Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 15, Episode 1 - With a Wonder and a Wild Desire - full transcript

There is a portion of the
cerebral cortex of your brain...

Fall the deepest area between
the temporal and frontex lobes.

Wait, DeLuca...

Wha... What are you doing here?

Whatever you want, Dr. Grey.

Ah! Ah.

It's called the insula,
and it's where desire starts.

- Morning.
- Ah!

- ♪ These days, you know, ♪
- Jackson.

- It's like the past ♪
- What... No.

You're with Maggie.



Yeah, but it's just a dream,
so it doesn't count.

No!

Huh. Head in the gutter.

I like it. Tell me more.

Y... You don't get to judge me.

Babe, I'm not the one judging you.

- Mom.
- Ah!

Bailey woke up, and I gave him some milk,

but he undid the cap on the sippie cup,

and he spilled his milk all over Ellis.

Oh, thank God.

If I fall asleep in the sand,
will you judge me?

No. If I throw up in the sand,
will you judge me?

Mm, only a little.



God, it's pretty.

Pretty bright.

Yeah.

Here.

♪ And my friends say,
"Do you want to go out?" ♪

♪ I'm like, "Nah, nah nah nah nah nah ♪

♪ Nah nah nah, nah," hey! ♪

The insula is only
about the size of a pea,

but what it triggers in our bodies

and, by extension, in our lives,

can be epic.

Oh.

Uh... Uh... Hi.

I'm sorry.

I... I think I have the wrong house.

Are you looking for Amelia or Owen?

'Cause they're still sleeping.
The baby was up all night.

I have the wrong house.

What happened? Is he up again?

No, I'm sorry. You can go back to sleep.

It's nothing.

Can you make coffee?

Yeah.

Oh, whoa. Mess.

Not a dream.

Definitely not a dream.

April and Matthew
and Jo and Alex all got married.

And the rest of us got painfully drunk.

Why do we do that?

Huh?

Numb life's most joyous, most vulnerable,

most powerful experiences with alcohol...

why do we do that?

Mm, that's too deep a question

for before I've had my coffee.

All yours.

Why are we whispering?

'Cause DeLuca's asleep.

DeLuca's not asleep.

He's just staring like an idiot.

He must be as hungover as I am.

Yeah, I have to call in sick, guys.

No. Nobody's calling in sick.

It's a beautiful day.
You're gonna get dressed.

We're all gonna walk to work.

Come on.

Let's go, guys. Come on.

God, my head hurts.

Ooh. Yes. Don't mind if I do.

Uh, orange, please.

No, no, wait. Pineapple.

And extra ice.

Nice. Thank you.

Good morning.

Oh.

Thank you, dear.

You were up and out early.

Did you make your AA meeting?

Oh, no, um, I... I wanted to...

try and make a dent on these charts,

so I... I'll go tonight.

Did you get any sleep at all last night?

Thanks to you...

I slept...

...quite...

...well.

And I hope to sleep quite well
again tonight, too.

Uh, you get back to your charting.

Oh, I'm too distracted now.

Mwah!

Mm.

Good morning, Dr. Altman!

Oh, and what a gorgeous morning it is.

Dr. Bailey, I have to talk to you

about the interim chief position.

I... I just... I wanted to see you

and... and... and...
and thank you for the offer.

Oh, you're welcome. It's exciting.

Oh! Plus, I just hired a new ortho god.

He was the personal surgeon
to the Seattle Mariners.

And... And we are putting
the finishing touches

on a state-of-the-art
hyperbaric therapy center.

Oh, we are state-of-the-art.

We are a place you want to work.

I know. I know.

Th... This is not personal, Dr. Bailey.

Just... I thought that I was
coming back to town to stay.

I... I thought that I wanted...
but I... I don't.

I... I... I don't want
what I thought I wanted,

so I'm... I'm not coming back to town.

I can't be your interim chief.

I'm going.

Far, far away.

So, you know, just...

Good luck with your...
the stress sabbatical, and...

I hope that I haven't added to it.

The... The stress.

Yeah, I mean, I was just saying
April got married, right?

And I stood there, and I watched,

and it was good.

I was good. I was truly happy for her,

and that's a big deal in my life.

It's like a turning point, actually.

So, I just... I don't know...
want to pay attention to that.

To what?

To whatever's next.

You know? I don't... I don't know.

It's not like I believe in a big sign

or a message from above
or something like that.

It's just...

I don't know.

Oh, my God.

I kissed Meredith Grey last night.

Oh. Oh, my God.

I mean, I just don't get how she was able

to make a decision that big that fast.

I mean, it takes me
three weeks of research

just to choose a toothbrush.

Yeah, well, that's April for you.

I mean, you know,
she did the same thing with me.

Honestly, I don't know.

I feel like maybe that's how faith works.

Yeah, I mean, I guess that's the appeal.

You just follow your gut...

...and you trust that

there's some hand there

to catch you if you fall

or... or to help you if you get it wrong.

Hey. Hey!

Whoa.

Ma'am?

Ma'am.

- Is anybody gonna call?
- 911. Yeah, I got it.

Uh, what... what do you see?

Got a thready pulse.

Respirations are shallow.
Obviously an open femur fracture.

Probably has internal injuries, as well.

Come on, pick up.

- You saved our lives, man.
- I just grabbed your jacket.

DeLuca, my life almost ended,
and you saved it.

All right? You were gonna
call in sick, for God's sake.

If you'd done that, I'd be dead.

Dr. Browning to the CAT lab.

Dr. Browning to the CAT lab.

Ah. Anything good?

What?

No.

Stop smirking at me.

I don't smirk... I smile.

And if you interpret my smile as a smirk,

well, that's just because
you find me mischievous,

and, dare I say, charming.

I don't find you anything.

I saved your sister's brain,

so at the very least,
you find me talented.

- Let's just leave it at that.
- Ah.

- Hey. Got the elevator.
- Oh. Oh.

Oh, hey. Morning.

- Hey.
- Hey, Leo!

Don't you look cute in that hat?

Those two back in the saddle?

Unclear.

You think they can sense
our sexual tension?

Wouldn't I sense it?

Oh, ouch. Delightful.

Oh, crap.

- Teddy.
- Teddy.

- Hi.
- Wait, why are you...

- What are you doing here?
- Excuse me. Oh, hi.

- Hi.
- Hey.

Bailey offered me a job,

- and I was considering it, but...
- We have a head of cardio.

Uh, interim chief. She... She
offered me the interim chief job.

Oh. There's an interim
chief job? I didn't...

Uh, she's wanting a...
a stress sabbatical.

- Oh.
- Who's the blonde?

Get your breath out of my ear.

So, are you gonna take it, or...?

I am not.

I'm... I'm... I'm leaving, actually.

Nice to see you, Amelia,
and, uh, whoever you are.

Oh, this is, um, this is Leo.

Yeah.

Goodbye, Owen.

I'm... I'm, uh, I'm...

I'm gonna go.

Wow.

She's in Seattle, and she doesn't call?

That's... Wow.

Are you still... hung up on her?

You know what? Don't answer that.

I am gonna drop off Leo.
You have a good day.

Amelia...

Hey. Whoa, whoa, whoa, slow down.

Incoming trauma!

- First!
- First!

Uh, wrong. I was first.

- Second!
- Easy!

I don't want you to die out here.

Uh, what's the matter here?

Uh, he was on the floor
in the bathroom screaming.

I think it might be a heart attack.

It's my stomach. It's just my stomach.

Uh, one of you get them checked in.

- But the trauma!
- There's a trauma.

Roy, now.

Dr. Pallas to Pediatrics.

- That's not our trauma?
- Oh, just some stomach pain.

Uh, you got this, Hunt?

First.

Dr. Lee to the ER. Dr. Lee to the ER.

Ow. Ohh.

Damn it, ow!

Oh.

Uh, hey, hey. Come here.

Who's your head of cardio?

Dr. Maggie Pierce, ma'am.

Are you military?

Yes, ma'am. Air Force.

MVC. Altered at the scene.

Pulse 130.

- BP's holding in the 90s.
- Okay.

There's also an open femur fracture.

- Easy.
- Got it.

She's a human bike rack.

Bike frame seems to be tamponading
a pretty serious thigh bleed,

so we wanted to make sure to get her

into a controlled environment
for the extraction.

- Yeah.
- We're gonna need ortho.

There's some new hotshot
ortho guy. Let's get him.

Pierce?

I got this.

She lost consciousness behind the wheel.

Oh, my God, I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry!

What?

I hear you're looking
for an interim chief,

and I am here to tell you
your search is over.

I know what you're thinking...
I'm chief of neuro,

and I have my research with Koracick,

and a teenage addict I'm trying to
keep on the straight and narrow.

And I have Owen.

Well, I don't have Owen.

Owen has Leo, and I have Betty,

and we most certainly
don't have each other.

So, there are questions. And feelings.

And the two of us together

is like one, big, swirling
confusion tornado

that could upend four lives, so, yeah.

Yeah, my life is
a bit of a mess at the moment.

And this is the reason
why I should pick you?

Because everyone knows

that people with the most disastrous
lives are brilliant at work.

Also, I am incredibly bossy by nature.

Okay, seriously,

what does Teddy Altman have that I don't?

- Ciao.
- Hey.

Uh, you look like a... come...
a... a sea... a sea rat.

Oh, wow. Sleeping alone really
brings out your friendly side.

I'm saying it must be
a pretty bad hang-under.

Hangover, and, yeah, it was.

But you know what?
I'm not feeling it anymore

because I just saved Pierce and Avery

from being splattered across Pine Street.

You what?

I'm a lifesaver, Carina.
I saved their lives.

It's like I was God's personal
right-hand man or something.

Okay, you seem pretty proud of that.

Yeah. You're saying it
like it's a bad thing.

- You paged me, Dr. Webber?
- You paged me, Dr. Webber?

You didn't say which DeLuca.

I meant Carina,

but her brother may as well
enjoy this, too.

I just came in with a major
trauma, Dr. Webber, so...

You'll want to see this, DeLuca. Roy?

Male, 42, severe abdominal pain.

He didn't allude to why,

but we think it may have
something to do with this.

- Oh.
- Oh.

Are we taking bets on what this is?

- I'm going with a candle.
- My money's on a shampoo bottle.

Flashlight.

You know, that one's strangely popular.

- Mm-hmm.
- DeLuca?

Why would anybody
want to do this to himself?

Because they're afraid to ask their wives

to touch them inside there.

They think their wives will
think they're homosexuals.

This does seem that way to me.

Don't be stupid. Gay men know
how to use proper sex toys

that don't get lost up there.

No. No, t-this is straight-man stupidity.

The pleasure center resides
just inside the anal canal

for all men, gay or straight.

All right, then.

Wait, wait, wait. I want to hear this.

The prostate is the male G-spot.

- Seriously?
- Yeah.

Why do you think
we're always pulling stuff

out of men's butts?

Why, indeed.

Dr. Graham...

Dr. Pierce, a word?

Yeah?

A private word?

Okay.

Um...

Cece, I'll be right back.

I'm gonna let her finish your EKG.

You sit tight.

- Thank you.
- Okay.

Dr. Rainey to Peds ICU.

Dr. Rainey to Peds ICU.

- My trauma room ready yet?
- Somebody page Ortho again.

I'm gonna need a portable scan.

Did I die? Am I dead?

Nisha, you are very much alive, okay?

But I'm in Heaven.

I never believed in Heaven
before, but here I am.

In Heaven.

Nisha, this isn't Heaven.

I don't think.

I guess... I guess I don't
really know, actually.

You know, I mean, there are
so many things we don't know.

But you are both so pretty.

Like angels in yellow.

How is she? Is she gonna be all right?

Ma'am, I'm gonna need you back in a bed.

Oh, I'm fine. I need to know how she is.

Are her parents coming?

They're far, far away.

I am so sorry, love.

My mom calls me "love."

But I've never been in love.

I didn't want to die
before being in love,

but I guess I had to die to find love.

In Heaven.

Child, are you kidding me?

I'm a matchmaker. That's what I do.

And not by hobby... by trade.

You just stay alive,

and I will dedicate my life
to finding love for you.

Excuse me, ma'am, seriously,

we need you back in your bed
while we review your EKG.

I've had two heart transplants.

If I drop dead right here,

I would've already had a longer life

than I probably should've.
So, thank you, Doctor,

but I am not leaving this girl alone.

Okay, ma'am, we have
an ortho team coming in,

so we're gonna have to move you
to make room for...

Oh, my God.

Someone ask for an Ortho God?

It is Heaven!

She's got a nasty
open-femur fracture for sure,

but I do not want
to take it off the metal.

Tourniquet to control the bleeding

before we take the metal bars off, right?

Bingo. How you feeling, Nisha?

Oh, God, see?

No one's ever asked me that,
like really asked me.

Is that what it's like being in love,

like, in love, love?

Like, where I'd wake up next to you

and you'd ask me, "How did you sleep?"

And that's... that's crazy. Who cares?

I mean, I do it every night,

but you actually
want to know how it went.

You want to know,
"How I'm feeling, Nisha."

I do want to know that.

All right, I think she's
feeling all right.

- Mm.
- I am feeling everything right now.

Pain?

Everything but that.

All right, we're gonna
take this step by step.

Forks, stem, headset, cut the top tube...

I don't follow that.

Oh. You didn't work in a bike shop, bud.

Four years, Venice Beach.

Can I get a socket wrench?

Okay, I'm gonna need these
carpenters out of there

so I can ultrasound the belly.

No, you're right. Let's pick up
the pace, guys, all right?

Okay, this could have been me,

so I'd really like it if she... lived.

Slow and steady wins the race.

Bud.

All right, I'm gonna twist this, Nisha,

and you're gonna feel
some pressure, okay?

But if it starts to hurt,
you tell me, okay?

I love you.

I love all of you.

I love all of you the most.

Okay.

Dr. Altman?

You're Dr. Pierce?

Head of cardio?

Yeah, I'm pretty sure.

What are you... 19?

No, I was 19 when I graduated
from medical school,

but I was 27 when they made me
head of cardio.

Are we both sharing our ages, or just me?

Damn it.

You're Grey's sister, aren't you?

Why should that matter?

All right.

What I'm about to tell you,

it falls under the category of
doctor-patient confidentiality.

Are we clear?

Uh, yeah. Yeah, I'm clear
on how the job works.

Okay.

Dr. Pierce, I'm 11 weeks pregnant.

Yesterday, I flew 12 hours,

and then participated
in an eight-hour surgery,

then slept for only three hours.

Now I'm 95% sure

that I've got a blood clot
in my femoral vein,

so I'm afraid I could throw
a pulmonary embolism.

So, I'm hoping...

I'm hoping that you can
confirm my diagnosis,

write me a prescription for Heparin

so that I can get back on a plane

and get out of here
without anyone else knowing.

Can you help me?

Uh...

Check on my patient in the pit.

If her EKG is normal,
hand her off to Dr. Grey.

Okay.

Hey, did you read that article

on how they're introducing
antigens on cancer cells

to make the body attack them?

Uh, no, I was reading Wrestler's Week.

Mm. It got me thinking.

About?

Just about how much

I liked working on mini-livers
with Meredith.

It just felt new.

Boston doesn't feel new... it feels old.

It's normal to have doubts.

I have doubts.

I don't want to be freezing
all the time with no friends.

But if I'm with you, I'm good.

You don't think it's a mistake
to leave Seattle?

No, the only mistake

is talking about work on our honeymoon.

Enjoy your sand castles

'cause they're gonna be
snow castles soon.

That is not a thing.

There are snow angels and snow men.

Snow castles is not a thing.

Well, if it's not a thing, it should be.

You know, I wouldn't mind
our kids growing up in Boston.

I think kids should grow up
where it snows.

You got sledding.

You got snowball fights, you know?

If we have two kids, then we
each get one on our own team.

If it's not a thing, it should be.

I mean, three's okay, too.
The more the merrier, right?

You know, I-I just...

I'm sorry.

All right, then.

It's a major obstruction,

and it's dangerous... we know that.

You're gonna need surgery
for us to remove that,

whatever it is.

Great. Do it. I consent.

Okay, with that said,

if you had any idea what it could be,

you should tell us.

It's a growth.

Must have grown there.

It's a growth.

So, cut me open and take out the growth.

Roy, let's prep him for E.U.A.
and possible ex lap.

Dr. Warner, dial the operator.

Dr. Warner, dial the operator.

Hey, what you got?

I have some free time,
want to have some fun.

I got an unknown foreign body
in the rectum.

How unknown and how big?

Very unknown...

and very big.

That sounds like fun.

I can give it to you

if you make me interim chief.

Int... What?

Did Teddy post a flier?

She didn't have to.

I know everything.

Which is why I was able
to teach you everything.

You know, and I could use
a change of pace.

You know, something
I could sink my teeth into.

And I need the office, of course.

- Where are you going?
- It's not fun anymore.

Wait... Wait... Wait a minute.

Hold on.

You want to slow down there, cowboy?

Bailey's an idiot if she doesn't
pick me to be interim chief.

I am brilliant. I am capable.

I'm hot.

I am first-choice material.

For interim chief...?

Yes, for interim chief.

Hmm. Who was the, uh,
blonde this morning?

She is the woman
that my ex-husband kissed

before he was my ex-husband,

and I think he is still hung up on her,

and Bailey offered her
interim chief, which is...

- Pathetic.
- Agreed.

She has plenty
of perfectly viable candidates

- for that job right here...
- No, no, this display is pathetic.

This alternate reality

where you were some kind of
a victim in your marriage.

You're a lot of things, Amelia Shepherd,

but a victim is not one of the them.

An ass, yes.

Excuse me?

You were a giant ass to your husband.

You treated him terribly.

When I came to cut into your brain,

I didn't realize you were even married.

- That's how little you seemed to care.
- I had a tumor.

You and I had sex
the day after you separated.

It was dirty, filthy, hot sex.

I was excellent.

But it was not tumor sex.
The tumor was gone.

It was gratitude sex.

It was "thanks so much
for not killing me" sex.

It was "thank God I'm not married
to that ginger anymore" sex,

and you know it.

Oh.

So, you have had two
transplants, Ms. Colvin?

You can call me Cece, please.

And, yes, I have had two

and am probably due for my third.

Your EKG looks perfectly normal,

but something did cause you
to pass out at the wheel,

so I would like to run
more tests, if that's okay.

Dr. Parker, get a prograf and a CMP

- and keep Dr. Pierce updated.
- Yes, ma'am.

Uh, Dr. Parker?

I know it's a military thing,
but, you know,

when you call me ma'am,

it really does make me feel like
I'm a hundred years old.

Yes, ma'am. Uh, sorry, ma'am.
Sorry, Doctor.

Just go.

Dr. Grey?

- Ah.
- Hi.

Uh, I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

I never should have kissed you like that.

I mean, you're incredible.

- It's fine.
- I-It's not fine.

I respect so much as a surgeon,
and I just... I would nev...

I would never do that to you
under normal circumstances.

But you were just very, very
kind to me, and I was drunk,

and the dress was, I mean...

Anyway, it never should've happened,

and it never will happen again.

I'm gonna go now.

Well, that's a shame.

You like him?

I'm his teacher.

You don't want to kiss him again?

- He's my student.
- Well, all right.

But you want somebody to kiss you.

I can tell.

It's my superpower.

You can talk to me... I'm safe.

I'm like the opposite of a priest.

People confess things to me,
but I don't make them feel bad.

Well, I don't need anyone...

It's not about need, honey.

It's about desire.

And you are not a hundred years old.

You are beautiful and vibrant.

Oh, excuse me.

Dr. Bailey, do you have a moment?

Mm. What do you have, Grey?

I have a desire...

to be interim chief.

Oh, for the love of...
Specifically right now.

I need it. I really... I need it.

I'm having dreams.

Inappropriate.

To a degree that I'm having
difficulty putting into words.

I could use the extra work.

You do have a clot,
but your D-dimer's negative.

I want to admit you
and monitor you for a few days.

- Dr. Pierce?
- Yes.

This is so not me.

I don't cry.

The hormones are in control now.

And I don't get pregnant by accident.

I'm careful!

But a man I loved came to Germany,

and it was so hard to resist,

and I wasn't careful.

Oh, my God. Owen went to Germany.

Who's Owen?

What exactly is your
relationship to Owen?

He's kind of living with my sister.

Your sister?

Amelia Shepherd.

I'm sorry I talked about kids
on our honeymoon.

It was stupid. It was just...

you were talking about
the future and snow stuff,

and it just popped into my head.

Like, I could see our kids
playing in the snow, having fun,

which is...

You know, kids, snow. It makes sense.

Alex, shut up, please.

I-I have an idea, a big idea,
and I love you,

and I will love all of our children,

or at least one child eventually.

But for now, just...

Shh!

I had an idea.

What idea?

On the house.

The desire for a prostate
massage is absolutely normal,

and if you have a simple
conversation with your wife

- and explain to her your desire...
- Please stop.

All she needs is a manicure
and a little bit of...

Ugh, can you please make her stop?

Not until you tell me
what you put in there.

My wife's...

Ow!

...hair stuff.

Shampoo! Yes!

- Thank you, Dr. DeLuca.
- Any time.

I think I'm in love with your sister.

So, wait.

If Meredith is your half-sister...

Who you just met...

...and Amelia is
Meredith's sister-in-law...

...from her dead husband...

...then you aren't
actually really sisters.

Yeah, I know, but it's...

it's more like metaphorical sisters.

Like, we're all sisters.

There's a sister house. It's a thing.

But you aren't really sisters.

Does that matter?

Well, yeah, kind of.

I mean, blood, water.

Oh, I don't believe in that stuff.

But you do believe in HIPAA.

I'm not going to tell her.

I heard nothing, Major Altman.

Thank you, Lieutenant. Dismissed.

Okay.

You're leaving against medical advice.

I've got my compression socks,

and I will elevate my leg somewhere else.

You can't travel.
You certainly can't fly.

I'm clear on that.

Dr. Altman? Teddy?

Can I call you Teddy

now that I'm carrying
your life-altering secret?

No.

Dr. Pierce...

Thank you for the consult.

She is right, honey...
that's not your sister.

So, my broken-down heart
is costing me my kidneys now?

It's not your heart.

It's the anti-rejection meds
you take for your heart.

They had a toxic effect on your kidneys.

So I need a kidney transplant.

We've already called UNOS,
but until they can find you one,

you're gonna need peritoneal dialysis

every night for 12 hours.

I'll do a small surgery
and insert a catheter

to make that possible, okay?

Can you put me in a recovery
room beside Nisha,

the girl I hurt?

I-I want to be with her
till her parents arrive.

Well, I can certainly check.

Then I consent to the surgery.

Now let's talk about you.

You've been single for how long now?

Cece.

I am happy just as I am.

Well, of course you are.

How could you not be...

a beautiful, accomplished doctor
like yourself?

But is there a cap on happiness?

And who couldn't use a little more?

And who couldn't enjoy
sharing it a little?

I could help you
if you'd let me, Dr. Grey.

I'm the UNOS of love.

So, you just moved to Seattle?

- No, I've been here a while.
- Oh.

He was the team doc for the Mariners.

- Do you get tickets, or...?
- Lot of tickets.

- Owen Hunt. Head of trauma.
- I'm Jackson Avery.

- Love the Mariners.
- I don't know if we were

properly introduced ever.

Hey, afternoon, gentlemen.
I heard you have a trauma.

Need an extra set of hands?

Sure. Scrub in.

And how's your first day
going, Dr. Lincoln?

Going great.

Be going even better
if you called me Link.

Oh. Okay, I'll try.

Mm.

You know, you may have forgotten
that I was once chief.

Everybody seems to just,
you know, forget that.

I wouldn't touch that job
with a 10-foot pole.

That job comes with stress.

Bones break under stress.

So do souls.

Simple... that's the key to life.

Wha...

Since we couldn't
get it out with the E.U.A.,

we need to open the sigmoid
to access it from above.

All right, we are going to
make an opening

in the sigmoid colon.

Okay, scalpel.

Okay, right there. Yeah.

All right, let's pull it back
just a little bit. Yeah.

- Mm-hmm.
- That's good.

Okay. I have this.

Hold on.

Something feels hard.

There's a small bleeder here.

Stop. Wait, okay? I got it.

Let me get a clamp.

Roy, back away!

- Aaah!
- Watch out!

Get down! Look out!

Get more lap pads! He's crashing!

I need some water over here!

Let's get some laps here.

What the hell happened?

It was aerosol hair spray...
not shampoo...

and it exploded. Is he all right?

Yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm okay.

Thanks, man. You saved my life.

More laps. Hurry.

Got this bleeding under control.

Get me two units of blood.

I need two vascular clamps.

More laps here. Okay.

I need to divert with a colostomy.

Okay, more suction in here.

Talk to me, Roy.

He... He exploded.

Not until after I told you
to back away and you didn't.

Get him out of here.

DeLuca, you were very brave,

but I need you to scrub back in and
help me try and stop this bleeding.

Yes, sir.

More suction.

Let's try some, Bokie.

Son a bitch.

Okay, well, that's just great.

That's great. All right, all right.

All right, let's... let's talk about it.

You were awful to him...
we've established that.

So, if you really want him back now,

you're actually gonna
have to fight for him.

Knock the other player out of the game.

Your advice is that I should
fight another woman for a man?

What thing that's worth having

has anyone ever gotten without a fight?

You didn't become a neurosurgeon
without fighting for it.

You didn't come back from a brain tumor

without fighting for it...
you fought like hell.

And if some woman had been standing

between you and your ability
to get out of bed,

you would've fought her, Shepherd.

There might have been Jell-O.

Or mud.

Maybe costumes.

I am not gonna take personal
life advice from you, Tom,

because, in that area,
I have no respect for you.

Very smart. I have my flaws.

But I only have one regret in this life,

and that is that I watched my wife

walk out the door of our marriage

and into the bed of a man who wasn't me

without fighting for her.

It's not anti-feminist
to fight for what you want.

It's anti-Amelia not to.

Will you clean up this melted brain?

It's grossing me out.

Check it out, Nico.

Got to go through
the interior of the femur.

Cool. Can I do it?

Nah, I'm having too much fun.

- You're on tunes. Any requests?
- Your call.

There we go. Now I can focus.

A little loud, isn't it?
I can't hear myself think.

That's the point.

Surgery's in the hands.

Do it enough times, it's muscle memory.

Start getting in your head...

that's when bad decisions get made.

- Hey, turn it down.
- ♪ We got all eyes

All this girl wanted was love.

She gets hit by a van
driven by a matchmaker.

I mean, come on... it's got to
mean something, yeah?

If this girl had to get
wrapped around a bike

to find her soul mate, I give up.

Yeah, no, just,
sometimes something happens

so something else can happen.

No, I don't...
I don't know how to explain it.

God works in mysterious ways?

Everything happens for a reason?

When one door closes, another one opens?

Okay, never mind.

I... must have hit my head or something.

- Sorry. Sorry.
- ♪ We got all eyes

I feel like I'm drowning in
testosterone. Is that a thing?

Okay, Cece, this is
going to be quick and easy.

You should be out
for less than 20 minutes.

Any questions?

Just give me broad strokes of
what you're looking for in a man

so I can think about it while I sleep.

I'm not really looking.

I'm not against it.

I'm open to the idea
of something coming along,

but I'm not out there looking for it.

Okay, I respect that.

And I'd like to be taken off
the UNOS kidney list.

What?

I don't feel like we need to get out here

and look for a kidney, do we?

Let's just wait

and hope one comes squishing
through the door on its own.

Would you put her under, please?

- All right, let's bring in the paddles.
- Okay.

- Hurry.
- Come on.

- Charge to 200.
- Come on.

Paddles.

Clear.

Charge again, 360.

Come on, Barry. Fight for it.

Clear.

Come on, come on, come on.

I'm calling it.

- No! Let me try again.
- DeLuca.

Just one more time,
Dr. Webber, please, okay?

I'm kind of on a roll today.

Charge to 360.

The man is dead.
He's lost too much blood.

Time of death... 17:03.

DeLuca, I need your help
explaining this to his wife.

Of course.

♪ Notes on your car ♪

How's it going?

- ♪ Notes in the air ♪
- Good. You?

Good. Took a walk on the beach.

- ♪ Forget where we parked ♪
- I got a massage on the boardwalk.

I even took a ride on that, uh,
roller coaster. It was great.

- ♪ Forget not to stare ♪
- I want to design cancer-killer cells

by introducing suicide genes
in the cancer cell DNA.

- ♪ Out of the fall ♪
- Like guided missile immune therapy.

And I swear to God, I think I can do it.

I know... I know that
I am ruining our honeymoon.

Do you hate me?

Jo, you married me.

In the whole history of my life,

nothing has surprised me more
than getting you to marry me.

So, no, I don't hate you.

I just want you to eat something
so you don't die.

However many kids we have,
they're gonna be really smart.

♪ Everything in life ♪

- ♪ Is like a dance with strangers ♪
- Look at this.

♪ Right from the start,
your heart is waitin' ♪

♪ You'll never find love
without a little danger ♪

♪ We stumble around
to the music playin' ♪

♪ How do you know it's true? ♪

It could have been me in that bed.

Me and Maggie.

- ♪ The harder we fall ♪
- Hey. How are they?

Oh, they're both fine for now.

- ♪ Harder we bruise ♪
- Great. Great.

DeLuca, man, thanks.

- ♪ I never belonged ♪
- You know, again.

♪ To one like you
- Yeah. It was a crazy day.

Crazy couple days.

You're feeling better, Dr. DeLuca?

I am, Dr. Grey. Thank you.

♪ Everything in life ♪

♪ Is like a dance with strangers ♪

♪ Right from the start ♪

- ♪ Your heart is waitin' ♪
- If you ever cheat on my sister,

I'll kill you.

- ♪ You'll never find love ♪
- I don't care who it's with.

♪ Without a little danger ♪

O-Okay.

Sorry.

- Oh! I'm sorry. You all right there?
- Yeah, I'm fine.

- ♪ How do you know it's true? ♪
- I don't think we've met. I'm, uh...

No.

♪ How do you know it's true?

Hey.

How well do you know HIPAA?

Like, specifically, like, if...

if one were to accidentally,

in conversation with a family member,

let slip a detail of...
of a patient's life

that was actually not related
to their medical condition?

What do you think that would result
in... a loss of license, or...

Or maybe just a fine?

We almost got hit
by a freaking car this morning.

I know.

Then I got hit by another kind of car.

Hey, are... Hey, are you okay?

You don't seem entirely okay.

You know this morning, you said that

faith is like just trusting

that there's some giant hand
out there that'll catch you,

and then literally a hand pulled
us out of the path of death?

- ♪ Stood at the cold face ♪
- It was DeLuca's hand.

I prayed, and April woke up.

Or April woke up because
I'm a really excellent doctor.

Look, I'm not trying to be dismissive.

- ♪ I can remember ♪
- And I'm not trying

to claim any credit...

What's funny?

- What's funny?
- Mm.

You sound like me.

You sound like me. I don't sound like me.

- ♪ We've become echoes ♪
- It's embarrassing.

- Jackson...
- I'm embarrassed.

It's okay to change.

Yeah, I mean, actually, you should.

You're alive.

- ♪ We've fallen to the dark ♪
- It's okay to evolve.

♪ As we dive under the
waves It's okay to...

search for a deeper meaning.

♪ I heard you say ♪

- ♪ The devil's on your shoulder ♪
- I believe in something.

- ♪ The strangers in your head ♪
- No idea what,

but it's pulsing through me.

- ♪ As if you don't remember ♪
- You know, I...

I want to take that leap.

- ♪ As if you can forget ♪
- I do... I want to trust my gut

and... and... and feel like
something's gonna catch me...

- ♪ It's only been a moment ♪
- ...if I screw it up.

- ♪ It's only been a lifetime ♪
- I want to do what

April and Matthew did, you know?

I want to... I want to trust it.

April and Matthew got married.

- ♪ Some silhouette ♪
- Yeah. And I'm saying

I want to trust it.

We're...

We're, um...

We're out of milk.

We'd like to imagine
that we're in control.

♪ Let's go out in flames ♪

But more often than not...

- ♪ So no one knows who we are ♪
- ...the chemicals in our brains

control us.

Leo's asleep, and Betty's...

- ♪ We've become echoes ♪
- I have feelings.

- ♪ But echoes are fading away ♪
- I know. I know, and I am so sorry.

No, Owen, uh, don't apologize.

I'm saying...

- I have feelings... for you.

- ♪ Burning out a glory day ♪
- I have feelings for you.

Like, um, pulse-racing,
chest-pounding feelings,

and I know that there is a lot of water

under this particular bridge.

And I would understand if you told me no,

if you said, "Amelia,
I can't go there again."

I would understand.

And, um, if you are in love with Teddy

and she's in love with you...

...I'm not gonna fight her.

But if I never told you th...

But if I never told you
that I have feelings

and you just went chasing after Teddy

because I wasn't clear...

♪ Just hold me ♪

...I wouldn't be able
to forgive myself for that.

♪ Just hold me ♪

- ♪ Just hold me ♪
- Teddy accused me

of not being able to be alone.

Today?

- ♪ Just hold me ♪
- No, no. When I was in Germany.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

I don't want her to be right.

♪ Devil's on your shoulder ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ Strangers in your head ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ If you don't remember ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ If you can forget ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ But tonight, you're a stranger ♪

- ♪ Some silhouette ♪
- The insula lights up,

and we are compelled to change our lives.

Compelled by longing.

Compelled by yearning.

♪ Ah-ah ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ Ah-ah-ah ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ Ah-ah ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

- ♪ Just hold me ♪
- ♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ Silhouette ♪

Compelled by desire for more.

- ♪ Just hold me ♪
- ♪ Silhouette ♪

♪ Ah-ah, silhouette ♪

♪ Ah-ah ♪