Nana (2006–2007): Season 1, Episode 5 - Ren's Dream, NANA's Thoughts - full transcript

What name do I give that feeling
that was born that night?

Sweet words like "love" or " adore"
just don't sound right.

Perhaps envy and irritation
mixed in with jealousy.

And moreover, desire.

Even now I get anxious.

Because sometimes I feel
that this daily life,

living together with Ren,
is nothing but a dream.

Ren was a bright light that lightened
the boring life I lived until then.

But no matter how hard I try,
he still remains outta my reach.

Nana...

I'm going to Tokyo.



You live your life however you like.

When I was darkness at that time

With trembling lips

In a corner of a room I cry

The more I struggle

The more this wound deepens

The broken promise hurt me

Nobody can save me

God, I have only one request

Stop tearing apart my love

I need your love

I'm a broken rose

Sorrow tumbling down is your song

All alone with nowhere to go in my life



I need your love

I'm a broken rose

Oh baby, help me from frozen pain

With your smile, your eyes,
and sing me, just for me

I wanna need your love

I'm a broken rose

I wanna need your love

Tokyo?

Whaddaya mean, Yasu?
Are you quitting university?

I thought you were going
to be a lawyer.

No, not me. Ren.

Remember that band Ren
and I used to do gigs with

when we had our old band,
Trapnest?

Trap? Oh Trapnest!

They had the most awesome
female vocalist!

Yeah, we got along real well.
Used to go out drinking and stuff.

Well, about two years ago I guess,

the whole bunch of 'em went up
to Tokyo looking to become pros.

Looks like they got a contract.

No kidding! That's great!
I gotta say, they were good, though.

But that contract... their debut...

apparently there were problems
and the guitarist quit.

So the whole band got together
and decided to call on Ren.

Ren's in Tokyo meeting producers
this morning,

but they've already approved
his guitar recordings,

so it's just like a get-together.

He's a member of the band, man.

Hey wait a minute...

It's not like he's moved there yet.

He'll be back in town tomorrow.

But he's moving to Tokyo, right?!
What about Blast?!

What's going to happen to us?

We've only been together
for a year and a half.

We're just getting into the groove...

Don't worry.

You can find bass players
a dime a dozen.

We'll find a replacement
right away.

That's easy to say,
but I don't buy it.

I feel like I've been double-crossed.

Hey man, Ren's been sitting around
in town going nowhere.

Don't you think it's a waste?

Well then, why don't we all
go to Tokyo with Ren

and venture into
our professional career?!

Tokyo, look out for Blast!

Sorry, but I have no intention of
making a living in music.

I don't want to gamble
my life away like that.

Besides, if Ren goes to Tokyo,
he should be playing with Trapnest.

Why?!

There's no guarantee that
we'll be able to get a contract anyway.

We can give it a try!

Hey, no matter how hard you try,

there're still a million out there
who don't have the luck to make it.

I don't want Ren to be one of them.

Luck is moving in his favor.

He's gotta make it,
no matter what it takes.

It's not like just because Trapnest
got a contract that they'll sell...

No worries, man.
That band will sell.

Their sound and their looks shine.

You put Ren in there?
It's a done deal.

But!

Get over yourself!

If you want to go to Tokyo,
then go!

But don't get in Ren's way!

Besides, you're taking
after your dad's Terashima Inn!

That's probably why
you're so carefree about this all.

You don't have to worry
about a future.

Get over your sweet dreams
about becoming professional

and work for your dad.

Being in a band is playtime.

Yeah maybe, but...
I'm worried about Nana.

Is Ren going to, like,
dump her and take off?

That's a screwed way of putting it.

Well then, he should take her
with him!

What's that attitude?
Dump her or take her.

Nana is not some cat
that belongs to Ren.

You know as much as I do that
she's an independent woman.

She'll go with him if she wants to.

That's something for Nana to decide.

I'm sure that's how Ren thinks, too.

Yasu...

You're really mature.

You're the brat.

But I guess if Nana decides
to go to Tokyo...

that's the end of Blast.

When that time comes, I'm out.
Although I am going to miss this.

Time to get out.

You go and find another band
to be friendly with, Nobu.

When I met Ren the second time,

it was mid-summer afternoon,

when the ocean breeze
was biting my skin.

Hey Nobu, wanna join our band?

Why? What about the band
you got now?

We're breaking up.

Those guys are hopeless.
They don't put their heart in it.

They don't practice,
yet keep on complaining.

Hey, I heard that
when you were in middle school

you used to play guitar
in the school band,

and Ren used to talk about
how good you were,

that it would be
a total waste if you quit.

Huh?

I can play bass too,
so why don't you play guitar?

I'll do it!

Ah, but can we use a guy that's been
out of practice for a year and a half.

No problem, Ren!

I still practice at home every day
and I know all of your stuff!

I've lately started writing my own, too.

Well then, it's a go.

So who's gonna do the vocals?

That's the problem.
Preferably a girl.

I'm sick and tired of those dud guys.

I hear ya. If she can sing at par,
I'd prefer a woman myself.

Nobu! A woman!
Go find a woman

A pretty one at that.

So what am I? A gofer already?
You got pretty women all around you!

Give me a break.

Try bringing in a woman
that I've done it with.

They'd only mean trouble.

If there's love, it should be all right.

Love, he says.

Those who laugh at love,
cry for love.

Nobuo, there's a friend here
to see you!

Miss Osaki! Can I let her in?!

Yeah, sure! Bring her through!

Osaki?

A girl?!

Is she pretty?

What? Yeah, but you've met her before.

Nana.

Nobuo, here's the CDIborrowed.
Thanks.

Thanks.

Well, see ya.

Huh?

Hey, Nana!

Nobu, have you two ever
gone out for karaoke?

Huh?

Is she good?

Well, yeah. Average, I guess.

Then it's decided.

From that day on,
I have witnessed the surf,

pulled by Ren's gravity.

The waves rush with
the sound of my heart.

Higher, higher, higher.

Nana, sing in my band.

My feelings overflow
and become my voice.

But I haven't yet made it my choice,
to sing for Ren.

I sing for myself...

as I always have.

Certificate of Graduation
Nobuo Terashima

Certificate of Graduation
Nobuo Terashima
How's that? Make you jealous?

How's that? Make you jealous?

Look. I sold all the buttons
on my uniform.

You gotta give it to the guitarist
that played for Blast.

How much do you think I got
for the second button?

I can't believe
you took money for it.

Get outta here, shrimp.
I'm busy.

You're lying.
This shop has no customers.

How are you busy?

I'm busy reading!

Why don't you pick up
a real book for a change,

instead of reading comics all the time?

I heard about Ren.
What are you gonna do?

Of course, you're going
to Tokyo with him, right?

Aha, so you've come to stop me.

You gonna miss me?

Go! Go to Tokyo! I'll come too!

What are you saying?

We'll find new members in Tokyo
and see how far we can get!

I realize it's not
that simple to go pro,

but I think it's worth a try!

I think your singing is all right!

Not that you're super good
or anything,

but you have a cool husky voice
and I feel like taking a chance on it!

I don't wanna play for anyone else.

That's probably how Yasu feels too.

That's why he's ready
to give it all up if you go.

Why is it you telling me this?

Huh?

I wanted to hear those words from Ren.
Not you...

Thanks Nobu, but...
I'm not going.

Why not? Can you handle
being separated from Ren?

Even if you can't be in the same band
you can at least live together!

No, I can't do that!

It'll be all right, Nana.

If you go with him,

he's not going to think of you
as an obstacle.

That guy, who thinks
he's God's gift to women,

hasn't fooled around on you once.

That's proof that he loves you.

I know that.

At least as long as you know.

However! Making love with Ren
is not the only thing I live for!

I, too, want to sing for a living.

So let's go to Tokyo!

Not now.

Why's that?!

Man, I don't understand you!

If I go now, I'll end up living
with Ren again.

I can't live without him.

So why don't you?

If I do, Ren's gonna be
making it big time

in a band with a female vocalist
that has a super voice,

while I sit around waiting for my break
which may never happen,

making miso soup and
waiting for Ren to come home.

No thanks, man.

That is totally degrading.

So I gotta get better first.

Give myself the confidence that

I can make it singing
without Ren's help.

One day for sure,

I'm going to Tokyo,
even if I go alone.

So bear with me, Nobu.
Stick around with me here for awhile.

You don't wanna sing
to another guy's guitar?

I don't care.

You don't wanna sing...

I don't care.

Ren and I fell in love exactly
a year after we met,

on Christmas night.

We were still feeling the excitement
from our concert.

On the way home from
the party afterwards...

we frolicked playfully,
kidding around like little kids,

on the snow-covered sea wall.

Hey! Far out! A homemade cake!
Am I ever popular. I'm eating it.

There might be poison in that.

Actually it's from a fan of mine.

It's the "you're making it with Ren
so now you must die" cake.

Then you taste it first.

I'm not about to be killed
for something I didn't do.

No way, man.

It was so sudden
I forgot to close my eyes.

Now that we're guilty,
maybe I wouldn't mind getting killed.

I seriously thought
I wouldn't mind dying.

Because I longed for Ren.

I wanted him so badly...

always, from that day on.

I thought no one was supposed
to lay a hand on Nana,

because that would only
cause problems in the band.

No worries. There's love. Right here.

You gotta be kidding me.

We didn't waste any time
moving in together.

Ren Honjo
Nana Osaki
We didn't waste any time
moving in together.

Ren Honjo
Nana Osaki

Ren showed me the joy of singing.

He taught me how to play the guitar.

He gave me the desire to live.

But what have I been able
to do for him?

Even if it means
I would not sing anymore,

I could go to Tokyo with Ren and
at least cook for him every day...

polish the apartment,
and have his child...

Maybe that's what I should do.

After all, that's plenty happiness in itself.

For those of us who
have no family,

the most important thing...

more than making
some dream come true...

has got to be making a home.

Is that all ya got?

Yep. Just give me my guitar and
some cigarettes and I'm happy.

He's lying.
He sent all his stuff ahead.

Says he doesn't like
carrying heavy stuff.

From now on, you won't have guys
below you to carry your stuff for you.

I can already see what
Ren's poor assistant

is going to have to suffer through.

I guess it's about time.

A year and three months
of living with Ren.

In the beginning of spring
before the snow completely melted away,

our story ended.

We didn't say goodbye.

But living apart would be
the end of us and we knew that.

Phone calls and letters are worthless.

It doesn't mean a thing if you can't
be there to hold each other in your arms.

Each night, I could feel
his sadness within me...

as he spilled it out without words.

I felt it deeper than anyone else
could ever do.

Merry Christmas! We're Blast.

At times, I still regret
what happened.

I sometimes feel that this everyday life
without Ren is all part of a dream.

Especially on these nights
when the snow falls heavily.

On a cold night like tonight,
someone, please keep him warm.

Nana, I bought the CD you released.
It's the greatest!
Your songs give me courage
to get through the day.
Your lyrics touch me deep inside.
I hope more and more people
will listen to your songs.

I'd be lonely if
you became famous, Nana.
Because look at Ren.
He's super popular now.
I'm happy for him,
but I have mixed feelings.
But I forgive him because he's cool.

Do you still keep in touch with Ren?
Say hi to him for me.
Best wishes. I'm rooting for you. AKIKO
P.S. I love your latest hairstyle.
It's so grown up. Maybe I'll do the same.

To Nana
From Misato

It's sweet.

It's been a year and nine months
since Ren and I separated.

Soon, the second spring will come.

In March, on my twentieth birthday,

I'm going to go out and buy me a present,
to congratulate myself for hanging on.

A one way ticket to Tokyo.

Just give me my guitar and
some cigarettes, and I'm happy.

I reached into the sky

But I couldn't reach what I wanted

They grew smaller
and disappeared into the sky

Like colorful balloons

I'm alone

My hand had no place to go

And gently you took it

Starless night

I won't look back
at the shadow of my past

I want to feel your warmth

Tears are falling down

Even if I'm unsure I won't let go

Of your hand holding mine