Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 2, Episode 4 - Deny, Deny, Deny - full transcript

Meredith deals with her mother's illness and with her complicated relationship with the Shepherds. There is still hope for Addison and Derek, because he didn't sign the divorce papers, but he himself does not know what to do. Meanwhile, Burke and Cristina also deal with their relationship, and Izzie and Alex go on a date. But Alex is nervous because he might lose his M.D., so he does not act as himself.

PREVIOUSLY
ON "GREY'S ANATOMY"...

(Miranda) PATIENT'S NAME?
(Cristina) ELLIS GREY.

MEREDITH'S MOTHER.
IT'S NOT THAT BURKE

BROKE UP WITH ME,
IT'S HOW HE BROKE UP WITH ME.

HAVE YOU EVEN BOTHERED TO
TELL BURKE ABOUT THE BABY?

CRISTINA!
(Addison) IT WAS
AN EXTRAUTERINE PREGNANCY.

SHE'S BLEEDING OUT.
STOP TALKING TO ME
LIKE YOU'RE MY BOYFRIEND.

STOP TALKING TO ME
AT ALL.

IF YOU CAME OUT HERE
TO TRY TO WIN ME BACK,

YOU CAN FORGET
ABOUT IT.
I JUST KNOW
I STILL LOVE YOU.

HATING YOU
IS THE MOST EXHAUSTING.



(Meredith) THE KEY TO SURVIVING
A SURGICAL INTERNSHIP

IS DENIAL.

WE DENY THAT WE'RE TIRED.

WE DENY THAT WE'RE SCARED.

WE DENY HOW BADLY
WE WANNA SUCCEED.

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY,
WE DENY THAT WE'RE IN DENIAL.

I DON'T KNOW.

WHEN I LEFT,
CRISTINA SAID SHE WAS OKAY.

NOBODY GOES THROUGH
WHAT SHE WENT THROUGH

AND IS TOTALLY OVER IT
BY NOW.
CRISTINA CAN.

SHE'S FINE.
TOO FINE. SHE'S COLD.

NO, SHE'S HARD-CORE.
SHE'S GOT ICE IN HER VEINS.

SHE DOES WHAT SHE HAS TO
TO GET THROUGH.

SHE LOST A BABY.
SHE LOST A FALLOPIAN TUBE.



AND SHE'S ACTING LIKE
SHE DOESN'T EVEN CARE.

SHE'S ALL, "HELLO,
I'M TOTALLY FINE" PERSON.

I MEAN, SHE'S MY FRIEND, TOO,
BUT SHE'S ACTING LIKE

SHE HAS NO EMOTIONS OR WARMTH,
LIKE SHE'S MISSING A SOUL.

GOD, SHE IS GONNA MAKE
A GREAT SURGEON.

GEORGE.
IT'S TRUE.

YOU SHOW NO WEAKNESS,
YOU MAKE IT TO THE TOP.

SOME PEOPLE JUST KEEP
THEIR FEELINGS TO THEMSELVES.

WE ONLY SEE
WHAT WE WANT TO SEE

AND BELIEVE
WHAT WE WANT TO BELIEVE.

AND IT WORKS.

WE LIE
TO OURSELVES SO MUCH THAT,

AFTER AWHILE, THE LIES
START TO SEEM LIKE THE TRUTH.

MEREDITH KISSED ME.

ADDISON KISSED ME.

MY WIFE AND MY GIRLFRIEND
KISSED ME

ON THE SAME DAY.
JOE...

DO I LOOK FRIENDLY
TO YOU?

OH, YOU'RE A TINY
LITTLE KITTEN

OF JOY AND LOVE.

WHAT? HE SAVED MY LIFE.
HIS FIRST MISTAKE.

McDREAMY, GO SIT
BY SOMEONE WHO CARES.

WE DENY SO MUCH

THAT WE CAN'T RECOGNIZE
THE TRUTH

RIGHT IN FRONT
OF OUR FACES.

EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE FINE.

ADDISON WILL GO BACK
TO NEW YORK,

MEREDITH AND I
WILL START OVER.

EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE FINE,
RIGHT?

YOU SO DAMN STUPID.

I WANT EVERYONE
FOCUSED TODAY.

WITH CRISTINA OUT,
WE'RE SHORT AN INTERN,

AND I HAVE A FEELIN'
IT'S GONNA BE ONE OF THOSE DAYS.

AND, KAREV, SEE THE CHIEF
BY THE END OF THE DAY.

WHAT FOR?

DO I LOOK PSYCHIC
TO YOU?

HE'S THE CHIEF.
HE ASKED, YOU GO.

WHAT DID HE DO NOW?

MAYBE HE GAVE
THE CHIEF SYPHILIS.

SO WE'RE IN THE MIDDLE
OF THE BELIZEAN JUNGLE,

AND THIS JAGUARUNDI
JUMPS OUT

AND BITES ONE OF THE GUIDES.

THEY ALL LOOK AT ME.

THEY'RE YELLING,
"YOU'RE A DOCTOR. HELP HIM."

THIS IS ONE TIME A PhD
DOES NO GOOD.

I'M SORRY. DID I MISS
THE BELL FOR SOCIAL HOUR?

TALES OF MISSIONARY LIFE.
YOU'RE A MISSIONARY?

NO, MY PARENTS.
WE TRAVELED A LOT.

THEY STILL DO.

OH, WOW.
THIS STUFF IS GREAT.

UM, THIS IS
DR. BURKE'S PATIENT--

KALPANA.

NAMED BY VILLAGERS
IN NEPAL.

UH, SHE PRESENTS WITH
MULTIPLE SYNCOPAL EPISODES

AND VENTRICULAR ARRHYTHMIA.

SO YOU'VE BEEN PASSING OUT?

YEAH,
AND HAVING PALPITATIONS.

PAST MEDICAL HISTORY
OF RHEUMATIC HEART DISEASE

WITH MITRAL VALVE
STENOSIS.

THEY HAD TO SHIP ME
FROM ZAMBIA TO THE STATES

FOR 3 MONTHS OF TREATMENT
WHEN I WAS 8.

RHEUMATIC FEVER
ALMOST KILLED ME.

DR. STEVENS, WHAT ARE
THE PRIMARY CAUSES

OF VENTRICULAR ARRHYTHMIAS?

(Cristina) VALVULAR DISEASE,

MITRAL VALVE PROLAPSE,
STIMULANTS, DRUGS

AND METABOLIC ABNORMALITIES.

WHAT?

OUT.

I'M FINE.
OUT.

YOU BETTER BE IN YOUR ROOM
BY THE TIME WE ROUND ON YOU.
AND WHEN WILL THAT BE?

IN 15 SECONDS.

14... 13...

12... 11...

NICE PANTIES, YANG.

(laughter)

IN YOUR DREAMS...
(whispers) EVIL SPAWN.

(Meredith) CRISTINA YANG.

POST-OP, DAY THREE, FROM
A UNILATERAL SALPINGECTOMY--

AND READY TO GET
BACK TO WORK.

IS SHE?

I'M TAKING SOLIDS

AND MY PAIN IS CONTROLLED
WITH ORAL MEDS.

I'M READY.

DIDN'T THE NURSE SAY
THIS MORNING YOU HAD A FEVER?

MOTHER.

CRISTINA,
DID YOU HAVE A FEVER?

TEMP SPIKED TO 101
LAST NIGHT. BIG DEAL.

SHE WORKED 2 SHIFTS LAST MONTH
WITH A 102-DEGREE FLU.

YES, EXACTLY, GEORGE.
THANK YOU.

AND WE APPRECIATE
YOUR DEDICATION,

BUT YOU'RE STAYING IN BED
UNTIL IT NORMALIZES.

I KEEP TELLING HER
THERE'S MORE TO LIFE

THAN SURGERY AND CAREER.

MOTHER,
GO UPHOLSTER SOMETHING.

LOOK, I NEED YOU TO RELAX,
SHUT UP AND GET BETTER.

YOU'RE A PATIENT THIS WEEK SO
YOU CAN BE A DOCTOR NEXT WEEK.

UNDERSTAND?
COME HERE. MERE.

YOU CANNOT LEAVE ME ALONE
WITH HER.

I AM FLYING
OVER THE CUCKOO'S NEST HERE.

YOU HAVE TO SAVE ME.
YOU NEED TIME TO HEAL.

I'M HEALED.
I'M HEALED!

OH, GOD.

OKAY, DR. O'MALLEY,
YOU'RE PRESENTING.

OKAY, DR. GREY
IS POST-OP, DAY THREE,

FROM A TUMOR RESECTION.
SH--

WRONG, WRONG, WRONG.

HE'S GOT IT ALL WRONG.
IT'S NOT ASTHMA, IT'S GERD.

HE NEEDS
A NISSEN FUNDOPLICATION.

I DON'T WANT HER
IN THE ROOM.
MOM.

SHE'S A CHILD,
AND I WON'T HAVE HER ON MY TEAM.

WE'LL MEET YOU OUTSIDE,
DR. GREY.

(pager beeps)

YOU SKIPPING ROUNDS?

AVOIDING MOTHER.

MEREDITH...

YOU'VE GOT A WIFE.

YES.

YOUR LIFE IS COMPLICATED.
YES.

I DON'T NEED COMPLICATED.

I HAVE COMPLICATED
ALL ON MY OWN.
YES.

STOP SAYING YES.

TRY NOT TO MAKE
ANY SUDDEN MOVEMENTS.

YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY.
ADDISON'S LEAVING.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANY MORE
PATIENTS IN THIS HOSPITAL.

THERE'S NO REASON
FOR HER TO BE HERE.
NO REASON?

NONE WHATSOEVER.

WELL, ISN'T THIS COZY?

CAN I JOIN IN,

OR ARE YOU NOT
INTO THREESOMES?

I HAVE TO GO.

MEREDITH...

YOU REALLY ARE SATAN.

YOU REALIZE THAT, RIGHT?

IF SATAN WERE TO TAKE
PHYSICAL FORM, HE'D BE YOU,

EVERYWHERE, ALL THE TIME.
I AM SO NOT SATAN.

HOW COME YOU HAVEN'T GOTTEN
ON YOUR BROOMSTICK

AND GONE BACK TO NEW YORK
WHERE YOU BELONG?
STOP BEING PETTY.

STOP BEING
AN ADULTEROUS BITCH.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO
FORGIVE ME EVENTUALLY, RIGHT?

I MEAN, YOU CAN'T JUST--
I MEAN, THERE WAS A TIME

WHERE YOU THOUGHT OF ME
AS YOUR BEST FRIEND.

THERE WAS A TIME
WHERE I THOUGHT

YOU WERE
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.

THINGS CHANGE.

DIVORCE PAPERS.

YOUR LAWYER SAID
THEY'RE OKAY.

I HAVEN'T SIGNED 'EM YET.

THE BALL'S IN YOUR COURT.
IF YOU SIGN, I'LL SIGN.

I'LL... SIGN AND BE ON
THE FIRST PLANE OUT OF HERE.

I'LL SIGN THEM IMMEDIATELY.

I WANT YOU OUT OF HERE
AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

DEREK, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT
THAT EVEN IF I AM SATAN

AND AN ADULTEROUS BITCH

THAT I STILL MIGHT BE
THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE?

♪♪♪

(Woman) ♪ NOBODY KNOWS
WHERE THEY MIGHT END UP ♪

♪ NOBODY KNOWS ♪

♪ OH, OH ♪

♪ SUPPOSE YOU'LL NEVER KNOW ♪

IT'S MY CHART.

YOU'RE THE PATIENT,
NOT THE DOCTOR.

ACT LIKE ONE.

IT'S BEEN TOUGH
FINDING YOU ALONE.

YEAH. WELL...

HOW ARE YOU DOING?

WELL, YOU HAVE MY CHART.
YOU TELL ME.
HOW ARE YOU DOING?

I'M FINE.
PERFECTLY OKAY.

I HAD A RIGHT TO KNOW.

WELL, NOW YOU DO.
CRISTINA--

LOOK, NOW YOU KNOW.
IT'S OVER.

THERE'S NOTHING
FOR YOU TO DEAL WITH,

SO I DON'T KNOW.

WHAT ELSE IS THERE
REALLY LEFT TO SAY?

PLENTY. FOR STARTERS,
YOU COULD'VE COME TO ME--
OH, LOOK, IT'S MY MOTHER.

DR. PRESTON BURKE. NICE TO
MEET YOU, MRS. YANG.

ACTUALLY, IT'S RUBENSTEIN.

DR. SAUL RUBENSTEIN
OF BEVERLY HILLS,

THE ORAL SURGEON.

I'M REMARRIED.

BEEN REMARRIED SINCE
CRISTINA WAS, WHAT, ABOUT 3?

MOM, THAT'S
TOO MUCH INFORMATION.

HE HAS OTHER THINGS
TO DO.

YOU'RE GOOD-LOOKING.
HE'S GOOD-LOOKING.

WHY DON'T YOU EVER BRING HOME
A MAN AS GOOD-LOOKING AS HIM?

STOP.

WHAT?

STOP TALKING.

CRISTINA!
FORGIVE HER.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT
I EVER DID

TO RAISE
SUCH AN UNPLEASANT GIRL.

OH, ME, UNPL--
I'M UNPLEASANT?

EXCUSE ME.

DO YOU KNOW
WHO THAT WAS?
WHO?

THAT WAS MY--
THAT WAS MY BOSS.

I WAS VERY NICE TO HIM.
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO
CALL MY "UNPLEASANT"

IN FRONT OF MY BOSS?
LIGHTEN UP, PLEASE.

OKAY, I WAS THINKING
THAT MAYBE WE MIGHT WANNA--

YOU MIGHT...

OKAY, WE BOTH HAVE
TONIGHT OFF, SO--

YOU ARE SO INTO ME.

SHUT UP.

IT'S SAD--THE WORSHIP,
THE ADORATION.

AND I'M SO HANDSOME,
I INTOXICATE YOU.

OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT?
FORGET IT.

IZZIE, WOULD YOU LIKE
TO GO OUT WITH ME TONIGHT

ON A DATE?

YOU WEAR SOMETHING GORGEOUS,
I PAY FOR FOOD.
ARE YOU MAKING FUN OF ME?

I'M NOT MAKING FUN
OF YOU.
OKAY, THEN.

GOOD.

GOOD.

(Miranda) THOUGHT I TOLD YOU
I NEVER WANTED TO SEE YOU AGAIN.

THAT'S ONLY BECAUSE
YOU'RE TOO LAZY

TO LEARN ANYTHING MORE.

DR. MEREDITH GREY,
JEREMIAH TATE.

THINKS HE KNOWS SO MUCH
BECAUSE HE WAS

ONE OF MY FIRST PATIENTS
AS AN INTERN.

I KNEW AS MUCH AS SHE DID.

SHE WAS CLUELESS ABOUT
HOW TO TREAT CYSTIC FIBROSIS.

A SIMPLE CHOLECYSTECTOMY
TURNED INTO A MONTH-LONG STAY.

YOU BETTER NOT BE
ALLEGING MALPRACTICE.

GUY RAISES ABOUT 100 GRAND
A YEAR FOR CYSTIC FIBROSIS

RUNNIN' TRIATHLONS

THINKS HE'S A BIG SHOT.

YOU RUN TRIATHLONS?

WHY NOT?
PAIN, FOR ONE.

IT SAYS HERE YOU'RE FINALLY
ADMITTIN' TO FEELIN' A LITTLE.

A LITTLE.
HOW LITTLE?

TRUTH.

WELL, ENOUGH TO KEEP ME
AWAKE AT NIGHT.

HAD SOME SEIZURES. UM...

TOO WEAK TO WORK OUT.

ANYONE BEEN THROUGH HERE
WITH YOUR C.T. RESULTS?

NO. IT'S PROBABLY JUST
MY PANCREATITIS

KICKING UP AGAIN.
ALL RIGHT, THEN.

WE'LL BE BACK WITH YOUR RESULTS
AND A PLAN.

WHERE DO YOUR PARENTS
THINK YOU ARE THIS TIME?

NEW ORLEANS.

WHAT ABOUT HIS PARENTS?

NO, HE DOESN'T
LIKE TO BOTHER THEM

UNTIL HE'S WELL
OR ABOUT TO GET DISCHARGED.

HE UNDERSTANDS HIS REALITY.

HE JUST CHOOSES TO IGNORE IT.
DENIAL WORKS FOR HIM, GREY.

"ABDOMINAL PAIN.
ABDOMINAL PAIN.

"PERIRECTAL ABSCESS.
GUNSHOT WOUND TO THE HEAD."

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS
G.S.W. TO THE HEAD?

WHY WASN'T THE TRAUMA TEAM
CALLED?

HELLO?
ARE YOU PEOPLE INSANE?

THERE'S YOUR GUNSHOT VICTIM.

HIM?

I'M REDOING THE LIVING ROOM
IN BEIGE SILKS,

I'M THINKING.

AND MODERN. VERY MID-CENTURY.
AND THE DINING ROOM--

MOTHER,
GIVE ME BACK MY TOES.

OKAY. I'LL CHANGE
THE SUBJECT.

WHO'S THE FATHER?

MID-CENTURY, DID YOU SAY?

SOMEONE YOU WORK WITH,
RIGHT?

OR IS IT JUST
FOR SEX?

YOU MADE SUCH A POINT
OF NOT FORMING ATTACHMENTS.

20 MINUTES. ALL I WANT IS
20 MINUTES OF PEACE AND QUIET.

THE DAUGHTER I RAISED WOULD
APPRECIATE HER MOTHER'S HELP.

THE DAUGHTER YOU RAISED IS
BEGGING FOR YOU TO GO NOW.

I DIDN'T HAVE TO COME HERE.
YOU KNOW, I'M VERY BUSY.

I KNOW. YEAH, I KNOW,
REDECORATING YOUR HOUSE.

WELL, CAN YOU GET ME
A MOCHA LATTE, PLEASE?

A NONFAT ONE.

NO, A FAT ONE.

AH. WELL, YOU'RE WALKING.

YOU'RE TALKING.
THERE'S NO EXIT WOUND.

THIS MARK HERE
LOOKS MORE LIKE A BURN.

I'M TELLING YOU,
I SHOT MYSELF--

PULLED THE TRIGGER
WHILE I WAS CLEANING MY .22.

I THOUGHT THE CLIP WAS OUT.

IF YOU'RE THINKIN' SUICIDE,
DON'T.

PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES.
I MADE A MISTAKE...

AND NOW I'M PAYIN' FOR IT.
(sighs)

BUT I DID SHOOT MYSELF.

WHERE'S YOUR I.V.?

I'M TAKING SOLIDS.
I HEP-LOCKED IT.

ON WHOSE ORDERS?
MINE.

OKAY. "YANG."

HOW ABOUT THIS ORDER?
"BED REST,

"OUT OF BED TO CHAIR,
BATHROOM PRIVILEGES."

NOTHIN' ABOUT STEALING CHARTS
AT THE NURSES' STATION.

OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT?
HEY, HEY, HEY! GIVE ME THAT.

AH. AH. THERE. SATISFIED?

I'M OUT OF BED TO CHAIR.

I'M TELLING
YOUR INTERN ON YOU.
MEREDITH?

YEAH.
OOH, I'M SO SCARED.

DR. GREY,
HOW ARE YOU DOIN'?

YOU'RE HERE. GOOD.

I NEED THE RESULTS
OF THE BARIUM ESOPHAGRAM

OR THE E.G.D.,
AND YOU HAVE NEITHER. OKAY.

NO WORRIES. I'LL BE HERE
WHEN YOU GET BACK.

SO TODAY,
YOU'RE HER INTERN, HMM?

WELL, THAT'S BETTER
THAN BEIN' HER HUSBAND.

WELL, THAT'S A MATTER
OF OPINION.

GOOD MORNING, ELLIS.

RICHARD, GOOD TO SEE YOU.
I NEED THOSE LABS IMMEDIATELY.

CHIEF, UM...

SHE'S NOT
A SURGICAL PATIENT ANYMORE,

AND I'D REALLY LIKE TO GET BACK
TO THE O.R.

SO, UH, DO YOU THINK I COULD
HAND HER OFF TO SOMEONE ELSE?

O'MALLEY, ALZHEIMER'S CAUSES
HER REALITY TO SHIFT,

DEPENDING ON THE SITUATION,
HER MOOD.

SHE NEEDS STABILITY RIGHT NOW.

THAT'S WHY I'M DEPENDING ON YOU
TO KEEP A SPECIAL EYE ON HER.

YES, I KNOW, SIR,
BUT, YOU KNOW,

IT DOESN'T
SEEM FAIR TO ME.

I NEED THOSE STUDIES
YESTERDAY.

YOU HEARD THE DOCTOR.

GET MOVIN'.

I SAW THAT.

I SAW YOU TAKE THAT PILL.

OH, IT'S--IT'S MY PILL.
YOU KNOW, "THE PILL."

IT'S, UH,
IT'S NOT IN YOUR CHART,

AND YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO TELL US
ALL THE MEDS YOU'RE ON.

YOU'RE NOT MY DOCTOR.

YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE.
SHE'S RIGHT.

YOU SHOULDN'T BE HERE.
I SAW HER TAKE
UNAUTHORIZED MEDICATION.

I'M ON THE PILL,

AND I HAD GRAPEFRUIT JUICE
THIS MORNING.

SINCE THE JUICE
INHIBITS ENZYMES

INVOLVED IN THE METABOLISM
OF O.C.P.s,

I THOUGHT
I'D AVOID THE INTERACTION

BY TAKING IT TWO HOURS
AFTER MY MEAL.

SHE IS A DOCTOR
IN NEUROPHARMACOLOGY, CRISTINA.

WELL, IZZIE, I DON'T SEE
ORAL CONTRACEPTIVES...
GUYS.

OKAY, WELL NOW YOU WILL.
WOULD YOU JUST GO BACK TO BED...

(Both talking over each other)

WOULD YOU JUST GO BACK TO BED
AND STOP POACHING MY PATIENTS?

IT'S NOT A--

(beeping)

SHE'S IN V-FIB.
CALL THE CODE.

(Man) CODE BLUE,
FOURTH FLOOR.

(gasps)

CODE BLUE.
(gasps, coughs)

NO CODE?
NOT ANYMORE.

CAN YOU HELP US GET HER BACK
IN THE BED?

I'LL HELP.
JUST GIVE ME A MINUTE.

(Izzie) WOULD YOU JUST GO BACK
TO BED, PLEASE? SERIOUSLY, GO.

OH, GOD, YOU KNOW, IZZIE,
IF SHE'S ON O.C.P.s,

THEN WE MARK IT DOWN, OKAY?

YEAH.

JEREMIAH'S GOT A MASS
IN HIS MID-EPIGASTRIUM,

A DIFFUSED ENLARGEMENT
OF THE PANCREAS.

THAT, WITH
HIS HYPOGLYCEMIC SEIZURES...

HE'S GOING TO NEED
AN EXPLORATORY LAPAROTOMY...

BUT DESPITE HIS TRIATHLONS,

HIS LUNGS STILL
MAKE ME HESITANT TO CUT.

WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?

I DON'T KNOW.

DOCTORS.

DR. MONTGOMERY-SHEPHERD.

HOW OLD IS HE?
HE'S 26.

SURVIVOR, HUH?
AND THEN SOME.

MY PATIENT
FOR AT LEAST FIVE YEARS.

I'M NOT
GOING TO LOSE HIM NOW.

YOU PLANNING A LAPAROTOMY?

YEAH, BUT HIS LUNGS...
MM. YOU KNOW WHAT?

I THINK
I COULD HELP YOU WITH THIS.

I'VE SEEN ONE CASE LIKE THIS
BEFORE IN A 9-YEAR-OLD.

WE ENDED UP HAVING
TO DO A TOTAL PANCREATECTOMY.

I'D BE HONORED TO TAKE ANY HELP
YOU COULD GIVE ME.

YOU'RE A NEONATAL SPECIALIST.
WHAT--I--THIS ISN'T YOUR AREA.

I'M JUST SAYING. I--

I DID TWO YEARS GENETICS
RESEARCH IN CYSTIC FIBROSIS.

I'VE PRETTY MUCH SEEN IT ALL,
DR. GREY.

OH.

JUST BECAUSE SHE OFFERED
HER SERVICES,

DOESN'T MEAN
SHE INTENDS TO STAY.

WELL WHAT DOES IT MEAN?
BECAUSE IT SEEMS TO ME...

IT MEANS THAT
SHE'S A GOOD DOCTOR.

OH HO HO. WHY ARE YOU SUDDENLY
DEFENDING HER?

I'M NOT. MEREDITH, SHE GAVE ME
DIVORCE PAPERS

WHICH SHE FILED.

OH. WELL, THAT'S GOOD.

ALL I HAVE TO DO IS SIGN,
AND I'M FREE.

WE'RE FREE.

IS THERE ANYTHING
TO THINK ABOUT?

NO, OF COURSE NOT. I HAVE
TO READ THROUGH THEM, SIGN,

AND THEN ADDISON'S ON THE NEXT
PLANE OUT OF HERE.

YOU SAY HE GOT SHOT
IN THE HEAD?

HE SAYS HE GOT SHOT IN THE HEAD.
I SAY HE'S A MENTAL DEFECT.

UM, HI.
MA'AM, YOU CAN'T BE IN HERE.

YEAH, I KNOW. I'M LOOKING FOR
SAMUEL LINDEN. HE...

OH, MY GOD. SAMUEL.
WELL, HOW--HOW--

HOW--HOW BAD IS IT?
ARE YOU HIS WIFE?

YES, FOR 21 YEARS.
JUST TELL ME HOW HE IS.

FINE, FOR A MAN WHO SAYS
HE SHOT HIMSELF.

HE SHOT HIMSELF.
HE WAS CLEANING HIS GUN.

WHAT IS WRONG
WITH YOU PEOPLE?

WE'LL KNOW EVERYTHING
WHEN WE FINISH HIS C.T.

THIS IS A RESTRICTED AREA,
MA'AM. YOU HAVE TO LEAVE.

NO, NO. MY HUSBAND
HAS A BULLET IN HIS HEAD.

THEN WE'LL FIND IT.
IF YOU COULD JUST WAIT OUTSIDE,

I'LL BE WITH YOU AS SOON
AS WE KNOW SOMETHING. I PROMISE.

UNH.

OF ALL THE FINE DOCTORS IN THIS
CITY, YOU ACCEPT A CONSULT

FROM ADDISON SHEPHERD?
MONTGOMERY-SHEPHERD, ISN'T IT?

THE POINT IS THAT SHE SHOULD BE
ON HER WAY HOME.

YOU'RE TRYIN' TO DRIVE ME
CRAZY, AREN'T YOU?

(bell ringing)

OH, HEY, NOW, DON'T DO THIS.
DO YOU THINK THIS HAS
SOMETHIN' TO DO WITH YOU?

DO YOU THINK
I'M EVEN THINKING ABOUT YOU

AND YOUR ROMANTIC PROBLEMS?

I'M TRYIN' TO HELP A PATIENT
VERY NEAR AND DEAR TO MY HEART,

AND IF CONSULTIN' WITH YOUR
WIFE, YOUR EX, YOUR MISTRESS,

WHATEVER IT IS THAT SHE BECOMES,
IF THAT'S THE THING

I HAVE TO DO TO SAVE MY PATIENT,
THEN I'M DAMN WELL GONNA DO IT.

I UNDERSTAND THAT.

I DESERVE THAT.
IT'S--COME ON, IT'S JUST...

LOOK, YOU HAVE PUT YOURSELF
BETWEEN TWO VERY FINE WOMEN

AND YOU LOOKIN'
FOR AN EASY WAY OUT.

YOU WANT TO USE ME
AND THE HOSPITAL--

SOMEBODY TO MAKE THE DECISION
FOR YOU,

AND IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN.

(beeping stops)
COULD I JUST--

COULD I JUST SAY
A COUPLE THINGS?
JUST--DEH, DEH, DEH.

YOU SCARED US
A LITTLE THERE.

HOW'S HER WORKUP COMING?

UH, ELECTROLYTES ARE WITHIN
NORMAL LIMITS,

URINE TOX WAS NEGATIVE
AND E.K.G.'s FINE.

TILT TEST IS SCHEDULED
FOR NOON.

OH, AND SHE'S
ON CONTRACEPTIVES.

SO?
THAT'S WHAT I SAID.

THAT OTHER DOCTOR
MADE SUCH A BIG DEAL OF IT.

WELL,
SHE DIDN'T TELL US BEFORE.

SO I DOCUMENTED IT
IN HER MED LIST.

WHAT OTHER DOCTOR?
CRISTINA.

SHE WAS WANDERING
THE HALLS.

FINE. TAKE HER DOWN
FOR AN ECHO.

AN ECHO? WHAT ABOUT
CARDIOVERSION OR ABLATION?

WON'T I NEED A PACEMAKER

OR A PERMANENT
INTERNAL DEFIBRILLATOR?

ALTHOUGH IT WOULD BE UNUSUAL
FOR RHEUMATIC HEART DISEASE

TO CAUSE VENTRICULAR
DYSRHYTHMIAS,

WE'VE STILL GOT TO
CHECK YOUR VALVES.

I THOUGHT YOUR DOCTORATE
WAS IN NEUROPHARMACOLOGY,

NOT MEDICINE.
IT IS.

ADDISON GAVE DEREK
DIVORCE PAPERS, WHICH IS GOOD.

I MEAN, SHE'S STILL HERE
BEING ADDISON,

BUT IT'S NOT LIKE I'M JEALOUS
OR ANYTHING.

THAT'S ODD.
IT'S ODD THAT
I'M NOT JEALOUS?

NO, YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT
TO BE JEALOUS.

IT'S YOUR TERRITORY, AND SHE'S
PEEING ALL OVER IT.

WHAT'S ODD
IS BURKE'S PATIENT.

SHE'S BEEN IN FOUR
OTHER HOSPITALS THIS YEAR.

YOU KNOW,
SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT.

YOU SEEM AWFULLY INTERESTED
IN BURKE'S PATIENT.

THIS HAS NOTHING
TO DO WITH BURKE.

CRISTINA, YOU LOST
A FALLOPIAN TUBE, A BABY

AND A BOYFRIEND
ALL IN ONE DAY.

YOU HAVE THE RIGHT
TO BE UPSET.

AND YOU'RE LOSING McDREAMY
TO HIS PERFECT WIFE.

YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO BE JEALOUS.
I DID NOT LOSE McDREAMY.

DIVORCE PAPERS, REMEMBER?
AND I'M NOT JEALOUS.

AND I'M NOT UPSET.

YOU REALLY SHOULD BE
IN YOUR ROOM.

OKAY, IF THE SITUATION
WAS REVERSED,

WOULD YOU WANT TO SPEND TIME

WITH YOUR MOTHER IN A CONFINED
ROOM WITH ONE WINDOW?

DO YOU THINK WE'RE LIKE THEM,
OUR MOTHERS?

(Woman) DR. JAMES...

UH, WHERE'S YOUR MOM?
EXACTLY.

WHERE IS MY MOTHER?
WHERE'S YOUR MOTHER?

FUNNY YOU SHOULD ASK.

OH, CRAP.

OH, MAN, YOU ARE NOT
GONNA BELIEVE THIS.

(Alex) NO. IT CAN'T BE.

THE GUY WAS READIN'
A FREAKIN' MAGAZINE.

IT'S DEFINITELY A BULLET,

ONE THAT TRACKED
CLEAR THROUGH HIS HEAD.

NOW ARE YOU PEOPLE
JUST GOING TO SIT HERE,

OR ARE YOU GOING TO GET HIM
INTO SURGERY?

HERE'S THE MISSILE TRACK.
AS YOU CAN SEE,

IT DOESN'T EVEN CROSS
THE MIDLINE. HE'S LUCKY.

THIS GUY MAY HAVE EVEN BEEN
SITTING THERE TALKING TO YOU.

HE'LL NEED DéBRIDEMENT
OF THE ENTRANCE WOUND

AND REPAIR THE DURA,

BUT WE DON'T NEED
TO REMOVE THE BULLET.

THAT'S AN EXCELLENT DIAGNOSIS,
DR. GREY.

I'M DR. SHEPHERD.
I'M YOUR NEURO CONSULT.

DR. GREY...

THEY NEED YOU UPSTAIRS.

YOU'LL BOOK THE O.R. AND STAT?
I'M ON IT.

UNBELIEVABLE.

O'MALLEY.

CAN YOU NOT HANDLE THIS,
DOCTOR?

I CAN'T HANDLE
A LOT OF THINGS.

WE WON'T KNOW FOR SURE
UNTIL WE GO IN THERE,

BUT IT LOOKS LIKE THAT I'M GONNA
HAVE TO TAKE OUT YOUR PANCREAS

AND REROUTE YOUR INTESTINES.

DID YOU TELL HER THAT MY LUNGS
DON'T DO WELL WITH ANESTHESIA?

DON'T I ALWAYS HAVE YOUR BACK?
YOUR KIDNEY FUNCTION
IS DECREASING RAPIDLY,

AND I'M AFRAID YOU'RE GONNA GO
INTO MULTISYSTEM ORGAN FAILURE

IF WE DON'T OPERATE.
IF I SAY NO?

(Miranda) THERE'S NO GUARANTEES,
JEREMIAH. YOU KNOW THAT.

IT'S GOING TO BE A LONG,
HARD SURGERY

AND PUT A LOT OF STRESS
ON YOUR BODY.

YEAH, BUT I'M ME.

BUT YOU'RE YOU.

SO IF WE DON'T OPERATE,
I DIE,

AND IF WE DO OPERATE,
I MAY DIE.

BASICALLY, YES.

WELL, I LIKE THOSE ODDS.

AND 26 YEARS WITH THIS DISEASE
IS AWESOME,

AND THAT'S THE REALITY.

SO IF I GET LUCKY...
GREAT,

AND IF I DON'T...

IT'S BEEN SWEET.

IT'S GOING TO STAY SWEET.

YOU UNDERSTAND, WE'LL NEED
TO DO A PSYCH EVALUATION?

HOW MANY TIMES
DO WE HAVE TO TELL YOU?

HE WASN'T TRYING
TO KILL HIMSELF.

IT WAS AN ACCIDENT.
THEY'RE JUST TRYING
TO DO THEIR JOB, HON.

WELL, NO. THEIR JOB
IS TO MAKE YOU BETTER.

WHERE WERE YOU WHEN
THE GUN WENT OFF?

I WAS IN THE NEXT ROOM,

AND I HEARD THE SHOT
AND IT WAS AWFUL.

MM-HMM. SQUEEZE THIS.
IT'S OVER NOW.

(Alex) WHY DIDN'T YOU
CALL 9-1-1?

'CAUSE HE WAS ONLY UNCONSCIOUS
FOR A MOMENT, AND THEN--

THEN HE WAS--HE WAS WALKING
AND TALKING AND...

YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO GIVE
A REPORT TO THE POLICE.
THE POLICE?

WHAT--WHAT DO WE NEED TO TALK
TO THE POLICE ABOUT?

WE HAVE TO REPORT ANY
GUNSHOT WOUNDS TO THE POLICE.

IT'S THE LAW.

IT'LL BE OKAY.

YOU'RE OFFICIALLY A.W.O.L.,
YOU KNOW.

I'M WORKING,
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT

WHAT'S GOING ON
WITH THE CRAZY WOMAN IN FOUR.

YOU ARE THE CRAZY WOMAN
ON FOUR.
I MADE A BREAK FOR FREEDOM.

WILL YOU HAND ME
THAT DICTIONARY?

UNH. YOU HAVE A BETTER
PATIENT THAN ME,

AND YOU DON'T EVEN
HAVE A PATIENT.

MEREDITH'S GOT A C.F. CASE,
ALEX HAS GOT

THE GUNSHOT WOUND, IZZIE'S GOT
THE MYSTERY ARRHYTHMIAS.

I'M NOT A NANNY.
I'M A SURGEON, A CUTTER.

BUT, NO.
I'M GETTIN' FAKE LABS

FOR FAKE PATIENTS SO SHE CAN
DO A FAKE SURGERY.

SHE'S FAKING IT.

IT'S REAL TO HER.
IT'S ALZHEIMER'S.

THE MISSIONARY. KALPANA.

OH. GOD. OH.

THANK YOU.
OW.

UNCALLED FOR.

HEY, IZZIE, HOW HAVE
HER STUDIES BEEN?

HEY, I HAVE BEEN LOOKING
FOR THAT EVERYWHERE.
NEGATIVE, RIGHT?

OH, THE ECHO TESTS SHOWED
MILD MITRAL STENOSIS.

THE TILT TEST WAS NEGATIVE.
WE'RE DOING E.P. STUDIES.

I CAN TELL YOU
WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER

WITHOUT STICKING ELECTRODES
IN HER HEART.

REALLY? JUST BY THE CHART.

NO, FROM THE PILL SHE TOOK.

THEY WERE CONTRACEPTIVES,
CRISTINA.

WHY ARE YOU SO OBSESSED
WITH THIS? JUST GO BACK TO BED.

I THINK SHE'S DOING THIS
TO HERSELF.
YOU THINK SHE'S INDUCING

VENTRICULAR ARRHYTHMIAS? SHE'D
HAVE TO BE CRAZY TO DO THAT.

NO, NO, NO, NO. SHE'D HAVE TO
HAVE MUNCHAUSEN'S.

OKAY, WAIT. YOU THINK SHE'S
SECRETLY INGESTING SOMETHING

TO PRODUCE REAL SYMPTOMS?
SERIOUSLY?

YEP. JUST RUN IT BY BURKE
AND TELL ME WHAT HE THINKS.
TELL HIM YOURSELF.

HE'S STANDIN' RIGHT BEHIND YOU.
DR. BURKE.

(sighs)

(sighs)
WHERE ARE WE?

O.R. 2 IN 30 MINUTES. HE'S
PREPPED. TRANSPO'S ON THE WAY.

21 YEARS.

WHAT'S THAT ALL ABOUT?
(Samuel) HOW MANY TIMES
DO I HAVE TO SAY I'M SORRY?

I LOVE YOU, OKAY?
I FORGIVE YOU.

YOU CHEATED ON ME.
YOU CHEATED ON ME,

AND YOU DO NOT GET TO PLAY
THE MARTYR HERE.

I GOT A BULLET IN MY HEAD.
AND THAT DOESN'T MAKE US EVEN.

YOU SHOT ME.
I THINK WE NEED TO GET
THE POLICE UP HERE RIGHT NOW.

I MEAN, SHE OBVIOUSLY LOVES
THE PATIENT ROLE.

I MEAN, SHE PRACTICALLY LIVES
IN HOSPITALS.

AND--AND WE'RE LIKE
AN IMAGINARY FAMILY TO HER

BECAUSE HER REAL FAMILY
BLOWS HER OFF

TO GO TAKE CARE
OF OTHER PEOPLE,

AND I SAW HER
TAKE SOMETHING.

IT'S NOT ENOUGH.

WE HAVE TO RULE OUT EVERYTHING
ELSE, EVERYTHING PHYSICAL.

SHE EVEN LIED ABOUT HER JOB.
SHE'S A PHARMACY TECH,

NOT A PhD.
SO SHE'S A LIAR.
I'VE BEEN LIED TO BEFORE.

HEY, WE'RE NOT TALKING
ABOUT US HERE.

MAYBE WE SHOULD BE.
I DIDN'T LIE.

YOU WITHHELD THE TRUTH.
HOW DO I KNOW--
OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT?

I DISTINCTLY REMEMBER YOU
BREAKING THINGS OFF WITH ME,

AND YOU DIDN'T
SEEM SO UPSET ABOUT IT.

OKAY, THIS--THIS IS NOT--
THIS IS NOT A RELATIONSHIP.

THIS IS NOT REAL.
CRISTINA.

OKAY, AND--AND SO WHAT'S
WITH THE BIG, FAKE DISPLAY

OF HURT AND DRAMA?

CRISTINA.
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE IN BED.

CRISTINA.

OFFICERS,
THANKS FOR COMING.

MA'AM, WHY DON'T YOU
HAVE A SEAT?

WE NEED TO ASK YOU
A FEW QUESTIONS.

OH, UM, OF COURSE.

WELL, NOTHING LIKE
A DOMESTIC DISPUTE

TO LIVEN UP
A PRE-OP, HUH?

(Jeremiah)
WHERE DO I SIGN?

HERE FOR CONSENT...

AND HERE FOR D.N.R.

AND NO EXTRAORDINARY MEASURES.

GOOD. OKAY, LIFT UP FOR ME.

OW. YOU SHOULD PROBABLY
CALL MY PARENTS.

CALL 'EM YOURSELF
WHEN YOU WALK OUT OF HERE.

DR. GREY, I HAVE THOSE LABS...

OH, NO, YOU DIDN'T.

YOU LOST HER AGAIN?
AGAIN?

I AM A SURGEON.
A SURGEON.

YEAH, WELL, YOU WON'T BE
WHEN DR. WEBBER FINDS OUT

YOU LOST ELLIS GREY AGAIN.
(laughs)

WE'RE USING THREE DIFFERENT
CATHETERS.

WHY ARE WE DOIN' THAT,
DR. STEVENS?

PROGRAMMED ELECTRICAL
STIMULATION

MAPS THE HEART'S
ELECTRICAL SYSTEM

TO FIND THE FOCUS
OF THE IRREGULAR--
UM, DOCTORS?

SORRY TO INTERRUPT.
YES.

HER URINE'S BLUE.

WHAT?

WHY IS HER URINE BLUE?

(sighs)

SHE SAYS SHE HAS A SURGERY
SCHEDULED WITH DR. SHEPHERD.

I TURNED MY BACK
FOR FIVE MINUTES.

WHY DID YOU
TURN YOUR BACK AT ALL?

I TOLD YOU
TO TAKE CARE OF HER.

JUST GET OUT OF HERE.

YOU WANT TO FIND A HOT SURGERY,
THEN FIND ONE.

YOU'RE FREE.
I'LL TAKE CARE OF HER.

THIS IS ONE SICK BASTARD.

SHOULD FLIP HIM OVER
AND GIVE HIM A SPINE.

PULL BACK ON THE RETRACTOR,
DR. KAREV.

A LITTLE SUCTION?

COVERING FOR HIS WIFE
AFTER SHE SHOT HIM.

HE DID CHEAT ON HER.
YEAH, AND THAT GUILT'S WORTH
A BULLET IN THE HEAD?

RELATIONSHIPS ARE BUILT
ON SACRIFICE.

NOT THAT KIND OF SACRIFICE.
MM, I DON'T KNOW.

SOMETIMES,
THE BULLET'S WORTH IT.

OH, RICHARD.

I THOUGHT YOU'D NEVER GET HERE.
LOOK, THE O.R.'s EMPTY.

I HAVE A LITTLE TIME
BEFORE MY SURGERY.

I DON'T THINK
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

NO.

NO, YOU'RE NOT.

COME ON. I'LL TAKE YOU BACK
TO YOUR ROOM.

I NEED MORE TRACTION,
DR. GREY.

HERE. GIVE ME
SOME SUCTION THERE.

NOW, GREY,
RETRACT THE DUODENUM.

GOOD. HOW'S HE DOIN'?

HARDER TO VENTILATE.

NO URINE OUTPUT
SINCE WE STARTED.
HE'S SHUTTING DOWN.

DID YOU INCREASE
HIS PEAK PRESSURES?

ANY HIGHER,
IT'LL BLOW HIS LUNGS.

(beeping)
BRADYCARDIA.
PUSHING 1 OF ATROPINE.

(Addison)
TRY VENTILATING HIM MANUALLY.

SEE IF HE STARTS COMING
BACK UP.

DID WE MISS ANY BLEEDERS?
THE SURGICAL FIELD
IS CLEAR.

AGONAL RHYTHM.

ANY PULSE WITH THAT?
(Woman) NO CAROTID.

OKAY, STARTING C.P.R.
PUSH 1 OF EPI.

NO EXTRAORDINARY MEASURES,
DR. BAILEY. HE'S D.N.R.

THIS IS JUST GOOD MEDICINE.

BLUE URINE?
A SECOND DRUG SCREEN

WAS POSITIVE
FOR AMITRIPTYLINE.

WHICH, I'M SURE YOU KNOW,
CAUSES VENTRICULAR ARRHYTHMIAS.

YOU KNEW IT WOULDN'T SHOW UP
ON A ROUTINE DRUG SCREEN,

BUT I'M GUESSING
YOU DIDN'T REALIZE

IT WOULD TURN
YOUR URINE BLUE.
I DIDN'T DO THIS TO MYSELF.

YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME.
I'M SICK.

I'M SICK.
I HAVE SOMETHING--

NO. YOU'RE JUST
DECEIVING YOURSELF...

MANUFACTURING THINGS
THAT REALLY AREN'T THERE,

SEEING ONLY
WHAT YOU WANT TO SEE...

WASTING OUR TIME,
OUR RESOURCES

AND THROWIN' AWAY
YOUR OWN LIFE.

YOUR ILLNESS IS IN YOUR HEAD,
KALPANA.

WE WILL BE TRANSFERRING YOU
TO PSYCH.

(beeping)

COME ON.

COME ON, DON'T GIVE UP.

COME ON.
YOU'RE GETTING TIRED.

LET ME TAKE OVER, DR. BAILEY.

(Addison) DR. BAILEY,
HIS INTESTINES ARE CYANOTIC.

THERE IS NO BLOOD
CIRCULATING.

IT'S BEING SHUNTED TO HIS BRAIN
WHERE HE NEEDS IT.

YOU CALL THOSE COMPRESSIONS?

1, 2, 3...

(monitor beeping loudly)

FIGHT IT.

COME ON.

WHY ISN'T ANYONE MOVING?

WHO'S RECORDING?

IT'S BEEN TEN MINUTES SINCE
WE'VE HAD A PERFUSING RHYTHM.

IT'S YOUR CALL, DR. BAILEY.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5.

ASYSTOLE.

(beeping stops)

TIME OF DEATH--19:26.

(sighs) IT'S HARD TO ACCEPT
THE END WHEN YOU'RE TOO CLOSE.

LOOK, I DON'T WANT SOMEONE
WHO DOESN'T WANT ME, MEREDITH,

BUT IF THERE'S THE SLIGHTEST
CHANCE THAT HE DOES...

I'M NOT LEAVING SEATTLE.

WHAT'D SHE TELL 'EM?

THAT YOU CHEATED ON HER,
THAT SHE WAS DRUNK,

YOU WERE CLEANING YOUR GUNS
IN THE KITCHEN.

I'M NOT GONNA PRESS CHARGES.
IT DOESN'T MATTER.

SHE CONFESSED.
ASSAULT IN THE FIRST DEGREE.

THEY ARRESTED HER?
MAN, YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL.

YOU KNOW WHAT I AM?
I'M STUPID.

NOTHIN' WOULD MAKE YOU FEEL
MORE STUPID THAN CHEATING

ON THE WOMAN YOU LOVE.

YOU DON'T
KNOW WHAT YOU'RE MISSIN'.

YOUR LATTE IS BY YOUR BED,

AND I'M PRETTY SURE
IT'S COLD.

(sighs) I DON'T NEED IT.

YOU SHOULD BE IN BED.

STOP IT. I'M FINE, OKAY?

MY BRAIN IS FINE,
MY BODY'S FINE, I'M FINE.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I CAME.
THEN WHY DID YOU?

YOU KNOW, I'M--
YOU KNOW, JUST STOP IT.

I DON'T--I'M SORRY
I'M NOT THAT PERSON.

I'M SORRY I DON'T--I DON'T
NEED YOU HERE TAKING CARE OF ME.

WELL?
YOU WERE RIGHT.

KALPANA DEFINITELY SUFFERS
FROM MUNCHAUSEN'S.

SEE? I WAS RIGHT.

I WAS RIGHT.

I WAS RIGHT.

(crying) I WAS RIGHT.
I WAS...

RIGHT. I WAS RIGHT.

OH, I WAS--I WAS...

I WAS RIGHT. I WAS...

I'M RIGHT. I'M...

YOU TOOK
THE CLINICAL SKILLS SECTION

OF YOUR MEDICAL BOARD EXAMS
AFTER MOST INTERNS.

SO THE RESULTS ARE ONLY NOW
COMING OUT.

I GOT A CALL FROM U.S.M.L.E.
THIS MORNING.

OH. SO YOU'RE--
YOU'RE SAYING...

KAREV, YOU'RE STILL AN M.D.

YOU STILL GET
TO PRACTICE MEDICINE.

THE HOSPITAL GRANTS YOU FOUR
MONTHS TO RETAKE THE EXAM.

YOU STUDY IT, YOU PASS IT,
YOU PUT IT BEHIND YOU.

ONE MISSTEP DOESN'T AFFECT
YOUR CAREER.

YEAH. RIGHT, RIGHT, RIGHT.
THANKS. THANKS.

WHAT HAPPENS, UH,
IF I--IF I TAKE THE EXAM

FOR A SECOND TIME
AND I DON'T PASS?

YOU WILL NO LONGER BE A SURGICAL
RESIDENT AT SEATTLE GRACE.

FAILING AGAIN
IS NOT AN OPTION.

(sighs)

(crying)

WHAT'S GOING ON?

I CAN'T STOP. I CAN'T.
I CAN'T STOP.

CRYING.
SHE CAN'T STOP CRYING.

I CAN SEE THAT.
WHAT DID YOU GUYS DO TO HER?

NOTHING.
SHE'S GOING TO DEHYDRATE.

CRISTINA, DO YOU WANT
SOME WATER?

NO. NO. NO.

NO!
NO!

I ALREADY TRIED THAT.
IT JUST MADE IT WORSE.

I KNEW SHE'D BREAK SOONER
OR LATER. JUST A MATTER OF TIME.

I WILL KILL HER!

I AM HER MOTHER.

WE DON'T DO WELL
WITH MOTHERS HERE.

WHY DON'T YOU LEAVE
AND COME BACK LATER?

CRISTINA.
MAKE--MAKE IT STOP.
MAKE IT STOP.

SOMEBODY SEDATE ME!

(sobbing)

SOMETIMES, REALITY
HAS A WAY OF SNEAKING UP

AND BITING US IN THE ASS...

AND WHEN THE DAM BURSTS,

ALL YOU CAN DO IS SWIM.

THE WORLD OF PRETEND
IS A CAGE, NOT A COCOON.

WE CAN ONLY LIE TO OURSELVES
FOR SO LONG.

WE ARE TIRED.

WE ARE SCARED.

DENYING IT
DOESN'T CHANGE THE TRUTH.

HI. M-MRS. TATE?

IT'S MIRANDA.
MIRANDA BAILEY.

I'M CALLING ABOUT JEREMIAH.

I'M SO SORRY.

(elevator bell dings)

SHE DOESN'T WANT
TO BE TOUCHED.

(crying)

SHH, SHH...

SHH.

SHH.

SOONER OR LATER, WE HAVE TO
PUT ASIDE OUR DENIAL

AND FACE THE WORLD HEAD-ON,
GUNS BLAZING.

HI.

HI.
YOU LOOK GREAT.

THANKS.

YEAH.

ARE YOU OKAY?
YEAH, YOU READY TO GO?

YEAH, ARE YOU--YOU JUST--
YOU DON'T SEEM LIKE YOURSELF.

NO. UH, LOOK, WE GOT
DINNER RESERVATIONS.

WE SHOULD GO. SO, UH...

LET'S GO.
OKAY.

DENIAL--IT'S NOT JUST
A RIVER IN EGYPT.

IT'S A FREAKING OCEAN.

I'M GLAD
WE'RE DOING THIS.

ME, TOO. WANT A DRINK?

YES. OH.

I'LL GET IT.
I'LL GET IT.

SO HOW DO YOU KEEP
FROM DROWNING IN IT?