The Affair (2014–…): Season 3, Episode 8 - Episode #3.8 - full transcript
Previously on The Affair...
Hey.
Wait, Joanie!
- Wait, wait.
- Joanie!
- What are you doing?
- Let her do it.
I can't stand feeling like this.
Like?
Like I've done everything I can.
And still what?
This town is not my home.
Joanie's not my child, but I've tried.
Now Alison gets everything
back, including you.
We lost our child!
I know.
How am I ever gonna compete with that?
I've proven myself consistently.
I also really need to consider
whether my client is ready
for unsupervised visits.
The current situation has
been and remains stressful.
You could just say to
the judge at our next hearing
that you trust me.
And you think I'm emotionally sound enough
to take care of Joanie.
Right, so I'm healthy enough to fuck,
but not to be the mother of our child.
There's a process in
place for a reason, Alison.
No, I understand, thanks for coming by.
Would you mind telling us where
you were last Wednesday night?
He was home. With me.
Cole will only ever see
you as a disaster, Alison.
Whatever you do, however
competent you become,
you will always be damaged goods to him.
I need you to sign
those, it's a "no contest."
I told my lawyer that I don't want
anything from you, I
just want a clean slate.
There are multiple
things to consider here.
Whether my young client is even comfortable
in an unsupervised
arrangement with Ms. Bailey
is only part of the equation.
Is Ms. Bailey actually prepared for this?
She still doesn't have a permanent job,
nor is she even divorced
from her second husband,
who happens to be a convicted felon.
Your Honor,
Mr. Gutteman does not
have his facts straight.
Ms. Bailey is partner in
a lucrative local business.
And as for her second
husband, Noah Solloway,
a judgment of divorce was just entered.
Here is a copy for the
court, as well as counsel.
Mr. Gutteman,
are you calling a witness?
Yes, Your Honor.
Um, I would like to call
Luisa Leon to the stand.
Raise your right hand.
Do you swear under the penalty of perjury
that the testimony you're
going to give here today
is the truth, the whole truth,
and nothing but the truth?
I do.
Ms. Leon, you have had the
occasion to see my client
interact with her mother?
Yes, of course.
And in the time
since this court last adjourned,
would you say the relationship
between my client and Alison Bailey
has improved or deteriorated?
I would say it has improved.
In fact, Joanie already
had an unsupervised visit.
She slept alone at Alison's
place a few nights ago.
It was her birthday.
I see. So it
was a special occasion?
Yeah. She came home very happy.
But I would imagine you still
have significant concerns
regarding Ms. Bailey having
regular, unsupervised visits...
Objection. Leading the witness.
Sustained.
Mr. Gutteman, may I remind you
that your job requires you
to be an impartial advocate
for your young client?
Honestly, I think we
should stop coming here.
I'm tired of this process.
You know, Joanie loves her mother
and wants to be with her.
I'm not a fan of Alison,
but this isn't about me.
She should have her daughter back.
I'm sorry.
Ms. Leon, when you say "she
should have her daughter back,"
you mean you would be all right with
unsupervised visits?
No, shared custody, Mr. Gutteman.
I'm talking about shared custody.
Ms. Leon,
I think you're confused.
Shared custody is not an option
on the table at the moment.
Well, maybe it should be.
Um...
No.
Your Honor, may I request
a brief recess?
Counsel, you can
each have five minutes
to speak to your clients.
And then I want to see you in my chambers.
What happened?
Cole is willing to
settle on shared custody.
Will you agree to it?
Me?
Yes. Yes!
My God. What...
this... this can't be real.
It... it was Luisa's testimony.
Did you have any idea she felt that way?
No, no, no, I thought
she still hated me, I...
Well, she's a good person. That's clear.
We'll draw up the paperwork,
but consider it done.
Congratulations, Alison.
I know this was awful, but it's over now.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Congrats.
Thanks.
Hey.
I just dropped Joanie off with Luisa.
She told me where to find you.
Well, here I am.
I-I brought you some coffee
and a muffin.
No?
Okay.
Well, I'll just leave it in
case you get hungry later.
Wait.
Look, I, I just came by
to see if you were okay with
what happened today in court.
Why wouldn't I be?
I don't know, you just
seemed a little surprised
by what Luisa did.
Honestly,
it seems a little fast to me.
Right.
You haven't exactly been
a model of consistency
since you got back. You're still you.
What is that supposed to mean?
Nothing.
Thanks for the muffin.
Wait, do you seriously think that
I'm... I'm not capable
of having custody back?
I think that you ran away as
soon as the going got tough.
So I just hope for Joanie's
sake that things are
gonna run a little bit more
smoothly this time around.
Wait, Cole, I thought you
understood why I had to go.
Alison, I can't do this
with you today, okay?
I got a whole crew showing
up. My brothers are coming.
If they see you here, they're
gonna wonder what's going on.
Fine.
Congratulations on your divorce.
Right.
So that's what all this is about.
You told me you hadn't seen him.
Look.
It was five minutes.
We signed and he left.
I thought you wanted me to get divorced.
I don't care what you do.
No, Gutteman told me that if
I wanted my daughter back...
It's emblematic of the
whole problem, Alison.
Wait, what "whole problem"?
I can't trust you.
Fuck you, Cole.
Dr. Parry?
Hey.
Yeah, no, yeah, I-I'm doing great.
It's so nice to hear from you.
My God, I'm so sorry.
How's she doing?
Yeah, yeah.
I-I, I'd love to.
When?
Yeah, tomorrow's fine, I...
well, Joanie's with Cole, so it's perfect.
Okay.
Yeah, 11 a.m. Right?
Yeah, I'll see you then.
Hey.
And when did it happen?
Eight weeks ago.
She's been on suicide
watch since she got here.
I'm hoping that by talking to someone else
who's been through it, it'll help.
You okay?
Yeah.
Okay.
Hi.
I'm Alison.
Can I join you?
Did, Dr. Parry tell you who I am?
You're the patient.
That's right.
I was here for a long time.
How long?
Six months.
You must have been crazy.
Yeah, well,
I had a lot to work through.
Maybe a little like you.
I have to go home next week.
My parents can't afford this.
Are you looking forward to going home?
What was her name?
My son's name was Gabriel.
After his grandfather.
You know, I,
I used to like to be in his room
after he died.
In his bed, you know,
surrounded by all his things.
The sheets still had his smell,
and I used to wrap them around a pillow
and pretend I was holding him.
My mom...
put all of Dawn's things in a...
storage as soon as she died.
In a box.
No, she can't do that.
You have to tell her
to take them out again.
You need her stuff around you. You can't...
trying to erase her memory
is... is not gonna help.
I just...
I just miss her so much.
Hey, I think I've
got some Kleenex in here.
I don't care.
My mom...
she's so worried about me.
She just...
she wants me
to be better.
She wants me to be myself again.
Well,
you're not gonna be better for a while.
And you won't ever be the same.
She has to understand that.
I spend a lot of time
trying to f-figure out
a way to
kill myself and
make it look like an accident.
Please don't tell them I-I told you that.
No, I won't. I won't.
I get it, though.
I came close a few times too.
You did?
Why not?
What did you do?
I had an affair.
- Damn.
- Yeah.
Well, I wouldn't recommend
it. It didn't end well.
But you do whatever you have to do.
Dying is not the answer.
I know it feels like a
good solution right now,
but you want to live.
How do you know that?
Because it's incredible to be alive.
Everyone else assumes
that life is a given.
But you and I both know that it's not.
You and I both know that
breath can end.
So we know that life is a gift.
You'll miss Dawn, but
you'll keep her with you.
You'll keep that memory alive.
And you'll live now for both of you.
Hey.
No.
Hey.
I'm sorry about before.
Look, I-I don't want to fight.
I...
I should have told you
that I talked to Noah.
Okay.
Can I talk to you about something else?
Sure. What's up?
Guess where I was this morning?
I got no idea, Ally.
I was at Woodlawn.
I talked to this woman
who had lost her child.
Wow.
How was that?
It was really intense.
She was so young. She...
much younger than we were.
And she was in so much
pain, you could almost see
the film of grief over her eyes.
Yeah, I remember it.
Yeah, but I think I
helped her. I really do.
And, um, Dr. Parry, that's my doctor,
she told me that someone like me,
with my experience,
I could turn this into a career.
A career?
Yeah.
They're creating a new program.
What they want to do is train
parents who have lost a child
to become grief counselors.
And they think the only people
that can really understand that experience
are those that have been through it before.
I don't understand. You're
moving to New Jersey?
What? No, I commute.
Alison, that's four hours away.
Well... well, yeah, um,
maybe I'll spend a few
days a week up there.
So this is a full-time job then?
No, I-I... we haven't worked
out the specifics yet, I...
What about Joanie?
What about her?
What, you just gonna abandon her again?
No.
- No.
- So then what?
- You're gonna take her from me?
- Wait, no.
- From our home?
- Cole, stop.
I-I-I haven't thought
about any of this.
Why not?
This is exactly why I didn't
want you to have custody yet.
I knew you were gonna
do something like this.
It's been, what, 24 hours?
Less?
And you just can't help yourself, can you?
Wait, Cole, I think
you're missing the point...
No, you are missing the point.
What happened in court is a miracle.
Why can't you see that?
Why can't you just be
happy and say thank you?
You have to keep on pushing and pushing.
I forget this about you.
I get so caught up in
you and I and our history
and everything that that entails.
But this is who you are.
You're chaos. And I can't live like that.
Well nobody's asking you to.
Really?
Then why are you here?
I just...
I just wanted to share it with you.
Why?
Because...
you're the only person
who could understand.
I...
I just don't get why you're so angry.
I thought you'd be happy for me.
Of course you did, Alison,
'cause it's about you.
Everything's always about you.
Hey.
Heard you had a big day yesterday, Bailey.
Wow. Word travels fast.
I'm happy for you.
I like it when the good guys win.
Yeah, well.
You're a good guy, Clay.
What'll it be tonight?
I don't know.
Something really stiff.
How about a Long Island Iced Tea?
Um, I was getting dinner in town
and I saw you walk in.
Mind if I sit?
No... no, sure.
Um...
Two Long Island Iced Teas.
How are you?
- You look good.
- Yeah, I'm okay.
How are you?
Um, I've been better.
You want to talk about it?
No.
No.
So you're still living here?
I didn't... I didn't know that.
Well, yeah, I have a lot
of reasons to be here, and...
Your daughter's here, right?
Yeah.
She turned out not to be Noah's?
No.
I loved hearing that.
I'm sorry.
I'm not trying to be a bitch.
I'm just having a really weird day.
Yeah, me too.
Have you seen him recently?
Noah?
Yeah, I'm just wondering if, you know,
how he is.
Um...
He's been staying at my place, actually.
He is?
Just for a few days.
His neck got infected
and... and my boyfriend's
a... a doctor, so...
Wow, that's so nice of you. That...
Do they know who did it?
No.
Think it's random.
- God, it's so weird.
- I know.
When's the last time you saw him?
A few days ago.
What? Why?
We signed the divorce papers.
You're divorced from Noah?
Yeah.
And so am I.
Cheers.
Hey, can I ask you something?
Okay.
Who was he with you?
What do you mean?
I mean, how would you describe this person,
Noah Solloway?
Um...
I'd say he was charming.
Very smart.
Intensely driven.
I've never met anyone
that ambitious before.
What?
Nothing. Go on.
Um...
He was very mature.
You know, he seemed like a man that
could take care of things.
That's not how you saw him?
I found him to be
so insecure.
I mean, obviously very intelligent,
but I always was after him to hustle more,
call his publisher, or
stand up to my father.
It's like he was a completely
different person with you.
I think people see what they
want to see in other people.
You know, I used to think
that he was never really yours,
that I was just
loaning him to you until
he'd had enough and decided to come home,
even after you'd gotten married.
Isn't that pathetic?
Helen, I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry for what I did.
He was your husband. You had children.
I shouldn't have...
I'm so sorry.
But it's not your fault.
I mean,
men need to feel
important in order to
stay in a relationship,
and I stopped making Noah feel important
years before he met you.
So don't blame yourself for what happened.
Helen, I want to tell you something
about the night that Scotty died...
- No, don't.
- I...
No, I think it would help you to hear...
Why don't you just let it go, Alison?
I mean, what does it matter?
It's not like we can go back.
It was nice seeing you.
Take care of yourself.
Weird night?
Chris?
Hey. What's wrong?
I just wanted
to give you a heads-up.
The New Jersey cops are back
in Montauk, questioning Cole.
About what?
Noah Solloway's attempted murder.
His alibi the night of the
stabbing didn't hold up.
What, he... he wasn't home?
No. Apparently, they have
some record of a toll he
paid on the Jersey Turnpike
about ten miles from the university,
an hour before Noah was stabbed.
My God.
Do you know anything about this?
N-no.
Because if you got something
to say, now would be the time.
I swear I don't.
Okay.
Hopefully he was just
going on a drive to look at the foliage.
- Yeah.
- Sorry to bother you, Bailey.
You have a good night.
Thanks.
I mean, I didn't plan it.
It just came out.
He asked me if... if Joanie seemed happy
when she was with her.
Was I supposed to lie?
No.
Of course I don't want you to lie.
I just wish you could have
mentioned it to me first.
That's what I'm saying.
I didn't know I was going to do anything.
Cole? Luisa?
So, the judge is leaning
towards shared custody.
What do you think?
Would you agree to settle?
Let's give her what she wants
so we can stop thinking about her.
I'm just so fucking tired
of talking about Alison.
What the fuck?
Fuck.
Hey.
What are you doing here?
I brought donuts.
Why?
Well, I thought you might be hungry.
And I wanted to say thank you for today.
It wasn't my idea.
Okay.
But still, you agreed to
the settlement, so thank you.
Ally, I'm not hungry.
Yes, you are.
- No, I'm not.
- I can tell you are.
Getting that line between your eyes.
- Alison...
- What?
Can you please just go?
My crew's about to show
up. My brother's are coming.
I don't want them to see you here.
Why? What are they gonna think?
I don't know what they're gonna think,
but I don't want any trouble.
Wait...
How is this trouble? I brought donuts.
Come on, Ally, you got what you wanted.
Okay, you got Joanie back.
So what are you doing?
I-I need you to leave me alone, Alison.
We both agree that what
happened was a mistake.
My God.
That's... that's not why I'm here.
You sure?
Yes.
I came to say thank you.
Look, today meant a lot to me.
It meant everything.
I'll leave them here.
In case you get hungry later.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Hey, Willa.
Cole, I was just about to lock up.
I just got to talk to Jerry for a second.
Is he in?
Jerry is somewhere in the Florida Keys.
For how long?
For good. He retired last month.
Couldn't wait to get the hell out of here.
So who's the new building inspector?
Hey. Are you Tim?
Timothy.
Timothy, my mistake.
Cole Lockhart.
Hey, Mr. Lockhart, pleasure to meet you.
Pleasure's all mine.
Congratulations on the new job.
Thank you.
I was out by your house earlier.
Yeah, I know. I got your message.
- Your survey's out of date.
- I don't think so.
That survey's not more
than three years old.
Correct.
Right, so that's not out of date.
Town law stipulates
that all new construction
be based on a new survey.
We've got to shut you down
till you get a new one.
Come on, if I get... if I get a new survey,
it's gonna cost me an arm and and leg.
And it'll take me eight weeks
to get somebody out there.
Maybe less.
Even if it's six,
I'm trying to get that
roof on before winter.
If you shut me down now, I'm screwed.
I'm sorry, with all the
new construction in town,
we really must enforce the rules.
All right, Timothy, I
know that you're new here.
This is a small town.
We take care of each other.
I've heard a lot about you, Mr. Lockhart.
Heard that you're an upstanding
member of this community
and someone people really look up to.
I would think it'd be
important to you to continue
to do things the proper way.
I'm very sorry for the inconvenience.
Hey.
Hey.
What happened to you?
Bath time.
She asleep?
No. She's watching a movie.
I, um, I talked to her about
what happened today in court.
And?
Well, she's happy.
We did the right thing.
It's getting kind of late.
If you can get her in her pajamas,
I'll read her a bedtime story.
Deal.
Dinner's on the stove.
Smells great.
Um, so...
I've been thinking.
Maybe it's time for us to start
our own family.
We could adopt or find a surrogate.
No?
No, I-I mean, no, not "no."
Yes.
Definitely yes.
Of course I want to
start a family with you.
But I-I-I'm exhausted
tonight, babe.
Can we talk about this tomorrow?
Yeah.
Sure.
- Cole?
- Yeah?
The fuck is wrong with you, man?
They sent me from town council.
- What are you talking about?
- I talked to Tim.
You are unequivocally shut down.
Fuck that guy.
What's his price?
- He doesn't have one.
- Bullshit.
Everybody has a price. What's his?
Cole, he's trying to
make an example of you.
- He's not gonna budge.
- Why?
Why? 'Cause you're a high-profile citizen,
and he's trying to bring
some kind of order to this...
backwater cesspool of
corruption we call home.
Why'd you hire this guy in the first place?
Just... listen... just
shut it down for a few weeks.
Just give me a minute.
Fuck.
Hello.
Yeah, I'm just at a building site.
Yes, I got your message about
the diapers, I already...
No, I didn't make the appointment becau...
because I-I don't think he's sick.
I think he's teething,
but if you want me to...
Hello?
She's a fucking cunt.
Everything okay?
Yes, I meant that affectionately.
Is there something wrong with Little O?
No, he's teething.
But he won't stop crying,
and Jenny's worried.
And she's back at work
now and super stressed
and the kid won't sleep and
we're fighting all the time
and we never have sex, but other than that?
Everything's great.
You guys gonna be okay?
What do you mean?
Well, you just called your wife a cunt.
Yeah, 'cause she makes me deeply miserable.
But you mean are we gonna
split? No, of course not.
Jenny's like a...
she's like a solid B-plus.
And let's face it, I'm a C.
So if she needs to call and
yell at me and then hang up,
if that makes her happy, well,
it's a, small price to pay
for a beautiful family, you know?
You ever wonder what it'd be like,
different life, different...
Different, what, different girl?
Like who?
Come on.
Is that what this is all about?
The whole "I got to get a
roof on my house" bullshit?
Thanks for stopping by, Oscar.
Wait, wait, wait.
- Are you fucking your ex-wife?
- Nope.
Have you been fucking your ex-wife?
What the fuck's wrong with you?
Dude, you got a perfect
life. What are you doing?
I don't know.
Jesus Christ.
Listen, man, I get it.
Your ex-wife was one of a kind.
But remember that thing
that happened five years ago?
Where she left you, shattered your heart
in a million pieces,
and then ground the shards
between her teeth, yeah?
Yes, yes, I remember.
So why are we even
having this conversation?
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm doing.
And if you tell Luisa, I'll kill you.
Come on, buddy.
You're talking to the new Oscar Hodges now.
I'm not interested in
blowing up anyone's life.
I got my own to worry about.
You know, when I first met Jenny,
I fell for her like the fucking Hindenburg.
I mean, she was like
some sort of nymphomaniac.
I thought I was setting myself up for
a lifetime of blowjobs.
Now, a scant three years later,
instead of getting laid at night,
I find myself up changing diapers.
Yeah.
Last night, I didn't
have a clean one ready.
Little O started to squirm.
So I reached out my hand
and I let him shit in it.
But you know what occurred to me
while that was happening?
Nope.
I thought,
this is what happens when
you fall in love with someone.
This is where it all leads.
So,
if that's where it's heading anyhow,
wouldn't you rather Luisa to fall back on,
the woman you know will
be there to catch you,
than Alison, who nine times out of ten
will probably just let you fall?
Good seeing you.
- Thanks for stopping by.
- Okay.
Hey, great talk.
Shut it down.
Yeah.
Last survey was done
three years ago, November.
- Hey, Cole.
- I mean, as soon as
you can get out there. Hold on, hold on.
Yeah. Next week'll be fine.
I'll see you at the house. Thank you.
Bye.
Ally, I told you yesterday, I really...
No, look, I had a... a
really significant day.
I was at Woodlawn and I was
counseling a grieving mother.
And it went so well
they've offered me a job.
A job?
Yeah.
There's starting this new program, and...
Hold on, did you take it?
Yeah, I did.
Woodlawn is in New Jersey.
Well, that's not the point.
Okay, so what's the point then?
What... aren't you happy for me?
If you start working in New Jersey,
what are we gonna do about Joanie?
You think you're taking
her? You're gonna leave her?
What... I thought I could
take her half the week.
She has school.
Well, she's got kindergarten.
We can find one there in New Jersey.
- It's fine... what?
- Jesus Christ.
Nothing, I just thought it was
gonna be different this time.
What was gonna be different?
I thought maybe you'd stay in
one place for a little while.
Well, okay, if you want
Joanie here the whole week,
we can talk about that. It's not...
What I want is for you to
be a responsible human being
who doesn't just do the first fucking thing
that pops into your head.
I don't have time for
your craziness today, Ally.
It's a good thing I'm
so fucked up, isn't it?
What's that?
Well, as long as I'm
crazy, you get to be sane.
Hey.
Let's do it.
Okay.
I'm ready. Let's start our own family.
We could even use your
sister as a surrogate.
What?
I'm sorry I've been acting so
crazy for the last couple days,
but I was thinking about this.
You want a family. I want a family.
So let's do it.
I'm gonna call a doctor
first thing tomorrow morning
and... and figure out the process.
Okay.
Um...
I think we should sleep on it.
And maybe we can talk when
you're a little bit calmer?
Babe, I'm calm. I want this.
Yeah?
Mr. Lockhart.
What now?
Yeah, I get it.
I'm in a shit mood too.
It sucks having to drive
all the way out here again
just to ask the same question twice,
but here goes...
where were you the night
that Noah Solloway was attacked?
- I already told you.
- Your home, right.
Except you didn't tell us, your wife did.
Why do we have a
picture of you at a tollbooth
right after the George Washington Bridge,
the evening of the stabbing?
You used your E-ZPass.
They keep records of stuff like that, so.
And the GWB is about 40 minutes
from Livingston University,
but maybe you already knew that.
Look, Mr. Lockhart, why
don't you just tell us
where you really were that night?
I told you already. I was with my wife.
You're about to make this a
whole lot harder on yourself.
Yeah, if you don't come
clean, you're about to become
our number one suspect.
Really? Is that a promise?
Just tell them where you were.
Why don't you listen to your wife, man?
Why don't you get the
fuck off my property...
Fuck, really?
Take it easy!
Put the cuffs on.
Mr. Lockhart, man, bad move.
Let's go.
Chris Gibbons
told me you were here.
I got him to let
me back so I could see you.
Why?
Look, Cole, we've basically
known each other,
like, our whole lives.
And you're a lot of things,
but you're not a liar.
So just tell me.
- If you stabbed Noah, that...
- Jesus Christ.
No.
I wasn't anywhere near the guy.
Then where were you that night?
I went up to Woodlawn.
What?
To talk to your doctor.
Dr. Parry, right, that's her name?
Yeah. Why?
To talk about you.
When you got back to Montauk,
you seemed... clearer.
Seeing you, seeing you with Joanie,
just brought a lot of thoughts back to me.
Well, what kind of thoughts?
About us.
Okay.
Well, why did you need to see my doctor?
I needed her professional opinion, I guess.
About what?
About how you are.
Are you kidding me?
What, you, like, you needed permission?
Yeah.
Okay, and, what did she say?
Nothing.
She's a very ethical doctor.
Okay, wait, so,
this is the big secret that...
that you've been hiding?
Yeah.
Well, tell the detectives that.
- I can't.
- Why not?
Why do you think?
Well, I-I-I have no idea.
If I admit that I went up to Woodlawn,
then I have to admit
everything to everybody.
A-admit what?
Alison,
I built this whole life,
I'm building a whole house
just to prove to everybody
that I don't love you anymore,
that I don't need you,
that I don't want you,
that I don't miss you.
But the truth is that I do.
I need you.
And I want you and I miss you
and I love you.
And I'm tired of pretending that I don't.
So stop pretending.
I can't.
Why?
'Cause I'm not Noah Solloway.
I am a good man.
And I would have to be crazy
to trust you after what you did to me,
and I can't go down that rabbit hole again.
I'm not gonna jeopardize
everything that I've built.
Yeah, then don't walk away.
Jesus, nobody is holding
a gun to your head.
But you know you have
to make a decision, Cole.
And look, this is me.
I'm not hiding anything from you.
I've worked really hard on myself,
and I am stronger in a lot of ways
than I used to be,
but I am always gonna be impulsive.
And depressed.
With mood swings.
Yeah, I know that I am not
an easy person to love.
But I love you.
I always have
and I always will.
You know, but this is
your decision to make.
Yeah, I-I don't envy you.
Hey.
Hey.
What did you tell them?
The truth.
Told 'em I went up to the place
Alison was getting treated.
To talk to her doctor.
Why?
I wanted evidence about her mental state.
To use in the custody case.
Why would you lie to the police for so long
about something so simple?
I don't know.
I think you're still lying.
I can't talk about this anymore, Luisa.
Good night.
We keep coming back to each other.
I know.
Don't you think that means something?
I think that means we were unfinished.
And now... we are?
You're scared.
I think you're giving up
because we've made a mess of everything,
and it's too complicated.
If you leave Luisa now,
you can't play the good guy anymore.
Then you're an asshole, just like me.
Yeah, but maybe you're a happy asshole.
Instead of a miserable hero.
You know,
if you ever need me,
you know where to find me.
You're still here.
This is my home.
Our home.
If you'll still have me.
I'll still have you.
Hey.
Wait, Joanie!
- Wait, wait.
- Joanie!
- What are you doing?
- Let her do it.
I can't stand feeling like this.
Like?
Like I've done everything I can.
And still what?
This town is not my home.
Joanie's not my child, but I've tried.
Now Alison gets everything
back, including you.
We lost our child!
I know.
How am I ever gonna compete with that?
I've proven myself consistently.
I also really need to consider
whether my client is ready
for unsupervised visits.
The current situation has
been and remains stressful.
You could just say to
the judge at our next hearing
that you trust me.
And you think I'm emotionally sound enough
to take care of Joanie.
Right, so I'm healthy enough to fuck,
but not to be the mother of our child.
There's a process in
place for a reason, Alison.
No, I understand, thanks for coming by.
Would you mind telling us where
you were last Wednesday night?
He was home. With me.
Cole will only ever see
you as a disaster, Alison.
Whatever you do, however
competent you become,
you will always be damaged goods to him.
I need you to sign
those, it's a "no contest."
I told my lawyer that I don't want
anything from you, I
just want a clean slate.
There are multiple
things to consider here.
Whether my young client is even comfortable
in an unsupervised
arrangement with Ms. Bailey
is only part of the equation.
Is Ms. Bailey actually prepared for this?
She still doesn't have a permanent job,
nor is she even divorced
from her second husband,
who happens to be a convicted felon.
Your Honor,
Mr. Gutteman does not
have his facts straight.
Ms. Bailey is partner in
a lucrative local business.
And as for her second
husband, Noah Solloway,
a judgment of divorce was just entered.
Here is a copy for the
court, as well as counsel.
Mr. Gutteman,
are you calling a witness?
Yes, Your Honor.
Um, I would like to call
Luisa Leon to the stand.
Raise your right hand.
Do you swear under the penalty of perjury
that the testimony you're
going to give here today
is the truth, the whole truth,
and nothing but the truth?
I do.
Ms. Leon, you have had the
occasion to see my client
interact with her mother?
Yes, of course.
And in the time
since this court last adjourned,
would you say the relationship
between my client and Alison Bailey
has improved or deteriorated?
I would say it has improved.
In fact, Joanie already
had an unsupervised visit.
She slept alone at Alison's
place a few nights ago.
It was her birthday.
I see. So it
was a special occasion?
Yeah. She came home very happy.
But I would imagine you still
have significant concerns
regarding Ms. Bailey having
regular, unsupervised visits...
Objection. Leading the witness.
Sustained.
Mr. Gutteman, may I remind you
that your job requires you
to be an impartial advocate
for your young client?
Honestly, I think we
should stop coming here.
I'm tired of this process.
You know, Joanie loves her mother
and wants to be with her.
I'm not a fan of Alison,
but this isn't about me.
She should have her daughter back.
I'm sorry.
Ms. Leon, when you say "she
should have her daughter back,"
you mean you would be all right with
unsupervised visits?
No, shared custody, Mr. Gutteman.
I'm talking about shared custody.
Ms. Leon,
I think you're confused.
Shared custody is not an option
on the table at the moment.
Well, maybe it should be.
Um...
No.
Your Honor, may I request
a brief recess?
Counsel, you can
each have five minutes
to speak to your clients.
And then I want to see you in my chambers.
What happened?
Cole is willing to
settle on shared custody.
Will you agree to it?
Me?
Yes. Yes!
My God. What...
this... this can't be real.
It... it was Luisa's testimony.
Did you have any idea she felt that way?
No, no, no, I thought
she still hated me, I...
Well, she's a good person. That's clear.
We'll draw up the paperwork,
but consider it done.
Congratulations, Alison.
I know this was awful, but it's over now.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Congrats.
Thanks.
Hey.
I just dropped Joanie off with Luisa.
She told me where to find you.
Well, here I am.
I-I brought you some coffee
and a muffin.
No?
Okay.
Well, I'll just leave it in
case you get hungry later.
Wait.
Look, I, I just came by
to see if you were okay with
what happened today in court.
Why wouldn't I be?
I don't know, you just
seemed a little surprised
by what Luisa did.
Honestly,
it seems a little fast to me.
Right.
You haven't exactly been
a model of consistency
since you got back. You're still you.
What is that supposed to mean?
Nothing.
Thanks for the muffin.
Wait, do you seriously think that
I'm... I'm not capable
of having custody back?
I think that you ran away as
soon as the going got tough.
So I just hope for Joanie's
sake that things are
gonna run a little bit more
smoothly this time around.
Wait, Cole, I thought you
understood why I had to go.
Alison, I can't do this
with you today, okay?
I got a whole crew showing
up. My brothers are coming.
If they see you here, they're
gonna wonder what's going on.
Fine.
Congratulations on your divorce.
Right.
So that's what all this is about.
You told me you hadn't seen him.
Look.
It was five minutes.
We signed and he left.
I thought you wanted me to get divorced.
I don't care what you do.
No, Gutteman told me that if
I wanted my daughter back...
It's emblematic of the
whole problem, Alison.
Wait, what "whole problem"?
I can't trust you.
Fuck you, Cole.
Dr. Parry?
Hey.
Yeah, no, yeah, I-I'm doing great.
It's so nice to hear from you.
My God, I'm so sorry.
How's she doing?
Yeah, yeah.
I-I, I'd love to.
When?
Yeah, tomorrow's fine, I...
well, Joanie's with Cole, so it's perfect.
Okay.
Yeah, 11 a.m. Right?
Yeah, I'll see you then.
Hey.
And when did it happen?
Eight weeks ago.
She's been on suicide
watch since she got here.
I'm hoping that by talking to someone else
who's been through it, it'll help.
You okay?
Yeah.
Okay.
Hi.
I'm Alison.
Can I join you?
Did, Dr. Parry tell you who I am?
You're the patient.
That's right.
I was here for a long time.
How long?
Six months.
You must have been crazy.
Yeah, well,
I had a lot to work through.
Maybe a little like you.
I have to go home next week.
My parents can't afford this.
Are you looking forward to going home?
What was her name?
My son's name was Gabriel.
After his grandfather.
You know, I,
I used to like to be in his room
after he died.
In his bed, you know,
surrounded by all his things.
The sheets still had his smell,
and I used to wrap them around a pillow
and pretend I was holding him.
My mom...
put all of Dawn's things in a...
storage as soon as she died.
In a box.
No, she can't do that.
You have to tell her
to take them out again.
You need her stuff around you. You can't...
trying to erase her memory
is... is not gonna help.
I just...
I just miss her so much.
Hey, I think I've
got some Kleenex in here.
I don't care.
My mom...
she's so worried about me.
She just...
she wants me
to be better.
She wants me to be myself again.
Well,
you're not gonna be better for a while.
And you won't ever be the same.
She has to understand that.
I spend a lot of time
trying to f-figure out
a way to
kill myself and
make it look like an accident.
Please don't tell them I-I told you that.
No, I won't. I won't.
I get it, though.
I came close a few times too.
You did?
Why not?
What did you do?
I had an affair.
- Damn.
- Yeah.
Well, I wouldn't recommend
it. It didn't end well.
But you do whatever you have to do.
Dying is not the answer.
I know it feels like a
good solution right now,
but you want to live.
How do you know that?
Because it's incredible to be alive.
Everyone else assumes
that life is a given.
But you and I both know that it's not.
You and I both know that
breath can end.
So we know that life is a gift.
You'll miss Dawn, but
you'll keep her with you.
You'll keep that memory alive.
And you'll live now for both of you.
Hey.
No.
Hey.
I'm sorry about before.
Look, I-I don't want to fight.
I...
I should have told you
that I talked to Noah.
Okay.
Can I talk to you about something else?
Sure. What's up?
Guess where I was this morning?
I got no idea, Ally.
I was at Woodlawn.
I talked to this woman
who had lost her child.
Wow.
How was that?
It was really intense.
She was so young. She...
much younger than we were.
And she was in so much
pain, you could almost see
the film of grief over her eyes.
Yeah, I remember it.
Yeah, but I think I
helped her. I really do.
And, um, Dr. Parry, that's my doctor,
she told me that someone like me,
with my experience,
I could turn this into a career.
A career?
Yeah.
They're creating a new program.
What they want to do is train
parents who have lost a child
to become grief counselors.
And they think the only people
that can really understand that experience
are those that have been through it before.
I don't understand. You're
moving to New Jersey?
What? No, I commute.
Alison, that's four hours away.
Well... well, yeah, um,
maybe I'll spend a few
days a week up there.
So this is a full-time job then?
No, I-I... we haven't worked
out the specifics yet, I...
What about Joanie?
What about her?
What, you just gonna abandon her again?
No.
- No.
- So then what?
- You're gonna take her from me?
- Wait, no.
- From our home?
- Cole, stop.
I-I-I haven't thought
about any of this.
Why not?
This is exactly why I didn't
want you to have custody yet.
I knew you were gonna
do something like this.
It's been, what, 24 hours?
Less?
And you just can't help yourself, can you?
Wait, Cole, I think
you're missing the point...
No, you are missing the point.
What happened in court is a miracle.
Why can't you see that?
Why can't you just be
happy and say thank you?
You have to keep on pushing and pushing.
I forget this about you.
I get so caught up in
you and I and our history
and everything that that entails.
But this is who you are.
You're chaos. And I can't live like that.
Well nobody's asking you to.
Really?
Then why are you here?
I just...
I just wanted to share it with you.
Why?
Because...
you're the only person
who could understand.
I...
I just don't get why you're so angry.
I thought you'd be happy for me.
Of course you did, Alison,
'cause it's about you.
Everything's always about you.
Hey.
Heard you had a big day yesterday, Bailey.
Wow. Word travels fast.
I'm happy for you.
I like it when the good guys win.
Yeah, well.
You're a good guy, Clay.
What'll it be tonight?
I don't know.
Something really stiff.
How about a Long Island Iced Tea?
Um, I was getting dinner in town
and I saw you walk in.
Mind if I sit?
No... no, sure.
Um...
Two Long Island Iced Teas.
How are you?
- You look good.
- Yeah, I'm okay.
How are you?
Um, I've been better.
You want to talk about it?
No.
No.
So you're still living here?
I didn't... I didn't know that.
Well, yeah, I have a lot
of reasons to be here, and...
Your daughter's here, right?
Yeah.
She turned out not to be Noah's?
No.
I loved hearing that.
I'm sorry.
I'm not trying to be a bitch.
I'm just having a really weird day.
Yeah, me too.
Have you seen him recently?
Noah?
Yeah, I'm just wondering if, you know,
how he is.
Um...
He's been staying at my place, actually.
He is?
Just for a few days.
His neck got infected
and... and my boyfriend's
a... a doctor, so...
Wow, that's so nice of you. That...
Do they know who did it?
No.
Think it's random.
- God, it's so weird.
- I know.
When's the last time you saw him?
A few days ago.
What? Why?
We signed the divorce papers.
You're divorced from Noah?
Yeah.
And so am I.
Cheers.
Hey, can I ask you something?
Okay.
Who was he with you?
What do you mean?
I mean, how would you describe this person,
Noah Solloway?
Um...
I'd say he was charming.
Very smart.
Intensely driven.
I've never met anyone
that ambitious before.
What?
Nothing. Go on.
Um...
He was very mature.
You know, he seemed like a man that
could take care of things.
That's not how you saw him?
I found him to be
so insecure.
I mean, obviously very intelligent,
but I always was after him to hustle more,
call his publisher, or
stand up to my father.
It's like he was a completely
different person with you.
I think people see what they
want to see in other people.
You know, I used to think
that he was never really yours,
that I was just
loaning him to you until
he'd had enough and decided to come home,
even after you'd gotten married.
Isn't that pathetic?
Helen, I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry for what I did.
He was your husband. You had children.
I shouldn't have...
I'm so sorry.
But it's not your fault.
I mean,
men need to feel
important in order to
stay in a relationship,
and I stopped making Noah feel important
years before he met you.
So don't blame yourself for what happened.
Helen, I want to tell you something
about the night that Scotty died...
- No, don't.
- I...
No, I think it would help you to hear...
Why don't you just let it go, Alison?
I mean, what does it matter?
It's not like we can go back.
It was nice seeing you.
Take care of yourself.
Weird night?
Chris?
Hey. What's wrong?
I just wanted
to give you a heads-up.
The New Jersey cops are back
in Montauk, questioning Cole.
About what?
Noah Solloway's attempted murder.
His alibi the night of the
stabbing didn't hold up.
What, he... he wasn't home?
No. Apparently, they have
some record of a toll he
paid on the Jersey Turnpike
about ten miles from the university,
an hour before Noah was stabbed.
My God.
Do you know anything about this?
N-no.
Because if you got something
to say, now would be the time.
I swear I don't.
Okay.
Hopefully he was just
going on a drive to look at the foliage.
- Yeah.
- Sorry to bother you, Bailey.
You have a good night.
Thanks.
I mean, I didn't plan it.
It just came out.
He asked me if... if Joanie seemed happy
when she was with her.
Was I supposed to lie?
No.
Of course I don't want you to lie.
I just wish you could have
mentioned it to me first.
That's what I'm saying.
I didn't know I was going to do anything.
Cole? Luisa?
So, the judge is leaning
towards shared custody.
What do you think?
Would you agree to settle?
Let's give her what she wants
so we can stop thinking about her.
I'm just so fucking tired
of talking about Alison.
What the fuck?
Fuck.
Hey.
What are you doing here?
I brought donuts.
Why?
Well, I thought you might be hungry.
And I wanted to say thank you for today.
It wasn't my idea.
Okay.
But still, you agreed to
the settlement, so thank you.
Ally, I'm not hungry.
Yes, you are.
- No, I'm not.
- I can tell you are.
Getting that line between your eyes.
- Alison...
- What?
Can you please just go?
My crew's about to show
up. My brother's are coming.
I don't want them to see you here.
Why? What are they gonna think?
I don't know what they're gonna think,
but I don't want any trouble.
Wait...
How is this trouble? I brought donuts.
Come on, Ally, you got what you wanted.
Okay, you got Joanie back.
So what are you doing?
I-I need you to leave me alone, Alison.
We both agree that what
happened was a mistake.
My God.
That's... that's not why I'm here.
You sure?
Yes.
I came to say thank you.
Look, today meant a lot to me.
It meant everything.
I'll leave them here.
In case you get hungry later.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Hey, Willa.
Cole, I was just about to lock up.
I just got to talk to Jerry for a second.
Is he in?
Jerry is somewhere in the Florida Keys.
For how long?
For good. He retired last month.
Couldn't wait to get the hell out of here.
So who's the new building inspector?
Hey. Are you Tim?
Timothy.
Timothy, my mistake.
Cole Lockhart.
Hey, Mr. Lockhart, pleasure to meet you.
Pleasure's all mine.
Congratulations on the new job.
Thank you.
I was out by your house earlier.
Yeah, I know. I got your message.
- Your survey's out of date.
- I don't think so.
That survey's not more
than three years old.
Correct.
Right, so that's not out of date.
Town law stipulates
that all new construction
be based on a new survey.
We've got to shut you down
till you get a new one.
Come on, if I get... if I get a new survey,
it's gonna cost me an arm and and leg.
And it'll take me eight weeks
to get somebody out there.
Maybe less.
Even if it's six,
I'm trying to get that
roof on before winter.
If you shut me down now, I'm screwed.
I'm sorry, with all the
new construction in town,
we really must enforce the rules.
All right, Timothy, I
know that you're new here.
This is a small town.
We take care of each other.
I've heard a lot about you, Mr. Lockhart.
Heard that you're an upstanding
member of this community
and someone people really look up to.
I would think it'd be
important to you to continue
to do things the proper way.
I'm very sorry for the inconvenience.
Hey.
Hey.
What happened to you?
Bath time.
She asleep?
No. She's watching a movie.
I, um, I talked to her about
what happened today in court.
And?
Well, she's happy.
We did the right thing.
It's getting kind of late.
If you can get her in her pajamas,
I'll read her a bedtime story.
Deal.
Dinner's on the stove.
Smells great.
Um, so...
I've been thinking.
Maybe it's time for us to start
our own family.
We could adopt or find a surrogate.
No?
No, I-I mean, no, not "no."
Yes.
Definitely yes.
Of course I want to
start a family with you.
But I-I-I'm exhausted
tonight, babe.
Can we talk about this tomorrow?
Yeah.
Sure.
- Cole?
- Yeah?
The fuck is wrong with you, man?
They sent me from town council.
- What are you talking about?
- I talked to Tim.
You are unequivocally shut down.
Fuck that guy.
What's his price?
- He doesn't have one.
- Bullshit.
Everybody has a price. What's his?
Cole, he's trying to
make an example of you.
- He's not gonna budge.
- Why?
Why? 'Cause you're a high-profile citizen,
and he's trying to bring
some kind of order to this...
backwater cesspool of
corruption we call home.
Why'd you hire this guy in the first place?
Just... listen... just
shut it down for a few weeks.
Just give me a minute.
Fuck.
Hello.
Yeah, I'm just at a building site.
Yes, I got your message about
the diapers, I already...
No, I didn't make the appointment becau...
because I-I don't think he's sick.
I think he's teething,
but if you want me to...
Hello?
She's a fucking cunt.
Everything okay?
Yes, I meant that affectionately.
Is there something wrong with Little O?
No, he's teething.
But he won't stop crying,
and Jenny's worried.
And she's back at work
now and super stressed
and the kid won't sleep and
we're fighting all the time
and we never have sex, but other than that?
Everything's great.
You guys gonna be okay?
What do you mean?
Well, you just called your wife a cunt.
Yeah, 'cause she makes me deeply miserable.
But you mean are we gonna
split? No, of course not.
Jenny's like a...
she's like a solid B-plus.
And let's face it, I'm a C.
So if she needs to call and
yell at me and then hang up,
if that makes her happy, well,
it's a, small price to pay
for a beautiful family, you know?
You ever wonder what it'd be like,
different life, different...
Different, what, different girl?
Like who?
Come on.
Is that what this is all about?
The whole "I got to get a
roof on my house" bullshit?
Thanks for stopping by, Oscar.
Wait, wait, wait.
- Are you fucking your ex-wife?
- Nope.
Have you been fucking your ex-wife?
What the fuck's wrong with you?
Dude, you got a perfect
life. What are you doing?
I don't know.
Jesus Christ.
Listen, man, I get it.
Your ex-wife was one of a kind.
But remember that thing
that happened five years ago?
Where she left you, shattered your heart
in a million pieces,
and then ground the shards
between her teeth, yeah?
Yes, yes, I remember.
So why are we even
having this conversation?
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm doing.
And if you tell Luisa, I'll kill you.
Come on, buddy.
You're talking to the new Oscar Hodges now.
I'm not interested in
blowing up anyone's life.
I got my own to worry about.
You know, when I first met Jenny,
I fell for her like the fucking Hindenburg.
I mean, she was like
some sort of nymphomaniac.
I thought I was setting myself up for
a lifetime of blowjobs.
Now, a scant three years later,
instead of getting laid at night,
I find myself up changing diapers.
Yeah.
Last night, I didn't
have a clean one ready.
Little O started to squirm.
So I reached out my hand
and I let him shit in it.
But you know what occurred to me
while that was happening?
Nope.
I thought,
this is what happens when
you fall in love with someone.
This is where it all leads.
So,
if that's where it's heading anyhow,
wouldn't you rather Luisa to fall back on,
the woman you know will
be there to catch you,
than Alison, who nine times out of ten
will probably just let you fall?
Good seeing you.
- Thanks for stopping by.
- Okay.
Hey, great talk.
Shut it down.
Yeah.
Last survey was done
three years ago, November.
- Hey, Cole.
- I mean, as soon as
you can get out there. Hold on, hold on.
Yeah. Next week'll be fine.
I'll see you at the house. Thank you.
Bye.
Ally, I told you yesterday, I really...
No, look, I had a... a
really significant day.
I was at Woodlawn and I was
counseling a grieving mother.
And it went so well
they've offered me a job.
A job?
Yeah.
There's starting this new program, and...
Hold on, did you take it?
Yeah, I did.
Woodlawn is in New Jersey.
Well, that's not the point.
Okay, so what's the point then?
What... aren't you happy for me?
If you start working in New Jersey,
what are we gonna do about Joanie?
You think you're taking
her? You're gonna leave her?
What... I thought I could
take her half the week.
She has school.
Well, she's got kindergarten.
We can find one there in New Jersey.
- It's fine... what?
- Jesus Christ.
Nothing, I just thought it was
gonna be different this time.
What was gonna be different?
I thought maybe you'd stay in
one place for a little while.
Well, okay, if you want
Joanie here the whole week,
we can talk about that. It's not...
What I want is for you to
be a responsible human being
who doesn't just do the first fucking thing
that pops into your head.
I don't have time for
your craziness today, Ally.
It's a good thing I'm
so fucked up, isn't it?
What's that?
Well, as long as I'm
crazy, you get to be sane.
Hey.
Let's do it.
Okay.
I'm ready. Let's start our own family.
We could even use your
sister as a surrogate.
What?
I'm sorry I've been acting so
crazy for the last couple days,
but I was thinking about this.
You want a family. I want a family.
So let's do it.
I'm gonna call a doctor
first thing tomorrow morning
and... and figure out the process.
Okay.
Um...
I think we should sleep on it.
And maybe we can talk when
you're a little bit calmer?
Babe, I'm calm. I want this.
Yeah?
Mr. Lockhart.
What now?
Yeah, I get it.
I'm in a shit mood too.
It sucks having to drive
all the way out here again
just to ask the same question twice,
but here goes...
where were you the night
that Noah Solloway was attacked?
- I already told you.
- Your home, right.
Except you didn't tell us, your wife did.
Why do we have a
picture of you at a tollbooth
right after the George Washington Bridge,
the evening of the stabbing?
You used your E-ZPass.
They keep records of stuff like that, so.
And the GWB is about 40 minutes
from Livingston University,
but maybe you already knew that.
Look, Mr. Lockhart, why
don't you just tell us
where you really were that night?
I told you already. I was with my wife.
You're about to make this a
whole lot harder on yourself.
Yeah, if you don't come
clean, you're about to become
our number one suspect.
Really? Is that a promise?
Just tell them where you were.
Why don't you listen to your wife, man?
Why don't you get the
fuck off my property...
Fuck, really?
Take it easy!
Put the cuffs on.
Mr. Lockhart, man, bad move.
Let's go.
Chris Gibbons
told me you were here.
I got him to let
me back so I could see you.
Why?
Look, Cole, we've basically
known each other,
like, our whole lives.
And you're a lot of things,
but you're not a liar.
So just tell me.
- If you stabbed Noah, that...
- Jesus Christ.
No.
I wasn't anywhere near the guy.
Then where were you that night?
I went up to Woodlawn.
What?
To talk to your doctor.
Dr. Parry, right, that's her name?
Yeah. Why?
To talk about you.
When you got back to Montauk,
you seemed... clearer.
Seeing you, seeing you with Joanie,
just brought a lot of thoughts back to me.
Well, what kind of thoughts?
About us.
Okay.
Well, why did you need to see my doctor?
I needed her professional opinion, I guess.
About what?
About how you are.
Are you kidding me?
What, you, like, you needed permission?
Yeah.
Okay, and, what did she say?
Nothing.
She's a very ethical doctor.
Okay, wait, so,
this is the big secret that...
that you've been hiding?
Yeah.
Well, tell the detectives that.
- I can't.
- Why not?
Why do you think?
Well, I-I-I have no idea.
If I admit that I went up to Woodlawn,
then I have to admit
everything to everybody.
A-admit what?
Alison,
I built this whole life,
I'm building a whole house
just to prove to everybody
that I don't love you anymore,
that I don't need you,
that I don't want you,
that I don't miss you.
But the truth is that I do.
I need you.
And I want you and I miss you
and I love you.
And I'm tired of pretending that I don't.
So stop pretending.
I can't.
Why?
'Cause I'm not Noah Solloway.
I am a good man.
And I would have to be crazy
to trust you after what you did to me,
and I can't go down that rabbit hole again.
I'm not gonna jeopardize
everything that I've built.
Yeah, then don't walk away.
Jesus, nobody is holding
a gun to your head.
But you know you have
to make a decision, Cole.
And look, this is me.
I'm not hiding anything from you.
I've worked really hard on myself,
and I am stronger in a lot of ways
than I used to be,
but I am always gonna be impulsive.
And depressed.
With mood swings.
Yeah, I know that I am not
an easy person to love.
But I love you.
I always have
and I always will.
You know, but this is
your decision to make.
Yeah, I-I don't envy you.
Hey.
Hey.
What did you tell them?
The truth.
Told 'em I went up to the place
Alison was getting treated.
To talk to her doctor.
Why?
I wanted evidence about her mental state.
To use in the custody case.
Why would you lie to the police for so long
about something so simple?
I don't know.
I think you're still lying.
I can't talk about this anymore, Luisa.
Good night.
We keep coming back to each other.
I know.
Don't you think that means something?
I think that means we were unfinished.
And now... we are?
You're scared.
I think you're giving up
because we've made a mess of everything,
and it's too complicated.
If you leave Luisa now,
you can't play the good guy anymore.
Then you're an asshole, just like me.
Yeah, but maybe you're a happy asshole.
Instead of a miserable hero.
You know,
if you ever need me,
you know where to find me.
You're still here.
This is my home.
Our home.
If you'll still have me.
I'll still have you.