Temptation Island (2019–…): Season 2, Episode 10 - The Final Bonfire Part 1 - full transcript

Previously on...

It's crazy how far we came,
you know?

Connection just kinda forming
into just a friendship. Just...

I didn't really realize
I was getting friend-zoned.

I'm not over Ashley.

Now I kinda feel like
emotionally, I'm out the door,

but I say that now.

I don't know how I'm gonna feel
when I'm in front of him.

I feel like
we're a good-looking couple.

"Couple." Wait a second.

- I'm not gonna lie, though.
I am nervous



about, like, the bonfire
and, like, talking to Kate.

I'll always love Kate.

Dom is the perfect guy
to spend this last night with,

and at this point, like,
I owe it to myself to, like,

feel what I feel
and, like, see that feeling out.

You're not gonna tempt me.

What up, y'all?

- Hi!
- Hey.

- What up?
- What's up?

- Well, how did it go?
- It was good.

- It was amazing.
- We went to a beach villa,

and... which was amazing.

We just hung by the pool
for a little bit, had some wine.

Really nice dinner
and... more wine.



- Hey!
- Hi, guys!

This one-on-one time
definitely has helped me

solidify, you know,
my feelings with Ben.

How do guys feel today?

- Really good.
- Tired.

I feel like
I was in a fairy tale,

so I'm feeling very happy.

- What's up, everybody?
- Hey, what's up, Mark?

- Hi.
- Hi.

I trust your overnight dates
went well.

- Yes.
- Yeah. Amazing.

Well, I'm glad to hear that

you had some fantastic
alone time.

Unfortunately, I do have
some difficult news.

Your time as couples
has come to an end.

So, gentlemen, in a minute,
I'm gonna ask you

to leave the villa.

Now for some of you,
this is just goodbye for now.

But depending on what happens
in our ladies' final bonfire,

it could be goodbye forever.

Oh, my stomach hurts.

All right, so I'm gonna
give you a few minutes

to say your goodbyes, and then
I'll have you gather your things

and it'll be time
to leave the villa.

I'm not ready to say goodbye.

Like, I trusted him with a lot
since I've been here.

So I don't know how to describe

the feeling beyond that
as of now,

but I know that it's a deep one.

You know I'm gonna miss you.

I'm gonna miss you, too.

Just don't cry on me right now.

- I'm trying not to cry.
- Don't cry.

Me and Sonic see each other
as more than just friends,

but I've only spent, you know,
a short period of time with her,

and Gavin's spent
a year and a half.

So he has me beat
as far as time,

but I was able
to make her feel extremely good

in such a short period of time,

so I don't know
what's gonna happen.

So you came here
a totally different person

than who you are right now.

So make your decision
based on that...

Who you are now.

I will be seeing you soon,
so don't even cry.

I really don't wanna cry
right now,

but I hate saying goodbye.

This isn't a goodbye.

It's just like,
I wanted this to be over

the moment I arrived here, and I
was counting down the days,

and now, like, it's finally
coming to an end,

and I really don't want it
to end.

It's really hard to say goodbye
to Dom today.

I appreciate so much

everything that he's done
from day one...

The way that he was able
to build up my confidence

and make me see, you know,
a different side to myself,

um, that I came here...
I came here to find that girl,

and he helped pull
all of that out in me.

- I'm glad you did come here.
I'm glad I am here

'cause I met you.

But no way this is close
to being a goodbye.

I promise you.

Okay?

You can get through this
You're... ing strong.

Mm-hmm.

I'm not gonna let him
talk me into anything.

I have to make a decision

on what I'm gonna do
at the end of this.

I'm kinda nervous
to talk to Casey

because Casey kinda...

tells me things I wanna hear.

The last bonfire I saw,
he's like,

"Oh, I'll just give her
a sales pitch

and make her, you know,
come home with me."

So I'm kinda nervous to just
even speak to him

'cause I don't think of him
as the same person I did

when he... we first got here.

Okay, you guys, unfortunately,
we're at that point.

Gentlemen, it's time
to gather your things

and leave the villa.

Okay, fellas.

I've learned so much
from that one person,

and now I have to say bye.

I've grown so much from him
and it's just like, scary,

to even just have
to say goodbye to someone

that, you know, you value
in your life.

For our date,
we went on a boat ride.

- Oh, nice.
- We saw, like, five dolphins.

- Oh, really?
- Like, 10 dolphins.

- Yeah, and they were, like...
It was actually, like, hundreds.

Hundreds. Hundreds.

It was, like, hundreds
of dolphins.

It was like Sea World,
like real life Sea World.

- Yeah.
- Oh, wow, that sounds awesome.

- Hello!
- Hi!

- Hi.
- You know what we just did?

- Y'all are glowing.
What'd you do?

What did you do?

If Ashley and I are able
to solve our stuff

at the bonfire,
then I got a ring for her.

- Are you serious?
- You're serious?

So this is
the scariest situation I'm in.

- You're shaking, man.
- I know.

- Wow. It's beautiful.
- Wow.

Casey is here to give a ring
and propose to his girl,

who is cheating on his ass.

Got a lot invested
in this final bonfire,

and it's just scary 'cause it
could go completely either way.

The worst or the best.
And there's no middle ground.

It's really either
the worst or the best.

- Yeah.
- Wow.

Well, I wish you the best,
man. I wish you the best.

I hope for the best for you,
man.

- What's up, friends?
- Oh, wow.

- Hi!
- How are you?

Surprise, surprise.

- What's up, Mark?
- Nice to see you.

How were your dates?
- Amazing.

The dates were incredible.

Kind of a lot of glow
going on in here.

Yeah.

I'm glad to hear that. That's
the whole point of those dates.

Unfortunately, of course,

I come in with what could be
difficult news.

Your time as couples
has come to an end.

Ladies, take a few minutes.
Say your goodbyes.

And then after that, ladies,
I'm gonna ask you

to gather your things, and it'll
be time to leave the villa.

All right, find a spot,
and I'll check with you

in a few minutes, all right?

I came here knowing that
me and Ashley

may or may not leave together.

The journey between me
and Medinah

has definitely made me
realize some things

and made me a better person.
It wouldn't be a failure

if I was to leave
"Temptation Island" alone.

I know I'm always gonna have
a friend in Medinah.

Rick.

Rick.

- You crazy.
- You're crazy.

You're crazy. It's definitely
been a... a long ride.

- It has.
It's been a roller coaster.

- Thank you.
Thank you for being you.

Thank you for, you know,
just helping me grow.

I feel like we shared a lot
of great moments on this island.

- Of course. Like, you know?
- I have no regrets either.

And I'm really gonna miss you.

I'm really gonna miss you, too.

Aw.
- Give me a hug.

We gonna stand up for it.

- Oh, we gonna stand up?
We gonna stand up for the hug?

- I need a real hug.
- You need a real hug?

- I'm gonna miss you.
- I'm gonna miss you, too.

Like, I'm really glad I met you.

Seriously.

For real. We're almost done.

Yeah.

- Yeah.
- I'm excited to see, like,

what happens with you
and Esonica,

and I hope that she, you know,
will be able to see

that you've changed
and that you're a good person.

Right.

And that you really care
about her

and, yeah, this whole process,
like, you know,

everything that you did
was because of her.

Yeah.

- Yeah.
- You'll be okay no matter what.

It's weird, 'cause I've had
to think about that,

like, what would it be like?
And, like, thinking of, like,

oh, well, before I met her,
how was it like?

- Mm-hmm.
- That would just terrify me

to go back to how it was.

And you won't. You're, like,
such a changed man.

Like, you being single now
would be completely different.

I think Ashley's gonna notice
the world of difference in me.

You know, you can just look
at somebody and tell

all their intentions
by the tone of their voice

and the way they're talking,
and it's gonna be

a completely new Casey that
she's never talked to before.

I don't wanna have
this conversation.

I know. Me neither.

I wanna be with you after this

is all over, you know?
- Yeah.

But at the same time,
I have to talk to Kate,

and that's, like, my main...

That's, like, my main focus
right now, you know?

Are you nervous for this?

The one thing nervous,

that I can understand...
I brought her here, you know?

- Mm-hmm.
- In the hopes that, like,

we both grow individually,
and then we work

on our relationship, and, like,
I fell for you, you know?

It's definitely hard to say
goodbye to Toneata,

but on the forefront of my mind
right now

is my conversation with Kate.

Going to the bonfire
and seeing, you know,

her for the first time
in an entire month,

regardless, you know,
I need to let her know,

and I need to be honest with her
as far as where I stand,

um, and then I can move forward
with Toneata.

It's gonna be really hard.

I'll be here waiting.

I know.

- Well, give me a hug.
- Don't leave. Don't leave me.

All right, you guys,
come on in here.

Let's head back.

- Keep in touch?
- Keep in touch, definitely.

All right.

I will stay in touch with you,
though.

David has so much going on
with Kate.

I mean, they live together,
but that really doesn't matter

because at the end of the day,
I could just feel

and I know that David's being
100% honest with me,

and I could just see that when
he looks at me

where his true feelings are at,

and I know that David
is with me.

Okay, fellas,
the next time I see you

is gonna be
at your final bonfire.

You're going to be reunited
with your girlfriends,

and you have big decisions
to make.

I don't know if I'm ready
to see Ashley.

There's a part of me
that really wants to see her.

And there's a part of me
that doesn't.

But I don't wanna run away
from this.

I wanna face this head-on

and just to go in there
and just to be honest...

Be honest with myself,
be honest with her,

and just... pour my heart out.

I'll check in with you, and I'll
see you at that bonfire.

Good luck, guys.

- I guess it's just us now.
- Final stretch, man.

It's definitely been
an emotional roller coaster

for me just from the first
bonfire to this one coming up.

Like, my mind is just
everywhere with this one.

I don't know which side
I'm leaning towards.

Just ready to, you know,
just be real and open, so...

- That's right.
- That's basically what it is.

Coming into "Temptation Island,"

Ashley had some trust issues
with me.

I really think you're gonna
act up.

- I'm not.
- There's gonna be girls there,

and you're gonna be, like,
"Oh, my God."

- I'm around girls...
- "She's gone for a month?"

I wanted to prove to her
and show her

that I could be trusted.

It's not goodbye.
It's "see you later," all right?

So I'll see you later.

I'm not handcuffing her.

My comment definitely
set her off the rocker.

If he's not handcuffing,
someone else will, so...

Ooh.

That kinda started her journey
on the island.

What she expected of me,
she did.

She threw my heart down
and stepped on it.

I used that to kind of fuel
my journey

and let my guard down.

Can you date a girl
that doesn't have an ass?

I've dated a woman
that doesn't have an ass.

Does your girl right now
have an ass?

She got some cakes.

Medinah's fine.

She's a grown-ass woman,
and I could respect that

and I can appreciate that,
and you know,

I was definitely tempted.

But I showed great restraint.

I just wanna hold you.

I was kinda conflicted in ways
that I wasn't expecting.

The reason why I didn't go
in the pool with y'all

is because Casey
was sitting by himself,

and he looked like he wasn't
having the best time at all.

Because that's what
you're here for,

is to make sure Casey is okay.

Now you just sound like

a selfish-ass person
right there.

We've had our ups and downs,
and at one point,

there was a romantic connection,
but at this point,

what I need right now
is a friend.

When I do fight with Ashley,
I walk away,

and I don't wanna be that person
that walks away.

I wanna be the person
that deals with conflict

in the moment as opposed
to running away from it.

I don't know what I'm gonna do
once I get to the final bonfire.

- I'm not ready...
- I know.

For our final bonfire,
obviously.

I don't know if I'm leaving
with or without Rick.

Maybe he's outgrown me,
you know?

Obviously, he feels like

I'm not...

showing him that I remember
why I'm here. Hmm.

I came here with Rick

so that we could prove our love
to one another.

We need to take the next steps
forward in our relationship...

Move in, I want a ring.

We came here to work
on being loyal to one another,

really fighting temptation.

Oh. Where you come from?

- How you doing, ladies?
I'm K.B. I'm 36 years old.

You got way too excited
right there.

I don't have time to be
playing around with anybody.

Right.

Girlfriends wanna be wives,
right?

I have a problem with you
already.

Can I get in your bed?

- You can get in my bed.
I don't care.

I never thought that I would be
the one to make the mistake.

Oh, my God. K.B.

What if I've already thought

about wanting to leave
the island with you?

Off the island,
it wouldn't make sense for us.

I messed up by picking K.B.

Just a bunch of bitches.

Hey, you better stop
calling names.

You're really in your feelings
and it's really sad.

The turning point for me
on the island was

the day that K.B. and I had
the worst blow-up.

This is exactly who you are,
and I love it.

Bitch,
shut your... ing ass up!

Boy, bye!

All of us are going home
at some point.

Unfortunately, your time is now.

When K.B. left the island,

it allowed me to focus in more
on me and Rick.

I'm worried about Rick
going into this last bonfire.

I really hope
that he forgives me.

And I really hope
that we leave here together.

So how you plan on
breaking the news to Kate?

I don't know, to be honest, man.

Going into it, I wanna hear
what she has to say first.

- Mm-hmm.
- Because, like, I don't know

where she stands

from an emotional standpoint
right now, you know?

- Yeah.
- Like, my approach

could be different based off
of, like, where she st...

You know what I mean?
- Yeah, I see that.

I don't wanna make this
conversation hard, you know?

Yeah.

- Kate and I...
We wanted to go into this

wanting to work on two things.

She needed me to become more
of an emotional person for her.

I don't like this feeling
that I have.

I mean, what can happen?

And I needed her to learn
to trust me more.

This is like the problem
in our relationship.

But can you? Can you really
make the right decisions?

I did become more emotional.

Just, unfortunately,
it wasn't with Kate.

It feels like there's already,
like, that trust and connection.

It's just, like, naturally,
like, good energy, you know?

I've gotten physical with
multiple girls in the house.

I did things that I regret.

Unfortunately, those... ups
really allowed me to see

what it is that I truly want
in a relationship,

and that drove me to continue
furthering my connections

with girls in the house,
especially Toneata.

Would you be willing
to, like, move out my way?

If it feels right, then, like,
I-I would do it, of course.

Our relationship has moved
a lot quicker

than either one of us
thought it would.

I do.

And for the first time
in my life,

I was able to see the true power

of an emotional connection.

I really have no idea
what to expect from Kate

at the final bonfire.

I'm extremely scared
to hurt Kate tonight.

I just want her to be
in a good place,

and I'm hoping that
she's grown as much as I have.

How do you feel about bonfire?

- I'm nervous, obviously.
What about you?

Yeah, I mean... I mean,
everyone knows for me,

like, I sound like
a broken record here.

I'm just, like, every bonfire,
I just saw someone different.

He came here and wanted
to prove something to me.

Before this, like,
he really was my best friend.

Yeah, same.

Um, and I really
wanted that to work.

Before the island, I was asking
David to be more open with me.

I trusted David and allowed him
to bring me on this journey.

You know that I don't wanna
leave this place without you.

That's not my plan.
That's not my goal.

Hi there. I'm not scared
of any little competition,

and I will win your heart.

You touch my boyfriend,
I will kill you.

I saw the girls,
and a lot of them are your type.

This is, like,
the problem in our relationship.

Like, you have to trust me.

David said that we came here

so that he could
prove himself to me,

and then his actions
didn't follow up.

And even though I saw David
disrespecting our relationship,

I still wanted to carry myself
in a certain way.

You're the only person
that, like, makes my heart,

like, pound a little bit.

I started to realize that
I needed to just be more open,

and Dom was one of those
that was supporting me

from the get-go.

It's a weird feeling, like,
allowing someone in my space.

Well, we'll figure it out
eventually.

Because of Dom, I was able
to embrace this journey.

I learned a lot about myself
and opened up my heart.

Tonight at the bonfire,
like, I fear

David's gonna make me feel
a certain way,

and all this strength
that I've built up,

I feel like can easily
be taken away from me.

I'm just scared that
the moment that I see him,

I'm kinda just gonna crumble.

I don't know what I'm gonna do
once I get to the final bonfire.

There's a part of me that wants
to leave with Ashley,

and then there's a part of me
that kind of hesitant.

I wanna be a forgiving person,
but I don't know

if I could really trust Ashley
again.

I still love Rick,

but I have every fear
going into this last bonfire.

I don't know
if he loves me enough

to forgive me
the way I've forgiven him.

Hi. How many times?

My fear is that Rick has
grown, but we'll grow apart.

Maybe he's grown past
this relationship,

and maybe I am, too.

I'll know when I see him.

We have come a long way,
haven't we?

Yes, definitely.

But I've seen
what you've gone through,

and we've been here together,
and I've watched you grow.

So... are you ready?

Yes.

Okay. I'm gonna
bring Rick in now, okay?

Okay.

Oh, my God.

How you doing, Rick?

Welcome back.

All right.

Somebody would like
to say hello to you.

Hello.

- Hi.
- How are you? Good?

I missed you.

I missed you, too.

You okay?

Okay.

You both came here
on Ashley's suggestion,

and really, you have had
the same big question

you've been grappling with...

"Are we meant to be together,

or is there somebody better
out there for us," right?

So tonight is
your final bonfire.

So, Rick,
I'm gonna start with you.

This is your chance to share
for the first time with Ashley

what your experience has been
like on the island...

More importantly,
what you've learned, okay?

And, Ashley,
I just need you to listen.

Rick, you're on.
- Oh, wow.

Hey. How's it going?

Well, hey, this has definitely
been a long journey.

I've been tempted...
Like, definitely been tempted,

and you know,
her name was Medinah.

She was somebody
that I was really formed

a great connection with.
Like...

I don't know. At one point,

I did feel myself falling
for her,

like for real. Um...

We did not have sex.

You know, we cuddled.
That was, you know,

cuddling's really intimate
for me.

Um, you know, we kissed.
We shared a few, you know,

passionate, intimate kisses.

She's a great woman.
Um, she's taught me some things,

you know, and...

with that said, um...
we have a great friendship

at this point.

And I've learned now
that I never really,

you know, handled our conflict
in the,

you know, the best way.

I feel like
I'm a whole new person now,

like I'm... I'm able to, you know,
express how I'm feeling,

just be able to deal
with conflict in a better way,

and I feel like, you know,
I could be a trustworthy guy.

You know? Like... Like,
I was really tempted out here,

and, you know, I've always had
you in the back of my mind.

You know, although, you know,
I was...

disappointed
with a lot of things.

Even though
I was disappointed, um,

I didn't lose sight of why
I came here,

and I knew I came here
to, you know,

leave as a better person.

You know, at times,
I was selfish,

and I didn't put you
as my number one,

and I learned that I need
to make you my number one,

so this is what I've learned,
this is my journey,

and this is where I'm at
right now.

Thank you, Rick.

You got a chance to speak.

Ashley, thank you for listening.

And now you've had a journey.

Let Rick know what it's like
for you.

So when I first came here,
obviously, I came here for us.

I begged you to come here
because I felt like

we needed some kind of growth
in our relationship.

I'm sorry.

It's all right.

However, when we started
our journey,

just date selections,

I was already so nervous.

Then in front of everyone,
I felt like you

exposed my insecurities,
and the main thing I want

was security for the both of us.

And you said
you weren't cuffing.

Like, you just basically
told everyone

you didn't care
about our relationship.

So I'm thinking you're really
going in this with no feelings

and no commitment to me.

And I was upset, frustrated,
and I felt provoked.

And I just felt like
you didn't care at that point,

and I stopped caring
at that point.

I did something very stupid
in response to that,

and I broke every single rule
I set for myself,

and I do hold myself accountable
for all of my actions,

and I know that
you're disappointed from that.

I know it might be embarrassing
to you.

I know...

there's nothing I can really say
to, like, apologize for that.

Um...

Um, I spent so much time
crying here.

And trying to tell myself that

I was a victim
in our relationship

and that I was hurt,
but I realize

that I allowed myself
to be that way

and I wasn't using my voice
and speaking up.

And then I started thinking
about all the pros and cons

and how great you are to me

and how there are
good things about you

and you're a great guy.

And I really need to focus
on those things,

but I also have to focus
on myself

and loving myself enough
to know, you know,

my self-worth.

And so... in this moment,

I just, I figured
I-I would understand,

like, what is next for us.

And honestly,
I still really don't.

So, Ashley, I'll start with you,

and there are three ways
this can go.

So do you want to leave
this island

with the man who's sitting here
now as your boyfriend,

or do you wanna leave
this island alone

with the woman you've become,

or... is there someone else
that you've met

that you wanna leave
the island with?

Can you go first?

You go first. He asked you.

Can you go first?

You go first. He asked you.

I'm just, I'm here.
I'm right in front of you.

You haven't seen me in weeks,
and then you...

I feel like you still
didn't know.

All I know is just one thing.
Like, I never stopped caring.

I never did, and, um,
like, my apologies

if I came out and said,
you know, "I'm not handcuffing."

Um, that may have came off
a little insensitive,

um, which leads me
to my question is, um,

I wasn't exactly clear
what happened,

you know, with you and K.B.,

so was that... did you all
hook up? Did you all have sex?

Damn. And that was... your
strongest connection, correct?

- Yeah.
- And to be honest, um,

I gotta be real, like,

I seen a couple of y'all on,
you know, you guys on a date,

and, um... you said you had
mentioned that he's making it

easy for you to move on
to bigger and better things,

literally and figuratively.

You know, I didn't take
too kindly to that.

I felt like that was kinda like
the ultimate disrespect.

Do you guys... had some type
of connection,

but that was just kind of
solely based on sex,

and me... I wasn't out here for
any type of sexual connection.

I was trying to make
an emotional connection

that would lead to me
becoming a better person

and learning about myself,
and just seeing with you,

you went backwards with that.
Like...

You know, I just...
That just really hurt.

Rick, she's forgiven you
for your transgressions

in the past.
- Mm-hmm.

Can you forgive her
for what happened here?

Yeah, this is... it's tough.

I gotta be real.

There was a number of bonfires
where it was really disturbing.

I felt, you know,
the hurt of your mate

stepping out on you.

I felt the hurt of being
embarrassed, and it sucked.

It just transformed me
into a different person,

and I don't wanna hold anything
over your head, but...

Do you love me?

Yes.

I do forgive you.

At this point...

I'm willing to...

I wanna leave the island
with you.

Thank you.

For real?

You promise?

You gonna kiss me?

You good?

- Yes.
- You good?

- Yes.
- I'm glad you guys

are meeting each other
for the first time,

and you can leave the island.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

You're welcome, guys.

Take care of each other,
all right?

You still got work to do,
but if you do it together,

it'll be easier.
- We will.

All right. See ya.

You got me nervous there
for a sec.

I'm glad I came
to "Temptation Island."

Um, I passed with flying colors.

- Good for you.
- Can't say the same for you,

but I've forgiven you, so...

So we good now.

I'm so happy.

I was nervous as hell.

I was... I was nervous, too.

I thought I was gonna get mad

and we were gonna argue,
to be honest.

No, I feel like we're taking
a step in the right direction,

and... we'll get there.

I feel like we have
what it takes to last.

I mean, you know, we made it
through "Temptation Island."

But right now we know
we still have work to do.

Can we go celebrate?

I'm gonna face Kate
for the first time

in over a month, and, um,

you know, I'd be lying
if I said I wasn't,

you know, extremely nervous
right now,

um, but this is a conversation
I need to have.

I mean, I am scared that,
you know, when I see her,

I won't be able to say
everything that I wanna say

or that I've been preparing
to say

just because that can totally
go out the window

when I actually see her face.

I don't think that this is
making me as nervous

and emotional
as I thought it was going to.

I know when I see him, I'm gonna
have a different feeling.

But I really feel like
the person I'm gonna see

is not the David

that I came here to save
a relationship with.

I know exactly what I need
to say.

I just need to be strong.
I have, over this time,

let go of how he's made me feel,

and I just need to make sure
that tonight

I don't allow that
to seep back in.

- Hi, Kate.
- Hi.

A little weird to be
sitting here by yourself?

It is.

I know you've had plenty
of chances

to think about this.
- Yeah.

How are you feeling right now?

I know when David comes up here,

I'm probably gonna feel
a certain way, obviously.

But right now I feel
really strong and comfortable

in my own skin
and found this new confidence

and almost this brand-new girl,

um, who's truly ready
to take on the world.

So with that,
are you ready to see David?

I am.

- Okay, let's do that.
I'll bring him in right now.

- Hi, David.
- Hi, Mark.

Welcome back to bonfire.

How's it going?

- Hi.
- Hi.

This is your final bonfire,

and it's a chance
for one of you to speak

and have the other only listen,
right?

And then I'm gonna ask you
for your decision

of what your future would be,
okay?

Okay, Kate.
I'm gonna let you speak first,

and, David, please just listen.

Um, I first want to
thank you for bringing me here.

Um...

because I've learned so much
about myself,

and I feel like I truly
found myself on this island.

I feel like I know
more than ever

exactly what it is that I want,

I know my worth,
and I know what I deserve.

And you've helped me to see
what I don't deserve.

You said when we came
to this island,

"I want to show you
that you can trust me."

And you showed me
the exact opposite.

I had to come here every bonfire

and see that the person
I came here to fight for,

that you weren't holding up
your end of the bargain.

Every word that you said to me
before coming here

just was complete
and utter bullshit.

I deserve someone
that literally...

Their words are followed up
by actions.

I need that, and I deserve that.

You weren't
committed to our relationship.

The things that you did
week after week

that I had to sit and watch

is not somebody committed
to our relationship.

I think you selfishly
and cowardly brought me here

for your own gains
instead of just saying to me,

"This isn't working for me
in my life."

You don't understand the pain
that I had to go through

as I watched you
with multiple people.

I'm the type of girl that
should never, ever,

ever have to see that,

and every man in the house
that I lived with

made it very clear...
Please look at me.

They made it very clear to me,

"You should not be here.

You're not the type of girl
that should be brought here."

But being away from you,

I feel so light,
and I feel so tall,

and I feel so strong,

and I feel so pretty
and confident.

And it's really sad that I had
to be away from you

to understand that.

Okay, Kate.

Um...

First and foremost,
I wanna apologize to you

for bringing you here.

I truly hope that you understand

that I did not bring you here
to embarrass you.

I did not bring you here
to break up with you.

I brought us here
because I wanted us to grow.

And I wanted me to become
the person

that you needed me to be,
and vice versa.

And I feel I can't tell you
how much I've grown.

You just saw me cry,
and throughout the things

that happened through
the course of my experience,

I've cried,
I've felt every single emotion

that a human can feel,

and you know how uncomfortable
that it is for me

to express and to be
an open person.

Most importantly, like,
I've taken this time

to really self-reflect,
and the things

that you had to witness
week after week with bonfire,

like, there are some of
those things

that I truly, truly regret,

and those were just things
that were emotionless,

and I apologize for those,

and I know you, and I know
how much that hurt you.

I know my feelings
don't really matter right now,

but just know that
I felt terrible about that,

and I'm truly sorry.

Well, let me just clear the air.
I don't know what you saw

or what you didn't see
at the bonfire,

but I'll just be completely
honest and own

exactly anything and everything
that I've done here.

Um, at the beginning, I received
lap dances from girls.

I don't know if you saw that.

- No.
- Um, you know, we had a party

that we called
the blackout party.

Everyone, including myself,
we got extremely intoxicated,

and I took a shower
with this girl, Samantha.

And after the shower,
this other girl, Payton,

came into my room, and we
started making out in my bed.

And my relationship with Payton
was strictly on a friend level.

Am I allowed to cut you off?

- You guys can talk. This is...
- I mean...

- Yes.
- You're... You're digging

yourself a hole right now.
- I'm not trying to dig a hole.

I'm trying to be...
- I mean, Payton, this one,

and then now you have feelings

and you're falling in love
with Toneata? Like...

So I'm... So I'm trying
to clear the air.

So some girl sees you
in that behavior...

- Yes.
- And then falls for you?

- So let me just clear the air.
- That's really sad.

- I'm trying to clear the air.
And be open and honest

with you of what happened,

'cause I don't know you saw
or didn't see.

So, again, I kissed...
- I mean, just look...

Look, you don't have to tell
all of America

that you've just
whored yourself out.