This Is Us (2016–…): Season 1, Episode 3 - Kyle - full transcript

Previously on this is us...
Baby?
Something's not right.

We lost the third baby, Jack.

I'm very sorry.

I like to think that you took

the sourest lemon
that life has to offer

and turned it into something

resembling lemonade.

36 years ago, my life started
with you leaving me

on a fire station doorstep.

Beth, the man has
stage iv stomach cancer.

Why you watching this stuff?



Told them to go screw
themselves.

I'm moving to New York.

"Show business."

Tess:
Grandma and grandpa are here!

I'll be in my room.

♪ ♪

♪ catch a boat
to england, baby ♪

♪ maybe to Spain ♪

♪ wherever I have gone ♪

♪ wherever I've been
and gone, wherever ♪

♪ I have gone, the blues ♪

♪ are all the same ♪

♪ send out for whiskey, baby ♪

♪ send out for gin ♪



♪ me and room service, honey ♪

♪ me and room service, babe ♪

♪ me and room service,
whoa ♪

♪ we're livin' a life of sin ♪

♪ catch a boat to england,
baby ♪

♪ maybe to Spain ♪

♪ wherever I have gone ♪

♪ wherever I've been and gone ♪

♪ wherever I have gone ♪

♪ the blues ♪

♪ are all the same. ♪

(cooing)

This is the scariest part.

Some people think
the scariest part

is coming to the hospital
to have the baby.

Nah. The scariest part

is leaving the hospital
with the baby.

Babies.
Babies, of course.

Doc, these two,
they only fall asleep

if they're next to each other.

Is that unusual?

Well, they've been sharing
the same hot tub

the last nine months; You can't
bust them up right away.

No, I'm not concerned.

Did she tell you
what we named them?

No, actually, she didn't.

You can go ahead
and tell him, babe.

Kevin, Kate and Kyle.

All ks.

It's a good letter.

We had a good doctor.

Right, bec?

I'm sorry.

I'm just, um,
a little overwhelmed.

Thank you very much
for everything.

Tess:
Grandma and grandpa are here!

Hi, grandpa.
Randall: Hey.

Hi, baby.

Randall:
What are you guys doing here?

We were on our way into the city

and thought we'd stop by
and say hi.

A friend at work gave us
his Hamilton tickets.

Feel like I'm gonna
be the one person

on the planet who doesn't like
this damn thing.

There's a man
living with us.
What?

Daddy's friend
from work.

Come play legos!

Yeah, come play
legos with us.

Rebecca:
We're coming,
we're coming.

Girls:
Yay!

Rebecca (Kissing):
I missed you.

This was not the plan.

What plan?

The plan for how I was gonna
tell her that I found him.

I wasn't aware there was
a plan for that, babe.

Well, there was.

I mean,
there was gonna be.

The plan was forming,
but now it's off.

Okay, so what are
you gonna do now?

Uh, right now?
Mm-hmm.

I'm gonna put on
a fake-ass smile.

I'm gonna ask to speak
to my mother privately.

And then I'm gonna
tell her something

that's gonna completely
and utterly devastate her.

Mommy?

Can I talk to
you privately?

One second.
Sure.

(Groaning)

Uh, everybody...

(Mumbling)

Oh, holy hangover, fatman.

(Woman singing nearby)

(Toby groaning)

Oh, God.

(Groans)

♪ And faces,
and friendly faces ♪

♪ and still I had to be free ♪

♪ I've been to paradise ♪

♪ but I've never been to... ♪

(screaming)
(Grunts)

Oh!

Ugh.
How's your face?

(With mouth full):
Well, it's fine.

Luckily, I have all this fat
to soften the blow.
Stop that.

How's your breakfast?

You mean this, uh,
steel-cut oatmeal

and egg white pancake
with no salt, no sugar,

and no oil that
you're making me eat?

Yes.

It's amazing.

Right?
Mm-hmm.

It's the best thing
I've ever tasted.

(Laughs)

Quick question.

Um, last night,
after the party...

I kind of blacked out.

We didn't, uh...

Oh, no.

A lot of vomiting

but not a lot of
anything else.

Oh. Sexy.

You have an amazing voice,
by the way.

I did not know
that you sang.

Well, I did not know
that you spy on people

in the bathroom.

(Chuckles)

Will you sing for me?

No.

Come on, Kate,
come on.
No.

Come on, come on.
You're good.

And I'm not talking about
karaoke-good.

I'm talking good-good.

(Laughs)

Have-- did-- you-- did...
(Sighs)

Did you ever perform?

When I was really young.

Cyndi lauper was kind of my jam.

Mm-hmm.

"Time after time" cover was...

I rocked it.
I was, you know...

I rocked it
like it was my job.

Mm-hmm.
But then I grew up.

And then I grew...

And, um, you know,

I try to avoid the spotlight.

Are you done?
Yes.

Are you?

(Whispering):
One more song.

One more song.

One more song.
Kevin: Okay, Kate,

I am super pumped about
this move to New York City.

I mean, we've got a
ton to figure out,

of course, but
I'm super pumped.

Wait... that was real?

Yeah. Stage acting,
it's my new jam. Oh...

Do you think you could get that
really cute, uh,

that theater casting director,
the one who liked me. What's...

Cara.
Cara, yes.

I love Cara... yeah.

Oh, and when you get
her on the phone,

tell her I'm only interested

in doing heavy drama.

We're not moving all the way
to New York City

so I can do some lame
off-Broadway comedy.

You want me to go with you?

(Laughs)
Of course. Yeah.

There's no way I could do this
without you.

Oh, and maybe you
should specify

that I don't want to do anything
where I have to show my penis.

Wow. Wow.

Toby.

I didn't see you there,
man. What's up?
Hi.

How's this? You know
what we should do?

We should look into the
meat-packing district.

It's like an up and coming

(mumbles with mouth full)

Pancakes are good.

(Whispering):
Is she making you eat this?

(Quietly):
I'm trying to have some sex.

So now he's been here
for about a week.

I guess I just wanted to get
used to the idea of him myself,

you know, before I told you,
and this has nothing to do

with you or dad--
i hope you know that.

I do know that, yes,
of course.
Okay, okay.

I mean, obviously,
I've been curious about him

since I was a kid.

And I know you guys would have
found him if you could have.

So who is he?

What did he tell you
about himself?

(Chuckling):
Uh...

His name is William.

That's it?

He didn't tell you
anything else?
(Laughing)

Uh, he has a cat.

Stomach cancer.

It's the basic gist
of what I know so far.
(Quietly): Wow.

(Sighs)

(Inhales)
Well, where is he?

I'd like to, uh, meet him.

He's in Annie's room,
but...
Okay.

I don't know if he's ready
for company, ma.

Hold on one second.

(Traffic and street sounds)
Jack: Okay.

Okay.

Car seats are installed.

Policeman approved.

I'll pull up, we'll load up.

And then the
adventure begins, yeah?

Okay.

If I were you,
i would head right to Mexico.

If I don't come back, at least
you'll know where to find me.

(Laughs)
Oh...

(Sighs)

Hey!

Wait.

Okay, let's lock and load.

Here, I got him.
Yeah.

(Groaning):
Oh. Come on,
big boy.

Okay.

(Knocks on door)

Hey.
Hey.

I wanted to introdu...
Hi.

I'm Rebecca,
I'm Randall's mother.

Very nice to meet you.

Uh, nice to meet you, as well.

(Chuckles)

Sweetheart, could you give us
just a moment to chat?

Uh... yeah.

Thank you.

You look well.

Rebecca:
It's okay, my little lady.

♪ Baby, maybe to Spain ♪

♪ wherever I have gone ♪

he's not taking my breast.

♪ Wherever I've been and gone ♪

can you help with him, please?
He's being really fussy.

Shh.

We have burping cloths.
Look in their bedroom.

It's not... there's not...
In here.

Please, just come back in here.
I need you to help me, please.
Okay.

Are you laying down, Jack?
(Sighs)

Rebecca:
Can you please check on Kevin?

♪ Send out for whiskey, baby ♪

why, why won't he stop crying?

They'll be
in college soon.

Ha.
(Baby crying)

(Sighs)
Which one?

Probably the one
that hates me.

He doesn't hate you.
Jack, I think

we're gonna have to
start him on formula.

No. He's fine.

He won't take
to my breast.

We have to treat them the same.

He's not the same.

I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.

He's just... he's not.
I grew the other two

inside of me,
and he feels like a stranger.

And I feel really terrible
for saying that out loud,

but he just... he does.

(Sighs)

(Crying stops)

(Sighs)

Jack,

when we were leaving
the hospital...

I know.
You were having

second thoughts about bringing
him home. It's fine.

No. No, it's not that. I...
It's natural.

He's fine, bec.

He's fine.

Look at us.

(Sighs)

I mean, I was
a complete stranger.

Look how quickly I took
to your breast.

You're an idiot.
Yeah.

I'm your idiot.

Okay?

And they are our babies.

He's our baby.

Okay?

(Baby crying)

They'll be in college soon?

Any day now.

And then she just asked
to speak to him alone.

About what?
I don't know.

Whatever biological fathers
and adopted mothers talk about.

What is that?
The Knicks, Beth. How the hell
am I supposed to know?

I...

You love me so much that you're
just gonna give me that one?

Mm-hmm. You know me so well,
my friend.

I got to take him
to that doctor's appointment

in two hours.

God. What the hell do you think

they're talking about, anyway?
I don't know,
honey.

(Sighs)

He found me.

He brought me here.
But you stayed.

Yes, I stayed.
Hmm.

We had a deal.

I won't tell him,
if that's what you're thinking.

(Sobs)

Oh, God. All those...
(Sighs)

It will break him.

It will. Knowing
that he could've known you

and that I kept him from that.

Rebecca, the deal we made
was the right one.

For everyone.

If you hurt him...
I won't.

Fine, then.

But know this:

My son,

who I raised,

is gonna put everything he has
into trying to save you,

because that's who he is.

It's gonna come
in front of his job,

in front of
his marriage,

and in front of his time
with his kids.

So you better damn well
be worth that.

(Sniffling)

(Sighs)

Damn it.

Damn it.

Yes, um, it would be for
an open-ended reservation,

until we can find
him a rental.

And your pillows are
hypoallergenic, yeah?

And can I just confirm that
the hotel gym's not just, like,

three crappy
elliptical machines?

'Cause he needs space for
floor work and exercise

and free weight...
Great.

You know, actually, can I just
have pictures sent to me?

Hey, babe.

Have you seen
my keys?

I think you left 'em in
the plan you never made.

(Chuckles)
So she's funny, too.
That's good. My keys.

So?

He seems very nice.

Mike:
Honey,

we should get going
if we're gonna get dinner

in the city first.
Oh.

I bet the tunnel's
gonna be jammed.
Okay.

No, stay!

Oh...
Dad's work friend
doesn't eat a lot.

You can have some
of his dinner.
(Chuckling): What?

Uh, grandma and grandpa
can't stay, girls.

Aw...
And, anyway,
I've got

an appointment
with my work friend, so, um...

I promise
to catch up

with you about all this.
Mm-hmm.

Promise?
Miguel,
mm-hmm.

Thanks for dropping by
unexpectedly. Ha-ha-ha.

(Mimics vcr) Rewind.
Thanks for dropping by.

Always love it.
Always love you guys. Peace.

He's hiding something.

Hey. We got to get goin'.

William?

Hey.

William. Where you goin'?

Home.
Why? What happened?

We got the doctor's appointment.
You should cancel.

Why would I cancel... w-will
you get in the damn car?

I knew if I told you I was
leaving, you'd try and stop me

like you are right now.

You'd try and stop me 'cause you
were raised to be a good man.

But I wasn't the one who
raised you that way, Randall.

I was reminded of that today.

That you have parents.

That I just can't step in
40 years later

and enjoy the fruits
of someone else's labor.

So, just like that, you go?

No good-bye to the girls?
The girls

will be fine.
No, they'll be
devastated.

They don't
even know

who I am.

Look, this doctor...
He isn't gonna

tell me anything
i don't already know.

But he might.
He won't.

But he might.

And something tells me he might
be a little more thorough

than the doctor at whatever
free homeless clinic

you've been going to to get
your free medical counsel at.

To say nothing of the fact
that I had to kiss up

to the biggest d-bag at my firm

just to get you
this appointment.

So, yes,
William,

you are getting in
the car right now,

and we are going
to this doctor's appointment.

And then and only then
will I give you permission

to hobble off like hobo Joe
without saying

so much as
a good-bye.

Startin' to not feel so bad

about leaving you
at that fire station.

Yeah, whatever.

Hi, white people.

Friendly neighborhood black man.

Toby: Uh, Kate, can i
get one right here?

Kate? Right here?
Can I just get one right here?

Kate? Who are you
wearing? Kate? Kate?
What are you doing?

Is it true that you're dating

Taylor swift? Is it true
that you just broke up

with Taylor swift just now?

(Laughs)

What are you doing?

Give me just one day.
(Shutter clicks)

One day where you're the star.

(Groans, sighs)

♪ ♪

(clatters)

(Sputters)

Hey, where are you? I've called
you, like, ten times.

Listen, um...
Can we just hire one
of those services

that comes in and, you know,
packs everything for you?

I think Jason momoa told me
about a guy who does that.

Let's get that number
from momoa's office.

His assistant. That, uh...

Dahala mapuana,
i think her name was.

Or was it Patty?

You remember Jason momoa.
He's the, uh...

He's the original dothraki guy.

We met him at Seth green's
house. Where are you, all right?

I'm getting overwhelmed.
Pick up the phone.

Where are we going?
Well,

no more background singing
for you.

Your voice is way too beautiful

to only be heard in a bathroom.

Today is your
day, babe.

We are on our way
to your first big gig.

What?
Yep, I, uh...
I downloaded

an instrumental copy
of "time after time,"

found an old boom box.

It's showtime,
baby!
Toby,

there is no way in hell that I'm
gonna sing in front of people.
Well,

then you'll be depriving
the world.

Well, the world will live.
Yes, but
your audience

may not.
(Grunts)

All right.

(Grunts)
What the hell?

Okay, so,

my aunt Dolly
actually lives here.

All right, I booked you
in their prime slot, 3:00 P.M.

It's right after jell-o
but before their nap.

Perfect place
to break your seal, right?

Now, remember, most of 'em
will probably be asleep.

The rest won't remember this
tomorrow. And most of them

lived through world war ii,
so no matter how bad you are,

they've seen worse.
(Chuckles)

Come on.

I'm sorry,
do you need the red carpet?

No.
Okay, come on.

(Babies crying)
Dr. k:
Well, now,

all three of these babies
are looking very good, Jack.

Very strong,
very healthy.

Okay, good.
That's good.

'Cause some-sometimes
one does

something different
than the other two.

You just... you start spinnin'

a little...
They're all
doing very well.

Okay.

How are you guys doing?

Oh, we're great.

We're good. We're, um...

Tired

but, uh, good.
Uh-huh. And Rebecca?

I mean, I only ask because
it's a little unusual

for the father to be here alone.

She just needed a little break,

you know?

She's... she's...

She's not totally herself.

I mean, she's a...

Little dazed,

I guess? She's not bonding
with the babies.

And not with Kyle, mainly.

You know? Not with Kyle.

I think she might be
a little broken.

You know, i-i think the babies
might have broken my wife.

You can fix her, right?

Or you can tell me
how to fix her?

I was... I was hoping
you could tell me

how to fix her.
Sit down, Jack.

She lost a baby, Jack.

You can't just dismiss that.

So did I.
Yeah.

And you took your grief, and
you... channeled it into action.

You willed yourself forward
with positivity,

but Rebecca has just...

She's gonna have
to do this in her own way,

and you're just gonna have
to give her the space to do it.

Yeah. What if she
doesn't find her way?

She will.
How do you know?

For the same reason
that I know

you're gonna give her
the space to find it.

'Cause I believe
in good people.

Of course,
i voted for Nixon,

so you got to take everything
i say with a grain of salt.

(Laughs)

Now, look, there's a couch
in there in my office.

Why don't you go lie down,
take a nap?

I'm-I'm totally free
the rest of the day.

I can use the time
with my namesakes.

(Laughs)
No, there's three.
You don't... you don't...

I brought them
into the world, Jack.

I am perfectly qualified
to sit here and watch 'em sleep

and crap themselves
for a couple of hours.

Now go. Now.

(Bus brakes squeak,
doors whoosh open)

Hi. Sorry to bother you.

I'm looking for someone. Um,

he's afro-American,
very, very thin.

Possibly on drugs.

(Scoffs)

You know what?
I sound ridiculous.

Sorry. I sound so stupid.

You mean Shakespeare?
You looking for him?

Come on, get in.

(Feedback squeals)
Toby:
All right. Uh, good afternoon,

ladies and germs.
Uh, my name is Toby.

I'm actually, uh,

Dolly's nephew.

Everybody knows
aunt Dolly, right?

Wave for everybody, Dolly.
Hello, Dolly!

Be careful, gentlemen.
She's a real man-eater.

Aren't you, Dolly?

(Laughs)
Okay. Okay, well,
we have a very

special treat for you
this afternoon.

The lady that I am about
to introduce

has been called
the next Bette midler.

Adele admires her, Streisand
considers her a friend,

j.Lo wishes she had that ass.

Ladies and gentlemen,
performing for one song only,

I give you... Kate! Oh!

(Applause)

Oh, yeah.

All right,
here we go.

That's for you.

Really? You
want me to...?
Yup.

(Sighs)
Okay.

(Guitar plays slow, gentle intro
to "time after time")

Hi.

(Loud breathing
amplified on mic)

(Feedback squeals)

(Tentatively):
♪ lying in my bed I hear the ♪

♪ clock tick and think of you ♪

♪ caught up in circles ♪

(more confidently):
♪ confusion is nothing new ♪

♪ flashback to warm nights ♪

(indistinct chatter)

♪ Almost left behind ♪

♪ suitcase of memory ♪

♪ time after ♪

♪ sometimes you picture me ♪

♪ I'm walking too far ahead ♪

♪ you're calling to me ♪

♪ and I can't hear ♪

♪ what you've said ♪

♪ and you say, go slow ♪

hey. I'm looking
for Shakespeare.

♪ I fall behind ♪

♪ the drum beats out of time ♪

♪ if you're lost you can look
and you will find me ♪

♪ time after time ♪

♪ if you fall
i will catch you ♪

♪ I'll be waiting ♪

♪ time after time ♪

♪ if you fall
i will catch you ♪

♪ I will be waiting ♪

♪ time after time ♪

♪ time after time. ♪

(applause)

Yeah!

Yeah! Come on!

Give it up!
(Laughs)

(Moaning)

Oh. Oh, if I had known.

(Moaning):
I would have... I would have

taken you to the nursing home
for every date.

Shut up.
Okay.

(Moans, phone plays tune)
Uh-uh. Uh-uh.

Uh-uh. No. No, no,
just shut it off.

Crap.
Just shut it off!

What?

Elaine:
Oh, my sister was

so right about...
Elaine's here.

She's trashing the joint,
I'm locked

in the closet.
Insane Elaine? Why is she there?

(Indistinct yelling, clattering)
I called her.

How?

I deleted her number
from your contacts.

I found it in the cloud.

You called insane Elaine?
(Glass breaking through phone)

And I had sex with her.

And I told her
i was moving to New York,

and then she went crazy.
I am not crazy! Why does
everyone call me crazy?! Why?!

(Clattering)
You know what?
Um, I got a little overwhelmed

with the move, you know, I tried
calling you, but you're not

picking up. Oh, God.
(Glass breaking)

You know what? She's breaking
things again. Get over here.

I will be right over.

(Phone beeps off)

I am...

I'm sorry.
I have to go.

Oh, but really, you don't,

and it's kind of crazy
that you think that you do.

Toby, you don't get it.

We're-we're twins.
We're not like regular people.

When I was a kid, broke my arm

and he cried out in pain
ten Miles away, right?

We're that connected.

I thought we were,
too, is the thing.

Kate, I'm not some nut job
who performs grand gestures

for every girl that i
go on a few dates with.

I like you, Kate.
I like you a lot.

But I can't... I can't play
second banana to your brother.

You have to.

Everyone has to.

(Door opens)

(Door closes)

Great.

Have a good time in New York!

Doctor:
William, will you
join me out here?

William.

Randall. I wish
i had better news.

The cancer has metastasized

to a point where there's
really not much we can do.

There are some experimental
treatments. Frankly,

they haven't been
very promising.

I'm very, very sorry.

(Knocking)

Um...

William:
I'm not very well,
as you can probably tell.

The baby didn't come
from this.

It came from love.

His mother?

You know, we-we... we met
on that bus, actually.

My world spun
on every axis that day.

I read poetry to her
the first time we talked.

Uh, not any of mine.

I was too shy for that.

One of my

favorite poets, and...

She used to love it
when I read to her.

So what'd you name
the baby?

Kyle.

I was having
triplets, and, um,

on a whim, actually, we
just decided to name them.

Kevin, Kate and Kyle.

I... I lost one of the babies
during delivery,

but your baby showed up

at the hospital
the very same morning.

It felt like destiny.

Um... I just...

I appreciate this.
I-i, um...

I wanted to know his story.

And that
there was good here, so...

I wonder if I could check on him

from time to time.

No. No.

I-i also need to know...

I need to know that you're not
gonna come back for him.

I need to know
that I can move forward.

Because he will have your blood

and the blanket you wrapped
him up in, but that's it.

That's the deal.
Otherwise, I...

I understand.

Okay.

I'm not...

(Sighs)

I'm not bonding with the baby.

(Crying):
I want to love him
like he's my own,

but every time
i look at his face...

(Sighs heavily)

(Cries)

Give him his own name.

What was the name of the, uh,
poet you used to read to her?

Your favorite poet.

Maybe you'll see fit to
give it to him someday.

Thank you.

(Door closes)

Beth:
Hey.

Hey.

How'd it go?

It's bad.

Nothing to be done, really.

Some experimental
treatments

that'll give him
a few more months.

He's upstairs resting.

Peacefully with his arms crossed
over his chest, no doubt.

I have no idea how I came
from that man.

I'm so sorry, babe.

Yeah, I don't know
what I expected.

Yes, I do.

I expected to find a father
who wasn't so damn sick.
Randall...

I should have looked for him
years ago, Beth.

I mean, the girls could have had
a grandfather all this time.

Instead, I brought him here
so they could what?

Fall in love with a dying man.

So, this is about
the girls, then?

Hmm?

You don't want them
to fall in love with him?

He's been here a week, baby.

And you don't know any more
about him

then you did the first time
he walked through that door.

I don't know what you were
looking for with all this,

or even if you do,
but I do know

you don't have a
whole lot of time.

Is she gone?
Yeah.

Oh.

God, I hope the Booty
call was worth it.

It was.

I just started
to get overwhelmed, you know?

Started reading one
of those plays you gave me.

You actually read one?

I read them all,
actually.

But, uh, this one, though,
it's really good, you know?

Like, really good.

And I just started
to get a little overwhelmed

'cause I felt like, um,

I felt like maybe it was
too good for me.

It's not, Kevin.

It's not-- they would be lucky.

Well...

So my guy turned out to be
more insane than Elaine.

Toby?
Get this.

So he takes me
to a nursing home...

To sing in front of old people.

Mm-hmm.

So I'd be a star but in
a comfortable environment,

'cause otherwise
i would freak out.

It was the whole works.

He had the red carpet,
he had the car, suit.

It was like...
Oh, that's good.

Yeah.
And then afterwards,

like, I was on a high, like,

I know it sounds stupid,
but I, I felt so free.

Then what happened?

Well, you called.

Told him I had to go
and he got pouty and mean.

Wait a minute,
i called at that very moment

and you actually answered
the phone?

Of course I answered.

Anyway, I need to focus
on losing weight

and our big move
to New York,

and I don't even need
to be in a relationship.

You're fired.

What?

Yeah, Kate,
you're fired.

Why?

You're the personal assistant
to your brother, all right?

A brother who locks himself
in his master bedroom closet.

A master bedroom closet

that happens to have
a mini-bar in it.

Maybe it's time we go at it
alone for a while, you know?

Just for a little while
to see what happens.

You know, maybe we need
to grow up a bit.

I don't really know who I am
if I'm not your sister.

I do.

You're gonna love her.

(Laughs)

I don't like it
when you're sweet.

Okay, I'm here.
What?

I'm sorry.

Yeah, well, sorry doesn't
change the fact...

What you did for me today
was the nicest thing

that anyone has
ever done for me.
Okay, but that still doesn't...

And I'm not moving to New York.

Okay, but that still
doesn't change...
I got you something.

I accept your apology.

Yeah?
Yes.

(Phone rings)

Don't you dare answer that.

I'm not.

Do not.
I won't.

Kate:
Leave a message for Kate.

Kevin:
Oh, Kate, good.
You didn't answer.

Hopefully, that means
you're having sex.

Anyway, I did it.

I-i booked a red-eye
to New York.

I'm just gonna do it,
'cause, you know...

Kate, if we keep talking
about it,

we'll talk ourselves out of it.

I'll never go.

You'll never stay, so...

And I'm not gonna say good-bye

or anything sappy like that.

You know how I feel.

Okay.

(Babies cooing)

You know, I didn't know where
you were the last four hours.

I know.

I'm sorry.

I thought you ran off
to Mexico

and abandoned the kids.

I would never
run off to Mexico

and abandon the kids
without you.

Promise?

I promise.

I can't stop thinking about
the one we lost, Jack.

I can't. I know...

I know we have these new
babies, and I should be happy,

but I just can't stop
thinking about him.

Me, too.

Yeah?
Yeah.

That's all I think about.

I feel...
(Sighs)

I feel guilty
when I think about him,

and then, you know,
i-i feel guilty

when I stop thinking
about him.

Me, too.

I thought it was just me.

No. It's me, too.

(Sniffles)
I love you.

I love you, too.

♪ Catch a boat to england,
baby ♪

♪ and maybe to Spain ♪

I think we need to
give him a new name.

♪ Wherever I have gone ♪

I think it's important.

♪ Wherever I've been and gone ♪

where'd you
get that idea?

I just thought of it.

♪ The blues are all the same ♪

♪ ♪

♪ send out for whiskey, baby ♪

♪ send out for gin ♪

♪ me and room service, honey ♪

♪ me and room service, babe ♪

♪ me and room service, well ♪
(Knocking on door)

♪ We're living a life of sin ♪
come in.

I'm sorry today didn't go
as we hoped.

I'm not done yet, though.

There's more than one big-shot
oncologist in New York.

Okay.

♪ When I'm not sleeping, honey ♪

♪ when I ain't sleeping, mama ♪

I'd like to tell the girls
who you are.

I was thinking maybe
first thing tomorrow.

They'll have
a lot of questions.

Whatever they want to know.

Okay.

♪ Try another city, baby ♪

♪ another town ♪

♪ wherever I have gone ♪

♪ wherever I've been and gone ♪

how'd you meet my mother?

(Chuckles)

♪ The blues come
followin' down ♪

on a bus, of all places.

My God, she
looked beautiful.

And let me tell you...
♪ maybe tomorrow, honey ♪

♪ someplace down the line ♪

♪ I'll wake up older ♪

♪ so much older, mama ♪

♪ I'll wake up older ♪

(gasps)
♪ and I'll just stop
all my trying ♪

you okay?

Yeah, he's okay.

I'm okay.

♪ Catch a boat to england,
baby ♪

♪ maybe to Spain ♪

hey, sweet boy.

♪ Wherever I have gone ♪

♪ wherever I've been and gone ♪

♪ wherever I have gone ♪

♪ the blues are all the same ♪

you want to try?

(Baby cooing)

(Baby gurgling)

Hi, Randall... hi.