Feral (2016–…): Season 1, Episode 5 - New Sides - full transcript

You remember my friend Katie

we hung out with last week?

The one that you really,

really hated?

Well, she texted me last night,

she just said she wanted
to hang out with us again

because she really thought
you were fun, um...

It's really funny, because I remember
you really fucking hated her.

Yeah.

I have a little time before
I have to go to work

if you wanna go get
lunch, or something.



I'm actually working on this,

but you're more than welcome
to do whatever you want.

I'll be off about 6:30 or 7:00.

If you wanted to
hang out, maybe.

Get dinner.

I could pick something up.

If you want.

I would've gotten coffee
for myself if I wanted some.

Do you not have
anything else to do?

Fuck.

Daniel?

What is your deal?

With what?

Why do you treat him like that?



- Treat him like how?
- Like shit.

I feel really bad for
that dude, he just...

if you don't like him that much,

then just break up with him,
it's really simple.

Okay, I'm just not
really in a place

to deal with that right now,

but I appreciate your input.

Will you pay attention
to me please?

I'm trying to talk to you.

Daniel.

Why do you treat him like shit?
Why do you treat him that way?

I told you I'd take your -

No, I'm curious.
Why do you treat him that way?

Do you like him?
Do you even want him around?

Sometimes, yeah.

He seems like a decent guy.

He's cute, he's nice.

What's not to like about him?

So I've been thinking about it.

And one of the things
you've taught me

over the million years
of our friendship

is that there's a way
to deal with the shit

and keep perspective.

To try to keep moving forward.

And...

I know I need to not
shut out the good times.

So...

I reworked the script,

because

I know

it's not healthy for me
to relive what was.

The relationship is
still fucked up.

But you're

trying to work through it.

Or out of it.

But to focus more on
the future than the past.

And I know it's not 100%, but...

that's where I am.

You can put that over there.

Billy, Billy, Billy.

You are a bad boy.

I needed a PA for the day.

What?

That tripod is heavy.

Billy: Stand by.

Roll sound.

Sound speed.

Speed.

Just wait a beat after
I say action.

Action.

I'm going to love you.

I will continue to love you

so long as it's healthy.

So long as it's seeds
make things grow,

and its fuel powers our cells.

And if it stops,
and one day it ceases,

that I will continue
to love you,

but not without seeing.

I will only love you in ways
that bring light to this life.

Because as intense
as emotions are,

there are millions of people in this
world that need each other's love

and we will not waste that.

A promise:

we will not

ever

waste each other's love.

We are either going
to make each other better,

and more beautiful,

or we're gonna move the fuck on.

We're fucking babies,
we're practically infants,

so what's the point in this
being so complicated?

Good - try that last line again,
don't get so casual.

Plus, look - we're fucking
babies, we're practically infants,

so what's the point in it
being so complicated?

And, cut.

Good. Better.

Can we get the other
lens on here,

the 35?

Um, good, that was
a good first take, um...

Can you just be more...

I don't want to say
more conversational,

it needs to be more natural.

It feels a little too...

much like you're reciting.

So, it just needs to
feel more...

heartfelt.

Alright, good.
Let's take it again.

Emily: Are you watching
"Dancing With the Stars?"

- Watching what?
- "Dancing With the Stars."

This year, yes.

I got rid of my cable
though, so like...

You got rid of your cable?

Had to give it the boot?

I just got over it.

Last week, on "Keeping Up
With the Kardashians"...

Stop! Stop right there.

- Kim was in Thailand...
- I'm intrigued!

She was making
a selfie book, and...

Billy! Looking forward
to the film.

Anxious to get it
in the store, man.

See you soon.

Thanks, Matt!

That's awesome!
Going in the store?

- That's unexpected.
- You're gonna be famous.

Really I'm gonna be famous,
because I'm in it,

but you'll kinda be famous.

Congratulations!

Band singer: Thank you,
we're Nots!

You look tired.

Sorry.

It's alright.

So...

Emily said that you
just moved here?

Yeah, about six months ago.

Feels like yesterday.

Feels like forever ago.

What do you think
of Memphis so far?

It's, an edgy city.

Coming from a small town,

I thought it would be
easier to meet boys.

But fuck if I was wrong.

But I've got my friends.

I've got my family.

My job.

Can't worry about
that other shit.

I mean, there's...

there's not a whole lot
to choose from here,

in the dating department.

Seems like most of the
good guys are taken.

Yeah - I've gotten a glimpse
of the bad ones,

and that ain't for me.

So, what about you?

What about me?

Are you seeing anyone?

No.

Who was he?

A guy I dated for
a really long time.

He...

I don't want this
to sound cheesy,

but I thought he was
my soulmate.

Who broke whose heart?

He definitely broke my heart.

But I think his heart
was already broken,

way before mine.

So what's the story
with this place?

It's my friend Wesley's house.

I think he's out of
town right now.

"Not gay as in happy,
but queer as in fuck you."

When Prop 8 dropped,

he just had this really
articulate street art response

to the anti-queer agenda.

And it was just an in-your-face,
like, "Fuck you,

this is what I have to say,
and you're going to see it,

hear it,
and deal with it."

And it was just like...

I don't know.

He said what he needed to say,

and it's inspiring,
it's nice to see that

someone knows
themself well enough

to express themselves
the way that they need to,

which is something that...

I'm really, like,
trying to get to.

If it's so inspiring,

why don't you do it?

Yourself - why don't
you make art like that?

I guess I could.

I know I have it in me,
but I'm really just like...

I just learned...
I don't know,

so far I've come

to this point where I know
what it is that I want.

And now it's

the journey of figuring out
how the fuck to get there.

I guess part of that was

me applying for this
study-abroad program.

I didn't know you were
doing that.

Yeah, well...

Tell me about it.
What's it for?

It's for graphic design.
It's six months in Berlin.

- That's so cool.
- Yeah.

If I get it, I get to
go over there,

and study my craft,
and maybe find that voice,

and find...

that purpose behind all of
what I'm trying to do.

That would be really cool.

Yeah.

I think...

you shouldn't wait

to start making the art you want

until you go to Berlin.

Why don't you start now?

What's holding you back?

Something about

a new,

free, open,

space for me,
having nothing attached to it,

it'll give me that blank page
where I can say what I need to say,

Here I feel really distracted,

I fel like there's just so much
going on around me

that I can't ignore,

or shut up long enough
for me to...

to articulate what
I want to say.

Maybe.

But I think now is
a better time than ever.

I think you need to get to it.

I gotta deal with this.

Alright.

It was really nice to meet you.

You too.

Wait, wait, wait. No.

I'm not trying to be like that.

You ot some unfinished
busines to take care of.

I'm just not trying
to do that, sorry.

What if I take care of my
business, like, right now.

If I call him like,
"sorry, we're done,"

can we keep going?

- Hey.
- Hey.

What's going on?

How you been?

It's been...

good.

How are you?

I'm alright.

How long have you
been living here?

Since...

Jordan, what are you doing?

Jordan!

Jordan, what are
you doing? Stop!

Jordan, stop!

Hey, thanks for...

helping me out.

I really need the money.

And I just... I didn't have
anybody else to ask.

Jordan, I know you've been dealt

some really fucked-up
shit in your life

and I get it, it fucking sucks

that the people who were
supposed to love you most

fucking abandoned you,
and left you out in the cold.

That really, really
fucking sucks,

but, Jesus, you're just a kid.

I didn't bring you any money.

Becuase this is your battle,
and you've gotta fight it.

Whatever, dude.

I came here to tell you that

you've gotta take
this fucking shit.

That has gotten you
to this place,

and you've got to turn it
into something special

You've got to pull
yourself out of this.

Otherwise you won't survive.

And I know you can do it.