Justin Bieber: Seasons (2020–…): Season 1, Episode 9 - Album on the Way - full transcript
So here, this is me
with Hailey in New York.
We were riding bikes,
and I remember just struggling.
I remember feeling, like,
emotionally just overwhelmed,
and talking to her.
Not knowing how to, like,
communicate certain things
and just feeling kind of,
like, frustrated.
You know,
there's been a lot of things
that have happened in my life.
And, um, I think this
was just a point in my life
where I was just so overwhelmed.
And I'm just...
I'm being a normal person and...
And crying, um, I think.
When I look at
when I'm in the media
or I look at things
on the internet
and people are like,
"Justin's upset.
Why is he upset?"
It's like they don't give me
permission to be upset.
I don't get... I don't have
permission to be, you know,
human and shed tears.
And there's so many people
every day
who are in a conversation
with their girl
or their wife or their mom
and they break down, you know?
But they don't have cameras
capturing it, you know?
So, people are like,
"Is he okay?
He's having a mental breakdown,"
um, you know?
And I'm just...
I'm just emotional.
I... you know?
And I think that's okay.
( music on speakers )
♪ Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh, whoa, oh, forever ♪
♪ Ever, ever, ever ♪
♪ Do you want to look
at me forever? ♪
♪ Ever, ever ♪
♪ Uh, yeah ♪
Are you gonna put that
at the end?
Remember when it was like,
um, over that beat?
媻 Do you want to look at me
forever, ever, ever? ♪
- Sure.
- You told me you
were going to.
- You don't have to lie to me.
- We talked about that?
- No, I mean... hey, hey, bro.
- It's okay. You're...
If you want to do your job,
do your job.
But if you don't, don't.
I mean, it's up to you.
- That's right.
- You know?
( music on speakers )
♪ Picture perfect,
you don't need no filter ♪
♪ Gorgeous,
make 'em drop dead ♪
Poo Bear: I always just would
base my feelings, like,
on a song off of, like,
the way I felt
or a reaction of other people.
You know, Scooter coming in
to listen to everything, like,
the music whispers something,
and it'll be like, "Hit."
♪ Yeah, you got that
yummy, yum ♪
♪ That yummy, yum ♪
♪ That yummy, yummy,
say the word on my way ♪
♪ Yeah, babe, yeah, babe,
yeah, babe ♪
♪ You got the yum,
yum, yum, whoa ♪
♪ Whoa, ooh ♪
♪ Yeah, you got that yummy,
yum, that yummy, yum ♪
Nick: I think Justin's one
of the greatest performers.
There's something about
his character, his charisma,
and I think he misses it.
I've been working with Justin
for over ten years now.
And I always say, like,
I'm really good at reading him.
And as much as he secluded
himself from that shit, like,
man, that man lives
for the stage.
He loves his fans.
He always talks about them.
"I know my fans are waiting.
I know they want new music."
And, like, I always told him
when he was sad, I'm like,
"Yo, you should go make music
'cause you love it."
You know, and he'd be,
"Ah, I don't want to throw
anything out right now."
I'm like,
"No, don't put anything out.
Just go make music."
'Cause that's when he's at
his happiest.
I think he misses that.
And I don't think
he wants to say it,
but he misses that shit, yeah.
I think fear
is an attack on my life,
and I think it has been
for a long time.
But it's funny because
I'll go and jump on a stage.
- Woman: Right. Right.
- And I don't care at all.
Man: Are you really
not afraid to go on stage?
- What's the difference
between...
- Not at all.
Man: How is that possible?
Uh, because when I'm on stage,
um, it's a different...
It's a different side
of your brain, I think.
It's a creative side
to your brain.
I think the other side,
the processing side,
is a different side.
I think that takes
more frontal lobe,
and right now my frontal lobes
are really ( bleep ).
When I'm performing,
I have this...
I have the mic, so it's me
leaving everything.
But when I'm vulnerable
and I'm talking,
it's almost like I can't...
Don't feel like I can lead.
I feel like people are
judging me for some reason.
( indistinct chatter )
- Come on, Scooter.
- There you go, Scoot.
( indistinct chatter )
( all cheering )
We are on the set
of the "Yummy" music video.
The first music video
for the first single
off of "Changes."
♪ On the table,
get on the table ♪
Hailey: I think that was
a significant day
because it's the first time
he's done a music video
for something
of his own solo work
for the first time in
a really, really long time.
- ( music on speakers )
- Man: That's it.
Scooter asked me to be
a the "Yummy" shoot.
Man: And action!
- ( playing instruments )
- Good.
Buzz: I'm behind the scenes
watching him on a video camera,
and no sooner does
he get out there and he...
He just had a really tough time.
We appreciate
everyone's patience, guys.
- ( indistinct chatter )
- Sound's up.
Justin: It was... it was just...
It was a lot, you know?
Like, a lot of people,
a lot of dynamic,
a lot of stuff.
I was in my head a lot,
you know?
It was hard for me
to really enjoy it like that.
But I know that some days
are gonna be just like that.
I mean, in any work space,
you know,
there's gonna be those off days
where you just
feel kind of like...
I got a good crew.
Everyone's, you know...
I should be good, but,
like, today I just feel off.
I think that day
I was just a little off.
Buzz: You know, Justin and I
developed a routine
that when he feels stressed,
that he can use a technique
called havening
that I was trained in,
and havening is
a psychosensory technique
that it actually raises
the feel-good chemicals
in your brain on demand.
It's basically like
a self-soothing thing.
Everybody kind of has
their own version of havening
without even knowing it.
It's like when
you're a little kid
and you suck your thumb
to soothe yourself
when you're starting to feel
really stressed out
or just to keep yourself calm.
It's almost like, I think,
when you're, like, a kid
and your mom is, like,
rubbing your back to sleep.
And it's, like,
the best feeling in the world.
It's kinda like that, except
you're doing it for yourself.
Buzz: We coordinate, he and I,
prompts that allow him
to know what it is
that he should be doing
in the moment
that he's feeling stressed.
And then he has a coordinated
signal back to me
that lets me know
what's wrong, how he feels,
and what he needs.
The key to his mental health now
is to create a structured,
organized,
predictable environment
around him.
( music playing )
Nick: I think right now,
what it is,
is just to keep him
mentally healthy
and, you know, happy
is creating a schedule
that's not too
overwhelming for him.
Before, when we would put
a tour together,
we would put the tour together
while doing awards shows
and promo shows and radio shows
and interviews,
and then fly to New York
to do Jimmy Fallon,
fly back in, do a rehearsal,
shoot a music video,
all within
the same amount of time.
This schedule just needs to be
a little easier on him,
not overwhelm him
with 17 jobs in a day.
Amen: Someone right when
they're getting sober
and their brain
just looks terrible,
that same brain
six months from now
can look much better if you do
the right things for it.
I'm just incredibly impressed
with the brain's
ability to heal.
The changes that I've seen
with Justin are monumental.
He's matured tremendously.
He's not living in
survivor mode anymore.
His sleep is pretty wonderful.
I mean, it's healthy and he's,
you know, able to wake up
in the morning
and be cheerful
and excited and exercise.
Nick:
One thing where's he's really
grown and really changed
is how he deals with things
and how he deals with
what he's feeling,
how he deals with anxiety
that creeps in.
He faces it in a very,
very different way.
He's not medicating himself.
He's just growing
and using the down moments
to his advantage and learning.
Hailey:
There's always gonna be
good days and bad days
if you work a nine to five job
or if you're Justin.
It doesn't really matter
who you are.
Everybody's gonna have days
where they wake up
and they feel crappy
and they don't feel like
pushing through it that day,
but it's part of life.
I can say confidently
that I know
he's the most excited
for this chapter.
媻 Oh, whoa, whoa,
oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh, whoa, whoa,
forever, ever, ever, ever ♪
♪ Do you want to look at me
forever, ever, ever? ♪
♪ Yeah, do you see us in Vegas
pushing on Monte Carlo? ♪
♪ Bet that money on baby ♪
♪ Bet she don't leave me,
oh, no ♪
Oh, man. One for the road.
This one's called
"Good Night, Stax."
( music playing )
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
Man: He's a sweet dog.
™ª Tomorrow I'll be back ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Tomorrow you know
I will be back ♪
♪ Stax ♪
That's it.
with Hailey in New York.
We were riding bikes,
and I remember just struggling.
I remember feeling, like,
emotionally just overwhelmed,
and talking to her.
Not knowing how to, like,
communicate certain things
and just feeling kind of,
like, frustrated.
You know,
there's been a lot of things
that have happened in my life.
And, um, I think this
was just a point in my life
where I was just so overwhelmed.
And I'm just...
I'm being a normal person and...
And crying, um, I think.
When I look at
when I'm in the media
or I look at things
on the internet
and people are like,
"Justin's upset.
Why is he upset?"
It's like they don't give me
permission to be upset.
I don't get... I don't have
permission to be, you know,
human and shed tears.
And there's so many people
every day
who are in a conversation
with their girl
or their wife or their mom
and they break down, you know?
But they don't have cameras
capturing it, you know?
So, people are like,
"Is he okay?
He's having a mental breakdown,"
um, you know?
And I'm just...
I'm just emotional.
I... you know?
And I think that's okay.
( music on speakers )
♪ Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh, whoa, oh, forever ♪
♪ Ever, ever, ever ♪
♪ Do you want to look
at me forever? ♪
♪ Ever, ever ♪
♪ Uh, yeah ♪
Are you gonna put that
at the end?
Remember when it was like,
um, over that beat?
媻 Do you want to look at me
forever, ever, ever? ♪
- Sure.
- You told me you
were going to.
- You don't have to lie to me.
- We talked about that?
- No, I mean... hey, hey, bro.
- It's okay. You're...
If you want to do your job,
do your job.
But if you don't, don't.
I mean, it's up to you.
- That's right.
- You know?
( music on speakers )
♪ Picture perfect,
you don't need no filter ♪
♪ Gorgeous,
make 'em drop dead ♪
Poo Bear: I always just would
base my feelings, like,
on a song off of, like,
the way I felt
or a reaction of other people.
You know, Scooter coming in
to listen to everything, like,
the music whispers something,
and it'll be like, "Hit."
♪ Yeah, you got that
yummy, yum ♪
♪ That yummy, yum ♪
♪ That yummy, yummy,
say the word on my way ♪
♪ Yeah, babe, yeah, babe,
yeah, babe ♪
♪ You got the yum,
yum, yum, whoa ♪
♪ Whoa, ooh ♪
♪ Yeah, you got that yummy,
yum, that yummy, yum ♪
Nick: I think Justin's one
of the greatest performers.
There's something about
his character, his charisma,
and I think he misses it.
I've been working with Justin
for over ten years now.
And I always say, like,
I'm really good at reading him.
And as much as he secluded
himself from that shit, like,
man, that man lives
for the stage.
He loves his fans.
He always talks about them.
"I know my fans are waiting.
I know they want new music."
And, like, I always told him
when he was sad, I'm like,
"Yo, you should go make music
'cause you love it."
You know, and he'd be,
"Ah, I don't want to throw
anything out right now."
I'm like,
"No, don't put anything out.
Just go make music."
'Cause that's when he's at
his happiest.
I think he misses that.
And I don't think
he wants to say it,
but he misses that shit, yeah.
I think fear
is an attack on my life,
and I think it has been
for a long time.
But it's funny because
I'll go and jump on a stage.
- Woman: Right. Right.
- And I don't care at all.
Man: Are you really
not afraid to go on stage?
- What's the difference
between...
- Not at all.
Man: How is that possible?
Uh, because when I'm on stage,
um, it's a different...
It's a different side
of your brain, I think.
It's a creative side
to your brain.
I think the other side,
the processing side,
is a different side.
I think that takes
more frontal lobe,
and right now my frontal lobes
are really ( bleep ).
When I'm performing,
I have this...
I have the mic, so it's me
leaving everything.
But when I'm vulnerable
and I'm talking,
it's almost like I can't...
Don't feel like I can lead.
I feel like people are
judging me for some reason.
( indistinct chatter )
- Come on, Scooter.
- There you go, Scoot.
( indistinct chatter )
( all cheering )
We are on the set
of the "Yummy" music video.
The first music video
for the first single
off of "Changes."
♪ On the table,
get on the table ♪
Hailey: I think that was
a significant day
because it's the first time
he's done a music video
for something
of his own solo work
for the first time in
a really, really long time.
- ( music on speakers )
- Man: That's it.
Scooter asked me to be
a the "Yummy" shoot.
Man: And action!
- ( playing instruments )
- Good.
Buzz: I'm behind the scenes
watching him on a video camera,
and no sooner does
he get out there and he...
He just had a really tough time.
We appreciate
everyone's patience, guys.
- ( indistinct chatter )
- Sound's up.
Justin: It was... it was just...
It was a lot, you know?
Like, a lot of people,
a lot of dynamic,
a lot of stuff.
I was in my head a lot,
you know?
It was hard for me
to really enjoy it like that.
But I know that some days
are gonna be just like that.
I mean, in any work space,
you know,
there's gonna be those off days
where you just
feel kind of like...
I got a good crew.
Everyone's, you know...
I should be good, but,
like, today I just feel off.
I think that day
I was just a little off.
Buzz: You know, Justin and I
developed a routine
that when he feels stressed,
that he can use a technique
called havening
that I was trained in,
and havening is
a psychosensory technique
that it actually raises
the feel-good chemicals
in your brain on demand.
It's basically like
a self-soothing thing.
Everybody kind of has
their own version of havening
without even knowing it.
It's like when
you're a little kid
and you suck your thumb
to soothe yourself
when you're starting to feel
really stressed out
or just to keep yourself calm.
It's almost like, I think,
when you're, like, a kid
and your mom is, like,
rubbing your back to sleep.
And it's, like,
the best feeling in the world.
It's kinda like that, except
you're doing it for yourself.
Buzz: We coordinate, he and I,
prompts that allow him
to know what it is
that he should be doing
in the moment
that he's feeling stressed.
And then he has a coordinated
signal back to me
that lets me know
what's wrong, how he feels,
and what he needs.
The key to his mental health now
is to create a structured,
organized,
predictable environment
around him.
( music playing )
Nick: I think right now,
what it is,
is just to keep him
mentally healthy
and, you know, happy
is creating a schedule
that's not too
overwhelming for him.
Before, when we would put
a tour together,
we would put the tour together
while doing awards shows
and promo shows and radio shows
and interviews,
and then fly to New York
to do Jimmy Fallon,
fly back in, do a rehearsal,
shoot a music video,
all within
the same amount of time.
This schedule just needs to be
a little easier on him,
not overwhelm him
with 17 jobs in a day.
Amen: Someone right when
they're getting sober
and their brain
just looks terrible,
that same brain
six months from now
can look much better if you do
the right things for it.
I'm just incredibly impressed
with the brain's
ability to heal.
The changes that I've seen
with Justin are monumental.
He's matured tremendously.
He's not living in
survivor mode anymore.
His sleep is pretty wonderful.
I mean, it's healthy and he's,
you know, able to wake up
in the morning
and be cheerful
and excited and exercise.
Nick:
One thing where's he's really
grown and really changed
is how he deals with things
and how he deals with
what he's feeling,
how he deals with anxiety
that creeps in.
He faces it in a very,
very different way.
He's not medicating himself.
He's just growing
and using the down moments
to his advantage and learning.
Hailey:
There's always gonna be
good days and bad days
if you work a nine to five job
or if you're Justin.
It doesn't really matter
who you are.
Everybody's gonna have days
where they wake up
and they feel crappy
and they don't feel like
pushing through it that day,
but it's part of life.
I can say confidently
that I know
he's the most excited
for this chapter.
媻 Oh, whoa, whoa,
oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh, whoa, whoa,
forever, ever, ever, ever ♪
♪ Do you want to look at me
forever, ever, ever? ♪
♪ Yeah, do you see us in Vegas
pushing on Monte Carlo? ♪
♪ Bet that money on baby ♪
♪ Bet she don't leave me,
oh, no ♪
Oh, man. One for the road.
This one's called
"Good Night, Stax."
( music playing )
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
Man: He's a sweet dog.
™ª Tomorrow I'll be back ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Tomorrow you know
I will be back ♪
♪ Stax ♪
That's it.