Station 19 (2018–…): Season 3, Episode 6 - Ice Ice Baby - full transcript

When a blizzard hits Seattle, Travis must take a difficult call and members of the crew are forced to face their truths. Meanwhile, Ben has rising suspicions about a colleague.

We are well into night two

of a record-breaking
snow onslaught

that has power lines down

in close to half of Seattle
and King Counties.

Local schools, hospitals,
and fire houses

have opened their doors

to anyone
who needs a warm place

to wait this behemoth out.

Yeah, no,
it sounds like you're s

It sounds like you're saying
I tried to manipulate you.

It's what you're saying.
You're just not saying it.

No, I'm not trying
to start a fight.

I'm just tr

Yeah, okay, bye.


I didn't say anything.


you want to tell me
why men are such babies?

Question for the ages.


Maybe you'll find
the answer, uh,

if you take over
for my phone shift.

Oh, no!
No, no.

You're not
gonna do it today.

I already
put in my phone time,

and, uh, now I gotta go
entertain some kids.


You're a baby.

Men are babies!

Excuse me.

I can't do this.

Station 19, this is Montgomery.

I've never been told
so many times

to clean
what's not dirty.

Maya hasn't figured out that
we can't scrub away her shame.

Speaking of shame...


It was a drunken hook-up
between old friends.

I feel no shame.

You were drunk?

No, but...
it won't happen again.

It won't?

Right. Roommates.

Never again.


Hey, guys.

Toilet's clogged again.

Apparently, you can't flush
a full diaper.

Who knew? Hmm.

I got it.

Thank you.

Yeah. Sure.


It's weird
not seeing you at home.

Where did you
end up moving?

Jack and I
found a place.
Oh, fun.

You know,
station is getting packed.

You know,
people are starting to say

Would love to chat,

but those clogged toilets
are waiting.

Haven't told her yet,
have you?

I'm trying.

You think
I should try harder.

I didn't say anything.

You think that
the sad hovering I'm doing

over the daughter
I'm about to abandon

is a little pathetic
and I should try words.

I didn't say that.

Mm-hmm. Your face said it.
Phone's ringing.

Well, my
Cap, hey.

My face
didn't mean to say

Station 19.
Can you hold, please?

I've been on hold
with 911 for almost an hour,

and I'm very cold.

Okay, ma'am,
and I'm really sorry,

and I'm only gonna put you
on hold for a few more seconds.

Station 19.
This is Montgomery.


We're welcoming anyone
who needs shelter.

No wonder
no one opened their door.

They're all here.


Hey, there.

You never seen
a German shepherd?

That's a Belgian Malinois.

I don't do Malinois.

Hey, well, you got
something in your mouth?

Yes, you do.
Yes, you do. You

You got a bloody shoe.

You want to let it out?

Hey, Chief,
keep your coat on.

May have to go out looking
for the owner of this shoe.



Has, uh,
anyone seen my dog?

I accidentally
chainsawed my foot off.

But it's okay,
because I stapled it back on.

Good boy.

Okay, come on.
Right over here to the aid car.

Alright. Careful.
Step on one leg.



Come on, people.

This is
a medical emergency.

Please put
your clothes back on.
Okay. Up.


Good boy.
It's okay. He'll be fine.

So, let me
get this straight

You, uh
You were trying to...

clear ice from your satellite
on your roof

with a chainsaw?

Yeah, I got 500 bucks
on the game, so ooh.

Hey Oh, man.

These are
my lucky jeans.

Look, just relax, Jeff, alright?

And we, uh...

we need
to remove this...

duct tape.

I ran out of staples.

Cut it pretty good,


Uh, we're gonna get you
some pain pills

in a sec, Jeff.
Just, uh...

Okay, people,
stand back.


Okay, we're gonna have to
remove all this

and get it
cleaned up better.

I actually already cleaned it up
with some whiskey.

You guys want some?

Yeah, um...

We're good.

Look, we, um...

Alright, let's get you
in the aid car.


I got you.

Move over.

One, two, and up.

Now, listen, we may have to
re-amputate your foot

so that we can
get up in there really good

and make sure there's no
infections or anything.

Whoa, whoa, wait.

I mean, we're gonna keep the
foot attached, though, right?

Because the Internet said

that they can reattach it
at the hospital if we do.

We got you, Jeff.

We're trained for this.

A lot better
than the Internet.

Station 19.

Could I please speak
with Travis Montgomery?

This i

Wait, Mom?

It's gonna be great.

Or not great at all.

We have to tell them.
It's time.


Thank you.
Thank you.

Uh, so,
Mom and Dad...

we have some news.

Good news.

Great news.

He said yes.

"We're so happy for you,
Michael and Travis."


Promise me
you'll stay safe.

Mom, no.

Mom, we're all
perfectly safe, okay? I

Make some soup.
I don't need any soup, Mom.

Do you have soup there?
I gotta go, okay?

Chicken broth is good
for your sinuses.
I'm on phone duty, okay?

I'm hanging up
the phone now.
Just put your face right over the pot.

I gotta go, Mom.

Okay, bye, Mom.
You don't even have to
eat the soup.

Goodbye, Mo Bye. Bye.
Just breathe it in.

You look like
my boyfriend.

Who's your boyfriend?

if you wanna be.


I have no filter.

Don't be sorry.

But, alas, I'm gay.


I think
it literally broke.

Does that mean that you're not
gonna help me with these phones?


For you, I'll answer
these phones out in the snow.

are you a photographer?

It's a new hobby,
but I love it.


I'm Travis.

I'm Rose.

Nice to meet you.

Oh, crap. Please.

Hello, ma'am.
I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean
to leave you out on hold.

Bang, bang, choochoo train!

Come on, Tar Heels,
do your thing!

I Hey, guys?
Not in here. Not in here.

are you still there?

My car
slid off a bridge.

I'm very cold,
and I can't move.

I...I think
I broke my leg.

Maybe more than my leg.

Guys! For the love of God,
guys! Please!

I am so sorry.

I'm having trouble
hearing you, okay?

I need to switch phones,
but don't move, okay?

I've been on hold
for so long,

and I really am
very cold.

Am I going to die?

Ma'am, I got you,

Just...Just hold on.

Now let it roll!

No. Move that
to the corporate account.


Sir, I need
to ask you to leave.
Hold on.

This call is overseas,

and uh, my taxes
pay your salary, fire guy.

You can move $80,000 into
the Swiss account, $80,000

Hold on. Hold on.
He'll call you back
from his phone.

This is an emergency.

If you don't leave
this private office right now,

there's gonna be
another one.

This is unbelievable.

Now let it roll!
Now let it roll!

Now let it roll!

Hey, ma'am,
are you still there?



Dean's special chili.

Needs salt?

It's so good.


You think any more people
will show up tonight?

Isn't, like,
half of Seattle here already?

The baby needs chili!

Almost ready!


She's like
a tiny, little monster.

Growing a second,
tinier monster inside of her.

You excited?

It's not the first word
that comes to mind.

Eager? Enthusiastic?


I'm terrified.

Do you have
any raw onions?

On top or mixed in?

And don't yell.

It makes the baby kick
like crazy.

Uh, sour cream?

Why would you even
ask that?

It smells good in here.

That a yes
or a no?
I don't know.

Oh, my God. You look like
you're about to pop.

I am.

I was.

I popped.

Right now.

Oh, God.
I just popped.

Oh. Oh!

Oh, God.

Uh, w-we're gonna have
a baby.

Uh, give Yeah.

We're gonna Give it to

I don't want to Okay.
No, you got to go.

I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go.
I'm gonna go.

So, Eisenhower
he's a good boy, right?

Yeah, he's the best.

As long
as you're not trying

to move narcotics
across the border.

Then you're kibble.

Hey, Chief, I'm gonna need you
to get me some supplies.

We need two bags
of O positive.

Uh, give me a Bovie,
and, um...

And the fentanyl's in
the, uh, PRT supply closet.

PRT code is 7585.


Thank you.


Hey, man,
can you check

the score for me?

Uh, who's Carina?

She's an OB
at Grey-Sloan.

A friend of mine.

Okay, and she said
I'm just supposed to

jump in a warm shower
and the pain will stop?

I don't know
if the pain will stop,

but she said the warm water
might help you relax,

and I think
that's the bigger point.

Uh, yeah,
I think the bigger point

is the pain caused by this thing
squeezing through my vagina.

Okay, as soon
as we get the go-ahead

that the roads
are clear,

we can transfer you
to Grey Sloan.

Ugh. And they can make
my epidural dreams come true?

I'm sorry. There are just
too many emergencies

going on right now.
This is an emergency.

Okay, JJ, let, uh, let Maya know
if the temp is okay.

I'm gonna go look for
the birthing kit.

That is what I need.

Epi. Dural.
Or tequila.

Or a pound
of weed gummies.

Oh, contraction!

Maybe ice packs?
Heat packs?

I'll see what I can find.

Okay, I need you
to try and remember

the last street sign
that you saw.

I-I really can't say.

I know I-I saw a sign
for the park.

which park, ma'am?

Please call me Pilar.

Which park,

I'm not from here.

The, uh,
big state park?

Which state park,

I'm so cold.

Okay, can you remember
any sign or landmark

that will help me
locate you?

I can't see anything.

My car
is buried in snow.

It's buried?

When I came to, my car
was buried under the snow.

I don't know how deep.

I tried to crawl out,
but my leg...

I don't think
it's working.

Is your car on?

Is the heat
still working?

When I turn the car on,

it starts to smell like gas
immediately and I get dizzy.

I think the exhaust

must be trapped
by the snow somehow.

Okay, you're right
not to keep it running.

Hang tight, Pilar.

I'm sending first responders
to you right now.

Seattle Fire,
this is Station 19.

I have a priority rescue.

Requesting a search
and rescue team.


Hey, Gibson,
check this play out.

Guy makes
a miraculous shot.


That guy's a beast.

Yeah, you play ball
back in the day?


I guess you did?

Yeah. Guard.

Cool, man.

We should
shoot hoops sometime.


That would be good.
That sounds good.

I got a thing
to clean, so...

Yeah. Later.

Squeeze harder!


W-W-What can I get you?
How can I help?

You're a great driver.

Tell Firefighter Barbie you can
get me to the hospital safely

so I can get knocked the hell
out from the waist down.

Okay. JJ, the roads
are really bad.

Can you imagine
peeing a basketball, Dean?

Take a second to do that for me,
would you?

And then let me know

you wouldn't run naked
to the hospital

in this damn blizzard

if the doctors
could make your pee basketball

hurt just
a fraction less.

Alright. So, I did
a search online,

and there is some evidence
that sitting on a yoga ball

can help
your labor progress.

A yoga ball
isn't an epidural.

JJ, we can't do an epidural
at the station.

Then Postmates it!

Everything okay in here?


Can you do an epidural,
Mario Kart?

'Cause if not, then no,
everything is not okay.

We've got this,

Actually, I've delivered quite
a few babies over the years.

Um, I remember
this one young mother

Dean, JJ's hours away
from delivering.

Maybe you and Pruitt
can give us some woman-space

for a while?
Yes. Yes.

Cool, cool, cool.
Hey, hey, JJ.

Just Just let me know
if you need anything.
I do.

I need an epidural.

Who's Mario Kart?

Contraction! Ohhh!

Squeeze my hips!


She can't remember
the state park,

but she said
she skidded off a bridge.

Do we have
a list of parks with bridges?

Maybe smaller bridges?

I'll look. Hold, please.

How you doing,

I can't feel my toes
or fingers.

I'm very sleepy.

Hey, we need you to stay awake,
okay, Pilar?

Now, you said
you were visiting Seattle?

What, uh
What brought you here?

My boy. Simon.

He lives here.

how old is your boy?

He'll be 32 in May.

Your boy grew up, huh?

Hey, Pilar?

Uh, honk your horn for me.
Do me a favor.

That's good.

That's really good.

Okay, so, listen I'm gonna
have you honk your horn

when the rescue team
gets close.

You're gonna do that
for me?


Pilar, hold on for a second.
Stay awake.

This is Montgomery.

We have a list of bridges
in Seattle parks.

There are 47.



Put it up, girl.



Miller's here!
Heads up!

Okay, you understand what to do
with a ball, right?

Can you imagine
having to pee one of these?

I'm sorry,
JJ's in labor.

What? Now?
Yes. Here

At Grey-Sloan?
No, no, no.

Here, upstairs,
in the showers.

Are you s Man, what are you
doing down here?

I mean,
she needs her space,

and I have a greater chance
of survival right here.

Okay, well,
there's a guy

getting his foot cut off
in there,

so I wouldn't be so sure
about that.


Is she
your girlfriend?

Ha ha. Me? Her?
No, no, no.

She's dating Superman.

I'm more like
the Brown Hornet.

Yeah, his girlfriend
is having a baby right now.

Can you believe that?


Exactly how I feel.

She nailed it.
She's not really
my girlfriend.

Oh, yeah, I forgot.

She's just some chick
you knocked up.
Seems like it.

It's a bad day
for lovers.

Jackson and I
had our first fight.

Was it about which one
of his eyes are prettier?

Yeah, you know what?
That's so weird.

That's exactly
what it was.

That's what I thought.
No, um, it was...

really dumb,
and, uh...

I actually don't even remember
how it started.


That sounds like
a first fight.


Hey, man.

You sure about this?

Because the Internet
seemed pretty clear

We need to amputate
and clean it

if we're gonna have any chance
of saving it, okay? me.

Okay, okay.
People, people.

I need you to give us
some space, alright?

I need you to give my patient
some privacy,

and I need
to be able to focus,

and I can't do that
if you're all standing th

J J Jeff?

I can't lose my foot,

Jeff? J-Jeff?
Open the door, Jeff.

Nah, you know what?
I'm just gonna go.
Jeff Jeff!

Hey, Pilar?

I need you to stay awake,

We got to stay awake.

So, tell me...
tell me about Simon.

Tell me about your son.

Does Is he working
in Seattle?

He's been angry
with me.


why why is that?

I took him away
from his father,

but it was for his own good,
his safety.

His father wasn't safe.

He'd get very angry,

and I didn't want him
to hurt Simon like he hurt me,

so I prayed to Jesus,

and I told him to give me
strength to get my boy out,

and if I could
get us to safety,

I promised Jesus

I would serve him
the rest of my days.

When his father passed out
that night, I told Simon,

"Pack your
favorite teddy bear

and two books,

and I took him.

I took him.

He never saw
his father again,

and he's been mad at me
ever since.

Ever since...

How long ago

did you take Simon away
from his dad?

Last week,
after his birthday party.

Which birthday party
was that?

He turned 4 last Friday.

I thought you said
Simon was 32.

That's right.

"And the forest
who came before us

and the forest
who will come after,

every leaf

on every tree,

an echo
of our family."

This is
my favorite one.

Your father's, too.

I wrote that one

when I told him
I was pregnant with you.

I know, Mom.
You told me.

When was
the last time you wrote?

Mm. Years.

I sometimes think of a line
or image, but...

You're so talented,

Long time ago.

You know,
Michael and I were talking,

and we would love it

if you would read this
at our wedding.

Are you sure?

In front of people?


Your father
would love that.

It's gonna be
so beautiful.

open the door.

You are losing
too much blood, man.

If you
If you don't let me help you

You You have minutes,
tops, before

Dude, just open the door
before I break it down!

Or, yeah,
you could just use a key.

I need my foot.

Yeah, we'll take
care of you, Jeff.

Two vials,
four doses.


Basically, if mom is relaxed
and if you're relaxed,

there is really nothing
to be done.

Let nature
do what it does.

But I'm not relaxed
at all,

and neither is she.

Don't you run into
burning buildings for a living?

Yes, but I'm usually
not running into buildings

that have babies
flying out of vaginas in them.

Well, first of all,
babies don't fly out.

They slowly slide out,

and it is perfectly natural
and beautiful,

especially if
you stay calm.

So, like,
turn up the Enya.

Turn up the Enya.

A-And, Maya...

I don't know you
all that well yet,

but it
it is plain to see

that you're excellent

at whatever
you put your mind to

gold medals
and fire captains and

I'm good
at a lot of things.

I have no doubt.


You can do this.

Um, I'm not worried
about you or the mama.

Can I call you later
and not talk about babies?

You can
call me anytime and...

talk about
anything you want.

He still didn't call?
No, he didn't.

And you know what?

If this is his way
of breaking up with me

by just ghosting me
after our first fight,

then you know what?

Screw him.

He is a terrible person,

and I am stupid
for ever having dated him.

Or maybe
he's in surgery?

Yeah, sure. If you want to be
logical about it.

What if
I'm a terrible dad?

did you have a terrible dad?

Uh, no.
Um, I don't I don't know.

He fed us, sure.
He clothed us.


He made sure
we went to school.

I didn't
end up in jail or

on drugs.

I mean, I don't know.
Was he a dad dad?

Did he love us?

That's debatable.

I relate to that statement
more than I care to admit,

and now I feel attacked.

Miller, you are...

kind and tough
and playful and funny

and strong and level-headed,
patient, not judgmental.

A little judgmental.

A lot of judgmental.

Uh, you're forgiving.

You're the best
there is.

That little kid's gonna be
the luckiest kid ever.

Alright, yay.

the flashlight.

Baby Hughes.

Looking nice.
You look good.

Oh, look, guys.
It's a lieutenant.

You guys know
what lieutenants do?

They boss people around

and pretend
to be the captain,

when they're really
just a soldier.

Alright, come on.
Get out of here.

Go bother someone else.

Yeah, leave the coat.


Hey, man, you know,
I was just playing.

Yeah, no, it was funny, man.

you know, over on B,

you know,
we bust each other's balls

and give each other crap.

It's just what we do,
you know?

But over here,
you guys

you guys take everything
so serious.

It's all good, man.

Is it?


I'm sorry we got off
on the wrong foot.

You ever been cheated on,


Ever have the woman you love
mess around on you?


My wife.

Eh, she's a flirt,

and I like that
about her.

I always have.

She's hot.
She knows it.

I know it, right?


But sometimes,
she just...

she takes it too far.


You know,
like, sometimes,

she'll meet a guy at a bar
and flirt with him

and, you know, make him think
that he's got a chance,

and then
she'll come back home

and tell me about it
and get me mad,

and then things get rough
in the bedroom,

and she likes that,
and I do, too.

But then sometimes,
if she's drunk or bored

or gets mad at me

for some reason
that she can't remember,

she'll meet a guy
and flirt...

and, well...

I don't
have to tell you.

That's rough, man.

How do you, uh...
cope with that?


I beat the guy to a pulp.

But it's tricky this time,

Because I work
with the guy.

And if I do my thing,
I get benched.

And who does
that help?

But if I don't,

then I got
this rage inside me.

Like, eating at me.

So, it's a tough one,


What do you think
I should do?

I say hit the guy.



Oh, my God.
What What happened?

Pretty sure he tripped.

Right, Gibson?

Yeah. I tripped.

We done?


Okay, how is an Iraq vet
afraid of dogs?

You knew
I was in Iraq?

Yeah, you told me
the day of the bear attack.

Right. Right.

Uh, Belgian Malinois
is what we used over there.

What I've seen those dogs
do to people,

it's unspeakable.

This should help
with the pain, Jeff.


Shh. Shh.

Is there
Is there anything else

we can do
for her pain?

I need something.


Um, JJ,
my OB friend Carina

said there is one thing
that can help with the pain

and maybe even
speed up contractions.

Does it rhyme
with "bepidural"?

she says that if you...


Spit it out,

She says that, uh,
your body will produce oxytocin,

which naturally
reduces pain,

if you masturbate.

Give a lady some privacy.


This could be
a good thing.

You were
too damn pretty before.

This might
man you up a bit.

Does it hurt?

Does getting punched
in the face hurt?

Okay. Yeah.


I could use a walk.

I could use a walk.


You want to know
what he did?


Just so you know,

I'm gonna let you
stay mad at me

for as long
as you want to stay mad at me,

and I'm gonna keep
being your friend,

because if
the tables were turned,

you would have
taken the job, too, and...

I know
that one of these days,

probably when the Ryan grief
eases up a little,

you're gonna realize that,

and when you do,
I'll still be here.

Two men
stood behind closed doors

and decided
that I couldn't handle

the promotion
that was promised to me

because I was too sad
my friend died,

and then
they gave you the job.

I'm not mad
that you took it.

I'm mad
that you took it

without a single word
of acknowledgement.

A simple, "Hey, Andy,
I'm taking the promotion

that was earned by you
and promised to you

because I want it.

But I want you
to know

that I know
it is wrong and unfair,

and as your friend,

I disagree
with their decision."

Then, at least I'd know
you aren't a sociopath,

and I could enjoy it
just a little bit more

watching you
wreck this firehouse

in about a million
different ways.

Hey, Pilar?


Pilar? I'm here.

I'm I'm still
right here.


It's Travis Montgomery
from Seattle Fire.

I think we might've found
your location, and

I never
told Simon the truth.

I wanted
to keep a brave face,

but I couldn't
do it anymore.

Pilar, can we try
calling him again?

What's his number?

I prayed
and I prayed,

and I knew
I had to get us out of there.

I regret not telling him more
about his father.

I regret wanting to bury this
in our past.

Perhaps he had a right
to know the truth.

I just wanted to

I just want him to know

I only wanted
to keep him safe.

I didn't want him to grow up
in that house with that man.

I only wish
he'd forgive me.

I'm just upset
for your poor mother.


I think
Mom's okay with this.

I think
she feels like

she can't even
show her face in town.

She doesn't know
what to tell people.

When people ask her

if her son's getting married
to an amazing guy?

Oh, gosh, I don't know.

Maybe "We're all so happy
for Travis."

Why do the two of you
have to be so public about it?

It's our wedding.

Would it kill you
to elope?

Would it kill you
to have an open mind?

Are you not ashamed
at all?


You got enough shame
for both of us, Dad.

Pilar, uh...

...James 3:13.

"Faith without works
is dead."

You sacrificed your life
to make Simon's better,

and he got to live
a full life.

Because of you.

You got it right.
You protected him.


Here. I'm here.

Search and Rescue 1421
is in the vicinity.

I'll patch you in now.


You see her?

Is the patient
still with us?
Yeah, she is.

Hold on.

Pilar, honk your horn.
Keep honking it.

Are you there?
Are you close? Where are you?

We're at
the junction now.

We are
turning off the engines,

and we'll listen
for the horn.

honk your horn.

honk your horn right now.

I'm pushing,
but it's not making a sound.

Nothing's happening.

tell her to honk her horn now.

She is.

Pilar, push harder.
Push a lot harder.

Push as hard
as you can.

I think it's frozen.

Montgomery, we see
no signs of a car

or damage
to the bridge.

Keep looking.

Simon? Simon?

Pilar, I need you
to honk the horn.

I need you to really try
to honk the horn, please.

Is Simon
coming to get me?

I'll wait
right outside for him.

She's right there, guys.

I'm sorry.
We may have the wrong bridge.

We have to move on
to other calls.

She's hypothermic,
and she's dying.

I am asking you
to please look again.


I'm sorry, Montgomery.

We have to move on.



Am I gonna die?


We're coming
to save you.

We'll be right there.


I know.

One minute from now,

we are gonna say
our vows,

and then we are gonna be
a family.

And I will always be
in your front row.

I will always
show up for you.

Not until we're married,
you goose.

What kind of guy
do you think I am?

Where is it?

what is your favorite movie?

Oh. I'm not sure.

Do you know what's bad?

I've never seen
"The Godfather."


There it is!
I got it.

Okay, Pilar,
i-it was lovely meeting you.

Here's Travis.

Thank you.

where were we?

Your girlfriend
sounds lovely.

Thank you for letting me
get to meet her.

Of course.
What can I read to you?

I'm not
shivering anymore.

That's a good sign,
right, Simon?


That's great.

we are good.

What are the chances of them
actually saving that foot?

Well, chainsaw made
a pretty clean cut,

so, yeah,
it's possible.


By, uh, 3.



No airlift?

Zero visibility.

Well, thank God
for PRT supplies.

Well, all we got to do
is keep him safe

and wait for the weather
to clear.



Sir, you you okay?

Yeah, Charlie horse.

I'm fine, Warren.

I'm fine.

I don't think I can do this.

Are you sure
this is gonna work?

you're doing great.

You and the baby
are gonna be fine.

Hold my hand and breathe.

I fought for it.


I fought for the job.

And it had nothing to do
with Ryan,

because it was before Ryan

and it had nothing to do
with you being sad.

I dumped Jack,
and I went to Sullivan

and I told him I was
the right choice for captain,

and I don't think
I was wrong,

because you put your feelings
before the job

and you let
your personal life interfere,

and I do not.

I'm relentless,

and I think that is
the right quality for this job.

First you sleep with my ex,
and then

I'm a crappy friend.

I put my goals
before anything else.

And I'm a control freak,

but I do actually
care a lot about you.

I'm just like your dad,
you know?

He's here more often after
he retired than he was before,

obsessively making sure
everything is just right,

and he can't help it.

He's obsessive,
working nonstop,

like he's running out of time,
proving something to someone.

The point is, I'm that.

I'm just not as good at it
as he is.

What did you just say?

I'm saying
I'm wired this way.

I was trained by my dad,

brainwashed, really,
that if I see an opportunity

Running out of time?

Oh, my God.

Is this what
you've been trying to tell me?

Is it back?

Testicular cancer.

It's metastasized.


Six, maybe.

She's coming.

She's coming.
Oh, I need to push. Ohhh.



are you there?

I'm here, Mom.

I'm ready to go,


the sun will be up soon.

And then we can
get you out,

so I need you to just talk to me
for a little bit longer.

Hey, Mom?


I forgive you.

You saved me.

You did the best
that you could every day,

just for me.

And I'm not angry anymore.

And I love you.

Father God...

thank you for the love
you have shown me

through my son.

And thank you,

for sending me an angel
to walk me home

so I do not
have to walk alone.

And also...

When eyes...





And, Lord,

thank you
for the gift of connection...

...that when we feel
most alone,

you are with us.

And thank you, Lord,
that your promise remains true,

that when we knock,
you open the door.

Walk now...

with your faithful servant,
Pilar... she makes her way home
to you, Lord.




you're having a baby.


Not gonna lie,

I-I kinda miss
the boathouse,

but it's gonna get pretty
crowded in there after tonight.

Alright, spill it.

I mean, look,
don't get me wrong.

I wanted to fight Rigo
from day one,

but he just
handed you a beating

and you didn't try
to defend yourself?

That's, like,
fight club crazy.

You in a fight club?

what did you do?

His wife.

His, uh...

His His wife?

Yup, and I-I

Okay, please please
please, stop stop talking.


I can't hear that.

Oh, I'm gonna pretend

like you didn't just
say that right now.

Look, I never
liked the dude, either,

but but we all
are a family.

I know I messed up, man.

No, no.
Stop, stop. Stop!

I got it.


that's unforgivable.

No, I-I can't do this!
I can't do this!

You can do this, JJ.
You have this.

No, I'm in a
I'm in a fire station.

I want an epidural.

I need to go
to the hospital.
Hey, hey.

No, no. I need to stop.
I need to stop.
Hey, hey, this is life.

This happens
all the time.

Babies are born,
and it hurts,

and then it will be okay.

Alright, you're gonna hold
your baby in your arms,

and the pain
will be a memory.

But we can't stop.

We don't quit.

You have so much strength
inside of you.

And whenever
we feel like quitting,

that is our chance
to dig deeper than ever,

to be the hero.

Be your baby's hero.

You got this.
Come on.

That's it.
There you go.

Yes, JJ!
One more!

She's almost there.

I was on the pill!


Good job.


You did so good.

You did great.

Look at you.
Look at you.



I love you.
I love you.

Your mama. Mama.

Oh, God.

What happened?

Sir? Captain?
What's going on?


I have six months,
best case,

and I just told her.

maybe give her a minute.

"And the forest
who came before us

and the forest
who will come after,

every leaf

on every tree,

an echo of our family."

that was beautiful.

Thank you so much.

She's trying
her best, babe.

Her best
isn't good enough,

and it's way too late.

Phone's ringing.


you have to answer it.

You're a hero.

Heroes answer the phone.

Station 19,
this is Montgomery.

Hi, Mom.

No. Yeah, no, no.
I'm I'm okay.

We're all okay.
We're all okay.


Yeah, and the snow stopped.


Hey, Mom?