Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 3, Episode 4 - What I Am - full transcript
Meredith becomes a patient, and Derek and Addison are equally angry at Richard for allowing Mark to join the staff. Meanwhile, Izzie receives a visit from Denny's father, and Burke is plagued by doubt over his ability to return to surgery.
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(richard) who's mark?
Derek found us
In bed together.
You're in love with me.
I'm well off, but i'm not
Into money, and i'm hot.
I'm a catch. You know, if you
Can wrap your head around
The enlarged, failing heart
And the dependency to i.v. Meds.
I'm not ready for us
To move in together.
I'll be out in an hour.
(izzie) an hour ago,
He was proposing.
Are you gonna tell shepherd
About...
(preston) not yet.
(meredith) if i haven't
Made a decision
By the end of the day,
I'm flipping a coin.
A girl can only hold out
For so long.
(meredith) at some point
During surgical residency,
and the kinds of surgeons
They're going to become.
if you ask them,
They'll tell you--
they're going
To be general surgeons...
orthopedic surgeons...
neurosurgeons...
distinctions which do more
than describe their areas
Of expertise.
they help define who they are.
because outside
The operating room,
not only do most surgeons
Have no idea who they are,
they're afraid to find out.
Time me.
I've been timing you.
My last time was off
By six seconds.
Well, it's not about speed,
It's about accuracy.
I mean,
Your sutures are fine.
My sutures are textbook.
The edges
Are perfectly aligned.
Mm-hmm. You're ready.
I need more chickens.
No more chickens, okay?
It's bad enough that meredith
Is dating a vet.
I'm not dating
A chicken surgeon.
Stop second-guessing.
It's not like you.
Your hand is fine, and shepherd
Will clear you for surgery.
Cristina.
Yeah, baby?
Nothing.
Okay.
sync:frm@????????
(george) so izzie left
The house this morning.
That's a good sign.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
I'm just not feeling
Like myself.
O'malley seems to have
That affecon women.
Ask dr. Torres.
What's that supposed to mean?
Dude... (chuckles) you
Threw her out on her ass.
I did not.
Who told you that?
Torres.
Oh...
Don't worry. I get it.
She's hot,
But she's not for you.
Why is that?
Because she's hot.
Mm.
(george) callie.
Mnh-mnh.
Hey, come on. Wait.
Before you start yelling,
You were right.
I should have told you how
I felt about you moving in,
Not that you were moving in.
It's just, i'm not good
At the whole...
"talking about feelings"
Thing.
I bet you told meredith how
You felt, though, didn't you?
And izzie--
You don't seem to have
Any trouble talking
To them, george, but me--
(miranda) let's go, people.
I've been in surgery since
2:00 a.m. I'm in no mood.
(meredith whispers) george.
I miss you.
(cristina) no cutting.
No cutting.
Yang, you're late!
Hey, i got here
Before george.
I'm here. I was here.
Nice of you to join us, yang.
Yeah, what are you
Smiling about?
Aren't you supposed to be
On the gynie brigade?
Yeah, whatever.
Woman troubles?
Oh. Men troubles.
I think this dating two guys
Thing is getting to me,
The stress of it.
Finn, derek, derek, finn.
I think i'm getting
An ulcer.
Mcdreamy and the vet
Are making you sick?
I just need to make a choice
And get it over with.
Shawn sullivan, 62,
Had minimally invasive
Bypass surgery two days ago
To remove a blockage
From his l.a.d.--
But i'm all better now.
Thank you, george.
So what do you think, miranda?
Can i stop being a burden
To you good people
And go on home?
You need to stop interrupting
The doctors, shawny.
You just need to listen
To what they say.
I need to get back
To the dealership.
They're gonna can me
If i'm out too long.
They can't can you, sweetie.
You're the best salesman
They got. Come on.
(miranda) what do you sell?
Cars.
My shawny could sell...
Anything.
Yeah, i believe he can.
What he can't sell me on
Is going back to work before
He gets his oxygen levels up.
So you put that oxygen
Back on, mr. Sullivan,
Before i even think about
Letting you out of here.
You know, and if i do,
I want your word--
Nothing fried, no alcohol
And no cigarettes.
Boy, you're tough, miranda.
I need your word, mr. Sullivan,
Or i'm not gonna sign
Those discharge papers.
I give you my word.
Hmm. All right, then.
Mrs. Sullivan, you need to go
To the front desk
To fill out some paperwork,
And then you can take
Your husband home.
(addison)
How are we doing, guys?
She's at 8 centimeters,
But the baby's
Still at minus 3 station.
So what do we do, uh,
Patterned breathing, squatting?
Dude, squatting?
Dr. Karev,
How do we normally proceed
In a situation like this?
We monitor
The baby's progress.
If the descent stops entirely
During active labor,
We perform a c-section.
Not on me, you don't.
I'm sorry, dr. Karev,
But jeff and i have
A natural birth plan,
And dr. Montgomery-shepherd
Promised us that--
I promised that we would
Do what we can,
But if your labor intensifies
And the baby doesn't descend--
Well, then we'll wait
Until he does, right?
I'm not having a c-section.
A c-section is actually
The safest way--
To what, avoid a lawsuit?
We don't have to decide
Right now.
I'm not gonna miss out
On an experience
That my body was made for
Just because it's
More convenient for you.
You all right, dr. Grey?
Yeah, dr. Bailey.
I just...
Oh.
Need to make a choice is all.
Karev. Dr. Grey, i am clipping
A basilar tip aneurysm.
Any interest?
Dr. Bailey, can i get...
Oh, my god.
Oh... My... God.
Oh, my god.
Is that...
Mcsteamy.
No, mr. Sullivan,
Don't light that!
(derek) somebody get
A fire extinguisher!
(miranda) call a code red.
Make sure he has an airway.
Sir, can you hear me? Sir?
No, he's out.
Hit his head.
Small hematoma
In the occipital region.
Get him to the burn unit
Till he's stabilized,
And then get a c.t.
Go.
Right away, doctor.
Come on.
You're burning up.
I'm fine.
You don't look fine.
You look beautiful,
But you don't look fine.
Now i'm gonna throw up.
Go, you have aneurysms
To clip
And surgeons to confront.
You're gonna be all right?
Yeah, i'm fine.
Will you look after her,
Please?
Mm-hmm.
You think i'd miss this?
What kind of idiot lights
A cigarette in a hospital?
Apparently people do
Idiotic things all the time.
(derek) chief.
Chief.
I thought you were going
Back to new york.
I thought it was time
For a change.
You can't do this.
You can't be here.
Sure i can.
It was easy.
Sublet the apartment,
Sold the practice.
(derek) he is a liar
And a cheat.
The man is one of
The finest plastic surgeons
In this country.
His department will generate
Twice the revenue
Neurosurgery does.
Money, that's why he's here?
why do you think i'm here?
This? This is why
I left you.
I thought you left me
For derek.
I left new york
Because of him.
He was your best friend
For years.
Right up until the point
Where he had sex with my wife.
We all make mistakes.
Oh.
Holy crap! Are you pregnant?
Oh, this is just perfect...
An adulterous love child.
Goes along with
An adulterous sociopath.
(derek) meredith.
Unh-unh.
You've done enough already.
(derek) meredith.
Oh, uh, doctor, i-i finished
Filling out the paperwork.
When do you think i can
Take shawny home?
Um...
So who's the father?
I'm not pregnant.
I didn't think i was pregnant.
When i was pregnant, either.
But the abdominal pain, fever
And the nonstop vomiting--
I'm not pregnant.
You don't know who
The father is, do you?
It would have to be derek's.
There's no way
It could be finn's.
You haven't had sex
With the vet yet?
(scoffs) well, you gotta get
Outta that relationship,
Immediately.
Oh, i can't be pregnant,
Can i?
With mcbaby.
Oh!
Oh, okay.
Was i this mean to you
When you were pregnant?
Oh, i thought you said
You weren't pregnant.
She's not.
We'll have to run more tests.
In that case,
Can i have some morphine?
I want you checking
The fetal monitor
Every 30 minutes.
What's the point?
The baby's nowhere near
Where it needs to be,
And you know you're gonna
Have to cut her open,
So why not get it over with?
Because it's not what
The patient wants.
And it's our job as doctors
To balance the desires
Of the patient
Against the risk
Of complications.
So if the patient wants
To have a natural birth--
So if the patient wants
A natural birth,
It's not surgical.
So why not just cut me loose
And let me in on a surgery?
I might actually learn
Something.
Like sloan's burn case.
I'm going into plastics
Anyway.
Do you think that mark sloan
Has anything to teach you?
He is just like you. He is
Only looking out for himself.
So what? Your patient's
Looking out for herself,
You're looking out
For yourself--
No, i'm not, actually.
Well, maybe you should be.
Go. Go find sloan.
Do whatever you want. Just get
Out of my face, karev. Go!
You know, i'm not saying
He's a bad doctor.
Of course not. Listen--
I'm--i'm saying that he's,
Like, a bad person.
The man has no morality,
No ethics.
Yeah. But there's no pain,
There's no numbness, but, um--
I mean, the question is
Do we really want our interns
Learning from
Somebody like that?
Derek, my arm.
Yeah. Oh, it's good.
It's great.
You have great range of motion.
I can clear you for surgery.
Really? U're sure?
Yeah, absolutely.
Complete recovery.
You're not having
Any problems, right?
No. Uh... I-i've been doing
His physical therapy with him
Every night, so...
He's perfect. He's burke.
Good. Glad to hear it.
Welcome back, dr. Burke.
Yeah.
Uh, dr. Bailey wanted to know
If you still needed an intern?
No, i'm fine.
How's, uh, dr. Grey?
Oh, she's not pregnant
With anyone's baby, so...
(whispers) yeah.
Izzie...
Good to see you.
You want some lunch?
I'm meeting somebody.
Anybody i know?
Actually,
I don't even know him.
You never met?
Know what he looks like?
So for all you know,
He could be an older, rugged,
Ex-marine-looking dude?
Dr. Stevens?
Mr. Duquette.
Please...
Call me denny.
Not denny's type at all.
Really?
What was his type?
Um...
Dark-haired girls, smart.
Uh... Well, not that
You're not smart.
You're a doctor.
Obviously--
I was.
I was a doctor.
I'm not anymore.
Oh, that's right.
Dr. Webber said you'd quit.
You...
Talked to dr. Webber?
Uh, yes,
And he said that, well,
If i wanted to hear the whole
Story, i should talk to you.
So if you don't mind,
Dr. Stevens--
Izzie.
Izzie...
If you don't mind,
I need to hear
The whole story.
Dr. Sloan.
You my intern?
Yeah. Uh, i'm your intern.
(shawn) my face... Oh.
No need to talk,
Mr. Sullivan.
That's gonna be painful
For a while.
My face.
He wants to know that you
Can fix his face.
He needs to know
That you can fix it.
I'm going to remove
The burned tissue
And then bandage your face
With a dressing of live cells.
And that'll do it? His face
Will be back like it was?
Because his face was--
It's a nice face. (sobs)
He's a salesman.
I'm gonna do absolutely
Everything i can, mrs. Sullivan.
We'll need a neuro consult
Fore we operate.
Anything else? I mean, uh,
I could do debridement or, uh--
Actually, there is
One more thing.
Bone dry cappuccino.
Make it a double.
You're a good friend.
You are so high right now.
Actually, you're my best friend
In the whole entire world.
Now i just feel sorry
For you.
Why?
Because i could die today?
This is why i hate
Being around stoned people.
And if i did die today,
I'd only be remembered
As the slutty intern
who dated two doctors.
No, one doctor, one vet.
Derek, finn. Derek or finn?
I'd die as the girl who
Couldn't make a choice, right?
Probably.
But none of that matters,
Because you'll be dead.
Dr. Grey...
You've got a fever,
High white count
And tenderness over
Mcburney's point,
Which suggests--
(george, cristina and meredith)
Appendicitis.
Dr. O'malley,
Prep dr. Grey for surgery.
You're scrubbing in.
I am,
In meredith's appendectomy?
I, uh... Am i the only one
Who remembers
The last time george scrubbed in
On an appendectomy?
He almost killed the guy.
Sorry, george.
I don't have to scrub in,
Dr. Bailey. I could just, uh...
Uh... Unless you want me to,
Which...
No. It's not
Gonna happen again.
That good enough for you,
Dr. Grey?
You're pretty.
George! Ice chips.
Hey.
I, uh, heard meredith's
Having an appy.
It wasn't my idea to scrub in.
I tried to get out of it.
George... I was just...
I just thought maybe
We could have a late supper
At the archfield.
Why would we have dinner
At a hotel?
Because they bring it
Right to your room.
You're staying
At the archfield.
How--how are you
Affording that?
I still have some secrets,
O'malley.
And if you
Come see me tonight,
I just might show you
One or two.
(miranda) dr. Sloan.
I was just checking
On the sullivans,
And how is he doing
Because he
You are?
Dr. Bailey.
We met this morning.
I was the resident
On mr. Sullivan's bypass.
Well, i don't need a resident
On this case, so...
Excuse me. I wasn't asking
To be your resident.
I was asking how my patient
Was doing.
He's not
Your patient anymore.
Hey, so congratulations.
I told you.
Yeah.
What? What?
Shepherd shouldn't have
Cleared me.
Burke, you're back.
You're back and you're fine.
Burke.
What?
What?
He just...
Shouldn't have cleared me.
(woman) another contraction,
Dr. Montgomery-shepherd.
You're fully dilated.
But the baby's
Only at minus 2 station.
He just needs more time.
We don't have it, rebecca.
His heart rate's slowing
With each contraction.
If he starts having
Late decels, i--
Is he having late decels?
Not yet, but--
Then stop trying to scare me
Into an operation
I told you i don't want.
I have a birth plan.
Look, i'm not--
I'm not gonna be one of
Those weak-ass women
Who give all that up the minute
Things start to get scary.
I...
Rebecca...
Your birth plan is just that,
It's a plan.
Jeff, get her out of here.
Honey, i think she's just
Trying to be cautious.
Just get out! Just get out!
Get out! Aah!
! Get out!
Since when do you "get out"?
Clearly,
I am not myself today.
Never would've figured
Mark sloan to be your type.
He's not.
he's not. (sighs)
What is he doing here?
He's not supposed to be here.
I can't have him here.
I can't.
He's supposed to be
In new york. I can't--
I can't function
With him here.
I'm a professional here.
People respect me here.
But when he's here,
I'm just--i'm--
A woman who gets the hots
For man-candy
And cheats on her husband.
That is rude...
And unkind...
And completely true.
Oh, my god.
What am i gonna do?
For starters, you can keep
Your knees closed
In his presence.
Miranda.
You asked.
And also, you can remember
That no man--
Not derek, not mark--
Defines who you are.
Well, let's see--
Your complexion is flushed...
Abdominal wall is tender.
Are you happy you have
A boyfriend
Who works in a hospital?
You... Are just
One of many men
That i happen to be dating
At the moment.
Really?
Mm-hmm.
How many of us are there?
Uh...
Well, there's, uh, you...
Mm-hmm.
And finn and...
Well, forgive me
For pointing out the obvious,
But i don't see
Any practitioners
Of veterinarian medicine
At your bedside.
You would
If you turned around.
Ah, finn.
Derek.
Oh, can i just say
How much it helps
That i am on drugs
Right now?
(derek) so.
(finn) so.
So how's life
In the animal kingdom?
What about you, derek?
Slow day?
If you need to take off,
That's--
No, it's fine. I can stay.
Great.
Great.
Great.
(george) okay, let's get you
Prepped and ready for...
Dr. Shepherd. Dr. Finn.
Now all my boys are here.
You're all so handsome...
And such good kissers.
Oh, god.
Excuse me?
She's on drugs.
He's an excellent kisser.
You two... Dated?
You didn't know?
It wasn't a date so much as
A disastrously uncomfortable
Sexual experience.
Oh... I-i--
I can't be here.
None of you can be here.
This woman is being prepped
For surgery,
Which means you all
Need to leave.
Gladly.
Now! Not you, o'malley.
Dr. Bailey,
All my boyfriends are here.
Not for long.
Y good-bye, dr. Grey.
I'll be here
When you wake up.
So will i.
Now!
What are you doing?
What does it look like
I'm doing?
You're not in med school.
You don't need to practice
Procedures on a corpse.
(instrument buzzes)
Better than on a patient.
Burke, your hand is fine.
Right.
Are you... Mad at me?
Hey, hey, you're mad at me?
Forget it.
Just...
Don't worry about it.
You have patients.
I'm on call for the pit.
Cristina--
I-i am not leaving.
Time me.
The transplant went better
Than anyone expected,
And he was better.
He was... So much better.
But denny, um...
Before the surgery,
He was hooked up
To a machine called--
You're not answering
My question.
I'm trying.
I-i'm getting there.
It--it was complicated,
And his heart was--
I don't give a damn about
The medicine.
I know what killed my son.
He had a bad heart.
He had a bad heart
For a long time.
I get that.
What i don't get is how
A girl like you
Goes from being my son's doctor
To--to his fianc?e
On the very day he's supposed
To get a new heart.
What i don't get is how you
Got him to propose to you
Hours before he died.
Mr. Sullivan,
I'm gonna recommend
A night of observation
In the i.c.u.
Before dr. Sloan proceeds
With your surgery.
Oh.
Is that really necessary,
Dr. Shepherd?
The longer we wait, the higher
The risk of infection.
I think it's important
That we attend to
Potential life-threatening
Injuries
Before moving on to cosmetic,
Dr. Sloan.
He's not here for a face-lift,
Derek. He's a burn victim.
Why did you ask for a consult
If you've already established
A course of action?
Because i thought you were
Good enough at your job
To put aside the personal and do
What's best for the patient.
My job? You're telling me
How to do my job?
Now you're telling me
How to do my--
Please, i'm sure
It's complicated.
And i know shawny's soy
For lighting that smoke.
He was trying to keep his word
To dr. Bailey.
He told her he wasn't
Gonna smoke when he got home,
And he was... Just trying
To keep his word.
He knows he did wrong.
But he's...
He's a salesman.
That's who he is.
So could you please
Just fix his face?
Could you do that
For us, please?
If what happened
Between me and addison
Is so unforgivable,
How do you justify
What happened
Between you and meredith?
What the hell are you
Talking about?
You need me to be
The bad guy? Fine.
But i'm not the only
Bad guy here, derek.
You and me, we're the same.
Addison.
Dr. Montgomery-shepherd.
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You bellowed, dr. Grey.
Hi.
You certainly are,
Aren't you?
But your not pregnant.
No.
Are you okay?
Fine.
How are you?
I'm trying to choose
Between two men.
okay, well,
Good luck with that.
How did you know
Derek was the one?
Excuse me?
I know you hate me and all,
And you don't
Owe me anything.
nothing. (sighs)
No... Thing.
What was i saying?
Derek.
Right.
I want him to be the one.
But i would know if he was
The one, right?
You knew, right? (sighs)
You don't...
I didn't... Know.
I just...
Derek's the kind of guy...
I just knew
He wouldn't hurt me.
I mean, not on purpose,
Anyway,
Not the way i hurt him.
He hurt me...
When he chose you.
??
(sighs)
I should've stepped aside,
Been a better person.
I... Should've...
A lot of things.
Me, too.
A lot of things.
I don't hate you.
How come we never
Talked like this before?
The only reason we are
Talking like this right now
Is because i know
You won't remember
A single word of this
Once the drugs wear off.
Dr. Karev,
You need to see this.
I'm off the case.
Page dr. Montgomery-shepherd.
We did, but...
Oh, man.
Were you just talking
To meredith?
Yeah.
What?
Don't, um...
Don't hurt her again.
You planning on killing
A woman today?
What?
The c-section
You should've performed on
Rebecca bloom this morning?
At this point, it may be
Too late for her and the baby.
Nice work, doc.
Get an o.r.
And an anesthesiologist.
We're doing
A crash c-section.
Oh! What is happening?
Rebecca, your baby
Is having late decels.
He's in distress. We have to
Get you into the delivery room
And get him out right now.
Oh, no, please.
This is no longer
A conversation.
I am your doctor, and i am
Responsible for your life
And your baby's life,
And i'm not about to lose
Either one of yo are we clear?
You just gonna stand there,
Karev, or are we doing this?
Mr. Duquette, denny and i--
He--he was my patient
For months.
And the minute he died,
You quit your job.
Because i couldn't--
Four years of medical school,
Now that's a whole lot
Of debt.
How were you planning
On paying that back, huh?
Did you think that denny
Would pay for everything?
Why are you... What--
What are you talking about?
I'm talking about
Otecting my son.
Oh, where were you
When you needed you?
because i was there
The whole time.
i was there.
i was working 80-hour weeks,
And i was still always there.
He had so many surgeries,
So many procedures.
He was so scared.
Where were you then?
Where were you?
You may not get me,
But you don't have to
Because i don't
Get you either.
i don't get how a father
Abandons his dying son.
Wait.
Wait.
Is that what he told you,
That i--that his mother
And i abandoned him?
Well...
Heidn't tell you
The truth.
What?
What?
Oh, burke. I thought you--
You told me--
I can't hold it still
Long enough to attach the graft.
You told me your hand
Was fine.
I can't--
You told me you
Your hand was fine.
It's not fine!
You wanted to believe
I was fine.
You wanted me to be fine.
You wanted--
I wanted--damn it.
My hands... Are
The only things that i have
That are of any value
To me, to you.
Not to me--
Oh, yes, to you.
You want preston burke.
My hands...
These are who i am.
If i can't do this,
If i can't finish
This surgery, then...
What if i hold the vessel?
What if i hold the vessel?
Come on.
Burke...
If i hold the vessel...
I can attach the graft.
Okay, so...
I--okay, i put my hand...
Nobody has to know.
Derek. Excuse me. Look,
I know you're mad at me,
But mark sloan
Is the best in his field.
Any surgical unit
In this country
Would be lucky to have him.
You did what you thought
Was best for this hospital.
I did.
Uh... Are you all right?
(sighs) can i ask you a...
Personal question?
Why did you leave
Meredi's mother?
I could've left adele.
I could've gone away
With ellis.
But i would've had
So much baggage,
So much guilt.
Ellis couldn't see it,
But i wasn't...
I never
Would've made her happy,
Not like she deserved
To be happy.
I s a better man
For walking away.
I loved her enough
To walk away.
Oh, oh, on the table,keep me draped
Too many people
Have seen me naked already.
I'd like to keep
Whatever dignity i have left.
Mcsteamy.
(whispers) meredith--
Mcsteamy! Whoo-hoo!
Is that what you're
Calling me now--mcsteamy?
Yeah, but i don't think
You were supposed to know that.
How's my favorite
Dirty mistress?
Haven't you heard?
Now i'm an adulterous whore.
(laughs) he's so beautiful.
He's so beautiful.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
The appendix is out.
Now what do i do,
O'malley?
You invert the stump
Into the cecum
And pull up
On the purse strings.
Show me.
Okay, straight hemostats
And zero chromic.
Where's my coffe
Karev?
I got pulled into
An emergency c-section. Sorry.
That's too bad.
I was gonna let you scrub in
On a real surgery.
But, um...
Oh, well.
Maybe next time...
If o.b. Can spare you.
See ya.
Finn.
Derek.
She's still in surgery.
Yeah. Yeah, i fired
I'd wait for her here.
Meredith, uh, tells me
That you fish.
She does?
She tells me a lot of things.
Have you been
Up to cornet bay?
It's mostly chinook,
Some rockfish.
You fish?
Yeah, as much as i can.
Uh-huh.
My wife hated it.
(chuckles)
You had a wife?
Yeah. She died.
I'm sorry. I-i didn't know.
Meredith doesn't tell you
A lot of things. Only me.
Yeah. Funny. Very funny.
You know, when i heard
That she was sick, i...
People come through
Appendectomies all the time.
I mean, she'll be fine,
Right?
Mm-hmm.
You really like her,
Don't you?
Yeah.
You're a good guy.
Uh, yeah, i think so.
(laughs) i-i hope so.
Okay.
See you later.
I'll see you.
It was doctor after doctor.
Everybody had a--
Had a different opinion.
Everybody had
A worse opinion.
Before that, denny had never
Been sick a day in his life.
Before that, he had been...
You know, the...
The thought of having
To bury your own son...
His mother and i,
We didn't--
We didn't
Handle it very well.
One day, we came home
And found a note
Saying, uh, he didn't want us
To have to watch him die,
That he left.
We thought...
We thought he was dead
All this time.
I had no idea.
Believe me, if i had known,
I would...
Never have let him
Get away with that.
I believe it.
I worked my way through
Med school.
You--
I paid off my debt.
Look, i'm, uh, sorry
About before.
You--you don't have to
Explain--
I do. I do.
You're his dad and you're
Trying to protect him.
And i want you to know
That i've paid off all my debt.
And when i met denny,
I was gonna be a surgeon,
So i didn't need his money.
I had everything i needed.
I had everything i needed
Un-until, um...
(sighs) we miss him.
My god, we miss him.
Yeah.
I, um...
Yeah.
What is this?
It's for you.
It's from denny.
Hey. You ready to go?
I'm sorry
I have to do this,
But i have to go home.
It's izzie.
It's always izzie
Or meredith.
It's... It's never me.
Oh, come on.
That is not true.
?????
Whoam i your girlfriend?
Am i somebody
You mess around with?
Do you even know?
Well, guess what.
Now you don't have to bother
Figuring it out.
How's he doing,
Mrs. Sullivan?
We're just getting
An update now, dr. Bailey.
The surgery went well.
We removed
The necrotic tissue,
Applied the live cells,
And if his body responds,
In three or four weeks--
He'll have his face back?
Mr. And mrs. Sullivan,
Your face may never be
Exactly what it was.
Even if everything goes
Perfectly well,
There will be scarring.
But he's a salesman.
He has such a nice face.
You have an incredible wife,
Mr. Sullivan,
And half a dozen
Car salesmen in the lobby
Waiting to visit you.
Your face may be different,
But you know as well as i do,
It's not about
What you look like
Or your job
Or how successful you are.
It's about having people
In your life that you love
And who love you.
That--that's all
That matters.
How you feeling?
Oh, mortified.
I was just explaining
The "meredith on morphine"
Experience.
Ahh. You don't remember?
Was it memorable?
I'll let finn tell you.
I'll come back.
No, a-actually, i've--
I've just been sent
On a mission to get
The, uh, patient's ice chips.
Be right back.
(sighs)
How badly
Did i embarrass myself?
What?
Mnh-mnh.
You deserve to be
With somebody
Who makes you happy,
Somebody who's not gonna
Complicate your life,
Somebody who won't hurt you.
He's a better guy,
Meredith.
Finn's the better guy.
???
Oy????c|qg?
I'm walking away.
He left a message.
Denny left a message
For his parents
The night...
His father gave me
The number and the code,
But, um...
I just couldn't
Do it alone.
Addison... Can we talk?
I don't want you here,
Mark.
I think i've made that
Abundantly clear.
So... If you insist
On staying,
Just... Know that
We're coworkers
And nothing more.
Karev.
As of right now, you are
Officially off my service.
But for what it's worth,
I think you're gonna
Miss me.
(denny sr.) Hello,
You've reached the duquettes.
(denny) dad, mom, it's me.
i'm calling from
Seattle grace hospital,
where the beautiful, talented
and incredibly stubborn
Dr. Isobel stevens
has just given me
A brand-new heart
and promised to marry me.
i know we've had
Our differences,
and i'm sorry
We've been out of touch.
More chicken surgery?
I'm making you dinner.
believe it or not,
i was trying to make
Everything better.
i know you're angry.
I hope you'll forgive me.
turns out, sometimes you
Have to do the wrong thing...
Mcsteamy, right?
You must be a frie
Of meredith's.
Not really. Dr. Torres.
Callie.
Mark sloan.
Bad day?
You could say that.
You?
Oh, yeah.
So what have you heard
About me, exactly?
Mostly things
That involve the words
"dirty" and "bad."
Right.
I guesthere, uh, really is
No starting over, is there?
Can i buy you a drink,
Callie?
Only if you have it
Delivered to my hotel room,
Because i'm off to bed.
sometimes you have to make
A big mistake...
You comin'?
to figure out
How to make things right.
So what time
Do they let us visitors
Start visiting
In the morning?
You shouldn't do that.
I don't mind.
No, finn.
Really,
You shouldn't do that.
So it's derek.
I'm sorry.
Can i ask why?
You are a great guy...
You're a wonderful guy,
And you may even be
The better guy.
But...
He's the one.
And i wish he wasn't.
He's gonna hurt you again...
And when he does,
I won't be here.
mistakes are painful...
Take care of yourself,
Meredith.
but they're the only way
To find out who you really are.
i know who i am now.
i know what i want.
i've got the love
Of my life...
a new heart...
and i want you guys to get
On the next plane out here
and meet my girl.
I promise
From here ???
Nothing's gonne be the same.
Love you , bye.
---
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"grey's anatomy"...
(richard) who's mark?
Derek found us
In bed together.
You're in love with me.
I'm well off, but i'm not
Into money, and i'm hot.
I'm a catch. You know, if you
Can wrap your head around
The enlarged, failing heart
And the dependency to i.v. Meds.
I'm not ready for us
To move in together.
I'll be out in an hour.
(izzie) an hour ago,
He was proposing.
Are you gonna tell shepherd
About...
(preston) not yet.
(meredith) if i haven't
Made a decision
By the end of the day,
I'm flipping a coin.
A girl can only hold out
For so long.
(meredith) at some point
During surgical residency,
and the kinds of surgeons
They're going to become.
if you ask them,
They'll tell you--
they're going
To be general surgeons...
orthopedic surgeons...
neurosurgeons...
distinctions which do more
than describe their areas
Of expertise.
they help define who they are.
because outside
The operating room,
not only do most surgeons
Have no idea who they are,
they're afraid to find out.
Time me.
I've been timing you.
My last time was off
By six seconds.
Well, it's not about speed,
It's about accuracy.
I mean,
Your sutures are fine.
My sutures are textbook.
The edges
Are perfectly aligned.
Mm-hmm. You're ready.
I need more chickens.
No more chickens, okay?
It's bad enough that meredith
Is dating a vet.
I'm not dating
A chicken surgeon.
Stop second-guessing.
It's not like you.
Your hand is fine, and shepherd
Will clear you for surgery.
Cristina.
Yeah, baby?
Nothing.
Okay.
sync:frm@????????
(george) so izzie left
The house this morning.
That's a good sign.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
I'm just not feeling
Like myself.
O'malley seems to have
That affecon women.
Ask dr. Torres.
What's that supposed to mean?
Dude... (chuckles) you
Threw her out on her ass.
I did not.
Who told you that?
Torres.
Oh...
Don't worry. I get it.
She's hot,
But she's not for you.
Why is that?
Because she's hot.
Mm.
(george) callie.
Mnh-mnh.
Hey, come on. Wait.
Before you start yelling,
You were right.
I should have told you how
I felt about you moving in,
Not that you were moving in.
It's just, i'm not good
At the whole...
"talking about feelings"
Thing.
I bet you told meredith how
You felt, though, didn't you?
And izzie--
You don't seem to have
Any trouble talking
To them, george, but me--
(miranda) let's go, people.
I've been in surgery since
2:00 a.m. I'm in no mood.
(meredith whispers) george.
I miss you.
(cristina) no cutting.
No cutting.
Yang, you're late!
Hey, i got here
Before george.
I'm here. I was here.
Nice of you to join us, yang.
Yeah, what are you
Smiling about?
Aren't you supposed to be
On the gynie brigade?
Yeah, whatever.
Woman troubles?
Oh. Men troubles.
I think this dating two guys
Thing is getting to me,
The stress of it.
Finn, derek, derek, finn.
I think i'm getting
An ulcer.
Mcdreamy and the vet
Are making you sick?
I just need to make a choice
And get it over with.
Shawn sullivan, 62,
Had minimally invasive
Bypass surgery two days ago
To remove a blockage
From his l.a.d.--
But i'm all better now.
Thank you, george.
So what do you think, miranda?
Can i stop being a burden
To you good people
And go on home?
You need to stop interrupting
The doctors, shawny.
You just need to listen
To what they say.
I need to get back
To the dealership.
They're gonna can me
If i'm out too long.
They can't can you, sweetie.
You're the best salesman
They got. Come on.
(miranda) what do you sell?
Cars.
My shawny could sell...
Anything.
Yeah, i believe he can.
What he can't sell me on
Is going back to work before
He gets his oxygen levels up.
So you put that oxygen
Back on, mr. Sullivan,
Before i even think about
Letting you out of here.
You know, and if i do,
I want your word--
Nothing fried, no alcohol
And no cigarettes.
Boy, you're tough, miranda.
I need your word, mr. Sullivan,
Or i'm not gonna sign
Those discharge papers.
I give you my word.
Hmm. All right, then.
Mrs. Sullivan, you need to go
To the front desk
To fill out some paperwork,
And then you can take
Your husband home.
(addison)
How are we doing, guys?
She's at 8 centimeters,
But the baby's
Still at minus 3 station.
So what do we do, uh,
Patterned breathing, squatting?
Dude, squatting?
Dr. Karev,
How do we normally proceed
In a situation like this?
We monitor
The baby's progress.
If the descent stops entirely
During active labor,
We perform a c-section.
Not on me, you don't.
I'm sorry, dr. Karev,
But jeff and i have
A natural birth plan,
And dr. Montgomery-shepherd
Promised us that--
I promised that we would
Do what we can,
But if your labor intensifies
And the baby doesn't descend--
Well, then we'll wait
Until he does, right?
I'm not having a c-section.
A c-section is actually
The safest way--
To what, avoid a lawsuit?
We don't have to decide
Right now.
I'm not gonna miss out
On an experience
That my body was made for
Just because it's
More convenient for you.
You all right, dr. Grey?
Yeah, dr. Bailey.
I just...
Oh.
Need to make a choice is all.
Karev. Dr. Grey, i am clipping
A basilar tip aneurysm.
Any interest?
Dr. Bailey, can i get...
Oh, my god.
Oh... My... God.
Oh, my god.
Is that...
Mcsteamy.
No, mr. Sullivan,
Don't light that!
(derek) somebody get
A fire extinguisher!
(miranda) call a code red.
Make sure he has an airway.
Sir, can you hear me? Sir?
No, he's out.
Hit his head.
Small hematoma
In the occipital region.
Get him to the burn unit
Till he's stabilized,
And then get a c.t.
Go.
Right away, doctor.
Come on.
You're burning up.
I'm fine.
You don't look fine.
You look beautiful,
But you don't look fine.
Now i'm gonna throw up.
Go, you have aneurysms
To clip
And surgeons to confront.
You're gonna be all right?
Yeah, i'm fine.
Will you look after her,
Please?
Mm-hmm.
You think i'd miss this?
What kind of idiot lights
A cigarette in a hospital?
Apparently people do
Idiotic things all the time.
(derek) chief.
Chief.
I thought you were going
Back to new york.
I thought it was time
For a change.
You can't do this.
You can't be here.
Sure i can.
It was easy.
Sublet the apartment,
Sold the practice.
(derek) he is a liar
And a cheat.
The man is one of
The finest plastic surgeons
In this country.
His department will generate
Twice the revenue
Neurosurgery does.
Money, that's why he's here?
why do you think i'm here?
This? This is why
I left you.
I thought you left me
For derek.
I left new york
Because of him.
He was your best friend
For years.
Right up until the point
Where he had sex with my wife.
We all make mistakes.
Oh.
Holy crap! Are you pregnant?
Oh, this is just perfect...
An adulterous love child.
Goes along with
An adulterous sociopath.
(derek) meredith.
Unh-unh.
You've done enough already.
(derek) meredith.
Oh, uh, doctor, i-i finished
Filling out the paperwork.
When do you think i can
Take shawny home?
Um...
So who's the father?
I'm not pregnant.
I didn't think i was pregnant.
When i was pregnant, either.
But the abdominal pain, fever
And the nonstop vomiting--
I'm not pregnant.
You don't know who
The father is, do you?
It would have to be derek's.
There's no way
It could be finn's.
You haven't had sex
With the vet yet?
(scoffs) well, you gotta get
Outta that relationship,
Immediately.
Oh, i can't be pregnant,
Can i?
With mcbaby.
Oh!
Oh, okay.
Was i this mean to you
When you were pregnant?
Oh, i thought you said
You weren't pregnant.
She's not.
We'll have to run more tests.
In that case,
Can i have some morphine?
I want you checking
The fetal monitor
Every 30 minutes.
What's the point?
The baby's nowhere near
Where it needs to be,
And you know you're gonna
Have to cut her open,
So why not get it over with?
Because it's not what
The patient wants.
And it's our job as doctors
To balance the desires
Of the patient
Against the risk
Of complications.
So if the patient wants
To have a natural birth--
So if the patient wants
A natural birth,
It's not surgical.
So why not just cut me loose
And let me in on a surgery?
I might actually learn
Something.
Like sloan's burn case.
I'm going into plastics
Anyway.
Do you think that mark sloan
Has anything to teach you?
He is just like you. He is
Only looking out for himself.
So what? Your patient's
Looking out for herself,
You're looking out
For yourself--
No, i'm not, actually.
Well, maybe you should be.
Go. Go find sloan.
Do whatever you want. Just get
Out of my face, karev. Go!
You know, i'm not saying
He's a bad doctor.
Of course not. Listen--
I'm--i'm saying that he's,
Like, a bad person.
The man has no morality,
No ethics.
Yeah. But there's no pain,
There's no numbness, but, um--
I mean, the question is
Do we really want our interns
Learning from
Somebody like that?
Derek, my arm.
Yeah. Oh, it's good.
It's great.
You have great range of motion.
I can clear you for surgery.
Really? U're sure?
Yeah, absolutely.
Complete recovery.
You're not having
Any problems, right?
No. Uh... I-i've been doing
His physical therapy with him
Every night, so...
He's perfect. He's burke.
Good. Glad to hear it.
Welcome back, dr. Burke.
Yeah.
Uh, dr. Bailey wanted to know
If you still needed an intern?
No, i'm fine.
How's, uh, dr. Grey?
Oh, she's not pregnant
With anyone's baby, so...
(whispers) yeah.
Izzie...
Good to see you.
You want some lunch?
I'm meeting somebody.
Anybody i know?
Actually,
I don't even know him.
You never met?
Know what he looks like?
So for all you know,
He could be an older, rugged,
Ex-marine-looking dude?
Dr. Stevens?
Mr. Duquette.
Please...
Call me denny.
Not denny's type at all.
Really?
What was his type?
Um...
Dark-haired girls, smart.
Uh... Well, not that
You're not smart.
You're a doctor.
Obviously--
I was.
I was a doctor.
I'm not anymore.
Oh, that's right.
Dr. Webber said you'd quit.
You...
Talked to dr. Webber?
Uh, yes,
And he said that, well,
If i wanted to hear the whole
Story, i should talk to you.
So if you don't mind,
Dr. Stevens--
Izzie.
Izzie...
If you don't mind,
I need to hear
The whole story.
Dr. Sloan.
You my intern?
Yeah. Uh, i'm your intern.
(shawn) my face... Oh.
No need to talk,
Mr. Sullivan.
That's gonna be painful
For a while.
My face.
He wants to know that you
Can fix his face.
He needs to know
That you can fix it.
I'm going to remove
The burned tissue
And then bandage your face
With a dressing of live cells.
And that'll do it? His face
Will be back like it was?
Because his face was--
It's a nice face. (sobs)
He's a salesman.
I'm gonna do absolutely
Everything i can, mrs. Sullivan.
We'll need a neuro consult
Fore we operate.
Anything else? I mean, uh,
I could do debridement or, uh--
Actually, there is
One more thing.
Bone dry cappuccino.
Make it a double.
You're a good friend.
You are so high right now.
Actually, you're my best friend
In the whole entire world.
Now i just feel sorry
For you.
Why?
Because i could die today?
This is why i hate
Being around stoned people.
And if i did die today,
I'd only be remembered
As the slutty intern
who dated two doctors.
No, one doctor, one vet.
Derek, finn. Derek or finn?
I'd die as the girl who
Couldn't make a choice, right?
Probably.
But none of that matters,
Because you'll be dead.
Dr. Grey...
You've got a fever,
High white count
And tenderness over
Mcburney's point,
Which suggests--
(george, cristina and meredith)
Appendicitis.
Dr. O'malley,
Prep dr. Grey for surgery.
You're scrubbing in.
I am,
In meredith's appendectomy?
I, uh... Am i the only one
Who remembers
The last time george scrubbed in
On an appendectomy?
He almost killed the guy.
Sorry, george.
I don't have to scrub in,
Dr. Bailey. I could just, uh...
Uh... Unless you want me to,
Which...
No. It's not
Gonna happen again.
That good enough for you,
Dr. Grey?
You're pretty.
George! Ice chips.
Hey.
I, uh, heard meredith's
Having an appy.
It wasn't my idea to scrub in.
I tried to get out of it.
George... I was just...
I just thought maybe
We could have a late supper
At the archfield.
Why would we have dinner
At a hotel?
Because they bring it
Right to your room.
You're staying
At the archfield.
How--how are you
Affording that?
I still have some secrets,
O'malley.
And if you
Come see me tonight,
I just might show you
One or two.
(miranda) dr. Sloan.
I was just checking
On the sullivans,
And how is he doing
Because he
You are?
Dr. Bailey.
We met this morning.
I was the resident
On mr. Sullivan's bypass.
Well, i don't need a resident
On this case, so...
Excuse me. I wasn't asking
To be your resident.
I was asking how my patient
Was doing.
He's not
Your patient anymore.
Hey, so congratulations.
I told you.
Yeah.
What? What?
Shepherd shouldn't have
Cleared me.
Burke, you're back.
You're back and you're fine.
Burke.
What?
What?
He just...
Shouldn't have cleared me.
(woman) another contraction,
Dr. Montgomery-shepherd.
You're fully dilated.
But the baby's
Only at minus 2 station.
He just needs more time.
We don't have it, rebecca.
His heart rate's slowing
With each contraction.
If he starts having
Late decels, i--
Is he having late decels?
Not yet, but--
Then stop trying to scare me
Into an operation
I told you i don't want.
I have a birth plan.
Look, i'm not--
I'm not gonna be one of
Those weak-ass women
Who give all that up the minute
Things start to get scary.
I...
Rebecca...
Your birth plan is just that,
It's a plan.
Jeff, get her out of here.
Honey, i think she's just
Trying to be cautious.
Just get out! Just get out!
Get out! Aah!
! Get out!
Since when do you "get out"?
Clearly,
I am not myself today.
Never would've figured
Mark sloan to be your type.
He's not.
he's not. (sighs)
What is he doing here?
He's not supposed to be here.
I can't have him here.
I can't.
He's supposed to be
In new york. I can't--
I can't function
With him here.
I'm a professional here.
People respect me here.
But when he's here,
I'm just--i'm--
A woman who gets the hots
For man-candy
And cheats on her husband.
That is rude...
And unkind...
And completely true.
Oh, my god.
What am i gonna do?
For starters, you can keep
Your knees closed
In his presence.
Miranda.
You asked.
And also, you can remember
That no man--
Not derek, not mark--
Defines who you are.
Well, let's see--
Your complexion is flushed...
Abdominal wall is tender.
Are you happy you have
A boyfriend
Who works in a hospital?
You... Are just
One of many men
That i happen to be dating
At the moment.
Really?
Mm-hmm.
How many of us are there?
Uh...
Well, there's, uh, you...
Mm-hmm.
And finn and...
Well, forgive me
For pointing out the obvious,
But i don't see
Any practitioners
Of veterinarian medicine
At your bedside.
You would
If you turned around.
Ah, finn.
Derek.
Oh, can i just say
How much it helps
That i am on drugs
Right now?
(derek) so.
(finn) so.
So how's life
In the animal kingdom?
What about you, derek?
Slow day?
If you need to take off,
That's--
No, it's fine. I can stay.
Great.
Great.
Great.
(george) okay, let's get you
Prepped and ready for...
Dr. Shepherd. Dr. Finn.
Now all my boys are here.
You're all so handsome...
And such good kissers.
Oh, god.
Excuse me?
She's on drugs.
He's an excellent kisser.
You two... Dated?
You didn't know?
It wasn't a date so much as
A disastrously uncomfortable
Sexual experience.
Oh... I-i--
I can't be here.
None of you can be here.
This woman is being prepped
For surgery,
Which means you all
Need to leave.
Gladly.
Now! Not you, o'malley.
Dr. Bailey,
All my boyfriends are here.
Not for long.
Y good-bye, dr. Grey.
I'll be here
When you wake up.
So will i.
Now!
What are you doing?
What does it look like
I'm doing?
You're not in med school.
You don't need to practice
Procedures on a corpse.
(instrument buzzes)
Better than on a patient.
Burke, your hand is fine.
Right.
Are you... Mad at me?
Hey, hey, you're mad at me?
Forget it.
Just...
Don't worry about it.
You have patients.
I'm on call for the pit.
Cristina--
I-i am not leaving.
Time me.
The transplant went better
Than anyone expected,
And he was better.
He was... So much better.
But denny, um...
Before the surgery,
He was hooked up
To a machine called--
You're not answering
My question.
I'm trying.
I-i'm getting there.
It--it was complicated,
And his heart was--
I don't give a damn about
The medicine.
I know what killed my son.
He had a bad heart.
He had a bad heart
For a long time.
I get that.
What i don't get is how
A girl like you
Goes from being my son's doctor
To--to his fianc?e
On the very day he's supposed
To get a new heart.
What i don't get is how you
Got him to propose to you
Hours before he died.
Mr. Sullivan,
I'm gonna recommend
A night of observation
In the i.c.u.
Before dr. Sloan proceeds
With your surgery.
Oh.
Is that really necessary,
Dr. Shepherd?
The longer we wait, the higher
The risk of infection.
I think it's important
That we attend to
Potential life-threatening
Injuries
Before moving on to cosmetic,
Dr. Sloan.
He's not here for a face-lift,
Derek. He's a burn victim.
Why did you ask for a consult
If you've already established
A course of action?
Because i thought you were
Good enough at your job
To put aside the personal and do
What's best for the patient.
My job? You're telling me
How to do my job?
Now you're telling me
How to do my--
Please, i'm sure
It's complicated.
And i know shawny's soy
For lighting that smoke.
He was trying to keep his word
To dr. Bailey.
He told her he wasn't
Gonna smoke when he got home,
And he was... Just trying
To keep his word.
He knows he did wrong.
But he's...
He's a salesman.
That's who he is.
So could you please
Just fix his face?
Could you do that
For us, please?
If what happened
Between me and addison
Is so unforgivable,
How do you justify
What happened
Between you and meredith?
What the hell are you
Talking about?
You need me to be
The bad guy? Fine.
But i'm not the only
Bad guy here, derek.
You and me, we're the same.
Addison.
Dr. Montgomery-shepherd.
||
You bellowed, dr. Grey.
Hi.
You certainly are,
Aren't you?
But your not pregnant.
No.
Are you okay?
Fine.
How are you?
I'm trying to choose
Between two men.
okay, well,
Good luck with that.
How did you know
Derek was the one?
Excuse me?
I know you hate me and all,
And you don't
Owe me anything.
nothing. (sighs)
No... Thing.
What was i saying?
Derek.
Right.
I want him to be the one.
But i would know if he was
The one, right?
You knew, right? (sighs)
You don't...
I didn't... Know.
I just...
Derek's the kind of guy...
I just knew
He wouldn't hurt me.
I mean, not on purpose,
Anyway,
Not the way i hurt him.
He hurt me...
When he chose you.
??
(sighs)
I should've stepped aside,
Been a better person.
I... Should've...
A lot of things.
Me, too.
A lot of things.
I don't hate you.
How come we never
Talked like this before?
The only reason we are
Talking like this right now
Is because i know
You won't remember
A single word of this
Once the drugs wear off.
Dr. Karev,
You need to see this.
I'm off the case.
Page dr. Montgomery-shepherd.
We did, but...
Oh, man.
Were you just talking
To meredith?
Yeah.
What?
Don't, um...
Don't hurt her again.
You planning on killing
A woman today?
What?
The c-section
You should've performed on
Rebecca bloom this morning?
At this point, it may be
Too late for her and the baby.
Nice work, doc.
Get an o.r.
And an anesthesiologist.
We're doing
A crash c-section.
Oh! What is happening?
Rebecca, your baby
Is having late decels.
He's in distress. We have to
Get you into the delivery room
And get him out right now.
Oh, no, please.
This is no longer
A conversation.
I am your doctor, and i am
Responsible for your life
And your baby's life,
And i'm not about to lose
Either one of yo are we clear?
You just gonna stand there,
Karev, or are we doing this?
Mr. Duquette, denny and i--
He--he was my patient
For months.
And the minute he died,
You quit your job.
Because i couldn't--
Four years of medical school,
Now that's a whole lot
Of debt.
How were you planning
On paying that back, huh?
Did you think that denny
Would pay for everything?
Why are you... What--
What are you talking about?
I'm talking about
Otecting my son.
Oh, where were you
When you needed you?
because i was there
The whole time.
i was there.
i was working 80-hour weeks,
And i was still always there.
He had so many surgeries,
So many procedures.
He was so scared.
Where were you then?
Where were you?
You may not get me,
But you don't have to
Because i don't
Get you either.
i don't get how a father
Abandons his dying son.
Wait.
Wait.
Is that what he told you,
That i--that his mother
And i abandoned him?
Well...
Heidn't tell you
The truth.
What?
What?
Oh, burke. I thought you--
You told me--
I can't hold it still
Long enough to attach the graft.
You told me your hand
Was fine.
I can't--
You told me you
Your hand was fine.
It's not fine!
You wanted to believe
I was fine.
You wanted me to be fine.
You wanted--
I wanted--damn it.
My hands... Are
The only things that i have
That are of any value
To me, to you.
Not to me--
Oh, yes, to you.
You want preston burke.
My hands...
These are who i am.
If i can't do this,
If i can't finish
This surgery, then...
What if i hold the vessel?
What if i hold the vessel?
Come on.
Burke...
If i hold the vessel...
I can attach the graft.
Okay, so...
I--okay, i put my hand...
Nobody has to know.
Derek. Excuse me. Look,
I know you're mad at me,
But mark sloan
Is the best in his field.
Any surgical unit
In this country
Would be lucky to have him.
You did what you thought
Was best for this hospital.
I did.
Uh... Are you all right?
(sighs) can i ask you a...
Personal question?
Why did you leave
Meredi's mother?
I could've left adele.
I could've gone away
With ellis.
But i would've had
So much baggage,
So much guilt.
Ellis couldn't see it,
But i wasn't...
I never
Would've made her happy,
Not like she deserved
To be happy.
I s a better man
For walking away.
I loved her enough
To walk away.
Oh, oh, on the table,keep me draped
Too many people
Have seen me naked already.
I'd like to keep
Whatever dignity i have left.
Mcsteamy.
(whispers) meredith--
Mcsteamy! Whoo-hoo!
Is that what you're
Calling me now--mcsteamy?
Yeah, but i don't think
You were supposed to know that.
How's my favorite
Dirty mistress?
Haven't you heard?
Now i'm an adulterous whore.
(laughs) he's so beautiful.
He's so beautiful.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
The appendix is out.
Now what do i do,
O'malley?
You invert the stump
Into the cecum
And pull up
On the purse strings.
Show me.
Okay, straight hemostats
And zero chromic.
Where's my coffe
Karev?
I got pulled into
An emergency c-section. Sorry.
That's too bad.
I was gonna let you scrub in
On a real surgery.
But, um...
Oh, well.
Maybe next time...
If o.b. Can spare you.
See ya.
Finn.
Derek.
She's still in surgery.
Yeah. Yeah, i fired
I'd wait for her here.
Meredith, uh, tells me
That you fish.
She does?
She tells me a lot of things.
Have you been
Up to cornet bay?
It's mostly chinook,
Some rockfish.
You fish?
Yeah, as much as i can.
Uh-huh.
My wife hated it.
(chuckles)
You had a wife?
Yeah. She died.
I'm sorry. I-i didn't know.
Meredith doesn't tell you
A lot of things. Only me.
Yeah. Funny. Very funny.
You know, when i heard
That she was sick, i...
People come through
Appendectomies all the time.
I mean, she'll be fine,
Right?
Mm-hmm.
You really like her,
Don't you?
Yeah.
You're a good guy.
Uh, yeah, i think so.
(laughs) i-i hope so.
Okay.
See you later.
I'll see you.
It was doctor after doctor.
Everybody had a--
Had a different opinion.
Everybody had
A worse opinion.
Before that, denny had never
Been sick a day in his life.
Before that, he had been...
You know, the...
The thought of having
To bury your own son...
His mother and i,
We didn't--
We didn't
Handle it very well.
One day, we came home
And found a note
Saying, uh, he didn't want us
To have to watch him die,
That he left.
We thought...
We thought he was dead
All this time.
I had no idea.
Believe me, if i had known,
I would...
Never have let him
Get away with that.
I believe it.
I worked my way through
Med school.
You--
I paid off my debt.
Look, i'm, uh, sorry
About before.
You--you don't have to
Explain--
I do. I do.
You're his dad and you're
Trying to protect him.
And i want you to know
That i've paid off all my debt.
And when i met denny,
I was gonna be a surgeon,
So i didn't need his money.
I had everything i needed.
I had everything i needed
Un-until, um...
(sighs) we miss him.
My god, we miss him.
Yeah.
I, um...
Yeah.
What is this?
It's for you.
It's from denny.
Hey. You ready to go?
I'm sorry
I have to do this,
But i have to go home.
It's izzie.
It's always izzie
Or meredith.
It's... It's never me.
Oh, come on.
That is not true.
?????
Whoam i your girlfriend?
Am i somebody
You mess around with?
Do you even know?
Well, guess what.
Now you don't have to bother
Figuring it out.
How's he doing,
Mrs. Sullivan?
We're just getting
An update now, dr. Bailey.
The surgery went well.
We removed
The necrotic tissue,
Applied the live cells,
And if his body responds,
In three or four weeks--
He'll have his face back?
Mr. And mrs. Sullivan,
Your face may never be
Exactly what it was.
Even if everything goes
Perfectly well,
There will be scarring.
But he's a salesman.
He has such a nice face.
You have an incredible wife,
Mr. Sullivan,
And half a dozen
Car salesmen in the lobby
Waiting to visit you.
Your face may be different,
But you know as well as i do,
It's not about
What you look like
Or your job
Or how successful you are.
It's about having people
In your life that you love
And who love you.
That--that's all
That matters.
How you feeling?
Oh, mortified.
I was just explaining
The "meredith on morphine"
Experience.
Ahh. You don't remember?
Was it memorable?
I'll let finn tell you.
I'll come back.
No, a-actually, i've--
I've just been sent
On a mission to get
The, uh, patient's ice chips.
Be right back.
(sighs)
How badly
Did i embarrass myself?
What?
Mnh-mnh.
You deserve to be
With somebody
Who makes you happy,
Somebody who's not gonna
Complicate your life,
Somebody who won't hurt you.
He's a better guy,
Meredith.
Finn's the better guy.
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Oy????c|qg?
I'm walking away.
He left a message.
Denny left a message
For his parents
The night...
His father gave me
The number and the code,
But, um...
I just couldn't
Do it alone.
Addison... Can we talk?
I don't want you here,
Mark.
I think i've made that
Abundantly clear.
So... If you insist
On staying,
Just... Know that
We're coworkers
And nothing more.
Karev.
As of right now, you are
Officially off my service.
But for what it's worth,
I think you're gonna
Miss me.
(denny sr.) Hello,
You've reached the duquettes.
(denny) dad, mom, it's me.
i'm calling from
Seattle grace hospital,
where the beautiful, talented
and incredibly stubborn
Dr. Isobel stevens
has just given me
A brand-new heart
and promised to marry me.
i know we've had
Our differences,
and i'm sorry
We've been out of touch.
More chicken surgery?
I'm making you dinner.
believe it or not,
i was trying to make
Everything better.
i know you're angry.
I hope you'll forgive me.
turns out, sometimes you
Have to do the wrong thing...
Mcsteamy, right?
You must be a frie
Of meredith's.
Not really. Dr. Torres.
Callie.
Mark sloan.
Bad day?
You could say that.
You?
Oh, yeah.
So what have you heard
About me, exactly?
Mostly things
That involve the words
"dirty" and "bad."
Right.
I guesthere, uh, really is
No starting over, is there?
Can i buy you a drink,
Callie?
Only if you have it
Delivered to my hotel room,
Because i'm off to bed.
sometimes you have to make
A big mistake...
You comin'?
to figure out
How to make things right.
So what time
Do they let us visitors
Start visiting
In the morning?
You shouldn't do that.
I don't mind.
No, finn.
Really,
You shouldn't do that.
So it's derek.
I'm sorry.
Can i ask why?
You are a great guy...
You're a wonderful guy,
And you may even be
The better guy.
But...
He's the one.
And i wish he wasn't.
He's gonna hurt you again...
And when he does,
I won't be here.
mistakes are painful...
Take care of yourself,
Meredith.
but they're the only way
To find out who you really are.
i know who i am now.
i know what i want.
i've got the love
Of my life...
a new heart...
and i want you guys to get
On the next plane out here
and meet my girl.
I promise
From here ???
Nothing's gonne be the same.
Love you , bye.