Euphoria (2019–…): Season 2, Episode 6 - Episode #2.6 - full transcript
Here, baby.
Rue?
Baby, I need, I need you
to drink this, okay?
Come on,
come on.
- Let's just take
a sip, baby, please.
Do you need help with that?
I got you.
You know what I like
about hospitals?
We're almost there. Come on.
They don't need to know how
good of a person you are
in order to take care of you.
Come on.
They don't need to know
what's going on in your head
before they wrap
a bandage around your arm.
- Come on.
People like that are rare.
The doctor put my mom
in touch with a rehab,
who might have an open
bed early next week.
- Okay, okay.
Told me to stay strong.
Okay, okay, okay.
My mom is one of
those rare people,
but maybe that's
'cause she's my mom.
She also grew up in the church.
And say what you want
about Christians.
At least they believe
in forgiveness.
I don't remember
everything I said
to my mom.
It's okay, Rue.
It's okay.
I wish I could say
I didn't mean any of it.
Is that actually true?
I mean, I thought it.
I felt it... I said it.
I'm sure most people would say
the world would be
a better place without me.
I don't disagree.
In fact, I've been
trying to leave it
for as long as I can remember.
Ali is also one of
those rare people.
The strange thing is,
I bet most people would say
the same thing about him.
"He's just a fuckin'
crackhead wife-beater."
I bet his daughter said that.
- Even I kinda said that.
That I regret.
Really fucking regret.
♪ ♪
But if I'm being honest
about who I am...
I'm a liar, a thief.
I'm violent, abusive,
manipulative.
It's cold.
It's cold, Mom.
Mom, it's cold.
Rue, you have to break
your fever, baby, okay?
Okay? Come on.
And even if I got clean today,
no one would forget the trauma
of me not being clean.
Shit.
But I really regret
what I said to Ali.
Reducing someone's
life to a moment...
an ugly moment.
And punishing them for it.
That's what cops do.
It's actually
what everyone does.
It's what you would do to me
if you didn't know me.
♪ ♪
Anyway, I should call
Ali and apologize.
ALI
Hello.
Ali?
It's, um, it's Rue.
What do you want, Rue?
Um...
I just wanted to, uh, call you
and tell you that, um...
I just wanted to call you
and tell you that I'm sorry
for what I said.
Um...
and I really regret it.
Uh...
I just-- I never
should've said that.
- Rue.
- And I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
Rue!
Listen to me.
I forgive you.
You do?
I do.
How do you know that I mean it?
Because the hour
is certain to come.
So we must
forgive graciously.
Thank you.
Thank you.
♪ Oh... ♪
♪ Taking it all for us ♪
♪ Taking it all ♪
♪ Taking it all for us ♪
♪ Oh... ♪
♪ Doing it all for love ♪
♪ Doing it all ♪
♪ Doing it all for love ♪
You look like a cat
coughed your ass up.
Hey.
Ali said
he would only stop by
if he could cook dinner
for the whole family.
- Aw, thanks for having me.
- Mm-hm.
- Oh, hi.
- Hi.
I'm Ali.
Nice to meet you.
- You're Rue's sponsor?
- Uh... I am.
A better question is, uh,
what're you doin' right now?
Nothing.
- Wanna help me cook?
- Uh, I can help.
Nah, nah, you
keep your stank
- withdrawal diarrhea-ass
all away from my food.
- Oh, you wanna tell him about--
- No, no!
- I think you should.
- No, no, no!
Hey, yo, yo! I'm serious.
You're a health hazard.
- In the other room.
- Okay, dang. Thank you. Sorry.
- Bye-bye.
- Oh!
- Oh.
- Bye-bye? Bye-bye to you, too.
- Uh-huh.
- I know you probably
been washin' that ass.
- Oh.
- They know I'm right.
- Exactly.
I think she's
doin' better today.
For as tough as
it's been on Rue,
I'm sure it's been
harder on you.
Dice these tomatoes.
It's okay to be
angry at her.
I'm not sure
that helps anyone.
Ah, well, oh, I...
tend to disagree.
I think it would
actually be good for you.
How?
You're not wrong
to be angry at her.
That shit hurts.
It's unfair.
You don't deserve it.
I'm fine.
I am.
I didn't say
I didn't believe you.
Now, Nate didn't know what
happened with Cassie and Maddy
because when he exercises,
he puts his phone on silent.
♪ ♪
The irony was
Nate woke up that morning
feeling fantastic.
Because after an 18-year
dick-swinging contest
with his dad...
Nate had finally won.
His mom seemed to be
handling it well.
His brother
on the other hand...
Fuck is she so happy about?
not so well.
♪ You never was this nice,
you can't fool me ♪
♪ Ooh, bop ♪
It wasn't the 38 missed calls
from Cassie that concerned him.
It was the fact that there
were zero calls from Maddy.
Part of the reason
Nate loved Maddy
as much as he did
is because she was loyal.
But it's also what scared
the living shit out of him.
If anyone crossed her,
she'd bury them.
And he had now really
fucking crossed her.
And there was no doubt
in Nate's mind what Maddy
was about to do.
You know when a kid
shoots up a school
and they go to
interview the parents,
and the parents are like,
"We had no idea.
He seemed, like,
totally normal."
And everyone watching is like,
"You're a fucking idiot."
That's how I feel,
but with Cassie.
Look, I never trusted her.
What? Why?
Because she seems like
the kind of person
who would fuck your boyfriend.
I think I actually
wanna murder her.
I get it.
No, like, actually...
plan a murder and carry it out.
I get it.
Like a grisly murder.
One that shocks the nation.
I think that's more
than understandable.
What about Nate?
I have a few ideas.
No!
- That's dark-sided.
- Are you two ready to order?
- No.
- Um...
she's just on the phone.
We'll just be a couple minutes.
We prefer customers not
use phones at the tables.
- No, no, no.
- I can understand.
- I will circle back.
Okay, thank you.
Wow.
She's a cunt, yeah.
All right, bye.
Love you. Okay.
- Oh.
- Oh.
Sorry... I j--
We haven't said
hello yet,
so I just figured
I would greet you like
I normally greet you.
Oh, sorry.
Maddy's going
through this thing.
- You know?
- Sure.
- I get it. It's awkward.
- Yeah.
- So, what are we doing here?
- Goin' on a date.
Yeah?
'Cause on the phone you
just kind of made it sound
like, like it
was an emergency.
- Did I?
- Yeah.
- No.
- Like, you asked
if I could
cancel rehearsal.
I, um, I mean,
well, I've--
I've...
been thinking... about us
and, and our relationship,
and, um... um...
I have a... brain disorder.
What?
That's the rest
of the sentence.
Um, I'm confused.
I think it's terminal.
Y-Y-You've been thinking
a lot about our relationship
because you have a, you have
a terminal brain disorder?
Yeah, I just, like,
keep thinking, like,
all the hospital visits, and...
maybe, I'll have
to get out of school,
stay home, you know,
with the little
time I have left.
- What is this terminal
brain disorder called?
- No, no, no.
'Cause you're gonna google it,
and then read about it,
and I'm just gonna
see it on your face.
I feel like you're
l-lying to me.
Lying about a terminal
brain disorder?
That's sick.
A-And to be honest,
the fact that you think
I would even lie about
something that awful
means there's a big problem
in this relationship,
which is, like, literally
what I was trying to say
in the beginning.
No, no.
In the beginning,
I feel like you started
to break up with me,
and then, you pivoted
to telling me that
you got, like,
a terminal brain illness,
and now, I feel like
you're using my skepticism
as, like, a reason
to break up with me.
That's your experience.
No, I think...
that's the experience.
- It's your experience
of the experience--
- Hi.
Kat, you don't wanna be
in a relationship with me.
And I get it.
If it's okay, just say it.
Just have, like,
the courage to
actually be honest
'cause what you're
doin' right now,
it's just, like--
feels like shit.
I knew it.
I-- Wow.
Wow, I can't believe this.
You're literally trying
to break up with me.
No, I'm, I'm trying to help
you say what you wanna say.
Is this some
sort of, like,
manipulation tactic you learned
on some fucking
incel Reddit forum?
God, this is the problem
with guys like you.
I tell you I'm sick,
- and you just
dismiss my experience.
- Mm.
Yeah, you just gaslight me,
tell me how to feel
- all because I don't
meet your expectations.
- All right, well, you're right.
You didn't live up
to my expectations
because I did expect you
to at least be honest.
- I am being honest.
- All right, I don't even
think you believe that,
but, you know,
that's besides the point
'cause I think we
need to break up.
Wow.
Wow, wow.
I didn't see that one coming.
Hm.
I didn't either.
Bye!
Lex...
Hon, take these in the back
and hide 'em in the bushes.
You really think
she's gonna stab herself?
Your sister's
very emotional...
Yes.
- Really?
- In the bushes, now.
Go!
Hurry!
It was at some point while
breaking branches off a tree
in order to camouflage a bucket
of kitchen knives in a bush...
that Lexi started
to have second thoughts
about putting on her play.
Well, you know what...
what you should
put in the play...
that time I beat
Nate's ass at that party.
- No! Oh god.
I don't know.
Cassie isn't doing too well.
I'm worried that...
she's gonna see the play,
and then, she's gonna...
freak out.
Yeah, I mean...
everybody gets
their feelings hurt.
- You know?
- Yeah.
Some people...
some people need
to get their feelings
hurt sometimes.
- Yeah... I--
It's, like,
the first time in my life
I'm doing something for myself.
Shit.
What exactly is...
the idea behind the play?
I don't know, it's...
it's, like, about
a group of girlfriends
who sort of...
grow up and grow apart.
Damn, so it's
kinda like, uh,
- "Stand By Me" vibes.
- Yes, exactly!
-I love that movie.
That's... exactly it.
-Hell yeah.
Come on now.
I've watched that
film, like, 50 times.
- Have you really?
- That's my shit, come on.
In fact, my, my grandma
has it on DVD, you know?
Should we watch it?
♪ I've got, you've got... ♪
Lexi needed a break.
♪ Skeletons in the closet,
my dear ♪
Cassie...
can I use the bathroom?
No.
- Yo, this is Nate.
I'm busy.
Leave a message
at the beep.
Yo, this is Nate.
I'm busy.
Leave a message
at the beep.
Whatever you do,
don't marry anyone
you meet in high school.
I mean it.
I used to be fun.
And I know you
don't believe me,
- but I was fuckin' hot.
- No, I believe you.
Yeah, well, could've
had anything I wanted.
Then I just...
fell in love with your dad.
- Well, I'm very happy he's gone.
- Yeah.
Do me a favor.
Just... don't take
your anger out on me.
Why would I be
angry at you?
'Cause you're
an angry guy.
No, I was angry at Dad.
That's very different than,
you know, being angry.
Okay...
Whatever you say.
And I feel like
when I was angry,
I had a pretty good
reason to be angry.
Okay, look,
I'm not, I'm not
saying angry people
don't have a reason
to be angry. Right?
You hated your father.
- That's as good a reason as any.
- Yeah, but that's my point.
My anger was
directed toward him.
It's not just towards anyone.
Yeah, I don't
know about that.
No, it's not.
It's fuckin' specific.
Okay, look...
can we just have
a nice time?
Yeah?
- Yeah.
- Okay, thank you.
Need another bottle.
I'm not the bad guy.
Everyone keeps looking at me
like I'm the bad guy,
but I'm not
the bad guy!
- Well, you're not the good guy.
- Yeah, that's for sure.
Everyone thinks that
I was hooking up with Nate
when he and Maddy
were still together,
but that's not accurate.
There was no crossover.
Cassie, please,
just a little bit
of peace, please.
But Rue made it sound like
we were just hooking up
the entire time,
but I would never do that
to someone I love.
Yeah, I don't think that's
a real airtight defense.
- It's the truth!
- Oh, Cassie,
you're driving me nuts!
It's one thing
to do what you did,
and it's another thing
to pretend you're all innocent,
- and it's no big deal.
- I'm just pointing
out the facts.
- Well, I'm pointing out
the principle.
- What principle?
The "don't fuck
your best friend's
boyfriend" principle.
That is what I am
trying to tell you, Mom!
- They weren't boyfriend
and girlfriend, god!
- I don't care!
I just wanna watch my
"Millionaire Matchmaker"
in peace for one hour,
one goddamn hour!
Fuck!
You, uh, you still
seein' that, that,
that blonde girl?
- Why?
- Mm, 'cause I prefer
her to Maddy.
Well, you're in luck.
So, so you're dating?
No, I just mean Maddy's never
gonna fuckin' talk to me again.
- Oh, well, that's good.
- Well, we'll see.
I was, I was just
terrified you were
gonna get her pregnant.
- Who? Maddy?
She's the type
that would keep it
just to spite you.
Thank you.
Can't really picture
her being a mom.
Ooh, man, I could.
Especially if it meant
she had the chance
to screw you over
for the rest of her life.
Yeah, well, she's
not fuckin' pregnant,
and she's never gonna
talk to me again.
So... what about
the blonde girl?
- Oh, it's complicated.
- Why?
- Um, she's Maddy's best friend.
- Shit.
Who's the cunt now?
Do you remember
when she said that?
- Yes, I do remember.
- Oh my god.
I know it's not
the right thing to say...
but when you grabbed her
after that, and you, like,
pulled her ass off,
I was thinkin',
"That's my boy."
Huh? "Stickin' up
for his mama."
Oh my gosh.
Shit.
- Yeah, it was a pretty
insane thing to do.
- I know, well,
you know, you didn't
have to go so far
as to choke her.
- I didn't choke her.
- Mmm.
- Mom, they dropped the charges.
- Okay.
- I didn't fuckin' choke her.
- Look...
at that moment,
I, I wanted to choke
the girl, too.
-Yeah, but my point is
I didn't fucking choke her, Mom.
-Okay!
Don't get so upset that
ya end up chokin' me.
'Cause I won't
drop the charges.
I'll fuckin' clean house.
Sorry.
What's going on?
I just wanna die!
Well, a corkscrew
ain't gonna cut it.
No...
I told you.
I don't understand.
I thought you hated Nate.
When I didn't know him.
You've literally
known him forever.
Not like I do now.
- Wait, is this why
you ratted on Fezco?
- No.
Oh my god.
That's why you did it?
- No!
- That's why you said something?
- 'Cause you were
sleeping with him?
- No, I wasn't!
Oh really?
When did you start
sleeping together?
Uh...
Uh... I, I don't, I don't
know the exact date.
Okay, well, was it before
or after New Year's?
- I don't know!
- Okay, but for someone
who's so obsessed with
windows of time,
I find that hard
to believe.
God, Lexi, you are
making me feel worse!
Do you even know why
Fezco did what he did?
- No, do you?!
- Yeah, I do.
- Then tell me.
- No, I'm not gonna tell you
because you'll tell Nate.
- I don't fuckin' trust you.
- No one does!
Yeah, 'cause you fell
in love with someone
who spent years
making fun of you.
It's sad.
Did you know Dad
was cheating on you?
Did you?
No.
I don't, I don't believe
that for a second
because when
he came in here
and he was ranting
and raving about
bein' a man,
and markin' his territory--
I don't know,
whatever the fuck
he was talking about.
I looked at Aaron
and I looked at you,
and, boy, was
there a difference
in his response
and your response.
It's because Aaron
is a fucking idiot.
Okay, he is, isn't he?
That's terrible.
I'm laughing.
Oh... You know what?
I think I'm gonna
buy a Peloton.
- Yeah, I am gonna start dating.
- You're a drunk.
Mm, what?
You don't want a stepfather?
- Mom, shut up.
- No? Ooh, ooh!
- What about one who's your age?
That'd be fun.
- Shut the fuck up.
You're acting like
a fuckin' teenager.
- Jesus fuckin' Christ.
- Wow!
Why is it, why is it
that you only have
the bad qualities
of your father,
- and none of the good qualities?
- Okay.
Right, so Cal, Cal's
a fuckin' saint now.
No. That's, that's,
that's not what I said.
That's literally
what you fuckin' said.
Marsha:
No, it's not. I just--
He's deeply flawed,
and somehow...
somehow, some way,
we raised a child who's
even more deeply flawed.
Do you ever
wonder about that?
Do you just like--
What went wrong?
Do you ever
think about that?
No, of course, you don't
because your fuckin'
dumb-ass dad
didn't believe
in therapy, so...
self-reflection's
off the table. It's just--
It's just a mystery to me.
'Cause you were such
a sweet little baby.
I remember you used to come
to our bedroom at night,
and you would,
you would ask me
if I wanted
anything to drink,
you know, before bed,
and sometimes I'd say,
"Yeah," you know,
"I want a glass of water,"
just to see if you'd,
if you'd do it,
if you meant it,
and you did.
Hm, you'd bring it up, right?
You'd put it
on the nightstand,
and then,
you'd give me
a little kiss,
and you'd tell me
you loved me.
Then you'd look
over at your dad,
and... you'd tell him
you loved him, too,
but without the kiss.
And then... I don't know,
somewhere, like, around...
eight or nine, you just,
you-you darkened.
Do you remember
those years?
- Not really, no.
- God, I used to ask your dad,
I was like,
"Did a baseball
hit him in the head?
"Did he get a concussion?
Did something happen?
I just--
I don't understand."
It was such
a drastic change,
and I, I swear--
What's the fucking point?
What's the point of all this?
Look, I'm just--
I'm just tryin' to figure out
how things ended up
the way they ended up.
That's all.
I feel like you're
tryin' to say something
without sayin' it.
I-I'm not.
Just... forget I--
Who said Nate was
a bad person? Rue?
It doesn't matter.
'Cause if we wanna
talk about people,
- let's talk about Rue.
- Rue's a good girl.
And I'm not?
I didn't say you're
not a good girl.
Rue's had
a very hard life.
Not harder than my life
or Lexi's life.
- It's different.
- Right.
Her dad died
and ours just
stopped calling.
I don't know
which is worse.
And if you weren't
such a fucking loser
with no self-respect,
- you'd drop her 'cause
she treats you like shit.
- Enough! Enough!
What, I can't say it to her,
but you two can say it to me?!
I never said you didn't
have any self-respect!
You don't have to!
I can fuckin' feel it!
Oh, she needs
a fucking exorcism.
The truth was,
Nate didn't give a shit
about what would
happen to his dad.
He did, however, care
about what happened
to his dad's business
because, eventually,
that would become
Nate's business.
And while he didn't know
much about real estate...
he did know there wasn't
much of a market for homes
built by a pedophile.
or the son of a pedophile.
Even though, technically,
he wasn't a pedophile,
but it's not like you
could argue that out loud.
Meanwhile, Jules was at home.
And she hadn't talked
to Elliot since...
You know what?
Actually, I don't want to
talk about Jules and Elliot.
Fuck them.
Let's go back to Maddy.
Then, there are
two King Boo's,
and then,
three King Boo's.
Maddy wasn't just angry
about Nate and Cassie.
She was also depressed
and heartbroken.
All the times that
Cassie consoled her,
comforted her,
pretended to be
there for her...
none of it was real.
It was all an illusion.
♪ ♪
- Hi.
- Hi.
- How was your night?
- It was nice.
I hadn't seen
my girlfriends
in a while,
so it was good
to catch up
on all
the meaningless,
fun bullshit.
Well, Theo and I played
two and a half hours
of video games,
and then, he told me about
how he loves demons,
and that when I sleep,
they're gonna steal my heart.
He's a nut.
Feel like we should get drunk
and go for a swim.
Okay.
Maddy didn't wanna
tell Samantha
what had happened
with Nate and Cassie.
But after two
glasses of wine...
she told her
what had happened
with Nate and Cassie.
- God, that's horrible.
- Right?
- You want to hear
something more horrible?
- What?
When I was in college,
I kind of did the same thing
to one of my best friends.
- You mean you were me?
- No.
No, that'd be less horrible.
I, I was her.
Don't tell me that.
I like you.
- Please don't tell me that.
- Yeah, I know, I know.
- You fucked one of your
girlfriend's boyfriends?
- Yeah, multiple times.
You did this
to multiple girlfriends?
- No! Jesus. Just one.
- Oh.
Yeah... many times.
Okay, but how
close were you?
- No, don't do this to me.
- I know. I'm sorry.
Why?
Because he gave me just
the right amount of attention
at the wrong time.
That is so depressing.
I was a fucking mess
in high school...
in college,
and in my 20s.
The idea that there was
ever anyone in the world
who... would want to
settle down and marry me
was a complete
shock to me.
- You're lying.
- No. I'm not.
I was, literally,
the girl that everyone
and their mothers
used to say,
"No one would
ever settle down
and marry her,
and God-help
whoever did."
Why would
they say that?
Because I was messy.
Oh, and I loved to fight.
See, I'm not a mess,
but I do love a fight.
- Oh, it's the best.
- Totally underrated.
- In the long run, not so much,
but in the moment?
- It's fucking amazing.
Oh, it's so good.
- But... I mean,
that's just who I am.
- Yeah?
I used to think
that's who I was, too,
until I met Sebastian.
You don't fight?
Not really, no.
- Really?
- Yeah.
I just don't think
my brain is wired that way.
If you are still dating
guys like this in your 40s,
we'd be having a very
different conversation,
but you're 18 years old.
Who gives a shit?
Did you
and your friend
ever make up?
God no.
She never spoke
to me again.
Lexi:
Oh god.
It's so sad.
Think I got somethin'
in my fuckin' eye.
♪ And the land is dark ♪
♪ Is the only light we'll see ♪
♪ No, I won't be afraid ♪
♪ Oh, I won't be afraid ♪
♪ Just as long as you stand ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ So darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand ♪
♪ Stand by me, stand by me ♪
♪ If the sky
that we look upon ♪
♪ Should tumble and fall ♪
♪ Or the mountains
should crumble to the sea ♪
♪ I won't cry, I won't cry ♪
♪ No, I won't shed a tear ♪
- ♪ Just as long as you stand ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ And darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand by me ♪
♪ Woah, stand now ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ ♪
Faye! Come here.
Hurry the fuck up!
- What are you doing?
- I gotta talk to you.
Why are you in the alley?
♪ Darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
And then,
so the fucking cops
knock on my door,
- askin' all kinds of questions.
- What questions?
- Questions about Mouse.
- What did you say?
Nothing.
But then, the next day
I was walking,
and I'm like--
I had a couple OCs
in my pocket,
and they just
ran up talkin' all
kinds of crazy shit.
You know,
"You're gonna go to prison.
We know you killed Mouse."
I was like,
"I, I didn't kill Mouse."
Are you cooperating?
Hell no.
Babe, they already
had their sights
set on fuckin'
Fez and Ash.
So, you are cooperating
with the police.
I do not know if that is
the right word, all right,
but I'm helping 'em out.
Okay, they definitely
had their sights set
on them beforehand,
so I didn't set
anything into motion.
I love you, baby,
and I'm gonna be
coming over soon,
and I'm gonna be
talkin' about
some things,
and I need you to stay
the fuck out of it.
Oh, hey, it's raining.
I'm gonna take a shower.
♪ Darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand by me ♪
- This shit go hard.
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
But for real though, if,
if your play is anything
like "Stand By Me,"
you're not gonna
have no problems.
- What are you doing?
Don't worry.
I'm not here to apologize.
Can you imagine if I was
sitting here with a gun
forcing you
to accept my apology?
- You're scaring me.
- Yeah...
It's kinda the point.
I love you.
I love you, Nate.
Nate...
I love you.
I know you better than
anyone in this world.
I humiliated you.
It's over.
♪ ♪
Why do you think my dad
likes to film himself fucking?
I don't know what
you're talking about.
♪ ♪
Can you believe
it was Jules?
I'm gonna need that disc now.
I don't have it.
Hm.
Okay.
Okay.
Take a deep breath.
Stop it, Nate.
- Stop, Nate, stop.
Please, please stop.
- Please, stop it,
stop it, please.
- Please, stop it.
Stop, stop, stop.
It's in, it's in my purse.
It's in my purse.
It's in my purse.
Hey, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I was--
- I was jok--
- Don't touch me!
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
There's no bullets
in the gun.
Goodbye.
♪ You're all I need ♪
♪ To get by, ahh ♪
♪ You're all I need ♪
♪ To get by ♪
♪ Me for you
that's how it is ♪
♪ I be your Noah,
you be my Wiz ♪
♪ I'm your Mister, you my Mrs.
with hugs and kisses ♪
♪ Valentine cards
and birthday wishes, please ♪
♪ ♪
- Hello?
- Look, I know you probably
don't wanna talk to me,
but I'm about to be
outside your house,
and I really need
to speak to you.
I don't care.
No, thank you.
It's good to see you.
I know you hate me.
I've done a lot
of shitty things,
but, um... no, this
isn't one of 'em.
What do you want?
First... to apologize.
I'm not interested.
I know, but you are
gonna be interested
in the second thing.
Unfortunately for you,
you're gonna have
to hear my apology first.
Uh...
I'm sorry...
for everything that
I've done to you.
You didn't deserve it.
I was, uh... I was tryin'
to protect somebody that
didn't deserve to be protected.
If I could take it
all back, I would.
But... I did what I did.
I found out about you
and my dad from, um...
from this disc.
Yeah, he, uh,
he secretly records
every encounter he has,
and, you know,
he's been doin' it, well...
well, honestly,
as long as I can
remember.
I stole it from him,
and he had a, he had
a mental breakdown,
and he moved out of the house,
so I thought that I would, uh--
I thought I'd give it to you,
and, you know, you can
do with it as you please.
- So, there was a camera?
- Yes.
And you've seen it?
Yeah.
- Have a lot of people seen it?
- No, no.
Does he know you're
giving this to me?
No... No.
He would fuckin' kill me.
Is this, like,
the only copy, or...
is it other, other places?
I mean, it's the only
one that I know of, yeah.
Why are you
giving this to me?
Honestly, the answer is
too stupid and simple.
I think it's better if we
just keep it a mystery.
What, did you become,
like, a good person?
Absolutely not, no.
I mean, you should've seen
what I had to do to get it.
I came out here with
a box cutter in my sleeve.
You know, in, in case
there was a chance
I might have
to slit your throat.
That's how little
I trust you.
- Well, uh, thank you.
- You're welcome.
- Um, I'm gonna go.
- Okay.
Hey, um...
for what it's worth...
everything I ever
said was true.
Same here.
♪ ♪
- Hello?
- Hey, pack a suitcase.
I'll be at your place in 10.
You can stay at my house.
Okay.
Love you.
I love you, too.
♪ Well, you're still walking ♪
♪ Around the block ♪
♪ You had a long time ♪
- ♪ To think who you are ♪
♪ You look so sad ♪
♪ Well, so you think ♪
♪ You say, "Come over" ♪
♪ And you're still a star ♪
♪ You're like a villain ♪
♪ In some old film ♪
♪ Walking in the dark ♪
♪ In somebody's room ♪
♪ Save me ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm still sinking ♪
♪ And you've got a harbor ♪
♪ Close to the shore ♪
♪ ♪
I ruined my entire life for you.
♪ Save me ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm still sinking ♪
♪ And you've got a harbor ♪
♪ Close to the shore ♪
- How old are you?
- Uh, 22.
Selfishly...
I hope you stay.
Wider.
Wider...
There you go.
That's it.
Good girl.
- So, Rue, Rue.
Hm?
So, you think you
hit rock bottom?
Yes.
- Hm.
- Um...
okay, uh, I know...
that I have a lot
of apologizing to do.
- Uh... I get that.
- Uh-huh.
So, I just figured
that I'd, you know...
go to rehab, get clean,
you know, sort my shit out,
and, um...
then come back,
and... apologize.
So you wanna get clean?
- Yeah.
- Okay.
How do you feel about that?
If it's real, then great.
- It is.
- You've said that before.
Gia, come on.
What's wrong with her
not believin' her?
I think she needs all
of our support. Right?
I don't think it's
a question of support.
When you've let someone down
again and again,
I think it's fair
to lose a little faith.
I mean, what do you think?
You think she'll get clean?
I don't know.
She said it's like a five
percent chance, right?
Somethin' like that.
Where's the hope in that?
The hope...
is what Rue has to find.
Yeah... piece of cake.
- Let Rue be Rue--
- Mm-hm.
and shower that
little one with love.
She's been waitin' on it.
Hey.
You mind if I sleep
in your bed tonight?
Yeah, yeah, for sure.
Come on.
I feel like I don't
know anything about
your life anymore.
I'll tell you
when you get back.
Okay.
- Good night.
- Night.
Hello?
Yes, this is her.
Yeah, my daughter.
She's 17 years old.
I think opiates, hero-heroin.
I think mainly just opiates.
Well, I t-took her
to the emergency room
about four days ago,
and... the doctor gave
her somethin' to help
with the withdrawal.
But I was hopin' to bring
her in as soon as possible.
But she needs to be
in an inpatient hospital.
You don't understand
my daughter, okay?
She's a drug addict, okay?
And she's gonna kill herself.
Please, I am beggin' you,
please, okay?
She needs to be
in an inpatient,
not just the detox.
She needs to be
put back into rehab.
No, don't.
Please listen to me.
I know my daughter.
She is going to kill herself.
Please don't do this, please.
I'm begging.
Please, don't do this to us.
Don't do this to us, please!
My daughter's
gonna kill herself.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Rue?
Baby, I need, I need you
to drink this, okay?
Come on,
come on.
- Let's just take
a sip, baby, please.
Do you need help with that?
I got you.
You know what I like
about hospitals?
We're almost there. Come on.
They don't need to know how
good of a person you are
in order to take care of you.
Come on.
They don't need to know
what's going on in your head
before they wrap
a bandage around your arm.
- Come on.
People like that are rare.
The doctor put my mom
in touch with a rehab,
who might have an open
bed early next week.
- Okay, okay.
Told me to stay strong.
Okay, okay, okay.
My mom is one of
those rare people,
but maybe that's
'cause she's my mom.
She also grew up in the church.
And say what you want
about Christians.
At least they believe
in forgiveness.
I don't remember
everything I said
to my mom.
It's okay, Rue.
It's okay.
I wish I could say
I didn't mean any of it.
Is that actually true?
I mean, I thought it.
I felt it... I said it.
I'm sure most people would say
the world would be
a better place without me.
I don't disagree.
In fact, I've been
trying to leave it
for as long as I can remember.
Ali is also one of
those rare people.
The strange thing is,
I bet most people would say
the same thing about him.
"He's just a fuckin'
crackhead wife-beater."
I bet his daughter said that.
- Even I kinda said that.
That I regret.
Really fucking regret.
♪ ♪
But if I'm being honest
about who I am...
I'm a liar, a thief.
I'm violent, abusive,
manipulative.
It's cold.
It's cold, Mom.
Mom, it's cold.
Rue, you have to break
your fever, baby, okay?
Okay? Come on.
And even if I got clean today,
no one would forget the trauma
of me not being clean.
Shit.
But I really regret
what I said to Ali.
Reducing someone's
life to a moment...
an ugly moment.
And punishing them for it.
That's what cops do.
It's actually
what everyone does.
It's what you would do to me
if you didn't know me.
♪ ♪
Anyway, I should call
Ali and apologize.
ALI
Hello.
Ali?
It's, um, it's Rue.
What do you want, Rue?
Um...
I just wanted to, uh, call you
and tell you that, um...
I just wanted to call you
and tell you that I'm sorry
for what I said.
Um...
and I really regret it.
Uh...
I just-- I never
should've said that.
- Rue.
- And I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
Rue!
Listen to me.
I forgive you.
You do?
I do.
How do you know that I mean it?
Because the hour
is certain to come.
So we must
forgive graciously.
Thank you.
Thank you.
♪ Oh... ♪
♪ Taking it all for us ♪
♪ Taking it all ♪
♪ Taking it all for us ♪
♪ Oh... ♪
♪ Doing it all for love ♪
♪ Doing it all ♪
♪ Doing it all for love ♪
You look like a cat
coughed your ass up.
Hey.
Ali said
he would only stop by
if he could cook dinner
for the whole family.
- Aw, thanks for having me.
- Mm-hm.
- Oh, hi.
- Hi.
I'm Ali.
Nice to meet you.
- You're Rue's sponsor?
- Uh... I am.
A better question is, uh,
what're you doin' right now?
Nothing.
- Wanna help me cook?
- Uh, I can help.
Nah, nah, you
keep your stank
- withdrawal diarrhea-ass
all away from my food.
- Oh, you wanna tell him about--
- No, no!
- I think you should.
- No, no, no!
Hey, yo, yo! I'm serious.
You're a health hazard.
- In the other room.
- Okay, dang. Thank you. Sorry.
- Bye-bye.
- Oh!
- Oh.
- Bye-bye? Bye-bye to you, too.
- Uh-huh.
- I know you probably
been washin' that ass.
- Oh.
- They know I'm right.
- Exactly.
I think she's
doin' better today.
For as tough as
it's been on Rue,
I'm sure it's been
harder on you.
Dice these tomatoes.
It's okay to be
angry at her.
I'm not sure
that helps anyone.
Ah, well, oh, I...
tend to disagree.
I think it would
actually be good for you.
How?
You're not wrong
to be angry at her.
That shit hurts.
It's unfair.
You don't deserve it.
I'm fine.
I am.
I didn't say
I didn't believe you.
Now, Nate didn't know what
happened with Cassie and Maddy
because when he exercises,
he puts his phone on silent.
♪ ♪
The irony was
Nate woke up that morning
feeling fantastic.
Because after an 18-year
dick-swinging contest
with his dad...
Nate had finally won.
His mom seemed to be
handling it well.
His brother
on the other hand...
Fuck is she so happy about?
not so well.
♪ You never was this nice,
you can't fool me ♪
♪ Ooh, bop ♪
It wasn't the 38 missed calls
from Cassie that concerned him.
It was the fact that there
were zero calls from Maddy.
Part of the reason
Nate loved Maddy
as much as he did
is because she was loyal.
But it's also what scared
the living shit out of him.
If anyone crossed her,
she'd bury them.
And he had now really
fucking crossed her.
And there was no doubt
in Nate's mind what Maddy
was about to do.
You know when a kid
shoots up a school
and they go to
interview the parents,
and the parents are like,
"We had no idea.
He seemed, like,
totally normal."
And everyone watching is like,
"You're a fucking idiot."
That's how I feel,
but with Cassie.
Look, I never trusted her.
What? Why?
Because she seems like
the kind of person
who would fuck your boyfriend.
I think I actually
wanna murder her.
I get it.
No, like, actually...
plan a murder and carry it out.
I get it.
Like a grisly murder.
One that shocks the nation.
I think that's more
than understandable.
What about Nate?
I have a few ideas.
No!
- That's dark-sided.
- Are you two ready to order?
- No.
- Um...
she's just on the phone.
We'll just be a couple minutes.
We prefer customers not
use phones at the tables.
- No, no, no.
- I can understand.
- I will circle back.
Okay, thank you.
Wow.
She's a cunt, yeah.
All right, bye.
Love you. Okay.
- Oh.
- Oh.
Sorry... I j--
We haven't said
hello yet,
so I just figured
I would greet you like
I normally greet you.
Oh, sorry.
Maddy's going
through this thing.
- You know?
- Sure.
- I get it. It's awkward.
- Yeah.
- So, what are we doing here?
- Goin' on a date.
Yeah?
'Cause on the phone you
just kind of made it sound
like, like it
was an emergency.
- Did I?
- Yeah.
- No.
- Like, you asked
if I could
cancel rehearsal.
I, um, I mean,
well, I've--
I've...
been thinking... about us
and, and our relationship,
and, um... um...
I have a... brain disorder.
What?
That's the rest
of the sentence.
Um, I'm confused.
I think it's terminal.
Y-Y-You've been thinking
a lot about our relationship
because you have a, you have
a terminal brain disorder?
Yeah, I just, like,
keep thinking, like,
all the hospital visits, and...
maybe, I'll have
to get out of school,
stay home, you know,
with the little
time I have left.
- What is this terminal
brain disorder called?
- No, no, no.
'Cause you're gonna google it,
and then read about it,
and I'm just gonna
see it on your face.
I feel like you're
l-lying to me.
Lying about a terminal
brain disorder?
That's sick.
A-And to be honest,
the fact that you think
I would even lie about
something that awful
means there's a big problem
in this relationship,
which is, like, literally
what I was trying to say
in the beginning.
No, no.
In the beginning,
I feel like you started
to break up with me,
and then, you pivoted
to telling me that
you got, like,
a terminal brain illness,
and now, I feel like
you're using my skepticism
as, like, a reason
to break up with me.
That's your experience.
No, I think...
that's the experience.
- It's your experience
of the experience--
- Hi.
Kat, you don't wanna be
in a relationship with me.
And I get it.
If it's okay, just say it.
Just have, like,
the courage to
actually be honest
'cause what you're
doin' right now,
it's just, like--
feels like shit.
I knew it.
I-- Wow.
Wow, I can't believe this.
You're literally trying
to break up with me.
No, I'm, I'm trying to help
you say what you wanna say.
Is this some
sort of, like,
manipulation tactic you learned
on some fucking
incel Reddit forum?
God, this is the problem
with guys like you.
I tell you I'm sick,
- and you just
dismiss my experience.
- Mm.
Yeah, you just gaslight me,
tell me how to feel
- all because I don't
meet your expectations.
- All right, well, you're right.
You didn't live up
to my expectations
because I did expect you
to at least be honest.
- I am being honest.
- All right, I don't even
think you believe that,
but, you know,
that's besides the point
'cause I think we
need to break up.
Wow.
Wow, wow.
I didn't see that one coming.
Hm.
I didn't either.
Bye!
Lex...
Hon, take these in the back
and hide 'em in the bushes.
You really think
she's gonna stab herself?
Your sister's
very emotional...
Yes.
- Really?
- In the bushes, now.
Go!
Hurry!
It was at some point while
breaking branches off a tree
in order to camouflage a bucket
of kitchen knives in a bush...
that Lexi started
to have second thoughts
about putting on her play.
Well, you know what...
what you should
put in the play...
that time I beat
Nate's ass at that party.
- No! Oh god.
I don't know.
Cassie isn't doing too well.
I'm worried that...
she's gonna see the play,
and then, she's gonna...
freak out.
Yeah, I mean...
everybody gets
their feelings hurt.
- You know?
- Yeah.
Some people...
some people need
to get their feelings
hurt sometimes.
- Yeah... I--
It's, like,
the first time in my life
I'm doing something for myself.
Shit.
What exactly is...
the idea behind the play?
I don't know, it's...
it's, like, about
a group of girlfriends
who sort of...
grow up and grow apart.
Damn, so it's
kinda like, uh,
- "Stand By Me" vibes.
- Yes, exactly!
-I love that movie.
That's... exactly it.
-Hell yeah.
Come on now.
I've watched that
film, like, 50 times.
- Have you really?
- That's my shit, come on.
In fact, my, my grandma
has it on DVD, you know?
Should we watch it?
♪ I've got, you've got... ♪
Lexi needed a break.
♪ Skeletons in the closet,
my dear ♪
Cassie...
can I use the bathroom?
No.
- Yo, this is Nate.
I'm busy.
Leave a message
at the beep.
Yo, this is Nate.
I'm busy.
Leave a message
at the beep.
Whatever you do,
don't marry anyone
you meet in high school.
I mean it.
I used to be fun.
And I know you
don't believe me,
- but I was fuckin' hot.
- No, I believe you.
Yeah, well, could've
had anything I wanted.
Then I just...
fell in love with your dad.
- Well, I'm very happy he's gone.
- Yeah.
Do me a favor.
Just... don't take
your anger out on me.
Why would I be
angry at you?
'Cause you're
an angry guy.
No, I was angry at Dad.
That's very different than,
you know, being angry.
Okay...
Whatever you say.
And I feel like
when I was angry,
I had a pretty good
reason to be angry.
Okay, look,
I'm not, I'm not
saying angry people
don't have a reason
to be angry. Right?
You hated your father.
- That's as good a reason as any.
- Yeah, but that's my point.
My anger was
directed toward him.
It's not just towards anyone.
Yeah, I don't
know about that.
No, it's not.
It's fuckin' specific.
Okay, look...
can we just have
a nice time?
Yeah?
- Yeah.
- Okay, thank you.
Need another bottle.
I'm not the bad guy.
Everyone keeps looking at me
like I'm the bad guy,
but I'm not
the bad guy!
- Well, you're not the good guy.
- Yeah, that's for sure.
Everyone thinks that
I was hooking up with Nate
when he and Maddy
were still together,
but that's not accurate.
There was no crossover.
Cassie, please,
just a little bit
of peace, please.
But Rue made it sound like
we were just hooking up
the entire time,
but I would never do that
to someone I love.
Yeah, I don't think that's
a real airtight defense.
- It's the truth!
- Oh, Cassie,
you're driving me nuts!
It's one thing
to do what you did,
and it's another thing
to pretend you're all innocent,
- and it's no big deal.
- I'm just pointing
out the facts.
- Well, I'm pointing out
the principle.
- What principle?
The "don't fuck
your best friend's
boyfriend" principle.
That is what I am
trying to tell you, Mom!
- They weren't boyfriend
and girlfriend, god!
- I don't care!
I just wanna watch my
"Millionaire Matchmaker"
in peace for one hour,
one goddamn hour!
Fuck!
You, uh, you still
seein' that, that,
that blonde girl?
- Why?
- Mm, 'cause I prefer
her to Maddy.
Well, you're in luck.
So, so you're dating?
No, I just mean Maddy's never
gonna fuckin' talk to me again.
- Oh, well, that's good.
- Well, we'll see.
I was, I was just
terrified you were
gonna get her pregnant.
- Who? Maddy?
She's the type
that would keep it
just to spite you.
Thank you.
Can't really picture
her being a mom.
Ooh, man, I could.
Especially if it meant
she had the chance
to screw you over
for the rest of her life.
Yeah, well, she's
not fuckin' pregnant,
and she's never gonna
talk to me again.
So... what about
the blonde girl?
- Oh, it's complicated.
- Why?
- Um, she's Maddy's best friend.
- Shit.
Who's the cunt now?
Do you remember
when she said that?
- Yes, I do remember.
- Oh my god.
I know it's not
the right thing to say...
but when you grabbed her
after that, and you, like,
pulled her ass off,
I was thinkin',
"That's my boy."
Huh? "Stickin' up
for his mama."
Oh my gosh.
Shit.
- Yeah, it was a pretty
insane thing to do.
- I know, well,
you know, you didn't
have to go so far
as to choke her.
- I didn't choke her.
- Mmm.
- Mom, they dropped the charges.
- Okay.
- I didn't fuckin' choke her.
- Look...
at that moment,
I, I wanted to choke
the girl, too.
-Yeah, but my point is
I didn't fucking choke her, Mom.
-Okay!
Don't get so upset that
ya end up chokin' me.
'Cause I won't
drop the charges.
I'll fuckin' clean house.
Sorry.
What's going on?
I just wanna die!
Well, a corkscrew
ain't gonna cut it.
No...
I told you.
I don't understand.
I thought you hated Nate.
When I didn't know him.
You've literally
known him forever.
Not like I do now.
- Wait, is this why
you ratted on Fezco?
- No.
Oh my god.
That's why you did it?
- No!
- That's why you said something?
- 'Cause you were
sleeping with him?
- No, I wasn't!
Oh really?
When did you start
sleeping together?
Uh...
Uh... I, I don't, I don't
know the exact date.
Okay, well, was it before
or after New Year's?
- I don't know!
- Okay, but for someone
who's so obsessed with
windows of time,
I find that hard
to believe.
God, Lexi, you are
making me feel worse!
Do you even know why
Fezco did what he did?
- No, do you?!
- Yeah, I do.
- Then tell me.
- No, I'm not gonna tell you
because you'll tell Nate.
- I don't fuckin' trust you.
- No one does!
Yeah, 'cause you fell
in love with someone
who spent years
making fun of you.
It's sad.
Did you know Dad
was cheating on you?
Did you?
No.
I don't, I don't believe
that for a second
because when
he came in here
and he was ranting
and raving about
bein' a man,
and markin' his territory--
I don't know,
whatever the fuck
he was talking about.
I looked at Aaron
and I looked at you,
and, boy, was
there a difference
in his response
and your response.
It's because Aaron
is a fucking idiot.
Okay, he is, isn't he?
That's terrible.
I'm laughing.
Oh... You know what?
I think I'm gonna
buy a Peloton.
- Yeah, I am gonna start dating.
- You're a drunk.
Mm, what?
You don't want a stepfather?
- Mom, shut up.
- No? Ooh, ooh!
- What about one who's your age?
That'd be fun.
- Shut the fuck up.
You're acting like
a fuckin' teenager.
- Jesus fuckin' Christ.
- Wow!
Why is it, why is it
that you only have
the bad qualities
of your father,
- and none of the good qualities?
- Okay.
Right, so Cal, Cal's
a fuckin' saint now.
No. That's, that's,
that's not what I said.
That's literally
what you fuckin' said.
Marsha:
No, it's not. I just--
He's deeply flawed,
and somehow...
somehow, some way,
we raised a child who's
even more deeply flawed.
Do you ever
wonder about that?
Do you just like--
What went wrong?
Do you ever
think about that?
No, of course, you don't
because your fuckin'
dumb-ass dad
didn't believe
in therapy, so...
self-reflection's
off the table. It's just--
It's just a mystery to me.
'Cause you were such
a sweet little baby.
I remember you used to come
to our bedroom at night,
and you would,
you would ask me
if I wanted
anything to drink,
you know, before bed,
and sometimes I'd say,
"Yeah," you know,
"I want a glass of water,"
just to see if you'd,
if you'd do it,
if you meant it,
and you did.
Hm, you'd bring it up, right?
You'd put it
on the nightstand,
and then,
you'd give me
a little kiss,
and you'd tell me
you loved me.
Then you'd look
over at your dad,
and... you'd tell him
you loved him, too,
but without the kiss.
And then... I don't know,
somewhere, like, around...
eight or nine, you just,
you-you darkened.
Do you remember
those years?
- Not really, no.
- God, I used to ask your dad,
I was like,
"Did a baseball
hit him in the head?
"Did he get a concussion?
Did something happen?
I just--
I don't understand."
It was such
a drastic change,
and I, I swear--
What's the fucking point?
What's the point of all this?
Look, I'm just--
I'm just tryin' to figure out
how things ended up
the way they ended up.
That's all.
I feel like you're
tryin' to say something
without sayin' it.
I-I'm not.
Just... forget I--
Who said Nate was
a bad person? Rue?
It doesn't matter.
'Cause if we wanna
talk about people,
- let's talk about Rue.
- Rue's a good girl.
And I'm not?
I didn't say you're
not a good girl.
Rue's had
a very hard life.
Not harder than my life
or Lexi's life.
- It's different.
- Right.
Her dad died
and ours just
stopped calling.
I don't know
which is worse.
And if you weren't
such a fucking loser
with no self-respect,
- you'd drop her 'cause
she treats you like shit.
- Enough! Enough!
What, I can't say it to her,
but you two can say it to me?!
I never said you didn't
have any self-respect!
You don't have to!
I can fuckin' feel it!
Oh, she needs
a fucking exorcism.
The truth was,
Nate didn't give a shit
about what would
happen to his dad.
He did, however, care
about what happened
to his dad's business
because, eventually,
that would become
Nate's business.
And while he didn't know
much about real estate...
he did know there wasn't
much of a market for homes
built by a pedophile.
or the son of a pedophile.
Even though, technically,
he wasn't a pedophile,
but it's not like you
could argue that out loud.
Meanwhile, Jules was at home.
And she hadn't talked
to Elliot since...
You know what?
Actually, I don't want to
talk about Jules and Elliot.
Fuck them.
Let's go back to Maddy.
Then, there are
two King Boo's,
and then,
three King Boo's.
Maddy wasn't just angry
about Nate and Cassie.
She was also depressed
and heartbroken.
All the times that
Cassie consoled her,
comforted her,
pretended to be
there for her...
none of it was real.
It was all an illusion.
♪ ♪
- Hi.
- Hi.
- How was your night?
- It was nice.
I hadn't seen
my girlfriends
in a while,
so it was good
to catch up
on all
the meaningless,
fun bullshit.
Well, Theo and I played
two and a half hours
of video games,
and then, he told me about
how he loves demons,
and that when I sleep,
they're gonna steal my heart.
He's a nut.
Feel like we should get drunk
and go for a swim.
Okay.
Maddy didn't wanna
tell Samantha
what had happened
with Nate and Cassie.
But after two
glasses of wine...
she told her
what had happened
with Nate and Cassie.
- God, that's horrible.
- Right?
- You want to hear
something more horrible?
- What?
When I was in college,
I kind of did the same thing
to one of my best friends.
- You mean you were me?
- No.
No, that'd be less horrible.
I, I was her.
Don't tell me that.
I like you.
- Please don't tell me that.
- Yeah, I know, I know.
- You fucked one of your
girlfriend's boyfriends?
- Yeah, multiple times.
You did this
to multiple girlfriends?
- No! Jesus. Just one.
- Oh.
Yeah... many times.
Okay, but how
close were you?
- No, don't do this to me.
- I know. I'm sorry.
Why?
Because he gave me just
the right amount of attention
at the wrong time.
That is so depressing.
I was a fucking mess
in high school...
in college,
and in my 20s.
The idea that there was
ever anyone in the world
who... would want to
settle down and marry me
was a complete
shock to me.
- You're lying.
- No. I'm not.
I was, literally,
the girl that everyone
and their mothers
used to say,
"No one would
ever settle down
and marry her,
and God-help
whoever did."
Why would
they say that?
Because I was messy.
Oh, and I loved to fight.
See, I'm not a mess,
but I do love a fight.
- Oh, it's the best.
- Totally underrated.
- In the long run, not so much,
but in the moment?
- It's fucking amazing.
Oh, it's so good.
- But... I mean,
that's just who I am.
- Yeah?
I used to think
that's who I was, too,
until I met Sebastian.
You don't fight?
Not really, no.
- Really?
- Yeah.
I just don't think
my brain is wired that way.
If you are still dating
guys like this in your 40s,
we'd be having a very
different conversation,
but you're 18 years old.
Who gives a shit?
Did you
and your friend
ever make up?
God no.
She never spoke
to me again.
Lexi:
Oh god.
It's so sad.
Think I got somethin'
in my fuckin' eye.
♪ And the land is dark ♪
♪ Is the only light we'll see ♪
♪ No, I won't be afraid ♪
♪ Oh, I won't be afraid ♪
♪ Just as long as you stand ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ So darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand ♪
♪ Stand by me, stand by me ♪
♪ If the sky
that we look upon ♪
♪ Should tumble and fall ♪
♪ Or the mountains
should crumble to the sea ♪
♪ I won't cry, I won't cry ♪
♪ No, I won't shed a tear ♪
- ♪ Just as long as you stand ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ And darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand by me ♪
♪ Woah, stand now ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ ♪
Faye! Come here.
Hurry the fuck up!
- What are you doing?
- I gotta talk to you.
Why are you in the alley?
♪ Darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
And then,
so the fucking cops
knock on my door,
- askin' all kinds of questions.
- What questions?
- Questions about Mouse.
- What did you say?
Nothing.
But then, the next day
I was walking,
and I'm like--
I had a couple OCs
in my pocket,
and they just
ran up talkin' all
kinds of crazy shit.
You know,
"You're gonna go to prison.
We know you killed Mouse."
I was like,
"I, I didn't kill Mouse."
Are you cooperating?
Hell no.
Babe, they already
had their sights
set on fuckin'
Fez and Ash.
So, you are cooperating
with the police.
I do not know if that is
the right word, all right,
but I'm helping 'em out.
Okay, they definitely
had their sights set
on them beforehand,
so I didn't set
anything into motion.
I love you, baby,
and I'm gonna be
coming over soon,
and I'm gonna be
talkin' about
some things,
and I need you to stay
the fuck out of it.
Oh, hey, it's raining.
I'm gonna take a shower.
♪ Darlin', darlin',
stand by me ♪
♪ Oh, stand by me ♪
- This shit go hard.
♪ Stand by me ♪
♪ Stand by me ♪
But for real though, if,
if your play is anything
like "Stand By Me,"
you're not gonna
have no problems.
- What are you doing?
Don't worry.
I'm not here to apologize.
Can you imagine if I was
sitting here with a gun
forcing you
to accept my apology?
- You're scaring me.
- Yeah...
It's kinda the point.
I love you.
I love you, Nate.
Nate...
I love you.
I know you better than
anyone in this world.
I humiliated you.
It's over.
♪ ♪
Why do you think my dad
likes to film himself fucking?
I don't know what
you're talking about.
♪ ♪
Can you believe
it was Jules?
I'm gonna need that disc now.
I don't have it.
Hm.
Okay.
Okay.
Take a deep breath.
Stop it, Nate.
- Stop, Nate, stop.
Please, please stop.
- Please, stop it,
stop it, please.
- Please, stop it.
Stop, stop, stop.
It's in, it's in my purse.
It's in my purse.
It's in my purse.
Hey, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I was--
- I was jok--
- Don't touch me!
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
There's no bullets
in the gun.
Goodbye.
♪ You're all I need ♪
♪ To get by, ahh ♪
♪ You're all I need ♪
♪ To get by ♪
♪ Me for you
that's how it is ♪
♪ I be your Noah,
you be my Wiz ♪
♪ I'm your Mister, you my Mrs.
with hugs and kisses ♪
♪ Valentine cards
and birthday wishes, please ♪
♪ ♪
- Hello?
- Look, I know you probably
don't wanna talk to me,
but I'm about to be
outside your house,
and I really need
to speak to you.
I don't care.
No, thank you.
It's good to see you.
I know you hate me.
I've done a lot
of shitty things,
but, um... no, this
isn't one of 'em.
What do you want?
First... to apologize.
I'm not interested.
I know, but you are
gonna be interested
in the second thing.
Unfortunately for you,
you're gonna have
to hear my apology first.
Uh...
I'm sorry...
for everything that
I've done to you.
You didn't deserve it.
I was, uh... I was tryin'
to protect somebody that
didn't deserve to be protected.
If I could take it
all back, I would.
But... I did what I did.
I found out about you
and my dad from, um...
from this disc.
Yeah, he, uh,
he secretly records
every encounter he has,
and, you know,
he's been doin' it, well...
well, honestly,
as long as I can
remember.
I stole it from him,
and he had a, he had
a mental breakdown,
and he moved out of the house,
so I thought that I would, uh--
I thought I'd give it to you,
and, you know, you can
do with it as you please.
- So, there was a camera?
- Yes.
And you've seen it?
Yeah.
- Have a lot of people seen it?
- No, no.
Does he know you're
giving this to me?
No... No.
He would fuckin' kill me.
Is this, like,
the only copy, or...
is it other, other places?
I mean, it's the only
one that I know of, yeah.
Why are you
giving this to me?
Honestly, the answer is
too stupid and simple.
I think it's better if we
just keep it a mystery.
What, did you become,
like, a good person?
Absolutely not, no.
I mean, you should've seen
what I had to do to get it.
I came out here with
a box cutter in my sleeve.
You know, in, in case
there was a chance
I might have
to slit your throat.
That's how little
I trust you.
- Well, uh, thank you.
- You're welcome.
- Um, I'm gonna go.
- Okay.
Hey, um...
for what it's worth...
everything I ever
said was true.
Same here.
♪ ♪
- Hello?
- Hey, pack a suitcase.
I'll be at your place in 10.
You can stay at my house.
Okay.
Love you.
I love you, too.
♪ Well, you're still walking ♪
♪ Around the block ♪
♪ You had a long time ♪
- ♪ To think who you are ♪
♪ You look so sad ♪
♪ Well, so you think ♪
♪ You say, "Come over" ♪
♪ And you're still a star ♪
♪ You're like a villain ♪
♪ In some old film ♪
♪ Walking in the dark ♪
♪ In somebody's room ♪
♪ Save me ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm still sinking ♪
♪ And you've got a harbor ♪
♪ Close to the shore ♪
♪ ♪
I ruined my entire life for you.
♪ Save me ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm still sinking ♪
♪ And you've got a harbor ♪
♪ Close to the shore ♪
- How old are you?
- Uh, 22.
Selfishly...
I hope you stay.
Wider.
Wider...
There you go.
That's it.
Good girl.
- So, Rue, Rue.
Hm?
So, you think you
hit rock bottom?
Yes.
- Hm.
- Um...
okay, uh, I know...
that I have a lot
of apologizing to do.
- Uh... I get that.
- Uh-huh.
So, I just figured
that I'd, you know...
go to rehab, get clean,
you know, sort my shit out,
and, um...
then come back,
and... apologize.
So you wanna get clean?
- Yeah.
- Okay.
How do you feel about that?
If it's real, then great.
- It is.
- You've said that before.
Gia, come on.
What's wrong with her
not believin' her?
I think she needs all
of our support. Right?
I don't think it's
a question of support.
When you've let someone down
again and again,
I think it's fair
to lose a little faith.
I mean, what do you think?
You think she'll get clean?
I don't know.
She said it's like a five
percent chance, right?
Somethin' like that.
Where's the hope in that?
The hope...
is what Rue has to find.
Yeah... piece of cake.
- Let Rue be Rue--
- Mm-hm.
and shower that
little one with love.
She's been waitin' on it.
Hey.
You mind if I sleep
in your bed tonight?
Yeah, yeah, for sure.
Come on.
I feel like I don't
know anything about
your life anymore.
I'll tell you
when you get back.
Okay.
- Good night.
- Night.
Hello?
Yes, this is her.
Yeah, my daughter.
She's 17 years old.
I think opiates, hero-heroin.
I think mainly just opiates.
Well, I t-took her
to the emergency room
about four days ago,
and... the doctor gave
her somethin' to help
with the withdrawal.
But I was hopin' to bring
her in as soon as possible.
But she needs to be
in an inpatient hospital.
You don't understand
my daughter, okay?
She's a drug addict, okay?
And she's gonna kill herself.
Please, I am beggin' you,
please, okay?
She needs to be
in an inpatient,
not just the detox.
She needs to be
put back into rehab.
No, don't.
Please listen to me.
I know my daughter.
She is going to kill herself.
Please don't do this, please.
I'm begging.
Please, don't do this to us.
Don't do this to us, please!
My daughter's
gonna kill herself.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
♪ ♪