Nurse Jackie (2009–2015): Season 5, Episode 10 - Soul - full transcript
Previously on Nurse Jackie...
Then where are we at?
The don't tell
anyone at work part.
I'd like to break up with you.
Whoa. Whoa.
Please, leave me alone.
Can I ask a question? Shoot.
Are you guys having sex?
Okay, so you were just
studying and taking drugs
with a boy you lied about
not seeing anymore?
Yeah, Mom.
I took something and I still did
everything I was supposed to do.
You know what
that's like, right?
Actually, I've got to
go. Kevin is here and...
Whoa, whoa, whoa. It's after
midnight and Kevin's there?
I love you.
Yeah, I got to go.
I think the girls
should live with you.
Grace is using drugs.
I don't think she
should be with me.
We're not there yet.
I think we are.
Car's all packed.
One for the road?
Been cooking all morning.
Yeah.
So we're all going to
your thing later today.
I'm not. I have Model UN.
I have invited some friends
from work, just so you know.
Like Eddie?
Grace, enough with the attitude.
You're going to your
mother's ceremony and that's it.
No, that's okay. Grace
can do what she wants.
It's her choice. If it's my
choice, then I'm not going.
Officer Verelli.
Your phone broken?
What are you doing here?
I don't know. I figure you get to
visit me at work, I thought maybe...
Yeah, not a good time.
Look, you know this is
an important day for me.
Can I not have this
hanging over my head?
Yeah, God forbid.
You just turn it
off, just like that?
I'm the one that said, "I love
you," took a big step forward.
Now I've got to
take a step back.
Why are you making
this so difficult?
You're the one that's
making it difficult, believe me.
It's a lot easier
dating 23-year-olds.
Fuck you. Oh, that's good.
That's beautiful, honey.
Thank you so much for coming all
the way down here to tell me that.
Look, I've got work to do.
Hey.
What did you think
of the gift I sent over?
Loved it.
You know what? We're done here.
Normal respiration. BP's okay.
Sir, why are you here?
I'm dying.
Do we have a history?
I'm a gay man in New York City
who managed to get old.
How's that for a history?
Intake says
advanced liver cancer.
This guy doesn't need an
ER. He needs a hospice.
You know that. We can't justify
keeping him here to Akalitus.
Sir, do you have any nausea?
Do you have a rash? Anything?
No.
But I've got pain.
How much on a scale of 1 to 10?
It only goes to 10?
Okay, let's get the
patient comfortable.
Start IV hydration. I'll
write a script for morphine.
You look very
familiar to me, Wally.
So do you.
Oh, my God. Don't Tell Mama.
It's a piano bar
in Hell's Kitchen.
You always sing Cole Porter.
And you're Bill in Show Boat.
You remember my song.
I remember your head
getting tangled in
the overhead lights.
That was... Oh, God.
All right, I'll be right
back with your morphine.
No morphine.
It'll really help the pain.
No painkillers. I'm...
I'm in recovery.
Lidocaine. Right away, Doctor.
Scalpel. Scalpel.
Butterflies?
A few.
Who wouldn't?
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Wait. Okay.
You want to tell
me what's going on?
Your butterfly flirtation.
Not appreciated. Okay, I got it.
Here's the thing, okay?
One sure way of letting everybody
know what's going on between us
is to start acting all formal.
All right? Now, I'm just saying,
I don't want you acting
like somebody else.
'Cause that would
be a bad thing.
Fine.
Just be cool.
I'm walking away first.
Can you believe this?
No comment.
Really?
Bread in the shape of a horseshoe
and you have no comment?
I understand after yesterday
if you want to take back your
invitation to your one-year celebration.
No, I don't want that.
Then you need
to apologize to me.
Zoey, I had just found out
that my kid is using drugs.
You will excuse me if
I was a little fucked up.
You still have to apologize.
One day you're gonna have a kid,
and if you're really lucky, you're
gonna have someone like you
who gets really
close to your kid.
I am sorry.
You have to be
there this afternoon.
Don't cry, we're at work.
Just heard I've got
a peer review today
with Prentiss and Akalitus.
And me.
Is that a good thing?
Since we're no longer together,
I have a much clearer
perspective on your performance.
Okay. Is that a good thing?
Peer reviews can
be life changing.
Every doctor here went
through it as a resident.
And? Some got to stay.
Shit.
I so would not
have worn this outfit
if I'd known I'd be standing
in front of you guys today.
Grace's blood shows minimal
trace amounts of Adderall.
Basic teenage starter kit stuff.
You must be so proud.
I'm just trying to
lighten things up.
Yeah, comedy's about timing.
This timing's not so good.
Yeah.
About this afternoon.
If it's all the same to
you, I'm not gonna make it.
All right. Do what you like.
Yeah, maybe a little less 'tude.
When a 14-year-old asks
me if I'm screwing her mom,
I kind of need a minute.
Can any part of you be
nice to any part of me today?
It's not my job to make
things nice for you.
I give you work advice, relationship
advice, do homework with your kid.
Exactly when did I
become your girlfriend?
Hey, Frank. It's Jackie.
I guess you're taking a
bite out of crime, huh?
Can you do me a favor
and call me, please?
Thanks.
How's Wally? Only in pure agony.
You know what I'm
gonna ask, right?
He's dying. Everybody
in his life is gone.
Would you like me to take time off?
I could do hospice at his apartment.
Absolutely not, but he can't
be taking up space in the ER.
There's room in ICU.
And privacy.
Let's make him
comfortable there.
Anyone ever tell you that you
have a beautiful singing voice?
When it's last call
at Don't Tell Mama,
everyone has a
beautiful singing voice.
Now, you know we could
make you more comfortable?
Twenty-two years sober.
That may not mean
anything to you,
but I'm not giving in now.
No, I sort of get it.
But if you change your mind.
I won't.
So don't ask.
The Infant Jesus of Prague.
Know your saints, do you?
May even be meeting them soon.
I used to wear a St. Christopher
till they kicked him
out of the Hall of Fame.
Things change.
I think of all the Big Macs I could have
eaten on Friday instead of fish sticks.
You still go to mass?
No, not so much.
You leave the church.
It never leaves you.
Commonly, when
reviewing first-year residents,
the first months bring both good
and not so good experiences.
Thank you.
Before we vote if your residency
will continue at All Saints, we'd
like to hear from one more voice.
Jackie?
I worry every time
you get near a patient.
You worry? You know how I feel?
Scared.
All the time.
I'm totally freaked that the
teeniest procedure I perform,
I'm gonna kill someone.
You did almost kill someone.
I know what to do.
I'm trained. I am.
But I need confidence.
And I'm trying
to get better at it.
I'm learning.
I need a chance.
Would you mind?
I couldn't. We're in a meeting.
Off!
Can we just do this?
All in favor? Wait.
Who here first time touching a
patient wasn't scared shitless?
Except you, Ike.
The worst you can say about Dr. Roman
is that she almost killed a patient.
I did kill a patient and
we never talk about it.
Look around. Dr. Prentiss,
you did time for dealing.
Gloria, you recently
had memory issues.
Jackie, you were a drug
addict treating patients.
We all make mistakes.
- I vote she stays.
- Opposed?
I'm sorry, Dr. Roman. We are
dismissing you from All Saints.
Hi, sweetie. How
are you feeling?
It's weird. I actually
started feeling better.
Thor!
Against his wishes, you
administered morphine to an addict?
And what, he's gonna be
hooked the rest of his life?
Don't you be fucking smart.
Excuse me, Jackie. Not
everybody is getting a cake today.
Some people need
relief from suffering.
You don't get to
make that choice.
Oh. Dr. Roman.
Big of you to come say goodbye.
I've had some time to think about the
conditions that I've had to work under.
On reflection, I believe that
I've been asked to perform in a
hostile work environment.
My immediate
supervisor, Dr. Cooper,
groped my breast
in a public area,
then had sex with
me in my workplace.
And, as I understand,
you yourself hid a mental incapacity
that prevented my adequate supervision.
Who the hell are
you? Brandon Hall.
Stern, Goodman, and Kearns.
Are you her attorney?
Not yet.
Should he be?
Are you shitting me?
Please, I came here for
privacy. A little decorum.
Jesus Christ...
So you're keeping her?
Our choice is to keep her or
have our laundry hung out in court.
No, I'm clean, so I
say we go to court.
Shit.
Blame Dr. Cooper. This is what happens
when doctors have sexual relations at work.
Remember your car accident?
I do. I prescribed oxy for
you, and you're a drug addict.
You didn't tell me.
I would never have filled it.
Take it. I wouldn't want your
conscience keeping you up at night.
Jackie.
I just want you to like me.
Do better.
It's been feeling a
little weird over here.
Later, at your
meeting, more of this.
From me, Fiona, Grace.
Grace is not coming.
He's in a lot of pain.
Time to increase the morphine.
Did he say I'm on morphine?
I'd like more, please.
Is there anything else
we can do for you, Wally?
Yes. I'd like last rites.
Okay. I'll get the chaplain.
I'd prefer it if you
would do the honors.
Me? I'm not a priest.
The church never
leaves you, Jackie.
Get in. Now.
You don't drive.
I know.
This is going to make
your mom so happy.
I know I sort of
had to kidnap you,
but someday you'll look back
and be proud of doing this for her.
Why are we always talking
about her? It's always about her.
I want to go home.
Okay.
Hold on. I'll pull over,
so you can freak out
and have my full attention.
Okay.
No, don't.
Do we have to go
to my mom's thing?
Not if you don't want to.
Thank you.
That's as high as we go.
You're gonna start
to get all floaty.
Feel really good
and probably sleep.
May I say something?
We only just met,
formally anyway,
but I want you to know what
an example you are to me.
You are not just a survivor,
you have survived
it all so elegantly.
The closet.
Stonewall. The plague.
Disco.
I am honored to be with you now.
Sing one for me
at Mama's.
"Lord, we call upon you to accept
the soul of Wallace into your kingdom.
"Through this holy unction
and the goodness of his mercy,
"may God pardon thee whatever sins
thou hast committed by evil use of sight,
"of hearing,
"of touch,
"of speech,
"and of taste.
"I call upon thee as...
"As a servant of
Jesus Christ to...
"sanctify our actions in the
fulfillment of the will of God."
Amen. Amen.
Amen.
It's been a year today.
But nothing changes.
Everything I did, all of it.
It never goes away, does it?
I'm gonna have to ask you to
pull over, so I can pat you down.
You can save your jokes.
And by the way, I'm not 23,
so you don't have to
break up with me in person.
Jackie.
Jackie, come on.
I never should have said that.
Never should have said it, okay?
About the 23-year-olds.
Look, all I said was
it's easier, okay?
It sure as hell ain't better,
it ain't what I want, and
it ain't what I'm doing.
So this is you apologizing?
No, why does everything got to
be a fucking mea culpa with you?
It's always like a
goddamn opera.
Why can't we have a conversation
like normal fucking people?
Normal? I'm a drug addict who
just gave up custody of her two kids.
You gave up the girls?
Grace is using drugs.
Oh, shit.
Jack, I didn't know. Yeah,
answer your fucking phone.
Yeah.
Yeah, you're right.
I'm sorry.
So that was an apology?
You know I can be pissed at
you and still love you, right?
♪ It's quarter to 3:00
♪ There's no one in the
place Except you and me
♪ So set 'em up, Joe
♪ I got a little story
you ought to know
♪ We're drinking, my friend
♪ To the end of a brief episode
♪ Make it one for my baby
♪ And one more for the road ♪
I've never had to take off a
man's bulletproof vest before.
That's the beauty of Velcro.
All right, so. Yeah?
What was with the bread?
Oh!
You finally fucking
opened it, huh?
Okay, was that the dumbest
gift you've ever gotten?
That is a family tradition.
When something
good happens to us,
we make horseshoe bread.
See, that way, our
luck doesn't run out.
Who are you?
I'm a guy who's
done some stuff right
and some stuff wrong.
Trust me, right's a lot better.
And you...
You are what's
right, Jackie Peyton.
I love you.
Yeah?
Well...
How could you not?
Okay.
I'm gonna see you at
your thing later, all right?
You know, I'm very proud of you.
Okay.
♪
So thanks for the cheer
♪ I hope you didn't mind me
♪ Bending your ear
♪ This torch that I've found
♪ Has got to be drowned
♪ For it soon will explode
♪ Make it one for my baby
♪ And one more for the road
♪ The long
♪ Long
♪ Road ♪
♪
Happy anniversary to you
♪ Happy anniversary to you
♪ Happy anniversary Dear Jackie
♪ Happy anniversary to you ♪
Hi, my name is
Jackie and I am...
I am an addict and...
Today I am sober for one year.
Then where are we at?
The don't tell
anyone at work part.
I'd like to break up with you.
Whoa. Whoa.
Please, leave me alone.
Can I ask a question? Shoot.
Are you guys having sex?
Okay, so you were just
studying and taking drugs
with a boy you lied about
not seeing anymore?
Yeah, Mom.
I took something and I still did
everything I was supposed to do.
You know what
that's like, right?
Actually, I've got to
go. Kevin is here and...
Whoa, whoa, whoa. It's after
midnight and Kevin's there?
I love you.
Yeah, I got to go.
I think the girls
should live with you.
Grace is using drugs.
I don't think she
should be with me.
We're not there yet.
I think we are.
Car's all packed.
One for the road?
Been cooking all morning.
Yeah.
So we're all going to
your thing later today.
I'm not. I have Model UN.
I have invited some friends
from work, just so you know.
Like Eddie?
Grace, enough with the attitude.
You're going to your
mother's ceremony and that's it.
No, that's okay. Grace
can do what she wants.
It's her choice. If it's my
choice, then I'm not going.
Officer Verelli.
Your phone broken?
What are you doing here?
I don't know. I figure you get to
visit me at work, I thought maybe...
Yeah, not a good time.
Look, you know this is
an important day for me.
Can I not have this
hanging over my head?
Yeah, God forbid.
You just turn it
off, just like that?
I'm the one that said, "I love
you," took a big step forward.
Now I've got to
take a step back.
Why are you making
this so difficult?
You're the one that's
making it difficult, believe me.
It's a lot easier
dating 23-year-olds.
Fuck you. Oh, that's good.
That's beautiful, honey.
Thank you so much for coming all
the way down here to tell me that.
Look, I've got work to do.
Hey.
What did you think
of the gift I sent over?
Loved it.
You know what? We're done here.
Normal respiration. BP's okay.
Sir, why are you here?
I'm dying.
Do we have a history?
I'm a gay man in New York City
who managed to get old.
How's that for a history?
Intake says
advanced liver cancer.
This guy doesn't need an
ER. He needs a hospice.
You know that. We can't justify
keeping him here to Akalitus.
Sir, do you have any nausea?
Do you have a rash? Anything?
No.
But I've got pain.
How much on a scale of 1 to 10?
It only goes to 10?
Okay, let's get the
patient comfortable.
Start IV hydration. I'll
write a script for morphine.
You look very
familiar to me, Wally.
So do you.
Oh, my God. Don't Tell Mama.
It's a piano bar
in Hell's Kitchen.
You always sing Cole Porter.
And you're Bill in Show Boat.
You remember my song.
I remember your head
getting tangled in
the overhead lights.
That was... Oh, God.
All right, I'll be right
back with your morphine.
No morphine.
It'll really help the pain.
No painkillers. I'm...
I'm in recovery.
Lidocaine. Right away, Doctor.
Scalpel. Scalpel.
Butterflies?
A few.
Who wouldn't?
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Wait. Okay.
You want to tell
me what's going on?
Your butterfly flirtation.
Not appreciated. Okay, I got it.
Here's the thing, okay?
One sure way of letting everybody
know what's going on between us
is to start acting all formal.
All right? Now, I'm just saying,
I don't want you acting
like somebody else.
'Cause that would
be a bad thing.
Fine.
Just be cool.
I'm walking away first.
Can you believe this?
No comment.
Really?
Bread in the shape of a horseshoe
and you have no comment?
I understand after yesterday
if you want to take back your
invitation to your one-year celebration.
No, I don't want that.
Then you need
to apologize to me.
Zoey, I had just found out
that my kid is using drugs.
You will excuse me if
I was a little fucked up.
You still have to apologize.
One day you're gonna have a kid,
and if you're really lucky, you're
gonna have someone like you
who gets really
close to your kid.
I am sorry.
You have to be
there this afternoon.
Don't cry, we're at work.
Just heard I've got
a peer review today
with Prentiss and Akalitus.
And me.
Is that a good thing?
Since we're no longer together,
I have a much clearer
perspective on your performance.
Okay. Is that a good thing?
Peer reviews can
be life changing.
Every doctor here went
through it as a resident.
And? Some got to stay.
Shit.
I so would not
have worn this outfit
if I'd known I'd be standing
in front of you guys today.
Grace's blood shows minimal
trace amounts of Adderall.
Basic teenage starter kit stuff.
You must be so proud.
I'm just trying to
lighten things up.
Yeah, comedy's about timing.
This timing's not so good.
Yeah.
About this afternoon.
If it's all the same to
you, I'm not gonna make it.
All right. Do what you like.
Yeah, maybe a little less 'tude.
When a 14-year-old asks
me if I'm screwing her mom,
I kind of need a minute.
Can any part of you be
nice to any part of me today?
It's not my job to make
things nice for you.
I give you work advice, relationship
advice, do homework with your kid.
Exactly when did I
become your girlfriend?
Hey, Frank. It's Jackie.
I guess you're taking a
bite out of crime, huh?
Can you do me a favor
and call me, please?
Thanks.
How's Wally? Only in pure agony.
You know what I'm
gonna ask, right?
He's dying. Everybody
in his life is gone.
Would you like me to take time off?
I could do hospice at his apartment.
Absolutely not, but he can't
be taking up space in the ER.
There's room in ICU.
And privacy.
Let's make him
comfortable there.
Anyone ever tell you that you
have a beautiful singing voice?
When it's last call
at Don't Tell Mama,
everyone has a
beautiful singing voice.
Now, you know we could
make you more comfortable?
Twenty-two years sober.
That may not mean
anything to you,
but I'm not giving in now.
No, I sort of get it.
But if you change your mind.
I won't.
So don't ask.
The Infant Jesus of Prague.
Know your saints, do you?
May even be meeting them soon.
I used to wear a St. Christopher
till they kicked him
out of the Hall of Fame.
Things change.
I think of all the Big Macs I could have
eaten on Friday instead of fish sticks.
You still go to mass?
No, not so much.
You leave the church.
It never leaves you.
Commonly, when
reviewing first-year residents,
the first months bring both good
and not so good experiences.
Thank you.
Before we vote if your residency
will continue at All Saints, we'd
like to hear from one more voice.
Jackie?
I worry every time
you get near a patient.
You worry? You know how I feel?
Scared.
All the time.
I'm totally freaked that the
teeniest procedure I perform,
I'm gonna kill someone.
You did almost kill someone.
I know what to do.
I'm trained. I am.
But I need confidence.
And I'm trying
to get better at it.
I'm learning.
I need a chance.
Would you mind?
I couldn't. We're in a meeting.
Off!
Can we just do this?
All in favor? Wait.
Who here first time touching a
patient wasn't scared shitless?
Except you, Ike.
The worst you can say about Dr. Roman
is that she almost killed a patient.
I did kill a patient and
we never talk about it.
Look around. Dr. Prentiss,
you did time for dealing.
Gloria, you recently
had memory issues.
Jackie, you were a drug
addict treating patients.
We all make mistakes.
- I vote she stays.
- Opposed?
I'm sorry, Dr. Roman. We are
dismissing you from All Saints.
Hi, sweetie. How
are you feeling?
It's weird. I actually
started feeling better.
Thor!
Against his wishes, you
administered morphine to an addict?
And what, he's gonna be
hooked the rest of his life?
Don't you be fucking smart.
Excuse me, Jackie. Not
everybody is getting a cake today.
Some people need
relief from suffering.
You don't get to
make that choice.
Oh. Dr. Roman.
Big of you to come say goodbye.
I've had some time to think about the
conditions that I've had to work under.
On reflection, I believe that
I've been asked to perform in a
hostile work environment.
My immediate
supervisor, Dr. Cooper,
groped my breast
in a public area,
then had sex with
me in my workplace.
And, as I understand,
you yourself hid a mental incapacity
that prevented my adequate supervision.
Who the hell are
you? Brandon Hall.
Stern, Goodman, and Kearns.
Are you her attorney?
Not yet.
Should he be?
Are you shitting me?
Please, I came here for
privacy. A little decorum.
Jesus Christ...
So you're keeping her?
Our choice is to keep her or
have our laundry hung out in court.
No, I'm clean, so I
say we go to court.
Shit.
Blame Dr. Cooper. This is what happens
when doctors have sexual relations at work.
Remember your car accident?
I do. I prescribed oxy for
you, and you're a drug addict.
You didn't tell me.
I would never have filled it.
Take it. I wouldn't want your
conscience keeping you up at night.
Jackie.
I just want you to like me.
Do better.
It's been feeling a
little weird over here.
Later, at your
meeting, more of this.
From me, Fiona, Grace.
Grace is not coming.
He's in a lot of pain.
Time to increase the morphine.
Did he say I'm on morphine?
I'd like more, please.
Is there anything else
we can do for you, Wally?
Yes. I'd like last rites.
Okay. I'll get the chaplain.
I'd prefer it if you
would do the honors.
Me? I'm not a priest.
The church never
leaves you, Jackie.
Get in. Now.
You don't drive.
I know.
This is going to make
your mom so happy.
I know I sort of
had to kidnap you,
but someday you'll look back
and be proud of doing this for her.
Why are we always talking
about her? It's always about her.
I want to go home.
Okay.
Hold on. I'll pull over,
so you can freak out
and have my full attention.
Okay.
No, don't.
Do we have to go
to my mom's thing?
Not if you don't want to.
Thank you.
That's as high as we go.
You're gonna start
to get all floaty.
Feel really good
and probably sleep.
May I say something?
We only just met,
formally anyway,
but I want you to know what
an example you are to me.
You are not just a survivor,
you have survived
it all so elegantly.
The closet.
Stonewall. The plague.
Disco.
I am honored to be with you now.
Sing one for me
at Mama's.
"Lord, we call upon you to accept
the soul of Wallace into your kingdom.
"Through this holy unction
and the goodness of his mercy,
"may God pardon thee whatever sins
thou hast committed by evil use of sight,
"of hearing,
"of touch,
"of speech,
"and of taste.
"I call upon thee as...
"As a servant of
Jesus Christ to...
"sanctify our actions in the
fulfillment of the will of God."
Amen. Amen.
Amen.
It's been a year today.
But nothing changes.
Everything I did, all of it.
It never goes away, does it?
I'm gonna have to ask you to
pull over, so I can pat you down.
You can save your jokes.
And by the way, I'm not 23,
so you don't have to
break up with me in person.
Jackie.
Jackie, come on.
I never should have said that.
Never should have said it, okay?
About the 23-year-olds.
Look, all I said was
it's easier, okay?
It sure as hell ain't better,
it ain't what I want, and
it ain't what I'm doing.
So this is you apologizing?
No, why does everything got to
be a fucking mea culpa with you?
It's always like a
goddamn opera.
Why can't we have a conversation
like normal fucking people?
Normal? I'm a drug addict who
just gave up custody of her two kids.
You gave up the girls?
Grace is using drugs.
Oh, shit.
Jack, I didn't know. Yeah,
answer your fucking phone.
Yeah.
Yeah, you're right.
I'm sorry.
So that was an apology?
You know I can be pissed at
you and still love you, right?
♪ It's quarter to 3:00
♪ There's no one in the
place Except you and me
♪ So set 'em up, Joe
♪ I got a little story
you ought to know
♪ We're drinking, my friend
♪ To the end of a brief episode
♪ Make it one for my baby
♪ And one more for the road ♪
I've never had to take off a
man's bulletproof vest before.
That's the beauty of Velcro.
All right, so. Yeah?
What was with the bread?
Oh!
You finally fucking
opened it, huh?
Okay, was that the dumbest
gift you've ever gotten?
That is a family tradition.
When something
good happens to us,
we make horseshoe bread.
See, that way, our
luck doesn't run out.
Who are you?
I'm a guy who's
done some stuff right
and some stuff wrong.
Trust me, right's a lot better.
And you...
You are what's
right, Jackie Peyton.
I love you.
Yeah?
Well...
How could you not?
Okay.
I'm gonna see you at
your thing later, all right?
You know, I'm very proud of you.
Okay.
♪
So thanks for the cheer
♪ I hope you didn't mind me
♪ Bending your ear
♪ This torch that I've found
♪ Has got to be drowned
♪ For it soon will explode
♪ Make it one for my baby
♪ And one more for the road
♪ The long
♪ Long
♪ Road ♪
♪
Happy anniversary to you
♪ Happy anniversary to you
♪ Happy anniversary Dear Jackie
♪ Happy anniversary to you ♪
Hi, my name is
Jackie and I am...
I am an addict and...
Today I am sober for one year.