Alone (2015–…): Season 5, Episode 8 - Slayer II - full transcript

[dramatic music]

♪

- I've got to hunt deer.

It's a huge caloric
expenditure,

but that is what
I have to get.

- Whoa!
A large skull.

It's probably the red deer.

There are a lot
of wolves in this area.

- It looks an awful lot
like a leech.

It appears to have been
sucking on this mouse blood.

I'm literally starving.



I will eat anything.

Gross!

- The Mongolian cold

is definitely becoming
a factor now.

No fish.

- It's the [bleep] wind.

Just calm the [bleep] down!

Calm down!

[wind gusting]

[man panting]

[ominous music]

male narrator: For the
first time ever on "Alone,"

ten past participants return.

♪



They've come back with
one goal: redemption.

- I deserve to be here,
and I'm back.

- I want to win more this
time than I did last time.

narrator:
Now a fresh hell awaits.

- The cold is an incredibly
strong punch in the face.

narrator: In the punishing
wilderness of Mongolia.

- We're in
the middle of nowhere.

- Mongolia's
a very unforgiving land.

narrator: They must survive
in complete isolation,

enduring as
long as they can.

- I'm just gonna
push and push and push

until there's nothing left.

narrator:
The last one standing wins.

♪

[suspenseful music]

♪

[fire crackling]

[suspenseful electronic music]

[thud]

- Got you!

You know what patience does?

♪

Catches the mouse
with his bare hands.

As my food sources get smaller,

I have to be prepared
to eat anything.

Tasty little morsel.

So, uh, I was already in bed,

but I figured, why not
have a little mouse snack

before I go to bed?

I'm not gonna let this thing
sit around till morning.

At least, I'm gonna clean it.

I should put
his little head on a pyre

for the rest of the
little vermin to see.

[soft dramatic music]

"I should've never
came into Britt's shelter!

Oh, that was
the worst mistake I ever made!"

[squeaking]

Never cleaned
a little mouse body before.

This is very small.

It's gonna end up being, like,
five bites of meat, maybe.

My food acquisition is good,
but it's lacking.

It's just not enough of

what I need in my diet
to sustain, so

I'm finding I'm going to have
to do something different.

I'm hunting anything
and everything I can.

Let's see if we can
get this in color.

[camera clicks]

I want to try and
toast it enough that

I can just crunch
right through the bone,

and it won't be a issue.

And fire makes
everything taste good.

♪

[tense music]

♪

I hope all his mouse buddies
are watching.

Actually, I don't.
I want some more visitors.

That's about the best
I could do

without really
lighting it up too much.

There it is.

30 minutes ago, this thing
was running around my shelter

trying to eat my scraps.

[whispers]
The tables have turned.

♪

I don't like the
bone that much,

but the meat
tastes good.

I think I have officially
crossed over to hermit status.

I'm catching the mice
in my shelter and eating them.

♪

It was small,
but it was still satisfying

just to have
the flavor of meat.

[burps]
[smacks lips]

Mmm, mouse.

[pensive music]

♪

[soft rustling]

[distant water rushing]

- The mice are really
fiddling around.

What the heck?

You hear just, ch-chh--

[chittering]

over in the grass over there.

A bunch of punks.

[dramatic music]

All right, mousie.

I'm gonna set this, and then
you're gonna get trapped,

and I'm gonna eat you.

I tried to
catch fish out here,

and it wasn't working for me,

so I'm gonna do exactly what

good old Mother Nature
kind of allows me to do.

And right now, that's trap
little creepy-crawly things.

Try, try, try, try.

If you get
one little success,

you know,
that goes a long way.

I want to learn
from this place,

but I also am out here--
[light clatter]

That trap go off?

Yes, baby!

Yes!
Yes!

♪

I just got a mouse in
a trap.

[wheezy chuckle]

♪

But it's not
running anywhere.

♪

[dramatic music]

I want you to die,
and I want to eat you,

but I sure don't
want you to suffer.

♪

[thud]

♪

So that might've been
a little bit brutal,

but this is survival.

I'm out here to get
food from the woods,

and that means killing.

Any food you get--

even if you're eating veggies,

you're still killing animals
in some way, you know.

There's life and death,
and they go together.

Can't have
one without the other.

♪

Just getting that one
is such a big deal.

That dead mouse means, for me,

is I'm gonna get
my red meat fix,

and I'm gonna get
some really, really good bait

to put in my fish trap.

I wonder how many mice
Larry's trapped so far.

♪

[tense music]

♪

- She's a cold one
this morning, boys.

Whoo!

♪

It's gonna be
a good day today, boys!

A good day.
Whoo-hoo!

Hell, yeah.

Ow, I hit my head
on the top of the shelter.

Oh, beautiful!

Mongolia!
I love you!

Look at this.
Look.

[upbeat electronic music]

Frickin' blue out, man.

Birch tree's
got ice on it, even.

It's a winter
wonderland.

How can you not be in
a good mood waking up to that?

And you know what
the best thing about

yas--last night was?

[rapping] There was no mouse
in the house!

There was no
mouse in the house!

The mice are all gone, yeah!

[suspenseful music]

- My nose is a little chilly.

Let's go look at the Paiutes
and see if they're down.

Oh, looky-looky.

Look at who got hooky.

Just barely got him.

Let's see if he's really dead.

I'm pretty sure he is.

Oh, he's-- [laughs]
[stick clacking]

Hey, you in there?

Sol--[laughing]

Frozen solid, man.

I gotta thaw him out
before I can even gut him.

Now we're talking.

The Paiute
deadfall works great.

Last night, I did wake up.

It was just silent.

Not the absolute party frickin'
zone it was two nights ago.

I mean, two nights ago,
it was like,

this guy must be
the rock star or something.

He must be, like,
the Blues Brothers

of the mice world
or something,

'cause he was having a
hell of a party.

He--he had all sorts of
bad intentions going on.

[distant clack]

Holy [bleep].

I just heard my
other Paiute go off.

♪

- Oo [dramatic music]

♪

- Looks like my Paiute's down.

Look how pretty that is.
[chuckling]

♪

Ooh, bazinga!

Nother one, baby!
Nother one bites the dust!

♪

Paiute madness, baby!
[growls]

Yeah!
Two, baby!

Two!
Twofer!

Booga-booga-booga-booga!
Booga-booga-booga!

Oh-ho.
Craziness!

I think it's time to
name the Paiutes.

[upbeat music]

I'm gonna go
put the names on there

and then show you.

♪

The Paiute's definitely
given me a few calories.

It's been fun making.

It's been fun improving upon
and learning about.

You screw with it
as much as I have,

you kind of get to know
the ins and the outs

and the nuances of the trap.

I have been dealing with the
mice for up to a month now.

They've just been waking me up
and making me nervous

about getting holes in my
gear.

I do not like mice.

So I named my Paiutes.

This is one I've killed
five or six on,

something like that.

The first one
in Vancouver Island,

the one that I was
catching a lot of them on,

I named "Slayer."

This one's "Slayer II."

I thought that was a good name.
"Slayer II."

♪

And this is
the one I just made

that I caught
one on just today.

"The Death Dealer."

Man, I can't tell you
what a nice night it was

last night
not listening to them.

Believe me,
I can sleep through,

but when they're just,
like, boring into your skull,

it just--it's
so frustrating, man.

And last night, I woke up.
It was just silent.

I loved it.

[somber music]

♪

[wind gusting]

And here comes the rain.

[uneasy music]

♪

Little [bleep].

Ah, there was a mouse,
like, right there.

♪

How many of these [bleep]
do I have to kill?

[bleep].

♪

[bleep]!

[bleep] damn it!

[bleep] this place!

♪

Not [bleep] enjoying
myself anymore, man.

[bleep] damn it.

You [bleep] little bastards!

♪

I am not having fun anymore.

♪

God, come on, man.

Come on.

One more day.

[dark music]

♪

[wind howling]

[rain falling]

- All right, well,
the rain is falling.

So I'm just gonna
hang out in the cabin

and kind of work on little
carving projects or whatever.

One of the things that's been
on my list of things to do

now for a while is
to make a little camp chair.

[tense music]

♪

Thoughts are really--

it's just hard to
stay focus in right now.

I don't know, it's just today.

♪

Yeah, this--
the rain always depresses me.

[rain falling]

♪

You know, I learn a lot about
how my mind works out here.

You know, I'm such
a social human being.

It's been difficult since, like, you know, day one for me.

I have the skills to be able
to sustain myself out here.

I can hunt;
I can produce shelter;

I can set up traps;
I can tan hides,

but then there's this
whole other psychological part

of being out here,
which it's--

it's the hardest thing
for me.

It's not being out here
and surviving;

it's being out here
and surviving alone.

♪

[rain falling]

Oh, yeah, it's not bad.

[tense music]

♪

- The rain seems
to have stopped right now,

but the weather's gotten cold.

I'm having a very, very
difficult time getting fish.

I'm not seeing grouse.

Deer is what
I need to go after.

♪

I'm heading into that canyon,
and I'm gonna hunt.

I'm gonna camp overnight.

It'll be a good trip.

Saw three deer, and they
were moving across the land.

Started into the canyon, but
the wind was blowing my scent

into the deer's trail, so.

I heard some elk up
on that far edge,

so I decided, well,
I'll spook them,

and then I'll spook everything
if I go that direction.

So I started
heading up this hill.

[brooding music]

I'm gonna keep going,
and then just sort of

try to circumnavigate it.

♪

Just one deer,
that's all I need.

♪

[bird singing]

♪

In Patagonia, I would
not move around near as much.

I'm losing weight
much quicker

because I'm putting so
much energy into my hunting.

♪

[whispering] I know there's
something here,

but I'm not exactly sure...

♪

God, it's a lot of work, a lot
of calories

that are going into this.

[distant bleating]

[whispers]
You hear that?

Three deer
I spooked out of a bed.

Followed the ridge down.

I don't know if they're gonna
stay down low,

if they're gonna cross.

Either way, I gotta move,
'cause they're...

I think the
only chance that I have

is to run on
the other side, ahead,

and then try to bushwhack 'em.

[dramatic music]

I don't know if they're
gonna hear me in there,

but I gotta give it a go.

♪

I gotta haul ass.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- [whispering]
So I see those deer.

[suspenseful music]

♪

So I spooked three deer.

They headed up canyon.

I decided to
cut across the canyon

so I could run and try
to catch up with them.

But I lost track of 'em.

I just don't have the energy to

run ahead of these deer
and ambush 'em.

[sighs]

[light music]

I've never hunted this hard.

I'm hunting hard.

I don't want to starve.

I know how to starve.
I've proven that.

It's a definitive low point.

It is a depressive
state of mind

to not be able
to feed yourself.

There's something I'm missing,

'cause I cannot
figure this land out.

Soon, I'm gonna be
finding myself

peeling bark off of trees and eating the inner bark of trees.

♪

I'm high up on
the mountain now.

Look at all these birch.

I'm gonna just take it slow,

walk real easy
through those.

That's my area right there.

All in there.

My shelter's probably...

right about there.

♪

I thought I was invincible
at the beginning of this.

I have so much
to learn from out here.

[pensive music]

♪

[birds chirping]

[fire crackling]

- I think today is my dad's,
uh, last day hunting in Utah.

♪

I wonder how they did.

I hope they got an elk.

That would be awesome.

I'm feeling pretty low.

Lacking human companionship
is

absolutely the
hardest thing for me.

So, today,

I'm gonna climb

that mountain.

I know that the climb is
gonna be probably exhausting,

but I need to
jump out of this mind-set,

take a step back, look at it
from another perspective.

Climbing to the top
of that mountain

is gonna be good
for my spirit,

and that's more
important to me.

[dramatic music]

♪

I wonder what
it looks like up there.

What took me out
last time was

feeling disconnected from

my family and friends and
community.

This time, I know
what the challenge is,

and so I know
what it's going to take

in order for me
to overcome that.

She's pretty steep, but I don't
think that she's that steep.

Just trying to think, here,
what my best plan of action

is gonna be.

It looks like this ridge here

is pretty shallow.

All right, the only place
to go now is up.

Let's do this.

[soft dramatic music]

♪

These little wanderings,

they are so good for my mental
state.

Out here, you can't just
feed yourself physically;

you have to feed yourself in
other ways.

Check all this area out.

The desire for
companionship still exists,

but you shift your definition
of what companionship means.

Now that need is
fulfilled by the land.

♪

That, here, is a fall
to almost certain death.

[tense music]

Just be careful.

♪

Pretty steep, but I'm strong.
I can do this.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

Not much farther.

♪

Here I am.

At the top.

[serene music]

Whoo-ooh!

♪

I'm gonna remember the climb.

I'm gonna remember how good it
felt to get to the top.

♪

Worth it.

Absolutely worth it.

Ohh, I feel rejuvenated.

I think I might be able
to stay out here

for a couple more weeks.

I'm feeling happy.

Thank you, Mongolia!

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[wind gusting]

- So, winter's coming.

That's--that's
a certainty right now.

I want to finish my wall

so I can cut out
wind and rain,

and all that nasty stuff
that's to come.

So that's looking good.

♪

I think if I actually have a
door and close this place up,

get this place cranking
to, like, 70 degrees.

♪

So I'm gonna go over to some of these dead birch trees,

and I'm gonna see if we can
get any, like,

pieces of birch bark,
'cause I'm really looking

more for a wind block
than insulation.

[wind whistling]

[soft dramatic music]

I'm thinking of home, but I'm
in a good, like, headspace.

I miss them very much,

but every single day that I'm
out here

is for those guys.

♪

Wh I left,

my little baby girl
could barely open her eyes.

My son, he was playing
with the suitcase.

And he packed
a couple of his toys

and one of his sandals, so

I don't think he
was totally convinced

that he wasn't
coming with me.

I love the thought of running
and giving that kid a hug,

the whole rest
of my family too.

But every day away
just makes the homecoming

that much sweeter.

[brooding music]

Ooh, and it looks like
bad weather just blew in.

♪

Definitely seeing some
snowflakes now.

Yep, first snow.

[laughs] First snow.

Wow.

I don't think it'll
accumulate or anything.

Tomorrow,
it could be 60 degrees.

You never know out here.

[dark music]

♪

- This is my hunting area
for big game.

It's--it's far from
my regular shelter,

so I'm building a wikiup.

[light music]

A wikiup will keep me

dry and warm while hunting.

It's basically a tipi that's
made out of natural debris.

It's just a stepping stone
on a base camp

that I can further
travel and further hunt.

It's getting there.

A lot--lot to go though.

[pensive music]

♪

It's gonna take some time.

It's gonna take some energy.

I don't know if I'm gonna be
doing near what I was hoping.

[soft laugh]

♪

[ominous music]

Weather turned quick.

It's just like, oh, boy,

you don't know
what's gonna happen.

♪

I've been
so much in the hunter's mind,

so much in the, "I gotta get
food, I gotta get food,"

it almost is stopping me
from seeing things.

In my
not-done-yet wikiup.

[laughs]

Just watching the snow
come down hard.

[laughs]

It's keeping me okay
for right now.

Not too bad.

Wow.

It's beautiful.

It's just nice--just
laying down watching it.

[laughs]
Wow.

♪

There's a part of just

being right here and not
concentrating on the hunting

that's amazing.

[laughs]
What a trip.

I think I'm gonna
just take a nap,

see what happens with the snow.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

-Look at the snow coming.

That's pretty.

It's gonna get colder
and snowier.

Look at this.

Let's check out the sky first.

Totally white.

No sun today, Mongolia.

[soft dramatic music]

I love this first snow,
being in it.

I wasn't in it the last time.

This is what
I've been expecting

for a couple of weeks.

I didn't expect to be as warm
as long as I was.

I'm grateful for it.
But this...

♪

Today is the day it feels like
the season's started.

And I mean
the season of alone.

Now it feels like
it's started.

♪

[waves lapping]

[laughs] I just saw
a fish jump over there.

Maybe I can get
some action here.

♪

I think it's about time
to do some fishing.

♪

[pensive music]

I remember a week ago,

I was thinking fishing
might be done for the season,

not because the fish don't
bite,

but because of my
accessibility to 'em.

I guess the time of season
dictates

what fish are gonna be
in certain spots.

I thought they would
go deeper.

I wish I could walk through
there, but I can't, really.

No, I'm not gonna chance it.

The water's really moving here.

Got one!

[soft dramatic music]

♪

All right.

♪

Got one.

It appears I found
a spot in the river

that the fish are active.

Okay.

I was already in a good mood.

Puts me in a better mood.

♪

[fire crackling]

If I ever deserved to
catch a fish, it was today.

Guess what today is.

Today is day 35

which is a good, solid
number, in and of itself.

But it's
a milestone number for me,

because in Patagonia,
on day 35,

I was calling them
to come pick me up.

I knew in the middle
of the night on day 34

that I was gonna be
calling them on day 35.

I was not in nearly as good
a state as I am right now,

and I'm extremely happy
about that.

[upbeat electronic music]

Five weeks is pretty good,

even though I didn't feel that
great about it at the time.

But now I'm at five weeks,
man, and I'm rolling.

I'm in a groove.

And I'm not cold.

And I'm not sad.

Lonely?
Eh, I mean, at times.

I mean, not really.

I miss my family,

but I don't know if that
classifies as being lonely.

You know, I'm not, like,
sullen and downtrodden,

like, "Man, I really
want to see my family."

I really do, but I'm not like,
"Oh, no,

what am I gonna do?"

I know they're
there waiting for me,

and it's gonna be all good.

So I'm all good.
So it's all good.

♪

[ominous music]

♪

- Here's a water bottle
that I use.

[knocking]

It's that cold.

Solid ice.

Gives you an idea of
what it was like last night.

♪

Woke up in a bit of
a mood this morning.

Bit of a "poor me" situation
going on.

I just, uh--you know,
it's been

going back and forth
and back and forth now.

But I think today
I really hit a wall.

[melancholy music]

♪

So I'm gonna go out
and do some fishing

and see if I can feel
better.

It's really snowing.

♪

There's no fish. They're just not there anymore.

They were there, and then all
the sudden, they weren't.

♪

There's been a direct
correlation between

temperature
and food production.

♪

It was, like, something that
just happened overnight.

One second, there was
tons of food,

and then the next,
there wasn't anymore.

♪

At this point,
it's been about a week since

I've caught any fish,
and no grouse.

The greens are wilted,
and I'm not seeing

deer scat or sign around.

So I'm absolutely
feeling anxious

just not knowing where
my next meal is coming from.

[dramatic music]

♪

For five weeks, I walked here,

walked all up and down
my territory...

in solitude...

[soft dramatic music]

eating only
what the land provided.

♪

Lack of food and lack of
companionship, at this point,

is really sort of
taking its toll on me.

And in all honesty,
I'm struggling.

[waves lapping]

No matter where I'm at,

I actively search out
community.

I think that that's one of
the things that's been so hard

for me out here is that
I have no sense of community.

With community
comes a sense of place.

Without community, there's
a huge part of my world

that's missing.

[gasps]

And I wish that I could
pull it from the environment.

In some ways,
I have been, but

that's a temporary fix,

like putting a
Band-Aid on a bullet hole.

♪

I was looking forward to

pushing myself
past that barrier.

I want to continue going.

♪

I just don't wanna do it
without anybody else.

♪

[fire crackling]

[phone beeping]

This is Randy.

I'm officially tapping out.

I'm ready to go home.

♪

[tense music]

♪

[engine rumbling]

♪

[engine rumbling loudly]

- What's going on?

- I haven't been able to
produce, really, any food.

And set up a lot of traps,

and those weren't producing as
well.

But there's a whole other
aspect to me

that's not being
fed out here,

and that is my lack
of social interaction

with people and my
lack of community.

It's difficult.
It's been difficult.

You know, I've reached the end
of my time here in Mongolia.

[somber music]

♪

In a lot of ways
this place has

pulled me in and
made me feel at home.

Kept me warm,
fairly well-fed

for the first
couple weeks.

Kept me company.

When I left Vancouver, I felt
like I didn't

fully do what I wanted to do.

This feels like it's time,
and it feels right.

Going beyond 21 days was,
in some way, a goal for me.

I wanted to last longer
than I lasted in Vancouver,

and so I feel like
this was a redemption for me.

[engine rumbling]

♪

- Well, I've been napping.

It was a cold night last
night, man.

And now it's snowing.

Son of a bitch.

[tense music]

I'm gonna have to
poop in the snow.

I hate that.

But I'm hoping that
the snow will

really decimate the population
of mice around here.

That would really
make me happy.

Pretty nice
out here in the snow.

Better than
the bugs in the heat.

[soft dramatic music]

♪

I don't know
what to do today, man.

Now is where
the boredom sets in.

There's only so much
stuff you can do out here.

You can only look at
the mountains so many times.

♪

Yeah, now are
the dog days, man.

I forgot when it happened,

and I want to say
it's almost exactly right now.

♪

Sure, I don't want to be in
agony anymore, man.

I don't want to kill myself any
more for this.

I don't want to push and
push and push myself anymore.

But it's beautiful out.
It is just beyond amazing.

[waves lapping]

[pensive music]

Sometimes when I'm back home,

just with the everyday rat
race, I feel numb,

I feel kind of dead
to the world.

But when I'm out here, it's
just such a primal feeling.

♪

Man, it's brisk, baby.
Brisk.

I'm alive.

I'm alive, Mongolia!

I am here!

[shouts echoing]

I am alive!

[shout echoing]

♪

That frickin' echo just...wow.

Now, that's why I'm still here,
man.

That's why.

I just found out that
I can echo out here.

[serene music]

I don't know why that makes me
want to cry, but it does.

It makes me so happy.

♪

I'm alive!

[shout echoing]

[dramatic music]

- I took three hooks together,

and I've made a lure.

Got one! Oh [bleep] I just lost my lure.

- I have extreme
abdominal pain.

My bowels are still not
kicking anything out.

It would suck to go home.

- I'm so hungry, my stomach
hurts.

I still have a fear from
Patagonia.

I have to make sure that
that doesn't happen again.

- Wolf scat.

[wolves howling]
Those are wolves, man.

They're not that far away.
I'll try not to make any noise.

[dramatic music]