We're Here (2020–…): Season 1, Episode 4 - Farmington, New Mexico - full transcript

You know it's been 15 years?
You remembered everything.

First train after five.

Oh my god.

- What will I say?
- To who?

This is unforgivable.

I have a life,
with consequences!

I want you to choose me.

I'm not the same person
I used to be.

You want to go home,
I'll understand.

I don't wanna end here.

Run.



HELLO!

HALLELU!

IS THE BUS STILL RUNNING?

LORD.

I PUT ON ALL THIS FOR NOTHING?

WHERE ARE WE?

MAMA, OUT OF THIS

WORLD.

BABY, JUDY JETSON

HOOKER IS ALL I GOT TO SAY.

WE ARE IN FARMINGTON,

NEW MEXICO.

EVERYTHING'S JUST IN THE DESERT.

LIKE YOU'RE JUST IN THE DESERT.



EVERYTHING IS TAN.

JUST LOTS OF SHADES OF TAN.

IT'S LIKE A KAYNE WEST FASHION

SHOW.

THE ENERGY I GET HERE IS KIND

OF UPTIGHT, NOT REALLY A LET

LOOSE TYPE OF PLACE.

SO HOPEFULLY WE CAN SHOW

FARMINGTON WHAT FUN LOOKS LIKE.

HERE WE GO, HONEY.

HI, WELCOME TO THE

MONSTER TRUCK RALLY.

WHOA!

EUREKA, WOULD YOU LIKE A FLAG?

OH, I'M A FLAG GIRL.

FARMINGTON REMINDS ME OF THE

MOUNTAINOUS AREAS I COME FROM.

THERE'S DEFINITELY SOME COUNTRY

ROOTS HERE.

HI, FARMINGTON.

WE'RE HERE.

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!

OH, THANK YOU.

THANK YOU.

YOU SO RIGHT.

YOU ARE SO CORRECT.

THERE'S A LARGE

INDIGENOUS POPULATION HERE IN

FARMINGTON.

IT'S RIGHT NEXT TO SHIPROCK,

WHICH IS ON THE NAVAJO

RESERVATION.

HI, BABES.

WHEN YOU DON'T LIVE NEAR

A RESERVATION, YOU JUST DON'T

SEE THIS MANY INDIGENOUS PEOPLE.

BACK UP.

YOUR TAIL GOT HOOKED.

OH.

I GOT YOU, GAL.

THANK YOU.

OH GOD, OH GOD!

THESE ARE REALLY MOVING!

OH, MY GOD!

EUREKA!

OH MY GOD!

OH MY GOD!

I'M GOOD.

I'D LIKE TO GET UP.

KNOCK KNOCK.

HI.

HI.

OH MY GOODNESS.

Y'ALL LOOK SO CUTE.

HI, I'M EUREKA.

JASMINE, HOW ARE

YOU?

OH, JASMINE, YOU'RE

SO PRETTY.

THANK YOU.

MOM, WHAT'S YOUR

NAME?

STACEY.

STACEY, I'M EUREKA.

OR MOM.

OR MOM.

WHATEVER YOU WANT TO

CALL ME.

WELL YOU CAN CALL ME

DAD THEN.

I'M KIDDING.

I'M NOW THE BABY?

CAN I SIT WITH YOU?

OF COURSE.

WORK.

WHERE WE AT?

WHAT IS THIS PLACE?

IT'S OUR FAMILY CAR

LOT.

WE OWN THE CAR LOT, A USED CAR

LOT.

Y'ALL OWN THIS PLACE?

WORK.

BUSINESSWOMEN.

I LOVE THAT.

I LOVE THAT.

SEEMS KIND OF LIKE A SMALL TOWN

HERE.

WOULD Y'ALL CALL THIS A SMALL

TOWN?

OH YEAH, VERY SMALL.

IT'S GOTTEN BIGGER

BUT IT'S STILL A SMALL TOWN

VIBE.

WORK, WORK, WORK.

SO, WHY Y'ALL DOING THIS?

I'M CURIOUS.

MY DAUGHTER WHO WAS A

LESBIAN AT 25 DECIDED TO PUT A

GUN TO HER HEAD AND KILL

HERSELF.

I HAVE DJ TATTOOED

ON MY ARM.

THIS IS YOUR SISTER?

YEAH?

SHE'S GORGEOUS.

YEAH.

SHE WAS.

WOW.

WHAT HAPPENED?

DO YOU MIND IF I ASK?

I'M JUST CURIOUS.

SHE'D HAD A COCKTAIL

OF THINGS GOING ON.

NOT ONLY WAS SHE GAY BUT SHE

SUFFERED FROM BIPOLAR

MANIC-DEPRESSIVE AND I THINK IT

WAS A SPIRAL FROM THERE.

I CAN'T IMAGINE.

I THINK DJ JUST

STRUGGLED WITH THE FACT THAT SHE

FELT LIKE SHE HAD THE CHOICE

WHEN SHE DIDN'T, YOU KNOW?

THAT'S ONE THING I CAN'T STAND

IS PEOPLE ARE LIKE, "YOU CHOOSE

TO BE GAY."

AND WATCHING DJ STRUGGLE WITH

THAT, I'M LIKE, I REALLY DON'T

THINK SHE WOULD PUT HERSELF

THROUGH TURMOIL OF WHO SHE WAS.

I LOVE THAT YOU SAID

THAT BECAUSE SOCIETY BASICALLY

TEACHES YOU YOUR WHOLE LIFE THAT

WHAT YOU'RE DOING IS WRONG AND

IT'S LIKE YOU HAVE THIS WEIGHT

IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH GOODNESS YOU

HAVE AROUND YOU, IT'S STILL

THERE, BECAUSE IT'S THE LITTLE

THINGS THAT HURT THE MOST.

IN FARMINGTON, YOU

FEEL JUDGED.

I EVEN KNEW IT.

I WATCHED MY DAUGHTER GO THROUGH

IT AND I'M LIKE HOW CAN PEOPLE

BE SO MEAN IN THE THINGS THEY

SAY OR ACTIONS THAT THEY TAKE

TOWARDS SOMEBODY WHO'S JUST A

LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT.

EVEN THOUGH I TRIED TO STOP IT

FROM HAPPENING, IT STILL

HAPPENED TO HER ALL THE TIME.

EVERYTHING THAT WE

STAND FOR IS BASED ON DJ.

SHE WOULD GO HELP A SINGLE

MOTHER PUT HER AIR CONDITIONER

UP IN THE SUMMER BECAUSE HER

HUSBAND WAS DEPLOYED AND THIS

WOMAN HAD NOBODY ELSE.

SO, THIS IS REAL LIFE STUFF.

WE DIDN'T KNOW THAT

UNTIL AFTER SHE DIED AND THE

LADY SENT ME A MESSAGE.

SO GENUINE.

YOU DIDN'T KNOW.

YOU DIDN'T KNOW.

IT WAS ALMOST LIKE

SHE WAS SUCH THIS LIGHT AND LIFE

THAT WHEN SHE PASSED AWAY IT

BECAME A BEACON BECAUSE THERE A

SUICIDE EPIDEMIC GOING ON.

WE CAN CHANGE.

WE CAN USE WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR

FAMILY, WHAT HAPPENED TO HER,

WHAT SHE WENT THROUGH, AND HELP

OTHER PEOPLE.

SO, THAT'S OUR MAIN DRIVE.

CONGRATULATIONS.

I THINK SOUNDS AMAZING.

I WANT TO SHOW THAT TO PEOPLE.

DJ'S NOT FORGOTTEN AND WE'RE

GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT'S READ

BUT I ALSO WANT PEOPLE TO SEE

THAT Y'ALL HAVE BEEN THROUGH A

STRUGGLE TOO.

FOR ME DOING THIS,

THIS IS STEPPING OUT OF A

COMFORT ZONE.

SOMETHING THAT SHE HAD TO DO

EVERY SINGLE DAY.

THAT WAS HER EVERY SINGLE DAY

LIFE.

I WANT TO TRY TO SHED SOME LIGHT

ON HOW WE CAN HELP.

IT WAS SO NICE TO

MEET YOU.

YOU TOO.

I'M SO EXCITED.

I'M MORE EXCITED THAN

YOU ARE.

I LOVE Y'ALL.

BYE.

BYE.

SEE YOU.

SEE YOU.

I KNOW THAT AT AN

EARLY AGE THAT I WANTED TO BE

SOMEONE THAT HELPED PEOPLE.

I DIDN'T KNOW THAT I WAS GOING

TO BE A LAWYER.

MORNING, LADIES.

GOOD MORNING, NICOLE.

WHEN I CAME TO

FARMINGTON, I GOT MY FIRST

CAREER JOB HERE.

I AM AN ATTORNEY.

I WORK AT THE PUBLIC DEFENDER'S

OFFICE.

SO, THIS IS REALLY STARTING TO

FEEL LIKE A PLACE THAT I COULD

MAKE MY HOME AND JUST TRY TO

MAKE AN IMPACT HERE.

BUT, IT WAS KIND OF HARD WHEN I

FIRST STARTED WORKING HERE.

I LIKE WEARING MEN'S CLOTHES

MORE THAN WEARING WOMEN'S

CLOTHES.

YOU'RE NOT SURE WHETHER YOU

SHOULD BE CORRECTING SOMEONE WHO

CALLS YOU MR. HALL OR SAYS, "YES

SIR."

IT'S BEEN HARD.

I WANT TO CREATE SUPPORT FROM

THE COMMUNITY, HERE IN

FARMINGTON.

I JUST WISH THAT IS WAS MORE

COMFORTABLE FOR MORE PEOPLE.

HELLO.

HI.

THEY TOLD ME ABOUT THE

ORGANIZATION HERE, SO I WANTED

TO COME AND CHAT WITH YOU AND

HANG OUT FOR A LITTLE WHILE.

WE'RE REALLY EXCITED

THAT YOU'RE HERE.

I AM THE NEWLY ELECTED PRESIDENT

OF IDENTITY.

LGBTQ COMMUNITY CENTER.

AS A TEAM AND

COMING OUT WE DIDN'T HAVE A GAY

YOUTH CENTER IN MY TOWN.

THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN REALLY COOL

AT THE TIME.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I WOULD

HAVE BEEN SUPER COMFORTABLE

GOING THERE YET BUT IT WOULD

HAVE BEEN NICE TO EVEN KNOW.

TO HAVE THAT, RIGHT?

RIGHT.

WE'D LOVE TO BE OPEN

LONGER AND MORE HOURS AND THINGS

LIKE THAT BUT WE HAVE SURVIVED

SOLELY ON LGBTQ QUEER PEOPLE.

BUT ULTIMATELY,

THIS CENTER NEEDS MORE SUPPORT

FROM THIS COMMUNITY.

YEAH.

IN ANY WAY THAT WE

CAN GET IT.

ANY WAY WE CAN GET

IT.

AND I'LL TELL YOU,

I'M HOPING, PART OF US BEING

HERE IS WE WANT TO HELP BUILD

THAT COMMUNITY.

WHAT YOU'RE DOING WITH THIS

CENTER AND BRINGING PEOPLE

TOGETHER, WE ALSO WANT TO DO

THAT.

THE BEST WAY WE KNOW TO DO THAT

IS PUT A SHOW.

I'VE NEVER DONE A

SHOW, THOUGH.

I'VE NEVER EVER EVEN DONE DRAG.

COME STAND UP WITH

ME.

COME ON.

WE'VE GOT TO SEE WHERE AM I

WORKING FROM.

OKAY, KEEP UP WITH ME.

WE AT THE FAMILY BARBECUE.

THAT'S THE BEAT.

OKAY.

AND NOW HUH, OH YOU KICKED IT!

OKAY, SO YOU CAN KEEP A RHYTHM.

NOW I KNOW WHAT I'M WORKING

WITH.

I'VE GOT YOU.

A LITTLE BIT.

SO, WHAT KIND OF

DRAG WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE ON

STAGE.

SO, I LIVE MY LIFE AS

A WOMAN BUT I DRESS MORE

MASCULINE, EVERY DAY ALL DAY.

EVEN AT WORK, I GOT MISGENDERED

WHEN I FIRST GOT HERE BY

PROFESSIONALS.

THAT HAS TO BE A

JARRING EXPERIENCE.

YEAH, IT WAS REALLY

JARRING AND THAT'S A CONSTANT

THING.

AN EVERYDAY THING IN MY LIFE.

LIKE, I WENT TO THE STORE THE

OTHER DAY, SHE ASKED FOR MY ID

AND I HAVE HER THE ID AND SHE

DOES A DOUBLE TAKE.

I WAS, "OH I KNOW, I'VE GOT THIS

BABY FACE."

YEAH,.

I'M 33.

YEAH.

AND SO, SHE'S LIKE, "NO, NO,

IT'S JUST YOU LOOK LIKE A MAN ON

THIS ID."

I WAS LIKE, "OH, IT'S PROBABLY

BECAUSE I'VE GOT MY SHORT HAIR."

BUT HOW --

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I

ALSO THINK ABOUT IN ADDITION TO

US, OUR TRANS BROTHERS AND

SISTERS TOO.

SAME THING.

THAT IT'S YOUR

FULL IDENTITY.

YOU WORK SO HARD TO REALIZE,

COME IN TO WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSED

TO BE IN THIS WORLD AND WHO YOU

WERE BORN TO BE, AND THEN YOU

HAVE TO FACE BEING MISGENDERED.

RIGHT.

I THINK I JUST NEED TO, I DON'T

KNOW, LEARN HOW TO RESPOND.

I THINK BEING

MISGENDERED GREATLY AFFECTS

NICOLE.

YOU CAN JUST FEEL IT AND WHEN

YOU'RE MISGENDERED, IT JUST

KNOCKS YOU DOWN.

I WANT TO GIVE NICOLE A

PERFORMANCE THAT HAS MEANING AS

A PROUD OUT LESBIAN PERSON WHO

IS A LEADING PERSON IN THIS

COMMUNITY, WHO EMBRACES HER

FEMININITY BUT STILL HOLDS

STRONG TO WHO SHE IS AS A

MALE-PRESENTING LESBIAN.

RIGHT?

AND IT'S GOING TO

BE FUN.

YOU SURE?

NO.

IT'S GOING TO BE HORRIBLE.

IT'S ME, GIRL.

WHEN IT COMES TO SHOW TIME, I'M

LIKE YAH!

OKAY, COME ON.

LET ME GET A COUPLE OF THESE.

OH, YOU'RE GOING TO

TAKE THE FEMALE ONES?

WELL YEAH.

I'M GOING TO PRACTICE AT HOME.

OKAY.

SAFE SEX,

EVERYBODY.

HALLELU.

I LIVE ON THE NAVAJO

RESERVATION IN SHIPROCK, NEW

MEXICO.

GROWING UP ON THE RESERVATION I

WAS PICKED ON AT SCHOOL.

"ARE YOU GAY?"

THAT'S WHAT THEY WOULD SAY.

OR CALLING ME "FAGGOT."

I JUST NEVER SAID ANYTHING

BECAUSE I WAS SCARED.

AS FAR AS THE INDIGENOUS LGBTQ

COMMUNITY HERE IN THE NAVAJO

NATION, THE COMMUNITIES ARE

ENCLOSED, PROTECTING THEMSELVES.

AS I GOT OLDER, I STARTED TO

IDENTIFY WHO I AM AND WHERE I

CAME FROM AS AN INDIGENOUS GAY

MALE.

I WANT TO KNOW MY LANGUAGE MORE.

I WANT TO SAY THINGS.

SOMETIMES I'M SCARED BUT SEEING

THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY, I FEEL

LIKE THAT'S IMPORTANT AS A

NAVAJO, AS A DINE.

OKAY, I LOVE THIS LOOK.

DINE IS THE PREFERRED

TERM FOR THE PEOPLE IN NAVAJO

AND I'M STILL LEARNING ABOUT MY

TRIBE TODAY.

THANK YOU.

ARE THERE LIKE A LOT OF

QUEER PEOPLE AROUND?

DISCREETLY.

DISCREETLY.

WE WERE JUST TALKING

ABOUT THAT.

I THINK WE'RE REALLY

LUCKY THAT WE FOUND EACH OTHER,

ACTUALLY, 'CAUSE THERE ARE SOME

POINTS WITHIN THE COMMUNITY

WHERE YOU'RE DEFINITELY PUSHED

ASIDE AND OSTRACIZED.

YEAH, WE ALL

GOT CONNECTED THROUGH OUR ART.

HE DOES CLOTHES.

HE DOES PHOTOGRAPHY.

I DO DRAG.

OH WORK.

THAT'S AMAZING.

THEY WOULD PERFORM AND

THEN I WOULD TAKE PHOTOS AND

THAT'S HOW I DEVELOPED MY ART AS

A PHOTOGRAPHER, SUPPORTING THE

COMMUNITY.

I LOVE WHAT I DO AND SOMETIMES

IT TAKES SACRIFICES.

BEING WHO I AM, RIGHT NOW, EVEN

BEFORE I CAME OUT WAS SOMETHING

THAT WAS BAD ACCORDING TO THE

BIBLE.

YES.

IN OUR

CULTURE, US AS QUEER FOLKS ARE

VERY SACRED HUMAN BEINGS.

THEY'VE FORGOT.

AND BECAUSE OF

RELIGION, THEY FORGOT THAT.

YOU FIND OUT THAT

QUEER PEOPLE, IN OUR STORIES,

SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME

THEY'VE BEEN INTEGRAL.

VERY, VERY INTEGRAL.

CEREMONIOUSLY IN THE HOUSEHOLD,

GENDER WASN'T A THING.

BUT BECAUSE OF

RELIGION WE WERE SHUNNED OUT AND

PUSHED AWAY.

I DID NOT KNOW THAT.

THAT IS WILD.

THAT IS REALLY, REALLY WILD.

SO, I REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT

DRAG.

HAVE YOU EVER DONE ANYTHING LIKE

THIS BEFORE?

NO.

DO YOU HAVE A

PERFORMANCE HISTORY OF DANCE,

SINGING, ACTING, THEATER?

BOB'S TRYING

TO ASK IF YOU HAVE TWO LEFT

FEET.

AS FAR AS BEING

THEATRICAL, DANCING BY MYSELF IN

THE LIVING ROOM IS SOMETHING

ELSE.

I CAN'T MOVE SO QUICKLY BUT I

WOULD LOVE TO MOVE QUICKLY.

THAT'S SOMETHING I WOULD LOVE TO

DO.

I WAS INJURED IN A CAR ACCIDENT.

HOW LONG AGO WAS THIS?

ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO.

THIS JEEP BACKED INTO ME AND I

ENDED UP IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM

ON LIFE SUPPORT AND I HAD TO

HAVE SURGERY.

THAT'S WILD.

IN FACT, I HAD TO HAVE

SCREWS PUT IN IN MY SPINE.

IT TOOK ME ABOUT THREE MONTHS TO

WALK AGAIN AND A FULL YEAR TO

LEARN HOW TO RUN AGAIN.

IT WAS A VERY TRAUMATIC

EXPERIENCE AND IT CHANGED THE

WAY I LOOKED AT LIFE.

HOW I FELT, WHAT I WANTED TO DO.

LIFE, YOU ONLY HAVE IT ONCE AND

IT'S NOT PROMISED.

I WANT TO TRY NEW THINGS AND I

FEEL LIKE I CAN EXPLORE SIDES OF

ME I NEVER THOUGHT I HAD.

WORK.

NO ONE IS JUST ONE THING.

I MEAN, NATE'S NOT JUST QUEER,

NATE'S NO JUST INDIGENOUS,

NATE'S NOT JUST A MAN, NATE'S

NOT JUST AN AMERICAN, NATE'S NOT

JUST A PERSON LIVING ON A

RESERVATION.

HE'S NOT JUST HIS ACCIDENT.

NATE IS ALL THESE THINGS PULLED

TOGETHER.

SO BASICALLY, WE TAKE THAT IDEA

AN FIGURE OUT WHAT DRAG WORKS

FOR NATE.

KNOWING HIM

AND KNOWING DARREN, PEOPLE LIKE

THAT, THAT WE'RE TRYING TO BRING

OUR LIFESTYLE AND CULTURE BACK

TO OUR RESERVATION.

I THINK IT'S AMAZING.

SO, ANYTIME WE GET TO

COLLABORATE TOGETHER, IT'S

ALWAYS A BLESSING.

I'M GOING TO LEAVE

YOU A FLIER.

I'LL PUT IT THROUGH THE DOOR.

OKAY, THROUGH THIS PART.

OH NO, OH LORD.

HI, WE'RE HAVING A SHOW AT THE

LOUDER HOUSE SO JUST IN CASE YOU

WANT TO COME AND HAVE A GOOD

TIME.

ALL RIGHT, HALLELU.

YOU COULDN'T HAVE GOT AWAY FROM

ME NO FASTER, COULD YOU?

SO, WE ARE HAVING A

DRAG SHOW ON THURSDAY.

WE'D LOVE YOU GUYS TO COME OUT

AND SHOW SUPPORT.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT DRAG

IS?

NO.

YES.

I GOT MY FIRST

BOOTS IN THIS STORE.

DO YOU THINK THEY

HAVE DRAG BOOTS IN HERE?

NO, PROBABLY

NOT.

WHAT DO YOU THINK

HAPPENS AT A DRAG SHOW?

I'VE GOT NO IDEA.

PROBABLY WHAT YOU WOULD SEE

IN A MALE STRIP CLUB.

OH.

IN A STRIP CLUB, YOU THINK I'M

DOING A CARDI B NUMBER.

I GUESS SO.

I CAN'T GUARANTEE

THAT THAT WON'T BE THERE.

HERE, WE GOT A FREE SHOW

IN TOWN.

DO YOU THINK HE'S GOING TO COME?

ARE YOU GUYS GOING

TO COME TO THE SHOW?

I'LL BE THERE.

I'M NOT SURE.

GOING TO DO THE BEER YOGA.

WELL THE SHOW TIME'S

AT 7 PM, IT'S PRETTY EARLY.

WELL, THE BEER YOGA LASTS

FROM 6:30 TO 7:30.

YOU EVER BEEN TO A DRAG

SHOW, DEREK?

NO.

I'D LOVE TO GO, THOUGH.

YOU SHOULD COME.

WE'RE ALL PERFORMING.

RIGHT ON.

COOL.

SO YOU MIGHT NOT

RECOGNIZE US.

BUT I'LL BE THE BLACK ONE.

SEVEN O'CLOCK.

COOL.

UNTIL WHEN?

UNTIL THE LAST OF

US GET KICKED OUT, OKAY?

WE'RE GOING ALL NIGHT.

HALLELU.

IT'S GOING TO BE

FAMILY FRIENDLY.

OKAY.

WE'LL SEE YOU GUYS

THERE.

THANK YOU.

HAVE A GOOD DAY.

BYE.

THE ONE IN THE HOODY

COULD BE MY HUSBAND.

I'M CURIOUS, WHO WAS EVERYONE TO

DJ?

DO YOU MIND IF I ASK?

THIS IS MY

DAUGHTER.

SO YOU'RE STACEY'S

MAMA.

THESE ARE MY

GREAT BABIES.

OKAY.

HI, NANA.

HI.

WHAT ABOUT YOU?

I AM

ONE OF STACEY'S BEST FRIENDS AND

MY SON, WHO ALSO COMMITTED

SUICIDE, WAS DJ'S GOOD FRIEND.

I'M SO SORRY.

WOW.

WELL, YOU REALLY CLOSE TO HOME

WITH STACEY, I'M SURE, THEN.

YES.

I'M MELISSA.

I AM DJ'S BEST FRIEND.

I LOVE YOU SAID, "I

AM."

I AM.

I LOVE THAT.

THAT IS MY GO TO.

WE JUST OPENED SO MUCH WITH EACH

OTHER.

WE JUST CONNECTED ON A LEVEL AND

THEN WE JUST GOT CLOSER EVER

SINCE.

WOW.

I FEEL LIKE I WOULD HAVE LOVED

DJ.

YEAH, DUDE, SHE WAS

AWESOME.

I GOT A LOT OF MY CONFIDENCE

FROM DJ.

SHE WAS JUST ABOUT IT, JUST

TALKING TO EVERYBODY.

OH, SHE DIDN'T KNOW

A STRANGER.

SHE WOULD WALK INTO YOUR HOUSE,

"I'M DJ, THANK FOR HAVING ME

HERE."

SHE DIDN'T KNOW.

WE DIDN'T KNOW HALF THE

PEOPLE SHE KNEW.

HOW MANY PEOPLE

SHOWED UP TO THE FUNERAL?

OVER 500.

509.

WOW.

THAT'S WHAT

WE COUNTED.

WE LOST COUNT.

THAT'S WHAT WE COUNTED.

DID DJ EVER MENTION

TO YOU THAT SHE WANTED TO COMMIT

SUICIDE?

SHE MESSAGED ME AND

SHE GOES, "DUDE, I'M NOT

SUICIDAL BUT I WANT TO DIE RIGHT

NOW."

ME, I GOT PISSED.

I GOT MAD.

I DIDN'T LOOK AT DEPRESSION AS A

DISEASE, I LOST MY BEST FRIEND

TO A DISEASE I DIDN'T BELIEVE IN

AND NOW I SEE IT BECAUSE I'VE

BEEN THROUGH IT.

IT'S HIT ME HARDER NOW THAN EVER

BECAUSE LOOK WHAT IT DID TO US.

DO YOU FEEL LIKE THE

AREA'S A LOT LIKE THAT?

HIDE YOUR ISSUES AND YOUR

PROBLEMS AND JUST FAKE IT TILL

YOU MAKE IT KIND OF ATTITUDE.

THROW IT UNDER THE

RUG AND THERE'S LIKE A LOT OF

BOTTLING IN AND PEOPLE ARE

SCARED TO TALK.

YOU ALL LOVED THIS

PERSON.

I CAN'T IMAGINE, ONLY YOU ALL

KNOW, WHAT IT FEELS LIKE.

BUT YOU'RE TRYING TO TELL THE

WORLD WHAT IT FEELS LIKE.

THERE IS ACCEPTANCE AND THERE IS

LOVE AND THAT WE'RE HERE FOR

YOU.

LIKE, THESE PEOPLE ARE HERE FOR

THEIR COMMUNITY AND YOU ALL ARE,

AND ALL THE OTHER ALLIES THAT

ARE GOING TO COME TO THIS EVENT.

IT'S GOING TO BE INCREDIBLE.

IT'S ABOUT JUST BEING VISIBLE.

SHOWING PEOPLE THAT YOU'RE THERE

AND WHY.

SO, IF YOU ARE DOING THAT, THEN

YOU'RE DOING IT THE DJ WAY.

WELCOME.

TAKE A LOOK AROUND.

TAKE IT IN.

THIS IS OUR SAFE SPACE.

WE LIKE TO CALL IT CAMP.

AND THEN OVER HERE.

OH, I SEE.

WHERE THE GLAM.

SO THIS IS DOMINO.

DOMINO IS IN CHARGE OF OUR

DESIGN TEAM.

I FEEL LIKE THE

INTERSECTIONALITY BETWEEN BEING

QUEER, BEING NATIVE, BEING

ARTIST, THE CAR ACCIDENT.

ALL THESE THINGS WERE BROUGHT

TOGETHER TO MAKE YOU WHO YOU ARE

TODAY.

SO I HAVE THIS VISION FOR THE

PERFORMANCE.

SO, WE'RE STARTING

OUT IN THIS CLASSIC BRIDE OF

FRANKENSTEIN LOOK WITH THE ALL

WHITE BANDAGES AND ALL THAT AND

HAVING THAT TEAR AWAY AND BE

SOMETHING THAT'S MORE

REPRESENTATIVE OF THE PARTS OF

YOU.

IT'S GOING TO BE ALL DIFFERENT

FABRICS PATCHWORKED TOGETHER.

WE'RE GOING TO TRY TO

HAVE DARREN INCORPORATE SOME

EMBROIDERY THAT HE'S DONE THAT

DOMINO CAN THEN SEW INTO THE

GARMENT.

I THINK THIS

IS SO SPECIAL.

JUST BEING A QUEER PERSON ON THE

RESERVATION, THAT'S US.

THAT'S US BEING PULLED APART.

AND NOW THIS EVENT, YOU'RE ALL

GETTING SEWN TOGETHER.

I LOVE THIS PATTERN.

SO, THIS IS GOING TO BE BLACK

AND THE EDGING?

IT'LL BE WHITE ON THE INSIDE.

ALL BLACK ON THE OUTSIDE.

YEAH, I LIKE THAT.

ME TOO.

YOURS ARE CONSIDERABLY

LARGER.

CAUSE THEY'RE

ENORMOUS.

I UNDERSTAND THAT

YOU'RE INTERESTED IN GOING FAR

WITH THE CHARACTER THAT WE'RE

CREATING.

HOW FAR DO YOU WANT TO GO?

I'M OKAY WITH A

JUMPSUIT.

WE EXPLORE FEMININE IN MANY

DIFFERENT WAYS.

SO IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE A

DRESS.

AND IF WE'RE GOING TO

DO HEELS, MAYBE START WITH

WEDGES.

WEDGES.

COME ON NOW.

WE'RE TRYING TO MAKE TWO

EXTREME LOOKS HERE.

IS THERE A WAY TO GO FROM THIS

HAIR TO A DIFFERENT HAIR.

SO, IT COULD BE PULLED OFF.

HE COULD HAVE AN OWL ON TOP OF

HIS HEAD IF YOU WANTED TO.

OWLS ARE BAD LUCK.

YOU CAN'T PUT AN OWL ON YOUR

HEAD.

OKAY, A RABBIT.

A RABBIT.

IT'S REALLY AMAZING.

IT TAKES A VILLAGE TO UPLIFT A

QUEEN.

I WANT GLITTER ON THE LIDS.

I WANT A LITTLE BIT OF AN OPEN

EYE.

DO YOU HAVE ANY COLOR THEORY

THAT'S GOING ON.

I JUST LIKE MORE

NATURAL STUFF.

GOOD LUCK, THAT'S A DIFFERENT

SHOW, HONEY.

DO YOU KNOW THE REFERENCE

THAT I LOVE?

THAT WOULD BE A GREAT

FLAT TOP.

WE'RE TALKING SOLID FOUR INCHES

ABOVE YOUR HEAD.

SO, I'M JUST GOING

TO BE STRAIGHT UP WITH Y'ALL.

I DON'T SEE IT.

THIS, WITH A MAGNET FLAT TOP

DON'T WORK.

YOU'LL BE BALD HEADED.

YOUR HAIR'S GOING TO BE ON THE

GROUND.

FOR YOU, I DEFINITELY FEEL

LIKE OVER-EXAGGERATING YOUR

FEATURES AND BRINGING AS MUCH

ATTENTION TO YOUR NATURAL BEAUTY

AS POSSIBLE WITHOUT MAKING YOU

LOOK LIKE A CLOWN.

OKAY.

AH, WHY DON'T YOU

EVER SAY THAT TO ME?

I SAY IT TO HER ALL THE TIME.

SHE JUST NEVER STOPS TALKING.

EXCUSE ME FOR

ASKING, WHAT SIZE ARE YOU HERE?

I TOLD HIM THAT I

DIDN'T KNOW.

YOU DON'T KNOW YOUR

BRA SIZE?

I'VE WORN SPORTS BRAS

SINCE JUNIOR YEAR IN HIGH

SCHOOL.

YOU ARE MY MOTHER.

YOU'RE NOT MY MOTHER, YOU'RE

OBVIOUSLY YOUNGER THAN A MOTHER,

BUT YES MY MOM WEARS SPORTS

BRAS.

I'M LIKE, "MAMA, WHAT'S YOUR BRA

SIZE?"

SHE GO, "I DON'T KNOW, A LARGE."

I'M A LARGE, OKAY.

ALL RIGHT, I GOT

YOU.

THIS IS DJS SHIRT,

HER WORK SHIRT, SHE WOULD CHANGE

INTO AT THE LOT.

AND SO IT'S ONE OF THE SHIRTS I

HAVE OF HERS THAT I HAVEN'T

WASHED.

IT'S EXACTLY HOW SHE LEFT IT.

BUT I PUT IT ON A PILLOW AND I

SLEEP WITH IT.

AND THEN IT JUST STAYS RIGHT

THERE.

BRINGS ME SOME COMFORT, LAYING

ON IT.

ANY COMMUNITY, NOT

JUST OUR COMMUNITY, CAN IMPACT A

PERSON'S OUTLOOK ON THEMSELVES.

WE DIDN'T SEE DJ'S SUICIDE

COMING ON LIKE IT DID.

WE ALL ACCEPTED HER BUT I THINK

THAT SHE KNEW THAT OTHER PEOPLE

DIDN'T ACCEPT AND IT WAS HARD ON

HER.

I KNOW JASMINE BEATS HERSELF UP

A LOT BECAUSE SHE WAS THE LAST

ONE TO TALK TO DJ.

I WASN'T DOING GOOD FOR A LONG

TIME AND SHE HAD TO BE THAT

PERSON THAT WAS.

JASMINE WOULD SHOW UP AT THE

HOUSE AND IT WOULD BE TEN

O'CLOCK AND SHE'D JUST SIT THERE

AND HOLD MY HAND AND SHE'D JUST

BE, "I'M JUST WORRIED ABOUT YOU,

MOM."

WE DON'T TALK ABOUT

WHAT HAPPENED THAT NIGHT.

SOMETIMES I'LL MAYBE START TO

VENT TO MY MOM AND MY MOM CAN'T

EVEN DEAL WITH HER OWN EMOTIONS,

LET ALONE SOMEBODY ELSE'S RIGHT

NOW.

MOM, ARE YOU EATING?

JUST A HALF OF ONE

PLEASE.

GROWING UP, MY MOM

WAS ALWAYS ME AND DJ'S STRONG

POINT.

SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN OUR ROCK.

THAT HAS BEEN ME, HER AND MY MOM

THROUGH EVERYTHING.

AND TO WATCH MY MOM CRUMBLE AND

BE COMPLETELY DESTROYED, I THINK

IT'S INTERTWINED ME TO FEEL LIKE

MAYBE I WASN'T QUITE ALLOWED TO

GRIEVE YET BECAUSE I NEEDED TO

GET HER THROUGH THIS.

IN A SENSE, I FELT LIKE I NOT

ONLY LOST MY SISTER, BUT I'VE

LOST MY MOM.

YOU KNOW, PERFORMANCE

ART IS A REALLY GOOD WAY TO GET

OUT THINGS THAT YOU CAN'T TALK

ABOUT.

THIS IS KIND OF A CHANCE FOR YOU

TO SHOW THESE PEOPLE, WITHOUT

HAVING TO TELL ABOUT IT OR BE

MAD ABOUT IT, JUST WHAT YOU'VE

BEEN THROUGH.

YOU'VE SUFFERED A HUGE LOSS.

THAT'S THE BIGGEST THING FOR

THIS EXPERIENCE, I WANT TO START

WORKING ON A PROCESS OF, NOT

GETTING OVER, 'CAUSE YOU'LL

NEVER GET OVER THIS, Y'ALL ARE

NEVER GOING TO GET OVER THIS,

AND TO ME I THINK THIS

PERFORMANCE, AND JUST IN GENERAL

THIS EXPERIENCE, I HOPE, IS

GOING TO PUSH YOU ALL TO BE MORE

CONFIDENT ABOUT YOURSELVES.

AND THAT'S WHAT DRAG DOES IS IT

HELPS YOU CREATE STRENGTH THAT

YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE TO FIND IT.

IT MAKES YOU FEEL POWERFUL.

AS EVERYBODY CAN

TELL, I'M NOT A VERY EMOTIONAL

PERSON VERY MUCH, IT'S JUST

SOMETIMES I DON'T WANT THEM TO

KNOW HOW CRAZY THE THOUGHTS FEEL

IN MY HEAD ABOUT DJ.

WELL THE FIRST STEP

IS ADMITTING SOME OF THESE

THINGS OUT LOUD TO PEOPLE.

WHEN WE DID LOSE DJ,

IT WAS ROUGH, AND YOU ASKING TO

SAY WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO HER?

I DON'T KNOW THAT I'D BE ABLE TO

SAY ANYTHING.

ALL I'D BE ABLE TO DO IS GRAB

HER AND HUG AND SAY I LOVE YOU,

I'M SORRY.

AND THAT EVERY DAY SINCE SHE'S

BEEN GONE HAS BEEN HELL.

I FEEL LIKE WE'RE IN HELL.

I THINK OF HER 24/7.

I DON'T KNOW IF SHE

TOLD YOU BUT MY MOM FOUND HER.

OH NO.

I MEAN, I KNEW SHE

WAS DEAD BUT I WAS SO HOPING.

PLEASE GOD, I'LL TAKE ANYWAY,

I'LL TAKE CARE OF HER THE REST

OF HER LIFE.

I'LL TAKE CARE OF HER.

JUST GIVE HER BACK TO ME.

DON'T TAKE HER.

AND, MY FRIEND GRABBED ME AND

ONE OF MY HUSBAND'S FRIENDS

GRABBED AND WAS LIKE, "YOU'VE

GOT TO LET HER GO."

FROM THERE ON IT JUST WENT

THROUGH.

THAT IS TERRIFYING.

IT WAS PRETTY

INTENSE.

I DON'T TALK ABOUT THAT MUCH

ANYMORE.

I APPRECIATE IT.

YOU'RE GIVING ME A PIECE OF YOUR

EMOTION.

YOU'RE GOING TO GET TO SHOW THIS

ENERGY IN THIS PERFORMANCE TO

PEOPLE AND YOU'RE GOING TO GET

TO KEEP THIS EXPERIENCE FOREVER.

MOM, I APPRECIATE YOU OPENING

UP.

I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, STACEY.

I'M PROUD OF YOU

TOO.

PEOPLE AROUND HERE

DON'T FACE THEIR EMOTIONS.

THEY DON'T TALK ABOUT IT, THEY

JUST PRETEND LIKE EVERYTHING'S

OKAY.

STACEY, I THINK THAT SHE'S

SEEING THAT HOLDING ALL OF THIS

EMOTION IN IS ACTUALLY MAKING

THE SITUATION WORSE.

AND STACEY HAS TO MAKE A CHANGE,

NOT JUST FOR HERSELF BUT FOR

JASMINE, WHO'S BEEN CARING SO

MUCH FOR HER MOM.

IT IS PUMPING OVER HERE.

YES IT IS.

HI.

HI, HOW ARE YOU?

GOOD, HOW ARE YOU?

I'M DOING GREAT.

AWESOME.

YEAH.

I RECKON WE ARE.

CAN I GET AN 11 AND A HALF?

COULD I HAVE AN

EIGHT, PLEASE?

CAN I GET A DAINTY

15?

LET'S BOWL.

I HOPE Y'ALL ARE

READY BECAUSE MY DAUGHTER, SHE

MIGHT BE ROUGH AROUND THE EDGES

NOW, BUT I'M PUTTING HER THROUGH

THE RINGER AND SHE'S GOING TO

TURN THE PARTY FOR Y'ALL.

LET'S SAY THIS GOAL WILL

BE INDICATIVE OF YOUR

PERFORMANCE THIS WEEK.

LOVELY.

ALL RIGHT, HERE WE GO.

THIS WILL SET THE TONE.

WHOA!

HERE WE GO.

OOH THAT WAS WIDE.

WELL, BOB, IT'S NOT

BASEBALL.

IT JUMPED OUT OF THE

GUTTER.

IT SCARED ME.

Y'ALL FROM ROUND HERE?

NO, WE'RE FROM --

OH WORK.

HOW FAR IS THAT FROM HERE?

ABOUT AN HOUR.

OH THAT'S NOT TOO BAD.

WELL, WE'RE ALL

PERFORMERS.

WE'RE ALL DRAG QUEENS.

IT WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?

YOU'VE JUST GOT TO STAND BEHIND

HIM.

WELL, HOW HAS YOUR

EXPERIENCE BEEN IN ALL THIS?

IT'S BEEN VERY CHALLENGING.

IT'S SO CRAZY, WE ALL

JUST ENDED UP RIGHT BESIDE EACH

OTHER HERE.

WHO'S THE BEST BOWLER OUT Y'ALL?

REALLY?

LISTEN, WILL YOU BOWL A FRAME

FOR ME?

I'M CALLING IN A

SUBSTITUTE TO HELP ME WITH A

FRAME.

OKAY, OKAY.

WORK.

OKAY.

OKAY, OKAY.

'CAUSE SHE'S NOT GOOD

ENOUGH TO DO IT ON HER OWN.

BOB IS SO

COMPETITIVE.

GET READY.

HOW YOU GONNA HAPPY

DANCE SOMEONE ELSE'S BALL.

LISTEN, LIFE'S NOT ABOUT

WINNING AND LOSING, IT'S ABOUT

DOING YOUR BEST.

REHEARSAL TIME.

ARE YOU NERVOUS?

YEAH.

I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS.

ME TOO.

DID YOU ALL DO YOUR HOMEWORK?

YES.

YES?

KEEP IN MIND, THAT

NO MATTER WHO HAS EVER PUT YOU

DOWN OR NOT ACCEPTED YOU,

WHETHER IT'S ANYONE IN THIS

COMMUNITY, WHOEVER, I AM WHAT I

AM.

I AM WHAT I AM.

I AM WHAT I AM.

ALL RIGHT?

ALL RIGHT.

ALL RIGHT.

LET ME FEEL IT.

LET'S DO IT.

I'M NERVOUS ABOUT

I'M NERVOUS ABOUT

THE THINGS WE JUST ADDED.

SO IT'D BE NICE SO I CAN RUN IT,

THAT BE GREAT.

OKAY LET'S GO TO THIS

SPOT, THEN.

HMM.

YEP.

I NEEDED TO TRY.

WE NEED TO DO THIS AGAIN.

NO MATTER WHERE I PUSH

YOU, TRY TO KEEP LOOKING OUT TO

THE AUDIENCE.

SO IF I TURN, YOU'VE GOT TO TURN

YOUR HEAD AND LOOK THEM, OKAY?

OKAY.

WATCH THE STAIRS THOUGH.

THIS IS THE EDGE OF THE STAGE.

GIVE IT TO HIM SIS,

GIVE IT TO HIM, SIS.

FOOT, FOOT.

YOU'VE GOT TO TWIST YOUR BODY,

OKAY?

'CAUSE THAT'S GOING TO HELP YOU.

OKAY.

YOU GOOD, YOU GOT IT.

YOU GOT THIS.

SO YOU KNOW I'M GOING

TO BE IN HEELS THOUGH, RIGHT?

I DO.

OKAY.

'CAUSE YOU KNOW,

GUESS WHAT?

I AM GOING TO BE TOO.

OKAY.

YOU SAID YOU WANT A

TRANSFORMATION.

YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT

HOW IN THE INDIGENOUS CULTURE,

QUEERS AND TRANS PEOPLE USED TO

BE A PART OF THE CEREMONY.

AND DARREN JUST SAID, "THEY

FORGOT."

THAT HAS BEEN STICKING WITH ME

EVER SINCE YOU SAID IT.

THEY FORGOT.

THEY FORGOT HOW POWERFUL WE ARE.

THEY FORGOT HOW IMPORTANT WE

ARE.

AND THIS IS THE MOMENT WHEN YOU

GET TO SAY THESE THINGS AND YOU

HAVE THE SPOTLIGHT AND THEY HAVE

TO LISTEN.

LET'S ACT UP.

LET'S CAUSE A SCENE.

READY?

STEP, STEP.

DOWN YOUR FACE.

CHEST.

THEY'RE A LITTLE HARDER THAN YOU

THINK.

WE'RE GOING TO START AGAIN.

NOW TWIST.

SEE THINGS FROM A DIFFERENT

ANGLE.

YEAH, COME ON OUT OF THAT GAS.

GET THOSE JAZZ.

YES!

I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO

PROJECT HIS ARTWORK.

PICTURES OF HIS COMMUNITY,

PICTURES OF QUEERS, PICTURES OF

INDIGENOUS PEOPLE, FLASHING.

LET'S DO IT AGAIN.

OKAY.

WE'RE JUST GOING TO

SEE IF YOU REMEMBER THE SMALL

STUFF.

WORK.

THAT WAS GREAT.

HOW DID THAT FEEL?

IT FELT LIBERATING.

I FELT LIKE I LOST MYSELF.

WORK.

THAT'S IT.

YES.

I'M SO EXCITED

FOR YOU.

I KNOW, THIS IS A LOT.

LAND IS SACRED.

HOME IS SACRED.

KEEP THE TRADITIONS ALIVE.

WHAT WERE THESE

BUILDINGS?

THIS WAS A HARDWARE

STORE.

AND THAT WAS A VIDEO STORE.

THE COMMUNITY HERE IS STRUGGLING

AND WE NEED A LOT OF AWARENESS

BROUGHT TO OUR COMMUNITY.

FOR DRAG, I SEE AWARENESS THAT

IS BEING SPREAD IN A DIFFERENT

FORM.

YOU KNOW THE MURALS THAT ARE

MADE HERE, I LOOK AT IT AS A

SIGN OF HOPE.

WHEN I THINK OF THIS

PERFORMANCE, I FEEL VERY SCARED

ABOUT IT SOMETIMES BUT I'M DOING

THIS FOR THE COMMUNITY.

I'M DOING THIS TO RAISE

AWARENESS FOR THOSE THAT DON'T

HAVE A VOICE AND I WANT IT TO BE

POWERFUL.

I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT MY

MESSAGE IS HEARD.

HI, HOW ARE YOU?

HI.

OH MY GOD, IT LOOKS SO GOOD.

WOW.

OOH, SNACKS.

IT'S MOTIVATING.

MY iPHONE DOESN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE

MY FACE.

DRAG IS WHAT YOU MAKE

IT.

THIS IS A GREAT VEHICLE FOR WHAT

HE WANTS TO BE.

I HOPE THAT NATE GETS HIS

MESSAGE ACROSS.

BACK TO THE BACK

ROW.

YES, SHE CAN'T GET OUT THE

MIRROR.

LOOK AT HER.

I'M STANDING TALKING TO HER,

SHE'S LOOKING IN THE MIRROR.

I'M SORRY, MY NEED TO

BE LONGER THAN THAT.

YOUR LASHES?

OH NOW SHE WANTS THE BIG LASH.

NEXT SHE'S GOING TO WANT TO

BATHE IN GLITTER.

DON'T THINK YOU ARE.

AH!

YOU ALL LOOK SO GORGEOUS.

YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE

THAT YOU DESERVE A GOOD LIFE AND

YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS BECAUSE

SOMETIMES WE GET SO LOW, WE

DON'T BELIEVE WE DESERVE TO BE

UP HERE.

AND YOU ALL DO NOT BELONG THERE.

IT'S OKAY.

EXACTLY, I'M TRYING

TO LIKE BLOW.

IT'S OKAY.

I'M REALLY EXCITED

BUT I'M SUPER NERVOUS.

I DON'T WANT TO MESS UP.

THEY SAID THERE'S A

LINE OUT THE DOOR.

THERE'S ALREADY A

LINE OUT THE DOOR?

OH MY GOD.

I'M GOING TO VOMIT.

NO, THE NERVES.

THIS IS GOING TO BE FIRST TIME

IN MY CORSET AND HEELS.

CITIZENS OF FARMINGTON.

CITIZENS OF SHIPROCK.

ARE YOU READY FOR A SHOW?

PUT YOUR HANDS TOGETHER

FOR SHANGELA LAQUIFA WADLEY.

ARE YOU HAVING A

GOOD TIME?

LET'S DO IT.

HOW YOU DOING TONIGHT

FARMINGTON?

I'M GOING TO TELL YOU, WE'VE

BEEN TRAVELING TO SMALL TOWNS

ACROSS AMERICA CONNECTED WITH

GREAT PEOPLE, HELPING SHOWCASE

WHAT A QUEER COMMUNITY CAN LOOK

LIKE, NO MATTER HOW LARGE OR HOW

SMALL.

IT'S THE LOVE THAT MATTERS.

HALLELU.

DON'T HOLD ANYTHING

BACK.

FEEL ALL THAT TRAUMA.

JUST BE INDIGENOUS AND BE QUEER

AND BE AN ARTIST.

THIS IS YOUR TIME.

THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH.

WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.

DON'T CRY.

WHEN THAT WHOLE

ACCIDENT HAPPENED, IT CHANGED

THE WAY I LOOKED AT LIFE.

I WANT TO HELP MY COMMUNITY OUT.

I WANT THE LGBTQ COMMUNITY TO

EXPRESS THEMSELVES.

I WANT TO TAKE BEAUTIFUL PHOTOS.

I THINK IT'S IMPORTANT TO SPEAK

UP.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE PEOPLE SHOULD

BE AFRAID.

LET'S GET A LOUD WELCOME TO

OUR NEXT ENTERTAINER, ALL THE

WAY FROM THE RESERVATION.

GIVE IT UP.

IT'S ALIVE!

IT'S ALIVE!

BUT IT SHOULD LIVE.

IT LIVES.

♪ I WANTED EVERYTHING I NEVER

HAD ♪

♪ LIKE THE LOVE THAT COMES WITH

LIFE ♪

♪ I WORE NEVADA AND I HATED

THAT ♪

♪ BUT I SURVIVED ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I FOUND SOLACE IN THE

STRANGEST PLACE ♪

♪ LAY IN THE BACK OF MY MIND ♪

♪ I SAW MY LIFE IN A STRANGER'S

FACE ♪

♪ AND IT WAS MINE ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I'M STILL BREATHING MOM I'M

STILL BREATHING ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE ♪

♪ I'M ALIVE CL ♪E

WHERE'S ALL MY

INDIGENOUS FOLKS AT?

THANK YOU TO THE INDIGENOUS

COMMUNITIES FOR SUPPORTING THE

LGBTQ COMMUNITY.

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

WE NEED MORE PLACES LIKE THIS.

WE NEED MORE EVENTS LIKE THIS.

THIS TOWN NEEDS MOVEMENT.

THE LAST TIME I WORE

A DRESS I WAS 18 OR 19.

I AM A WOMAN AND JUST BECAUSE I

WEAR MEN'S CLOTHES DOESN'T MAKE

ME ANY LESS OF A WOMAN.

MASCULINITY IS NOT A GENDER AND

I THINK THIS IS A WAY TO KIND OF

SHOW THAT.

PUT YOUR HANDS TOGETHER

FOR HER SHE ESQUIRE.

THANK YOU GUYS.

SO, I'M NOT ORIGINALLY FROM

FARMINGTON AND COMING HERE I GOT

LUCKY AND I QUICKLY FELL INTO

IDENTITY INC'S HANDS AND I WAS

ABLE TO MAKE A COMMUNITY THERE.

THIS EXPERIENCE HAS BEEN A ONCE

IN A LIFETIME.

I DON'T THINK I EVER WOULD HAVE

DONE THIS IS THERE WASN'T SO

MUCH SUPPORT FROM MY FRIENDS AND

FAMILY AND COMMUNITY SO THANK

YOU GUYS.

THANK YOU.

IT'S A VERY EVIL

FEELING WATCHING YOUR CHILD

BEING LOWERED INTO THE GROUND.

I THINK I HAVE TO GET TO WHERE I

CAN GRIEVE HER.

THERE'S SO MANY

PEOPLE OUT THERE.

IS THERE?

I COULDN'T SEE.

THERE IS.

IT'S PACKED.

I THOUGHT IT'D BE

PACKED.

I DIDN'T THINK IT'D BE TOTALLY

PACKED.

OH IT'S PACKED.

PUT YOUR HANDS TOGETHER FOR

EUREKA, STEPHANIE AND JOSELINE

O'HARA.

♪ YOU CAN TO STOP THE FROM

GOING ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE WORLD FROM

KNOWING ♪

♪ THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE GIRL ♪

♪ THEY'RE TRYING TO TAKE OUR

VOICES ♪

♪ THERE TRYING TO MAKE OUR

CHOICES ♪

♪ SO WE SCREAM LOUD, LOUD,

LOUD ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE GIRL FROM

GOING ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE ROAD FROM

KNOWING ♪

♪ THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE GIRL ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE GIRL ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE GIRL ♪

♪ YOU CAN'T STOP THE GIRL ♪

♪ OH, THAT YOU THE LIGHTNING ♪

♪ AND IT'S SO EXCITING ♪

♪ SO HERE WE COME CL ♪E

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,

THESE ARE LOVED ONES OF THE

BEAUTIFUL DJ.

I KNOW MOST OF YOU

PROBABLY KNEW DJ AND THAT'S WHY

WE'RE DOING ALL OF THIS.

SHE WAS PRETTY SPECIAL.

I DID WANT TO REALLY GIVE IT TO

MY MOM BECAUSE SHE HAS BROKE

THROUGH BOUNDARIES WE'VE BEEN

TRYING TO GET HER TO BREAK

THROUGH FOR THE LAST YEAR, IN A

WEEK, YOU GUYS.

WE KNOW THAT ALTHOUGH

WE WANT TO MEMORIALIZE DJ, DJ

WOULD WANT TO CELEBRATE LIFE.

SHE WOULD WANT TO BE CELEBRATED

AND SHE WOULD WANT HER MOTHER

AND HER SISTER TO ENJOY THE ART

OF DRAG AND BE ABLE TO SHOW YOU

HOW FUCKING FIERCE THEY ARE.

I FEEL GOOD.

I FEEL GOOD.

IT ACTUALLY FEELS BETTER.

SHE WENT UP THERE

AND SHAKE YOUR ALL HANGING OUT.

OH THERE WE GO.

YOU CAN DO THIS.

YES.

I NEED TO LET HER BE AT PEACE

AND I NEED TO START LIVING.

EXCUSE ME, EXCUSE

ME.

EXCUSE ME.

YOU STEPPED UP AND

THAT IS GOING TO CARRY YOU FOR

THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, THE

ABILITY TO STEP UP, STEP OUTSIDE

YOUR COMFORT ZONE.

AIN'T NOBODY COME AT YOU WITH

NOTHING DIFFERENT, THAT YOU KNOW

YOU CAN'T CONQUER.

DRAG IS BEST

WHEN IT SPEAKS TO YOU.

WE ARE ALL THE PRODUCT OF THESE

WORLDS THAT OVERLAP.

THAT'S WHAT A QUEEN IS, YOU KNOW

WHAT I MEAN?

ALL THESE PARTS, NO MATTER WHERE

THEY CAME FROM, HAVE MADE US

STRONGER.

I WANT US TO ALL PUT

OUR HANDS TOGETHER.

I LOVE YOU, JASMINE.

I'VE HAD SUCH AN HONOR OF

GETTING TO KNOW THIS FAMILY.

I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH.

AND WE THANK YOU.

NO, I THINK IT'S ONLY

FAIR, ON THE COUNT OF THREE WE

RELEASE THIS IN DJ'S HONOR.

ONE, TWO, THREE.

WHY ARE YOU CRYING?

I'M NOT CRYING.

WE'RE GOING TO PARTY

TONIGHT.

OKAY?

Literally let's fish, fish!

Oi!

We are up at Ruston, Louisiana.

Hello, hello!

- Tie it, cinch it, that waist!
- Tie?

You see something you like?

I'm a lesbian,
and I'm a double amputee.

And I just wanna be accepted,
just the way I am.

The more attention that is on me,
the harder it is here in Ruston.

I'm a heterosexual male,
and I'm willing to step outside

my comfort zone and make
other people welcome.

Ally voices are as strong
as queer voices themselves.

You should be able to wear
whatever you wanna wear,

you should be able to be
who you wanna be.

What?

We don't want no drags--

Y'all don't wanna drag show,
what?