Being Erica (2009–2011): Season 3, Episode 6 - Bear Breasts - full transcript

Previously on "Being Erica":

You are beautiful.

I have wanted you
since the moment we met.

Cassidy, um...

I'm straight.

Oh, looks like someone
could do with nap.

I don't really have one.

You should do something
about that

Erica,
I have breast cancer.

Mo..

It's gonna be okay
Erica.



Yeah.

Stunning...and I love the orchid.

Well, not as much
as I love that outfit.

Are you always like this,

or is this just how you make
the new people feel welcome?

We're running from the cops.
What do you want.

You threaten me drunk

in the middle
of Tarantino film, okay?

This is new to me!

I get it.

Okay, now, you're totally
putting words in my mouth.

No, I'm no

Eric
yes, you are. I said-

You said that Rebecca



should send her boss an email and quit.

Can I say something?

Actually, I said that
she needs to look at

why she wants
to quit the job,

and then figure out
if is the job,

or if it's her.

Dr. Tom, could we go back
in time five minutes

so that Erica can hear
what she really said?

- Guys...
- Oh, what I said?

What about that you said?
You told her-

Guys!

This is my regret.
Remember?

Oh, I remember.

I'm just not so sure that Adam does.

What?

Why don't the two of you
just step outside

and finish this in private.

We're trying to help you,
Rebecca

No, you're dominating
the conversation.

And wasting time.
Late at night.

I'm up in three hours.

And I've already
made my decision.

I'm not gonna send the email.

Instead,
I'm gonna talk to my boss

and work this out.

Oh.
Why didn't you just say so?

I tried.

Dr. Tom:
And on that note

I think we're done
here for the day.

Thank you, everyone.

Do you think
they hate us?

Whatever.
It's late.

Everyone's tired.

Where you headed

Oh, just back to bed.

I'm helping some friends
plan this Pride party

tomorrow, so...

Oh
yeah. You?

I have to work
on my application

for this landscaping program.

Oh hey,
that sounds like fun.

Essay writing's
not really my thing,

and it's due Monday, so.

Hmm...

I mean I could...

If you want,
I could help you with it.

I am an editor,
you know.

That's okay.
You're busy. It's...

No...it's just a party, it's not a big deal

if you want,
just swing by my office -

it's next to Goblins Cafe.

Yeah
maybe, yeah.

I might take you up
on that.

- Thanks.
- Okay.

'Night.

'Night

Desire -

it's powerful,
maddening,

and utterly unpredictable.

All too often we deny
the desire we feel.

Hoping that that will
make it disappear.

Along with all
the uncomfortable questions

we don't want to answer.

And the complicated truths
we'd rather not see

what happens when desire rises
within us, unexpected?

How do we stand against it?

And should we even try?

- Adam?!
- Shhh!

♪

♪

♪

♪

Oh my God, Adam.

♪ Being Erica 3x06 ♪
Bear Breasts
Original Air Date on October 27, 2010

♪ it's clearer inside of me ♪

♪ who I will always be ♪

♪ open me up to my heart ♪

♪ feels like I'm seeing
in the dark ♪

♪ waking me up to my heart ♪

♪ to do it all over... ♪

♪ again and again ♪

♪ until the end ♪

♪ the sum of my dreams ♪

♪ and everything
I ever wanted to be ♪

Come on, come on, come on,
come on!

Funny.
I thought it'd be bigger.

How much bigger
did you want?

Uh, why is this
an ice penis?

That's what you told me
to order.

No, I asked you to order
an ice Venus.

Like the planet?

No,
like the Venus de Milo.

The goddess of love.
She without arms.

Not this...
Phallic monstrosity!

Cassidy!

Hey!

You're here! Oh!

Erica!

I cant believe
you'

it's my one day off,

of course I wanna spend it
with you.

Hi.

Oh, sorry, guys.

- I'm Dave.
- Hi.

This is my partner,
Ivan.

Cassidy.

Erica's never mentioned you
before...

Cassidy,
she is an old friend

and she's in town
for Pride.

We hardly ever get
to see each other.

I hope you don't mind me
crashing your party,

but I promise to be useful.

Absolutely.
The more the merrier.

Oh, Erica, you're here!

Happy Pride!

Julianne, this is a really
good friend, Cassidy.

Cassidy,
this is Julianne.

- Hi.
- Hi!

Wow! I feel like
we're really underdressed.

Well, I hate to be
a drill sergeant, David,

but the parade starts
in t-minus two hours

and I'm looking at a pile
of decorations

and a melting penis.

Okay.

Okay...

Julianne, I have you
on votives,

and table runners.

Yes, sir.

Okay, um, Ivan,

you're in charge of the audio
visual display.

You can count on me,
commander.

Erica, you are making
the sign... with Cassidy.

Perfect.

And Doug and Richard-

Oh. Dear. Lord.

Oh, I'm so sorry.

Okay, Ivan,
just stay calm.

Stay calm?I will not stay calm.

I am taking control
of this platoon.

Doug and Richard,
grab the mop.

David, put your penis
in the freezer.

After the parade,
it's gonna be party central,

so we need to be ready.
Let's move!

Hello? I'm home!

What'd you buy?

A new light fixture
for the dining room,

some paint, some brushes,

some speakers...

What're you gonna paint?

This fireplace.

I have always hated
this brick,

and never done anything
about it.

So today I woke up
and thought...

"Today is the day."

Someone named "Lenin"
is calling you.

Lenin? Really?

What does he want?

To start a revolution?
I don't know.

Why don't you answer it
and find out.

Hello?
Sam speaking.

Hey, Sam,
how's it going?

Good. Really good.

It's my, um, first day off
in three weeks.

Yeah, I know
it's your day off.

Mine too.
That's why I'm calling.

Oh.

Okay...

You don't have
to save lives,

I don't have
to clean floors,

so instead I thought,
if you're free,

maybe, uh, we both could head to the Rocket.

You're inviting me
to go rock-climing?

Yeah, you said you wanted to go.

Uh...What time?

How's one.

I could probably make that work.

Good. Very good.
I will see you there.

Okay.

Bye.

Bye.

What?

This feels very familiar.

Ah! She's blushing.

Changing the subject.

Why don't you tell me about
what brought you to Toronto.

This, this panel
that you're on.

Well, I'm moderating
a discussion

on inversion rituals
for U of T's Pride Week.

Inversion rituals?

Yeah, you know, a ritual day
where everyone goes nuts

and breaks the rules.

Oh, so Pride would be
a classic example.

Yeah, Pride,
Mardi Gras, Halloween.

Every culture has one.

It's a special day

where we violate
the social order.

It seems silly,

but it's actually
a really healthy release.

It allows people
to act out

the way we would
in our fantasies,

our dreams.

What?

Nothing.

Look, paint faster,
or Ivan's gonna kill us.

Ugh! This isn't working.

Come in.

I found some extra shirts
laying around,

so I thought maybe...

Thank God.

You might, um...

Want to... try one...

Or uh... leave them.

So, it's either
chop down a forest

or join the army?

Timber!

Oh.

So I'll just leave that
to dry..

And voila?

It's great.

Mm. No, no.

For Pride, I think it needs
a little more of this.

Hm.

Is that better?

Hmm.
It's a different way to go.

Definitely more retro.

Ivan, , when a girl asks you
if she looks "better,"

what she's really asking is
do I look hot or not?

Sure,
you look great.

Hot as a jalapeno.

You're funny.

You're hopeless,
but you're funny.

Muah!
Thank you for the loaner.

So Helen and I just bought
a place

in the Jardins District
in Sao Paulo.

You need to come visit.

Oh, um, a trip to Brazil?

I think I can be talked
into that.

Uh... uh...

Who is that?

Um, that's, uh...

That's Adam.

He's cute.

Mm.

You're hiding?
What are you, four?

Cas, I'm not hiding,
I'm just...

I'm just processing.

Okay.

You've been holding out
on me.

Who is this guy?

He..Hehe's...
He's just a guy.

And you like him.

No. No.

He's totally not my type.
We're very, very different.

I mean, if Ethan is here,

Adam is like all the way
over there.

What, you think
that's a bad thing?

Erica.

Adam! Hey!

Hey.

You made it.

How's the, uh...
How's the essay?

Not great.

I got three paragraphs
and they're shit.

Sorry, I'm Adam.

Cassidy.
Nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you.

Are you sure this is okay?
You're not too busy?

No, it's fine.

It'll, it'll, uh...
Just take a couple minutes.

Erica, really...

Take your time.

You can be brutal.
I can take it.

No,

I mean,
it's not bad...

It's just, um...

It's a little impersonal.

Impersonal.

Yeah, well, you keep listing,
you know, what you know

and what you've done,

but you're not really
revealing

anything about yourself.

Okay, so tell me what you love
about landscape design.

Mm... um...

Well, I love that
it's both an art,

and a science.

Like, uh...

The science part
is about solving problems.

Great!
Uh, like...?

Bad grading,

poor drainage,
narrow lots.

But then there's art,
you know?

Like...

Looking at a big expanse
of dirt

and seeing
what it could become.

That's the kind of thing
I should be putting in, right?

Mm-mm.

Right?
Right. Yeah.

Sorry, it's been a while
since I wrote an essay.

No, it's okay.
It's totally... it's fine.

And I mean it's always good

to have someone else
read it.

You're really good at this.

Writing essays...

No, at helping people.

No, you kicked my ass
last weekend.

You're gonna make
a great doctor.

Thanks.

Well, this should probably
be enough to run with.

- Yeah.
- Okay.

Hope I didn't take up
too much of your time.

No, gosh, not at all.

- Here.
- Not at all.

- After you.
- Thank you.

Oh! Ah...

"Running away will never
make you free."

Kenny Loggins.

I'm not running away.

No?

Okay, I'm running away.

But sometimes
you're supposed to run away.

Erica.

What do you want me
to say?

Am I attracted to Adam?

Yes.

Am I going to do anything
about it? No.

And why not?

Because it's clearly,
it's a bad idea.

I mean, we're oil
and water together,

and he's completely different
from me,

and...

We're in group together.

Are you familiar with
Freud's theory of personality?

Um... that's,
uh, the...

The ego, and the superego,
and the id.

Yes.

The id lives
in our subconscious.

It is the force that drives
our most primitive impulses.

And the...
The ego is the self,

and the superego,
it keeps the id in check.

Exactly.

You see, we spend most
of our lives

stopping ourselves

from doing
what we really want to do.

Which make sense;

obviously, if everyone did
whatever they wanted,

my God,
there'd be chaos.

You aren't gonna ask me
to walk down Yonge Street naked,

are you?

Not unless you want to.

No.

But what I am gonna
ask you to do

is let today be your own
personal inversion ritual.

- Really?
- Really.

Today, Erica,

I want you to follow
all of your impulses,

no matter how uncomfortable
that they may make you.

Sounds terrifying.

Yeah, yeah.
That's the idea. Yup.

Okay.

Have fun.

Oh!

Sorry.
You okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

All right.
I'll see ya in group.

Sounds good.

Oh! Sorry.

You okay?

Are you sure
you're all right?

Uh-huh.

All right.
I'll see ya in group.

Adam?

Um...

Why don't you, uh...

Why don't you stay
and hang out for a bit?

Okay.

Great.

♪ Calling out around
the world ♪

♪ are you ready
for a brand new beat ♪

♪ summer's here
and the time is right ♪

♪ for dancing in the street ♪

♪ they're dancing in Chicago ♪

♪ Down in New Orleans ♪

♪ In New York City ♪

Here, let me help you
with that.

Yeah.

God, what are you doing,
you freak?

Thank you.

I really wanted
to touch his muscles.

So I did.

Hey, sexy.

Wow.
That was a first.

I bet.

Uh, actually,
this whole day is a first.

What, you've never been
to Pride before?

No.

Oh, hm...

Things change.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

So how do you know Cassidy?

Oh, she's an old friend.

Actually I used to have
a crush on her.

- Really?
- Yeah.

I mean,
she's pretty special.

She's...
She's smart and tough

and interesting.

Too bad I'm straight though.

Right. Find a guy like her
and you'd be set.

Okay, I can't see the parade.

Do you wanna be
my personal step ladder?

Sure.

Hello?

Hello?
I brought my tools.

I'm in here, Gary.

Whoa.

I thought we were hanging
a light fixture.

Oh, and some speakers
for the stereo system.

Gary, this house is caught
in a time warp

and it needs a facelift.

Which is also why
I'm painting the fireplace.

Here, look at the colour,
tell me what you think?

Oxblood...

Why're you looking at me
like that?

I'm not looking at you
like anything.

You are.

You think I should leave it
the way it is.

It's fine.
But...

But what?

I know you're feeling
restless,

which is fine;

makes sense given
what you're going through.

Gary.

I know
what I'm going through,

which is precisely
why I wanna do all this.

I've spent too long
putting this stuff off.

So?

Where do you want to hang
the speakers?

On the wall,
by the kitchen doorway.

So? How's it going
with Mr. manly man?

Oh, would you stop it.

Look,

Adam, he is beyond
not right for me, okay?

Okay, if history proves
anything, Erica,

it's that you have no idea
who's right for you.

What does that mean?

Your problem,
when it comes to men,

is that you keep going after
safe relationships

where you have the power
and you call the shots.

Now, that's not true.

Ethan.
That guy before him.

Ryan.

What you need is somebody
strong.

You know, someone who can
meet you where you are,

someone who can
challenge you.

Someone with balls.

I just want you to go after
what you really want.

For once.

What I really want?

Mm-hm.

Is those shoes,
that dress, and... ah!

Come on, hey,
where are you going?

Five minutes!

♪ Looking for some hot stuff ♪

hey, guys.

Erica!

What're you doing?

She's, she's molting.

I... I just...
You know, I...

I saw this in the store front
back there,

and I thought, well...

If I'm ever gonna dress up
in public,

today's, you know,
today's the day to do it, so.

Go Pride!

Um... come on.
We're missing the parade.

Let's go!

I'm gonna do that?

Well, maybe someday.

I thought we'd start off

with with the rock climbing
equivalent

of a bunny hill.

Over here.

Come on.

Okay, tell me what to do
first.

All right, well,
start with the harness.

Okay

you wanna make sure

that you got this on
securely.

Okay.

I learned that the hard way,
when I was, uh...

Climbing on Wye Creek
in New Zealand

a couple years back.

I fell 30 feet.

- Oh my God.
- Yeah.

Yeah, luckily,
I just broke one ankle.

But still...

Okay...

So wow, New Zealand
and Thailand?

You get around.

Yeah, I try to.

Next trip, Brazil.

When's that?

When I make save up
enough money

from cleaning up after you,

Doctor Strangelove.

All right.
So to finish this off...

Mm-hm.

We'll tie down your leg.

Oh.

How's that?

It's good.

- Yeah? All right.
- Yeah.

Samantha?

Pam.

This is random.

Yeah.

Hi. Uh, I'm Pam.

Sam and I went to Med school
together.

Sorry. This is Lenin.

He is teaching me
rock climbing.

Oh.
Do you work here?

No. No, I work
at the hospital.

Mm-hmm.

Damn, uh,
where are my carabiners?

Do you mind if...?

No, of course.

Okay, sorry.
I'll be right back.

Ooh, look at you
back in the saddle.

Well, so how are things?

Are you still
at St. Mike's?

Sam, come on.
I wanna know everything.

So, you met at work?
What's he do?

Lenin?

He's, um...
A general surgeon.

Like me.

God, why are the surgeons
at St. Mike's not that cute?

Oh, there's my instructor.

Um, can we catch up
when we have more time?

Sounds good.

- Okay. See you.
- Okay. Bye.

They were in my knapsack.

Oh.

You ready?

Totally.

I love Pride!

Pocahontas!

Come up here
and dance with me.

Me?

No, no thanks!

Actually that looks like
a lot of fun.

Adam, here!

No way.
I can't go up there.

Yes you can.
Come on!

Julianne, come on!

No, Erica, Erica!

Go, go!

Cassidy!

Cassidy, Dave and Ivan:
Wooooo!

Wooo!

♪ Oh yeah! ♪

♪

wooo!

Erica and Adam:

Ahh... what a day!

Yeah.

Not how I expected
to spend my weekend.

Dancing on a float?

Another new experience.

Oh gosh! Sorry.

Careful.
Sorry.

You might wanna ditch
those shoes.

Yeah. Maybe we could
just sit down for a sec.

Yeah.

Thanks.

I had a really great time
today.

Me too.

Thanks for inviting me.

Erica...

Sorry.

I just...

I just had an impulse
and I went for it

and I'm sorry.

You don't need
to apologize.

Ah...

I respect what you bring
to group

and I really enjoy
spending time with you.

Me too.

I just don't think of you
that way.

I'm sorry.

Uh, no.

Totally.

I get it.
Um...

Uh, we should probably
catch up with the others,

I think.

Actually, I think
I'm just gonna head home.

Oh. Sure.
'Kay.

See you in group?

Yeah.

Okay.

Hey you.

Hey.

I thought you could
use this.

All right.

Ugh. It's strong.

Very.
That's the point.

I just, I...

I feel so humiliated.
You know?

Yeah. I know.

Because...

This is what it felt like
when... when you and me...

When you rejected me.

I am not saying that
to make you feel badly,

but, yeah, it sucks
when you like someone

and they don't
like you back.

At least,
they don't like you the same.

Ugh.

So... drink up.

It'll numb the pain,
at least for a while.

Whew!

Oh hey, care bear,

I'm just gonna pop back
into the storage room

to get more nachos.

Oh... shoot.

Take a picture.
It lasts longer.

Oh my God!
Oh, no, no, no.

I was supposed to get...
Here take this.

Ugh! Julianne!

Oh...

Must teach Dave that move...
Ooh...

You're doing great, Sam.
You okay?

First time?

Yeah.

She's always wanted
to try,

and I've been climbing
for years,

so I thought I'd just
show her the ropes.

It's funny.

You're like the fourth surgeon
I know who climbs.

It's gotta have something to do
with the rush we get.

We're all adrenaline junkies,
huh?

Yeah.
Yeah, I guess we are.

Dave!

Can I get another
one of these

pretty purple drink thingies,
please?

Okay.

...Let's catch up.
Definitely, let's catch up.

Okay.

Thank you.
I'm sorry.

Enough.
Stop avoiding me.

Okay, I have no idea
what you're talking about.

Uh, yes.
Yes you do.

Okay,
can we not discuss this?

You caught Richard and Doug,
my two hottest friends,

going at it,

and you liked
what you saw.

I liked what I saw.
So what?

So it's embarrassing.

Why?
Because it is.
Okay?

Okay, you,
you might be all open

and out of the closet,

and you might've
"come to terms"

with your gayness.

Oh... watching two guys
have sex

doesn't make you gay,
Julianne.

Okay, I know that.

I'm just saying,
you're used to weirdness.

I'm not.

Oh.

So being gay is weird.

No,
that's not what I meant.

No, but that's
what you said.

Happy Pride.

It's the green wire.

You see it?

Yeah, yeah,
I think I got it.

- Whoa.
- Oh.

So...

Do I just pull it out?

Yes.

That would be great.

Barbara and Gary:

Gary...

Do you still think
I'm pretty?

What?

Now just look at me,
and answer the question.

And don't lie,

because I can always tell
when you're lying.

Yes.

I still think you're pretty.

I never stopped thinking
you were pretty.

Oh wow.

I'd like another
penis colada.

'Kay...

Our little red-headed friend
is cut off.

What?

Come on. Erica, honey, you
smell like a distillery.

Oh...

And what are you, huh?
My mother?

My father?

'Cause you're not.

Erica, I just think-

woof.

That's right,
I woofed at you.

You big bear.

No-no-no-no,
bah-bah-bah-bah, no, no, no.

I said no.

You, my dear,
do not belong behind the bar.

Okay.

You can't make me.

No.

Erica, honey, come on.

Come on now.

I used, I used...

I used to dance on bars.

♪ Relax, don't do it ♪

♪ when you wanna come ♪

♪ relax, don't do it ♪

I... I was...

I was actually
very entertaining.

Oh that's nice.

Oh my!

Okay.
All right, get...

No, don't even think
about it.

Hello.

- Don't touch it!
- Mr. penis.

Don't touch it!

- Erica...
- So sparkly.

- Get off!
- Sparkly...

Erica, get down off the bar!

Off the bar.

No, Ivan, let go.

- Erica!
- Ivan, let go!

Ivan, let go of me!
Let go of me!

Don't touch that.

♪ Gotta hit me ♪

♪ Hit me ♪

♪ Hit me with you laser beam ♪

You know, maybe...

Maybe nobody even saw the part
where I was hugging it?

Maybe they think that
it just fell over on its own.

Just don't worry about it,
okay?

I just want you
to come over here,

on the couch,

and try to sleep this off.

Oh...

Oh, Cassidy.

Oh, we should've just
hung out on a patio,

just you and me.

Yeah? And why's that?

Because then we could have
had a real visit.

And you could have avoided
all of this, right?

Yeah.

Erica, when you go after
what you want,

sometimes it works out,

and sometimes...

It ends up with an ice penis
being smashed to smithereens.

Oh God...

Now get some sleep.

You'll feel a lot better
when you wake up.

Thanks, Cassidy.

Oh...

Look, um...
What I said before,

it was awful
and insensitive,

and I know it's easy
for me to say this now,

but it wasn't what I meant.

At all.

Yeah, I know.

I mean,
I "heart" the gays.

I'm in awe of you.

The way you...
You embrace who you are,

and what you like.

There's such a freedom
in that.

In theory.

But you'd be surprised
how people

still put you in a box.

How?
Well, look at me and Dave.

We're not exactly gay
poster boys.

Oh, whatever.
Dave's cute.

Dave's hot -
he is to me.

And...

And what?

Never mind.

Oh hello? Big sharing moment
going on here.

And what?

Well,

you know how most people say

that straight people
are 10 percent gay?

I kissed a girl once,
in university.

See?

Well, gay people also,
sometimes,

can be 10 percent straight.

Oh.
Yeah.

I mean, I'm attracted to big
hairy dudes most of the time,

but I also sometimes
find myself attracted to...

Slender blonde women.

Really?

Yeah.

Well, I gotta...

Oh.
Yeah.

So is it normal
for my forearms

to feel like
they're on fire?

Yeah, yeah, you just need
to use your legs more.

It's a beginner's mistake.

Oh.

I'll remember that
for next time.

What?

I'm just uh...

Checking to see
if you're telling the truth.

You know,
that you do actually

want there to be
a next time.

Of course I do.
Why wouldn't I?

Why did you tell your friend
I'm a surgeon?

Lenin, I'm sorry.
There's no excuse,

it just...

It came out of my mouth,
I don't even know why.

You don't know why

you just didn't tell her
I'm a janitor?

I don't care
what you do for a living.

But you care
that other people do.

Oh God,
I feel like a jerk.

I'm shallow,
and a snob.

I don't know why I care.
I don't wanna care.

I, I know it's stupid
to care.

Hey, if you care,
you care.

And I get it.

I'm a janitor,
you're a surgeon -

it's weird enough
that we're friends.

Why are you being so nice?
You should be mad at me.

Enh, there's no point.

Getting mad wouldn't change
how you feel.

Well, how do you feel?

How do I feel?

I...

I like you.

Yeah, you're smart,

funny,

attractive.

You wouldn't want to come in
for a sandwich, would you?

I'm starving.

I would love
a sandwich.

Yeah?

Yes!

I can't believe
we just did that.

I hope we didn't just make
a huge mistake.

No.

Okay,
I need a glass of water.

I need to find my pants.

Mom? You home?

I brought-

Oh my God.

Come in!

So...

We're gonna head out.

But I just wanted to...
Say goodbye

and make sure
you don't feel weird

about, you know,
what I said before.

Ivan, you're not the first
gay man to be "into" me.

Oh.

So we're cool then?

Yeah, we're cool.

Oh, I just have one question
for you.

You know, before,

I told you
that I kissed a girl.

I mean, have you ever kissed,
or um, maybe, maybe more?

Kissed, yes,

when I was a teenager.

But more than that?

No.

Hm. Well, just given
your "homo-flexibility,"

aren't you at all curious?

Definitely.

I mean, when you were standing
there in your bra, I was...

Hoo, anyway,
we-we should...

We shouldn't be talking
about this.

No-no-no-no-no-no,
tell me.

You were what?

Um...

It's just...

I've always wondered
about breasts.

You know,
what they'd feel like.

Guys don't have them.

Dave kinda does.

It's a joke.

Okay, go ahead.

What? No?!

What?
Oh, come on.

It's no big deal.

No.
Here.

Okay, that's enough.

Yes, that is.

Ivan?

What's the security code
again?

I'll be right there.

Thank you, Julianne.

Okay, sure.
See you later.

Hm.

-

It is the most powerful force
on earth;

the seed from which
everything begins.

Ah...

It upends the best laid plans;

See ya.

It challenges
who we think we are;

it defies
what we think we need.

I was hoping to run into you.

It's a beautiful night.

After a... crazy day.

How was it?

Oh, I don't know
about my id,

but my ego,
it's pretty bruised.

I'm just glad it's over.

You know, there's only so much
ritual inversion

a girl can take.

Well, you followed
your impulses today

and that led you to have
some new experiences.

Like being rejected.

Let me tell you,
that was a lot of fun.

Erica, do you know what lies
at the root of impulse?

Stupidity?

No.
Do, desire.

Desire, it's the fuel
that drives us, right.

I mean, it's at the core
of who we are,

and yet,
from our very earliest days,

we're taught to control it.

To suppress it.

Well, to banish it.

But sometimes
a little inversion...

That could be
a good thing.

How is what happened today
a good thing?

Well,
because you were brave

and you were truthful

and you didn't second guess
or censor yourself.

You said, this is me,

this is what I feel,
and this what I want...

And you let the chips fall
where they may.

It's gonna be awkward
with Adam.

What? It is.

Well... maybe.

Or maybe Adam
is just like you,

and just like me,
just like everybody else.

He's just walking around
all day stopping himself

from feeling
what he's feeling,

and wanting what he wants.

What're you saying?

I'm just saying
that this story,

like any story,
has to play itself out.

That's all.

And not you, or I,
or anybody else

can tell us
where that's gonna end.

Good night,
Erica Strange.