The L Word (2004–2009): Season 3, Episode 9 - Lead, Follow, or Get Out of the Way - full transcript

Bette has hard time adjusting to the ascetic lifestyle at the Buddhist retreat in snowy upstate Washington. Back in Los Angeles, Tina goes on a date with a divorced man named Henry. Dana, friends again with Alice, is looking forward to a new career after meeting Dr. Susan Love over her possible recovery. Meanwhile, Jenny throws a benefit party for Max at the WAX, but she gets appalled by his increasingly aggressive behavior. Also, Carmen tells the truth to her family about her lesbianism and Shane her love. Helena's affair with Dylan takes a surprising turn when is served with a lawsuit by Dylan for sexual harassment.

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AL?

ALICE!

I'M JUST... I'M DISAPPEARING.

I'M JUST DISAPPEARING.

I'M REALLY SORRY ABOUT
WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH.

IT'S LIFE-AND-DEATH

FOR ME, TOO.

GENDER REASSIGNMENT SURGERY

ISN'T YET INCLUDED ON
ANY INSURANCE POLICIES.

SOME OF MY PATIENTS,



THEY HOLD TOP
SURGERY BENEFIT PARTIES.

YOU'RE THE ONE I WANT TO SPEND

THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH.

YOU ARE THE ONE I
WANT TO MARRY ME!

NOBODY MAKES ME WET LIKE THAT.

TAKE ME HOME...

TO YOUR HOUSE.

WHERE'S CARMEN?

I'M IN THE SHITHOUSE.

YOU'RE HAVING THESE NIGHTMARES

BECAUSE OF THAT
FUCKED-UP THING I DID.

YOU NO LONGER
HAVE THE PRIVILEGES

OF BEING MY LIFE PARTNER.

WHOA!



YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S
BREAKING UP THE FAMILY.

ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO
GO THROUGH WITH THIS ADOPTION?

OF COURSE I DO. WHY
WOULD YOU SAY THAT?

WELL, IT'S OBVIOUS
THAT YOU AND BETTE

ARE NOT HAPPY CAMPERS.

♪ IT'S WHETHER YOU GET UP ♪

♪ IT'S WHETHER YOU GET UP ♪

♪ MMM-MMM, MMM ♪

♪ WHETHER YOU FALL ♪

♪ MEANS NOTHING AT ALL ♪

♪ WHETHER YOU GET UP ♪

♪ WHETHER YOU GET UP ♪

♪ MMM-MMM ♪

IT'S BAD?

SHE SAID SHE COULDN'T
LIVE WITHOUT ME.

SHE WILL.

AND SHE'S GOING TO
MOVE ON, YOU KNOW?

WE'VE ALL FELT LIKE THAT BEFORE.

I JUST HATE BEING THE
HURTER, YOU KNOW?

I JUST...

IT'S WORSE, I THINK,

THAN BEING THE ONE WHO
GETS THEIR HEART BROKEN.

DANA, YOU CAN'T GIVE
UP YOUR HAPPINESS

FOR THE SAKE OF ALICE'S.

DON'T.

I'M SORRY, I JUST... I'M NOT...

I'M NOT READY.

IT'S OKAY.

I UNDERSTAND.

I DIDN'T BREAK UP
WITH HER FOR YOU.

I BROKE UP BECAUSE
IT WASN'T WORKING.

IT'S OKAY.

I CAN WAIT.

I'VE WAITED THIS LONG.

WE HAVE ALL THE
TIME IN THE WORLD.

♪ GIRLS IN TIGHT DRESSES
WHO DRAG WITH MUSTACHES ♪

♪ CHICKS DRIVING FAST
INGENUES WITH LONG LASHES ♪

♪ WOMEN WHO LONG, LOVE,
LUST WOMEN WHO GIVE ♪

♪ THIS IS THE WAY IT'S
THE WAY THAT WE LIVE ♪

♪ TALKING, LAUGHING
LOVING, BREATHING ♪

♪ FIGHTING, FUCKING
CRYING, DRINKING ♪

♪ WRITING, WINNING
LOSING, CHEATING ♪

♪ KISSING, THINKING, DREAMING ♪

♪ THIS IS THE WAY... ♪

♪ IT'S THE WAY THAT WE LIVE ♪

♪ IT'S THE WAY THAT WE LIVE ♪

♪ AND LOVE ♪

SO, IS IT TRUE THAT
YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN UP

SINCE 4:00 IN THE MORNING?

YES, BECAUSE WE'RE STILL

ON EAST COAST TIME.

AND YOU MAY AS WELL STAY ON IT.

IT'S A SHAME,

BUT THEY'VE GOT TO
GO BACK TO NEW YORK

WITH THEIR NANNY AS SOON AS

THE SWIMMING LESSON IS OVER.

MOMMY, CAN DYLAN COME

TO OUR SWIMMING LESSON WITH US?

PUMPKIN...

DYLAN CAN COME ANYWHERE
SHE WANTS WITH US,

ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD.

DON'T DO THAT.

WHAT?

NOTHING, IT'S JUST...

WELL, THE KIDS ARE FINE WITH IT.

I KNOW, BUT WE'RE IN PUBLIC...

AND I'M NOT...

OKAY.

SO WHO WANTS TO GO SWIMMING?

ME. ME.

SO, I WAS THINKING ABOUT
WEARING THAT GREEN DRESS

TO THE LYON MARTIN BENEFIT.

I DON'T KNOW. I HAVE
TO MAKE A SPEECH.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I WOULD SAVE THE
GREEN DRESS FOR TV

BECAUSE IT'S A
GOOD COLOR ON YOU.

THANK YOU.

AND YOU ARE THE COLOR
COMMENTATOR, SO...

THAT'S FUNNY.

WHAT?

THAT'S NOT WHAT THAT MEANS.

OH.

THE COLOR COMMENTATOR HELPS OUT

THE PLAY-BY-PLAY ANNOUNCER

BY, LIKE, I DON'T KNOW,
FILLING GAPS AND STUFF.

OH.

WHERE'S THE COLOR COME IN, THEN?

I HAVE NO IDEA.

SEE?

BECAUSE IT'S COLORFUL?

I DON'T KNOW.

I HELP, LIKE, GIVE STATISTICS

AND INJURY REPORTS,

WITH SOME OCCASIONAL HUMOR.

BECAUSE YOU'RE SO FUNNY.

YES.

IT'S LIKE LOOKING INTO A MIRROR.

WELL, BALD IS BEAUTIFUL.

I THINK SO.

THANKS FOR COMING WITH ME.

SURE.

I MEAN, I'M EXCITED
TO MEET DR. LOVE.

I WANT HER TO SIGN
MY BOOK AND STUFF.

I LIKE DOING STUFF WITH YOU.

YOU'RE, LIKE, MY FAVORITE
PERSON TO DO STUFF WITH.

DO YOU MISS LARA?

YEAH, I DO.

I DON'T KNOW. IT'S
DIFFERENT WITH YOU.

WELL, WE'RE BEST
FRIENDS, THAT'S WHY.

YEAH. YEAH.

I MEAN, IT TOOK ME A
LONG TIME TO GET HERE,

BUT YOU'RE MY BEST
FRIEND, YOU KNOW?

I WASN'T GOING TO
LET YOU GO, SO...

YEAH, I KNOW. I'M GLAD.

I'M GLAD WE'RE BACK...

TOGETHER AS... AS FRIENDS.

IT'S GOOD.

OH, SHOOT.

I SHOULD'VE CALLED IT
"TAKE MY BREASTS AWAY."

THAT WOULD'VE BEEN
SO MUCH MORE TRAGIC.

I'M NOT TRAGIC.

NO, NOT TRAGIC LIKE THAT.

IT'S KIND OF TRAGIC IN THAT '80s

MILLI VANILLI KIND OF WAY.

I MEAN, TOM AND CYNTHIA
CALLED IT "THE PITY PARTY."

YOU CALLING THIS
"THE PITY PARTY"?

WHOO, THAT'S DEEP, GIRL.

I'M NOT A GIRL, KIT,

AND IT'S NOT A PITY PARTY.

IT'S A FUNDRAISER.

I CALL EVERYBODY "GIRL."

SHE EVEN CALLS ME
"GIRL" SOMETIMES.

OH, YOU GO, GIRL.

JENNY, YOU WANT SOMETHING?

UH, COFFEE, PLEASE.

IT'S NOT COOL.

IT'S LIKE IF SOMEONE'S TRYING
TO CHANGE THEIR NAME, YOU KNOW,

AND PEOPLE REFUSE TO
CALL THEM BY THEIR NEW ONE.

MAX, I KNOW WHAT
YOU'RE ABOUT TO DO

IS VERY REAL,

BUT IT'S GOING TO BE MORE
THAN JUST CHANGING YOUR NAME.

THERE'S GOING TO
BE CONSEQUENCES.

KIT, YOU'RE MY
FRIEND, ALL RIGHT?

SO IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY,

YOU SHOULD JUST SAY IT.

I UNDERSTAND

SOME OF YOUR STRUGGLE,

AND I RESPECT THE
CHOICE YOU'RE MAKING

IN YOUR LIFE.

BUT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT.

NO, I DON'T HAVE
A PROBLEM WITH IT.

I'M JUST WORRIED ABOUT YOU.

CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

YOU KNOW, I'VE NEVER
FELT COMFORTABLE

IN A GIRL'S BODY.

SO REMOVING YOUR BREASTS AND
CHANGING YOURSELF INTO A MAN

IS GOING TO SOLVE
ALL YOUR PROBLEMS?

NO, I KNOW THAT WON'T HAPPEN,

BUT PEOPLE WILL START
TO SEE ME FOR WHO I AM.

YOU KNOW, IT JUST...

IT JUST SADDENS ME TO SEE

SO MANY OF OUR
STRONG BUTCH GIRLS

GIVING UP THEIR
WOMANHOOD TO BE A MAN.

YOU KNOW, WE'RE
LOSING OUR WARRIORS,

OUR GREATEST WOMEN,

AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU.

I'M NOT FOLLOWING SOME TREND.

WHAT IF I LIVED MY LIFE

FEELING WHITE INSIDE,

AND THEN THE NEXT DAY I WOKE UP,

AND I COULD CHANGE
THE COLOR OF MY SKIN,

THE FEATURES ON MY FACE

TO BECOME WHITE?

WOULD YOU ENCOURAGE
ME TO DO THAT?

I DON'T KNOW.

DO YOU FEEL WHITE INSIDE?

WHAT'S "WHITE INSIDE"?

WHAT'S "MALE INSIDE"?

WHAT'S "FEMALE INSIDE"?

WHY CAN'T YOU BE THE
BUTCHEST BUTCH IN THE WORLD

AND KEEP YOUR BODY?

BECAUSE I WANT TO FEEL WHOLE.

I WANT THE OUTSIDE OF ME
TO MATCH THE INSIDE OF ME.

YOU'LL BE GIVING UP

THE MOST PRECIOUS
THING IN THE WORLD.

WHAT, MY TITS?

NO.

BEING A WOMAN.

HERE YOU GO, ALICE.

WHY, THANK YOU, DR. LOVE.

YOU KNOW, DANA,

EVERYTHING YOU'VE TOLD ME,

I THINK YOU'RE DOING
EVERYTHING RIGHT,

AND I WOULD ADVISE
ANYBODY IN YOUR SITUATION

TO HAVE CHEMOTHERAPY,

BUT I'M REALLY GLAD YOU'RE DOING

ALL THE COMPLEMENTARY
THERAPIES AS WELL,

BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT'S REALLY
GOING TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.

OH, YEAH, IT DOES.

I READ YOUR BOOK.

WHAT ELSE CAN I DO FOR YOU,

BESIDES TELLING YOU YOU'RE
DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT?

I JUST... AT THIS POINT,

I JUST WANT TO KNOW
WHAT I CAN DO TO HELP YOU.

YEAH.

I MEAN, YOU'RE WORKING
ON A CURE, RIGHT?

THAT'S WHAT I READ.

WELL, I HAVE A FOUNDATION,

AND WE'RE DOING RESEARCH

ON WHERE BREAST CANCER STARTS,

WHICH IS IN THE LINING
OF THE MILK DUCTS,

AND WE HAVE A DEVICE

WHERE WE CAN GET
INTO THE MILK DUCT,

AND SQUIRT A VERY LOW
DOSE OF CHEMOTHERAPY

RIGHT WHERE THE TUMOR IS,

AND TREAT THE TUMOR.

PRE-CANCEROUS, TOO.

SO I'M HOPING THIS WON'T
ONLY CURE BREAST CANCER,

BUT MAY EVEN BE A WAY OF
PREVENTING IT ALTOGETHER.

GOD, THAT'S AMAZING.

WOW.

WE'VE ACTUALLY BEEN ABLE

TO PREVENT IT IN RATS.

WE'VE GIVEN THIS
LOW-DOSE CHEMOTHERAPY

TO RATS,

AND THEN GIVEN THEM A CARCINOGEN

AND PREVENTED THEM FROM
GETTING BREAST CANCER.

SO WE'RE VERY CLOSE.

I-I WANT TO...

I WANT TO HELP.

I'LL DO ANYTHING, ANYTHING.

THAT'S GREAT.

WE NEED ALL THE HELP WE CAN GET.

I WANT TO DO
ANYTHING I CAN, REALLY.

I FEEL LIKE IT'S GIVING
ME A NEW LEASE ON LIFE.

AH, WOW.

HEY, GUYS.

HELLO.

OH, MY GOD, THESE
ARE SO FABULOUS.

IS DANA GOING TO
BE OKAY WITH THESE?

YEAH, I MEAN, YOU KNOW,
SHE'S HAVING A HARD TIME,

BUT I THINK SHE'S
COMING TONIGHT.

SHE IS? GOOD, GOOD, GOOD.

HEY, MAX, LOOK.

OH, WOW.

COOL, ALICE.

HEY, IS THERE A FRIDGE?

BECAUSE I DON'T
WANT THEM TO MELT.

THERE'S ONE RIGHT IN THE BACK.

OKAY.

OH... WHOA.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

HEY.

WANT SOME HELP?

NO, IT'S OKAY. I GOT IT.

NO, SHANE, I GOT IT.

WELL, BABY, I JUST...

NO, SHANE, I GOT IT!

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?
YOU'VE BEEN LIKE THIS FOR DAYS.

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?

I'M FINE. OH, REALLY?

OKAY, FINE.

YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT IS?

YEAH.

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL

IF YOU WERE MAKING LOVE TO ME,

AND THEN, ALL OF A SUDDEN,

I JUST CHECK OUT
IN THE MIDDLE OF IT.

I'M GONE. I'M NOT THERE.

I HAVEN'T CHECKED OUT.

YEAH, YOU'RE THERE.

YOU'RE LYING NEXT
TO ME AND STUFF,

BUT, LIKE, I TRY AND TOUCH
YOU, I TRY TO KISS YOU.

I TRY AND DO ALL THESE
THINGS TO MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD,

AND YOU'RE COMPLETELY GONE.

NO.

YES.

NO, I'M THERE.

OKAY, WHEN WAS THE
LAST TIME YOU CAME?

OH, COME ON, THAT HAS NOTHING...

THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT.

REALLY?

I THINK THAT SOMEWHERE,

DEEP DOWN, YOU'VE
REALIZED THAT ALL OF A SUDDEN

YOU'RE IN THIS NICE, LITTLE
COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP NOW,

AND IT PISSES YOU OFF,

AND NOW YOU'RE PUNISHING ME.

HEY, JENNY...

YEAH?

I HAVE TO TELL YOU
THAT THIS PLACE,

IT LOOKS AMAZING.

YAY!

I'M TELLING YOU, LADY,

YOU DID A PHENOMENAL JOB.

LIKE, IF MY PROM WERE THIS COOL,

I ABSOLUTELY WOULD HAVE GONE.

WHY DIDN'T YOU GO TO YOUR PROM,

MISS CARMEN?

SO THERE WAS THIS GIRL,

HER NAME WAS EVA TORRES,

AND THAT NIGHT WE SNUCK OFF,

AND, LIKE, WE WENT
TO THIS PORN FESTIVAL.

I KNOW.

FOR REAL?

SO WE GO TO THIS PORN FESTIVAL,

AND SHE TAUGHT ME HOW TO 69.

THAT'S, LIKE, THE
COOLEST PROM NIGHT.

I'M SO JEALOUS.

WHY?

I MEAN, I WENT, BUT IT SUCKED.

DID YOU GO TO PROM?

NO, SHE DIDN'T
FINISH HIGH SCHOOL.

YOU DIDN'T FINISH HIGH SCHOOL?

NO.

IT'S ALL RIGHT. THE G.E.D.

DID YOU GO TO PROM?

YEAH, I DID.

I WENT WITH BUCK THORNTON.

BUCK THORNTON? BUCK THORNTON?

YEAH, HE WAS THE CAPTAIN

OF THE FOOTBALL TEAM.

NICE.

YEAH, TOTAL CLOSET CASE.

JENNY...

WHAT?

YOU CAN'T DO THIS.

WHAT? WHY?

THIS IS TOTALLY DISRESPECTFUL.

BUT IT... BUT IT GOES...

INSIDE THE PANTS.

SO THIS IS YOUR OPPORTUNITY
TO DISCUSS ANYTHING

THAT MAY BE GOING ON WITH YOU,

ANYTHING THAT'S COME
UP IN YOUR MEDITATIONS.

IT'S OKAY TO SPEAK
IF YOU NEED TO.

ARE YOU EXPERIENCING
ANY DIFFICULTIES?

ANY DISCOMFORT?
PHYSICAL, SPIRITUAL?

ANY DIFFICULTIES
WITH THE SILENCE?

OKAY, THEN.

THIS IS MIKEY,

AND THIS IS HIS DAD, HENRY.

THANK YOU FOR LETTING THEM JOIN

OUR SWIMMING LESSON.

YEAH, THANKS.

MIKEY WAS SO DISAPPOINTED

WHEN OUR ONLY
FRIENDS WITH A POOL

STOPPED HAVING LESSONS.

WELL, WE'RE HAPPY TO HAVE YOU.

SO WHERE DO YOU
AND MIKEY LIVE, HENRY?

SHERMAN OAKS.

HE LIVES THERE WITH
ME HALF THE TIME,

AND THE OTHER HALF WITH
HIS MOM IN VALLEY VILLAGE.

LUCKY YOU, MIKEY.

DO YOU WORK IN THE VALLEY?

OKAY, EVERYBODY,

LET'S GET REALLY WET NOW.

WATCH ME.

VENICE.

I'M A GRAPHIC DESIGNER.

LET GO, MOM.

HEY, WHY DON'T I GET THE GUYS.

THANK YOU.

ALL RIGHT, EVERYBODY READY?

ALL RIGHT.

ONE, TWO, THREE!

MAYBE AFTER YOU'RE FINISHED,
YOU CAN GIVE ANGELICA A RIDE.

IF YOU DON'T MIND.

SHE LOVES BEING AROUND MEN.

SURE, I'D LOVE TO.

NOW, THE BIG KIDS...

EVERYONE WHO'S
FEELING CONFIDENT,

GRAB A FLOATY
THING AND FOLLOW ME.

WE'RE GOING TO PRACTICE KICKING.

LET'S GO, GUYS.

I'LL JUST BE A MOMENT.

LOOK AT EVERYBODY SWIMMING.

HAND HER OVER.

HI.

IF YOU'RE OKAY WITH HER,

I THINK I'LL GO AND MAKE
THE KIDS SOME SNACKS.

I THINK WE'RE OKAY.

YEAH.

YOU CAN GO.

OKAY.

WHERE'S SHE GOING?

WHERE'S MAMA?

THERE SHE GOES.

SHE'LL BE RIGHT BACK.

SHE'LL BE RIGHT BACK.

ABUELA...

I WAS JUST TELLING HER

THAT IF SHE HAD
EVER MET BENY MORE,

THEN SHE ABSOLUTELY
WOULD HAVE MARRIED HIM.

WHO IS HE?

OH, MY GOD, JANE!

WHO IS BENY MORE?

ONLY THE BEST
MUSICIAN IN THE WORLD.

HEY, HE'S THE GUY THAT
YOU LIKE FOR ME TO PLAY

EVERY TIME WHEN, YOU KNOW,

BACK IN THE DAY,

WHEN I USED TO GO DOWN ON YOU.

CARMEN.

MOM!

OH, WAIT, NO, I CAN GET IT.

THEY'RE UP THERE.

THANK YOU.

SURE.

THERE YOU GO.

GRACIAS.

OOF!

YOU'RE WELCOME.

QUE BONITA TATTOO.

OH, YEAH.

YEAH, YEAH, YEAH.
WHAT DO YOU THINK?

UH, JANE?

YEAH?

COULD YOU HELP ME?

YEAH.

TOMORROW NIGHT,

YOU AND CARMEN ARE
COMING TO DINNER?

YEAH, I GUESS WE CAN, SURE.

YOU HAVE TO COME.

THERE IS SOMEONE I
WANT YOU TO MEET.

OKAY.

♪ WHO DO YOU WANT ME TO BE
TO MAKE YOU SLEEP WITH ME? ♪

♪ YOU ARE AN OBSESSION ♪

♪ YOU'RE MY OBSESSION ♪

I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU GUYS,

BUT I'M CERTAINLY
LEARNING A LOT.

I THINK IT'S AMAZING

THAT THEY'RE ABLE TO DO THIS.

YEAH, IT'S LIKE

WHOEVER THEY FEEL
LIKE THEY ARE INSIDE...

THEY CAN BECOME IT.

YEAH.

IT'S GREAT THAT THEY
CAN GET WHAT THEY WANT.

YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T
KNOW IT WAS POSSIBLE

TO GO THROUGH LIFE

USING GENDER-NEUTRAL PRONOUNS.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT
I HEARD TONIGHT?

"ZE DOESN'T LIKE
MY NEW GENITALS,

SO I TOLD HIR TO FUCK HIRSELF."

I ALSO LEARNED

THAT A VAGINA IS A "BONUS HOLE."

OR A "COCKPIT."

NICE.

ALICE, WE SAW THAT.

OKAY.

SHE'S KIND OF CUTE, RIGHT?

HER NAME'S CHANDRA.

WHY DON'T YOU ASK HER OUT?

WELL, SHE KIND OF...

SHE ASKED YOU OUT?
YOU SHOULD SAY YES.

I DON'T KNOW.

I DON'T KNOW, YOU GUYS.

ALICE, YOU NEED TO GET OUT.

DANA WILL BE FINE.

I KNOW. LOOK AT HER.

SHE'S DOING SO GOOD.

SHE LOOKS GREAT.

WELL, THEY START
RIGHT ABOUT HERE,

AND RUN UP,

AND THE OTHER SIDE, TOO.

MINE'S KIND OF LIKE THAT, TOO.

IT STARTS HERE AND GOES HALFWAY,

BUT I HAVE ANOTHER ONE
THAT COMES DOWN LIKE THAT.

SO WHEN DID YOU KNOW?

FROM THE FIRST MOMENT I
STARTED GROWING BREASTS,

I KNEW I WANTED THEM GONE.

I EVEN PRAYED TO
GOD FOR THIS CHEST.

I USED TO THANK
GOD FOR MY BOOBS.

THEY WERE REALLY NICE.

REALLY?

YEAH.

HUH.

HEY, YOU GUYS.

HI, MAX.

HOW'S IT GOING?

HEY, I HAVEN'T HAD MY DANCE YET.

DON'T YOU WANT TO
GET YOUR KISS FIRST?

NOT REALLY.

ANYWAY, CHANDRA
HAS HER EYE ON ALICE.

IT'S THE HAIR.

CHANDRA.

SHE JUST ASKED ME FOR DINNER.

IT'S NOT A...

DANA, DON'T YOU THINK

ALICE SHOULD GO ON
A DATE WITH CHANDRA?

YEAH.

OH, YEAH,

YOU SHOULD TOTALLY
GO OUT WITH HER.

I WOULDN'T CALL IT A DATE.

IT'S...

NO, YOU SHOULD CALL IT A DATE.

CALL IT A DATE, YOU KNOW?

YEAH...

ALICE!

ALICE, COME ON.

HAVE FUN.

HI.

HI.

EXCUSE ME.

YEAH, HAVE FUN, MAX. GOOD LUCK.

HI.

HI.

DO YOU WANT ME TO
DRAW THE RAFFLE PRIZE...

DO YOU MIND?

I'M SORRY.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

DANCING.

ARE YOU TRYING TO EMBARRASS ME?

NO.

YOU'RE MY GIRLFRIEND,

AND THIS IS MY PARTY.

YOU SHOULDN'T BE DANCING
WITH SOME OTHER DUDE.

I WILL DANCE

WITH WHOEVER THE FUCK
I WANT TO DANCE WITH.

I WASN'T SUCKING HIS
FUCKING COCK, WAS I, MAX?

HEY...

DON'T HURT HER,

OR I'LL FUCKING
CUT YOUR TITS OFF.

I'M NOT GOING TO TOUCH HER.

JENNY...

LOOK, I'M SORRY.

I REALLY AM.

IT'S JUST WHEN I SAW
YOU WITH THAT GUY,

YOU KNOW, I JUST GOT...

I JUST...

I COULDN'T STAND IT.

WHEN I REALIZED
THAT I MIGHT BE GAY,

I DIDN'T RULE OUT MEN,

BUT IF I'M GOING
TO BE WITH A GUY,

I'M NOT GOING TO BE WITH SOME
AGGRESSIVE MACHO MALE PIG

WHO HAS A DIFFERENT STANDARD
OF BEHAVIOR FOR HIMSELF

THAN HE DOES FOR ME.

YOU'RE RIGHT.

LOOK, YOU'RE TOTALLY RIGHT.

I PROMISE...

I'M GOING TO TRY
TO BE A BETTER MAN.

HELLO?

HEN... HENRY?

UH, HI.

UM, YEAH, YEAH, I
HAD A NICE TIME, TOO.

ANGELICA HAD A LOT
OF FUN WITH MIKEY.

UM...

NO, WE'RE NOT DOING
ANYTHING TOMORROW.

THAT WOULD BE LOVELY.

SURE.

OKAY, I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW.

WHOO.

DRINK?

YES.

I'D LOVE A DRINK.

♪ I KNOW WHAT BOYS LIKE ♪

♪ I KNOW WHAT GUYS WANT ♪

WHAT?

WHAT?

NOTHING.

SHANE, WHAT?

I JUST... I WAS THINKING

ABOUT THE THING YOUR MOM TOLD ME

ABOUT HOW WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE,

YOU HAD THIS TEDDY
BEAR THAT YOU WOULD, UH...

OH, GOD.

RUB ITS TUMMY AND
THEN TAKE A PISS ON IT.

REALLY, REALLY CUTE.

MY MOTHER IS NOW SHARING

MY PERSONAL STORIES WITH YOU.

THAT'S GREAT.

I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE
INVITED YOU TO DINNER.

SHE INVITED US.

YEAH, AND WHO'S THIS, LIKE,

THIS PERSON THAT SHE
WANTS YOU TO MEET ANYWAY?

I DON'T KNOW,
CARMEN. I DON'T KNOW.

SO YOU'RE, LIKE, REALLY
CLOSE TO MY FAMILY NOW?

RIGHT?

WELL, YEAH.

OKAY, THAT'S GOOD, THAT'S GOOD.

SO YOU CAN BE
INTIMATE WITH MY FAMILY,

BUT YOU CAN'T BE INTIMATE
WITH ME, YOUR GIRLFRIEND.

JESUS CHRIST, CARMEN!

WHAT, DO YOU NOT LIKE THE FACT

THAT YOUR FAMILY AND I
HAVE TAKEN TO EACH OTHER?

IS THAT IT?

♪ I KNOW WHAT BOYS LIKE... ♪

I'M SORRY.

YOU'RE RIGHT.

YOU'RE TOTALLY RIGHT.

I'M SORRY.

LOOK AT ME.

I LOVE THE FACT

THAT MY FAMILY AND YOU
HAVE TAKEN TO EACH OTHER.

OKAY?

WHAT DOES YOUR ABUELA
THINK OF OUR TATTOOS?

I DON'T KNOW.

SHE THINKS IT MEANS
THAT WE'RE FRIENDS.

UH-HUH.

I HEARD SOMETHING
ABOUT WEDDING RINGS.

GOD, YOUR SPANISH
IS GETTING GOOD.

WHAT CAN I SAY?

WOW.

ARE THEY UPSET?

NO.

THEY JUST MAKE UP STORIES

ABOUT US BEING
FRIENDS, AND THAT WAY,

THEY DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.

♪ NYAH, NYAH, NYAH NYAH, NYAH ♪

♪ NYAH, NYAH, NYAH NYAH, NYAH ♪

I'M THINKING OF TAKING
SPANISH LESSONS.

YOU DO? YOU...

REALLY?

YEAH.

THAT'S GREAT.

HERE, LET'S GET ONE.

♪ ANYTHING YOU WANT ♪

♪ YOU CAN TRUST ME ♪

♪ I REALLY WANT TO ♪

♪ YOU CAN TRUST ME ♪

♪ HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT? ♪

♪ YOU CAN TRUST ME ♪

♪ SUCKER ♪

♪ I KNOW WHAT BOYS LIKE ♪

OH, THANK YOU.

MMM...

AND?

AND WHAT?

AND YOU SAID WE WOULD
CONTINUE THE CONVERSATION

THIS MORNING, AND IT'S MORNING.

OKAY...

YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.

AND THAT IS A GOOD THING.

AND I DON'T WANT TO
BE WITH ANYONE ELSE

IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD,

AND EVEN THOUGH

I DIDN'T THINK
ABOUT THIS BEFORE,

BUT, YOU KNOW,
THIS THING WE HAVE,

I REALLY BELIEVE
IT'S GOING TO LAST.

SWEET.

AND?

AND I REALLY WANT
TO BE WITH YOU.

SO...

YOU'LL MARRY ME?

WELL, I WOULD MARRY
YOU IF I'D MARRY ANYONE.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN, KIT?

WELL, MY FRIENDS ARE GAY,
AND MY SISTER'S A LESBIAN...

NO!

I FEEL IN MY HEART

UNTIL THEY CAN GET MARRIED

LIKE WE CAN,

AND HAVE THE SAME
RIGHTS THAT WE HAVE,

I DON'T WANT TO USE
THE SAME SYSTEM

THAT EXCLUDES AND DISCRIMINATES

AGAINST THE VERY
PEOPLE I LOVE THE MOST.

DAMN...

THAT IS WHY I WANT
YOU TO MARRY ME.

OKAY, WE CAN JUST LIVE TOGETHER.

WHAT?

WAIT A MINUTE.

WE WERE JUST TALKING
ABOUT GETTING MARRIED,

NOW WE'RE TALKING
ABOUT LIVING TOGETHER?

IT'S TOO MUCH PRESSURE,

TOO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT.

I CAN'T... I...

I'M MR. PRESSURE, BABY.

IT'S $3,452.

WOW, THAT'S SO MUCH MONEY.

IT'S CRAP MONEY.

IT WON'T EVEN PAY FOR ONE TIT.

WHERE WERE ALL YOUR
RICH FRIENDS LAST NIGHT?

WHERE WERE ALL MY RICH FRIENDS?

HELENA PEABODY COULD HAVE
PAID FOR MY ENTIRE TRANSITION

IN WHAT SHE PISSES
AWAY IN LIKE A DAY.

I DON'T KNOW YOU.

YOU'RE BECOMING A
COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON.

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!

NO, I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND.

I'M NOT OKAY.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR
YEARS AND YEARS.

I'M TOTALLY FREAKING OUT.

I'M NOT OKAY IN THIS BODY.

AND WHEN YOU GET
THE BODY YOU NEED,

WHO'S GOING TO
LIVE INSIDE OF IT?

IS IT GOING TO BE
THAT SWEET, KIND,

COMPASSIONATE, GENTLE
PERSON THAT I MET,

OR IS IT GOING TO BE THIS
MOTHERFUCKING MONSTER?

I LOVE HER, I REALLY DO.

I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN IT.

I...

I JUST... I DON'T KNOW, I...

FOUND THAT YOUR
FEELINGS HAVE CHANGED?

IT HAPPENS.

IT CAN HAPPEN IN STRAIGHT
RELATIONSHIPS, TOO.

IT HURTS JUST AS MUCH.

IT'S TRUE, ISN'T IT?

IT TOOK ME NEARLY TWO YEARS

TO GET UP OFF THE FLOOR.

MY EX-WIFE WAS ALREADY REMARRIED

AND PREGNANT.

I DON'T WANT BETTE
TO BE ON THE FLOOR

FOR THE NEXT TWO YEARS.

THAT'S UP TO BETTE, NOT YOU.

I WANT TO SHOOT THEM LIKE THIS,

REALLY CLOSE AND...

INTIMATE.

YOU KNOW, I WANT
TO GET THEIR EYES.

LIKE THIS.

THEIR MOUTHS.

GOD, YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL.

SAY SOMETHING TO THE CAMERA.

WHERE DID YOU SAY DANNY WAS?

HE'S IN MINNEAPOLIS SHOOTING.

BUT YOU DID TELL HIM...

I DON'T WANT TO
TALK ABOUT DANNY.

PLEASE.

LET'S TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT?

I DON'T KNOW.

OUR PROJECT?

HOW CAN I TALK ABOUT OUR PROJECT

WHEN I WANT YOU
TO FUCK ME SO BADLY?

ARE YOU SAYING I
HAVE TO FUCK YOU

BEFORE WE CAN TALK BUSINESS?

UH-HUH.

YOU HAVE TO FUCK ME

BEFORE YOU CAN EXPECT
TO GET ANYTHING FROM ME.

YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO TELL ME

WHAT YOU WANT, THEN.

GIVE ME THAT.

GIVE IT TO ME.

TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF.

TAKE IT OFF.

UNBUTTON YOUR JEANS.

NO.

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO
GET ANYTHING FROM ME

UNLESS YOU DO
EXACTLY WHAT I TELL YOU.

REALLY?

YEAH.

YOU'RE GOING TO FUCK ME,

AND YOU'RE GOING TO
LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT.

TELL ME YOU WANT IT.

TELL ME.

I CAN'T.

TELL ME.

PAELLA!

PABLO, TELL JANE
ABOUT YOUR BUSINESS.

UH, SHE DOESN'T WANT
TO KNOW ABOUT THAT.

JANE IS A VERY GOOD HAIRDRESSER,

AND SHE WANTS TO KNOW A GOOD...

WHAT DO YOU CALL...

PIMP?

CARMEN...

WHAT?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

NO, IT'S WHAT YOU'RE DOING, MOM.

YOU'RE PIMPING OUT
SHANE. GO RIGHT AHEAD.

CARMEN, LET IT GO.

UM, I OWN

A CARPET CLEANING BUSINESS,

SO IF YOU EVER NEED
THE CARPETS CLEANED

AT YOUR HAIRDRESSING
SALON, I COULD...

IT'S NOT A PROBLEM.

THANK YOU.

WE DON'T ACTUALLY HAVE
CARPETS AT THE SALON,

BUT THAT SOUNDS LIKE A NICE JOB.

THANK YOU.

IT'S VERY GOOD,
JANE. GOOD MONEY.

OKAY, MOM, STOP.

JUST STOP THIS RIGHT NOW.

MAMI, LET'S GET THE NEXT DISH.

ABUELA MADE HER
FLAN FOR DESSERT...

NO, MOM, I'M HER GIRLFRIEND.

SI.

SHANE...

WE LIVE IN THE SAME HOUSE,

AND WE SLEEP IN THE
SAME BED, MOTHER.

CARMEN, THAT'S
REALLY NOT NECESSARY.

MAMA, PLEASE DON'T.

GET OUT.

BOTH OF YOU.

GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.

MERCEDES...

GET OUT.

GET UP.

LET'S GO.

YOU'RE SO SELFISH.

I'M THE SELFISH ONE?

WHEN YOU ALL SIT HERE,

AND YOU EXPECT ME TO
LIVE OUT SOME SORT OF LIE

SO YOU CAN LIVE COMFORTABLY,

AND YOU'RE CALLING ME SELFISH?

YOU JUST COULD HAVE WAITED.

WELL, OBVIOUSLY I COULDN'T.

LET'S GO.

LISTEN, WE SHOULD TALK TO HER.

NO, SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK.

SO I'LL CALL YOU LATER.

I JUST HAVE THIS MEETING
WITH MY BUSINESS MANAGER.

ON A SUNDAY NIGHT?

YEAH, WELL,

I'M THINKING OF INVESTING
SOME OF MY OWN MONEY.

THE STUDIO WON'T
PUT UP ANY MORE,

BUT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH

I BELIEVE IN THIS PROJECT,

AND IN YOU.

WHAT?

NOTHING.

NOTHING.

I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER.

OKAY.

WELL?

I THINK I GOT IT.

YOU THINK?

I GOT IT.

THAT'S GOOD.

HI.

HI.

I GOT YOU THE COMPLETE
DIRK BOGARDE COLLECTION,

AND, LIKE, THE WHOLE
JOHN HUGHES COLLECTION,

SO WHATEVER YOU'RE
IN THE MOOD FOR, OKAY?

ALL RIGHT.

NO MISTAKING WHAT
YOU'RE IN THE MOOD FOR

TONIGHT, IS THERE?

WHAT?

HUH?

NOTHING.

NOTHING.

DO YOU NOT WANT ME TO GO
ON THIS DATE WITH CHANDRA?

WHAT? NO.

I DON'T CARE. WHY WOULD I CARE?

I DON'T CARE.

WELL, I HOPE YOU WOULD CARE.

I HOPE THAT YOU WOULD
WANT ME TO HAVE A GOOD TIME.

I DO WANT YOU TO
HAVE A GOOD TIME.

HAVE A GOOD TIME,
REALLY. REALLY.

OKAY, BECAUSE I CAN STAY,
AND WE CAN WATCH MOVIES,

AND I CAN CALL HER...

GO.

GO ON YOUR DATE.
HAVE A GOOD TIME.

I'M JUST... I'M CRANKY.

I'M NOT FEELING
VERY GOOD TONIGHT.

IT'S FINE, REALLY.

I THINK I SHOULD STAY.

ALICE...

GO ON YOUR DATE.

IT'LL DO YOU GOOD

TO GET AWAY FROM
ME FOR A NIGHT, OKAY?

I DON'T HAVE TO
GET AWAY FROM YOU.

THAT'S NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT.

THAT'S SWEET.

PLEASE GO.

ALICE, I'M FINE.

YOU'RE GOING TO BE LATE.

OKAY, I AM GOING TO BE LATE.

BUT...

YOU KNOW, CALL ME
IF YOU NEED ANYTHING.

I WILL.

OKAY, I PROMISE.

HAVE FUN.

AL!

WHAT? WHAT?

UM...

COULD YOU MAYBE
GET ME A BLANKET?

I'M JUST... I'M A LITTLE COLD.

YEAH. SURE.

THAT'D BE GREAT.

THANK YOU. IS THAT GOOD?

YEAH, IT'S BETTER.

BETTER?

OKAY.

YOU'LL CALL ME

IF YOU NEED ANYTHING AT ALL.

I WILL.

ALL RIGHT.

HAVE A GOOD NIGHT.

YEAH, YOU TOO. HAVE FUN.

SHE'S SOUND ASLEEP.

SHE ATE A LOT OF SAND TODAY.

SHE DID, MIKEY.

SHE ATE LOTS AND
LOTS AND LOTS OF SAND.

SHE HAD A REALLY BIG DAY.

YOU ATE SAND, TOO,
WHEN YOU WERE A BABY.

NOW I KNOW BETTER.

YES, YOU DO.

ALL RIGHT,

WHY DON'T YOU GO
WAIT IN THE CAR, OKAY?

BE THERE IN A MINUTE.

THAT WAS REALLY GREAT.

YEAH, THAT WAS NICE.

YEAH.

WHY DON'T YOU AND
MIKEY STAY FOR DINNER?

OKAY.

OKAY.

NOTE WHETHER YOU ARE
FEELING CALM OR AGITATED,

CONTENT OR ANGRY,

WITHOUT DESIRE, OR
FILLED WITH DESIRE.

MAY I ACCEPT

THAT THINGS DO NOT ALWAYS
GO AS I WOULD IMAGINE...

THAT FEELINGS COME
UP THAT ROUSE MY MIND

AND INCITE ME TO ACTIVITY...

BECOME AWARE OF
YOUR STATE OF MIND.

MAY I ACCEPT

THAT THINGS DO NOT ALWAYS
GO AS I WOULD IMAGINE...

MAY I ACCEPT THAT MY HARD TIME

WILL CERTAINLY PASS...

MAY I FIND A PRACTICE
THAT HELPS ME TO KNOW...

MAY I KNOW

THAT MY HARD TIME
WILL CERTAINLY PASS...

MAY I FIND A PRACTICE
THAT HELPS ME TO KNOW...

MAY I FIND THE STILLNESS...

MAY I FIND THE QUIET...

MAY I FIND THE RESOLVE...

MAY I FIND THE PEACE

THAT HELPS DISPEL
THE SUFFERING...

DYLAN, ARE YOU THERE?

IT'S ME AGAIN.

I...

MAYBE YOU WENT
OUT, I DON'T KNOW.

LOOK, I FINISHED
MY MEETING, AND...

I DON'T KNOW, CALL ME.

MAYBE WE CAN GET TOGETHER.

OKAY. BYE.

HELENA PEABODY?

YEAH?

ARE YOU HELENA PEABODY?

YES.

THIS IS FOR YOU FROM
MISS DYLAN MORELAND.

WHAT IS IT?

HAVE A NICE DAY.

SEXUAL HARASSMENT...

GOD...

YOU'RE KIDDING ME.

OH, THAT'S HILARIOUS.

ONE OF THE BEST THINGS
ABOUT COMING OUT

WAS THAT SHE COULDN'T HIT
ON MY BOYFRIENDS ANYMORE.

OH, I DON'T KNOW.

I MEAN, MOTHER,

SHE'S STRAIGHT
AS THE DAY IS LONG,

BUT SHE LOVES TO
HIT ON MY GIRLFRIENDS.

MINE STILL HAS NO BOUNDARIES.

MY EX AND I ARE RENTING A
HOUSE IN THE NORTH OF SPAIN,

IN THIS LITTLE TOWN
CALLED SITGES.

MY MOTHER WENT AHEAD
AND BOUGHT A PLANE TICKET.

YOUR EX AND YOU?

NO, NO, NO, BELIEVE ME,

WE'RE SO NOT GETTING
BACK TOGETHER.

WE'VE BEEN EXES
FOR, LIKE, SEVEN YEARS.

WE TAKE VACATIONS
TOGETHER EVERY SPRING.

SO IT'S THE WEIRD
LESBIAN BLAH, BLAH, BLAH...

WHERE WE MAINTAIN DEEP,
INTIMATE, SEXLESS RELATIONSHIPS

WITH OUR PAST LOVERS.

I KNOW ALL ABOUT IT.

SPEAKING OF EXES.

GO AHEAD.

OKAY. SORRY.

HEY, DANA.

UM, YEAH.

SO YOU WANT ME TO
COME OVER AFTER DINNER?

OKAY.

ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU SOON.

OKAY.

I'LL SEE YOU SOON. BYE.

I THINK SHE'S A LITTLE...

FREAKED OUT THAT I'M
GOING OUT WITH YOU.

DOES SHE WANT TO
GET BACK TOGETHER?

OH... THAT'S A LOADED QUESTION.

UH, I DON'T KNOW.

IT'S KIND OF HARD TO TELL

WITH EVERYTHING SHE'S
GOING THROUGH, SO...

SORRY.

HI, DANA.

OH...

OKAY, I'LL BE RIGHT THERE.

NO, I'LL...

I'M LEAVING RIGHT NOW.

I'M LEAVING RIGHT NOW.

OKAY.

UM...

I...

IT'S OKAY. I UNDERSTAND.

I'M SO SORRY.

I'M SURE SHE'S FINE.

SHE JUST... SHE
SOUNDS REALLY SCARED.

IT'S FINE.

I'LL TAKE CARE OF THE CHECK.

NO. NO, I...

IT'S FINE, OKAY?

I AM SO SORRY.

SO, SO SORRY ABOUT THIS.

MAYBE I'LL GET A RAINCHECK.

OKAY.

OKAY.

THANKS.

NO PROBLEM.

UH, THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING.

OKAY, I'LL CALL YOU SOON.

OKAY. BYE.

BYE.

DANA?

DANA?

OH, MY GOD.

WHAT'S GOING ON?

I FEEL REALLY SICK, AL.

OH, MY GOD, YOU'RE BURNING UP.

HAVE YOU TAKEN YOUR TEMPERATURE?

NO.

GOD...

MY EARS HURT, AND MY SINUSES...

I'M FREEZING.

WHAT CAN I DO FOR YOU?

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

CALL THE DOCTOR.

OKAY.

OKAY, SHH, SHH...

JUST CALM DOWN, OKAY?

YEAH.

SHH...

HELLO?

YOU COULD HAVE WAITED, CARMEN.

YOU COULD HAVE AT LEAST TOLD ME

BEFORE YOU THREW
IT ON THEM LIKE THAT.

YEAH, YOU KNOW WHAT?

I DIDN'T EXACTLY
PLAN THAT, SHANE.

BESIDES, IT WAS
HER FAULT, ANYWAY.

OH, REALLY? YES.

REALLY? HMM.

THAT POOR WOMAN IS IN DENIAL.

DON'T YOU THINK
THAT'S HARD ENOUGH?

I'LL TELL YOU
WHAT'S HARD, SHANE.

WHAT'S HARD IS
WATCHING YOUR MOTHER

TRY AND SET YOUR GIRLFRIEND UP

WITH SOME DICKHEAD

FROM THE CARPET CLEANING...

PLEASE! WHAT?

YOU KNOW WHAT?

I DON'T FUCKING
GET YOU, YOU KNOW?

IT'S LIKE ONE MINUTE
YOU'RE MY GIRLFRIEND,

YOU'RE ON MY SIDE, YOU LOVE ME,

AND THEN THE NEXT MINUTE...

I DON'T WANT TO
LOSE YOUR FAMILY.

OKAY?

I DON'T WANT THEM TO HATE ME.

I THINK IT WOULD
BE REALLY FUCKED

IF THEY SAT THERE, AND
THEY BLAMED ME FOR THIS,

WHICH I AM SO SURE
THEY ALREADY HAVE.

WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT FAMILY?

THAT'S NICE.

SHANE...

NO, IT IS.

IT'S REALLY FUCKING NICE OF YOU.

THANKS FOR REMINDING ME.

WHAT?

AL?

OKAY, ALL RIGHT. ALL RIGHT.

OKAY, WE'LL BE RIGHT THERE.

OKAY, BYE.

DANA'S IN THE HOSPITAL.

WHAT HAPPENED?

THE CHEMO'S BREAKING
DOWN HER IMMUNE SYSTEM.

AND SHE HAS AN INFECTION.

THEY'RE SOUND ASLEEP.

GOOD.

NO, NO, NO, NO.

WHAT?

THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT.

♪ I KNOW YOU'VE BEEN HURT ♪

♪ MANY A TIME BEFORE ♪

♪ YOUR HEART BLEEDS RIVERS ♪

♪ DEEP ENOUGH TO DROWN ♪

HELLO, ANGELICA, IT'S...

IT'S YOUR MAMA B CALLING.

UM...

I JUST WANTED TO CALL YOU
TO TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU,

AND I MISS YOU.

I JUST... I CAN'T
STAND THIS ANYMORE.

I'M SUPPOSED TO BE
ON THIS SILENT RETREAT,

AND EVERYTHING
JUST SEEMS SO LOUD.

MY LONELINESS IS JUST SO
LOUD, AND I CAN'T STAND IT.

I JUST WANT TO COME HOME.

I WANT MY ART, I WANT MY
BOOKS, I WANT MY THINGS,

I WANT MY HOUSE.

I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE
TO KISS YOU GOOD NIGHT.

I JUST...

I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

I WANT, I WANT, I WANT,

I WANT, I WANT, I WANT,

I WANT...

ALICE?

DANA, I'M RIGHT HERE.

EVERYTHING'S GOING
TO BE OKAY, ALL RIGHT?

THEY'RE JUST GOING
TO DO SOME TESTS.

PLEASE DON'T GO.

NO, I'M RIGHT HERE. I'M
NOT GOING ANYWHERE.

YOU'RE GOING TO KEEP HER

IN THE HOSPITAL OVERNIGHT?

YES. STAY HERE.

PLEASE, I'LL ANSWER
YOUR QUESTIONS LATER.

OKAY.

ALICE?

DANA, I'M GOING TO
BE RIGHT HERE WAITING.

I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE, OKAY?

I'M RIGHT HERE!

♪ BUT NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY ♪

♪ I CAN'T SEEM TO
WIN THIS FIGHT ♪

♪ I SEEM TO BE FURTHER BEHIND ♪

♪ THAN I WAS WHEN I MET YOU ♪

♪ NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY ♪

♪ I CAN'T SEEM TO
WIN THIS FIGHT ♪

♪ I SEEM TO BE FURTHER BEHIND ♪

♪ THAN I WAS WHEN I MET YOU ♪