did that.

And the look on Allan's face.

It was... it was priceless.

So, tell me, Barb,

what do you want to be
when you grow up?

That's a funny question.

I'm just curious about you,
you know?

Do you have any hobbies?
Musical tastes?

John Lennon is holding
a concert.

Boy, would I love
to get to see that.

I'm not really
a big Beatles' fan,

but I do find Davy Jones
really dreamy.

Davy Jones?

The Monkees?

Of course.
Yeah.

I mean, he's the most.

Is everything okay?

It's um... this tuna,
it must be off.

Oh.

Smells fine to me.

Oh, but you should've
got a whiff

of what we cooked
in home-ec class.

It was bits of pretzel
and ketchup

all mashed together in this,
like, coagulated...

Barb?

You okay?

I'm so sorry.
I...

I can't believe
I just did that.

You're sweating.
Are you okay?

Uh, I don't know.

Um...

Maybe I'm coming down
with something.

Anyway, um...
We should get back.

I hope I didn't ruin
your lunch?

No, uh...
No, not at all.

Here, let me um...
Help you.

Thanks.

My mom is pregnant,
isn't she?

She was pregnant
at seventeen?

Mm-hm.

How did we not know
about this?

No one knows about it,
except for your grandparents.

Your grandmother figured it out
eventually.

She sent your mom
to get a pregnancy test

and the whole thing
blew up.

Did they make her
get an abortion?

No.

They pulled her
from school;

They sent her to live with
your great-aunt Avra in Montreal.

She had the baby,

and she came back
and she never told a soul.

Oh my God.

I just... I mean,
I can't believe this.

It was a painful
experience for her.

It was so painful,

that after her parents
arranged for the adoption,

she simply put it
out of her mind.

She never thought
about him again.

Him?

She had a son?

Yes.

Sam and I have
a brother.

Leo... had a brother.

A brother that he didn't
even know about.

She is...

She is reliving
this whole experience

all over again,
isn't she?

Through Sam.

It was an experience that
she never fully acknowledged

or dealt with herself.

Not when it happened,

and not after.

So what do I do?

You go back out there
and you listen;

That's your job today.

To really understand

where your mother
is coming from

and what she went through.

Because until you know,

you can't help her.

Oh, and I forgot to tell you.

Mr. Hopkins,
the math teacher?

He's got shell-shock
from the Korean War

or something.

Anyway, he has been
a real Thorn in my side.

Use pencil, never pen,
for your assignments.

What?

Nothing.

Just wondering
if you were feeling better?

Yeah, I don't know
what that was.

I feel fine now.

You know, Barb,
I really like you

and I think what people
are saying is awful.

I like you too, Erica.

I'm glad I was chosen
to be your tour guide.

I wanna ask you
a personal question

and I want you to know
that whatever your answer is,

I'm never gonna tell
anyone.

Okay.

Did you go all the way
with Allan Milley?

No!

Why would you
ask me that?

I told you I didn't.

I'm not lying!

Barb...

I gained a few pounds
from all the stress.

It's...

It's stressful having
people lie about you.

Do you remember when
you last got your period?

You lost track, right?

I'm not pregnant.

Barb,
did he use a condom?

It's okay.

Everything's gonna be okay.
I promise, okay?

How?!

Everyone already thinks
I'm the school slut

and now I'm pregnant?!

I have always done
everything right,

followed all the rules,

worked hard at school,
been responsible.

And now, the one time
I let myself go,

I mean...

I thought he loved me,
Erica.

That's why I let him.

My parents
are gonna kill me.

No, they won't.

No, you don't understand.

I am their honour-roll
student,

the one who never
gives them any trouble.

They expect me to go
to university next year.

You know what?
And you will.

Okay?
Listen to me.

You are gonna
get through this.

I promise you.

You?! Promise?!
What are you gonna do?

Snap your fingers
and make everything okay?

- Barb...
- Don't touch me!

Barb!

Erica, what is going on
with Mom?

Is everything all right?

Uh...

Ivan, stay still.

Agh! Ow!

I got it.

So, Ivan, you have the boy,
the ring,

the house in the 'burbs...

The baby's
coming in three months.

You and Dave
thinking of adopting?

Well, we've had our fun
in the sun,

so it's time
to pay things forward.

What about you and Erica?

Oh-ho-ho...

Erica asked me that exact
same thing this morning.

And...?

And my answer didn't
go down so well.

Why, you don't want kids?

I don't know.

Erica does,

and... I want to want
to have kids,

it's just...

I don't know.

Adam, we may all look
like bikers,

but we're still homosexuals,

so, come on, emote.

Share.

I just don't think
I'd make a good dad.

How could you know that?

I had awful parents,

and, you know,

"The sins of the father
are visited on the sons."

It... scares me.

I don't think I could love you
any more right now if I tried.

Come on, come on.

- Ivan.
- No, come to papa.

You're gonna make
the best dad ever.

There you go. You sure are.

Come on.
Sure are.

Guys!

Guys, I can't breathe.

Thanks again for having us.

We should be going.

I'll, uh, see you at home.

Okay.

Thank you.

Hey. Thank you.

'Kay, Mom,
what is going on?

Sam...

No, I'm serious.

Could you have been
any more rude?

If you're through
yelling at me,

I'm gonna answer that.

What is wrong
with her?

Barb...

Dad,
just leave her alone.

Barb?

Okay, fine.

I'm going out.

What? Where?

Mom...

Adam, hey.

Hey,
I'm just checking in.

I'm really glad you called.

Yeah. Listen,

I wanted to talk to you
about earlier.

I know it was weird,
but...

You just caught me
off guard.

Don't even worry
about it.

I'm not even thinking
about it.

I'm trying to get through
this weekend

without freaking out.

Erica, slow down.
What's going on?

So my mom is my patient,

and Dr. Tom,
he brought me back to her past.

And I found out
that she got pregnant

when she was seventeen

and she had a little boy.

What?

And now she's a mess

because of everything
that Sam's going through,

and I don't know how
I'm supposed to help her,

you know, I just don't know
what I am supposed to do here.

Look, I gotta go.

Sam and Dad
are waiting for me.

Wait, Erica.

Don't worry,
everything's gonna be fine.

Bye.

Your son hired us
to find you

for the purpose of accessing
his medical history.

His medical history?
Why?

Well, he and his wife
just had their first baby;

They're concerned
about hereditary diseases.

They had a baby?

Mm-hm.

Look, if you'd be willing
to fill out

a medical questionnaire
and return it to us,

he would very much
appreciate it.

Fine.
Where is it?

Mrs. Strange,
this is extremely helpful,

so thank you.

But I have one final request
from your son.

What is it?

He's indicated
he would like to meet you.

No.
Absolutely not.

Look, I understand,
and I will let him know.

Rest assured we will not
be contacting you again.

Barb?
Where have you been?

- Mom!
- Hey, Sam, let me talk to her.

Erica, this has nothing
to do with you.

Please, just...
I'm serious.

Just let me handle this.

Okay?

Mom.

Look, we know that
you're upset.

Erica, please,
leave me alone.

You know Sam,

she's putting on
a brave face right now,

but she really needs
your help and support.

Sam made a huge mistake

and I can't pretend
she didn't.

You know what?
You don't have to pretend.

We all know
that is was a mistake.

Sam knows.

But she wants
to have this baby

and she's having it
with a man that she loves.

Did you see this?

I don't want to.

This is your first
grandchild.

This little boy is gonna be
a part of our family.

And once he's born
and once you meet him,

I mean, none of this
is gonna matter.

And Sam, she's gonna be
a terrific mother.

I thought your sister
was smarter.

To make a mistake
like this...

Sam and I, we have made
tonnes of mistakes.

Same with Dad.

And you.

Mom, it's...

It's not the mistakes
that we make that define us,

it's how we deal
with them.

Erica...

There's something
I wanna tell you.

What?

I...

It's okay, Mom,

you can tell me.
Whatever it is.

Mom?

Oh, honey, I'm sorry.
I...

I ruined the brunch.

Mom, what's going on?

I need to explain things...

About something
that happened to me

a long time ago.

When I was seventeen,
I got pregnant

I had a baby.

You think you've got it
all figured out.

You think you know,
you've got a plan,

and then...

Sam's pregnant.

My mom had a baby
when she was seventeen.

My boyfriend,

he doesn't even know
if he wants to have kids.

And nothing in life
turns out

the way that you think
it will.

Nothing ever does.

The more we learn,
the less we know.

Keeps us humble,

and it keeps us growing
and changing,

which, in the end,
is the whole point.

You know, sometimes I can't
believe how lucky I am

to be living the life
that I'm living.

And then I get to go
back in time

and hang out with my mom
when she was a teenager.

I mean, can we just acknowledge
for one moment

how awesome that is?

I'm glad you enjoyed
yourself.

Even if I didn't get
to see John Lennon.

Live...

In concert.

John Lennon.

Maybe next time.

Yeah.

You know, the first day
that I met you?

It was the worst day
of my life.

And then, out of the blue,
there you were.

And I didn't expect it,

I didn't ask for it,

and... it scared
the hell out of me.

But looking back?

It's the best gift
that's ever been given to me.

Thank you.

Good night, Erica.

Good night.

Hey, you.

Gah! Oh my God,
you scared me.

What're you doing back?

You're not supposed to be back
till tomorrow night.

I wasn't.

I took a bus back
this afternoon.

I was worried about you.
You okay?

Wow. Now I'm better.

Good.

'Cause you sounded like
you were about to lose it.

I almost did.

But, Adam, honestly,

you didn't have
to come back early.

Yeah, I did.

Did you figure everything out
with your mom?

Not as much as I could.

I couldn't imagine keeping
a secret like that

for so long.

From us,
from my dad.

And to know that she has
another child out there,

especially after Leo...

She was pretty traumatized
by it.

I know.

I mean,
of course she was.

Who wouldn't be?

And listen,
about earlier...

I'm sorry for coming down
on you so hard.

Erica,

I'm not saying
I don't wanna have kids.

I'm saying I want them
when we're ready.

When it makes sense,
okay?

Yeah. Of course.

Hello,
is this Amanda?

Hi. It's Tom.

Uh, I'm good actually.

I'm really good.

Barbara?

Daniel.

Thank you
for changing your mind.

Please, sit.

I'm sorry,
I'm staring at you.

No,
I'm doing the same.

I wondered if you would
look like me

and you do.

I mean, I guess
I have that backwards;

I look like you.

The woman I spoke to
told me you have a baby.

Yes. Little girl.

Oh.

And you?

Ah, well,

I had three children,
but one died.

Oh.

I'm sorry.

No. Don't be.

My son, Leo. died 12 years ago,
in an accident.

I have two daughters,
Erica and Samantha,

and Samantha's expecting
her first.

We just found out.

Well, congratulations.

Thank you.

I hope that me
getting in touch with you,

it hasn't upset you.

I wasn't upset with you.
I was upset with myself,

and the call forced me
to deal with that.

Why were you upset
with yourself?

Because I gave you away.

You were sixteen.

- Seventeen.
- Yeah.

You did the right thing.

I got great parents.

You do?

I had an amazing childhood,

I got a wonderful wife
and daughter.

I'll show you a picture.

- Look.
- Oh.

Red hair,
like Erica.

So that's where
that comes from.

Her name's Jada.

Oh. Pretty name.

The gift that lies waiting
for us is growth,

is change,

is the possibility
that something good

comes from pain.

And when the crisis hits.

When our world
is turned upside down,

when we are afraid--

Will we have the strength,
the wisdom,

to embrace the gift
that's there

and welcome it
with open arms?