Fear the Walking Dead (2015–…): Season 4, Episode 16 - ...I Lose Myself - full transcript

Morgan? June? Do you copy?

Morgan? June?

Do you copy?

I got out through the basement.

Had to hole up in a post office
for the night.

I'm in a parking garage
a couple miles south of the hospital.

If you...

You've got to be shitting me.

Shit.

He's strong now.

Where is everyone else?



What did you do to them?

You took my tapes.

You took my van.

You owe me.

I don't want to hurt you.

I like you.

You don't make people weak.

Lady, I don't know what that means.

I watched your interviews.

So many people needing something.

But you? You just gave them
whatever it took to get their story.

Nothing more.

That's real strength.

Where are my tapes?



Where's my van?

Where are they?

If I know Morgan, he's looking for you.

I want you to give him a message
when he finds you.

I'm not telling him shit.

You got a message, tell him yourself.

All right.

Al?

Al?

Al?

Where, where is sh...

Where... What... What happened?
Where is she?

- Who?
- The woman who's trying to kill us.

You were in the street.
We didn't see her.

We heard you over the walkie.

Then we went to that parking garage.

And when we didn't find you,

we figured you must have doubled back
to the hospital and tried to find us.

I saw Jim.

Did everyone else make it?

We're all here.

We're just circling the wagons
before we make the push to Virginia.

What did she say to you?

Bitch said she liked me.

Wanted me to deliver a message.

I demurred.

Well, she delivered it anyway.

She kind of made you her carrier pigeon.

What?

I am so disappointed in you, Morgan.

I gave you so many chances to be strong.

But you didn't take any of them.

But maybe it was my fault.

Maybe I wasn't strong enough.

You'll see me again, and when you do,

I'll be stronger than ever.

And I'll make you strong, too. I will.

So, Mo-Mo,

you finally going to tell us

where the hell in Virginia
we're actually going?

It's called Alexandria.

And there's a few places
more or less nearby.

Place with the king?

Uh-huh.

Pet tiger?

We'll go there.

How's the patient?

Better now.

Found a truck
with a full tank. On our way back.

Copy.

It appears we'll be arriving
in Alexandria via caravan.

Well, we're going to need the extra room.

Thought we'd make a stop
where we first met,

Polar Bear's truck stop.

We load up the boxes,
and we'll drop them on the road,

whole way to Virginia.

Well, we should get some sleep.

We hit the road at dawn.

Let's pack it in.

Maybe I wasn't strong enough.

But don't worry. I will be.

I can take over.

When did...

Nature called. I answered.

I expected to find you walking away.

I thought I was
going to have to jog after you

just to tell you
that I know what you're up to.

What am I up to, John?

Oh, you're going to run again.

You found a reason to leave us.

No. It's not...

It's not running.

She's dying, John.

We already tried to help her.
She don't want it.

She thinks the only way to be strong
is to die and turn.

She tried to kill you.
She tried to kill June.

She's stuck.

Whatever happened to her,
she thinks killing is the only way.

How you going to convince her otherwise?

Because I understand her. I...

I used to be her.

- I'll come with you.
- No. No, this is...

this is something
I've got to do on my own.

All of you, you go here.

This is how you get there, to Alexandria.

I put it on paper just in case.

- Oh, come on.
- You heard me, John.

Got to do this on my own.

Now, you told me
something like that once before.

You almost got yourself killed.

Now you're going to go off
and do the exact same thing again?

Why?

Why?

Because I do.

Man, that sounds like
she's not the only one who's stuck.

I will get to Alexandria.

I will meet you all there.

Hopefully, with her.

I'm going to wait
at that truck stop.

I bet everyone else will, too.

You don't come back inside of two days,

I'm going to come looking for you.

I will be there.

You know, there are some fish
in this world, just won't be caught,

no matter what you
dangle in front of them.

You could go after them, sure.

My gut tells me just to leave them be.

Now, I'm talking about fish, in this case.

But I think it applies to this woman, too.

I still got to try, though.

I know. I know you do.

You know, hell, you might be the fish.

Maybe I am.

I know you're listening.

And I know you think this is the only way
that you can be strong.

But I'm telling you there's another way.

Let me show you.

Let me try to.

Morgan?

I knew you'd come looking.

Where are you?

Mile marker 54.

I'm on my way.

Thank you.

Are we really doing this?

We could always
go back to the mansion.

The Château Lafite is waiting for us.

It's gone.

There's nothing for us back there.

So let's find something else to do.

Let's find another reason to live.

What?

Oh, now.

Come on.

What?

It's just, reminds me
of shopping at Bill's.

Have you seen the movie selection here?

I don't think we'll be getting back
to Bill's anytime soon.

Or my cabin.

Storm pretty much made that
a near certainty.

Hey.

Before the storm,
when you asked if I wanted to go...

No, that... That doesn't matter, June.

No. I want you to hear this.

I was scared that you'd realise that
I wasn't who you thought I was.

A lot has happened between then and now.

I know who you are.

Doesn't matter what your name is.

I know you.

I know you.

Doesn't take a whole day
to recognise sunshine.

Well, I wanted you to know
that I know who I am now.

You gave that to me.

I didn't even know it.

I needed to.

I needed you, John.

You armed?

Hey.

Not yet.

My people,

we can help you.

No.

No. Not yet. No!

There's no time. I'm taking you back.

No!

- Hey...
- You weren't supposed to see me like this.

Hey.

You're going to take these.

They'll clear up the infection.

So, what was that place?

What happened back there?

Who'd you lose?

It's a long trip.

Thought talking might help.

Morgan, do you copy?

Morgan, I repeat, do you copy?

John, I copy.

I found her.

I'm bringing her back.

Where are you taking me?

To Mississippi.

John, do you copy?

John?

Morgan, I repeat, do you copy?

I never should have let him go.

You saw the transmitter outside.

That baby's 50 watts.
If he's got ears, he can hear you.

But there's no way his
signal's getting back here,

at least not until he gets closer.

Told Wendell to lay off the sweetener.

How's it going up there?

This ought to get us to Virginia.

Smiley rode the engine without coolant.

Care to channel that anger
into something a bit more productive?

We could use some help with the boxes.

Got these.

Al?

Al!

Al? Okay.

Come on.

Better get inside.

We're going to have more company.

My husband.

What was his name?

Hank.

What happened to him?

Back when everything was starting,

we were trying to get out of the city.

I was driving.

Someone was
weaving in and out of the traffic,

trying to get ahead,

trying to get theirs.

And they clipped me.

My Hank,

he needed my help.

And I didn't know what to do.

I went out to the road,
tried to flag someone down.

But no one stopped.

No one pulled over to help.

And that is not your fault.

He needed me to be strong.

And I wasn't.

Hey, I know that's what you think.

But that isn't true.

You're...

you are stuck.

Morgan,
if you can hear this, please hurry back.

Something's wrong.

Al got sick.

We thought it was
what she had before.

But it's not just her.

It's all of us.

Morgan, something's not right.

Please, if you hear this...

...get back.

Can you hear me?

If you can hear me,
I'm on my way back, okay?

I am on my way back.

You hang on.

I can't.

Just pull over.

There's no time. I need to get back.

- Pull over.
- I said I can't!

Okay, okay. I'll take the damn medicine.

Here.

I told you not...

I told you

I was going to make you strong.

I think, Morgan,
that's what you always wanted.

It doesn't have to end this way for us.

It does for me.

I made sure you couldn't help.

Now, you either kill me, or I kill you.

I don't kill.

I got to get to them.

You'll never make it.

I got to try.

- Why?
- What?

It's not for them.

It's for you.

You're scared.

If they die...

Morgan?

...you'll become what you used to be.

That's why you left that place back east,

- before.
- Morgan, please hurry back.

That's why you came
to find me on your own.

I came to find you
because you needed help.

You knew I wouldn't take it.

I have been where you are. I have.

Morgan, are you there?

You still are.

Whatever this is,
it's getting worse.

You always will be
unless you decide to be strong.

Morgan?

Morgan?

Now, you either kill me,
and become what you used to be,

or you let me make you strong.

What the hell is this?

We just need to stay hydrated.

No.

No. No.

These bottles,
all of the seals have been broken.

Someone poisoned us.

She did.

Morgan. Morgan, she did this.

She put something in the water.

Is that true?

Last time I was there, I did.

I didn't know you
and your friends were going to stop.

It's like I was saying.

That's what you get for helping people.

You made them weak, Morgan.

What did you do? What is it?

It doesn't matter.

There's nothing you can do.

What is it?

What?

Antifreeze.

God!

She put antifreeze in the water.

Do you copy? It's antifreeze.

- They can't hear you.
- Oh, God.

You can't help them.

Don't you understand?

They are going to die.

And there is nothing you can do about it.

Now you're strong.

I knew it was still in you.

I won't.

They're going to die.

And there's nothing you can do.

Yes, there is.

You're going to be strong.

We both will.

You'll see.

What are you doing?

No! No!

Listen.

I won't kill you.

But I'm also not going to let you
kill anybody after you've turned.

It's not supposed to be this way.

It's not supposed to be this way!

It's not supposed to be this way!

Anybody hear me?

I repeat, can anybody hear me?

Anybody copy?

Come on. Does anybody copy?

Does anybody hear me?

I'm not going to let that bitch beat me.

Morgan, you're out there,

you tell her I'm coming for her.

- Al? Al?
- I don't know how.

- But I will.
- Al?

Do you copy?

Al, do you copy?

Yeah.

What took you so long?

Oh, thank God.

It's antifreeze, okay?
It's antifreeze.

Ethanol.

The antidote is ethanol.

It'll stop us
from metabolising the antifreeze.

There's a goddamn tanker truck
full of it crashed outside.

All we got to do is get to it.

Well, what are we waiting for?

We're going to be okay.

You just get your ass back here.

I'm on my way.

Come on!

Everybody ready?

We're ready.

Let's stir up some beef.

Now.

John, come on.

Incoming!

Ow!

- Come on.
- To the truck.

We need to get you back inside.

It's stuck.

Come on. Hurry.

I can't get it.

Get down!

How's it all going over there?

Morgan, we lost the ethanol.

There was
a whole truck full of it outside.

It was going to save us.

Hey, but there's got to be more, right?

There isn't.

Even if there was, I don't think any of us
are in any shape to get it.

No, no, you got to find a way.

Morgan, it's John.

I don't think that's going to happen, bud.

No, see...

I can't lose you.
I can't lose any of you.

I can't go back to what I was.

You won't.

I did. I almost did.

But you didn't.

I will.

You see, she was right.

I'm not... I'm not strong enough.

You're the strongest person
I know, Morgan.

Whether we're here or not,
you're still going to be you.

And people out there need you.

It's not like...

John?

John?

Whoever finds these,

keep them safe.

Make sure they survive.

Make sure they matter.

What's the final count?

How many of those meat puppets
we take out?

Not enough.

Just when I stopped trying
to drink myself to death,

I succeed.

I thought

we would get a chance

to make up for what we did.

I thought I'd get a second chance.

At least I got to see the beach.

Yeah, you did.

Morgan.

You came back.

Yeah, I told you I would.

Ethanol, that's just a fancy word
for alcohol, right?

Yeah.

I made a stop along the way.

That's twice Jimbo's saved our keisters.

Here's to you, asshole.

You know,

there was a time I thought

I didn't have anyone
to share a drink with anymore.

Charlie, you know
this is a one-time deal, right?

She was poisoned, John.

I know.

Just don't go getting poisoned again
till you're at least 21.

Yeah?

I get it.

I get why this is what you wanted.

Morgan, can we get our asses in gear,
and get to Alexandria now?

We're not going there.

At least, I'm not.

That woman, she was the way she was

because nobody stopped to help her
when she needed it, nobody.

And there are still more people
like her out there.

You see, Polar Bear was...

His journals, you still got them?

Yeah.

When Polar Bear started doing
what he was doing,

he tried to set up a system that'd last.

The supplies, the fuel,

even those trucks at the truck stop,
they all came from here.

This is where it all started.

Used to be a denim factory.

He said he used to make
deliveries for them, you now, before.

And then after, he set up shop here

because look at it.

So out of the way.

I don't need
a new pair of dungarees, Mo-Mo.

That wasn't our deal, man.

Well, look,
nobody is being forced to stay.

You want to make up
for what you did to Clayton?

This is where you start.

Morgan, it can't just be about the boxes.

We have to do what my mom did,
build this into something more.

That's how you help people.

And where are we
going to find these people?

They're in short supply,
in case we hadn't noticed.

Got tapes.

Interviews with people all over the area.

Some of them weren't doing so hot.

Start with them.

What?

I got layers.

You think we'll find him there?

I think it's a good place to start.

Ready?

Ready.

Now we good.

Let's boogie.

We're ready.

Let's go.

Don't know
if any of you are out there.

Don't know if any of you are listening.

But if you are, hang in there.

We're coming for you.