The Wilds (2019–…): Season 2, Episode 1 - Day 30/1 - full transcript

[Faber]
I know this is delicate,

but we do need your account
of what happened that day.

Right.

Rachel!

[♪ Taylor Swift: "Epiphany"]

♪ Keep your helmet ♪

♪ Keep your life, son ♪

♪ Just a... ♪

We couldn't see them, you know?

We could hear them.

[Taylor]
♪ Here's your rifle ♪



If I'm being honest,
I can still hear them.

[Nora] Rachel!

Nora!
Nora!

It could have lasted a second.

Or maybe an hour.
I don't know.

[Taylor] ♪ And some things
you just can't... ♪

But then she was just...

Nora. Nora!

[screaming]

Gone.

She was gone.

♪ ♪

[Taylor]
♪ Watch you breathe in ♪

♪ Watch you breathing out ♪



It was Dot who saw her first.

[Dot] Rachel!

- [Rachel coughs]
- You're bleeding.

- [Rachel shouts]
- Where are you bleeding?

[Rachel]
I lost her.

Some of us froze.

But some of us just sort of...
[sniffs]

...knew what to do.

[Dot]
I'm gonna have to cauterize it.

[Taylor]
♪ Someone's daughter... ♪

[Dot] Hold her down.

[Taylor]
♪ Someone's father ♪

Now.

[screaming]

♪ ♪

[Fatin] Some of us took
it harder than others,

who let the whole thing...

shatter them.

♪ ♪

No!

[shouts indistinctly]

The pit was here!
Nora put me here!

[Taylor]
♪ Only 20 minutes to sleep ♪♪

[screams]

There are no...

upsides.

♪ ♪

And I don't think
there ever will be.

But what I will say
for all of us...

Is that it tied us together.

Into, like, I don't know...

something more than we were.

Yeah, after that happened,
we became, like...

There's no other way to say it.
We became a family.

♪ ♪

It was how fast
it all happened.

That's what's hard
to believe...

that idea that
only three weeks before,

we...

we didn't know
each other at all.

There was awkwardness,
distance...

a lot of glances...

politeness.

We were cautious,
with our walls up,

just strangers heading
in a new direction...

...with no fucking idea
what was coming.

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

Cake anyone?

♪ ♪

- [camera beeps]
- Passageways intro video,

take uno.

I'm Josh Herbert,

and I am super stoked
about this retreat.

[chuckles]

Oh, nice.

Rosa... comin' hot
with my meds.

Saw the activity list
for this retreat.

[blows raspberry]

As I was saying,
I am super stoked.

Like, almost as stoked
as I was about magic camp.

I run a sub-50 400,

and I deadlift three times
my body weight.

So, if you think
I'm gonna be challenged

by some stand-up-paddleboarding
bullshit,

you can fuck right off.

[Henry]
I've prepared a statement.

I'm going on this retreat
against my will.

I'm making this video
because it's mandatory,

and I will now offer
a short list of things

I'd rather do than go
on this trip.

Still deliberating,

but I might wear this
on day one.

Walk over thumbtacks...

[Ivan]
Sort of my litmus test.

You know, it's like, if you
don't know these legends,

I... I just won't
to engage with you.

...get strep throat...

I forgot what I'm supposed
to say.

[Scotty] Bo, i-it's just three
words to describe yourself.

Um...

...lick the slide
at the McDonald's PlayPlace...

I mow lawns.

The boy does not know
how to sell himself.

Here, let me show you
how it's done.

Hold that.

Three words...
I don't know.

The name's Scotty Simms
coming to you live

from the shit-ass corner
of the 8-5-0,

but not for long, friends,

'cause I'm a savvy and...
and motivated entrepreneur

with some big ideas

for the fashion
and skin-care industries.

[Bo] Scotty, that's more
than three words.

[upbeat music]

Three words that
encapsulate me are simply

"man of taste."

Boring white guy.

[DJ] I mean that literally
as well.

I collect rare whiskeys
on the DL.

Oh, I barely have
to even hide this stuff

'cause Mom's fuckin' clueless.

Mmm.

Beautiful mouthfeel.

I am Rafael Garcia...
Raf for short.

Most people call me Raf.

Um...

yeah, I don't... I don't know.

I guess I'm just excited
to meet everybody.

Um, never been
to Hawaii before.

Actually never been
on a plane before,

so I'm a little nervous
about that.

[knock on door]

[Raf]
Things that I'll miss...

Come in!

[soft dramatic music]

[Faber] You're smiling.
That's a nice development.

I was just admiring
our beloved control group.

"Beloved"?

Not what I expected you
to call them.

34 days, Daniel.

They lasted 34 days,

while the women lasted
the full 50, so...

And, God, all that begging
for money and tap-dancing

like a fucking monkey
for my investors,

that was all worthwhile.

The boys were
the perfect failures we needed,

so how could
I not belove them?

Yeah, well, we're gonna
start processing them now.

Just stopped by
to let you know.

You holding up, Dean?
You look fraught.

I don't do fraught.

Complicated feelings
is, uh, more Dan's thing.

[Gretchen] Well, I know
this has been a trial,

but I'm asking for one last
push from both of you.

There is no question
they imploded.

Once we find out how...

we wear the crown.

[smooches]

Yeah.
Go break 'em open, gentlemen.

Oh, if you can,
start with this little angel.

I want to know how he fell.

♪ ♪

I don't really know
what you guys want from me.

Well, just your version
of what happened.

[Young]
Why don't we take those off?

They're an "abundance
of caution" measure anyway.

Because of what I did?

[Faber] Yes, Rafael.

It's Raf.

I go by Raf.

♪ ♪

[handcuffs clicking]

♪ ♪

[Young sighs]
Well, Raf,

why don't you take us
through that first day?

♪ ♪

I remember not knowing names.

Never been very good at it.

Maybe it's 'cause everybody
is so bad with mine.

But, yeah, that, uh...

...that first day, I just
sort of knew the basics.

There was the two best friends
from Florida...

...Josh, whose name
I only knew from school,

the smart one
with the fancy clothes,

the lax-bro,
the emo kid with the glasses,

and his stepbrother Seth,

whose name,
for some reason, just...

...stuck with me.

Oh.

And, of course,
the tracksuit kid...

who really hated his mom.

Good one, Mother.
Great idea.

How about... how about we...
we ship me off

to some wilderness
fucking circle jerk?

"Maybe it'll be fun,"
she said.

Yeah, "Maybe
you'll learn something."

Okay, sure. Yeah.

Maybe I'll learn what it's like
to almost basically drown.

Maybe I'll learn
what it's like

to get a metric shit-ton
of water up my fuckin' nose!

Or maybe I'll learn
what it's like to absolutely

and extremely hate you,

you fucking dick-tit!
[grunts]

Oh, jeez, fuck!

- [Scotty laughs]
- [DJ] God.

[Scotty] I'm... I'm sorry.

I just... I just...

I can't pretend that that shit
wasn't funny.

"Dick-tit!"
[grunts]

[laughter]

[sobbing]

Hey, you doing okay?

No.

Henry, come on.
Not now.

What?

We're either lost, dead,
or raptured.

None of us are okay.

I'll rephrase.

Are you doing okay,
considering?

Why are you doing that?

Doing what?

Crying.

It's fine, actually.
It's healthy, really.

And I think it should be
more normalized as a behavior.

Jesus fucking Christ.

Who came with this kid?

Is he always like this?

I... I don't really know.

We're in different
friend groups.

Hi, Rafe.

[Kirin]
Whatever.

Look, we've been sitting
on our asses for too long.

Let's quit fuckin' crying
and do something.

Uh, hey, man.
W-what's your name, again?

He'll tell you it's Kirin,

but we all know
he's a natural-born Chad.

Don't start, Taylor.
Don't even start.

Okay, uh, some history there.

Uh, look, Kirin,

why don't we just let Josh be
Josh for a sec?

We've all been dropped
into this, like,

live-action fever dream.

We should probably normalize

having any reaction
that we want.

Like, if you want to call
your mom a dick-tit,

then go for it.

I did need to.
She fuckin' sucks.

God damn it, people.

Can we please stop talking
and just move?

And go where?

[Kirin]
To go look for shit.

Deserted islands
don't even exist.

We fuckin' found 'em all.

Yeah, see that's true.

All these islands
been snapped up by rich dudes

with, like, Illuminati money.

All right, everybody up!

Why did I just do
what he told me to do?

It's that captain daddy voice.
You just can't fight it.

I mean, look at me,
I've loathed him

since middle school,
and my ass got up.

Look, obviously,
rescue's coming,

but if there's some sick
hotel around the corner

and we're too lazy
to go find it,

we're gonna feel
like total dicks.

So I think we split up,
head in separate directions.

Just send someone back
when you find something.

Everyone from here over,
you're one group.

I mean...
[whistles]

I mean from here over.

The others, you're with me.
Let's go.

It's still happening.
It's like a tractor beam.

So, hey, you, uh, doing okay?
You bouncing back?

Way back, yeah.
I always get a cry high.

Oh, good.

So, look, as much
as I hate taking advice

from a triple-didge.

A what?

Oh, sorry, it's just this thing
that I say.

You know, when someone has
a triple-digit SAT score, it...

[chuckles]

Thank you for laughing.
Um...[stammers]

Look, I know it's smug
and it's mean,

but the point is,
he's not wrong.

If we stay sitting here
with our thoughts,

it's just gonna break us.

Let's get moving, and we'll be
out of this place in no time.

♪ ♪

[Shelby] One week.
It's been one week.

[Toni]
Hmm.

[Shelby] I don't know.
It just doesn't feel right.

There's all this heaviness
without her.

And Rachel...

it's like all she knows
is hurt right now.

♪ ♪

But meanwhile...

I'm over here
with you just like...

Like what?

I want to hear you
describe it.

♪ ♪

[Shelby] Like I'm floating,
like I'm weak.

But I like it.

Like I'm high on every drug
they warned us about

in those
middle-school assemblies...

Okay, stop, you're
hitting my sap limit.

- You asked me to.
- I know.

I'm just giving you
a hard time.

And by the way...

...I'm really happy, too.

The guilt of it all.

[sighs softly] What are
we supposed to do with that?

Have you talked to your friend
God about it?

Actually, I haven't been doing
a whole lot of that lately...

prayin'.

What do you think He'd say?

♪ ♪

To be grateful for the good.

It's there to help us
survive the rest.

A-fucking-men.

♪ ♪

It pisses me off so much
to say this, you know.

Like, it'll never not
piss me off to say this

to a fucking
pageant champion.

Like, it makes me feel like
captain fucking obvious.

♪ ♪

You are so beautiful.

♪ ♪

Why am I not getting stronger?

All I do is lift shit.

And I basically eat paleo.

Maybe it'll hit you
all at once,

and, like, your muscles

will come bursting out
of your shirt like the Hulk.

So the elements have, like,

actually curdled your brain,
haven't they?

- Here's good?
- Yeah.

- [grunts]
- Final touch.

[grunts]

Ah! Okay.

- [Dot] Hey!
- [Fatin sighs]

[Dot] I know that this didn't
do shit for us last time,

but we can't move inland

without leaving proof
of life behind.

So, between this and the signal
fire, we should be good.

What does SOS mean, again?

I feel like I should know this,
but I'm drawing a blank.

You know who would have known?

♪ ♪

Which, uh, reminds me,
it's my turn to check in.

♪ ♪

[Dot] Hey.

Cool if I sit?

♪ ♪

[grunts]

It's just, um, time
for a new wrap, so...

♪ ♪

What if I started beatboxing?
You know, like R-A-P?

What if I was
the kind of asshole

who thought that would be
a good joke?

But you know I'll never
do that to you, right?

No Patch Adams bullshit.

♪ ♪

Which, um...

also means
being straight with you.

Seven days out, there shouldn't
be this much swelling.

And, uh, being on this beach,

you know,
it's not doing it any favors...

um, all the sand
getting in there.

♪ ♪

We're moving today, Rachel.

And I-I'm gonna need you
to come with us.

♪ ♪

Her stuff, too.
It's all...

That stays.

♪ ♪

It has to stay...

...in case she comes back.

♪ ♪

[Fatin] Martha...

you've been holding out
on me, girl.

I was consolidating
some of our shit,

and I found this
at the bottom of your suitcase.

This is literature.

I mean, I've only perused,
but it's already better

than Jeff's
soggy diaper of a book.

It's got short sentences,

a few bedroom scenes
for the spank bank,

if she'll ever go there again.

It's a beach read.

Got a true fucking beach read
on our hands,

and we're leaving
the goddamn beach.

Sorry.
Forgot I had it.

You okay?

Can I ask you a question?

Have you...

have you noticed
any new vibes

between some
of the people here?

Mm, are you referring to
the clinically depressive vibes

at our three o'clock?

Because I think Rachel's
got a good reason...

No, I don't mean bad vibes.

I mean more like...

shiny vibes...

...like, between two people...

who might be
more than friends.

Shoni.

Shelby and Toni.

Oh, my God, are you just now
finding out about this?

That's been live
for, like, a week now.

- A-a week?
- Oh, no.

Did you catch them
boning in the woods?

God, I should've known.

I've been looking for them
to help me pack.

Hmm, I can usually smell
an orgasm a mile away.

I wonder if I have
a sinus thing.

What?

Nothing.
It's just...

Wood for the signal fire
like you asked.

No, It's perfect conceptually.

It's just, I thought
you would get more of it.

You've been gone
for, like, an hour.

You, like,
my shift supervisor now?

Do you have, like,
a clock on me?

Hey.

What do you care
how I spend my time?

Because I miss you...

among other fucking things.

I'm right here.
I haven't gone anywhere.

I know you're still
looking for it.

I can't not, Fatin.

That pit, it's... it's
my only way of knowing

that I am not, like,
truly and completely...

Leah, it's a mirage.

♪ ♪

Where are you going?

I'm not...
It's not that.

I...

thought I'd try again.

Make a less pathetic attempt
at the firewood,

try to save some face...

If I can.

♪ ♪

[Josh]
Scared?

No, no.

[chuckles]
Boy, I don't even know.

It comes in waves,
the insanity of all this,

making me seasick.

I have some Dramamine

back in my suitcase,
if you need it.

[chuckles] You're an angel,
but I wasn't being literal.

I meant, like, spiritually.

Yeah, unfortunately,
the wilderness

just doesn't really agree
with me, you know?

Like, it's not
a very empowering environment

for me, personally.

And bless Mother Nature,
but she is just not my muse.

You know, Frost
and Tennyson and Keats...

she's their bitch.

Like everything else,
the white man

has laid claim to her.

Ugh, I know.

And I am...

I'm so sorry.

Are you a poet?

[DJ] Fuck a duck!

[Ivan] Oh, Lord,
that bitch is.

- [chuckles]
- I bet his toe's broken.

Have you ever broken a bone?

I broke my arm
in fourth grade,

and I didn't have
many friends then,

so I forged a whole lot
of signatures on there.

My therapist says
it's a foundational wound.

[DJ] Damn it!
[groans]

[Seth] I know I should feel
bad for him.

But the empathy well
is bone-dry.

By the way, it's Raf, right?

I've heard a couple people
say Raff or Rafe.

- It's Raf, yeah.
- Yeah.

But... but whatever, really.

I-I hear all versions
all the time.

[laughs] Yeah, yeah.
Raf, though.

Good... good solid name.

[DJ]
Ah, ah, damn it! Take five!

Oh, uh, he's...
Yeah, okay. Let's go.

[DJ] I need to take five.

I know it's just a toe.

And if I were
with the other guys right now,

that steak-head triple-didge
would be calling me a pussy.

You used triple-didge.

[chuckles] Yeah, it's good.

- [laughing]
- It's catchy.

You got anything in your
medicine cabinet for this?

Oh, my God. Yeah.
I have everything for this.

Are you on Team Ibuprofen
or Team Acetaminophen?

Uh, both.

[Seth] Yeah, man.

I mean, look, if you want
to head back, you can.

Nobody needs to be a hero.

Are you serious?

I mean, I'd only be slowing
you guys down.

Yeah, totally.
Your call.

Thanks, guys, seriously.

[winces in pain]

[groans]

♪ ♪

[Seth]
All right.

[DJ] Hey, guys.

Good luck.

♪ ♪

Okay.

[Fatin] I'm really not sure
about this new spot.

I mean,
I don't even like trees.

People think that they're
peaceful and spiritual.

But you know what I call them?
Fucking old.

Remind me again
why we're leaving the beach,

because right now
this feels insane.

[Shelby] Come on, now,
we'll be out of the sun,

out of the wind,
warmer at night.

And away from where
we lost her.

[sighs]

It'll be good for all of us.

[Toni] Uh...

uh, hey, Marty, I've got a sick
setup for us right over here.

Hmm.

You all right?

Mm-hmm.

[Toni] You're just thinking
about Nora or...

No.

Okay, well,
then what's the deal?

Hey, I figure we've been
crashing together for years

and haven't killed
each other yet.

Come on, take a load off.

Actually, I was thinking
I should bunk alone.

Um, I'm a hot sleeper,
and the space is so tight,

I just, I don't want
to sweat you out.

So I should just sleep
over there.

- Okay.
- [Martha] Um...

But feel free to give my spot
to someone else, though...

...like, maybe Shelby.

So you know?

You know,
I was gonna tell you.

I just didn't find the time,
and I...

Toni, it's... it's okay.

You're cool with it?

[Fatin] God damn it.

Do... do you guys know
what happened to the axe?

I put it in that pile
of stuff

that Leah was supposed
to bring.

She was supposed
to be back hours ago.

[Shelby]
You know, I haven't seen her.

You think she's okay?

Yeah.

She just doesn't know
when to fucking quit.

[atmospheric music]

♪ ♪

[sighs]

♪ ♪

[Henry] Yeah, I'd like to
humbly suggest that we go back.

This is obviously
a wasteland.

[Kirin] We'll find something,
all right?

Not before we lose daylight.

Why do you keep doing
that thing with your fingers?

Gauge how long till sunset.
Every finger is 15 minutes.

What are you?
Some kind of Boy Scout?

Yes.

Well, I-I quit
in ninth grade.

I ended up wanting something
different for myself...

aesthetically.

No shit.

Look, I-I don't love agreeing

with fuckin'
Testosterone Jones over here,

but, um, I do think
we'll find something.

I mean, it's like
I was saying,

we're probably about to roll up

on some sick Architect's Digest
type house, you know,

owned by some billionaire
or something.

Yeah, let's hope not.

What are you talking
about, Damien?

[Bo]
His name's Henry, I think.

It's fine, Bo,
I think your friend

was just drawing a parallel
between me

and the Antichrist boy
from the Omen.

- [Scotty chuckles]
- [Bo] Oh.

But to answer your question,
yeah, I've got zero desire

to stumble upon the home
of a wealthy recluse.

[Scotty]
Why not?

[Henry] 'Cause they'll kill us
for sure.

Think about every rich guy

who's ever lived
in a secluded place.

General Zaroff in
The Most Dangerous Game,

Poe Dameron in Ex Machina,
Dracula.

You know, killing trespassers
is their whole deal.

Nah. The fuck?

D-Dracula is not a billionaire.
He's undead.

If you adjust for inflation,
he actually is.

But, look,
anyway, my point remains.

You know, money and isolation
have turned them all...

into bloodthirsty eccentrics.

All right, man,
as an eventual billionaire,

I object to you
roasting us, okay?

We got some
good guys going on.

Uh, Melinda Gates,
Daddy Warbucks.

Oh, Mr. Peanut,
he's a fucking gentleman.

I mean, he's always
tipping that cap.

[Henry] Yeah, but is Mr. Peanut
a billionaire,

or is it just
that he has a monocle?

Oh, my God. Can you all just
put a fucking lip on it

and start actually looking out
for shit?

It's lid.
Put a lid on it.

[Kirin] Whatever!

Let's just go back,
then, losers.

After I take a piss, though.

I got to pee, too.
[mumbles]

[clears throat]

Thanks, man.

Thanks for the privacy.
Extremely cool of you.

- Yes.
- [exhales deeply]

Question...

is it sore when you piss?

No.

Must have got bruised
at some point.

Or maybe I was just out
in the water too long,

and now I got, like,
saltwater dick.

Oh, no. Yeah, saltwater dick
is basically a death sentence.

You being serious?

No.
Saltwater dick is not real.

Life is, though.

Life is what?

A death sentence.

[clears throat]

What?

I don't have anything
to dry it with.

Come on, man,
you got to get over that.

You the only clown
in the world I know

that can't just
shake it or leave it.

All right,
let me see what I got.

Here, try that,
Publix receipt.

Okay, well, now what
do I do with it?

Oh, my gosh.
[scoffs] Just... just leave it!

Let posterity know
that my mama sent me out

for fucking cat food
and light bulbs!

Hey. Did you drop
this granola bar?

Oh, shit, um...

I forgot
I had this on me.

Listen, you know, this bar

and any other food
that we might have,

let's just keep it
on the hush-hush for right now.

- But...
- No, I know.

We're gonna get airlifted
out this bitch in no time,

but just in case we don't,

we got to start
looking out for us.

I mean, look at those
trust-fund kids.

You think they know
how to manage resources?

[scoffs] Nah.

We got to save some for us.

You should hold on to it.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

Please don't.

Sorry, I was, um...

just on automatic.

Collecting everything I see
for the new camp.

♪ ♪

I'm, um...

I'm with you, by the way...

[stammers] ...as in I'm not
sure that we should be moving.

It's like we're accepting
that this is our life now,

that home isn't out there.

It's...

something that we
have to make here.

Why are we so...

stuck on this concept
of acceptance?

Isn't acceptance just another
word for fucking giving up?

I don't want to give up,
Rachel.

♪ ♪

Maybe this
doesn't help, but...

...I want you to know
that I think about her.

I think about her every day.

♪ ♪

Like, was it her idea to come?

♪ ♪

Do you remember
how she heard about it?

Was it at school
or your parents, or...

or did somebody else
get involved?

I don't understand

- why you're asking me this.
- [Leah] Just try, Rachel.

Try to remember
how she found out about it

and why she came here.

She... she was afraid.

And how did she learn
about it?

She...

she was afraid that I...

that I was gonna die,
and then she...

[Leah] But how did she hear
about the retreat?

And that's why, all right?

[Leah] Think, Rachel, think!

That's why.
That's why, okay?

She wanted this for me.

She was trying to save me
from myself, and...

now she's gone,
and it's my fault.

She's gone now,
and it's... it's my fault.

- [cries]
- Okay, but... but...

but how did she bring
you here, Rachel?

She's gone,
and it's my fault!

[Leah]
Rachel, you have to remember.

[Rachel] She's gone!
It's my fault, okay?

Rachel, Rachel.

You have to tell me.
Rachel, Rachel, please.

Are you happy?
She's gone, and it's my fault!

Is that what you
wanted to know?

She's gone,
and it is my fault!

[sobbing]

Okay.

♪ ♪

What the hell was that?

I... I needed to find out
what she knew.

You have a girl hanging on
by an absolute fucking thread,

and your move
is to go in and slice it?

What is wrong with you?

You take your delusions,
and you take your theories,

and you
fucking bury them, now!

And if you ever take them

within 100 feet
of Rachel again,

I'll fucking kill you.

♪ ♪

[Raf] Some realities
are too hard to let in...

...too scary...

too ugly, too...

big.

Like, when we first got there,

no one wanted to admit
how terrified we all were.

None of that
really sunk in until...

Not, uh, not a massive success
as recon missions go.

[Josh groans]

We'll find something.
Maybe the others already did.

They're back.

♪ ♪

What the fuck?

[Seth] Holy shit.

[ominous music]

♪ ♪

[person]
Oh, fuck. Oh, Jesus.

♪ ♪

[person] Oh, fuck.
Oh, shit.

Oh, fuck.

♪ ♪

DJ.

Yeah.

How did you
figure that happened?

We didn't know.

You know, we figured
he went to take a piss,

slipped on a rock
and got swept out and, uh...

Got swept out and...?

I don't know, but...

...it haunts me...

...like a lot of things
that happened on that island.

[somber music]

♪ ♪

I don't get how it
even happened.

[Seth]
The tide was vicious.

He must have got hit
by a breaker

and gotten attacked
by something.

[Scotty] Shit, man.

Nature doesn't play.

So what are we
gonna do with him?

[Henry]
We can't leave him here.

Every carnivore on this island
will come for him...

♪ ♪

...and then us.

We could do a Navy funeral...

like some of my dad's friends
in the service.

I mean, at sea.

Absolutely not.

With the thing
that ate him, bro?

- Fuck, no.
- [Seth] No, no, guys, guys.

I-I think Bo is right.

That's fucking insane.

If we... if we weigh him down
and we keep him close,

then we stay safe.

Osama bin Laden
was buried at sea.

God, who even cares
right now?

Okay, so who's...

pallbearing this affair?

Because if there's
something out there

that can literally deface
a bitch...

[scoffs]
...I think I'm a no.

I'll do it.

I can't do it alone.

Raf, you okay to wingman?

Y-yeah. Uh, yes.

He picked me.
I don't know why.

But he picked me.

He picked me to walk
into the dark with him.

And I liked it.

[♪ No Mono: "Violence Broken"]

[singer]
♪ This is the bottom line ♪

♪ Let it find you ♪

♪ I'll go there with you ♪

♪ ♪

♪ I guess it's kind of like ♪

♪ You're losing all you
had held on to ♪

♪ ♪

♪ And I can hear it now ♪

♪ Rushing over ♪

♪ Rushing to me ♪

♪ ♪

♪ You know I'm feeling like ♪

♪ Help me, help me ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Help me, help me ♪

♪ Help me ♪

♪ ♪

[Dot]
It's, uh...

[sighs]
It's warmer at the new camp.

Nice atmosphere, too.
Martha saged it.

That being said, I'm not
actually here to evict you.

You need to stay,
you stay.

[breathes deeply]

I had a school counselor
give me a pamphlet

on the so-called
five stages of grief...

denial, bargaining,
so on and such.

Dumb.

Real dumb.

I used that pamphlet to move
a spider out of my house.

And then I threw
that shit in the trash.

There is no way
that there's only five.

[dramatic music]

You lose someone,
and every new second

feels like
a brand-new circle of hell.

So I'm thinking...

however many seconds
in your lifetime

that they're gone,
that's how many.

Just a billion
little bullshit stages.

So I'm not gonna rush you.

It's not up to me
how much time you need.

I just hope that
you're cool with company

because I'm not letting you
stay out here alone.

So...

you got any good games
we could play,

you know,
pass the time a little?

[Rachel]
Miss Mary Mack.

Not familiar.

♪ Miss Mary Mack,
Mack, Mack ♪

♪ All dressed in black,
black, black ♪

♪ With silver buttons,
buttons, buttons ♪

Wait, isn't that, like, a...

like, a clapping game?

[chuckles]

You're jerking me around.

[laughs]

A little fun
at my own expense.

I'm gonna tell you
what this is right here.

I'm not moving on.

There is no...

...leveling out
of this feeling.

[sighs]
I'm just...

I'm just tired.

And as nice as you're being,

I don't want you to watch
over me like that.

That was always her gig.

♪ ♪

And I'm just not ready
to fill that position yet.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

♪ ♪

You comin'?

♪ ♪

[insects chirping]

This is an upgrade, right?

Like, I know it is

in just about every way,

but something feels off.

[Fatin] I know. It's like we
changed our white-noise machine

from ocean sounds
to woodsy ambience.

I'm not quite vibing
with it.

I think it's just different,
is all.

I know what it is.

Oh, God.

I almost forgot.

[sighs]

It's that
we're missing someone.

- [laughter]
- [Fatin] Hey, there he is.

[Martha]
Welcome home, Marcus.

Oh, my Lord!

[laughter]

[Martha]
That was close.

I'm so sorry, baby.

It's okay.
It's gonna be okay.

[laughter]

It's gonna be okay.

We're all gonna be okay.

[soft music]

♪ ♪

Here's fucking hoping.

[Halsey]
♪ 'Cause I ♪

♪ Sabotage the things
I love the most ♪

♪ Camouflage so I can feed
the lie that I'm composed ♪

♪ You do not want this ♪

♪ Sabotage the things
I love the most ♪

♪ You do not want this ♪

♪ Camouflage so I can feed
the lie that I'm composed ♪

♪ You do not want this ♪

♪ ♪

♪ You do not want this ♪

♪ ♪

♪ You do not ♪

♪ ♪

[Seth]
What's... what's her name?

Sorry?

[Seth] I've... I've seen
those bracelets before.

If it's hooked, that means
you're taken, right?

Yeah.
I-it's dumb, I know.

It's like a wedding ring
for stupid kids.

I think it's kind of dope.

I actually think you do, too.

Here, some warm-up gear.

Um, a sweatshirt
and a beer coat.

Well, it's not a beer,
but you get the idea.

It washed up on the...
from the wreck, I guess.

This belongs
to Josh Herbert.

His mother loves him.

- More like his housekeeper.
- [both chuckle]

Guess I should tell Marisol
I actually belong to Josh now.

[laughs]
So it's Marisol.

Hmm.

I have a girlfriend, too.

Julia.

Man, I told her
I'd send her a postcard,

but it's got to be more of a
message-in-a-bottle situation.

Hey, um...

real check-in.

You doing okay?

You ask people that a lot.

I know. I know.
It's kind of my thing.

Julia says that I'm like
a kindergarten teacher

in Northern California.
[chuckles]

No, no, I mean,
I actually think it's cool.

So...

are you?

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

Not really.

You?

♪ ♪

No.

But in the back of my mind,
I'm counting

on the whole "what doesn't kill
you makes you stronger."

♪ ♪

I'm not.

[Young]
You're not what?

Stronger.

But you have changed.

I imagine
you'd concede that.

How?

[Faber]
Well, you're not a little good,

quiet Catholic kid
from Tijuana.

I mean, not...
not saying that, uh,

you're no longer that, but...

just saying
that there are differences.

What I hate...

...is that
you can't control it...

♪ ♪

...what you turn into.

♪ ♪

We all started
wanting to be things...

strong...

...loved...

♪ ♪

...safe...

♪ ♪

...powerful...

♪ ♪

...included...

♪ ♪

...seen...

♪ ♪

...to be with someone,

to be like someone.

We wanted to be all that.

We wanted to be men.

But the truth is...

...some of us
were becoming monsters.

♪ ♪

[insects chirping]

Not into it?

I don't really drink much.

Hmm.

Well, you could pour one out.
For DJ.

I mean, we're basically
hypothermic on his account.

But, hey, a nice gesture.

Here we go.

- DJ.
- For DJ.

♪ ♪

Ahh.

♪ ♪

Hey.

♪ ♪

Was it as miserable
as you thought it'd be?

Answer me
when I ask you a question.

Fine, sure.

♪ ♪

It was infinitely
more miserable

than I ever
could have imagined.

And I cannot believe you
willingly put me through it.

Well, such is the wages
of sin, Devon.

Fuck you.

I-I cannot believe
your ingratitude.

After what you did
and the strings I pulled...

What part of "fuck you"
wasn't clear, Mom?

You know what?
I royally fucked up.

I'm a shitty kid.
I am.

Who doesn't know enough
about the world or myself

not to ruin things
every once in a while.

And I live
with that every day.

A person is dead
'cause of what I did.

But you, you're
this whole entire adult

destroying the lives
of these kids.

And it's not an accident.

You planned this.

♪ ♪

You enjoy it.

♪ ♪

I might be a fuck-up,

but you're a fuckin'
psychopath.

♪ ♪

Thanks for being
such a team player today.

We'll be calling you back in
at some point.

Maybe as soon as tomorrow,
so be prepared for that.

Take care.

♪ ♪

Don't scream.

[child]
Beep, beep, coming through!