Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 12, Episode 19 - It's Alright, Ma (I'm Only Bleeding) - full transcript

Bailey assembles a review board to make a recommendation about Ben's actions while dealing with the same repercussions; Arizona tries to sympathize with Callie and makes a decision that will alter their future; April and Jackson try to put their problems aside and reconcile.

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Meredith:
Surgeons have a saying...
"All bleeding must stop."

[ Sighs ]
It's sort of our version of
"This, too, shall pass."

Every crisis will
eventually come to an end.

You'll either save
your patient, or you won't.

Are they gonna ask me about...

Bailey: Ben.
[ Elevator bell dinging ]

Right.
You can't tell me.

How's Omar doing?

I can't...

Can't tell me that, either.

[ Sighs ]
- Just doing my job.



Thank you... Chief.

[ Elevator bell dings ]

Ah. It's a good thing
I'm not trying to save lives

so I can see that
the elevator doors are open.

So...
[ Elevator bell dings ]

one way or the other,
the bleeding will stop.

[ Exhales sharply ]

Actually, as far as sayings go,

this one's really not
all that comforting.

[ Heart monitor beeping ]
Stephanie:
Omar Singh, post-op day one,

following abdominal
and chest surgery

to repair injuries
sustained during a car accident.

DeLuca?
Shortly after surgery,
Omar went into cardiac arrest.

Dr. Shepherd placed him on
therapeutic hypothermia



as part of
a new resuscitation protocol.

Tell me why.
We hoped that cooling
the patient...

He's regaining consciousness.
would increase the chance
that he'd wake up...

And he's breathing
spontaneously,

so they'll extubate soon.

Thank God.

Uh, Grey, you should go.

They're waiting for you.
- Okay.

Oh, I put together
an advisory panel...

Grey, Hunt, Pierce.

They're going to review
the Warren situation.

- Bailey, we talked about this.
- [ Breathes deeply ]

As the leader
of this surgical staff,

you need to take charge of it.

As the leader
of this surgical staff,

I need to know my limitations.

And I know I cannot be impartial
about my husband

and the future of his career.

As a leader, I am taking charge
of my lack of impartiality

by convening an advisory panel
to review the matter.

Once they give me
their recommendation

for how to proceed,

as a leader,

I will make a final decision
on what happens with my husband.

As a human being, I'll
stand here and thank the Lord

that my husband
isn't responsible

for leaving three children
without any parents at all.

[ Breathes deeply ]

¶¶

Warren, have a seat.
[ Door closes ]

When Miranda told me that
there was an advisory committee,

I pictured a bunch of lawyers
and hospital suits.

Okay. I'm, uh...
I'm glad it's you guys.

[ Telephone rings ]

Let's do it.

Maggie:
Dr. Warren, be apprised that
the purpose of this committee

is to understand the incident

and to make recommendations
for disciplinary action,

should it be called for.

A lack of full cooperation with

or withholding of information
from this committee

will result
in your immediate dismissal

from the residency program.

Okay.

You accept these conditions?

Yes.

Okay. Let's begin then.

Wait. So, she's still
accusing me of harassment?

I mean, I tried to
meet her halfway here.

I tried to take the high road.
This...

Apparently, the high road is
paved with restraining orders.

I'm sorry.
I'll be quiet.

The restraining order
actually works for us.

When we take her to court
to have it lifted,

she won't be able to prove
any of these allegations,

and her character
will be called into question,

which is exactly
where we want to be.

- Because?
- Because once that baby is born,

you will have a very good shot
at obtaining full custody.

Full custody?
[ Scoffs ]

No. He would never.

He would.

Look, I know that
I'm just here for support,

but why would Jackson do that?

Because it's exactly what
I would advise her to do.

Whether you meant it or not,
April,

this restraining order
started an arms race.

The restraining order
was a mistake.

Can't we just take it back?

I'm serious here.
Do not try to talk to him.

The restraining order
needs to stand.

We have to do this together,
okay?

[ Scoffs ]

This is exactly
what I was trying to avoid.

After everything that happened
with Samuel, I just...

I just want to
keep this baby safe.

Good. See? You... You felt
your baby was in danger.

That's great.
That we can use.

[ Sighs ]

[ Indistinct speaking
over P.A. ]

Wow.

Fractured pelvis?

Stepped on by a horse.

So, tomorrow's the day.

Preminger Grant...
Yes or no, stay or go.

Oh, you haven't
given them an answer yet?

You thought I would have
given them an answer

and not talked to you about it?

No.

No. I'm just saying,

the Preminger Grant's a
once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

If I say yes,

I will be moving to New York
for at least a year.

Right.

And you're fine with that?

Are you fine with that?

Well, like you said, it's...

once in a lifetime.

Yep. Well, I got to get
this pelvis into the O.R.

[ Clears throat ]

[ Sighs ]

[ Telephone ringing,
indistinct conversations ]

Reggie Dalton?

I'm Dr. Jo Wilson.

Your chart says
that you have a hernia.

Yeah. It's the worst.

Okay, well, let's take a look.
Just lay back.

I'm gonna lift up your shirt.

Okay, so, how long
has this been going on for?

Uh, I had surgery like,
uh, six months ago,

and after a while,
this little guy

just started
popping out of there.

Six months ago?

Yeah. I had it looked at
once before,

and they said
they could operate,

but that it wasn't urgent,

so I put it off and...

Oh, God.

Oh, no. Oh, no.

Reggie, are you okay?

Yes.

Uh, this is the thing...

It's allergy season,
and every time I sneeze...

The little guy pops out.

Yeah. I think maybe I waited
a little too long to get surgery

because...

Oh! Oh, no!
Okay, Reggie,
don't fight it.

It's only gonna make it worse.

[ Sneezes ]

Worse than this?
[ Stomach rumbling ]

[ Remote clicks ]

Is my baby gonna die?

No.

[ Monitor beeping ]

Maggie: It's open
before you even touch her.

I know that's what
it looks like.

That's what it is, Warren,
right there.

You said you didn't
see the doors open.

Yes.
I mean, no.

Well, which is it...
Did you, or didn't you?

I didn't see them open.

It is right there
in front of you.

I know, but I didn't see it.

It didn't register.

Okay. Help me here.
[ Remote thumps lightly ]

Was it... [ Sighs ]

Had you already decided to cut?
- No.

Or did you decide
getting in the elevator

and up to the O.R.
was just gonna take too long?

No.

Ben, lying right now is going to
make this end very quickly.

I didn't see them open.

[ Remote clicks ]

¶¶

I spoke with your grandma,

and she'll be here
in a couple of hours.

Your dad still has
a long recovery ahead of him,

but the fact that he's waking up
is a really good sign.

You said I could see him
when he wakes up.

I did.

And you will.

- When?
- How about now?

Yeah? Come on.

Now, before we go in,

your dad's connected
to some tubes,

but that's normal...
Coming through!

So don't be scared when you...

Wait, Jasmine!

- Daddy?
- DeLuca, get the suction...

- Okay, got it.
- Daddy?

- Push more lorazepam.
- What's wrong with him?!

Amelia: We're gonna need to
put him back on the ventilator.

Prep for RSI.

Jasmine, they need to help him.

You said he was awake.

You said he was okay!

I know.
I know, honey.

Come on.

They were done with me
for the day.

Okay.

They needed to talk to the other
doctors involved.

I see.
I wanted to check on
my post-ops,

but they told me
I couldn't go back to work

until all this was...
- Yeah, it's best that you

not have contact
with any patients.

Okay, then, um...
[ Sniffles ]

Well, I-I guess I'll just
pick up Tuck early from school.

You know, he's been begging me
to go to this new arcade.

Did he clean his room?

I-I don't know.

Well, he can't go to the arcade
unless he's cleaned his room.

You know that, Ben.
- I'm a grown-ass man,

and I was there
when we made the rule.

I don't need you to tell me...

Well, apparently you do
because you're...

Okay, stop. Stop.
Just stop.

¶¶

Miranda...

look at me.

Miranda, I...

You were mean.

This morning, you were mean.

I'm sorry, okay?

But th-this is just... this is
running me over like a truck.

I feel...
- I know.

Me too.

Okay, so, we... we need to
separate this out, um...

the chief and Dr. Warren
over here

and Ben and Miranda over here.

Church and state, okay?

Church and state.

[ Knock on door ]

Dr. Bailey,
Omar Singh's mother is here.

Tell her I'll be right there.

Ben...
- I'll see you at home.

Is home church or state?

Church, I think.

Post-surgical hernias are not
actually all that uncommon,

but given its size, we're gonna
need to do a special procedure

to close the gap
without tension on the...

What are you...
What are you doing?

Uh, I've gotten in the habit

of just sort of shoving it all
back in there.

Is that not okay?

Um...

Hey.

Um, Wilson,
we will be right back.

Come on.

[ Sighs ]
What are you doing?

Wilson called for
a plastics consult for your CSR,

which I obviously can't do
with you standing here,

unless you want to
violate the terms

of your own restraining order.

I'm not...
I'm not violating anything

because you're gonna go, okay?

Just send someone else, please.
- Why don't we ask the patient?

He'd want a consult from

the best plastic surgeon
in this hospital.

You know that this
is just as much

a general-surgery case
as it is a plastics.

Right, and there are plenty
of general surgeons

and only one of me.

I was here first.

Reggie:
Oh! Oh, no! [ Sneezes ]

Jo: Holy crap!
[ Reggie's stomach rumbles ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Door slams ]

You ignored the moment
completely.

What moment?

The moment where I say,
"Go to New York,"

and then you ask me to
come to New York with you...

The moment.

What? Wait.

You didn't even want me
to meet your kid.

No... You met my kid.

My kid loves you.
It's fine.

Callie, you live here
in Seattle.

You... You have family.

You have a job.

You can't just drop everything
and move to New York.

I know, but still.

Still what?

I-It would have been nice
to have been asked.

[ Sighs ]

[ Chuckles ]

What?

You are the...

most adorable woman
I've ever seen right now.

Really?

And of course I want you to
come to New York with me,

but it's impossible.

There is always...
long distance.

Well, that's true.

Weekend trips.

[ Sighs ]

Dirty phone calls.

- Mmm.
- Mm.

Exactly how dirty?

[ Laughs ]

Mmm.

Ahh.
- Uh-huh.

Oh, my God.

Oh, God!

Um, uh, I need a suture kit.

No. You know, I actually...
I don't need it. Bye.

[ Door closes ]

[ Laughs ]

Guys, we can't
go back in time here.

I mean, there's no way to know
how it would have turned out.

I mean, I sure wouldn't have
opened her up in a hallway

if I didn't have to,

but Warren's saying that
he didn't have a choice.

Except for those doors...
I mean...

Yeah.
The doors were open.

How do you not see those doors?

And as for the baby?

He was acidotic,
not oxygenating.

We had to put him on ECMO.
- Which was unsuccessful.

That kind of perfusion can be
too much for smaller babies.

Riggs suggested ECMO.
We all agreed.

Wait.
So, Riggs suggested it?

Yeah.

And you agreed with that?

Well, I was worried,
but we were out of options.

So, the ECMO
that Riggs suggested...

It exacerbated the problem?

Like I said,
we were out of options.

Okay.

Well, I think that's all we need
from you guys.

Thank you.
- Yeah. Sure thing.

- Thanks.
- Good luck.

[ Door opens, closes ]
[ Mug thuds ]

Listen, we should meet again
tomorrow.

With whom?

We've heard from everyone.

We haven't met with Riggs.

- Oh, my God.
- What?

Nothing.
[ Cellphone chiming ]

What do you think
will happen to Warren?

Ohh. [ Sighs ]
I don't know.

You're already leaving.

If he goes, too, they're gonna
work us to death.

Mm. We're gonna get
all the surgeries.

I mean, I feel bad,
but we gonna run this place.

[ Cellphone chiming ]
Holy... [ Chuckles ]

What is going on
with your phone?
What are... Hey, stop!

Stop! No, no, no!
- What?

- Please give it back.
- Who's Kyle?

And why does he want to do
things with his tongue...

- Shh, shh.
- Answer the question.

Okay, come here.

Please.
Shut up.

Okay, do you know
Shepherd's M.S. patient?

[ Chuckling ] Oh...
"Guitar Hero"?

You are doing tongue things
with Guitar Hero?

No. Not yet.

I told him maybe we would go out
when he got back from touring,

and so we've been texting,
and now he's melting my phone.

That's kind of hot
and really dirty.
[ Cellphone chiming ]

Yeah. I call my mother
with this thing.

- [ Chuckles ]
- Oh, God. Wow.

Like this.

How am I supposed to
respond to this?

Oh, like this.

Oh, my God!

Mm.

Thank you.

Mm.
[ Cellphone chiming ]

Do you think
you can teach me that?

Yeah.

Your suture kit.
I'm so sorry.

[ Laughing ]
It's fine.

Um, I should have knocked,
I guess.

She's leaving.
Huh?

New York.

The Preminger Grant.

[ Sighs ]

I'm so sorry.
But, uh, you know, I don't know.

I mean, that doesn't mean
that it has to be over.

Long-distance relationships
aren't impossible.

Yeah, I don't know if we can
survive long distance.

I'm so afraid that
it'll all fall apart.

Then don't let it.

I mean, decide you want it to
work and make it happen.

It's New York.

It's a six-hour flight.

It's weekends and phone calls.

You can figure it out.
You will. You... You should.

- Thanks.
- Mm.

Hey, Callie.
- Yeah?

[ Clears throat ]
Maybe next time, like,

an on-call room, something with,
like, a lock on the door.

[ Elevator bell dings ]
[ Both laugh ]

You stole my patient?

He's my patient, all right?

And you should probably
step back about...

I don't know... 100 feet.

[ Stammers ]
All right, now.

This man needs
a plastic surgeon.

And a general surgeon.

Which is why Dr. Webber

is going to be scrubbing in
with me, all right?

I'm the head of plastics.
I have seniority here.

So I'm not gonna step down

just because you decided to
file a restraining order.

This... Th-This is not...

Okay, you know... Okay.

- [ Sighs ]
- Now, that's enough.

Now, this patient isn't gonna
get less than our best

because the two of you are not
allowed to be in the same room.

I'm scrubbing in with Avery.

End of discussion.

[ Exhales sharply ]

I'm free
tomorrow after 4:00.

¶¶

[ Heart monitor beeping ]

So, he may never wake up again?

He did wake up,

but then he suffered
a prolonged seizure.

He may have been
oxygen-deprived.

We're still trying to
figure out why.

But you should know,

reviewing
his most current scans,

there's not much activity.

They suggest he may have
suffered severe damage.

So, even if he did wake up now,
we're not sure what's left.

Bailey: Your son didn't have
a directive.

These forms will determine

whether you want us to
try and resuscitate Omar

if his heart fails.

[ Breathes deeply ]

[ Voice breaking ]
I don't know what to do.

It's a very difficult decision.

[ Crying ]
No, he's my baby.

I can still remember
how it felt to hold him.

I can't just...

I don't know what to do.

What do I do?

You should sign the papers.

Daddy wouldn't want to
live in a bed

connected to machines

with his eyes closed
all the time.

He would hate it.

And he would...

He would want to be with Mommy.

¶¶

[ Sniffles ]

I need a pen.

[ Sniffles ]

¶¶

We love you, Daddy.

[ Siren wailing ]

- Any change?
- No.

How'd the Warren thing go?

- It's still going.
- It shouldn't be.

This is just Owen
being pissed at Riggs.

I mean, I get that there's
bad blood there, but...

Well, it's really bad blood.

Owen only ever told me
headlines,

and I had to drag it out of him.

It was impossible
to get him to talk.

It's probably because
you were talking.

Uncool.

- Be nice.
- [ Chuckles ]

Yeah, and you know
Riggs cheated on Owen's sister.

- What?
- What?

That's why she got on the
helicopter and disappeared...

Because she was leaving him.

Still, it's old business.

And he lied about it
right to my face.

He made up some sad story about

how he tried to stop her
from getting on the helicopter,

but she had to save a patient
and he had no choice.

He made himself look
pretty good.

Wow. That's...

Psychotic. I agree.

So, Owen does not trust him,
and I'm not inclined to, either.

[ Heart monitor beeping
rapidly ]

Heart rate's dropping.

I'll get a crash cart.

No, no, wait.
He's DNR.

[ Ventilator hissing,
heart monitor beeping ]

[ Aquilo's "Waiting" plays ]

I hate this part.

¶¶

¶ I'll leave it alone ¶ Mer?

Bailey will want to know.

¶ Back off if you want ¶

¶ I know that it's wrong ¶
[ Whispering indistinctly ]

¶ But you know
where you belong ¶

- You didn't wake me.
- Where are my keys?

- Why didn't you wake me?
- Have you seen my keys?

They... I got called in.
¶ It's easy to see ¶

Yeah, which is why I want to
know why you didn't wake me.

I had them in my hand when
I walked in the door.
¶ But you don't buy
what you eat ¶

I wake you. You wake me.
That's... That's the rule.

Y-You get paged
in the middle of the night,

you wake the other person.
¶ This light that you need ¶

You wake me so I-I know
to listen for Tuck...
¶ Is here fading with me ¶

so I know not to rush out of
here for the hospital

in the morning thinking
you did the morning thing

and just had
an early surgery...
¶ I'm waiting for you, darling ¶

so I don't leave our child in
the house asleep in his bed

when I should be waking him,
making him breakfast...

¶ I'm waiting for the one ¶
and taking him to school

because that's my job,

because that's the rule
because that's what happens...

¶ I'm waiting for you, darling ¶

because wh-when you get
paged, you wake me.
Ohh!

W-Would you stop looking
for the damn keys

and tell me why you didn't
wake me, Miranda?

¶ Just say it and nothing
will stand in my way ¶
Omar is dying,

and while you stand there
and yell at me,

three children
are becoming orphans.

¶ I'll leave you alone ¶
I did not wake you

because I didn't want to
talk to you right now.

¶ Pack my bags and go home ¶

Keys.

¶ There's something
you should know ¶

[ Door opens, closes ]

¶ I won't stop till you know
that I mean it ¶

Penny: That was...
¶ I'm waiting for you, darling ¶

Seriously, you have skills.

[ Chuckling ]
I don't work alone.

- [ Laughs ]
- Teamwork.

[ Both laugh ]
¶ I'm waiting for the one ¶

I don't, though, work alone.
¶ I'm waiting for you, darling ¶

I'm gonna be miserable
without you.

¶ Just say it and nothing
will stand in my way ¶

You never asked me to stay.

¶ I'm waiting for you, darling ¶

I can't.

¶ I'm waiting for the one ¶

Oh.

Penny...

¶ I'm waiting for you, darling ¶

Penny, I want you to stay.

I would... I would give anything
for you to stay.

¶ Just say it and nothing
will stand in your way ¶

But I-I know better
than to ask.

I have been here before.

This is the beginning of
a whole new adventure for you.

¶ Nothing will stand
in your way ¶

I could never ask you
to give that up.

I love you too much.

You...

I love you.

¶ Stand in your way ¶ [ Laughs ]

Hey.

No, no, don't cry.

¶ Waiting for you, darling ¶

I love you.

[ Sighs ]

And you love me.
¶ Waiting for the one ¶

[ Both laugh ]

And now I have to go
all the way across the country

to save lives...
¶ Waiting for you, darling ¶

which sounds really noble,
like in some movie but...

¶ Just say it and nothing
will stand in your way ¶

actually it just really sucks.

¶ Waiting for you, darling ¶

¶ Waiting for the one ¶

[ Sniffles ]

¶ Waiting for you, darling ¶

Penny...

it's the moment again.

¶ Just say it and nothing
will stand in my way ¶

The moment.

¶ Waiting for you, darling ¶

Ask me.

Go ahead.
¶ Waiting for you, darling ¶

Ask me.

¶ Just say it ¶ [ Both chuckle ]

¶ And nothing
will stand in my way ¶

[ Doorbell rings ]

Sofia, get those teeth brushed,
missy!

I want to hit the road
in about 10 minutes!

[ Birds chirping ]

Hi.
Something is wrong
with the baby...

really, horribly wrong.

Wrong? Wrong how?

I was driving to the hospital,

and, um, I got so scared
that I couldn't breathe,

and your place is c-closer,
so I just...

What... Hold on, April.
Slow down.

Just...
Tell me what's going on.

Jackson was right, wasn't he,

that I was wrong
to not ch-check?

[ Hyperventilating ]

Okay, hey...
I can't!

Arizona, I cannot do this again.

I can't.

Ooh, you are being
such a good little helper.

Let's walk a little faster,
though, okay?

Oh, Andrew.
Um, Andrew's gonna show you

where all the best
coloring books are, okay?

- I am?
- Yeah.

Okay.

Come on.

[ Exhales sharply ]
I refused the ultrasound.

I needed this baby
to be healthy so badly,

and now, if I caused this...

Okay, okay. Shh, shh, shh, shh.
It's okay.

If we could have
prevented this...
All right,
let's just take a look.

Let's take a look, okay?
- Okay, okay, okay.

[ Breathing deeply ]

There.

There's the little one.

Oh!

That's... That's it.
Th-Th-That's the feeling.

What is that?
What is that?

That's your baby moving.

Look.

Very strong fetal heartbeat.

[ Chuckles ]

[ Chuckles ]

That's the baby moving?

Samuel never...

I know.
You've never felt this before.

I'm gonna check
the cervical length

just because of the cramping,

but I am confident
that this is just

what a healthy baby feels like.

[ Laughs ]

Catherine: Advisory panel?

The situation seemed
fairly clear.

Well, that doesn't make deciding
disciplinary action any easier.

I suppose.

What if it were you and me?

Would it be so easy
for you to make that decision?

You and I would never
be in this situation.

Well, you never know.

Yes, I do 'cause if you
did something like this,

I'd just strangle you
with my bare hands.
[ Door opens ]

[ Chuckles ]
I wouldn't be the one
to do this.

I'm talking about you.
-Oh, please, please.
[ Door closes ]

[ Both laugh ]

This is all of it, I think.

All of what?

Well, I got joint purchases,

marriage license, post-nup,
divorce decree.

Our attorneys asked Jackson to
put together whatever he could

to help create a timeline,
a paper trail.

Do we have to do this now?

Uh, yeah, I got to get it back
to him by the end of the week.

[ Sighs ]

Well, I'll leave you to it,
then.

Oh, and thanks again, sir,
for, uh... for yesterday.

Appreciate you backing me up.

I didn't back you up.

I backed up a patient
whose doctors couldn't

get it together long enough
to do their damn job.

The baby was
in respiratory failure

despite maximal
ventilatory support.

He fit the criteria,
so ECMO was the only option.

I agree.

All right?

Owen: What was
his oxygenation index?

Around 45
for at least 20 minutes.

Okay.

And you used
aggressive resuscitation?

Yeah, of course.

They tried to clear his
metabolic acidosis with fluids,

but he had a pH of... I mean,
I can pull the chart.

We have the chart.

So, what is this about?

This is about Dr. Warren.

Thank you, Dr. Riggs.
You can go.

Sure.

This was fun.

[ Siren wailing in distance,
door opens, closes ]

So, if Riggs' recommendation
killed the baby,

then we should...
I would have
made the same call.

There was nothing else
left to do.
We don't know that.

Okay, we need to
bring this back to the point

because you have frankly
been wasting my time

on a needless witch hunt.

This is not about Dr. Riggs,
and it is not about you.

The point here
is to answer one question...

Do we think Ben Warren
is telling us the truth?

So let's answer it.

Mira: His blood pressure
keeps dropping,

and his heart rate
is all over the place.

Well, it's been hours.

And he hasn't had
any further seizure activity.

We could give him medication
to control his heart

and fluid to boost his pressure.

No.

Mrs. Singh?

¶¶

[ Smooches ]

He's gone.

My son is gone.

[ Elevator bell dings ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Elevator doors close ]

I-Is Omar...

Is he gone?

You...
You can tell me that.

We're still waiting.

[ Elevator bell dings ]

[ Exhales sharply ]

Church?

¶¶

[ Elevator bell dings ]

[ Elevator doors open ]

State.

¶¶

[ Sighs ] So, did you
find something new or...

Warren, we need you
to tell us why.

Why what?

Why,
when the elevator doors opened,

you chose to ignore it...

I have told you and told you...

and cut open Gretchen McKay
anyway.

That I did not make a choice.

I wasn't given one.

I-I was forced to use the
knowledge and resources I had

to fulfill the oath I took
to save her life...

Because the door didn't open.

No, it did.
It clearly did.

I'm saying
I didn't see it happen.

I just don't understand
how you didn't see it happen.

You do. You know.
Y-You should know.

Y-You're surgeons.

You know what it's like.

You... When you operate,

when you control if a person
breathes another breath,

when... when you hold their
beating heart in your hand,

when you are responsible
for that life,

you don't see or hear or feel
anything else.

The rest of the world
just disappears.

You know that.

You all do.

You can't tell me you don't.

[ Heart monitor
beeping rapidly ]

What's happening?

He's having runs of V-tach.
I think he's going.

His mom just took the kids
down for lunch, too. I...

Should I bring her back up here?

Chief?

Crash cart.

What?

Yeah. I need a crash cart
in here now!

Start CPR.

Oh, Dr. Bailey, I don't think
we're supposed to.

Push an amp of epi.

- What is this?
- Uh, Dr. Shepherd, I... I...

- Bailey, what are we doing?
- Okay.

Good. Charge to 100.

Mnh-mnh. Uh,
isn't he supposed to be DNR?

Yes. His mother agreed.
[ Defibrillators charging ]

Clear!
[ Thumps ]

[ Beeping continues ]

Okay, charge to 150.

Get that epi on board.

Bailey, we told his mother
we would not resuscitate.

[ Beeps,
defibrillators charging ]

Clear!

[ Beeping continues ]

- 200!
- Bailey!

[ Beeping slows ]

¶¶

[ Monitor beeping ]

His heart stopped?

Yes, it did, but only just for
a second, and then...

You decided to resuscitate.

But I signed those papers.

Jasmine and I...
We made a decision.

Yes, I know.

I wanted to give him
one more chance.

So you think there's still hope?

I don't understand.

Just yesterday, we were
discussing brain damage.

Chief, a word.

[ Indistinct speaking
over P.A. ]

Bailey, just explain
what you are thinking.

My patient has a signed DNR.

The patient deserves a chance.

His family deserves

for this hospital
to respect their wishes.

Shepherd...

It is not fair

to make a patient suffer
so that Warren doesn't have to.

You know that.
- Dr. Shepherd, watch yourself.

¶¶

[ Keys clacking ]

You were right, and thank you.

I love being right.
What was I right about?

Penny.
We figured it out.

- Oh, yay!
- Yeah.

- Yeah, no, Sofia was saying...
- I can totally go with her.

- What?
- No. It seemed impossible

until I really, really looked
at it, but it's not impossible.

It's an adventure.

You're kidding.

Are you kidding?
- I know. It's crazy, right?

But I can get a job
anywhere out there,

and probably with
new research money,

and I have colleagues out there
who can help me get a place...

Um, wait. Yeah, no,
but you... you...

Well, you have a daughter.
- Yeah. No. I know.

It's a lot to figure out,
I know,

but you were right...
It can be figured out.

It's a six-hour flight,

and you'll be able to see Sofia
whenever you want.

And we'll figure it out, right?
- [ Exhales sharply ]

Oh, crap. Um, so,
we will talk about it, okay?

But just [sighs] thank you.

¶¶

Every surgeon who worked on
Mrs. McKay and the baby

said the same thing,
including Dr. Warren.

Meredith: That they were
backed into a corner

and they didn't have a choice.

The only difference with Warren

is whether or not
you think he's lying,

whether you believe
he didn't see that door open.

And do you think he was lying?

- No.
- We don't.

Owen: We believe
Warren missed the door.

We believe
he was completely focused

on his responsibility
to the patient.

¶¶

Well, thank you all.

Mm-hmm.

[ Sighs ]

[ Door opens, closes ]

Sounds like they feel he tried.

And yet two people
are still dead.

[ Sighs heavily ]

What are you gonna do?

S-Six months?

No surgery for six months?

Uh, to be clear,
it's a six-month suspension

from the Residency Program.

I'm suspended
from the hospital?!

Yes.

How do you...

D-Do you have any idea
how far behind I'll fall?

I'll never get caught up.

What am I supposed to learn
from this?

Do you feel
even the slightest remorse?

Yes. Yes!

H-How can you ask me that?
Of course I do!

All I do is play it over again
in my mind,

trying to figure out
how I could change it.

Of course I do.

But six months...
It's... it's not discipline.

For a surgeon,
that's a death sentence.

I might as well drop out now.

That's all, Dr. Warren.

I tried to save her
the only way I know how.

You... They know that, right?

You know that.

¶¶

[ Indistinct speaking
over P.A. ]

¶¶

[ Telephone ringing ]

Penny: Sofia!

[ Gasps ]
Hi!

[ Chuckles ]

[ Speaking indistinctly ]

Hi.

You ready?
- You ready?

Let's go.

[ Chuckles ]

[ Door opens ]

Oh, thank you!

[ Sighs ]
[ Door closes ]

[ Siren wailing in distance ]
Woman: Get inside!

Pierce, before you go,

Tacoma wants to send a patient
with failed stenting...

Emergency four-vessel bypass.

I didn't want to authorize it

until I'd checked it with you,
but...

Uh, well, is the patient
stable enough to transfer?

As far I'm concerned, yes.

Okay, yeah.

Go ahead.

What?

Nothing. Nothing.

What did Owen tell you about me?

Meredith... She said, um,

she's my sister,
and she told me...

She told you about Megan.

Why would you lie
about something like that?

You know,
I shouldn't have asked.

This isn't any of my business.

And I-I'm not usually
a person who, uh...

You don't owe me an explanation,
obviously,

but you're a good guy

and a great surgeon,
and I just...

Why?

I didn't lie to Meredith.

It's fine. Forget it.

Look, everything I told her
was true.

There was a patient.

There was a helicopter.

I just left some parts out...

the part where we fought...

where I cheated...

where I failed
the best person I've ever met,

the only woman I've ever loved.

And those parts
are for me and Megan.

You're right.
I don't owe anyone that.

¶¶

I made a mistake...

a big one.

And I've paid for it ever since.

Okay?

Okay.

¶¶

[ Siren wailing ]

I'm glad you're being strong
about this.

I know how hard this is.

I know how bad you feel.

You loved this person once.

There's a child involved.
[ Thunder rumbling ]

But I'm gonna tell you...

The one thing that all
custody cases have in common

is that they are always
a battle.

And no matter what,
even if you win,

you will still feel like
you lost something.

So, are you sure this is
a battle you want to fight?

My ex-wife wants to
move across the country

and take our daughter,
so... yeah.

¶¶

[ Siren wailing in distance ]

Hey.

Stop.

No. No more, okay?

I'm done.
Just stay away from me.

All right, look, I'm not gonna
come any closer, okay?

I just need to talk to you.
I need to say something.

I need you to hear me.

Please?

Fine.

All right, I have been
going over the paperwork,

you know, for the lawyer...

The prenup, post-nup,
whatever.

You know, I just...
I don't need this.

At first glance, it was actually
really frustrating,

you know,
'cause I wasn't finding anything

that was actually gonna
help my case.

It was just so fair.

Um, and I realized that was
because it was written

by two people who really
loved each other...

two people who really
wanted to protect each other,

who really wanted
what was best for each other.

And, April, I, uh...

I don't know
where those people went.

I don't know if we can fix us,
April.

I don't know if we should.

But I know I don't like
who I am turning into.

I don't want to treat you...

[ Sighs, sniffles ]

This person who wrote this,
who signed this...

was your best friend.

You were my best friend,
April...

my favorite person.

And I realized that that's who
I should be dealing with.

We should treat each other
the way we did on this paper.

[ Rihanna's "Close To You"
plays ]

[ Exhales sharply ]

¶¶

You want to feel something
unbelievably awesome?

¶ Nothing but a tear,
that's all for breakfast ¶

Oh. Was that a kick?

Yeah.

¶ Watching you pretend
you're unaffected ¶
He's kicking?

[ Chuckles ]
Or she's kicking.

This baby can kick?

¶ You're pulling
our connections ¶

Our baby can kick.
¶ Expecting me to let you go ¶

[ Chuckles ]
Oh, he did it again.

[ Laughs ]

¶ But I won't ¶

¶ No, you don't need
my protection ¶
Why are you still here?

You have to go back to them.
You have to...

Hunt and this committee.

You have to get them
to reconsider.

There's n...
They have nothing to reconsider.

¶ But I'm in love,
can't blame me for checking ¶

They made a recommendation.
I made a call.

It's very simple, and I'm done
talking about this here...

Church and state.
¶ I love in your direction ¶

There's a reason
that it's separated.

Oh, to hell with state!
¶ Hoping that the message goes ¶

You're really gonna
come back at me with...

With "no special treatment"?
Six months is...

Six months is special treatment!

What?
¶ Somewhere close to you ¶

If you had been anyone else, you
wouldn't have been suspended.

You would have been fired.

¶ Close to you ¶
They told you to fire me?

No. I wanted to fire you.

I was talked down.

¶ Like so close if they hurt
you, you wouldn't find out ¶

Do you have an idea
what you are doing?

Do you have any idea
what you've done?

I made a mistake, Miranda.
People make mistakes.

¶ Just say now,
I'm coming right now ¶
Surgeons make mistakes.

I don't, not like that.
¶ To be close to you ¶

You made an astonishing error
in judgment...

¶ Said you let it go,
you kept it ¶

that I'm trying to accept
and forgive.

¶ Working hard to perfect it ¶

And it's gonna take me
a lot longer than six months.

¶ Now your fear is reckless,
and it's out of your control ¶

All bleeding must stop.

Well,
I am sorry I disappoint you.

¶ Would you let it go? ¶

Sometimes it does so at a cost.

So am I.
¶ No, you don't need
my protection ¶

You lose the arm,
remove the organ.

¶ But I'm in love,
can't blame me for checking ¶

You choose to live
with the loss...

[ Knock on door ]
Chief?

¶ I love in your direction,
hoping that the message goes ¶

because at the end of the day,

you'll do whatever you can
to stay alive.

¶ Somewhere close to you ¶

In the last hour,
he started moving,

responding to verbal stimuli.
¶ Close to you ¶

And now vitals are stable.

He is re-oriented.

What...

This is one in a million.
It shouldn't have happened.

¶ Like so close if they hurt
you, you wouldn't find out ¶

And sometimes, by some miracle,
it works.

The bleeding stops.
¶ If you let me,
I'd be there by now ¶

Well, does he know yet,
about his wife and baby?

¶ Close to you ¶
No. Not yet.

He's asking.

¶¶

[ Breathes deeply ]

I was wrong, Bailey.

You saved his life.

And now I have to go in there
and ruin it.

But sometimes,
no matter how hard you try...

[ Door slides open, closed ]

¶¶

It's still not enough.

¶¶