Being Erica (2009–2011): Season 3, Episode 4 - Wash, Rinse, REPEAT - full transcript

Erica receives a surprise visit from someone she never expected to see again: Kai. She figures he is on a rogue mission as this visit seems against the rules of therapy. Regardless, he has much news for her, the most important being that he looks for her in the year 2019 and can't find her. Erica believes the worst for herself, meaning death for her in 2019 at age 42. As Erica progresses through the day, she can't focus on anything else besides the possibility of dying at such a young age and wanting to find out for sure what really happens to her in 2019. As such, Dr. Tom sends Erica back on a Groundhog Day (1993) scenario, reliving a certain time of her life over and over again, perhaps for eternity or at least until she figures out what lesson Dr. Tom is trying to teach her. But as he denies Erica her initial request, Dr. Tom does exactly himself what Erica requested for herself, which brings up concerns with Drs. Naadiah and Arthur. And Barb's actions may be a role for Erica to follow as Barb tells her of her breast cancer.

Previously on "Being Erica":

And I do have feelings
for you, Kai.

I wish that I didn't,
but I do.

You can try to rewrite
who you are,

but the guy from 2019,

he's right here
in front of me.

The Mystery of Tomorrow.

I'm not sure you're cut out
for this title.

But you're keeping the book
here at River Rock.

Yes, but...

Doesn't mean
it has to be with you.



I have breast cancer.

There's a possibility
it's localized;

that we caught it
really early.

Dr. Naadiah:
You lost her...

Are you afraid
that you might lose Erica?

This was the last time
that I saw my daughter.

Dr. Naadiah:
This is a mistake, Arthur.

Erica should be doing
phase two with me.

So should I look you up?

Please, Kai, don't.

And if you're going to,
don't tell me

because it's just,
it's too weird to think about.

Plus, I'll be 40.

More like 42.



Can you hang on a second?
There's someone at the door.

I need to talk,
right now.

Erica?

Jude, I...
I have to go.

Can I come in?

Yeah, of course.

Kai...

Sorry, I...

I just didn't know
if I was ever gonna you again.

I mean, like this
and...

How are you?
Hey.

Won't we see you again, Erica.

That's why I'm here.

So this isn't your first time
visiting me?

No.

In a few weeks,
I'm come back to 2010

on another regret...
Okay.

And while I'm here
we sleep together.

We sleep together.

Yeah.

Okay...

Kai, this is a lot
of information

for me to take in
right now.

And... I mean, why are you
telling me this?

Please,
just listen to me.

I came here to warn you,
Erica.

Warn me?
Yes. Yes.

About what?

It's about the future -
you have to be careful.

I'm...
What?

I know it's unfair of me,

it's unfair of me
to just show up like this.

You're leaving?
I shouldn't even be here,
Erica.

Kai, no, wait... hey!

Wait, Kai!

Kai!

Kai, look it...

You can't just barge
back into my life

and expect me
to do as you say

about something that hasn't
even happened to me yet?

This was a mistake,
Erica.

Hey, listen, listen.

I wouldn't put you
in this position.

You know that I wouldn't.

Come on.

After we slept together...

I couldn't get you
out of my head.

I tried to stay away
and I couldn't.

And so I did the one thing
you told me not to do:

I tried to find you
in 2019,

and I can't, Erica.

I can't find you.

Well, where am I?

I don't know.
But nine years from now

something awful
is gonna happen here,

in the city.

What do you mean?

A lot of people
are gonna die and...

And what?
Am...

Am I dead?

Kai?
I'm...

I'm sorry,
do I know you?

-
It's the high cost
of living.

We know this,

and yet we spend our days
in denial.

But inevitably,

we will be forced
to face the fact

that we are not immortal
and never were.

Which begs the question

how do you live,

when you think
you're going to die?

♪ Being Erica 3x04 ♪
Wash, Rinse, REPEAT
Original Air Date on October 12, 2010

♪ it's clearer inside of me ♪

♪ who I will always be ♪

♪ open me up to my heart ♪

♪ feels like I'm seeing
in the dark ♪

♪ waking me up to my heart ♪

♪ to do it all over... ♪

♪ again and again ♪

♪ until the end ♪

♪ the sum of my dreams ♪

♪ and everything
I ever wanted to be ♪

Really? They're sure?

Oh my God,
that's incredible!

Dr. Tom: Erica.
Oh, thank God!

Hi there.

Dr. Tom,
I go missing.

I mean there's something
awful that happens

and I don't know
what it is,

but then he can't
find me.

Just, just because Kai
can't find you,

that doesn't mean
that you're missing.

Does it mean
that I'm dead?

It could.

But, Erica,
this a piece of information

without a context.

Right?

And fixating on it,
it's not gonna serve you.

Right.

Of course!
I mean, there...

There could be a lot
of reasons

why he can't find me.
I mean...

Maybe I'm married.
You know, maybe I moved.

But then I don't understand.

Why wouldn't he get
in touch with Samantha

Erica
because she would know where I am.

don't do this
to yourself.

You can't just drop something
like that on someone

and then not tell them,
okay?!

I need to know.

No one gets to see
their future;

that's not how this works.

And he should never have
come looking for you.

Well, then why did he?

And why did Dr. Fred
even let him?

I don't know.

But you can't allow this
to overwhelm you.

Okay?

Oh God.

Julianne...

Where are you?!

Look, I'm so...

I just lost track of time.

I'm gonna be there
in 15 minutes, okay?

Fifteen? You were supposed
to be here 10 minutes ago.

I know. I'm sorry.
I am sorry.

Well, they're still here
waiting, so hurry!

I know, I am sorry!

I need to talk to you.

No, it cannot wait.

Dr. Fred has taken care
of it.

And that was "taking care
of it" was it?

Pulling out his patient

after he's given Erica
just enough information

to terrify her?

Very professional.

She should not have
to deal with this.

It's unfair!

After Sarah went missing-

no, no, no, no.
We are talking about Erica,

we are not talking
about my daughter.

After Sarah went missing

and we started our work
together,

you asked me
if she was still alive.

And your point?

I didn't have an answer
for you.

But that doesn't mean
you haven't learned anything.

I'd argue you've learned
a great deal,

by not knowing.

Dr. Tom:
Well, this is about Erica;

this not about someone else.

She can learn from this too.

But she's not gonna
learn a thing

if we break the rules
simply because Kai did.

I understand
how upset you are,

but you need to remember
that you're just her doctor.

What is that
supposed to mean?

You know what it means.

Should we, uh,
maybe get started?

I know Erica's been held up,

but Seth and I have
a lunch meeting.

Um...

Um, Erica and I are
business partners

and this title
means the world to her,

as you know, Seth,
so I really...

I just don't feel comfortable
starting without her.

Oh, and here she is!

Oh... hi.

Lesley, Seth,
I'm so sorry.

Hey, Erica.

Hey.

Okay, so now that
we are all here,

let's just dive right in

and figure out something
to make us all happy. Yeah?

Here's the thing,
ladies.

Seth and I know you'll bring
a ton of passion

to this project...

And we're gonna put
all of our resources behind it.

"The Purple Door"
will be the jewel

in the crown
of this company.

Look, Jules, I don't doubt that
for a second,

but River Rock
is one of the big boys.

Their resources
eclipse yours.

Not to mention the fact
that this bidding war

has grabbed the attention

of some of the other major
players in town.

But just to be clear,

we wanna try
and make this work.

And so do we.
Absolutely.

Great. In that case,
let me be Frank.

If Seth is going to go
with you,

a "boutique"
publishing house,

his deal is going to need
to be...

Sweetened.

Now, when you say "sweetened,"

are we talking a cute little
pack of sweet 'n low?

Or do you mean...?

Real sugar, Jules.

Look, nine years from now,

something awful
is going to happen here.

I don't want to be precious,
but it's kinda my baby.

Erica, you know how much
the story means to me.

Sorry.

Uh...

How about we put a pin in this.

No, les, let's keep talking.

It's no biggie.

Once you've had a chance
to read and...

You're a little more focused,

we'll get on the phone.

Great space.
Love the exposed beams.

So, uh...
We'll talk soon?

Bye.

What the hell was that?!

Oh my God, Julianne,
I'm so sorry.

I just...

I'm just feeling a little
stressed right now

and anxious.
Well,
snap out of it!

We do not fall apart
in the face of adversity,

we rise to the challenge.

Go get some air.

When Lesley's list

of blood-sucking demands
comes in,

I'll call you
and we'll deal.

Okay. Yeah.
Look, I'm... sorry.

Come on, Erica.

Adam.

Erica!

How're you doing?

Hey, uh...

What're you doing here?

Wait, where are you going?

You know we probably
shouldn't see each other

outside of group.

Uh, I gotta go.
Sorry.

Erica.

Are you okay?

I think you cut you're hand.

Are you all right?

Uh...

- I'm fine.
- You sure?

I'll put the brisket in
around two

and let it cook
for four hours,

and that'll do it.

You planning on feeding
an army?

Well, I'm not feeding
my girls leftovers.

Oh, the potatoes.

Mom.
Mom!

This is ridiculous.

You're gonna wear
yourself out.

You should be
taking it easy.

Well, I promised Erica.

Stop worrying about us.

Erica can deal
with take-out.

And, seriously,
you need to tell her.

Oh, Samantha,

she's just had such
a rough time lately, you know?

Breaking up with Ethan,
the new business...

I know,
I need to tell her.

You do.

Tonight, okay?

'Kay.

"The mystery of tomorrow" is,
for all intents and purposes,

a sequel.

Your fan base
has expectations.

And it needs to surpass
the-

the genius that was
"the secret of now."

Yada, yada, yada,

blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah, booh!

Yeah. I got it.

With all due respect, Thomas,
I don't think you do.

The pages you've been
sending in...

Are my children,
Brent.

They were birthed
from the depths of my soul.

I've spent years
studying new thought,

yogi philosophy,

metaphysical healing;

that's what I bring.

What do you bring
to the equation, Brent?

Well, Thomas, I'm an editor.
It is my job-

to fix any dangling
participles

and misplaced commas.

Even Julianne got that right.

You do your job,
Brent,

and let me do mine.

Mom?
Oh my God, Erica.

You scared me.

Sorry.

Hey, shouldn't you be
at work?

Yeah.

Yeah, I should.

Is everything okay?
Uh-huh.

Erica, you're bleeding.

Oh, you know...
Stupidest thing.

I was... I was running
and then I fell

and then I couldn't go
back to work,

I really didn't
wanna go home

so I came here.

Come on, sweetheart.
Let's go sit.

Come on, come on.
Ouch!

Sorry.
It's okay.

Stupid.

You didn't speak
to Samantha, did you?

Sam? No. Why?

I don't know
maybe you two had a fight.

No, mom, honestly,
nothing happened.

I'm just...

I just think that I'm tired
and I'm stressed

and I'm,
I'm just being ridiculous.

I think maybe
if I lay down for a bit,

I'd feel better.

Okay. I'm gonna go
make y a a sandwich.

It's almost noon,
you must be starving.

Thanks.

Thanks, mom.

Ouch.

"Do not dwell
in the past,

do not dream
of the future,

concentrate the mind
on the present moment."

The Buddha.

You're meditating.

I was about to,
before you arrived.

Ouch. Ow!

So...

Where's the rest
of the group?

Well,

I thought it might be better
if you and I spoke about this,

one on one.

You know, Erica,
you're torturing yourself

over something that
may not even be true.

I know, I had every intention
of living this day

like a normal day,

and I know that I should
be able

to put it out of my mind,

but I can't.

I just... I don't...
I don't know how to.

Everyone dies one day,
Erica.

Yeah, but not everyone
finds out

that they're probably
gonna be dead at 42.

In 2019, am...

Am I married?

You know,
do I have kids?

Do I outlive my pares?S?

I can't answer any
of those questions for you.

I know.

U u know,
if you sent me to 2019...

No
And that's all you're gonna say. No.

but if you just,
if you think about it

Wh-wh why would you want that?

I mean,
to know your future?

What....What could that
possibly do to to help you?

because it would shut off
everything

that's going on
inside of here right now.

All right?
If I'm alive,

then all's good.

And if I'm not,
well...

Well, then I'll just spend
the rest of my time...

Living life to the fullest.

All right?

Well, why not do that
anyway?

Because I can't.
It's...

I just can't escape it.
I just...

I keep thinking about
what Kai said

over and over and over again

and it feels like
there's no way out.

Well, Erica, you know
there's always a way out.

It's just...

It's just a question
of finding it.

I need to talk,
right now.

Kai.

What are you doing here...
Again?

I'm... I'm on a regret.

I came here to warn you.

Yeah, you already told me
all this.

What do you mean?

What time is it?

It's eight in the morning.

What am I doing here?
We've...

This has already happened.
I mean, all of it.

Did I screw something up
by coming here to tell you?

I need to go.

What?

Kai!

Kai, tell me what happened
in 2019.

No.
Why can't you find me?

Listen, where did you look
for me?

Did you talk to my sister?
Did you talk to my parents?

We've already had this
conversation?

Please,
there's no time.

Just tell me quickly,
before...

Oh! Dammit!

Excuse me?

Please...

Dr. Tom,
I really need to talk to you.

What're you trying
to teach me?

Why am I repeating this?!

I am not doing this.

Oh my God.
I need to talk, right now.

- Come.
- Whoa.

You, you're on a regret
and you came here to warn me

because you can't find me
in 2019, right?

How do you know that?

Look, I just do.
And please,

before Dr. Fred
pulls you out again,

why, Kai?
Why can't you find me?

Am I dead?
Dr. Fred's gonna pull me out?

Yes. So just please
tell me quickly, everything.

Kai, Kai, wait!
I'm stuck in this loop!

...Need to go before I do
anymore damage.

Tell me! God!

Grrr!

Really? They're sure?

Oh my God! Oh my God!
That's incredible!

Oh my God,
that's incredible.

Life's amazing.

I have to tell the world.

I can't believe I have to do
this stupid meeting again.

Julianne, I'm almost there.
Get a grip.

The thing is, ladies,

Seth and I know you'll bring
a ton of passion

to this project...

Oh, we will,

and I promise you

we will put all of our resources
behind it.

The Purple Door will be
the jewel...

In the crown
of this company.

I don't doubt that for a second,

but River Rock
is one of the big boys.

Their resources eclipse
yours.

Oh, and I bet that
the vultures

are circling our little
"bidding war" as we speak.

Right? Hm?

I wouldn't say it exactly
that way...

But just to be clear-
we wanna make this work.

Yes, we do.
Absolutely.

Great. In that case, let me be Frank.

If Seth is going to go
with you,

a "boutique"
publishing house...

Ouch.

His deal will have to be...
Sweetened.

"Sweetened."

What a word.

Honestly, Erica,

this not just about
the money.

No? Oh.

Well, then what is this about?

I mean, why are we talking
about money at all

if it's not, as you say,
"just about the money"?

I don't feel comfortable
discussing this

in front of my client.

A client that we found.

Excuse me?

Oh, come on.

We told you that we wanted
to publish Seth,

you sign him,

and now you bleed us
for a bigger commission?

Nonsense.

Cherry picker.

Erica!

Why are you being
so hostile?

Why aren't you answering
my question?

Like I said,
I'm not discussing it.

Oh, yes, you are.

No, Erica, I'm not.

I think we're done here.

Whoops!

What is wrong with you?

I'm...

Les, please, wait up.

I am beyond sorry.

Kerpow!

Coffee?

Erica,
what're you doing here?

Hey, um, I...

You know, I just work
down the street,

next to Goblins.

It's this great cafe?

Listen, Adam.

I'm kind of having
a really strange day here

and I need someone
to talk to

because Dr. Tom is MIA.

Wait, Dr. Tom...

Oh, he's ignoring me

and he has me repeating
this day,

and I don't know why
he's he's doing it,

and I don't know
how to make it stop.

Okay.

I'm taking 15,
okay?

Let's go talk.

One time he sent me back,

I wake up under these huge
warm lights,

and I can hear
people talking,

but when I go to say
something,

it comes out
like a squeal.

You're a pig?

I'm a baby.

In an Incubator.

Dr. Tom sent me back

to when I was only
a few hours old.

He wanted me to feel
what it was like to be...

I don't know,
to be powerless.

To be...

Okay, great, but wait.

What is the lesson here?

To turn me
into a big freak?

Because if I'm not bawling,

then I'm throwing pens
at peoples' heads and-

you threw a pen
at someone?

Yeah.
It's ridiculous.

I mean,
would you act this way

if you were in my shoe

probably not,
but...

I've kind of made
my peace with death.

Well, good for you!
I haven't, okay?

I mean, there's so much more
that I wanna do.

Well, what if that's
all there is?

What if 42 years was all
you're meant to have?

So you're just telling me
that I should accept it?

That, you know, knowing
I have eight years to live,

and then six, and then four,
and then one.

Like, what do I do
in my last year?

Whatever you want.

Oh God...

Oh shit!

What?

It's... I'm late,
it's noon.

I gotta get back to work,
I'm sorry.

I need to talk,
right now.

Jude,
I'll call you back.

Tell me what happened
in 2019?

Wh-what?

I know that that's why
you're here.

You can't find me in 2019
and I need to know why.

Now.

There's a catastrophe...

Kai!

I'm sorry, what?

I need to talk,
right now.

Shhh! Shhh!

Hey, Erica...

Shhh!

How do you know?

What?
Why can't I talk?

Erica... I need...

Who's Dr. Fred?

Oh my God.

I need to talk,
right now.

Can I come in?

No, you can't.

Erica, I...

Get out!
I need to talk to you.

Well, I have nothing
to say to you.

I told you to get out!

Get out!
Out! Get!

♪ this isn't helping me
realize anything ♪

♪ nothin'! ♪

Come on.

Of course, you know,
maybe death would be better

than reliving this day
even one more time.

Mm...

Hear that, Dr. Tom?
Huh?

I'm cool with death.

You can kill me now.

Is that the whole point
of this lesson?

Because if it is,

death and me,
we're... copasetic.

Really?

Really?
They're sure?

Oh my God.

Oh my God!
That... that is incredible!

Oh my God,
is it incredible?!

Hey!
What're you doing?!

You know that
you're gonna die some day?

You know that, right?
You're gonna die.

You're dead.
You're gone, you're finito.

Forever and ever...

And ever.
You're drunk.

You're right,
I am.

Crazy drunk!

So what?
Someone call the cops.

290, 213.
18th Avenue South.

Woman has a dispute
with her neighbour.

Here we go again.

I need to talk,
right now.

Come in.

Um...

Erica, there's something
you need to know.

Yeah, and Kai, you know,
I don't want to hear it.

Erica-
look, I don't wanna hear
that we sleep together,

and that you can't find me,

and that you're worried
about me.

Okay? Because then
I'm gonna obsess about it.

And end up right here,

stuck in a loop,

meeting you at my door
for the 11th time.

How did you know
that I'm...

Oh, the wonders
of time travel therapy.

Yeah, right.
This is weird.

You know, I had a dream
about you last week.

I wanted to know
how it's been,

you know,
being back in the future?

Oh, come on, Kai.

I've put up with
your "don't sleep with me" rant

for 10 times.

The least you could do
is answer my question.

Please.

Okay, going back
was shit...

Mm...
In some ways,

but it was also
a relief.

Really?
Yeah.
How?

Living in the past...

It's exhausting.

And I needed
to get to a point

where I could accept
that the past is the past,

and if I'm gonna get
anywhere at all,

I gotta focus
on the present.

It's so hard.

What?

Being in the present.

Yeah, it's really hard.

Cause your mind wants to go
everywhere else -

anywhere and everywhere
but here...

Which is the only place
you're supposed to be.

Good friend of mine
taught me that once.

Thank you.

For... for this talk.

You really have no idea
how much I needed it.

Erica...

The reason I came here
is because...

The reason
you came back here,

is to take care
of a regret...

And that's exactly
what you should be doing

right now.

Bye.

Bye.

Really? They're sure?

Oh my God.

Oh my God,
that's incredible!

Okay.

I love you too.
Bye.

Excuse me,
sir?

Sorry to interrupt,
but why are you so excited?

Just something incredible
just happened, right?

And, and if you don't mind,

I'd love to know
what it is.

I know,
it's none of my business.

My wife's pregnant.

Oh! Congratulations.

Thanks. It's been a hard road
getting to this point.

Anyway, I...
I'm really happy.

I didn't realize
I was talking so loud.

No, that's fine.
It's a big moment.

You got kids?

Not yet.

Maybe someday.

Anyway,
sorry for interrupting,

and again,
congratulations.

Take care.

Now, when you say "sweetened,"

are we talking a cute little
pink pack of sweet 'n low?

Or do you mean...?

Real sugar, Jules.

Tablespoons of it,
up front.

Honestly, this isn't
just about the money.

"The Purple Door" is...

Well, I don't wanna
be precious,

but it's kinda my baby.

Erica, you know how much
this story means to me.

Oh, yes I do.
I figured that out

the very first day
that we met.

I think that was about
five minutes

after Brent kicked you
and your book to the curb.

Listen, we've, uh...

We've given you
our best offer,

and we can't and we won't
be held to ransom.

Erica, we're negotiating.

Absolutely, Lesley,
i understand.

You're just doing your job,
but...

To be honest,

we have nothing else to give.

You know, River Rock
has "resources," sure,

but they can't give you
what we're offering,

which is our skills
and our passion.

I mean... Julianne,

she edited the top-selling
non-fiction title of 2008,

not Brent Kennedy.

That title was, of course,
"The Secret of Now."

Yeah, of course.

And, I mean, I saw
the promise in your book

the very first time
I read it.

It was immediate,
instantaneous.

I didn't need
any convincing

you had me
at the first chapter.

So, it's up to you,
Seth.

I mean, you could go
with the money

and see where it takes you,

or...

You can stick with us,

and we will put our hearts
and souls

into make this
a best-seller.

And that's the best
that we have to offer.

Okay.

We will go away
and discuss.

If that's your best offer,
that's your best offer.

Thanks.
We'll be in touch.

Perfect.
Take care.

Bye.

Hmm.

Hey!

Can you take
an early lunch?

Erica,
what're you doing here?

I promise I will tell you
all about it,

if you go for lunch
with me.

And don't worry,
your boss won't mind.

I'm taking lunch.

So how many times
have we met up?

Oh, this would be our...

Sixth lunch.

We tried those shawarmas -
not so good.

But the pepperoni pizza?

Not so bad.

What are you gonna do
if there's a number seven,

or ten,
or thirteen?

Hey, trying to live
in the moment here, okay?

Why are you
making me panic?

'Cause I like to see you
get worked up.

Can I ask you a question?

Sure.

On one of our go-arounds,
um...

You said something
that stuck with me.

Oh yeah?

Yeah.

I asked if you were
afraid of death

and you said that
you had made peace with it.

What did you mean
by that?

I died once.

I was brought back to life
but...

The paramedics said
my heart stopped,

I was gone.

Do you remember
anything?

It was this job
that went bad.

One minute I'm running,
and the next...

I feel this...
Not exactly pain,

but intense cold,
right here.

Of course,
I'd been shot.

I don't remember falling,

but when I looked down
there was blood everywhere.

And then... it's like
I'm floating above myself.

You know,
like in the movies.

So there I am,
I'm looking down at my body

and I'm not afraid.

I wasn't at peace either.
I was just...

I was just sad.

Sad?
Yeah.

I mean, what a waste.
My whole life,

everything I coulda done...

Next thing I remember waking up
in the back of an ambulance.

Wow.

I met Dr. Tom two days later,
in the hospital.

Oh shit.

What?

I'm late,
I gotta go.

What... what do you mean,
what time is it?

It's 10 past 12.

It's 10 after 12?

And I'm still here?
And you're still here.

Mmmph!

Thank you, Adam.

I didn't do anything.

Yes, you did.

Look, get back to work
before you get fired,

'cause I have a feeling
this time things might stick.

Okay. Bye.
Okay.

Dr. Tom.

I see you're branching out.

Palm reading?

Well, I prefer chiromancy.

It's the proper term
for palmistry.

It has a bit more flair to it,
don't you think?

Oh.

Have a seat.

Well,
show me your hand.

Ah, you're passionate.

Totally ruled
by your heart.

You needed to read my palm
to figure that out?

What about my life line?

What do you see there?

I see that you lead
an interesting life,

twisting back and forth...

Twisting?
Yeah, it's braided.
You see that?

It loops in and out.

Jumping here and there,
back again.

And how long is it?

It's not about length.

Not there, and...

Not here.

You know, when I first met you,
I felt so stuck.

Well, your past
was holding you back.

And this morning,

the thing that was
holding you back

was your future.

Or, to be precise,
your fear of it.

Well, on that note,

I am gonna go and enjoy
every last second of this day.

What do you think
about that?

I think that
is an excellent plan.

Okay.

Hey, mom, I'm early.

I'm in the kitchen,
sweetheart.

Oooh!
Nice hydrangeas.

I brought your favourite.

Thank you.

Hi. Muah.

How come you're not at work?

Ah... we're in a little bit
of a holding pattern.

Don't worry,
it's...

It's good, you know?

It'll either work out,
or it won't.

What?

Pffft. Nothing.

Mom?

Erica, there's something
I need to talk to you about.

Okay.
What is it?

Come sit.

Am I in trouble?

No.

A couple of weeks ago,
I found a lump in my breast.

I went to the doctor,
they took a biopsy,

and it came back positive...

For cancer, Erica.

I have breast cancer.

I'm sorry, sweetheart.

No, mom...

Why are you apologizing?
You...

I had the lump removed,

and they're doing tests now
to see how progressed it is.

Now, there's a chance
I might just need radiation,

or none at all.

But, um...

I mean, uh, it's...

Not chemo?
It's not...

It's not to that point,
I mean it's not that bad?

I don't know yet.

I'm in a bit
of a holding pattern, too.

So you might?

I might.

Mom...

Hey...

It g gonna be okay,
Erica.

Yeah...

Come here.

Oh, mom...

Mom, mom...

So there I was,
sitting in a Sushi restaurant

for the first time
in my life,

and the only thing that looks
familiar on the plate

is this little piece
of guacamole.

Well, of course,
it's not guacamole,

it's wasabi.

Oh, mom...

You didn't!

I popped the whole thing
in my mouth.

Five seconds later,
my ears were smoking.

My boss gave me his water.

I was just a mess.
It was just awful.

Oh, that was so long ago.

You girls weren't even born.

Mm, excuse me.

Mm-hm.

Oh sorry,
I just have to take this.

Julianne, what's going on?

Fasten your seatbelts,

I've got some faboo news.

Your little speech worked.

My little speech?
Oh, right!

With... with Seth and Lesley.
And?

"The Purple Door" is ours!

Woo-hoo!

And I've got a bottle
of champagne here

and I'm looking
at the label

and, oh, look at that,

right beneath where it says
super tasty and expensive,

it says, oh...
Erica Strange.

That's right,

this bottle of champagne
has your name on it.

Oh, Julianne,
that's awesome, I just...

I can't tonight though.

What? Why?!

We're celebrating.
It's we. Us. The A-team.

Tomorrow night, okay?

I... I really can't,

but, Julianne,
I'm so, so relieved.

Okey-dokey,
more bubbly for me.

Hey.

Congratulations, partner.

Hey, you too, chicken.
X.O.

It's been a long day.

Yes, it certainly has.

Considering, for me,
this day has lasted, oh...

About... 50 hours.

That's not what I meant.

I'm sorry about your mother.

Yeah.

Isn't that ironic?
This morning,

I thought that I was given
a death sentence

because of something
that Kai sorta kinda said,

and then there's my mom,

she's out there
telling stories

and joking
about kamikaze rolls,

and acting like everything
is normal,

like...

Like life just goes on.

Because it does.

You get what
everyone else gets, Erica;

you get one life.

And it's not about how long
or short it is...

It's what you do with it.

I got it.

You're gonna be fine.

I don't worry about you.

Well, I should get back
and see my mom

thank you, Dr. Tom.

Thank you.

Okay.

Hello, Naadiah.

What do you think?

Is she shiny enough?

You said not to worry

unless something happens,
Arthur.

Yes, I did say that.

Well, something has.

Okay.

Tom went to 2019 to retrieve
information about Erica,

to find out
if she's still alive,

and he did it only to satisfy
his own curiosity.

Tom, Tom...
What're you doing?

Do you believe me now?

Will you let me fix this?

What's this really about,
Naadiah?

Tom broke a rule,
a big one.

After complaining
about Fred,

he turned around
and did the exact same thing.

So the hypocrisy's
bothering you.

No, it's that he doesn't see
what he's doing.

We've been over this.
This-this is about Sarah.

It's always been
about Sarah,

and his denial
that she plays a part

in how he treats Erica
is tiring, frankly.

It's tiring.

Dr. Arthur:
Then let it go.

You tried;
He's not listening.

You don't have to fix this.

If we don't do anything,
Erica's gonna be affected.

Yes, she will.

And you're gonna allow that?

It's not my job to save Erica
or Tom from their mistakes.

It's not yours either.

We let it play out.

We let him make
the mistake,

and we let him suffer
the consequences.