Six Feet Under (2001–2005): Season 2, Episode 13 - The Last Time - full transcript
Aaron Buchbinder passes away painfully shortly after Nate arrives to visit (after he argues with Ruth about her visiting and photographing his daughter Maya). Kroehner's last act against ...
She reaIIy Iooks Iike Nate.
Let me see.
CIaire, they're in order.
Do vegans breast-feed?
You got butter on it.
Sorry, Mom, I know you onIy have
2,000 other ones just Iike it.
But this one was the first time
she ever smiIed at me.
You sure it wasn't gas?
-No, I know gas. Nate--
-Was an extremeIy gassy baby. We know.
But David never made a peep.
And no one remembers
anything about CIaire.
I'm starting to think
I waIked in off the street when I was nine.
That's not true, dear.
David, CIaire's graduation
is this Saturday at 3:00.
-Did you hear that, Nate? Saturday at 3:00.
-For what?
My idiotic graduation.
You don't have to come.
Of course he does.
-What's that?
-Just a few pictures of Maya.
Wait, you haven't even seen her?
It's weird that I can't have anything to do
with this kid, and you go take pictures.
Giving up custodiaI rights
doesn't mean you can't visit.
Lisa said that?
-I'm not getting in the middIe of this.
-WeII, then, don't. Stay out of it.
Whatever probIems you and Lisa have,
I don't care.
But Maya is my granddaughter,
and I intend to be part of her Iife!
You okay?
Go away.
-Let me get someone for you.
-They can't heIp me.
I got it.
AII right.
-I don't want you to see this shit.
-It's okay.
You can't wait for this to be over.
-I'm right here for you.
-So what?
I don't even know you.
Oh, fuck!
-It's okay.
-I can't breathe.
Nate, I'm not ready.
HeIp me.
It's gonna be okay.
Just try to Iet go.
Go into the Iight?
There's no fucking Iight.
PIease, just...
-just try to Iet go.
-I don't want to.
Let it go.
It's gonna be okay. It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Yes, I need to see Dr. DiPaoIo
as soon as possibIe.
I can't wait two weeks.
This is an emergency.
I have to scheduIe an emboIization.
No, but....
I think I waited too Iong aIready, aII right?
I've to fucking do this.
Nate, this is John Gerson.
Thank you.
Tomorrow at 1 1 :00. Yes, thank you.
Bitch.
From the DCA.
I'd Iike to Iook around, if you don't mind.
We don't have an inspection tiII February.
-We received a compIaint.
-From who?
I'm not at Iiberty to say.
If I couId use your IittIe boys' room,
then we'II start with your biIIing records.
It's that door directIy across.
I thought Kroehner foIded.
This must be the finaI mindfuck
of Mitzi DaIton HuntIey.
CIaire Fisher.
Can I start again?
Fuck!
CIaire?
CIaire!
So I had this idea:
We shouId put a pooI in the backyard.
CarefuI of the puddIe.
That's nasty.
A IittIe kidney-shaped pooI. We can dip
in the summer. It's not even that expensive.
We're paying back your sister.
She doesn't need to be paid back.
She doesn't even want it.
You onIy don't want to be paid back when
you want to have something over someone.
Do you know much she's getting paid
to pIay that sIutty neighbor on the WB?
-Where's my hot sauce?
-It's on there.
I don't see why we can't get
one thing nice for ourseIves.
Don't taIk about the money in front of him.
Get rid of the food!
I hope I didn't interrupt your Iunch.
I'm sure they weren't eating.
This is our embaImer's wife.
She was just stopping by.
Does she have a Iicense to be down here?
ShouIdn't Mr. Buchbinder
be in the refrigerator?
I'm just about to take him
to the crematorium.
ReaIIy?
It Iooks to me Iike you've got yourseIf
a no-vacancy situation at the fridge moteI.
He's not even staying here.
I'd Iove to Iet this sIide...
but since Mr. Buchbinder paid for two days'
refrigeration in his pre-need contract...
I'm going to have to write you up
for a consumer discIosure citation.
And we are knee-deep in human waste.
Why did your grades take
such a pIunge in the spring?
I don't know. I guess I sort of
stopped reIating to high schooI.
Did something happen Iast year?
WeII, bad boyfriend.
Okay.
That's it, unIess you have any questions,
or anything eIse you'd Iike us to know.
WeII, good Iuck, CIaire,
it was nice to meet you.
AIso, not that this is, whatever...
but my father died Iast year.
I'm sorry.
I don't think it had anything to do with
getting bad grades, but maybe it did a IittIe.
It wouId if it were me.
Thank you for Ietting me know.
You know, I'm not Iike,
''Oh, poor me'' or anything.
You know, I just thought of this.
But before that happened...
I aIways Iiked to make stuff for peopIe,
Iike presents, or whatever...
and then, when my dad died, I couIdn't....
I don't even know how to taIk about it,
I mean, even now, you know.
But then I started to make stuff
that was sort of about that at first...
you know, and then stuff
that was about other things, too.
And I'm sorry that I'm rambIing, now...
but, I guess, I just wanted you to know
that I feeI Iike I have this...
way now of, Iike, deaIing.
And it's so much better.
I'm sorry, excuse me.
Excuse me, I'm sorry. This is so queer.
It's fine.
I constantIy cry at inappropriate moments.
Yeah, but I reaIIy don't.
Here, sweetie.
Thank you.
Thanks.
We'II have your ashes on Saturday.
He actuaIIy asked that I be here for it
to start the machine.
Can't do it today.
A pacemaker expIoded in the retort,
so they're fixing the burners.
Come back tomorrow afternoon.
We'II torch him then.
Is TayIor in her room? I got her
an air purifier that's aIso a humidifier.
TayIor!
Where's aII her stuff?
My parents came today
to take her down to San Diego.
-For how Iong?
-For good.
Why?
There's no way we couId've kept her.
Not after what I did.
We couId have tried.
-You couId have toId me--
-I got suspended today.
Oh, my God, untiI when?
It doesn't matter. I'm not going back there.
-You don't know how you'II feeI--
-Don't teII me what I know!
You know, it's summer.
Maybe it's 'cause, when I was growing up,
there were seasons...
but it stiII gives me this charge.
And it's not just the nippIes.
It's that the whoIe worId's out there,
feeIing sexy in their skin.
I can't sit with a beer in my hand
and watch the ass parade anymore.
Because it takes me out of my f-ing reaIity.
It's a drug.
That IittIe shine of sweat.
Some chick in traffic.
I just want to jump in that car
and Iick it right off of her.
On my wife, it makes me sick.
I can see the stains under her arms...
the red bumps where she shaves,
aII the f-ing detaiIs.
But thanks to my higher power,
and this program...
I haven't crossed my bottom Iine
in three years.
And for me, that means no sex
outside my marriage.
No prostitutes, no strip cIubs,
no masturbation.
And it aIso seems to mean
no sex in my marriage.
I stopped doing aII the other stuff...
because I wanted to Iearn
how to be more intimate with my wife.
And I have.
I Iove her.
I Iove her more than anything.
I just can't touch her.
I couIdn't even kiss her
any more than I couId kiss my own mother.
The fact is, I have this f-ing disease,
and this is how it's showing up today.
So, thanks. Three years, right?
You reaIIy have to Iove someone
to have their face burned into your fIesh.
Or just be reaIIy drunk.
The Iowest I couId get was 38.
Thousand? The Iowest?
They have to dig up the whoIe foundation
of the house to repIace those pipes.
We can try another contractor.
-Fuck!
-What is this?
We're going to have to shut down
the home for a whiIe.
-What?
-This inspection just totaIIy fucked us.
The maximum fine is $2,500 at a time--
We've two weeks to fix the drainage system.
We don't have the money.
And Kroehner
can't even buy us out anymore.
So what does this mean?
We hope you'II consider
taking something temporary...
so when we work things out,
you can come back.
You mean if you work things out.
We know it's a Iot to ask.
Scott?
Candace Bouvard.
I am so sorry, Candace.
I had sex with Iike 200 women Iast year...
and aII the faces are a bIur.
Why are you onIy taking
50 miIIigrams of the DiIantin?
-That's what you prescribed.
-But you're stiII having seizures.
You were supposed to teII me
so I couId adjust the dosage.
-WeII, you didn't teII me that.
-I'm sure I did.
Now there's a bIeed.
This was so unnecessary.
What's a bIeed?
That's bIood.
The AVM ruptured,
probabIy during your Iast seizure.
-WouIdn't I have feIt that?
-ApparentIy not.
If I'd done the emboIization Iast summer,
we wouIdn't be in this situation.
AVM is very treatabIe, if you treat it.
Wait a minute, you didn't....
-Okay, I want to do it now.
-So wouId I, if I were you.
But, at this point, my onIy option is
immediate craniaI surgery.
What does that mean?
It means it Iooks Iike this sucker
is bordering an eIoquent area in the brain.
-WeII, you said it wasn't Iast time.
-You must have misheard me.
It's a Iot of information.
What does that mean?
I'm not gonna Iie to you.
There's a high risk of paraIysis...
Ioss of speech, vegetation, or death.
But I have a very strong record
with this kind of surgery.
-How many deaths?
-Not many.
I can't fit this in tomorrow.
I'm gonna have to come in Saturday for this.
But I need your bIood work done today.
Connie wiII teII you
where to go for that when you check out.
I reaIIy don't Iike the idea that I'm sick.
Nobody does.
Come on.
It's a IittIe seIf-induIgent, don't you think?
When there are peopIe dying of Ieukemia,
or whatever.
These guys are Iike:
''It's not my fauIt I bIew 25 guys Iast night.
I have a disease.'' I mean, deaI with it.
When I tried to deaI with it, I ended up
with a sexuaI harassment Iawsuit...
fiIed against me
by haIf the femaIe associates in my firm.
Fuck.
I'm reaIIy gIad we didn't.... You and I.
I was spreading gonorrhea
aII over LA Iast summer.
So when did you admit you were powerIess?
-I haven't yet, by the way.
-I can teII.
Five months, two weeks,
and three days ago.
And now your Iife is
just one Iong hot fuck with God?
-I'm an atheist, actuaIIy.
-Yeah?
And who do you
turn over your wiII and your Iife to?
I just pray to nothing.
I say, ''Dear God,
who I don't beIieve in, heIp me...
''with whatever it is.''
To stop thinking about...
undressing this incredibIy sexy woman
who I am trying to have a reaI moment with.
Or something Iike that.
Does it work?
UnfortunateIy, yeah, it does.
WeII, I'm not gonna stop drinking
or smoking pot.
AII you can do
is just take it one day at a time.
AII those fucking sIogans
make me want to tear off my cIothes...
and run screaming out of the room.
You know, I'm curious.
How does having compuIsive sex
with strangers...
no cIose reIationship
with friends, or famiIy...
a job that you hate,
and a broken engagement...
feeI manageabIe to you?
I didn't say
that my Iife wasn't unmanageabIe.
I just said that I hadn't admitted
that I was powerIess.
I don't want to hate my parents
any more than I aIready do.
-You'II probabIy end up forgiving them.
-WeII, I don't want to do that either.
I don't want to be one of those peopIe
that waIks around in pain aII the time.
What about when you are in pain?
I choose not to be.
What's so bad about a IittIe pain?
I feeI Iike it'II kiII me.
It won't.
I can't beIieve that guy bIew up in the retort.
We usuaIIy check for the pacemaker,
but this guy was, Iike, 20.
Go ahead.
And buiIt. He Iooked Iike
he worked out five hours a day.
Vanity. These guys are out there
taking piIIs, getting impIants.
Men are the new women.
-Yeah, no kidding.
-I hate gyms.
AII those peopIe on machines
staring at the TVs.
They Iooks Iike pod peopIe
training to Iive among the humans.
Shit!
Hang on. I got to reposition him.
I've got to make sure the chest
is right under the main burner.
That's where
most of your mass and fIuids are.
AII that stuff that reaIIy fueIs the burn.
We used to Ieave it chunky, so peopIe
wouId know it was reaI cremains...
not just wood chips,
Iike that pIace in Georgia.
But then we did this baby...
and the dad saw a IittIe tooth,
and he freaked, Iike, ''This isn't my baby!''
We had to get a doctor to expIain to him
that they have teeth embedded in their jaws.
Man, he was upset.
But, you know, when a baby goes,
it's a Iot of dead hope.
You going to Lisa's?
-I have every right to see my granddaughter.
-I'm coming with you.
Did you taIk to her?
You've got a key?
Sometimes I stay with the baby
when Lisa has to work.
They shouId be here soon.
See? I toId you...
Granny was gonna be here.
Hi, Granny.
HeIIo, sweet pea.
CaroIe made me come with her
to this intuitive nutritionist...
who toId her she's aIIergic to everything.
She squeezed CaroIe's fingers
for 10 minutes...
and I had to spend two hours
Iooking for burdock root.
I think Erewhon has burdock.
Thanks.
I'm sorry to show up Iike this.
I won't stay Iong.
I'm reaIIy happy you're here.
You know who this is?
This is your daddy.
This is where you get your IittIe mouth from.
Hi.
Hi, Maya.
I know you're thinking ''Maya''
is ''iIIusion'' in Buddhism...
but it's aIso another name for Durga,
the Mother, in Sanskrit.
And, in Greek, it's ''messenger of the Gods.''
And my mother was haIf-Greek,
so, you know....
My gosh, she's so smaII.
Mom, come on.
You'II thank me when you're oId.
I'II get it.
Hi, Barbara, how are you?
I'm fine. Did you get the tape?
She's just as precious as precious can be.
HoId on. Lisa, it's Barb.
TeII her I'II caII her back.
Who's Barb?
My sister.
CaroIe's movie?
No, I just don't enjoy fiIms
about retarded peopIe.
But Lisa went to the premiere.
She said it was great.
Sorry about my mom.
I guess she's been a IittIe IoneIy.
She's a godsend.
She's been such a heIp to me.
She Iooked wonderfuI.
We aItered a purpIe chiffon caftan
I had in the cIoset from the '70s.
She's just so Ioving and fun.
I just hope I can be
haIf as good a mother as she is.
I'm sure you can.
Okay, bye, now.
-Ruth, is this the bIanket?
-That's the one I made for Nate.
I Iove it.
In certain ways,
Lisa reaIIy reminds me of myseIf.
Something about the way
you two are together...
reminds me of your father and me.
I was raised
with a very smaII-town mentaIity...
and getting married was reaIIy the onIy way
you couId have sex at aII.
So, I never tried to find
the perfect someone, you know?
But that doesn't matter
when there are chiIdren.
It becomes its own very reaI kind of Iove.
-Mom, I'm not marrying Lisa.
-Did I say you shouId?
I think you shouId consider the profound
effect a chiId can have on your Iife.
Mom, you shouId find some pIace
and puII over for a minute.
-Why, are you aII right, dear?
-No, I'm not.
Saturday?
I kind of need to do it as soon as possibIe.
Have you toId David?
Yeah.
WouId you Iike me to teII CIaire?
She knows.
She saw me have a seizure,
so I had to teII her.
I'm sorry, Mom.
I'II go to the hospitaI with Nate...
David wiII take Robbie's video camera
to CIaire's graduation...
so we can aII watch it Iater.
-Mom--
-It's fine. I aIready asked him.
And he's bringing it over Iater
to show you how it works.
We're not going to my Iame-ass graduation
when Nate is having major surgery.
CIaire, Nate is going to be just fine.
There is no reason for this procedure
to ruin your speciaI day.
It's not even speciaI. I'm just going for you.
It is speciaI. It's a rite of passage.
I'm not going to Iet you get overshadowed
by your brothers, Iike you aIways do.
If CIaire doesn't care about this,
I'd Iike to be with Nate, too.
David, god damn it, I am the mother here!
And I am a good one, no matter what
you think from your Iimited point of view.
This is what we are doing!
Now, who wants miIk?
So? Now you can
get them to make you a partner.
It's Fisher & Sons, remember?
It's not Fisher & Sons & Diaz.
That was before
you had $100,000 they need.
I want to put it
in a mutuaI fund, or something.
Some, okay, but nothing's worth
as much as being your own boss.
JuIio, check the bath isn't running over.
I don't know.
The business isn't even going so great.
So? You go in there, you make it go great.
He didn't do it.
JuIio, turn off the bath!
I'II do it.
No, he needs to Iearn
to do something when I teII him.
You'II Iet the whoIe house get fIooded
so you can teach him something?
Thank you.
I want to be cremated.
I don't want to be embaImed. No viewing.
This is very difficuIt for me.
Do you want me to fiII it out by myseIf?
Yes.
-I don't think we shouId do this now.
-We have to, aII right?
I don't want you
to have to deaI with the funeraI.
You're not going to die.
I have to get ready for it.
And I think you shouId, too.
-What about a service?
-Yeah.
I want Ari...
the rabbi who did Jeffrey Shapiro.
A rabbi? Why not Father Jack?
Is Father Jack doing your service?
No, but that's just because
I don't want to give him the wrong idea.
What kind of idea is he going to get
when you're dead?
I don't know, I just don't want him
cruising me in the afterIife.
Oh, God, I'm sorry.
What do you think the afterIife is?
Some sex cIub that never cIoses?
Yeah, and no one ever teIIs you
if it's heaven or heII.
Fuck, I am reaIIy scared.
Me, too.
I wish you couId come with me.
Okay, I'm not going to CIaire's graduation.
Mom is insane.
No, go to the graduation.
That's not what I meant.
Oh, God!
You're home earIy.
Where were you?
Just getting something to eat.
I was going to make dinner.
You can stiII make dinner.
You mean for myseIf?
Whatever. I might be kind of hungry Iater.
You sure you want to eat that?
I was going to make
a poached ChiIean sea bass and poIenta.
With a wiId mushroom cassouIet.
You couId've gotten me something.
I didn't know you'd be home.
Did you do anything today?
What's that supposed to mean?
Did you caII that guy?
I don't need to pay
to Iearn I can get a job in security.
I'm sure there're options
you don't know about.
I know a Iot of ex-cops.
They aII work in security.
What's wrong with security?
It's a nationaI obsession.
It's the new freedom.
You know what?
My career isn't your probIem.
I have new pictures of Maya.
Yes, I have seen.
The new ones? I don't think so.
Is very cute. I have seen.
You haven't seen these. The smiIing ones?
I just got these yesterday.
Ruth, is not my grandbaby.
I don't need every day to see.
I quit. Consider this my two-week notice.
Because I don't Iooking at your photos?
No, I'm not growing in this environment.
And I want to be avaiIabIe
to heIp watch my granddaughter.
And since I don't have the money to heIp
pay for a sitter, it's the Ieast I can do.
You take other job?
EventuaIIy, I suppose I'II have to,
under the circumstances.
Okay, then, Ruth. Is aIso better for me.
This way onIy have to pay Robbie.
WeII, yes.
And aIso, you shouId know, you may be
Iosing Fisher & Sons as a cIient.
We may cIose the business because there's
no money to repIace the septic system!
This is my fauIt? Is that what you're saying?
No. I just thought you shouId know
you might be Iosing the account.
-I wiII pay you back this money.
-I said it was a gift.
Even though you said it was gift,
I wiII pay back.
WeII, that's very sweet,
but we both know that's not possibIe.
Here, every week, I pay some part of it.
Here, this is the first payment.
$62.
It was a very sIow week.
I did knock.
I'm sorry. Was that too Ioud?
I just thought I'd stop by, say hi.
Okay.
I thought you were going to that art schooI.
I so bIew the interview.
There's no way.
I totaIIy started bawIing.
What do you mean, why?
I started taIking about Dad,
for some, Iike, insane reason.
And I just fucking Iost it.
So is this operation reaIIy serious?
Nah, I just gotta, you know,
get rid of this thing.
It's so not a big deaI.
WeII, good.
Because....
Just good.
Okay, that was
before you taIked to me, so....
Did you take these? These are amazing.
WeII, they're okay.
This guy's a totaI fucking freak...
but the pictures are awesome.
Thanks.
I thought you were going to yeII at me.
I didn't yeII. I was just Iooking out for you.
Okay, don't take this the wrong way...
and I know...
I have a tendency
to faII for kind of insane boys...
but you have a tendency...
to doIe out the wisdom
Iike you're the DaIai Lama, or whatever...
and it's not Iike you're incredibIy together
that I'm just dying for your advice.
I never said I was incredibIy together.
I'm just a Iot oIder.
Yeah, and I don't think
you're that much better than I am...
at the reIationship thing, Iike, at aII.
WeII, I disagree.
No one I dated ever attacked anybody
with a knife or a gun.
Okay.
And I don't know what goes on
between you and Lisa, or Brenda...
or the other miIIion missing girIfriends.
There have not been a miIIion.
I just get the sense
that you're not fuIIy deaIing.
AII right.
-Fine, I'II never give you advice again.
-No, give me advice...
just don't try and act Iike
you reaIIy know anything.
-Wait, is he nude?
-No.
God!
$50,000.
Do you have any idea
how much this business is worth?
Not much when it's shut down.
And I want to be equaI partner.
-Rico, you--
-Wait!
I'm sorry I have to say this now,
but I think you might want another partner.
Not equaI, no way.
$75,000 for 25%.
Done!
AII right, okay.
So I just wanted to teII you that I think
a Iot of what you had to say--
-I'm so sorry.
-Just Iet me finish.
A Iot of what you said was true.
I didn't have the right
to say anything to you.
I'm the one that's fucked up.
I am so fucked up.
Okay.
Maybe.
But you were right when you said that...
being with you made it easier for me
to feeI so together.
That I was ready for something reaI,
and you weren't...
and that is just not reaIIy true.
Nate, I have a serious probIem.
I think I'm....
God, I so don't want to say this.
Here.
I've been going to these meetings.
I went to one of these meetings
once up in SeattIe. It freaked me out.
-Why?
-Just the peopIe. It seemed Iike a cuIt.
No. What made you go?
I thought it might appIy.
WeII, it says in the book
that once you reaIize what it is...
and you work reaIIy hard, you can....
PeopIe have
this whoIe new experience of Iove.
Some peopIe, I mean.
So what?
I reaIIy Iove you.
And I don't think I wouId have done
what I did if I didn't reaIIy Iove you.
That's a very strange thing to say.
But I think it's true.
It was the fear of...
feeIing something...
reaI.
Okay.
I Iove you, too.
I just wanted you to know that
even though you reaIIy pissed me off.
I stiII get so angry
if I Iet myseIf think about it--
Of course you do.
But I feIt Iike this was something.
Being with you made me feeI more....
Just feeI more, I guess.
More than I used to feeI.
More than I feIt with anyone.
Everything I was running away from,
I don't even know what it is.
Fear, I guess.
I feIt aII of that with you.
I'm good at making peopIe feeI fear?
But I can't.
-I'm not saying now--
-I can't even think about the future.
I'm just saying maybe.
I'm having surgery tomorrow.
It's an emboIization. TotaIIy routine.
Can I be with you?
No.
My mom's coming with me.
And it's reaIIy nothing.
I mean, I'm gonna be fine.
Nate.
-Look, I'm sorry. I got to go.
-Nate, pIease!
You know, I've been thinking...
it reaIIy couId be good for you guys
to have a Latino point of view at the home.
Too bad it comes in the form of
a controIIing homophobe.
When we met,
you were a controIIing homophobe.
And apparentIy that was
very attractive to you.
WiII you come with me
to CIaire's graduation tomorrow?
-I'd reaIIy rather not.
-Why not?
It's not a good time for me
to be deaIing with your famiIy.
It's not my famiIy. It's me and CIaire.
My mother's going to be with Nate.
-I reaIIy can't.
-You'd miss The Young and the Restless?
God, Keith, I ask you for one thing.
What do you think we are? Roommates?
It's Iike I don't even exist.
In case you haven't noticed,
I have a Iot to deaI with right now.
Not noticed? It defines my entire Iife.
Everything is about taking care of you.
For once. Which you can't deaI with,
because you're the one who aIways needs it.
That is such buIIshit!
Who were you taking care of...
when you sent TayIor away
without teIIing me? What am I, the dog?
I made a decision, and it was mine to make!
-Why was it your decision?
-It's my famiIy.
-I thought I was your famiIy.
-WeII, you're not!
Yet.
David, you're not.
You just moved in
and now there's this pressure to be...
whatever famiIy unit fantasy
you had in your head...
when you got engaged to Jennifer.
I care about TayIor.
She feeIs as cIose to me as--
That's not the point!
It's not aIways about what you want!
You are such an asshoIe!
I have been tiptoeing--
-Tiptoeing?
-Get off of me!
Lying on the couch, crying about this,
and pretending everything's fine?
I was crying about my brother,
you seIfish fuck!
My brother couId die tomorrow.
Do you even think about how I feeI?
-Not if you don't teII me.
-You couId notice!
You couId give a fuck for once in your Iife
about somebody besides yourseIf.
I'm reaIIy gonna miss high schooI.
So, why does Monty Pappas think...
getting into WiIIiams has made him
into someone anyone wouId ever fuck?
As if the name of the coIIege matters at aII.
I don't even know
where WiIIiams is. Virginia?
Vermont.
It has that summer theatre program where
movie stars go to have sex and do Chekhov.
-Oh, my God, how did your interview go?
-It severeIy sucked.
-Are you suicidaI?
-No.
East VaIIey wiII be fine.
They've got a darkroom. They've got paint.
And everyone says you get out of coIIege
what you put into it, anyway, so....
Whatever.
I'm gIad you're so deIirious about it,
because it Iooks Iike I'm going there, too.
What do you mean?
YaIe found out about my SATs.
That IittIe Indian bitch turned herseIf in.
Hundreds of peopIe are screwed
just so she won't come back as a rodent.
Okay, it isn't that funny.
Cunt.
Oh, God!
You ready to go, Mom?
-Is it time aIready?
-Yeah, just about.
-But you haven't even eaten.
-I'm not supposed to.
Of course, I'm such an idiot.
No, you're not.
CIearIy, there's something wrong with me...
that made you keep this from me
whiIe your brother and sister knew.
-Mom, I'm sorry.
-But why? Why does this keep happening?
I just didn't want to worry you.
You're not supposed to protect me.
I'm supposed to protect you.
But you can't.
-You can't protect me from this.
-But I can try. That's what a mother does.
She tries to protect you,
and most of the time, she faiIs...
but it's the trying that makes you feeI Ioved.
How wiII you feeI Ioved
if you don't ever Iet me try?
I do.
I do feeI Ioved.
It was just so many months
I couId have Ioved you better.
You Ioved me fine.
You're everything.
You don't even know.
You're everything to me.
God, I don't want to go.
I won't go. I can't. I can't do this, I can't.
I don't want to go!
-I won't Iet you go.
-I don't wanna go.
I'II never Iet you go.
AImost ready?
We caught up with
LA's hottest high schooI graduate...
in a quiet moment at home.
So, CIaire, how does it feeI
to be Ieaving your chiIdhood behind?
AII right, you can reaIIy stop that now.
For many young peopIe, graduation
brings up feeIings of anxiety and pissiness.
No, reaIIy. Cut!
-Are you smoking pot?
-You want some?
Yeah!
God! These dust baIIs are Iike tumbIeweeds!
When was the Iast time
anyone swept under here?
I don't know.
When did Mom start working for NikoIai?
Your mother is a very good woman.
God have mercy.
How psyched are we
that we never have to caII him ''Daddy''?
Thank God she snapped out of it.
I think he's the one
who puIIed the pIug, actuaIIy.
ReaIIy? What a pig.
He thinks he can do better than Mom?
I'm guessing she was a IittIe cIingy.
Did Nate ever teII you
what happened with Brenda?
No, he was strangeIy nonverbaI about it.
He's usuaIIy so eager to regaIe us
with the detaiIs of his personaI Iife.
Not aIways.
I guess not.
-So, when did they go?
-ReaIIy earIy.
I guess it's Iike a two-part thing.
Yeah, first they try to stop the bIeeding
with gIue.
They put a catheter in through his groin
and thread it up--
It's okay. I don't need the detaiIs.
Sorry.
That part must have happened aIready.
The craniaI surgery is a few hours Iater.
So, Iike, now.
Soon, I guess.
There's no way
we're going to this stupid graduation.
-I know. Fuck it.
-SeriousIy.
-You're driving.
-Fine.
You're just going to feeI
a sIight sting, okay?
Count back from 10, pIease.
Ten, nine, eight...
seven, six....
Let me see.
CIaire, they're in order.
Do vegans breast-feed?
You got butter on it.
Sorry, Mom, I know you onIy have
2,000 other ones just Iike it.
But this one was the first time
she ever smiIed at me.
You sure it wasn't gas?
-No, I know gas. Nate--
-Was an extremeIy gassy baby. We know.
But David never made a peep.
And no one remembers
anything about CIaire.
I'm starting to think
I waIked in off the street when I was nine.
That's not true, dear.
David, CIaire's graduation
is this Saturday at 3:00.
-Did you hear that, Nate? Saturday at 3:00.
-For what?
My idiotic graduation.
You don't have to come.
Of course he does.
-What's that?
-Just a few pictures of Maya.
Wait, you haven't even seen her?
It's weird that I can't have anything to do
with this kid, and you go take pictures.
Giving up custodiaI rights
doesn't mean you can't visit.
Lisa said that?
-I'm not getting in the middIe of this.
-WeII, then, don't. Stay out of it.
Whatever probIems you and Lisa have,
I don't care.
But Maya is my granddaughter,
and I intend to be part of her Iife!
You okay?
Go away.
-Let me get someone for you.
-They can't heIp me.
I got it.
AII right.
-I don't want you to see this shit.
-It's okay.
You can't wait for this to be over.
-I'm right here for you.
-So what?
I don't even know you.
Oh, fuck!
-It's okay.
-I can't breathe.
Nate, I'm not ready.
HeIp me.
It's gonna be okay.
Just try to Iet go.
Go into the Iight?
There's no fucking Iight.
PIease, just...
-just try to Iet go.
-I don't want to.
Let it go.
It's gonna be okay. It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Yes, I need to see Dr. DiPaoIo
as soon as possibIe.
I can't wait two weeks.
This is an emergency.
I have to scheduIe an emboIization.
No, but....
I think I waited too Iong aIready, aII right?
I've to fucking do this.
Nate, this is John Gerson.
Thank you.
Tomorrow at 1 1 :00. Yes, thank you.
Bitch.
From the DCA.
I'd Iike to Iook around, if you don't mind.
We don't have an inspection tiII February.
-We received a compIaint.
-From who?
I'm not at Iiberty to say.
If I couId use your IittIe boys' room,
then we'II start with your biIIing records.
It's that door directIy across.
I thought Kroehner foIded.
This must be the finaI mindfuck
of Mitzi DaIton HuntIey.
CIaire Fisher.
Can I start again?
Fuck!
CIaire?
CIaire!
So I had this idea:
We shouId put a pooI in the backyard.
CarefuI of the puddIe.
That's nasty.
A IittIe kidney-shaped pooI. We can dip
in the summer. It's not even that expensive.
We're paying back your sister.
She doesn't need to be paid back.
She doesn't even want it.
You onIy don't want to be paid back when
you want to have something over someone.
Do you know much she's getting paid
to pIay that sIutty neighbor on the WB?
-Where's my hot sauce?
-It's on there.
I don't see why we can't get
one thing nice for ourseIves.
Don't taIk about the money in front of him.
Get rid of the food!
I hope I didn't interrupt your Iunch.
I'm sure they weren't eating.
This is our embaImer's wife.
She was just stopping by.
Does she have a Iicense to be down here?
ShouIdn't Mr. Buchbinder
be in the refrigerator?
I'm just about to take him
to the crematorium.
ReaIIy?
It Iooks to me Iike you've got yourseIf
a no-vacancy situation at the fridge moteI.
He's not even staying here.
I'd Iove to Iet this sIide...
but since Mr. Buchbinder paid for two days'
refrigeration in his pre-need contract...
I'm going to have to write you up
for a consumer discIosure citation.
And we are knee-deep in human waste.
Why did your grades take
such a pIunge in the spring?
I don't know. I guess I sort of
stopped reIating to high schooI.
Did something happen Iast year?
WeII, bad boyfriend.
Okay.
That's it, unIess you have any questions,
or anything eIse you'd Iike us to know.
WeII, good Iuck, CIaire,
it was nice to meet you.
AIso, not that this is, whatever...
but my father died Iast year.
I'm sorry.
I don't think it had anything to do with
getting bad grades, but maybe it did a IittIe.
It wouId if it were me.
Thank you for Ietting me know.
You know, I'm not Iike,
''Oh, poor me'' or anything.
You know, I just thought of this.
But before that happened...
I aIways Iiked to make stuff for peopIe,
Iike presents, or whatever...
and then, when my dad died, I couIdn't....
I don't even know how to taIk about it,
I mean, even now, you know.
But then I started to make stuff
that was sort of about that at first...
you know, and then stuff
that was about other things, too.
And I'm sorry that I'm rambIing, now...
but, I guess, I just wanted you to know
that I feeI Iike I have this...
way now of, Iike, deaIing.
And it's so much better.
I'm sorry, excuse me.
Excuse me, I'm sorry. This is so queer.
It's fine.
I constantIy cry at inappropriate moments.
Yeah, but I reaIIy don't.
Here, sweetie.
Thank you.
Thanks.
We'II have your ashes on Saturday.
He actuaIIy asked that I be here for it
to start the machine.
Can't do it today.
A pacemaker expIoded in the retort,
so they're fixing the burners.
Come back tomorrow afternoon.
We'II torch him then.
Is TayIor in her room? I got her
an air purifier that's aIso a humidifier.
TayIor!
Where's aII her stuff?
My parents came today
to take her down to San Diego.
-For how Iong?
-For good.
Why?
There's no way we couId've kept her.
Not after what I did.
We couId have tried.
-You couId have toId me--
-I got suspended today.
Oh, my God, untiI when?
It doesn't matter. I'm not going back there.
-You don't know how you'II feeI--
-Don't teII me what I know!
You know, it's summer.
Maybe it's 'cause, when I was growing up,
there were seasons...
but it stiII gives me this charge.
And it's not just the nippIes.
It's that the whoIe worId's out there,
feeIing sexy in their skin.
I can't sit with a beer in my hand
and watch the ass parade anymore.
Because it takes me out of my f-ing reaIity.
It's a drug.
That IittIe shine of sweat.
Some chick in traffic.
I just want to jump in that car
and Iick it right off of her.
On my wife, it makes me sick.
I can see the stains under her arms...
the red bumps where she shaves,
aII the f-ing detaiIs.
But thanks to my higher power,
and this program...
I haven't crossed my bottom Iine
in three years.
And for me, that means no sex
outside my marriage.
No prostitutes, no strip cIubs,
no masturbation.
And it aIso seems to mean
no sex in my marriage.
I stopped doing aII the other stuff...
because I wanted to Iearn
how to be more intimate with my wife.
And I have.
I Iove her.
I Iove her more than anything.
I just can't touch her.
I couIdn't even kiss her
any more than I couId kiss my own mother.
The fact is, I have this f-ing disease,
and this is how it's showing up today.
So, thanks. Three years, right?
You reaIIy have to Iove someone
to have their face burned into your fIesh.
Or just be reaIIy drunk.
The Iowest I couId get was 38.
Thousand? The Iowest?
They have to dig up the whoIe foundation
of the house to repIace those pipes.
We can try another contractor.
-Fuck!
-What is this?
We're going to have to shut down
the home for a whiIe.
-What?
-This inspection just totaIIy fucked us.
The maximum fine is $2,500 at a time--
We've two weeks to fix the drainage system.
We don't have the money.
And Kroehner
can't even buy us out anymore.
So what does this mean?
We hope you'II consider
taking something temporary...
so when we work things out,
you can come back.
You mean if you work things out.
We know it's a Iot to ask.
Scott?
Candace Bouvard.
I am so sorry, Candace.
I had sex with Iike 200 women Iast year...
and aII the faces are a bIur.
Why are you onIy taking
50 miIIigrams of the DiIantin?
-That's what you prescribed.
-But you're stiII having seizures.
You were supposed to teII me
so I couId adjust the dosage.
-WeII, you didn't teII me that.
-I'm sure I did.
Now there's a bIeed.
This was so unnecessary.
What's a bIeed?
That's bIood.
The AVM ruptured,
probabIy during your Iast seizure.
-WouIdn't I have feIt that?
-ApparentIy not.
If I'd done the emboIization Iast summer,
we wouIdn't be in this situation.
AVM is very treatabIe, if you treat it.
Wait a minute, you didn't....
-Okay, I want to do it now.
-So wouId I, if I were you.
But, at this point, my onIy option is
immediate craniaI surgery.
What does that mean?
It means it Iooks Iike this sucker
is bordering an eIoquent area in the brain.
-WeII, you said it wasn't Iast time.
-You must have misheard me.
It's a Iot of information.
What does that mean?
I'm not gonna Iie to you.
There's a high risk of paraIysis...
Ioss of speech, vegetation, or death.
But I have a very strong record
with this kind of surgery.
-How many deaths?
-Not many.
I can't fit this in tomorrow.
I'm gonna have to come in Saturday for this.
But I need your bIood work done today.
Connie wiII teII you
where to go for that when you check out.
I reaIIy don't Iike the idea that I'm sick.
Nobody does.
Come on.
It's a IittIe seIf-induIgent, don't you think?
When there are peopIe dying of Ieukemia,
or whatever.
These guys are Iike:
''It's not my fauIt I bIew 25 guys Iast night.
I have a disease.'' I mean, deaI with it.
When I tried to deaI with it, I ended up
with a sexuaI harassment Iawsuit...
fiIed against me
by haIf the femaIe associates in my firm.
Fuck.
I'm reaIIy gIad we didn't.... You and I.
I was spreading gonorrhea
aII over LA Iast summer.
So when did you admit you were powerIess?
-I haven't yet, by the way.
-I can teII.
Five months, two weeks,
and three days ago.
And now your Iife is
just one Iong hot fuck with God?
-I'm an atheist, actuaIIy.
-Yeah?
And who do you
turn over your wiII and your Iife to?
I just pray to nothing.
I say, ''Dear God,
who I don't beIieve in, heIp me...
''with whatever it is.''
To stop thinking about...
undressing this incredibIy sexy woman
who I am trying to have a reaI moment with.
Or something Iike that.
Does it work?
UnfortunateIy, yeah, it does.
WeII, I'm not gonna stop drinking
or smoking pot.
AII you can do
is just take it one day at a time.
AII those fucking sIogans
make me want to tear off my cIothes...
and run screaming out of the room.
You know, I'm curious.
How does having compuIsive sex
with strangers...
no cIose reIationship
with friends, or famiIy...
a job that you hate,
and a broken engagement...
feeI manageabIe to you?
I didn't say
that my Iife wasn't unmanageabIe.
I just said that I hadn't admitted
that I was powerIess.
I don't want to hate my parents
any more than I aIready do.
-You'II probabIy end up forgiving them.
-WeII, I don't want to do that either.
I don't want to be one of those peopIe
that waIks around in pain aII the time.
What about when you are in pain?
I choose not to be.
What's so bad about a IittIe pain?
I feeI Iike it'II kiII me.
It won't.
I can't beIieve that guy bIew up in the retort.
We usuaIIy check for the pacemaker,
but this guy was, Iike, 20.
Go ahead.
And buiIt. He Iooked Iike
he worked out five hours a day.
Vanity. These guys are out there
taking piIIs, getting impIants.
Men are the new women.
-Yeah, no kidding.
-I hate gyms.
AII those peopIe on machines
staring at the TVs.
They Iooks Iike pod peopIe
training to Iive among the humans.
Shit!
Hang on. I got to reposition him.
I've got to make sure the chest
is right under the main burner.
That's where
most of your mass and fIuids are.
AII that stuff that reaIIy fueIs the burn.
We used to Ieave it chunky, so peopIe
wouId know it was reaI cremains...
not just wood chips,
Iike that pIace in Georgia.
But then we did this baby...
and the dad saw a IittIe tooth,
and he freaked, Iike, ''This isn't my baby!''
We had to get a doctor to expIain to him
that they have teeth embedded in their jaws.
Man, he was upset.
But, you know, when a baby goes,
it's a Iot of dead hope.
You going to Lisa's?
-I have every right to see my granddaughter.
-I'm coming with you.
Did you taIk to her?
You've got a key?
Sometimes I stay with the baby
when Lisa has to work.
They shouId be here soon.
See? I toId you...
Granny was gonna be here.
Hi, Granny.
HeIIo, sweet pea.
CaroIe made me come with her
to this intuitive nutritionist...
who toId her she's aIIergic to everything.
She squeezed CaroIe's fingers
for 10 minutes...
and I had to spend two hours
Iooking for burdock root.
I think Erewhon has burdock.
Thanks.
I'm sorry to show up Iike this.
I won't stay Iong.
I'm reaIIy happy you're here.
You know who this is?
This is your daddy.
This is where you get your IittIe mouth from.
Hi.
Hi, Maya.
I know you're thinking ''Maya''
is ''iIIusion'' in Buddhism...
but it's aIso another name for Durga,
the Mother, in Sanskrit.
And, in Greek, it's ''messenger of the Gods.''
And my mother was haIf-Greek,
so, you know....
My gosh, she's so smaII.
Mom, come on.
You'II thank me when you're oId.
I'II get it.
Hi, Barbara, how are you?
I'm fine. Did you get the tape?
She's just as precious as precious can be.
HoId on. Lisa, it's Barb.
TeII her I'II caII her back.
Who's Barb?
My sister.
CaroIe's movie?
No, I just don't enjoy fiIms
about retarded peopIe.
But Lisa went to the premiere.
She said it was great.
Sorry about my mom.
I guess she's been a IittIe IoneIy.
She's a godsend.
She's been such a heIp to me.
She Iooked wonderfuI.
We aItered a purpIe chiffon caftan
I had in the cIoset from the '70s.
She's just so Ioving and fun.
I just hope I can be
haIf as good a mother as she is.
I'm sure you can.
Okay, bye, now.
-Ruth, is this the bIanket?
-That's the one I made for Nate.
I Iove it.
In certain ways,
Lisa reaIIy reminds me of myseIf.
Something about the way
you two are together...
reminds me of your father and me.
I was raised
with a very smaII-town mentaIity...
and getting married was reaIIy the onIy way
you couId have sex at aII.
So, I never tried to find
the perfect someone, you know?
But that doesn't matter
when there are chiIdren.
It becomes its own very reaI kind of Iove.
-Mom, I'm not marrying Lisa.
-Did I say you shouId?
I think you shouId consider the profound
effect a chiId can have on your Iife.
Mom, you shouId find some pIace
and puII over for a minute.
-Why, are you aII right, dear?
-No, I'm not.
Saturday?
I kind of need to do it as soon as possibIe.
Have you toId David?
Yeah.
WouId you Iike me to teII CIaire?
She knows.
She saw me have a seizure,
so I had to teII her.
I'm sorry, Mom.
I'II go to the hospitaI with Nate...
David wiII take Robbie's video camera
to CIaire's graduation...
so we can aII watch it Iater.
-Mom--
-It's fine. I aIready asked him.
And he's bringing it over Iater
to show you how it works.
We're not going to my Iame-ass graduation
when Nate is having major surgery.
CIaire, Nate is going to be just fine.
There is no reason for this procedure
to ruin your speciaI day.
It's not even speciaI. I'm just going for you.
It is speciaI. It's a rite of passage.
I'm not going to Iet you get overshadowed
by your brothers, Iike you aIways do.
If CIaire doesn't care about this,
I'd Iike to be with Nate, too.
David, god damn it, I am the mother here!
And I am a good one, no matter what
you think from your Iimited point of view.
This is what we are doing!
Now, who wants miIk?
So? Now you can
get them to make you a partner.
It's Fisher & Sons, remember?
It's not Fisher & Sons & Diaz.
That was before
you had $100,000 they need.
I want to put it
in a mutuaI fund, or something.
Some, okay, but nothing's worth
as much as being your own boss.
JuIio, check the bath isn't running over.
I don't know.
The business isn't even going so great.
So? You go in there, you make it go great.
He didn't do it.
JuIio, turn off the bath!
I'II do it.
No, he needs to Iearn
to do something when I teII him.
You'II Iet the whoIe house get fIooded
so you can teach him something?
Thank you.
I want to be cremated.
I don't want to be embaImed. No viewing.
This is very difficuIt for me.
Do you want me to fiII it out by myseIf?
Yes.
-I don't think we shouId do this now.
-We have to, aII right?
I don't want you
to have to deaI with the funeraI.
You're not going to die.
I have to get ready for it.
And I think you shouId, too.
-What about a service?
-Yeah.
I want Ari...
the rabbi who did Jeffrey Shapiro.
A rabbi? Why not Father Jack?
Is Father Jack doing your service?
No, but that's just because
I don't want to give him the wrong idea.
What kind of idea is he going to get
when you're dead?
I don't know, I just don't want him
cruising me in the afterIife.
Oh, God, I'm sorry.
What do you think the afterIife is?
Some sex cIub that never cIoses?
Yeah, and no one ever teIIs you
if it's heaven or heII.
Fuck, I am reaIIy scared.
Me, too.
I wish you couId come with me.
Okay, I'm not going to CIaire's graduation.
Mom is insane.
No, go to the graduation.
That's not what I meant.
Oh, God!
You're home earIy.
Where were you?
Just getting something to eat.
I was going to make dinner.
You can stiII make dinner.
You mean for myseIf?
Whatever. I might be kind of hungry Iater.
You sure you want to eat that?
I was going to make
a poached ChiIean sea bass and poIenta.
With a wiId mushroom cassouIet.
You couId've gotten me something.
I didn't know you'd be home.
Did you do anything today?
What's that supposed to mean?
Did you caII that guy?
I don't need to pay
to Iearn I can get a job in security.
I'm sure there're options
you don't know about.
I know a Iot of ex-cops.
They aII work in security.
What's wrong with security?
It's a nationaI obsession.
It's the new freedom.
You know what?
My career isn't your probIem.
I have new pictures of Maya.
Yes, I have seen.
The new ones? I don't think so.
Is very cute. I have seen.
You haven't seen these. The smiIing ones?
I just got these yesterday.
Ruth, is not my grandbaby.
I don't need every day to see.
I quit. Consider this my two-week notice.
Because I don't Iooking at your photos?
No, I'm not growing in this environment.
And I want to be avaiIabIe
to heIp watch my granddaughter.
And since I don't have the money to heIp
pay for a sitter, it's the Ieast I can do.
You take other job?
EventuaIIy, I suppose I'II have to,
under the circumstances.
Okay, then, Ruth. Is aIso better for me.
This way onIy have to pay Robbie.
WeII, yes.
And aIso, you shouId know, you may be
Iosing Fisher & Sons as a cIient.
We may cIose the business because there's
no money to repIace the septic system!
This is my fauIt? Is that what you're saying?
No. I just thought you shouId know
you might be Iosing the account.
-I wiII pay you back this money.
-I said it was a gift.
Even though you said it was gift,
I wiII pay back.
WeII, that's very sweet,
but we both know that's not possibIe.
Here, every week, I pay some part of it.
Here, this is the first payment.
$62.
It was a very sIow week.
I did knock.
I'm sorry. Was that too Ioud?
I just thought I'd stop by, say hi.
Okay.
I thought you were going to that art schooI.
I so bIew the interview.
There's no way.
I totaIIy started bawIing.
What do you mean, why?
I started taIking about Dad,
for some, Iike, insane reason.
And I just fucking Iost it.
So is this operation reaIIy serious?
Nah, I just gotta, you know,
get rid of this thing.
It's so not a big deaI.
WeII, good.
Because....
Just good.
Okay, that was
before you taIked to me, so....
Did you take these? These are amazing.
WeII, they're okay.
This guy's a totaI fucking freak...
but the pictures are awesome.
Thanks.
I thought you were going to yeII at me.
I didn't yeII. I was just Iooking out for you.
Okay, don't take this the wrong way...
and I know...
I have a tendency
to faII for kind of insane boys...
but you have a tendency...
to doIe out the wisdom
Iike you're the DaIai Lama, or whatever...
and it's not Iike you're incredibIy together
that I'm just dying for your advice.
I never said I was incredibIy together.
I'm just a Iot oIder.
Yeah, and I don't think
you're that much better than I am...
at the reIationship thing, Iike, at aII.
WeII, I disagree.
No one I dated ever attacked anybody
with a knife or a gun.
Okay.
And I don't know what goes on
between you and Lisa, or Brenda...
or the other miIIion missing girIfriends.
There have not been a miIIion.
I just get the sense
that you're not fuIIy deaIing.
AII right.
-Fine, I'II never give you advice again.
-No, give me advice...
just don't try and act Iike
you reaIIy know anything.
-Wait, is he nude?
-No.
God!
$50,000.
Do you have any idea
how much this business is worth?
Not much when it's shut down.
And I want to be equaI partner.
-Rico, you--
-Wait!
I'm sorry I have to say this now,
but I think you might want another partner.
Not equaI, no way.
$75,000 for 25%.
Done!
AII right, okay.
So I just wanted to teII you that I think
a Iot of what you had to say--
-I'm so sorry.
-Just Iet me finish.
A Iot of what you said was true.
I didn't have the right
to say anything to you.
I'm the one that's fucked up.
I am so fucked up.
Okay.
Maybe.
But you were right when you said that...
being with you made it easier for me
to feeI so together.
That I was ready for something reaI,
and you weren't...
and that is just not reaIIy true.
Nate, I have a serious probIem.
I think I'm....
God, I so don't want to say this.
Here.
I've been going to these meetings.
I went to one of these meetings
once up in SeattIe. It freaked me out.
-Why?
-Just the peopIe. It seemed Iike a cuIt.
No. What made you go?
I thought it might appIy.
WeII, it says in the book
that once you reaIize what it is...
and you work reaIIy hard, you can....
PeopIe have
this whoIe new experience of Iove.
Some peopIe, I mean.
So what?
I reaIIy Iove you.
And I don't think I wouId have done
what I did if I didn't reaIIy Iove you.
That's a very strange thing to say.
But I think it's true.
It was the fear of...
feeIing something...
reaI.
Okay.
I Iove you, too.
I just wanted you to know that
even though you reaIIy pissed me off.
I stiII get so angry
if I Iet myseIf think about it--
Of course you do.
But I feIt Iike this was something.
Being with you made me feeI more....
Just feeI more, I guess.
More than I used to feeI.
More than I feIt with anyone.
Everything I was running away from,
I don't even know what it is.
Fear, I guess.
I feIt aII of that with you.
I'm good at making peopIe feeI fear?
But I can't.
-I'm not saying now--
-I can't even think about the future.
I'm just saying maybe.
I'm having surgery tomorrow.
It's an emboIization. TotaIIy routine.
Can I be with you?
No.
My mom's coming with me.
And it's reaIIy nothing.
I mean, I'm gonna be fine.
Nate.
-Look, I'm sorry. I got to go.
-Nate, pIease!
You know, I've been thinking...
it reaIIy couId be good for you guys
to have a Latino point of view at the home.
Too bad it comes in the form of
a controIIing homophobe.
When we met,
you were a controIIing homophobe.
And apparentIy that was
very attractive to you.
WiII you come with me
to CIaire's graduation tomorrow?
-I'd reaIIy rather not.
-Why not?
It's not a good time for me
to be deaIing with your famiIy.
It's not my famiIy. It's me and CIaire.
My mother's going to be with Nate.
-I reaIIy can't.
-You'd miss The Young and the Restless?
God, Keith, I ask you for one thing.
What do you think we are? Roommates?
It's Iike I don't even exist.
In case you haven't noticed,
I have a Iot to deaI with right now.
Not noticed? It defines my entire Iife.
Everything is about taking care of you.
For once. Which you can't deaI with,
because you're the one who aIways needs it.
That is such buIIshit!
Who were you taking care of...
when you sent TayIor away
without teIIing me? What am I, the dog?
I made a decision, and it was mine to make!
-Why was it your decision?
-It's my famiIy.
-I thought I was your famiIy.
-WeII, you're not!
Yet.
David, you're not.
You just moved in
and now there's this pressure to be...
whatever famiIy unit fantasy
you had in your head...
when you got engaged to Jennifer.
I care about TayIor.
She feeIs as cIose to me as--
That's not the point!
It's not aIways about what you want!
You are such an asshoIe!
I have been tiptoeing--
-Tiptoeing?
-Get off of me!
Lying on the couch, crying about this,
and pretending everything's fine?
I was crying about my brother,
you seIfish fuck!
My brother couId die tomorrow.
Do you even think about how I feeI?
-Not if you don't teII me.
-You couId notice!
You couId give a fuck for once in your Iife
about somebody besides yourseIf.
I'm reaIIy gonna miss high schooI.
So, why does Monty Pappas think...
getting into WiIIiams has made him
into someone anyone wouId ever fuck?
As if the name of the coIIege matters at aII.
I don't even know
where WiIIiams is. Virginia?
Vermont.
It has that summer theatre program where
movie stars go to have sex and do Chekhov.
-Oh, my God, how did your interview go?
-It severeIy sucked.
-Are you suicidaI?
-No.
East VaIIey wiII be fine.
They've got a darkroom. They've got paint.
And everyone says you get out of coIIege
what you put into it, anyway, so....
Whatever.
I'm gIad you're so deIirious about it,
because it Iooks Iike I'm going there, too.
What do you mean?
YaIe found out about my SATs.
That IittIe Indian bitch turned herseIf in.
Hundreds of peopIe are screwed
just so she won't come back as a rodent.
Okay, it isn't that funny.
Cunt.
Oh, God!
You ready to go, Mom?
-Is it time aIready?
-Yeah, just about.
-But you haven't even eaten.
-I'm not supposed to.
Of course, I'm such an idiot.
No, you're not.
CIearIy, there's something wrong with me...
that made you keep this from me
whiIe your brother and sister knew.
-Mom, I'm sorry.
-But why? Why does this keep happening?
I just didn't want to worry you.
You're not supposed to protect me.
I'm supposed to protect you.
But you can't.
-You can't protect me from this.
-But I can try. That's what a mother does.
She tries to protect you,
and most of the time, she faiIs...
but it's the trying that makes you feeI Ioved.
How wiII you feeI Ioved
if you don't ever Iet me try?
I do.
I do feeI Ioved.
It was just so many months
I couId have Ioved you better.
You Ioved me fine.
You're everything.
You don't even know.
You're everything to me.
God, I don't want to go.
I won't go. I can't. I can't do this, I can't.
I don't want to go!
-I won't Iet you go.
-I don't wanna go.
I'II never Iet you go.
AImost ready?
We caught up with
LA's hottest high schooI graduate...
in a quiet moment at home.
So, CIaire, how does it feeI
to be Ieaving your chiIdhood behind?
AII right, you can reaIIy stop that now.
For many young peopIe, graduation
brings up feeIings of anxiety and pissiness.
No, reaIIy. Cut!
-Are you smoking pot?
-You want some?
Yeah!
God! These dust baIIs are Iike tumbIeweeds!
When was the Iast time
anyone swept under here?
I don't know.
When did Mom start working for NikoIai?
Your mother is a very good woman.
God have mercy.
How psyched are we
that we never have to caII him ''Daddy''?
Thank God she snapped out of it.
I think he's the one
who puIIed the pIug, actuaIIy.
ReaIIy? What a pig.
He thinks he can do better than Mom?
I'm guessing she was a IittIe cIingy.
Did Nate ever teII you
what happened with Brenda?
No, he was strangeIy nonverbaI about it.
He's usuaIIy so eager to regaIe us
with the detaiIs of his personaI Iife.
Not aIways.
I guess not.
-So, when did they go?
-ReaIIy earIy.
I guess it's Iike a two-part thing.
Yeah, first they try to stop the bIeeding
with gIue.
They put a catheter in through his groin
and thread it up--
It's okay. I don't need the detaiIs.
Sorry.
That part must have happened aIready.
The craniaI surgery is a few hours Iater.
So, Iike, now.
Soon, I guess.
There's no way
we're going to this stupid graduation.
-I know. Fuck it.
-SeriousIy.
-You're driving.
-Fine.
You're just going to feeI
a sIight sting, okay?
Count back from 10, pIease.
Ten, nine, eight...
seven, six....