ER (1994–2009): Season 2, Episode 21 - Take These Broken Wings - full transcript

I didn't want to
give up fighting for her.

I would've gone on forever.

I mean, little Suzie's
almost a year old.

She's been with me forever.

Her birthday's next week

did I mention that?

She fell in love with our
neighbor's little puppy, Jobo.

So, I got her this
stuffed little animal.

Black and white, floppy ears.

Did I tell you
the day care center called?

It seems I still have
an outstanding bill.



I love that whole..

...insult to injury thing.

Uh, I kind of hate
going up there, but..

...it's Suzie's
birthday next week.

Did I mention that?

I got to remember
to send her a present.

Anyway, I suppose
things are okay.

Don't have
to get up twice a night.

So at least
I'm getting some more sleep.

Just going
to work, coming home

sticking to a routine.

I guess life's
getting back to normal..

...before the baby, that is.

Ma'am?



‐ Hello.
‐ Hi.

I'm Father Ruiz Anchia.

‐ Can I help you?
‐ Uh, yeah.

That lady who
just sat down there

she dropped this outside.

Uh, last week,
it was her keys.

Once, she even
stepped out of a shoe.

She didn't even realize it.

Thank you.
I'll give it to her.

Okay.

Mm.

'It's beautiful, isn't it?'

They're rehearsing
for a christening tomorrow.

'"Salve Mater Misericordiae"'

'based on the sequence
"Salve Mater Salvatoris"'

'by Adam of Saint Victor.'

'No one knows
who did the translation.'

'Is there anything
else I can do for you?'

Hello?

Can I help you?

I don't know.

I don't know.

Turfed the
chest pain to cardiology.

The chronic
puker to medicine.

I love these things.

My daughter
she left them

after her last visit.

Bipolar to psych

and say
goodbye to Mr. Barry.

The one who called you
an incompetent poser?

That was only before
his horrifying rectal

revealed an even more
horrifying case of hemorrhoids.

Sent him to the surgery clinic.

Carter's with
that otitis media.

Ross isn't
on yet, and Lewis is late.

Well, no. She worked an extra
four hours last night.

She's not due
for another hour.

You just
want her to be late.

Don't be ridiculous.

"A propensity for tardiness

makes her a problematic
candidate for chief resident."

Mark, I can't believe that you
think I'd keep tabs on anyone.

‐ Mm.
‐ You're late, Jerry.

Time out.

What do you see?

Well, come on.

Al and I are engaged.

‐ Oh, yeah. It's gorgeous.
‐ 'Congratulations.'

And the rest of the good news is
paramedics are on their way in.

Some failure‐to‐fly
suicide attempt. GCS 3.

If he's gorked why are
they bringing him here?

Landed in the lake
which is still little chilly.

Got to warm him up
before they can pronounce him.

Well, he
can't be cold and dead.

I thought we were going
to do something fun today.

I'm having fun.

Yeah, is this
what you and dad

used to do every morning?

If it makes you feel any better

dad couldn't keep up
if he were driving.

You know, you're the first
woman I've ever jogged for.

‐ Oh, Doug, I'm so flattered.
‐ Yeah. Ha!

Remind me to reward you
when we go back.

‐ Hut, let's go back.
‐ Ow! Ah!

Wait, wait, wait.
Hang on. I got you.

‐ Oh, my knee, my knee.
‐ Hold on. Hold on.

‐ Hang on. This one?
‐ Oh!

Damn. It goes out
on me all the time.

I'm a doctor, you know.

Yeah? A pediatrician.

Are you complaining?

‐ Uh...not necessarily.
‐ Let's see. Here you go.

Like this.
Is this helping at all?

Uh...uh‐huh.

Yeah?

I really am sorry. Ha ha ha.

I'm not saying that she,
the individual in question

isn't a possible
candidate for chief resident.

Just not a probable candidate.

I'm not saying that, either.

Thirty years
old, traumatic full arrest.

Been down 45 minutes.

Did a half‐gainer off of

a 75‐foot crane
right into the lake.

On my count.
One, two, three.

‐ 'Last epi?'
‐ 'Four minutes.'

I'm only
saying that this candidate

for chief resident
has had some serious

personal difficulties of late.

'Which have been handled'

'quite well
considering all things.'

Gave two
of atropine in the field.

'Pupils fixed and dilated.'

I could consider
supporting this individual

if there were more
supervision involved.

No BP, no pulse.

By the new ER attending
Morgenstern wants to bring in?

‐ It's a possibility.
‐ Flatline.

And the candidates
for that job are..

I actually think it's
still pretty wide open.

‐ Temp's normal.
‐ He's warmed up.

He's dead.

So whoever
I support for that position

will support my choice
for chief resident.

‐ It's a possibility.
‐ Mark, excuse me.

But whenever
you two are done

talking in
code about Dr. Lewis

being chief resident

and Dr. Weaver
becoming attending

can we call the time of death?

‐ This guy is toast.
‐ Yeah, yeah. Sure.

Uh, time of death, 8:53.

Let me know
when the family gets here.

'And call the eye bank.'

'Ooh‐eee, girl,
that's pretty!'

He finally popped
the question, huh?

Yep, he
really wanted me to have

his mother's
ring but she's still alive.

Oh, Susan. Hi.

Hi. Where is everyone?

Field trip to the park.

Spring at
last, thank God.

Oh, well,
I have a bill to pay.

Oh, well, listen,
would you mind stopping back

they're, uh, holding
the bus for me.

And, of course, we get up there

and no one's
there but an OB nurse

and Chloe is
screaming for The Beatles.

"The White Album!"

Carter's fumbling,
can't find it anywhere.

Chloe doesn't want
to breathe, right?

But she thinks
this singing will help.

So there we are,
like a bunch of crazies.

♪ Blackbird singing
in the dead of night ♪

♪ Take these broken
wings and learn to fly ♪

♪ All your life ♪

And there I am,
in between verses

telling her,
"Push, Chloe. Push. Come on.

"You can do it, girl.

You can do it."

And I cut the cord..

...and wrapped the little
warm baby all up and..

...put it on her chest.

Oh, this brand‐new life.

Chloe was crying.

I was crying.

She was so
beautiful...our baby girl.

I told her, "You did it,
Chloe. You really did it."

And you know what she said?

She said, "No, we did it.

We did it."

Our baby girl.

Did send the check in.

I wouldn't say
it were in the mail‐‐

Jerry, get off the phone

and clear curtain area three.

Clear curtain area three.

You got it.

Okay, come on. Don't play with
that. Don't play with that.

‐ That's really expensive, okay.
‐ 'Jimmy, don't, Jimmy.'

Jimmy here
give me back your gun.

‐ I was playing with that.
‐ Give me back this.

'Oh, come on. Annie, Jimmy,
come on. I'll take you inside.'

‐ You have to give that back.
‐ No.

‐ I want to stay with my mom.
‐ 'Come on.'

Annie, take
your brother and go with Lydia.

‐ Gently. Here we go.
‐ Dr. Greene, I don't feel good.

I just don't feel good.

We've got you,
Loretta, we've got you.

'Gently, gently,
gently, we got you.'

‐ Oh!
‐ Oh, I'm sorry.

I didn't
mean to scare you.

Oh, no, you didn't, not really.

We couldn't
be out of penicillin, could we?

Oh, they moved the
antibiotics down there.

Oh.

Oh, this is adorable.

Yeah, I had to
clear out Suzie's stuff

from upstairs at day care.

Susan, if
there's anything I can do.

I mean, if you want
to talk about anything.

You were right.
Here it is. Thanks.

I'm with Pickman.

I know. Shep's off today.

Yeah, well, I'd be with
Pickman even if he wasn't.

Shouldn't have filed
that complaint with the IAD.

He shouldn't
have slammed that kid.

That's not what happened.

Yeah, sure, whatever.

You were there, right. You
think he was just doing his job?

Yes, I do.

Well, I'll tell you
what I believe.

I believe the job doesn't
have to be done that way.

And who died and made you
the voice of experience?

Raul, that's who.

Look, I'm
sorry. I didn't mean that.

You know, Shep's been working at
this job for almost eight years.

So if you ever want to
step off that high moral ground

you're sitting on you just
might learn something from him.

Yeah, I already have.

Then that's what you should be

telling the IAD investigator.

I already have.

Abdominal pain for how long?

Couple of days.

I feel so bloated.

It doesn't go away.

‐ Huh. Any vomiting?
‐ Yeah.

Could I, could I be
dehydrated again?

We'll get some
fluids in you, just in case.

D‐5 half at 150 an hour

CBC, lytes,
chest and abdominal series.

Comin' up.

I couldn't even get
the kids to school.

‐ They shouldn't be in here.
‐ Don't worry.

Jerry's probably
showing them

some horribly
educational pictures

of open heart surgery

or something worse.

I'll check back when
the tests are back.

Okay.

‐ Hey, there you are.
‐ Oh, hi. How'd it go?

Oh, man, that guy was
a real son of a bitch.

Shep, it's just an interview,
it's not a military inquest.

Oh, yeah, but he
asked a thousand questions.

You know, he
already talked to Reilly.

‐ 'I know.'
‐ Little peckerhead.

Guy hasn't
seen half the stuff I've seen.

Calm down.
It's gonna be fine.

So, you're gonna tell him

that you were there
the whole time, right?

I mean that
you saw everything.

Yes. I was there.

The guy
stumbled into the table.

That simple.

Anyone could see it
was kind of a tough situation.

Shep, you're
driving me crazy.

I'm gonna speak
to this investigator guy..

...and this whole
thing's gonna go away.

Will you please go away?

It's my day off. I..

I don't really have
anything else to do.

Well, it's spring, you know?

Plant some flowers,
drive some golf balls.

I don't play golf.

'Start.'

‐ Oh!
‐ Annie, will you stop..

Just..

Want me to call the cops?

Uh, don't
laugh. Al's on the way.

By the way, congratulations.

'We just got into
town practicing for'

a basketball
tournament on Saturday.

Uh, I talked to her mom.

She said she was operated on
when she was eight weeks old.

It was something
called a Kasai procedure.

‐ Carter?
‐ Hepatoportoenterostomy.

Done for liver failure
from bile duct obstruction.

Okay, up and in.

I can do
it myself, thank you.

Yeah, T. C.'s what
you'd call dedicated.

I finally knew
something was wrong

when she
didn't want to play.

I need to be fixed now, okay?

'Cause I have
a tournament on Saturday

and it's very important.

My son's in a peewee
tournament next week.

Peewee stops at eight.

‐ I'm ten.
‐ 'Sit up.'

‐ Fever's 101.
‐ 'Mm‐hmm.'

Uh, how long
has she been jaundiced?

Uh, we've got a lot of kids,
I didn't really notice.

Dr. Ross, can I
speak to you for a minute?

'Yeah.'

Her folks live in Penrose.

Penrose? That's like
150 miles from here.

‐ Yeah. Soybean country.
‐ Yeah.

They're on their way
but I got all these other kids

at the motel and God
knows what damage they're doing.

Well, I would imagine T. C.'s
gonna have to be admitted.

In the meantime, we'll
keep a good eye on her here.

‐ Alright, thanks.
‐ Mm.

Come with me.
You're going to be okay.

Cats! Burmese, Cornish Rex,
Japanese Bob‐Bobtail.

God, my hatred
for them knows no bounds.

Short hair,
long hair, I hate them.

I think you're
allergic to them, Iris.

I never used to be.

My‐my brother had a cat

had a cat growing up
and I'd hated..

Sometimes your allergies
get worse when you get older

or maybe that's
completely false.

Oh, I'm shooting
the, the Chicago Cat Show

and suddenly,
I'm Tippi Hedren in "The Birds."

They're everywhere!

‐ Iris, Iris, Iris, stop.
‐ Oh...okay.

We're just gonna get you
your own room here, okay?

Russian Blue,
Himalayan

'Egyptian Mau,
Bengal, Balinese, Burmese'

'Cornish Rex,
Japanese Bobtail'

Please somebody
help me. It's my baby.

‐ Clear trauma one.
‐ What happened?

She was in her crib.

She doesn't cry.
I can't wake her up.

‐ How old is she?
‐ Just turned six months.

Her name's Grace.

She's not breathing,
and she's cyanotic.

What is wrong with her?
What is it?

Pediatric intubation tray.

‐ 4.0 ET tube.
‐ Heart rate's only 40.

Point one‐four of atropine.
Has she been sick, Mrs..

Ramsey. Judith Ramsey.

A little.
She was vomiting.

'Just getting
over the flu.'

Any fever or seizures?

‐ Damn it.
‐ 'Temp's normal.'

'She was jerking.'

I couldn't
get her to stop.

I need a 3.5, not a four.

Use a four.

Susan? I'll do it.

Please, just tell
me what is wrong with her.

Mrs. Ramsey, you're
gonna have to wait outside.

So that we can
take care of Grace.

I don't wanna leave her.

Susan, take Mrs. Ramsey
to the waiting room.

‐ Kerry..
‐ No, please.

Susan, now.

'20cc's per kilogram'

'bolus normal saline.'

CBC, Chem 7

'heel stick
glucose, get a head CT'

and we may need an LP.

Come on.

Oh, God.

‐ Let me see, let me see.
‐ Look.

Think she'll be able
to play in that tournament?

I doubt it.

Let me know when the LFTs

BUN and creatinine are back.

‐ Okay.
‐ And Carter?

‐ Yeah?
‐ She's in here alone.

‐ So stay close.
‐ Okay.

What are you
kids doing in the hall?

Why is it that Chloe
always called mom "Cookie"

and I always called mom "mom?"

She was such
a great kid that way.

Funny and fearless.

Just one big party
all wrapped up in..

We'd dress up
and put on these plays

at the top of the stairs.

Chloe, of course, went
straight for mom's best dresses

best jewelry, best shoes.

I was always
afraid they'd get mad

so I was the one in
the bathrobe and the sneakers

but they never did.

Never. Not once.

Chloe went for the good stuff

and I went
for being the good girl.

She was such an accomplished
adult by the time she was nine

and so lousy at it
by the time she was 19.

I mean, if she could just
go back to some of that..

...then if she
wanted to be a mother..

What am I saying?

She is a mother.

Boy, when you buy
somebody lunch, you go all out.

How's your knee?

You know, if it's
still bothering you I can

get you
something for that.

‐ I heard from Ray.
‐ Oh, yeah?

Well, not from
him, actually, about him.

How's the
good life in the Caymans?

Never went there.

He's in Mexico.

Kind of sends
a message, doesn't it?

Like what? Like
he's not coming back?

Well, what's it
look like to you?

Well, I'm used
to him disappearing.

He doesn't tend to
mention it in advance.

Yeah, I guess not,
considering he took

my money with him.

Well..

...thanks for all the sympathy.

No, uh...no.

Hey, I'm sorry. I just,
I'm disappointed. He's uh..

Oh. Well, don't be.

It wasn't your money.

Well, and he bolted on me
year after year, but I just..

...would think
with you in the picture..

With me in the picture?
What's that got to do with it?

I would think that
he would want to see you.

Come back
and see me.

Come back and see us?
Is that what you mean?

Doesn't even
know about us, Karen.

Well, maybe it's your idea
of fun to watch him find out.

Is that what
this is about, Doug?

What we're about?

You finally getting back at
daddy, stealing his girlfriend?

‐ That's ridiculous.
‐ Is it?

For three weeks,
you've been telling me

how you can't stand
the guy could care less

if you ever see him
again and now

you're disappointed
he's not coming back.

That is ridiculous.

My motto is,
"Think Jordan."

Okay, I'm just saying
you can't rule out Orlando.

What do they know about
basketball in Florida?

Does this hurt?

Yeah. A little.

'Alright.'

T.C.'s right.

Orlando's got a good record

but push comes
to shove, they'll choke.

Only one NBA
leader in scoring

and zip in rebounds.

Okay. I give up.

Carter.

Liver is enlarged and
firm upon examination.

Lab tests show
elevated LFTs, leukocytosis

and a prolonged PT

consistent with
ascending cholangitis.

Start her on one gram
cefotaxime, IV Q six.

Is she on a list for
a liver transplant?

Yeah. Status three.

Alright, move her
up to status two.

She's gonna
have to stay hospitalized

until we
find her a liver.

Guess I better brush up

on my basketball trivia.

Well, you should do that anyway.

‐ Hey!
‐ Dr. Benton.

‐ Al Boulet.
‐ Hey! How you doing?

I got some
kind of flu or something.

Yeah, um,
well, take care.

Right.

I'm sorry about
those kids and the camera.

Oh, I'm just glad
I got it back.

I'm sorry about
snorting all over your hand.

Uh, no, it's
just another adventure.

Uh, speaking of which,
I was thinking, well, maybe..

‐ 'Bless you.'
‐ Uh, Thank you.

‐ 'Who are you?'
‐ Lily.

Where'd you come from?

'The bus stop.'

What's wrong?

I can't get him off.

'Is that a hermit crab?'

Herman. My dad named him.

I'm afraid we're going
to have to cut him off, Lily.

But he'd die, right?
I can't kill Herman.

No. Of course, you can't.

Cats you can
kill, but not Herman.

It's just water, honey.

'There you go.'

‐ Thank you.
‐ You're welcome.

Produced this cheesy
Jacques Cousteau rip‐off thing

a couple of months ago.

Anything on
that little baby, Grace Ramsey?

She's breathing spontaneously.

We're waiting on the CT.

Okay. Let me know.

They're seriously
backed up up there.

Just let me know.

Hi. I'm Dr. Weaver.

‐ Hi!
‐ Your name's Al Boulet?

Yeah.

We got a Jeanie Boulet here.

Any relation?

She's my wife.

Actually, we're,
we're separated.

You've been losing weight,
having fevers, sweating?

Yeah. I think I've
got the 24‐day flu

instead of the 24‐hour.

That stuff's been
going around at work.

Deep breath.

The shortness of breath,
how long's that been going on?

Uh, a month or so.

Mr. Boulet,
I'm gonna get a chest X‐ray

and I'll talk to you about some
blood tests I'd like to order.

Okay.

Seen Dr. Greene?

Uh, yeah, he snuck
out for some lunch.

Radiology screwed up the
films on Loretta Sweet.

We have to redo them.

What happened?
Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine, I'm fine.

Teach this SOB to grapple
with a soon‐to‐be‐married man.

Come on, let's go pour a little
cold peroxide on those cuts.

‐ 'You don't look so good.'
‐ Yeah, well, don't you worry.

Nothing's going to ruin
our celebration tonight

at the Ritz Carlton.

Okay, let's get you cleaned up.

‐ Hey, Jeanie.
‐ I didn't know you were here.

Yeah. I'm just, uh,
just getting a little checkup.

What's wrong?

Nothing, really, just, uh..

...a little tired lately.

Breath feels kind
of short or something.

‐ Working too much, that's all.
‐ Did they say anything?

No. They just took
a bunch of blood.

Did some X‐rays.

Look, I've
got some other patients.

Hey! Don't worry about it.

Go do your thing.

They've, they've
got me in good hands.

I'll try and stop by later.

Hi. This is
Jeanie down in the ER.

We've been waiting on
some lab tests forever.

Boulet. Al Boulet.

Yeah.

If you could put a
rush on them, I'd appreciate it.

Thanks.

‐ Carol Hathaway?
‐ Yes.

Sorry to keep you waiting.

I'm David Haskell from IAD.

That's Investigations and..

Audit Division. Yes, I know.

Sorry to have kept you waiting.

You said that.

Must've really meant it then.

'So, you saw Anh stumble.'

‐ Who?
‐ Anh Nguyen. Vietnamese boy.

You saw him stumble and hit
his head on a coffee table?

‐ That's right.
‐ Just lost his balance?

Must have.

'Which would make
sense after Mr. Shepherd'

gave him a,
what did he call it?

Uh, "a light shove."

Is that how you'd describe it?

A light shove?

Well, the kid
wasn't falling very fast

so, yeah,
it was probably pretty light.

Now, Mr. Brown says
you helped him unstrap a board.

Yes, he was nervous
and frustrated

so I helped him do it.

Then you
both took the board

back into the kitchen.

No. Reilly took it.

That's right.

He says he
was headed to the kitchen

with the board and that's
when he saw Mr. Shepherd.

"Slam" is the word he used.

'Slam Anh Nguyen
across the room.'

So you must've gone
back into the kitchen

at pretty much the same time.

No. Reilly moved in first.

He carried
the board ahead of me.

Yeah, but if
you both saw the incident

which obviously you did

'since you think
it was a light shove'

'and Mr. Brown
thinks it was a slam.'

Then both of you
had to be there the whole time.

Yes. That's right.

I was there the whole time.

No, we had a fight,
and I feel like a jerk.

My dad did take her money

and I wasn't all
that sympathetic, but..

She was accusing me of
wanting him to come back.

‐ Doug, what is this all about?
‐ I don't know.

What kind of
question is that?

Your dad stealing
her money is not your fault.

Ex‐except that he
gave the money to me.

'So give it back.'

I can't. I only have $10,000.

I gave 15,000
for that kid's chemotherapy.

This is way too
complicated for me.

Kerry, the CTs are back.

Subdural hematoma,
loud and clear.

There are
retinal hemorrhages in each eye.

You found this upon examination

and didn't
even bother to tell me.

You were already upset

about the intubation.

This mother's abusing
her child and you know it.

Where is she?
I want to talk to her.

‐ Not yet.
‐ Not yet?

A subdural hematoma
and retinal hemorrhages

are the hallmarks
of shaken baby syndrome.

I know that, Susan.

This child
could have brain damage!

I've ordered
a neurosurgical consult.

Yeah, great, I want to talk to
the mother. She is the problem.

I've called
Children and Family Services.

They have a thousand cases.
Who'll keep tabs on this one?

I've also notified the police.

Do you think they
have time to deal with this?

It's the best we can do.

You know if this mother

doesn't get it,
and that baby starts crying

and she picks her up,
and the baby doesn't stop

she's just gonna start
shaking her and shaking her!

We can't solve this, Susan.

I wish we could,
but we both know we can't.

So we're gonna take
care of the child, okay?

We're going to do
everything we can

for the child.

They took the baby
up to pediatrics ICU.

Children and Family Services
came down to talk to the mother.

The police are looking into it

and that's the last I know.

It's the last I'm gonna know.

Sometimes, that's the good
thing about being an ER doc.

Treat 'em and street 'em.

Turf 'em upstairs...huh.

Got to hand it
to that Kerry Weaver, though.

She surprises you.

Just when you think
she's completely clueless

she hangs in there, stalling

arguing with me
agreeing with me.

"We can't solve the problem.

We can take care of the child."

Until I finally let go.

Getting bored
sitting in your room?

Hey, fever's down.

Come on. Bounce me one.

The good news is that

once you get a new liver,
the disease won't come back.

And you're official now.

You're all signed up
on the transplant list.

It's not like we need
this thing to happen right away.

If it takes a few months,
you're still gonna be fine.

Unfortunately you're
gonna have to stay here.

Well, not here.
You're gonna be upstairs.

But I'll come visit
you whenever I can

and you can educate me
on the finer points of, uh..

...the point guard.

Maybe we can watch
the playoffs together.

That sounds
pretty cool, doesn't it?

But I can't play
in my tournament, can I?

No. No, I'm sorry, T. C.

You can't play
in your tournament.

Thought I'd never
get out of there.

Glad you didn't wait.

Ah, tuna on whole wheat

with lettuce and tomato.

You want it?
I'm not really hungry.

Right after I
finish my cheese steak.

I know I've said
this before, but..

...you have to get
Kerry Weaver off my back.

What now?

Six‐month‐old baby
came in cyanotic.

Kerry thinks I can't
handle the intubation.

‐ But you did, right?
‐ No! She took over.

Yes, it was a baby,
yes, it was hard

but I've
done this a hundred times.

‐ How's everything else?
‐ You mean therapy?

That is what
you mean, right?

Well, do I feel terrific?

Not really.

Uh, am I marginally
better? Not really.

Am I happy I'm
spending my money on therapy

and not, say,
gymboree or a stroller?

Not really.

So everything's going okay?

‐ Wanna walk back?
‐ They didn't page me.

I wish there was
something I could do

something I could say.

So do I.

It'd be so much easier
if this bad news

were happening to some patient.

Mm, I shouldn't
be drinking this.

I'll never get to sleep.

I never sleep, anyway.

Yeah, you know, we actually
had a class in medical school.

Uh, sort of
how to deliver the bad news.

We even had to make
videotapes and..

...and perform it.

"I'm very sorry, sir, but your
wife was hit by a Mack Truck

and we did everything
possible, but she died."

Then, some actor
playing the husband

would...would go to into
convulsions on the floor

and start crying out in agony.

That's not
usually how they react.

They shake,
then they start to cry.

Yeah, I remember the
first time I had to do it.

It was this elderly man,
and his wife had just died.

No big accident, just old age.

And he looked at me
for about...a minute

and then walked away.

Yeah, I was
the one left shaking.

Practice makes perfect, though.

Now I can deliver
that speech in a heartbeat

And it's not that I don't
feel badly, because I do

but I get the
words out, and I move on.

The healers are
always taught to move on.

And for the life of me, I can't,
I can't seem to do that now.

This hurt is so
strong and so present

it makes me feel her.

And to still
be able to feel her..

...I don't want
to move on from that.

You need something?

Your interview
must have gone well.

‐ Got a lot of work, Reilly.
‐ Haskell just called.

They dropped
the investigation.

It seems your answers confirmed

Shep's side of the story.

Well, now we can all

get back to work.

Look, I
like you, Hathaway

but whatever
you said in there

I don't think you're
doing Shep any favors.

Maybe it's
the Raul thing

and maybe he's going
to come through this

but right now,
he doesn't belong out there.

He's dangerous.

I can't keep doing this.

Yes, you can.

You made it through
the last surgery.

You can make it
through this one.

It's the kids.

They never know
what's going on

from one day
to the next.

Where I'm going to
be, where they're gonna be.

They're going to be
at my house tonight, okay?

My parental skills can
use a little brushing up.

I don't know
what to tell them.

I don't know what to say.

I've hardly even
seen them all day.

Well, I can
tell you one thing.

They've been pretty busy.

Take a look.

Look, mom.
They turned us into doctors.

‐ Officer, I'm so sorry.
‐ Are you kidding?

He was the center
of attention. He loved it.

Are you sure you
can't stay for dinner?

Mom, look, thank you

but I can't eat dinner
at 5:30 in the afternoon.

Oh. Pathetic, isn't it?

Oh, Howard comes
back from the office

grabs dinner,
rushes back to the office.

I thought
tax season was over.

What happened to April 15?

Does the word extension
mean anything to you?

As a matter of fact
I think I have one of those.

Alright. Listen, mom..

So, how much do you need?

Now, you can't
possibly know that.

I haven't said
anything about money.

Well, you're not here
for dinner, are you?

No.

And you don't drop by
a lot to play bridge.

I don't play bridge.

My point exactly.

Doug, there are three
reasons kids come back home.

One, to announce
they're getting married.

Two, they're depressed

and they need a place
to sleep for three years

and three, they need money.

My money's on the money.

So, were you
always so smart?

Right up until the day
I married your father.

Doug..

...all those years
you were growing up

not knowing
about your dad

I couldn't
help you then.

Nothing would
make me happier

than to help you now.

Don't you even want to know what
I'm going to use the money for?

You really
want to tell me?

‐ Bring the carrots over here.
‐ Okay.

‐ Broken tib‐fib.
‐ Jeanie, do you have a minute?

If I call ortho now they ought
to make it down by summer.

Jeanie..

It's about
Al, isn't it?

Yeah.

And is it AIDS?

Yeah. Pneumocystis pneumonia.

I saw his chart,
and when he told me

how he was feeling
his symptoms..

I need to give
him the news, but I thought

'it might
be easier for him if..'

No, I'll do it. I'll do it.

I know you're separated..

...but he may
have been HIV positive

for a few years.

Have you ever been tested?

How many married
people get tested?

I checked for you
at the hotel suite.

Doesn't seem
to be mine anymore.

Something about when
you lose company money.

You're gonna have to let me
write you something for that.

Whatever.

I got to say,
I much prefer your place.

Whatever.

'Some of
what you said'

'I don't know
if it's true or not..'

'...but you made me
think about it'

and I..

I know I realized that..

...I want to be with you, Karen.

You don't see me
kicking you out the door.

Alright, you know, you're
gonna have to let me do this

because I have a very low
threshold for your pain.

Up and...there you go.

‐ Karen?
‐ Doug?

I have a confession to make.

You're not married, are you?

No. It's worse than that.

Okay.

You know the money that
my father took from you

he, uh, he gave it to me.

What?

Yeah, I...I mean,
he never gave me a dime

when I was in medical school.

'I mean, he just..'

...he just
handed me a bunch of cash

before he took off.

Twenty five thousand dollars.

Yeah. I want you to have it.

Twenty five thousand dollars?

Ray stole over 250 grand.

‐ Two hundred and fifty grand?
‐ You got it.

This is nothing. This is, uh...
this is a drop in the bucket.

No, this is everything.

It's the sweetest thing
anybody's ever done for me.

I mean, I could get
fired tomorrow

but I got to love you
for this one.

‐ Great news, huh, baby?
‐ Yeah.

They dropped
the whole thing!

Whatever you said
in there made the difference.

We are home free.

Let's celebrate.

Let's go do something.

Shep, I got, I got
a lot of paper work.

Ah, you can
do this later.

‐ No!
‐ This can wait.

I really
need to do this now.

Okay, we
go to dinner, then.

Dinner, maybe a club.

No, um...they're
playing basketball outside.

Um, I'll join you
when I'm finished.

Okay.

Don't be too long.

Al, I need
to talk to you.

Oof, it's cold in here tonight.

Maybe Chloe
is getting it together

or maybe Joe
can keep it together.

Sometimes, I dream
that they call and say

"Hey, Suz, why don't you
take her again for a while?"

and in my dream, I say, "Yes,
Chloe, I will take her forever."

Then I wake up,
and I know it's not true

because my arms hurt
from feeling so empty.

I always knew
you loved your children.

I just never realized how much
you fell in love with them.

Little Suzie
was like a storybook.

One that you
never wanted to put down.

Every smile was some new page

to be pored over

studied, touched..

...remembered.

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ On this most holy day
of days ♪

♪ To God your hearts
and voices raise ♪

♪ In laud and jubilee ♪

♪ And praise.. ♪

I loved my storybook.

For the first
time in a long time..

...I didn't feel alone.

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪