Party of Five (1994–2000): Season 4, Episode 19 - Go Away - full transcript

Bailey and Julia join an anxious Charlie for a weekend getaway at their parents winter vacation cabin at Lake Tahoe as he awaits the results of a crucial batch of medical tests. While a worried Charlie wonders if he will live, the getaway gives Bailey an opportunity to escape Annie's overwhelming neediness for him, and for Julia to seek a way to forget about Griffin's suspected infidelity with Rosalie. Back in San Francisco, Kirsten cares for Owen and Claudia who's concerned about Charlie's well being. Here, Claudia tells Kirsten that she's strongly considering going to a boarding school back east to get away from her troubled, long-neglected life. A frustrated Griffin spends more time than ever with Rosalie to forget about Julia. Also, Sarah tries to talk to a reluctant Annie about her drinking after finding her passed out on her apartment floor.

WHOA.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING UP?

IT'S--IT'S LATE. I FIGURED

YOU'D HAVE-- WHERE YOU BEEN?

UM...JUST...SAW THIS B-BAD DOUBLE FEATURE...

TONY PICKED.

HMM.

I, UM...

(CLEARS THROAT)

I FOUND THIS IN YOUR JACKET POCKET.

"SOMETHING'S HAPPENING."



WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

I DON'T KNOW. HMM.

I DON'T KNOW. LET ME SEE.

I DON'T KNOW. IT'S-- LOOKS LIKE IT'S...

PIECE OF PAPER, I, UH...

I MUST'VE FOUND SOMEWHERE AND PUT IT

IN MY POCKET.

IT'S A GIRL'S HANDWRITING, AND SOMEONE

DREW A FLOWER ON IT.

YEAH?

SO?

WHAT MOVIE DID YOU SEE?

WHAT?

TELL ME THE NAME OF THE MOVIE



AND WHERE IT WAS PLAYING. I MIGHT WANT TO GO

SEE IT TOMORROW.

PIECE OF ADVICE. TELL YOUR FRIEND TONY

NOT TO ANSWER THE PHONE

IF HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR ALIBI.

(SIGHS)

JULIA...

WHO WROTE YOU THIS NOTE, GRIFFIN?

WHO WROTE YOU THIS NOTE?!

ROSALIE. ROSALIE.

THE GIRL FROM THE SHOP?

GOD! THAT'S WHERE YOU WERE TONIGHT?

WE'RE-- WE'RE JUST FRIENDS.

THEN WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME? HUH?

WHY WOULD YOU LIE ABOUT WHERE YOU WERE

IF YOU'RE JUST FRIENDS?!

WHAT ARE YOU DOING, GRIFFIN? ARE YOU

CHEATING ON ME?

NO!

I DON'T BELIEVE YOU.

I MEAN--SHE'S A LITTLE FLIRTATIOUS.

I MEAN, I MIGHT'VE FLIRTED BACK, BUT--

UNTIL 2:00 IN THE MORNING.

NOTHING HAPPENED!

I'M NOT SLEEPING WITH HER.

I SWEAR TO GOD!

GET AWAY FROM ME. GO AWAY. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU.

COME ON. WE WERE JUST SPENDING

SOME TIME TOGETHER.

THINGS HAVE BEEN GOING SO BAD AROUND HERE,

IT REALLY JUST KINDA...

(SIGHS)

HAPPENED.

OH.

THE NURSE SAID THAT YOU GUYS

WERE...

OH, THAT'S OK. WE'RE FINISHED

HERE.

THIS WAS TOUGH. GO HOME.

GET SOME REST, OK?

YEAH. LIKE I'M GONNA SLEEP TONIGHT.

LOOK. I'M GONNA TELL YOU WHAT I TELL EVERYONE

IN YOUR POSITION.

THIS IS NOT THE FINAL ANSWER,

CHARLIE.

I COULD CALL AND SAY, "WE STILL HAVEN'T

GOTTEN EVERYTHING."

BUT THAT'S NOT A DEATH SENTENCE.

WE JUST...

REDOUBLE OUR EFFORTS.

MEANING...CHEMOTHERAPY AND A LOT MORE RADIATION.

LET'S CROSS THAT BRIDGE A LITTLE LATER.

RIGHT.

HEH.

THERE'S NO WAY I'M GONNA SLEEP TONIGHT.

WHEN WILL WE KNOW?

MMM, TOMORROW. DAY AFTER.

LOOK. TAKE HIM HOME. PAMPER HIM A LITTLE.

RENT A TON OF MOVIES.

I'LL CALL YOU AS SOON AS I KNOW.

OK.

(SIGHS)

KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED, OK?

ALL RIGHT.

♪ EVERYBODY WANTS TO LIVE ♪

♪ LIKE THEY WANNA LIVE ♪

♪ AND EVERYBODY WANTS TO LOVE ♪

♪ LIKE THEY WANNA LOVE ♪

♪ AND EVERYBODY WANTS TO BE ♪

♪ CLOSER TO FREE ♪

HEY.

HOW'S HE DOING? IS HE--

TIRED. HE'S TIRED.

WELL, WHAT'D THE DOCTOR SAY?

LOOK, I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT, OK?

OK.

SO HOW'RE YOU DOING?

I MEAN I DON'T WANT TO TALK.

(SIGHS)

JULIA--

I MEAN I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU.

I JUST CAME TO GET SOME OF MY STUFF.

HE'S GONNA BE OK, BAILEY.

GOD. LISTEN TO ME.

I MEAN... HOW DO I KNOW THAT?

RIGHT? I MEAN, I--I DON'T.

I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO BASE THAT ON

EXCEPT HOW MUCH I WANT FOR IT

TO BE TRUE.

THANK YOU...

FOR SAYING THAT.

I'M GONNA HEAD UPSTAIRS AND CHECK ON--

(KNOCK ON DOOR)

HEY. I WAS JUST ON MY WAY UP--

GOD. YOU'RE HERE? I--I THOUGHT YOU

SAID HE WASN'T HERE.

WELL, HE WASN'T WHEN YOU CALLED.

YOU CALLED? WHY? WHAT'S--

YOU SAID YOU'D BE HOME

BY 5:30.

WELL, I JUST-- I GOT HOME A FEW

MINUTES AGO,

AND I CAME TO GET A SHIRT FOR WORK.

WHAT'S WRONG?

I'VE BEEN UP THERE WATCHING THE HANDS

GO AROUND THE CLOCK,

AND I'VE JUST BEEN THINKING I JUST

HAD TO MAKE IT

UNTIL YOU GOT HOME.

MY GOD, DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH PEOPLE

DRINK ON SOAP OPERAS?

AND IT'S, LIKE...

I WAS JUST WAITING FOR...YOU TO COME HOME

SO THAT YOU COULD-- WHAT?

I DON'T KNOW.

LIKE, TAKE THE CASH OUT OF MY WALLET

SO I CAN'T GO TO A BAR.

YOU CAN'T DO THAT. YOU CAN'T PUT THAT

ON ME.

I CAN'T NEED YOU?

LOOK, LET'S GO UPSTAIRS--

NO! ANSWER ME!

I'M NOT ALLOWED TO NEED YOU?

YOU CAN'T NEED ME TO STAY SOBER...

BECAUSE WHAT IF CHARLIE GETS BAD NEWS. HUH?

WHAT IF THOSE TEST RESULTS

COME BACK

AND THEY SAY THAT THE CANCER

IS STILL THERE?

WHAT THEN? HUH? WHEN--WHEN

I CAN'T BE WITH YOU

BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE THERE WITH HIM?

LOOK, I JUST, UH...

(SIGHS)

I CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT YOU, BAILEY.

LISTEN TO ME. YOU HAVE TO.

YOU HAVE TO BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE YOU

BETTER, ANNIE.

YES, YOU CAN.

NO, I CAN'T! THAT ISN'T

THE WAY IT WORKS,

SO STOP ASKING ME TO!

I JUST--

JUST STOP. (DOOR CLOSES)

KNOCK KNOCK.

WHO'S THERE?

ME.

YOU? NO. SEE, OWEN, THE WHOLE POINT OF

KNOCK-KNOCK JOKES IS...

(RING)

KNOCK KNOCK.

OWEN, CUT IT OUT. WHO'S THERE?

RABBITS.

(CHUCKLES)

RABBITS. VERY FUNNY.

HELLO.

OH. DR. RABIN. I--

AN IRREGULARITY? WHAT-- WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

IT MEANS WE HAVE TO RUN A GALLIUM SCAN,

RUN A FEW MORE TESTS TO GET A CLEARER PICTURE.

NO. I MEAN...

WHAT--WHAT COULD A SPOT ON THE CAT SCAN INDICATE?

WELL, IT COULD BE EVIDENCE OF SOME

REMAINING SCAR TISSUE--

THE TISSUE THAT HELD THE TUMOR IN PLACE

BEFORE IT WAS RADIATED.

OR IT COULD MEAN--

THE CANCER'S STILL THERE. THE RADIATION DIDN'T WORK.

IT WOULD BE PREMATURE TO CONCLUDE THAT.

BUT IT'S POSSIBLE.

CHARLIE, THERE'S NO POINT GOING DOWN

THAT ROAD UNTIL--

I'M ASKING YOU. IS IT POSSIBLE?

IT'S POSSIBLE.

BUT IT'S UNLIKELY.

(SIGHS)

I'M 28 YEARS OLD, DOCTOR.

GETTING CANCER IN THE FIRST PLACE

WAS UNLIKELY.

UNLIKELY'S NOT MUCH OF A COMFORT ANYMORE.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?

WHAT?

I...I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU RIGHT NOW.

(SIGHS)

GOTTA GO TO THE BATHROOM,

JULIA.

WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO, PEE

OUT IN THE BACKYARD?

HIDE IN THE SHED?

HEY, I'M HIDING IN THE HOUSE. YOU

CAN HIDE IN THE SHED.

I HAVE TO EAT. I HAVE TO SHOWER

AND DO MY LAUNDRY.

RIGHT. RIGHT. THAT'S TRUE.

SO I DON'T KNOW, UM, MAYBE YOU

SHOULD...LEAVE.

(SIGHS)

LEAVE.

WELL, I CAN'T BE IN THE SAME ROOM

WITH YOU RIGHT NOW,

AND YOU'RE RIGHT. YOU CAN'T LOCK YOURSELF

IN THE SHED, SO--

WAIT. AREN'T-- AREN'T WE EVEN GONNA

TALK ABOUT THIS?

LOOK, I WANT YOU TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED

WITH ME AND ROSALIE...

AND WHY.

YOU'RE THE ONE THAT'S ALWAYS SAYING WE

SHOULD TALK THINGS OUT.

PLEASE?

DON'T!

DON'T TOUCH ME AFTER YOU'VE BEEN

WITH SOMEONE ELSE. GOD!

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?

'CAUSE I HAVE GOT...

THERE IS TOO MUCH GOING ON RIGHT NOW.

ALL OF THIS STUFF WITH CHARLIE,

AND I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT.

AND I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF,

AND BEING NEAR YOU MAKES IT SO MUCH WORSE.

SO, WHAT? WHAT, WE'RE JUST DONE?

I HAVE NO IDEA.

I CAN'T THINK ABOUT THAT.

ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO LEAVE, AND I'LL FIGURE

THE REST OUT LATER.

Bailey: HEY, MAN.

Claudia: WHERE YOU BEEN?

NOPLACE. JUST...

OUT.

SO...YOU HEAR ANYTHING FROM THE DOCTOR YET?

WHAT? NO.

IT'S PRETTY LATE.

GUESS YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO WAIT

ANOTHER DAY, HUH?

YEAH.

SO ARE YOU OK WITH THAT?

NO, I'M NOT. I'M GOING CRAZY.

I JUST...I GOTTA...

I DON'T KNOW. I GOTTA DO MORE

THAN JUST HANG OUT

AND WAIT FOR THE PHONE AND SIT UP IN THAT ROOM

ALL NIGHT LONG.

SO WHY DON'T YOU GET OUTTA HERE THEN, MAN?

WHY DON'T YOU GO SEE A MOVIE OR

TAKE A DRIVE OR SOMETHING?

I'LL STAY HERE.

BESIDES, JULIA AND GRIFFIN

WILL BE HERE. WHAT?

I WAS JUST TELLING CHARLIE THAT HE SHOULD GET

OUTTA HERE FOR A WHILE

IF HE WANTS... TAKE A NIGHT OUT.

THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEAN. THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.

I MEAN, I NEED TO REALLY GET AWAY.

AWAY AWAY, LIKE, JUST DRIVE UNTIL

I RUN OUTTA GAS.

YOU KNOW? GO SOMEPLACE IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE.

YEAH, LIKE THAT CABIN WE USED TO GO TO WHEN

WE WERE KIDS, OUTSIDE TAHOE.

OH, MAN, THAT'S EXACTLY IT.

WELL, SO?

YOU SHOULD GO.

IF YOU WANT, I'D GO WITH YOU, 'CAUSE

I'M WITH YOU, MAN.

I WOULD LOVE TO GET OUTTA HERE

FOR A LITTLE WHILE.

ME, TOO. SOMEWHERE WHERE NO ONE CAN FIND US

IN, LIKE, A SECOND.

OK.

(CHUCKLES)

SO, LET'S... LET'S JUST DO IT.

THAT CABIN'S GOTTA STILL BE THERE, RIGHT?

YEAH. START PACKING, CLAUD.

NO. I MEAN, I CAN'T.

I MEAN, I'M BUSY. I'VE GOT LOTS

OF STUFF TO DO.

CLAUD, COME ON.

CHARLIE, WE TALKED ABOUT THIS.

NOW I...NEED SOME TIME TO MYSELF.

YOU GUYS SHOULD DEFINITELY GO. I'LL GET KIRSTEN

TO STAY WITH ME AND OWEN,

AND...I DON'T CARE.

ACTUALLY, I MIGHT KINDA LIKE IT.

SO? WE GOING AWAY?

FAR AWAY.

WHOA. BLAST FROM THE PAST, HUH?

GOD. IT IS EXACTLY THE SAME.

ACTUALLY, I THINK THE COUCH IS NEW.

NOPE.

HA HA! LOOK AT THIS.

MONOPOLY, PARCHEESI, SCRABBLE.

I BET YOU THEY STILL HAVE, UM...

YEP. VALLEY OF THE DOLLS.

MY INTRODUCTION TO ADULT FICTION.

YOU DIDN'T COME OUT OF YOUR ROOM

FOR 3 DAYS.

(CHUCKLES)

OK.

GROCERIES, BEDS, FIREWOOD.

WHO DOES WHAT?

UHH!

YOU GOTTA PACK IT DOWN REAL HARD.

YEAH, LIKE THAT. THAT'S GOOD.

THAT'S REALLY GOOD.

HA HA HA!

AHH...

(KIDS LAUGH AND CHAT, INDISTINCTLY)

OH, YEAH?

(PANTING AND CHUCKLING)

OWEN, YOU WANT TO HELP ME OPEN

THE MAIL?

HEY, ANYTHING FOR ME?

UH...I'LL CHECK.

AN APPLICATION TO OWN A NEW CREDIT CARD...

AN APPLICATION TO REFINANCE

YOUR HOME...

"PHILLIPS ACADEMY."

THAT'S FOR ME.

ANDOVER, HUH? ISN'T THAT

A PREP SCHOOL?

UH-HUH.

THAT LOOKS LIKE AN APPLICATION.

IT IS. I, UH... I SENT AWAY.

THANKS.

MASSACHUSETTS, RIGHT?

YEP.

WHAT KIND OF NIMROD NAMES A FOOD PRODUCT

"GORP"?

LIKE, THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE APPETIZING?

I MIGHT AS WELL JUST HAVE JUST NAMED IT...

"ZARD" OR...

"QUIF."

HELL, "BARF" WOULD BE A BETTER NAME THAN--

WHA--HEY!

CHARLIE.

WASN'T ME, MAN. YOU HOOKED IT.

I DID?

YEAH. SEE, IT'S ALL IN THE WRIST.

YOU GOTTA...

AAH! OH, THAT'S FUNNY, THAT?

THAT'S VERY FUNNY.

HEY, HEY, HEY! BAY, BAY, BAY,

BAY, BAY!

SHE STARTED IT. I WAS JUST HELPING HER

WITH HER TECHNIQUE.

NO! AAH!

SOME BIG BROTHER YOU ARE. YOU

ARE GETTIN' IT.

NO FAIR. NO WAY! NO WAY! YOU CAN'T HIT ME!

I'VE GOT CAN...

CER!

HA HA HA! OW!

HA HA! AAH!

(ALL LAUGHING)

AAH!

HA HA HA HA!

OHH! HA HA HA!

AAH!

AAH! UHH!

HA HA HA!

HA HA HA! HA HA HA!

(KNOCK ON DOOR)

UH, IT--IT'S SARAH.

I--I WAS JUST--

WELL, I HAD SOME-- SOME RENT NOTICES

TO DELIVER ON THIS FLOOR, SO I JUST

THOUGHT I'D...

YOU THOUGHT YOU'D WHAT?

CHECK UP ON ME?

UH, NO. NO. WHY WOULD I--

BAILEY'S GONE. I KNOW. I CALLED THE HOUSE,

AND KIRSTEN TOLD ME.

OK, SO I JUST WANTED TO SEE HOW YOU ARE.

CAN I, UM... CAN I COME IN?

N-NO.

ANNIE, LOOK, I'M-- I'M WORRIED ABOUT YOU...

AND ABOUT NATALIE.

NO, NATALIE IS FINE.

LOOK, I DO HAVE SOME IDEA OF WHAT YOU'RE GOING

THROUGH, YOU KNOW.

I MEAN, I-- I WAS WITH BAILEY

ALL LAST YEAR THROUGH PRETTY MUCH

EVERYTHING.

AND I KNOW THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN'T

FIGHT ALL BY YOURSELF.

THAT'S NOT WHAT BAILEY THINKS.

LOOK, CAN I JUST, UM... AT LEAST DRIVE YOU

TO A MEETING?

OR SOMETHING, YOU KNOW? OR LOOK AFTER NATALIE

WHILE YOU'RE THERE?

NO. LOOK, WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO FIND YOURSELF SOME OTHER

LITTLE PROJECT TO DO?

OK? LIKE HELP SOMEBODY WITH THEIR LOCK OR...

OR THEIR PLUMBING OR SOMETHING? OK?

(SIGHS)

COULD I, UH...

HI.

SO I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO.

WHAT'S GOING ON?

I'VE JUST...

JUST BEEN WALKING.

BEEN WALKING AROUND ALL NIGHT.

I HAVEN'T SLE-- I HAVEN'T SLEPT.

(SIGHS) SHE KICKED ME OUT.

WHAT? YEAH.

JULIA. SHE, UH...

(SNIFFLES)

SHE FOUND THAT THING, THAT NOTE YOU WROTE.

OH, MAN. WOW.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE HER UNDERSTAND

WHAT'S GOING ON HERE...

WITH YOU AND ME.

AND I TOLD HER IT'S NOT WHAT SHE THOUGHT IT WAS,

BUT SHE--SHE DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR IT.

IT'S LIKE SHE-- SHE WANTS TO BELIEVE

THE WORST.

SO SHE THINKS THAT YOU AND ME ARE--

NO, IT'S NOT LIKE SHE HASN'T DONE

SOME THINGS, TOO...

THINGS THAT I FORGAVE HER FOR.

OR AT LEAST... TRIED TO UNDERSTAND.

NOTHING'S ENTIRELY THE OTHER PERSON'S

FAULT.

(SIGHS)

GOD.

SHE HASN'T WANTED ME IN SUCH A LONG TIME.

(SIGHS)

AND THEN THERE YOU WERE, AND YOU--

YOU...

AND I DID.

AND I DO.

WANT YOU.

(SIGHS)

YOURS GOOD?

REALLY GOOD.

YOURS?

GREAT SCHLOCK.

(CHUCKLES)

THE SCHLOCKIEST.

MM-HMM.

TIME CHECK.

7:00.

IT IS NOT.

YEAH! IT IS NOT 7:00.

IT IS. IT'S 7:00?

WHERE DID THE DAY GO, HUH?

IT'S DINNERTIME. MMM.

(SIGHS)

(SIGHS)

YOU THINK WE SHOULD CALL HOME...CHECK IN?

I DON'T KNOW.

THEY'VE GOT THE NUMBER HERE.

DON'T THEY?

SO IF THERE'S A REAL PROBLEM,

SOMEBODY COULD CALL. KIRSTEN

WOULD CALL.

DEFINITELY.

SO... LET'S NOT CALL.

LET'S JUST LEAVE IT ALONE

FOR A LITTLE WHILE.

THAT'S NOT SO HORRIBLE,

IS IT?

Charlie: NO.

THAT IS A GOOD FIRE, BAY.

(CHUCKLES)

43...

44...

45...

46...

I DON'T SEE WHY

47... YOU'RE MAKING SUCH A

BIG DEAL OUT OF THIS.

I JUST--I WANT TO UNDERSTAND WHY YOU'RE APPLYING NOW.

'CAUSE NOW'S WHEN THE APPLICATIONS

ARE DUE. 50! TIME'S UP!

READY OR NOT! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

HERE I COME! WHY ARE YOU MAKING PLANS

TO LEAVE BEFORE WE KNOW?

BEFORE WE KNOW WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN WITH CHARLIE?

WHERE ARE YOU? YOU BETTER BE UPSTAIRS!

CHARLIE'D WANT ME TO GO

TO A GOOD SCHOOL.

NOT ONE THAT'S 3,000 MILES AWAY.

AM I GETTING HOT... OR COLD?

I CAN'T HELP IT IT'S IN MASSACHUSETTS.

UNLESS THAT'S THE APPEAL.

I MEAN...THERE'S GOING AWAY TO SCHOOL,

CLAUD...

AND THERE'S RUNNING AWAY...

WHICH IS WHAT YOU MIGHT DO WHEN IT'S TOO SCARY

TO STAY HERE

AND NOT KNOW HOW THINGS ARE GONNA TURN OUT...

NOT KNOW IF YOUR BROTHER'S

GONNA BE OK.

WHERE'D YOU GUYS GO?

Claudia.

WHERE ARE YOU?

WE'RE IN HERE, OWEN!

(KNOCK ON DOOR)

MY MOMMY FELL ASLEEP...

ON THE FLOOR.

SHE FELL ASLEEP, AND I CAN'T WAKE HER UP.

SO?

WHAT? THIS AS GOOD AS DAD'S?

BETTER, IF YOU ASK ME.

TWICE THE GARLIC.

YOU GUYS WANT ANY MORE?

UHH, PASS.

(SIGHS)

(SIGHS)

YOU OK, CHARLIE?

JUST... GETTING TIRED,

THAT'S ALL.

YEAH? WELL, THEN WE'RE GONNA

HAVE TO DO SOMETHING

TO WAKE YOUR BUTT UP, THEN.

HOW ABOUT A GAME OF RISK?

NO. YOU GUYS PLAY.

THE WHOLE REASON FOR COMING UP HERE WAS

TO GET YOUR MIND OFF STUFF.

YEAH, BUT I'M JUST... I'M JUST NOT REALLY

FEELING THAT GREAT.

I GOT IT. REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME

CHARLIE BABY-SAT FOR US?

THE SNOWSTORM.

10 MINUTES AFTER MOM AND DAD LEFT,

IT STARTS BLIZZARDING OUT.

AND ALL THE LIGHTS WENT OUT. WHERE

DID THEY GO AGAIN?

TO THE MOVIES. AND WE COULDN'T

REACH THEM, REMEMBER?

AND WE FREAKED ON YOU. AND YOU TRIED EVERYTHING

TO DISTRACT US.

YOU TRIED FOOD, STORIES, EVERYTHING.

YOU REMEMBER WHAT YOU FINALLY DID?

MM-MMM.

HOW ABOUT A LITTLE INDOOR LASER BEAM

SNOWBALL WAR?

THE CABIN WAS A SOAKING MESS,

BUT WE LAUGHED TILL THE ELECTRICITY

CAME BACK ON.

(SIGHS)

I'M JUST--I'M JUST NOT REALLY IN THE MOOD,

YOU GUYS.

I KNOW. WELL, MAYBE THIS'LL CHANGE YOUR MOOD.

IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE.

WELL, CAN'T YOU JUST TRY? I MEAN, IT WORKED BEFORE.

IT'S NOT LIKE BEFORE. OK? IT DOESN'T--

IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE IT WORKED

WHEN WE WERE KIDS.

YOU CAN'T--YOU CAN'T JUST DISTRACT ME. I--

I'M SICK NOW.

WE KNOW THAT.

NO, YOU DON'T. (SIGHS)

NO IDEA.

I GOT SOME BAD NEWS.

THE, UM...

THE TEST RESULTS.

(SIGHS) THEY FOUND SOMETHING.

THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS,

BUT IT'S SOMETHING.

AND...

IT COULD BE BAD.

WHAT?

SO I DON'T WANT TO PLAY ANY MORE GAMES. OK?

I'M NOT SOME LITTLE KID WHO'S AFRAID OF THE DARK.

I MEAN, I WISH...I WISH...

I WISH THAT'S ALL THERE WAS TO BE AFRAID OF.

WOULDN'T THAT BE SIMPLE?

(SNIFFLES)

ANNIE. MOMMY, PLEASE

WAKE UP.

SWEETHEART. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO MAKE COFFEE?

INSTANT.

OK. MAKE SOME. A WHOLE POT. LOTS

AND LOTS OF SCOOPS.

AND, NATALIE, GET SOME TOWELS.

WHY? WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?

THIS.

UHH!

AAH!

STOP!

UHH!

CLAUDIA?

CLAUDIA?

I'M SLEEPING.

GO AWAY.

I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THIS,

BUT...

I'M GOING TO SET UP ANOTHER APPOINTMENT FOR

YOU TO TALK TO SOMEONE.

I'M ALREADY DOING THAT.

I KNOW.

I THINK YOU NEED TO SEE

A NEW THERAPIST.

YEAH, WELL...WHAT'S THIS NEW THERAPIST

GONNA DO FOR ME?

TALK, MAINLY.

ABOUT WHATEVER YOU'RE AFRAID OF.

ABOUT CHARLIE DYING?

MAYBE.

PROBABLY.

TALK ABOUT HOW I'M GONNA HANDLE THINGS?

YOU KNOW, HOW I'M GONNA COPE WITH THINGS

IF--IF HE DIES?

YES.

MAYBE EVEN MAKE ME OK WITH IT?

IN TIME, CLAUD.

I HOPE SO.

WELL...

I DON'T WANT TO BE OK WITH IT.

'CAUSE IT'S NOT OK.

AND IT'S NEVER GONNA BE, SO...

I'M NOT JUST GONNA SIT THERE

AND LET SOMEONE TRY AND TELL ME

THAT IT IS,

SO YOU CAN JUST FORGET ABOUT IT.

THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT EVERYONE SAID WHEN

MY MOM AND DAD LEFT.

"TRY AND GET BACK TO NORMAL, CLAUDIA."

SO...SO I TRIED THAT.

I MEAN, I REALLY TRIED THAT,

AND I WAS DOING PRETTY GOOD AT IT,

BUT...THAT'S IT.

THAT'S...THAT'S IT.

I'M NOT DOING IT ANYMORE.

I'M NOT GONNA TRY AND BE OK WITH PEOPLE

LEAVING ME...

EVER AGAIN.

(SIGHING)

(SIGHS)

HOW IS HE?

IS HE ASLEEP?

DRIFTING OFF.

BAY, DID YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS?

ABOUT THE CAT SCAN?

NO.

DID YOU? (SIGHS)

GOD, WHAT WAS HE THINKING?

THAT HE COULD JUST WALK OUT OF THE HOUSE

AND GET IN THE CAR AND DRIVE AWAY

FROM ALL THIS?

JUST LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND?

HEY, I THOUGHT THE SAME THING.

IDIOT.

LIKE, A CHANGE OF SCENERY WAS REALLY

GONNA CHANGE ANYTHING.

WHAT DID YOU WANT IT TO CHANGE?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

ALL THIS STUFF WITH CHARLIE.

BUT YOU JUST SAID YOU DIDN'T KNOW

ABOUT THAT TILL NOW.

BAILEY?

WE NEED SOME MORE FIREWOOD.

BAILEY?

BAY.

WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU?

NOTHING.

(SIGHS)

ANNIE'S DRINKING AGAIN.

OH, NO.

BAY.

YEAH, AND... AND IT'S BAD.

IT'S REALLY BAD.

AND...LOOK AT ME.

I'M UP HERE. I JUST--I JUST...

LEFT.

YEAH, WELL, COME ON. IT'S A LOT TO HANDLE,

ESPECIALLY FOR SOMEONE WHO--

NO. I KNOW. I HAD TO GET OUTTA THERE.

IT WAS SELF-PRESERVATION FOR ME TO GET OUTTA THERE.

AND I WAS TAKING CARE OF MYSELF...

WHICH IS A GOOD THING.

ONLY...

ONLY?

ONLY WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I DID

SOMETHING WRONG?

'CAUSE THAT'S YOU, BAY.

WHY?

WHY IS THAT ME?

BECAUSE...

I WASN'T ALWAYS LIKE THIS...JULE.

I MEAN, YOU REMEMBER. WHEN I WAS, LIKE...

WHEN I WAS, LIKE, 15 YEARS OLD,

I WAS GETTING IN TROUBLE ALL THE TIME...

BLOWING OFF MY CURFEW...

WELL, THAT'S JUST BEING A KID.

YOU WERE A KID.

RIGHT.

AND THEN THEY DIED.

THEY CHECKED OUT, AND THE NEXT DAY,

I WAS... I WAS THIS...ADULT.

I WENT FROM BEING 15 ONE DAY

TO 45 THE NEXT.

BAILEY... AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

TO HELL WITH THEM.

BECAUSE MAYBE I COULD'VE BEEN SOMEONE ELSE.

AND THEN MAYBE I WOULDN'T BE BEATING MYSELF UP

OVER THIS THING...

OVER LEAVING HER. AND--AND MAYBE...

FOR A SECOND... I COULD ACTUALLY BELIEVE

THAT IT'S OK FOR ME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

I GET WHAT YOU'RE SAYING.

I DO.

I MEAN, MAYBE IT'S THE SAME WITH ME.

MAYBE IF THEY WERE STILL HERE,

I WOULDN'T BE IN SUCH A RUSH

TO DO EVERYTHING.

A RUSH TO DO WHAT?

ANYTHING.

EVERYTHING.

AND HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?

HUH?

I MEAN, GOD, DO YOU REMEMBER ME

IN JUNIOR HIGH?

I WAS ALWAYS LOOKING 5 YEARS AHEAD.

AND NOW...

NOW IT'S LIKE EVEN IMMEDIATE GRATIFICATION

TAKES TOO LONG.

I WANT WHAT I WANT NOW, TODAY,

'CAUSE WHO KNOWS WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN

TOMORROW?

SO IT'S LIKE...

I STOPPED THINKING THINGS THROUGH.

YOU KNOW?

I WENT OFF TO EUROPE...

TURNED DOWN STANFORD,

I GOT MARRIED.

YOU DON'T REGRET THAT, DO YOU?

I DID THAT...

(SIGHS)

SO FAST, BAILEY.

TOO FAST.

SO WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?

DO YOU THINK YOU MADE A MISTAKE?

I DIDN'T EVER THINK OF WHAT IT WOULD REALLY BE LIKE...

WHAT IT REALLY MEANT TO GET MARRIED.

I JUST...

LOVED HIM.

SO I SAID YES.

SO...

I GUESS ME AND CHARLIE AREN'T THE ONLY ONES

RUNNING AWAY...HUH?

LOOK, ANNIE, IT'S NOT LIKE I WANTED

THIS JOB, OK?

BUT NOW I KINDA FEEL LIKE IT'S MINE

BY DEFAULT.

YEAH, WELL-- ARE YOU GONNA

PROMISE ME

YOU'RE NOT GONNA GET IN A CAR

WITH NATALIE?

YOU GONNA PROMISE ME THAT YOU'RE NOT GONNA

GO TO LIGHT UP THE STOVE

AND COOK SOMETHING AND PASS OUT

LIKE YOU DID TONIGHT?

'CAUSE I'M SCARED... FOR NATALIE.

YOU NEED HELP.

I KNOW THAT.

YOU DON'T THINK I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT?

YOU DON'T THINK I HATE MYSELF

FOR BEING THIS WAY IN FRONT OF MY DAUGHTER?

BUT ALL THAT DOES IS MAKE ME WANT TO DRINK

SO I CAN STOP THAT FEELING.

AND ALL THAT DOES IS MAKE ME WANT TO HATE

MYSELF EVEN MORE.

I CAN'T EVEN GET MYSELF TO A MEETING.

WELL...

WELL, THEN YOU NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE.

YOU KNOW? YOU NEED TO...I DON'T KNOW,

CHECK YOURSELF INTO ONE OF THOSE

PROGRAMS OR SOMETHING.

YOU REALLY THINK SO?

YEAH.

ABSOLUTELY.

WELL, THAT'S GREAT.

I MEAN, WHERE AM I GONNA LEAVE NAT?

HOME...ALONE?

OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUST SEND HER OFF TO BE

WITH HER ALCOHOLIC FATHER.

MAYBE I SHOULD JUST CHECK HER

INTO A HOTEL.

GOD.

YOU...

YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS JUST NEAT AND SIMPLE,

DON'T YOU?

NO, I DON'T.

LISTEN TO ME.

THERE ARE GOOD ANSWERS FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE MONEY.

AND THERE ARE GOOD ANSWERS FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE PEOPLE

TO TAKE CARE OF THEM.

BUT THERE ARE NO GOOD ANSWERS FOR ME.

IT'S COLD. YOU BARELY

TOUCHED IT.

YOU WANT ME TO, UH, REHEAT IT

FOR YOU?

WHAT? UH, NO.

NO, I, UH...

IT'S--IT'S LATE. I BETTER GET GOING.

WHERE ARE YOU GONNA GO?

I DON'T KNOW. I GOTTA FIND A PLACE.

WHY? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FIND A PLACE?

(CHUCKLES)

NO.

I AM NOT STAYING HERE WITH YOU.

WHY?

BECAUSE. UH... FORGET IT.

'CAUSE I DON'T TRUST MYSELF.

WHY?

WHAT DON'T YOU TRUST YOURSELF

ABOUT?

COME ON.

OH...

OH, ROSALIE, I...

WHAT?

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

(SIGHS)

HURTING HER?

I DON'T KNOW.

WELL...I DON'T KNOW. IT'S...

IT'S CRAZY. I MEAN--

I--I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING, AND SHE'S TREATING ME

LIKE I DID, RIGHT?

RIGHT.

I MEAN, SHE KICKED ME OUT,

RIGHT? I MEAN...

SHE KICKED ME OUT. SHE KNEW WHERE

I WAS GONNA GO.

I MEAN, SHE ALREADY THINKS THAT WE'RE

DOING IT, RIGHT?

SO...

SO?

SO...

MMM...

MMM...

(TELEPHONE RINGS)

(GASPS)

IT'S 3:00 IN THE MORNING.

WHO COULD THAT BE?

SOMETHING'S HAPPENED.

CHARLIE, YOU GONNA GET IT?

HELLO?

I'M SORRY. WHO?

BAILEY?

NO. THERE'S NO ONE HERE BY THAT NAME.

WHAT NUMBER WERE YOU TRYING TO CALL?

YOU HAVE THE WRONG NUMBER.

YEAH.

WRONG NUMBER.

(SIGHS) MY HEART IS POUNDING.

GOD. PHONE CALLS IN THE MIDDLE

OF THE NIGHT, HUH?

THE PHONE USED TO RING ALL THE TIME

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

JUST MEANT...

DAD WAS HUNG UP AT THE RESTAURANT

OR MOM'S CAR BATTERY DIED AFTER REHEARSAL,

THAT'S ALL.

TILL THAT NIGHT.

Charlie: SOME...

POLICE OFFICER...

SERGEANT DUBROWSKI.

DARRYL DUBROWSKI...

SAYING...

"THERE'S BEEN AN ACCIDENT, SON."

SAYING IT REAL SLOW.

SAYING IT TWICE.

MARCH 22, 1994, AT 11:45.

(CHUCKLES)

THAT'S WHEN PHONE CALLS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

STOP BEING NOTHING.

AND NOTHING'S EVER BEEN NOTHING SINCE,

YOU KNOW?

DON'T SEE YOUR BROTHER WHEN YOU PULL UP

TO DAYCARE.

HE'S BEEN KIDNAPPED.

YOUR SISTER GETS HOME LATE FROM A--

FROM A MUSIC LESSON.

SHE GOT HIT BY A BUS.

DOCTOR TELLS YOU YOUR TEST RESULTS

TURNED UP AN IRREGULARITY...

AND YOU'RE GONNA DIE.

'CAUSE THAT'S THE WAY LIFE WORKS, YOU KNOW?

I KNOW THAT NOW.

CHARLIE...

COME ON, MAN.

DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF.

DID I DO IT TO MYSELF?

I DON'T KNOW, BAY. FOR 24 YEARS,

I BELIEVED THAT EVERYTHING ALWAYS

TURNED OUT OK.

AND THEN MARCH 22, 1994,

HAPPENED.

AND NOW I DON'T.

PAPER GOT WET.

SAYS IT SNOWED IN TAHOE LAST NIGHT.

5 INCHES.

I BET YOU IT'S PRETTY UP THERE,

DON'T YOU THINK?

(SIGHS)

YOU KNOW WHAT, CLAUDIA?

I SPENT 5 YEARS DOING GRADUATE WORK

IN CHILD PSYCHOLOGY.

AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO MAKE THIS

BETTER FOR YOU.

I'VE BEEN DOING THIS THING LATELY.

I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING,

AND I TELL MYSELF...

THAT HE'S GONE.

CHARLIE.

I TELL MYSELF THAT HE'S DEAD.

(CHUCKLES)

THEN I GO ABOUT MY DAY...

SEEING HOW THAT FEELS.

YEAH.

YEAH, I DO THAT ALL THE TIME...

EVERY DAY.

IT'S LIKE IF WE GET TO THAT BAD PLACE FIRST,

WE CAN GET USED TO HOW IT FEELS

TO BE THERE.

WE CAN PREPARE OURSELVES.

THE TRUTH IS...

(SNIFFLES)

WE CAN'T.

WE CAN'T KNOW HOW IT'S GONNA FEEL

UNTIL IT HAPPENS.

THE ONLY THING THAT'S...

THAT'S GONNA MAKE IT BETTER...

IS IF WE KNOW THAT HE'S GONNA BE OK.

BUT YOU CAN'T SAY THAT HE WILL.

NO, I CAN'T.

SO I WON'T.

Bailey: THAT'S EVERYTHING?

IT'S EVERYTHING WE CAME WITH.

WHAT'S HE DOING?

HE'S MAKING ONE LAST CHECK.

OH.

WELL, WE REALLY CRAPPED UP OUR MEMORIES

OF THIS PLACE, HUH?

MMM.

MOM AND DAD WOULD BE PLEASED.

YEAH, WELL, IT SERVES 'EM RIGHT.

BAILEY, ENOUGH.

LET'S STOP DOING THAT, OK?

I DON'T WANT TO-- I DON'T WANT TO FEEL

THAT WAY ABOUT THEM.

I'M TIRED OF IT. AREN'T YOU TIRED

OF IT?

I DON'T KNOW.

YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE ALWAYS THOUGHT?

I THOUGHT THAT WHEN I GET TO BE

30 YEARS OLD,

I WILL HAVE BEEN ALIVE AS LONG WITHOUT THEM

AS I WAS WITH THEM.

AND THEN EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE...BECAUSE

ALL OF A SUDDEN,

MY LIFE WILL BE ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED

AFTER THEY DIED,

NOT ABOUT LOSING THEM.

AND THEN AFTER THAT... THEN WHATEVER HAPPENS

IS UP TO ME.

BUT THAT'S...STUPID. I MEAN, WHAT AM I

WAITING FOR?

(DOOR CLOSES)

IT'S EMPTY. I CHECKED.

SO YOU READY TO TAKE OFF, MAN?

YEAH.

HEY.

I'M SORRY ABOUT THIS.

WE SHOULDN'T HAVE BROUGHT YOU OUT HERE.

COME ON. THAT'S--

WE HAD GREAT TIMES HERE.

SO...WE WENT FOR IT AGAIN.

I WAS INTO THAT.

JUST...JUST WON'T COME BACK HERE ANYMORE.

(CHUCKLES)

IT'S WEIRD, HUH? IT'S LIKE YOU HAVE

THIS--

THIS GREAT TIME IN YOUR LIFE

BEFORE THE FIRST REALLY BAD THING

HAPPENS.

AND YOU HAVE THAT...

THAT KID FEELING, LIKE THE WORLD

IS COMPLETELY OPEN

AND...AND SAFE.

ONCE YOU LOSE THAT,

ONCE THAT FIRST BAD THING HAPPENS...

YOU NEVER GET IT BACK.

I GUESS EVERYBODY LOSES IT SOMETIME.

YEAH.

WE JUST LOST IT SOONER

THAN MOST.

I'LL DRIVE.

(SIGHS)

(MOTOR STARTS)

(CHILDREN'S VOICES, INDISTINCT)

OW!

(LAUGHING AND CHATTING)

(KNOCKING ON DOOR)

ANNIE.

(KNOCK KNOCK)

ANNIE, IT'S ME. ARE YOU THERE?

COME ON, OPEN UP.

(SIGHS)

OK, LOOK, ANNIE, I'M BACK.

I'M BACK, AND I'M NOT GOING

ANYWHERE,

SO LET'S JUST DEAL WITH THIS, OK?

(KEYS JINGLING)

ANNIE? ANNIE?

HEY.

HEY. YOU'RE BACK.

YEAH.

SARAH. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHERE--

ANNIE?

YEAH.

SHE LEFT ABOUT AN HOUR AGO.

SHE LEFT. LEFT FOR WHERE?

TO HALEDON.

YOU KNOW, DOWN THE COAST?

IT'S SUPPOSED TO HAVE A REALLY GOOD IN-PATIENT

PROGRAM FOR ALCOHOLISM.

SHE CHECKED HERSELF INTO A REHAB?

OHHH...GOD.

THAT'S...

AND--AND WITHOUT-- SHE TOOK NATALIE

WITH HER?

NO.

N--

NO? SHE--

SHE CONKED OUT KINDA EARLY.

SHE'S HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF DAYS.

ANNIE ASKED IF YOU'D WATCH HER?

ACTUALLY... I VOLUNTEERED.

CAN I HELP--

IS HE HERE?

HE'S IN THE BACK.

JULIA.

WHAT ARE YOU-- I DON'T, UH,

KNOW WHAT I'M DOING,

OK? AND, UM...

I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT ANYTHING,

BUT I'VE BEEN THINKING A LOT, AND I THINK THAT WHATEVER

HAPPENED...

IT'S COMPLICATED.

IT'S PROBABLY NOT JUST YOUR FAULT.

OH, JULIA--

NO, LET ME FINISH.

IT'S PROBABLY MY FAULT, TOO.

I DON'T WANT TO KEEP BLAMING EVERYBODY

FOR THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO ME.

I DO THAT TOO MUCH.

ANYWAYS, UM...

HEH...

I'M NOT SAYING I FORGIVE YOU...

BUT YOU SAID YOU DIDN'T SLEEP WITH HER, SO...

I WANT YOU TO COME HOME WITH ME

SO WE CAN FIGURE STUFF OUT.

COME HOME WITH ME.

PLEASE.

Charlie: HEY, I'M HOME!

Kirsten: HI, CHARLIE, IF YOU'RE BEEPING IN,

I TOOK THE KIDS FOR CHINESE.

WE SHOULD BE BACK BY 7:00. OWEN, NO,

DON'T PLAY WITH THE--

THE LEAST YOU COULD'VE DONE IS REMEMBER THE DOGGY BAG.

CHARLIE.

HEY.

YOU'RE BACK. WH-- IS EVERYTHING OK?

EVERYTHING'S FINE.

WE JUST, UH, DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO COME HOME.

Answering Machine: HELLO, CHARLIE,

IT'S DR. RABIN.

IT'S, LET'S SEE, 5:45,

AND I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE

WITH THE LAB.

NOW YOU CAN REACH ME AT THE OFFICE UNTIL 6:30,

OR, UH, TELL YOU WHAT, LET ME GIVE YOU MY HOME NUMBER

IF YOU'RE BACK AFTER THAT.

IT'S 555-6827.

6827.

YOU GONNA CALL?

Kirsten: DO YOU WANT US TO...

NO. UM...

I'M GONNA...

DR. RABIN, IT'S, UH, IT'S CHARLIE SALINGER.

YES, I--

UH-HUH.

MM-HMM.

I'M SORRY. COULD YOU, UH, COULD YOU SAY THAT AGAIN?

(STIFLING TEARS)

NO, IT'S JUST, UM...

RIGHT. RIGHT.

COULD YOU...

(SNIFFLING)

I'M SORRY. C-COULD YOU JUST GIVE ME A SECOND HERE?

I'M BACK.

NO, IT'S--I'M OK.

IN FACT, UH, NEVER BETTER.