Grey's Anatomy (2005–…): Season 11, Episode 21 - How to Save a Life - full transcript

Meredith: WHEN I WAS 5,
MY MOM LOST ME IN A PARK.

I DON'T REMEMBER MUCH,
EXCEPT THAT ONE MINUTE,

I WAS RIDING THE CAROUSEL,
AND THE NEXT...

SHE WAS GONE.

I'LL BE HOME
BEFORE YOU KNOW IT.

IT'S GOOD.
IT'S TIME.

Meredith: I DON'T KNOW, I JUST
FEEL LIKE I JUST GOT YOU BACK

AND NOW WE'RE GOING AGAIN
AND I-I JUST HAVE TO STAY HERE.

YOU'RE RIGHT.
YOU DO.

YOU HAVE TO STAY HERE.

STAY HERE.
DON'T MOVE.



DON'T MOVE.

WAIT FOR ME.

WAIT FOR ME.

I DON'T REMEMBER
HOW I FOUND HER.

Ellis: RICHARD!

I DON'T REMEMBER
HOW I GOT HOME.

[ ELLIS CRYING ]
ARE YOU OKAY?

ALL I REMEMBER
IS WHAT HAPPENED NEXT.

SHE TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY.

SHE TOLD ME
EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE.

I'LL BE BACK
BEFORE YOU KNOW IT.

FUNNY, ISN'T IT,
THE WAY MEMORY WORKS?

THE THINGS
YOU CAN'T QUITE REMEMBER...

AND THE THINGS
YOU CAN NEVER FORGET.



[ Echoing ] THE CAROUSEL
NEVER STOPS TURNING.

[ HOUNDMOUTH'S "SEDONA" PLAYS ]

[ BUZZING ]

[ WHIMPERS ]

OKAY, ZO-ZO, WALK A LITTLE
FASTER 'CAUSE WE ARE LATE.

AND WHO
CAN NEVER BE LATE?

SURGEONS.

WHAT HAPPENS
IF SURGEONS ARE LATE?

PEOPLE DIE?

RIGHT ON, SISTER.

HEY, IT'S ME.

I'M ON THE FERRY.

I-I JUST WANTED
TO SAY THAT, UM...

? SEDONA ARABELLA ?

[ HORNS BLARING ]

? WHEN JOHN FORD SAID
WON'T YOU HOP ON IN ?

? AND THE STAGECOACH, BABY,
GONNA TAKE YOU FOR A SPIN ?

? OH, OH ?

? OH, OH ?

YOU'RE NEVER GONNA MAKE
YOUR FLIGHT.

DEREK:
I'll make it.

Miranda: NO, YOU WON'T.
YOU'RE GONNA MISS YOUR FLIGHT.

WHO'S THAT?
BAILEY?

I'M NOT
GONNA MISS MY FLIGHT.

THERE WAS A HUGE ACCIDENT ON
THE 5. ALL THE LANES ARE CLOSED.

THE TRAFFIC
IS INSANE.

NOW, WHY DOES KEPNER MAKE THAT
SOUND LIKE IT'S A GOOD THING?

AMELIA: We have a guy
from the accident on our table.

Bailey and Kepner are sewing up
all the holes in his gut.

I AM REPAIRING
THE UN-REPAIRABLE.

I AM
OUT-OF-CONTROL AMAZING.

Miranda: NO, I AM
OUT-OF-CONTROL AMAZING.

YOU ARE A GUEST
IN MY GUTS. HUSH.

[ CHUCKLES ]

THE POINT IS YOU MIGHT AS
WELL TURN AROUND NOW 'CAUSE
YOU'LL MISS YOUR FLIGHT.

DEREK: I'm not
gonna miss my flight.

I HAVE A SECRET SHORTCUT.

Both: THERE ARE NOT SHORTCUTS
TO THE AIRPORT.

THAT YOU KNOW ABOUT.

COME ON. I'M DOING
A SPONDYLOLISTHESIS TODAY.

I'M SAYING IF YOU HEAD BACK NOW,
I MIGHT LET YOU --

I'M GONNA LOSE YOU HERE
IN A SECOND.

CELLPHONE RECEPTION'S BAD.

DEREK, ARE YOU STILL THERE?
I CAN'T HEAR YOU.

NO, I SAID I'M GONNA LOSE
THE CELLPHONE RECEPTION.

IT'S BAD HERE.

[ STATIC ]
AMY?

DEREK? DEREK?

Amy,
are you there?

[ CELLPHONE BEEPS ]

LOST HIM.

[ TIRES SCREECH ]

? I GUESS THAT'S BETTER
THAN A GRAVE AND A HEARSE ?

? OH, OH ?

? OH, OH ?

[ ENGINE REVS ]

I'M DOING 10 MILES
OVER THE SPEED LIMIT.

THAT'S NOT FAST ENOUGH
FOR YOU? GEE.

? YOU'RE NOT FORGOTTEN ?

? YOU GOT THE CASH
BUT YOUR CREDIT'S NO GOOD ?

? YOU FLIPPED THE SCRIPT
AND SHOT THE PLOT ?

? I REMEMBER,
I REMEMBER WHEN YOUR NEON ?

? USED TO BURN
SO BRIGHT AND PINK ?

? A SATURDAY NIGHT
KIND OF PINK ?

[ SIGHS ]

[ TIRES SQUEAL ]

[ TIRES SCREECHING ]

[ TIRES SCREECH ]

[ GRUNTS ]

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

WHERE'S MY PH-PHONE?

HEY.
MA'AM. MA'AM.

MY NAME'S DEREK.

ARE YOU OKAY?

WINNIE!

WINNIE!

WINNIE! WINNIE!

HEY,
I CAN'T OPEN THE DOOR.
WINNIE!

MA'AM. HEY.
WINNIE! WINNIE!

HEY.
WHAT'S YOUR NAME?

SARAH.
SARAH,
WHO'S WINNIE?

MY -MY DAUGHTER.
SHE'S, UH, SHE'S IN THE BACK.

SHE'S NOT ANSWERING,
AND I DON'T KNOW IF SHE'S OKAY.

SARAH.

SARAH, I NEED YOU
TO STAY CALM, OKAY?

DEEP BREATHS.
GOOD.

STAY CALM.
I'M GONNA BE RIGHT BACK, OKAY?

MM-HMM.
TRY NOT TO MOVE.

OKAY.

HEY.
YOU WINNIE?

IS ANYTHING HURT,
LIKE YOUR NECK OR...?

IS THAT
WHY YOU CAN'T TALK?

I THINK
I'M DEAD.

AM I DEAD?

LET ME FEEL
YOUR WRIST.

WELL,
YOU'RE NOT DEAD.

I CAN FEEL A PULSE
IN YOUR WRIST.

YOU KNOW
WHAT THAT MEANS?

WHAT?

IT MEANS
YOUR HEART'S STILL BEATING.

AND YOU CAN'T BE DEAD
IF YOUR HEART'S STILL BEATING.

YOU SEE,
I'M A DOCTOR,

AND I'M TELLING YOU IF YOU EVER
WANT TO KNOW YOU'RE DEAD,

FEEL YOUR PULSE.

I CAN FEEL IT.

I'M NOT DEAD.

YOU'RE NOT DEAD.

I'M NOT DEAD,
MOMMY!

Sarah:
SHE'S OKAY?!

OKAY,
SHE'S FINE.

DO YOU HAVE A CELLPHONE IN
THERE? I NEED TO CALL FOR HELP.

UH, UH, YEAH.
I SEE IT.

IT SHATTERED, THOUGH.
IT -IT WOULDN'T MATTER,ANYWAY.

I DRIVE THIS ROAD
EVERY WEEK,

AND THERE'S NEVER
ANY CELL SIGNAL.

OKAY, I'M GONNA CHECK
ON THE OTHER DRIVER,

SEE IF THEY HAVE A PHONE.
YOU'RE LEAVING US?

WHAT? NO. I JUST SAID THERE'S
NEVER ANY CELL SIGNAL UP HERE.

IT'S NOT
GONNA BE DIFFERENT.

SARAH,
I'M GONNA CHECK ON THEM...

I CAN'T -I CAN'T MOVE.
I AM STUCK.

...LIKE I CHECKED ON YOU, OKAY?
I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.
PLEASE DON'T LEAVE.

YOU PROMISE?

I PROMISE.

OKAY.

HELLO?

[ GRUNTS ] HELLO?

HELLO?

Alana: HELP!

[ GASPING ]

[ WHIMPERING ]

HELP!

HELP!
[ WHIMPERING ]

HEY.

CAN YOU
TELL ME YOUR NAME?

ALANA.
ALANA.

IT'S HARD
TO BREATHE.

OKAY.

ALL RIGHT.
LET'S TAKE A SECOND.

YOU PROBABLY GOT THE WIND
KNOCKED OUT OF YOU WHEN
YOU HIT THE GROUND.

LUCKY YOU DIDN'T HIT
THE PAVEMENT.

YEAH.
YOU FEEL ANY PAIN?

I DON'T --
I DON'T THINK SO.

DOES IT HURT ANYWHERE?

NO.

I'M NOT
SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

I HAVE TO GO.

I-I HAVE TO GO.
I HAVE TO GO.
CAREFUL. CAREFUL.

I HAVE TO CALL MY MOM.
WHERE'S MY PHONE?

MY PHONE'S NOT WORKING.
WHY IS MY PHONE NOT WORKING?

OKAY.
LISTEN TO ME.

LISTEN TO ME.
YOU'RE PROBABLY IN SHOCK, OKAY?

YOU HAVE A LOT OF ADRENALINE
GOING THROUGH YOU RIGHT NOW.

THERE MIGHT BE
SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU

THAT YOU DON'T FEEL RIGHT NOW,
SO I NEED YOU TO SLOW DOWN.

OKAY.

ALL RIGHT.

CAN YOU TELL ME
WHAT DAY IT IS?

THURSDAY.
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE AT SCHOOL.

IN CHEM.
WE HAVE A QUIZ.

IS THAT
WHY YOU WERE DRIVING SO CRAZY?

I WASN'T DRIVING.

WHO WAS DRIVING?

CHARLIE.
IT'S HIS DAD'S CAR.

HEY!
HEY, CHARLIE.

HEY.

STOP.

STOP.

YOU OKAY?

YEAH.
I'M FINE.

HEY, LET'S GET
OUT OF THE ROAD.

I DON'T FEEL GOOD.

W-WHAT HAPPENED?
YOU WERE
IN AN ACCIDENT.

[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]

HEY,
W-WHAT HAPPENED?

UM, LET'S GET YOU
OUT OF THIS ROAD.
I REALLY DON'T FEEL SO GOOD.

WHAT HAPPENED?
UM, LET'S GET
OUT OF THE ROAD.

SIR, D-DO YOU KNOW
WHAT HAPPENED?
YEAH, YOU --

'CAUSE I REALLY
DON'T FEEL SO GOOD.

NO, NO, NO, NO, NO.
WHAT -WHAT HAPPENED?

CHARLIE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT
HAPPENED, CHARLIE. I DON'T...

OH, MY GOD, CHARLIE.
LOOK AT YOUR HEAD.

ARE YOU OKAY?

HELP ME
GET HIM DOWN.

Alana:
WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM?

WHY ISN'T HE SAYING ANYTHING?
CHARLIE?

HE HIT HIS HEAD REALLY HARD.
I NEED TO FIND A FIRST-AID KIT.

OH, YOU GOT
TO BE KIDDING ME.

OKAY, ARE YOU -YOU GUYS
STILL DOING OKAY IN HERE?

Winnie: YEAH.
YOU'RE GONNA
GET US OUT NOW?

I NEED SUPPLIES.
WHAT DO YOU GOT IN THE BACK?

UM, A FIRST-AID KIT --
WINNIE'S BACKPACK.

OKAY, WINNIE, IT'S SAFETY GLASS.
IT'S NOT GONNA HURT YOU,

BUT I NEED YOU
TO GET BACK, ALL RIGHT?

GET BACK.

ARE YOU GONNA
LEAVE US HERE AGAIN?

[ SIGHS ] NO.

THINK YOU CAN
CLIMB OUT FOR ME?

YEAH, I CAN.
Sarah: BE CAREFUL.

CAN YOU MAKE SURE
WINNIE'S CAREFUL?
OKAY, I GOT HER.

IS SHE OUT?
YEAH, SHE'S OUT.

I'M OUT,
MOM.

I'M GOOD.
OKAY.

ALL RIGHT, SARAH,
I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.

NOT GOING ANYWHERE.

I'M GONNA GET
YOUR MOM.

WINNIE, YOU THINK
YOU CAN GO DOWN THERE

AND KEEP
THOSE TWO COMPANY?

THE PEOPLE WHO HIT OUR CAR?
NO, THANKS.

I'M GOOD
TO WAIT HERE.

THERE'S BANDAGES IN HERE.
THEY COULD USE THEM.

MY MOM'S GONNA BE
IN A LOT OF PAIN,

AND YOU DON'T WANT ME
TO SEE IT.

NO.

YES.

I CAN DEAL
WITH SEEING STUFF.

MY DAD DIED
RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.

WE WERE FISHING
ON THE LAKE,

AND HE HAD A HEART ATTACK
ON THE BOAT AND DIED.

DO YOU FISH?

NO ONE'S GONNA DIE,
WINNIE.

YOU AREN'T GOD, SO...
YOU DON'T KNOW.

I'LL GO WAIT
WITH THEM.

OKAY, SARAH,
YOU READY?

ONE, TWO, THREE.

[ SIGHS ] GOD,
I LOVED THIS CAR SO MUCH!

IT'S THE FIRST NEW CAR
THAT WE EVER HAD.

AND...BOOM, SOME RICH GUY IN
AN OVERPRICED MIDLIFE CRISIS

JUST --
YOU SAW HIM, RIGHT?

THE GUY
THAT HIT US?

TOTAL PIG, RIGHT?

IT WAS
A 17-YEAR-OLD KID.

CRAP.
NOW I CAN'T EVEN HATE HIM.

[ GASPS ] I BET
HIS PARENTS ARE AWFUL.

ALL RIGHT, SARAH, I GOT
TO GET YOU OUT OF THIS CAR.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

LISTEN. GETTING YOU OUT?
IT'S GOING TO HURT. A LOT.

OKAY. I KNOW
THAT I SHOULD BE IN PAIN,

AND, UM, I DON'T KNOW
I-IF IT'S SHOCK

OR IF IT'S THAT
MY LEG HURTS SO BADLY

THAT I ALMOST
CAN'T RECOGNIZE IT.

ALMOST FEELS NORMAL, SO MAYBE IT
WON'T BE SO BAD GETTING ME OUT.

SOUNDS LIKE
YOU DISLOCATED YOUR HIP.

WHICH MEANS I GOT
TO GET YOU OUT OF THIS CAR.

OHH! OKAY.

DOWN ON THE GROUND, AND THEN
POP IT BACK IN THE SOCKET.

OKAY. ALL RIGHT.
ALL RIGHT, I'M NOT
GONNA SUGARCOAT IT.

IT'S GONNA BE HORRIBLE.

[ GROANS ]

WHAT HAPPENED?

THERE WAS
AN ACCIDENT.

WHAT HAPPENED?

THERE WAS A CAR ACCIDENT,
CHARLIE. [ GROANS ] OW!

ARE YOU OKAY?

MY STOMACH HURTS.
REALLY BAD.

I THINK I'M GONNA THROW UP
OR SOMETHING.

WHERE ARE WE?

WE HAD A CAR ACCIDENT,
OKAY?!

WE HAD
AN ACCIDENT!

[ SARAH SCREAMING ]

OKAY, STOP.
PLEASE, STOP.
I NEED
TO FIX YOUR LEG.

NO,
LET'S WAIT.

LET'S WAIT, UH, FOR HELP 'CAUSE
HELP'S COMING. IT'S COMING.

SARAH, THE DISLOCATION
HAS CUT OFF THE BLOOD
SUPPLY TO YOUR LEG.

IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING,
YOU COULD LOSE IT.

WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT,
WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT.

PLEASE,
PLEASE, PLEASE.

OKAY.

[ CRACK ]
AAH!

OHH!
GOOD.

OHH.
THANK GOD.

IT'S GOOD.
I HATE YOU.

[ CHUCKLES ]

DEREK! CHARLIE'S CAR!
THE CAR'S ON FIRE!

HEY!

ALANA, RUN!
WHAT ABOUT CHARLIE?

GET AWAY
FROM THE CAR!

COME ON, CHARLIE,
YOU GOT TO GET UP.

GET UP, GET UP,
GET UP, GET UP. COME ON.
AAH! AAH!

[ GRUNTS ]

COME ON.

OH, MY GOD!

THAT EXPLOSION
WAS HUGE.

Derek: DO YOU SEE
ALL THAT SMOKE?

SOMEONE'S GONNA SEE IT,

AND THEN THAT SOMEONE
IS GONNA SEND SOME HELP.

IT'S LIKE
A SMOKE SIGNAL.

MM-HMM.
WE'RE SO RESCUED.

I'M NOT
SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

OKAY, WE JUST NEED TO HANG ON
FOR A LITTLE BIT LONGER.

IS EVERYBODY OKAY?
I'M NOT
SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

I'M A MATHLETE.
I TAKE FIVE A.P. CLASSES.

I'M FIRST CHAIR
ON CELLO.

I HAVE
A PERFECT ATTENDANCE RECORD.

I HAVEN'T MISSED ONE DAY --
NOT ONE DAY OF SCHOOL.

I'M BORING.

[ CHUCKLES ]
CHARLIE ABBOT'S PROM KING.

[ Crying ]
HE'S IN REMEDIAL MATH.

HE'S NEVER EVEN
HEARD OF A.P.

HE'S DUMB AND POPULAR
AND TOTALLY GORGEOUS.

AND THIS MORNING, HE SAYS, "YOU
WANT TO GO FOR A RIDE?" TO ME.

SO, THE EARTH IS SHIFTING
ON ITS AXIS OR SOMETHING CRAZY

BECAUSE NO WAY.

CHARLIE ABBOTT
IS NOT SUPPOSED TO KISS ME.

AAH! AAH!

MM, SO SOMETHING IS WRONG.

SOME WORMHOLE
TO ANOTHER UNIVERSE HAS OPENED.

I DON'T KNOW,
BUT NOW I AM ON A ROAD

BECAUSE THE CAR I WAS IN
JUST FLEW THROUGH THE AIR

AND I JUST RAN
FROM A GIANT FIREBALL

AND CHARLIE ABBOTT'S BRAIN
IS BROKEN

AND MY STOMACH IS KILLING ME.

SO I AM OBVIOUSLY
NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

SO, CAN SOMEONE
PLEASE WAKE ME UP

OR WAVE YOUR MAGIC WAND
OR CLICK YOUR HEELS THREE TIMES

OR WHATEVER
SO I CAN GO HOME?

PLEASE. PLEASE.

WHAT? WHAT IS IT?
JUST LOOK AT MY EYES.

WHAT'S WRONG?
LOOK AT MY FACE.
LOOK AT MY EYES, OKAY?

I'M SCARED.

OKAY, OKAY,
JUST LOOK AT ME.
DEREK?

OKAY, WE NEED TO GET HER DOWN
ON THE GROUND. HELP ME, OKAY?

JUST COME WITH ME
RIGHT NOW.
OKAY.

EASY, EASY.
[ MOANING ]

I JUST NEED
TO UNDO A BUTTON

SO I CAN LOOK
AT YOUR STOMACH, OKAY?

I'M SCARED.
I KNOW.

I'M NOT GONNA GO ANYWHERE.
I'M HERE, OKAY? LOOK AT ME.

LOOK AT ME.
LOOK AT ME IN THE EYES.

ALL RIGHT,
I'M GONNA OPEN UP YOUR PANTS

SO I CAN JUST SEE
YOUR STOMACH, OKAY?

I JUST WANT
TO TAKE A QUICK LOOK.

I'M GONNA TAKE A LOOK.

OHH, GOD!

SARAH.
DEREK.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
IS IT MY STOMACH?

IS IT BLEEDING?
IT'S OKAY.

AM I DYING?
NO, NO, NO.

I WANT TO KNOW.

YOU HAVE A LITTLE CUT IN
YOUR TUMMY. IT'S GONNA BE OKAY.

[ MOANS ]
IT'S NO BIG DEAL.
I CAN TAKE CARE OF IT.

HOW?

HOW ARE YOU
GONNA FIX IT?

YOU DON'T KNOW.
[ SIGHS ]

OH, MY GOD,
I'M GONNA DIE OUT HERE.

CAN YOU
STOP SAYING THAT?

IT'S INSULTING.
I DON'T LET PEOPLE DIE.

I'M VERY GOOD
AT MY JOB,

EVEN NEXT TO THE ROADSIDE,
OKAY?

I'M THINKING.

I'M THINKING.

[ GROANS ]

SARAH.

YOU HAVE DRY-CLEANING
IN THE CAR, RIGHT, SARAH?

YEAH,
I THINK SO.

[ GROANING ]

SO, CHARLIE KISSED YOU
THIS MORNING.

WAS THAT
YOUR FIRST KISS?

YES. EXCEPT FOR THE GUY
WHO PLAYS SECOND-CHAIR CELLO.

HE DOESN'T COUNT.

[ Chuckling ] WHY?

IT WAS JUST
PRACTICE KISSING.

SO, SHOULD I
BE PRACTICING?

NO.
YEAH,
BUT SHE JUST --

BUT HOW MUCH TROUBLE
DO YOU THINK SHE'S GONNA BE IN

WHEN HER MOTHER FINDS OUT
WHAT SHE'S BEEN UP TO TODAY?

SHE HAS A POINT.

I'M NOT
YOUR ROLE MODEL.

I DON'T THINK KISSING CHARLIE
WAS WORTH ALL THIS.

EVERY KISS BEFORE THE RIGHT KISS
DOESN'T COUNT ANYWAY.

I'VE KISSED
A LOT OF WOMEN.

THE FIRST TIME
I KISSED MY WIFE, WELL...

I MEAN,
SHE WASN'T MY WIFE THEN.

SHE WAS JUST
THIS GIRL IN A BAR.

AND WHEN WE KISSED,
IT -IT WAS LIKE...

I GOT TO TELL YOU,
IT WAS LIKE

I NEVER KISSED
ANY OTHER WOMAN BEFORE.

IT WAS LIKE
THE FIRST KISS.

THE RIGHT KISS.

? THIS LAND BELONGS
TO THE GULLS ?

DO YOU HAVE
A BROTHER?

? AND THE GULLS TO THEIR CRY ?

[ SIGHS ]

? AND THEIR CRY TO THE WIND ?

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY
TO SAVE LIVES.

WHAT --
WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

OH, IT'S JUST
A THING I SAY.

OH.

? AND THE WIND
BELONGS TO NO ONE ?

[ SIRENS WAILING ]

DO YOU HEAR THAT?

HEAR WHAT?

[ WAILING CONTINUES ]
HEAR THAT?

THEY GOT
OUR SMOKE SIGNAL!

YEAH, THEY GOT
OUR SMOKE SIGNAL.
THEY GOT US!

[ WAILING CONTINUES,
HORN BLARES ]

[ INDISTINCT TALKING,
RADIO CHATTER ]

? I'M CLIMBING
HAND OVER HAND ?

? TOWARD THAT PINPRICK
OF LIGHT ?

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

I'LL VISIT YOU

FIRST THING IN THE MORNING
AT THE HOSPITAL, OKAY?

THANK YOU.

OKAY,
WATCH YOUR STEP.

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

THANK YOU.

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

GOT TO HAND IT
TO YOU, DOC.

Firefighter: NOW GO
HOME AND HAVE YOURSELF
A DRINK. YOU EARNED IT.

THANKS.

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

? OH, BABY ?

[ GRUNTS ]

[ SIGHS ]
? TRY TO RECOGNIZE IT
IN MY MIND ?

? TRY TO STAMP IT OUT
BEFORE IT HAPPENS ?

[ ENGINE TURNS OVER ]

? I TRY TO RECOGNIZE IT
IN MY MIND ?

[ CELLPHONE BUZZING ]

? TRY TO STAMP IT OUT ?

? TOWARD THE SEED
THAT GOD SOWED ?

[ HORN BLARES ]

[ CRASH, TIRES SCREECHING ]

SHE TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY.

SHE TOLD ME
EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE.

[ SIREN WAILS, RADIO CHATTER ]
FUNNY, ISN'T IT,
THE WAY MEMORY WORKS?

THE THINGS
YOU CAN'T QUITE REMEMBER...

AND THE THINGS
YOU CAN NEVER FORGET.

[ SIREN WAILING ]

Owen: WHAT DO WE HAVE?
WHERE SHOULD I START?

A BAD ONE. JEROME DAVIS.

BLUNT-FORCE TRAUMA,
OPEN SKULL FRACTURE.

HE KEEPS TRYING
TO DIE ON US.

LET'S GET HIM INSIDE.
LET'S GO.

NO, NO, NO,
WAIT.

WHAT, NO!
ANOTHER ONE?!

NO, NO,
NO, NO, NO.

WE'VE ALREADY GOT THAT --
THAT LADY AND HER KID,

THE -THE GIRL
WITH THE GUTS,

AND THEN THAT DUDE
WITH THE HEAD INJURY.

WHEN IT RAINS,
IT POURS.

OKAY,
IT NEEDS TO POUR SOMEWHERE ELSE

BECAUSE WE ARE NOT
A TRAUMA CENTER.

WE'RE NOT PROPERLY EQUIPPED
FOR THIS KIND OF THING.

WE DON'T HAVE ROOMS.
YOU GUYS KNOW THAT.

MAKE ROOM.

WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO
WITH THE GUY?

LOOK AT HIM.

[ SIGHS ]

ALL RIGHT, FINE.
THIS ISN'T ON ME.

[ ENGINE TURNS OVER ]

JOHN DOE BROADSIDED
BY A SEMI TRUCK.

BLUNT-FORCE TRAUMA TO THE HEAD,
CHEST, AND ABDOMEN.

PERSISTENT HYPOTENSION
AFTER TWO LITERS OF SALINE.

PULSE IS THREADY
AT 130.

Derek:
YOU'RE NOT DEAD.

JUST BREATHE.

I NEED
FOUR UNITS OF BLOOD.

SCALP LAC.

PROBABLY MULTIPLE FRACTURES.

TRY TO HOLD STILL.

JOHN DOE. BAD MVA.
HAD TO BE EXTRICATED.

POSITIVE LOSS OF CONSCIOUSNESS
AT THE SCENE.

HE'S POORLY RESPONSIVE.

Toby: GCS OF 10.
WHAT'S YOUR NAME,
SIR?

CAN YOU HEAR ME?

YES. YES, I CAN HEAR YOU.

LOSS OF VERBAL SKILLS.

POSSIBLE BLEEDING IN THE BRAIN.

HIS PUPILS
ARE EQUAL AND REACTIVE.

GOOD SIGN.
STILL SHOULD GET A C.T.

HE'S GOT A FLAIL CHEST
IN THE RIGHT. I NEED A
36 FRENCH TUBE NOW.

SIR, CAN YOU TELL ME
YOUR NAME?

HE'S STILL HYPOTENSIVE
AND TACHYCARDIC. UP TO
TWO FLUID BOLUSES.

HE COULD BE BLEEDING
IN HIS CHEST.

HANG TWO UNITS OF BLOOD
ON THE INFUSER.

I NEED A TRAUMA PANEL AND X-RAY,
AND CROSS HIM FOR FOUR.

AND SOMEBODY
PAGE SURGERY AGAIN.

SHE'S SMART.
I LIKE HER.

I'M SORRY.

THIS IS GONNA HURT,
BUT WE HAVE TO DO IT.

[ GASPS ]

[ GASPS ]

THAT MUST HAVE HURT.
I'M SORRY.

CAN YOU PLEASE
TELL ME YOUR NAME?

CAN YOU
TELL ME ANYTHING?

[ MUTTERING ]

[ INDISTINCT TALKING ]

[ GROANS ]

EXCUSE ME, TOBY?

MOM, I'M GOING
TO THE BATHROOM.

ASK A NURSE
WHERE IT IS.

OW. YEAH.
RIGHT THERE.

Edie:
I'M ORDERING A HEAD C.T.

WE DON'T KNOW THE EXTENT
OF HIS HEAD INJURY.

SHE'S RIGHT.

YOU DON'T.

Paul:
LOOK AT THE ULTRASOUND.

HE'S BLEEDING
INTO HIS BELLY.

WE DON'T HAVE TIME
FOR A C.T.

ARROGANT --

BECAUSE SHE'S YOUNGER THAN YOU

AND PROBABLY
BECAUSE SHE'S A WOMAN.

I JUST THINK THAT --
WE DON'T HAVE TIME FOR A C.T.

HE NEEDS TO GO
STRAIGHT TO THE O.R.

YOU HAVE THIS.
COME ON. DON'T BACK DOWN.

I DON'T THINK WE HAVE A HANDLE
ON --

HIS GCS HASN'T CHANGED
SINCE HE GOT HERE.

THE C.T. CAN WAIT.

Tech: C-SPINE, CHEST,
AND PELVIS FILMS ARE UP.

[ CURTAIN RUSTLES ]

DEREK?

WINNIE.
YOU SHOULDN'T BE IN HERE.

YOU'RE NOT DEAD.

[ Voice breaking ]
I KNOW YOU'RE NOT DEAD.

KNOW HOW I KNOW?

'CAUSE I CAN FEEL
YOUR PULSE,

WHICH MEANS YOUR HEART
IS BEATING.

[ Crying ]
YOUR HEART IS BEATING,

WHICH MEANS
YOU'RE NOT DEAD, OKAY?

HEY.
EYES ON ME.

YOU STAY NOT DEAD,
OKAY?

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY
TO SAVE LIVES, RIGHT?

SO YOU STAY
NOT DEAD.

Paul: WHERE ARE YOU
SUPPOSED TO BE?

IS HE
GONNA BE ALL RIGHT?

WHOSE KID IS THIS?

I'LL DEAL WITH IT.

I'M NOT DEAD.
I'M NOT DEAD.

THAT MAN --
DO YOU KNOW HIM?

YEAH,
THAT'S DEREK.

DEREK? DEREK W-WHO?
IS HE A FAMILY MEMBER?

A NEIGHBOR?

HE'S MY FRIEND.

OKAY.

DO YOU KNOW
YOUR FRIEND'S LAST NAME?

NO, I MEAN,
I JUST MET HIM TODAY.

HE PULLED ME AND MY MOM OUT
OF OUR CAR AFTER THE ACCIDENT.

HE FIXED HER LEG,
HE HELPED CHARLIE,

AND HE PUT ALANA'S INSIDES
BACK IN.

HE SAVED US.

HE SAVED YOU?

ALL OF US.

HE'S A DOCTOR.

HE'S A DOCTOR?

A SURGEON,
I THINK.

[ SLEEPING AT LAST'S
"TODAY HAS BEEN OKAY" PLAYS ]

MY HEAD.
LOOK AT MY HEAD.

[ MONITORS BEEPING ]
SEDATION, PLEASE!

? FRIENDS TELL ME IT'S SPRING ?

YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN,
BUDDY.

HE'S A SURGEON.

LET'S GET A...

HE'S A SURGEON,
AND HE JUST SAVED EVERYONE

FROM THE CAR ACCIDENT
THAT JUST CAME THROUGH.

? WITHOUT YOU HERE,
THE SEASONS PASS ME BY ?

DOCTOR,
WE'RE GONNA SEDATE YOU NOW

SO WE CAN SECURE
YOUR AIRWAY.

YOU'RE GONNA BE FINE.
NO. I'M NOT.

YOU NEED TO WAIT.

SUX AND ETOMIDATE IN?
YES.

? I KNOW YOU WERE NOT NEW ?

IT'S OKAY.

WE'VE GOT YOU.

IT IS ALL
GONNA BE OKAY.

THIS ISN'T RIGHT.

YOU SHOULD HAVE TAKEN ME
TO GET A HEAD C.T.

HIS PRESSURE'S HOLDING.
MAYBE WE SHOULD GET THE SCAN.

YES, LISTEN TO HER.

TOO RISKY. HE COULD BOTTOM
OUT IN THE SCANNER. WE
NEED TO OPEN HIM UP.

FIND THE SOURCE
OF THE BLEEDING.

NO, YOU DON'T.
YOU HAVE THE TIME.

WE HAVE TO WORK FAST,
PEOPLE.
I'M STABLE.

GUYS, I'M STABLE.

TAKE ME TO GET THE HEAD C.T.

LET'S SET UP
FOR AN EX-LAP.

COMING THROUGH.

I'M GOING TO DIE BECAUSE THESE
PEOPLE AREN'T PROPERLY TRAINED.

? TODAY HAS BEEN OKAY ?

ONE, TWO, THREE.

Paul:
HE'S HYPOTENSIVE.

START HIM ON PRESSORS.
BETADINE.

I CAN'T FEEL MY ARM.

WHAT IS HAPPENING?

READY TO PUT HIM UNDER.

NO, I HAVE A HEAD LAC.

DON'T MISS. DON'T MISS!

THE COLON'S AVULSED.

WE'LL NEED TO RESECT AND
CREATE A TEMPORARY COLOSTOMY.

WELL, IT'S BETTER
THAN BEING DEAD, I GUESS.

HE'S GOT
A GRADE-2 SPLENIC LAC.

MEREDITH WOULD LEAVE IT.
Paul:
LET'S LEAVE IT.

CHECK THE FOUR QUADRANTS.

AND SHE'D DOUBLE CHECK
THE RETROHEPATIC SPACE.

MAKE SURE TO CHECK
THE RETROHEPATIC SPACE.
NOT BAD.

[ MONITORS BEEPING RAPIDLY ]
CRAP. DROPPED HIS SATS.

DECREASED BREATH SOUNDS
ON THE RIGHT.

CHECK THE TEST TUBE.

THE TEST TUBE
LOOKS GOOD.

CHECK IT AGAIN.
[ BEEPING CONTINUES ]

CRAP. HE'S GOT
A HUGE HEMOTHORAX.

WE HAVE TO OPEN HIS CHEST.
THORACOTOMY TRAY.

NO, DON'T. JUST WAIT.
SEE HOW MUCH BLOOD COMES OUT.

IT'LL PROBABLY STOP.
JUST WAIT!

SCALPEL.

HE'S STILL HYPOTENSIVE.

I CAN'T FIND
ANY LUNG LACERATION.

HILUM'S INTACT.
HE'S NOT BLEEDING IN HIS CHEST.

THIS MAKES NO SENSE.
WE'RE MISSING SOMETHING.

SET UP FOR A T.E.E.

NOT THAT.
THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU'RE MISSING.

[ MONITORS BEEPING RAPIDLY ]
PERSISTENT BRADYCARDIA.

CHECK MY HEAD.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHAT THE HELL IS...

HE HAD
A HEAD LAC.

CHECK HIS PUPILS.

? COME ON,
PUT YOUR HANDS INTO THE FIRE ?

HIS RIGHT PUPIL
IS BLOWN.

PAGE NEUROSURGERY
RIGHT FREAKING NOW.
WE DID.

THEN PAGE THEM AGAIN.

THEN PAGE THEM AGAIN.

? AS I TURN, I MEET THE POWER ?

? THIS TIME, THIS TIME ?

[ DOOR OPENS ]
ANY WORD?

THE NEUROSURGEON
WAS AT A DINNER.

DINNER?

DINNER?

HE SAID HE'LL BE HERE
IN 20 MINUTES.

IT WILL BE TOO LATE.

? PULL UP ?

DAMN IT.

? FROM ONE EXTREME TO ANOTHER ?

? FROM THE SUMMER
TO THE SPRING ?

? FROM THE MOUNTAIN
TO THE AIR ?

WHERE THE HELL
IS HE?

PAGE HIM AGAIN.

? FROM SAMARITAN TO SIN ?

? AND IT'S WAITING ON THE AIR ?

[ AIR HISSING ]

? COME ON, COME ON ?

THANK GOD.

WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU PEOPLE
SCREWED UP NOW?

US?

YOU'RE ON CALL FOR TRAUMA.
WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG?

WHO THE HELL
ARE YOU?

YOUR RESPONSE TIME
WAS SUPPOSED TO BE 20 MINUTES.

IT WOULDN'T HAVE MADE
A DIFFERENCE.

IF YOU GUYS HAD ORDERED
A HEAD C.T., YOU WOULD
HAVE CALLED ME SOONER.

WHAT AM I
SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT THAT?

WE NEEDED
TO CONTROL.
HE WAS BLEEDING
INTO HIS BELLY.

Dr. Cohn:
HE WAS STABLE.

YOU HAD THE TIME.

NOW I'VE GOT TO WORK LIKE HELL
TO SAVE THIS MAN, THANKS TO YOU.

THERE'S NO POINT.

YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE HERE
IN 20 MINUTES,

NOT AN HOUR AND A HALF.

WE HAD A CHANCE.
HE HAD A FREAKING CHANCE.

GET OUT
OF MY O.R.

WHAT?

YOU HEARD ME.

UNLESS YOU'RE GONNA BE CUTTING
INTO THIS MAN'S HEAD,

YOU CAN GET OUT.

NOW.

NOW!

? FROM SAMARITAN TO SIN ?

? AND IT'S WAITING ON THE AIR ?

I'M GONNA SCRUB IN.

SOMEONE PULL IN
THE CRANIOTOMY TRAY.

WE'VE ALREADY WASTED
ENOUGH TIME.

IT'S TOO LATE.

YOU'RE TOO LATE.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

? FROM THE SUMMER
TO THE SPRING ?

? FROM THE MOUNTAIN TO THE AIR ?

HEY.

WHAT DID YOU DO?

OH, I DID
WHAT I ALWAYS DO,

EXCEPT I ALMOST
KILLED MYSELF DOING IT.

DON'T MAKE JOKES.

I WAS SCARED.

NO,
DON'T BE SCARED.

I'M NOT
GOING ANYWHERE.

? COME ON, COME ON ?

COME HERE.

MM.
I'M RIGHT HERE.

? COME ON, COME ON ?

Officer: MA'AM?

MA'AM?

MA'AM, IS THIS THE HOME
OF DEREK SHEPHERD?

IT IS.
HE'S MY HUSBAND.

I'M AFRAID
THERE'S BEEN AN ACCIDENT.

COULD YOU COME WITH US,
PLEASE?

ARE YOU OKAY?

I C-I-I CAN'T
JUST GO.

I -WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO
WITH MY KIDS?

Ellis: BLOOD.
IT'S JUST BLOOD.

MEREDITH, DON'T BE AFRAID.

DON'T BE AFRAI...

[ Telephone dialing ]

[ Ringing ]

DISPATCHER: 911.
What's your emergency?

Young Meredith: MY MOMMY
TRIED TO KILL HERSELF.

Dr. Cohn: DR. GREY.

DR. GREY, I CAN'T...

WE CAN'T TELL YOU
HOW SORRY...

I AM SO SORRY
FOR YOUR LOSS.

DR. SHEPHERD
WAS A TREMENDOUS SURGEON --

T-TREMENDOUSLY GIFTED.

I'VE LONG ADMIRED
HIS TECHNIQUES.

I...

IT...
WAS AN HONOR.

THE CALL TO NOT GET A HEAD C.T.
WAS A BAD CALL.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

WE'RE NOT
A TRAUMA CENTER.

WE'RE
A TEACHING HOSPITAL.

YOU DID
THE BEST YOU COULD.

[ RESPIRATOR HISSING,
MONITORS BEEPING ]

MA'AM?

I THOUGHT
THAT IF THIS WAS A GOOD TIME,

I MIGHT TAKE A MOMENT TO EXPLAIN
HOW THIS ALL WORKS.

WHERE ARE
THE PAPERS?

MRS. SHEPHERD, THERE'S SOME
THINGS YOU NEED TO KNOW --

SOME THINGS
WE NEED TO DISCUSS.

DIFFICULT THINGS.

I'M A DOCTOR.
DR. GREY.

I'M A SURGEON,
JUST LIKE MY HUSBAND WAS.

I KNOW
HOW THIS WORKS.

YOU'VE WAITED
THE REQUISITE NUMBER OF HOURS,

AND NOW YOU CAN
OFFICIALLY DECLARE HIM DEAD.

NORMALLY, YOU'D TALK TO ME
ABOUT ORGAN DONATION.

BUT BY THE LOOKS
OF HIS CHART,

THERE'S NOT MUCH LEFT
THAT WORKS TO DONATE.

SO,
THE I.C.U. NEEDS A BED.

THOSE MUST BE
THE PAPERS --

THE PAPERS
YOU WANT ME TO SIGN

TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO
WITH MY HUSBAND...

NOW THAT HE'S DEAD,
BUT NOT REALLY DEAD.

DO WE SHIP HIM OFF
TO A LONG-TERM-CARE FACILITY

AND CROSS OUR FINGERS AND
HOPE FOR FAIRY TALES AND MAGIC?

OR DO I PULL THE PLUG?

AND STOP
ALL CURATIVE INTERVENTION?

DISCONTINUE
ALL ROUTINE MONITORING,

REMOVE ALL THE CATHETERS,
DRAINS, AND TUBES,

END ANY
AND ALL TREATMENTS

THAT MIGHT PROVIDE COMFORT
TO THE PATIENT.

TERMINATE ALL...

LIFE-SUSTAINING MEASURES...

...AND BEHAVE AS ANY SANE DOCTOR
WOULD BEHAVE.

DOES THAT ABOUT COVER IT,
DOCTOR?

[ Voice breaking ] IS THAT WHAT
YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT...

WHILE I SIT HERE
WITH MY SLEEPING CHILDREN?

YOU WANT TO TALK
ABOUT KILLING MY HUSBAND?

GIVE ME
THE PAPERS.

MA'AM --

GIVE ME THE PAPERS!

[ SOBBING ]

[ BREATHING DEEPLY ]

[ Crying ]
I'M SO SORRY.

I KNOW THAT
THAT'S USELESS TO YOU RIGHT NOW.

[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]
BUT I AM.

HE SAVED
ALL THOSE PEOPLE.

AND IT WAS MY JOB...
TO SAVE HIM.

AND I FAILED.

AND NOW...
HE'S GONNA DIE...

BECAUSE I WAS NOT
A GOOD ENOUGH DOCTOR...

[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]

...TO KEEP HIM ALIVE.

YEAH, YOU'RE RIGHT.
YOU DID FAIL.

YOU WEREN'T
GOOD ENOUGH.

BUT DO YOU KNOW
WHAT TOMORROW IS?

IT'S FRIDAY.

THERE'S GONNA BE MORE PATIENTS
WHO COME IN

WHO NEED YOU
TO SAVE THEM --

SOMEONE'S MOTHER, SOMEONE'S KID,
SOMEONE'S HUSBAND.

THEY NEED YOU
TO SAVE THEM

BECAUSE THEY CAN'T
SAVE THEMSELVES.

SO LEARN FROM THIS,
BETTER YOURSELF,

AND YOU WILL BE BETTER
FOR NEXT TIME.

WHAT IF I'M NOT?

YOU WILL BE.

HOW CAN YOU KNOW THAT?

BECAUSE HE
WAS YOUR ONE.

EVERY PATIENT
YOU TREAT,

YOU'RE GOING TO SEE
MY HUSBAND'S FACE

AND REMEMBER THAT HE WAS THE ONE
THAT DIED ON YOUR WATCH.

HE WILL HAUNT YOU.
THE HARD ONES ALWAYS DO.

AND IT ONLY TAKES
THAT ONE.

BUT THAT ONE
WILL MAKE YOU WORK HARDER,

AND THEY MAKE YOU BETTER.

OR THEY MAKE YOU QUIT,
AND YOU DON'T GET TO WASTE

WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN
THE REST OF MY HUSBAND'S LIFE

BEING A QUITTER.

SO GET BACK INSIDE

BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT
SAVING ANY LIVES OUT HERE.

I REALLY AM SO--

YEAH, I KNOW.
I KNOW.

[ SIGHS ]

[ COUGHING ]

[ TELEPHONE RINGS ]

THERE'S A SOCIAL WORKER
OUT THERE WITH MY KIDS.

IF THIS
TAKES A WHILE...

WE GOT THEM.

DON'T WORRY.

I JUST NEED
THE PAPERS.

[ RESPIRATOR HISSING,
MONITORS BEEPING ]

WE'RE GONNA BEGIN NOW.

YOU CAN SIT
NEXT TO HIM.

[ "CHASING CARS" PLAYS ]

? WE'LL DO IT ALL ?

[ BEEPING STOPS ]

? EVERYTHING ?

? ON OUR OWN ?

? WE DON'T NEED ?

? ANYTHING ?

? OR ANYONE ?

? IF I LAY HERE ?
WAIT.

MA'AM --
JUST WAIT!

? IF I JUST LAY HERE ?

? WOULD YOU LIE WITH ME
AND JUST FORGET THE WORLD? ?

DEREK.

? I DON'T QUITE KNOW ?

DEREK.

? HOW TO SAY ?
Derek: SO,
WHAT'S YOUR STORY?

I DON'T HAVE A STORY.
I'M JUST A GIRL IN A BAR.

? HOW I FEEL ?
I'M JUST
A GUY IN A BAR.

WANT TO GO AGAIN?

[ BOTH LAUGH ]

I LOVE YOU,
MEREDITH GREY.

? THOSE THREE WORDS ?
AND I WANT TO SPEND
THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU.

? ARE SAID TOO MUCH ?
Derek: YOU'RE THE LOVE
OF MY LIFE.

I CAN'T LEAVE YOU.

? THEY'RE NOT ENOUGH ?

YOU WERE LIKE COMING UP
FOR FRESH AIR.

? AND IF I LAY HERE ?
IT'S LIKE I WAS DROWNING,
AND YOU SAVED ME.

? IF I JUST LAY HERE ?
I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU.

? WOULD YOU LIE WITH ME ?
I'VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU
FOREVER.

? AND JUST FORGET THE WORLD? ?

? FORGET WHAT WE'RE TOLD ?
SO, UM, GOODBYE.

? BEFORE WE GET TOO OLD ?
UM...

DEREK.

DEREK.

? SHOW ME A GARDEN ?
RIGHT. MEREDITH.

MEREDITH.
YEAH.

? THAT'S BURSTING INTO LIFE ?
MM-HMM.

NICE MEETING YOU.
BYE, DEREK.

[ RESPIRATOR HISSING ]

? LET'S WASTE TIME ?

DEREK.

? CHASING CARS ?

IT'S OKAY.

? AROUND OUR HEADS ?

YOU GO.

? AND IF I LAY HERE ?

? IF I JUST LAY HERE ?
WE'LL BE FINE.

? WOULD YOU LIE WITH ME
AND JUST FORGET THE WORLD? ?

? FORGET WHAT WE'RE TOLD ?

ARE YOU READY?

? BEFORE WE GET TOO OLD ?
NO.
BUT GO AHEAD.

? SHOW ME A GARDEN
THAT'S BURSTING INTO LIFE ?

[ RESPIRATOR POWERS DOWN,
HISSING STOPS ]

? ALL THAT I AM ?

? ALL THAT I EVER WAS ?

? IS HERE IN YOUR PERFECT EYES ?

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

? THEY'RE ALL THAT I CAN SEE ?
[ MONITOR FLATLINES ]

? I DON'T KNOW WHERE ?

? CONFUSED ABOUT HOW AS WELL ?

? JUST KNOW THAT THESE THINGS
WILL NEVER ?
[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]

? CHANGE FOR US AT ALL ?

? AND IF I LAY HERE ?

? IF I JUST LAY HERE ?

? WOULD YOU LIE WITH ME
AND JUST FORGET THE WORLD? ?