The Summer I Turned Pretty (2022–…): Season 2, Episode 1 - Love Lost - full transcript

Previously on
The Summer I Turned Pretty...

My family's been going

to Susannah's beach house
in Cousins

every summer since I was a baby.

Look who came back
all growed up.

Susannah told me
that when I was born

she knew I was destined
for one of her boys.

I always hoped
it would be Conrad.

I wrangled Belly
an invitation

to be a debutante.
Now, which one of you

is gonna be Belly's escort
to the ball?



Uh, so,
are you and Jeremiah

like a-a thing?

They're like
basically related.

I'm not going
with either of you.

I am going to find my own date.

I don't know what to think
about you this summer.

You have new friends, you have
a boyfriend. I don't even know

- who you are anymore.
- Is that why you threw yourself on my brother?

So that you could get back
at me?

My heart's beating really fast.

You're having a panic attack.

It's my mom.

I know you said you didn't
want to do chemo, but...

I'm not putting myself
through treatment again.



I'm gonna tell the kids
when we get back to Boston.

Why are you acting so different?
I mean, something's going on.

- Just tell me.
- Belly, I think about you.

I do, you know I do.
I just can't.

You're my best friend.

There were times
I wanted to be more.

I was just waiting.

I mean, how am I supposed

to fully jump into something
with Jeremiah

if a piece of my heart
still beats for his brother?

Will you go with me
to the deb ball?

Hey, does my mom seem
okay to you?

I heard your parents talk
about it,

and your mom seemed
really upset.

Hey, have you guys seen
Jeremiah?

Conrad,

we need to talk, all right?

It's important, it's about Mom.

You've known
this whole fucking time,

you didn't tell me?

I told them I'd do the trial.

It's going to work.

Belly, I'm sorry for being
so shitty all summer.

I mean, you were going
through all this alone.

You... I wish you had told me
so you didn't have to.

No matter what happens next,

I will always come back
to this place

and these people.

♪ You live in my dream state ♪

♪ Relocate my fantasy ♪

♪ I stay in reality ♪

♪ You live in my dream state ♪

♪ 20/20, 20/20 vision ♪

♪ Cupid hit me,
Cupid hit me with precision...

You're back.

I'm back.

♪ When you cross my mind ♪

♪ I said, I said I'm sick of,
sick of, sick of ♪

- ♪ Sick of chasing ♪
- I get it, you guys are into each other.

♪ Running through my daydream ♪

Don't listen to him, you two
are perfect together.

♪ When I close my eyes ♪

♪ Can I get a kiss? ♪

♪ And can you make it
last forever? ♪

♪ I said I'm 'bout to
go to war ♪

♪ And I don't know if
I'm-a see you again ♪♪

I wasn't in Cousins.

Conrad and I weren't together,

and Susannah was dead.

Nothing would ever be
the same again.

Hey, you-you dropped this.

Conklin.

What?

I said you dropped this,
Conklin.

You're reading The Hunger Games

- in-in French.
- Trying to.

I almost know the English
version by heart,

so it's... it's not
that difficult to follow.

Very cool.

Thanks.

Escaping to your dreams
is easier than

living with your memories.

It's the being awake
that's the hard part.

This almost doesn't feel real.

How 'bout now?

I can't stop smiling.

You know, you have
the prettiest smile

I've ever seen.

Your whole face just lights up.

I wanted to say that
to you all summer.

Uh... there's something that

I need to tell you.

I don't even know how.

- Um...
- Okay. What is it?

We can figure it out.

I, um, a few days ago,

Jeremiah told me
he had feelings for me.

Oh.

Wow, okay.

So what did you say?

I kissed him a few times.

So, um...

So when we both came to
pick you and Taylor up

from the side of the road,
you know,

and you went with Jere,

- were you two already...?
- Yeah.

You know, but there were

moments this summer
where I thought maybe

there could be something
with you and me, and then,

- you know, you shut down.
- No, I know.

- I know. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
- And I get it. I get it.

It's all my fault, I know.

I mean, it's mine, too.

Do you want to be with him?

Being with you is all
I've ever wanted.

Okay, that's great.
Be with me, then.

What?!

What, is that funny?

No, I'm sorry,
it's just weird.

I mean, everyone in our house
knows that I've had a crush

on you ever since, like...

Wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait, wait.

You have a crush on me?

Shut up.

You're it for me, Belly.

- I don't want to hurt Jere.
- Me neither.

Look, I'll talk to him.

He might not even be
that upset, you know?

It's Jere. He never takes
anything too seriously.

It's not...

It's not like how it is with us.

Uh, I'll talk to him first.

I owe him that.

Okay.

Shh.

Somebody's up.

Early morning walk on the beach?

Uh, yeah.

Mm-hmm.

I knew it.
I knew it.

I'm gonna go...

- Yeah.
- Yeah. Okay.

Sit down.

So?

Mom,
just let me change first.

All right, enjoy your summer.

No, but seriously,
it's gonna be wild.

It's the best team
we've had in years.

Oh, I made us these
matching crop tops.

They're pink, obviously, and
I got a bunch of new kneepads.

- Ooh, kneepads, Taylor.
- Shut up.

Hey, Bells.

It's not too late to sign up
for volleyball camp, you know.

Um...

Oh, high school is over,
bitches!

- Whoo!
- You're such a clown, Steven.

- What?
- Hey, if I were going to Princeton,

I'd be screaming about it, too.

- Thank you, Evelyn.
- Wait.

Are you going to Princeton?
That's so cool, I couldn't tell.

Oh, you-you couldn't tell?
I love you, too.

Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo, Steven.

Spike, what's up, man?

What time's the grad party
tomorrow, man?

The band comes on at 10:00.
I'm dating the singer.

Uh, yeah,
the Machine Gun Kelly wannabe.

I tried to veto him
from playing,

but I guess we couldn't find
anybody cheaper.

Oh...

Wait. So, are you
coming to the party?

Uh, I don't know.

Belly. Belly.

Can I talk to you
for a minute, please?

I... I gotta go.

- Okay.
- See ya.

- Bye.
- Sorry.

Bye.

Belly,

I was reviewing your
end-of-term transcripts,

and I couldn't help but notice
that you grades have

taken a serious dive.

I mean, you kept an A in French,

but you won't impress colleges
with just French.

Is there something going on?

There was a death in the family.

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that.

But your grades have been
dipping all year.

You even got your volleyball
captaincy revoked?

Yeah, I-I choked at regionals.

Okay, well, have you, um...

have you thought about where
you're gonna apply next year?

Um, I mean, I know I'm not
getting into an Ivy,

but there's always Penn State.

That might be a reach
at this point.

Without volleyball,
you'll have to focus on

less competitive schools.

Have you heard about Finch?

Um, yeah, I know someone
who's going there in the fall.

A family friend.

Great. Well, maybe you can
visit them and grab a tour.

I doubt it.

Come in.

Good morning, Bells.

- Hey.
- Come here.

So, I stayed up all night
doing research

on the trial my mom agreed to.

And, Belly, I-I'm feeling
really hopeful.

That's-that's great, Jere.

I mean, I'm so glad that
Susannah agreed to do it.

Yeah. I mean,
if I'm being honest,

I'm still kind of pissed
Conrad never told me

what was going on
with her, but...

you know, at least
it worked out, right?

Right.

That's kind of why I think
we should tell Conrad about us

as soon as possible.

I don't want any more secrets,

and plus, Steven already knows.

Mm.

Actually, that...

that's what I wanted
to talk to you about.

- Okay.
- See, um,

the thing is, um, last night

I really couldn't sleep
all night

so I went to...

watch the sunrise on the beach.

And Conrad was there,
and we just started talking,

and one thing led to another,

and-and, um, and we...
we kissed.

You kissed my brother?

I'm sorry.
I didn't think that, you know,

like, he...

I mean, we wanted to tell you
right away, so...

You're already a "we"?

No, no, no.
I-I just didn't,

- I didn't want it to be weird.
- Well, yeah, Belly,

it is weird, okay?

- No, Jere, please. I mean...
- No. No, you know what,

actually, it's cool.
It's cool, I get it.

You know, I was just
the distraction

to keep you busy while
you waited for Conrad.

I'm glad it finally
happened for you, Belly.

It's great timing.
It's not like my mom

has cancer or anything.

Jere, I didn't want to hurt you.

- You're one of my best friends.
- No!

No, you don't, you don't
get to call me that.

You don't mean that.

I do.

Now, can you please get out?

And just so you know,

he's gonna break your heart.

We should already be in the car.

Coming!

Hey, is this okay?

I swear I left the tickets here.

I thought your dad
was meeting us there.

Will you... Shoot, I forgot to
make the reservation for lunch.

Yeah, I figured, so I did it.

They're not gonna start
without me. We've got time.

I was supposed to iron
that shirt for you.

- Take it off, and...
- Oh, it's-it's handled.

It's handled. See?
I used the starch spray

that makes it look
real smooth, huh?

Oh, is that for me?

Sweet, a laptop?

Well, who sent this? What?

Oh, my God.

It's from Susannah.

She must have planned it before.

Classic Beck.

I wish she could have been here.

Conrad and Jeremiah, too.

They were busy.

Yeah, sure.

I feel awful.

I mean, he was so angry at us.

And he has every right
to be, honestly.

It's gonna be okay, Belly,
I promise.

How?

I think maybe we should
hit pause.

What?

No.

I don't want to make things
harder for you guys

- than they already are.
- You're not.

- I promise.
- The most important thing right now

is that you and Jeremiah
are there for each other,

are there for Susannah. And...

Us being together would
make that impossible.

Belly, come on.

I can't do that to him.

I hate this.

Yeah, me, too.

Um...

...this was always yours.

No matter what happens,

we'll still be infinite.

You should read this.

Later. We should go.

Found them. Come on.

They say...

that everything happens
for a reason.

Now, who "they" are, exactly,
is unclear.

Maybe a theologian coined it.

Or, I don't know, whoever
configured the simulation

we're clearly living in.

Maybe it was Rihanna.

No, no,

Rihanna can do no wrong.

It was definitely not her.

But we've heard it
time and time again.

It's supposed to convince us,

you know, that everything
had to happen exactly so,

in order to teach us
something about ourselves,

in order for us to grow
and meet our destiny.

I think that's BS.

I'm sorry, Mom, sorry.

You know, breakups don't always
lead to breakthroughs.

Sometimes a girl dumps you
after an awesome summer,

and it sucks.

And you learn nothing from it,

but you eventually force
yourself to move on anyways.

But then
the unthinkable happens,

and you realize it's pointless
to think of life that way.

Belly...

Hey, I never see you in here.

Your mom assigned me
this room to clean.

It's the easiest, since
I don't think she set foot

in here once to do
any writing this summer.

Don't you hire cleaners anyway?

Shh.

I love that necklace on you.

Connie told me everything that
happened with the three of you.

- I'm sorry.
- Don't be sorry.

It's not how I wanted
the summer to end.

Especially not...

I just feel like
I'm losing everyone.

You're not.

It just takes time.

You'll find your way back
to each other eventually.

And this place is always
here for you.

Yeah, but you've made
every summer here

so magical, Susannah.

I mean, what happens,
what happens...

Belly...

you love this place
the same way I do.

If anyone can keep
the magic going here, it's you.

You're my special girl.

I need to call the cleaners.

Promise me you'll
never leave me.

Never.

Because
everything just happens.

You know, good things,
bad things,

all in ways that
you'd never expect.

All in ways that are
so completely

out of your control that they
could just

drive you insane.

There are times
where it feels like

the world is happening to you,
but remember

that you are also happening
to the world.

So don't wait.
Make what you want happen.

Because tomorrow isn't promised,
so you better make fucking sure

that you are living today.

Whoo!

Whoo!

He's so extra.

Although he did earn it
with that speech.

- It was good.
- Yeah.

That speech kind of
pierced my soul.

Don't laugh.

No, no, I'm sorry.

No, I feel like I've been
in this nightmare

ever since Susannah died.

Maybe it's time to wake up.

Oh, I gotta go find Milo.

He needs my help putting
together a look for tonight.

Oh. Cool.

Um, do you want to come over
after and help me with mine?

No fucking way.
Are you coming?

- Yeah. Yes.
- Really?

Yeah. And I'm...
I'm gonna sign up

for varsity volleyball camp,
too.

Yes! Oh, my God!

Babe, this party
is gonna be insane.

Like, you are going to die
when you see Milo play.

Uh, no, yeah. I mean,
you literally might,

'cause, whew, man, I could
smell him from the podium.

- Really?
- Yeah.

Well, I'm sorry, excuse me.

My man doesn't have
that Korean gene

that makes you have
no body odor.

Okay, all right,
come on, Belly.

- Okay, great. Bye.
- Mom and Dad are meeting us

- at the restaurant.
- Bye. - See you later.

It was a great speech.

Susannah would have loved it.

Yeah, I know.

You know, I'm glad you guys are
coming to the party tonight.

Wow! I can't believe
what I'm hearing.

You really want me and Taylor
at your party?

Well, I never said "want."

I just...

I just think it's better than
moping around at home.

- You should drive.
- Really?

I gotta read all the love
in my DMs from my speech anyway,

so... all right, come on.

Yo, this is dope.
I'm going viral on TikTok.

Is that a good thing?

What, millions of people
around the world

watching my speech on a loop?

Yes, Dad, that is
a very good thing.

I gotta forward this
to Con and Jere, man.

- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.

Oh, uh, I'm sorry,
could I get a box for all this?

Yeah. Thank you, man.

Thank you.

"Happiness is an activity."

Um, okay.

Okay, well, "Everyone agrees
you are the best."

- It doesn't say that. No.
- It's so random.

Yeah, it literally says it
right here.

It literally says it right here.

- You want to see it?
- Yeah.

You want to see it?
Look, I don't know

what you want from me.

It says it right there.

I know
we keep telling you.

We're so proud of you.

You're gonna have the time
of your life at Princeton.

- Right, Laur?
- Yeah, I loved college.

That's where I met Susannah.

So, how are things going
with your book?

My publisher is hounding me
to do this meet and greet event

with booksellers. I said no.

Why?

Because it's not necessary.

Okay,

uh, well, it's time for me to
go get ready for the party.

Mom, mwah. Dad, mwah.
Thank you for lunch.

I'm gonna go with him.
Uh, it was delicious. Thank you.

- I love you.
- All right, have fun, kids.

- See you at home.
- Yup.

So you're not trying
to promote your book?

I'm not gonna have schmoozy
conversations about Susannah

just to get prime placement
in bookstores.

Well, you did write
a whole book about her.

It might feel cathartic.

I wrote the book
in a fugue state.

I have no interest in
dissecting it

just to come up with pithy
insights on grief.

Okay.

Glad the whole
"not going to therapy" thing

is working out for you.

Thank you.

Look, you wrote
a beautiful book.

I think Susannah would want you
to share it with the world.

She was always my biggest
cheerleader.

Guess now I have to be my own.

I'll wear the skirt, but I
draw the line at pom-poms.

I am so excited that
you're finally here this summer.

Can we do, like, everything that
we never got to do together?

Like parties, pool, mall?

We have to get you a fake I.D.

Let's start by figuring out
what I'm gonna wear tonight.

- Uh, okay.
- Okay.

Susannah's earrings?

They're perfect.

Okay.

Since my man is playing tonight,

I'm gonna need you to be
the super-hot friend

standing next to his
super-hot girlfriend.

Yeah, let's get super-hot.

I love it when you agree with me.

Um, I'm thinking this.

That's what you call super-hot?

This looks so good on you.

No, no, I've got to
have something better.

Uh, okay.

Mm-mm.

No.

The call came
the second week of September,

three weeks since
the last time I'd seen him.

It felt like a dream. Unreal.

♪ I've learned to
love me as myself ♪

♪ But when I'm with...

Hey.

Hey.

I, uh, didn't

expect to hear from you.

Yeah, is it okay that I'm,
that I'm calling?

I shouldn't have called.
This was dumb.

- I'm sorry.
- No, no, no, no, it's okay.

Um... we're still friends,
right?

Yeah, yeah.
We're friends, yeah.

Yeah, and, um, friends
can talk on the phone.

Yeah, yeah.
Nothing weird about

friends talking on the phone.

♪ Or none of me at all...

Uh, so how's...
how's college life?

Um, it's cool, it's cool.

My roommate snores even
louder than you do. Which...

Oh, come on.

- I don't snore.
- Yes, you do.

You a thousand percent do.

I've heard you through
the walls for years.

Only when you're
really tired, though.

How's school for you?

Boring. Painful.

I mean, like, no, no,
who invented trig,

and why do they torture innocent
high school students with it?

It can't be that bad.

No, oh, it's-it's bad.
It's-it's really bad.

I mean, I can't keep up
with all the letters.

Well, you know, the first thing
you gotta do is determine

if it's a right angle
triangle or not.

Belly, have you seen

my, uh, big kettle bell?
The 20-pound one?

Steven, I'm on the phone.

Well, tell Taylor to go to bed.

Hi, Steven.

♪ Don't be afraid...

Hey, Conrad.

It's not in here.

Go away.

Sorry about that.

Okay, um...

what were you saying
about triangles again?

Um, so if it's not
a right angle triangle...

♪ If you love me ♪♪

Okay, if you want to
wear the T-shirt,

you know, we should
at least crop it.

It was Conrad's.

You know, every time
I think of him

I still get this, like,
pain in my chest.

Oh, I know.
It sucks, babe,

but eventually you're gonna
have to let him go.

Yeah, I just wish I knew how.

It's like my meemaw
always used to say:

the best way to get over a man
is to get under a new one.

Heading to a grad party?

Yeah. Mine.

Me and the guys are
throwing it, remember?

Oh, right.
Well, have fun.

And don't drink and drive.

Oh, don't worry,
I promised Steven

I'd be the sober driver.

Oh, and I ordered you a pizza,
okay, so please eat it.

Don't worry about me. Go.

- All right. I love you.
- Bye. - Love you.

- Be safe.
- Bye, love you.

Bye.

♪ Bad chick, I could be your fantasy ♪

♪ I can tell you got
big, big energy ♪

♪ It ain't too many of 'em
that can handle me ♪

♪ But I might let you
try it off the Hennessy ♪

♪ Make 'em sing to this thang
like a melody ♪

♪ And if your girl ain't right,
I got the remedy...

Oh, my God. Milo!

- Hi.
- Oh, God.

Thank God you're here.

Come here.

- Mmm.
- Oh, my God.

So I need to be able to see you
when I'm up onstage.

- Yeah.
- All right. So stay up close?

- Okay. Yeah. Mm-hmm.
- Yeah?

- My boy!
- Yeah!

Uh, you call this a party?

Where are all the hot ladies
you promised?

Uh, we're literally standing
right here.

Oh, uh, no offense.
I'm into older women.

Personal preference.

Hey, babe, I'm gonna go
help the guys

- finish setting up, all right?
- Okay. All right.

Bye.

Okay, well, have fun, everybody.

I gotta go make the rounds,
entertain the people.

You know, host shit.

- Okay.
- Come on, Spike.

You're so cute tonight,
you know that?

Come on, let's go
get some drinks.

I can't drink,
I'm driving.

Okay.

- What?
- Oh, my God, but camp

is gonna be so much fun.

I bought us all matching PJs.

Oh, you are going to need
to buy one more set.

Guess who finally
decided to join us.

The Killa B is gonna have
her captaincy back

from Donna in, like, no time.

- You know what I mean?
- Yeah, right?

But Coach Shaw is okay with it?

You know, you coming back?

I actually haven't talked
to Coach yet.

I wanted to talk
to you guys first.

I mean, after last season,
I-I totally don't blame you

if you don't want me back
on the team.

Oh, shut up.
You're always one of us.

Yes! Right answer.

Bump, set, hit, spike.

That's the way we like to fight!

- Come on.
- Come on, team...

...let's hear you scream!

Yeah.

And for you. There we are.
Oh, my God.

- Mmm. Holy shit. Oh, my God.
- Fuck.

Ooh, it's game point,
Ms. Conklin.

Bye-bye, Conrad.

Hey, you still there?

So...

My roommate Trusky...

Oh, did he sleepwalk
in his underwear again?

No, he didn't, he didn't,
thankfully.

But we were talking,
and it turns out

he's a 5G conspiracist.

So apparently,

that guy that Katie
was seeing had a girlfriend

the whole time.

And it just sucks.

Like, he didn't really
seem like the type, you know?

Did you know my dad cheated?

Adam cheated on Susannah?

Yeah. The first time
my mom was sick,

he had an affair

with his secretary Kayleigh.

I found out about it last spring

on, like, the same day
I found out

about my mom's
cancer coming back.

How'd you find out?

Um, I came home early
from school one day and...

heard them fighting.

She was crying so much, Belly.
She...

I've never heard her
cry like that before.

So I left.

I went back out, I drove
around town for two hours

and came back and pretended
not to know anything.

I'm so sorry.

It sucks that you had to
carry that secret for so long.

Yeah, it was just exhausting.

I-I couldn't turn my brain off.

It was like if you do that,
then this horrible thing is

gonna happen,
but if you do this,

then, you know, this
catastrophic thing will happen.

Oh, my God, that sounds

so stressful.

Oh, goddamn it, it's 2:00.

You said you have practice
early, I should let you go.

Uh...

yeah, um,
off-season workouts suck,

but there's a rumor that

a college scout from Finch
is coming to watch

our club team play this weekend.

And there's a chance
Coach might make me captain.

What? That's crazy.

I'll definitely let you go.
I didn't know that.

Five more minutes?

- Yeah. Okay, I'll-I'll do it.
- Yeah.

I'm gonna do it.

- Yeah?
- Oh, yeah.

- Yeah, okay.
- What are you waiting for?

- I'm actually doing it. Bye.
- Now go.

Good luck.

Wow, you're, uh, really good at

operating a keg.

Wow. Hi, Conklin. Oh, um...

Comment vont Katniss et Peeta?

Uh... En péril mortel,
comme d'habitude.

I didn't know you took French.

Oui. Want one?

No, no, I'm okay, thanks.

Uh, I'm the DD tonight.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

♪ I could spend my life ♪

♪ In this sweet surrender ♪

♪ I could stay
lost in this moment ♪

- ♪ Forever ♪
- Whoo!

♪ And every moment
spent with you ♪

♪ Is a moment I treasure ♪

♪ I don't want to
close my eyes ♪

♪ I don't want to fall asleep ♪

♪ 'Cause I'd miss you, baby ♪

♪ And I don't want to
miss a thing...

You want to know something
so romantic?

Milo wrote this song for me.

It's a cover.

Of that song from the movie
Armageddon?

Oh. Well, it's still romantic.

Okay, wait, don't make me
beg you for details.

What did you and Cory
talk about?

Uh, the book I'm reading.

I'm sorry, you suck at
talking to guys.

Okay, I'm rusty,

and also, he's the one
who brought it up.

- He spoke to me in French.
- French? What?

In French?
Okay, that's so hot.

Like, he sounds obsessed
with you.

Yeah, I don't know.
I mean, that convo

took so much effort.

Like, is it supposed to be
that hard?

I mean, look with you and Milo.

You guys just make sense.

♪ I don't want to
close my eyes...

Well, Milo and I are soul mates.

♪ 'Cause I'd miss you, baby ♪

♪ And I don't want to
miss a thing ♪

♪ 'Cause even when
I dream of you ♪

♪ The sweetest dream
would never do ♪

♪ I'd still miss you, baby ♪

♪ And I don't want
to miss a thing ♪

Yeah.

♪ Can we forget about ♪

♪ The things I said
when I was drunk? ♪

♪ I didn't mean
to call you that ♪

♪ I can't remember what was said
or what you threw at me ♪

♪ Please tell me ♪

♪ Please tell me why...

Belly. I'm gonna crowd-surf.

Hold my shirt for a second,
and make sure

- no one spills anything on it.
- Ew, Steven!

No, I don't want to hold
your sweaty T-shirt.

Whoo!

Yeah!

- What the hell, Steven?
- Are you okay?

Uh, Belly, I'm sorry.

No, yeah, I'm good.
I'm totally fine.

I'm just, uh...
I'm gonna go get a drink.

Well, you're my sober driver,
Belly Belle.

- Don't let me down.
- Steven!

♪ It's no surprise to me
I am my own worst enemy ♪♪

I had this weird thought today.

Yeah? I love weird thoughts.

I was thinking

if my dad had cheated on my mom,

she probably wouldn't have
even cared.

- Is that harsh?
- No.

But do you really think Laurel
wouldn't have a reaction?

I mean, kinda.

Like, nothing about my dad
ever excited her. You know?

They were, like, never romantic
around each other.

And you want to see
your parents being romantic?

Maybe.

I mean, I just can't imagine
marrying someone

who didn't give me fireworks.

You know, like, like electric
jolts every time I saw them.

Were you surprised when
you found out your parents

were getting divorced?

Uh, yes and no. I mean,

I always thought divorce
meant fighting, you know?

And there was none of that.

I mean, they were cold for
a little while, but, um...

...now everything's kind of
back to normal.

In a weird way,
that must almost be

a little harder to understand.

Exactly.

Ooh, well...

What?

I don't know.

Just never said any of this
to anyone before.

Me either.

Hey, can I ask you something?

Anything.

Um, how's-how's Jere?
Is he, is he doing okay?

Um, yeah, yeah,
he seems good. Why?

I don't know, I texted him
a few times since summer ended,

and, uh, he never writes back.

Yeah, no, I mean,
he's probably just busy

with senior year stuff.

Right, right, right.
Or, you know,

it's that he'll never
get over what I did

and hold it against me
for the rest of our lives.

- Belly
- Never mind.

Forget I said anything.

I learned something kinda cool.

- Tell me.
- Did you know

that Venus is an evening star

for 263 days out of the year?

And then it disappears
from the sky for 50 days

before returning
as a morning star

for another 263 days.

I did not know that.

That is very cool.

And right now it's
an evening star.

It's really bright
next to the moon.

I'm actually looking at it
right now.

It's-it's probably against
the rules to say this,

but, um, I wish we were
looking at it together.

Me, too.

And, Belly?

Yes, Conrad?

I couldn't be with someone

who didn't make me feel
electric either.

♪ I am my own worst enemy ♪

♪ 'Cause every now and then ♪

♪ I kick the living shit
out of me ♪

♪ Can we forget about
the things I said ♪

♪ When I was drunk? ♪

♪ I didn't mean
to call you that ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

Hey.

Hey, Conklin.

Hey. Long time no see, huh?

Yeah. No, I know,
it's been ages, right?

Yeah.

Is that seat taken?

Uh, no, no.

- Go right ahead.
- Yeah.

I wonder if Venus is a morning
star or an evening star tonight.

I think Venus is a planet.

No, actually,
ancient astronomers, um...

- You know what? Never mind.
- Okay.

- It's dumb.
- All right.

You know, you can hardly
see any stars

this close to the city anyway.

There's a lot more by the beach.

I used to spend every summer
at this beach in Massachusetts.

Hmm.

Are you going this summer?

Uh, no. No, I'm not.

So then you'll be here
for the Fourth, huh?

Well, my folks are gonna
be out of town,

and I was thinking about
having a few people over.

You and your friends
should totally come.

That-that sounds cool.

All right. Cool.

Come here.

- You kinda have something...
- Really?

Yeah. Hold on.

Uh...

- Belly, no. I was just...
- Do I...

- Oh, my God, no...
- No, I was just trying...

- You have something in your...
- I have something in my...

- Yeah.
- You know why? Because I just...

It's grass. 'Cause I just
got kicked in the head.

- That's why.
- Holy shit.

But no, no, I'm totally fine.

- I'm just, um, I'm gonna go.
- Oh, my God.

- Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- Um, hey, Belly, actually...
- Yes. Yeah?

Could you do me a favor?

Could you put in a good word
for me with, uh...

with your friend Marcy?

Yeah. Marcy?

- Yeah.
- Yes. And you. That makes sense.

- Yeah, that'd be great.
- Yeah.

- I totally will. You guys...
- Cool. Thank you.

Thank you for this.
Yes, okay, bye.

♪ I said I hit the elevator,
made it to the top fast...

Belly. Belly, come here.

Hey, sis.
Sis, sis, check it out,

check it out, check it out.

- Oh!
- Oh!

Oh, my God.

I can't believe
you did that.

This party sucks.

Dude, it's beer, man.
It'll dry. Chill.

I'm leaving, okay?

Wait, wait,
did something happen?

No, nothing happened.
Whatever.

Steven, can you just get Spike
to drive you home, please?

Spike? No, Spike-Spike is drunk.

You-you promised to be
my sober ride tonight.

Okay, well, I'm ready to go now.

Okay, well, I'm not.

Great. Then can you just call
an Uber or something?

Why are you being
such a buzzkill right now?

Oh, I'm sorry, am I ruining
your fun night,

Mr. Perfect Valedictorian?

Kinda, yeah.

Okay, well, in case you forgot,

which it clearly seems
like you did,

Susannah just died,
so I'm a little bit sad.

But please,
don't let that stop you from

- having the time of your life.
- Fuck you.

You know, I lost Susannah, too.

Okay? You don't think
I'm sad about that?

Oh, what, were you crowd-surfing
the pain away?

- My apologies.
- No, you should apologize.

You screwed up, and now
everything is weird with Conrad

and Jeremiah. I mean, they won't
even text me back anymore

- because of you.
- Okay, guys, listen...

- That is not my fault.
- Isn't it?! Hmm?

I should be celebrating
with them tonight,

but they wouldn't come
because you made things messy.

You had Jeremiah,
and it just wasn't enough.

You had to have Conrad, too.

- God, you are so fucking selfish.
- Steven!

- What?
- Are you serious? - I had to have Conrad?

Are you kidding?

I was in love, Steven.

Like out of my mind in love.

What was I supposed to do?!

Belly.

- Belly.
- Steven.

Hey.

Steven is a drunk idiot
right now.

- Please do not listen to him.
- No, no.

He's right. I mean, I ruined
things with both of them,

and then Susannah died,

and I completely ruined
her funeral.

And I just, I wish I hadn't
started any of it.

- No, you don't.
- Yes, I do.

- No, you don't...
- Yes, I do.

And I'm so tired of
feeling sad all the time,

and I just, I don't think
I get to feel better.

You think that right now,
but I promise you...

No, no, no, no, no, no.
Nothing is promised.

You can't
promise anything. Sorry.

I'm sorry. I just,
I know you're trying your best.

I don't, I don't expect anyone
to understand

what I'm going through
right now,

and I think I just have to
deal with it alone.

I'm gonna go.

- I can come with you.
- No, no, no, no, no.

Stay. I mean,
it's your boyfriend's debut,

and I just...

I just need to go to bed.

Will you text me when
you get home, please?

Yeah.

- I love you.
- I love you.

Okay.

♪ I got my driver's license
last week ♪

♪ Just like we always
talked about ♪

♪ 'Cause you were so
excited for me ♪

♪ To finally drive up
to your house ♪

♪ But today I drove through
the suburbs ♪

♪ Crying 'cause you
weren't around ♪

♪ All my friends are tired ♪

♪ Of hearing how much
I miss you ♪

♪ But I kind of
feel sorry for them ♪

♪ 'Cause they'll never know you
the way that I do ♪

♪ Yeah, today I drove
through the suburbs ♪

♪ And pictured I was
driving home to you ♪

♪ And I know
we weren't perfect ♪

♪ But I've never felt this way ♪

♪ For no one ♪

♪ Oh, and I just can't imagine ♪

♪ How you could be so okay ♪

♪ Now that I'm gone ♪

♪ I guess you didn't mean
what you wrote ♪

♪ In that song about me ♪

♪ 'Cause you said forever ♪

♪ Now I drive alone
past your street ♪

♪ You said forever ♪

♪ Now I drive alone
past your street ♪♪

Hey. Happy almost Halloween.

Conrad.

I know I'm not
supposed to be here,

but I'm here.

I brought candy.

- Do you want me to go?
- No, no, no.

Um, don't leave, just, um...

Where...
What are you doing here?

Um, I wanted to see you.

- So...
- Yeah, yeah, um...

- you know, but I thought...
- Wait, no, I know, I know

you... you were worried
about Jere, but, look,

I had a chance to talk to him,

and he's doing really good,
actually.

He's, um, he's going
on dates, you know.

And, um, he's been on this high
ever since

- he got made homecoming king.
- That's great.

- So, um, he's over...
- Yeah.

I think he is.

Belly, I don't think I could
ever get over you.

I mean, I'm not.
I'm here.

Whenever I talk to you,
I'm just happy.

And I gotta say,

standing in front of you
right now, it's torture

not being able to kiss you.

- Belly, we need to talk.
- I'm kinda tired.

Sit down.

You didn't eat?

Your guidance counselor
emailed me.

I didn't know you lost
your volleyball captaincy,

or that your grades were so bad.

Yeah, sorry, I'm not getting in
to Princeton like Steven.

That's not what I'm saying.
You can do better than this.

I'm really disappointed in you.

Sorry, Mom. You know,
Susannah died, remember?

You don't get to use
Susannah's death as an excuse.

This whole year's been hard
for me, too.

You were barely here.

And I don't blame you for being
there for Susannah and the boys.

They needed you.
But you can't blame me either

for things that happened
because you were away.

This isn't about blame.

This is about you
and the choices you made.

It's about taking responsibility
for yourself,

even when things are hard.

Life keeps going.
You can't just give up.

You want to talk about
taking responsibility?

You won't even promote your book

because you refuse
to talk about Susannah.

You can't just suddenly be
concerned about volleyball

when you haven't gone to

a single one of my games
this year.

I waited all year for you
to step up

and be a parent.

You gave up way before I did.

♪ Need to get this album done ♪

♪ Need a couple number ones...

Do you have to do that
at every stop?

It is kicking up my gag reflex.

If you'd rather walk,
we can let you out right here.

Probably safer, honestly.

Hey, you don't gotta worry, man.

I'm fully sober.

Fucking Belly, man!

Taking my car
and-and leaving me stranded

at my own party, who does that?

I don't know.
Who yells at their own sister

in front of everyone
for being sad?

- She yelled at me first.
- Okay.

So mature of you, Steven.
How about you try

some compassion next time,
asshole?

Aren't you supposed to,
like, come together in grief?

Life cannot be separated
from death.

Wow. You're so helpful, man.
Thank you.

Milo is very in touch
with his emotions.

That's what makes him
a great musician.

Aww, thanks, babe.

You know, I actually have
a record label

interested in signing me.

- What?!
- Yeah. Check it out.

Cancel Culture Records.

Babe, they only have one post.

That's what's so punk about it.

Yeah, dude. Congrats, man.
Congrats.

Oh...

"My darling Steven,

congratulations on
your graduation.

This is the start
of what is sure to be

an exceptional journey.

I wish I could be there
to watch you shine,

but you have
an extraordinary mom

who will be with you
every step of the way.

Remember, the world
is not only happening to you,

but you are happening
to the world.

And don't forget to
enjoy the ride.

Love, Susannah"

Hey, I know it's late,

but about the bookseller event.

I changed my mind.
I'll do it.

I knew
I'd lose Susannah eventually.

I just didn't know
I'd end up losing all of them.

In my memory, the three of them
will always be entwined,

forever linked.

There can't be one
without the others.

♪ I still remember ♪

♪ The look on your face...

And now
they're all gone.

♪ At 1:58 ♪

♪ The words that you whispered ♪

♪ For just us to know ♪

♪ You told me you loved me ♪

♪ So why did you go ♪

♪ Away? ♪

♪ Away ♪

♪ Just like our last ♪♪

Belly?

Hi, Jeremiah.
I'm so glad...

Are you with Conrad?

Uh, no.

Why would I be with Conrad?

I don't know, I just thought
maybe you guys would, um...

Jere...

What is going on?

Conrad's gone.

Wait, what do you...
what do you mean gone?

He's not answering my texts
or picking up my calls.

- Since when?
- Yesterday.

I mean, isn't he in the middle
of finals? Maybe...

he pulled an all-nighter
at the library.

No, no, I don't think so.

Apparently he told his roommate
that everything is fucked,

and then he just took off.

I think I'm gonna go
to Brown in the morning

and see if I can track him down.

I'll never
get Susannah back,

but I can't let Jeremiah
and Conrad go, too.

Okay.

But I'm coming with you.

♪ Yeah, I saw you dancing
in a crowded room ♪

♪ You look so happy
when I'm not with you ♪

♪ But then you saw me,
caught you by surprise ♪

♪ A single teardrop
falling from your eye ♪

♪ I don't know why I run away ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ I make you cry
when I run away ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Take me back
'cause I want to stay ♪

♪ Save your tears for another ♪

♪ Save your tears
for another day ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Save your tears
for another day ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ I don't know why ♪

♪ I run away ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ I'll make you cry
when I run away ♪

♪ Save your tears ♪

♪ For another day ♪

♪ Ooh, girl ♪

♪ I said save your tears ♪

♪ For another day ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Save your tears
for another day ♪

♪ Ah ♪

♪ Save your tears
for another day ♪♪