Temptation Island (2019–…): Season 1, Episode 7 - Mixed Messages - full transcript
The couples have an opportunity to communicate with their significant others.
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I'm still very upset with John.
He said something about
going bonfire to bonfire,
see what his girlfriend does.
- He's in a really hard spot.
I think it's, like, really
tripping him up,
and he's having a hard time
processing it.
I feel like I've been torn
with this decision on, is,
you know, is John the one for me
or if I'm supposed to be
in this relationship.
And I feel like I kinda know
the answer.
If she cheated on me,
it was the end,
and that looks like she pretty
much cheated on me.
Letting Morgan in has been
so amazing and so great,
but it's going
to rip Kaci's life apart.
I closed my eyes because
I just really need to stay
in a good head space,
so you need to respect the fact
that I cannot watch that video.
I am telling you
I'm gonna walk off.
Walking off. Done.
You're not gonna tempt me.
Hi, guys.
- Hello!
- Good.
It's just a roller coaster.
Like, I just... I'm thinking
of the absolute worst.
Like, I just don't wanna...
I don't wanna lose it
and embarrass my family.
I didn't think it was
gonna go like this.
I don't think you can even
comprehend how hard
this is for me.
Like, I don't think you guys
are really, truly getting
how hard this is for me.
When I watched the clips, like,
I don't even recognize him.
Yeah, I thought it was gonna
be different.
He's getting things
from other girls,
like, one girl, it looks like,
specifically,
and he might be ruining
something
that he's not gonna be able to
get back if he takes it too far.
Well, obviously,
the bonfire tonight
was pretty sobering to me.
It's a little bit of a punch
to the gut and the heart.
I mean, I have no idea what
she's thinking in her head.
I don't know what broke her down
to decide to allow this guy
in her bed.
Ugh. I don't know. It's just...
It's a lot to take in.
Obviously, the video
of my girlfriend was a little
more detailed,
inviting him into her room
and having a little hot tub fun
or whatever.
I don't wanna be
with a weak woman, you know?
She talks about me being, like,
a weak man or a man
that's not alpha enough for her,
and then she goes and does this.
You think I'm weak?
- I don't think you're weak.
I'm just saying
we came in with set rules,
you know? And...
I know. I came in with
set rules, and I broke them.
Hearing you guys talk about it
is just... kinda making me feel
like how you all feel...
I've done it to Kaci, and...
You guys came in with a lot
more of an open situation.
Yeah, man, but we made
the rule, man.
Y'all know that I'm not allowed
to have any girl touch my bed,
and I already broke that.
You know,
after hearing them say,
"How could you let some guy
in your bed?" knowing full well
that they've seen me,
and I've let Morgan in mine,
it's just a bummer, you know?
I'm worried about what
the boys think of me, and, uh,
their opinion is
very, very important to me.
I'm not angry with them. It's
just hard to... hear it.
You're not weak, bro.
You're fighting a temptation
as well as us.
I feel like the weakness
is in your relationship.
Yeah.
- Can I get a hug?
- Yeah.
- You good?
- Yeah, I'm okay.
I have lavender on my hands.
It's calming.
Oh, man.
Um, well, I didn't watch
my clip. I closed my eyes.
- Really?
- Yeah?
I really wanna
enjoy my time here,
and watching the clips just
makes my anxiety really bad.
My clip, like, didn't have
any talking in it,
so I'm just scared, like,
he's already, like,
hooked up... hooked up
with someone.
Like, if he's had sex
with someone,
then I think it's over.
- Oh, yeah, 100%.
It should be that way.
Mark told us we have, like,
a chance to, like, do,
like, a 30-second message
to them that they're gonna see.
Like, I don't even know
what I'm gonna say.
I wouldn't give him nothing.
I'm being dead serious with you.
I wouldn't give him nothing.
- Yeah.
I mean, I know it's hard,
but at some point,
you gotta know when to let go...
- Yeah.
- Or when to put your foot down.
I feel like a lot
of your men believe
that you're gonna
come back home...
- Regardless.
- In the same situation,
and it don't matter
what they do.
It only matters what y'all do.
I don't want you
to underestimate us
as women as well going back to
them and saying it's not okay...
- Mm-hmm.
- And breaking it off.
Like, we're realizing
a lot of shit here.
Mm-hmm.
- Like, that's deep.
- Exactly.
And it's like a big deal for us,
and I'm not gonna be
swayed back in.
Like, I'm learning shit on my
own as an independent person...
- Mm-hmm.
- Without him,
and regardless if I'm
in a relationship or not,
like, I'm glad I'm here
in this experience with people
that have experienced
a level of depth
that I haven't experienced
before.
I'm at that point now where
I'm realizing
all these great qualities
that make me me.
Like, I've realized things,
and I'm gonna take that forward
in my life.
- And I respect that.
- Like, I have to
discover myself and identify
why I am questioning
my relationship
and why I'm not
in that deep, deep love.
I'm not gonna be afraid
to, like, uncover
what I've discovered here.
Yeah.
- Preach.
- So you hanging in there?
You doing all right?
- Yeah, I'm... I'm good, man.
Just hurt, bro.
Um, like I said, I don't know
what happened after that clip,
but you're getting in the bed
with another man.
I... That's... To me, that...
That shows weakness.
We're in the same boat, man.
Like, same thing said
about my girlfriend,
and kinda same action.
Both... both getting into bed.
Me and John... we've had
our ups and downs,
but he's in a very emotional
state right now,
and so I'm not gonna push
anything.
I'm not gonna question anything.
I think right now he needs
someone he can be raw with,
and I think that that's me.
We apparently have the option
of sending a 30-second message
to our girlfriend, so...
Do you know what
you're gonna say yet or...
Yeah, I'm just gonna say,
"Hey, you know..."
It's really
sit... really setting in
of what's happened.
I'm just gonna...
"Hey, I thought we were
strong enough
"to go into this...
and obviously we're not.
And I just hate to
see that you resorted to that."
And, you know, I'm
just gonna kinda spill my heart.
- We'll make it outta here, man.
We will make it outta here.
- Oh, shit. Man.
- It's tough.
- I know.
- It's tough.
Thanks for being there for me.
Of course. Always.
John deserves a good woman.
I've said it a million times.
I don't think he deserves
the treatment that he's getting
from the other end,
and I'm actually really glad
that I can be here for John
during this time
that he's very emotional
to help him cope
and help him heal
through this process.
I wish I could say something
that would, like,
make it all better.
I'm so sorry, John.
- So you feeling okay?
- I don't know.
Obviously, me and John saw
some things we didn't wanna see.
- Right.
Having that clip in my head
of Nicole getting in bed
with somebody has affected me.
As much as
I wanna get rid of that,
I can't stop thinking about it.
I mean, Brittney came up there,
and we have to pass my bed
to get to the balcony.
She asked could
she stay up there.
I was like, "Uh, no, that's
not a... I'm not ready for that."
So I'll just say, 'cause, like,
I'm really close with Brittney.
I think it's gonna be
really important for you
to explain to her that
if something happens
between you two,
it's not out of, like...
- Spite?
- Spite.
- Yeah... Yeah.
Because she's afraid of that.
- Yeah.
It's gonna get more difficult,
and me and Brittney have had
a hell of a connection,
but I'm still thinking
about Nicole.
She has not left my mind
from the day I got here.
The devil's saying, "Do this."
My angel's saying,
"Relax. Just chill out.
You're good. Don't do it."
I chose to go on a date
today with Johnny.
He's the person I have the most
connection with in the house.
It takes a lot for somebody
to turn my head,
for somebody to kinda make
my heart flutter.
I never thought
in a million years
that I'd find somebody
that I have
a genuine, true connection with
that gives me the feels.
I mean, you just make me feel,
like, really alive...
- Good.
- And giddy and good
and happy and warm and fuzzy.
It's just... I feel like I pray
for somebody like you every day.
Um... I'm here, and it's like,
really?
I've been praying for answers
for months.
- Yeah.
- And it's crazy
that it happened here, too.
Kady and I have been meshing
well since the start,
and I think that I show her
the excitement
that she's been missing.
I bring out a side of her that
she knew was there all along,
uh, but she hasn't felt
in a relationship,
I don't think ever.
Give me a kiss.
- I'll take that.
- Mm-hmm.
Yeah, I'm all right.
Erica's a nice, sweet girl.
I took her on a date early on.
We went ziplining,
and that was amazing.
So I'm gonna take her
on my second date with her
and get to know her
a little better.
I've never had
a fresh pineapple.
- A fresh pineapple?
- Whoa, I'm so sorry.
- Oh, my God.
- Wow, a fresh coconut.
Are you okay? Is the sun,
like, hitting you too hard?
- Erica does impress me.
She has a little spice to her.
She's Latin, and she has
a little attitude, I've noticed.
She's kinda a little feisty
in her own little way,
and those are kinds of some
things that I do like in women.
I've been seeing you
a little bit in the kitchen,
kinda watch your little face
in the background,
like, little mugging a bit
sometimes, or...
- What?
- I've been seeing you.
- No.
- You do have, like,
a little mug.
I don't know what for...
What is a mug? What is that?
You're like... I'm like,
ooh, I seen that.
- Wait. Did I really?
- Yeah.
I am starting to, like, focus
more on one or two people.
And so this is getting
a lot more serious for me.
I don't wanna walk away
from the experience
having any regrets. Who knows
where this thing will go?
Maybe I was looking
at myself in the oven.
Oh, my gosh.
- Mahalo!
- Thank you. You, too.
- Mahalo.
- I'm glad I picked Justin
because I feel like we both have
an issue
with opening up to people,
so he pushes me to open up more,
and we're a lot more similar
than I thought initially.
I know at first when I came
into this initially,
I was like, "No, you can't have
friends with the opposite sex."
Like, but now I feel like
that's, like, immature.
But I feel like you're like that
because he made you like that.
- Yeah.
- You know what I'm saying?
It comes to a certain point
where you learn that
when you really
can't control somebody,
you wanna let them go.
- Yeah.
Like, if you love something,
you let it be. You let it go.
- Yeah.
- And if it's meant to be,
it's meant to be.
I'm becoming my own woman,
and a part of that
is a little fearful for me
personally because
I just don't wanna go
too far off the deep end
and not be able to come back,
and that's one of my fears.
If something happened,
I definitely will want you
to reach out.
- Yeah.
So that's where I'm at.
He's probably making friends
and connections with people,
too,
so I don't really see why
that would be a problem.
This is my third date
with Tyler.
I think he's really pulling out
a side of me that
isn't necessarily current
in my relationship.
I know that's pretty deep,
but, it's, like, refreshing
to not be judged and really
just kind of, like, be free.
If you were to go home
tomorrow, right,
what would be the biggest thing
you took out
of this whole experience?
I just feel like I've been
trying to figure out how to do
a relationship
for the last couple years,
and, like, I've been doing it,
but I feel like
I've just been doing it
to one person's standards,
and I feel like
I'm figuring out,
like, different perspectives
on how much to compromise
and how much to be myself.
Well, this is amazing.
Whoo! Look at this.
Look at this! Look at this!
Luna's the perfect guy to pick
for this date because
I'm definitely struggling with,
like, getting in my head.
He helps me, like, really get
some good perspective.
He makes me laugh.
He gets me out of my funk.
All the girls, like, freaked me
out, 'cause they're always
talking about, like,
"It's a frat house over there.
Like, there's no way
it's like our house,"
and I'm just like,
"Don't tell me that."
Like, you know,
that's the reality, though.
- I know. Yeah.
- And to be honest, like,
we're human beings.
- I feel like if it's
hard for us, it's hard for them.
- Exactly.
I just came into this
so frustrated with Evan.
I was really really oblivious
to the amount of anger
that I still have with him.
I wish I could take it back.
Like, I made mistakes, too,
and I could treat him
a lot better.
I wanna, like, hold his hand,
and make out with him and, like,
I just wanna let the past go.
You're not gonna fall out of
love with someone in two weeks.
I'm pretty sure he's still
entirely in love with you.
Thank you.
I never expected
in a million years
I'd meet a girl like you here.
I really, really care
about you a lot,
and I wasn't expecting it
at all.
I thought I was gonna come
here and be tempted and maybe
realize that I just wasn't
supposed to be with Kaci,
not actually meet the person
that I might wanna be with
forever.
I'm gonna give everything
that I have,
even if I have reservations
because it seems right,
and that's never happened
before,
so I'm just going with it
and seeing what happens.
Might get hurt. Might not.
Morgan, all I want is you, girl.
All I want.
It's me and you.
I definitely needed
to get out here
to relax after the last bonfire.
- You're a good man.
- You think so?
- You deserve someone good.
- I appreciate that.
It's true.
I appreciate that.
I feel great with Brittney.
She's supported me through
my emotions,
what I was dealing with,
with my past bonfire.
A date like this is absolutely
what I needed.
I'm just kind of worried
about you, though,
like, 'cause I think it could
get worse.
It could get worse,
but that might get me...
That might be like a release
for me as well
to be like, "All right..."
- Yeah, it's perfect.
- Yeah. Tell me why.
Tell me more.
- You already know.
I feel super connected to you.
It's so crazy.
- It's so weird.
- Yeah. I mean,
I am a firm believer
in what happens is, you know,
what's meant to be.
I'm the type of person
that needs physical touch,
so I'm trying very hard, like,
to just stay a faithful guy,
to be 100% honest.
It's tough.
This might be the best date
I've ever been on.
I'm really happy.
You make me feel
like such a creep.
- Man, you ain't shit.
Jack's on that shit, boy.
- Who won?
- I did.
Do you know that me and Kady...
- What do we do?
- Are the longest to get ready?
Kady knows.
Is everybody else, like,
chillin'?
All right, you need a pillow
or are you good?
I can definitely tell
at this point
that Tyler likes me.
I didn't expect to come here
and kind of reciprocate
that action,
but we do have
a strong connection,
and it just makes me realize
that you really just have to go
with your gut and, like,
with your heart
to really figure out
what your next move is.
I just feel like coming
into this, I was just, like,
yes, I'm in a relationship,
but seeing Kaci,
I'm like, damn,
I didn't know that anybody
could even be in love
to that depth,
and I just, like,
I wanna feel that someday.
But you should, like, still
always feel those butterflies.
Like, you should always, like...
Those should just not go away,
and if they do,
that's... that's... you know, like,
you should feel special
every... day.
If you're not being treated the
way you deserve to be treated,
don't make excuses
for the reason
you're not being treated
those ways.
Do you know what I'm saying?
- Yeah.
Are you good?
- Yeah. I'm... I'm clean.
I'm solid. I'm good.
You are solid.
Shari, your ass in those
pants, I just can't even!
I just can't even, girl.
- Love you!
- I love you.
I'm at a point where
I finally feel like
I'm able to be myself,
and it feels good.
I'm getting to know everyone,
and I wanna get to know everyone
in the house,
but at the same time,
I definitely feel like
me and Justin have
a lot more similarities
than we both realized.
I mean, in general,
this whole situation
it just, like, a lot.
It's not that
it's necessarily wrong.
It's just that I just don't want
you to feel forced
because you're
in this situation. I don't know.
Out of everybody here,
you think I'm forcing it?
If you met me
outside of this situation,
you feel like you would still
connect with me?
- You're smart. You're loyal.
You're all these things
that makes me think
you're strong enough
to figure the situation out.
I'm okay with having faith.
- Yeah.
- You know what I'm saying?
- Yeah.
- So...
That's what it comes down to.
I definitely have feelings
for Shari.
It's tough for me to try
and get to know someone
who's already in a relationship,
but it's a chase,
and I like something
that's not easy to get.
I feel like anything worth it
isn't gonna be easy,
and that is attractive to me.
Stop walking around like that.
- Like what?
Already controlling?
- No, you struttin'.
- Literally, this is how I walk.
Strut, strut, strut.
This will be
an interesting match.
Look how cute he is, sleeping.
Javen, you're cute
when you sleep.
- Can I scoop in?
- Yeah, you can scoop in.
- I missed you.
- Did you now?
- I did.
- Good.
- What was your favorite date?
I know what hers is.
My favorite date, easy,
was zipline.
Ohh. This is
your first disagreement.
Which date was it that you
started falling in love?
- Wow. You thirsty?
I'm gonna get a beer.
Hey, Mark?
Give me some brotherly advice.
- What's going on?
- We're talking about John.
Do you think that she should
keep her distance
or try and talk to him?
John's girlfriend was
in the bed with someone else,
and I think I need to understand
where he's coming from more,
because right now there's
potential for me with John.
I'm gonna tell you right now
that John's turned off
to every single emotion
right now.
That's why I've given him
complete and total space.
Yeah, he maybe... he slept
about 45 minutes last night.
You know, the, uh,
the video messages
that we're... we're allowed
to send to our girlfriends?
What he can say in 30 seconds...
- Wait, what?
You guys have something
that you say to them?
How does it go?
- We have the option
to send a 30-second message
and let them know, you know,
what you're feeling
or what you want them...
Just anything, you know?
You got 30 seconds.
When did you guys do it?
I'm not doing it.
He did not send her a message
telling her that it's over.
He is scared to pull
the trigger.
That bothers me. That is going
to make it to where
I'm not gonna fully,
fully believe him.
I'm not sending a message.
So you have the option
to or not to?
- Uh-huh. The three boys did.
I'm not.
- Hello there.
- Hey.
- I'm tired.
Just wanna lay with you.
- You have a good time?
- Horrible time.
- Terrible.
- The worst date I've ever had.
It just feels really
synchronistic with Karl.
The draw is so powerful
and so supercharged,
but to be honest,
a connection that powerful
actually scares me,
because the last time I felt it,
I had
my heart absolutely shredded,
and the guy
that I was in love with
chose another woman.
I think we should just go
sleep upstairs.
- We'll wait here.
- Innocently.
- What?
- Just sleep.
- Where?
- In your bed.
Just come get in my bunk
with me.
This is gonna be a challenge,
though,
not being able to, like,
touch you.
Let's go
to bed, then. We'll go to sleep.
Are you sure?
- About what?
I'm not sure about anything.
Brittney and I are sharing
a connection right now,
but it's a major struggle
knowing in the back of my head
that I do have a girlfriend.
She's been patient
and understanding,
but she's letting me know also
it's very tough
because she feels
a strong connection,
and as do I.
Okay.
Okay.
I can't wait to have that
one-on-one with Kady and just...
- What is it gonna change?
What is she gonna...
It's not gonna change
anything, basically.
I'm finally opening my eyes
to that
and realizing that she's been
manipulating me
over the course of us dating
and has made me really feel
like everything is my fault.
- I know. This is hard.
This is really hard.
And, like, I'm thankful
for you opening up to me.
It just makes me feel
like I can get closer to you
and trust you more.
Every day it's like John gets
more and more attractive to me.
I don't believe
in his relationship.
I believe in John.
It's just like,
are you willing to let go
of what's holding you back?
I'm ready to find somebody
that I'm really looking
to settle down with.
I'm looking for
an emotional connection first,
and obviously,
I'm attracted to you.
What do you think?
What is it, after every storm,
there's a rainbow?
I wanna see where your head at
before another night go by.
I guess I'm getting to the point
where, like,
this shit matters to me.
- Mm-hmm.
Kady is definitely
the only person
that I have
a romantic connection with,
but I think
over the past few days,
from Johnny and Kady, you know,
obviously getting
a little closer,
she's gravitating towards him
a lot more,
but I'm still in the game,
and I'm not going nowhere.
Looking at it
from a selfish point of view...
- Mm-hmm.
- This is my life.
- Yeah.
- And so for us, this is...
Stakes are high.
I want you to respect, like,
what I have going on
with Johnny.
I respect it enough. I know...
Yeah.
I think that Johnny and Wynn
handle the situation
with me being in the middle,
um, differently.
They're cool, but there maybe is
a little underlying tension.
Is Wynn good? You guys good?
Yeah, I mean, I just had to
redirect for the seventh time.
I'm... I'm here
with the limited time with you.
All right.
I'm pretty tired, but I should
probably go to bed.
I don't really care if
the guys wanna try to date her
and make their... their run
on her.
I mean, for me, it doesn't
really matter. I just...
I know at the end of the night
that her and I are together.
At this point, her and I have
something pretty real,
and it's probably
the best connection
out of anybody here.
Come in!
- It's Wynn.
- Hey.
What's happening?
- Wynn, what the...?
- You got a minute?
- Yeah. Wanna talk?
- Not even.
What's up?
I'll just talk it over
with Kady for a minute.
- What's going on?
- He said
he just wanna holler at me
for a minute.
I think it's really creepy
and weird that
if a grown man
is in bed with a woman
that you would knock on the door
and come into her bedroom,
and I was raised
a little bit better than that.
But, um, you know,
I think at this point,
it's just a desperation shot.
I don't know why I feel
obligated to come check on you.
He spent the night here
last night,
and nothing happened, and, like,
he didn't even try to make
a move,
which I find really respectful
and respectable.
I almost feel like he's making
it a point to make a scene
to come to the door, um,
to "warn me" about Johnny.
He could have warned me
about him
when we had a conversation
an hour ago, and he didn't.
Good night.
- What the... was that?
Yeah, he's just trying
to step it up and all that.
Just ignore him.
Yep.
I think Karl brought me here
to really test me,
and I'm very anxious to see
what the message is.
We all have the urge to
communicate with our boyfriends.
I'm really just curious
about how his entire experience
is going over on the island.
Hey, what's up, babe? I just
wanted to check in quick.
First off, I love you
and I miss you.
This experience has been crazy
and fun at the same time.
I'm a little disappointed,
um, kinda hurt
by some things I've seen,
but that doesn't change
how much I do care about you
and love you.
I figure we can meet
at the end of this thing
and figure out
what our next direction is.
I love you.
Keep having fun over there,
and, uh,
dive into this experience.
I thought his message would be
more, like, self-reflecting
instead of judging.
I feel like being here
has really taught me a lot
just about myself,
and I don't know if he can
really understand
what I've been going through.
I mean, he brought me here
to test me in our relationship,
but this is honestly just
a test to myself
to really, like, pull me back
into myself
so I can allow my heart and soul
to go out to other people
in the world.
Seeing Nicole be in bed
with someone else...
It's in the back of my mind.
I'm real tense,
and I'm just like,
all right,
what is going on here?
I'm not sure if she thinks
everything is all good or what,
but I wanna just see her face,
see her smile,
and see where we're truly at
with each other.
I really wasn't expecting
to come into this experience,
but I'm really glad
that we did because
it's making me realize
that our relationship
through the last two years
has really been surface level,
and these men and women here
have made me realize
that there's
a whole new level of depth
that we can really uncover
in our relationship,
so I'm not sure where you're at
and how your experience
is really going,
but I'm excited to get home
and really, you know,
open my heart and soul to you
and, you know, figure out
if we can communicate that back
with one another. I love you.
I've been in relationships
where they have been,
you know, just had more
substance to them,
so I'm aware that it can be
a lot more deep,
and it has seemed
very surface level for me,
so I feel as if, you know,
that's something that
should've came out of my mouth
to her.
Today's a big day.
Part of me,
like, wants to see him,
and, like, wants to hear
his voice,
and I want him to explain to me
what's going on,
and then part of me, like,
I just wanna get through this,
and I don't know if seeing it
will help me get through this.
I knew it.
My God.
I'm not gonna lie.
Like, I'm a little bit hurt
that there's nothing in there,
but I think when he sees
the message I left for him,
I don't know what he's seen
in these clips, but he probably
thinks I'm having fun,
and I think it's gonna get real
for him...
and I think
he's gonna get emotional.
I'm the only one of us that
didn't send video message.
I don't wanna hurt Kaci,
and I can't help but feel,
you know, every single emotion
from, you know, happiness
to absolute despair.
I respect her too much to try
and tell her in 30 seconds.
Even though
we may love each other
doesn't mean that we're supposed
to be together forever.
Hi, babers. I love you.
I really, really miss you.
I'm having fun. I think
you'd be so proud of me.
Just be the man
I know you wanna be,
'cause I'm seeing the old Evan,
and I know that's not
who you are,
and I know you wanna
make me proud,
so just please do that,
'cause I don't want you
to have to give up on me
and give up on us.
I just could see it in her eyes
that poor girl's hurting so bad.
I'm hurting the person
that I've cared about the most
for so long.
I know I'm gonna break Kaci.
She doesn't deserve this.
I've been here for... I've shared
my entire life with her.
And not having Kaci here
every day with me,
I've realized what
we've been through together
and why we're so close-knit,
why we've stuck together.
- I miss Kaci so bad.
- I really do.
, man, am I a scumbag.
I hope Javen left me
a video message.
I mean, I can't imagine him not,
but I'm just curious
to see where his head is at
and if he feels like
he's grown so far
in this experience.
My mind's just racing,
and I just wanna know.
Hey, baby girl,
hope all is well.
Hopefully, you're hanging
on there on the other side.
Hope you're genuinely doing
connections organically
and getting to know people.
I'm enjoying my experience.
I'm getting to know people.
I'm developing as a man
apart from you.
I'm learning a lot about myself
I hope you're learning a lot
about yourself.
Hopefully,
at the end of the day,
we can come together, connect,
you know,
and just to share
our experiences.
Miss you, obviously.
Think about you every night.
And, you know, make sure
you're having fun.
Loosen up a bit.
I'm loosening up as well.
And keep me in mind.
Javen looks like
he's in a good head space,
and he's doing good,
and I'm proud
that he's doing good.
We're both learning to be
open-minded
and more accepting
of relationships
outside of each other.
It's okay, and I'm glad that
we're both kind of having
that growth.
Hopefully, my girlfriend's
having a great time.
I can't wait to see that message
from baby girl.
She's beautiful, everything
I asked for, you know.
I wanna see her come out as
the best woman she can be,
and I wanna come out as
the best man I can be,
whether we're together or not.
Hi, my love.
I just wanna say that I love
and miss you so much.
I feel like I've grown.
I've become stronger
and more grounded, and I just
wanna let you know that
you're strong, too,
and I hope that you've grown
in a positive way.
I'm interested to see
where we go from here,
and I love you
to the moon and back,
and I can't wait to see you.
That was nice.
Baby girl...
She's beautiful as ever.
She said, you know, "I love you
to the moon and back."
It's something she always
says to me.
I'm glad to see her smiling.
She looks positive.
She looks happy. Yeah.
I love you, baby girl.
I love you. I truly do.
I'm really nervous. I'm not
sure what John's gonna say.
I don't know
where his head's at.
I'm sure that there are things
that he's seeing
that are hurting him.
I'm really curious and nervous
to see
if he's even sent me a message.
Oh, good.
Shit.
- Hey, Kady. I love you, babe.
I miss you so much.
I think this is something
we didn't realize
we should've signed up for,
at least for my part.
I saw some bonfire video that
I was very disappointed to see,
and I'm very upset by that.
And it
really hurts me to see that,
and, uh, you might have been
triggered by some bonfire video
that you've seen of me.
I've tried to maintain
my loyalty to you,
faithfulness to you,
and, um, that's just all
I wanna tell you right now.
I don't want him to hurt,
and I don't want
to break his heart,
and I feel like
I did disrespect him.
I feel bad, and I feel like
I've made a mistake.
I don't know.
I'm confused.
I sent Kady
a really heartfelt message
so I'm not sure
if she's feeling bad
or if she just is completely
done with me or what,
but I have no clue
what's gonna happen,
if we're gonna be able
to stay together
with all this that's going on
or if we're gonna
go on our separate ways.
So, yeah, it was really tough
not to get a video message
from Kady.
I came here thinking
we were so strong
and we're gonna
get through this together.
I even was gonna propose to Kady
if she could get through this
with loyalty and respect,
and that obviously
didn't happen.
Yeah, I didn't get one.
I didn't get a video from Kady.
- That's tough, bro.
- Yeah. It's tough.
So, you know, I was thinking
three options.
She's feeling too guilty
to send me one.
She is angry at me
for something,
like, that she saw,
or she likes this dude
that was in the last clip.
- Right.
- Or she's just realizing
she don't wanna be with me,
you know?
That shit pisses me off.
I'm... I'm sorry. Like,
it's not my relationship.
That's not my girl,
but that shit...
I think you'll...
You're a good dude, bro.
It's like, is she even
thinking about the big picture?
Like, the fact that...
- Right.
She's gonna have
to move out of my house.
This guy lives in New York,
like,
and if she can really fall
in love,
like, in this short amount of
time that we've been here, man,
that's just telling me a lot
about how she is.
Evan, you all right?
Man, my, uh...
my clip was not hot, man.
Um...
She's crying, man.
You know, just saying
she's seen some things
and she's seeing the old Ev,
basically, and, uh,
but telling me that I'd be
proud of her
on how she's conducting herself.
I don't wanna be no monster.
I just don't know, man.
I don't know, man.
I feel like I'm just a scumbag
both ways, bruh.
I'm all twisted, man.
I feel like I'm just...
just... up.
I'm still very upset with John.
He said something about
going bonfire to bonfire,
see what his girlfriend does.
- He's in a really hard spot.
I think it's, like, really
tripping him up,
and he's having a hard time
processing it.
I feel like I've been torn
with this decision on, is,
you know, is John the one for me
or if I'm supposed to be
in this relationship.
And I feel like I kinda know
the answer.
If she cheated on me,
it was the end,
and that looks like she pretty
much cheated on me.
Letting Morgan in has been
so amazing and so great,
but it's going
to rip Kaci's life apart.
I closed my eyes because
I just really need to stay
in a good head space,
so you need to respect the fact
that I cannot watch that video.
I am telling you
I'm gonna walk off.
Walking off. Done.
You're not gonna tempt me.
Hi, guys.
- Hello!
- Good.
It's just a roller coaster.
Like, I just... I'm thinking
of the absolute worst.
Like, I just don't wanna...
I don't wanna lose it
and embarrass my family.
I didn't think it was
gonna go like this.
I don't think you can even
comprehend how hard
this is for me.
Like, I don't think you guys
are really, truly getting
how hard this is for me.
When I watched the clips, like,
I don't even recognize him.
Yeah, I thought it was gonna
be different.
He's getting things
from other girls,
like, one girl, it looks like,
specifically,
and he might be ruining
something
that he's not gonna be able to
get back if he takes it too far.
Well, obviously,
the bonfire tonight
was pretty sobering to me.
It's a little bit of a punch
to the gut and the heart.
I mean, I have no idea what
she's thinking in her head.
I don't know what broke her down
to decide to allow this guy
in her bed.
Ugh. I don't know. It's just...
It's a lot to take in.
Obviously, the video
of my girlfriend was a little
more detailed,
inviting him into her room
and having a little hot tub fun
or whatever.
I don't wanna be
with a weak woman, you know?
She talks about me being, like,
a weak man or a man
that's not alpha enough for her,
and then she goes and does this.
You think I'm weak?
- I don't think you're weak.
I'm just saying
we came in with set rules,
you know? And...
I know. I came in with
set rules, and I broke them.
Hearing you guys talk about it
is just... kinda making me feel
like how you all feel...
I've done it to Kaci, and...
You guys came in with a lot
more of an open situation.
Yeah, man, but we made
the rule, man.
Y'all know that I'm not allowed
to have any girl touch my bed,
and I already broke that.
You know,
after hearing them say,
"How could you let some guy
in your bed?" knowing full well
that they've seen me,
and I've let Morgan in mine,
it's just a bummer, you know?
I'm worried about what
the boys think of me, and, uh,
their opinion is
very, very important to me.
I'm not angry with them. It's
just hard to... hear it.
You're not weak, bro.
You're fighting a temptation
as well as us.
I feel like the weakness
is in your relationship.
Yeah.
- Can I get a hug?
- Yeah.
- You good?
- Yeah, I'm okay.
I have lavender on my hands.
It's calming.
Oh, man.
Um, well, I didn't watch
my clip. I closed my eyes.
- Really?
- Yeah?
I really wanna
enjoy my time here,
and watching the clips just
makes my anxiety really bad.
My clip, like, didn't have
any talking in it,
so I'm just scared, like,
he's already, like,
hooked up... hooked up
with someone.
Like, if he's had sex
with someone,
then I think it's over.
- Oh, yeah, 100%.
It should be that way.
Mark told us we have, like,
a chance to, like, do,
like, a 30-second message
to them that they're gonna see.
Like, I don't even know
what I'm gonna say.
I wouldn't give him nothing.
I'm being dead serious with you.
I wouldn't give him nothing.
- Yeah.
I mean, I know it's hard,
but at some point,
you gotta know when to let go...
- Yeah.
- Or when to put your foot down.
I feel like a lot
of your men believe
that you're gonna
come back home...
- Regardless.
- In the same situation,
and it don't matter
what they do.
It only matters what y'all do.
I don't want you
to underestimate us
as women as well going back to
them and saying it's not okay...
- Mm-hmm.
- And breaking it off.
Like, we're realizing
a lot of shit here.
Mm-hmm.
- Like, that's deep.
- Exactly.
And it's like a big deal for us,
and I'm not gonna be
swayed back in.
Like, I'm learning shit on my
own as an independent person...
- Mm-hmm.
- Without him,
and regardless if I'm
in a relationship or not,
like, I'm glad I'm here
in this experience with people
that have experienced
a level of depth
that I haven't experienced
before.
I'm at that point now where
I'm realizing
all these great qualities
that make me me.
Like, I've realized things,
and I'm gonna take that forward
in my life.
- And I respect that.
- Like, I have to
discover myself and identify
why I am questioning
my relationship
and why I'm not
in that deep, deep love.
I'm not gonna be afraid
to, like, uncover
what I've discovered here.
Yeah.
- Preach.
- So you hanging in there?
You doing all right?
- Yeah, I'm... I'm good, man.
Just hurt, bro.
Um, like I said, I don't know
what happened after that clip,
but you're getting in the bed
with another man.
I... That's... To me, that...
That shows weakness.
We're in the same boat, man.
Like, same thing said
about my girlfriend,
and kinda same action.
Both... both getting into bed.
Me and John... we've had
our ups and downs,
but he's in a very emotional
state right now,
and so I'm not gonna push
anything.
I'm not gonna question anything.
I think right now he needs
someone he can be raw with,
and I think that that's me.
We apparently have the option
of sending a 30-second message
to our girlfriend, so...
Do you know what
you're gonna say yet or...
Yeah, I'm just gonna say,
"Hey, you know..."
It's really
sit... really setting in
of what's happened.
I'm just gonna...
"Hey, I thought we were
strong enough
"to go into this...
and obviously we're not.
And I just hate to
see that you resorted to that."
And, you know, I'm
just gonna kinda spill my heart.
- We'll make it outta here, man.
We will make it outta here.
- Oh, shit. Man.
- It's tough.
- I know.
- It's tough.
Thanks for being there for me.
Of course. Always.
John deserves a good woman.
I've said it a million times.
I don't think he deserves
the treatment that he's getting
from the other end,
and I'm actually really glad
that I can be here for John
during this time
that he's very emotional
to help him cope
and help him heal
through this process.
I wish I could say something
that would, like,
make it all better.
I'm so sorry, John.
- So you feeling okay?
- I don't know.
Obviously, me and John saw
some things we didn't wanna see.
- Right.
Having that clip in my head
of Nicole getting in bed
with somebody has affected me.
As much as
I wanna get rid of that,
I can't stop thinking about it.
I mean, Brittney came up there,
and we have to pass my bed
to get to the balcony.
She asked could
she stay up there.
I was like, "Uh, no, that's
not a... I'm not ready for that."
So I'll just say, 'cause, like,
I'm really close with Brittney.
I think it's gonna be
really important for you
to explain to her that
if something happens
between you two,
it's not out of, like...
- Spite?
- Spite.
- Yeah... Yeah.
Because she's afraid of that.
- Yeah.
It's gonna get more difficult,
and me and Brittney have had
a hell of a connection,
but I'm still thinking
about Nicole.
She has not left my mind
from the day I got here.
The devil's saying, "Do this."
My angel's saying,
"Relax. Just chill out.
You're good. Don't do it."
I chose to go on a date
today with Johnny.
He's the person I have the most
connection with in the house.
It takes a lot for somebody
to turn my head,
for somebody to kinda make
my heart flutter.
I never thought
in a million years
that I'd find somebody
that I have
a genuine, true connection with
that gives me the feels.
I mean, you just make me feel,
like, really alive...
- Good.
- And giddy and good
and happy and warm and fuzzy.
It's just... I feel like I pray
for somebody like you every day.
Um... I'm here, and it's like,
really?
I've been praying for answers
for months.
- Yeah.
- And it's crazy
that it happened here, too.
Kady and I have been meshing
well since the start,
and I think that I show her
the excitement
that she's been missing.
I bring out a side of her that
she knew was there all along,
uh, but she hasn't felt
in a relationship,
I don't think ever.
Give me a kiss.
- I'll take that.
- Mm-hmm.
Yeah, I'm all right.
Erica's a nice, sweet girl.
I took her on a date early on.
We went ziplining,
and that was amazing.
So I'm gonna take her
on my second date with her
and get to know her
a little better.
I've never had
a fresh pineapple.
- A fresh pineapple?
- Whoa, I'm so sorry.
- Oh, my God.
- Wow, a fresh coconut.
Are you okay? Is the sun,
like, hitting you too hard?
- Erica does impress me.
She has a little spice to her.
She's Latin, and she has
a little attitude, I've noticed.
She's kinda a little feisty
in her own little way,
and those are kinds of some
things that I do like in women.
I've been seeing you
a little bit in the kitchen,
kinda watch your little face
in the background,
like, little mugging a bit
sometimes, or...
- What?
- I've been seeing you.
- No.
- You do have, like,
a little mug.
I don't know what for...
What is a mug? What is that?
You're like... I'm like,
ooh, I seen that.
- Wait. Did I really?
- Yeah.
I am starting to, like, focus
more on one or two people.
And so this is getting
a lot more serious for me.
I don't wanna walk away
from the experience
having any regrets. Who knows
where this thing will go?
Maybe I was looking
at myself in the oven.
Oh, my gosh.
- Mahalo!
- Thank you. You, too.
- Mahalo.
- I'm glad I picked Justin
because I feel like we both have
an issue
with opening up to people,
so he pushes me to open up more,
and we're a lot more similar
than I thought initially.
I know at first when I came
into this initially,
I was like, "No, you can't have
friends with the opposite sex."
Like, but now I feel like
that's, like, immature.
But I feel like you're like that
because he made you like that.
- Yeah.
- You know what I'm saying?
It comes to a certain point
where you learn that
when you really
can't control somebody,
you wanna let them go.
- Yeah.
Like, if you love something,
you let it be. You let it go.
- Yeah.
- And if it's meant to be,
it's meant to be.
I'm becoming my own woman,
and a part of that
is a little fearful for me
personally because
I just don't wanna go
too far off the deep end
and not be able to come back,
and that's one of my fears.
If something happened,
I definitely will want you
to reach out.
- Yeah.
So that's where I'm at.
He's probably making friends
and connections with people,
too,
so I don't really see why
that would be a problem.
This is my third date
with Tyler.
I think he's really pulling out
a side of me that
isn't necessarily current
in my relationship.
I know that's pretty deep,
but, it's, like, refreshing
to not be judged and really
just kind of, like, be free.
If you were to go home
tomorrow, right,
what would be the biggest thing
you took out
of this whole experience?
I just feel like I've been
trying to figure out how to do
a relationship
for the last couple years,
and, like, I've been doing it,
but I feel like
I've just been doing it
to one person's standards,
and I feel like
I'm figuring out,
like, different perspectives
on how much to compromise
and how much to be myself.
Well, this is amazing.
Whoo! Look at this.
Look at this! Look at this!
Luna's the perfect guy to pick
for this date because
I'm definitely struggling with,
like, getting in my head.
He helps me, like, really get
some good perspective.
He makes me laugh.
He gets me out of my funk.
All the girls, like, freaked me
out, 'cause they're always
talking about, like,
"It's a frat house over there.
Like, there's no way
it's like our house,"
and I'm just like,
"Don't tell me that."
Like, you know,
that's the reality, though.
- I know. Yeah.
- And to be honest, like,
we're human beings.
- I feel like if it's
hard for us, it's hard for them.
- Exactly.
I just came into this
so frustrated with Evan.
I was really really oblivious
to the amount of anger
that I still have with him.
I wish I could take it back.
Like, I made mistakes, too,
and I could treat him
a lot better.
I wanna, like, hold his hand,
and make out with him and, like,
I just wanna let the past go.
You're not gonna fall out of
love with someone in two weeks.
I'm pretty sure he's still
entirely in love with you.
Thank you.
I never expected
in a million years
I'd meet a girl like you here.
I really, really care
about you a lot,
and I wasn't expecting it
at all.
I thought I was gonna come
here and be tempted and maybe
realize that I just wasn't
supposed to be with Kaci,
not actually meet the person
that I might wanna be with
forever.
I'm gonna give everything
that I have,
even if I have reservations
because it seems right,
and that's never happened
before,
so I'm just going with it
and seeing what happens.
Might get hurt. Might not.
Morgan, all I want is you, girl.
All I want.
It's me and you.
I definitely needed
to get out here
to relax after the last bonfire.
- You're a good man.
- You think so?
- You deserve someone good.
- I appreciate that.
It's true.
I appreciate that.
I feel great with Brittney.
She's supported me through
my emotions,
what I was dealing with,
with my past bonfire.
A date like this is absolutely
what I needed.
I'm just kind of worried
about you, though,
like, 'cause I think it could
get worse.
It could get worse,
but that might get me...
That might be like a release
for me as well
to be like, "All right..."
- Yeah, it's perfect.
- Yeah. Tell me why.
Tell me more.
- You already know.
I feel super connected to you.
It's so crazy.
- It's so weird.
- Yeah. I mean,
I am a firm believer
in what happens is, you know,
what's meant to be.
I'm the type of person
that needs physical touch,
so I'm trying very hard, like,
to just stay a faithful guy,
to be 100% honest.
It's tough.
This might be the best date
I've ever been on.
I'm really happy.
You make me feel
like such a creep.
- Man, you ain't shit.
Jack's on that shit, boy.
- Who won?
- I did.
Do you know that me and Kady...
- What do we do?
- Are the longest to get ready?
Kady knows.
Is everybody else, like,
chillin'?
All right, you need a pillow
or are you good?
I can definitely tell
at this point
that Tyler likes me.
I didn't expect to come here
and kind of reciprocate
that action,
but we do have
a strong connection,
and it just makes me realize
that you really just have to go
with your gut and, like,
with your heart
to really figure out
what your next move is.
I just feel like coming
into this, I was just, like,
yes, I'm in a relationship,
but seeing Kaci,
I'm like, damn,
I didn't know that anybody
could even be in love
to that depth,
and I just, like,
I wanna feel that someday.
But you should, like, still
always feel those butterflies.
Like, you should always, like...
Those should just not go away,
and if they do,
that's... that's... you know, like,
you should feel special
every... day.
If you're not being treated the
way you deserve to be treated,
don't make excuses
for the reason
you're not being treated
those ways.
Do you know what I'm saying?
- Yeah.
Are you good?
- Yeah. I'm... I'm clean.
I'm solid. I'm good.
You are solid.
Shari, your ass in those
pants, I just can't even!
I just can't even, girl.
- Love you!
- I love you.
I'm at a point where
I finally feel like
I'm able to be myself,
and it feels good.
I'm getting to know everyone,
and I wanna get to know everyone
in the house,
but at the same time,
I definitely feel like
me and Justin have
a lot more similarities
than we both realized.
I mean, in general,
this whole situation
it just, like, a lot.
It's not that
it's necessarily wrong.
It's just that I just don't want
you to feel forced
because you're
in this situation. I don't know.
Out of everybody here,
you think I'm forcing it?
If you met me
outside of this situation,
you feel like you would still
connect with me?
- You're smart. You're loyal.
You're all these things
that makes me think
you're strong enough
to figure the situation out.
I'm okay with having faith.
- Yeah.
- You know what I'm saying?
- Yeah.
- So...
That's what it comes down to.
I definitely have feelings
for Shari.
It's tough for me to try
and get to know someone
who's already in a relationship,
but it's a chase,
and I like something
that's not easy to get.
I feel like anything worth it
isn't gonna be easy,
and that is attractive to me.
Stop walking around like that.
- Like what?
Already controlling?
- No, you struttin'.
- Literally, this is how I walk.
Strut, strut, strut.
This will be
an interesting match.
Look how cute he is, sleeping.
Javen, you're cute
when you sleep.
- Can I scoop in?
- Yeah, you can scoop in.
- I missed you.
- Did you now?
- I did.
- Good.
- What was your favorite date?
I know what hers is.
My favorite date, easy,
was zipline.
Ohh. This is
your first disagreement.
Which date was it that you
started falling in love?
- Wow. You thirsty?
I'm gonna get a beer.
Hey, Mark?
Give me some brotherly advice.
- What's going on?
- We're talking about John.
Do you think that she should
keep her distance
or try and talk to him?
John's girlfriend was
in the bed with someone else,
and I think I need to understand
where he's coming from more,
because right now there's
potential for me with John.
I'm gonna tell you right now
that John's turned off
to every single emotion
right now.
That's why I've given him
complete and total space.
Yeah, he maybe... he slept
about 45 minutes last night.
You know, the, uh,
the video messages
that we're... we're allowed
to send to our girlfriends?
What he can say in 30 seconds...
- Wait, what?
You guys have something
that you say to them?
How does it go?
- We have the option
to send a 30-second message
and let them know, you know,
what you're feeling
or what you want them...
Just anything, you know?
You got 30 seconds.
When did you guys do it?
I'm not doing it.
He did not send her a message
telling her that it's over.
He is scared to pull
the trigger.
That bothers me. That is going
to make it to where
I'm not gonna fully,
fully believe him.
I'm not sending a message.
So you have the option
to or not to?
- Uh-huh. The three boys did.
I'm not.
- Hello there.
- Hey.
- I'm tired.
Just wanna lay with you.
- You have a good time?
- Horrible time.
- Terrible.
- The worst date I've ever had.
It just feels really
synchronistic with Karl.
The draw is so powerful
and so supercharged,
but to be honest,
a connection that powerful
actually scares me,
because the last time I felt it,
I had
my heart absolutely shredded,
and the guy
that I was in love with
chose another woman.
I think we should just go
sleep upstairs.
- We'll wait here.
- Innocently.
- What?
- Just sleep.
- Where?
- In your bed.
Just come get in my bunk
with me.
This is gonna be a challenge,
though,
not being able to, like,
touch you.
Let's go
to bed, then. We'll go to sleep.
Are you sure?
- About what?
I'm not sure about anything.
Brittney and I are sharing
a connection right now,
but it's a major struggle
knowing in the back of my head
that I do have a girlfriend.
She's been patient
and understanding,
but she's letting me know also
it's very tough
because she feels
a strong connection,
and as do I.
Okay.
Okay.
I can't wait to have that
one-on-one with Kady and just...
- What is it gonna change?
What is she gonna...
It's not gonna change
anything, basically.
I'm finally opening my eyes
to that
and realizing that she's been
manipulating me
over the course of us dating
and has made me really feel
like everything is my fault.
- I know. This is hard.
This is really hard.
And, like, I'm thankful
for you opening up to me.
It just makes me feel
like I can get closer to you
and trust you more.
Every day it's like John gets
more and more attractive to me.
I don't believe
in his relationship.
I believe in John.
It's just like,
are you willing to let go
of what's holding you back?
I'm ready to find somebody
that I'm really looking
to settle down with.
I'm looking for
an emotional connection first,
and obviously,
I'm attracted to you.
What do you think?
What is it, after every storm,
there's a rainbow?
I wanna see where your head at
before another night go by.
I guess I'm getting to the point
where, like,
this shit matters to me.
- Mm-hmm.
Kady is definitely
the only person
that I have
a romantic connection with,
but I think
over the past few days,
from Johnny and Kady, you know,
obviously getting
a little closer,
she's gravitating towards him
a lot more,
but I'm still in the game,
and I'm not going nowhere.
Looking at it
from a selfish point of view...
- Mm-hmm.
- This is my life.
- Yeah.
- And so for us, this is...
Stakes are high.
I want you to respect, like,
what I have going on
with Johnny.
I respect it enough. I know...
Yeah.
I think that Johnny and Wynn
handle the situation
with me being in the middle,
um, differently.
They're cool, but there maybe is
a little underlying tension.
Is Wynn good? You guys good?
Yeah, I mean, I just had to
redirect for the seventh time.
I'm... I'm here
with the limited time with you.
All right.
I'm pretty tired, but I should
probably go to bed.
I don't really care if
the guys wanna try to date her
and make their... their run
on her.
I mean, for me, it doesn't
really matter. I just...
I know at the end of the night
that her and I are together.
At this point, her and I have
something pretty real,
and it's probably
the best connection
out of anybody here.
Come in!
- It's Wynn.
- Hey.
What's happening?
- Wynn, what the...?
- You got a minute?
- Yeah. Wanna talk?
- Not even.
What's up?
I'll just talk it over
with Kady for a minute.
- What's going on?
- He said
he just wanna holler at me
for a minute.
I think it's really creepy
and weird that
if a grown man
is in bed with a woman
that you would knock on the door
and come into her bedroom,
and I was raised
a little bit better than that.
But, um, you know,
I think at this point,
it's just a desperation shot.
I don't know why I feel
obligated to come check on you.
He spent the night here
last night,
and nothing happened, and, like,
he didn't even try to make
a move,
which I find really respectful
and respectable.
I almost feel like he's making
it a point to make a scene
to come to the door, um,
to "warn me" about Johnny.
He could have warned me
about him
when we had a conversation
an hour ago, and he didn't.
Good night.
- What the... was that?
Yeah, he's just trying
to step it up and all that.
Just ignore him.
Yep.
I think Karl brought me here
to really test me,
and I'm very anxious to see
what the message is.
We all have the urge to
communicate with our boyfriends.
I'm really just curious
about how his entire experience
is going over on the island.
Hey, what's up, babe? I just
wanted to check in quick.
First off, I love you
and I miss you.
This experience has been crazy
and fun at the same time.
I'm a little disappointed,
um, kinda hurt
by some things I've seen,
but that doesn't change
how much I do care about you
and love you.
I figure we can meet
at the end of this thing
and figure out
what our next direction is.
I love you.
Keep having fun over there,
and, uh,
dive into this experience.
I thought his message would be
more, like, self-reflecting
instead of judging.
I feel like being here
has really taught me a lot
just about myself,
and I don't know if he can
really understand
what I've been going through.
I mean, he brought me here
to test me in our relationship,
but this is honestly just
a test to myself
to really, like, pull me back
into myself
so I can allow my heart and soul
to go out to other people
in the world.
Seeing Nicole be in bed
with someone else...
It's in the back of my mind.
I'm real tense,
and I'm just like,
all right,
what is going on here?
I'm not sure if she thinks
everything is all good or what,
but I wanna just see her face,
see her smile,
and see where we're truly at
with each other.
I really wasn't expecting
to come into this experience,
but I'm really glad
that we did because
it's making me realize
that our relationship
through the last two years
has really been surface level,
and these men and women here
have made me realize
that there's
a whole new level of depth
that we can really uncover
in our relationship,
so I'm not sure where you're at
and how your experience
is really going,
but I'm excited to get home
and really, you know,
open my heart and soul to you
and, you know, figure out
if we can communicate that back
with one another. I love you.
I've been in relationships
where they have been,
you know, just had more
substance to them,
so I'm aware that it can be
a lot more deep,
and it has seemed
very surface level for me,
so I feel as if, you know,
that's something that
should've came out of my mouth
to her.
Today's a big day.
Part of me,
like, wants to see him,
and, like, wants to hear
his voice,
and I want him to explain to me
what's going on,
and then part of me, like,
I just wanna get through this,
and I don't know if seeing it
will help me get through this.
I knew it.
My God.
I'm not gonna lie.
Like, I'm a little bit hurt
that there's nothing in there,
but I think when he sees
the message I left for him,
I don't know what he's seen
in these clips, but he probably
thinks I'm having fun,
and I think it's gonna get real
for him...
and I think
he's gonna get emotional.
I'm the only one of us that
didn't send video message.
I don't wanna hurt Kaci,
and I can't help but feel,
you know, every single emotion
from, you know, happiness
to absolute despair.
I respect her too much to try
and tell her in 30 seconds.
Even though
we may love each other
doesn't mean that we're supposed
to be together forever.
Hi, babers. I love you.
I really, really miss you.
I'm having fun. I think
you'd be so proud of me.
Just be the man
I know you wanna be,
'cause I'm seeing the old Evan,
and I know that's not
who you are,
and I know you wanna
make me proud,
so just please do that,
'cause I don't want you
to have to give up on me
and give up on us.
I just could see it in her eyes
that poor girl's hurting so bad.
I'm hurting the person
that I've cared about the most
for so long.
I know I'm gonna break Kaci.
She doesn't deserve this.
I've been here for... I've shared
my entire life with her.
And not having Kaci here
every day with me,
I've realized what
we've been through together
and why we're so close-knit,
why we've stuck together.
- I miss Kaci so bad.
- I really do.
, man, am I a scumbag.
I hope Javen left me
a video message.
I mean, I can't imagine him not,
but I'm just curious
to see where his head is at
and if he feels like
he's grown so far
in this experience.
My mind's just racing,
and I just wanna know.
Hey, baby girl,
hope all is well.
Hopefully, you're hanging
on there on the other side.
Hope you're genuinely doing
connections organically
and getting to know people.
I'm enjoying my experience.
I'm getting to know people.
I'm developing as a man
apart from you.
I'm learning a lot about myself
I hope you're learning a lot
about yourself.
Hopefully,
at the end of the day,
we can come together, connect,
you know,
and just to share
our experiences.
Miss you, obviously.
Think about you every night.
And, you know, make sure
you're having fun.
Loosen up a bit.
I'm loosening up as well.
And keep me in mind.
Javen looks like
he's in a good head space,
and he's doing good,
and I'm proud
that he's doing good.
We're both learning to be
open-minded
and more accepting
of relationships
outside of each other.
It's okay, and I'm glad that
we're both kind of having
that growth.
Hopefully, my girlfriend's
having a great time.
I can't wait to see that message
from baby girl.
She's beautiful, everything
I asked for, you know.
I wanna see her come out as
the best woman she can be,
and I wanna come out as
the best man I can be,
whether we're together or not.
Hi, my love.
I just wanna say that I love
and miss you so much.
I feel like I've grown.
I've become stronger
and more grounded, and I just
wanna let you know that
you're strong, too,
and I hope that you've grown
in a positive way.
I'm interested to see
where we go from here,
and I love you
to the moon and back,
and I can't wait to see you.
That was nice.
Baby girl...
She's beautiful as ever.
She said, you know, "I love you
to the moon and back."
It's something she always
says to me.
I'm glad to see her smiling.
She looks positive.
She looks happy. Yeah.
I love you, baby girl.
I love you. I truly do.
I'm really nervous. I'm not
sure what John's gonna say.
I don't know
where his head's at.
I'm sure that there are things
that he's seeing
that are hurting him.
I'm really curious and nervous
to see
if he's even sent me a message.
Oh, good.
Shit.
- Hey, Kady. I love you, babe.
I miss you so much.
I think this is something
we didn't realize
we should've signed up for,
at least for my part.
I saw some bonfire video that
I was very disappointed to see,
and I'm very upset by that.
And it
really hurts me to see that,
and, uh, you might have been
triggered by some bonfire video
that you've seen of me.
I've tried to maintain
my loyalty to you,
faithfulness to you,
and, um, that's just all
I wanna tell you right now.
I don't want him to hurt,
and I don't want
to break his heart,
and I feel like
I did disrespect him.
I feel bad, and I feel like
I've made a mistake.
I don't know.
I'm confused.
I sent Kady
a really heartfelt message
so I'm not sure
if she's feeling bad
or if she just is completely
done with me or what,
but I have no clue
what's gonna happen,
if we're gonna be able
to stay together
with all this that's going on
or if we're gonna
go on our separate ways.
So, yeah, it was really tough
not to get a video message
from Kady.
I came here thinking
we were so strong
and we're gonna
get through this together.
I even was gonna propose to Kady
if she could get through this
with loyalty and respect,
and that obviously
didn't happen.
Yeah, I didn't get one.
I didn't get a video from Kady.
- That's tough, bro.
- Yeah. It's tough.
So, you know, I was thinking
three options.
She's feeling too guilty
to send me one.
She is angry at me
for something,
like, that she saw,
or she likes this dude
that was in the last clip.
- Right.
- Or she's just realizing
she don't wanna be with me,
you know?
That shit pisses me off.
I'm... I'm sorry. Like,
it's not my relationship.
That's not my girl,
but that shit...
I think you'll...
You're a good dude, bro.
It's like, is she even
thinking about the big picture?
Like, the fact that...
- Right.
She's gonna have
to move out of my house.
This guy lives in New York,
like,
and if she can really fall
in love,
like, in this short amount of
time that we've been here, man,
that's just telling me a lot
about how she is.
Evan, you all right?
Man, my, uh...
my clip was not hot, man.
Um...
She's crying, man.
You know, just saying
she's seen some things
and she's seeing the old Ev,
basically, and, uh,
but telling me that I'd be
proud of her
on how she's conducting herself.
I don't wanna be no monster.
I just don't know, man.
I don't know, man.
I feel like I'm just a scumbag
both ways, bruh.
I'm all twisted, man.
I feel like I'm just...
just... up.