Temptation Island (2019–…): Season 1, Episode 10 - Final Bonfire - Part 1 - full transcript

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Are those freaking dolphins?

- Oh, my God!
Look at the dolphin!

It's a crazy feeling how close
I feel to Katheryn.

- Oh, shut up.
- Wow.

Definitely looking forward
to some more intimacy with her.

You're crazy.

- You feel okay?
- Yeah. I feel good.

I'm really sad everything
is coming to an end,

and I have a hard conversation

that I'm gonna have to have
with John.



That was like the perfect night.

I didn't expect to be tempted
at all, and I gave in.

But I haven't stopped thinking
about Nicole

and just hope we can
work things out.

I love the person I'm with,

but I'm not deeply in love,
and I want that.

Tyler has really opened up
my mind to what

a real relationship could be.

You're not gonna tempt me.

- Hey, guys.
I'm here to tell you that

ladies, unfortunately...

this is goodbye.

What?

Your time on the island
has ended,



and I want you
to keep in mind that

depending on what
these gentlemen decide

at their final bonfire,

for some of you, this could be
goodbye forever.

This does not feel right to me.

This isn't what I expected.
This isn't what I wanted.

I'll give you a moment
to say your goodbyes,

and then you can gather
your things,

and it'll be time
to leave the villa.

I don't know how to explain
what I'm feeling right now,

but it's not good.

- This has been amazing.
It's changed my entire life.

It's changed what... what I want,
what I thought I wanted

and everything...
Everything, okay?

Okay.

Oh, my gosh.
Now I'm extra, extra nervous.

- Baby, hey, hey.
He just said bonfire,

so I should be able
to handle that,

and that's what you wanted,
right?

I gotta handle
what I gotta handle.

Do you have faith in me?

Yeah...

I'm telling myself
that I feel confident,

that he wants to be with me,
but seeing Kaci in person

I feel will make him crumble

because he feels guilty
for hurting her.

I have no idea where
your head's at.

- Yeah.
- What are you thinking?

- I don't know.
- Just, it's like,

I know it's gonna be tough
'cause I do love Kady.

Like, it's like I still wanna
just get things resolved.

I wanna hear Kady's side
of the story,

'cause I literally haven't
talked to...

Yeah.

- I want John.
Like, I wanna be around him.

I mean, at this point, like,

if I could just have more days
with him.

Mm-hmm.

I'm afraid that he's gonna

go with what's comfortable
and is easy,

and he's not going to
have enough

confidence to go after someone
that he deserves.

You all right?

Mm-hmm.

Sorry. I didn't mean
to make you cry.

You literally helped me
in this whole experience

become the better man.

You know,
and I'm thankful for you.

- You are, Javen.
- I'm glad I met you, too.

You're genuinely, like,
my first, like, female friend,

for, you know...
- Aw.

But I'm so proud of you
and just your openness

throughout this whole process
and your faithfulness

and your respect that you have
for your relationship.

Shari has a good man,
and she is lucky, and you...

- I held it down.
- Yeah, you showed me that

there are good men out there.

I mean...
- I set the bar too high.

Yeah, I mean, it's quite high.

It's a bit bittersweet
to say goodbye to Kayla.

She's one of my good friends.
We developed a relationship,

a connection in this house,

so me saying bye to her
right now is pretty hard,

but at the end of the day,
you know,

I'm ready to see my baby girl.

And this experience has shown me
that I'm more than capable

and ready to be devoted
to one woman

for the rest of my life.

- Ah. What a ride.
- Oh, what a ride. Right?

And I made a great friend.
- I made a good friend, too.

- Javen!
- Kayla-Kay.

- This has been amazing.
Like, you're an amazing person.

You're a beautiful person.
I've never met a match

that, you know,
met me intellectually.

Obviously, I care for you.
I care for your feelings.

I know... that you feel
vulnerable,

and it's just wild that we
ended up connecting like this.

But I've always told you,

since this has started that,
you know,

I'm gonna have to go home.

I'm gonna have to have
conversations.

I hope you have a great life,
whether I see you again.

I hope you have an amazing life

whether I see you again or not.
I'm sure I will.

I don't know what that's
gonna look like,

but I'm sure I'll see you again.

I had an amazing time
with Brittney,

but I still love Nicole,

and I'm not ready to give up
on our relationship just yet.

Regardless of what has gone on,

I know that Nicole and I
still have to talk.

Do you think this is a goodbye?

- I don't know.
It might be a "see you later."

I-I don't know.

Do you have any last words?
Because...

No, it's tripping me up a lot.

Everything you're saying
just feels really distant

all of a sudden.

You said,
"I hope you have a great life

no matter what happens."
- No matter what.

Put yourself in my shoes.
I'm sure you have numerous times

but this is not...
- Of course I have.

This just feels really weird
and different to me right now.

Because there's
applied pressure, that's why.

I gotta go back to Chicago
and say, "Hey,

are we done or are we moving
forward? What are we doing?"

And even if we move forward,
it's gonna hurt like... hell.

I mentioned
the whole relationship.

So imagine if you were...
- You're right. So go back

and stay in your...
Shitty relationship,

and I'll go home and I'll
figure out how to get over it.

I've been with her
for two and a half years.

I'm not closing the door.
There's no way I'm doing that.

- Gotcha.
- Not yet, and I...

Complete truth comes out then.

Oh, I've already shared that
with you.

- Not like that.
- You knew it was coming.

You called it.
- Not like this.

I didn't know this was coming

based on the way it felt.

He was saying this whole time
that he had never felt

so connected to someone else
before in his life.

I thought it was something real,

but feel like I was tricked
in some way.

I'm glad that I was
able to help you

strengthen your relationship.

I just hope you didn't use me
for that.

- Use you? No. Don't start...
- No, that's just what

it feels like,
and I wanna say that to you...

Listen, listen, listen,
listen, listen...

before I can't
say anything to you

'cause it feels... this
conversation feels really weird.

Stop. There's no way in hell
I could forget about you.

You're a blessing.
- Stop it.

I didn't expect to open up

and to connect to someone
in this level,

but if it was false,
it was false,

and I'll learn from it.

- I'm sorry, ladies.
Unfortunately, it's time to go.

This is crazy. This is over.

I feel like it just happened
yesterday.

- Bye, guys.
- Bye.

- Bye, John.
- Bye, Kayla.

I'll see you soon.
- It's been a crazy journey,

but I've really connected
with the girls in the house.

I see them as, like,
true friends

after this whole experience.

- Double hug.
- Bye, guys.

- Oh, my God.
I'm gonna throw up.

- Thank you, ladies.
- Goddamn, man.

- Guys, come with me.
- That's abrupt.

Let's take a minute.

I just have so many questions

that are unanswered
at this point.

Ultimately, I'm just...
I'm just anxious to hear

what Kady has to say,
like her side of the story.

That was not easy, was it?

- Nah.
- No.

There's a reason why
we say goodbye

to the girls you have connected
with here in the villa

because it's impossible
to get your head entirely clear

when people that you have
feelings for are around.

- Right.
- However, next time

I see you guys is gonna be
at your final bonfire,

where you'll be reunited
with the person

you came to the island with.

I need you to really think about

what you're gonna say
to your partner

and also what you want
your future to look like

when you leave the island.
Take the night to reflect

on what you're gonna say,
and I'll see you at bonfire.

I have a very, very difficult
conversation to have with Kaci.

It's gonna be the hardest thing

I think
I've ever done in my life,

but I know exactly what
needs to be said.

- Back home.
- We're home, yes.

- Finally.
- So tell me about you guys.

What'd you guys do?
- Drank some wine.

Then we hit the hot tub.
- Yeah, and then we did...

- Then watched the sunset.
- Oh, pretty.

And I got you guys all flowers.

- Aw!
- Oh, yeah, he did that.

- You're so cute!
- You guys all blossomed

and grew from this experience.

Aw!

Oh, my gosh. How cute!

And these are, like,
perfect, too.

Yeah, they're literally
awesome. I love them.

- Oh, my gosh.
- And obviously,

the best for last.
- Oh, thanks.

Justin has a genuine heart,
and I didn't really wanna give

anyone a chance with connecting,

and now that I have,
I just feel like we've built,

like, such a strong bond.

Cheers to making new friends,
and I will always remember

all of the connections
I made here.

- Cheers, all.
- Cheers.

Cheers. I love you all.

- Hi, guys.
- Hello.

- Oh, no.
- Wow.

Sorry to drop in on you
unannounced,

and unfortunately,
I'm here to tell you that,

gentlemen...

your journey is up.

It's time to leave the villa.

So I'm gonna give you
a chance to say your goodbyes,

but I wanna remind you that,
um, for some of you,

that could be goodbye forever,

depending on how things
shape out in the final bonfire,

so, um, I'll give you some time
to say your goodbyes,

and I'll come back
in a few minutes

and let you know when it's time

to actually exit the villa,
okay?

All right, well, that sucks.

It's just such a tough time,

um, all of us connected
with each other so much,

and we care about each other,
so it's tough.

Um, I just wanna tell you
you're an amazing chick.

- Thank you.
- And, um...

you've been doing really well
and, uh,

you're in
a really good head space.

- Thank you.
- And I want you

to stay confident.
- I'm scared.

- And be strong.
- I will be strong, I promise.

And I'll be there for you
always.

- Thank you.
- So..

- You're a good one.
- I'm not bad.

- You're not bad.
- I'm all right.

It's definitely
an emotional goodbye.

Like, we're all kinda
fighting back tears,

and Val has really helped me
through this process.

He's an amazing guy,
and he'll always be

close to me and a friend.

To you.

- Thank you.
- Okay.

Mm-hmm.

Now come and bring it in here
for a minute.

- Okay.
Thank you for everything.

- You, too.
Thank you for, you know...

I'm glad we spent the last,
like, day together.

Me, too.

- It was really fun.
- Same.

I feel like we just started
to understand each other,

and, like,
learn about each other,

and build, like,
a good connection.

I'm sad to... just to leave,
but you know how I feel.

I'm here to be your friend
through everything.

Yeah, I appreciate that.

I love Javen, but I could
maybe see myself with Justin.

Personality-wise, like,
Justin and me are a little...

Are more alike, I feel.

I definitely feel like
I was meant to be here

and go through this because
otherwise

my life would have just been,
like, in a stagnant place.

Yeah, exactly.

I don't want it to end.

Me, too.

I'm definitely gonna miss you.

You know that, but, um,
I do think that we will

see each other again.
- Yeah.

It's just a blessing
that we met.

I didn't think meeting
one person could, like, change

this much inside of me,
like, give me

a whole new perspective,
so you did well.

I really appreciate Tyler
in my life.

He's helped me realize
a lot of different things,

and I feel like we've opened up
emotionally and physically.

Hopefully, Tyler and I
can stay in touch

and build a deeper connection
and a deeper friendship,

and who knows what that could
lead to one day?

There was no one else
in the house that I felt like

I could open to as much as
I've opened up to you,

so it's sad that all of us
have to say goodbye,

but I feel like I've learned
so much.

- Right.
- I'm not gonna forget.

Um... I'm not really ready
to go.

I know. I'm not ready either.

But, you know, I'm so grateful
that I met you here,

and... you've changed my life
for the better.

I care about Johnny a lot.

We got really close,

and I just know that, like,
things will never

be like it is, how it is here.

You know, you need to deal
with your situation.

- Yeah.
- And if you come out of this

and you still wanna be
in that situation,

I won't hold that against you.

We're about to be entering
into real life,

and things aren't easy there.

I'm just not ready
to say goodbye to you.

- I know.
Yeah, it's gonna be hard.

I pray every day to meet
somebody like Kady,

and this is the last possible
place I would expect

to look for her and find her,

but I opened up my mind
and my heart

to a wonderful person
and a wonderful human being.

She's got a lot of heavy stuff
on her plate right now,

but I think once
the dust clears,

uh, her and I will be able
to reconnect.

Bye, guys.
- Bye.

- Bye. I'll miss you guys.
- It's been a pleasure.

- Thank you, sir.
- Thank you, Johnny.

Good night.

This experience has been
a lot more real

than I ever intended it to be
or expected it to be.

I never thought that
I would come here

and actually develop feelings
for somebody.

- God.
- Bye, girls.

- Bye. Love you.
- Bye! I love you guys.

- Kady, don't cry.
- The possibility

of a closed chapter, um, just,

you know,
entering into the unknown

is always scary.

I hated breaking up that vibe
that was in here.

I'm sorry about that,
but it was time.

And I wanted to chat with you
for a moment

so that you can be prepared
for what's coming. Okay?

The next time I see you
will be at your final bonfire,

and that's where
you're going to see

the person you came
to this island with.

This is a time that it's really
important for you to reflect

on your entire experience

and face the ultimate question
and that answer,

which is are you with
the partner you should be with?

I want you to spend the time
really composing what it is

you will need to say.
- So, like, write it out?

Half of me is just, like,
done and wants to go home

and get Evan out of my apartment
and just start over.

- Good night, you guys.
- Bye.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

But then this is someone
that I thought

is, like, my best friend,
love of my life.

How do you walk away from that?

I've... I literally grew up
with him.

- Yep.
- And I can't just be like...

You know, my world
is gonna be rocked.

- Rocked.
- No matter which way.

- Yeah.
- Like, it's gonna be rocked.

You know, like,
I have to go home to him,

so it's like, yeah, no, you're...

I don't know what
our future holds.

It's not looking good.

But we have some major,
major shit to talk about,

and we have to figure
our life out

whether it's together
or very much apart.

This is the hardest thing
I've had to deal with.

We came here hoping
that this experience

would make us stronger.

Standing in front of you
are 24 single men and women,

all here for one reason.
That's to find love.

I came in here strong,

and I thought Nicole and I,
we'd go home stronger.

I didn't expect to be tempted
at all.

You know, I thought it was
gonna be smooth sailing for me

and that I had nothing
to worry about.

When I look at you, I feel,
like, really silly,

and I smile and kinda giddy
and...

- Yeah.
- Vulnerable, I guess.

Brittney literally came
out of nowhere.

Sweet dreams.

I almost wanna let you do
what you said, but...

I kept Nicole on my mind
this entire time,

but where my weakness came was

when I saw Nicole get in bed
with someone else.

That's where I became weak

and let my guard down
and let loose a little bit.

You troublemaker.

Brittney kinda just
captured my mind,

and we slept together.

I don't feel proud of it,

but I know that I have to have
a conversation with Nicole.

Being honest and truthful
with each other

about our whole experience...
That's the true test.

I still love her, but whether
we leave this island together,

I don't know.

I came to this island
because I wanted answers

to my relationship.

- Hi, Karl. Welcome.
Glad to have you here.

- Nicole.
- Nicole.

- Nice to meet you.
- How you feeling?

- I'm nervous.
- Good!

In the beginning
of this journey,

I felt like I was very timid,
and Karl didn't have a lot

of faith in my loyalty
coming into this situation.

My boyfriend's worried that
I'm gonna do something

because I'm younger than him
and he doesn't,

I feel like, have trust in me.

I didn't like having to come
here to prove myself to someone.

I didn't feel like
I needed to do that.

But even if things might
get rough on this island,

once it's all over,
I just hope that you're smiling.

- Aw!
Since I've been here,

I have really just let
my guard down,

and, like, opened up
to these guys,

and it's really allowed me
to be vulnerable.

If you're not being true
to the way

you deserve to be treated,
don't make excuses

for the reason you're not
being true to those ways.

Tyler has really opened up
my mind

to what a real relationship
could be.

We've made
an emotional connection

that is deeper than I thought
it could be.

I have realized what is going to
make me happy in life,

and it's ultimately up to me
to allow the next decision,

whether that's continuing
in my relationship

or continuing a different route.

Kady and I came
into this experience

expecting to really test
our loyalty to each other.

We were looking at rings

before we came
onto "Temptation Island."

- Love you.
- Be closer after all this.

That's right.

And so from the very beginning,

I had walls up.

You're still definitely
my biggest attraction for sure.

But the only way you would
have something with me

is if she messed up?

I wanted to show my loyalty
to Kady,

which I proved up until
the fourth bonfire video,

and she's in bed
with another man.

Hmm.

That really hurt.

That's when I had to make
that decision...

Am I gonna just grieve
and be miserable

the rest of this experience?

Obviously, I'm attracted to you.

What is it, after every storm,
there's a rainbow?

Or am I gonna open up myself
to getting to know Katheryn

and on an emotional
and physical level?

Tonight I see Kady
for our final bonfire.

I'm ready to hear her side
of the story.

I really don't know
if this is gonna be the end

of Kady and I's relationship.

It's gonna be really hard
to recover from this,

but I'm just looking forward
to closure.

There's no doubt in my mind

that coming
to "Temptation Island"

was the right move
for John and I's relationship.

- Hi. How are you? I'm Kady.
- Hi, Kady.

And I've come
into this experience

with an open heart
and open mind.

We have one life to live.
I don't wanna waste it

on the wrong person,
and you don't either.

You know,
if we were meant to be,

then it'll drive me closer
to him

and drive us closer together.

I just don't wanna hurt anybody.
- I understand that.

Like, do you know how badly
I wanna kiss you?

And I might leave here
regretting not trying.

I've allowed the process
to take over

and do what it was supposed
to do.

Yes! Good job!
- Yeah!

Johnny possesses
the leadership quality about him

that John doesn't.

Johnny makes me feel
really special.

I feel like I pray for someone
like you every day.

That doesn't mean
I don't love John.

I'm really feeling guilty
and bad and sad.

Like, John
started crying in his video.

I feel really... guilty
and I feel really selfish.

I feel like I let him down.
I feel like I let myself down.

When I see John,

it is going to be extremely
emotional and difficult.

Going into this bonfire,

I feel like my mind
is pretty made up.

I just feel deep inside that I'm
not supposed to be with Karl.

I think it's going to be
difficult to say that to him,

but it's what should happen

and it's what my gut
is telling me.

I haven't seen Nicole
in I don't know how long.

I've seen a lot of things
that have hurt me and upset me,

but I'm sure Nicole has seen
some things that

she didn't necessarily like
that I did either.

Despite of everything
that's happened,

I still love her.

I just need to know if she still
loves me, too.

Hey, Karl. How you doing, bud?

You're okay?

- Yeah.
- Last time I saw you,

I told you to really reflect
and get your thoughts together.

Were you able to do that?

- Definitely.
- Are you a little nervous?

Uh, little bit. Ready to just
have a conversation with her.

Okay, I'll bring her in
right now.

- Hi, Nicole.
- Hi.

- All right, guys.
This is it.

This is your final bonfire,

and this is a chance
for one of you to speak

and have the other one listen,

and then we'll talk about
what you've decided.

Karl, I'm gonna let you
speak first.

The floor's yours.

Hello.

Um...

This has been a crazy experience
for both of us, I'm sure.

Um... we both came into this

hoping that this
would make us stronger

and give us some clarity

on just what we're doing
and where we're going.

A major thing that we were
trying to work on is trust,

and I hope that I can
trust you more.

During the bonfire, I saw you

getting into bed
with somebody else

and being intimate with them

and seeing them
the way I touch you...

It hurt me a lot,

and after seeing that,

I thought it was only right
for me to open up at that point.

Um, then I did make
a connection with Brittney,

and then it went too far.

I... broke our rules
that we discussed.

I'm sorry for that.

I don't know what
it's gonna look like

going forward with you.

Um... I hope that we can figure
something out,

but I'm not sure
what that's gonna look like.

Nicole, I know it's tough
to just listen and not speak.

There's a reason we do it
this way.

Now it's your time to speak
and be heard.

Karl, all you can do is listen.
You ready, Nicole?

I was very confused
at why we came here,

and I really did wanna prove
my loyalty to you

because I know that
that's an aspect

that you questioned
in our relationship.

I was definitely very confused
in the beginning,

but at that point,
I realized that all the couples

were here for a reason.

So I really wanted to figure out
what our purpose was.

I finally was able to start
reflecting on our relationship,

and by being here
and being away from you

for this amount of time,

it really allowed me to, like,
open up my heart,

and it just showed me
that I had a wall up,

and I wasn't allowing myself
to dig deep

and really allow myself
to be affectionate,

and I feel as though our love
is very surface-level,

and I feel like we haven't
been able to build

a deep, passionate connection
with one another,

and I feel as though
that's because

we're pushing some of our issues
under the rug.

If we choose
to move forward together,

we would have to be really
strong and wanna learn and grow

for both of us to be happy.

Thank you, Nicole.

I saw you both
listening intently,

hearing with new ears to a voice
you may not have heard before.

So, Karl, now it's time
to make a decision

to stay together with Nicole,

to leave this island alone,

or is it to leave this island
with someone else?

You can tell Nicole.

Regardless of the clips
I've seen,

I still think that
there's something there.

Um... and I'm standing here
and I'm saying yes,

I still choose you.

Nicole, you hear Karl's decision

that he wants to stay with you
and work this out.

Now is your chance to answer
the same question.

Do you wanna stay with Karl,
or will you be leaving

the island alone,
or will you leave the island

with someone else
that you've connected with?

This is for you to tell Karl.
- Yeah.

Nicole,
you hear Karl's decision.

Now is your chance to answer
the same question.

Do you wanna stay with Karl,

or will you be leaving
the island alone,

or will you leave the island
with someone else

that you've connected with?

It's for you to tell Karl.

I wanna go home together
and figure it out.

So you've decided you and Karl
will stay together as a couple.

Yeah, I...

I do wanna go home
and figure it out.

Okay.

Nothing would make me happier
than to send you guys home

knowing that you guys have
learned things about each other

and have made room for
each other to grow together.

Your words both say
you wanna be together,

but you haven't seen each other
for a month.

You didn't even shake hands.

What's going on?
What's really going on here?

I mean, you wanna stay together,
I want you to stay together.

What's... What's the awkward thing
here?

- Yeah, I'll speak.
I mean, first off,

I think it's weird that
we haven't seen each other.

I feel your body energy
is a little off.

A lot of stuff has gone on,
and it has been a long time,

but... so what have I done
that doesn't bring depth

to our relationship?

This is two and a half years.

You gotta... You gotta gain depth.

You gotta gain trust,

respect, loyalty,
all those things.

That's... That's called
a foundation

before you can get those things.

That's depth.

So that's where I'm at.

I'm trying to figure
that part out.

I feel like when I say
I want to apply

what I've learned here to
every relationship in my life,

I'm, like, speaking in terms
of my significant other,

whether it's you
or whoever I marry one day,

like, I just wanna bring
a new level of depth of me,

and I think I was holding
myself back at home.

I think I had a wall up.

I felt too nervous and scared
to be vulnerable with you...

because I felt like

I was going to be judged,

and being here has, like,
shown me that

it's okay to be social
and outgoing

and be connecting with male...
Like, men,

and I just feel like
I was scared back home

'cause you don't have trust
in me.

You feel like I'm not loyal,
and it creates

this weight on my shoulders,
and I'm nervous

because of the way
that you'll react.

I feel like as you should have
a weight on your shoulder.

I feel any woman should know,
"Hey, you know,

my guy's in the room."
I want respect

not for my woman
to float around a bar

and seem as if she's single.

You know, it sounds like
what do you really want?

Do you wanna be
back out here single?

You want a boyfriend
that cares about you?

No, I wanna be in a relationship

where I'm building
a deep connection with somebody.

- If this isn't deep, then I...
I don't know what to tell you.

I don't at all.

I-I left my job.

I left my family,

moved with you...

for your career,
don't get me wrong.

And I didn't want you
to not do that.

What... How deep is it?
How deep do you want it?

I don't understand.
- So the loyalty and trust thing

has been from the beginning.

- Exactly, so let's fix that.
Let's not...

But I feel like I've been

having to try to prove myself
for so long,

and yes,
we've been on this island

and crazy shit has happened,
but we've been in a scenario

that would never be real
in the real world.

Which brings me back
to one of the clips.

You're bawling your eyes out,
and a guy's telling you,

"How long do you have
to prove yourself?"

And here we are, the next
clip I have to see is

you in bed with the same guy.

You know that that's
the last thing I need to see

for how I already feel.

But regardless of what happened,
I can still say that I love you.

If you don't feel that way,
then we'll figure that out.

Just talk to me.

I apologize that
I couldn't be straightforward

the first time around.

I just feel like I've developed
so much strength

since I've been here,

and I've been mentally preparing
for time on my own.

- Mm-hmm.
- And I feel like

I wanna learn and grow
and develop in myself,

and I know you understand that,

and I don't know
if I would be able to do it

at the same capability
if we were in a relationship.

So...

you've come to the decision that

you'd like to leave
the island alone?

Yes.

Okay. Karl?

Well, I have no choice
but to leave the island alone.

At this point, I understand
where you're coming from.

It's hurtful,
but know that I understand,

and we both decided to come here

and, you know,
gain something from this,

and if this is for the better,

then I want nothing more
for you to explore yourself

and figure out what it is
you need to figure out.

I hope you get what you need.

Truly.
- Thank you.

Okay, you guys.

Nicole...

your journey is over.
You can head on off the island.

Do I still hug him?

Of course you can.

Of course you can.

It's all right.

I appreciate
what you said to her,

and I agree with you.
It's better now than later.

Watching Nicole walk away,
it's painful.

Nicole and I constantly
talk about growth

and building each other up
in our relationship,

so if this is what she needs
to take this time to herself,

then that's what she should do.

- So no regrets?
- No regrets.

I just walked away
from somebody that loves me.

A lot of people here
have made me realize

that I'm a strong woman...

and everything's gonna be okay.

I just...

didn't think it would be
hard... to, uh...

break someone's heart that
said they still loved me.

I am pretty upset and angry
with Kady.

I've seen Kady's true colors
come out.

I'm ready to confront her

and defend myself as a man
and being a good father

and ask her why she decided
to let a man get in her bed.

I'm really nervous to see John.

I just... I love John so much.

I know that, um, I have hurt him

throughout this experience,
and just having to face him

face to face for the first time
is just gonna crush me.

- Hi, Kady.
- Hi.

- You ready?
- Ready as I'm gonna be.

Welcome to your final bonfire.

And how are you feeling
right now?

Um, I'm feeling
really nervous and also,

a little, honestly, like,
kind of excited to see him,

let him know kind of where
my head's at

and what I've discovered.

- Okay, I'm gonna call him in.
- Ahh.

And you guys will have a
chance to speak to one another.

- Are you ready?
- Yeah.

Okay, let's bring John in
right now.

- Okay.
- Oh, my God.

- Hey, John.
- Hey, Mark.

- How are you, buddy?
- Good. How are you doing?

Okay. Right there.

- Hi, Binky.
- Hi.

- Hi, guys.
- Both: Hey.

This is your final bonfire,
a chance for you to share

your experience, what you've
learned about yourself,

what you've learned in general,
and how you're feeling.

Let me be very clear.
Each of you

will get a chance to speak
without being interrupted.

The other will listen.

After both of you have had
a chance to speak,

then I will ask you
what you've concluded.

- Okay.
- So now, Kady,

I'm gonna let you speak first.

And it's your chance to share
what your experience has been,

what you've learned
about yourself

and how you're feeling now.

- You ready?
- Yes.

- Okay.
Your chance to listen, John.

- So, um...
- first of all,

it's really good to see you.
I've missed you a lot.

Um... and...

you know, you're my best friend,

and, uh, we came into this
really strong.

I have taken this time apart
to really kind of self-reflect

and dig deep.

I've just realized that,

you know, like,
you're such an amazing man.

I was always trying
to change you,

and you're perfect
just the way you are.

Obviously, our lives are
so, like, intertwined

and intermingled
and I love our life together,

but I think that this experience
has been a necessary evil.

You know, it's been something
that was really good,

and I don't necessarily
regret it,

and I think that everything
happens for a reason.

Okay.

John, the floor will be yours.

So, um... honestly, this has been
the toughest thing

I've ever gone through,
and, um...

I felt like we were so close
coming into this...

- Mm-hmm.
- And, um...

one of the first bonfire videos
I saw was...

Was you questioning about me
being a man and a father,

and you've said that to me
before, but that's something

I really thought about.
You know, I know I got issues.

But as far as being a good man,

I've loved, protected,
and supported you through a lot.

And, um, as far as
being a good father,

you've seen how I interact
with my nieces...

And, uh...

and... how I am around
your friends' babies.

And then moving forward,
my mission was to show you

that I was a loyal guy...

And I was up until I saw you
get in bed

with... I think his name's Johnny.

And that destroyed me.
It was embarrassing

to... to see that.

Then the next day,
I was the only guy

that didn't get a video message,
and that just

destroyed me even more,
and I didn't know what to do,

and I was in a tough spot.
I told myself I can either

just have this aching heart,
or I could open up

and get a connection
with Katheryn.

You know, Katheryn was
after me from day one,

and it took me a while,
and then finally

when all that happened,
I just opened up

and I had a physical and
emotional connection with her.

You know, we looked at
wedding... wedding rings,

and we talked about marriage.

And we've taken
a huge step back, obviously,

and I do love you,
but I want a woman

that's gonna build me up,
not tear me down.

Um, and that's kinda what
I've been taking from you

since we first started dating,

and, uh, that's basically
all I have to say.

All right, John. Thank you.

Um, I think that
you are an amazing, amazing man.

Um, you're so sweet
and you're so kind,

and you're so funny,

but for me, I just can't...

see myself, you know, um...

having children with you,

and it's not that you're not
great with children.

It's just the type of man
that I want for my household

and the type of man that I want
to lead my children.

I don't feel like, um...
Like, uh...

Um...

You know, sometimes I-I feel
like that I have to, like,

kinda baby you a little. I kinda
have to mother you a little.

And I feel like I have to kinda

maybe pull ambition out of you
a little.

Um... you make me not wanna
have kids.