Buffy the Vampire Slayer (1996–2003): Season 3, Episode 10 - Amends - full transcript

The curse. If angel achieved true
happiness, even just a moment of...

Aah!

He would lose his soul.

Previously on

this is it...
The curse.

- What are you saying?
- I may be able to work this.

Buffy: Willow cured him,
and somehow he came back.

He must have known it was wrong, or he
wouldn't have hidden it from all of us.

- I just wanted to wait.
- For angel to go psycho again...

The next time you
give him a happy?

♪ All is calm ♪



♪ All is bright ♪

♪ Round yon virgin ♪

- ♪ Mother and child ♪
- watch it, son.

Daniel.

Where were you going?

You... you're not
human.

Not of late, no.

Wh... what do
you want?

Well, it happens that
I'm hungry, Daniel,

and seeing as that you're
somewhat in me debt...

Please, I can't.

A man playing at cards

should have
a natural intelligence

or a great deal of money, and
you're sadly lacking in both.



So I take me winnings
me own way.

The lord is my Shepherd.

I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down
in green pastures...

Daniel, be of good cheer.

It's Christmas.

It's gonna be sunny and warm
with temperatures continuing

in the high 70s throughout
the holiday weekend.

♪ Remember Christ our savior
was born on Christmas day ♪

♪ To save us all
from Satan's power ♪

- ♪ When we had gone astray ♪
- merry Christmas.

♪ Oh, tidings
of comfort and joy ♪

Hi.

Angel.

So, are you shopping?

You're probably not shopping.

I couldn't sleep.

Vampires probably not that big on
Christmas, now that I think about it.

Not as a rule.

But you're good?

I... I'm all right. You?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'm good.

I was just getting some
Christmas gifts for the gang.

Um, I'd better go before
the magic store closes.

Angel?

What is it?

And then he just bailed.

He didn't say anything.
He just took off.

It was so weird.

Angel? Weird?

What are the odds?

Do you think
something's wrong?

Maybe you should
tell Giles.

No. I don't wanna
bug Giles.

He's still kinda twitchy when it
comes to the subject of angel.

Well, it must be that whole "angel killed
his girlfriend and tortured her" thing.

Giles is pretty petty when
it comes to stuff like that.

Xander, enough, okay?

Maybe angel just has
the holiday blues.

Everybody gets them,
especially when they're alone.

It's just so
frustrating.

I'm trying to do the right
thing and stay away from him

and get over it, and
then boom, there he is.

I just want a nice,
quiet Christmas vacation.

Xander: So, you doing
anything special?

Buffy: Tree. Nog.
Roast beast.

Just me and mom

and hopefully
an excess of gifts.

What are you doing
for Christmas?

Being Jewish.
Remember, people?

Not everybody
worships Santa.

I just meant
for vacation.

Nothing fun.

Oz and I had planned...
But I guess that's off.

Well, I'll be enjoying

my annual Christmas
Eve camp-out.

See, I take
my sleeping bag outside

and I go to sleep
on the grass.

Buffy: Sounds fun.

Yeah, I like to look at
the stars, you know?

Feel the whole
nature vibe.

I thought you slept outside

to avoid your family's
drunken Christmas fights.

Yes, and that was a
confidence I was hoping

you would share
with everyone.

Well, I'll be
in Aspen skiing,

with actual snow.

I hear that helps.

It must be a drag to be
stuck here in sweatydale,

but I'm thinking of you.

OK, I'm not.

She certainly has
reverted to form.

It's not her fault.

After what happened, we
gotta cut her some slack.

That's the Christmas
spirit.

Hello, still Jewish.

Chanukah spirit,
I believe that was?

Anyway, forgiveness is pretty much
a big theme with me this year

'cause of the...

Hey.

Hey.

OK. The thing is...

Seeing you with Xander,
it was...

I've never felt
that way before

when it wasn't
a full moon,

but I know you guys
have a history.

But it's a history
that's in the past.

Well, i... i guess most
history is in the past.

But it's over.

Well, I don't know.

I don't know that it ever
will be between you two.

Oz, please believe me.

This is what I do know.

I miss you...

Like, every second.

It's like I lost an arm
or worse, a torso.

So, I think I'd be willing
to give it a shot.

Really?

Yeah.

Do you want us to...
To hug now?

Yeah, I'm good for that.

Do you wanna get one
with snow on it?

It'd be very christmasy.

I think those are
just for display.

Oh. You know, honey,
I was thinking

maybe we should invite faith to
spend Christmas Eve with us.

I don't know.

Faith and I don't
really hang out

or talk or make
eye contact lately.

Do you really wanna
let her spend Christmas Eve

all by herself in that
dingy little motel room?

You're still number one
with a guilt trip, mom.

I try.

I'll ask her.

You're a doll.

What about Giles? He
doesn't have any fam...

No, I'm sure he's fine.

We could
at least ask him.

He doesn't wanna spend Christmas
Eve with a bunch of girls.

Let's split up.

Bunch of them up
and died on us.

Don't know why.

If you want one, I can
make you a hell of a deal.

No, thank you.

Joyce: Oh, honey,
this one's perfect.

Merry Christmas...
Yeah?

Happy new year...

- Hey, what's up?
- God bless us.

Work, damn it!

Hey.

What's going on?

Scary monsters?

No.

We're having Christmas
Eve dinner at my house,

and I thought that if
you didn't have plans...

Your mom sent you down, huh?

No.

Well, thanks,
but I got plans.

There's this big party
I've been invited to.

It should be a blast.

OK, cool.

But if you change
your mind, the offer...

That's nice of you. Thanks.

But I got... i got
that big party

that I've been
invited to, so...

I like the lights.

Yeah. Well, 'tis the season,

whatever that means.

Just a minute.

Hello.

Um...

I'm sorry
to bother you.

Sorry. Coming from you

that phrase strikes me
as rather funny.

Sorry to bother me.

I need your help.

And the funny
keeps on coming.

I understand. I have
no right to ask for it,

but there's no one else.

All right.

I... i can't come in
unless you invite me.

I'm aware of that.

Come in.

I've been seeing...

I've had... I've had
dreams lately

about the past.

It's like
I'm living it again.

It's so vivid, I...

I need to know.

I need to know
why I'm here.

Here... Back on earth?

I should be in
a demon dimension

suffering an eternity
of torture.

I don't feel particularly
inclined to argue with that.

But I'm not.

I was freed,

and I don't
understand why.

Knowing why you were back
would give you peace of mind?

It might.

You think that's something
you ought to have?

Because, sir, to be blunt,

the last time you became
complacent about your existence

turned out rather badly.

What?

There.

Don't you see her?

Who?

I can't!

Sir, please, I should
return to the party.

Margaret, Margaret,
there's no hurry.

Mistress will
be wondering...

Shh. The mistress will be
wondering how to get

the good reverend chalmers
into bed

and will not notice
the absence of canapés.

Stay with me.

Sir, people might talk.

I'll be put out
in the streets.

My little boy would...

I can't lose this job.

Then you best keep quiet.

You're hurting me.

Cry out.
Call for help.

I'm sure mistress will believe
your behavior beyond reproach.

Please.

Come, make a scene, huh?

Shall I?

No.

No, no.

We'll be as quiet as mice.

No matter what.

Sir!

My son!

He'll make a fine dessert.

Trouble sleeping?

You're not here.

I'm always here.

Leave me alone.

I can't. You won't let me.

What do you want?

I want to die in bed surrounded
by fat grandchildren,

but guess that's
off the menu.

I'm sorry.

You're sorry?

For me?

Don't bother.
I'm dead.

I'm over it.

If you wanna feel
sorry for someone,

you should feel sorry
for yourself.

Oh, but I guess you've
already got that covered.

I am sorry...
For what I've done.

What else can I say
to you?

I don't wanna
make you feel bad.

I just want to show
you who you are.

You had a dream
about angel.

I was in angel's dream.

I'm not sure...

Giles, there was stuff
in this dream

that I couldn't possibly
know about.

It was angel's past.

He was dreaming it, and
somehow I got sucked in.

There's something
wrong with him.

I know. I've seen him.

He wanted to know
why he was back.

Is there a way for us
to find that out?

Possibly. I've been looking.

Well, let me look, too.

I'm not seeing him
anymore.

I'm trying to put
all this behind me,

and I'm not gonna
be able to

as long as we're both doing guest
spots in each other's dreams.

So we'll help him?

Yes.

Where do we start?

Look, I'm aware I haven't been
the mostest best friend to you

when it comes to the whole
angel thing.

And I don't know. Maybe I finally
got the Chanukah spirit.

Well, we start,
not surprisingly, with research.

Xander,
the black chronicles.

And, Buffy, the diary
of Lucious temple.

An acolyte of acathla,
expert on demons.

You can skip the passages
on his garden

unless you're keen on growing
heartier beets.

Are you sure
this is how

you wanna spend your
Christmas vacation?

Yeah, this is actually
the most exciting thing

I've got planned.

Who else can claim that
pathetic a social life?

Hey, guys.
What are we doing?

He's gonna come over
on Christmas Eve

'cause my parents
are out of town.

We're gonna watch videos.

That's good, right?

You guys are back.

It's good.

It's perfect, in an awkward,
uncomfortable sort of way.

I just don't know how
to make oz trust me.

Xander has
a piece of you

that oz just
can't touch.

I guess now it's just about
showing oz that he comes first.

I guess.

Thanks.

Hey, he likes beets.

I read that one already.

We're not getting
any closer.

The thing I
remember most

was thinking how
artful it was.

In the dark, they looked
just like they were sleeping.

It wasn't until I bent down
and kissed them good night

that I felt how cold
they were.

You grabbed me, and I thought,
who would go to so much trouble

to arrange them like that?

But you see,

that's what makes you
different than other beasts.

They kill to feed, but you took
more kinds of pleasure in it

than any creature
that walks or crawls.

Oh, god.

Yeah, cry out.

Make a scene.

I was to be married
that week,

but then, as I recall,
you knew that.

It wasn't me.

It wasn't you?

A demon isn't a man.
I was a man once.

Oh, yes, and what
a man you were.

A drunken, whoring
layabout,

and a terrible disappointment
to your parents.

I was young.

I never had a chance to...

To die of syphilis?

You were
a worthless being

before you were
ever a monster.

Stop it!

Stop.

I don't wanna
hurt you, angel,

but you have
to understand.

Cruelty's the only thing

you ever had
a true talent for.

That's not true.

Shh. Rest.

Rest.

You mistake it
for a curse, angel,

but it's not.

It's your destiny.

I'll show you.

I'll show you.

You want her?

No.

Take her.

Take what you want.

Pour all that frustration and
all that guilt into her,

and you'll be free.

No.

You can't live for eternity
with all that pain.

This is what you are.

This is why
we brought you back.

Take her.

And then you'll be ready...

To kill her.

Here, Buffy.

Take a look.

These letters
contain references

to an ancient power
known as the first.

First what?

Evil. Absolute evil,

older than man,
than demons.

It could have had the power
to bring angel back.

These guys... i saw them
in my dream.

I fell asleep up there.

You had another dream
with angel?

What happened?

Oh, we don't need
to get sidetracked.

Who are these guys?

Well, they're known
as the...

As the bringers
or harbingers.

They're high priests
of the first.

They... they can conjure
spirit manifestations

and set them on people

to influence them,
haunt them.

These are the guys working
the mojo on angel?

Xander: We gotta
stop them.

Y... you can't fight
the first, Buffy.

It's not a physical being.

Well, i... i can fight
these priest guys.

If we can find 'em.

Willy: Hey.

It's the slayer.

What brings the slayer
down here?

Hey, Willy, how you been?

Keeping out of trouble,
as god is my witness.

So, what can I do for you?

Couple of drinks?

Yeah. Let me get
a double shot of...

Of information, pal.

3 priests. They
call themselves...

The bringers.

Bringers,
harbingers.

They have a "no
eyes" kind of look.

Doesn't ring a bell.

How about I ring
that bell for you?

Does the threatening
come now?

Maybe you
shouldn't help.

They would've come
to town recently.

They'd be holed up
somewhere

summoning the spirit
of the first.

Well, I heard a few things, you
know, from the underground.

The underground?

Yeah, you know. From things
that live under the ground.

Apparently there's been a lot
of migration out of sunnydale

from the lower inhabitants.
Something's scaring them off,

and these are things that
aren't easily scared.

Could be your priest guys
are underground.

Underground where?

I do not know.

OK.

Thanks.

See you around.

Hey. You did great,
by the way.

I was very intimidated by you.

Really?

Thanks.

Let's go.

Hey, kid?

Merry Christmas.

Man, is it hot.

It was so nice
and cool in there.

Yeah, a nice cool waste
of time.

We know underground.
That's a start.

Sure, in a town

with 14 million
square miles of sewer.

Plus a lot of natural
cave formations

and a gateway to hell.

Yeah, this does
resemble square one.

I don't know what to do.

I think right now
the best plan is

to deck the halls
with boughs of Holly.

Look, we'll find
the bad guys

sooner or later.

Willow?

I got videos.

Hi.

Why don't you come
s... sit down?

♪ I've heard people say that ♪

♪ Too much of anything
is not good for you, baby ♪

You ever have that dream
where you're in a play,

and it's the middle of the play,
and you don't know your lines,

and you kind of
don't know the plot?

Well, we're alone,

and we're together.

I... i just wanted it
to be special.

How special
are we talking?

Well, you know, we're alone,

and we're both mature
younger people,

and... and so we... we could...

I... I'm ready to... W... with you.

We could do that thing.

♪ I can't get enough
of your love, babe ♪

Where are you going?

No, I'm not going.
Just a dramatic gesture.

That's... that's
pretty special.

Oz, i... i wanna be
with you first.

I think we should
sit down again.

Oz?

I'm ready.

OK. Well, don't take
this the wrong way...

But... I'm not.

Are you scared,
'cause I thought you had...

I have, but this
is different.

I mean, you look
great, you know.

And... and you got the
Barry working for you,

and it's all...

Good.

But when it happens...

I want it to be
because we both

need it too for
the same reason.

You don't have to
prove anything to me.

I just wanted you to know.

I know.

I get the message.

There we go.

Nothing like
a roaring fire

to keep away
the blistering heat.

Oh, come on.
It's lovely.

Maybe I should turn
the air conditioning on.

So, angel's on top again?

What?

Angel or star?

Oh, uh...

Star.

Star.

Hey.

Hi.

Uh, looked like
that whole party thing

was gonna be
kind of a drag.

I didn't really
have anything...

You know.

I'm glad you came.

Uh... Here.

Why don't you come in

from the entire
lack of cold?

Mm.

Uh, that one
is for your mom.

They're pretty crappy.

Faith, you made it.

Oh, that is so thoughtful.

They're crappy.

You know, I'm gonna go
upstairs and get your gifts.

Excuse me.

Uh, would you like
some nog?

OK, mom, don't touch
yours, though,

'cause then you're
gonna know what it is.

Angel.

Huh...

Buffy.

What is it?

Uh...

I gotta... i...

Look, I, uh,
I had to see you, um...

I don't know, I...

You shouldn't be...

Just tell me
what's going on.

She wants you to touch her.

What are you waiting for?

You have to stay away
from me.

You came to see me to tell
me that I can't see you?

Angel, something
is doing this to you.

You just have to
control it, OK?

I... i know
that you're confused.

I think you're the one
who's confused.

I think you need to...

She wants you to taste her.

Think of the peace.

You'll never have to
see us again.

Angel,
how can I help you?

Leave me alone!

I just need you to stay with
mom in case he comes back.

Yeah, I'll play watchdog.

I don't really
get it, though.

I'll explain later.

Everything. I promise.

Watch your back.

Giles, we have to do
something.

Soon. Now.

I'm still not sure what.

Find me these priest guys.

Find me something
I can pummel.

Let's not lose our heads.

Giles, he's slipping.

I think we're losing him.

Look...

You realize if he...

Truly becomes a danger,

you may have to
kill him.

Again.

Can you do that?

I can't do it.

You have to do it.

What else
are you good for?

Get away from me.

Couldn't you just...
Feel her?

Couldn't you almost
smell her skin?

You never were a fighter, angel.
Don't start trying now.

Sooner or later
you will drink her.

I'll never hurt her.

You were born to hurt her.
Have you learned nothing?

As long as you are alive...

Then I'll die.

You don't have the strength
to kill yourself.

I don't need strength.

I just need
the sun to rise.

You're not supposed to die.
This isn't the plan.

But it'll do.

"A child shall be born
of man and goat

"and have 2 heads,

and the first shall speak
only in riddles..."

no wonder you like this stuff.
It's like reading the sun.

Yes. Ah.

Priests?

Um... Yes, but, uh,

more posturing,
I'm afraid.

"For they are
the harbingers of death.

"Nothing shall grow
above or below them.

No seed shall flower,
neither in man nor..."

They rebels and they'll
never ever be any good.

Nothing specific
about their haunts.

Let me see that.

"The harbingers of death.

Nothing shall grow
above or below."

What?

All right, 10 more
minutes of chanting

and then you guys
have to go to bed.

Uhh!

Uhh!

Hmm. I'm impressed.

You won't get angel.

Hmm.

You think you can fight me?

I'm not a demon,
little girl.

I am something
that you can't even conceive.

The first evil.

Beyond sin,

beyond death.

I am the thing
the darkness fears.

You'll never see me,
but I am everywhere.

Every being,

every thought,

every drop of hate.

All right, I get it.
You're evil.

Do we have to
chat about it all day?

Angel will be dead
by sunrise.

Your Christmas...

Will be his wake.

No.

You have no idea
what you're dealing with.

Let me guess.

Is it... Evil?

Dead by sunrise!

Angel!

Oh.

Angel.

I bet half the kids
down there are already awake.

Lying in their beds...

Sneaking downstairs...

Waiting for day.

Angel, please.

I need you
to get inside.

There's only
a few minutes left.

I know.

I can smell the sunrise
long before it comes.

I don't have time to explain this.
You just have to trust me.

That thing
that was haunting you...

It wasn't haunting me.

It was showing me.

Showing you?

What I am.
Were.

And ever shall be.

I wanted to know why
I was back.

Now I do.

You don't know.

Some great evil takes credit
for bringing you back

and you buy it?

You just give up?

I can't do it again,
Buffy.

I can't become a killer.

Then fight it.

It's too hard.

Mm-mmm.

Angel, please,
you have to get inside.

It told me to kill you.

You were in the dream.
You know.

It told me to lose my soul in
you and become a monster again.

I know what it told you.
What does it matter?

Because I wanted to!

Because I want you
so badly.

I want to take comfort
in you,

and I know it'll cost me
my soul,

and a part of me
doesn't care.

Look, I'm weak.

I've never been
anything else.

It's not the demon in me
that needs killing, Buffy.

It's the man.

You're weak.

Everybody is.

Everybody fails.

Maybe this evil
did bring you back,

but if it did, it's
because it needs you.

And that means
that you can hurt it.

Angel, you have the
power to do real good,

to make amends.

But if you die now, then
all that you ever were

was a monster.

Angel, please,
the sun is coming up.

I won't.
Just go.

You think this is simple?

You think
there's an easy answer?

You can never understand
what I've done.

Now go.

You are not staying here.
I won't let you!

Leave!

Oh, my god.

No! No!

Am I a thing
worth saving, huh?

Am I a righteous man?

The world wants me gone.

What about me?

I love you so much.

And I tried
to make you go away.

I killed you
and it didn't help.

And I hate it!

I hate
that it's so hard...

And that you can
hurt me so much.

I know everything
that you did,

because you did it
to me.

Oh, god.

I wish
that I wished you dead.

I don't.

I can't.

Buffy, please.

Just this once...

Let me be strong.

Strong is fighting.

It's hard,

and it's painful,

and it's every day.

It's what
we have to do.

And we can do it
together.

But if you're too much
of a coward for that,

then burn.

If I can't convince you that
you belong in this world,

then I don't know
what can.

But do not
expect me to watch.

And don't expect me to
mourn for you, because...

TV weatherman: And while
most of Southern California

is enjoying
a balmy Christmas,

an extreme cold front
has sprung up out of nowhere

around sunnydale, where they
are reporting heavy snowfall

for the first time
in, well, ever.

Sunnydale residents shouldn't
expect to see the sun at all today.

That cold front
isn't going anywhere.

With temperatures
in the high 30s,

means you better bundle up

if you're planning
to go outside

and enjoy the change
in the weather.

Grr.

Argh.