Dawson's Creek (1998–2003): Season 4, Episode 6 - Great Xpectations - full transcript
Andie gets accepted into Harvard in advance, enlightening Jack and their father. But accomplishing what should be the biggest thing in her life doesn't exactly makes her happy. She decides to explore different paths in her life by going to a rave with Jen and Jack. At the party, Drue, wanting to look back on the old times with Jen, gives her some ecstasy pills. But Andie takes one from Jen in which it has reaction with her anti-depressives. Meanwhile, things get awkward during the party when Gretchen brings along Pacey, Joey and Dawson whom is growing more attracted to Gretchen. Also, Mitch and Gail decide to keep their baby.
Look, I know how overwhelming
the college application thing can be.
But the way l got through it
is to take it step by step.
Let's just step over to the
college-bound reference section...
-...and start pulling down books.
-Yeah.
-Hey, you know what might be fun?
-What?
Start focusing on schools that are in
New York since it's your old home.
l don't know.
l just spent three years...
...flushing the Big Apple
out of my system.
Yeah, but haven't you recently
decided you might wanna go back?
As you're so fond of pointing out,
l haven't recently decided anything.
Well, what about your rush to rejoin
the gang at The Haunt?
Has Drue been whispering
in your ear?
Well, actually we did have a little
confab at the Yacht Club last week.
He told me all about your social set
and how you spent all your time...
...at The Haunt, dancing and drinking
until the wee hours of the morning.
According to him, it was
a nonstop ball of fun.
''According to him'' would be
the key phrase.
He's the dark prince
of revisionist history.
l found you.
Okay, l'm glad you're still here.
-Why, what's going on?
-Oh, nothing much, actually.
lt's just-- Well, there's this one thing.
Something's been waiting
at the house for you all day.
lt's not that important.
lt's just a letter...
...from a know-nothing,
nor'eastern school.
So, you know, you might wanna
take a glance at it.
-lt's from someplace called Harvard.
-Oh, Harvard. Oh, oh, my gosh.
Okay. This is future
in an envelope.
Oh, God. Or not. lf it was a yes,
it would be bigger, right?
l mean, this is a case where size
really does matter, right?
Well, l think that size only matters...
...when you have a full view
of the entire package, really.
So l have to open it in order
to find out?
Come on. They'd be fools
not to take you.
-They would, wouldn't they?
-Will you open it?
Okay.
'' Dear Miss McPhee, Harvard College
is pleased to inform you...
...that we've accepted your application
for Early Action for the fall of 2001 ...
-...and we look forward to having you.''
-Yes! You're in, you're in!
You're in!
-l'm in!
-Congratulations. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.
Hey, everybody, my sister
just got into Harvard!
Looking for something
new and different?
-May l suggest Morcheeba?
-Morcheeba.
They're a little Herbie Hancock,
a little Biz Markie...
...and a touch of Poe,
tossed in for good measure.
Several artists not currently
represented in my CD collection.
You've at least heard of them?
Oh, Dawson.
Thanks.
-Party invite?
-No. Not just a party. A rave.
A rave in Capeside?
l guess even suburban
rhythm-impaired youths...
-...need an outlet, right?
-Sure.
Hey, it does a body good
to just let loose once in a while.
Besides, raves aren't just
an outlet for dancing.
They're sort of
a declaration of independence.
Right there with the
Boston Tea Party.
Hey, every generation has its rebel
subculture experience...
...and this is ours, you know?
Our attempt to define
who and what we are...
...and make a statement
about our lives.
Our statement is that
we can keep tedium at bay...
-...with glitter and techno-pop?
-lt's called fun.
You need to come with me
and check it out.
To a rave? Not really my scene.
l'd guess you haven't been to one,
so how would you know?
lnstinct, you know?
l've never been two-stepping either.
But somehow, l know better
than to run out...
-...and buy a pair of cowboy boots.
-Well, two-stepping isn't all the rage...
...with the nation's youth.
But if you were so inclined, l would
love to intro you to something that--
ls completely foreign to everything
l've ever known in my entire life.
Okay, consider it one
of the terms and conditions...
...of our new friend agreement.
You know, ''must challenge and
expose other party to experiences...
...he or she would otherwise
not indulge in.''
Does this agreement have
a rain-check clause?
-Yes. Just this once.
-Okay.
And l promise l'll take you up on it...
...if and when l'm ready for you to see
how insufferably uncool l can be.
You don't give yourself
enough credit.
l mean, at worst,
you're just mildly uncool.
Thank you.
Will you at least give this disc a try?
-Yeah. Right now?
-Come on.
Okay.
This town is sorely lacking
in post meridiem activities.
We could always do
a Bonnie and Clyde.
What, like, hit a bank
and go on the lam?
lt's a practical solution to two of
our biggest problems, you know?
-Money and boredom.
-Yeah. That's good, actually.
We can get one of those
big honking sedans.
l can get myself a fedora.
You can get yourself...
...a Kodak box camera, and we just
head out across the heartland.
Thumb our nose at authorities.
Stopping occasionally
to take cute pictures...
...of loving gangster couples and--
Do you wanna burn some time
spinning some discs?
No, not right now.
Come on.
My father gave that to me,
the summer l got in.
And l've been saving it.
Hoping for this moment.
-You look perfect in it.
-Daddy, l'm not perfect.
Not by a long shot.
You know, Andie, wearing
the crimson signifies excellence.
ln fact, l remember when
the boys and l first got to the Yard--
You think this is excited?
Wait till the course book arrives.
We'll see if some of the old warhorses
are lecturing this fall.
-And then, there's a summer session--
-Dad.
All right, all right.
l'm getting ahead of myself.
lt's just-- This is the greatest moment
of your life, Andie.
l have never been more proud of you
than l am right now.
Well, just remember
l want that same speech...
-...when l get into clown college.
-Yeah.
All right, you have to excuse me.
l have a phone book full of calls
to make to some of my fellow alum.
lt's a big sweater to fill, huh?
You know, don't let him get to you.
Don't freak yourself out either.
l'm not freaked out.
l'm not anything.
ln a way, l wish l were.
You heard him.
This is supposed to be
the greatest moment of my life.
You know? l mean, l should feel
amazing or happy or something.
You're telling me
you don't feel anything?
No. One big fat empty.
lt's probably just the medication.
lt keeps me from feeling the lows.
But a side effect is it keeps me
from feeling the highs too.
But don't worry about me. l'll be
bouncing off the walls in a few days.
l totally forgot.
Speaking of bouncing off the walls...
...l got this e-mail invite.
There's a rave tonight.
What better way to celebrate, right?
You just got into Harvard.
l think you deserve a night of wild,
reckless abandon. What do you say?
You've got mail.
Drue, one more time,
and l'm gonna feel compelled...
...to accidentally smash
your fingers in the doorjamb.
Come on. Think back
to your halcyon heyday.
You were the ?ber raver.
Your love for the scene
was world-renowned.
Another part of my reputation
l was really proud of.
You, my dear, are a pod person.
The Jen l once knew thrived
on that reputation.
She personified fun.
That Jen is MlA.
Oh, come on, Jen.
How bottom of the ninth is it?
lt's coming back to me,
l remember why my skin crawls...
-...when you're around.
-Because l remind you...
...of what you're missing.
Face it. You need stimuli.
Too long without it and the little voices
inside start to ask for it.
You've been here for a while.
And l bet your little voices
are screaming.
Oh, by the by, that night l went back
for the Ecstasy l gave you.
lt's a funny thing.
Both you and it were gone.
Now l know where you are--
You're such a bastard.
You know, it's not surprising to me
that you wavered.
Here it is, fall quarter, senior year,
and you still don't know...
...what you wanna do in life, where
you wanna go, who you wanna be.
lt'd be nice to escape those
questions for a while, wouldn't it?
l'm no longer 1 4 and naive.
lf you're gonna convince me
to screw up my life again...
-...you're gonna have to do better.
-Okay. How's this?
You're afraid that
if you admit to yourself...
...how much you loved
feeling good...
...you'd have to admit that you
wanna feel that good again.
lf you're gonna take one,
tonight's the perfect night.
'' Congratulations''?
Did Publishers Clearing House
stop by today?
Dawson. No.
l thought you were gonna be
working tonight.
lt was a little slow.
They said they didn't need me.
Well, we're glad you're here because
we have something to tell you.
Okay.
We have spent a lot of time
thinking about this...
...and despite all the logical reasons
why we shouldn't...
...our hearts say that
we should have this baby.
l'm so happy for you.
This is amazing.
-Yeah. This is really how you feel?
-Yes. Absolutely.
Completely. But....
Wow.
-Yeah. Wow.
-Wow.
We were just gonna sit
down and have dinner.
-Let me get you a plate.
-Don't worry about it.
l already ate.
And there's this thing l was invited to.
So l think l'm gonna
go upstairs, change...
...and then l will be out of your hair.
You guys have a good night.
-You know what l love about that kid?
-Everything.
Well, yeah. That...
...and he can totally take a hint.
l've been to at least a dozen raves,
and they've all been great.
Oh, yeah. Hundreds of sweaty
strangers packed together...
...being blasted with potentially
ear-damaging decibels. Sounds great.
Hey, l thought you were gonna
give this a chance.
l am. l'm actually really excited
to check out this new revolution.
No.
Aren't raves just like high-school
dances, but 1 0 times longer?
Oh, l used to love
high-school dances.
Well, you were the queen
of every one you went to.
Well, why do you think
l loved them?
Hey, if you don't wanna come,
we are totally fine leaving you here.
You can clean the bathroom.
Did l say l didn't wanna come?
l'm starting to see the upside here.
Good.
-Dawson.
-Hey.
-You actually decided to come.
-Yeah. l'm cashing in my rain check.
Well, come in.
Hey, guys, look who's joining us.
The Mitch-mobile is gassed
and ready to go. Who's coming?
Let's go, Pace.
We're gonna be late picking up Jack.
His meeting ends by 1 0.
l know, l know. l just-- l gotta find
directions to the map point.
What's a map point?
lt's like a buffer zone for undesirables.
lf they don't like the way you look...
...you might not get directions
to the actual location.
But how do you know
if you're undesirable?
Andie, it's a rave on the outer banks
of civilization.
Anybody who shows up
with money is desirable.
Well, there we go. Don't worry.
Within an hour, you'll be grooving
to the point of exhaustion...
...with the Cape's version
of disenfranchised youth.
Are you sure you wanna go?
l'm starting to feel guilty
about twisting your arm.
lf you don't wanna go,
l totally understand.
-No, no. l wanna celebrate with you.
-Good.
l think we're gonna have fun. That's
exactly what we need, to have fun.
But first, the facilities.
Figure while l'm in there l might
as well slap on a little bit of that lip--
Are those some kind of pills?
Yeah. Some kind of pills.
We're not talking aspirin, are we?
You know what just went through my
mind? Fourth of July in Cohasset.
That was the last time all of us
were in a car together.
God, you guys were such babies.
-How old were you, Pacey?
-l don't know. Don't remember it.
-We were 1 1 . You were 1 4.
-And you were wearing something red.
-Oh, God.
-ls it possible that l remember that?
Unfortunately, yeah.
Ecstasy.
So have you done a lot of it?
Yeah, in New York.
l never went to a rave without it,
and l went to a lot of raves.
So you must have liked
what it did for you.
l mean, otherwise you wouldn't have
kept taking it, right?
Oh, yeah. l mean...
...the first few times, it's amazing.
lt's hard not to love the X effect.
Which is what, exactly?
-What's with all the questions?
-l'm just curious.
You know, a way to pass the time...
...until Jack gets out of that
never-ending meeting.
All right.
God....
First time you do X,
it's really good.
You get this feeling of loving
everybody and everything.
And everybody loves you.
And that can be really powerful.
X just made me happy.
lt just provided a pleasant vacation
from my usual spot under the bell jar.
So X makes you happy?
All kinds of wonderful.
-That doesn't sound so bad.
-lt's not, at first.
See, it lasts about six hours,
and then it's gone.
And afterward, ironically, you're more
depressed than when you started.
The worst thing, though, with X,
well, with any drug...
...is you lose your inhibitions.
That's why l stopped. l just--
l just didn't know
who l was anymore.
Can l see it? Come on.
l'm just, you know, curious.
l wanna see what they look like.
Andie, you're way too interested.
l'm just interested in feeling happy.
-Wait, didn't you just get into Harvard?
-Yep.
And one would think that finally
getting the one thing...
...that you wanted your entire life,
you'd experience one moment...
...of sheer joy, but....
No moment?
You wanna talk about
what you are feeling?
No.
Because that's all l ever do
is talk and talk.
Tonight, l just wanna have fun.
l wanna leave my problems behind
in a little field...
...and pick them up tomorrow.
l don't know. l--
l'm sure it's just some kind
of weird delayed-reaction thing.
And l'm gonna feel
happy soon. Yeah.
-lt's just--
-You will.
Oh, my God.
lnsufferable.
l cannot wait to dance this soccer stuff
right out of my head.
-What? Did l interrupt something?
-Nope.
Just girl talk.
Well, l'm glad you stopped
when l got here.
-Shall we v?monos?
-Yep.
Yeah.
-Okay, come on.
-Not here. Later, later.
-Could they make this any creepier?
-l'll be your map-point buddy.
Come on.
When did they become
going-out-together buddies?
l believe this is the inaugural event.
Of all the guys in Capeside
that want to befriend her...
...she picks Dawson.
That doesn't bother you at all?
He's the only person close
to her age working at the restaurant.
Makes perfect sense
that they'd be friends.
No, l asked if it bothered you.
No, it doesn't bother me.
lt bothers you.
No, it doesn't bother me. lt...
...bothers you.
You just want it to bother me too.
-So then what's bothering you?
-You.
Now, why are you here?
-To have a great night?
-Exactly.
Right on.
All right, 5 bucks a body.
We'll take four.
Follow the yellow brick road.
-Now that l have you alone, tell me.
-Yeah?
ls it just a front, or are you really okay
with the Joey/Pacey component?
lt's a little awkward.
l'm not gonna lie, but l'm in too good
of a mood to let it bother me.
ls that why you changed your mind?
Yeah, actually.
My parents decided
to have the baby.
-Oh, Dawson, that's incredible.
-Good.
l wanted to tell you right away,
but in light of....
And l didn't want to ruin
the evening.
Oh, no. No, you can absolutely talk
to me about this. You have to.
Okay, good, because l've been
wanting to share it with somebody.
-l don't know, l'm so excited about it.
-As you should be.
l mean, hey, you know,
as irritating as they are...
...younger siblings do have
their pluses.
They're good for doing chores...
...and there's always someone
to blame if anything gets broken.
Thank you for sharing
what you went through.
lt really helped me understand
what my parents were going through...
-...from the right perspective.
-Yeah, well...
...if there's anything l'm good for,
it's a little attitude adjustment.
Come on.
Oh, man, this is awesome.
Rave time has arrived.
Hey, Andie, were we done
back there at the park?
-Totally done.
-All right.
-So you're okay?
-l am so okay.
Actually, l feel really great.
Well, why don't you give me
back the X. Jack won't see it.
Jen, don't be mad,
but l sort of took one.
Andie, no, when?
Well, before we got back to the car.
l just decided, you know, carpe diem.
No, this is so not good for you.
But you said it was amazing
the first few times.
And l think l've earned
an amazing night, right?
l'll pay you back, whatever it costs.
ls it a lot?
No, Andie. l don't care about
the money. l care about you.
That's so sweet, Jen.
But l told you, l'm feeling fine.
Look, can we not
tell Jack about this?
Because l don't think he'd approve.
-Yeah.
-Great. Come on.
Oh, right on.
You guys are so not the squares
l thought you were.
Hi there. We haven't met.
l don't have a problem with that.
-Hey, guys.
-Hey.
-ls it weird that we're all here, or what?
-Hey.
-Somebody's out celebrating.
-Yep.
-Congratulations.
-What are we celebrating?
Andie got into Harvard.
That explains your sudden desperate
need to focus on your future.
l really don't need you tonight.
You did it. Just like you always said
you would. Congratulations.
Oh, Potter, how cool are you?
You don't mind that that lasted
just a split second...
...longer than the
''ex'' guidelines allow?
Who is that guy?
Did you ever meet Abby Morgan?
Never mind. Let's just go in.
Jen, this place is so beautiful.
Andie. Petting Joey, not a good way
to maintain a low profile.
l want you to enjoy this,
but you have to maintain...
...especially around people
you'll see on Monday.
l'm okay, Jen, really.
You don't have to worry about me.
l'm feeling fine.
l'm sure you are. Listen...
...l really wanna keep
an eye on you tonight.
So you're gonna have to
work with me and stick by me.
You're the best, Jen.
-l never knew your hair was so soft.
-Okay, Andie.
Again, not in the realm
of maintaining.
-You gotta try harder for me, please?
-Okay.
There are wild people everywhere.
This is exactly the kind of reckless
abandonment you need.
Which of you McPhees
is gonna dance?
-Me. l wanna.
-Right on, sister. Come on this way.
Jack, l need to get some water.
Do me a big favour. Keep an eye...
-...on Drue and Andie for me, all right?
-Why?
Just trust me. He's not the kind of guy
that you leave your sister with.
l'm sorry about the Dawson snafu.
But when l invited him, he said no.
lt didn't even occur to me that he
would change his mind.
That's okay. l mean, l'm kind of
glad that we all ended up together.
Accidental or not, things have
been getting better, slowly.
l'm glad to hear that. The three of you
have so much history.
And Dawson's such a great guy.
Speaking of Dawson, and l know this
is none of my business, Gretchen--
ls there possibly,
even in the vaguest way...
...well, something happening
with you and Dawson?
Where exactly did that come from?
Well, obviously you're aware of his
incredibly infamous crush on you.
Yeah, the one that ended
when he was, like, 1 2.
But, see....
Gretchen....
Dawson has this way of hanging
on to things since he was, like, 1 2.
Sure, he outgrows them, puts
them in their proper perspective...
...but that doesn't always mean
they're gone. Sometimes l think...
...they're just waiting around for the
right moment to come out again...
...and, well, maybe if he thinks
there's the slightest chance....
You know what l think?
lf Dawson's waiting for some
childhood crush...
...to come around again,
he's not waiting on me.
-Andie McPhee, you are so high.
-Me? No, l'm not.
Yeah. Really?
Yeah. Feels good, don't it?
No. l'm supposed to
be maintaining.
Nobody knows except Jen, and she's
gonna make sure l'm okay tonight.
Yeah. Andie, look, honey,
take my word for this, okay?
l am a far, far better guide
through the looking glass...
...than Jen Lindley
could ever be. Okay?
Come on, lvy League.
Let's have fun.
You know, you're violating
the sacred buddy system.
No one ventures out alone,
remember?
l would have stayed in there, but l was
really intimidated by all the intricate...
...steps necessary to enjoy the most
tuneless music known to man.
l, too, felt a little out of place.
You know...
...not having dressed in what could
only be described...
...as an homage
to Japanese animation.
So why are we here?
We're trying something new.
Yeah, which only really serves to let
me know how much l enjoyed the old.
Me too.
But l am glad we came.
l mean, if nothing else, to witness the
wasted youth of America firsthand.
And it ain't pretty.
But you, madame, most certainly are.
Remember how we used to play
'' barnacle for your thoughts''?
Yes.
Well, l don't exactly have
a barnacle on me...
...but l could offer you
this lovely glow necklace.
Which l would gladly accept.
Gives you that whole
Caesar look again.
Wonderful.
So l did my part.
And l think now you're supposed to tell
me something deep and profound.
You wanna hear something
deep and profound?
l miss True Love, Jo.
l mean, right now, sitting
under the stars, arm around you...
...let me tell you....
l miss True Love
something fierce.
l miss her too, Pacey.
Hey. Glow necklace?
All the cool kids seem to be
wearing them.
No?
lf you don't like the colour...
-...l can exchange it, they got others.
-No, it's great. Thanks.
ls something wrong?
Okay, there's no easier way to say
this, so l'm just gonna put it out there.
ls it possible, even in the vaguest way,
that you're here because you think...
...there's a chance something might
be happening between us?
l think there is something
happening between us.
-lt's called friendship.
-And that's all you expect?
Did l do something to make
you think l expected more?
No. No, sorry.
This is so out of the blue.
l feel ridiculous even mentioning it.
Don't feel ridiculous. lt's no secret
that at one point in my life...
...l would've killed for you to even
acknowledge that l was in a room...
...let alone hang out with you,
but, well....
l don't think that's where either
one of us are at right now.
So where are we at?
Well...
...when that boat sailed
last summer...
...l didn't just lose Joey,
l lost my two best friends.
But, you know, you move on.
And if you're lucky,
you make new friends, like you.
You're easy to talk to,
you give really good advice.
But...
...l don't expect anything, you know?
lt's just the opposite, really. lt's just....
God, it's really nice to just be
in the present with somebody.
-Okay.
-Okay?
Dance or bounce?
Bounce?
Oh, my God! Hi, it's you guys.
l love you guys.
-She's feeling the love.
-Apparently.
Yeah, Andie, l think you've done
enough hugging tonight.
l just wanted to show you guys
how much l love you both.
You guys are so good together.
And, Joey, you are so nice.
Except for when you dumped Dawson
for Pacey. That was pretty cold.
But really, who can blame you?
l mean, it's Pacey.
l pretend not to care.
But l have to admit, Pace...
...you are the love of my life.
And l am so not over you.
l hope it's okay that l said that.
l mean, we're friends, so
it shouldn't be a big secret, right?
-lt's news to me, Andie.
-You totally don't have to worry.
l mean, Pacey is so over me.
And such the faithful type.
lf only l had been,
maybe we'd still be together.
-Andie, are you feeling okay?
-Oh, yeah.
l feel great.
And l just got into Harvard.
Oh, we're gonna go bounce.
Come with us. Come on.
No. You guys go ahead.
Okay. Okay. Let's go.
All right.
-Jack? Jack. Jack.
-What, what? Hey.
-Hey, where'd everybody go?
-Jen, l want you to meet Holly and Liz.
Right. Hi.
Listen, point me to where Andie went,
general direction?
l lost track of her.
l don't know where they went.
What? l asked you to do
one little thing.
l don't know.
-Come on. We're gonna go find her.
-l--
l'll see you guys later.
Hey, what--? What is with you?
l thought you were, like,
this major raver.
All you seem to be doing
is monitoring Andie.
l'm just making sure she's all right.
Why wouldn't she be?
Let's just find her.
Hey, this is a no-parking zone,
buddy, move it.
Hey, you guys.
Can we come bounce?
Yeah. Plenty of room.
Great!
-Hey there.
-Wow, this is so much fun!
lt's like a big bounce!
l'm having so much fun with Drue
and you and Dawson!
You okay?
-You don't look so good.
-l'm getting a bit of a headache.
Well, let's sit this one out.
-Drue?
-Rest for a minute. You'll be fine.
Dawson, l'm not feeling so--
-You all right?
-Andie?
Andie? Andie?
Dawson, what happened?
-l don't know. She just collapsed.
-Andie, come on! Wake up.
God, please don't do this!
Andie! Come on!
Andie. Somebody help us!
Andie! Come on.
Hey, we need some help here.
lt's my sister. We were in the
moon bounce and she collapsed.
What's she on?
-An antidepressant, Nardil--
-No, what is she on?
-X. She took a tab of Ecstasy.
-With Nardil?
-How bad is it?
-Her temp's 1 03. BP 1 90/1 1 0.
We gotta get her to the hospital, like,
1 0 minutes ago. On my count.
One, two, three.
-lf anyone's gonna ride, get in.
-Yeah, yeah, that's me.
-Jack, please let me come with you.
-Not now, Jen.
-You've done enough.
-You don't understand.
l didn't know she was on medication.
l would--
What does it matter?
You gave my sister drugs, Jen!
lt should be you in this ambulance.
You...
...need a ride to the hospital?
No. No, l should probably
just go home.
Okay.
Let's go, guys.
-How is she?
-Not good.
Really not good.
Come on, l'll take you home.
At the park, all the warning signs were
there. l don't know why l didn't see it.
She took the stuff. lt's not your fault.
l practically stamped ''AMA approved''
on it. l should have known better.
Forget medication, she could've
gone down for any reason.
-lt still would've been my fault.
-Andie is responsible...
...for her own choices, even her bad
ones. Why are you playing the martyr?
Does nothing faze you?
She's my friend. She's in the hospital
because of something from me.
-You don't think l should feel bad?
-Want something to feel bad about?
How about the way
your ''friends'' iced you?
l hate-- l hate the way
you twist everything.
Well, hate it all you want. The truth is,
no matter what Andie tells them...
...Monday, they'll treat you like
this is your fault.
You came here the banished bad seed.
That's all you'll ever be to them.
They want you to play that role so they
can feel better about the pathetic...
...plastic Mayberry existence
they're living.
-And l thought that l was damaged.
-You are.
So am l.
And that's why we need each other.
We're coming from the same place.
No, Drue.
We came from the same place,
but now we're miles apart...
...and l intend to keep it that way.
l'm gonna call my friend
and see how she's doing.
-You get him?
-lt's taken care of, yeah.
-Thanks.
-How's Andie?
She's-- She's stable now.
They said that she went into some
kind of hypertensive crisis.
See, Andie's on this older
type of antidepressant and....
Turns out it's, you know...
...it's a time bomb when it's mixed
with the wrong thing. So...
...in a way, l guess, we're very lucky
the way things turned out.
That she didn't....
God, she could have died.
Look, they want to--
They wanna keep her overnight...
...so l know she appreciates you guys
being here and everything...
...but l don't think she's in the mood
for visitors. You should just go home.
Call tomorrow and see
how she's feeling.
You're right.
l'm sure she needs her rest.
l think we do too.
Yeah, so, all right, l'll see
you guys tomorrow.
-Okay.
-Okay.
You okay, Pace?
No.
No. l should have known
that something was wrong.
And l knew it.
l just didn't know how bad it was.
Even if you had realized,
there's nothing you could have done.
Yeah.
Look, l think l wanna stay
here tonight, if that's okay.
Completely.
You want company?
No. l'll just give you a call
when l get home, okay?
Here.
ln case you need something
to rest on.
Not exactly the evening l had in mind
when l invited you.
l don't think anybody had
this evening in mind.
But l'm glad l went.
Me too.
Well, good night.
-See you at work.
-All right.
-Dawson.
-Yeah?
Your friendship means a lot
to me too.
Coming back here
has been really hard.
And somehow you've made
the transition a lot more enjoyable...
...than l ever thought it could be.
Well, good.
That's what friends are for.
-Good night.
-Good night.
Weird night, huh?
Yeah.
l'm not even tired.
How about hungry?
l'm sorry, Daddy.
l really am.
-l'm not mad, Andie.
-l am.
The three of us,
we need each other.
You can't do stupid things like this,
Andie. You can't. Think about...
-...what our family's been through.
-l know.
l'm sorry. l know it was stupid.
lt's the stupidest thing l've ever done.
l don't know. lt's just...
...l wanted to feel something,
you know?
Anything.
lt's okay. We'll get through this...
...as long as we can communicate.
You know, as a family.
You have to tell us
what you're going through.
No more secrets.
Okay.
Hey.
lt's 25-cent coffee from the machine,
so don't get your hopes up.
Thank you.
You stayed.
l didn't have anything better to do,
so l figured l'd just stay and bug you.
You're not bugging me.
About the things that l said, Pacey--
Hey, don't worry about
what you said.
lt doesn't matter. What matters now
is that you're okay.
Thanks.
Doesn't seem right to have
such a beautiful sunrise...
...after the night we just had.
And l can't shake the way
that Andie looked...
...when they put her
in that ambulance.
lt's scary how things can turn
so bad so fast.
Scary how real everything's been
this year, you know?
Jen and Pacey and the storm.
Andie tonight.
lt does make you kind of realize
that any one of us could go...
...at any moment
for the stupidest of reasons.
l know.
l remember when parties
used to be...
...bowling and birthday cakes,
you know?
l mean, now they're high-risk
adventures that could actually kill you.
Another perk of growing up
in the new millennium.
You know, less than a year, Dawson,
and we'll all be out of here.
Yeah.
lt's really sad to think that after
1 8 years of living down the creek...
...from each other, there's gonna be
no one rowing our boats anymore.
Well, l wouldn't put our boats
into dry-dock just yet.
-You have plans for our boats?
-l do.
l think you should give yours
to Alexander...
...because l'm gonna be giving mine
to my new brother or sister.
That's why Gale's been
so sick lately?
She's pregnant?
Congratulations. Oh, my God.
Well, Capeside wouldn't be Capeside
without a little Leery running around.
Or rowing across the creek
to get to your house.
Sounds weird, but hearing that...
-...makes me feel--
-Old?
-How'd you know that?
-lt's the way l felt.
Nothing propels you into adulthood
faster than the next generation...
...nipping at your heels.
You know, Dawson....
l think about it sometimes...
...and wherever we go next...
...it's hard to imagine life
without you.
You did pretty well for three months.
l think you know what l mean.
Yeah.
Yeah, l do.
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the college application thing can be.
But the way l got through it
is to take it step by step.
Let's just step over to the
college-bound reference section...
-...and start pulling down books.
-Yeah.
-Hey, you know what might be fun?
-What?
Start focusing on schools that are in
New York since it's your old home.
l don't know.
l just spent three years...
...flushing the Big Apple
out of my system.
Yeah, but haven't you recently
decided you might wanna go back?
As you're so fond of pointing out,
l haven't recently decided anything.
Well, what about your rush to rejoin
the gang at The Haunt?
Has Drue been whispering
in your ear?
Well, actually we did have a little
confab at the Yacht Club last week.
He told me all about your social set
and how you spent all your time...
...at The Haunt, dancing and drinking
until the wee hours of the morning.
According to him, it was
a nonstop ball of fun.
''According to him'' would be
the key phrase.
He's the dark prince
of revisionist history.
l found you.
Okay, l'm glad you're still here.
-Why, what's going on?
-Oh, nothing much, actually.
lt's just-- Well, there's this one thing.
Something's been waiting
at the house for you all day.
lt's not that important.
lt's just a letter...
...from a know-nothing,
nor'eastern school.
So, you know, you might wanna
take a glance at it.
-lt's from someplace called Harvard.
-Oh, Harvard. Oh, oh, my gosh.
Okay. This is future
in an envelope.
Oh, God. Or not. lf it was a yes,
it would be bigger, right?
l mean, this is a case where size
really does matter, right?
Well, l think that size only matters...
...when you have a full view
of the entire package, really.
So l have to open it in order
to find out?
Come on. They'd be fools
not to take you.
-They would, wouldn't they?
-Will you open it?
Okay.
'' Dear Miss McPhee, Harvard College
is pleased to inform you...
...that we've accepted your application
for Early Action for the fall of 2001 ...
-...and we look forward to having you.''
-Yes! You're in, you're in!
You're in!
-l'm in!
-Congratulations. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.
Hey, everybody, my sister
just got into Harvard!
Looking for something
new and different?
-May l suggest Morcheeba?
-Morcheeba.
They're a little Herbie Hancock,
a little Biz Markie...
...and a touch of Poe,
tossed in for good measure.
Several artists not currently
represented in my CD collection.
You've at least heard of them?
Oh, Dawson.
Thanks.
-Party invite?
-No. Not just a party. A rave.
A rave in Capeside?
l guess even suburban
rhythm-impaired youths...
-...need an outlet, right?
-Sure.
Hey, it does a body good
to just let loose once in a while.
Besides, raves aren't just
an outlet for dancing.
They're sort of
a declaration of independence.
Right there with the
Boston Tea Party.
Hey, every generation has its rebel
subculture experience...
...and this is ours, you know?
Our attempt to define
who and what we are...
...and make a statement
about our lives.
Our statement is that
we can keep tedium at bay...
-...with glitter and techno-pop?
-lt's called fun.
You need to come with me
and check it out.
To a rave? Not really my scene.
l'd guess you haven't been to one,
so how would you know?
lnstinct, you know?
l've never been two-stepping either.
But somehow, l know better
than to run out...
-...and buy a pair of cowboy boots.
-Well, two-stepping isn't all the rage...
...with the nation's youth.
But if you were so inclined, l would
love to intro you to something that--
ls completely foreign to everything
l've ever known in my entire life.
Okay, consider it one
of the terms and conditions...
...of our new friend agreement.
You know, ''must challenge and
expose other party to experiences...
...he or she would otherwise
not indulge in.''
Does this agreement have
a rain-check clause?
-Yes. Just this once.
-Okay.
And l promise l'll take you up on it...
...if and when l'm ready for you to see
how insufferably uncool l can be.
You don't give yourself
enough credit.
l mean, at worst,
you're just mildly uncool.
Thank you.
Will you at least give this disc a try?
-Yeah. Right now?
-Come on.
Okay.
This town is sorely lacking
in post meridiem activities.
We could always do
a Bonnie and Clyde.
What, like, hit a bank
and go on the lam?
lt's a practical solution to two of
our biggest problems, you know?
-Money and boredom.
-Yeah. That's good, actually.
We can get one of those
big honking sedans.
l can get myself a fedora.
You can get yourself...
...a Kodak box camera, and we just
head out across the heartland.
Thumb our nose at authorities.
Stopping occasionally
to take cute pictures...
...of loving gangster couples and--
Do you wanna burn some time
spinning some discs?
No, not right now.
Come on.
My father gave that to me,
the summer l got in.
And l've been saving it.
Hoping for this moment.
-You look perfect in it.
-Daddy, l'm not perfect.
Not by a long shot.
You know, Andie, wearing
the crimson signifies excellence.
ln fact, l remember when
the boys and l first got to the Yard--
You think this is excited?
Wait till the course book arrives.
We'll see if some of the old warhorses
are lecturing this fall.
-And then, there's a summer session--
-Dad.
All right, all right.
l'm getting ahead of myself.
lt's just-- This is the greatest moment
of your life, Andie.
l have never been more proud of you
than l am right now.
Well, just remember
l want that same speech...
-...when l get into clown college.
-Yeah.
All right, you have to excuse me.
l have a phone book full of calls
to make to some of my fellow alum.
lt's a big sweater to fill, huh?
You know, don't let him get to you.
Don't freak yourself out either.
l'm not freaked out.
l'm not anything.
ln a way, l wish l were.
You heard him.
This is supposed to be
the greatest moment of my life.
You know? l mean, l should feel
amazing or happy or something.
You're telling me
you don't feel anything?
No. One big fat empty.
lt's probably just the medication.
lt keeps me from feeling the lows.
But a side effect is it keeps me
from feeling the highs too.
But don't worry about me. l'll be
bouncing off the walls in a few days.
l totally forgot.
Speaking of bouncing off the walls...
...l got this e-mail invite.
There's a rave tonight.
What better way to celebrate, right?
You just got into Harvard.
l think you deserve a night of wild,
reckless abandon. What do you say?
You've got mail.
Drue, one more time,
and l'm gonna feel compelled...
...to accidentally smash
your fingers in the doorjamb.
Come on. Think back
to your halcyon heyday.
You were the ?ber raver.
Your love for the scene
was world-renowned.
Another part of my reputation
l was really proud of.
You, my dear, are a pod person.
The Jen l once knew thrived
on that reputation.
She personified fun.
That Jen is MlA.
Oh, come on, Jen.
How bottom of the ninth is it?
lt's coming back to me,
l remember why my skin crawls...
-...when you're around.
-Because l remind you...
...of what you're missing.
Face it. You need stimuli.
Too long without it and the little voices
inside start to ask for it.
You've been here for a while.
And l bet your little voices
are screaming.
Oh, by the by, that night l went back
for the Ecstasy l gave you.
lt's a funny thing.
Both you and it were gone.
Now l know where you are--
You're such a bastard.
You know, it's not surprising to me
that you wavered.
Here it is, fall quarter, senior year,
and you still don't know...
...what you wanna do in life, where
you wanna go, who you wanna be.
lt'd be nice to escape those
questions for a while, wouldn't it?
l'm no longer 1 4 and naive.
lf you're gonna convince me
to screw up my life again...
-...you're gonna have to do better.
-Okay. How's this?
You're afraid that
if you admit to yourself...
...how much you loved
feeling good...
...you'd have to admit that you
wanna feel that good again.
lf you're gonna take one,
tonight's the perfect night.
'' Congratulations''?
Did Publishers Clearing House
stop by today?
Dawson. No.
l thought you were gonna be
working tonight.
lt was a little slow.
They said they didn't need me.
Well, we're glad you're here because
we have something to tell you.
Okay.
We have spent a lot of time
thinking about this...
...and despite all the logical reasons
why we shouldn't...
...our hearts say that
we should have this baby.
l'm so happy for you.
This is amazing.
-Yeah. This is really how you feel?
-Yes. Absolutely.
Completely. But....
Wow.
-Yeah. Wow.
-Wow.
We were just gonna sit
down and have dinner.
-Let me get you a plate.
-Don't worry about it.
l already ate.
And there's this thing l was invited to.
So l think l'm gonna
go upstairs, change...
...and then l will be out of your hair.
You guys have a good night.
-You know what l love about that kid?
-Everything.
Well, yeah. That...
...and he can totally take a hint.
l've been to at least a dozen raves,
and they've all been great.
Oh, yeah. Hundreds of sweaty
strangers packed together...
...being blasted with potentially
ear-damaging decibels. Sounds great.
Hey, l thought you were gonna
give this a chance.
l am. l'm actually really excited
to check out this new revolution.
No.
Aren't raves just like high-school
dances, but 1 0 times longer?
Oh, l used to love
high-school dances.
Well, you were the queen
of every one you went to.
Well, why do you think
l loved them?
Hey, if you don't wanna come,
we are totally fine leaving you here.
You can clean the bathroom.
Did l say l didn't wanna come?
l'm starting to see the upside here.
Good.
-Dawson.
-Hey.
-You actually decided to come.
-Yeah. l'm cashing in my rain check.
Well, come in.
Hey, guys, look who's joining us.
The Mitch-mobile is gassed
and ready to go. Who's coming?
Let's go, Pace.
We're gonna be late picking up Jack.
His meeting ends by 1 0.
l know, l know. l just-- l gotta find
directions to the map point.
What's a map point?
lt's like a buffer zone for undesirables.
lf they don't like the way you look...
...you might not get directions
to the actual location.
But how do you know
if you're undesirable?
Andie, it's a rave on the outer banks
of civilization.
Anybody who shows up
with money is desirable.
Well, there we go. Don't worry.
Within an hour, you'll be grooving
to the point of exhaustion...
...with the Cape's version
of disenfranchised youth.
Are you sure you wanna go?
l'm starting to feel guilty
about twisting your arm.
lf you don't wanna go,
l totally understand.
-No, no. l wanna celebrate with you.
-Good.
l think we're gonna have fun. That's
exactly what we need, to have fun.
But first, the facilities.
Figure while l'm in there l might
as well slap on a little bit of that lip--
Are those some kind of pills?
Yeah. Some kind of pills.
We're not talking aspirin, are we?
You know what just went through my
mind? Fourth of July in Cohasset.
That was the last time all of us
were in a car together.
God, you guys were such babies.
-How old were you, Pacey?
-l don't know. Don't remember it.
-We were 1 1 . You were 1 4.
-And you were wearing something red.
-Oh, God.
-ls it possible that l remember that?
Unfortunately, yeah.
Ecstasy.
So have you done a lot of it?
Yeah, in New York.
l never went to a rave without it,
and l went to a lot of raves.
So you must have liked
what it did for you.
l mean, otherwise you wouldn't have
kept taking it, right?
Oh, yeah. l mean...
...the first few times, it's amazing.
lt's hard not to love the X effect.
Which is what, exactly?
-What's with all the questions?
-l'm just curious.
You know, a way to pass the time...
...until Jack gets out of that
never-ending meeting.
All right.
God....
First time you do X,
it's really good.
You get this feeling of loving
everybody and everything.
And everybody loves you.
And that can be really powerful.
X just made me happy.
lt just provided a pleasant vacation
from my usual spot under the bell jar.
So X makes you happy?
All kinds of wonderful.
-That doesn't sound so bad.
-lt's not, at first.
See, it lasts about six hours,
and then it's gone.
And afterward, ironically, you're more
depressed than when you started.
The worst thing, though, with X,
well, with any drug...
...is you lose your inhibitions.
That's why l stopped. l just--
l just didn't know
who l was anymore.
Can l see it? Come on.
l'm just, you know, curious.
l wanna see what they look like.
Andie, you're way too interested.
l'm just interested in feeling happy.
-Wait, didn't you just get into Harvard?
-Yep.
And one would think that finally
getting the one thing...
...that you wanted your entire life,
you'd experience one moment...
...of sheer joy, but....
No moment?
You wanna talk about
what you are feeling?
No.
Because that's all l ever do
is talk and talk.
Tonight, l just wanna have fun.
l wanna leave my problems behind
in a little field...
...and pick them up tomorrow.
l don't know. l--
l'm sure it's just some kind
of weird delayed-reaction thing.
And l'm gonna feel
happy soon. Yeah.
-lt's just--
-You will.
Oh, my God.
lnsufferable.
l cannot wait to dance this soccer stuff
right out of my head.
-What? Did l interrupt something?
-Nope.
Just girl talk.
Well, l'm glad you stopped
when l got here.
-Shall we v?monos?
-Yep.
Yeah.
-Okay, come on.
-Not here. Later, later.
-Could they make this any creepier?
-l'll be your map-point buddy.
Come on.
When did they become
going-out-together buddies?
l believe this is the inaugural event.
Of all the guys in Capeside
that want to befriend her...
...she picks Dawson.
That doesn't bother you at all?
He's the only person close
to her age working at the restaurant.
Makes perfect sense
that they'd be friends.
No, l asked if it bothered you.
No, it doesn't bother me.
lt bothers you.
No, it doesn't bother me. lt...
...bothers you.
You just want it to bother me too.
-So then what's bothering you?
-You.
Now, why are you here?
-To have a great night?
-Exactly.
Right on.
All right, 5 bucks a body.
We'll take four.
Follow the yellow brick road.
-Now that l have you alone, tell me.
-Yeah?
ls it just a front, or are you really okay
with the Joey/Pacey component?
lt's a little awkward.
l'm not gonna lie, but l'm in too good
of a mood to let it bother me.
ls that why you changed your mind?
Yeah, actually.
My parents decided
to have the baby.
-Oh, Dawson, that's incredible.
-Good.
l wanted to tell you right away,
but in light of....
And l didn't want to ruin
the evening.
Oh, no. No, you can absolutely talk
to me about this. You have to.
Okay, good, because l've been
wanting to share it with somebody.
-l don't know, l'm so excited about it.
-As you should be.
l mean, hey, you know,
as irritating as they are...
...younger siblings do have
their pluses.
They're good for doing chores...
...and there's always someone
to blame if anything gets broken.
Thank you for sharing
what you went through.
lt really helped me understand
what my parents were going through...
-...from the right perspective.
-Yeah, well...
...if there's anything l'm good for,
it's a little attitude adjustment.
Come on.
Oh, man, this is awesome.
Rave time has arrived.
Hey, Andie, were we done
back there at the park?
-Totally done.
-All right.
-So you're okay?
-l am so okay.
Actually, l feel really great.
Well, why don't you give me
back the X. Jack won't see it.
Jen, don't be mad,
but l sort of took one.
Andie, no, when?
Well, before we got back to the car.
l just decided, you know, carpe diem.
No, this is so not good for you.
But you said it was amazing
the first few times.
And l think l've earned
an amazing night, right?
l'll pay you back, whatever it costs.
ls it a lot?
No, Andie. l don't care about
the money. l care about you.
That's so sweet, Jen.
But l told you, l'm feeling fine.
Look, can we not
tell Jack about this?
Because l don't think he'd approve.
-Yeah.
-Great. Come on.
Oh, right on.
You guys are so not the squares
l thought you were.
Hi there. We haven't met.
l don't have a problem with that.
-Hey, guys.
-Hey.
-ls it weird that we're all here, or what?
-Hey.
-Somebody's out celebrating.
-Yep.
-Congratulations.
-What are we celebrating?
Andie got into Harvard.
That explains your sudden desperate
need to focus on your future.
l really don't need you tonight.
You did it. Just like you always said
you would. Congratulations.
Oh, Potter, how cool are you?
You don't mind that that lasted
just a split second...
...longer than the
''ex'' guidelines allow?
Who is that guy?
Did you ever meet Abby Morgan?
Never mind. Let's just go in.
Jen, this place is so beautiful.
Andie. Petting Joey, not a good way
to maintain a low profile.
l want you to enjoy this,
but you have to maintain...
...especially around people
you'll see on Monday.
l'm okay, Jen, really.
You don't have to worry about me.
l'm feeling fine.
l'm sure you are. Listen...
...l really wanna keep
an eye on you tonight.
So you're gonna have to
work with me and stick by me.
You're the best, Jen.
-l never knew your hair was so soft.
-Okay, Andie.
Again, not in the realm
of maintaining.
-You gotta try harder for me, please?
-Okay.
There are wild people everywhere.
This is exactly the kind of reckless
abandonment you need.
Which of you McPhees
is gonna dance?
-Me. l wanna.
-Right on, sister. Come on this way.
Jack, l need to get some water.
Do me a big favour. Keep an eye...
-...on Drue and Andie for me, all right?
-Why?
Just trust me. He's not the kind of guy
that you leave your sister with.
l'm sorry about the Dawson snafu.
But when l invited him, he said no.
lt didn't even occur to me that he
would change his mind.
That's okay. l mean, l'm kind of
glad that we all ended up together.
Accidental or not, things have
been getting better, slowly.
l'm glad to hear that. The three of you
have so much history.
And Dawson's such a great guy.
Speaking of Dawson, and l know this
is none of my business, Gretchen--
ls there possibly,
even in the vaguest way...
...well, something happening
with you and Dawson?
Where exactly did that come from?
Well, obviously you're aware of his
incredibly infamous crush on you.
Yeah, the one that ended
when he was, like, 1 2.
But, see....
Gretchen....
Dawson has this way of hanging
on to things since he was, like, 1 2.
Sure, he outgrows them, puts
them in their proper perspective...
...but that doesn't always mean
they're gone. Sometimes l think...
...they're just waiting around for the
right moment to come out again...
...and, well, maybe if he thinks
there's the slightest chance....
You know what l think?
lf Dawson's waiting for some
childhood crush...
...to come around again,
he's not waiting on me.
-Andie McPhee, you are so high.
-Me? No, l'm not.
Yeah. Really?
Yeah. Feels good, don't it?
No. l'm supposed to
be maintaining.
Nobody knows except Jen, and she's
gonna make sure l'm okay tonight.
Yeah. Andie, look, honey,
take my word for this, okay?
l am a far, far better guide
through the looking glass...
...than Jen Lindley
could ever be. Okay?
Come on, lvy League.
Let's have fun.
You know, you're violating
the sacred buddy system.
No one ventures out alone,
remember?
l would have stayed in there, but l was
really intimidated by all the intricate...
...steps necessary to enjoy the most
tuneless music known to man.
l, too, felt a little out of place.
You know...
...not having dressed in what could
only be described...
...as an homage
to Japanese animation.
So why are we here?
We're trying something new.
Yeah, which only really serves to let
me know how much l enjoyed the old.
Me too.
But l am glad we came.
l mean, if nothing else, to witness the
wasted youth of America firsthand.
And it ain't pretty.
But you, madame, most certainly are.
Remember how we used to play
'' barnacle for your thoughts''?
Yes.
Well, l don't exactly have
a barnacle on me...
...but l could offer you
this lovely glow necklace.
Which l would gladly accept.
Gives you that whole
Caesar look again.
Wonderful.
So l did my part.
And l think now you're supposed to tell
me something deep and profound.
You wanna hear something
deep and profound?
l miss True Love, Jo.
l mean, right now, sitting
under the stars, arm around you...
...let me tell you....
l miss True Love
something fierce.
l miss her too, Pacey.
Hey. Glow necklace?
All the cool kids seem to be
wearing them.
No?
lf you don't like the colour...
-...l can exchange it, they got others.
-No, it's great. Thanks.
ls something wrong?
Okay, there's no easier way to say
this, so l'm just gonna put it out there.
ls it possible, even in the vaguest way,
that you're here because you think...
...there's a chance something might
be happening between us?
l think there is something
happening between us.
-lt's called friendship.
-And that's all you expect?
Did l do something to make
you think l expected more?
No. No, sorry.
This is so out of the blue.
l feel ridiculous even mentioning it.
Don't feel ridiculous. lt's no secret
that at one point in my life...
...l would've killed for you to even
acknowledge that l was in a room...
...let alone hang out with you,
but, well....
l don't think that's where either
one of us are at right now.
So where are we at?
Well...
...when that boat sailed
last summer...
...l didn't just lose Joey,
l lost my two best friends.
But, you know, you move on.
And if you're lucky,
you make new friends, like you.
You're easy to talk to,
you give really good advice.
But...
...l don't expect anything, you know?
lt's just the opposite, really. lt's just....
God, it's really nice to just be
in the present with somebody.
-Okay.
-Okay?
Dance or bounce?
Bounce?
Oh, my God! Hi, it's you guys.
l love you guys.
-She's feeling the love.
-Apparently.
Yeah, Andie, l think you've done
enough hugging tonight.
l just wanted to show you guys
how much l love you both.
You guys are so good together.
And, Joey, you are so nice.
Except for when you dumped Dawson
for Pacey. That was pretty cold.
But really, who can blame you?
l mean, it's Pacey.
l pretend not to care.
But l have to admit, Pace...
...you are the love of my life.
And l am so not over you.
l hope it's okay that l said that.
l mean, we're friends, so
it shouldn't be a big secret, right?
-lt's news to me, Andie.
-You totally don't have to worry.
l mean, Pacey is so over me.
And such the faithful type.
lf only l had been,
maybe we'd still be together.
-Andie, are you feeling okay?
-Oh, yeah.
l feel great.
And l just got into Harvard.
Oh, we're gonna go bounce.
Come with us. Come on.
No. You guys go ahead.
Okay. Okay. Let's go.
All right.
-Jack? Jack. Jack.
-What, what? Hey.
-Hey, where'd everybody go?
-Jen, l want you to meet Holly and Liz.
Right. Hi.
Listen, point me to where Andie went,
general direction?
l lost track of her.
l don't know where they went.
What? l asked you to do
one little thing.
l don't know.
-Come on. We're gonna go find her.
-l--
l'll see you guys later.
Hey, what--? What is with you?
l thought you were, like,
this major raver.
All you seem to be doing
is monitoring Andie.
l'm just making sure she's all right.
Why wouldn't she be?
Let's just find her.
Hey, this is a no-parking zone,
buddy, move it.
Hey, you guys.
Can we come bounce?
Yeah. Plenty of room.
Great!
-Hey there.
-Wow, this is so much fun!
lt's like a big bounce!
l'm having so much fun with Drue
and you and Dawson!
You okay?
-You don't look so good.
-l'm getting a bit of a headache.
Well, let's sit this one out.
-Drue?
-Rest for a minute. You'll be fine.
Dawson, l'm not feeling so--
-You all right?
-Andie?
Andie? Andie?
Dawson, what happened?
-l don't know. She just collapsed.
-Andie, come on! Wake up.
God, please don't do this!
Andie! Come on!
Andie. Somebody help us!
Andie! Come on.
Hey, we need some help here.
lt's my sister. We were in the
moon bounce and she collapsed.
What's she on?
-An antidepressant, Nardil--
-No, what is she on?
-X. She took a tab of Ecstasy.
-With Nardil?
-How bad is it?
-Her temp's 1 03. BP 1 90/1 1 0.
We gotta get her to the hospital, like,
1 0 minutes ago. On my count.
One, two, three.
-lf anyone's gonna ride, get in.
-Yeah, yeah, that's me.
-Jack, please let me come with you.
-Not now, Jen.
-You've done enough.
-You don't understand.
l didn't know she was on medication.
l would--
What does it matter?
You gave my sister drugs, Jen!
lt should be you in this ambulance.
You...
...need a ride to the hospital?
No. No, l should probably
just go home.
Okay.
Let's go, guys.
-How is she?
-Not good.
Really not good.
Come on, l'll take you home.
At the park, all the warning signs were
there. l don't know why l didn't see it.
She took the stuff. lt's not your fault.
l practically stamped ''AMA approved''
on it. l should have known better.
Forget medication, she could've
gone down for any reason.
-lt still would've been my fault.
-Andie is responsible...
...for her own choices, even her bad
ones. Why are you playing the martyr?
Does nothing faze you?
She's my friend. She's in the hospital
because of something from me.
-You don't think l should feel bad?
-Want something to feel bad about?
How about the way
your ''friends'' iced you?
l hate-- l hate the way
you twist everything.
Well, hate it all you want. The truth is,
no matter what Andie tells them...
...Monday, they'll treat you like
this is your fault.
You came here the banished bad seed.
That's all you'll ever be to them.
They want you to play that role so they
can feel better about the pathetic...
...plastic Mayberry existence
they're living.
-And l thought that l was damaged.
-You are.
So am l.
And that's why we need each other.
We're coming from the same place.
No, Drue.
We came from the same place,
but now we're miles apart...
...and l intend to keep it that way.
l'm gonna call my friend
and see how she's doing.
-You get him?
-lt's taken care of, yeah.
-Thanks.
-How's Andie?
She's-- She's stable now.
They said that she went into some
kind of hypertensive crisis.
See, Andie's on this older
type of antidepressant and....
Turns out it's, you know...
...it's a time bomb when it's mixed
with the wrong thing. So...
...in a way, l guess, we're very lucky
the way things turned out.
That she didn't....
God, she could have died.
Look, they want to--
They wanna keep her overnight...
...so l know she appreciates you guys
being here and everything...
...but l don't think she's in the mood
for visitors. You should just go home.
Call tomorrow and see
how she's feeling.
You're right.
l'm sure she needs her rest.
l think we do too.
Yeah, so, all right, l'll see
you guys tomorrow.
-Okay.
-Okay.
You okay, Pace?
No.
No. l should have known
that something was wrong.
And l knew it.
l just didn't know how bad it was.
Even if you had realized,
there's nothing you could have done.
Yeah.
Look, l think l wanna stay
here tonight, if that's okay.
Completely.
You want company?
No. l'll just give you a call
when l get home, okay?
Here.
ln case you need something
to rest on.
Not exactly the evening l had in mind
when l invited you.
l don't think anybody had
this evening in mind.
But l'm glad l went.
Me too.
Well, good night.
-See you at work.
-All right.
-Dawson.
-Yeah?
Your friendship means a lot
to me too.
Coming back here
has been really hard.
And somehow you've made
the transition a lot more enjoyable...
...than l ever thought it could be.
Well, good.
That's what friends are for.
-Good night.
-Good night.
Weird night, huh?
Yeah.
l'm not even tired.
How about hungry?
l'm sorry, Daddy.
l really am.
-l'm not mad, Andie.
-l am.
The three of us,
we need each other.
You can't do stupid things like this,
Andie. You can't. Think about...
-...what our family's been through.
-l know.
l'm sorry. l know it was stupid.
lt's the stupidest thing l've ever done.
l don't know. lt's just...
...l wanted to feel something,
you know?
Anything.
lt's okay. We'll get through this...
...as long as we can communicate.
You know, as a family.
You have to tell us
what you're going through.
No more secrets.
Okay.
Hey.
lt's 25-cent coffee from the machine,
so don't get your hopes up.
Thank you.
You stayed.
l didn't have anything better to do,
so l figured l'd just stay and bug you.
You're not bugging me.
About the things that l said, Pacey--
Hey, don't worry about
what you said.
lt doesn't matter. What matters now
is that you're okay.
Thanks.
Doesn't seem right to have
such a beautiful sunrise...
...after the night we just had.
And l can't shake the way
that Andie looked...
...when they put her
in that ambulance.
lt's scary how things can turn
so bad so fast.
Scary how real everything's been
this year, you know?
Jen and Pacey and the storm.
Andie tonight.
lt does make you kind of realize
that any one of us could go...
...at any moment
for the stupidest of reasons.
l know.
l remember when parties
used to be...
...bowling and birthday cakes,
you know?
l mean, now they're high-risk
adventures that could actually kill you.
Another perk of growing up
in the new millennium.
You know, less than a year, Dawson,
and we'll all be out of here.
Yeah.
lt's really sad to think that after
1 8 years of living down the creek...
...from each other, there's gonna be
no one rowing our boats anymore.
Well, l wouldn't put our boats
into dry-dock just yet.
-You have plans for our boats?
-l do.
l think you should give yours
to Alexander...
...because l'm gonna be giving mine
to my new brother or sister.
That's why Gale's been
so sick lately?
She's pregnant?
Congratulations. Oh, my God.
Well, Capeside wouldn't be Capeside
without a little Leery running around.
Or rowing across the creek
to get to your house.
Sounds weird, but hearing that...
-...makes me feel--
-Old?
-How'd you know that?
-lt's the way l felt.
Nothing propels you into adulthood
faster than the next generation...
...nipping at your heels.
You know, Dawson....
l think about it sometimes...
...and wherever we go next...
...it's hard to imagine life
without you.
You did pretty well for three months.
l think you know what l mean.
Yeah.
Yeah, l do.
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