Nurses (2019–…): Season 1, Episode 8 - Achilles Heel - full transcript
"Patient presents reduced
Dorsiflexion in the foot
after being hit in the leg
with a baseball bat.
Which nerve is injured?"
Femoral!
Peroneal.
Okay, now that... that is what I meant.
"Name the major parasympathetic
neurotransmitter
for postganglionic fibers".
- Ah.
- Acetylcholine.
Wait. You didn't even look at the card.
Cards are for people who
don't know the answers.
Okay, give me that.
Hey, no, I got it. Hey, no,
I have to see if you're playing
fast and loose with the facts.
- Wow! Okay.
I thought the MCATs were
hard, but med school is like
doing them every week.
You could ask for an extension.
You've had a death in the family.
No. No. My, uh...
my cousin will want me
to keep going with this.
Yeah.
How do you even know
about this stuff anyway?
I studied every medical
book I could get my hands on,
so I could understand all the rules
- and how we work together.
- Why aren't you a doctor?
I'm wise to your avoidance tactics.
"What's a normal pC02?" Clock's ticking.
In medicine, we're trained to be fixers.
You have a problem, we have
a decision tree that leads
- straight to the solution.
- Code blue.
7 north, 2-3. Code blue.
Ezriel Schiff struck
by a car on a crosswalk.
Fractured femur,
possible arterial damage.
- He's been flirting with shock.
- Definite arterial damage;
- why isn't he in a tourniquet?
- It was stable at the time,
- I didn't want to lose the leg.
- Better than his life.
I know it hurts, Ezriel, but we're
gonna take care of you, okay?
- It's all my fault.
- No, no. Pedestrians have right of way.
No, he hit me because I skipped
temple to play basketball.
Are you saying to me he
did this to you on purpose?
Yes. God, He's punishing me.
Three, two, one, gah!
Who agrees to race a football star?
Ah! Aaah!
Done!
- Argh!
- And I shaved six seconds
off our record even with
your pass interference.
I should've never agreed to a rematch.
Consistency is the key to excellence.
Dr. Hamilton.
I have room for a surgical trainee
to assist in my appendectomy today.
I have a mother in active
labour, I can't leave her alone.
I'll talk to your charge nurse
and get your patients covered.
That's not necessary, really.
- It's no problem, Nazneen.
- She said no.
Is there a problem, Nurse?
Sure you have more important
things to do than coach Naz
in your surgery. We
all know how that ends.
I really am just busy today, Doctor.
That's a shame.
This was a good opportunity for you.
Hey, Grace. If you want
to report Dr. Hamilton
for sexual assault, I read up
on a few successful cases.
Any of them first-year nurses
against the CEO of a hospital?
Well, no, but there was
a lot of things in common.
Like, we got witnesses, we got
paper trails, we got lawyers.
- We got a lot of lawyers.
- Okay, wait.
Say we really pissed off Sinead,
what is the worst
thing she can do to us?
I don't know, like endless
night shifts hands down.
Wait, no, she can fire
us. She can fire us.
Dr. Hamilton already had
me fired once, remember?
If I do this, if...
timing is everything.
He cannot see it coming.
Dr. Hamilton knows you're talking.
What?! But that's impossible.
How?
I told him.
- Here's that sample you ordered.
- I didn't order...
What's up?
- Maya?
- Yeah.
Hi. I'm Keon. Uh, says here
- your parents are out of town.
- Yeah, Singapore.
When I turned 18, I finally
convinced them to go.
They've always been too
freaked out to travel
because of my thing.
Your chronic kidney disease?
- Mm-hmm.
- I stayed over just in case.
Everything was fine, and
then she just collapsed.
I called Maya's mom, and she
sent us straight to the ER.
The doctor's gonna want
to talk to your mother.
I convinced her not to jump
on the first flight home
until we knew more.
What is it?
Your lab results indicate
hemodynamic instability.
What does that mean?
It means Maya's kidney
stopped responding to dialysis.
She needs a transplant,
and the sooner the better.
Wait... So how much time do we have?
Uh, doctors
always said I won't
survive a week off dialysis.
It's not my job to put a number on that.
But I guess I better call my parents.
Maya needs a new kidney;
I've got two. Test me.
I'll be back.
I need more blood. Does
Surgery know we're coming?
No, you can't. I can't go to surgery!
I know it's scary, but we have
a great surgical team here.
- Will they cut off my leg?
- We're a little bit more
- focused on your life right now, bud.
- You don't understand.
I'm training for the
Maccabiah Games in Israel;
if God takes my leg, I
won't be able to play.
Promise me.
I'm not going in there
unless you promise me.
I promise we won't cut off your leg.
What a mess. Okay, let's
get him into the OR.
Donating an organ is a
big deal, so you've been
assigned your own medical
team to advocate for you.
Who's gonna advocate for Maya?
My job is to support
you in what you need
independent of your friend.
Where are your parents?
I don't want to alarm
my mom until I have to.
Give me time to formulate
my pitch, you know.
Okay. We will need
her approval to donate.
There are some long-term risks
that we all need to consider.
A procedure like this
can cause complications.
I don't care about the risks.
Maya is my best friend.
We met in first grade.
I used to beat her up
and take her lunch money.
Yeah. No, really. It
was not my best look.
And then one day, Maya cut me a deal:
she said if I let her keep her money
that she would sit
and eat lunch with me.
- Once a week.
- Haha!
Which is all I really wanted anyway.
How did she figure that out?
She gets me.
Always has.
I need her to be okay.
Ash, I need some advice.
I'm kind of like in this situation.
Yeah. I don't know how
much help I'm gonna be.
I've already broken rule
number one this morning.
Never mix coffee cups
with the urine cups.
Never promise your patient
anything and definitely don't
promise to save them from God's wrath.
What if he wakes up with one leg?
Whoever this patient is,
you need to transfer him.
You make bad choices around religion.
- I do not!
- Remember our road trip?
You threw a Gideon
Bible at a motel clerk,
and we had to sleep in the car.
That was different; he
was trying to convert us.
He's lucky all I threw
at him was a Bible.
- No, this is your blind spot, Ash.
- I'm already in neck-deep.
Well, good luck with that.
Wait, what was that thing
that you needed my advice on?
Well, you know what?
I'm gonna risk it with my
own compromised judgement.
Thank you very much.
Incoming mom. Only 21
weeks into her pregnancy,
- possible signs of labour.
- Is 21 weeks even viable?
21-weekers have a 90% mortality rate,
but if we can buy another
week, we triple her chances.
Otherwise, all we can provide
the baby is comfort care.
- "Comfort care"?
- That's the current policy.
Get her on magnesium
and corticosteroids.
We need to do everything we can
to make sure she does
not go into labour.
Code pink! Page NICU,
RT. I need an incubator
warmed up right now!
And get me a peds bag
and mask! Carol! Naz,
stay with Mom. Delivering this
early, likely to preeclampsia,
- and I'm not losing her too.
- She's not crying!
What's happening? Isn't
she supposed to be crying?
- Tell me she's okay!
- She's fading.
- How's old the baby?
- Too young to resuscitate.
Please, you have to save her.
She was fine until... until today.
In this hospital, the
baby's born at 21 weeks,
there's nothing we can do
except provide comfort care.
What is that?
We make the dying process
as painless as possible.
What?! I'm supposed to
just let my baby die?!
Are you sure about her age?
She's not 22 weeks?
She's 22 weeks. I swear!
She's 22 weeks! Baby's 22 weeks!
I did the math, she's 22 weeks old.
I thought she looked big for 21 weeks.
Prep to intubate for oscillator!
And where is NICU?
- Okay, come on.
- You, I will deal with you later.
I'm Dr. McGowan.
Are you Ezriel's father?
He saved my leg. Thank you, Nurse.
You had a compound comminuted fracture,
so we repaired your artery
and stabilized the break.
The Creator giving you a second chance.
You know, God or the
miracle of modern medicine.
We'll have you back on
the court in no time.
You went to the basketball
court instead of shul?
Answer me please.
Yes. I know you warned
me that basketball will...
Will take you away from your shiva,
away from your studies, yes.
You'll have the next couple of
months to hit the books hard.
What with the physio
- and surgery.
- And a bone graft.
Uh, more surgery?
The graft, where does it come from?
It's called an allobone graft;
harvested from a deceased donor.
You want to put a
dead leg inside of me?!
Dead goyim leg from anyone?
- An Arab? A woman?
- Or, God forbid, an Arab woman.
Look, you can't be lugging
this metal cage around...
- No. I don't consent.
- Ezriel, without this next step,
you will never walk properly again.
Which means forget about basketball.
Which is obviously what He wants.
It's God who heals what He creates.
Lexi's not a match?
How did you know?
You get used to the bad-news face.
You need an O negative kidney;
Lexi is a B negative. I'm so sorry.
I shouldn't have gotten your hopes up.
Stop. I have been sick for years,
and no one else has
ever offered me a kidney.
- What's next?
- We just keep our eye
- on the transplant list.
- I have a week.
We both know my number's
not getting called.
Uh... look, my parents land tomorrow,
so you should get back to school.
Don't you sit around this awful place
waiting for me to kick it.
That is the stupidest
thing I've ever heard.
I'm not leaving you.
I wish I could say the same thing.
Grace. Grace.
I hear you have a rare B neg kidney.
Uh, yeah. My patient wants
to save her friend, but
the recipient is O neg.
I taught you better than that.
Step back and take a God's eye
view. Lexi Grant just gave you
exactly what you need.
I have a domino set up
and ready to go. It just needs
a B neg kidney to kick it off.
So, if Lexi donates her
kidney to the domino,
then Maya gets the
kidney that she needs?
Yeah. As long as the HLA
testing is compatible.
What do I have to do to make it happen?
I'll take care of it. Oh!
By the way, I could use
your help with something.
What exactly?
I need your help to put an
end to those rumours about me.
- Rumours?
- I know that last surgery
really shook you up, and
you're still making sense of it.
But you know me,
I'm not a bad guy.
So if I do this for you
and trigger this domino,
whatever that story
is will go away, right?
Yeah, of course.
Great.
Kyle, is one of the many patients,
waiting for a kidney.
His mom was tested,
but she's not a match.
- And I know how she feels.
- But there is a patient
who Kyle's mom does
match at City General.
So if she donates to another patient,
then we can build a
domino chain long enough
to loop all the way back to Kyle again.
- Wow!
- Dr. Hamilton
needs a B negative kidney,
like yours, to close the loop.
You donate your kidney to Kyle,
and then Maya gets a kidney
from someone else in the domino.
So Maya doesn't get my kidney,
- but she gets someone's kidney?
- That's right.
And with your kidney, we
can save six lives this way.
For this to work, the surgery needs
to happen almost immediately.
Yeah, I'm in.
What do I have to do?
Well, this is the part where
you need your mom's okay.
She doesn't even know I'm here yet.
Uh... Hey, Red, how's your day going?
Huh?
Right. So...
- What the hell is this?
- Okay, man.
You already paid me for the
stuff I gave you, we're good.
This is your advance on
your next delivery, okay?
A little something
to inspire expediency.
- That was a one time thing.
- Haven't you seen any movie ever?
Once you're in,
- you're in.
- Look, man, I was desperate;
that doesn't mean I'm gonna
be syphoning drugs for you.
Look at my face. I know
I look soft and cuddly,
I get it, but my bosses, not so much.
Red... Shit.
The preemie is stable for now. Mom?
Resting, trying to get her strength up
- to visit her baby this evening.
- If her baby lives that long.
I know she has an uphill
battle ahead of her...
The reason we don't resort
to medical intervention
with 21-weekers is because the
procedures are extremely painful,
and most of the time, they still die.
So we just throw in the towel?
Ebola has a 10% survival rate;
should we just send the patients home?!
A micro preemie can't
consent, and it can't say no.
They cry for us to stop, but don't know
why we're hurting them.
Some people think
comfort care is the most
compassionate medicine.
But what do you think?
There's no easy answer.
But her lungs are two little rocks,
and she's got a hole in her heart;
you're walking Mom through next steps.
Naz...
... a mother's instincts,
nothing beats them.
So when did my daughter
start talking about donating
- a kidney?
- Her surgeon's in there,
- he'll answer any questions you have.
- Thank you.
You're okay working
with Dr. Hamilton again?
Why did you have to tell him?
I just... I just thought
if he knew someone was
watching, he'd think twice
- about trying anything else.
- Who exactly is watching?
A couple of junior nurses?
I didn't mean to make things worse.
He traded me this domino to put
an end to the rumours about him.
Wait. Now he's trying to silence you?
- Grace, you can't let him win.
- He already has.
But if Maya's gonna get
the kidney she needs,
then maybe some good can come of it.
Where's your father?
He went to see if there's anything
kosher in the vending machine.
There's barely anything edible in there.
Look, without this surgery,
your leg will heal six inches shorter.
You will never be able
to play basketball again.
How can I live with myself
knowing I went against God?
And my father, he'll never accept me.
So, this isn't just about God.
You're worried you'll
disappoint your dad.
Okay.
In First Samuel,
King David was starving.
He went into the temple
and ate the bread of
Presence off of the altar.
Now, that was the holiest of bread,
it belonged to God, but He
understood that David had
a human need that superseded devotion.
God will understand this too.
He heals, but He also forgives.
- Interesting theory.
- Aba.
The nurse knows First Samuel,
very illuminating.
I'd like to hear more.
The nurse is right here.
He can't acknowledge you.
Well, in that case,
I have other patients.
If you'll excuse me.
You could end up on dialysis or even
on the transplant list yourself.
Any major surgery
requires recovery time.
For some patients,
it can take up to a year.
- Whose side are you on?
- If you do this,
it means to be in full
appreciation of the risks.
The possibility of damage
to the nearby organs,
some patients have allergic reactions...
- But I'm healthy.
- It's true,
- Lexi is a strong candidate.
- Sweetheart, you're 17,
and you have your
whole life ahead of you.
If you do this, it
could cost you 10 years.
If Maya doesn't get a
kidney, she dies now.
I'm sorry.
My answer's no.
You're telling me, you've
never convinced a parent,
to let a kid undergo a risky treatment?
When it was in the
patient's best interest.
But for an elective surgery,
you don't stand a chance.
Lexi's gonna turn 18 next
year, and then she won't
need permission, but Maya's
not gonna live that long.
My kids are the reason I got sober.
No way I'd let Ella donate a kidney.
If I give the okay and she ended
up with organ damage or worse...
And what if Ella needed the kidney?
Hmm?
Then, I'd move heaven and
earth to get it to her.
Sorry. I can't cry
in front of Maya, so...
Believe me, I have cried
in this bathroom.
These walls can hold a lot.
I just can't handle this feeling.
The fix, it's right here,
but I can't...
You're doing all the right things.
She's still gonna die.
I can drive at 17;
how many kids die in car accidents?
And yet somehow, I'm not old enough
to know that saving Maya's
life it's worth the risk.
Hmmm...
there might be one
last thing we could try.
It's called a consent
and capacity hearing.
You're taking me to court?
- Is this a joke?
- It's not court,
- it's a mediation.
- They'll hear Lexi's side first
- and then yours.
- My daughter could die on that table.
This is how the hospital
resolves disagreements
- about medical care.
- This is not a disagreement!
It's not even a discussion! Lexi,
I'm in charge until you're 18!
Which the board will
take into consideration.
- Oh, what...
- If she dies,
and I could have done
something to help her,
I will never forgive you.
I don't care if you don't like me...
as long as you're safe.
Before we were friends,
I was...
I was so angry.
I had no one.
Mom, she saved my life.
I'm your mom, baby,
not hers.
If the board sides with you,
then I will accept their decision,
but I have to try.
Owen. Bella's boyfriend.
- Got here as fast as I could.
- Nazneen, her nurse.
Your baby was born very early.
I'm afraid the odds
are not in her favour.
There are some things that we
can do to improve her chances,
but we need to decide right now
what level of intervention
you're prepared to take.
She's not breathing properly,
so she's on a oscillator.
But she'll need surgery.
It's invasive and... very painful.
But this surgery, it'll save her life?
It may keep her alive
for a couple of days,
but she'll need a string
of procedures like this...
Stop. Please.
Someone in the NICU said that
she only has a 10% chance.
10%
and she'll be suffering the whole time.
To be clear, she won't
survive without this operation.
But with it,
- we're not sure either?
- We don't have much experience
treating preemies this small.
We're gonna torture her,
and then she's gonna die.
That's cruel.
- So we leave her to die?
- No.
No, no. She'll be with us.
And we'll be together
as a family until she...
She'll know that we love her.
What if she's a fighter
- and then we let her go?
- How do we live
with ourselves knowing that
we made her last hours hell?
But she still has a chance!
Maybe, but...
Whatever. I won't be a part of this.
She is fighting for her life,
and you won't even have my back?
We can try again.
Stay with us.
I'm sorry.
I'm here to convince the
sick to let me heal them
on the Lord's behalf,
and to check your vitals.
Thank you.
I'm sorry to cause you so much trouble.
I should have just gone to
temple like we agreed, Aba.
Loyalty to our community
is how we express
our loyalty to the Almighty.
He was trying to get your attention.
Or maybe you got hit by a car
because some people
shouldn't be driving.
She doesn't think He has
anything to do with this?
No, she thinks God delivered
your son into hands that can help.
Look, you're not gonna
- turn into a pillar of salt.
- Job was also tested.
Except nobody's testing anybody here;
- it was an accident.
- Nothing is an accident.
I'm grateful my son is alive,
I am, but a leg is not a life.
As a father, I want what's best for him,
and that includes his eternal soul.
Look, you love your son,
I can see that,
without a bone graft,
Ezriel will never walk properly again.
Whether our actions are in alignment
with His teachings is meaningless
if they're not made of our free will.
This choice is up to you.
Trust in medicine or in prayer.
This domino could save six lives,
but each transplant
is dependent on the next.
He's been waiting on a miracle
from someone who cares
just a little bit.
Someone like Lexi Grant.
You have raised a daughter
who is independent and empathetic
and wise beyond her physical age.
She's lived with Maya
through all the ups and
downs of her chronic illness,
and she fully appreciates
the risks of what she's asking
to do. I'd like to ask the board
to consider that,
and that we respect this
young woman's autonomy.
- Any word from the hearing?
- Not yet.
But there are a whole lot
of people who care about you
trying really hard to
make the right decision.
It doesn't matter if
they rule against me.
If there's a kidney out in the
world for me, Lexi will find it.
She's certainly leaving
no stone unturned.
Lexi needs to do everything she can.
What about what you need?
I... needed a kidney
for a long time... doesn't
mean I'm gonna get one.
Must be hard having
this big thing you need
- taking up all the attention.
- I trust Lexi.
She's the only person I've ever met
that never lies to me.
They ruled in your favour!
Haha!
- You paged me?
- Yeah.
Approval forms linking
Lexi to the domino.
Just needs your signature.
We knocked the hearing out of the park.
Now comes the fun part.
Thanks to your persuasive
flair, I'm sure.
Well, the board loved me.
They make a great audience.
This is a non-disclosure agreement.
Yeah, that's standard procedure
between two hospitals
that are collaborating.
Protects both parties from
throwing the other under the
bus should something go wrong.
But this covers every surgery
that I've ever done with you.
Sure, but...
you agreed to this before
we started the domino.
Did we have this conversation?
Our handshake?
The surgery was my side of the deal;
now it's yours.
Are you having trouble remembering?
No.
No, my memory is perfect.
I got a page to triage.
A patient asked for you by name.
Mom.
Ashley! Hi!
- Ohhh...
- What's wrong? You look...
- ... fine actually.
- I'm in town
shopping for your sister's
dress, and I thought,
"Why don't I just drop by
and see you in your element".
This is a hospital. For sick people.
I know, but you haven't
returned any of my calls.
I know, I-I know. It's
been... I've been busy.
I'm sorry.
Well, Christa's wedding
is two weeks away.
You'll be there?
I don't have my... my schedule yet;
it's hard to know with work.
You love your sister.
You... wouldn't miss her wedding
for a job, right?
Yeah, this is, uh... I-I can't
do this right now, Mom.
People are dying on my shift.
- Alright, okay.
- When would be a good time?
Because I drove all the way
into town just to see you.
I thought you were here
shopping for a wedding dress.
I have a break in 15.
- Meet me in the café.
- Sure.
That side will be very tender
after the surgery.
You may not be able to lift that arm
for a couple of months afterwards.
Remember, this is scary for her too.
Hey.
I'm sorry I disobeyed you. I had to.
You know, the first time
that I rushed you to the ER,
I thought... "What is wrong with me,
letting my 3-year-old
play on the monkey bars?"
- But I loved the monkey bars.
- I know.
And when I stopped boosting you up,
you would just ask a
stranger to help you instead.
I guess I am pretty predictable.
I like to think unstoppable.
Uh, which kidney are
they going to be taking?
I was actually going to
mark it for the surgeon.
If you would like to help me.
Anywhere here is fine.
Alright, let's get this party started.
My daughter loves that film;
- I should get her the book.
- She can have mine.
Ah, you don't need to do that.
No, really, I just
finished it. She'll love it.
You don't even know her.
She can give my book a second life.
Like you're giving me.
Okay, Maya, I'm gonna
take you down to surgery.
And your parents will be
there when you wake up.
- Lexi!
- Hey.
- You're ready for this?
- Mm-hmm.
It's the last chance
to change your mind.
Let's go kick some kidney ass.
So, why are you so
eager to welcome this guy
into our family? He's so boring.
That's a mean thing to say
about your brother-in-law.
He's over at the house every
weekend fixing something.
So that's all it takes?
Would that have worked
with all of the girls
that I've liked too?
Hmm, you know what?
Let's not talk on empty stomachs.
Heavenly Father, we thank you
for what we are about to receive.
Shower Ashley with your love,
remind her that you have a plan for her.
She has so much to offer
in service to you, Lord,
and I just ask that...
you help her find happiness.
Amen.
What was that? What was that, Mom?
You were always such a happy child.
Remember?
I just want you to be happy.
You know, I-I am happy.
I've worked really hard to
build my life; you just...
you-you don't want to see
the things that make me happy
- or the people.
- Okay.
I don't give you enough credit.
Thank you.
I see you in those scrubs
working in this big hospital, and...
... this is God's work.
I brag about you to all my friends.
And the truth is we're all sinners,
but you're still the
daughter that I raised.
You're right, I am.
So all of this shame,
this feeling that deep-down
no matter what I do,
there is something wrong
with me for who I love...
... that's your voice in my head, Mom.
It doesn't belong to me.
Hey.
I usually call my sisters
for advice about women,
but I can't get ahold of any of
'em, and I'm kind of in a bind.
Dude, I know I'm pretty, but come on.
Shut up, okay? Man,
I... I totally blew it
today with Grace.
I never should have said
anything to Dr. Hamilton.
Look, I don't know what
Grace is going through,
but when I was a sick kid,
friends would send my
dad helpful suggestions.
Like tips on parenting?
Nope. Like tips on
leukemia: diets, yoga,
shark cartilage. What
they didn't understand
is that we were going
through that every day
or that no outsider was
gonna find a solution
within five minutes of Googling cancer
that we hadn't already tried.
Was there anything friends could
have done to actually help?
Honestly? Just hanging out with me
while everything sucked would have
made things a little less scary.
I can do that.
My man.
- My surgical team, they're done.
- Congrats, man!
Yeah, yeah. Thank you!
Did it work?
- You were brilliant.
- I need to see her.
- I'll see if she's awake.
- Okay.
What?
Maya, she didn't make it.
- How is she doing?
- She's stable.
Any word from Maya's surgical team?
It's not clear yet,
but they had problems ventilating her.
Couldn't oxygenate her.
How did all of this go sideways?
Grace, make damn sure Lexi
knows she did everything right.
Where's Maya?
- Maya didn't wake up.
- What do you mean?
She suffered a pulmonary arrest
- during surgery.
- No.
She didn't make it,
sweetie, I'm so sorry.
Why?
I'm so sorry.
Just put two fingers on
her chest, she'll know
- you're here.
- Will I hurt her?
Skin-on-skin therapy
is the best tool we have
to heal micro preemies.
All these machines,
did I do the right thing?
I know my baby is dying...
... but what am I supposed to do?
There's a little girl in San Antonio...
... born at 21 weeks.
The doctors had to revive her twice.
She survived a heart operation,
and then both her lungs collapsed.
She had five blood transfusions
But she just started the first grade,
and she's fine.
At 9 p.m.,
your baby will have made it
through the first 12 hours...
... and that's huge.
Uh, hey.
Dev...
Do you need more help
studying for your exams?
No, no, I came to see you.
I'd... I'd like to
take you out to dinner.
Like...
as a friend or... a date?
Or a thank you for all your help.
But mostly a date, yeah.
I'd like that.
There is one thing I've
been thinking about.
You asked me why I'm not a doctor.
Yeah, yeah. You're smart enough.
So, nursing is for people who
can't cut it in med school?
No. No. Hey, look, uh...
doctors are nothing without nurses,
but nurses are...
support staff.
My job isn't to support you, Dev;
it's to support my patients.
What if it was the worst day
of your life and no one cared?
Like, people ignore you, walk on by
or they fire empty clichés,
like, "You'll get through it"
as they back away.
You need so much for someone
to just look you in the eye
and say, "You're right,
this is shit, it hurts,
but it's okay if you fall apart a little
because I've got you".
The day Veer OD'ed,
the doctors abandoned us
because there was nothing
they could do to fix it.
Yeah, I was... so scared.
But then you were there.
Because I'm a nurse.
I thought we had this one.
I know. I thought Maya
was out of the woods,
that all we had to do
was get her to surgery.
The hearing, the transplant,
all of that and none of it mattered.
Hey, that's not true. Five
people went home healthy
because of Lexi's bravery.
- Just not her person.
- No.
Not her person.
Grace, I was wrong about Dr. Hamilton.
You're the expert here,
so whatever you need to do
or not do, I'm in your corner.
I just got my life back,
but pretending like nothing
happened is killing me.
I feel you because no matter
what you do, you're screwed.
Yeah.
Then if you're screwed either way,
Grace, you can just
do whatever you want.
What do we do when
we can't save someone?
When faced with a battle
that can't be won?
How do we put one foot
in front of the other
knowing it can't be fixed?
Can we be brave enough
to walk with someone
wherever their journey leads?
Can we be strong enough to hold them
when their world is ending?
Can we be soft enough
to love the person left behind...
... even if that person is yo?
All we can do is our best.
Grace, that's mine.
No, it's not.
Grace, give it to me.
Grace!
Grace!
Dorsiflexion in the foot
after being hit in the leg
with a baseball bat.
Which nerve is injured?"
Femoral!
Peroneal.
Okay, now that... that is what I meant.
"Name the major parasympathetic
neurotransmitter
for postganglionic fibers".
- Ah.
- Acetylcholine.
Wait. You didn't even look at the card.
Cards are for people who
don't know the answers.
Okay, give me that.
Hey, no, I got it. Hey, no,
I have to see if you're playing
fast and loose with the facts.
- Wow! Okay.
I thought the MCATs were
hard, but med school is like
doing them every week.
You could ask for an extension.
You've had a death in the family.
No. No. My, uh...
my cousin will want me
to keep going with this.
Yeah.
How do you even know
about this stuff anyway?
I studied every medical
book I could get my hands on,
so I could understand all the rules
- and how we work together.
- Why aren't you a doctor?
I'm wise to your avoidance tactics.
"What's a normal pC02?" Clock's ticking.
In medicine, we're trained to be fixers.
You have a problem, we have
a decision tree that leads
- straight to the solution.
- Code blue.
7 north, 2-3. Code blue.
Ezriel Schiff struck
by a car on a crosswalk.
Fractured femur,
possible arterial damage.
- He's been flirting with shock.
- Definite arterial damage;
- why isn't he in a tourniquet?
- It was stable at the time,
- I didn't want to lose the leg.
- Better than his life.
I know it hurts, Ezriel, but we're
gonna take care of you, okay?
- It's all my fault.
- No, no. Pedestrians have right of way.
No, he hit me because I skipped
temple to play basketball.
Are you saying to me he
did this to you on purpose?
Yes. God, He's punishing me.
Three, two, one, gah!
Who agrees to race a football star?
Ah! Aaah!
Done!
- Argh!
- And I shaved six seconds
off our record even with
your pass interference.
I should've never agreed to a rematch.
Consistency is the key to excellence.
Dr. Hamilton.
I have room for a surgical trainee
to assist in my appendectomy today.
I have a mother in active
labour, I can't leave her alone.
I'll talk to your charge nurse
and get your patients covered.
That's not necessary, really.
- It's no problem, Nazneen.
- She said no.
Is there a problem, Nurse?
Sure you have more important
things to do than coach Naz
in your surgery. We
all know how that ends.
I really am just busy today, Doctor.
That's a shame.
This was a good opportunity for you.
Hey, Grace. If you want
to report Dr. Hamilton
for sexual assault, I read up
on a few successful cases.
Any of them first-year nurses
against the CEO of a hospital?
Well, no, but there was
a lot of things in common.
Like, we got witnesses, we got
paper trails, we got lawyers.
- We got a lot of lawyers.
- Okay, wait.
Say we really pissed off Sinead,
what is the worst
thing she can do to us?
I don't know, like endless
night shifts hands down.
Wait, no, she can fire
us. She can fire us.
Dr. Hamilton already had
me fired once, remember?
If I do this, if...
timing is everything.
He cannot see it coming.
Dr. Hamilton knows you're talking.
What?! But that's impossible.
How?
I told him.
- Here's that sample you ordered.
- I didn't order...
What's up?
- Maya?
- Yeah.
Hi. I'm Keon. Uh, says here
- your parents are out of town.
- Yeah, Singapore.
When I turned 18, I finally
convinced them to go.
They've always been too
freaked out to travel
because of my thing.
Your chronic kidney disease?
- Mm-hmm.
- I stayed over just in case.
Everything was fine, and
then she just collapsed.
I called Maya's mom, and she
sent us straight to the ER.
The doctor's gonna want
to talk to your mother.
I convinced her not to jump
on the first flight home
until we knew more.
What is it?
Your lab results indicate
hemodynamic instability.
What does that mean?
It means Maya's kidney
stopped responding to dialysis.
She needs a transplant,
and the sooner the better.
Wait... So how much time do we have?
Uh, doctors
always said I won't
survive a week off dialysis.
It's not my job to put a number on that.
But I guess I better call my parents.
Maya needs a new kidney;
I've got two. Test me.
I'll be back.
I need more blood. Does
Surgery know we're coming?
No, you can't. I can't go to surgery!
I know it's scary, but we have
a great surgical team here.
- Will they cut off my leg?
- We're a little bit more
- focused on your life right now, bud.
- You don't understand.
I'm training for the
Maccabiah Games in Israel;
if God takes my leg, I
won't be able to play.
Promise me.
I'm not going in there
unless you promise me.
I promise we won't cut off your leg.
What a mess. Okay, let's
get him into the OR.
Donating an organ is a
big deal, so you've been
assigned your own medical
team to advocate for you.
Who's gonna advocate for Maya?
My job is to support
you in what you need
independent of your friend.
Where are your parents?
I don't want to alarm
my mom until I have to.
Give me time to formulate
my pitch, you know.
Okay. We will need
her approval to donate.
There are some long-term risks
that we all need to consider.
A procedure like this
can cause complications.
I don't care about the risks.
Maya is my best friend.
We met in first grade.
I used to beat her up
and take her lunch money.
Yeah. No, really. It
was not my best look.
And then one day, Maya cut me a deal:
she said if I let her keep her money
that she would sit
and eat lunch with me.
- Once a week.
- Haha!
Which is all I really wanted anyway.
How did she figure that out?
She gets me.
Always has.
I need her to be okay.
Ash, I need some advice.
I'm kind of like in this situation.
Yeah. I don't know how
much help I'm gonna be.
I've already broken rule
number one this morning.
Never mix coffee cups
with the urine cups.
Never promise your patient
anything and definitely don't
promise to save them from God's wrath.
What if he wakes up with one leg?
Whoever this patient is,
you need to transfer him.
You make bad choices around religion.
- I do not!
- Remember our road trip?
You threw a Gideon
Bible at a motel clerk,
and we had to sleep in the car.
That was different; he
was trying to convert us.
He's lucky all I threw
at him was a Bible.
- No, this is your blind spot, Ash.
- I'm already in neck-deep.
Well, good luck with that.
Wait, what was that thing
that you needed my advice on?
Well, you know what?
I'm gonna risk it with my
own compromised judgement.
Thank you very much.
Incoming mom. Only 21
weeks into her pregnancy,
- possible signs of labour.
- Is 21 weeks even viable?
21-weekers have a 90% mortality rate,
but if we can buy another
week, we triple her chances.
Otherwise, all we can provide
the baby is comfort care.
- "Comfort care"?
- That's the current policy.
Get her on magnesium
and corticosteroids.
We need to do everything we can
to make sure she does
not go into labour.
Code pink! Page NICU,
RT. I need an incubator
warmed up right now!
And get me a peds bag
and mask! Carol! Naz,
stay with Mom. Delivering this
early, likely to preeclampsia,
- and I'm not losing her too.
- She's not crying!
What's happening? Isn't
she supposed to be crying?
- Tell me she's okay!
- She's fading.
- How's old the baby?
- Too young to resuscitate.
Please, you have to save her.
She was fine until... until today.
In this hospital, the
baby's born at 21 weeks,
there's nothing we can do
except provide comfort care.
What is that?
We make the dying process
as painless as possible.
What?! I'm supposed to
just let my baby die?!
Are you sure about her age?
She's not 22 weeks?
She's 22 weeks. I swear!
She's 22 weeks! Baby's 22 weeks!
I did the math, she's 22 weeks old.
I thought she looked big for 21 weeks.
Prep to intubate for oscillator!
And where is NICU?
- Okay, come on.
- You, I will deal with you later.
I'm Dr. McGowan.
Are you Ezriel's father?
He saved my leg. Thank you, Nurse.
You had a compound comminuted fracture,
so we repaired your artery
and stabilized the break.
The Creator giving you a second chance.
You know, God or the
miracle of modern medicine.
We'll have you back on
the court in no time.
You went to the basketball
court instead of shul?
Answer me please.
Yes. I know you warned
me that basketball will...
Will take you away from your shiva,
away from your studies, yes.
You'll have the next couple of
months to hit the books hard.
What with the physio
- and surgery.
- And a bone graft.
Uh, more surgery?
The graft, where does it come from?
It's called an allobone graft;
harvested from a deceased donor.
You want to put a
dead leg inside of me?!
Dead goyim leg from anyone?
- An Arab? A woman?
- Or, God forbid, an Arab woman.
Look, you can't be lugging
this metal cage around...
- No. I don't consent.
- Ezriel, without this next step,
you will never walk properly again.
Which means forget about basketball.
Which is obviously what He wants.
It's God who heals what He creates.
Lexi's not a match?
How did you know?
You get used to the bad-news face.
You need an O negative kidney;
Lexi is a B negative. I'm so sorry.
I shouldn't have gotten your hopes up.
Stop. I have been sick for years,
and no one else has
ever offered me a kidney.
- What's next?
- We just keep our eye
- on the transplant list.
- I have a week.
We both know my number's
not getting called.
Uh... look, my parents land tomorrow,
so you should get back to school.
Don't you sit around this awful place
waiting for me to kick it.
That is the stupidest
thing I've ever heard.
I'm not leaving you.
I wish I could say the same thing.
Grace. Grace.
I hear you have a rare B neg kidney.
Uh, yeah. My patient wants
to save her friend, but
the recipient is O neg.
I taught you better than that.
Step back and take a God's eye
view. Lexi Grant just gave you
exactly what you need.
I have a domino set up
and ready to go. It just needs
a B neg kidney to kick it off.
So, if Lexi donates her
kidney to the domino,
then Maya gets the
kidney that she needs?
Yeah. As long as the HLA
testing is compatible.
What do I have to do to make it happen?
I'll take care of it. Oh!
By the way, I could use
your help with something.
What exactly?
I need your help to put an
end to those rumours about me.
- Rumours?
- I know that last surgery
really shook you up, and
you're still making sense of it.
But you know me,
I'm not a bad guy.
So if I do this for you
and trigger this domino,
whatever that story
is will go away, right?
Yeah, of course.
Great.
Kyle, is one of the many patients,
waiting for a kidney.
His mom was tested,
but she's not a match.
- And I know how she feels.
- But there is a patient
who Kyle's mom does
match at City General.
So if she donates to another patient,
then we can build a
domino chain long enough
to loop all the way back to Kyle again.
- Wow!
- Dr. Hamilton
needs a B negative kidney,
like yours, to close the loop.
You donate your kidney to Kyle,
and then Maya gets a kidney
from someone else in the domino.
So Maya doesn't get my kidney,
- but she gets someone's kidney?
- That's right.
And with your kidney, we
can save six lives this way.
For this to work, the surgery needs
to happen almost immediately.
Yeah, I'm in.
What do I have to do?
Well, this is the part where
you need your mom's okay.
She doesn't even know I'm here yet.
Uh... Hey, Red, how's your day going?
Huh?
Right. So...
- What the hell is this?
- Okay, man.
You already paid me for the
stuff I gave you, we're good.
This is your advance on
your next delivery, okay?
A little something
to inspire expediency.
- That was a one time thing.
- Haven't you seen any movie ever?
Once you're in,
- you're in.
- Look, man, I was desperate;
that doesn't mean I'm gonna
be syphoning drugs for you.
Look at my face. I know
I look soft and cuddly,
I get it, but my bosses, not so much.
Red... Shit.
The preemie is stable for now. Mom?
Resting, trying to get her strength up
- to visit her baby this evening.
- If her baby lives that long.
I know she has an uphill
battle ahead of her...
The reason we don't resort
to medical intervention
with 21-weekers is because the
procedures are extremely painful,
and most of the time, they still die.
So we just throw in the towel?
Ebola has a 10% survival rate;
should we just send the patients home?!
A micro preemie can't
consent, and it can't say no.
They cry for us to stop, but don't know
why we're hurting them.
Some people think
comfort care is the most
compassionate medicine.
But what do you think?
There's no easy answer.
But her lungs are two little rocks,
and she's got a hole in her heart;
you're walking Mom through next steps.
Naz...
... a mother's instincts,
nothing beats them.
So when did my daughter
start talking about donating
- a kidney?
- Her surgeon's in there,
- he'll answer any questions you have.
- Thank you.
You're okay working
with Dr. Hamilton again?
Why did you have to tell him?
I just... I just thought
if he knew someone was
watching, he'd think twice
- about trying anything else.
- Who exactly is watching?
A couple of junior nurses?
I didn't mean to make things worse.
He traded me this domino to put
an end to the rumours about him.
Wait. Now he's trying to silence you?
- Grace, you can't let him win.
- He already has.
But if Maya's gonna get
the kidney she needs,
then maybe some good can come of it.
Where's your father?
He went to see if there's anything
kosher in the vending machine.
There's barely anything edible in there.
Look, without this surgery,
your leg will heal six inches shorter.
You will never be able
to play basketball again.
How can I live with myself
knowing I went against God?
And my father, he'll never accept me.
So, this isn't just about God.
You're worried you'll
disappoint your dad.
Okay.
In First Samuel,
King David was starving.
He went into the temple
and ate the bread of
Presence off of the altar.
Now, that was the holiest of bread,
it belonged to God, but He
understood that David had
a human need that superseded devotion.
God will understand this too.
He heals, but He also forgives.
- Interesting theory.
- Aba.
The nurse knows First Samuel,
very illuminating.
I'd like to hear more.
The nurse is right here.
He can't acknowledge you.
Well, in that case,
I have other patients.
If you'll excuse me.
You could end up on dialysis or even
on the transplant list yourself.
Any major surgery
requires recovery time.
For some patients,
it can take up to a year.
- Whose side are you on?
- If you do this,
it means to be in full
appreciation of the risks.
The possibility of damage
to the nearby organs,
some patients have allergic reactions...
- But I'm healthy.
- It's true,
- Lexi is a strong candidate.
- Sweetheart, you're 17,
and you have your
whole life ahead of you.
If you do this, it
could cost you 10 years.
If Maya doesn't get a
kidney, she dies now.
I'm sorry.
My answer's no.
You're telling me, you've
never convinced a parent,
to let a kid undergo a risky treatment?
When it was in the
patient's best interest.
But for an elective surgery,
you don't stand a chance.
Lexi's gonna turn 18 next
year, and then she won't
need permission, but Maya's
not gonna live that long.
My kids are the reason I got sober.
No way I'd let Ella donate a kidney.
If I give the okay and she ended
up with organ damage or worse...
And what if Ella needed the kidney?
Hmm?
Then, I'd move heaven and
earth to get it to her.
Sorry. I can't cry
in front of Maya, so...
Believe me, I have cried
in this bathroom.
These walls can hold a lot.
I just can't handle this feeling.
The fix, it's right here,
but I can't...
You're doing all the right things.
She's still gonna die.
I can drive at 17;
how many kids die in car accidents?
And yet somehow, I'm not old enough
to know that saving Maya's
life it's worth the risk.
Hmmm...
there might be one
last thing we could try.
It's called a consent
and capacity hearing.
You're taking me to court?
- Is this a joke?
- It's not court,
- it's a mediation.
- They'll hear Lexi's side first
- and then yours.
- My daughter could die on that table.
This is how the hospital
resolves disagreements
- about medical care.
- This is not a disagreement!
It's not even a discussion! Lexi,
I'm in charge until you're 18!
Which the board will
take into consideration.
- Oh, what...
- If she dies,
and I could have done
something to help her,
I will never forgive you.
I don't care if you don't like me...
as long as you're safe.
Before we were friends,
I was...
I was so angry.
I had no one.
Mom, she saved my life.
I'm your mom, baby,
not hers.
If the board sides with you,
then I will accept their decision,
but I have to try.
Owen. Bella's boyfriend.
- Got here as fast as I could.
- Nazneen, her nurse.
Your baby was born very early.
I'm afraid the odds
are not in her favour.
There are some things that we
can do to improve her chances,
but we need to decide right now
what level of intervention
you're prepared to take.
She's not breathing properly,
so she's on a oscillator.
But she'll need surgery.
It's invasive and... very painful.
But this surgery, it'll save her life?
It may keep her alive
for a couple of days,
but she'll need a string
of procedures like this...
Stop. Please.
Someone in the NICU said that
she only has a 10% chance.
10%
and she'll be suffering the whole time.
To be clear, she won't
survive without this operation.
But with it,
- we're not sure either?
- We don't have much experience
treating preemies this small.
We're gonna torture her,
and then she's gonna die.
That's cruel.
- So we leave her to die?
- No.
No, no. She'll be with us.
And we'll be together
as a family until she...
She'll know that we love her.
What if she's a fighter
- and then we let her go?
- How do we live
with ourselves knowing that
we made her last hours hell?
But she still has a chance!
Maybe, but...
Whatever. I won't be a part of this.
She is fighting for her life,
and you won't even have my back?
We can try again.
Stay with us.
I'm sorry.
I'm here to convince the
sick to let me heal them
on the Lord's behalf,
and to check your vitals.
Thank you.
I'm sorry to cause you so much trouble.
I should have just gone to
temple like we agreed, Aba.
Loyalty to our community
is how we express
our loyalty to the Almighty.
He was trying to get your attention.
Or maybe you got hit by a car
because some people
shouldn't be driving.
She doesn't think He has
anything to do with this?
No, she thinks God delivered
your son into hands that can help.
Look, you're not gonna
- turn into a pillar of salt.
- Job was also tested.
Except nobody's testing anybody here;
- it was an accident.
- Nothing is an accident.
I'm grateful my son is alive,
I am, but a leg is not a life.
As a father, I want what's best for him,
and that includes his eternal soul.
Look, you love your son,
I can see that,
without a bone graft,
Ezriel will never walk properly again.
Whether our actions are in alignment
with His teachings is meaningless
if they're not made of our free will.
This choice is up to you.
Trust in medicine or in prayer.
This domino could save six lives,
but each transplant
is dependent on the next.
He's been waiting on a miracle
from someone who cares
just a little bit.
Someone like Lexi Grant.
You have raised a daughter
who is independent and empathetic
and wise beyond her physical age.
She's lived with Maya
through all the ups and
downs of her chronic illness,
and she fully appreciates
the risks of what she's asking
to do. I'd like to ask the board
to consider that,
and that we respect this
young woman's autonomy.
- Any word from the hearing?
- Not yet.
But there are a whole lot
of people who care about you
trying really hard to
make the right decision.
It doesn't matter if
they rule against me.
If there's a kidney out in the
world for me, Lexi will find it.
She's certainly leaving
no stone unturned.
Lexi needs to do everything she can.
What about what you need?
I... needed a kidney
for a long time... doesn't
mean I'm gonna get one.
Must be hard having
this big thing you need
- taking up all the attention.
- I trust Lexi.
She's the only person I've ever met
that never lies to me.
They ruled in your favour!
Haha!
- You paged me?
- Yeah.
Approval forms linking
Lexi to the domino.
Just needs your signature.
We knocked the hearing out of the park.
Now comes the fun part.
Thanks to your persuasive
flair, I'm sure.
Well, the board loved me.
They make a great audience.
This is a non-disclosure agreement.
Yeah, that's standard procedure
between two hospitals
that are collaborating.
Protects both parties from
throwing the other under the
bus should something go wrong.
But this covers every surgery
that I've ever done with you.
Sure, but...
you agreed to this before
we started the domino.
Did we have this conversation?
Our handshake?
The surgery was my side of the deal;
now it's yours.
Are you having trouble remembering?
No.
No, my memory is perfect.
I got a page to triage.
A patient asked for you by name.
Mom.
Ashley! Hi!
- Ohhh...
- What's wrong? You look...
- ... fine actually.
- I'm in town
shopping for your sister's
dress, and I thought,
"Why don't I just drop by
and see you in your element".
This is a hospital. For sick people.
I know, but you haven't
returned any of my calls.
I know, I-I know. It's
been... I've been busy.
I'm sorry.
Well, Christa's wedding
is two weeks away.
You'll be there?
I don't have my... my schedule yet;
it's hard to know with work.
You love your sister.
You... wouldn't miss her wedding
for a job, right?
Yeah, this is, uh... I-I can't
do this right now, Mom.
People are dying on my shift.
- Alright, okay.
- When would be a good time?
Because I drove all the way
into town just to see you.
I thought you were here
shopping for a wedding dress.
I have a break in 15.
- Meet me in the café.
- Sure.
That side will be very tender
after the surgery.
You may not be able to lift that arm
for a couple of months afterwards.
Remember, this is scary for her too.
Hey.
I'm sorry I disobeyed you. I had to.
You know, the first time
that I rushed you to the ER,
I thought... "What is wrong with me,
letting my 3-year-old
play on the monkey bars?"
- But I loved the monkey bars.
- I know.
And when I stopped boosting you up,
you would just ask a
stranger to help you instead.
I guess I am pretty predictable.
I like to think unstoppable.
Uh, which kidney are
they going to be taking?
I was actually going to
mark it for the surgeon.
If you would like to help me.
Anywhere here is fine.
Alright, let's get this party started.
My daughter loves that film;
- I should get her the book.
- She can have mine.
Ah, you don't need to do that.
No, really, I just
finished it. She'll love it.
You don't even know her.
She can give my book a second life.
Like you're giving me.
Okay, Maya, I'm gonna
take you down to surgery.
And your parents will be
there when you wake up.
- Lexi!
- Hey.
- You're ready for this?
- Mm-hmm.
It's the last chance
to change your mind.
Let's go kick some kidney ass.
So, why are you so
eager to welcome this guy
into our family? He's so boring.
That's a mean thing to say
about your brother-in-law.
He's over at the house every
weekend fixing something.
So that's all it takes?
Would that have worked
with all of the girls
that I've liked too?
Hmm, you know what?
Let's not talk on empty stomachs.
Heavenly Father, we thank you
for what we are about to receive.
Shower Ashley with your love,
remind her that you have a plan for her.
She has so much to offer
in service to you, Lord,
and I just ask that...
you help her find happiness.
Amen.
What was that? What was that, Mom?
You were always such a happy child.
Remember?
I just want you to be happy.
You know, I-I am happy.
I've worked really hard to
build my life; you just...
you-you don't want to see
the things that make me happy
- or the people.
- Okay.
I don't give you enough credit.
Thank you.
I see you in those scrubs
working in this big hospital, and...
... this is God's work.
I brag about you to all my friends.
And the truth is we're all sinners,
but you're still the
daughter that I raised.
You're right, I am.
So all of this shame,
this feeling that deep-down
no matter what I do,
there is something wrong
with me for who I love...
... that's your voice in my head, Mom.
It doesn't belong to me.
Hey.
I usually call my sisters
for advice about women,
but I can't get ahold of any of
'em, and I'm kind of in a bind.
Dude, I know I'm pretty, but come on.
Shut up, okay? Man,
I... I totally blew it
today with Grace.
I never should have said
anything to Dr. Hamilton.
Look, I don't know what
Grace is going through,
but when I was a sick kid,
friends would send my
dad helpful suggestions.
Like tips on parenting?
Nope. Like tips on
leukemia: diets, yoga,
shark cartilage. What
they didn't understand
is that we were going
through that every day
or that no outsider was
gonna find a solution
within five minutes of Googling cancer
that we hadn't already tried.
Was there anything friends could
have done to actually help?
Honestly? Just hanging out with me
while everything sucked would have
made things a little less scary.
I can do that.
My man.
- My surgical team, they're done.
- Congrats, man!
Yeah, yeah. Thank you!
Did it work?
- You were brilliant.
- I need to see her.
- I'll see if she's awake.
- Okay.
What?
Maya, she didn't make it.
- How is she doing?
- She's stable.
Any word from Maya's surgical team?
It's not clear yet,
but they had problems ventilating her.
Couldn't oxygenate her.
How did all of this go sideways?
Grace, make damn sure Lexi
knows she did everything right.
Where's Maya?
- Maya didn't wake up.
- What do you mean?
She suffered a pulmonary arrest
- during surgery.
- No.
She didn't make it,
sweetie, I'm so sorry.
Why?
I'm so sorry.
Just put two fingers on
her chest, she'll know
- you're here.
- Will I hurt her?
Skin-on-skin therapy
is the best tool we have
to heal micro preemies.
All these machines,
did I do the right thing?
I know my baby is dying...
... but what am I supposed to do?
There's a little girl in San Antonio...
... born at 21 weeks.
The doctors had to revive her twice.
She survived a heart operation,
and then both her lungs collapsed.
She had five blood transfusions
But she just started the first grade,
and she's fine.
At 9 p.m.,
your baby will have made it
through the first 12 hours...
... and that's huge.
Uh, hey.
Dev...
Do you need more help
studying for your exams?
No, no, I came to see you.
I'd... I'd like to
take you out to dinner.
Like...
as a friend or... a date?
Or a thank you for all your help.
But mostly a date, yeah.
I'd like that.
There is one thing I've
been thinking about.
You asked me why I'm not a doctor.
Yeah, yeah. You're smart enough.
So, nursing is for people who
can't cut it in med school?
No. No. Hey, look, uh...
doctors are nothing without nurses,
but nurses are...
support staff.
My job isn't to support you, Dev;
it's to support my patients.
What if it was the worst day
of your life and no one cared?
Like, people ignore you, walk on by
or they fire empty clichés,
like, "You'll get through it"
as they back away.
You need so much for someone
to just look you in the eye
and say, "You're right,
this is shit, it hurts,
but it's okay if you fall apart a little
because I've got you".
The day Veer OD'ed,
the doctors abandoned us
because there was nothing
they could do to fix it.
Yeah, I was... so scared.
But then you were there.
Because I'm a nurse.
I thought we had this one.
I know. I thought Maya
was out of the woods,
that all we had to do
was get her to surgery.
The hearing, the transplant,
all of that and none of it mattered.
Hey, that's not true. Five
people went home healthy
because of Lexi's bravery.
- Just not her person.
- No.
Not her person.
Grace, I was wrong about Dr. Hamilton.
You're the expert here,
so whatever you need to do
or not do, I'm in your corner.
I just got my life back,
but pretending like nothing
happened is killing me.
I feel you because no matter
what you do, you're screwed.
Yeah.
Then if you're screwed either way,
Grace, you can just
do whatever you want.
What do we do when
we can't save someone?
When faced with a battle
that can't be won?
How do we put one foot
in front of the other
knowing it can't be fixed?
Can we be brave enough
to walk with someone
wherever their journey leads?
Can we be strong enough to hold them
when their world is ending?
Can we be soft enough
to love the person left behind...
... even if that person is yo?
All we can do is our best.
Grace, that's mine.
No, it's not.
Grace, give it to me.
Grace!
Grace!