90 Day Fiancé: Before the 90 Days (2017–…): Season 4, Episode 12 - King of Wishful Thinking - full transcript

PREVIOUSLY ON
"BEFORE THE 90 DAYS"...

I'M 54 YEARS OLD.
I DON'T WANT MORE KIDS.

OKAY, ALL RIGHT,
SO...

YOU DON'T CARE AT ALL?

AS LONG AS YOU'RE HAPPY.

IT WAS SO TOUCHING TO FEEL
SO ACCEPTED,

BUT IT JUST MAKES ME WORRY
HOW DIFFERENT

IT'S GOING TO BE FOR ME.

HELLO, THIS IS DAVID
FROM THE UNITED STATES.

I SENT ALL THE INFORMATION
THAT I HAVE ON LANA

TO A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR
IN UKRAINE.



I SUPPOSE THAT THE ACCOUNT
IS ARISING IN THE NAME NAMIRE.

THAT'S A LIE.

I FEEL EXTREMELY ATTACKED.

I'VE NEVER SEEN
THIS PART OF ASH.

I'M NOT GOING TO DEAL WITH THIS.
LIKE, I'M DONE.

YOU LOOK
ABSOLUTELY STUNNING.

TOMORROW OUR TIME TOGETHER
WILL COME TO AN END.

I'M READY TO TAKE THE NEXT STEP
IN THIS WHOLE RELATIONSHIP.

THIS WHOLE TIME,
WE'VE GROWN CLOSE.

CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY
DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS

I WANT TO CONTINUE
THIS ADVENTURE WITH YOU.

SO, YOU'RE BASICALLY
SAYING NO?

GEOFF...

BASICALLY,
THIS IS A NO?



I DON'T WANT TO LIE.

I DON'T WANT TO SAY YES,
AND THEN CHANGE MY MIND.

I WANT YOU TO BE HONEST
AND UPFRONT,

BUT THIS IS THE WHOLE REASON
FOR US COMING TOGETHER,

LIKE, THIS WAS
REALLY OUR CHANCE.

THIS WAS OUR MAKE IT
OR BREAK IT TIME.

I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION
YEARS YOU WOULD TURN ME DOWN.

I FEEL LIKE I'VE WAITED
LONG ENOUGH TO BE HAPPY,

AND I TRULY FELT
THAT...

WE COULD MAKE
EACH OTHER HAPPY.

THEN YOU'D BE MAKING
THE RIGHT DECISION,

BUT WHAT IF YOU ARE MY SOULMATE?
WHAT IF I AM YOUR SOULMATE?

GEOFFREY'S TRIP IN RUSSIA DID
NOT GO HOW I THOUGHT IT WOULD ‐‐

WITH HIM YELLING
WITH MY FRIENDS,

WITH HIM TELLING ME AND MY
FAMILY ABOUT HIS CRIMINAL PAST.

YEAH.

JUST PUSH ME TO THE EDGE.

AND NOW WE ARE MEANT
TO BE MEETING MY SON,

MY EX‐WIFE, AND IT'S ACTUALLY
VERY FRUSTRATING

TO SEE HER JUST SIT THERE
AND NOT DO ANYTHING.

AVERY, I'M GOING
TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW.

IF YOU CARE,
SHOW ME SOMETHING.

I'M TRYING.

TRY HARDER.

THEN LET'S
TALK ABOUT IT.

BUT LET'S
ACTUALLY TALK.

OKAY.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN
WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?

"ASH, I LOVE YOU.

I WANT YOU TO BE HERE.

I DON'T WANT
YOU TO GO AWAY."

YOU KNOW WHAT THE FIRST WORDS
WERE OUT OF YOUR MOUTH

WHEN YOU CAME
TO TALK TO ME?

NO, "YOU'RE
HEARTLESS."

DO YOU THINK THAT IT'S OKAY
TO APPROACH PEOPLE WITH,

"YOU'RE HEARTLESS," AND THEN
EXPECT THEM TO LISTEN TO YOU?

OKAY.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH
HE'S WANTS TO SAY,

"I LOVE YOU, I WANT TO
WORK THROUGH THINGS,"

HE WAS EXTREMELY WORKED UP
AND CHILDISH WHEN HE WALKED IN

AND I DON'T WANT THAT
AT ALL IN A PARTNER.

THANK YOU.

SO RIGHT NOW, I UNDERSTAND
WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM...

‐OKAY.
‐OKAY?

I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT
A LOT OF THINGS RIGHT NOW.

MAYBE I NEED TO APPROACH
THINGS DIFFERENTLY,

AND I'M JUST HOPING THAT WE HAVE
CONSTRUCTIVE CONVERSATION,

THAT'S ALL I ASK.

OKAY, AWESOME.

COOL.

I MIGHT HAVE WALLS UP,

BUT I'M ALSO REALLY EXCITED
TO MEET TAJ AND SIAN.

ASH AND SIAN,
THEY DIVORCED 10 YEARS AGO

AND THEY SHARE A 10‐YEAR‐OLD SON

NAMED TAJ, WHO THEY HAVE
SPLIT CUSTODY OVER.

THE PLAN HAS BEEN
TO BRING TAJ TO AMERICA

AND COMBINE OUR FAMILIES,

SO I REALLY WANT TO JUST SEE HOW
ASH IS AS A FATHER.

BUT I'VE HAD CONCERNS ABOUT

HOW HIS EX‐WIFE
IS FEELING ABOUT THIS.

AND NOW AFTER ALL THE STUFF THAT
I'VE SEEN THE PAST FEW DAYS,

I FEEL LIKE SIAN
HAS A LOT OF THE ANSWERS

THAT I NEED TO HEAR COMING
FROM SOMEBODY

WHO'S BEEN IN HIS LIFE
FOR A LONG TIME.

WELL, I FEEL LIKE THERE
WAS SO MUCH

THAT WAS SO UNRESOLVED
IN THAT SITUATION.

IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT
I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU,

BECAUSE I DO
CARE ABOUT YOU,

BUT I DON'T THINK THAT
WE'RE RESOLVING MUCH RIGHT NOW

AND THAT'S WHY I WANTED
TO HAVE MY OWN ROOM TONIGHT

SO I CAN COME
INTO THIS SITUATION BETTER.

OKAY.

YEAH, DO THAT, DO THAT.

THERE YOU GO.

ALL RIGHT...

THIS IS IT.

I BELIEVE THAT LANA AND I
ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER.

I WANT TO BE WITH HER.

I HAVE A CONFESSION
TO MAKE.

OKAY, WHAT IS
YOUR CONFESSION?

I WANT TO HAVE THIS RELATIONSHIP
GO TO THE NEXT LEVEL,

BUT NONE OF THAT CAN EVER HAPPEN
UNLESS I COME OUT TO MY MOM.

HEY.

HI, HOW YOU FEELING?
DO YOU STILL HAVE A MIGRAINE?

I'LL BE FINE.
I TOOK MY MEDICATION,

I'M HAVING SOME COFFEE.

I HAD FUN YESTERDAY
WITH MY PARENTS.

‐YEAH, IT WAS REALLY FUN.
‐MM‐HMM.

ERIKA INTRODUCED ME AS
HER GIRLFRIEND TO HER PARENTS.

IT WAS REALLY AMAZING.

ERIKA TOOK A BIG STEP COMING
OUT, AND I WANT TO SHOW

THAT I'M IN THIS
JUST AS MUCH AS SHE IS.

I WANT TO HAVE THIS RELATIONSHIP
GO TO THE NEXT LEVEL,

BUT NONE OF THAT CAN EVER HAPPEN
UNLESS I COME OUT TO MY MOM.

SO I'VE BEEN THINKING,
AND

I WANT TO INTRODUCE YOU
TO MY MOM

BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS
REALLY IMPORTANT TO YOU.

WELL, YEAH, IT IS
BECAUSE YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE

AUSTRALIA SOON
AND YOU'RE GOING TO GO BACK

AND SPEND ALL YOUR TIME
WITH YOUR MOM

THAT DOESN'T
EVEN KNOW ABOUT ME.

I TRIED TO COME OUT TO MY MOM
BEFORE I CAME HERE,

BUT I WAS AFRAID
AND I JUST COULDN'T.

SO SHE THINKS ERIKA IS JUST
A FRIEND THAT I'M HERE VISITING.

I STILL FEEL VERY NERVOUS
ABOUT IT.

YOU KNOW, MY MOM'S A LITTLE
BIT MORE CONSERVATIVE.

MM‐HMM.

MY MOM'S VERY TRADITIONAL,
AND I'M WORRIED

THAT THIS WILL JUST CRUSH HER.

BUT YOU KNOW, MAYBE THIS IS
THE RIGHT MOMENT

WITH MY GIRLFRIEND NEXT TO ME
AND MY MOM ON ANOTHER CONTINENT.

I KNOW SHE'S AWAKE,
AND I KNOW

THAT SHE'S EXPECTING
TO HEAR FROM ME.

MM‐HMM.

SO YOU GO ON VIDEO
CHAT WITH ME.

OKAY, LET'S DO IT.
HERE GOES.

OH, MY GOSH. I'M SO NERVOUS.
I'M SO NERVOUS.

OKAY.
LET'S JUST DO THIS.

HI.

I'M GOOD.

‐ERIKA.
‐HI.

I'M GOOD.
HOW ARE YOU?

DOING GOOD.

JUST BEEN KIND OF ALL OVER
THE PLACE SEEING AUSTRALIA.

MM‐HMM.

YEAH.

I'VE BEEN MAKING SURE
SHE'S TAKING HER MEDICINE

AND THE HAND SANITIZER.

NO. NO.

YES. I HAVE. I FIGURED SHE COULD
STAY WITH ME MAYBE SOON.

SO I HAVE
A CONFESSION TO MAKE.

WHAT?

I HAVE
A CONFESSION TO MAKE.

I WENT CAGE DIVING
WITH SHARKS.

I'M VERY CAREFUL.
THERE WERE PROFESSIONALS THERE.

THERE'S NO WAY YOU COULD HAVE
GOTTEN HURT. THERE'S NO WAY.

I CAN'T. I CAN'T DO IT
RIGHT NOW.

IT JUST DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT
THROUGH A COMPUTER SCREEN.

YOU KNOW,
MY MOM MEANS A LOT TO ME.

I OWE IT TO HER
TO DO IT IN PERSON.

ALL RIGHT, MOM. LOVE YOU. BYE.
‐BYE‐BYE.

THAT WAS A BIT SCARY.

MM‐HMM.

I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE ONE DAY
YOU CAN TALK TO HER ABOUT THAT

AND HOPEFULLY
IT WON'T GO TOO BAD.

I KNOW. YEAH. BUT IT'S JUST,
I NEED TIME.

I FEEL LIKE
I'M LETTING DOWN ERIKA,

BUT I HOPE THAT SHE UNDERSTANDS
THAT I NEED TO FEEL COMFORTABLE,

AND I NEED TO BE READY.

AND EVENTUALLY, I WILL FIND
THE RIGHT WAY

AND THE RIGHT TIME
TO COME OUT TO MY MOM.

GOOD. THIS WOULD BE
THE LAST CROWDED GATE.

THIS IS IT.

WHEN I GOT BACK TO THE U. S. A.,

HAVING BEEN STOOD UP FOR THE
FOURTH TIME AND HEARTBROKEN,

I DIDN'T TALK TO LANA FOR TWO
OR THREE WEEKS AND THAT HURT.

I WAS LONELY.

JUST ARRIVING TO THE AIRPORT NOW

AND IT'S NOT TOO CROWDED.
WHERE DO I HAVE TO GO?

FINALLY, LAST NIGHT WE CHATTED,
AND SHE TOLD ME HER FEELINGS

ABOUT THE LAST TRIP
AND WHAT SHE WAS GOING THROUGH.

SHE SAID IT WAS TOO
OVERWHELMING TO HER

AND SHE FELT HORRIBLE
ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED

AND SHE WOULD MAKE IT UP TO ME.
IT WAS A WONDERFUL FEELING.

FEELING THIS ‐‐ THIS ‐‐
IT'S THAT FEELING

THAT I HAVE THAT MAKES ME THINK
I WANT TO BE WITH HER

OR I DON'T WANT TO BE
AWAY FROM HER ANYMORE.

ULTIMATELY UKRAINE.

ONE BAG.

I SAID, "WE NEED
TO PLAN SOMETHING RIGHT NOW.

WE JUST HAD
A FAILED MEETING.

WE NEED TO PLAN
SOMETHING RIGHT NOW."

I'M DONE WAITING.

I KNOW IN MY HEART
THAT SHE'S NOT SCAMMING ME.

ALL RIGHT.

SHE TOLD ME THAT SINCE
THE LAST TIME I WAS IN UKRAINE,

SHE'D MOVED IN WITH HER SISTER
IN THE CAPITAL CITY, KIEV,

AND SO
I'LL GO MEET HER THERE.

E9.
THIS IS WONDERFUL.

THIS WILL BE MY FIFTH ATTEMPT
TO MEET LANA FACE TO FACE.

I'M PUTTING MYSELF
OUT THERE AGAIN

BECAUSE WE HAVE SPENT
SEVEN YEARS

PLANNING OUR FUTURE TOGETHER,
AND I'M GOING TO DO ALL THAT

I CAN TO MAKE
THAT FUTURE A REALITY.

LANA, I'M COMING TO SEE YOU.
I'M COMING TO SEE YOU.

24 HOURS AWAY. OH.

JUST ARRIVED AND
CAN'T BELIEVE I'M HERE.

WE DON'T ACTUALLY
HAVE A MEETING TIME YET.

I NEED TO TALK
TO HER ABOUT THAT.

I'M GOING TO GO TO A HOTEL,
FRESHEN UP, TAKE A SHOWER,

AND LET LANA KNOW I'M HERE,
AND I'M READY TO SEE HER.

YOU KNOW, IT'S NOT EVEN
IN MY MIND, REALLY.

I'M HOPING THAT LANA
AND I REALLY HIT IT OFF

ON THE CHEMISTRY,

AND THAT HALFWAY
THROUGH THIS TRIP,

I CAN PROPOSE TO HER
AND SHE WILL ACCEPT,

AND OUR LIFE WILL START
FROM THAT POINT.

MM‐HMM.

I'M ACTUALLY HERE TO TRY
AND MEET

WITH MY GIRLFRIEND
FOR THE FIFTH TIME.

WE'VE BEEN COMMUNICATING
FOR SEVEN YEARS

AND NEVER MET,
AND SO...

I KNOW IT IS.
IT IS.

YES.

WELL...

YES.

I'M GOING TO GO ONLINE TO SEND
HER A MESSAGE THAT I ARRIVED.

I CAN LOOK AND SEE
IF SHE SENT ME ANYTHING.

OH,
A MESSAGE FROM LANA.

SHE'S BUSY WITH HOCKEY GAMES
THIS WEEKEND.

SHE'S SAYING NOW THAT
WE CAN'T MEET UNTIL MONDAY.

I'M HERE ON FRIDAY.
THAT'S THREE DAYS GONE.

IT'S LIKE, HERE'S ANOTHER EXCUSE
FOR WHY WE CAN'T MEET.

WHERE'S HER PRIORITY?

GOING TO NEPHEW'S HOCKEY
GAMES OR WHATEVER?

IS THAT THE PRIORITY OVER ME
COMING TO SEE HER

FOR THE FIRST TIME
IN SEVEN YEARS, AND I'M HER MAN?

I'M HER FUTURE.

SHE'S LITERALLY, LIKE,
NO FARTHER THAN 10 MILES AWAY.

I'VE REALLY COMMITTED
TO THIS TRIP,

BUT IF LANA DOESN'T SHOW UP
TO MEET ME ON MONDAY,

I HAVE TO PUT MY FOOT
DOWN AT SOME POINT AND SAY,

"THIS IS IT."

I ALWAYS GIVE YOU
A CHANCE, RIGHT?

I'VE NEVER SEEN HER
LIKE THIS, EVER.

I'M WORRIED.

ROSE IS REALLY ANGRY WITH ME.

I'VE NEVER SEEN ‐‐ I'VE NEVER
SEEN HER LIKE THIS, EVER.

I'M WORRIED.

I DIDN'T REALIZE YOU WERE
THIS UPSET.

THIS IS A BIT
OF A SHOCK TO ME.

I'M VERY SHOCKED.
I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU
ON FACEBOOK, AND...

I CAME HERE WITH LOVE
IN MY HEART.

I BOUGHT A RING.

MY PLAN WHEN WE LEFT HERE
WAS TO GO BACK TO MANILA

AND TO ASK YOU TO MARRY ME.

MY INTENTIONS WERE REAL.

IT'S TOO MUCH.

YEAH.

I WANT TO END
THIS RELATIONSHIP.

ALL RIGHT.

SO YOU THINK I'M BAD.
I'M A BAD PERSON, OKAY.

YEAH.

YEAH, I JUST...

I DON'T KNOW I CAN'T
HEAR HER ANYMORE.

IT JUST HURT.
IT JUST, IT HURTS ME TOO MUCH.

I MEAN I'M
SHOCKED.

I WAITED 28 YEARS, YOU KNOW,
TO FIND LOVE AGAIN,

MAYBE SHE JUST NEEDS TIME.

I NEED TO LET HER CALM DOWN.

HI.

‐HELLO.
‐LET'S MAKE OURSELF AT HOME.

I CARE FOR ASH
AND I WILL VOICE MYSELF

IF I FEEL THAT HE'S HEADING
INTO UNHEALTHY TERRITORY.

MM‐HMM.

‐HELLO.
‐HI.

LAST NIGHT I STAYED
IN A HOTEL BY MYSELF,

AND ASH STAYED IN A DIFFERENT
HOTEL SOMEWHERE NEARBY.

I REALLY JUST NEEDED
MENTAL SPACE,

AND TIME TO REALLY THINK
ABOUT THINGS.

ASH AND I TALKED
ON THE PHONE THIS MORNING,

AND I CAN'T DENY THE FACT

THAT I STILL HAVE
A LOT OF LOVE FOR HIM,

EVEN THOUGH I DO WORRY
THAT IT'S NOT THE BEST TIME.

I'M COMING TOWARDS
THE END OF MY TRIP,

SO I REALLY WANT
TO MEET HIS SON TAJ,

AND I HAVE A LOT OF QUESTIONS
FOR HIS EX‐WIFE SIAN.

I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD
TO MEETING TAJ,

AND MY BIGGEST THING
WAS COMING TO SIAN

AND TALKING TO HER
ABOUT THE DYNAMIC OF ASH

MOVING TO AMERICA,

TO GET A GOOD PERSPECTIVE
FROM A MOTHER TO A MOTHER

AND HAVE AN HONEST
CONVERSATION TOGETHER.

ASH TOLD ME EARLY
ON THAT SIAN WAS VERY OPEN

TO HIM MOVING
TO AMERICA WITH TAJ.

AS A MOTHER MYSELF,

I REALLY NEED TO BE ABLE
TO HEAR THAT FROM HER

BECAUSE THE LAST THING
I WANT TO DO

IS TO TAKE A CHILD
FROM THEIR OWN MOTHER

OR CREATE ISSUES
FOR ANYBODY INVOLVED.

HOW YOU DOING?

GOOD.

YEAH, DID YOU?

I ‐‐ WELL, YEAH,
IT WAS NOT EXACTLY

THE WAY
THAT I WOULD LIKED TO BE.

DO YOU WANT TO COME IN?
YOU MUST BE COLD.

‐YEAH.
‐LET'S DO IT.

SO YEAH,
THE ANXIETY IS HIGH.

‐HI.
‐HELLO.

SIAN, AVERY.

‐SO NICE...
‐NICE TO MEET YOU.

‐...TO MEET YOU.
‐...FINALLY.

AVERY, SIAN.

‐HI, TAJ.
‐AND...

‐THIS IS TAJ.
‐...THAT'S TAJ.

OH, I GET A HUG,
THAT'S AWESOME.

LET'S MAKE
OURSELF AT HOME.

COME THROUGH.

SIAN AND MYSELF, WE HAVE
A GREAT RELATIONSHIP,

SO I NEED HER TO KNOW THAT
AVERY AND I,

WE HAD AN ARGUMENT,
AND YEAH...

I DID NOT
GIVE HER EXACT DETAILS.

‐WOULD YOU LIKE A TEA OR COFFEE?
‐YEAH, THAT WOULD BE AMAZING.

‐IT'S VERY FULL.
‐THANK YOU.

‐YEAH, CAREFUL.
‐I GOT IT.

DO YOU WANT TO TRY IT?
‐NO, THAT'S OKAY. I GOT SOME.

AND I CAN SEE POTENTIAL,
BUT I CAN SEE DIFFICULTIES TOO.

‐IS THAT YOUR DOG, TAJ?
‐MM‐HMM.

I SAW SOME PRETTY CUTE PICTURES
OF YOU GUYS CUDDLING.

DOES HE SLEEP
WITH YOU AT NIGHT?

‐MM‐HMM.
‐EVERY NIGHT.

IT'S HIS DOGGIE BROTHER,
WE CALL IT.

THAT'S TRUE LOVE
RIGHT THERE.

SO, TAJ,
TELL AVERY YOUR JOKE.

OH, MY GOSH.

WHAT'S THE ANSWER?

‐DID YOU MAKE THAT UP?
‐YEAH.

THAT WAS
ACTUALLY VERY SMART.

YOU KNOW WHAT?
THAT JOKE, I PUT IT ON

INSTAGRAM IN MY STORY
BECAUSE IT WAS SO COOL.

IT'S REASSURING TO SEE
THE DYNAMIC OF HOW

ASH IS IN A FAMILY SITUATION.

BUT I CAN'T IMAGINE
SIAN BEING OKAY

WITH TAJ BEING OUT OF HER LIFE
FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME.

SO I WANT TO KNOW
THE REAL ANSWERS

BECAUSE I'M VERY WORRIED THAT

ASH HAS NOT BEEN
COMPLETELY HONEST ABOUT THIS.

YEAH, ABSOLUTELY.

THERE'S A WINE BAR
DOWN THE ROAD OR...

OH, THAT WOULD
BE GREAT.

‐YEAH?
‐YEAH.

NATURALLY AS A MOTHER,
I WANT THE BEST FOR MY SON.

IF SHE'S GOING TO BE
A SIGNIFICANT PERSON IN MY LIFE,

IT'S IMPORTANT TO GET TO KNOW
EACH OTHER, ONE ON ONE.

COOL. YOU GUYS CAN DO THAT,
I'LL STAY WITH TAJ.

YEAH, SURE.

‐BYE‐BYE, MAMA.
‐BYE‐BYE, GORGEOUS.

DO YOU WANT TO GIVE
A HUG TO AVERY?

BYE, TAJ.

I'M LIKE, "DID I TAKE
THE RIGHT DECISION?"

BECAUSE NOW I'M THINKING,

"WELL, I JUST HAD
A FIGHT WITH THIS GIRL.

THEN SIAN, I'M ON
GOOD TERMS WITH HER,

BUT STILL THERE'S A REASON WHY
WE SEPARATED IN THE FIRST PLACE.

AND NOW I'M TELLING THAT PERSON
TO MEET MY NEW GIRLFRIEND."

SO IT'S A BIG DEAL.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY'RE
GOING TO BE TALKING ABOUT.

I PROPOSED TO VARYA,
SHE ACTUALLY SAID, "NOT YET."

TO MY PROPOSAL.
I'M HURT. YOU KNOW, IT HURTS.

I CAN'T HELP BUT TO BE
JUST CONFUSED RIGHT NOW.

AND THIS IS THE END
OF OUR TIME TOGETHER.

VARYA AND I ARE BACK IN MOSCOW

AND WE'RE ABOUT TO HEAD
TO THE AIRPORT.

‐ALRIGHT, YOU DONE?
‐MM‐HMM.

AND I'M OUT OF HERE.

IT'S REALLY HARD TO KNOW
WHERE I STAND WITH VARYA,

BUT I THOUGHT THIS WOMAN
IS THE ONE.

I MEAN, WE ‐‐ WE'RE
IN THIS VAN ALL AWKWARD

AFTER YOU PICKED ME UP
AT THE AIRPORT.

NOW WE'RE BACK IN THIS VAN ALL
AWKWARD GOING TO THE AIRPORT.

I'M NOT TRYING TO
GIVE YOU A HARD TIME.

I JUST REALLY WANT YOU TO KNOW
WHAT'S GOING THROUGH MY MIND.

SINCE I SAID NO,
OUR RELATIONSHIP'S

BECAME AWKWARD,
MORE COMPLICATED, DIFFICULT.

BUT I'M NOT READY.

MM‐HMM.

‐OH, YEAH, NEXT TIME.
‐MM‐HMM.

WHY WOULD I COME HERE AGAIN?

LIKE, WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT
THIS ‐‐ OUR SITUATION,

DO YOU THINK ‐‐ IS EVERYTHING
JUST FINE WITH YOU?

IS EVERYTHING HUNKY‐DORY?

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING
THROUGH YOUR MIND, LIKE...

I...

I MEAN, ARE YOU HAPPY
WHERE THINGS ARE?

I MEAN, YOU TOLD ME NO.

IT'S NOT LIKE WE LIVE
IN THE SAME TOWN.

IT'S NOT LIKE
I CAN HOP OVER

AND, "HEY, YOU WANT
TO GO OUT TO EAT?"

OR WHATEVER.
THERE WAS A LOT PUT INTO THIS.

ALL I KNOW IS THAT I REALLY
DON'T THINK THAT THE PERSON

THAT I'M SUPPOSED TO BE WITH
IS SUPPOSED TO GO,

"HM. DO I REALLY WANT
TO BE WITH THIS GUY?"

I'M NOT THE ONE
YOU'RE LOOKING FOR.

HE'S SAD.
HE'S UPSET WITH ME.

THIS IS CONFUSING.

I THOUGHT WE WERE
SUPPOSED TO BE HONEST.

SO, WHY AM I THE ONE THAT'S
TELLING YOU ALL OF MY PROBLEMS

AND YOU FAIL TO MENTION
SOMETHING LIKE THAT?

I'M SO SHOCKED RIGHT NOW.

I JUST OPEN UP TO YOU ABOUT
SOMETHING THAT HAS HURT ME

AND YOUR FIRST REACTION
IS TO RAISE YOUR VOICE AT ME.

SO YOU REMEMBER ALL MY CASE,
MY DETAILS?

I'M MEETING UP WITH
A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR

WHO MIGHT BE ABLE
TO HELP ME OUT.

YES, THIS IS DAVE.
YES.

I'D LIKE TO GET
A TRANSLATOR TODAY.

CAN YOU ARRANGE THAT FOR ME?

ALL RIGHT.
ALL RIGHT, GREAT.

GREAT. THANK YOU.
BYE‐BYE.

I ARRIVED IN KIEV YESTERDAY
TO FINALLY MEET LANA,

BUT AS SOON AS I ARRIVED,

LANA SENT ME A MESSAGE THAT SAID
WE CAN'T MEET THIS WEEKEND

BECAUSE SHE'S GOT
PRE‐COMMITMENTS

TO HER NEPHEW'S HOCKEY GAMES.

WHY DOESN'T SHE
JUST PRIORITIZE ME?

‐NICE TO MEET YOU.
‐HOW ARE YOU DOING?

ALL RIGHT.

I'VE GOT A LOT OF DOUBTS
NOW IN MY MIND.

AND AT THIS POINT,
I WOULD LIKE TO FIND OUT

IF LANA REALLY IS HERE IN KIEV.

SO, I'M MEETING UP WITH SERGEY,

A PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR THAT WAS
DOING RESEARCH FOR ME ON LANA

WHEN I WAS HOME
IN LAS VEGAS.

HELLO.
HOW YOU DOING?

THE FIRST COMMUNICATION
WITH SERGEY DIDN'T GO SO WELL,

BUT HE'S THE ONLY
ONE HERE IN UKRAINE

WHO MIGHT BE ABLE
TO HELP ME OUT.

SO, I AM IN KIEV.

SO, YOU REMEMBER ALL MY CASE,
MY DETAILS?

SO, I ARRIVED HERE
IN KIEV ON FRIDAY

AND I WAS FULLY EXPECTING
TO MEET HER ON FRIDAY,

BUT SHE'S TELLING ME
SHE WANTS TO WAIT

UNTIL MONDAY.
AND HER EXCUSE

IS THAT SHE HAS
THESE HOCKEY GAMES

THAT SHE'S GOING TO SEE
HER NEPHEW PLAY AT.

IS THERE A WAY TO FIND OUT
IF LANA REALLY IS HERE IN KIEV?

SHE HAS TOLD ME THAT SHE IS
GOING TO LIVE WITH HER SISTER.

WOULD YOU BE ABLE TO FIND OUT
THAT THE SISTER LIVES HERE?

SO...

SO...

THAT'S ALL PRESUMPTION.

HE'S NOT LEAVING ANY ROOM FOR
POSITIVE OUTCOME FROM THIS GIRL.

SERGEY IS GIVING ME HIS OPINION,
BUT I DIDN'T ASK FOR OPINION,

I ASKED FOR INFORMATION.

I FEEL LIKE HE'S NOT
LISTENING TO MY STORY.

HE'S LITERALLY NOT LISTENING
TO MY STORY.

I'M DONE WITH HIM.
I DON'T NEED THIS GUY ANYMORE.

YOU, SIR, ARE FIRED.

SO, UM...

LET'S GO.

THE HEART WANTS WHAT
THE HEART WANTS.

I'M GOING TO GIVE LANA
EVERY CHANCE THAT I CAN.

I'M WAITING FOR MONDAY.

LET'S PROVE EVERYBODY WRONG.

HI.

THERE'S SOME THINGS
THAT I HAVE QUESTIONS ABOUT,

SO I REALLY WANTED
THIS ALONE TIME,

JUST ME AND HIS EX‐WIFE.

‐THANK YOU.
‐THANK YOU.

IT'S ACTUALLY UP THIS WAY.

THINGS HAVE BEEN REALLY ROUGH

BETWEEN ASH AND I
FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS NOW.

RIGHT NOW I'M HEADED
TO HAVE A GLASS OF WINE

WITH HIS EX‐WIFE, SIAN.

THERE'S SOME THINGS
THAT I HAVE QUESTIONS ABOUT,

SO I REALLY WANTED
THIS ALONE TIME,

JUST ME AND HER.

‐HI.
‐HI, GUYS. HOW'S IT GOING?

GOOD.

ASH AND SIAN DIVORCED
10 YEARS AGO.

BASED ON WHAT I GATHERED,
AS CO‐PARENTS,

HIM AND SIAN HAVE AN
AMAZING RELATIONSHIP TOGETHER.

AND ASH TOLD ME EARLY ON
THAT SIAN HAS AN OPEN MIND

WHEN IT COMES TO ASH MOVING
TO THE U. S. WITH HIS SON TAJ.

‐THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
‐VERY WELCOME.

BUT I REALLY NEED TO BE ABLE
TO HEAR THAT FROM HER.

THANK YOU FOR MEETING UP
WITH ME.

PLEASURE.

I'M JUST HAPPY THAT WE CAN HAVE
A CONVERSATION,

JUST THE TWO OF US.

YEAH. NO, LIKEWISE.
I FEEL THE SAME.

YEAH.
THERE'S A LOT OF UNKNOWNS HERE.

I DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT HER
AND ASH AND THEM,

BUT IF SHE'S GOING TO HAVE
A RELATIONSHIP WITH TAJ,

I WANT TO KNOW MORE.

SO ASH IS
AN AMAZING GUY.

SURE.

HE IS EXTREMELY SWEET.
HE IS VERY EMPATHETIC.

YEAH. NO, I AGREE.

UM...

IT TOOK ME YEARS TO KNOW WHEN HE
WAS STRESSED BECAUSE HE WAS,

"YEAH, YEAH, YEAH.
COOL, COOL, COOL.

EVERYTHING'S FINE.
EVERYTHING'S FINE."

AND I THINK THAT THERE WAS
A LOT OF SWEEPING THINGS

UNDER THE RUG, SO HE WAS
IN HIS WORLD, I WAS IN MY WORLD.

HAVING TAJ OBVIOUSLY JUST TURNED
OUR WORLD UPSIDE DOWN

AND UNFORTUNATELY, THINGS
JUST FELL APART.

YEAH.

BUT THE ASH THAT YOU SEE TODAY
IS VERY DIFFERENT TO THE ASH

THAT I WAS
IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH.

HE'S GROWN A LOT
AND CHANGED A LOT.

WHEN DID YOU GUYS DIVORCE?
HOW LONG AGO WAS THAT?

WAIT, YOU GUYS DIVORCED
A YEAR AGO?

YEAH.

OH.

WHY?

I GOT THE PERCEPTION
FROM HIM

THAT IT HAPPENED
A LONG TIME AGO.

OKAY.

IT'S COMPLETELY
A SHOCKER TO ME

THAT THEY WERE STILL MARRIED
ONLY A FEW MONTHS

BEFORE WE STARTED DATING.

IT MAKES ME WONDER
WHY HE WOULD HIDE THAT FROM ME.

SO HOW COME IT TOOK
SO LONG TO DIVORCE?

IT WASN'T BECAUSE
YOU GUYS ARE TRYING

TO STILL FIGURE THINGS OUT?

NO, IT'S NOT. IT WASN'T
ANYTHING TO DO WITH THAT.

LITERALLY...

YEAH.

ASH HAS DONE THIS MULTIPLE
TIMES IN THE RELATIONSHIP ‐‐

HOLDING THINGS BACK AND NOT
TELLING ME THE FULL SITUATION.

IT'S A HUGE EXAMPLE
OF WHY I HAVE CONCERNS

ABOUT WHAT COULD HAPPEN IF HE
CAME TO AMERICA WITH HIS SON.

SO LET'S SAY ASH AND I REALLY
WANT TO PURSUE THINGS.

ASH HAS EXPRESSED THAT HE WANTS
TO COME TO AMERICA

AS SOON AS POSSIBLE
WITH TAJ.

HAS HE TALKED TO YOU ABOUT
HOW THAT SITUATION WOULD WORK?

UM...

I REALLY HAD TO DIGEST IT,
AND I'M STILL DIGESTING IT,

AND I'M STILL PROCESSING IT

BECAUSE I FEEL DEEPLY UPSET
ABOUT IT.

TAJ IS MY WORLD.

I CANNOT EVEN FATHOM
BEING IN A DIFFERENT...

I JUST CAN'T.

RIGHT.

‐YEAH.
‐BUT I SAID TO ASH,

"SHOULDN'T IT BE
THE OTHER WAY AROUND,

THAT YOU SPEND YOUR TIME HERE
WITH TAJ FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS

AND SOMEHOW MAKE IT WORK
WITH AVERY

AND GO SEE HER LIKE FOUR TIMES
A YEAR OR WHATEVER,

GIVEN THAT YOU'RE THE ADULT
AND HE'S THE CHILD?"

HEARING HER TRUE FEELINGS,
IT'S DISAPPOINTING TO KNOW THAT

ASH IS STILL TRYING
TO SUGAR COAT THINGS

RATHER THAN JUST TELLING ME
THE HONEST TRUTH.

THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME
YOUR PERSPECTIVE.

I AM VERY EMPATHETIC.
‐THANK YOU.

I'VE TOLD HIM THAT, "IF THE
SITUATION IS CREATING ISSUES"...

YEAH.

"I DON'T WANT YOU
TO COME TO AMERICA,

AND WE WOULD HAVE TO, YOU KNOW,
FIGURE THAT SITUATION OUT."

YEAH. IT'S BIG OF YOU TO SAY
THAT AND I APPRECIATE THAT.

SHE DOESN'T FEEL LIKE TAJ
IS AT A STAGE

THAT IT'S OKAY FOR HIS
FATHER

TO BE OUT OF HIS LIFE
FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME,

AND SHE'S NOT OKAY WITH TAJ
BEING OUT OF HER LIFE

FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME.

I FEEL VERY TORN
BECAUSE AS A MOM,

THAT'S EXACTLY
HOW I WOULD BE FEELING,

BUT NOW I REALLY HAVE
TO, LIKE, THINK ABOUT

THAT I MAY NOT HAVE
THE PERSON I WANT

TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE
WITH FOR ANOTHER FIVE YEARS.

IT'S REALLY TOUGH
TO WRAP MY HEAD AROUND,

AND IT DOES COMPLICATE THINGS
MOVING FORWARD.

‐HAVE A SECOND TO TALK?
‐YEP.

I'M NOT SURE SHE KNOWS HOW BAD
SHE REALLY HURT ME

WHEN SHE TURNED ME DOWN.

I'M GOING HOME.

I'M GOING TO LIVE
MY LIFE APART FROM YOU.

THERE'S SUPPOSED TO BE
HONESTY BETWEEN US.

I THOUGHT THAT'S WHAT
WE WERE DOING.

YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I CAN'T
BE AROUND MY FRIENDS, STEPHANIE.

YES, BECAUSE HOW AM I
SUPPOSED TO KNOW

THAT THAT PERSON
STANDING IN FRONT OF ME

IS THE PERSON THAT YOU
HAD SEX WITH?

ARE YOU GOING TO
WALK ME OUT, OR NO?

VARYA SAID, "NOT YET."

YOU KNOW, SHE DIDN'T WANT
TO GET MARRIED YET.

BUT, FOR ME,
IT'S EITHER NOW OR NEVER,

AND I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW
I'M EVER GOING TO GET OVER THIS.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING
TO MOVE PAST THIS.

I'M REALLY GOING
TO BE GOING BACK,

AND I'M GOING TO BE SAD
FOR A WHILE.

I'VE GOT MY HEART INTO THIS,

AND I'M JUST...

I'M JUST GOING BACK
WITH A BROKEN HEART.

SO THIS IS IT.
HAVE A SECOND TO TALK?

YEP.

SIT DOWN?

I JUST REALLY WANT TO SAY
THAT I WAS HOPING

TO BE GOING HOME
WITH A RING ON YOUR FINGER,

AND A PROMISE,
AND US SHARING THIS LOVE

AND THIS DESIRE TO KEEP
THIS RELATIONSHIP GOING,

AND KEEP GOING UP,
AND UP, AND UP. YOU KNOW?

I DON'T FEEL LIKE
THIS IS THE END.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE
IT ANY CLEARER.

THIS IS IT. I'M LEAVING.
I'M GOING HOME.

I'M GOING TO LIVE
MY LIFE APART FROM YOU.

SO...

GIVE ME A HUG.
CAN I HAVE A HUG? YES?

MM‐HMM.

THANK YOU.

THANKS FOR THE ADVENTURE
AND GOOD LUCK.

I CAME ALL THE WAY TO RUSSIA,
AND I TOOK A HUGE RISK.

I'M NOT SURE SHE KNOWS HOW BAD

SHE REALLY HURT ME
WHEN SHE TURNED ME DOWN.

HE TOLD ME,
"NO, THIS IS THE END."

GO AHEAD.

GEOFFREY...

I DON'T ‐‐ I THINK THAT YOU'RE
IN THE MOMENT RIGHT NOW.

I TRULY DO.
I THINK WE HAD OUR CHANCE.

I NEED SOMEBODY TO LOVE ME
AND NOT STOP.

YOU SECOND GUESSED
THE SITUATION.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU
EXPECT ME TO DO,

OR EXPECT TO SAY, OR HOW YOU
WANT ME TO ACT RIGHT NOW.

I AM HURT.

I'M GOING HOME.
OKAY?

SO, THANK YOU
FOR EVERYTHING.

I GOT TO GO.

I'M SORRY.
I GOT TO GO.

WISH ME LUCK
FOR MY FLIGHT.

I LOVE VARYA, AND IT'S HARD
TO WALK AWAY FROM HER.

I CAME TO RUSSIA
BECAUSE I WANTED VARYA

TO FILL THIS VOID
IN MY HEART.

I'M READY TO GIVE UP ON LOVE.

‐GOOD MORNING.
‐GOOD MORNING.

NOT SO GREAT. THIS BED
IS NOT THE MOST COMFORTABLE.

IT'S NOT GREAT.

I LEAVE AUSTRALIA IN TWO DAYS,
AND YESTERDAY,

I TRIED TO COME OUT
TO MY MOM AGAIN,

AND I COULDN'T GO
THROUGH WITH IT.

I KNOW THAT I CAN'T
KEEP THIS A SECRET FOREVER

IF I WANT TO GO FORWARD
WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP,

BUT I'M STILL SO WORRIED ABOUT
HOW MY MOM'S GOING TO REACT,

SO, I JUST NEED TIME.

THIS TRIP HAS
GONE BY SO FAST.

I FEEL LIKE IT'S BEEN
A ROLLERCOASTER

TO GET TO WHERE WE ARE.

YEAH. IT WASN'T TOO GREAT
TO START WITH,

BUT I'M PROUD OF THE PROGRESS
THAT WE'VE MADE.

WE'VE BOTH DONE REALLY BIG
THINGS AND TAKEN BIG STEPS.

WE CAME OUT TO MY PARENTS

AND YOU'VE INTRODUCED ME
TO YOUR MOM.

I'M GLAD THAT I AT LEAST
GOT A CHANCE

TO INTRODUCE YOU
AS A FRIEND.

YEAH, I GUESS
THERE'S MORE TO COME.

I'M HOPING.

I DON'T WANT
TO BE KEPT A SECRET.

EVEN THOUGH I DON'T
REALLY WANT

STEPH TO FEEL LIKE SHE
HAS TO COME OUT RIGHT AWAY,

THE SITUATION HAS LEFT ME

WONDERING
IF SHE'LL EVER BE READY,

AND I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE
A THING THAT GOES ON FOREVER.

IT SCARES ME A LITTLE BIT THAT I
MIGHT ALWAYS JUST BE THE FRIEND.

I WANT TO MAKE SURE,
AND I GUESS ASK YOU,

WHETHER YOU CAN EVER SEE
YOURSELF INTRODUCING ME

AS YOUR GIRLFRIEND
TO YOUR MOM.

I MEAN, YEAH, I'M JUST
PROTECTIVE OF THE BOND

WITH MY MOM,
AND IT'S THE STRONGEST BOND

I HAVE IN MY LIFE,
YOU KNOW?

AND I JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE
THAT, WHEN I TELL HER,

THAT IT'S NOT GOING TO DESTROY
OUR RELATIONSHIP,

BECAUSE THAT WOULD
DESTROY ME.

I DON'T KNOW IF ERIKA
UNDERSTANDS MY BOND WITH MY MOM.

I LOVE MY STEPDAD
AND MY HALF BROTHER,

BUT MY MOM HAS BEEN THERE
THROUGH THICK AND THIN FOR ME.

YOU KNOW, MY MOM
AND I MOVED FROM CZECH REPUBLIC

WITH LIKE $1,000
IN OUR BANK ACCOUNT,

WE SLEPT ON COUCHES.

AND WHEN I WAS AT MY SICKEST,
SHE TOOK CARE OF ME.

I RELY ON HER SO MUCH,

SO I'M REALLY SCARED
TO PUT STRESS ON THAT BOND.

I THINK ERIKA IS DISAPPOINTED

THAT I'M HIDING THIS
FROM MY MOM,

BUT IT'S NOT HER, YOU KNOW,
IT'S ME NOT FEELING READY,

AND I JUST ‐‐
I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT.

I NEED TIME, YOU KNOW?

MM‐HMM.

AT THE END OF THE DAY, LIKE,
I KNOW I HAVE TO DO IT,

BUT IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN
ON MY OWN TERMS, WHEN I'M READY.

YEAH, AND I MEAN, I'M BEING
UNDERSTANDING,

I'M JUST TRYING TO MAKE SURE
THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE

STUCK IN A POSITION
FOR A REALLY LONG TIME.

I'M NOT TRYING TO PUSH
FOR IT TO BE SOON.

I'M JUST TRYING
TO FIGURE OUT

WHETHER IT'S EVEN
GOING TO HAPPEN.

IT WILL. IT WILL, BUT YOU JUST
NEED TO LET ME FIGURE IT OUT.

YOU WANTED ME TO LIVE
IN THE MOMENT,

AND STOP THINKING
ABOUT THE FUTURE,

AND GET OUT OF MY HEAD,

AND THAT'S REALLY WHAT
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO.

SO I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU ARE
SO WORRIED ABOUT THE FUTURE NOW.

UM...

I GUESS IT'S
SUCH A BIG DEAL TO ME

BECAUSE I'VE HAD THIS
HAPPEN TO ME BEFORE.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

I HAD THIS RELATIONSHIP
WITH SOMEONE

AND I WAS KEPT A SECRET,

AND THAT REALLY,
REALLY HURT ME, YOU KNOW?

I'M SORRY...

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
WHO IS THIS PERSON?

I DON'T LIKE
TO TALK ABOUT IT,

BUT THIS GIRL WASN'T READY
TO COME OUT TO HER MOM,

AND IT WAS JUST
A PRETTY HARD TIME

BECAUSE IT SPANNED OVER
THE COURSE OF 10 YEARS,

YOU KNOW,
ON AND OFF.

WHEN WE TALKED ONLINE,
WE WOULD BOND OVER

OUR SHARED
BAD RELATIONSHIPS,

AND SHE NEVER EVER MENTIONED
A LONG‐TERM RELATIONSHIP

WHERE SHE WAS KEPT A SECRET.
I'M SO SHOCKED RIGHT NOW.

THIS IS CONFUSING,

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
YOU'RE LEAVING INFORMATION OUT.

I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSED
TO BE HONEST

AND UPFRONT AND VULNERABLE
WITH EACH OTHER.

AND THAT TOOK YOU TIME,
AS WELL, STEPH.

‐YEAH, I KNOW...
‐IT TOOK YOU TIME TO BE HONEST,

LIKE, WHY...

SO WHY AM I THE ONE THAT'S
TELLING YOU ALL OF MY PROBLEMS,

AND ALL OF THE ISSUES
WITH ME,

AND YOU FAILED TO MENTION
SOMETHING LIKE THAT?

AND THAT'S A HUGE THING
BECAUSE SHE IS THE REASON

WHY NOW YOU ARE PRESSURING ME
TO COME OUT TO MY MOM.

I KNOW THAT I'VE ONLY JUST
CAME OUT TO MY PARENTS,

BUT BEING KEPT A SECRET
BY MY LAST GIRLFRIEND,

IT REALLY HURT ME,
AND I FELT ASHAMED OF MYSELF,

BECAUSE I FELT LIKE THE GIRL
THAT I LOVED

WAS EMBARRASSED OF ME.

I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE A LITTLE
BIT OF BACKGROUND ON WHO SHE IS.

WHAT HAPPENED?
HOW DID IT END? WHEN DID IT END?

I MEAN, I WOULD LOVE TO TALK
TO YOU ABOUT IT, STEPH.

I JUST OPENED UP TO YOU ABOUT
SOMETHING THAT HAS HURT ME,

AND YOUR FIRST REACTION
IS TO RAISE YOUR VOICE AT ME.

IT'S LIKE...

EVERYTHING'S ALWAYS
THE PROBLEM WITH ME.

I'M THE ONE
WITH THE PROBLEMS.

AND AS SOON AS I HAVE A
PROBLEM, YOU JUST DO THIS.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW
ABOUT THE PROBLEM.

BECAUSE I KNEW YOU WOULD
REACT LIKE THIS,

STEPHANIE. IT'S NOT
A BIG DEAL, IT'S AN EX.

BUT I'M TELLING YOU
THAT THE REASON

THAT I AM THE WAY THAT I AM
IS BECAUSE OF THAT.

IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL?

THERE'S SUPPOSED TO BE
HONESTY BETWEEN US.

I THOUGHT THAT'S WHAT
WE WERE DOING, IS BEING HONEST.

WHAT ABOUT THE HONESTY
WHERE YOU DIDN'T TELL ME

ABOUT HALF OF THE ISSUES
THAT YOU HAVE?

THIS IS NOT JUST
AN ISSUE,

THIS IS AN ENTIRE
10‐YEAR RELATIONSHIP

THAT YOU HAVE COMPLETELY
HIDDEN FROM ME,

AND THAT YOU HAVE NOT
EVEN TOLD ME ABOUT.

YOU'VE MADE ME FEEL LIKE I CAN'T
BE AROUND MY FRIENDS, STEPHANIE.

YES, BECAUSE THIS WHOLE
ENTIRE SITUATION

HAS BEEN SO WEIRD FOR ME.

YOU KNEW ABOUT THAT
BEFORE YOU EVEN CAME HERE.

NO, I DIDN'T. DO YOU KNOW HOW
MANY FRIENDS YOU HAVE, ERIKA?

DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY NAMES?
AM I SUPPOSED TO...

JESS, JEN, BLAH, BLAH.

‐ I DON'T KNOW!
‐ I'M SORRY.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW
THAT THAT PERSON STANDING

IN FRONT OF ME IS THE PERSON
THAT YOU HAD SEX WITH?

GET THE
OUT OF HERE!

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW
THAT THAT PERSON STANDING

IN FRONT OF ME IS THE PERSON
THAT YOU HAD SEX WITH?

GET THE OUT OF HERE!

I'M FEELING VERY CONFUSED.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE
THE INFORMATION THAT I JUST GOT,

AND TO JUST HAVE THIS BOMBSHELL
BE DROPPED ON ME

RIGHT BEFORE I'M ABOUT
TO LEAVE TO GO BACK HOME.

IT'S JUST A LOT
FOR ME TO PROCESS.

THIS WHOLE TRIP HAS BEEN
ABOUT STEPH'S PAST

AND THE THINGS
THAT HAVE TRAUMATIZED HER,

AND THE SECOND
THAT I BRING UP SOMETHING

THAT'S TRAUMATIC FOR ME

AND EXPLAIN TO HER WHY SOMETHING
THAT SHE'S DOING

IS TRAUMATIC FOR ME,
SHE YELLS AT ME,

AND THEN SHE SAYS
SHE'S NOT YELLING AT ME.

IT'S JUST AWFUL.

I'M SORRY THAT I YELLED.

I DIDN'T KNOW
I WAS YELLING.

I DON'T KNOW
WHAT'S EVEN GOING ON.

I FEEL LIKE I'M IN
A MANIC STATE RIGHT NOW.

YEAH. I FEEL
LIKE YOU ARE,

AND I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDN'T
HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT.

I REGRET THROWING THE BOWL
ON THE GROUND,

BUT I FEEL COMPLETELY
BETRAYED AND LIED TO.

THIS ENTIRE TRIP, THERE HAS BEEN
THIS HUGE EMPHASIS ON,

"YOU NEED TO TRUST ME."

AND I'VE HAD ISSUES
FROM DAY ONE.

THERE WAS THE DATING APP
ON HER PHONE,

THERE'S THE REALLY
STRANGE RELATIONSHIPS

THAT SHE HAS WITH
SOME OF HER FRIENDS.

BUT I'VE HAD TO LET IT GO,

AND NOW IT'S JUST BACK
TO SQUARE ONE.

I'M LITERALLY JUST, LIKE,
LOST. I HAVE NO IDEA.

HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO TELL YOU
THINGS AND BE HONEST WITH YOU

IF YOU'RE JUST GOING TO
USE THEM AGAINST ME?

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THIS
HASN'T BEEN TOLD TO ME BEFORE.

I THOUGHT THAT WE WERE
BEING HONEST WITH EACH OTHER.

I HAVE THESE TRUST ISSUES
FROM MY PAST RELATIONSHIPS,

AND I'VE BEEN
COMPLETELY TRUSTING YOU

IN PUTTING DOWN MY WALLS.
I WENT TO MEET YOUR PARENTS.

AND I THOUGHT WE WERE
BEING VULNERABLE

WITH EACH OTHER,
AND THAT ‐‐

AND I'M BEING VULNERABLE
WITH YOU.

BUT YOU'VE BEEN
DOING NOTHING

BUT PUSHING ME
TO COME OUT TO MY MOM.

BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT
GOING TO, STEPH.

YOU'VE LITERALLY...

OH, SO YOU'VE ALREADY MADE
YOUR MIND UP ABOUT THAT

BECAUSE OF WHAT
SOMEBODY ELSE DID.

NO, BECAUSE YOU ARE
SAYING TO ME,

"MY MOM IS DEFINITELY
NOT GOING TO BE OKAY WITH THIS."

LIKE, WHAT DO YOU WANT ME
TO THINK, STEPH?

WHAT DO YOU
WANT ME TO THINK?

MY MOM IS THE ONLY PERSON
THAT I HAVE IN MY LIFE.

WELL, THEN WHY DON'T YOU
JUST GO AND LIVE WITH HER

AND WHY BOTHER
PURSUING RELATIONSHIPS

THAT YOU KNOW SHE'S NOT
GOING TO BE OKAY WITH?

WHY ARE YOU PLAYING
WITH MY HEART

JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T
FIGURE YOUR OWN OUT?

THERE IS OBVIOUSLY A LEVEL
OF MISUNDERSTANDING

BETWEEN US THAT I DON'T THINK
WILL EVER BE RESOLVED.

THAT'S IT.
WE'RE DONE.

I'M JUST GOING TO GO HOME.

THE TIME THAT STEPH'S BEEN HERE,

I'VE BEEN WORKING WITH HER
ON HER INSECURITIES,

AND THEN AS SOON
AS I OPEN UP ABOUT MINE...

I'M AUTOMATICALLY SEEN
AS SOME KIND OF VILLAIN,

OR SOMETHING, I GUESS.

I'M REALLY HURT, BECAUSE
I'VE JUST SPENT THREE WEEKS

TRYING TO MAKE
THIS RELATIONSHIP WORK,

AND I JUST THINK
IT'S REALLY UNFAIR

THAT I'M THE ONE THAT'S LEFT
BEING BROKEN UP WITH.

SO I THINK I'M GOING TO GO BACK
TO MY PARENT'S.

OKAY.

I'LL PROBABLY TRY TO FIND
A WAY TO GET TO ADELAIDE.

OKAY.

BECAUSE THAT'S WHERE
I'M FLYING OUT OF.

OKAY THEN.

EVEN THOUGH I WAS THE ONE
THAT BROKE THINGS OFF,

I DO FEEL HEARTBROKEN.

I THOUGHT THAT
WE WERE GETTING PAST

SOME OF THOSE ISSUES
WITH JEALOUSY AND INSECURITY,

BUT I CAN'T, YOU KNOW,
AND I FEEL BAD.

I DON'T THINK
SHE'S A BAD PERSON.

IT JUST ISN'T WORKING OUT...

AND I DON'T THINK THAT
THERE'S ANYTHING SHE CAN SAY

OR I CAN SAY THAT CAN HELP.

I JUST KNOW IT'S NOT RIGHT.

BUT I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER.

I'M GOING OUT THERE TO GET
MY GIRL RIGHT NOW.

LOOKING GOOD.

I TOLD HER 11:00
AT THIS SPOT.

IF SHE DOESN'T SHOW UP THIS
TIME, I'M NOT COMING BACK.

IS THAT HER?
OH, MY GOD.

I'VE BEEN IN UKRAINE NOW
FOR THREE DAYS.

I WAS REALLY HOPING THAT,
WHEN I ARRIVED,

THAT, YOU KNOW,
LANA WOULD MEET ME.

THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN,
LANA WAS TOO BUSY.

THE PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR GAVE
ME NOTHING, LITERALLY NOTHING.

HE THOUGHT
I WAS BEING SCAMMED.

SO I DON'T HAVE ANY ACTUAL PROOF
THAT SHE LIVES HERE,

BUT I REALLY DON'T CARE

BECAUSE I CHATTED WITH LANA
LAST NIGHT ON THE WEBSITE

AND I TOLD HER TO MEET ME
AT THE MONUMENT

IN INDEPENDENCE SQUARE,
RIGHT AT 11:00 A. M.

THERE SHOULD BE NO ISSUES
TRYING TO HOOK UP AT THIS POINT.

SHE SAID SHE WOULD.

YES, BUT SHE'S STILL
VERY NERVOUS,

AND I'M STARTING
TO FEEL NERVOUS.

I DID TELL HER THAT I
WAS GOING TO WEAR

MY BLACK LEATHER COAT
WITH A GOLD SHIRT UNDERNEATH.

FOR OUR VERY FIRST MEETING,
I WANT TO LOOK MY BEST.

LANA HAS TOLD ME
SHE WILL IRON MY SHIRTS

BECAUSE I'VE TOLD HER
HOW LONG IT TAKES ME,

AND SHE SAYS, "OH, I CAN DO IT
THREE TIMES FASTER.

I'LL IRON YOUR SHIRTS FOR YOU."

THE PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR
WAS SAYING,

"I DON'T THINK
SHE'S GOING TO SHOW UP."

MY FRIENDS DON'T THINK
SHE'S GOING TO SHOW UP.

BUT I KNOW LANA DIFFERENTLY.

LANA IS GOING TO GET
THIS BOX OF CHOCOLATES.

SHE WILL BE GETTING
THESE SPECIAL LOTIONS.

AND I REALLY HOPE I CAN USE THIS
IN THE NEXT WEEK.

THAT WOULD BE THE HOPE.

I'M GOING OUT THERE
TO GET MY GIRL RIGHT NOW.

THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ALL ABOUT.
I AM GOING TO GO GET MY GIRL.

LOOKING GOOD.

IN THE PAST, LANA HAS FAILED
TO MEET ME

BECAUSE THE FIRST TIME
SHE WAS MUCH TOO SHY.

THE SECOND TIME,
HER BROTHER DIED ON THE DAY

WE WERE SUPPOSED TO MEET.

THE THIRD TIME, SHE HAD
A MEDICAL PROCEDURE

THAT TOOK HER OUT OF COMMISSION
FOR A FEW WEEKS.

ON THE FOURTH TIME,
SHE GOT COLD FEET.

BUT THE FIFTH TIME FOR US
IS HOPEFULLY A CHARM.

IT'S BEEN SEVEN YEARS
IN THE MAKING,

THOUSANDS OF HOURS OF CHAT.
I AM BEYOND READY,

BUT MY EXCITEMENT IS BEING
TEMPERED BY MY NERVOUSNESS

OF WHAT THAT FIRST MEETING
IS GOING TO BE LIKE.

I WANT SOMEONE
WHO SHOWS AFFECTION.

CAN I GET THAT FROM JUST KNOWING

SOMEBODY THROUGH CHAT
FOR SEVEN YEARS?

THIS IS INDEPENDENCE SQUARE...

AND THE MONUMENT THAT I'M GOING
TO MEET HER IN IS RIGHT THERE.

I TOLD HER 11:00 AT THIS SPOT.

THERE IS NO ROOM
FOR ERROR ON THIS.

I TOLD HER TO MEET ME
UNDER THE MONUMENT.

EVERYBODY KNOWS
INDEPENDENCE SQUARE,

EVERYBODY KNOWS THE MONUMENT.

THERE IS ONLY ONE PLACE
THAT COULD BE.

FIVE MORE MINUTES.

IT'S A SUPER COLD DAY,

SO THE GOOD THING IS
THAT IT'S SO COLD

THAT I DON'T THINK
ANYBODY'S GOING TO BE HERE.

IT'S JUST GOING
TO BE ME AND HER.

10:59.

NOW I'M STARTING TO GET NERVOUS.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT
SHE'LL BE WEARING,

BUT I DO REMEMBER SEEING A PHOTO

WHERE SHE HAS
A BLUISH GRAY KNIT CAP.

11:00.

IS THAT HER?

NAH, SHE WOULDN'T
WAIT DOWN THERE.

THERE IS ANOTHER STATUE
ACROSS THE STREET.

SHE WOULDN'T THINK IT WAS THERE.

WHERE IS LANA?
WHERE IS LANA?

IT'S STILL ONLY 11:07.

IF SHE DOESN'T SHOW UP
THIS TIME, I'M NOT COMING BACK.

I CAN'T GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN.

OH, BOY.

IS THAT HER?

OH, MY GOD.

NEXT TIME ON
"BEFORE THE 90 DAYS"...

VARYA HAS BEEN
CONSTANTLY TEXTING ME.

TABLE FOR TWO?

I WANT TO PUT THAT WHOLE
SITUATION BEHIND ME.

HI.
‐HI.

I DON'T KNOW IF THIS
RELATIONSHIP IS SALVAGEABLE,

BUT I LOVE HER.

I'VE REACHED OUT TO WILLIAMS.
I CARE ABOUT WILLIAMS A LOT,

AND I CARE ABOUT HIM
TELLING ME THE TRUTH.

MOMMY'S GOING TO DO
THE MIRACLE MASK.

I NEED A MIRACLE
IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

EVER SINCE THE BREAKUP,
I'VE BEEN EMPOWERED.

TAJ OBVIOUSLY LOVES HIS DAD,

AND THE LAST THING
I WANT TO DO IS CREATE ISSUES.

SO FILING THE K‐1 VISA
MAY NOT BE IN OUR FUTURE.

I LOVE ROSE, AND I DON'T WANT
OUR RELATIONSHIP

TO END LIKE THIS.

SO I'M GOING TO SEE
IF SHE'LL TALK TO ME.

NOTHING IN THE PAST
EVEN MATTERS.

HEY!

- I'M LEAVING.
- I DON'T NEED YOUR.

I DON'T NEED YOU.

WHO IN THE
DOES HE THINK HE IS?