Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 12, Episode 16 - When It Hurts So Bad - full transcript

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Meredith: Don't be scared.

I have no idea how many times
I've said it.

The intern stands over a patient

with a scalpel or a needle
or a clamp,

afraid to make the first move.

[ Laughs ]
Told you it wasn't that far.

Curb, front door.
What's that... 50 feet, about?

It's a nice 50 feet.

Mm-hmm.

So, help me out.
Which date was this?

Why?



Well, I need to know
what to put in my diary.

[ Chuckles ]

Well, there was one,
and then there was another,

so I'm pretty sure
that makes two.

And what about the, uh, car ride
home the other night?

I could barely
keep my eyes open.

Well, we ate.
We talked.

We laughed,
which was date-like.

Why does it matter?

Three's my lucky number.

They're scared.

Well [chuckles]
then I guess you're...

out of luck.

Mm.



¶ Carmenia Road ¶

They know what to do.

But they just need
that little push.

Wait.

¶ Trying to watch cartoons
through the static ¶

You didn't say good night.

Oh, how thoughtless.

[ Laughs ]
Hug me.

¶ I'm looking at life unfold ¶
[ Chuckles ]

¶ Dreaming of
the green and gold ¶

Good night.

Good night.

¶ They let me see ¶

¶ Where I come from ¶

¶ Ancient stone ¶

¶ Green and gold ¶

¶ Ancient stone ¶

Just hang in there, okay?

Yes, sir.
Thanks.

¶ Oh, green and gold ¶

[ Sighs, clears throat ]

¶ Ancient stone ¶

¶ Green and gold ¶

¶ Ancient sto-o-o-ne ¶

¶ Green and gold ¶
I have to go to sleep.

Aw.

Early rounds.

I know.
I know.

¶ Ancient stone ¶

Good night.
Good night.

¶ Green and... ¶
I love you.

Thank you.

[ Sighs ]

[ Bird chirps ]

What, are you
sneaking out on me?

Oh, hey.

Sorry.

Give me a minute.
I can...

get some coffee.

Actually, I-I can't.

I'm assisting Bailey on
that Heller myotomy today.

Oh, that's right.
That's today.

Well, text me right after.
I want to know all about it.

Okay.

Hello?

Oh.

[ Door opens ]

[ Water runs ]

Meredith: Get out!
Get out! Go!

Get out!
Just get out!

Please, just get out!
What is going on?!

[ Door slams ]
I-I-I don't know.

She just started screaming.

Why are you here?!
Why is she screaming?!

Get him out of here!

What did you do?!

Nothing!
God, no, nothing!

We were sleeping.
I was sleeping,

and then the screaming.
I...

Mer?

Mer, are you okay?
What's happening?

- Get him out of here.
- Who's he?

Look, just for the record,
I didn't do anything.

Meredith:
Get him out of here!

- My shoes are in there...
- Get... out!

Mer?

Mer, he's gone.

Can you please open the door?
I am worried about you.

I want to know that you're okay.

Is he gone?

Yeah.
Yeah, he's gone.

[ Siren wailing ]

Move the V.P. shunt
till Monday.

Got it.
Anything else?

All right, I'll be in touch.

Shepherd not coming in today?

No.

Is she sick, or...

I don't know.
Uh, I'll tell her you asked.

Uh, yes. Thank you.
That's...

Ashley Hughes, 21,

crush injuries with bilateral
hip dislocations.

Good distal pulses.

- How'd it happen?
- Fell on me.

- What? What fell on you?
- I did.

Whoa.
Uh, y-you okay there?

You're bleeding pretty bad
from that head lac.

D-Don't worry about me.
Just make sure she's okay.

Let's get her inside.
Somebody page Torres!

So, the Rotko kid
looks pretty good,

but I want to monitor him
overnight.

[ Sighs ] You said we should
do something.

We are. We're monitoring
the kid overnight.

About April.
It was your idea.

"Something."
I said, "Something."

I didn't say, go behind her back
and tell Jackson.

[ Elevator dings ]

April.

Hi.
Uh, good morning.

Um, we're gonna take
the next one.

Oh.

[ Elevator dings ]

Okay.

[ Sighs ]

Yeah, well, maybe next time,
be a little more specific.

[ Humming ]

You know how long it's been
since I saw your mother?

No idea, sir.

Too long!

Her plane lands any minute.

[ Chuckles ]

Yeah, I'm sure that trip's
a complete coincidence, right?

Nothing to do with me or...

her or... I don't know...

Anything you might
have mentioned.

Um, my wife and I

don't have any secrets
between us, Jackson.

I enjoy seeing her,
and she enjoys seeing you.

Now, if you feel otherwise...

that's a damn shame.

[ Humming ]

Your injuries are not that bad,
but Ashley's are pretty severe.

Can you walk us through
exactly what happened?

I don't really think that's...

I mean, you know, Ashley,
she... she... she's a lady.

Mm-hmm, and you
and the lady were...

Listen, it is easier for us
to treat her properly

if we know how
the injuries happened.

I don't want to kiss and tell.

Ashley:
He's funny, cute, and sweet,

and so I thought,
"What if he's big?"

I'm an athlete.

I ran the New York City Marathon
the fastest

of anyone in my age group,

and don't back down
from a challenge.

Maybe you should've backed down
from this one.

Hey, you shouldn't say things
like that.

People make assumptions based
on size all the time.

I mean, so, what, I just
shouldn't date big people

just because I'm little?!

I really like him.
He's a gentleman.

She asked me over to her place.

I was sort of surprised.

I mean, obviously, the size
difference crossed my mind.

But I am not a quitter.

I was staring at Mount Everest,
and I was ready to climb.

I'm sorry. I'm not really
comfortable talking about this.

So, my legs were
on his shoulders.

It was a lovely evening.

And my feet were, like,
way up in the air,

and it took some finessing at
first, but I was determined.

And it was worth it.

Oh, my God, it was so worth it,
until [moans]

I slipped.

Boom!

Then her legs...
snapped.

It was... terrible.

It was terrible!

Ohh! [ Moaning ]

But this is way worse.

Okay, her pain's
still not controlled.

Well, she's maxed out on meds.

We'll have to reduce her
under general.

Uh, no, but then we'd have
to intubate her.

Uh, Warren!

Warren, I need your help
in here.

Okay, Ashley, I know that you
are really hurting,

and I can help that

if you think that you can
handle a lot of pain...

[ Moans ]

right now, all at once, okay?

We need to get your legs
back into your sockets.
The sooner the better.

Now, we can go to the operating
room, or we can...

Might as well get it over with.

It's your call.

Go big or go home, right?
[ Moans ]

All right.

Edwards, you, uh,
do the left leg.

I'll do the right. Can you...
- Mm-hmm.

We're gonna do them both
at once?

No need to put her
through this twice.

All right, Warren, I'm gonna
need you to hold her in place.

[ Moans ]

All right.
Hang in there.

You're almost there.
- Oh, God, oh, God, oh, God!

No!
- All right, is everyone ready?

- Yep.
- Ready.

All right,
on the count of three.

1, 2... 3!

[ Bones crack ]
Aaaaaah!

She can't stay locked away
up there all day.

She has to come down sometime.

Do you think she wants food
or just coffee, or not coffee?

What if she wants tea?
Tea is more soothing.

What do we know about this guy?

I mean, not very much.

I mean, she's barely even
dating him.

It's... Hi.

How are you?
[ Cabinet door slams ]

Um, uh, we made coffee,
but we could make tea.

Are you okay?

Where do we keep the stuff
for the countertops?

What?

The blue stuff, you know,

the... to clean the countertops
that's safe for kids.

Uh, used to be
behind the paper towels.

Uh, Meredith, what happened?

How can we help you?

I found it.

Meredith.

You are wondering why I'm here.

I crashed here last night.

And the night before...
On the couch.

I thought I'd be out
before you woke up, but...

Can I use this on the stovetop?

Sure.

[ Spraying ]

Thing is probably covered
in 10 years of grease.

Uh...

I'm sorry I didn't ask before.

I just needed a place to stay
for a minute,

but I'm gonna grab my stuff
and I'm gonna go now.

No, it's Owen.
Something happened with Owen,

and it really
shook her up, so...

Maggie!

Look, you told me, and...

Yeah, and now I wish I hadn't.

I'm leaving.

No, please stay!

Something happened to you,

and now something has happened
to Meredith,

and I think that we should all
just sit down

and talk about it, all right?

Can I use bleach in here?

There's something we use
under the sink.

I can show you.

Yeah.

[ Cap rattles, bottle sprays ]

We're taking Ashley
up to C.T. now.

Torres would like you to join.

I'll be there
in a few more minutes.

I almost killed her.

With our sex.

Dr. Blake!
I need some help.

I paged Dr. Torres,

but she just ran a trauma
patient up to C.T., and...

Okay, let me see what you got.

Oh, God.

Uh, yes, Dr. Torres,
or did you try Dr. Robbins?

Dr. Robbins is in surgery.

So I figured since you
and Dr. Torres are...

Oh, right. Okay.

I've got it.

Hi.

She was having a play date
with my daughter,

and they were running around,
and she tripped.

Landed on a rock.

I brought her right in.

She's okay, right?

Hi, sweetie.

I am Dr. Blake.

I'm Sofia Sloan-Torres.

I know.
I work with your mom.

Your moms.

My head hurts.

Okay.

Let's take a look at that cut.

Okay.

That doesn't look bad at all.

[ Sighs ]
It is so cold and sleeting

back east...
Just dreadful!

So you came to Seattle
for some sun?

I came to Seattle for my son.

Mm.

How are things going with April?

Why must you meddle
in everything?

[ Scoffs ] I do believe you
went through an entire divorce

without me saying one word.

Oh, Jackson,
I just want to talk to her.

Nope, absolutely not.

Oh, come on, honey, let me help.

You won't help, though, Mom.

You'll only make things worse.

Now, I cannot be any clearer
with you about this.

No.

I don't want you talking
to April.

I don't want you bullying
her around.

I don't want you anywhere
near it, actually, okay?

It's my problem, my business,
not yours.

Understood?

[ Sighs ]

Zola and Bailey are dropped off.

Is Ellis still down?

Sound asleep.

And we are cleaning in here now.

We are done in the kitchen,
so we have moved on.

Okay.

Well...

pass the disinfectant.

DeLuca got out of here
in a hurry this morning.

Yeah, he's scrubbing in
on a Heller myotomy.

He's doing the esophageal
dissection.

Where's the wood polish?

Here you go.

I told him to let me know
how it goes,

so I'm just waiting for a text.

Owen won't stop texting.

And calling.

What are you gonna do?

I have no idea.

Yeah, I wouldn't know
what to do either.

[ Sighs ]

You know Owen probably better
than any of us.

Do you have any advice
for Amelia?

[ Sighs ]

How long has that stain
been there?

[ Dog barks in distance ]

[ Indistinct p.a. announcement ]

You're keeping busy.

I am hiding.

Catherine Avery is here,
apparently,

and I am not in the mood for...

[ Sighs ]

In the E.R., I'm a sitting duck,
but in an O.R...

Come on, she can't be that bad.

No, she's worse than bad.

She can be terrifying.

Like a... hurricane.

When she hits, you do not want
to be in her wake.

Well, you can't avoid
her forever,

not when she's about to become
Hurricane Granny.

[ Sighs ]
Maybe not, but...

I can avoid her for now.

[ Elevator dings ]

You ready?
My first surgery's with you.

Cassie: She has a femoral neck
fracture on the right hip.

It didn't show up
on the plain films.

I met a puppy once that
was half German Shepherd,

half Teacup Chihuahua.

And all I could think was...

how did you happen?

I once watched
this monster truck

crush this two-seater
convertible at an intersection,

and the truck barely
had a scratch on it,

but the convertible was totaled.

I mean, logistically,
if the Chihuahua is the dad,

does he just hop up
on the German Shepherd mom?

Ashley was just out
for a joy ride...

with her top down,
and them bam...

Head-on collision.

Or is the German Shepherd
the dad

and they give a ladder
to the little Chihuahua mom

so that he can reach her?
[ Laughs ]

Whoa! Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Stop, stop, stop!
No.

These are scientific questions.

No, not you...
The scanner.

Look at her right leg.

It's pale and cold.

No distal pulse.

We need a gurney in here!

Book an O.R.
- Right away.

W-What... What's happening?

Cassie:
Ashley, I stopped the scan

because I saw something
concerning.

The blood flow to your right leg
is compromised,

and that's not good, so...

just hang in there, Ashley.

All right, come on, come on.

On the count of three.
1, 2, 3!

Let's move.

Owen: Looks like the leg
is pinking up.

Callie: Oh, caught it
just in time.

You know, gosh, it sounds fun,

but you do not want to run into
a German Shepherd in the wild.

Happened to me
in college.
Uh, irrigation?

I don't think this conversation
is entirely appropriate.

[ Chuckling ]
No, it's not.

K-wire, continue.

Yeah, I was at a party,
met a guy,

took him home,
and when his pants came off...

my jaw hit the floor
and so did... it.

- Oh, that is... not okay.
- [ Laughs ]

That is what I said.

I said, "Get out of here,

and you take that thing
with you."

How big could it have been?

Okay, can we not?

Yeah.

Oh, wow.

[ Sighs ]

Nope, nope.

That's... Yeah, yeah.

- Dr. Torres?
- Yeah.

It's not urgent, but they're
calling from the E.R.

Your daughter's down there
with a head lac.
What?!

I can take over.
You go.

Yeah.

[ Sighs ]

Catherine: When I was pregnant
with Jackson,

a 3-hour surgery
felt like 12.

Hi, Catherine.
Um...

I actually don't really
have much time

'cause I have another surgery
really soon...

Oh, baby, please, sit back down.

Come on.
I know you're tired.

It's okay.

Come on.
[ Sighs ]

Some nights,
my feet were so swollen,

I was physically unable to even
take my sneakers off.

A few times,
I slept in the damn things.

[ Chuckles ]

I...I guess you talked
to Jackson.

Oh, let's not talk about him.

I want to know about you.

How many weeks is it now?

[ Sighs ] Uh...

It's okay.

We don't have to talk about it
if you don't want to.

I-I understand.
I'll go.

[ Sighs ] 13.

[ Exhales sharply ]

I'm c-coming up on 13.

Morning sickness?

Um, no.

I've... I've actually been
really lucky with that so far.

You are lucky.

I couldn't stop being sick.

I thought I was coming down with
the stomach flu or something.

Took a whole week for me to
realize I was having a baby.

[ Chuckling ]
It was a shock.

Yes, uh, uh,
it's definitely startling.

Yeah, the morning that the test
turned positive,

I couldn't believe
I had to turn around

and keep it together that day.

I bet.

I was already...

so emotional.

But I was not gonna cry in
that lawyer's office, so...

Oh, honey.

You mean you found out
the same day

you signed the divorce papers?

Yeah, it was a rough day.

I just sat there
listening to those lawyers,

but all I could think about
was how I just...

I just...
I needed time to...

think.

Mm.

Process.

I would've done
the exact same thing.

[ Chuckles ]

Sweetheart, no matter happens...

Arizona:
Everything looks good here.

All right, let's hope
that we don't come back

to the E.R.
for a while, okay?

[ Laughs ]

Thank you for taking

such good care of her.

[ Siren wails in distance ]

See you in a bit, okay?

[ Sighs ]

You okay?

Okay? Of course.

And, uh, Sofia is okay,
which is what really matters.

Okay.

I mean, it... it... it would've
been nice to get a page,

um, before you treated her.

Well, I just wanted to make sure

I had all the information
before I pulled you out.

No, right, of course.

Or you could've tried Karev.

He's in peds, or Grey,
who Sofia's grown up knowing.

Grey has the day off,
and Karev just left.

Or Bailey.
[ Elevator dings ]

You wanted me to page the Chief
of Surgery for a head lac?

Mm-hmm.

What's going on?

[ Breathes deeply ]
She's my kid, and...

[ Sighs ]

she doesn't know anything
about you.

We haven't even had
that conversation.

Oh.

So...
Okay.

This is about what I said
last night, isn't it?

The last thing that I wanted
to do was make things weird.

It's Arizona.

She's glad that you helped.

Obviously, she's not mad,
but she's not ready either.

You and I,
it's all happening so fast,

and we're so new, and...

Oh, God.
No, that's...

What was I thinking?
It's fine, it's fine.

Your heart was in
the right place,

and she'll be ready one day.

Okay, absolutely.
[ Sighs ]

[ Voice breaking ]
I'm sorry.

I can wait.

What vacuum cleaner
is this complicated?

It's a carpet steamer.

And we own it?!

Assembly.

"Insert handle
into machine base.

Press down firmly."

Okay. Bolts.

And circle thingy.

What happened with Owen?

It's nothing.

Uh, little circles
or big circles?

Small.
You're lying.

Screwdriver.
I...

showed up at his trailer.

He was drunk, so I left.

Hose.
How drunk?

Bad.

Slurring, stumbling.

He's tried to call,
but I'm not ready.

[ Door opens ]
Where is he?

I'll kill him.
Did he hurt you?

Are you hurt?!

Go fill this
with water... cold.

What's going on?

There's a stain on the carpet.

You said this was an emergency.

There is.
There's a stain.

I canceled my last two surgeries

and left DeLuca in charge
of my post-ops for this?!

He's out already?

The Heller myotomy...
That was today.

That got canceled.

Okay, I'll do it myself.

Somebody vacuum the stain.

Don't look at me.

- Dr. Robbins?
- Huh?

I'm so sorry.

You are Sofia's mother.

I never would've interacted
with her

if I knew that you would have
a problem with it.

What?

What did you do?

Uh...

Callie explained to me
that you weren't comfortable

with me meeting Sofia.

You're not ready,
and I totally understand.

No, wait, stop.
Just... No, I never said that.

- [ Clears throat ]
- Well, however you phrased it,

it's fine.
I just wanted to apologize...

No! The subject
has never come up.

[ Gasps ]
She was lying.

Callie lied to me?
About you?

It sure seems like that.

So, DeLuca probably just
got busy, right?

I mean, he's an intern.

He's probably just been
running around all day.

He just forgot to tell me
his surgery was canceled.

- You sure that thing works?
- It's brand-new!

Just because you never took it

out of the box
doesn't mean it works.

How long has it been sitting
in the closet?

Are we facing this
the right way?

The steam is facing the carpet.

How many other ways are there?

It's been like this lately,
you know?

It's been hard for us to get
our schedules to match up.

It's funny.

It was easier for us
to get together

before we went public than now.

So funny.
[ Chuckles ]

¶ Mother, may I? ¶

[ Vacuum whirring ]

What?

Why are you all exchanging looks
and not exchanging words?

He's been a little
standoffish...

and hard to reach,

and not entirely up-front
about everything he's doing.

A-A little, I guess.
What are you saying?

He's giving you
the brush-off.

Uh, no. No,
he's not giving me anything.

That's the problem.

Gimme that!

You think he's dumping me?!

That's ridiculous!

Unless it isn't.

¶ I want everything
that's mine ¶

- Where are you going?
- To the hospital.

No one brushes me off.
I brush.

I'm the brusher.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
This is a bad idea.

Mer, you want to jump in here?

[ Door opens ]

This stain is not coming out.

¶ I wanna go outside tonight ¶

¶ Tell me it's all right ¶

Hey, whatever's going on
between you and Penny,

leave me out of it.
- Okay.

She does not waste time.

Um, look [sighs]
I said a thing...

I know!
I know what you said.

So, listen, I mean,
we've never even discussed
Penny meeting Sofia,

which I'm fine with, by the way,

but then you go and
throw me under the bus?

I know, I know, I know.
I wasn't thinking.

I-I was just... I blurted it
out, and it was so dumb.

Great, so if you have a problem
with your girlfriend,

figure it out.

Don't put me in the middle of it
because I'm... I'm...

I'm done being stuck
in the middle of things.

[ Sighs ]

[ Sighs ]

[ Cellphone ringing ]

Is that Amelia, or...

Look, I promise I gave her
your message, Dr. Hunt.

I-I promise.
It's just, this is my mom.

Okay.

[ Chuckles ]

What'd you do?

Excuse me?

[ Chuckles ]
Look, I know that look.

I get that look whenever
I piss off Miranda.

She ignores my messages, too,
and we live in the same house.

[ Chuckles ]

I think this is a little worse
than that.

I, uh, I bought Tuck
a pocket knife.

He liked camping,
wanted to whittle.

And the thing was beautiful.

It was wooden handle,
steel blade.

It was really nice,

but [chuckles]
she didn't see it that way.

What I saw as a survival tool

she saw as an inappropriately
dangerous weapon.

Huh.
And she forgave you?

Yeah, eventually,
but, uh, you know,

still comes up
from time to time,

but, you know, it faded.

Well, I thought
this was gonna fade,

but [sighs] hasn't yet.

I mean, it took
some apologizing.

A lot of apologizing.
Yeah.

I just I told her
I would never intentionally

do anything to hurt him.

Or her.

You know, and...

she knows that because she knows
me, but, um...

sometimes you...

you just have to say it.

So, I freak her out
by telling her I love her,

and she lies to my face.

Who does that?

She didn't say it back?

Not even close.

Ugh. I did that.

To Alex.

She'll say it back.
Right?

I mean, you said it back.

Yeah!

A-A few...

years later.

A few years?

I can't live like this
for a few years.

Well...

You don't really have a choice.

When you date an attending,
they have all the power.

You're an intern at home.
You're an intern at work.

There's no way around it.
No one asked you.

And she's a resident.

DeLuca...

a word?

Yeah, of course.

He has a point, though.

Pierce definitely
has all the power.

I have to talk to Callie.

You're avoiding me.

What?
No, I haven't.

I've called.
You haven't answered.

Just been
a really busy day.
Sure.

In a marathon surgery
that got canceled.

Um...

What's really going on here?

Uh...

Okay, look, I'm very busy.

I have many, many things
on my plate.

I-I just...
I don't have time

or patience to play
childish guessing games.

Do you want to be
with me or not?

There's my answer.

Look, it's...
It's not like...

You know, you're the one who
wanted this out in the open,

and now that we've done that
for, what, like five minutes,

you can't handle it?!

I'm sorry.

You can leave now.

[ Door opens, closes ]

Mer, that closet's
cleaned already.

Well, we're gonna use
the top shelf

for beach towels, towels,
and rags.

The middle shelf
will be for sheets,

and the bottom shelf will be
for the children

in case they need to reach it.

Okay. Sure.

I counted 19 mini-shampoos
and 11 conditioners.

Trash or...
- I'll take 'em.

What?

Works the same as shampoo
in a big bottle.

[ Laughing ]

[ Sighs ]

Mer, what is it?

It's his stupid, stupid blanket.

We're done cleaning.

- Run me through what happened.
- She coded.

It was a massive
pulmonary embolism.

They're doing a cath embolectomy
right now.

This is my fault.

I reduced both of her hips
in the trauma room.

I should've waited.

It's been problem after problem
ever since.

This is a known complication
of femur fractures.

You know that.
- I shouldn't have pushed.

If I had just...
- Torres, Torres, stop.

You did what you had to do.
You made a call.

- The wrong one, apparently.
- A bold one.

We don't know
that it caused this.

I know you feel responsible,

but there's no place for that
right now.

I need to deal with this clot
before she arrests again.

[ Speaks indistinctly ]

Thank you.

Hey.

Um, I just had the most
unexpected conversation

with your mother.

Damn it, I told her
not to say anything.

Just...
- No, no, no, no, it was fine.

Um, it was really nice,
actually.

Maybe we could find
a time to talk,

sometime soon,
just the two of us?

[ Inhales deeply ]
I'd like that.

Great.

Oh, God, she's dead, isn't she?

[ Sighs ]
Ashley's okay.

She suffered a serious
complication,

but we were able to control it
in time,

and she should make
a full recovery.

[ Grunting ]

- Whoa, uh...
- I'm sorry.

I-I-I didn't hurt you,
did I?

No. [ Panting ]
It's fine. I'm fine.

[ Clears throat, coughs ]

- S-She'll be awake soon?
- Yeah.

We'll send someone
to come and get you.

[ Clears throat ]
See you.

- You okay?
- Yeah, I think so.

[ Breathes deeply ]

She's at Meredith Grey's house.

She is?

She asked me to send over
some cases files,

and so that is where
she will be in case,

you know, you wanted
to make a bold move.

[ Elevator dings ]

[ Scoffs ]

Here you go...
Sofia's chart.

All clear.
Thank you.

And don't worry.
I didn't discharge her myself.

I had Bailey do it.

The Chief says she's good,
she must be good.

Look, Penny, I'm sorry.
I should not have lied to you.

If we are not in the same place,

if you aren't ready to be
where I am, that is fine.

You can tell me,
and I will listen.

If you aren't ready for me
to meet Sofia, great.

That is your decision.

But making me feel like crap
about trying to help,

lying to me...
That is not okay.

[ Sighs ]

Alex: So, uh, Amelia went to go
pick up the kids.

Should be back soon.

Whoa. [ Sighs ]

You made a fire.

I mean, it's 70 degrees outside,
but that's cool.

[ Sighs ]

This was Derek's blanket.

I always hated the stupid thing.

It's...

It's not soft.
It's not warm.

It's not a great color.

He had it in the trailer.
He brought it here.

Made it to the dream house
with us.

He made a bed in front of
this fireplace for us once.

And now he's gone.

And I still have the damn thing.

[ Sighs ]
I freaked out this morning.

I heard.
[ Chuckles softly ]

You okay?

So...

you brought the guy here, and...

it was terrible.

It wasn't terrible?

[ Sighs ]

So, why did you freak out?

That's the problem.
It was kind of incredible.

He was going to leave.

And then we fell asleep.

And then when we woke up...

I...

[ Sighs ]

He was just there, and I just...

Everyone said I was ready.

You said I would be okay,

so I thought I should just do it
and get it over with.

But I-I wasn't ready
for it...

to be...

[ Breathes deeply ]

You warm enough?

Yeah, I'm fine.

Remember, guys, Mama made
the house really clean,

and we're gonna keep it
that way, okay?

Oh, someone's here.

Hey.

[ Crickets chirping ]

Uh, okay, Zo,

you take your brother inside
and wash your hands.

Okay. Come on, Bailey.
Let's go.

Hey.

[ Sighs ]

I just wanted to see you.

So... I could apologize,
you know, face-to-face.

About the other night,
I am sorry.

It...
I was thoughtless.

And I don't know
why I [chuckles]

I don't have an excuse.

Amelia, Riggs said some things
to me, and it just...

And..

And I'm really sorry.

I know.

And you...

Listen...

I just got sober again.

So, to find myself
in that position...

And it was unfair of me
to put you there.

I know that, and...
it will not happen again.

No. I know it won't.

I promise.

I appreciate that.

But I can't count on it.

Right now,
I have to count on myself.

It's not your fault.
You're just...

not in this with me.

So I can't do this with you,
not right now, and...

maybe not at all.

Amelia, you know me.
I would never...

I know that right now
I'd like you to leave.

Okay.

[ Door closes ]

Oh, your numbers look great.

Thanks.

They, uh, said, you're, uh...

you're awake.

Hi.

Um...

I think he might want
to come in.

You all right with that?

Yeah.

Ash, I, uh...

I don't know what to say.

Uh...

They said...

I'll be okay.

I-I-I'm so glad.

Listen, Chris, I've been to
the mountaintop, and it's...

exhilarating.

But I...
But...

you don't ever want
to see me again, do you?

No one needs to climb
Everest twice.

[ Indistinct whispering ]

Oh, hey.
Uh, Sofia's more than okay...

[ Sighs ]

thanks to some
astronaut stickers

and some strawberry jello.

Thank you.

When did you know
that Little Tuck

was ready to meet Ben?

Oh. Um...

Well, uh, Tuck was too young
to tie his own shoes,

so I wasn't gonna get
any answers from him.

What I cared about was,
was I ready?

[ Sighs ]

Hmm?

See, I'm ready.
I-I was ready the day I met her,

but I'm always ready too early.

I got married too early.

I [sighs]

It was one thing when it was
about me, but now...

You know...

Say... Okay,
when you see Sofia

kick a ball across the room

and you start to daydream
about 20 years from now

when Sofia scores
the winning goal

at the Women's World Cup Final

and the whole stadium
is chanting her name...

"Torres! Torres!"
[ Laughs ]

And it's all in slow motion

and you're up in the stands
screaming and crying.

Yes, yes.
You do that, too?

So... the question is,
who do you want...

screaming and cheering
beside you?

This looks cozy.
What are we doing?

Enjoying the clean, clean house.

Look at your crumbs.

How's DeLuca?

He's a...

a non-issue now.

How's Hunt?

Also a non-issue.

What am I eating?

I'm gonna need something
way less healthy than this.

- Pizza's coming.
- Mm.

[ Doorbell rings ]

Mm.

[ Crickets chirping ]

You're not pizza.

Uh, no, I'm not.
I'm...

Is Meredith home?
I'm Will.

I know who you are.
Yeah, you should leave.

Look, I've been worried
about her all day.

She...
- No, really, go.

It's okay.

Hi.

[ Gasps ]
Who's that?

That's the doctor
who fixed my head!

Yes, she is, and she is
a very special doctor.

You remember her name?

Penny.
Her name is Penny.

Hi, Penny!

Hi, Sofia.
How's your head?

Good!

We decided that stitches

could only be made better
with ice cream.

And I thought maybe...

you might want to come with us?

We are in the same place.
I'm in the same place as you.

I've been there a while.
I just...

I would like for you to come get
ice cream with us.

Very much.

And you can say no.

I would understand that.

I'm not saying no.

[ Chuckling ]
Then what are you saying?

Thank you.

¶ Is it just me, or has the
world gone crazy lately? ¶

All right. I think we're going.
You ready?

All right, let's go.

¶ Can we not see the way
we're evolving, changing? ¶
[ Laughs ]

- All right!
¶ Something's going wrong ¶

¶ 'Cause every other day
is the same old story ¶

¶ Broken record on repeat ¶

¶ Another man dies,
and a child goes hungry ¶

¶ While my brothers
cry for peace ¶

¶ Here's another war song
for the poor ¶

Hey, Jackson, your mother and I
are headed to dinner.

Care to join?

You know what? I can't.
Thanks, though.

Ma, can I talk to you
for a second?

Okay.

I told you not to talk
to April, right?

I know.

Yet you did anyway.

I know that, too.

You know, as hard as it is
for me to say this to you...

thank you.

It seems like it was...

a good thing.

Like you were right.

Yes, I was.

¶ Yeah, yeah, yeah ¶

I got everything we need.

"Need"? Wha-

What she knew, when she knew it,

whom she spoke to, and when.

I needed to confirm that
she withheld information

from you when she was signing
those divorce papers...

that she legally committed
fraud, and she did.

And now...

we can go after her.

Don't stop.
Don't hesitate.

You can't be scared
of what's next.

¶ We're on the way ¶

¶ Yeah, yeah, yeah ¶

¶ Or is it far too late? ¶

I'm so sorry if I... if I did
something to hurt you.

I...
- It's not...

It's not you.

I mean, it is you, but it's...

not because you're you.
It's...

I'm...

Do not let fear get in your way.

I lost my husband...

two years ago,

and you are the first person
that I've been with since.

¶ No, I'm not a superhero ¶

And this would be so much easier

if last night were awful
or something.

I just...

have a lot of stuff.

It's a lot.

And you're great.

And last night was great.

Yeah, I thought so too.

[ Sighs ]
But there's a "but."

Yeah.

[ Sighs ]

You're not ready.

I guess I'm not.

I want to be.

Okay, then.

I'll...

I'll back off.

For a little while.

But so you're prepared...

I'm gonna call you again.

And if you ignore me...

I'm gonna show up again

and we'll go back to sitting
in that car,

talking...

and laughing.

And I'll be waiting...

until you're ready because...

I'm pretty sure you're worth
waiting for.

Good night.

¶ Or is it far too late? ¶

¶ And are we too far gone? ¶
Good night.

¶ Oh, so pardon me ¶

¶ If I cross the line ¶

That's why we don't
operate alone.

There are attendings
and nurses and interns.

Those O.R.s are full
of people.

I'm fine.

- Are you sure?
- Is he gone?

Yes, he's gone.
Yes, I am sure.

I am completely
and utterly fine.

I'm gonna go check
on the pizzas.

Laundry's done.
Dishes are done.

And I made a lunch
for Zola tomorrow.

Thanks.

And I'm gonna go.

So, in the cases where someone
actually does get hurt...

Well, you can stay in your room
if you want.

It's clean.

¶ We'll be the change
we wanna see ¶

¶ Change we wanna see ¶

Nobody has to go
through it alone.

[ Vocalizing ]

¶ Or is it far too late? ¶

¶ And are we too far gone? ¶