Carrier (2008–…): Season 1, Episode 8 - True Believers - full transcript

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♪ It's a long road to paradise
and oh, I feel the pain oh oh oh

they tell me things are different now
but I still hurt the same uh uh uh

haze gray and under way
a world away from you

and miles and miles of blue ♪

♪ and the River opens for the
righteous and the River opens

for the righteous and the
River opens for the righteous

and the River opens for
the righteous someday ♪

I solemnly swear that I will support
and defend... I solemnly swear that

I will support and defend...
The constitution of



the United States of America.

The constitution of the
United States of America.

♪ I said what I believe in my
soul and what I see with my eyes

and we can't turn our backs
this time I am a patriot

and I love my country ♪

I have faith and trust in our
leadership, in our government and the

decision makers, that they're
making good decisions, and that

they're sending me into harm's
way with valid reasons.

Against all enemies... against all
enemies... Foreign and domestic...

Foreign and domestic... That
I will bear true faith.

I'm very patriotic.

I do this for God and country,
and I always say "God"

and they look at me.

They don't see me as a
very religious person.



But I do. I do this
for God and country.

♪ I am a patriot and I love my country
because my country is all I know ♪

I don't spend a great deal of time
thinking why the Bush Administration

sent us into Iraq.

I believe in God.

I believe we're
supposed to be here.

That I will obey the orders.

Of the president of
the United States.

When the president decides it's time
to defend our national interest,

I don't think you'll find
a pilot around that isn't

ready to do everything he can
to support that mission.

♪ I want to be with my family
people who understand me

I've got no place else to go and

the River opens
for the righteous

and the River opens for the
righteous and the River opens

for the righteous and the River
opens for the righteous someday ♪

♪ Wade in the water
Wade in the water ♪

Protestant daily prayer services
are now being conducted

in the ship's chapel.

Maintain silence in the
vicinity of the ship's chapel.

♪ Gonna trouble the water ♪

You get out in the sea, and you look
360 degrees, and you see nothing

but water, it puts things
in another perspective.

♪ Wade in the water ♪

When sailors see the power
of the sea, and when we get

into the storm, and they see the power
of the sea, they suddenly realize

how very small and relatively
insignificant we human beings are.

♪ Wade in the water ♪

Being out to sea is like being in the
wilderness because you're out in the

middle of the ocean, almost
in the middle of nowhere.

You can be around thousands of
people and still feel lonely.

And that's the perfect
opportunity to build your

relationship with the Lord.

♪ Dressed in white
Wade in the water ♪

prayer in five... ♪ must be
the children of the... ♪

Good evening, my Nimitz family.

This is your air wing
chaplain, Brian Jacobson.

Because we're here for six months or
more, we have a captive audience.

Lord, you know that we have
a mission to carry out,

and we ask your blessing of
safety upon each individual.

Our shipboard life is a real
melting pot of individuals.

So sailors are beginning to
hear about other people's

religious traditions, things they believe
or things they don't understand,

and that leads them
to ask questions.

But like Adam and Eve
are before Christ?

Yes, the beginning.

You know Genesis?

You ever heard of that?

I have heard of it. T's
like the beginning of time.

That's where it says, on the sixth
day, God made... Yeah, and let there

be light.

Yeah.

May this body and blood of our Lord
Jesus Christ keep us all close to him.

My name is Father Bob Keane.

I'm a catholic priest
of the Jesuit order.

My responsibility is to
supervise and provide all of

the religious ministry that
takes place aboard this ship.

We do have good attendance
aboard services.

Of course, we'd always
like to have more.

My name is Brian Jacobson.

I'm the chaplain for carrier
air wing eleven, and my job

is to provide religious support
to the entire air wing.

The Protestant service that I'm in
charge of is a contemporary praise

and worship service.

Is there any prayer
request tonight?

Uh, my sister-in-law...
Trying to adopt for a really

long time, and praying really
hard about it for a really

long time, and lots of
ups and downs with that.

But she finally got a baby...
It's all permanent.

She's a mother.

So praise God for
answered prayers.

♪ Now is the time to worship ♪

In reality, the job of a chaplain is
to protect the first amendment rights

for everybody.

And you start thinking about
all the different religious

faiths that are on board the
"Nimitz," and it's spectacular.

Thank you, Jesus.

Thank you, Jesus.

Thank you, Jesus.

We have three different types of
protestant faiths... I baptize you

in the name of the Father, the
Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Hallelujah!

Thank you, Lord!

Latter Day Saints, Catholic.

There's a small coven
of Wiccans on board.

The council of American witches
finds it necessary to define modern

witchcraft in terms of the
American experience and needs.

We do not want to open
ourselves to the destruction

of our group by those on
self-serving power trips.

Wicca is part of paganism, which is
the belief in many different Gods.

And it'll surprise people.

They're like, I thought all witches
wore black and were always unhappy.

We also believe in the rule
of three, which is, you put

good stuff out there, you'll
get it back threefold.

You put bad stuff out there,
you get it back threefold.

Kind of like karma.

I think I'm one of the only
Jews on the boat, maybe.

I found one more, and that's
only because I was lucky and

he happened to realize that
my name was a Jewish name.

That's why I don't like taking
communion because I don't think I've

been baptized;

I don't know if I have or not.

No, you're not supposed to take
it unless you're catholic, so...

I'm catholic!

Oh, you are?

Ok, then you had to be baptized.

But see, I don't know.

I don't think I was.

There is, your dad and ask him.

In the berthing areas, in the
workspaces, surprisingly a great deal

of discussion that goes on.

It might not be heavy, overt theological
language, but that's exactly what

they're doing.

Hey, was you ever at a muster when
the oho was like, "pray to God

we kill somebody"?

Oh, no.

And we was all looking
at him funny?

I guess it was his talk before
we got in the Gulf and stuff.

Trying to give us like,
inspiration, and he was like,

"let's kill whoever
we need to kill.

Let's do it with pride.

Remember, you're out
here defending America."

Then I thought about it.

It's like fifty percent of
America that's actually like

don't want us out here.

And I raised my hand and I said, "why
are you so big on killing people?"

And he was like, "well, people
in Iraq, they like, they

killed our men and the marines
that are out there right now,

they're cutting their heads
off, and they're taping it

and acting like everything's
all fun and things.

It's like, if they do anything
to us, I want to get back

at them three times harder."

Then he looked at everybody and he
was like, "are you guys with me?

Let's pray to God that
we kill somebody."

Occasionally, there are some who have
become aware of what seems to be

a conflict of conscience,
and that is something that

they want to talk about, and chaplains
are good people to do that with,

if from only one perspective
in that their conversation

with us is confidential.

I thank God for coming to the
Navy, because if I wouldn't have

come to the Navy, I'd
probably be dead, yeah.

I grew up in boot camp,
'cause before I went,

I was still a child, you
know, acting like a child.

I was out of High School though.

But I was still acting like a
child, gangs a stuff like that.

I was getting threats.

What really got my mom
is, I got jumped.

I got jumped by twenty dudes.

My mom is like, "yo, get
out of the house now.

You're going to a
recruiter right now.

You're signing up for whatever job they
got that's leaving out right now."

♪ Nobody wants to help me help me
paint the wall paint the wall ♪

The first time I saw Willie
Johnson, I said to myself,

"oh my gosh, he is so hot!"

I can't believe I
just said that!

♪ I could be all by myself
though talking to a girl

hanging with the homies but
now, I'm here working hard ♪

Once he, like, sings or whatever,
it just like melts you away.

♪ Getting paint all over my pants
who's gonna pay for my pants?

Nobody ♪

At first, he said he wanted
to be like, a stripper.

So I thought that was
like, kind of outrageous.

But then, like, after a
while, he was just like,

"well, I want to be a singer."

And I'm like, "OK, well, that's good,
'cause you have a good voice."

And then, like a couple of weeks later,
he was like, "well, you know what?

I want to sing for God."

♪ When I close my eyes and
I think of all those times

that you brought me through I
can never stop praising you ♪

before I came to the
Navy, I wasn't saved.

I knew about things of God.

You know, I went to
church all my life.

♪ God you're ready for
me and my family ♪

but I wasn't trying
to live right.

I was pushing God away.

God, get out of my face.

Man, I want to do my own thing.

♪ We lift our hands in the
sanctuary we lift our hands ♪

God spoke through my
friend, my boy Tate.

He's a choir director, the
one that plays piano.

He says, "all I see
is your spirit.

I don't see no bones, I don't see
no muscles, I don't see nothing."

He said, "all I see is your
spirit, and I see God just

knocking at your door,
asking you to come in.

Knocking."

Bow your heads.

Close your eyes.

Dear heavenly father, we ask you right
now to forgive us of every wrong

that we've done so far.

God delivered me from the club, he
delivered me from smoking, from porno.

You know what I'm saying?

I was hooked on it.

I ain't gonna sit here and
lie in front of all of you.

You know what I'm saying?

And whatever you do, don't take
your Holy spirit away from us.

I ain't no virgin.

But I don't want to burn for a
couple of minutes of fun, you know?

Ain't no girl on this earth
right now that could really

come upon me and be like, "yo,
Johnson, yo, let's go have sex!"

And would make me really be like,
"yeah, let's go, let's go right now!"

Right there, you know?

Bless every member on board from the
Captain to the lowest e-1, God...

There's no girl, 'cause the Bible
says, they drip with honey, their

words are slick with
oil, but they're poison.

I believe in God.

I believe that he's watching over
us and that he's keeping us safe.

I believe in myself, I
believe in my family,

and I believe in the good Lord.

You have faith in your knowledge
and in who you're flying with.

I don't fear anything
about flying.

I believe all things
happen for a reason.

And, uh, through my faith in God,
it's not something I think about.

And I think if you did think
about that, it would be,

it'd be very difficult to
do your job 100 percent.

My biggest fear up there
is the arresting wire.

I hate those things.

All by myself, actually standing
up there, and I'll think about

just the fact that I've made
it through part of the day,

and I'll start thinking about, you know,
all right, I've done good so far,

keep your head on a
swivel, stay up.

You know, not being even
very religious, I'll kind of

pray to myself that, you know,
nothing happens, you know,

with anybody on the flight deck.

And the phones are down.

And the phones are down.

And the phones are down.

Stay in touch with family and friends
using AT&T direct ocean service.

Yeah, whenever it... works.

Remember, I told you I called
her, and she was sleeping,

and she answered the phone,
and she was like, "hello?"

And she said, "did I call you?"

Yeah.

And I was like... and you know how I...
Wait a minute.

You know how I think too.

So I was like, hold on.

I was like hold up,
how would I call you?

You know I can't call you.

And I was like, "do you
even know who this is?"

And she said, "no."

That's just strange, 'cause
she's never been like that.

So I was like, "well, who've
you been calling all the time

that you would mistake,
you know, for me?"

I'm afraid Tanya's just...
Once the whole baby's over

and I come home, I'm just
afraid that she'll kind of

go and do her own thing again.

Well, it's probably my fault.

But right before I left,
before I even knew she

was pregnant, we were never
really like always together.

I didn't want it to come to the
point where I fell in love

and then had to leave
for six months.

You know, just because
of how hard it is.

I mean, it's horrible.

And then, you know,
"hey, I'm pregnant."

I care for her a whole lot,
and I want to be with her.

I don't know if I could say
I love her yet though.

♪ You are my friend I
know I can count you in ♪

Some days, the ship
just sucks you dry.

You feel like you have nothing.

But as long as you have like those two
good friends, it keeps you going.

♪ And it's you that gets
me through the day ♪

Me and my friends?

Oh, well, we start
it off by venting.

We always have to have
that vent session.

Kind of get everything out.

♪ It's you that makes
me feel this way ♪

and I need it ♪

My friendship with Dell,
my XO, it's a good one.

Dell and I are very similar.

We do a lot of the same things.

Our kids are the same age.

We both married girls
from High School.

He's great to have around.

He's a lot of fun.

He keeps me out of trouble.

♪ We're sailing out to
an ocean of mystery ♪

My friends are awesome.
I love my friends.

They're a lot like me, 'cause
most of them are southerners.

There isn't a better guy
in the Navy right here.

I have come to have more friends here
in the Navy than I had back home

because some of the stuff that
you're involved with back

home... everybody don't live a
perfect life, and I realize

that most of the friends
I have back home wasn't

really true friends at all.

I feel like I've known
Susan my whole life.

And the thing is, I've
never met Susan before.

She's been a true friend, and I...
I do have to say,

as far as the emotional side, Sue has
seen it, and I've also seen hers.

Tate, you know, that's
my brother in the Lord;

you know what I'm saying?

So that's my brother...
I tell him everything.

And my brother, he loves
me no matter what.

You know what I'm saying?

Even if I told God, "God, I don't
want to talk to you no more."

I mean, if I were to do my own thing,
he would still be there for me.

But that's a brother.

That's a real brother for you.

♪ It's you that helps me through the
day it's you that takes me far away

it's you that makes me feel
this way when I need it yeah ♪

Primary rule of foc'sle etiquette
is, you never step over

the anchor chain.

Please try to remember that.

That's a safety issue.

The foc'sle is an area in the ship
where the anchor chains come up out of

their lockers, and we get to
make it our chapel on Sundays.

But it is right underneath
the flight deck, and right

underneath catapult one and two.

We come to walk in the light of one
faith, in one communion of love.

So my sermon is frequently
peppered by an F-18, or

a Prowler being shot
down the catapult.

Please be seated.

We all accept that.

It doesn't startle
us too much anymore.

In those days, the Israelites
came down to the desert of Sinai

and pitched camp.

I have a strong
faith background.

I'm one of those
creationist people.

I'm not nutty about it.

I don't... I don't wear t-shirts
that say "walk for life" and walk

around town and do all
that other stuff.

But I have... I have
my personal beliefs.

I've been talking to
Father Keane lately.

He seems to think that I would
make a good catholic priest.

You want them all, but
you can't have them all.

Right.

If you were to become a priest, in the
Roman church, priests are celibate.

They're not married.

On the other hand, like many
people, you may wish to marry

and have a family.

Right.

Well, there's two very good things
that you might want, but they're

mutually exclusive.

Would that appeal to you?

No.

No, that's actually far away
from the life I expect to have.

I mean, I figure that the jewels I
have are meant to be used, you know?

Not just to sit idle, you know?

I mean, my parts all work
and they're good to go.

I mean, you know what I mean?

Did you do a functional
check last night?

A couple of times a day,
just to make sure, you know?

But I mean, besides the
unusual discharges I have,

and the rashes all over.

I mean...

I'm kidding about that.

Keep your volume up even though
the intonation goes down.

Ok, let me try that
one more time.

Mm-hmm.

I will await your return.

Like that?

I will await your return.

Father Keane's told me, in order to
become a priest, you have to work

on your voice.

'Cause you know, the way
I'm speaking right now is

the way I speak to anyone.

Very fast, very, you know,
laid back, very sans culottes.

So he told me that
you have to...

Project your voice
and deepen it.

Know that the Lord is God;

he made us.

His we are.

We hold these truths to be self-evident,
that all men are created equal.

You know, something like that,
like a James Earl Jones, almost.

This is a drill!

This is a drill!

General quarters,
general quarters!

All hands, man your
battle stations!

General quarters is like
the ship's under attack.

It's just a drill.

We over-practice it though.
That's the problem.

That is heavy.

That's a saw?

This is medical.

Head torch.

Ain't this for the jubilee
patch right here?

No, the jubilee's a big
ol' giant metal patch.

The jubilee patch is the most
exciting patch there is.

I know queen Elizabeth just
had her golden jubilee.

What is a door stop
doing in the bag?

That's not a door stop.
Oh, it's not a door stop?

Everybody else, keep your
mouth shut and listen up.

Fun's over with, OK?

If you think this is
funny, it's not funny.

You two guys come on up here.

I want you to walk through what
you're gonna do if you have

a pipe with a
two-inch crack in it.

Can you guys walk
me through a crack?

We met close to a year ago.

I was taking out trash one day.

Ironically, I was working
in the trash room and

I wouldn't accept his trash.

Phil said, "hey, we're not
taking plastics today."

'Cause I had a bag of plastics
I really had to get rid of.

And he just like threw it down
on the ground and left it.

And I walked away and he goes, "oh,
oh, petty officer! Petty officer!

He just left a bag of
plastic over there!"

And I kind of
disagreed with that.

I hear, "shipmate!

Get back here!

Excuse me, shipmate, you left
a bag of plastic over there

and we're not taking plastics 'til,
you know, for two more weeks!"

And I, he just bitched me out.

I grabbed the bag of plastic back.
You know, I went like this to Phil.

You know, flicked him off.

You have a two-inch crack.

Let's put something in it!

All right, so we'll find
the right size wedge.

About two weeks later, I
saw him on the flight deck

and he was talking to a friend
like, whispering, like,

"hey, you see that
guy over there?

He tried to dump a bag of
plastics on me the other day."

I walked, I said,
"you know what?"

And I started, you know, we
got into it a little bit,

and then we started laughing
about it, and we just kind of

became good friends after that.

'Cause we have, let's
say, a five-inch crack.

So a wedge might fit all
the way through it.

We're a lot alike
in a lot of ways.

He's almost the complete
opposite of me kind of.

Well, not complete opposite.

We both have like, problems
paying attention to things.

Hey, what am I gonna
do now, guys?

Hey, what am I gonna do after
I pull 'em out in that mark?

We're both very
sarcastic about things.

We're always making smart
comments and getting in trouble.

What other patch can I utilize?

Nicotine patch. Nicotine patch.

Nicotine.

What's that?

I believe in hard work.

Hard work gets you
where you need to be.

I believe in peace.
That's all I promote.

Peace and happiness.

I don't put my life in God's hands,
so to speak, every time I go flying.

I put my ass in the ejection seat
and my life in my own hands.

And I put a lot
of faith in that.

Being around secular people,
like, they're good people too.

They made me open my eyes and say,
"oh look, they're just like me."

And there goes, movie
stops, evening prayer.

Pause it so you don't
miss anything.

"Basic instinct."

And Sharon Stone and Michael
Douglas, it was in the middle

of this raunchy, uh, sex
scene, and it just interrupted

for evening prayer.

And you know, it comes on, "good
evening, my Nimitz family!

This is Brian Jacobson,
your air wing chaplain."

And we're thinking,
"what the...?"

Good evening, my Nimitz
family, this is your air

wing chaplain, Brian Jacobson.

God, it is often hard to get
adequate rest when the days

at sea are long and laborious.

I call upon you to grant those not...
I think evening prayer...

I don't think that's right.

I don't think they should do it.

I don't think it's right for the
people who are not religious.

It don't really
bother me that much.

It bothers me more in the sense
that it bothers other people.

One of my atheist friends who, every
time the prayer goes on, he gets

really mad and he says
something about it.

He's like, "why are they
forcing this upon me?"

Guard and guide all those who fly
through the great spaces in the sky.

I think it's an important
part of the evening.

I mean, even for a guy
that's not religious.

If you actually stop and just
stop for a couple of minutes

and listen to him, he's always
a real soothing voice, and he

just kind of calms you down.

Comfort them with
your loving presence.

Heal their bodies and
encourage their spirits.

I wouldn't say that I'm a
religious person, per Se.

I am not that religious.

No, I'm not religious.

Lord, it is nights like tonight that
we remember our families at home.

Sometimes, they send their
prayers out to like the

reactor department, and I'm
like, what, why would you send

a prayer out to just
one department?

It doesn't bother me...
Not in the least.

It just seems sometimes that, yeah,
this boat is mainly Christian.

Upon our flight ops this night.

Lord, you know that we have a mission
to carry out... do I think of

ourselves as Christian soldiers?

I, yeah, we are, in a way.

Do I think we're imposing
Christianity into the Middle

East, or anything like that?

Uh, no, I don't.

I think we're imposing our culture
more, which incorporates Christianity

but incorporates McDonald's
a little bit more.

We have been asked for
Islamic services.

We have some people, but we're
trying to get a lay leader,

an individual lay leader as an
individual to step forth and lead it.

The issue is that in many
religious traditions,

they're not accustomed to lay
persons leading worship.

Well, it's the chaplain's job to
make sure that I conduct the service

in the way of a lay leader.

I have to make sure that I
distinguish the difference

between teaching and preaching.

And the Bible switches very swiftly,
and it goes down in verse 25

to a whole different scenario and it's...
I'm a-b-h-a-m brown.

I'm appointed lay leader.

I represent my church body,
the Pentecostal service on

board the ship every
Sunday at 1500.

Then the Bible said that there was
a woman that had an issue of blood

for twelve years.

And the thing with the book of
Leviticus 15:25, and it says

that if a woman had an issue
of blood, she was clean and

she was supposed to be away from people,
according to the Levitical law.

So the thing she realized is that she
knew the law, and she said, "I can't

touch him physically
because I'm unclean.

But if I could just touch the hem of
his garment, I could pull virtue."

God is saying, "I want people
that's going to press for me."

She said, "if I could just
touch the hem of his garment."

How many people that believe
that mentality... if I could

just touch the hem of his
garment, I will be made whole?

God is looking for garment
touchers, because when you

press after God, you begin to
search for something from God.

The Bible says he turned around,
and he said, "who touched me?"

And then the disciples were like,
"Jesus, what's wrong with you?

You got so many people
around you," huh?

"People are thronged
around you," huh!

"People are touching
you all over," huh!

"But you're talking about
one particular touch," huh!

So when you begin to seek God, huh,
you begin to realize what worship is.

You got the power to excel.

You got the power to leap.

You got the power to fight.

But God say your action, your action
speaks louder than your words.

♪ Christ the Savior I
surrender it all ♪

A lot of people become depressed at
times because six months of their life

is away from their family.

It's like they're missing a
part of life for six months.

That's why we come and we
praise God in this way that we

do, because it's a way to
give us hope and help give us

strength for what is to come.

In the name of Jesus
Christ we pray, amen.

I'm kind of nervous about leaving,
but I'm definitely looking forward

to it.

I'm going to be out of the Navy.

Umm, it smells good in here.

I'm only 22.

So four years is a pretty
big chunk in my life.

Hi.

Hello.

I'm here to sign my... I'm
out on the 5th of October.

Just... I'm "finito". No more.

What kind of a
discharge did I get?

Honorable.

Honorable.

I think that's the discharge
that everybody aims for.

You do your four years, you
do, but some people don't.

Yeah, I'm surprised I made
it four years, actually.

It's one of the happiest
days of my life.

It feels like a huge boulder
is just taken off of my chest

and my shoulders, and my head
and the rest of my body.

Like I was almost under a
rock for the past four years.

You don't want to stick in for
just a little bit longer?

You're gonna miss Brisbane.

I'm so sick and tired... You're
gonna see Perth for like a day.

I'm so full of the Navy, dude,
I cannot stand any more.

Why are you putting
on a tie with it?

Let's see... Looks good, man.

Looking ridiculous... I
mean, you're going back

to see your friends, all right.

What are you wearing
all that get-up for?

I want to look nice!

For what, though?

For the main event.

What main event?

Me coming back to San Diego.

Who's gonna be there
to greet you?

Eh, Tye and family, or his family, and...
That's about it.

This is a drill.

Looks like those Brady bunch's
countertop color, in their kitchen.

You kinda look like Alice
a little bit... Alice?

The housekeeper?

With that hair...
Need a little flip.

I still say you should stay
for another month, you know.

I know, I know!

Now I don't have a... Like
I'm really from the fifties.

I guess.

Hey, you still got the butterflies
in your stomach about leaving?

They're starting to go away.

I'm starting to realize that I'm
gonna be fine when I get out there.

People are leaving like...
I've worked in the civilian

world, it's no joke.

You know what I mean?

I mean, I'm 23... most of the
people that say that, they're like

first class chiefs.

They've came in when
they were like 17.

Yeah, and they've been
in for, like, 30 years.

So how the hell are
they gonna know?

I worked at a hospital for seven years.
It wasn't that hard to get a job,

you know, and support myself.

Yeah.

So what do you think, man?

Yeah, that looks a
lot better, man.

It looks a lot better.

Would it look better
tucked in, though?

Why do you tuck it in
all the time, anyways?

Because my parents made me do that
when I went to school every day.

So did mine, but I
obviously grew out of it.

Became a rebel and
stopped doing it.

I cannot. I just... As
soon as I put a shirt on,

I'm like, man, I've
got to tuck that in.

I look terrible without it, or,
you know, with it untucked.

I hate that, dude.

I have a whole untucked series.

Christian Garzone untucked.

What are you going to do, interview
people with your shirt untucked?

Yeah.

Whoa, I need one of those.

Yeah, it's like Christmas
all over again.

That's awesome.

Send you all of those
chewy Werther's?

What? Those are chewy Werther's.

Oh,.

You got to give me
like a handful, man.

Ohhhh... Gold.

Gold. Jumbo cashews.

Jews love... Jews love cashews.
Yes, Jews love cashews.

It makes a gigantic
difference when you're in the

military, and you find someone,
a friend, that you can tell him

things that you wouldn't
tell other people.

Dude, I got dust all over me.

From those... Yeah.

I can feel it on my skin, man.

They stay by you, even when
you're at your lowest.

And, you know, in exchange,
I'm gonna be there to help

him... just because, I mean,
he's such a good person.

We're going to leave real
early in the morning,

and we're going to go
check in to a room.

Probably eat some lunch, drink a
little bit, and then we're gonna go

straight to the gravity games.

Yeah, you're going to
love gravity games.

In Australia.

Even though it's not one of our
favorite bands... Yeah, we're going

to have a good time.

That's going to be awesome.

Tomorrow, while I'm on
duty, I'm either going to

call Tanya from the boat, or I
might just wait until we get

to the hotel, 'cause I do
have that calling card,

with all the thirty hours
for sixteen bucks.

Everyone's talking about how
big Australia is going to be.

Saying it's going to be biblical,
and I can only imagine the

I'll see there.

But, at that point,
what the hell do I got?

Three, four weeks left?

I don't even look
at porn anymore.

It just, it kills me.

It's been so long.

Being in the military makes you
so patriotic and thankful for our

country... seeing other
countries and how other people

live, and how good we have it
in America makes you totally

patriotic, more than anything.

You know, I've always, since I was
little, just looked up at the flag.

Felt strongly.

I think the Monday night that I get
back, I'm going to go to Hooters

and watch the game.

Maybe enjoy like a pitcher
of beer or something.

Yeah?

Yeah, I'm looking forward to it.

Hey, I bet they've got a
lot of trash at Hooters.

Speaking of which, wanna
help me take out trash?

Uh... I've got to go
back there anyways.

You want to help me
take a couple bags?

Yeah... eh... I'm... I've got
three days left in the Navy.

Oh come on, man.

It's just quick.

And here I am, taking
out trash with you.

So what, man?

Be like old times. All
right, let's do it.

You didn't tell me you got the
whole trash trip back here.

You take the dunnage,
I'll take the flat.

Hold on, I got to get
the trash holder.

Is it separated?
That's just dunnage.

That just... all
goes in one bag.

What Cd is this? I don't
know what Cd it is.

Really have no idea.

All I want is just get
the trash inside of it.

All right. Is this
the only bag then?

That's... yeah, I guess.

Oh, man.

But in the name of Jesus, o God,
bless the war in Iraq, o God,

in Iran, o God.

The war against
terrorism, o God.

Lord, in the name of Jesus,
the innocent people that we

have over there in our armed forces
that are dying, vainly, o God.

We have like a little
prayer group together.

When we get there, we
pray, we read the Bible.

I find that it's very helpful.

Majority of the ship
is like atheist.

Lot of people, they
have no morals.

No sign of God.

Majority.

I grew up pretty hard.

That's the reason I'm here now.

My family is eating
well, you know.

Me and my wife came from nothing...
We met in a homeless shelter...

To now.

What we're doing in other countries...
Bombing Iraq,

things like that, it kinda
makes me feel like I'm going

against my own morals.

We're no better than
those other countries.

We got just as much murders, just as
much raping, killing, hate crimes.

My opinion is president Bush uses
God just to make himself look good.

Heard the Bible say, ha.

That joy, huh, comes
in the morning, huh.

Let somebody clap your hands in here,
and give God some praise, huh.

Tell your neighbor, huh.

I'm going higher, huh.

Take me higher, huh.

I might as well preach, huh.

I'm about to bring you out, huh.

With a new annointing, huh.

In the middle of the storm.

Clap your hands.

Clap your hands.

But you know, when I come out,
I'm not going to come out alone.

I'm going to bring
my sister with me.

You come out, I come out
along with you, huh.

If I have to push you
through it, huh.

You comin' out along with me.

Touchin' everythin', bring
somebody else out along with you.

Break, Ta-DA-DA-dum.

Break it right down.

She's breaking right now.

Oh, break it right now
in the name of Jesus.

Break it right now in the name of...
Oh, sha-DA-DA sha-DA-DA.

You better break it
in the name of Jesus.

You better break it in the name
of everything that's Holy.

♪ Blessed savior I surrender... ♪

If you're used to growing up in a
Pentecostal church, when you feel God

in the midst, you just want to
get excited because he's there.

If you grew up like that, that's
how you know to worship God.

They don't want people looking
at them like they're crazy

or something is wrong, and
they need to go to medical.

It's like you feel the spirit
of God just flowing into you.

It's so spiritual.

It feels so great, because
like, you're just relieving

all of your troubles, all of your
pain, and you're just giving it

to God, saying, "here, I
don't want it anymore.

Like, I don't want to
fight this battle."

Some people, they felt like
they were just floating on air.

♪ Hallelujah ♪

it's a good way to relieve all your
troubles that you're going through.

Our father.

If you're happy about Jesus,
clap your hands right here.

Sucks that you're going, bro.

Trust me, you can
live without me.

You know how I'm taking
on that manager job?

Like everything I think of, for the
band, I like write down in here.

Oh, that's pretty slick, dude.

Yeah.

This is gold right now.

Worth it?

Yeah.

You ever see this book?

"The golden rule of schmoozing"?

Schmoozing?

Yeah.

As in kissing?

No, like schmoozing people.

Like, like talking to them,
like schmoozing them, like...

Like making them... Kind
of manipulating them.

So that's what you're
doing to me right now.

I got nobody to punk
out with anymore.

To punk out with?

You know what I mean.

Kick back, play the
guitar, write music.

You can write music,
with Garzone.

God!

Should hang out
with him in Perth.

He's going to need a
buddy since I'm leaving.

Yeah.

♪ Take one step back from everything
we could walk together we could step

into the sun shooting stars are
multiplying new worlds have just begun

yeah, we could take forever
we could step into the sun

and who knows what
tomorrow's gonna bring?

Just soak up every minute and
our time will surely come

like fireflies returning to
the star we all came from

yeah, we could meet ♪

did you get one these right
when you walked off?

Yeah, we always got this stuff.

At some point, I got to call Tanya
and my mom and... ♪ we could step

into the sun we could
step into the sun ♪

U.S. Navy.

Woo!

We're the Australian Navy!

Woo!

We just did... We just did
like a 35-day stretch, dude.

So this is the first time
we drink in 35 days.

Are you serious?

Yeah, we just came... We just came
from the Persian Gulf over there.

Is it true you guys get to
drink on the ships, though?

Yeah, we do, yeah.

Two cans per day per man.

That's after we've
finished work.

Two beers a day?

Two beers a day, mate.

That'd keep... That'd be
enough to keep me happy.

You guys haven't been around
South America yet, have you?

Uh... Taiwan.

Rio is insane, dude.

The strippers... they were going at it...
Like, by the end of the night

on the tables and stuff.

Chronical.

Oh, it was bad.

Chronical, I guess.

Yeah, chronical.

Phew!

We should just finish a
couple more rounds and go!

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Christian Garzone in for
naval confessions, here

in beautiful downtown
Perth, Australia.

We're going to see everything
that Perth has to offer,

in terms of architectural
beauty, cultural beauty.

Hopefully run into
a few aboriginals.

Your country's foreign policies,
I think, are atrocious.

And now, I think, unfortunately,
ours are now following

that same path, which is hideous
because we're antagonizing

a country which is like ridiculously
close to us, and they hate us.

Obviously, there was a massive
bombing in Bali again.

Injured and maimed and killed.

But we need to be a little more sensible
with that, and not ally ourselves

with people that are
actually very far away.

As Australians, we're
lovers, not fighters.

Exactly. I've noticed that.

So dingoes do not
lay eggs, right?

No?

Oh!

Wrap your as right around him...
Just hold him like holding a baby.

Both arms together.

Oh, she looks
thrilled to be here.

Wow, so what time do
you get off tonight?

Are you serious?

What time do you get off?

I get off at twelve o'clock.

Ooh, that's the time I got
to be back at the ship.

I'll see you later then.

Ok, catch ya.

Bye, bye. Catch you later.

This is like Bourbon
Street, man.

The way I stay ashore is, I stay
in my word, and on top of that,

I know the consequences.

When God comes back, I'm
trying to go out with him.

I'm not trying to, God comes
back to snatch up his people

and there I am, stuck, looking like,
"'damn, I missed the rapture!"

What's up, ladies? How you doing?
What's up?

I'm Will. How you doing? Hi.

I'm Will. How you doing?
I'm Will.

Hello. How you doing?

We're here in Perth,
Australia, and we're saying

goodbye to a very close friend,
someone who has been a part of

the naval confession series
for, I think, two films now.

Maybe three.

Uh, Philip Mager.

Wow, man, this guy's cool, I'm cool;
Together, we make an awesome team.

Like Laurel and Hardy.

Phil is my best friend on
the ship, and he's leaving.

I'm, uh, trying to find
the tears for the camera,

but they're just not coming.

It's been my pleasure
with working with you.

I mean, wow, so much I've
learned, so much I have to

learn, so much you
haven't taught me.

Tonight, we're just gonna
say goodbye to him,

we're gonna have a few drinks,
and maybe hit up a casino or so.

But, uh, tonight
is Phil's night.

Thanks, man.

Don't even act like you
were gonna do that first,

'cause I, as soon as I started
pulling back, you're like, "oh, !"

It's been good, man.

We were saying our goodbyes in
the bar, and Phil's like, "yeah,

I have to go to the bathroom.

I'll be right back, guys."

Oh, damn it, man.

And we waited for about ten minutes,
and some other gentleman came over

and said, "Mr. Mager has
gone to the casino.

He'll be back momentarily."

So we waited for another like, half
hour, and then, we went to the casino,

to the poker tables, to look for
him, and he had just vanished.

He was gone.

We might as well fly a black
flag for him because, I mean,

no one's heard from him.

I mean, he's just gone from the
face of the earth, I guess.

Like Jimmy Hoffa.

You ditched me. I
did not ditch you.

Yeah, we'll talk
about this later.

I was gonna Jimmy superfly you.

We're... We'll talk
about this later.

No, no, no, no, no. I'm unhappy.

We only got down from the...
Look at this thing, man.

We're not.

Look at that thing.

We're not happy right now.

We're still re-creating
yesterday.

First of all is a Verdelho, 2005,
from our Market River region.

A Verdelho, on the nose,
yep, tropical fruits.

And this is a dry-style Verdelho
that can be made sweet.

Good. Umm.

Nice.

That's really good.

And I'm not a white wine guy.

Ok.

You need to know that.

Our Verdelhos... She doesn't
really need to know that.

I mean, she really doesn't care.

It's Chardonnay.

So it's got that lovely
buttery, warm toasty character.

You promise?

'Cause I know buttery.

Ok, so what do you think?

Fully fermented in new
French grape barrels.

This one might be a hit. It's
our 2003 premium Shiraz.

This one spends ten months
in American oak barrels.

Your mission accomplishment far,
far exceeds and because your

professionalism... Are you
guys gonna make love?

No.

'Cause I want to watch.

I mean, we might.

You got to carry it.

Don't do that. I
don't, uh, think so.

There's uh, I think we
need to talk about the uh,

what's interesting to me is...

This is Nat.

Met her at the, uh, at the...
At the bar.

Bar Bedazzles.

My boys is at the bar so they was
there drinking, I was there drinking.

But I stole him.

Yeah, she kinda stole me.

I was like, "first of
all, how old are you?"

'Cause you know, these girls
be young, lying about their

age, so I had to card her.

I had to ask her for her I.D.

You know, 'cause I, you got to be
sure; You know what I'm saying?

She goin' to the club.

I'm gonna head on
back to my boat.

At twelve?

I know, twelve, yeah, right.

But I'm gonna head
on back to my boat.

Play it safe 'cause you know...
Whatever she says.

Having a holiday, that's just like going...
Forget about the women and the

fun and the music and the...
She's crazy.

You know, I'm trying to
make it to San Diego.

How long has it been
since you had some fun?

Yo, it's work, work,
work, work, work.

Work, work, work, work, work.

Would it be worth it to make
Willie stay later than midnight?

Hang out and go
dancing and have fun?

You think that'd be
worth it for him?

Well, it depends what the
punishment's like these days.

Stuff fell down; you
know what I'm saying?

I slipped and fell.

I was playing in the
devil's territory.

And I lost. I lost the battle.

She started kissing me.

She started kissing
my spot on my neck.

Once she did that, oh man,
it was, it was all over.

All over.

♪ Dark night of my soul I've been
faced with many choices in my life

and I have known I've known the
misery the misery I have mistaken

I have mistaken, mistaken shadowy
voices yeah for the heavenly

heavenly heavenly the heavenly
ministry oh on the dark night yeah

of my soul why don't
you help me out? ♪

She comes up to me, she's
like, "hey, buy me a drink!"

I look at her like,
"I ain't buying..."

I'm telling her, no, I'm
not buying you nothing.

So she walks away and then,
my boys look at me like,

"man, what you...
what you doing?

Why didn't you buy her a drink?"

And I said, "what
does it look like?"

I am not no Willie foo
foo rif Raf punk dude.

I ain't gonna buy
no chick nothing.

So then, baby girl comes back.

And she's like, "let's go."

Next thing you know, me and her
get up, we leave, I leave.

I know what I... I know
what's gonna go down.

But I figured I, OK, yo,
I'm just gonna go ahead

and play with this and
see how far it can go.

And you know, she took me to this
place called Black Swan Lake.

And she's kissing... It's
just a Lake where a bunch

of black swans go, go there,
I guess during the winter.

Black swans... I ain't never seen
them until I saw the card...

Really black swans.

So uh, we go there.

Next thing you know,
baby kisses me.

Use your imagination
on that part, bro.

Hibbidy dibbidy.

Afterwards, I felt like, like,
like I felt so bad, dude.

I felt like, it felt like, like...
Like I went away.

Yeah.

I felt, I felt... He's like,
come on man, "I felt so bad!"

Oh, shut up!

How can you honestly
say that, man?

"I think I hurt her feelings."

Are you sensitive?

Check this out!

So I just start
spilling out to her.

Like oh man, I'm a Christian,
and I just fornicated!

I just went against God, and
I just sinned, and oh God.

I just start tripping out.

So uh... well, I wouldn't
preach to you as, you know,

no preacher or your father.

But I am here to let you know
that people are watching you.

Like, wait a minute, Johnson sings
up in a choir, Johnson be doing this

and Johnson be doing that.

But he's there with this girl.

So that's hypocritical.

And it... it leaves a stain.

You really zealous right now,
so everybody looking at you

like, "oh man, he talking
about God all the time."

Your example just gonna speak
louder than your word.

Yeah.

But the best thing about it is, I got
back up and I repented; You know

what I'm sayin'?

For my sins, I asked
God for forgiveness;

you know what I'm saying?

And God is a loving God.

So my sin's been wiped away.

♪ I tell you one more time just hold
out your hand and God will understand

that I'm searching for
my way back home ♪

you doing all right?

I'm doing real good, but I'm
getting over Australia, you know?

I told my mom about Australia.

I know, I know, but
are you over it?

Oh yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah.

My boys found out.

So you know, they
kind of hopped on me.

You know what I'm saying?

Aw... see, my mom's a
mighty woman of God.

So I told her.

She was just like, "yo baby
boy, don't let yourself get

in that predicament no more.

Repent, and then don't let yourself
get in that predicament no more."

So I just won't let myself get
in that predicament no more.

You know what I'm saying? So
I just got to watch myself.

♪ Just a digit and I'm almost
done there's a party somewhere

the melting soldiers
like paraffin ♪

We ask that you watch over
those who are firing,

to keep them safe and
help them shoot straight.

Lord, today has been a good day.

Accept our prayer, our
praise and our worship.

♪ 'Cause I am chasing strange and I
will rearrange to be a part of every

change that you make ♪

Blessed be your name in our
hearts, and on our tongues,

both now and forever, amen.

Good night, team Nimitz.

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