Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 3, Episode 23 - The Other Side of This Life: Part 2 - full transcript

I just never thought about it.

What I would do, you know?
What the dream would be if I...

couldn't have my dream.

Empty office.

What are we doing?
Thought we were gonna lunch.

Why are we still sitting here?

We're doing what I do
when I get depressed.

Just wait.
What time do you have?

It's 5 to 1:00.

You know what? I'm glad
I can't have a child.

With my luck, I'd probably
have a kid with two heads.



It... It's actually better.
I'm grateful.

I don't have to think about it.
The option is...

off the table.

- What time do you have?
- 5 to 1:00.

You people are obsessed with time.

Here he comes.

Hi, Dell.

Have a nice... surf.

I'll see you guys after lunch?

You two should be
ashamed of yourselves.

Admit it.
You feel better.

And if not,
there's another showing in an hour,

and it's wet.

My brain is bleeding?



How could my brain have been
bleeding since the accident?

Well, it could be
from the trauma,

but it also could be
from one of your surgeries.

Dr. Shepherd, I've been living
in this hospital long enough to know

when there's something
one of you isn't saying.

Because of the location of the bleed,

you need to be awake
during surgery.

You'll be sedate alert,

but it can be
a really dangerous process.

There's a lot about the brain
we don't know.

So...

I could potentially
get my memory back?

Mm. It's possible.

Amnesia can be a symptom,
but I think it's a long shot.

I'll do some brain mapping
and see if anything happens,

- but...
- But I could get my memory back?

You're back? What happened?

She's got a fever,

- and I think I hear a small murmur.
- A heart murmur?

Don't be dramatic.

At least it's not the hiccups.

Could be complications
from the endoscopy.

Bacterial endocarditis?

You'll have to get tests,
and if they come back positive,

you'll be admitted
for I.V. antibiotics.

Which should knock it right out.

See? I told you.
Don't be dramatic.

Hey, hey.
You're supposed to wait for me.

I'm going crazy
just sitting there.

Hey, look, I'd be freaked out, too,

if somebody was about to
open up my head.

But Dr. Shepherd, he's the best.

I can't hold my baby, right?

She's...
She's in that incubator.

And so the nurses told me
to talk to her. And I try.

Guess what.
Right now, I have nothing to say.

You know, I don't even remember
what it feels like to be outside,

to have the wind on my face
or rain or...

I know
the surgery is dangerous, but...

I'm not freaked.

- I can't wait.
- Well, there's no guarantee

the surgery's gonna
bring back your memory.

But there's a chance.

It's better than nothing.

Good news.
Uh, Paul's lack of sex drive

comes from a hormone imbalance.

So Paul still likes sex?

Yeah, well, he's a guy and
he's not dead, so I'm guessing yeah.

He... He just can't
do anything about it.

- And that's good news?
- The bad news is that

there could be many causes

to this imbalance,
some more serious than others.

So final diagnosis and treatment
could be a lengthy process.

We're gonna have to run
more tests.

So it might be a while

before Paul can help Kathy...
take the edge off.

Tell her to try swimming.
It's easier on the knees.

So...

you're the quack.

Uh, I went to med school.

I'm also a licensed herbalist,

and I spent five years in China

learning alternative medicine.

Like I said... quack.

Come here.

Unless you need to go
tell someone

you saw goody Johnson
with the devil.

Okay.

- Lie down on the table.
- Why?

I wanna show you
that I'm not a quack.

I'm not taking my clothes off.

Did I ask you
to take your clothes off?

Now...

You carry a lot of tension in your
shoulders and above your right eye.

What do you mean?

You're blocking
some serious emotion.

Hang on.

What... What are you doing?

Stop saying "Ow."
It doesn't hurt.

- Okay, I'm done.
- Wait, wait, wait, wait.

Where you going?
You can't leave me here like this.

Lie there. Don't move.
Breathe.

You're going to experience
a rush of emotion,

a release of... psychic pain.

Hello?

Hello?

I don't feel anything...

Except stupid for...

letting a cute hippie boy
put needles in my face.

Hello!

Yeah, Pete...

This isn't working.

I don't have any...

psychic pain.

I... I'm great.

Barren, but...

fan-freakin'-tastic.

You can come back now.

I am not feeling any, you know,
rush of emotion or anything.

I don't feel... anything.

I don't feel anything at all.

I don't feel anything at all.

I hate L.A.

I heard Susan was back.
Is everything okay?

Oh, an infection.
She'll be fine.

Oh, good, 'cause I figured
if anything was wrong,

- you'd tell me.
- If it was serious, I would,

in a very "letting you in"
sort of way.

- You know, it's weird.
- What?

My father...
we're almost talking.

Really?

- How's the trailer?
- It's freezing.

You want to eat later?
I'll bring something over.

- Are you using me for central heating?
- Among other things.

- Okay.
- All right.

Lisa?

- I think something is wrong.
- She's in pain.

- Lisa?
- Addison, something is not right.

- My god. I think I just wet my pants.
- No, your water broke.

- She's in labor, and it's coming fast.
- I'll call an ambulance.

Uh, go get Cooper.

And let the hospital know
we're coming and call the chief.

I don't want any problems
when I try to scrub in.

- I need to push!
- Don't push.

Get her into labor
and delivery right away.

Jim, check her in.

Is she okay?
Are they okay?

- What happened?
- It's too early.

- She's not due for another month.
- Well, I'm guessing

that the stress of you all
fighting and crowding her,

declaring yourselves the father
didn't help.

Move!

Any word on Lisa and the baby?

We're still waiting.

- Therapy sucks.
- Said the shrink.

No, I mean my particular
brand of therapy

might actually be...
full of crap.

People talking about
their problems endlessly,

telling people
to think positively,

- visualize their destiny.
- It doesn't work?

I think positively.
I visualize my destiny.

And look, just look.

What am I lookin' at?

Me...

My pathetic, miserable existence.

He left six months ago.

He was a loser!

Do you know he peed a little bit
every time he coughed?

Like an incontinent old woman.

He smelled like pee.

And there I was,
in the car, crying,

and I'm a serious feminist.

Not to mention, my no-sex couple?

Turns out it was a hormone thing.
It's physical.

In the old days we would've
talked and talked and talked

as Paul got sicker and sicker.

My profession's becoming irrelevant.

Maybe it's a good thing.

People should just tell the truth
to the people in their lives.

They can't.

- If they could, we'd all be healthy.
- Like me.

You're not healthy.
You're in denial.

I am not in denial.

You're in denial,
and you're angry.

You're the angriest man I know.

Is that why you won't sleep
with me?

You're in denial, you're angry,

and you use sex
as weapon to deflect it.

Now stimulating area 11.

Ava, can you name this object?

Flowers, pink and blue.

Avoiding area 11.
Moving superiorly.

This will be area 12.

Una cara con los ojos azules
y el pelo rubio.

- Was that spanish?
- Was it?

Okay, I'm going on to 13.

Une maison avec des galets rouges.

All right.
Now you're just showing off.

Each language is stored in
a different area of the brain.

And as I stimulate them...
this will be 14.

So this isn't from the surgery?

She actually speaks
spanish and french?

Alex... ich m?chte die n?chste
Karte, das ist noch das Haus

And german?

She's hypoventilating. Let's put
her under and work on the bleed.

Can't we keep going
just a few more minutes?

Maybe she can get her memory
back along with the languages.

If we don't control this bleed
she'll lose a lot more

than her memory she'll die.

- Why is this happening so fast?
- Uh, doctors?

Cooper, she's crowning.

- All right, just don't push, Lisa.
- Oh, push? Okay.

No! No, don't push, Lisa.

The cord's wrapped
around the baby's neck.

Oh, I'm sorry!
I can't help it!

God! Oh!

I'll hold her.
You clamp and cut.

- Okay.
- Is she okay?

Hang 20 of oxytocin.

8 french suction catheter.

- Why isn't she crying?
- Cooper's gonna be working on her.

We need to focus
on your right now, Lisa.

Fortunately,
you're not bleeding that much,

so we should be able to
remove the placenta by...

By... By what? By what?

- Put her under, now.
- What's going on?

Her uterus must have ruptured
because of the placenta accreta.

- We have to open her up.
- No, no, no, no, no.

- The baby's not crying.
- B.P.'s 58 over 32.

Don't put me under
till the baby cries.

We don't have time, Lisa.
We have to put you under right now.

Go, Addison.

Hang two units
of B-positive and make sure

we have plenty on standby.
She's gonna exsanguinate

if we don't move quickly,
people. 10-blade.

Lisa lost a lot of blood.

We had to put the baby
on oxygen but...

they are both stable.

- Who's the father?
- What?

You said you sent off
for the paternity test.

- Which one of us is the father?
- Did Lisa say anything,

her decision about the baby?

Lisa lost a lot of blood,

we had to put the baby on oxygen,
but they are both stable.

I say it again
because it seems like

you didn't hear me
the first time.

They almost died.
Lisa... almost died.

And so I didn't have time,

what, with, um,
trying to save her life,

to pause and check on
the paternity test

or ask her about the baby's future.

What is wrong with you people?

Can... Can we see the baby?

No. None of you go near Lisa
or the baby until I say so.

The child is not a possession
that you fight over.

And by the way, not that you asked,

it's a girl...
6 pounds, 9 ounces.

I don't remember.

We got it, the bleed.

You're gonna be fine.

By the way, uh,
you rocked that surgery.

You spoke three languages.

I don't remember anything.

The surgery was sup...

I th... I thought I would...

What am I gonna do?

What if...
What if I never remember anything?

You sick, O'Malley?

You feel fine.

Take an aspirin
and get off my clean bed.

You been married a long time, right?

O'malley, I do not have time

- to answer...
- Did you have doubts...

about your marriage?

I don't mean, uh, insecurities.

- I mean really serious doubts.
- Dr. Bailey I need you to sign this

before I can discharge bed ten.

No. He's supposed to get
an I.V. dose before discharge.

Why don't people listen?

Someday you'll have
to explain to me

how antibiotics actually work.

They are miraculous.

Good afternoon.

Dr. Bailey asked me to look in.

Everything looks good.

We are going to take you
to radiology to get a central line

to continue your
I.V. antibiotics outpatient.

Hey, will you show
your dad the cafeteria?

Sure. We're on to you, you know?

What?

Dr. Bailey.

I was... Looking for some privacy,
and, uh...

I didn't think anyone would come
looking for me down here.

- I apologize.
- Problem. Take your time.

Uh, Dr. Bailey.

Yeah.

Um, you've been married

a long time now, right?

Do you think it matters
if one person...

Is... Is more ready?

O'Malley!

Come here.

Yes. Hi, Dr. Burke.

I want the two of you
to talk to each other.

I want you to talk to each other
and leave my marriage out of it.

I also want you to leave
my clinic out of it.

And by that, I mean get out.

I need the space, I need the peace,
I need the quiet, and I need it now.

- Sorry.
- Yeah, right, sorry.

Cooper, you're blocking the caffeine.

He's blocking the caffeine.

Cooper, if you move,
I'll give you a cookie.

Hey, did something go wrong
with Lisa's surgery?

No, uh, we handled it.

Addison...
She is, uh, pretty excellent.

She's pretty excellent.

Okay, only because
you've sighed twice...

What's the matter, Cooper?

I don't go to hookers.
I don't go to strip clubs.

I meet women on the Internet
that want to meet me.

So I like 'em a little younger
and a little dirtier.

Is that wrong?

- It's wrong?
- You need to meet a grown-up.

You need to date
someone your own age.

Someone without
a porny internet name

and perhaps no criminal past.

- A nice girl.
- A viable girl.

Someone with whom you can
have a relationship.

You're a respected doctor.

Go out in the real world,
meet a woman your own age

- and ask her out.
- Be a man, Cooper.

Be a man.

There you are.

I just stopped by to see how
Lisa and the baby are doing.

- You okay?
- Yeah. I just... I...

I had a little
too much surgery today.

But I'm... I'm good.

- You look good.
- Yeah.

You look... beautiful.

Sam told me that
I had to stay away from you

- because you're Naomi's friend, but...
- Stop it.

- What?
- You're flirting.

- What's wrong with flirting?
- What's wrong with it?

What's wrong?

What's wrong is
that I don't have time for it.

I am... out of time.
I missed my chance.

And now I have two eggs left.

I might as well have no eggs left.

I am egg-less.

Naomi says that she's dried up?

I'm the one who's dried up.
I'm all barren and dried up.

And I have clearly
been wasting my time on men.

I mean,
I might as well take up hobbies,

like needlepoint,

or, um, collecting those little
ceramic dolls, you know?

Because that's
what dried up women do.

They do needlepoint.

They do not waste their time
flirting with men

who clearly just want to get laid.

They do not waste their time...

telling overly personal...

information about their eggs
to total strangers.

Oh, my god. I'm sorry.

What are you doing?

I'm gonna kiss you.

I'm gonna kiss you with tongue.

I'm gonna kiss you
so you feel it.

Okay?

Okay.

Why'd you do that?

To remind you...

that you're not dried up.

If you need me
to remind you again...

let me know.

When do the cramping start?

- A little while ago.
- What is it?

- Is it...
- Probably nothing serious.

It could just be a reaction
to the antibiotics.

We may have to switch
to another one,

but it may mean
another night here.

It's okay, it's okay.

It's okay.

Wait.

I know...
I know that you think we're awful,

and I think that we're awful.

I just, um...

I just wanted a baby so badly.

I just wanted a baby.

And I don't care
who the father is,

I don't care if the baby's mine.

All that matters is the baby.
Is... Is she gonna be okay?

Just tell me that
she's gonna be okay.

She's gonna be okay.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

I hear Callie's going to be
a bridesmaid.

Yeah.

Would you, um, say that
you were the one

that needed more urging
to get married?

Oh, I hadn't...

Really been thinking about it.
I...

It just, uh, seemed like
a good idea at the time.

You and Cristina have been
together for a while.

You got married pretty fast.

So in theory it's better
to know someone pretty well.

- Way better than...
- Still, no guarantees.

I-I don't...

- believe in divorce.
- Neither do I.

Is it possible...

do you think,
to love two people...

at the same time?

I, uh...

I'm still hoping it's possible
just to love one person.

So, uh, it's not gonna be
too weird, right?

- Me as a bridesmaid?
- No, no, it's fine.

- 'Cause I can tell Cristina...
- I said it's fine.

Really, no worries.

So, um...

Did George tell you he's thinking
about transferring to Mercy West?

Yeah. Sounds like a good idea.

- So we're fine?
- Oh, we are. Fine.

Hey, that last dress
was okay, wasn't it?

I mean, it was too tight
and I couldn't breathe, but...

- A wedding's just one day, right?
- Yeah.

We got Paul's M.R.I. back,

and I've consulted with
Dr. Straley at Sloan-Kettering.

We found a tumor
on your adrenal gland.

All right? Is its right
on top of the kidney,

and it's what's been causing
your low sex drive.

So it wasn't me?
He's got a condition.

A tumor, that's not too...

You can treat that, right?

These tumors are usually
aggressive and found late

because the symptoms
are so subtle.

What does that mean?

Treatment is difficult and risky,

but there is hope.

Oh, my god, honey,
I can't believe I yelled at you.

I'm so sorry.

It's all right, honey.
It's okay.

No, I'm horrible.
I'm so sorry.

I love you so much.

Hello?

Hello?

Are you there...

elevator god?

It's me, Addison.

What?

Hi.

Hi.

Okay, look, you may be
a figment of my imagination,

or maybe I'm going
completely insane,

I don't know. Or maybe...

this is payback for my crimes

on some ginormous karmic level,
I don't know.

I just...

I just want to tell you
I'm sorry for yelling at you.

Okay?

Okay.

Well...

bye.

I am such a screwup...

in my life.

Up until now, I have been
really great at one thing.

I am great...

at being Paul's wife.

And I thought
he didn't want me anymore.

I thought... I was sure that he was
in love with somebody else.

Of course you were.

I lied to Paul.

I was with a man

that night that I didn't come home.

I didn't even find him
that attractive.

I just told myself

that I wasn't gonna settle
for being alone, you know?

Kathy, you were reacting
to what was in front of you.

There was no way you could
know what was really going on.

What do I do now?

You do what you're great at.

You love your husband.

You're gonna have to
tell me that a lot, okay?

Okay.

Hey, everyone else is gone.
I was heading out.

Uh, unless... I was gonna get
some food. You want something?

I... I ate.

Thanks for asking.

Another night?

- Are you...
- Asking you out on a date? Yes.

You can't ask me out.

- Yes, I can.
- No, you can't.

I asked.

You're... You're a fetus.

You could be my fetus.

Coo coo cachoo, Mrs. Robinson.

You can't use "The Graduate"
as a defense.

You can't use a movie made
before you were born as a defense.

Go out with me.

I like you, and you like me.

Dell.

Never gonna happen.

I'm starting to think L.A.
is like New York, but with a beach.

Why do you think we moved here?

Uh, Pete.

Uh, isn't it time for you
to get some refills?

Thanks.

Okay, Pete is my friend,

don't get me wrong, but...

Why are you warning me
about him?

What, is he like a serial killer?
Is he a felon?

Is he secretly
my ex-husband's best friend?

His wife died eight years ago.

- Now I feel shallow.
- No, it's just...

He can't connect with women.

He's a good man,

but if you want someone
who's gonna be there,

then Pete's not that guy.

- You ready?
- Yeah, good.

This is nice, huh?

- It is.
- Yeah.

- Oh, no.
- What?

- That's not nice.
- Oh, you s...

Hold it, hold it, hold on.
You said, "Be a man."

Cooper, I commend you.
You're making an effort.

But I'm... I'm...
But I'm your friend.

You can't be a man
with your friend.

- Isn't that settling?
- Kinda, yeah.

Yes.

- Okay.
- Settling.

- Great.
- Thank you, yes.

- But we're good?
- We're very good.

Hey, ex-best friend.

- Hey, ex-husband.
- You are drunk.

Ten more minutes, and I start dancing,
and I require company.

I don't think I've ever
seen her drunk before.

Sam...

Did you cheat on her?

Over the years,
there have been temptations,

but, no... I didn't.

Was there a lot of fighting or...

Hardly ever.

Honestly...

it was bad, what I did.

I have no good reason.

I woke up one day...

and I couldn't do it anymore.

It wasn't even a choice.

I had a thought...

Next thing you know...

I'm burning it all down.

I left her.

I don't know why.

I don't know why.

What kind of a person does that?

Hell if I know.

And I did it, too.

So I ran into Allan...

at Whole Foods.

Wanna hear something funny?

He said he didn't believe in marriage,
that marriage wasn't for him.

But I guess that was wrong,

because it only took him
four months.

Four months after we broke up,
he got married,

to someone who can't be
more than 25 years old.

Isn't that funny?

It heads off rejection.

What?

That's why I like the Internet.

I can't stand the...

It's horrible, being rejected.

It is.

Preston, I thought you had
a late surgery.

You know all that...

"I trust you" crap?

You've been pulling that on me
since I was this high.

Preston, language.

No.

"I trust you" is code for
"Learn from your mistakes."

This is not a mistake.

I never said it was a mistake.

Cristina never knows
what's good for her.

- That's who she is.
- Preston...

She hates change.

I lead. I have to.

And then she's grateful.

That's how it was with dating,
with moving in.

Then I'm pleased for you.

Look, I am going to
make her happy, Mama.

The wedding is a huge step,

and she's being a great sport.
You know why?

Because she will be
happy someday.

If you are so sure...

why are you yelling at me?

- What happened?
- She's septic.

The sooner
we can get her to an O.R.,

the sooner we can help her.
Let's move.

- Richard, what... happened?
- Extremely rare complication.

Toxic megacolon with a perforation.

Can you get your dad
out of this room?

This fast? How could...

Sometimes it progresses this rapidly.

Very rarely, but sometimes.
We booked an O.R.

You're going into surgery
right now?

I didn't sign a consent form.

She needs surgery right now,
Thatcher.

Not tomorrow, not later today.
Right now.

- Thatcher.
- Honey, listen...

We need you to stay back, okay?

You're gonna be okay.
This happens.

You're gonna be okay.

We're losing her pulse,
she's coding.

Okay, let's go.
Let's move. Move.

She's okay, huh?

I mean,
after all she went through,

she still looks pretty awesome.

Lisa,

we need to know what you want
to do with the baby.

Carol...
she wants this so bad.

This is about what you want.

- We did find out the paternity.
- No, no. I don't wanna know.

She's awesome, though.

You don't have to decide right now.

No. I know what I want to do.

Lisa gave the baby to Carol.

On the condition
they'd all be part of her life.

So it turns out the baby
will have three dads anyway.

And two moms.

Lisa did a good thing.

They look happy.

They look like a family.

- Izzie, look...
- Look, I don't want you to go.

To Mercy West...
I don't want you...

It's not fair.

I know we can't help
what happened,

and I know that we didn't...

I stood in that bridal shop
with your wife,

and I smiled and I talked,
and I...

felt like...

That's not fair.

I don't want you to go
to Mercy West

because I'm losing my best friend,
and it's not fair.

It's just not fair.

We can't.

I know.

I was looking for you.
You ready to go?

A lot of folks would kill
for what you have, you know?

A clean slate.

So you don't remember?
So what?

You'll make new memories.

Oh, wow. Look at that.

It's so beautiful.

How can you be so...

You're so good with me.

What's wrong with you
that you can't be is good

with someone
you have feelings for?

What happened to you, Alex?

Maybe I don't remember.
So what?

We did everything...
we could.

You... You said
it was really simple

and that it was this...

- small thing.
- It was.

She had the hiccups.

She came here...

because...
because she trusted you.

I trusted you.

- Meredith, just stop. Okay, just stop.
- No, don't. Don't.

At some point, maybe we accept

that the dream
has become a nightmare.

She had the hiccups.
Oh, god.

The hiccups.

They've left. It's just us.

Oh, thank god.

I got a dress.

You happy?

Yeah.

Are you... happy?

Yeah.

We tell ourselves
the reality is better.

Limes!

- Limes.
- Limes.

So what are we
drinking to this time?

Friends. Crappy friends.

Family. Crappy family.

Again?

- Again.
- Again.

Who wants another?

We convince ourselves

it's better
that we never dream at all.

But the strongest of us,

the most determined of us,

we hold on to the dream.

You're ugly and old.

I'll miss you, too.

There is an empty office.

Don't tempt me.

Think about it.

Or we find ourselves faced with
a fresh dream we never considered.

Hold the door.

We awake to find ourselves...

against all odds...

feeling hopeful.

This is gonna sound...

When no one else is around,

the elevator kind of, uh....

Talks to me.

Hi, Tilly.

Hey, Pete.

That's Tilly.

She works security.
The camera is right there.

Hello, Tilly.

Hey, I get my kicks
wherever I can.

- You goin' home?
- Yeah...

Home.

You get what you came for?

I honestly... don't know.

Do you want me
to kiss you again?

I think...

not.

Because of the evators
where you come from?

Those horny,
aphrodisiac elevators?

Yeah, that, and, um...

I'm not interested, so...

You're interested.

And if we're lucky,
we realize...

in the face of everything,
in the face of life...

The true dream...

is being able to dream at all.