Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 15, Episode 12 - Girlfriend in a Coma - full transcript
Meredith gets more insight about her dating life with the help of a patient. Meanwhile, Betty reveals something on Owen and Amelia.
[SLEEPING AT LAST'S "ONE" PLAYS]
♪♪
MEREDITH: Time is a strange thing.
♪ Hold on for a minute ♪
When you're waiting for
something good to happen,
it can feel like time is dragging on.
♪ Over time ♪
But when you want it to slow down,
it goes by in the blink of an eye.
♪ Now hold on, let me finish ♪
♪ Perfect exists in this life ♪
The odd part is time isn't real.
♪ If we try ♪
♪ I, I-I, I-I ♪
It's a concept imagined by scientists
based on the imperfect movement
of the earth around the sun.
♪ I'll write an anthem worth repeating ♪
So why do we put so much importance
on something that's just a theory?
♪ I wanna feel the transformation ♪
♪ A melody of reformation ♪
Because it's all we have.
♪♪
Hey, do you two want to come over
tomorrow morning for presents?
You know, Owen and I are trying
to establish our own traditions
with Leo, just give him
a little bit of normalcy
- while we still can.
- Right.
Before his mother/sister
comes home from rehab?
And his half-sibling arrives, yeah.
Well, kids can make anything
normal, so he'll be fine.
Thanks.
Dr. Grey?
Uh, I start my ICU rotation tomorrow,
and I was wondering if you
have any advice on... that.
Well, first of all, Schmitt,
don't call them "that."
Sorry, I just mean,
it's so... emotional in there.
Well, it's the ICU,
and she's been here for a month.
She's off the sedatives now.
We don't know when she'll wake up
or even if she'll wake up.
You know, it's brutal,
and it's depressing.
And it can make you feel like
you're going insane.
Right.
So, I...
You are going to watch
Natasha very closely.
You will examine her every day.
If there's any change,
any type of change,
you'll page me immediately.
- Okay?
- Okay.
And you should go outside on your breaks,
because you can feel like you're losing
all sense of time in here.
[TELEPHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE]
[SIGHS]
- You had the husband?
- Yeah.
Ice skate to the tibia. You?
Ouch. Wife had a hell of a concussion.
Most wonderful time of the year, right?
Hey.
It's snowing.
♪♪
What are you guys doing for Christmas?
Oh, you know, Leo's too young
to absorb any of it.
I think we're gonna do presents and cocoa
and cinnamon buns, all that.
Hopefully some of it'll stick.
Yeah, that's sweet.
And Amelia has to go to rehab
to visit Betty. Yeah.
Right. The usual.
Yeah.
So, we're gonna, um...
We're having Christmas dinner
tomorrow night,
and Amelia wanted me to invite you.
Oh, no, no. Thanks. No.
I'm... I'm covering for you
in the pit, remember?
Oh, right, right. Yeah.
Of course. And thank you, again.
Yeah, of course.
♪♪
We're gonna find our own traditions, too.
I know.
Merry Christmas, Owen.
♪♪
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
It's a unique choice.
I mean, I don't think
we've ever had a chief
give us cured meat before.
I did something nice,
and you're mocking me for it.
Oh, wait! Did you tell her?
We're having a New Year's Eve party.
Attending and fellows only. Champagne.
Little snacky things on crackers.
- Very classy.
- How glamorous.
I know. You should invite Link.
I mean, I already invited him,
but y-you should ask him to be your date,
'cause I already told him that you would.
Jo...
Ooh, sorry. Ohh! Oh, my...
- Oh.
- Hey.
Hi. Um, I-I was just leaving,
and it looks like you are, too.
Do you want to take
our hams out for a drink?
[CHUCKLING] Oh, that sounds amazing,
but I have to get home
because it's Christmas Eve.
I have to put the kids to bed
so Santa can come.
- Right.
- Yeah.
- Soon though?
- Yes. Yeah.
Oh, you know, actually,
the Karevs are having
a very classy New Year's Eve party.
I'll be there. Okay.
No... Dark blue scrubs only.
She can have a plus one.
- You're supposed to read my tone.
- Read your what?
Jo, I'm a big girl.
I can handle my own love life.
- Thanks for the ham, Chief.
- You're welcome.
Here comes Santa Claus.
[LAUGHS] LINK: This is for you.
Cookies for Santa, in case you
don't feel like baking later.
Link is spending his Christmas Eve
visiting kids in the cancer ward.
Seriously?
Seriously.
Seriously.
You're mocking him
for doing something even nicer.
You should take a look at that.
We'll see you New Year's Eve.
MEREDITH: Bye, Santa.
You are in a love triangle.
There's no love. There's no triangle.
[CHUCKLING] Yeah.
Unless, of course,
the ham, the cookies, and I
are a triangle.
[LAUGHS]
She's totally in a love triangle.
Mm-hmm.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
[SIGHS]
- Hey.
- Hey.
Uh, sorry I didn't call first.
Oh, it's okay. Come in.
Uh, I can't stay.
Just, uh... just wanted
to drop these off for Tuck
for in the morning from me.
Oh. Thank you.
Uh... Uh, but I put your name
on all the gifts I got him.
Why would you do that?
Well, 'cause they're from us.
It's funny.
I-I don't remember us
going shopping together.
I just didn't want him to think that...
You called a time-out on our marriage?
Okay. I'm sorry.
Uh, thank you for the gifts.
I'll make sure that he opens them.
Uh, what are you... Wait.
Where are you gonna be tomorrow?
On call. You know,
Christmas is a big day for us.
Oh, us, too.
Uh, maybe I'll see you in the pit.
Maybe don't sound so hopeful
that somebody gets injured
in a fire on Christmas.
Right.
["WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS" PLAYS]
♪♪
[UTENSILS CLACK]
Anybody want to play cards?
I play a mean Gin Rummy.
Oh, you don't want to do that
unless you want to lose.
I am the master of Gin Rummy
in this house.
I'm sorry, kids. I'm just exhausted.
Would I be a party pooper
if I just went to bed?
Of course, Mom. Get your rest.
Okay. I'm sorry.
Couldn't even chase Harriet
around that tree this morning.
Thank you so much for taking
care of Christmas dinner.
I've just been no help at all.
We have Christmas dinner
catered every year, Mom.
There's no reason to change that.
- [CHUCKLES] Merry Christmas, baby.
- Okay.
- Maggie.
- Merry Christmas.
Can I help you upstairs?
Oh, no, no.
No, I can make it to my bed on my own.
[SIGHS]
She doesn't let me help her do anything.
She'll get there.
I hope so.
♪♪
It was fine. A little boring.
I kinda wished you were there.
At Christmas?
With your family?
Yeah. Why? Is that weird?
No.
I'll come next year, and I'll
bring some Chanukkah gelt.
[CHUCKLES]
It's creepy in here.
I'll protect you.
You are so cheesy.
[LAUGHS]
Hey, uh, Dr. Shepherd asked me
to come check on Natasha.
MAN: Help! Can you...
Hello! Somebody?
Page Dr. Grey.
Oh, my God, it's Natasha. She's...
She's awake.
[LAUGHS]
♪♪
GARRETT: [CLEARS THROAT] Thank you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I'm saying it a lot for the both of us.
MEREDITH: Schmitt?
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 35.
Neuro... She regained
consciousness overnight.
She is now A&O times three.
Cardio and pulmonary... She's on a vent
and has an open thoracostomy
for empyema drainage.
MSK... Spine was cleared,
and her pelvis was fixed internally.
When will she be able to talk?
We're working on decreasing
her vent settings first.
MEREDITH: We also have
to get her nutrition up.
She's weak and has been
through quite a lot.
MAGGIE: We can close the
thoracostomy today, though,
since her lungs are doing so much better.
Natasha, we need you
to get strong for us.
I'm gonna get you up and out
of that bed soon, okay?
MEREDITH: Let's make sure
the respiratory therapist
brings that peep down to 5.
Welcome back, Natasha.
You may get that planetarium wedding yet.
At this point,
I'd settle for a courthouse.
[CHUCKLES]
Nice work, Grey.
- [CHUCKLES]
- Love triangle.
When are you gonna stop
stringing him along, huh?
Excuse me?
You heard me.
Link... he likes you, and you
keep giving him false hope.
Who says it's false?
Oh, please. We both know it is.
Do we?
[SPEAKING ITALIAN] _
Andrew.
New Year's Eve.
Is that a date?
Or is that like, "Oh, come to this party,
and we'll make eyes
at each other over the punch,
but I'm not really brave enough
to talk to you in public"?
I've been called a lot of things.
"Not brave enough" isn't one of them.
Fine. It's a date.
WOMAN OVER PA:
Dr. Brooks, dial Admitting.
Dr. Brooks, dial Admitting.
You look good.
Your hair, it's shinier.
Oh, ew. Please don't talk about my hair.
Okay.
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]
- How's Leo?
- He's good.
Yeah, he's teething like crazy,
but he's good.
You miss him?
I mean,
not as much as I miss drugs,
but yeah, a bit.
Well, that's good.
Identifying that.
It's... part of the process.
No, it's not part of the process.
I just miss drugs.
I know they ruined my life,
but they made me feel
better than anything.
Better than being a mom.
Oh, God.
That's so stupid.
I shouldn't even be a mom.
I'm a kid.
I should just give you guys Leo
and pretend none of this ever happened.
Betty...
♪♪
It's New Year's Eve.
Don't you have somewhere to be?
♪♪
[ALEXI VON GUGGENBERG'S
"STAND OUT" PLAYS]
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]
♪♪
- WOMAN: Girl, look at you!
- [LAUGHS]
♪ Can't help but stand out ♪
♪ Ooh, can't help myself ♪
♪ I can't help but stand out ♪
Oh, hey, um, weren't you
supposed to be covering the ICU?
Oh, uh, Natasha was using
the speaking valve for the first time,
so Dr. Grey said she wanted to stay.
♪ Ooh, can't help myself ♪
♪ Can't help but stand out ♪
Hey. Where are you right now?
♪ No limitations ♪
Sorry, I'm just... distracted.
♪ Tell me the rules so I can break them ♪
Let's get out of here.
♪ I keep slippin' in
their conversations ♪
The ball hasn't even dropped yet.
The ball can drop in our bed.
Hmm?
I did not mean that to sound so graphic.
[BOTH LAUGH]
♪ I ain't doing my job ♪
MIRANDA: Do you think I can ask him over
after his shift, like, for a toast maybe?
Uh, I mean, my son's with his
father, so I don't know...
Oh, would Ben think that's a booty call?
He might think that's a booty call.
Well, maybe that's not such a bad thing.
Okay, hey, everyone!
It's almost midnight!
ALEX: Come on. Hurry, hurry.
[BOTTLES CLINKING]
- Oh, no, I'll take one.
- Thank you.
Oh, you look... like I should've
joined the Army.
[BOTH CHUCKLE]
ALL: 10, 9, 8,
7, 6, 5,
4, 3, 2, 1...
Happy New Year!
[CHEERS AND LAUGHTER]
- Cheers!
- Cheers!
Happy New Year.
[CHUCKLES]
Happy New Year.
Shut up.
Happy New Year, Dr. Karev.
Happy New Year, Dr. Karev.
♪ Cuz I'm gonna live my life free ♪
♪ Can't help but stand out ♪
And may this year be
everything you wish for.
We want to thank you all for..
How are you feeling off the vent?
...and whether all your dreams
came true this year,
or you simply...
[WEAKLY] Like I haven't
breathed on my own
in two months.
Then you're doing well.
Garrett went to find us sparkling water
so we could pretend it's champagne.
- He's a good one, huh?
- He is.
He was by your side the entire time.
I could hear him.
He talked to me all day about
you and the other doctors.
Shouldn't you be kissing
one of them right now?
Kissing who?
One of the doctors who likes you.
Garrett calls them
Abercrombie and Stitch.
[BOTH LAUGH]
Yeah! Come over here!
Oh, dang! We missed it.
Happy New Year, guys.
[KEYS CLACK]
TV ANNOUNCER: 10... 10, 9, 8...
Kiss the one who turns back time for you.
...5, 4, 3, 2, 1...
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year.
Oh!
♪♪
♪ All right, ohh ♪
Scotch, neat.
Hey, how you doing?
Good, good.
You, uh, been playing lately?
No. Been busy.
Same.
♪ Ain't got no regrets ♪
♪ Ain't got no regrets ♪
She stand you up, too?
Looks like it.
♪ Till there ain't nothing left ♪
♪ Feels like my heart will beat
right out of my chest ♪
♪ This is as good as it gets ♪
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 45.
Neuro and cardio unchanged.
Pulmonary... She has tolerated
her speaking valve trials
with intermittent oxygen.
We will remove the chest tube today.
GI... She's on tube feeds.
PT/OT... She made it bed to chair.
Well, there has been a lot of progress.
We're still not out of the woods yet,
but, um, do you have any
questions for us?
- When do I get to eat?
- JO: [LAUGHS]
She's been awake for 11 days,
and she's been asking
about tacos for 10 of them.
Tacos are a ways away, I'm afraid.
But we can... we can do Jell-O.
The speech and swallow therapist
will try that today.
I'll take it.
Uh, watermelon.
Okay, you take care.
- Hey.
- Dr. Grey.
I haven't seen you in a few days.
- How have you been?
- Stood up.
Sorry.
I don't know if you've
ever been stood up before,
but it feels pretty awful.
- Well, I had a patient.
- You have a phone.
WOMAN OVER PA: Dr. Rainey to Peds ICU.
- Dr. Rainey to Peds ICU.
- [SIGHS]
Look, it's been fun.
The waiting. The build up. The game.
But that? That wasn't fun.
- That was just rude.
- You're right.
I'm a good guy, Meredith.
- But I'm not a doormat.
- [ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]
And if that's what you're after,
then I don't know.
Maybe Link is your guy after all.
A little more. A little more!
Good! There you go!
Please don't talk to me like I'm a child.
It's perfectly normal to feel...
How do you know what "normal" is?
Have you ever had your spine carved open
- and dug around in?
- [SIGHS]
Huh?
Um... Marsha,
can you give us a minute, please?
- Yeah.
- Thank you.
[SIGHS]
Richard, spare me the lecture
about recovery.
I know that's the pain talking.
No, that is me talking,
and I say she's a pain.
You're a pain in my entire ass!
[SIGHS]
I asked her to give me some exercises
so that I could get back
to my sensual self,
and she said [HIGH-PITCHED] "Don't worry
your little heart about that"
[NORMAL VOICE] like
I'm some dried-up old mop.
Well, I'm sure that's not what she meant.
Then what did she mean?
It's not like these pain meds
are letting me have any
sexual appetite anyway.
The average recovery time...
Since when am I average?
[SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]
Don't talk to me about time.
Don't help me.
[SIGHS]
♪♪
Hey, sorry I'm late. You already started.
This gel is really cold, and I
have to get back to the pit.
You said we were gonna
do these things together.
- You can't just...
- What do you want me to do?
Every time I have to
be a parent, wait for you?
Yeah, but if you say you're gonna
wait, then you can't just...
This baby is gonna be outside
of my body eventually.
Oh, really? Is that how it works?
Please explain it to me, Teddy.
[ HEARTBEAT]
Oh, my God.
- It's a...
- Oh, wow.
We're having a baby girl.
♪♪
[SIREN WAILS]
Hey! Ben!
- Hey.
- Hey.
MVC out on Elliott.
This... This black ice is no joke.
- Did you put your snow tires on?
- Uh, I will.
Ben, um, I need to tell you something...
or ask you something.
I don't have the words ready,
but my heart is.
I want you to come home, Ben.
Please.
I mean... it's lonely at
the house when Tuck is gone,
and, uh, the fence, uh, it...
it blew down after the windstorm.
I haven't had a chance... No.
Come home, Ben.
Please.
Come home.
Miranda, I...
I love you.
But you broke my heart.
I'm not coming home just because
now you're lonely
and the fence needs patching.
Okay.
O-Okay, no, uh, that's not what I meant.
Uh...
You know I haven't been myself.
It was my meds.
I was working on
my physical health so much
that I was ignoring my mental...
My anxieties, again, they...
I-It wasn't the job,
and it was not your fault.
But I'm... I'm handling it.
I'm... I'm being treated.
I'm better now.
DISPATCHER: Structure fire
at Mercer and Fairview.
All nearby units, respond.
[STATIC CRACKLES]
W-We have to go.
I'll talk to you later.
Ben?
[ENGINE STARTS]
I'm sorry.
[SIREN WAILS]
[THUNDER RUMBLES]
LEVI: Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 62.
Neuro unchanged,
cardio... she was tachycardic overnight.
Pulmonary... she was placed back
on the ventilator two days ago.
She's been awake for four weeks.
Why is she back on the ventilator?
She has pneumonia,
so she's on antibiotics,
but her lungs have taken
a pretty big hit.
GI... Her tube feeds
were held for the O.R. today,
but the CT from overnight...
My ostomy. It's been hurting.
Am I... are you still gonna...
We won't be able
to reverse your ostomy today.
What? Why?
The CT that we got back,
it showed fluid collections
in your abdomen,
which may be the source of your symptoms.
What does that mean?
It means that we will do surgery today,
but it will be to clean out
the fluid collections.
So you're gonna open her back up?
The wounds she's been working
to heal for the last few weeks?
Unfortunately, yes.
GU... She is on intermittent dialysis,
and she is going to have
another session today.
Heme... she is on DVT prophylaxis.
♪♪
[CHUCKLES] Don't judge me.
I saw a bed. I laid down on it.
My feet are very angry with me.
Ah. I know what you need.
And I know just who to give it to you.
Mimi at Pink Bunny.
Best Mani-pedi in Seattle.
[LAUGHS] Why does it make perfect sense
that you have a favorite nail salon?
Well, you don't want
to dig around somebody's brain
with sloppy cuticles.
You ever want to experience
pure bliss for $29...
Mnh! you let me know.
- [CHUCKLES]
- [DOOR OPENS]
MEREDITH: Okay, cut the knot.
[MONITOR BEEPING, VENTILATOR HISSING]
Nicely done. You can do the next tie.
You seem different.
I got contacts.
No, it's... it's not that.
It's... It's just you're less...
Glasses.
- Yeah.
- Hmm.
Yeah, and... and the other day,
when I asked you to change
Natasha's central line,
you didn't mess it up at all.
Kind of a backhanded compliment,
but thank you?
- I met someone.
- Mm.
And he's hot, and he's confident,
and he likes me.
And I'm gay.
And he's gay.
And we're... gay together.
And it's the most me I've
ever felt in my whole life.
Well, I'm happy for you, Schmitt.
Thank you.
DELUCA: Yeah, I think it's beautiful.
After all, what's life for
if not to share it with somebody, right?
Does that mean
life is not worth living alone?
I think if you meet someone
who lights you up,
you should fight for them.
Suction.
[SUCTION]
This fluid looks cloudy.
Oh, no.
She's got dead bowel.
JO: Did we know that?
No, damn it. G.I.A. stapler.
Oh, God. That's really bad, right?
♪♪
Last time I was here,
she was talking about
someone named "Linus" a lot.
Is that a... like, a boy?
Does she have a boyfriend?
- [DOOR OPENS]
- She didn't call him that,
but I think so.
- Hey.
- Hi!
Was that him?
Who?
"Linus"?
Uh, yeah, I guess.
You guess?
I'm doing the stupid steps.
Um, and I'm on the one
where you apologize for stuff
and tell the truth.
So, I have something to tell you guys.
- Go ahead.
- Okay.
I've been lying to you guys
since I met you.
My name's not Betty,
and my parents don't even know I'm here.
But we've been calling them.
No, you've been talking
to my friend Jerry.
Um, what's your real name?
Britney.
[VOICE BREAKING] I'm sorry.
[CLEARS THROAT]
I know I should've told you,
but I was scared
if they found out about Leo.
Whoa. Hold on. They don't know about Leo?
I ran away when I got pregnant,
and they've probably been
looking for me ever since.
Okay. Um, well, we have to call them now.
No. No, no, no. You can't.
You can't.
I'm not ready.
And I'm scared if they know about Leo,
they're gonna take him.
♪♪
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 73.
- Neuro...
- I don't understand what's happening.
It feels like
every step forward she makes,
she takes two steps back.
It's February 2nd.
Groundhog Day.
That's me.
I feel like I keep living the same day...
[GULPS]
...over and over.
Okay, Bill Murray.
Let the doctors tell us what's going on.
The reason we think she had
the dead bowel is that she's...
- [ALARM BLARING]
- Natasha?
Okay, she's coding!
I'm gonna start compressions!
Crack open the crash cart and let's push
one of atropine and one of epi.
- Natasha!
- Schmitt, get him out of here.
Natasha, please! I need you!
She probably threw a PE...
let's get an echo in here
and start a heparin drip.
[BLARING CONTINUES]
♪♪
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 84.
Overnight, she continued...
Just tell me. Please.
Well, when she had her pulmonary
embolism 11 days ago,
it... it... it weakened
her heart and her lungs.
And since then, her kidneys
have worsened, as well.
- I'm sorry.
- Why?
Why?
I just... I... Garrett, I...
[VOICE BREAKING]
Why is this happening to us?
I don't have an answer for that...
Why is this happening to us?
She was getting better.
After all we went through.
[HYPERVENTILATING]
Natasha... [GROANS]
- Garrett?
- Garrett.
- Hey, hey, hey.
- Garrett.
If she dies, I die. If she dies, I die.
- Okay.
- If she dies, I die.
Garrett. Listen to me.
Look at me, please.
Look at me. Look at me. I'm here.
Look at me, please. Listen to me.
You won't die.
I know it feels like that
right now, but trust me.
You won't die.
You have to fight for her.
She's in there fighting for you.
You don't get to give up.
So part of that fight is
you're gonna go take a walk,
you're gonna take a shower,
and you're gonna get a meal.
We will be here,
fighting to keep her alive.
And you are gonna go fight
to keep yourself alive.
Okay?
Come on.
♪♪
♪ They don't love you like I love you ♪
♪ Wait ♪
♪ They don't love you like I love you ♪
♪ Wait ♪
♪ They don't love you like I love you ♪
♪ Maps ♪
- [GRUNTS]
- Oh!
[SOBBING]
Oh, Catherine.
Oh, honey.
I can't do it!
I can't.
No!
[SOBS]
I can't...
[LEO FUSSING]
So, do you think Britney's
spelled with two "T" s or one?
Or maybe they spell it different,
like with a "Y" instead of "I", maybe?
Owen, you have to stop.
We've been having this
conversation for two weeks.
We just need to find them.
We need to tell them
where their daughter is.
And have you thought about
what you're gonna say to them
if you find them?
"Hi, we're two strangers.
We took in your daughter
without going through the foster system,
and, oh, yeah, we have her son,
who you don't even know exists.
Congrats, Grandma and Grandpa!"
[SCOFFS]
We at least need to tell
the social worker.
Owen, she... she needs
to make that call herself.
She's not ready.
We can't push her.
Why is she running our lives?
She's been lying to us, DCHS,
everyone for months,
with no remorse.
She had remorse.
She's an addict. She's figuring it out.
This is all part
of the disease. Betty is...
Her name isn't even Betty!
Sorry, I know that, yes, yes,
addiction is a disease,
but since when does its symptoms
include lying
and stealing from people
who are trying to help you?
It just all feels like an excuse
for justifying piss poor life choices.
[KEYBOARD CLACKING]
[SIGHS]
Wait, where are you going?
To Meredith's.
- Why?
- I don't know.
Piss poor life choices?
Wait, wait, Amelia.
I'm sorry. That was way out of line.
You don't even see the line.
[SIGHS]
I don't know who I'm gonna be
if they take Leo away.
He's my son.
[SIGHS]
If they're gonna take him...
I need to know sooner than later.
[LEO COOS]
♪♪
Hey. I have a pitch for tonight.
You. Me.
Movies. Pizza. Popcorn. Candy. Sex.
Repeat.
You know it's Valentine's Day, right?
You hate Valentine's Day.
I know. I'm trying new things.
Really?
[SNIFFLES]
I know you're hurting.
I, um... I don't...
I don't know how to make it better.
Yeah, neither do I.
I just... I'm trying to do
normal stuff, you know?
I just... feel so...
[SIGHS]
On the worst day of my mother's illness,
I wanted to take her IV
and plunge it into my own arm.
I wanted out.
Not just of that day or that moment.
I wanted out of this life.
It was a fleeting thought,
but it came, and...
you know, that's how bad the pain was.
That's how bad the fear was.
So what'd you do?
I shook. I shook.
[LAUGHS]
My muscles shook in ways
that I did not know
they could move.
And then I, um...
my eye started twitching.
Yeah. Yeah, my eye's been
twitching on and off all day.
- Mm.
- And I've got, like,
this shortness-of-breath thing happening,
where I can't hold a deep breath.
All day, every day.
[DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE]
[SMOOCHES]
- Hey, can I ask you a question?
- Yeah.
How can you stand there and tell
Garrett to fight for love
when you're the one running away from it?
I have three kids and a big job.
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
What?
Nothing, just... you know,
I used to think you were
so beyond me, but you're not.
You're like a kid playing hide and seek,
hiding behind a million excuses.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Hi.
Do you want to go to dinner tonight?
Are you... asking me out...
on Valentine's Day?
I guess I am.
Uh... [CHUCKLES]
Well, I'm, uh...
I'm not one to usually
bang my head against a wall.
- Is that a no?
- No, no.
I'm banging my head.
It's my new thing, I guess.
Um...
I'll see you... tonight?
Okay.
♪♪
[HAMMERING]
[ENGINE SHUTS OFF,
CAR DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]
Ben, you fixing the fence?
You weren't supposed to see me.
Ah, Ben.
N-No, Miranda, Miranda, stop.
Okay, it's my turn to say things now.
You said you wanted me to be happy,
to follow my bliss,
and I did, just like you told me to.
And then you turned around
and left me over it.
Now, I may be the one
sleeping somewhere else,
but you left me.
I know.
I'm sorry.
No, you can't leave me like that again.
Not ever. All right?
You can take all the...
the job sabbaticals you want
and... and change your career
a dozen times,
and I will be with you
every step of the way.
But either we are in this
together or we aren't.
And I never planned
a version where we weren't.
I know...
No, don't say "I know."
Listen to me.
I should've known
something wasn't right with you.
I-I should've helped you get help.
I-I should've... I've seen it before.
I should've recognized it.
When you had a heart attack,
I promised you
I would build you a treehouse,
a place for you to go
when you would worry,
when you felt overwhelmed,
when you needed to be alone,
but I never followed through on that.
For that, I'm sorry.
♪♪
You're building me a treehouse?
Now, Miranda, I-I need to know
that this is not something
that you can call "time out" on
ever again.
Never.
No, I-I promise you.
Well, then, yeah,
I-I'm building you a treehouse.
It's, uh... It's not
finished yet, but, uh...
I just figure, you know,
once I move back in,
I can do a little bit of work
on it every morning.
[LAUGHS]
Oh!
Oh!
♪♪
[MONITOR BEEPING, VENTILATOR HISSING]
Dr. Schmitt said you had something
you want to discuss with us?
We've been in this hospital now
for over three months.
Since then, Natasha's only gotten worse.
And I know you're
the best doctors we could get
because I tried to find better ones,
but I couldn't.
No offense.
[WEAKLY] Take me off the vent.
I can't eat.
I can't breathe.
I'm dying.
There are other options.
There's home ventilator care.
There's long-term acute care.
There's skilled nursing facilities.
They know.
They've been consulting
palliative care doctors.
You all have done everything you can
to give me as much time as possible.
We may not have gotten
that wedding under the stars, but...
[SOBS]
...you gave us
the rest of our lives together.
[SNIFFLING]
Take me off.
Please.
Please.
We need you to give verbal consent
as her power of attorney.
[MONITOR BEEPING, VENTILATOR HISSING]
[VOICE BREAKING] I consent.
So, once I shut the machine off,
I don't know how much time you'll have,
so we will give you meds
to keep you comfortable.
Are you ready?
Yeah.
Okay.
[SWITCH CLICKS]
[MACHINE POWERS DOWN]
[COUGHING]
[AIR HISSES]
[SNIFFLING]
[CRYING]
♪♪
♪♪
Alex has an idea.
[GARRETT SNIFFLES]
♪♪
Since when do we do Valentine's?
Since I've been an ass and needed
an excuse to make it up to you.
Ah, that's my cue.
I have a date,
for which I cannot be late.
TEDDY: Hey.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Uh, yeah. Yeah.
[CHUCKLES]
- Hey.
Hey, are you guys free
to come to the ICU?
- What's up?
- Just... Just come.
Bring your phones.
♪♪
♪ When the night has come ♪
Your doctors wanted to make sure
we got our wedding under the stars.
♪ And the moon is the only light we see ♪
MEREDITH: Garrett asked me
to read the vows
that you wrote before the accident.
♪ ...be afraid ♪
♪ No, I won't be afraid ♪
♪ Just as long... ♪
"Garrett, the moment I met you,
I knew I would spend
the rest of my life with you.
Before you, I never met anyone
I could be in the same room
with longer than a few hours."
[LAUGHTER]
♪ Darlin', stand by me ♪
"I waited my whole life to meet you.
I gave up thinking I ever would."
♪ Oh, stand ♪
"But here we are.
Better late than never, right?"
♪ Stand by me ♪
"Now that I found you,
it all makes sense.
Everything that was once hard feels easy
now that you are in my life.
And everything that was
once easy is now sublime."
♪♪
I'm sorry.
I love you.
I'm sorry I've been so impossible.
No, no, you do not get to
apologize, sweetheart.
I can't begin to understand
what you're going through.
But I promise
I'll be at your side while you do it.
Mm.
♪♪
And...
Catherine Fox.
Easy.
♪ I won't cry ♪
You couldn't be average if you tried.
♪ No, I won't shed a tear ♪
♪ Just as long... ♪
Mnh.
W-What's the matter?
Get me to that bedroom now.
♪ Stand by me ♪
She's back, baby.
[BOTH LAUGH]
♪ Darlin', stand by me ♪
CHAPLAIN: Do you, Garrett,
take this woman to be your wife?
I do.
And do you, Natasha, take
this man to be your husband?
[GRUNTS SOFTLY]
♪ Stand by me ♪
By the power vested in me,
I now pronounce you husband and wife.
[CHUCKLES]
♪ Stand by me ♪
Don't... Don't...
I know.
♪ Stand by, oh ♪
Thank you.
[VOICE BREAKING]
Thank you for marrying me.
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪♪
♪♪
MEREDITH: There's never enough time.
Come with me.
Work, kids, life...
death.
Something always cuts our time short.
[DOOR CLOSES]
I'm supposed to be on a date.
You already are.
♪♪
♪♪
A toast.
To Garrett and Natasha.
[SIGHS]
To Garrett and Natasha.
So our best bet is to make
the most of the time we have.
- [MOANING]
- ♪ I want to give myself permission ♪
♪ I don't wanna hold it in ♪
Oh, oh, oh. This is better than sex.
Every pregnant woman I bring
here says the same thing.
[LAUGHING] What?
You are just so...
I know. I am so.
♪ I vow, I vow ♪
But not as so as you.
Ah, dinner is here.
- Thank you.
- Mmm.
- Do you like?
- Yeah, I like.
- Yeah?
- Mm.
[CHUCKLES]
♪ 'Cause this weight on my chest ♪
Happy Valentine's Day, my love.
[BOTH CHUCKLING]
Or make up for lost time.
♪♪
Did you want to keep waiting, or...?
Uh... no.
I think I'm done waiting.
Um, give me a glass of Lagavulin, neat...
But sometimes, if we're really lucky...
♪ Say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it, say it, say it now ♪
[SIGHS]
♪ Say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ Say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it, say it, say it now ♪
...time stands still.
♪ Say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it now ♪
♪♪
MEREDITH: Time is a strange thing.
♪ Hold on for a minute ♪
When you're waiting for
something good to happen,
it can feel like time is dragging on.
♪ Over time ♪
But when you want it to slow down,
it goes by in the blink of an eye.
♪ Now hold on, let me finish ♪
♪ Perfect exists in this life ♪
The odd part is time isn't real.
♪ If we try ♪
♪ I, I-I, I-I ♪
It's a concept imagined by scientists
based on the imperfect movement
of the earth around the sun.
♪ I'll write an anthem worth repeating ♪
So why do we put so much importance
on something that's just a theory?
♪ I wanna feel the transformation ♪
♪ A melody of reformation ♪
Because it's all we have.
♪♪
Hey, do you two want to come over
tomorrow morning for presents?
You know, Owen and I are trying
to establish our own traditions
with Leo, just give him
a little bit of normalcy
- while we still can.
- Right.
Before his mother/sister
comes home from rehab?
And his half-sibling arrives, yeah.
Well, kids can make anything
normal, so he'll be fine.
Thanks.
Dr. Grey?
Uh, I start my ICU rotation tomorrow,
and I was wondering if you
have any advice on... that.
Well, first of all, Schmitt,
don't call them "that."
Sorry, I just mean,
it's so... emotional in there.
Well, it's the ICU,
and she's been here for a month.
She's off the sedatives now.
We don't know when she'll wake up
or even if she'll wake up.
You know, it's brutal,
and it's depressing.
And it can make you feel like
you're going insane.
Right.
So, I...
You are going to watch
Natasha very closely.
You will examine her every day.
If there's any change,
any type of change,
you'll page me immediately.
- Okay?
- Okay.
And you should go outside on your breaks,
because you can feel like you're losing
all sense of time in here.
[TELEPHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE]
[SIGHS]
- You had the husband?
- Yeah.
Ice skate to the tibia. You?
Ouch. Wife had a hell of a concussion.
Most wonderful time of the year, right?
Hey.
It's snowing.
♪♪
What are you guys doing for Christmas?
Oh, you know, Leo's too young
to absorb any of it.
I think we're gonna do presents and cocoa
and cinnamon buns, all that.
Hopefully some of it'll stick.
Yeah, that's sweet.
And Amelia has to go to rehab
to visit Betty. Yeah.
Right. The usual.
Yeah.
So, we're gonna, um...
We're having Christmas dinner
tomorrow night,
and Amelia wanted me to invite you.
Oh, no, no. Thanks. No.
I'm... I'm covering for you
in the pit, remember?
Oh, right, right. Yeah.
Of course. And thank you, again.
Yeah, of course.
♪♪
We're gonna find our own traditions, too.
I know.
Merry Christmas, Owen.
♪♪
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
It's a unique choice.
I mean, I don't think
we've ever had a chief
give us cured meat before.
I did something nice,
and you're mocking me for it.
Oh, wait! Did you tell her?
We're having a New Year's Eve party.
Attending and fellows only. Champagne.
Little snacky things on crackers.
- Very classy.
- How glamorous.
I know. You should invite Link.
I mean, I already invited him,
but y-you should ask him to be your date,
'cause I already told him that you would.
Jo...
Ooh, sorry. Ohh! Oh, my...
- Oh.
- Hey.
Hi. Um, I-I was just leaving,
and it looks like you are, too.
Do you want to take
our hams out for a drink?
[CHUCKLING] Oh, that sounds amazing,
but I have to get home
because it's Christmas Eve.
I have to put the kids to bed
so Santa can come.
- Right.
- Yeah.
- Soon though?
- Yes. Yeah.
Oh, you know, actually,
the Karevs are having
a very classy New Year's Eve party.
I'll be there. Okay.
No... Dark blue scrubs only.
She can have a plus one.
- You're supposed to read my tone.
- Read your what?
Jo, I'm a big girl.
I can handle my own love life.
- Thanks for the ham, Chief.
- You're welcome.
Here comes Santa Claus.
[LAUGHS] LINK: This is for you.
Cookies for Santa, in case you
don't feel like baking later.
Link is spending his Christmas Eve
visiting kids in the cancer ward.
Seriously?
Seriously.
Seriously.
You're mocking him
for doing something even nicer.
You should take a look at that.
We'll see you New Year's Eve.
MEREDITH: Bye, Santa.
You are in a love triangle.
There's no love. There's no triangle.
[CHUCKLING] Yeah.
Unless, of course,
the ham, the cookies, and I
are a triangle.
[LAUGHS]
She's totally in a love triangle.
Mm-hmm.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
[SIGHS]
- Hey.
- Hey.
Uh, sorry I didn't call first.
Oh, it's okay. Come in.
Uh, I can't stay.
Just, uh... just wanted
to drop these off for Tuck
for in the morning from me.
Oh. Thank you.
Uh... Uh, but I put your name
on all the gifts I got him.
Why would you do that?
Well, 'cause they're from us.
It's funny.
I-I don't remember us
going shopping together.
I just didn't want him to think that...
You called a time-out on our marriage?
Okay. I'm sorry.
Uh, thank you for the gifts.
I'll make sure that he opens them.
Uh, what are you... Wait.
Where are you gonna be tomorrow?
On call. You know,
Christmas is a big day for us.
Oh, us, too.
Uh, maybe I'll see you in the pit.
Maybe don't sound so hopeful
that somebody gets injured
in a fire on Christmas.
Right.
["WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS" PLAYS]
♪♪
[UTENSILS CLACK]
Anybody want to play cards?
I play a mean Gin Rummy.
Oh, you don't want to do that
unless you want to lose.
I am the master of Gin Rummy
in this house.
I'm sorry, kids. I'm just exhausted.
Would I be a party pooper
if I just went to bed?
Of course, Mom. Get your rest.
Okay. I'm sorry.
Couldn't even chase Harriet
around that tree this morning.
Thank you so much for taking
care of Christmas dinner.
I've just been no help at all.
We have Christmas dinner
catered every year, Mom.
There's no reason to change that.
- [CHUCKLES] Merry Christmas, baby.
- Okay.
- Maggie.
- Merry Christmas.
Can I help you upstairs?
Oh, no, no.
No, I can make it to my bed on my own.
[SIGHS]
She doesn't let me help her do anything.
She'll get there.
I hope so.
♪♪
It was fine. A little boring.
I kinda wished you were there.
At Christmas?
With your family?
Yeah. Why? Is that weird?
No.
I'll come next year, and I'll
bring some Chanukkah gelt.
[CHUCKLES]
It's creepy in here.
I'll protect you.
You are so cheesy.
[LAUGHS]
Hey, uh, Dr. Shepherd asked me
to come check on Natasha.
MAN: Help! Can you...
Hello! Somebody?
Page Dr. Grey.
Oh, my God, it's Natasha. She's...
She's awake.
[LAUGHS]
♪♪
GARRETT: [CLEARS THROAT] Thank you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I'm saying it a lot for the both of us.
MEREDITH: Schmitt?
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 35.
Neuro... She regained
consciousness overnight.
She is now A&O times three.
Cardio and pulmonary... She's on a vent
and has an open thoracostomy
for empyema drainage.
MSK... Spine was cleared,
and her pelvis was fixed internally.
When will she be able to talk?
We're working on decreasing
her vent settings first.
MEREDITH: We also have
to get her nutrition up.
She's weak and has been
through quite a lot.
MAGGIE: We can close the
thoracostomy today, though,
since her lungs are doing so much better.
Natasha, we need you
to get strong for us.
I'm gonna get you up and out
of that bed soon, okay?
MEREDITH: Let's make sure
the respiratory therapist
brings that peep down to 5.
Welcome back, Natasha.
You may get that planetarium wedding yet.
At this point,
I'd settle for a courthouse.
[CHUCKLES]
Nice work, Grey.
- [CHUCKLES]
- Love triangle.
When are you gonna stop
stringing him along, huh?
Excuse me?
You heard me.
Link... he likes you, and you
keep giving him false hope.
Who says it's false?
Oh, please. We both know it is.
Do we?
[SPEAKING ITALIAN] _
Andrew.
New Year's Eve.
Is that a date?
Or is that like, "Oh, come to this party,
and we'll make eyes
at each other over the punch,
but I'm not really brave enough
to talk to you in public"?
I've been called a lot of things.
"Not brave enough" isn't one of them.
Fine. It's a date.
WOMAN OVER PA:
Dr. Brooks, dial Admitting.
Dr. Brooks, dial Admitting.
You look good.
Your hair, it's shinier.
Oh, ew. Please don't talk about my hair.
Okay.
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]
- How's Leo?
- He's good.
Yeah, he's teething like crazy,
but he's good.
You miss him?
I mean,
not as much as I miss drugs,
but yeah, a bit.
Well, that's good.
Identifying that.
It's... part of the process.
No, it's not part of the process.
I just miss drugs.
I know they ruined my life,
but they made me feel
better than anything.
Better than being a mom.
Oh, God.
That's so stupid.
I shouldn't even be a mom.
I'm a kid.
I should just give you guys Leo
and pretend none of this ever happened.
Betty...
♪♪
It's New Year's Eve.
Don't you have somewhere to be?
♪♪
[ALEXI VON GUGGENBERG'S
"STAND OUT" PLAYS]
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]
♪♪
- WOMAN: Girl, look at you!
- [LAUGHS]
♪ Can't help but stand out ♪
♪ Ooh, can't help myself ♪
♪ I can't help but stand out ♪
Oh, hey, um, weren't you
supposed to be covering the ICU?
Oh, uh, Natasha was using
the speaking valve for the first time,
so Dr. Grey said she wanted to stay.
♪ Ooh, can't help myself ♪
♪ Can't help but stand out ♪
Hey. Where are you right now?
♪ No limitations ♪
Sorry, I'm just... distracted.
♪ Tell me the rules so I can break them ♪
Let's get out of here.
♪ I keep slippin' in
their conversations ♪
The ball hasn't even dropped yet.
The ball can drop in our bed.
Hmm?
I did not mean that to sound so graphic.
[BOTH LAUGH]
♪ I ain't doing my job ♪
MIRANDA: Do you think I can ask him over
after his shift, like, for a toast maybe?
Uh, I mean, my son's with his
father, so I don't know...
Oh, would Ben think that's a booty call?
He might think that's a booty call.
Well, maybe that's not such a bad thing.
Okay, hey, everyone!
It's almost midnight!
ALEX: Come on. Hurry, hurry.
[BOTTLES CLINKING]
- Oh, no, I'll take one.
- Thank you.
Oh, you look... like I should've
joined the Army.
[BOTH CHUCKLE]
ALL: 10, 9, 8,
7, 6, 5,
4, 3, 2, 1...
Happy New Year!
[CHEERS AND LAUGHTER]
- Cheers!
- Cheers!
Happy New Year.
[CHUCKLES]
Happy New Year.
Shut up.
Happy New Year, Dr. Karev.
Happy New Year, Dr. Karev.
♪ Cuz I'm gonna live my life free ♪
♪ Can't help but stand out ♪
And may this year be
everything you wish for.
We want to thank you all for..
How are you feeling off the vent?
...and whether all your dreams
came true this year,
or you simply...
[WEAKLY] Like I haven't
breathed on my own
in two months.
Then you're doing well.
Garrett went to find us sparkling water
so we could pretend it's champagne.
- He's a good one, huh?
- He is.
He was by your side the entire time.
I could hear him.
He talked to me all day about
you and the other doctors.
Shouldn't you be kissing
one of them right now?
Kissing who?
One of the doctors who likes you.
Garrett calls them
Abercrombie and Stitch.
[BOTH LAUGH]
Yeah! Come over here!
Oh, dang! We missed it.
Happy New Year, guys.
[KEYS CLACK]
TV ANNOUNCER: 10... 10, 9, 8...
Kiss the one who turns back time for you.
...5, 4, 3, 2, 1...
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year.
Oh!
♪♪
♪ All right, ohh ♪
Scotch, neat.
Hey, how you doing?
Good, good.
You, uh, been playing lately?
No. Been busy.
Same.
♪ Ain't got no regrets ♪
♪ Ain't got no regrets ♪
She stand you up, too?
Looks like it.
♪ Till there ain't nothing left ♪
♪ Feels like my heart will beat
right out of my chest ♪
♪ This is as good as it gets ♪
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 45.
Neuro and cardio unchanged.
Pulmonary... She has tolerated
her speaking valve trials
with intermittent oxygen.
We will remove the chest tube today.
GI... She's on tube feeds.
PT/OT... She made it bed to chair.
Well, there has been a lot of progress.
We're still not out of the woods yet,
but, um, do you have any
questions for us?
- When do I get to eat?
- JO: [LAUGHS]
She's been awake for 11 days,
and she's been asking
about tacos for 10 of them.
Tacos are a ways away, I'm afraid.
But we can... we can do Jell-O.
The speech and swallow therapist
will try that today.
I'll take it.
Uh, watermelon.
Okay, you take care.
- Hey.
- Dr. Grey.
I haven't seen you in a few days.
- How have you been?
- Stood up.
Sorry.
I don't know if you've
ever been stood up before,
but it feels pretty awful.
- Well, I had a patient.
- You have a phone.
WOMAN OVER PA: Dr. Rainey to Peds ICU.
- Dr. Rainey to Peds ICU.
- [SIGHS]
Look, it's been fun.
The waiting. The build up. The game.
But that? That wasn't fun.
- That was just rude.
- You're right.
I'm a good guy, Meredith.
- But I'm not a doormat.
- [ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]
And if that's what you're after,
then I don't know.
Maybe Link is your guy after all.
A little more. A little more!
Good! There you go!
Please don't talk to me like I'm a child.
It's perfectly normal to feel...
How do you know what "normal" is?
Have you ever had your spine carved open
- and dug around in?
- [SIGHS]
Huh?
Um... Marsha,
can you give us a minute, please?
- Yeah.
- Thank you.
[SIGHS]
Richard, spare me the lecture
about recovery.
I know that's the pain talking.
No, that is me talking,
and I say she's a pain.
You're a pain in my entire ass!
[SIGHS]
I asked her to give me some exercises
so that I could get back
to my sensual self,
and she said [HIGH-PITCHED] "Don't worry
your little heart about that"
[NORMAL VOICE] like
I'm some dried-up old mop.
Well, I'm sure that's not what she meant.
Then what did she mean?
It's not like these pain meds
are letting me have any
sexual appetite anyway.
The average recovery time...
Since when am I average?
[SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]
Don't talk to me about time.
Don't help me.
[SIGHS]
♪♪
Hey, sorry I'm late. You already started.
This gel is really cold, and I
have to get back to the pit.
You said we were gonna
do these things together.
- You can't just...
- What do you want me to do?
Every time I have to
be a parent, wait for you?
Yeah, but if you say you're gonna
wait, then you can't just...
This baby is gonna be outside
of my body eventually.
Oh, really? Is that how it works?
Please explain it to me, Teddy.
[ HEARTBEAT]
Oh, my God.
- It's a...
- Oh, wow.
We're having a baby girl.
♪♪
[SIREN WAILS]
Hey! Ben!
- Hey.
- Hey.
MVC out on Elliott.
This... This black ice is no joke.
- Did you put your snow tires on?
- Uh, I will.
Ben, um, I need to tell you something...
or ask you something.
I don't have the words ready,
but my heart is.
I want you to come home, Ben.
Please.
I mean... it's lonely at
the house when Tuck is gone,
and, uh, the fence, uh, it...
it blew down after the windstorm.
I haven't had a chance... No.
Come home, Ben.
Please.
Come home.
Miranda, I...
I love you.
But you broke my heart.
I'm not coming home just because
now you're lonely
and the fence needs patching.
Okay.
O-Okay, no, uh, that's not what I meant.
Uh...
You know I haven't been myself.
It was my meds.
I was working on
my physical health so much
that I was ignoring my mental...
My anxieties, again, they...
I-It wasn't the job,
and it was not your fault.
But I'm... I'm handling it.
I'm... I'm being treated.
I'm better now.
DISPATCHER: Structure fire
at Mercer and Fairview.
All nearby units, respond.
[STATIC CRACKLES]
W-We have to go.
I'll talk to you later.
Ben?
[ENGINE STARTS]
I'm sorry.
[SIREN WAILS]
[THUNDER RUMBLES]
LEVI: Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 62.
Neuro unchanged,
cardio... she was tachycardic overnight.
Pulmonary... she was placed back
on the ventilator two days ago.
She's been awake for four weeks.
Why is she back on the ventilator?
She has pneumonia,
so she's on antibiotics,
but her lungs have taken
a pretty big hit.
GI... Her tube feeds
were held for the O.R. today,
but the CT from overnight...
My ostomy. It's been hurting.
Am I... are you still gonna...
We won't be able
to reverse your ostomy today.
What? Why?
The CT that we got back,
it showed fluid collections
in your abdomen,
which may be the source of your symptoms.
What does that mean?
It means that we will do surgery today,
but it will be to clean out
the fluid collections.
So you're gonna open her back up?
The wounds she's been working
to heal for the last few weeks?
Unfortunately, yes.
GU... She is on intermittent dialysis,
and she is going to have
another session today.
Heme... she is on DVT prophylaxis.
♪♪
[CHUCKLES] Don't judge me.
I saw a bed. I laid down on it.
My feet are very angry with me.
Ah. I know what you need.
And I know just who to give it to you.
Mimi at Pink Bunny.
Best Mani-pedi in Seattle.
[LAUGHS] Why does it make perfect sense
that you have a favorite nail salon?
Well, you don't want
to dig around somebody's brain
with sloppy cuticles.
You ever want to experience
pure bliss for $29...
Mnh! you let me know.
- [CHUCKLES]
- [DOOR OPENS]
MEREDITH: Okay, cut the knot.
[MONITOR BEEPING, VENTILATOR HISSING]
Nicely done. You can do the next tie.
You seem different.
I got contacts.
No, it's... it's not that.
It's... It's just you're less...
Glasses.
- Yeah.
- Hmm.
Yeah, and... and the other day,
when I asked you to change
Natasha's central line,
you didn't mess it up at all.
Kind of a backhanded compliment,
but thank you?
- I met someone.
- Mm.
And he's hot, and he's confident,
and he likes me.
And I'm gay.
And he's gay.
And we're... gay together.
And it's the most me I've
ever felt in my whole life.
Well, I'm happy for you, Schmitt.
Thank you.
DELUCA: Yeah, I think it's beautiful.
After all, what's life for
if not to share it with somebody, right?
Does that mean
life is not worth living alone?
I think if you meet someone
who lights you up,
you should fight for them.
Suction.
[SUCTION]
This fluid looks cloudy.
Oh, no.
She's got dead bowel.
JO: Did we know that?
No, damn it. G.I.A. stapler.
Oh, God. That's really bad, right?
♪♪
Last time I was here,
she was talking about
someone named "Linus" a lot.
Is that a... like, a boy?
Does she have a boyfriend?
- [DOOR OPENS]
- She didn't call him that,
but I think so.
- Hey.
- Hi!
Was that him?
Who?
"Linus"?
Uh, yeah, I guess.
You guess?
I'm doing the stupid steps.
Um, and I'm on the one
where you apologize for stuff
and tell the truth.
So, I have something to tell you guys.
- Go ahead.
- Okay.
I've been lying to you guys
since I met you.
My name's not Betty,
and my parents don't even know I'm here.
But we've been calling them.
No, you've been talking
to my friend Jerry.
Um, what's your real name?
Britney.
[VOICE BREAKING] I'm sorry.
[CLEARS THROAT]
I know I should've told you,
but I was scared
if they found out about Leo.
Whoa. Hold on. They don't know about Leo?
I ran away when I got pregnant,
and they've probably been
looking for me ever since.
Okay. Um, well, we have to call them now.
No. No, no, no. You can't.
You can't.
I'm not ready.
And I'm scared if they know about Leo,
they're gonna take him.
♪♪
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 73.
- Neuro...
- I don't understand what's happening.
It feels like
every step forward she makes,
she takes two steps back.
It's February 2nd.
Groundhog Day.
That's me.
I feel like I keep living the same day...
[GULPS]
...over and over.
Okay, Bill Murray.
Let the doctors tell us what's going on.
The reason we think she had
the dead bowel is that she's...
- [ALARM BLARING]
- Natasha?
Okay, she's coding!
I'm gonna start compressions!
Crack open the crash cart and let's push
one of atropine and one of epi.
- Natasha!
- Schmitt, get him out of here.
Natasha, please! I need you!
She probably threw a PE...
let's get an echo in here
and start a heparin drip.
[BLARING CONTINUES]
♪♪
Natasha Deon, 45, hospital day 84.
Overnight, she continued...
Just tell me. Please.
Well, when she had her pulmonary
embolism 11 days ago,
it... it... it weakened
her heart and her lungs.
And since then, her kidneys
have worsened, as well.
- I'm sorry.
- Why?
Why?
I just... I... Garrett, I...
[VOICE BREAKING]
Why is this happening to us?
I don't have an answer for that...
Why is this happening to us?
She was getting better.
After all we went through.
[HYPERVENTILATING]
Natasha... [GROANS]
- Garrett?
- Garrett.
- Hey, hey, hey.
- Garrett.
If she dies, I die. If she dies, I die.
- Okay.
- If she dies, I die.
Garrett. Listen to me.
Look at me, please.
Look at me. Look at me. I'm here.
Look at me, please. Listen to me.
You won't die.
I know it feels like that
right now, but trust me.
You won't die.
You have to fight for her.
She's in there fighting for you.
You don't get to give up.
So part of that fight is
you're gonna go take a walk,
you're gonna take a shower,
and you're gonna get a meal.
We will be here,
fighting to keep her alive.
And you are gonna go fight
to keep yourself alive.
Okay?
Come on.
♪♪
♪ They don't love you like I love you ♪
♪ Wait ♪
♪ They don't love you like I love you ♪
♪ Wait ♪
♪ They don't love you like I love you ♪
♪ Maps ♪
- [GRUNTS]
- Oh!
[SOBBING]
Oh, Catherine.
Oh, honey.
I can't do it!
I can't.
No!
[SOBS]
I can't...
[LEO FUSSING]
So, do you think Britney's
spelled with two "T" s or one?
Or maybe they spell it different,
like with a "Y" instead of "I", maybe?
Owen, you have to stop.
We've been having this
conversation for two weeks.
We just need to find them.
We need to tell them
where their daughter is.
And have you thought about
what you're gonna say to them
if you find them?
"Hi, we're two strangers.
We took in your daughter
without going through the foster system,
and, oh, yeah, we have her son,
who you don't even know exists.
Congrats, Grandma and Grandpa!"
[SCOFFS]
We at least need to tell
the social worker.
Owen, she... she needs
to make that call herself.
She's not ready.
We can't push her.
Why is she running our lives?
She's been lying to us, DCHS,
everyone for months,
with no remorse.
She had remorse.
She's an addict. She's figuring it out.
This is all part
of the disease. Betty is...
Her name isn't even Betty!
Sorry, I know that, yes, yes,
addiction is a disease,
but since when does its symptoms
include lying
and stealing from people
who are trying to help you?
It just all feels like an excuse
for justifying piss poor life choices.
[KEYBOARD CLACKING]
[SIGHS]
Wait, where are you going?
To Meredith's.
- Why?
- I don't know.
Piss poor life choices?
Wait, wait, Amelia.
I'm sorry. That was way out of line.
You don't even see the line.
[SIGHS]
I don't know who I'm gonna be
if they take Leo away.
He's my son.
[SIGHS]
If they're gonna take him...
I need to know sooner than later.
[LEO COOS]
♪♪
Hey. I have a pitch for tonight.
You. Me.
Movies. Pizza. Popcorn. Candy. Sex.
Repeat.
You know it's Valentine's Day, right?
You hate Valentine's Day.
I know. I'm trying new things.
Really?
[SNIFFLES]
I know you're hurting.
I, um... I don't...
I don't know how to make it better.
Yeah, neither do I.
I just... I'm trying to do
normal stuff, you know?
I just... feel so...
[SIGHS]
On the worst day of my mother's illness,
I wanted to take her IV
and plunge it into my own arm.
I wanted out.
Not just of that day or that moment.
I wanted out of this life.
It was a fleeting thought,
but it came, and...
you know, that's how bad the pain was.
That's how bad the fear was.
So what'd you do?
I shook. I shook.
[LAUGHS]
My muscles shook in ways
that I did not know
they could move.
And then I, um...
my eye started twitching.
Yeah. Yeah, my eye's been
twitching on and off all day.
- Mm.
- And I've got, like,
this shortness-of-breath thing happening,
where I can't hold a deep breath.
All day, every day.
[DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE]
[SMOOCHES]
- Hey, can I ask you a question?
- Yeah.
How can you stand there and tell
Garrett to fight for love
when you're the one running away from it?
I have three kids and a big job.
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
What?
Nothing, just... you know,
I used to think you were
so beyond me, but you're not.
You're like a kid playing hide and seek,
hiding behind a million excuses.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Hi.
Do you want to go to dinner tonight?
Are you... asking me out...
on Valentine's Day?
I guess I am.
Uh... [CHUCKLES]
Well, I'm, uh...
I'm not one to usually
bang my head against a wall.
- Is that a no?
- No, no.
I'm banging my head.
It's my new thing, I guess.
Um...
I'll see you... tonight?
Okay.
♪♪
[HAMMERING]
[ENGINE SHUTS OFF,
CAR DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]
Ben, you fixing the fence?
You weren't supposed to see me.
Ah, Ben.
N-No, Miranda, Miranda, stop.
Okay, it's my turn to say things now.
You said you wanted me to be happy,
to follow my bliss,
and I did, just like you told me to.
And then you turned around
and left me over it.
Now, I may be the one
sleeping somewhere else,
but you left me.
I know.
I'm sorry.
No, you can't leave me like that again.
Not ever. All right?
You can take all the...
the job sabbaticals you want
and... and change your career
a dozen times,
and I will be with you
every step of the way.
But either we are in this
together or we aren't.
And I never planned
a version where we weren't.
I know...
No, don't say "I know."
Listen to me.
I should've known
something wasn't right with you.
I-I should've helped you get help.
I-I should've... I've seen it before.
I should've recognized it.
When you had a heart attack,
I promised you
I would build you a treehouse,
a place for you to go
when you would worry,
when you felt overwhelmed,
when you needed to be alone,
but I never followed through on that.
For that, I'm sorry.
♪♪
You're building me a treehouse?
Now, Miranda, I-I need to know
that this is not something
that you can call "time out" on
ever again.
Never.
No, I-I promise you.
Well, then, yeah,
I-I'm building you a treehouse.
It's, uh... It's not
finished yet, but, uh...
I just figure, you know,
once I move back in,
I can do a little bit of work
on it every morning.
[LAUGHS]
Oh!
Oh!
♪♪
[MONITOR BEEPING, VENTILATOR HISSING]
Dr. Schmitt said you had something
you want to discuss with us?
We've been in this hospital now
for over three months.
Since then, Natasha's only gotten worse.
And I know you're
the best doctors we could get
because I tried to find better ones,
but I couldn't.
No offense.
[WEAKLY] Take me off the vent.
I can't eat.
I can't breathe.
I'm dying.
There are other options.
There's home ventilator care.
There's long-term acute care.
There's skilled nursing facilities.
They know.
They've been consulting
palliative care doctors.
You all have done everything you can
to give me as much time as possible.
We may not have gotten
that wedding under the stars, but...
[SOBS]
...you gave us
the rest of our lives together.
[SNIFFLING]
Take me off.
Please.
Please.
We need you to give verbal consent
as her power of attorney.
[MONITOR BEEPING, VENTILATOR HISSING]
[VOICE BREAKING] I consent.
So, once I shut the machine off,
I don't know how much time you'll have,
so we will give you meds
to keep you comfortable.
Are you ready?
Yeah.
Okay.
[SWITCH CLICKS]
[MACHINE POWERS DOWN]
[COUGHING]
[AIR HISSES]
[SNIFFLING]
[CRYING]
♪♪
♪♪
Alex has an idea.
[GARRETT SNIFFLES]
♪♪
Since when do we do Valentine's?
Since I've been an ass and needed
an excuse to make it up to you.
Ah, that's my cue.
I have a date,
for which I cannot be late.
TEDDY: Hey.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Uh, yeah. Yeah.
[CHUCKLES]
- Hey.
Hey, are you guys free
to come to the ICU?
- What's up?
- Just... Just come.
Bring your phones.
♪♪
♪ When the night has come ♪
Your doctors wanted to make sure
we got our wedding under the stars.
♪ And the moon is the only light we see ♪
MEREDITH: Garrett asked me
to read the vows
that you wrote before the accident.
♪ ...be afraid ♪
♪ No, I won't be afraid ♪
♪ Just as long... ♪
"Garrett, the moment I met you,
I knew I would spend
the rest of my life with you.
Before you, I never met anyone
I could be in the same room
with longer than a few hours."
[LAUGHTER]
♪ Darlin', stand by me ♪
"I waited my whole life to meet you.
I gave up thinking I ever would."
♪ Oh, stand ♪
"But here we are.
Better late than never, right?"
♪ Stand by me ♪
"Now that I found you,
it all makes sense.
Everything that was once hard feels easy
now that you are in my life.
And everything that was
once easy is now sublime."
♪♪
I'm sorry.
I love you.
I'm sorry I've been so impossible.
No, no, you do not get to
apologize, sweetheart.
I can't begin to understand
what you're going through.
But I promise
I'll be at your side while you do it.
Mm.
♪♪
And...
Catherine Fox.
Easy.
♪ I won't cry ♪
You couldn't be average if you tried.
♪ No, I won't shed a tear ♪
♪ Just as long... ♪
Mnh.
W-What's the matter?
Get me to that bedroom now.
♪ Stand by me ♪
She's back, baby.
[BOTH LAUGH]
♪ Darlin', stand by me ♪
CHAPLAIN: Do you, Garrett,
take this woman to be your wife?
I do.
And do you, Natasha, take
this man to be your husband?
[GRUNTS SOFTLY]
♪ Stand by me ♪
By the power vested in me,
I now pronounce you husband and wife.
[CHUCKLES]
♪ Stand by me ♪
Don't... Don't...
I know.
♪ Stand by, oh ♪
Thank you.
[VOICE BREAKING]
Thank you for marrying me.
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪♪
♪♪
MEREDITH: There's never enough time.
Come with me.
Work, kids, life...
death.
Something always cuts our time short.
[DOOR CLOSES]
I'm supposed to be on a date.
You already are.
♪♪
♪♪
A toast.
To Garrett and Natasha.
[SIGHS]
To Garrett and Natasha.
So our best bet is to make
the most of the time we have.
- [MOANING]
- ♪ I want to give myself permission ♪
♪ I don't wanna hold it in ♪
Oh, oh, oh. This is better than sex.
Every pregnant woman I bring
here says the same thing.
[LAUGHING] What?
You are just so...
I know. I am so.
♪ I vow, I vow ♪
But not as so as you.
Ah, dinner is here.
- Thank you.
- Mmm.
- Do you like?
- Yeah, I like.
- Yeah?
- Mm.
[CHUCKLES]
♪ 'Cause this weight on my chest ♪
Happy Valentine's Day, my love.
[BOTH CHUCKLING]
Or make up for lost time.
♪♪
Did you want to keep waiting, or...?
Uh... no.
I think I'm done waiting.
Um, give me a glass of Lagavulin, neat...
But sometimes, if we're really lucky...
♪ Say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it, say it, say it now ♪
[SIGHS]
♪ Say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ Say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it, say it, say it now ♪
...time stands still.
♪ Say it, say it, say it now ♪
♪ I'll say it now ♪