Degrassi High (1987–1991): Season 5, Episode 10 - Show Time: Part 1 - full transcript

The whole school is thrown into turmoil when a student commits suicide at school - especially Caitlin, since the student is her ex-boyfriend, Claude.

I play joey
on degrassi high.

And I'm stacie mistysyn,
I play caitlin.

The following episode
of degrassi high

Is a dramatic story
about suicide.

Most people who attempt suicide
do not reallwant to die.

In most cases, these people

Are desperately
reaching out for help.

There are signs
that you can recognize

When someone is suicidal.

You should take
these signs seriously.

If the kids in our story had
taken their friend seriously



They could have talked
to an adult for help.

Teens can't always help
suicidal friends

But there are hotlines,
teachers, guidance counselors

Your parents,
your friends' parents

Your doctor and other adults
who can help.

On this episode of degrassi

The student who is suicidal
has very serious problems

But he does not have
to kill himself.

He should ask for help,
but he doesn't talk to anyone

And he doesn't realize
that things will get better.

Suicide is a permanent response
to a temporary situation.

Even when people
get very depressed

Suicide is not the solution,
but talking to someone is.

If you're thinking about suicide



Or you know someone
who is suicidal

Call 1-800-448-3000
(tdd 1-800-448-1833).

Or go to an adult for help--
don't wait.

Alison:
We won't have
enough costumes.

Tim:
How do you
like my hat?

That's great!

Good luck.

Thanks.

Nancy on p.A.:
Auditions for showtime
are now underway.

Caitlin:
I really hope
I make this show.

You will-- your
dance is great.

It's me who
should be worried.

Maya, you've got
a fabulous voice.

It's a great song.

Caitlin.

You're trying out for the show?

Yeah.

Me too.

Well... Good luck.

What if we
tried again?

Please!

Why does he keep bugging me?

You think
he'd give up--

It's been a year since
you last went out.

I wish he'd
just go away.

♪ I wake up in the morning ♪

♪ got to shake the feeling ♪

♪ I've got to face
a day of school ♪

♪ what's to be afraid of? ♪

♪ I can ask a question ♪

♪ or maybe even bend the rules ♪

♪ I'm searching for a place
where I'll fit in ♪

♪ there's a way, if I look
then I can win ♪

♪ yeah, I can see
I'm not alone ♪

♪ I can face the unknown ♪

♪ everybody can succeed ♪

♪ in yourself you must believe ♪

♪ give it a try ♪

♪ at degrassi high. ♪

Captioning of this program
is made possible

By the john d. And catherine
t. Macarthur foundation

The corporation
for public broadcasting

The carnegie corporation
of new york

And public television viewers.

Come on,
just stand still.

Sorry--
arthur's funny, okay?

Hi-- sorry we're late.

Don't worry,
we're running behind.

I don't think we'll get
to you until tomorrow.

Tomorrow?

Or maybe today...
You can take a chance

And stick around
and watch.

Come on,
let's stay.

Okay.

Snake:
What is your problem?

Hi, joey.

Hi.

Ice maiden.

When are you going
to get over her?

I got over her ages ago.

Yeah, right.

I did!

Hey, I wasn't
finished.

Don't worry about it.

Bronco:
Looks great to me.

Thank you very much.

Next up is
"the dancing jockettes."

When am I on?

Um, soon-- I think
after these guys.

Can't wait till
my mother comes

To see this one.

Just one second.

All right, that's
all we need to see.

Look, I'm sorry.

What did you do?

Nothing-- trust me.

Um, you guys fix it and
we'll fit you in later.

Next up is
claude tanner.

Joanne:
Good luck.

This is something
that I wrote myself.

Hey, I think
we're on next.

I want to see this.

It's the ice maiden's
old boyfriend.

Autumn leaves

Dying leaves.

Season of death

When winds grow cold.

Thoughts of death
creep in as I sleep.

I dream I'm in a coffin...

...Safe from the light,
I don't want to live...

Give him a break--
let him do it.

I am not afraid.

Soothing, black and warm

Soothing,
black and warm

Safe from the pain

And safe from the fools

Safe, soothing, black...

Excuse me, claude?

I haven't finished.

We don't think that's
right for this show.

Why not?

No offense, okay?

The poem's good,
but uh...

It's just
a little depressing.

So? Some things are serious.

But on talent night
people want to have fun.

Maybe you can
come back tomorrow

With another monologue.

Maybe a song.

I do my monologue or nothing.

Sorry.

Who's next?

Joey and snake.

Typical--
this place is so stupid.

You're all a bunch of sheep!

Baa.

What a loser.

Boy:
That's just
like claude.

Joey jeremiah

And archie simpson.

That's us--
just a second.

You don't care!

Nobody cares!

Well, you'll see.

Claude, wait.

Lucy:
You're on, guys.

Can we move this on?

Claude!

What?

I care-- I thought
it was good.

Look, we never
see you anymore.

How about coming out
with us this weekend
to see a movie?

Mmm, no, thanks.

I'm really sorry
about your parents.

Hey, lots of people
get divorced.

So I guess you'll
stay with your mom?

Her boyfriend hates me.

But you can't stay
with your dad.

Listen, I know you're
just trying to be nice

But I'm fine.

And I've really
got to go.

Are you sure you're okay?

Do you want to talk?
I'll listen.

Joanne, you don't
know what it's like

When everything...

You don't know what it's like

To be me.

So don't bother.

Try me!

No.

Joey, snake:
♪ everybody get ready,
and get into gear ♪

♪ the degrassi sensation ♪

♪ the one and only
zit remedy is here. ♪

♪ everybody wants something ♪

♪ they'll never give up ♪

♪ everybody wants something ♪

♪ they'll take your money... ♪

♪ and never give up. ♪

Joey:
I spent half
the night on it

And I still don't
understand it.

Look, you need help.

Well, how about...

I'm too busy, so...
Why not ask mr. Webster?

Webfoot? I can't
stand the guy.

Hey, I don't think you
have any other choice.

I guess you're right.

Caitlin:
I wish we got to
audition yesterday.

I hardly slept all night.

Maya:
If this is so painful,
why do it?

Now that I'm
back home

And my parents are
back together

I've decided to
start doing things

Instead of
just talking.

I've always
wanted to dance.

I just wish
I wasn't so nervous.

Stop worrying.

Like my uncle avrum says:

"life is a flower,
let it unfold."

Hi.

Excuse me.

Thank you.

Bronco:
Good morning, degrassi.

First the lost and found
announcement.

Anyone finding a tutu,
please return it.

If you have not yet
tried out for showtime

Auditions will be today
at lunch.

Thank you.

It's for you.

Would you please leave me alone?

I'm really tired
of you harassing
me all the time.

We're not seeing
each other anymore.

Don't worry--
I won't bother you anymore.

Good.

I just came

To say good-bye.

Why, where are you going?

What a creep!

Don't worry about it.

I can't believe him.

Joey:
So if you're
not too busy

I'd really appreciate
some extra help.

I'm impressed, mr. Jeremiah.

It takes maturity
to ask for help.

I'll arrange something.

Thanks, mr. Webster.

Listen, um...

Hurry,
you'll be late.

I'm not going anymore.

What has this place

Ever done for me?

You're going
to get in trouble.

No, I won't.

Walfish:
Okay, let's get started.

Did everyone finish
reading macbeth?

But was macbeth inherently evil?

Yes, spike?

I don't think
macbeth was evil.

I think she
talked him into it.

Like he wasn't
responsible for
his own actions?

Lucy,
don't jump in.

Put up your hand,
please-- you
were saying?

She's the one
I feel sorry for.

She did it all
for him.

Alexa:
It's not like she didn't
get anything out of it.

Alexa, hands up
first, please.

Yes?

That's all
I had to say.

I'd like to hear
from somebody else.

Yeah, snake?

Can I go to
the washroom?

I had too much
tea for breakfast.

And I was
expecting a
cogent contribution.

Sure, go ahead.

All right, settle down.

Now, if you'll recall,
in act ii, scene ii...

You all right?

Janet, this is a draft
of the exam schedule...

We'll be discussing it
at the staff meeting tomorrow...

Mr. Raditch...

Mr. Raditch, come quick.

Get a hold of yourself.

No, no, he's dead.

Who's dead?

In the boy's washroom,
there's... There's a gun

And there's blood
everywhere.

Okay, all right, just
take me to where he is.

Take me to where he is.

Janet, call the police.

Nancy:
Tryouts for showtime are now
resuming in the auditorium.

Thank you.

This is tim the terrific

And my assistant,
bartholomew bond

About to perform the most
phenomenal tricks of all time.

Bartholomew, is this
an ordinary piece of rope?

Yes, just
a normal rope.

And is there anything
holding up this rope?

No string
is attached.

Abracazan, abracazilt,
I shall turn this
string into a silk.

Oh, boy.

This one is for the lovely
ladies in the audience.

Bartholomew:
A bouquet of flowers.

Great, I love
sophisticated humor.

Um, caitlin ryan.

Good luck.

I'm just going to do a dance.

Hit it.

So what's
going on?

Man:
I can't tell
you anything.

Raditch:
There will be an unscheduled
staff meeting immediately...

It's miles to the
next bathroom.

I wonder why
the cops are here.

I'll bet it's
a drug bust.

Did you see
that stretcher?

There's an ambulance
out front.

Must be serious.

Can everyone please
take their seats?

Can I please have
your attention... Everyone?

Unfortunately, I...
I have some tragic news.

Guys, keep it down!

Relax-- walfish will
be here any minute!

I tried, sir.

I'm afraid I have some
very upsetting news.

A student has died...

And it looks like
he killed himself.

Who?

His name was claude tanner.

He was
in 12th grade.

I know it's a shock
to all of you...

And I know that some
of you knew him.

He was um...

He was so unhappy
and so angry...

At everybody.

His parents were
getting divorced

And him and his dad,
they just hated each other.

Lots of people
have problems

But don't
kill themselves.

Joanne:
He would have
got over it.

I mean, I was depressed
last year, but things pass.

I should have
done something.

What could you have done?

Well, I knew
something was wrong.

I tried to talk to him,
but he wouldn't.

I told miss wallia and
she tried to talk to him

But he wouldn't
listen.

I don't see what more
you could have done.

Well, there must
have been something.

It's okay.

It's all right.

You can't help someone
who doesn't want help.

All you can do is look for
warning signs and try to help.

All of us feel
overwhelmed sometimes.

Many people think about suicide.

The difference is
that we don't do it

Because once you do,
everything is over.

I think it's important
we talk about how you feel.

Michelle:
Why did he
do it here?

Probably to make
us feel bad.

Lucy!

Well, it's true.

Lucy, would you
share that?

Um... I said he
probably did it here

Just to make us feel bad.

That's really nice.

I'm sorry, I know it
sounds insensitive

But I'm mad at him--
I mean, what a jerk.

How could you
be so cruel?

She's right-- he had too many
problems, so he kills himself?

He doesn't have
to worry anymore.

It's us who have to feel bad.

Talk about selfish!

He's going to hell,
too-- suicide's a sin.

Everybody...

Everybody, please, please!

There's no right way
to react to this.

When something like this happens

People have
all sorts of reactions.

Listen, we're going
to go home early today.

Please talk about this.

Share ways to get
through this rough time.

And if any of you--
if any of you

Have problems dealing with this,
please come and talk to me.

We have trained people
here who can help

And there's a trauma team that's
been assigned to the school.

Joy, it's okay.

Raditch:
Attention-- due to the tragedy
that has occurred

All remaining classes
are canceled.

However, the guidance office
will be open

For the rest of the day.

Do you want to go for
a walk or something?

Yeah, sure.

Are you okay?

He tried to talk to me--
I told him to go away.

Sure, because he
was bothering you.

So why didn't I just
talk to him?

You broke up with him
over a year ago.

You didn't like him.

I might have made
a difference.

Caitlin...

Claude didn't
kill himself

Because you wouldn't
talk to him.

He obviously had
a lot of problems.

Yeah, I suppose.

I just can't believe
he did this.

I mean, why didn't he
ask somebody for help?

Who knows?

Bronco:
This afternoon's auditions
have been canceled.

Couldn't someone
have stopped him?

There's nothing
you could do.

You guys seen snake?

Uh, not since
before lunch.

He hasn't been
here all afternoon.

Should we take a
collection for flowers?

Girl:
Why did
he do it?

I don't know.

Poor guy just wanted
to do his dumb monologue

And I wouldn't let him.

You think he killed
himself because of that?

Don't be ridiculous.

The guy was obviously
messed up.

You had nothing
to do with it.

So what are we going
to do about the show?

Cancel it, of course.

We can't put it
on now.

But it's not for two weeks.

Lucy, it wouldn't
be right.

Bronco...

If we don't put it on,
what will people think?

That's not my problem.

But we've put a lot
of work into it.

I'll be right there, honey.

Hi, honey.

Hi.

Bye, honey-- your
father's car has
broken down again.

Dinner will be
a little late.

Okay.

When did you get
a new boyfriend?

I didn't.

Then you've got
a secret admirer.

Someone sent you flowers.

Tell me about it
when I get back?

Yeah, sure.

"dear caitlin,
I'm sure you know by now.

"I just couldn't
stand it anymore.

"I know you don't love me,
but I love you

"and I forgive you
for how you treated me.

"good-bye, caitlin.

"wherever I am,
I am thinking of you.

"I hope you think
of me sometimes.

Love, claude."

Mr. Davis, can we get
them started please?

Yes, sir.

Can I have your
attention, please?

Thank you.

You all know
what we're here for.

Are we going
to have a talent show?

Who'd like to go first?

Joanne?

A human being has died.

If we have this show,
it's like it doesn't matter.

Because of
something horrible

Does everything
have to stop?

Not everything,
but we should be respectful.

I'm upset about
what's happened, too

Especially about the people
he's hurt by doing this.

But life has to go on.

Good point.

What is so important about
a dumb high school talent show?

I mean, what about
how his family feels?

Their son has died

And his school goes and
puts football players

On stage in tutus?

What's wrong with
a little laughter?

I'm sorry, okay?

I don't feel like laughing.

I knew him and he was my friend.

Um... Maybe someone else
should say something.

Spike?

What if we did it
like a benefit?

We could give the money
to his family

Or to a charity of their choice.

All:
Yeah, yeah, that's a good idea.

Boy:
Do it, bronco.

That's good.

It's a nice way
to remember claude.

Why don't you vote?

Whoever is in favor
of spike's idea

Please raise your hand.

Tim:
I don't know if having
the talent show is a good idea.

I agree with lucy,
laughter is good.

I'm glad we're not letting
that creep ruin everything.

I hear it'll be
a closed funeral.

I wouldn't have
gone anyway.

I would never go
to a suicide's funeral.

How could anyone
be that stupid?

I didn't think
you'd be so angry.

He deserves it.

I'm not going to let
what he did affect me.

( bell rings )

Hello, everybody.

I hope I have
all your assignments.

Thank you.

I have my reading
cut out for me tonight.

Joey:
Well, why can't
it work this way?

Webster:
There are other variables
in the quantitative relation

Between induced current
and magnetic flux.

I'm sorry, that went
right over my head.

You're talking
about variables?

Yeah, what I'm
going to do, joey--

You asked me for help,
I'll see you get it.

I'm going to go back
to square one for you...

Claude:
Caitlin...

Ah, we'll finish this later.

You can start putting
your equipment away.

And don't forget,
lab reports are
due next class.

They are worth 20%
of your term grade.

And on Friday,
there's our wee test.

You've known all along
it was coming.

Ah, come on.

I'd like to speak to joey
and caitlin please.

Hey, is joey in there?

Yeah, he's still
talking to webfoot.

Webster:
Caitlin, I'm impressed
with your work so far.

Thanks.

Joey has asked for help
but I'm a bit swamped

So I was thinking you
could help provide him

With some
tutoring.

Me and her?

Is that a problem?

Ah... No.

Caitlin?

I'm... I'm
kind of busy.

I don't think
it'll take much time

And I know joey will
appreciate the assistance.

Sure.

Excellent.

I'll leave it to you
to sort it out then.

When do you want
to get together?

Let's talk about
it tomorrow, okay?

Okay, tomorrow's good.

Sports enthusiasts...

Joey.

There is a very important
lacrosse match this afternoon

At westbury high.

Could you give this
to your mom for me?

What is it?

It's the money
that I stole.

Yeah.

So, I'd better be going
or I'll be late for work.

How's that going?

I don't want to pump gas
for the rest of my life

But it's okay.

It's nice making
some money.

Yeah.

How's snake?

I haven't seen him
around lately.

He's um... Taking some time off.

He's sick.

I... I heard this rumor.

Did he find claude?

Ah...

Yeah.

Whoa.

You think it'd be okay
if I called him?

I know he's
mad at me...

No, I think he'd
actually like it.

Okay.

I'm going over there now.

I got to get to work.

But I'll call him tonight.

Okay.

See you later.

Yeah, I'll see you.

Hi.

Hi.

What's wrong
with the bike?

What isn't?

But I think I can make
it last another year.

Hey, look, people
miss you, man.

When are you
coming back?

Maybe next week.

The therapist says I
shouldn't come back
till I'm ready.

Look, I'm really sorry

That it was you
that had to find him.

Hey, someone had to.

You know what I really remember?

All that blood.

He was just lying there.

Half his face was... Wasn't.

It was so ugly.

I thought a body would be
more like a person

But he was... He was just dead.

If I got
there sooner

Maybe I
could have
stopped him.

You couldn't do anything.

And I get really mad sometimes.

He knew someone had to find him.

Why did he do this to me?

I didn't even
do anything to him.

Snake...

I'm sorry, okay?

Is there anything
I could do?

Hey.

Hey, get out of here.

Hey, come on.

Get out of here.

Oh, no way.

Hey, man let go of my hat.

No...

No...

Claude:
Autumn leaves, dying leaves

Season of death

When winds grow cold

Thoughts of death creep in
like sleep.

I dream I'm in a coffin.

I am not afraid.

Soothing, black, and warm.

For you...

No.

For you...

Soothing, black and warm.

Safe from the pain

And safe from the fools.

Caitlin:
No.

Safe, soothing, black...

Caitlin:
Leave me alone!

I love you... Death.

No...

No.

Nancy:
Good morning, degrassi.

Tickets go on sale today
for showtime.

All proceeds will go towards a
program for suicide prevention.

We're hoping that you
will come out to see it.

Webster:
And so if we wish
to maintain the loop

In constant velocity

This magnetic force
must be balanced

By an equal force "f"
to the left.

Do you understand
any of this stuff?

I hope that's all clear

And that you're looking forward
with unabashed joy to the test.

Um... Caitlin...

Look, I really
need some help.

I've got to
pass this test.

Okay, we'll meet
at lunch tomorrow.

Well, what's wrong
with today?

I'm busy.

Look, if you don't want
to help me, just say so.

Look, I'll
help you, okay?

Great, do you want
to meet in the
resource center?

No, you can't
talk there.

If I'm helping you,
it would be nice
if we could talk.

I suppose you could
come over to my place.

Your house?

Yeah, my parents
won't mind.

Besides, mom liked you.

Really?

Meet me after dinner.

Around 7:00.

Great.

Thanks.

All right.

Showtime tickets
are going fast.

Drop by the
student council office

Or buy them from
nancy kramer or lucy fernandez.

Also, student council elections
are coming up.

If you'd like to nominate anyone

Please come down
to the student council office

And fill out a nomination form.

Claude:
Hi.

I got you something.

Here.

What is it?

It looks like a box.

Open it.

It's the other
one of these.

It's never
been worn.

Caitlin:
No, don't.

Hi.

Hi, come in.

Okay.

It's just joey, mom.

Just joey--
gee, I feel special.

Look, I'm only
doing this

Because mr. Webster
asked me to.

This is not
my idea of fun.

So I'd appreciate it

If you kept your snarky
comments to yourself.

Lighten up, I was just joking.

Can I still come in?

See?

Oh, yeah.

Okay, then these
two currents

Passing through
different points
like this

Will make a
magnetic circulation
that's proportional.

Are you following this?

Oh, yeah, yeah.

The problem is making
a magnetic field

That's uniform over a
reasonable volume of space.

Yeah, space, that can
be real unreasonable.

I learned that on star trek.

You haven't heard a word
I've said, have you?

Sure I have.

Why didn't you
ask questions?

I didn't know what
questions to ask.

Then why study?

I want to pass.

You can't pass if you
don't know anything.

That's why I'm here.

I can't help a numb-brain!

Thanks.

You're welcome.

How's it going?

Fine.

That was
your dad.

He's having car trouble again
so I'm going to go pick him up.

Will you two be okay?

Yeah, sure.

Okay, let's start again.

Hey, why bother?

I'm a numb-brain.

I'm sorry
I said that.

Hey, don't worry
about it.

Joey, look,
I was just frustrated.

I thought we were
getting somewhere.

Let's start again

And I'll try
and explain things

A little
more clearly.

I want a herbal tea.

Do you want anything?

Ah... Got a beer?

No!

It was a joke.

Caitlin, why are you so serious?

You used to have
a sense of humor.

Do you want anything?

Yes, I would like a juice.

So what do you think

About the talent show
still going on?

I think it's great,
don't you?

You're not going to
drop out, are you?

I heard some
people did.

No, actually I feel
pretty good about it.

I mean, life does
have to go on.

You knew claude
pretty well, right?

Yeah.

Do you know
why he did it?

No.

He must have been
pretty messed up.

Could you actually imagine
putting a gun to your head?

Do we have to talk
about this?

No.

Sorry.

So, um... How's snake?

He's getting better.

Claude really
messed him up.

I mean, it makes me so mad...

Could we please talk
about something else?

Sorry.

Of course he was messed up.

You don't just kill yourself.

Then why did
he do it?

He couldn't stand it anymore.

He told you that?

I don't want to talk about it.

I don't want to
talk about claude!

Well, you say that but
you keep bringing it up.

Maybe you want
to talk about it.

Caitlin?

He said good-bye to me.

I thought maybe he was
visiting relatives or something.

I didn't know he was
going to go shoot himself.

You couldn't have known that.

And then he sent
the flowers and the note.

I mean, what was
I supposed to do?

I didn't even like him.

He sent you a note?

He said
he loved me.

I don't believe this.

I feel so...

I didn't want
to hurt him.

He sure meant to hurt you.

Caitlin, he wanted
to hurt everybody.

He wanted us all to be crying
and have a big memorial.

The guy was a pig.

No he wasn't,
he loved me.

He didn't love you.

Caitlin, he wanted
to hurt you.

No, he...

He wanted you
to feel guilty.

Don't give him
the satisfaction.

Hope you enjoy
the show.

Nice to see you.

Hope you enjoy
the show.

Right here?

Okay, thank you.

Hi, folks.

Hey, good
to see you.

There, you're done.

I can't believe
we're up first.

Don't worry,
you'll do fine.

Okay, guys,
clear the stage.

Thank you.

Good evening,
ladies and gentlemen.

First, I'd like
to thank everybody for coming.

As you all know,
the circumstances surrounding

This evening's show
are very unusual.

Joanne rutherford
has a few words to say

On behalf of
claude tanner's family.

Claude's parents would like to
thank you for your contributions

To a program for kids
who feel suicidal.

This program is too
late to help claude.

We tried to
get him to talk

And he wouldn't talk
and we don't know why.

He should have talked.

This program is for all of us.

It's for any student
who feels really depressed

Or who feels that
things are really rough

And they don't know
where to turn.

Everybody goes through bad times

But life is too precious
to be thrown away.

No one has to kill themself.

Claude was my friend

And I'm really sorry that
he's missing this tonight

Because I think that it would
have really made him laugh.

And maybe if he had been
able to laugh more

He would still be here.

That's all I have to say.

Thank you very much, joanne.

And now, the moment
you've all been waiting for.

Our first act combines
sophistication and culture

That reflects
the dignity of degrassi.

Ladies and gentlemen, I present
to you the dancing jockettes.

They're in the dressing room.

Guys, come on,
please, be quiet.

Hi.

Hi.

When are you on?

I'm fourth.

I'm terrified.

So are we--
we're next.

We? Is snake here?

No, he wasn't ready
to come back

But wheels is
doing it with me.

Come on, we better
start getting ready.

Joey.

Yeah?

I just wanted
to thank you
for listening.

No problem.

Anytime.

I mean it.

Thanks.

This was a dramatic story
about suicide.

The actor who plays claude
did not really kill himself.

But suicide is on
a lot of teenagers' minds.

We've all been in situations
that felt hopeless

But committing suicide
is irreversible.

We all get depressed sometimes,
but we can get help.

We can cope with our problems
by talking about them

To our friends, our parents

Teachers, counselors,
doctors or co-workers.

Please, we urge you

If you're feeling
depressed or suicidal

You don't have
to be alone.

Tell an adult or
call 1-800-448-3000
(tdd 1-800-448-1833).

Don't wait.