This Is Us (2016–…): Season 4, Episode 15 - Clouds - full transcript
Kevin spends the day with Rebecca; Toby makes a grand gesture; the Big Three get their report cards.
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Mom is suffering
from cognitive impairment.
Mom asked me
not to tell you guys.
She didn't want to add
any more stress to your plates.
Let me take care of Jack
this weekend.
I need to spend time
with my son.
You like it?
Hey, Kate.
Uh. It's Madison.
I slept with Kevin!
I've been anxious for so long.
Beth thinks
I should see a therapist.
Well, maybe you should.
Sorry I'm late, guys.
I got out of there
just as soon as I could.
‐Hi. Hi.
‐Hi.
Report Card Day.
‐ They've been waiting.
‐ Report Card Day.
Let's... do this, huh?
Oh.
- Oh, that is a serious face.
- Oh, yeah.
‐ Bec, this is bad news.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
I think, maybe,
could it be his...
straight‐ A streak is over?
Oh, an A‐ minus in geometry.
Oh, you are so grounded.
I'm putting too much time
into Mathletes
and not enough time
into actual math.
Oh, no, hey,
come on, this is great, pal.
‐ Really. Forget it.
- Hey.
‐ Bug, are you okay?
‐ Wait, so...
she could be bluffing.
‐ Is she bluffing?
‐ Is she?
Huh.
Improvements in biology...
‐ and civics.
‐ Yeah, Kate, this is great.
‐ What's wrong?
‐ Stuart broke up with me.
‐ Aw, hon...
‐ No.
I need to be alone.
Don't follow me.
‐ Katie girl...
‐ No, no, I...
‐ I will handle that.
‐ Sure.
Let's do Kevin quickly,
and then I'll go upstairs.
Oh, that's a very smug mug, sir.
Can it be...?
Two As, baby.
What?
Yeah, in P.E. and art.
The rest are Cs and two Ds.
"Disruptive in class."
"Arrives late."
"Needs to be center
of attention"? Kevin.
Two As are two As.
Mom said I'd get five dollars
for every "A."
Bet you five bucks you
don't know what that adds up to.
I'm gonna buy an entire box of
baseball cards with my winnings.
Yeah, well,
I'm gonna contest my grade.
That'll be an "A" by next week.
You know, Randall,
it wouldn't hurt you to...
to lighten up on yourself.
No way.
I'm going to fix this.
Hey. Ten bucks. American.
The second I talk
to Mrs. Hollins,
it'll be up to an "A."
Hey, babe?
Randall is getting worse.
Do we need to talk to someone,
like a guidance counsellor
‐ or a...? ‐ No, come on,
he's just, he's wound up tight.
All right?
He needs to blow off some steam.
Blow off steam?
Don't worry about it.
I got it. Go on.
Okay.
Everything okay?
Uh, yeah, why?
I don't know,
just thought you'd be
a little more refreshed
after a weekend at the cabin.
Ah. Um,
Mom's getting the results
for her MRI this afternoon,
and I can tell
she's a little nervous.
Just really hate
not being there in person.
But, hey, that's something
you could talk about in therapy,
‐ right?
‐ Yeah.
I'm so proud of you.
This is a big step.
It's not that big of a deal.
All right.
‐ No big deal.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
Uh, so, hey, listen, you know,
Annie's birthday is coming up,
‐ and I was thinking... ‐ Have you
still got that organic beeswax balm
‐ you keep talking about?
‐ Hey, out of my purse, man.
What are you...?
Aah! What?
‐ And I was thinking...
‐ Thank you.
That we could get her
the iPhone.
We agreed:
no iPhones until junior high.
I know. But, you know,
she's so cute when she begs.
‐ Mm‐ hmm. ‐ You know,
the Force is strong with that one.
But it is stronger in us.
At least it is now.
Mmm.
I love your lip balm.
I love your face.
Yeah...
‐ Hey.
‐ Morning.
You're up early.
Coffee's fresh.
Hi.
Hi.
My goodness.
Someone was asleep
when Mommy got home last night
from the cabin.
Um, I know we didn't really get
a chance to talk last night,
so I'll start.
I'm sorry.
For everything.
I said what I said out of...
fear and‐ and worry
and exhaustion,
and if I could take it all back,
I would.
But...
This weekend was a real godsend.
So without further ado,
would you please follow
me and Jack to the garage?
We have a surprise for you.
All right, you're gonna have
to use your imagination here.
But I was thinking...
we turn the garage...
into a music studio, huh?
Now... here, take him...
it's not all...
up to scale...
But, uh, this would be...
the microphone.
Testing, one, two, three.
‐ So, stay with me.
‐ Toby.
This is the pièce de résistance.
Ready?
Toby, please stop.
Please.
I really appreciate
what you're trying to do.
But, you know,
after one weekend...
I'm just having tr...
This is very nice.
It's a very sweet gesture.
I‐ I just,
I'm gonna need some time.
Okay.
What?
Is everything okay?
Is it your mom?
No, it's Madison.
She slept with Kevin,
so she wants to have brunch
so she can apologize.
I'm sorry, I know
that we're kind of in the middle
of a thing right now,
but permission to react?
Yeah.
What?!
How was your trip
with your brother
and your sister?
Oh, the trip was great.
You know, very peaceful,
lot of bonding.
‐ Exactly what I needed.
It was wonderful. ‐ Yeah.
‐ Nice.
‐ How are you?
I'm good.
Well, that's great.
I mean, you look great.
‐ I do?
‐ Yes, you do.
Well, thank you.
Wonderful, actually.
They told you, didn't they?
What? Told me what? No.
Kevin.
Randall let it slip.
Sweetheart, I'm sorry.
‐ No.
‐ No, I, I wanted to tell you
‐ in person myself.
‐ No, no, no, no. Listen,
don't you worry about me,
you understand?
I'm... I'm here
to take care of you.
All right?
How are you really feeling?
I know you have some MRI results
coming back today, right?
‐ Mm‐ hmm. I'm‐ I'm good, though.
‐ Okay.
I'm good. I'm a little anxious
about today, I'm not gonna lie,
but it's funny, somehow all
of this bad news has sort of...
freed me up.
Carpe diem and all that.
‐ Hey. How you doing?
‐ Hey.
Ah. Good.
‐ Good.
‐ Yeah?
‐ All things considered, yeah.
‐ Okay.
Great. Well... Oh, man.
What‐ what‐ what are you guys
doing today?
Oh. We actually
were planning on going to visit
some of those, um...
old‐ fashioned record stores.
Something we say
we always want to do,
and we never do it,
so we're doing it.
‐ Fun. Can I come?
‐ Yeah.
You want to?
‐ Yeah. ‐ I got an idea.
‐ Huh?
Why don't you two go off
and make a day of it.
‐ Just the two of you.
‐ Are you sure?
Yeah. Carpe Diem Rebecca
is running me ragged.
You just make
sure that you have her back in time
for her doctor's appointment
at 4:30.
‐ I can do that.
‐ Okay.
Mr. Pearson.
‐ Yeah. Hello.
Hi.
It's a pleasure to meet you,
Randall.
Please sit.
Can I get you something
to drink?
Um... likewise.
And no, thank you.
Uh...
what's with the...?
I find it comforting.
Well, at least you'll
have something to look at
if I bore you.
So, what brings you here today?
It's kind of a long story.
You got an hour?
Okay.
*THIS IS US*
Season 04 Episode 15
Episode Title: "Clouds"
Sync & corrections by srjanapala
Come on, guys.
You're gonna be late for school.
Kev. Baseball cards
back up in your room, please.
Hustle, Kevin. I'm meeting
Mrs. Hollins before class
to talk about
changing my grade.
Can you take me to the baseball
card store after school?
Nope. I'm sorry,
I don't have time.
I have errands to run:
grocery store, bank,
library, dry cleaning.
Sorry.
Then, can you give me the money
for my two As?
I want to feel it burning
in my pocket all day.
Hey, Kev, come on,
baseball cards upstairs.
Randall, you remember
I'm picking you up from school?
‐ You got your stuff?
‐ Yeah.
Okay, good. Wait in the car.
Hey, Kate? Come on!
♪ I'll be loving you ♪
♪ Forever... ♪
Bug?
It's time to go.
I go. I stay.
What does it matter?
I'm gonna go to the market
a little later today.
Do you have any requests
for dinner?
Three‐ cheese macaroni?
You got it.
‐ Hi.
‐ How about after school
I come with you
on your errands,
and then we can swing by
the card store afterwards?
Fine.
Okay, let's go.
♪ Rows and flows of angel hair ♪
♪ And ice cream castles
in the air ♪
♪ And feather canyons ♪
♪ Everywhere ♪
♪ I've looked at clouds
that way, but now... ♪
Ah.
I miss that crackle
on the record before the music.
Joni...
I would spend
hours staring
at this album artwork.
Reading all the sleeve notes.
Okay, boomer.
Ha, you can laugh at me
all you want,
but my record collection...
was my whole world.
Kind of like you
and your baseball cards.
Oh, okay.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
All right, no,
my‐ my baseball cards, that,
that was, that was real,
that was a collection, okay?
There‐ there was strategy
involved, there was commerce.
‐ I mean, the whole thing.
‐ Oh, I remember.
‐ Yeah.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
Did I ever tell you
the first time
your father and I
came out to I. A.,
we tried to find
Joni Mitchell's old house
in, um, Laurel Canyon?
I think we passed Mount Olympus.
You sure the map's
not upside‐ down?
No.
We got close, we even
wandered around
Joni's neighborhood,
but we never found the house,
so... we gave up.
Maybe we should
finish the job, you know?
We'll find Joni Mitchell's
old house.
How?
- ‐ Hey, Siri?
- ‐
Where's Joni Mitchell's
old house?
‐ What are you doing?
‐ Here's what I found on the Web.
Is that it? That her house?
‐ Oh, my goodness, yes!
‐ Yeah?
Yes, that‐ that's the house.
Well, uh, do you think
we have time, though,
before your doctor's
appointment?
Well, if we don't have time,
we're gonna make time.
‐ Okay, Carpe Diem Rebecca.
‐ Yes.
Here we go, all right.
Hey, girl.
Get over here.
It's nice to see you.
Isn't this place cute?
I love coming here for brunch.
It's hip but still normal...
Okay, Madison, let's
just cut the preamble.
Okay, let's just
get it over with.
I screwed up.
You are so important to me,
and friends don't
do that to friends.
Or their brothers.
Honestly, I don't know
what I was thinking.
Other than I have never
seen anyone so hot
and so vulnerable
at the same time.
My brain just shorted.
I mean, I know he's
your brother, but...
my God.
I am so sorry.
I am ashamed and embarrassed,
and it'll never happen again.
I really don't know what
to think about all of this.
And it really couldn't have come
at a more terrible time.
Is it that CrossFit bitch?
I'll kill her.
Is it Toby?
I'll kill him.
You just say the word,
I will Kill Bill all of them
and help you raise
that child myself.
Talk to me, Kate.
Please?
So, how we doing this, Doc...
is it Good Will Hunting
or The Sopranos?
No, I'm just playing. I, um...
I'm comfortable
speaking about my emotions.
I'm an emotional man.
No shame.
Uh...
before we start, let me just...
...put this on silent.
My, uh, mom's got a doctor's
appointment today,
but there's no need
for any distractions, right?
Okay.
All yours.
Is she okay?
Ah, she's fine.
Um, early signs of dementia,
but we're on top of it.
Today's just
a follow‐ up appointment,
but that's‐ that's
not why I'm here.
So, why are you here?
Um...
I have anxiety.
Suffer from, is that the...?
Doesn't matter.
Maybe once every decade
things get too...
overwhelming.
I'll have a panic attack.
I'll be hospitalized.
That's happened twice.
My house was
recently broken into.
My wife's worried about
history repeating itself.
So, my‐ my daughter Tess...
uh... I have three daughters.
Anyway, Tess sees a therapist.
Um...
it's really helped her.
So, I think that's
what I'm looking
to get out of this is
coping mechanisms.
Okay, well,
before we get to that,
I'd like to know
a little more about you.
I'm an open book...
where do you want to start?
The beginning?
So, I'm actually adopted.
I was left at a fire station
the day I was born,
and a fireman took me
to the hospital,
- where he met my parents...
- I'm so sorry.
Before we get
too far into the weeds here,
full disclosure...
I do know who you are.
I've actually heard that story
in one of your speeches.
In many of your speeches,
actually.
Oh, you know...
...my speeches.
‐ Mom?
‐ Yes, Kevin?
- ‐ Baseball cards.
- ‐ Not yet.
So unfair.
Well, so is life.
Look, you‐ you're making
Kate's favorite dinner
because she got dumped.
And you're returning
Randall's library books
because he's a massive nerd.
The least you could do
is give me
five minutes
at the baseball card store.
Uh, I didn't go to the grocery
store just for Kate.
I also bought groceries,
including two chickens
that I will cook
for the whole family.
I wish you were more
like Sophie's mom.
She's fun.
Uh... I'm fun.
I am as fun as Sophie's mom.
I am a fun mom.
Oh, wait, are you being serious?
Okay, fine.
Fine. We will go
to the baseball card store.
‐ Yes.
‐ Because I'm fun.
‐ But five minutes only.
‐ Okay.
Five minutes, Kevin,
you hear me?
‐ Got it.
‐ Seriously. We have groceries,
including frozen vegetables
‐ and dairy.
‐ All right. Thank you.
I cannot believe I'm here.
‐ Yeah.
‐ Kevin.
You know, Joni Mitchell lived
in this house
‐ with Graham Nash.
‐ Wow.
Wait, what are you doing?
I was gonna ring the bell.
Don't you want to see inside?
Isn't that rude
to just show up unannounced?
It's not fair, but being
a celebrity is like having
a Fast Pass
to pretty much everything
‐ you want to do in life.
‐
Hmm.
Except of course
making people magically home.
‐ Oh.
‐ Mom?
It's open.
It's open. Come on.
- ‐ Mom.
- Come on.
All right.
If I end up on TMZ
for breaking
into Joni Mitchell's old house
with my mom...
Actually, I mean,
that could play.
Hey, Dad?
I have an "A" in P.E.
I really don't need
to be doing this.
It's not about grades, Randall.
Exercise is about
getting blood moving
through your whole body.
Okay? Now, I want you to run
until that worried feeling
in the pit of your stomach
goes away.
I really don't like running.
Yeah. How about racing?
Huh? Come on.
You and me,
once around the track.
I'll even give you a head start.
Yeah.
Hey, just do me a favor?
Try and make it interesting.
Okay, runners.
On your marks...
get set...
- ‐ Go!
- I guess
what I'm saying is, I'm
fortunate to have been shaped
by two incredible fathers...
the one I lost
and the one I gained.
It's in my speeches
for a reason.
‐ Of course.
‐ Yeah, of course.
You know, I can't help but feel
like I'm throwing
off my back foot here.
It's like you googled me.
Isn't that against the rules?
I mean, I just find it weird
that you waited
to bring that up.
You knew...
No, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm only gonna get out of it
what I put in, right?
Not your fault.
I'm a public figure...
I shouldn't have been surprised.
Where were we?
Family.
Family. Sure. Of course.
I just told him
it‐ it wasn't enough
for him to want to be
a good father.
Just needs to be one.
And now I don't even know
if he's being sincere
or if he's just telling me
what I want to hear.
Could it be both?
I mean... trust me,
I will take whatever position
you take right now.
But is it possible he just took
what you said to heart?
I don't know.
Do you want to know
why I think I slept with Kevin?
‐ Um, no. Mm‐ mm.
‐ It was nice to be
with someone who actually knew
something about me.
As opposed to...
Tinder dates or being set up.
I mean, he has seen me
at the hospital with no makeup.
And at your house not trying
to be perky or appealing.
What you and Toby have,
what I dream of finding,
is that intimacy.
It's letting people see
the worst part of you without...
being scared.
And I am just
gonna say this and duck.
But shouldn't Toby be able
to express his deepest fears
without punishment?
Isn't that what marriage is?
Okay.
When did you become
the counselor of relationships
with Bachelor in Paradise?
I listen to a lot
of relationship podcasts.
I keep hoping
I'll need them someday.
So, are we good?
Yes.
But you're on probation.
You love me.
Most of the time.
Can I just tell you one thing
your brother did to me?
‐ No. ‐ I was literally
upside‐ down at one point.
‐ Madison.
‐ Just use your imagination.
Hey. You got
any '91s left, Carl?
Ooh, not many.
What are you looking for, Kev?
I need a '91 John Candelaria
to finish off last year's set.
I got ten bucks to do it.
Well, I've got
only 16 packs left,
but I like your chances
‐ of finding it. ‐ Great,
I'll take 'em. Thank you.
Eight dollars and 40 cents.
Right.
No John Candlemalaria?
No?
Well, buck up, sweetheart.
You have, what, 14 packs left?
Here. Blow on this one...
for good luck.
Oh, gosh, this gum is really
not very good.
The flavor only lasts a minute.
You got to replace it,
like, every 60 seconds.
‐ I feel good about this one.
‐ Yeah?
Yeah, yeah. Come on.
‐ Cool.
‐ Hey!
Batter, batter, batter, swing!
Come on.
Did you know that Graham Nash
wrote the song "Our House"
about this house?
‐ Oh, really?
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
‐ Huh.
‐ One morning
Joni and Graham went down
to the Valley
to have breakfast at Art's Deli.
And after breakfast they were
walking down Ventura Boulevard,
and Joni spotted this vase
in a store window
that she really liked.
Mm‐ hmm.
So they bought it.
And they brought it back home,
and Graham suggested
that Joni pick some flowers
for the vase
while he built a fire.
Mm‐ hmm.
♪ I'll light the fire ♪
♪ You place the flowers ♪
♪ In the vase
that you bought today ♪
♪ Staring at the fire ♪
♪ For hours and hours... ♪
‐ Come on, Jack.
‐ No, no, I...
♪ While I listen to you ♪
♪ Play your love songs ♪
♪ All night long for me ♪
♪ Only for me‐ ee‐ ee ♪
♪ Come to me now ♪
♪ Rest your head
for just five minutes ♪
♪ Everything ♪
♪ Is done. ♪
‐ You still got it.
‐ Hmm.
An otherwise simple morning
might have been forgotten
if it weren't for that song.
Are you scared?
A little.
But I'm not even thinking
about any of that right now
'cause I am...
I'm right here with you.
You've always had
that quality, Kevin.
You make everything fun.
Which I know you probably think
is a bad thing sometimes,
and maybe people don't
take you seriously.
You're ice cold.
Let me try. Let me try.
Ready?
Okay. Okay.
Nope.
It's not it.
What?
Sometimes making people forget
about their worries,
or what comes next...
that's the most important thing
you can do for someone.
So,
we've talked about your panic attacks
and your relationship
with your two fathers.
How is your relationship
with your mother?
It's good.
I love my mother.
We're very close.
If you sense me tensing up
right now,
it's because of her illness,
not because
of my relationship with her.
Trust me when I say
I'm not here because of her.
I'm here
because I have control issues.
Is that your... self‐ diagnosis?
I think it's kind of obvious.
Like how you're trying
to control the conversation away
from talking about your mom?
Okay, Dr. Melfi.
I get it.
I get what you're doing here.
I mean, is it broke
or something? What's the...?
Do you want to talk about why
that's bothering you?
But then I would have to admit
that it's bothering me.
Ha, ha.
Okay. All right.
So... this is all part of it,
right?
The waiting room, the painting?
Is that how
your operation works?
Just agitate your patients
into having a breakdown?
‐
‐ Ah, apologies.
I need to check this.
Oh, good.
Looks like my brother
will be taking my mom
to her follow‐ up appointment
today.
What could go wrong?
♪ All I can say is that
my life is pretty plain ♪
♪ I like watchin' ♪
♪ The puddles gather rain... ♪
Hey, bud,
take your stuff upstairs, okay?
Thanks.
Hi.
♪ And speak
my point of view... ♪
Look, I‐ I know you don't want
to talk about Stuart, all right?
‐ Especially not with your dad.
‐ I don't.
♪ I just want someone
to say... ♪
Hey, do you know how,
some Saturdays,
when I make waffles, you guys
see me toss the first one out?
That's because
the waffle iron is too hot,
or maybe
it's not hot enough, or,
you know,
I made the batter too thick.
First boyfriends are kind of
like first waffles.
Okay? You‐ you got to...
get through a few
before you get it right.
♪ I sleep all day... ♪
Yours is out there. He's just...
He's still cooking.
Hello?
- Hi.
- Hi.
Thank God you're finally home.
He conked out,
like, an hour ago,
and I've been too
afraid to move.
Oh.
‐ How'd it go with Madison?
‐ Surprisingly well.
She's not gonna be
my sister‐ in‐ law, is she?
No. It's all good.
‐ Mm.
‐ Tobe?
Yeah.
I don't want to resent you
for being honest
about your feelings.
And I don't want you
to resent me
for resenting you
about your feelings.
I love you.
And I'm tired
of the me versus you.
I mean, we're our best when
it's me and you versus everyone.
‐ You know?
‐ Yeah.
Now can I see the studio?
I know I cut it short before,
but...
I think it's one
of your all‐ time...
sweetest,
most romantic gestures.
Actually, it's number one.
You just haven't seen
the rest of it.
Can you show me?
Oh, I'm starving.
Let's go get something to eat.
What about, um, that‐ that fancy
sushi restaurant that you love?
Uh... okay. I don't know if
we have the time, though, Ma.
I mean, uh, we got
to get Miguel, I got to get you
‐ to your doctor's appointment.
‐ No.
No, we can reschedule that.
Ooh, maybe I can try
that dangerous food
you're always talking about.
What's it called?
‐ The, the blowfish.
‐ Blowfish.
- Yeah.
‐ Yes.
Uh, yeah, I just... I don't want
to reinforce
this family's narrative
that I'm not dependable.
Kevin, they're only MRI results.
They can wait until tomorrow.
Mom...
I don't... I don't want to go.
'Cause I don't want
today to end.
Today's gonna end
no matter what.
But there's tomorrow.
There's tomorrow,
and I will be here,
and we will do something else.
I promise.
It's not that I need
to be in control.
My mother depends on me.
I'm the only one
who can take care of her.
It's been that way a long time.
And, yes, before you drop Freud
on me, I get it.
I have a very complicated
relationship with my mother.
But if I'm not the one who's
taking care of her, who will?
Her husband?
He's a nice guy,
but he's been missing this thing
for months.
My brother?
Just you wait.
By the end of this session,
I'll get a text saying that
he completely lost track of time
and forgot about
the appointment, all the...
She made me promise
not to tell anyone
when she got diagnosed.
Why?
Because my brother
is a recovering addict.
My sister has a kid
with special needs.
They have enough on their plate.
As if I don't.
And if you think
this is new information to me,
if you think I'm having
some kind of revelation
right now, I'm not.
Which is why
this is a waste of time.
I know my faults.
I know what triggers me.
But I think my faults
are good faults,
and I would rather have them
than to not have them.
And I know you think
I'm spiraling right now.
I've seen the shows.
I know the drill.
But, hey, if it wasn't for me,
this whole family
would have fallen apart.
Would they?
You...
"Would they?"
You know, um...
You don't get it,
and I don't have time
to explain it.
And, uh, due respect,
how am I supposed to take
mental health advice
from someone who doesn't
throw out magazines from 2017?
From someone who doesn't
refill cups at the water cooler?
From someone who put...
It's not that hard, Doc.
Just turn it off
when you're done.
‐ Hey there.
‐ Hey.
‐ Sorry I missed dinner.
‐
Where, uh, where are the girls?
Uh, Deja's upstairs,
FaceTiming with Malik.
Tess and Annie
are doing their homework.
Right on.
I tried, babe.
I just don't think it's for me.
I...
Well, not...
At least not right now.
I'm not closing the door on it.
Okay.
You good?
Mm‐ hmm.
I knew you'd find
something wrong with it.
There's nothing wrong with it.
‐ It's just, um...
‐ I think
you should try
to give it a chance.
Maybe you should just go
a couple more times,
‐ and‐and then if you still.
‐ Thank you, Beth,
- think that..
- But I'm okay.
All right? And I know
you think I need this,
‐ but...
‐ Babe?
I need this.
Sorry?
You want to know
why I didn't let you
go through my purse
this morning?
Why?
You bought Annie the iPhone.
It's a bottle of pepper spray
'cause sometimes I have to lock
up the studio alone at night.
And that didn't used
to bother me,
but now it does.
This is doctor‐ prescribed.
You know, I haven't been
sleeping very well.
She gave me three pills
just to get me over the hump.
And yeah.
This is a phone for Annie,
but it's not
because she wants it.
It's because I want her
to have it
because there was a strange man
in our house,
and I need to know
where my baby is at all times.
I'm sorry, Beth, I didn't know.
Of course you didn't.
'Cause I didn't tell you.
Because I was worried
that if I lay anything else
on you,
you were gonna crack.
But I want to tell you.
I need to.
You're my person.
Unless you're gonna get
the help you need...
...I can't.
The MoCA test
ruled out impairment
due to stroke or tumor.
The brain MRI revealed
hippocampal atrophy, which means
shrinkage in the memory centers
of the brain.
We're not making a diagnosis
based solely on the MRI,
but hippocampal atrophy
would support a diagnosis
of mild cognitive impairment,
likely due to Alzheimer's,
suggesting a clear course
of action for us.
So, the truth is,
I didn't clean out the garage
just for you.
I cleaned it out for Jack, too.
See, the music studio is for...
the both of you.
Ta‐ da.
What?
Obviously,
we will have to upgrade it
as he grows, but if any kid
deserves a playroom
with every sound known to man,
it is Jumpin' Jack Damon.
Toby, I love it.
And you're right.
This is the number one gesture.
Thank you.
‐ Told you.
‐ I know.
Hey, I'm gonna make some tea,
gather up the Swedish Fish
for movie night.
I'm thinking Borat.
Perfect.
‐ Sweetheart?
‐ Yeah.
I have a favor to ask of you,
and it's important.
Yeah, anything.
Please don't start treating me
any differently, okay?
I need the fun.
I need the laughs.
I'm serious, Kevin.
I need that part of you.
Okay.
I also really want to go
to your movie premiere
in New York.
I see Matt Damon
bringing his mom.
That's different.
They're engaged.
♪ Such a cozy room ♪
♪ The windows are illuminated ♪
♪ By the evening ♪
♪ Sunshine through them ♪
♪ Fiery gems ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ Only for you, ooh, ooh ♪
Come on. Sing it.
♪ Our house ♪
♪ Is a very, very,
very fine house ♪
‐ ♪ Very fine house ♪
‐ Nice.
‐ ♪ Two cats in the yard ♪
‐
‐ ♪ In the yard ♪
‐ ♪ Life used to be so hard ♪
♪ Now everything is easy ♪
‐ ♪ 'Cause of you ♪
‐ ♪ 'Cause of you. ♪
♪ I'll light the fire ♪
♪ You place the flowers ♪
♪ In the vase ♪
♪ That you bought ♪
♪ Today ♪
♪ Staring at the fire ♪
♪ For hours and hours ♪
♪ While I listen ♪
♪ To you play your love songs ♪
♪ All night long ♪
♪ For me ♪
♪ Only for me ♪
♪ Come to me now ♪
‐ ♪ Come to me now ♪
‐ ♪ And rest your head ♪
♪ For just five minutes ♪
♪ Everything is done ♪
♪ Such a cozy room ♪
‐ ♪ Such a cozy room ♪
‐ ♪ The windows are illuminated ♪
♪ By the evening... ♪
Sorry about the other day.
This is new for me.
Don't mention it.
Coffee?
I'm good.
♪ Our house ♪
♪ Is a very, very,
very fine house ♪
♪ With two cats in the yard ♪
♪ Life used to be so hard ♪
♪ Now everything is easy ♪
♪ 'Cause of you ♪
♪ And our ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la, la... ♪
‐ You mind if I, uh...?
‐ Sure.
♪ La, la, la, la,
la, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ Our... ♪
‐ How much?
‐ Two dollars.
♪ Is a very, very,
very fine house ♪
♪ Very fine house ♪
♪ With two cats in the yard ♪
♪ Life used to be so hard ♪
♪ Now everything is easy ♪
♪ 'Cause of you ♪
♪ And our... ♪
Yes!
‐ Did it!
‐ Finally.
♪ While you place ♪
♪ The flowers in the vase ♪
♪ That you bought ♪
♪ Today. ♪
"This Is Us"...
Mom is suffering
from cognitive impairment.
Mom asked me
not to tell you guys.
She didn't want to add
any more stress to your plates.
Let me take care of Jack
this weekend.
I need to spend time
with my son.
You like it?
Hey, Kate.
Uh. It's Madison.
I slept with Kevin!
I've been anxious for so long.
Beth thinks
I should see a therapist.
Well, maybe you should.
Sorry I'm late, guys.
I got out of there
just as soon as I could.
‐Hi. Hi.
‐Hi.
Report Card Day.
‐ They've been waiting.
‐ Report Card Day.
Let's... do this, huh?
Oh.
- Oh, that is a serious face.
- Oh, yeah.
‐ Bec, this is bad news.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
I think, maybe,
could it be his...
straight‐ A streak is over?
Oh, an A‐ minus in geometry.
Oh, you are so grounded.
I'm putting too much time
into Mathletes
and not enough time
into actual math.
Oh, no, hey,
come on, this is great, pal.
‐ Really. Forget it.
- Hey.
‐ Bug, are you okay?
‐ Wait, so...
she could be bluffing.
‐ Is she bluffing?
‐ Is she?
Huh.
Improvements in biology...
‐ and civics.
‐ Yeah, Kate, this is great.
‐ What's wrong?
‐ Stuart broke up with me.
‐ Aw, hon...
‐ No.
I need to be alone.
Don't follow me.
‐ Katie girl...
‐ No, no, I...
‐ I will handle that.
‐ Sure.
Let's do Kevin quickly,
and then I'll go upstairs.
Oh, that's a very smug mug, sir.
Can it be...?
Two As, baby.
What?
Yeah, in P.E. and art.
The rest are Cs and two Ds.
"Disruptive in class."
"Arrives late."
"Needs to be center
of attention"? Kevin.
Two As are two As.
Mom said I'd get five dollars
for every "A."
Bet you five bucks you
don't know what that adds up to.
I'm gonna buy an entire box of
baseball cards with my winnings.
Yeah, well,
I'm gonna contest my grade.
That'll be an "A" by next week.
You know, Randall,
it wouldn't hurt you to...
to lighten up on yourself.
No way.
I'm going to fix this.
Hey. Ten bucks. American.
The second I talk
to Mrs. Hollins,
it'll be up to an "A."
Hey, babe?
Randall is getting worse.
Do we need to talk to someone,
like a guidance counsellor
‐ or a...? ‐ No, come on,
he's just, he's wound up tight.
All right?
He needs to blow off some steam.
Blow off steam?
Don't worry about it.
I got it. Go on.
Okay.
Everything okay?
Uh, yeah, why?
I don't know,
just thought you'd be
a little more refreshed
after a weekend at the cabin.
Ah. Um,
Mom's getting the results
for her MRI this afternoon,
and I can tell
she's a little nervous.
Just really hate
not being there in person.
But, hey, that's something
you could talk about in therapy,
‐ right?
‐ Yeah.
I'm so proud of you.
This is a big step.
It's not that big of a deal.
All right.
‐ No big deal.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
Uh, so, hey, listen, you know,
Annie's birthday is coming up,
‐ and I was thinking... ‐ Have you
still got that organic beeswax balm
‐ you keep talking about?
‐ Hey, out of my purse, man.
What are you...?
Aah! What?
‐ And I was thinking...
‐ Thank you.
That we could get her
the iPhone.
We agreed:
no iPhones until junior high.
I know. But, you know,
she's so cute when she begs.
‐ Mm‐ hmm. ‐ You know,
the Force is strong with that one.
But it is stronger in us.
At least it is now.
Mmm.
I love your lip balm.
I love your face.
Yeah...
‐ Hey.
‐ Morning.
You're up early.
Coffee's fresh.
Hi.
Hi.
My goodness.
Someone was asleep
when Mommy got home last night
from the cabin.
Um, I know we didn't really get
a chance to talk last night,
so I'll start.
I'm sorry.
For everything.
I said what I said out of...
fear and‐ and worry
and exhaustion,
and if I could take it all back,
I would.
But...
This weekend was a real godsend.
So without further ado,
would you please follow
me and Jack to the garage?
We have a surprise for you.
All right, you're gonna have
to use your imagination here.
But I was thinking...
we turn the garage...
into a music studio, huh?
Now... here, take him...
it's not all...
up to scale...
But, uh, this would be...
the microphone.
Testing, one, two, three.
‐ So, stay with me.
‐ Toby.
This is the pièce de résistance.
Ready?
Toby, please stop.
Please.
I really appreciate
what you're trying to do.
But, you know,
after one weekend...
I'm just having tr...
This is very nice.
It's a very sweet gesture.
I‐ I just,
I'm gonna need some time.
Okay.
What?
Is everything okay?
Is it your mom?
No, it's Madison.
She slept with Kevin,
so she wants to have brunch
so she can apologize.
I'm sorry, I know
that we're kind of in the middle
of a thing right now,
but permission to react?
Yeah.
What?!
How was your trip
with your brother
and your sister?
Oh, the trip was great.
You know, very peaceful,
lot of bonding.
‐ Exactly what I needed.
It was wonderful. ‐ Yeah.
‐ Nice.
‐ How are you?
I'm good.
Well, that's great.
I mean, you look great.
‐ I do?
‐ Yes, you do.
Well, thank you.
Wonderful, actually.
They told you, didn't they?
What? Told me what? No.
Kevin.
Randall let it slip.
Sweetheart, I'm sorry.
‐ No.
‐ No, I, I wanted to tell you
‐ in person myself.
‐ No, no, no, no. Listen,
don't you worry about me,
you understand?
I'm... I'm here
to take care of you.
All right?
How are you really feeling?
I know you have some MRI results
coming back today, right?
‐ Mm‐ hmm. I'm‐ I'm good, though.
‐ Okay.
I'm good. I'm a little anxious
about today, I'm not gonna lie,
but it's funny, somehow all
of this bad news has sort of...
freed me up.
Carpe diem and all that.
‐ Hey. How you doing?
‐ Hey.
Ah. Good.
‐ Good.
‐ Yeah?
‐ All things considered, yeah.
‐ Okay.
Great. Well... Oh, man.
What‐ what‐ what are you guys
doing today?
Oh. We actually
were planning on going to visit
some of those, um...
old‐ fashioned record stores.
Something we say
we always want to do,
and we never do it,
so we're doing it.
‐ Fun. Can I come?
‐ Yeah.
You want to?
‐ Yeah. ‐ I got an idea.
‐ Huh?
Why don't you two go off
and make a day of it.
‐ Just the two of you.
‐ Are you sure?
Yeah. Carpe Diem Rebecca
is running me ragged.
You just make
sure that you have her back in time
for her doctor's appointment
at 4:30.
‐ I can do that.
‐ Okay.
Mr. Pearson.
‐ Yeah. Hello.
Hi.
It's a pleasure to meet you,
Randall.
Please sit.
Can I get you something
to drink?
Um... likewise.
And no, thank you.
Uh...
what's with the...?
I find it comforting.
Well, at least you'll
have something to look at
if I bore you.
So, what brings you here today?
It's kind of a long story.
You got an hour?
Okay.
*THIS IS US*
Season 04 Episode 15
Episode Title: "Clouds"
Sync & corrections by srjanapala
Come on, guys.
You're gonna be late for school.
Kev. Baseball cards
back up in your room, please.
Hustle, Kevin. I'm meeting
Mrs. Hollins before class
to talk about
changing my grade.
Can you take me to the baseball
card store after school?
Nope. I'm sorry,
I don't have time.
I have errands to run:
grocery store, bank,
library, dry cleaning.
Sorry.
Then, can you give me the money
for my two As?
I want to feel it burning
in my pocket all day.
Hey, Kev, come on,
baseball cards upstairs.
Randall, you remember
I'm picking you up from school?
‐ You got your stuff?
‐ Yeah.
Okay, good. Wait in the car.
Hey, Kate? Come on!
♪ I'll be loving you ♪
♪ Forever... ♪
Bug?
It's time to go.
I go. I stay.
What does it matter?
I'm gonna go to the market
a little later today.
Do you have any requests
for dinner?
Three‐ cheese macaroni?
You got it.
‐ Hi.
‐ How about after school
I come with you
on your errands,
and then we can swing by
the card store afterwards?
Fine.
Okay, let's go.
♪ Rows and flows of angel hair ♪
♪ And ice cream castles
in the air ♪
♪ And feather canyons ♪
♪ Everywhere ♪
♪ I've looked at clouds
that way, but now... ♪
Ah.
I miss that crackle
on the record before the music.
Joni...
I would spend
hours staring
at this album artwork.
Reading all the sleeve notes.
Okay, boomer.
Ha, you can laugh at me
all you want,
but my record collection...
was my whole world.
Kind of like you
and your baseball cards.
Oh, okay.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
All right, no,
my‐ my baseball cards, that,
that was, that was real,
that was a collection, okay?
There‐ there was strategy
involved, there was commerce.
‐ I mean, the whole thing.
‐ Oh, I remember.
‐ Yeah.
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
Did I ever tell you
the first time
your father and I
came out to I. A.,
we tried to find
Joni Mitchell's old house
in, um, Laurel Canyon?
I think we passed Mount Olympus.
You sure the map's
not upside‐ down?
No.
We got close, we even
wandered around
Joni's neighborhood,
but we never found the house,
so... we gave up.
Maybe we should
finish the job, you know?
We'll find Joni Mitchell's
old house.
How?
- ‐ Hey, Siri?
- ‐
Where's Joni Mitchell's
old house?
‐ What are you doing?
‐ Here's what I found on the Web.
Is that it? That her house?
‐ Oh, my goodness, yes!
‐ Yeah?
Yes, that‐ that's the house.
Well, uh, do you think
we have time, though,
before your doctor's
appointment?
Well, if we don't have time,
we're gonna make time.
‐ Okay, Carpe Diem Rebecca.
‐ Yes.
Here we go, all right.
Hey, girl.
Get over here.
It's nice to see you.
Isn't this place cute?
I love coming here for brunch.
It's hip but still normal...
Okay, Madison, let's
just cut the preamble.
Okay, let's just
get it over with.
I screwed up.
You are so important to me,
and friends don't
do that to friends.
Or their brothers.
Honestly, I don't know
what I was thinking.
Other than I have never
seen anyone so hot
and so vulnerable
at the same time.
My brain just shorted.
I mean, I know he's
your brother, but...
my God.
I am so sorry.
I am ashamed and embarrassed,
and it'll never happen again.
I really don't know what
to think about all of this.
And it really couldn't have come
at a more terrible time.
Is it that CrossFit bitch?
I'll kill her.
Is it Toby?
I'll kill him.
You just say the word,
I will Kill Bill all of them
and help you raise
that child myself.
Talk to me, Kate.
Please?
So, how we doing this, Doc...
is it Good Will Hunting
or The Sopranos?
No, I'm just playing. I, um...
I'm comfortable
speaking about my emotions.
I'm an emotional man.
No shame.
Uh...
before we start, let me just...
...put this on silent.
My, uh, mom's got a doctor's
appointment today,
but there's no need
for any distractions, right?
Okay.
All yours.
Is she okay?
Ah, she's fine.
Um, early signs of dementia,
but we're on top of it.
Today's just
a follow‐ up appointment,
but that's‐ that's
not why I'm here.
So, why are you here?
Um...
I have anxiety.
Suffer from, is that the...?
Doesn't matter.
Maybe once every decade
things get too...
overwhelming.
I'll have a panic attack.
I'll be hospitalized.
That's happened twice.
My house was
recently broken into.
My wife's worried about
history repeating itself.
So, my‐ my daughter Tess...
uh... I have three daughters.
Anyway, Tess sees a therapist.
Um...
it's really helped her.
So, I think that's
what I'm looking
to get out of this is
coping mechanisms.
Okay, well,
before we get to that,
I'd like to know
a little more about you.
I'm an open book...
where do you want to start?
The beginning?
So, I'm actually adopted.
I was left at a fire station
the day I was born,
and a fireman took me
to the hospital,
- where he met my parents...
- I'm so sorry.
Before we get
too far into the weeds here,
full disclosure...
I do know who you are.
I've actually heard that story
in one of your speeches.
In many of your speeches,
actually.
Oh, you know...
...my speeches.
‐ Mom?
‐ Yes, Kevin?
- ‐ Baseball cards.
- ‐ Not yet.
So unfair.
Well, so is life.
Look, you‐ you're making
Kate's favorite dinner
because she got dumped.
And you're returning
Randall's library books
because he's a massive nerd.
The least you could do
is give me
five minutes
at the baseball card store.
Uh, I didn't go to the grocery
store just for Kate.
I also bought groceries,
including two chickens
that I will cook
for the whole family.
I wish you were more
like Sophie's mom.
She's fun.
Uh... I'm fun.
I am as fun as Sophie's mom.
I am a fun mom.
Oh, wait, are you being serious?
Okay, fine.
Fine. We will go
to the baseball card store.
‐ Yes.
‐ Because I'm fun.
‐ But five minutes only.
‐ Okay.
Five minutes, Kevin,
you hear me?
‐ Got it.
‐ Seriously. We have groceries,
including frozen vegetables
‐ and dairy.
‐ All right. Thank you.
I cannot believe I'm here.
‐ Yeah.
‐ Kevin.
You know, Joni Mitchell lived
in this house
‐ with Graham Nash.
‐ Wow.
Wait, what are you doing?
I was gonna ring the bell.
Don't you want to see inside?
Isn't that rude
to just show up unannounced?
It's not fair, but being
a celebrity is like having
a Fast Pass
to pretty much everything
‐ you want to do in life.
‐
Hmm.
Except of course
making people magically home.
‐ Oh.
‐ Mom?
It's open.
It's open. Come on.
- ‐ Mom.
- Come on.
All right.
If I end up on TMZ
for breaking
into Joni Mitchell's old house
with my mom...
Actually, I mean,
that could play.
Hey, Dad?
I have an "A" in P.E.
I really don't need
to be doing this.
It's not about grades, Randall.
Exercise is about
getting blood moving
through your whole body.
Okay? Now, I want you to run
until that worried feeling
in the pit of your stomach
goes away.
I really don't like running.
Yeah. How about racing?
Huh? Come on.
You and me,
once around the track.
I'll even give you a head start.
Yeah.
Hey, just do me a favor?
Try and make it interesting.
Okay, runners.
On your marks...
get set...
- ‐ Go!
- I guess
what I'm saying is, I'm
fortunate to have been shaped
by two incredible fathers...
the one I lost
and the one I gained.
It's in my speeches
for a reason.
‐ Of course.
‐ Yeah, of course.
You know, I can't help but feel
like I'm throwing
off my back foot here.
It's like you googled me.
Isn't that against the rules?
I mean, I just find it weird
that you waited
to bring that up.
You knew...
No, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm only gonna get out of it
what I put in, right?
Not your fault.
I'm a public figure...
I shouldn't have been surprised.
Where were we?
Family.
Family. Sure. Of course.
I just told him
it‐ it wasn't enough
for him to want to be
a good father.
Just needs to be one.
And now I don't even know
if he's being sincere
or if he's just telling me
what I want to hear.
Could it be both?
I mean... trust me,
I will take whatever position
you take right now.
But is it possible he just took
what you said to heart?
I don't know.
Do you want to know
why I think I slept with Kevin?
‐ Um, no. Mm‐ mm.
‐ It was nice to be
with someone who actually knew
something about me.
As opposed to...
Tinder dates or being set up.
I mean, he has seen me
at the hospital with no makeup.
And at your house not trying
to be perky or appealing.
What you and Toby have,
what I dream of finding,
is that intimacy.
It's letting people see
the worst part of you without...
being scared.
And I am just
gonna say this and duck.
But shouldn't Toby be able
to express his deepest fears
without punishment?
Isn't that what marriage is?
Okay.
When did you become
the counselor of relationships
with Bachelor in Paradise?
I listen to a lot
of relationship podcasts.
I keep hoping
I'll need them someday.
So, are we good?
Yes.
But you're on probation.
You love me.
Most of the time.
Can I just tell you one thing
your brother did to me?
‐ No. ‐ I was literally
upside‐ down at one point.
‐ Madison.
‐ Just use your imagination.
Hey. You got
any '91s left, Carl?
Ooh, not many.
What are you looking for, Kev?
I need a '91 John Candelaria
to finish off last year's set.
I got ten bucks to do it.
Well, I've got
only 16 packs left,
but I like your chances
‐ of finding it. ‐ Great,
I'll take 'em. Thank you.
Eight dollars and 40 cents.
Right.
No John Candlemalaria?
No?
Well, buck up, sweetheart.
You have, what, 14 packs left?
Here. Blow on this one...
for good luck.
Oh, gosh, this gum is really
not very good.
The flavor only lasts a minute.
You got to replace it,
like, every 60 seconds.
‐ I feel good about this one.
‐ Yeah?
Yeah, yeah. Come on.
‐ Cool.
‐ Hey!
Batter, batter, batter, swing!
Come on.
Did you know that Graham Nash
wrote the song "Our House"
about this house?
‐ Oh, really?
‐ Mm‐ hmm.
‐ Huh.
‐ One morning
Joni and Graham went down
to the Valley
to have breakfast at Art's Deli.
And after breakfast they were
walking down Ventura Boulevard,
and Joni spotted this vase
in a store window
that she really liked.
Mm‐ hmm.
So they bought it.
And they brought it back home,
and Graham suggested
that Joni pick some flowers
for the vase
while he built a fire.
Mm‐ hmm.
♪ I'll light the fire ♪
♪ You place the flowers ♪
♪ In the vase
that you bought today ♪
♪ Staring at the fire ♪
♪ For hours and hours... ♪
‐ Come on, Jack.
‐ No, no, I...
♪ While I listen to you ♪
♪ Play your love songs ♪
♪ All night long for me ♪
♪ Only for me‐ ee‐ ee ♪
♪ Come to me now ♪
♪ Rest your head
for just five minutes ♪
♪ Everything ♪
♪ Is done. ♪
‐ You still got it.
‐ Hmm.
An otherwise simple morning
might have been forgotten
if it weren't for that song.
Are you scared?
A little.
But I'm not even thinking
about any of that right now
'cause I am...
I'm right here with you.
You've always had
that quality, Kevin.
You make everything fun.
Which I know you probably think
is a bad thing sometimes,
and maybe people don't
take you seriously.
You're ice cold.
Let me try. Let me try.
Ready?
Okay. Okay.
Nope.
It's not it.
What?
Sometimes making people forget
about their worries,
or what comes next...
that's the most important thing
you can do for someone.
So,
we've talked about your panic attacks
and your relationship
with your two fathers.
How is your relationship
with your mother?
It's good.
I love my mother.
We're very close.
If you sense me tensing up
right now,
it's because of her illness,
not because
of my relationship with her.
Trust me when I say
I'm not here because of her.
I'm here
because I have control issues.
Is that your... self‐ diagnosis?
I think it's kind of obvious.
Like how you're trying
to control the conversation away
from talking about your mom?
Okay, Dr. Melfi.
I get it.
I get what you're doing here.
I mean, is it broke
or something? What's the...?
Do you want to talk about why
that's bothering you?
But then I would have to admit
that it's bothering me.
Ha, ha.
Okay. All right.
So... this is all part of it,
right?
The waiting room, the painting?
Is that how
your operation works?
Just agitate your patients
into having a breakdown?
‐
‐ Ah, apologies.
I need to check this.
Oh, good.
Looks like my brother
will be taking my mom
to her follow‐ up appointment
today.
What could go wrong?
♪ All I can say is that
my life is pretty plain ♪
♪ I like watchin' ♪
♪ The puddles gather rain... ♪
Hey, bud,
take your stuff upstairs, okay?
Thanks.
Hi.
♪ And speak
my point of view... ♪
Look, I‐ I know you don't want
to talk about Stuart, all right?
‐ Especially not with your dad.
‐ I don't.
♪ I just want someone
to say... ♪
Hey, do you know how,
some Saturdays,
when I make waffles, you guys
see me toss the first one out?
That's because
the waffle iron is too hot,
or maybe
it's not hot enough, or,
you know,
I made the batter too thick.
First boyfriends are kind of
like first waffles.
Okay? You‐ you got to...
get through a few
before you get it right.
♪ I sleep all day... ♪
Yours is out there. He's just...
He's still cooking.
Hello?
- Hi.
- Hi.
Thank God you're finally home.
He conked out,
like, an hour ago,
and I've been too
afraid to move.
Oh.
‐ How'd it go with Madison?
‐ Surprisingly well.
She's not gonna be
my sister‐ in‐ law, is she?
No. It's all good.
‐ Mm.
‐ Tobe?
Yeah.
I don't want to resent you
for being honest
about your feelings.
And I don't want you
to resent me
for resenting you
about your feelings.
I love you.
And I'm tired
of the me versus you.
I mean, we're our best when
it's me and you versus everyone.
‐ You know?
‐ Yeah.
Now can I see the studio?
I know I cut it short before,
but...
I think it's one
of your all‐ time...
sweetest,
most romantic gestures.
Actually, it's number one.
You just haven't seen
the rest of it.
Can you show me?
Oh, I'm starving.
Let's go get something to eat.
What about, um, that‐ that fancy
sushi restaurant that you love?
Uh... okay. I don't know if
we have the time, though, Ma.
I mean, uh, we got
to get Miguel, I got to get you
‐ to your doctor's appointment.
‐ No.
No, we can reschedule that.
Ooh, maybe I can try
that dangerous food
you're always talking about.
What's it called?
‐ The, the blowfish.
‐ Blowfish.
- Yeah.
‐ Yes.
Uh, yeah, I just... I don't want
to reinforce
this family's narrative
that I'm not dependable.
Kevin, they're only MRI results.
They can wait until tomorrow.
Mom...
I don't... I don't want to go.
'Cause I don't want
today to end.
Today's gonna end
no matter what.
But there's tomorrow.
There's tomorrow,
and I will be here,
and we will do something else.
I promise.
It's not that I need
to be in control.
My mother depends on me.
I'm the only one
who can take care of her.
It's been that way a long time.
And, yes, before you drop Freud
on me, I get it.
I have a very complicated
relationship with my mother.
But if I'm not the one who's
taking care of her, who will?
Her husband?
He's a nice guy,
but he's been missing this thing
for months.
My brother?
Just you wait.
By the end of this session,
I'll get a text saying that
he completely lost track of time
and forgot about
the appointment, all the...
She made me promise
not to tell anyone
when she got diagnosed.
Why?
Because my brother
is a recovering addict.
My sister has a kid
with special needs.
They have enough on their plate.
As if I don't.
And if you think
this is new information to me,
if you think I'm having
some kind of revelation
right now, I'm not.
Which is why
this is a waste of time.
I know my faults.
I know what triggers me.
But I think my faults
are good faults,
and I would rather have them
than to not have them.
And I know you think
I'm spiraling right now.
I've seen the shows.
I know the drill.
But, hey, if it wasn't for me,
this whole family
would have fallen apart.
Would they?
You...
"Would they?"
You know, um...
You don't get it,
and I don't have time
to explain it.
And, uh, due respect,
how am I supposed to take
mental health advice
from someone who doesn't
throw out magazines from 2017?
From someone who doesn't
refill cups at the water cooler?
From someone who put...
It's not that hard, Doc.
Just turn it off
when you're done.
‐ Hey there.
‐ Hey.
‐ Sorry I missed dinner.
‐
Where, uh, where are the girls?
Uh, Deja's upstairs,
FaceTiming with Malik.
Tess and Annie
are doing their homework.
Right on.
I tried, babe.
I just don't think it's for me.
I...
Well, not...
At least not right now.
I'm not closing the door on it.
Okay.
You good?
Mm‐ hmm.
I knew you'd find
something wrong with it.
There's nothing wrong with it.
‐ It's just, um...
‐ I think
you should try
to give it a chance.
Maybe you should just go
a couple more times,
‐ and‐and then if you still.
‐ Thank you, Beth,
- think that..
- But I'm okay.
All right? And I know
you think I need this,
‐ but...
‐ Babe?
I need this.
Sorry?
You want to know
why I didn't let you
go through my purse
this morning?
Why?
You bought Annie the iPhone.
It's a bottle of pepper spray
'cause sometimes I have to lock
up the studio alone at night.
And that didn't used
to bother me,
but now it does.
This is doctor‐ prescribed.
You know, I haven't been
sleeping very well.
She gave me three pills
just to get me over the hump.
And yeah.
This is a phone for Annie,
but it's not
because she wants it.
It's because I want her
to have it
because there was a strange man
in our house,
and I need to know
where my baby is at all times.
I'm sorry, Beth, I didn't know.
Of course you didn't.
'Cause I didn't tell you.
Because I was worried
that if I lay anything else
on you,
you were gonna crack.
But I want to tell you.
I need to.
You're my person.
Unless you're gonna get
the help you need...
...I can't.
The MoCA test
ruled out impairment
due to stroke or tumor.
The brain MRI revealed
hippocampal atrophy, which means
shrinkage in the memory centers
of the brain.
We're not making a diagnosis
based solely on the MRI,
but hippocampal atrophy
would support a diagnosis
of mild cognitive impairment,
likely due to Alzheimer's,
suggesting a clear course
of action for us.
So, the truth is,
I didn't clean out the garage
just for you.
I cleaned it out for Jack, too.
See, the music studio is for...
the both of you.
Ta‐ da.
What?
Obviously,
we will have to upgrade it
as he grows, but if any kid
deserves a playroom
with every sound known to man,
it is Jumpin' Jack Damon.
Toby, I love it.
And you're right.
This is the number one gesture.
Thank you.
‐ Told you.
‐ I know.
Hey, I'm gonna make some tea,
gather up the Swedish Fish
for movie night.
I'm thinking Borat.
Perfect.
‐ Sweetheart?
‐ Yeah.
I have a favor to ask of you,
and it's important.
Yeah, anything.
Please don't start treating me
any differently, okay?
I need the fun.
I need the laughs.
I'm serious, Kevin.
I need that part of you.
Okay.
I also really want to go
to your movie premiere
in New York.
I see Matt Damon
bringing his mom.
That's different.
They're engaged.
♪ Such a cozy room ♪
♪ The windows are illuminated ♪
♪ By the evening ♪
♪ Sunshine through them ♪
♪ Fiery gems ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ Only for you, ooh, ooh ♪
Come on. Sing it.
♪ Our house ♪
♪ Is a very, very,
very fine house ♪
‐ ♪ Very fine house ♪
‐ Nice.
‐ ♪ Two cats in the yard ♪
‐
‐ ♪ In the yard ♪
‐ ♪ Life used to be so hard ♪
♪ Now everything is easy ♪
‐ ♪ 'Cause of you ♪
‐ ♪ 'Cause of you. ♪
♪ I'll light the fire ♪
♪ You place the flowers ♪
♪ In the vase ♪
♪ That you bought ♪
♪ Today ♪
♪ Staring at the fire ♪
♪ For hours and hours ♪
♪ While I listen ♪
♪ To you play your love songs ♪
♪ All night long ♪
♪ For me ♪
♪ Only for me ♪
♪ Come to me now ♪
‐ ♪ Come to me now ♪
‐ ♪ And rest your head ♪
♪ For just five minutes ♪
♪ Everything is done ♪
♪ Such a cozy room ♪
‐ ♪ Such a cozy room ♪
‐ ♪ The windows are illuminated ♪
♪ By the evening... ♪
Sorry about the other day.
This is new for me.
Don't mention it.
Coffee?
I'm good.
♪ Our house ♪
♪ Is a very, very,
very fine house ♪
♪ With two cats in the yard ♪
♪ Life used to be so hard ♪
♪ Now everything is easy ♪
♪ 'Cause of you ♪
♪ And our ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la, la... ♪
‐ You mind if I, uh...?
‐ Sure.
♪ La, la, la, la,
la, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ Our... ♪
‐ How much?
‐ Two dollars.
♪ Is a very, very,
very fine house ♪
♪ Very fine house ♪
♪ With two cats in the yard ♪
♪ Life used to be so hard ♪
♪ Now everything is easy ♪
♪ 'Cause of you ♪
♪ And our... ♪
Yes!
‐ Did it!
‐ Finally.
♪ While you place ♪
♪ The flowers in the vase ♪
♪ That you bought ♪
♪ Today. ♪