ER (1994–2009): Season 6, Episode 21 - Such Sweet Sorrow - full transcript

♪ You in the dark ♪

♪ You in the pain ♪

♪ You on the run ♪

♪ Living a hell ♪

♪ Living your ghost ♪

♪ Living your end ♪

♪ Never seem to get
in the place ♪

♪ That I belong ♪

♪ Don't wanna lose the time ♪

♪ Lose the time to come ♪

♪ Whatever you say
it's alright ♪



♪ Whatever you do
it's all good ♪

♪ Whatever you say.. ♪

♪ ...it's alright ♪

Hey, sweetie, go back
to sleep, okay?

Shh. Shh.

♪ ...on a decline
breaking the waves ♪

Oh‐ho!

What happened?
Did you have a bad dream?

Oh, man, Tess,
you're killing me.

'Abby?'

'Abby?'

Yeah?

'Paramedics are bringing in
a 22 year old woman.'

Pelvic pain.



Okay.

‐ You getting up?
‐ Yep.

You want me to wake Malucci?

♪ ...it's alright ♪

Nope. I'm up.

I'm sorry.

How long was I out?

'About 20 minutes.'

Oh, well, that must be why
I feel so refreshed.

So is this, um, a med student
hazing thing

or do you guys just hate me?

You're younger than us,
prettier than us

and skinnier than us.

We hate you.

Thanks for the candor.

Any time.

It's cold out here.
I should have brought my jacket.

So go back in.

We don't need you
to help us push in a gurney.

You know..

...I never actually thought
I'd even get into med school.

I was just looking for a change.

You really wanna stop talking

before one of us hits you.

I love you.

Do I tell you that enough?

I love you.

‐ Hey.
‐ Hey.

I didn't know
you played basketball.

I don't.

Hello, Tess.

Did you let your mama
sleep for a change?

No, she did not.

Did I make you angry?

The flowers on your birthday?

No, they were beautiful.

They weren't
animal crackers, huh?

You heard about that, huh?

Are you still
in love with him?

I don't know.

You know, I think
I'm still too angry

with him to think straight.

I don't think so.

Why?

No, it wasn't like that.

Doug didn't know
I was pregnant when he left.

He didn't come back
when he found out.

Well, it wasn't all Doug.

I could have gone with him.

He asked me to.

Why didn't you?

Pride.

I wanted him
to stay here for me.

I thought I should be
at least that important to him.

I still love my wife.

But it's time
to get on with my life.

Hey.

Let's help your mommy
get inside, huh?

Oh, yeah, here we go.

Like a cowboy.

Slide your bottom
down a little bit.

God, I hate these.

How many sexual partners
have you had in the past year?

‐ One.
‐ 'Do you use condoms?'

Most of the time.

‐ Do you think I'm pregnant?
‐ No.

The urine test
came back negative.

Wow. That didn't hurt at all.

Warm water.
I know a few tricks.

I thought you guys
kept these in the freezer.

I gotta remember
to tell my gynecologist.

‐ Cultures?
‐ GC And chlamydia?

You think
I might have chlamydia?

We check everybody for
sexually transmitted diseases.

There's a purulent discharge
around the cervix.

I've been with my boyfriend
for over a year.

If he gave me syphilis
or something

I'm gonna kill him.

We haven't made a diagnosis yet.

Okay, speculum's coming out.

I'm gonna move your cervix.

Tell me if this hurts.

Sorry. There's no other way
to do that.

I'll try to be gentle
when I examine your ovaries.

Okay...you can put
your legs down.

Everything seems fine.
It's probably PID.

‐ PID?
‐ 'Pelvic inflammatory disease.'

We'll give you a shot
of antibiotics, some pills

and I'll throw
in something for the pain, okay?

'You can go ahead
and get dressed.'

250 of ceftriaxone IM,
a gram of Zithromax PO

and 550 of Anaprox.

Hang onto her for 30 minutes

make sure she doesn't have
an allergic reaction.

You want me to get
Malucci to sign off?

No. I've seen more
of these than he has.

‐ Let him sleep.
‐ I could find Weaver.

I wouldn't go there. She's on
her second double this week.

Been here
since yesterday morning.

Weaver's upstairs,
they had a code in CCU.

I heard Mark's coming
back today.

Thank God,
if Weaver gets any nastier

we'd have to call
animal control.

Amara?

Amara!

‐ Frank.
‐ 'Where's Amara?'

She got off at 7:00.

‐ 'Who are you?'
‐ Frank. Personnel sent me down.

'You have
any experience, Frank?'

26 years as a Chicago cop.

In medicine?

I had my knee replaced
about six months ago.

Oh! This is great.

What the hell are all those
people doing out there?

'Sick, I guess.'

Well, thank you for that astute

and penetrating
observation, Frank.

Why aren't they
being seen by doctors?

I don't know.
I just got here.

No docs.
Abby's in down sutures.

Dr. Malucci's here.

'I think he's asleep
in exam one.'

What about Kovac?

‐ Foreign guy?
‐ Yes.

He and some nurse
came in together.

They took her babies
upstairs to day care.

Dr. Chen? Dr. Carter?

Some people came in when I did.

‐ I think they're in the lounge.
‐ Okay, it's five after 7:00.

Is there some kind of natural
disaster that I'm unaware of?

An earthquake
or a half of Chicago's

swallowed up
by a giant sinkhole?

Could you stop yelling at me?
I was here on time.

Mark Greene called. He said
he'd be in before 10:00.

He had to go by the mortuary.

Okay, hey, Lydia, do you still
have that rape whistle thing?

Yeah.

Get on the phone to everybody

who's supposed
to be here and scream

on their machines
that they're late.

And if they answer,
tell them they're fired.

Rise and shine.

Patients are waiting.

‐ Ow!
‐ Dr. Malucci..

...if I don't see you
standing over a sick patient

looking compassionate
and engaged

'in the next 30 seconds'

you're gonna spend
the next week doing nothing

but disimpactions
and yeast infections.

I'm up, chief, I'm up. I'm good.

I get called upstairs
for 20 minutes

and this whole place
goes to hell!

‐ They're in the lounge?
‐ Uh‐huh.

She uses a whistle?

You okay, John?

Yeah, I'm fine.

You look terrible.

Thank you.

Dr. Carter, what time
do you have?

Five minutes after 7:00.

So why are you two
still in the lounge?

A seven o'clock shift
starts at 7;00.

That means you get here in time

'to be seeing patients at 7:00.'

Is that clear? Move it.

County's not paying you
to drink coffee.

Whoo, somebody woke up
on the wrong side of the coffin.

Today ought to be a lot of fun.

Chen, weak and dizzy in exam two

and abdominal pain
in curtain one.

Malucci, bleeding hemorrhoids
in exam eight.

Oh, oh, come on, chief.

Hemorrhoids in eight and a boil

that needs lancing in five.

Terrific.

'I hope that tone of voice'

is one
of unbridled enthusiasm.

‐ I can't wait.
‐ Okay.

And keep an eye
on your med student

please, for a change.

Wh‐where is Abby?

'PID, down in sutures.'

‐ You're supervising, Malucci?
‐ Uh, yeah.

Carter, take the pyelo lady
in curtain three.

Kovac, rule out MI

or a nail through the hands
still waiting in chairs?

Both.

Eunice is bringing in a terminal

cancer patient five minutes out.

Okay. That'll be us, Carol.
Let's get cracking, people.

There's plenty more
where those came from.

Butt boil and hemorrhoids.

This is what I went
to medical school for.

Could've been worse. There's an
explosive diarrhea up there.

You okay, Hoss?
You don't look so good.

And so everybody
keeps telling me.

I'm having trouble sleeping.

Well, try reading
the annals at bedtime.

That‐that usually
puts me right out.

Hey, you want me to dip
a urine on our pyelo?

Yeah. Yeah, in fact
I'll be right in.

I'm just gonna use
the bathroom.

You on all night?

Yeah, I'm supposed
to be off today

but I, uh, swapped with Cleo.

She's taking my Saturday night.

I got tickets for "Rage Against
The Machine," my friend.

‐ Right in the pit, baby.
‐ Hey, lucky you.

I think Weaver's got
it in for me.

I don't know what
I ever did to Festus

to get her so pissed.

Maybe it was
calling her "Festus."

Well, never to her face.

‐ How's it going?
‐ Alright.

'I couldn't wake her up.'

'BP is 85/60, tachy at 122.'

Mr. O'Brien says
she hadn't eaten anything

in a couple of days.

Has she had any fluids?

Little ginger ale yesterday.

She was operated on

for a bowel obstruction
last month.

They said the tumor spread
to her liver and‐and diaphragm.

She could be encephalopathic
from liver failure.

What does that mean?

Your wife's liver
isn't removing

toxins from her blood.

'That might explain
why she isn't waking up.'

'Okay, here we go.
Gently, now.'

'And one, two, three.'

'Carol, get a CBC, lytes,
liver panel and a PT.'

Resps are down to eight.

Mr. O'Brien..

...your wife's breathing
is very slow.

We may have to decide
whether or not to intubate.

Oh, God.

Does she have
a "do not resuscitate" order?

Yes. She doesn't want
any machines.

Is...is there any way
you can help her?

We'll give her some IV Fluids

and see if that makes her
more comfortable, alright?

Carol, could you show
Mr. O'Brien and his family

to where they
can wait, please.

'Sure.'

Let's go see
if we can find you some crayons

and some coloring books, okay?

Bye‐bye, mommy.

Come on, sweetheart.

I brought her things.

That's my job when we go
to the hospital.

'She likes to have her
things with her.'

Okay. There isn't anywhere
to put them in here

so do you think you could hold
on to them for a little longer?

'Alright, sweetheart.'

Alright, honey. Come on.

So...Missus..

‐ Wyatt.
‐ Wyatt.

How long have you
been experiencing the burning?

A couple of days.

It usually clears up
with cranberry juice.

‐ Any fever?
‐ 101.4.

Open your mouth for me,
would you, please?

Weaver sent you a present,
a wheezer.

Would you excuse me?

Uh...history of asthma.

‐ Since I was a kid.
‐ Get him into bed.

Give him five of albuterol.
I'll be right back.

Could you sit up
for me, please?

I want you to tell me
if this hurts you at all.

Oh, oh. Yeah.

Looks like
you got pyelonephritis.

‐ Is that serious?
‐ You're gonna be fine.

Frank said you had two patients,
might need a hand.

No, no, I got this.

Have you ever
been on steroids?

Last year..

...for a few weeks.

Give him 60 of prednisone.

Set him up for continuous nebs
after this one.

When was your last period?

‐ About a month ago.
‐ You sure?

I'm just waiting on labs.

I got 'em.
Thanks anyway, though.

Any allergies?

I get hives from sulfa.

Can you tell me
what inhalers you're using?

Ventolin and Vanceril.

‐ Any chance you're pregnant?
‐ No. Definitely not.

You believe this guy? Not you.

You. Are you pregnant?

I got scared when I couldn't
wake her up. Called 911.

'You did the right thing
calling the paramedics.'

'She's dehydrated.'

I tried to get her
to drink more

but sh‐she's so weak
she can't swallow.

She can hardly hold a straw.

Labs are back.

Her liver isn't making
clotting factors.

What does that mean?

It's a sign of severe
liver failure.

Is there anything you can do?

'No. Not really.'

'We‐we can only make her
comfortable now.'

So this is it?

I think probably so.

Oh, boy.

Wh‐where are my girls?

One of the nurses is taking care
of them in the lounge.

Do everything you can.

I‐I‐I don't want her
to suffer, please.

Of course not.

Come back if you get a fever
or experience any vomiting

and if you wanna wait a minute,
I can get you a list of clinics

that treat STDs.

Can I wait outside?
I'm dying for a cigarette.

Sure. But you're going to quit
really soon, right?

Absolutely.

Hey.

22‐year‐old with PID.

Gave her 250 of ceftriaxone
and a gram of Zithromax.

‐ Need you to sign the chart.
‐ Benton on?

Kovac has a hot belly.

No, Benton traded
with Corday again.

And Cleo just happens
to be off, too.

Shocking.

This date is wrong.

Today's the 11th,
not the 10th.

No, I thought
tomorrow was the 11th.

Today's the 11th, all day.

Oh.

I was expecting today
to be a really awful day

but it seems to be
turning out okay.

Venus out of alignment
with the ninth moon

of Jupiter or something?

No, nothing like that.

Uh, Jupiter only
has eight moons.

You want me to name those?

‐ Who is this guy?
‐ Uh, Frank. He's temping.

Let's see, uh, inner moons..

...Metis, Adrastea,
Amalthea and Thebe.

Thank you. I believe you.

Your hemorrhoid guy's
complaining, Dr. Dave.

Says the suppository
isn't helping.

Outer moons, Io

Europa, Ganymede
and Callisto.

‐ What's he going on about?
‐ Moons.

You know, Saturn has 18
confirmed moons.

Do you want me to name them?

No.

Abby, your PID girl
collapsed in the bay.

What happened?

She's breathing,
but I can barely feel her pulse.

She needs a couple
of large‐bore IVs

two liters of saline wide open.

Cathy! Cathy, wake up.

‐ Maybe it's an ectopic.
‐ No, ICON's negative.

‐ She's not pregnant.
‐ BP is 70 palp.

‐ Who's her doctor?
‐ Malucci.

I'll get him.

Mix up dopamine,
get an ultrasound

let's get her
on the gurney.

One, two, three.

'Pressure's 85
after two liters.'

Up the dopamine to 12 mics.

Hemocue is 14.1.

Right adnexa is normal.

Left side..

...there's a mass
of free fluid. Damn it.

‐ What is it?
‐ Tube‐ovarian abscess.

When they rupture, they get
septic and hypotensive.

Want me to page GYN?

No. Dial 7614.
Give me the phone.

‐ Temp's 102.
‐ That's the infection.

Got 'em.

Hi. Who's this?
Paula, it's Abby Lockhart.

I need to redline
a ruptured TOA.

Set up the OR and page
a chief resident, thanks.

What's the hell's going on?

My patient had
a syncopal episode.

‐ Dropped her pressure.
‐ What patient?

Abby, what patient?

The PID I just had
you discharge.

‐ Pressure's up to 100.
‐ Good, let's move her.

Why didn't you call me? Maybe
it's a hemorrhagic ovarian cyst.

No, crit's fine,
mass is loculated.

And she's spiked a fever.

You picked up a loculated mass?

‐ Yeah.
‐ No kidding?

I wouldn't know one
if it bit me on the ass.

You haven't gotten
your antibiotics yet.

I don't think so.

'I'm sorry, I've been busy.'

I wrote the order
45 minutes ago.

Yeah, you also wrote
for a continuous albuterol

and steroids for this guy.

‐ When can you do it?
‐ When I'm finished.

Forget it.

I'm gonna get
your antibiotics myself.

Hey, when did you get back?

Uh, 20 minutes ago.
Uh, still holding.

Mark, I'm so sorry
about your dad.

‐ Thanks.
‐ You okay?

I tried calling you
a couple times. L‐left messages.

I wanted to see
if I could do anything.

I appreciate you calling,
Rachel ended up coming up

and we were just hanging out.

Yes.

No, I'm trying to find out

how to get my father
into a VA cemetery.

Transferring me
to yet another department.

Didn't he want to be buried

next to your mother
in San Diego?

I don't know what he wanted.

He said he didn't want
to be any trouble.

Suggested I put him out
with the trash.

Oh, that was helpful.

Threw in a couple harangues

about mortuary vultures, too.

Another recording
telling me to hold.

‐ Hm.
‐ You look beat.

Yeah, well,
Tess hasn't been sleeping.

'Teething, probably.'

Yeah, that's what Luka said.

Well, he sees them
enough to know.

Hey! Don't give me
a hard time about that.

I'm struggling enough
with this as it is.

I think it's great.

'I want you to be happy.'

So, why do I still feel
so...unsure?

Maybe you're just afraid
of making

yourself vulnerable again.

Carol, she's waking up.

Let me know
if you need anything.

Thanks.

Connie, could you
get Weaver for me?

Where‐where am I?

You're in the hospital,
sweetheart.

No, no, I don't want that.

Mrs. O'Brien..

...I'm Carol Hathaway.

I'm a nurse.

We're giving you fluid
through an IV

because you stopped drinking.

That's why you didn't
wake up today.

I want to go home.

Please.

Honey, we need to get you
admitted to the hospital

so you could feel better.

No, I want to go home.

Mrs. O'Brien..

...you wanna go home?

And you don't want
to be put onto any machines?

No. Please, no machines.

Honey, they can help
you if‐if we stay.

They'll give you something
for the pain.

‐ No.
‐ Mr. O'Brien..

‐ Please, sweetheart.
‐ Home.

Mr. O'Brien.

Connie, please start her
on a morphine drip.

I think that we should
explore home hospice care.

An ambulance could take her home

as long as someone was there

'to take care of the IVS'

and the pain medication.

It's clearly what she wants.

She's dying. She doesn't
know what she wants.

I think she does.

She was very clear.

'Don't you think
she deserves to die'

where she wants to at home?

With her family in her own bed?

Good.

Why don't you go tell her?

I think it'll help
calm her down.

Carol.

Oh, God, I really
didn't need this today.

Why don't you call
social services.

Maybe the husband's right

and we could admit her
for a day or two.

No, Carol, please.
Please, not today.

She would go home eventually.

The woman wants to go.
We can't keep her here.

She wants to die.

I know it's not pleasant

but we have to respect
her wishes.

Yes, but she is in
excruciating pain

and we didn't even try
to explain

the options to her.

Just call and set it up.

Alright.

This should take
about 20 minutes.

And you should start feeling
better in a couple of days.

I'm gonna have the nurse come in

and give you your prescriptions.

How are you feeling,
Mr. Capazian?

The steroids
and albuterol helping?

Oh, yeah, I feel much better.

Yeah, it's amazing stuff.

You okay, Mrs. Wyatt?

Hard‐hard to breathe.

‐ Feeling any chest pains?
‐ No.

This ever happened
to you before?

When I...when I got bactrim.

‐ Bactrim?
‐ I‐I told you.

I was allergic to sulfa.

Uhh!

I'm feeling dizzy.

Okay, just lie down, lie down.

‐ 'You need some help?'
‐ No.

Everything's under control.

‐ How you doing, Mrs. Wyatt?
‐ Not too‐not too good.

‐ What happened?
‐ Nothing.

'Somebody hit the call button.'

‐ I did.
‐ What?

She was having
trouble breathing.

What happened?

Uh, she was complaining
of hives

so I gave her a sub‐q epi.

Where's all the blood
coming from?

Oh, yeah, she must've pulled
out her IV.

Why would she pull out her IV?

How the hell would I know that?

Why don't you start
another line?

Just, uh, give her
50 of Benadryl

125 of Solu‐Medrol.

You just nodded off
for a second there, Mrs. Wyatt.

Alright, good pulse,
good respiration.

‐ 'You want any fluids?'
‐ Yeah.

Why don't you run
a liter over an hour.

This isn't going to be pretty.

Why was a critical
patient like this

discharged from the ER?

She wasn't critical
at the time.

Her vitals were stable.
I thought it was PID.

You didn't appreciate
the mass on exam?

‐ No, I didn't.
‐ Who was supervising?

You, Dr. Malucci?

Didn't you appreciate anything?

Uh, no, I‐I didn't.

What were you wearing,
oven mitts?

Actually, Dr. Malucci
never had a chance

to examine the patient.

I think you two
need a moment alone

to get your stories straight.

He didn't examine her
because I never called him in.

Have you recently
and unexpectedly

graduated from medical school,
Miss Lockhart?

I thought my experience
in ob‐gyn qualified me.

Obviously, I was wrong.

So you signed a discharge order

for a patient you never saw

'who was examined and treated'

only by a medical student?

This woman could have died

and you're years away from
having the necessary experience

'to make these decisions.'

‐ I know.
‐ Oh, good!

I'd like a moment alone
to speak with Dr. Malucci.

Can I‐can I say something?
I, uh‐‐

I think your cause
would better be served

by keeping your mouth shut.

When residents arrive here..

...we size you up.

We have great hopes for you,
we want you to succeed

but gradually over time
and through interaction..

...we form opinions.

'Do you want to know
the staff's opinion of you?'

'You're lazy, sloppy'

and your careless attitude
towards your responsibilities

as a physician endangers
patients' lives

as witnessed today.

'In other words,
none of us thinks'

'you're much of a doctor.'

Carter's all over
the place emotionally.

Depressed one moment,
elated the next.

Have you talked
to him about it?

Yeah, I've tried to ask him

how he's doing,
but he isn't very forthcoming.

Do you know
if he's seeing anyone?

Let's get out of the hallway.

Haleh, can you give us a minute?

You mean a therapist?
I don't know.

Well, don't you think he should?

I'm not a psychiatrist.

Look, I know you think
it's none of my business

but I got out the DMS‐4, and‐‐

So now, you're a psychiatrist?

He has violent mood swings.

Sometimes he's deeply depressed

other times,
he's manic and elated.

So, you're suggesting
he's bipolar?

Do you know
if there's a family history?

He was almost killed.

He feels partially responsible
for Lucy's death.

My moods would be all
over the place, too.

But are you sure
that's all it is?

Look, Dr. Greene,
I may be wrong

but what if I'm right?

If we care about him,
don't we owe it to him

to at least try and find out?

How's she doing?

Breathing's agonal,
resps are seven.

So she's not getting
any better?

No. I'm afraid not.

We're doing what we can
to rehydrate her

and we called social services

to help set up
the hospice care.

‐ Where are your daughters?
‐ Down in the cafeteria.

They're getting something to eat
with some of the nurses.

She's been sleeping
so peacefully.

You should have seen
her two years ago.

She was so beautiful

alive and vibrant,
always laughing.

I wish I could have it back..

...the time I missed with her..

...traveling for work..

'...late nights at the office'

'all the weekends,
I was prepping for trial.'

But when
she was first diagnosed..

...I kept working.

Can you believe that?

'Instead of spending
time with her I kept working.'

I'm gonna call
social services again

find out what's keeping them.

Thanks.

She's not breathing.

'Oh, God.'

‐ Sheila?
‐ 'Sheila!'

Please, the girls aren't here.

I‐I didn't think
it was gonna happen this fast.

Um, Connie, can you help me?

Carol, she's a DNR.

That doesn't mean we can't
stimulate her breathing.

Please, they didn't get
to say goodbye.

‐ You want me to get Weaver?
‐ No.

I want you go and get Kovac,
tell him I need him

and then go downstairs
and get the daughters.

‐ Come on, Sheila.
‐ Sheila.

‐ Come on, Sheila.
‐ 'Please, God.'

Not yet, please.

‐ What happened?
‐ End‐stage ovarian cancer.

‐ She stopped breathing.
‐ Why are you bagging her?

‐ Let's intubate.
‐ We can't.

‐ She's a DNR.
‐ Then let her go.

Her daughters are downstairs,
they haven't said goodbye yet.

Please...I‐I thought
we had more time.

Can't we use a nasal trumpet?

The children
haven't had a chance

to say goodbye
to their dying mother.

It's not a ventilator.

Please?

‐ Where are the trumpets?
‐ I'll get it.

Let me in.

Okay, she's breathing.

What's going on in here?

‐ Puttin' a nasal trumpet.
‐ She's DNR.

We didn't intubate,
we're just helping

her keep the airway open.

You resuscitated her.

She's your patient?

Yes, Dr. Kovac,
she's my patient.

Her daughters weren't here
to say goodbye.

Mr. O'Brien, will you excuse us
for a moment?

You deliberately violated
a patient's wishes.

No, I did what I thought was
best under the circumstances.

That's not your decision
to make.

‐ I'm sorry, Kerry.
‐ Damn right, you should be.

You're a senior member
of this staff, Carol.

We discussed this earlier,
we disagreed.

'I listened to
your point of view.'

I told you exactly
what I wanted done.

If you can't respect
my authority

then you shouldn't
be working here.

If she codes again..

...I don't want either of you
to touch her.

‐ Is that clear?
‐ Yeah.

I'm sorry, Luka.

Luka, don't just walk..

'Hey, Mark.'

Hey, what are you
doing down here?

I thought you were
stuck upstairs all day.

I came down to talk
to Kerry about Malucci.

What'd he do this time?

I've just been through
the whole thing with her.

‐ Can I tell you later?
‐ Sure.

Did you get your dad sorted out?

‐ Yeah.
‐ Where is he now?

He's, uh, actually
in the trunk of my car.

I‐I didn't have time to go home.

Where's Rachel?

Jen's parents,
being spoiled rotten.

I thought you might
like these back.

I don't feel comfortable
keeping them.

My father gave them to you.

Yes, and it was very sweet
of him..

...but I just think
it‐it's a bad idea.

I really think you should
give them to Rachel.

I was 12 once,
I know what they'll mean to her.

Hey. Don't read
too much into this.

Do I do that?

You do it regularly.

Mark, we've got
an acute MI coming in.

Alright, I'll be right there.

Well, are you, uh,
still coming by tonight?

Where will Rachel sleep?

On the pull‐out
in the living room.

I don't get off till 12:00.

I'll leave the light on.

Okay.

You had no right
to put me in that position.

‐ I know.
‐ Kerry is my superior.

I work here.
I don't wanna lose my job.

You have every reason to be mad.

You took advantage
of our personal relationship.

I did what I thought was right.

Yeah, damn the consequences.

In this case, yes.

You had every right
to make that decision

for yourself,
but not to make it for me.

‐ You're really mad.
‐ Yes, I am.

Why are you smiling?

I guess I thought I was immune.

Well, you're not.

Luka, I'm sorry.

Yes?

Really..

...it will
never happen again.

Good.

And thank you.

For what?

For helping her.

You're welcome.

What?

Nothing.

You sure?

Yeah.

'"Goodnight, little house,
and goodnight, mouse.'

Goodnight, comb.
Goodnight, brush."

Now, can you see the mouse?

There's the mouse.

Hey, guys.

Your mom's ready to see you now.

Frank, could you take Jennifer?

‐ Sure.
‐ We'll be in in a minute.

Don't you wanna see your mom?

She's going to die, isn't she?

Yeah.

It's not fair.

No, it's not.

I don't want to only have a dad.

I wanna be a family..

...like we used to be.

Come on, we should go.

Okay?

You ready?

Hi, mommy.

Hi, there.

How's my girl?

What are you doing?

Oh.

Just gathering my thoughts.

Haleh said you've been
in here for a while.

Yeah, I finished up some sutures

and, uh, it seemed
like a quiet place to hang out.

‐ Is that a problem?
‐ No.

Some of us are just a little
worried about you.

Well, you don't need to be.

‐ How are you?
‐ Fine.

You seeing anybody? Therapist?

No.

Need a referral?

‐ Sure.
‐ Yeah?

'Cause Nadio gave me some names.

Yeah, that'd be great.

‐ It might help.
‐ Thanks.

Yeah, you're right. I'll go.

Okay.

Did social services
get your patient home?

No, she died.

I'm sorry.

She was end stage.

I'm off in a couple of hours.

Would you like
to get some dinner?

Sure.

We don't have to.

Uh, no, that would be nice.

Excuse me, Miss Hathaway?

I'll find you when I get off.

I just wanted to thank you
for everything

you did for us today.

You're welcome.

Do you believe
that we have soul mates?

That there's only..

...one person
we're supposed to find?

You know, only one person
we can really love?

I didn't used to..

...but I‐I do now.

'Sh‐she was the love
of my life..'

'...and I'll never love
anyone again'

'the way I loved her.'

Carol, I need
some more Atropine.

‐ Carol!
‐ Hey.

Haleh, where's Mark?

Carol, is everything alright?

‐ Where's Mark?
‐ Exam one.

Okay.

Mark, I gotta go.

Tell Kerry I won't
be in tomorrow, okay?

Twins okay?

I'm gonna drop them off
at my mom's.

‐ 'What?'
‐ I'll call you from the plane.

'Plane?'

Hey, Malik, where's Kovac?

Curtain three.

Luka, I can't have dinner
with you tonight.

Okay.

I'm so sorry.

For what?

I have to go find out.

Find out what?

If he's still in love with me..

'...because..'

...I'm still in love with him.

I am.

I've been in love with him
since I was 23 years old.

He's..

...he's everything to me.

He's my life, I feel complete
when I'm with him

and I feel empty
when we're apart..

...and..

...he's the father
of my children..

...and he's my soul mate.

'You'll find someone,
Luka, you will.'

'You're such a wonderful man.'

She's out there, I know she is.

Someone who'll love you
the way your wife loved you.

You'll find her. You will.

You will find her.

♪ I had a good life ♪

♪ Before you came ♪

Seattle? Seattle?

M‐4, but you better hurry.

They're already
at final boarding.

♪ ...my friends and my freedom ♪

♪ I had my name ♪

♪ Still there was sorrow.. ♪

‐ Whoa! Seattle?
‐ Uh‐huh.

Alright. Have a good flight.

♪ 'Til you made me glad ♪

♪ Oh, in this love.. ♪

Fasten your seat belt, please.

♪ ...never knew I had ♪

You almost missed it.

Yeah. I almost did.

♪ And this love ♪
♪ This love ♪

♪ This love ♪

Dad, you're crazy.

This was your grandfather's
favorite spot in Chicago.

Right here.

It's beautiful.

Yeah.

Listen, I have to go
to San Diego next week

to, uh, bury his ashes
next to your grandmother's.

Can you come with me?

Sure.

I‐I'd like that.

'You miss him, huh?'

Yeah, I do.

It's kind of funny.

'Why?'

We didn't like
each other much

for a very long time.

How come?

I can't remember now.

Probably mostly my fault.

I have something for you.

These were your grandmother's.

Do you like them?

They're beautiful.

Can I put 'em on you?

Okay, turn around.

There you go.

Okay, let me see.

You..

...you look lovely.

Thank you.

Promise me you won't grow up
too fast, okay?

Okay.

♪ When the world ♪

♪ Wouldn't throw me a crumb ♪

♪ Oh no ♪

♪ But I kept on believing ♪

♪ That this day would come ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ And this love ♪
♪ This love ♪

♪ This love ♪

♪ Is like nothing
I have ever known ♪

♪ This love ♪

♪ No no baby ♪

♪ Take my hand love ♪

♪ I'm taking you home ♪

♪ I'm taking you home ♪

♪ Where we can be ♪

♪ With the ones
who really care ♪

♪ Home ♪

♪ Where we can grow together ♪

♪ Keep you in my heart ♪

♪ Forever ♪

♪ Oh and this love ♪
♪ This love ♪

Where are the girls?

They're with my mom.

♪ ...is like nothing
I have ever known ♪

♪ This love ♪

It's beautiful here.

♪ Take my hand ♪

♪ I'm taking you home ♪

♪ I'm taking you home ♪

♪ Yes I am ♪

♪ Home ♪

♪ Taking you home ♪