90 Day Fiancé: Before the 90 Days (2017–…): Season 4, Episode 8 - Stranger in a Strange Land - full transcript

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BEFORE THE 90 DAYS"...

I'M LIKE, HOLY.
IT'S LIKE A THIRD WORLD COUNTRY.

WHERE ARE THE WINDOWS?

ROSE TOLD HER ENTIRE FAMILY
THAT I'M STAYING WITH HER,

SO THERE'S NO WAY
I CAN BACK OUT NOW.

WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO?

I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET
MY GIRLFRIEND, LANA,

IN THE TRAIN STATION,
BUT SHE DIDN'T SHOW UP.

WHAT I WANT TO DO
IS DRIVE OUT TO HER CITY

AND TRY AND FIND HER.

MAYBE IT'S BETTER
TO STOP THIS.



I CAME ALL THE WAY TO RUSSIA
TO MEET YOUR DAUGHTER.

I NEED TO TELL VARYA
ABOUT MY PAST.

I JUST HOPE SHE DOESN'T
WALK AWAY FROM ME FOREVER.

YOU'RE TRYING TO HIDE
ANYTHING FROM ME.

THAT'S GOING TO OPEN UP
A TON OF PROBLEMS.

I SAW THAT YOU HAD A DATING APP
INSTALLED ON YOUR PHONE.

TO QUESTION TO ME
ABOUT AN APP ON MY PHONE

ON A DATE
KIND OF TAKES THE ROMANCE OUT.

SHE'S REALLY GOING ABOUT THIS IN
A COMPLETELY INAPPROPRIATE WAY.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

WOW, YOU COULD JUST, LIKE,
SERIOUSLY OFF.

‐JUST GO.
‐I'M NOT YOUR PRINCESS.

BYE. GO.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?
DO YOU WANT TO END THIS?



NO, NO, NO.

I LOVE LISA, BUT WE NEED A PLAN
TO FIX OUR PROBLEMS.

LET'S CLOSE THIS
AND LET'S MOVE ON

WITH THE NEXT CHAPTER
OF OUR LIFE.

I MET SOMEONE THAT LOVES ME
THE WAY I WANTED TO BE LOVED.

YOU ARE NOTHING
TO ME RIGHT NOW.

I'M GLAD.

WONDERFUL.
ENJOY YOUR LIFE.

I WILL NOW YOU'RE NOT IN IT.

100% CATEGORICALLY DONE
AND DUSTED.

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DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS

IT'S NOT BAD,
THE WEATHER.

LAST NIGHT WAS HORRIBLE.

USMAN AND I GOT
INTO A HUGE FIGHT

AND I THOUGHT THERE WAS
A GOOD CHANCE

I'M GOING BACK TO
THE UNITED STATES SINGLE.

OH, MY GOODNESS.

BUT LUCKILY, USMAN AND I WERE
ABLE TO TALK ABOUT OUR PROBLEMS

AND WE DECIDED TO MOVE
PAST OUR ARGUMENT.

UM...

BECAUSE WE ARE IN SOKOTO

TO GET HIS MOM'S BLESSING

SO HIM AND I CAN GET MARRIED.

AND TODAY IS THE DAY.

I'M GOING TO MEET HIS MOTHER
FOR THE FIRST TIME.

I'M GETTING NERVOUS.
I KNOW.

MM.

I AM VERY NERVOUS ABOUT IT
BECAUSE USMAN'S MOM

IS A VERY CONSERVATIVE MUSLIM,

AND I AM A WHITE
AMERICAN CHRISTIAN,

SO SHE IS NOT
ON BOARD WITH ME.

I WILL BE PURCHASING A GOAT
TO PRESENT IT TO HIS MOM

BECAUSE USMAN SAYS SHE WILL SEE
THAT AS A SIGN OF,

I HAVE RESPECT FOR HER,

AND IT'LL HELP GET
THAT BLESSING FROM HER.

WHERE IN THE HELL
DO YOU HAVE US?

GOAT MARKET.
IT SMELLS LIKE GOAT MARKET.

YEAH.

MNH‐MNH.

YOU LIKE IT?
NO!

HUH?

SO DO THESE GOAT
GO BY THE POUND?

BECAUSE IF THEY DO,
THESE GUYS ARE REALLY SKINNY.

LOOK, NO MEAT.

I WANT ‐‐ NO.

OKAY.
UH‐HUH.

HE'S A LITTLE SPUNKY.

HE LOOKS NICE. HI.

YEAH, HE LOOKS GOOD.

YEAH. I LIKE THIS ONE.

WOW.

IS HE PRICING IT AT THAT PRICE
BECAUSE I'M WHITE?

I MEAN, HE KEEPS
LOOKING AT ME.

YOU KNOW, THAT PRICE
SEEMS AWFUL HIGH.

I WOULD DO ANYTHING
TO BE WITH USMAN,

BUT I KNOW I'M GETTING
RIPPED OFF BY THIS GENTLEMAN

BECAUSE I AM A WHITE AMERICAN.

I THINK HE JACKED THE PRICE UP
ON ME BECAUSE I AM AMERICAN.

ALL RIGHT. GIVE ME ‐‐

YEAH. I DON'T UNDERSTAND
THE CURRENCY,

SO YOU COUNT FOR HIM.
MM‐HMM.

‐BABY LOVE, YOUR MOTHER...
‐UH‐HUH.

BETTER LIKE ME AFTER THIS.

I HAVE TO COME INTO
THIS STINKY MARKET

FOR THIS STINKY GOAT.

‐MM‐HMM.
‐MM‐HMM.

MM.

HE'S VERY TALKATIVE.

YES. JUST LIKE YOU.

YES.

OH!

OH.

ALL RIGHT, CALM DOWN.

GOOD.

THERE'S ONLY A FEW
MORE HOURS

UNTIL WE TAKE THIS GOAT
TO HIS MOM'S

TO SEE
IF SHE'LL ACCEPT ME.

I SHALL NAME HIM BARNEY.

BARNEY.
BARNEY.

I'VE TRAVELED 7,000 MILES ACROSS
THE WORLD TO BE WITH USMAN.

NOW MY FATE LAYS WITH A GOAT.

HOW ARE YOU?

I'M EXCITED.

I'VE BEEN IN RUSSIA
FOR A WEEK NOW.

GOOD MORNING.

YESTERDAY,
WE ARRIVED IN SIBERIA,

WHERE VARYA GREW UP,
TO MEET HER MOTHER,

AND SHE'S ALREADY NOT
A FAN OF THIS SITUATION.

SHE DOESN'T WANT ME TO TAKE
HER DAUGHTER AWAY TO AMERICA.

AND I TOLD THE VARYA'S MOTHER
THAT SHE CAN TRUST ME,

WHEN I'VE BEEN KEEPING A MAJOR
SECRET FROM VARYA ALL THIS TIME.

ALTHOUGH I'M A DIFFERENT
PERSON NOW, WHEN I WAS YOUNGER,

I DID GO TO PRISON
FOR DEALING DRUGS.

I'M NOT PROUD OF THE PERSON
THAT I WAS,

BUT THE PERSON THAT I'M GOING
TO BE WITH HAS GOT TO KNOW.

BUT I'M AFRAID
WHEN I TELL VARYA THE TRUTH,

SHE'LL NEVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN.

OH, SHE'S GOING TO MISS YOU.
MM‐HMM.

WHILE IN SIBERIA,

WE ACTUALLY HAVE PLANS
TO VISIT MY RUSSIAN FRIEND IGOR

AND GO ON A CAMPING TRIP
WITH HIM.

HE KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME.

SO HIDING FROM VARYA THAT
I WENT TO PRISON ON THIS TRIP,

IT'S A REALLY AWKWARD SITUATION.

IT'S TIME.

I'VE GOT TO TELL VARYA
THE TRUTH ABOUT MY PAST.

WHERE I WENT TO SCHOOL.

WOW. IT'S REALLY STARTING
TO RAIN NOW, HUH?

THIS IS WHAT I THINK ABOUT
WHEN I THINK ABOUT RUSSIA.

RAIN, SNOW...

GRAY SKIES.

WHERE'S YOUR CLASSROOM?

WOW, IT'S NICE.

SO THE CONSTRUCTION
WAS LIKE A PLAYGROUND?

YEAH.
HUH.

IT SOUNDS DANGEROUS FOR KIDS.

HUH.

DOES THIS BRING BACK
A LOT OF MEMORIES?

THIS IS REALLY CLOSE
TO YOUR HOUSE.

SO YOU'D WALK TO SCHOOL, HUH?

NO, YOU CAN'T.

EVEN WHEN IT SNOWS REALLY HIGH,
YOU STILL GO TO CLASS?

MM.

YEAH.
WOW.

YEAH, I WOULDN'T
BE GOING TO SCHOOL.

I HAVE SOMETHING I NEED TO TELL
YOU ABOUT ME, ABOUT MY PAST.

I DON'T LIKE TALKING,
ESPECIALLY ABOUT THIS, PERIOD.

UM...

I ACTUALLY, UH...

I WENT TO, UH,

I WENT TO PRISON...

FOR A WHILE.

YES, PRISON.

FOR A COUPLE YEARS
FOR SELLING DRUGS.

HERE?
YEAH.

OKAY, SURE.

I HAVE NEVER,
EVER SHARED A ROOM

WITH MY GIRLFRIEND
AND HER FATHER.

LET'S GO.

I DIDN'T ‐‐ NO,
I DIDN'T SAY THAT.

KIND OF SEEMS LIKE
THERE'S SOME CONTROL ISSUES.

IT'S REALLY STARTING
TO MAKE ME QUESTION

THE TYPE OF PERSON
THAT SHE REALLY IS.

PHEW!
IT'S REALLY RAINING.

OKAY.

I'VE BEEN IN THE PHILIPPINES
FOR A FEW DAYS NOW,

AND EARLIER TODAY WE ARRIVED
IN ROSE'S HOMETOWN.

HEY, SO HOW DID I DO
WITH YOUR FAMILY?

BUT NOW I'M STARTING
TO GET REALLY NERVOUS.

LIKE, WHERE AM I GOING
TO SLEEP TONIGHT?

HALF OF THE HOUSES
DON'T HAVE WINDOWS.

IT'S PRETTY MUCH OPEN.
I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

I'LL TAKE THIS.

HERE?
YEAH.

OKAY, SURE.

OKAY, COOL.
WE'LL JUST, YEAH.

I UNDERSTAND.
I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT IT.

I HAVE NEVER, EVER SHARED A ROOM
WITH MY GIRLFRIEND

AND HER FATHER IN MY LIFE.

BUT THERE'S A TROPICAL STORM
OUTSIDE, AND I'M STUCK.

OH,

WILL THIS ROOF HOLD?

IT'S NOT GOING TO
COME DOWN, NO?

NO, NO, NO, NO, NO.

I CAN HELP.

‐LIKE THIS?
‐YEAH.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE A BED.

SHE HAS A LITTLE MATTRESS PAD
THAT SHE ROLLS OUT

AND SHE BASICALLY SLEEPS
ON THE FLOOR.

SO WHERE'S PRINCE
GOING TO SLEEP?

BUT I HAVE A SKIN CONDITION
CALLED ATOPIC DERMATITIS,

SO I CAN ONLY SLEEP
WITH SHEETS

THAT HAVE AT LEAST
A THOUSAND THREAD COUNT.

SO I PREEMPTIVELY SHIPPED
THESE SPECIAL SHEETS TO ROSE,

BUT THEY DIDN'T ARRIVE.
NOW I'M SCREWED.

I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE.

I REALLY CAN'T
BELIEVE I'M HERE.

HELLO?

OH, HI.
GOOD NIGHT.

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO
SLEEP HERE?

OH, YOU'RE GOING TO SLEEP
NEXT DOOR?

OKAY, OKAY, GOODNIGHT.
THANK YOU.

WATER'S COMING.

OH, MY GOD. IS THAT THUNDER?

YEAH.

HOLY.

SO THE ELECTRICAL,
NO PROBLEM?

‐NO.
‐NO? OKAY.

I KNOW. I WAS SCARED.

WHAT?

- WHAT THE AM I DOING?
- THIS IS INSANE.

HELLO!

HELLO. HOW ARE YOU?
UH...

I'M GOOD.

I JUST WANT TO TRY TO ‐‐

I JUST WANT
TO LAY HERE AND RELAX.

YOU'RE TIRED?
YEAH.

OH.
OH.

THERE WENT THE ELECTRICITY.

ARE YOU SURE?

GREAT.

GREAT, GREAT, GREAT.

AFTER SEEING HOW ROSE LIVES
AND HER VILLAGE,

IT MAKES ME WONDER,
YOU KNOW,

WHO WOULDN'T
WANT TO COME TO AMERICA

FOR A BETTER LIFE?

AND I ALREADY HAVE QUESTIONS
ABOUT MONEY AND HER SISTER MARIA

BECAUSE, YOU KNOW,
SHE ASKED ME FOR MONEY.

AND IS THAT WHAT IT'S ALL
ABOUT FOR ROSE,

MY FUTURE WIFE?

IS IT NOT ABOUT LOVE?

AM I JUST HER MEAL TICKET
AND HER WAY OUT?

I'VE BEEN IN AUSTRALIA
VISITING MY GIRLFRIEND

FOR THREE DAYS NOW,

AND THINGS ARE REALLY
JUST NOT GOING HOW I PLANNED.

LAST NIGHT,
I REALLY TRIED MY BEST

TO TAKE ERIKA OUT
ON THE PERFECT DATE,

BUT WHEN I TRIED TO ASK HER
ABOUT A DATING APP

INSTALLED ON HER PHONE,
IT TURNED INTO A SHOW.

I EVEN CONSIDERED PACKING
MY BAGS AND GOING HOME,

BUT I'VE TRAVELED ALL THIS WAY
BECAUSE I LOVE ERIKA

AND I DON'T WANT
TO JUST END A RELATIONSHIP

BECAUSE WE'VE HAD
SOME DISAGREEMENTS.

SO WE ARE MOVING FORWARD
WITH OUR PLAN.

TODAY, WE ARE DRIVING
TO ERIKA'S HOMETOWN,

PORT AUGUSTA, WHERE WE ARE GOING
TO MEET HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

WELL...

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL
WITH HER BEING JEALOUS.

YEAH.

I ACTUALLY DO KIND OF WANT
TO REPACK THIS.

I JUST WENT DOWNSTAIRS
TO CALL MY FRIEND PAIGE

FOR A LITTLE BIT.

WHAT'D YOU GUYS TALK ABOUT?

OH, INTERESTING.

YOU DON'T THINK THAT'S GOING
TO BE A LITTLE BIT WEIRD?

YOUR FRIEND KNOWS THAT WE GOT
INTO A FIGHT

ON OUR SECOND NIGHT
TOGETHER.

I JUST TALK TO MY FRIENDS
ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED, YOU KNOW?

WELL, I WOULD, LIKE, PREFER IT
IF YOU DIDN'T TELL

YOUR FRIENDS
ABOUT OUR PROBLEMS.

STEPH TOOK ME
ON THIS DATE TELLING ME

THAT SHE WAS GOING TO
MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A PRINCESS,

BUT INSTEAD MADE ME FEEL VERY
TRAPPED AND BACKED INTO A CORNER

AND NOW SHE'S TELLING ME
NOT TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS

ABOUT MY FEELINGS
AND WHAT'S HAPPENING IN MY LIFE.

IT'S REALLY STARTING
TO MAKE ME QUESTION

THE TYPE OF PERSON
THAT SHE REALLY IS.

SHE'S GOING TO HAVE
TO LEARN TO TRUST ME,

OTHERWISE THIS RELATIONSHIP
IS NOT GOING TO WORK.

OH, LOOK ‐‐ HORSES.

I GUESS WE'RE BEGINNING
TO SEE THE WILDLIFE NOW.

THAT'S PRETTY COOL.

YEAH, THERE'S STILL STUFF
I'M UPSET ABOUT FROM LAST NIGHT.

I JUST DON'T THINK
THE BEST PLACE TO DISCUSS IT

IS IN A MOVING VEHICLE
ON AN ALMOST FOUR‐HOUR DRIVE.

OKAY.

I MEAN,
ARE YOU BOTHERED BY IT?

WELL, YEAH, I GUESS
IT KIND OF SEEMS LIKE

THERE'S SOME CONTROL ISSUES.

I JUST DON'T LIKE
BEING MADE TO FEEL BAD.

EVERYTHING THAT
WENT DOWN LAST NIGHT

WAS REALLY UNNECESSARY,
AND IT SHOULD'VE BEEN OVER

AFTER I EXPLAINED TO YOU
THAT IT WAS, LIKE,

FOR NETWORKING.

I GET THAT, BUT, LIKE, IT WAS
A LITTLE OFF‐PUTTING TO ME

THAT IT WAS A DATING APP.

I DIDN'T SAY ‐‐
NO, I DIDN'T SAY THAT.

I JUST GAVE YOU MY CONCERNS

BECAUSE THEN THEY'RE GOING
TO START HATING ME.

I DID NOT SAY,
"DON'T DO THIS."

OKAY.

MAYBE THE REASON WHY I MAY
COME OFF

AS CONTROLLING
SOMETIMES IS

JUST BECAUSE I'VE LACKED
STABILITY IN MY LIFE...

YEAH. MM‐HMM.
A LOT, YOU KNOW?

LIKE, THE PAST
TWO YEARS OF MY LIFE,

MY HEALTH
WAS UP IN THE AIR.

I WASN'T REALLY SURE
WHAT WAS HAPPENING.

AND SO, LIKE,

ALL I WANT IS, LIKE, TO JUST
KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN.

AND I'M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU
DELETE YOUR APP,

AND I'LL DO MY BEST
TO TRUST YOU.

I WILL.

OKAY.

ROUGH ROAD.

I'M HEADING TO LANA'S HOMETOWN,
PAVLOHRAD.

I WANT TO TRY AND FIND HER.

I KNOW YOU'RE, LIKE,
WORKING ON IT,

BUT WHEN CAN I MEET
TAJ AND SIAN?

I'VE BEEN IN UKRAINE
FOR FOUR DAYS NOW.

I CAME TO MEET LANA,
MY GIRLFRIEND OF SEVEN YEARS,

FINALLY FACE TO FACE,

BUT SHE DIDN'T SHOW UP
AT THE TRAIN STATION

WHERE I WAS SUPPOSED
TO MEET HER.

I REALLY THINK THIS IS
A CASE OF HER BEING SCARED,

AND IF I COULD JUST TALK TO HER,
IT'S POSSIBLE

THAT THINGS ARE GOING TO
JUST BE RIGHT BACK TO NORMAL.

SO NOW I'M HEADING
TO LANA'S HOMETOWN IN PAVLOHRAD,

BECAUSE I DON'T THINK IT'S OVER.

I CAN'T FIGURE IT OUT
BECAUSE LANA'S TOLD ME

THAT I'M THE ONE
SHE WANTS TO MARRY

AND SHE WANTS
TO MOVE TO AMERICA.

RIGHT NOW, THE EIGHT‐HOUR TRIP
IS GOING THROUGH MY MIND.

PAVLOHRAD IS ABOUT 400 MILES
FROM ODESSA,

AND MY FRIEND ANYA WARNED ME
ABOUT THE ROADS BEING BAD.

AND LANA DOESN'T ACTUALLY KNOW
THAT I'M COMING RIGHT NOW...

BUT I PUT SEVEN YEARS
IN THIS RELATIONSHIP

AND I FLEW ACROSS THE WORLD
TO MEET HER,

SO I NEED TO TALK TO HER
IN PERSON

AND FIND OUT WHAT'S GOING ON.

YEAH.

CAUGHT A FLAT...

ON THE ROUGH ROAD.

TOO MANY POTHOLES.

IT'S LIKE 9:00 NOW,

AND I THINK WE LEFT
AROUND... 12:00?

IT REALLY SHOULD HAVE ONLY TAKEN
ABOUT EIGHT AND A HALF HOURS.

THE ROADS HAVE BEEN WORSE
THAN WE WERE EXPECTING.

THIS TRIP HAS BEEN
SUCH A STRUGGLE,

BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP ON LANA.

IN MY MIND, I'M STILL THINKING
ABOUT ALL THE GREAT TIMES

AND ALL THE GREAT CONVERSATIONS

AND OUR TALKS
ABOUT FUTURE GOALS.

WHAT WE HAVE IS REAL,

AND IF I DO MEET HER,
I PLAN TO PROPOSE TO HER.

DO I LOOK OKAY?

AW, THANK YOU.

OKAY. HUH?

NO, THEY'RE FLIP‐FLOPS.

YOU GUYS CALL THEM THONGS?

IT'S BEEN A FEW DAYS
SINCE I'VE ARRIVED IN AUSTRALIA,

AND ASH HAS TAKEN ME
ON A ROMANTIC GETAWAY TO CAIRNS.

BUT DESPITE ALL THE CHEMISTRY
THAT WE HAVE,

I DON'T THINK THAT ASH
IS COMPLETELY REALISTIC

ABOUT SOME OF THE CHALLENGES

THAT WE'RE GOING TO FACE
AS A COUPLE,

ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES
TO MOVING TO THE U. S.

WITH HIS SON, TAJ.

OOH, THAT'S THE ONE, BABE.
THAT IS THE ONE, YES.

‐GOOD DAY, HELLO.
‐HOW'S IT GOING?

‐VERY, VERY GOOD.
‐COME STRAIGHT ABOARD.

OKAY.

‐ THIS IS SO COOL!
‐ WELCOME TO THE RIVER.

WELL, I HOPE TO FIND
A COUPLE OF CROCODILE,

- MAYBE A COUPLE OF SNAKEYS.
- WHOO!

REALLY?
OH, HONEY, CAN YOU SEE THAT?

CAN YOU SEE IT OVER THERE?

OH...

WHERE?

OHH...

OH, MY GOD, LOOK AT THAT.

OH WOW. WE ARE REALLY CLOSE.

SHE'S, LIKE,
LOOKING RIGHT THIS WAY.

THEY HAVE THE STRONGEST JAW
OF ANY ANIMAL.

ARE YOU SERIOUS?

HOLY CRAP.

I'M LOVING ALL THESE
EXPERIENCES,

BUT THIS IS NOT A VACATION.

I'M HERE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT

IF THIS IS GOING TO BE
MY LIFELONG PARTNER.

AND SO IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT
TO LEAVE AUSTRALIA

WITH ALL QUESTIONS THAT
I HAD COMING HERE, ANSWERED.

THANKS FOR BRINGING ME HERE.

YEAH. I'M SORRY
THAT, LIKE,

I KEEP BRINGING
HARD CONVERSATIONS ON YOU

BECAUSE I KNOW YOU PROBABLY
WANT TO SIT HERE

AND ENJOY EVERYTHING
TO THE FULL EXTENT,

BUT WE'RE GOING TO BE
GOING BACK...

MM‐HMM.
PRETTY SOON.

YEAH.

SO, I KNOW YOU'RE,
LIKE, WORKING ON IT,

BUT WHEN CAN I MEET
TAJ AND SIAN?

ASH HAS TOLD ME THAT HE DOES
WANT TO MOVE TO AMERICA

WITH TAJ, BUT AS A MOM,
I KNOW THAT IT'S GOING TO BE

EXTREMELY DIFFICULT
FOR HIS EX‐WIFE.

AND SO IT'S REALLY
IMPORTANT FOR ME

TO HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH SIAN

AND REALLY GAUGE HOW SHE FEELS
ABOUT THE SITUATION.

UM...

SO SHE HASN'T SAID ANYTHING
YET OR ANYTHING?

YOU KNOW, IT'S...

OKAY.

SO...

I MEAN, I REALLY LOVE THAT
WE'RE, LIKE, EXPERIENCING

ALL THESE DIFFERENT
THINGS TOGETHER,

BUT THEN I ALSO KNOW, LIKE,
WE DON'T HAVE

VERY MUCH TIME TOGETHER.

SO THAT'S WHY I'M TRYING
TO, LIKE, UTILIZE EVERY CHANCE

THAT I GET TO REALLY,
LIKE,

YOU KNOW, GET A BETTER
UNDERSTANDING OF EVERYTHING.

‐GOOD.
‐YEAH.

I AM NOW STARTING TO QUESTION

IF HE REALLY WANTS ME
TO MEET HER,

BECAUSE MAYBE THERE'S MORE
TO THE SITUATION

THAT HE MAYBE DOESN'T
WANT ME TO KNOW.

I FEEL BACKSTABBED.

WHY THE DID HE HAVE TO
SEE ME IN PERSON LIKE THIS?

WHAT, JUST TO
THROW IT IN MY FACE?

I MET UP WITH DARCEY TODAY,
AND REALLY,

I CAN'T BELIEVE
WHAT JUST HAPPENED.

USUALLY, I'M QUITE COMPOSED
IN THESE TYPES OF SITUATIONS,

BUT I SAID SOME REALLY
UNPLEASANT THINGS TO DARCEY.

AND I'M SO FRUSTRATED
WITH MYSELF.

HAVING THE ISSUES AND
THE PROBLEMS OF THE DARCEY TRAIN

THAT JUST RUN ME OVER
DOESN'T FEEL GREAT.

MAYBE SOME PERSPECTIVE FROM
SOMEONE ELSE WILL GO DOWN BETTER

THAN ME JUST THINKING
ABOUT IT ON MY OWN.

HI.

HEY, DARLING. HOW ARE YOU?

MY SISTER'S WONDERFUL
IN THESE TYPES OF SITUATIONS.

SHE CAN REALLY BRING ME UP
WHEN I'M FEELING DOWN.

SO‐SO.

YEAH, I WENT TO SEE DARCEY,
SO THAT WASN'T SO GOOD.

MY SISTER MET DARCEY
IN THE U. K.,

AND SHE THINKS DARCEY'S
NOT RIGHT FOR ME.

SHE ALWAYS SAID THAT
WE WEREN'T A GOOD FIT.

HE'S A SUCCESSFUL, YOU KNOW,
VERY SELF‐ASSURED MAN.

HE WON'T WANT A WOMAN
WHO IS POSSESSIVE

OR JEALOUS OR...

I DON'T EVER WANT
TO BE THAT WITH HIM.

OR EMOTIONAL OR NEEDY.
HE WON'T WANT ANY OF THAT.

I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT.

I TRIED TO BE A LITTLE MORE
ASSERTIVE

AND TELL HER ABOUT WHAT
I WAS THINKING AND FEELING.

I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T THINK SHE
REALLY LISTENED, TO BE HONEST.

AND THEN SHE ASKED ME ABOUT
THE OTHER WOMAN I'D SEEN,

SO I JUST ‐‐ I SAID
I'D MET SOMEONE.

SHE STORMED OUT.

NO.

I'M EMBARRASSED
FOR WHAT HAPPENED.

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU'RE
FACE‐TO‐FACE WITH SOMEONE,

YOU SAY THINGS THAT YOU DON'T
PARTICULARLY MEAN IN ANGER.

I CAN SEE WHY SHE'S ANGRY
AND SHE'S HURT,

AND I WANT TO APOLOGIZE
FOR THAT.

BUT I FEEL SAD.

I DID HAVE
FEELINGS FOR HER.

SO...

I ONLY HAVE A SHORT WINDOW
OF TIME LEFT IN NEW YORK,

AND I'D REALLY LIKED
TO RESOLVE THIS

IN AT LEAST SOME WAY
BEFORE I GO BACK.

IT SEEMS A REAL SHAME

THAT I'D GO HOME
WITH IT ENDING LIKE THIS.

AFTER SEEING TOM, I DECIDED
TO GO BACK TO THE HOTEL.

I DIDN'T WANT STACEY OR MY KIDS
TO SEE ME LIKE THIS.

I WANT TO BE STRONG,
BUT IT'S HARD.

I TRULY LOVED HIM
AND I GAVE HIM MY HEART,

AND ALL I REALLY WANTED
WAS TO BE LOVED.

AND I REALLY FELT LIKE
HE WAS GOING TO BE THE ONE,

AND HE ALWAYS PROMISED ME

HE WAS NEVER GOING TO HURT ME
THE WAY JESSE DID,

BUT MY BIGGEST FEARS CAME TRUE.

TOM'S A JESSE IN DISGUISE.

I JUST FEEL, LIKE,
BACKSTABBED

AND TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF AND...

WHY THE DID HE HAVE TO
SEE ME IN PERSON LIKE THIS?

WHAT, JUST TO
THROW IT IN MY FACE?

GEE, THANKS, TOM.

WHEN IS THE ONE GOING TO COME?

YOU KNOW...

I JUST FEEL USED.

HE PLAYED ME FOR A FOOL.

NO, NO COMMUNICATION.

ACTUALLY, I BLOCKED HIM
FROM WhatsApp

SO HE CAN'T TEXT ME,

HE CAN'T CALL ME,
HE CAN'T DM ME.

BUT I'M OKAY WITH NEVER SEEING
OR TALKING TO TOM AGAIN.

YEAH, IT'S SAD, IT HURTS,
BUT I KNOW WHAT I DO DESERVE

AND I KNOW WHAT I WANT.

IF I'M MEANT TO HAVE LOVE,
THEN IT'LL COME TO ME.

I AM SO READY
TO CLOSE THIS CHAPTER

AND GET ON WITH THE NEXT.

OKAY, WHAT DO WE DO?

THIS HAS TO BE THE WEIRDEST
EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE.

I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE.

WHAT DO YOU THINK
YOUR MOM'S GOING TO SAY?

COME, COME.
MY GOD.

MM‐HMM.

I'M JUST HOT.
I SURVIVED.

YEAH, I DIDN'T ‐‐

NO, I DIDN'T SLEEP AT ALL.

I SPENT THE NIGHT
AT ROSE'S HOME,

AND THIS WAS ONE OF
THE WORST NIGHTS OF MY LIFE.

I AM COMPLETELY DRAINED.
I HAVEN'T SLEPT.

THE MATTRESS THAT I SLEPT IN
WAS SOAKING WET.

THIS WAS THE FIRST NIGHT
I'VE EVER SPENT

WITHOUT ACCESS
TO AIR CONDITIONING,

AND I HATED IT,
AND I FEEL BROKEN.

THIS WAS A LOT.
THIS WAS A LOT TO ‐‐

IT'S A LOT TO TAKE IN.

RAIN WAS COMING OUT
OF THE HOLES IN THE CEILING.

MY BED IS WET. I THINK
I JUST GOT BIT BY A MOSQUITO.

YEAH, IT WAS TOUGH.
TOUGH NIGHT.

I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE MAD,

BUT I DON'T THINK
I CAN STAY HERE AGAIN.

DON'T BE MAD AT ME, THOUGH.

IF I GOT A HOTEL ROOM,
WOULD YOU COME AND STAY?

I KIND OF WANT TO TAKE YOU
ON A LITTLE VACATION.

JUST YOU AND ME.

SO WOULD YOU BE OKAY WITH
GOING AWAY FOR A COUPLE DAYS

AND HAVING SOMEBODY ELSE
TAKE CARE OF PRINCE?

I'M SORRY.

I'M A LITTLE SAD THAT ROSE
HAS TO LEAVE PRINCE BEHIND

AND THAT I WON'T GET
TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIM,

BUT IF WE'RE GOING
TO BE A FAMILY,

THEN I NEED TO KNOW THAT ROSE
IS THE RIGHT ONE FOR ME.

AND IN ORDER TO DO THAT, I WANT
SOME MORE ALONE TIME WITH ROSE.

BUT I WANT TO ASK YOUR DAD
IF I CAN TAKE YOU WITH ME.

OKAY.

SO PLEASE DON'T SAY ANYTHING
TO YOUR DAD.

I'LL ASK HIM.
SURE.

OKAY, SO I KNOW YOU SHOWED ME
WHERE THE BATH WAS,

BUT I DON'T KNOW
HOW IT WORKS.

LET'S GO.

OH, I'M SO SORE.

GOOD MORNING.
HOW ARE YOU?

OKAY.

ROSA'S FATHER
DOESN'T LIVE HERE,

BUT HE DECIDED TO STAY THE NIGHT
TO KEEP AN EYE ON ME.

WHAT?

TOGETHER, NOW?
YEAH.

OKAY, SURE.

OKAY. YEAH.

TAKE THIS, HUH?

MM!

YES.
OH...

OKAY, WHAT DO WE DO?

OH, MY GOD.
WHOA, WHOA, WHOA, WHOA.

WHOA, WHOA, WHOA.

WHOA, WHOA, WHOA.

NICE!

THIS HAS TO BE THE WEIRDEST
EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE.

NICE?

OH, YEAH.

WHOA. ARE THOSE CHICK‐‐
ARE THOSE CHICKENS?

THERE'S CHICKENS ‐‐

‐THERE'S CHICKENS...
‐YEAH.

AND RABBITS AND BUNNIES.
OKAY. HOLD ON.

OKAY. OKAY.

ROSE. ROSE.

THAT'S IT.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU.

OKAY. I'M DONE.

I'M DONE.
I'M DONE. I'M DONE.

YOU'RE DONE?

OH, MY GOD!

ROSE, WHAT IS THAT?

THAT'S A MOUSE OR A RAT?

YEAH.

I CANNOT WAIT TO GET
OUT OF HERE,

SO I'M GOING TO MAKE
HOTEL RESERVATIONS

AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

BUT FIRST, I WANT
TO ASK HER FATHER

IF IT'S OKAY OUT OF RESPECT

BECAUSE I'M A FATHER,
AND I WOULD EXPECT THE SAME.

BUT I'M NOT SURE
HOW HE'S FEELING ABOUT ME.

WHAT IF HE SAYS NO?

OKAY.

OKAY, BABY LOVE.

THIS IS
THE FRONT OF THE GOWN.

OKAY.

WHAT DO YOU THINK
YOUR MOM'S GOING TO SAY?

COME, COME...

ARE YOU SURE?

MM‐HMM.

EVERYBODY WAS NOT
HAPPY WITH ME.

YOU HAVE TO DO MY HAIR,
AND I HAVE TO PUT ON MY MAKEUP.

NO, NO, NO, NO, NO,
NO, NO, NO, NO.

WHY?

YES.

OKAY.

LET'S DO MY HAIR.

ALL RIGHT.

THIS IS A VERY BIG DEAL.

USMAN TOLD ME THAT HIS MOTHER
IS UNDER THE IMPRESSION

THAT I WANT TO BRING HER SON TO
THE UNITED STATES TO BE A SLAVE,

SO I'M GOING TO HAVE TO
COMPLETELY CHANGE HER MIND

AND ASK FOR HER BLESSINGS
THAT WE CAN BE MARRIED.

YEAH.
YEAH, YEAH, YEAH, YEAH.

OKAY, LET'S DO THIS.

LET'S DO THIS.

YES, YOU READY BUDDY?
LET'S GO.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS IS GOING
TO HOLD FOR USMAN AND I.

I KNOW, BUDDY. HEY.

IT'S TAKING A GAMBLE.
I'M GOING TO MEET HIS MOM

AND SHE'S GOING TO MAKE
THE DECISION

TO GIVE ME HER BLESSING OR NOT.

‐30 MINUTES?
‐YES.

MM.

I HAVE LESS THAN TWO WEEKS,
LEFT SO THE CLOCK IS TICKING.

IF SHE DOESN'T
GIVE ME HER BLESSING,

I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF WE'RE
STILL GOING TO GET MARRIED.

I'VE COME TO HER HOMETOWN
TO SEARCH FOR LANA.

I NEED TO FIND HER.

ERIKA HAS TOLD ME
THAT SHE HAS BEEN INTIMATE

WITH SOME OF HER FRIENDS.

THAT JUST DOESN'T
SIT WELL WITH ME.

YOU LIKE IT?
YEAH.

IT'S VERY TROPICAL.

WHILE STEPH'S VISITING ME,
I'D REALLY LIKE TO INTRODUCE HER

TO MY PARENTS
AS MY GIRLFRIEND

BECAUSE I WANT TO BE OPEN
WITH MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HER,

BUT WE CLEARLY HAVE SOME STUFF
THAT WE NEED TO WORK ON FIRST.

OH, MY GOSH. CUTE.

IT'S LIKE
A LITTLE APARTMENT.

YEAH.

I HAVE TO GO GET READY,

AND I JUST NEED TO,
LIKE, FRESHEN UP, SO.

OKAY. ALL RIGHT.

IT MIGHT BE A LITTLE HARD
FOR ME TONIGHT

JUST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
YOU'RE REALLY MAD AT ME,

AND I'M NOW SUPPOSED
TO PUT ON A FACE

AND ACT ALL HAPPY
AROUND YOUR FRIEND.

AND WE NEED SOME TIME
WITH SOMEONE ELSE

TO KIND OF
BREAK IT UP A LITTLE.

THINGS ARE JUST
SO AWKWARD BETWEEN US

BECAUSE THERE IS STILL
SO MUCH UNRESOLVED BUSINESS.

MEETING ERIKA'S FRIEND
FOR THE FIRST TIME TONIGHT

IS THE LAST THING
THAT I WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW.

IT JUST FEELS
KIND OF WEIRD.

‐HEY!
‐HELLO! HOW YOU DOING?

HI.

‐HOW ARE YOU?
‐HI!

OH, SORRY.
I MADE YOU TRIP OVER.

‐AND HELLO.
‐HI.

SORRY, I'M GOING FOR A HUG.
IT'S OKAY, NICE TO MEET YOU.

HOW ARE YOU?
AND THEN I ELBOWED YOU.

OH, MY GOD. THIS IS STEPH.

‐NICE TO MEET YOU, STEPH.
‐CLAIR.

CLAIR, NICE TO MEET YOU.

OH, JEEZ. HOW HAVE WE BEEN?
WHAT ARE WE DOING?

UH, WELL, STEPH GOT HERE
LIKE FOUR DAYS AGO.

‐YEAH.
‐HAS IT BEEN A LONG FOUR DAYS?

OH, MY GOSH.
WE'VE BEEN DOING SO MUCH.

‐THANK YOU.
‐THANK YOU.

YEAH, WE WENT TO
THE WILDLIFE PARK,

AND THAT WAS ACTUALLY
REALLY AMAZING.

AND THEN WE WENT
TO THIS ART STUDIO.

YEAH.

AND WE DID, LIKE, A PAPIER‐MâCHé
THING OF OUR BOOBS.

IT KIND OF CAUGHT ME
A LITTLE OFF GUARD.

IT WAS JUST INTERESTING.

IT WAS JUST A UNIQUE DATE
FOR, LIKE,

THE SECOND DAY KNOWING SOMEBODY.

I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE SOMETHING
DIFFERENT THAN WHAT IT WAS.

YEAH.

I MEAN, EVERYBODY HAS
A DIFFERENCE OF OPINION.

WHAT ELSE HAVE YOU GUYS GOT
PLANNED TO DO IN PORT AUGUSTA?

WE HAVE THE PARTY
TOMORROW NIGHT.

OH, YES.

YEAH.

YEAH.

I'M PRETTY NERVOUS.

ERIKA'S GOT SOME VERY CLOSE
FRIENDSHIPS,

SO, YOU KNOW...
YEAH.

I DO WANT TO GET TO KNOW
EVERYBODY

AND, LIKE, UNDERSTAND
THE FRIENDSHIP.

I BET, LIKE,
DATING IN A SMALL TOWN,

IT PROBABLY HAPPENS
PRETTY OFTEN

THAT, LIKE, YOU'LL HOOK UP
WITH SOMEBODY

THAT MAY BE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS
HOOKED UP WITH.

ERIKA HAS TOLD ME
THAT SHE HAS BEEN INTIMATE

WITH SOME OF HER FRIENDS,

SPECIFICALLY HER FRIEND ADAM,

WHO SHE DOES TALK
ABOUT QUITE OFTEN.

THEY'LL GET DRUNK TOGETHER
AND SHE'LL SPEND THE NIGHT

AT HIS PLACE, AND THAT
JUST DOESN'T SIT WELL WITH ME.

ALL RIGHT, GUYS. WELL I'M GOING
TO GO USE THE BATHROOM.

UM...

YEAH.

AND IT'S LIKE,
I'M TRYING TO

GET TO A POINT OF TRUST
WITH HER.

MM‐HMM.

THEY DIDN'T SEEM REALLY
TOUCHY‐FEELY FOR A COUPLE

THAT HAVE JUST, LIKE, MET
IN THE LAST WEEK OR SO.

I DON'T KNOW.
I JUST KIND OF EXPECTED THEM

TO BE A BIT MORE LOVEY‐DOVEY.

THEY'VE STILL GOT ONLY
ANOTHER TWO WEEKS TO GO,

SO I HOPE THEY MAKE
A LOT OF PROGRESS.

I DON'T WANT TO BE PRESSURING
ANYONE TO SOMETHING

THEY DON'T WANT TO DO
OR, LIKE, WHATEVER,

BUT I NEED TO HAVE
SOME FORM OF, LIKE, AFFECTION.

YEAH, IT WOULD BE
A LITTLE BIT AWKWARD.

‐YEAH, IT'S ‐‐
‐A LOT AWKWARD, ACTUALLY.

YEAH, IT'S ROUGH.
I'M JUST LIKE, AW.

SHE APPEARS NOT TO BE ONLINE.

AFTER GETTING THE CAR FIXED,

I ARRIVED IN PAVLOHRAD
EARLY THIS MORNING.

I FINALLY GET
INTERNET CONNECTION,

AND I STILL HAVEN'T
HEARD ANYTHING FROM LANA.

YEAH, SHE'S NOT ONLINE.

I'VE COME TO HER HOMETOWN
TO TRY AND SEARCH FOR HER

BECAUSE I NEED TO TALK TO HER.

I HAVE AN ADDRESS FOR LANA,
BUT I DON'T WANT TO SCARE HER.

I DON'T WANT TO JUST SHOW UP
AND SCARE HER,

SO I'LL START BY
WALKING AROUND HER CITY.

HOPEFULLY I'LL BUMP INTO HER.

OH...

THIS TRIP IS HARDER
THAN I EXPECTED.

THE DRIVE TOOK FIVE HOURS
LONGER THAN I THOUGHT.

I GOT A FLAT TIRE.

BUT IT'LL ALL BE WORTH IT
IF I CAN MEET LANA.

THIS IS TOTALLY NOT ME
DOING THIS KIND OF SEARCHING,

BUT I NEED TO FIND HER.

I DON'T SEE LANA ANYWHERE,
BUT SHE TALKS ABOUT A CANDY SHOP

THAT'S NEAR HER APARTMENT
THAT SHE LOVES.

SHE COULD BE IN THIS BUILDING.
WOW.

MM‐HMM.

NYET? NYET?

MM.

IT'S STRANGE THAT
SHE DIDN'T KNOW HER.

LANA'S MENTIONED
THIS PLACE A FEW TIMES,

BUT MAYBE THE PERSON WAS NEW.

I'M GETTING TIRED
AND I'M NOT FINDING HER,

SO I WANT TO GO SEE
IF SHE'S ONLINE.

I'M EXHAUSTED FROM...

BASICALLY
SCOURING THE STREETS,

LOOKING FOR SOMEBODY.

I GOT A MESSAGE FROM LANA.

"DO YOU STILL WANT A MEETING
FOR A PHOTO

AND START A RELATIONSHIP
AND VISA?"

OH, GOD, YES.

RIGHT NOW, AFTER GETTING THIS,

I FEEL VERY CLOSE TO LANA.

I'M BESIDE MYSELF.

I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THAT
AFTER MY DISAPPOINTMENT,

AFTER SITTING THERE FOR DAYS
NOT KNOWING WHAT'S GOING ON,

AND THEN I GET
THIS KIND OF MESSAGE.

IN ORDER TO PROCESS
THE K1 VISA,

YOU HAVE TO HAVE EVIDENCE
OF A RELATIONSHIP,

AND THAT REQUIRES PHOTOS
OF YOU TWO TOGETHER.

AND SHE'S TELLING ME,
WE NEED TO GET OUR EVIDENCE.

"YES, OF COURSE
I WANT TO MEET.

WHEN WILL YOU BE ONLINE AGAIN?"

RIGHT NOW, I'M NOT GOING TO
BRING UP BEING IN LANA'S CITY

OR THE TRAIN STATION ISSUE
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DO

ANYTHING
THAT'S GOING TO UPSET HER

AND STOP OUR POSSIBILITY
OF MEETING.

AND SEND.

WOW.

HALF MY TRIP IS GONE.

I DON'T CARE.

LET'S JUST START
FROM RIGHT NOW.

EVERYTHING IS FORGIVEN,
AND WE'LL GO ON.

HOW AM I GOING TO SLEEP TONIGHT?

I'M SO CLOSE.

OH, JEEZ.

HOW DO I GET OVER THERE?

‐TAKE THIS...
‐JUST THROW IT?

YEAH.

THE ONLY REASON
I'M STANDING IN PIG

IS BECAUSE THERE'S SOMETHING
I HAVE TO ASK FREDDY.

OH! NO!

SON OF A BITCH!

I HOPE THAT
YOU CAN FORGIVE ME.

I HAVE SOMETHING I NEED
TO TELL YOU ABOUT ME.

I ACTUALLY...

I WENT TO ‐‐
I WENT TO PRISON...

FOR A WHILE,
FOR A COUPLE YEARS...

I WANTED TO TELL YOU
ABOUT THIS BEFORE.

UH, TWO‐ISH YEARS.

I NEEDED TO TELL YOU BEFORE
WE GOT TOO DEEP INTO THIS.

YOU JUST MET MY MOM.
WE ARE IN A DEEP RELATIONSHIP.

WE WERE POOR GROWING UP.
WE WERE REALLY POOR.

EASY MONEY.

I STILL CAN'T
UNDERSTAND THAT.

YOU KNOW...

I'M SORRY.

I GET IT,
AND IT AFFECTS ME TOO.

I MEAN, I DON'T EVEN
LIKE THINKING ABOUT IT.

I DON'T LIKE THINKING ABOUT THE
PEOPLE THAT I COULD HAVE HURT.

I MADE POOR DECISIONS.

SOMEBODY DEALT HER COUSIN
WHATEVER IT WAS THAT HE HAD,

AND IT KILLED HIM.

AND SO I THINK HAS A WHOLE
DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE ON THIS

THAT I DIDN'T
TAKE INTO ACCOUNT.

IN THE MOMENT
WHEN I WAS DOING IT,

IT DIDN'T ‐‐

I DIDN'T SEE
THAT TYPE OF THING.

YOU KNOW, IT'S AFTER THE FACT
WHEN YOU CAN LOOK BACK.

MM.
NOW YOU'RE HITTING HOME.

I ‐‐ I ‐‐ I ‐‐

I TRY TO LIVE BY EXAMPLE NOW
WITH MY CHILDREN, YOU KNOW?

I TELL THEM THAT, YOU KNOW,
I'M HORRIBLY AGAINST DRUGS.

OH, YEAH. THEY KNOW.

PAXTON AND DAKOTA
WERE MY LIFE AT THAT TIME,

AND THEY WOULD COME
TO VISIT AT THE PRISON.

AND IT WAS HARD. IT WAS HARD
TO SAY BYE EVERY TIME THEY LEFT.

PRISON AFFECTED
MORE THAN JUST ME, YOU KNOW?

AND...

YOU KNOW, IT'S A WAKE‐UP
CALL FOR ME.

I KNOW.

I GET THAT.

THAT HE WAS A DRUG DEALER.

LET ALONE INTRODUCE HIM
TO MY MOM.

THIS IS MANY, MANY YEARS
AGO, YOU KNOW?

AND IF YOU LOOK AT ME FOR ME
AND WHO I AM,

ESPECIALLY WHO I AM NOW,

I HOPE THAT YOU CAN...

YOU CAN FORGIVE ME.

SO WE'RE HEADING
TO YOUR DAD'S PIG FARM?

YESTERDAY I ARRIVED AT ROSE'S
HOUSE, AND I SPENT THE NIGHT,

AND IT WAS PERHAPS
THE WORST NIGHT OF MY LIFE.

WHICH WAY? THIS WAY?

LUCKILY, ROSE HAS AGREED
TO GO ON A LITTLE TRIP WITH ME

INSTEAD OF STAYING HERE
ANY MORE.

LET'S GO. LET'S GO.

BUT BEFORE WE LEAVE
ROSE'S HOMETOWN,

ROSE AND I ARE GOING
TO TRAVEL WITH HER DAD

TO A PIG FARM THAT HE OWNS.

I'M KIND OF EXCITED
TO SEE THE PIG FARM,

BUT I'M ALSO VERY NERVOUS

BECAUSE I STILL DON'T KNOW
WHETHER OR NOT

FREDDIE TRUSTS ME,

AND I WANT TO ASK
HIS BLESSING TO TAKE ROSE

ON A LITTLE TRIP,
OUT OF RESPECT

AND BECAUSE IT WOULD MAKE
ROSE MORE COMFORTABLE.

SO WHAT IS THIS? A BUS?
DO YOU PAY OR NO?

NO...

OKAY.

SO DO YOU LIKE LIVING
IN THE PHILIPPINES?

‐YES.
‐YES?

‐LOVELY.
‐YEAH?

WE'RE KIND OF
IN THE JUNGLE, NO?

‐KIND OF IN THE JUNGLE?
‐YES.

ARE WE GETTING CLOSE
TO THE PIG FARM?

YES.

I'M TRYING TO MAKE CONVERSATION
WITH FREDDIE.

I WANT HIM TO LIKE ME.

BUT THERE IS SOMEWHAT OF
A LANGUAGE BARRIER BETWEEN US,

SO IT'S DIFFICULT.

OH, WE'RE HERE!
WE'RE HERE?

WE'RE HERE.
LET'S GO.

OKAY, YOU LEAD.

LET'S GO.

‐THIS WAY.
‐THIS WAY.

‐THIS WAY?
‐YEAH.

AW, THANK YOU, BUB.
OH, THANKS. THANK YOU.

OH, WOW. THIS IS AWESOME.

HEY, HOLD ON A SECOND,

I'M GOING TO PUT
MY BACKPACK DOWN. HOLD ON.

AW.

OKAY, JUST STEPPED
IN.

HERE, CAN I PUT THESE
ON MY FEET?

YEAH.

OKAY, YEAH, HOLD ON.

OH...

OKAY.

RIGHT THERE OKAY?

OH, GO. OKAY, OKAY. OKAY,

I'M SORRY.
OH, DON'T BITE ME.

I THINK THE BAGGIES ARE
MAKING ME MORE SLIPPERIER.

I'M STANDING THERE
TRYING TO CATCH MY BALANCE

BECAUSE EVERY STEP I TAKE,
I'M STEPPING INTO MUD, MORE MUD.

I CAN'T GET GOOD FOOTINGS
BECAUSE I'M IN SNEAKERS

WRAPPED IN PLASTIC BAGGIES.

I JUST KEPT FALLING.

HERE, THIS WAY.
OH.

HOW DO I GET OVER THERE?
JUST...

‐JUST THROW IT?
‐YEAH. YEAH.

OH! OW.

SON OF A BITCH.
SON OF A BITCH.

I'M SORRY.

I'M FINE.

SO, ROSE,
WHERE DOES YOUR DAD LIVE?

HERE.

DOES HE LIKE LIVING HERE?

YEAH, THIS IS FUN.

NO, TELL HIM
I HAD A LOT OF FUN.

YEAH, THIS WAS GOOD.

SO THERE'S SOMETHING
THAT I WANTED TO ASK YOU.

LAST NIGHT, I HAD A HARD TIME
SLEEPING BECAUSE IT WAS SO HOT.

SO I WANTED TO TAKE A VACATION
FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS WITH ROSE,

IF YOU'RE OKAY WITH THAT.

I PROMISE.
OKAY.

‐I PROMISE.
‐ALL RIGHT.

THANK YOU.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.

OKAY, WE'LL SEE YOU
AGAIN SOON.

I'M SO GLAD WE'RE GOING ON THIS
VACATION AWAY FROM HER FAMILY

AND AWAY FROM,
LIKE, THIS ENVIRONMENT.

SO I CAN FIGURE OUT
A COUPLE THINGS FOR MYSELF.

OKAY, BYE‐BYE.
BYE.

THANK YOU.

BECAUSE I CAME TO
THE PHILIPPINES TO MARRY ROSE,

BUT I'M NOT A 100% SURE
IT'S TRUE LOVE ON HER END.

SO I NEED SOME MORE
ALONE TIME WITH HER

BEFORE I PUT A RING
ON HER FINGER.

OKAY, LET'S GO.

NO, YOU'RE NOT.

WE'RE NOT SEEING EYE‐TO‐EYE,

AND I JUST FEEL LIKE YOU
DON'T UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL.

YOU'RE RIGHT.
YOU'RE RIGHT, I DON'T.

EVEN THOUGH ERIKA AND I
HAVE BEEN TALKING ONLINE

FOR ALMOST A YEAR

AND WE'VE BEEN GIRLFRIENDS
FOR FOUR MONTHS,

BEING TOGETHER IN PERSON
IS...

UGH, A LOT MORE DIFFERENT
THEN I EXPECTED IT TO BE.

BUT I DO LOVE HER,

AND I DID RISK MY HEALTH
COMING ALL THE WAY TO AUSTRALIA,

SO I HOPE
WE CAN MOVE ON FROM THIS.

I FELT LIKE I WAS
SO TIRED TONIGHT.

YEAH, ME TOO.

YEAH.

GLAD THAT SHE, LIKE,
TOOK THE TIME

TO COME OUT AND MEET ME.
YEAH.

I KNOW THINGS
HAVE BEEN WEIRD TODAY.

YEAH.

I THINK THAT MAYBE
WE JUST NEED, LIKE,

A LITTLE PAUSE ON EVERYTHING,
GIVE YOU SOME SPACE.

I CAN ALWAYS JUST SLEEP
ON THE COUCH TOO.

YOU'RE NOT REALLY
TALKING TO ME,

AND I'M NOT REALLY ‐‐

I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE.

I JUST...

YOU GOT UPSET WITH ME
BECAUSE I HAD SAID

THAT I COULDN'T MOVE
TO NEW YORK STRAIGHTAWAY.

I'M SORRY THAT I'M NOT, LIKE,
HAND‐HOLDY AND, YOU KNOW ‐‐

IT'S LIKE, JUST BECAUSE I
HAVEN'T GIVEN YOU

MORE AFFECTION
IN LIKE THREE,

FOUR DAYS OF KNOWING YOU,

I FEEL LIKE YOU'VE
EXCOMMUNICATED ME.

YOU KNOW, LIKE...

MM‐HMM.

I WANT SOMEONE
TO BE EXCITED ABOUT...

IT'S JUST DOESN'T MAKE
A LOT OF SENSE, STEPH.

IT HURTS.

ERIKA STARTS TELLING ME

HOW I'M NOT BEING
PHYSICAL ENOUGH WITH HER,

AND IT'S REALLY
UPSETTING TO ME.

I DON'T WANT ERIKA TO THINK
THAT I'M NOT ATTRACTED TO HER,

BUT I HAVEN'T BEEN INTIMATE
WITH SOMEBODY IN OVER A YEAR.

I FEEL LIKE I REALLY,
TRULY NEED TO TRUST SOMEBODY

BEFORE I LET THEM IN
THAT WAY.

THERE'S A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN
TALKING ABOUT THINGS ONLINE

AND THEN MEETING AND BEING
THRUST INTO A NEW SITUATION.

LIKE, I JUST MET YOU,
AND ON TOP OF THAT,

I'M MEETING ALL THESE PEOPLE
AND I'M LIKE...

WHY?
LIKE, WHY BOTHER, STEPH?

I'M REALLY SORRY.

LIKE, I FEEL LIKE
UP.

SO I'M REALLY SORRY.

LIKE, I ‐‐ BUT I DON'T KNOW
WHAT I COULD DO RIGHT NOW.

THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR ME
TO BE FEELING THIS WAY EITHER,

BECAUSE HEALTH‐WISE,
WITH MY ILLNESS,

I DON'T WANT TO BE
FEELING LIKE SO,

SO STRESSED OUT,
THAT, LIKE, I GET SICK OVER IT.

IT'S ONLY FOUR DAYS,
SO I, LIKE ‐‐

I KIND OF FEEL LIKE, WHY ARE
YOU MAKING ME FEEL LIKE...

YEAH, I KNOW.
LIKE...

I KNOW, I KNOW.
LIKE, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?

NO, YOU'RE NOT.

YOU'RE NOT TRYING
TO WORK WITH ME.

YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL BAD
ABOUT IT. LIKE, I ‐‐

I'M JUST TRYING TO TALK
TO YOU ABOUT IT, STEPH,

BECAUSE IT'S A PROBLEM

AND I'M ASKING FOR US TO TRY
AND SOLVE IT IN TIME.

HOW ABOUT JUST GIVE ME TIME?

OKAY. I'LL JUST SIT HERE
AND TRY AND FIGURE OUT

WHAT I'M DOING
ALL BY MYSELF, LIKE,

WHILE YOU FIGURE IT OUT
ON YOUR OWN

AND NOT TALK TO ME
ABOUT ANYTHING EVER.

WE'RE NOT SEEING EYE‐TO‐EYE,

AND I JUST FEEL LIKE YOU
DON'T UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL.

I ‐‐ I ‐‐
YOU CAN'T.

THERE'S NO WAY YOU COULD.
THERE'S NO WAY YOU COULD.

AND THERE'S NO WAY
I COULD UNDERSTAND YOU EITHER.

I JUST FEEL REALLY
UNCOMFORTABLE,

AND I FEEL REALLY ALONE
BECAUSE I'M JUST HERE BY MYSELF.

I DON'T HAVE ANYBODY.

LIKE, I JUST, LIKE ‐‐
I DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND

WHAT I'VE DONE WRONG.

MM.

OH, MY GOD.

ARE YOU SERIOUS?

THIS IS MY MOM'S HOUSE.

OH, MY GOD, I THINK
I'M GOING TO BE SICK.

YOU GOT THE GOAT?
MM‐HMM.

OH, MY GOSH.

OKAY. MM‐HMM.

IS YOUR MOTHER
RIGHT THERE?

YES.

YEAH. YES.

I AM VERY NERVOUS.
THE STAKES ARE VERY HIGH

BECAUSE SHE IS THE MATRIARCH
OF THE FAMILY.

THERE'S A LOT RIDING ON IT.

IF SHE DECLINES A BLESSING,
AS MUCH AS I LOVE USMAN,

I'M GOING BACK TO THE
UNITED STATES AS A SINGLE WOMAN.

UM, BABY GIRL.

YEAH.

YOU HAVE
A BEAUTIFUL HOME.

MM.

WHAT DID YOU TELL HER?

MM‐HMM.

I AM A HOSPICE CAREGIVER
IN THE STATES

FOR THE DYING PATIENTS.

OKAY.

OH.

I KNOW YOU'VE TOLD THEM
ABOUT ME,

BUT IS THERE ANYTHING THEY MIGHT
WANT TO KNOW WHY I'M HERE FOR?

HMM?

I AM TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED
OF THEIR ACTION.

USMAN'S MOM HAS SAID NO,

AND AT THIS POINT,
WE CANNOT GET MARRIED.

YES.

I AM VERY FRUSTRATED.

I HAVE TRAVELED ACROSS
THE WORLD TO BE WITH USMAN,

AND AT THIS POINT
OUR RELATIONSHIP COULD BE OVER.

NEXT TIME
ON "BEFORE THE 90 DAYS"...

I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DATE
A RELATIONSHIP COACH

WHEN THEY'RE BEING ACCESSIBLE
TO WOMEN ALL THE TIME.

YOU'RE SINGLE
RIGHT NOW?

VARYA WANTS ME TO TELL
HER MOM ABOUT MY PAST.

‐HEY, SIS.
‐HEY, DARCE.

WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED?

HE SAID HE WAS LOOKING FOR
SOMEONE THAT COULD LOVE HIM

THE WAY
HE WANTED TO BE LOVED,

AND HE FOUND IT
WITH SOMEONE ELSE.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY THIS KEEPS HAPPENING.

A FEW DAYS AGO, I RECEIVED
A E‐MAIL THREAD.

FROM HIM?

I DON'T THINK
IT'S FROM WILLIAMS.

THIS MAN SEEMS EVIL.

I MEAN, WHEN A SCAMMER
GETS CAUGHT,

PERSONALITIES CHANGE.

THE NATURE OF SOME OF YOUR
FRIENDSHIPS MAKES ME

UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE YOU'VE HAD
INTIMATE RELATIONS.

IT'S A WEIRD FRIENDSHIP.

MAYBE IT'S TIME TO FIND OUT
WHAT'S REALLY GOING ON

BETWEEN THE BOTH OF THEM.

SO I'M CURIOUS, DO YOU HAVE
FEELINGS FOR ERIKA?

LANA AGREED TO MEET
AT A RESTAURANT TODAY.

I'VE FOCUSED
SEVEN YEARS OF MY LIFE.

I'VE SPENT OVER $100,000
ON CHAT.

THIS IS MAKE OR BREAK.
I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER.