Behind Her Eyes (2021–…): Season 1, Episode 2 - Episode #1.2 - full transcript
Mmm.
That's really good.
You must see a side to David I never do.
Come on, dish.
What kind of boss is he?
Uh...
It's... it's only been a week,
so it's not like I know him, really.
But he's...
nice,
professional,
and the patients seem to like him.
Glad to hear it.
So, what... what do you do?
I've never really had a job.
Except for, like,
five minutes in a florist.
We have money, so...
I thought maybe we'd have kids,
but that hasn't happened.
Not yet anyway.
- Do you have any friends in London?
- Not really.
I met all the partners and their
significant others, who are nice enough.
But...
they're all a lot older than me,
and kind of stuck up, if I'm honest...
Though... Oh, God,
you probably know them all.
They're all a bit stuck up.
But now I've met you!
I know you have a son and a job,
husband I assume?
No, divorced.
- Oh!
- Three years now.
Just me and Adam.
He's nearly eight.
No new man on the horizon?
Sorry.
None of my business.
What happened there?
I...
I whacked it on my balcony
the other night.
Sleepwalking.
Do you sleepwalk often?
Often enough.
I have night terrors.
They're a right pain in the ass.
What do you dream about?
Scary stuff.
You must think I'm a right nutter.
Actually, I was just thinking
how nice it is...
talking to someone like this.
You're honest.
I don't know about that.
Sorry.
Hi.
- You okay?
- Yes, I'm fine.
Where are you?
I'm out looking for paint samples.
I thought I'd grab a quick coffee.
Are you with someone?
No, it's just me.
It's quite busy.
All right.
I'll call at 2:30.
- Will you be home?
- Yeah.
I'll be home by then.
Okay.
- We'll speak then.
- Okay.
Bye.
Love you.
David.
How long have you had that phone?
Seriously old school.
Does what it needs to do.
Hey, we should swap numbers.
Yeah.
Great!
I really do have to go, Adele.
Was lovely to meet you.
I'll try not to knock you down next time.
Louise.
This is going to sound silly...
but I'd rather you didn't mention
to David that we did this.
Probably easiest if you don't mention
meeting me at all.
Why is that?
He can be a bit funny about
mixing work life and home life.
And us girls need some things
for ourselves, right?
I won't say anything.
- See you, Adele.
- Yeah.
I really hope so.
Fuck.
♪ They're just jealous ♪
♪ Because they never do the things ♪
♪ That they wish
That they could do so well ♪
♪ That kind of girl
Yes, she's never alone ♪
♪ You leave a thousand messages
On her phone ♪
♪ But you know you never get through ♪
♪ And you could have it all
If you wanted, girl ♪
♪ You could have it all
If it matters to you ♪
♪ But then all they know
Is how to put you down ♪
♪ When you're there, they're your friend ♪
♪ But then when you're not around ♪
♪ They say, "Oh, she's changed" ♪
♪ We know what at means ♪
♪ Well it means, they're just jealous
But they'll never do the things ♪
♪ That they wish
That they could do so well ♪
♪ No, they'll never do the things ♪
♪ That they wish
That they could do so well... ♪
David's on the phone!
Adele!
David's on the phone!
Now would you get down out
that bloody tree before
something happens
and you get the lot of us sacked?
Bad for the insurance if clients fall
to a terrible death, eh, Marjorie?
- Oh!
- Robert!
You wee shite!
Rob, let me down.
Thanks, Marj.
She's in love with that boy. No doubt.
Wee streak a piss like you
has got no chance.
Well, you'd know all about that,
wouldn't you, Marjorie?
When's the last time
anyone was desperate enough
to service your fat old fanny?
- You get back here!
- And also, Marj...
I prefer cock, by the way.
Big, fat, throbbing cocks!
Robert!
No.
No, that's Marjorie.
I was getting worried
you'd run away or something.
Where would I run to out here?
You sound better.
I haven't heard you laugh in too long.
I am, I think.
I made a friend.
His name's Rob.
He's very funny.
We laugh at all the other people together.
He's helping me, I think.
I think we help each other.
Do I need to worry about this Rob fella?
Uh...
No.
I love you.
You'll have to meet him someday.
I think you'll really like him too.
Hello?
It's me.
You didn't call my mobile.
Checking I'm actually at home?
Well, you said you would be.
Heaven forbid I might be spontaneous.
It's not about that, is it?
I'm joking, David.
Just a joke.
I'll be home late.
I'm meeting a couple of charities about
some community recovery work.
Do you ever wonder what they think?
Who?
The junkies on those estates
when you turn up.
What do you mean?
Do you think they really want to stop?
Maybe they like getting high.
Well then, I've been wasting my time
all these years, haven't I?
I'll see you tonight.
I'll be here.
Love you.
"Pinch myself and say, 'I am awake'
once an hour.
Look at my hands,
count my fingers.
Look at a clock or a watch.
- Look away..."
- Look away, look back.
Stay calm and focused.
Think of a door.
What's with that watch anyway?
It's David's. I gave him it as a present,
but he can't wear it right now.
So he wants me to wear it
until I get out of here.
- Looks expensive.
- It was.
I'm loaded, remember?
You don't worry David's too old for you?
No.
Yeah, but he's at university
and you're in here.
I'd just hate to see you get hurt.
Not everyone betrays you, Rob.
You can trust people.
You have to.
Or what's the point?
You really love him...
Yeah.
And he loves me.
What's that like?
Which one?
Either.
Adele?
Adele, you here?
I'm up here!
Come and see.
What do you think?
Why would you do this?
- Come on.
- I'm coming.
Don't pull!
All right, have a good day.
I'll see you later, okay?
- Okay.
- Give us a kiss. Mwah.
Bye.
Uh-uh.
- Hey, Sue.
- Hi.
Somebody got out of bed
on the wrong side this morning.
Oh.
He was in before me.
Didn't even say good morning.
Miserable bugger.
But then... they say that about the Scots,
don't they?
- Stingy, isn't it?
- And miserable.
We all have our off days, Sue.
Doesn't mean we have to share them.
Want tea?
Love one.
Do you need something?
- Just giving you these for your 10:30.
- On the desk's fine.
Leave it.
And can you knock next time?
Actually, I did.
But next time I'll wait to be summoned.
Told you.
Scottish. Bad-tempered, aren't they?
So it turns out, yeah.
Dr. Ferguson will be with you in a minute.
Thank you so much.
Hey, hey, I don't want to do this.
- Look, I'm not a fucking addict, okay?
- Anthony, please.
Maybe she will actually listen.
Will you listen?
- I...
- Oh, my... It's like I'm fucking invisible.
Hello, can you see me?
I'm afraid you'll have to keep
your voice down.
Yeah, or what?
Sorry, Louise. Thank you.
Hello, Anthony.
I'm Dr. Ferguson.
Your parents can wait out here.
No, I'm not doing it.
It's only an hour.
What harm can it do?
And it'll keep you out of prison.
- Take a seat.
- Can I get you anything?
A cup of tea, perhaps?
That'd be nice.
We both take it white. No sugar.
- See you again, later in the week.
- Okay.
It's a process, Anthony.
We've made the first step.
- We're done for today.
- Thanks, Dr. Ferguson.
- All right, darling?
- Yeah.
- All right, I suppose.
- Come on.
Louise...
Em... I booked Anthony Hawkins
into another session on Friday.
Same time, 3:45.
Should I charge for the extra half hour
he's had today?
Eh, no. No, that was my fault.
I didn't want to stop him
once he started talking.
I know what Dr. Sharma
would say about that.
Well, I won't tell if you won't.
Mommy!
It's coming!
What do you dream about?
David?
- Have a good last day, babes.
- Okay, bye.
Bye! Love ya.
- Hi.
- Hey, good morning.
Morning.
Nice flat.
Oh, I don't know about that.
You should've seen it earlier.
Like a bomb site.
Feels like a home.
Happy.
Uh, I'll, um...
I'll just go grab my... my stuff.
No rush.
Did you want anything?
No, I'm good.
Uh... Tea?
Coffee?
No, thanks.
Well, just help yourself
if you need anything.
- I'm looking forward to this.
- Oh...
You're going to get a right laugh.
- Trust me.
- I promise not to.
I think I'm gonna wet myself!
Just ten more seconds!
You can do it!
Whoa!
Fucking hell.
Oh, God.
I'm going to be in agony tomorrow.
I still can't breathe.
You said you wouldn't laugh.
I meant it,
but it was impossible not to.
Eh... Well, that's me. Comedy relief.
It's like anything.
- Just practice and putting in the effort.
- Uh-huh.
You'll be fit as a flea in no time.
You say that
like I'm ever doing this again.
I'd like a regular gym buddy.
You could come with me
on the days you're not at work.
Come on.
I'll show you the weight machines.
Now this I can do all day.
Mmm...
I'm telling you.
This is the closest I'm getting
to a holiday this year.
You've got a month on your own at least.
I know, but Adam being gone
is going to be very weird.
I know it.
I feel a bit lost already and he doesn't
even leave until tomorrow afternoon.
Shit!
What's wrong?
I meant to ask for the day off
so I could spend it with him and I forgot!
Just call in sick.
Should you be giving that sort of advice
to your husband's staff?
You're my friend.
Besides, it's one day.
It won't mean anything to them
and it'll mean a lot to you.
Maybe I will.
How long have you been married?
Ten years.
- Whoa.
- Since I was 18.
You weren't hanging about.
His parents ran the farm on our estate.
"Estate" like...
country estate?
Told you we have money.
He saved my life, you know.
David.
- We talking literally or metaphorically?
- Literally.
The night my parents died.
What?
I'm so sorry.
There was a fire at my house. I was 17.
David broke in
and dragged me out of there.
He got burned quite badly.
I was lucky.
Our house was pretty big and I slept
in a different wing to my parents.
The fire started near them and...
they never had a chance.
What was David doing there
in the middle of the night?
Sneaking to see me.
I'm all right. Don't worry about me.
I'm tougher than I look.
We should get a salad in the cafe.
Do you have time?
I got time for pizza.
Or a sandwich.
Same thing, right?
It's just salad
between two slices of bread.
And if you look at it that way,
and I do, quite often,
then pizza is just salad
on top of some bread.
And undo all the good work
we've just done?
Says the lady who eats cake
like it's going out of fashion?
Busted. Fair point.
You all right?
Yes.
I lost track of time.
Let's do lunch at my house.
I can make us something
- and we can sit in the garden.
- Uh... I... I don't...
I'll drop you home after. Please?
Wow.
Come on in.
Okay.
This place is...
gorgeous.
Thank you.
Fuck me.
What's the emergency anyway?
I know it'll sound stupid, but it's David.
He worries if I don't answer
when he rings.
How do you know when he's going to ring?
Because he calls
at the same time every day.
Why doesn't he call your mobile?
Does he...
call the landline
to make sure you're here?
It's not how it sounds.
I'll just be a minute.
Hello, darling.
Just back from the gym.
It was good, thanks.
No, no. It's just...
See you tonight.
I love you.
Right. Let's eat.
I've got something for you.
It's for your night terrors.
You mentioned them
in the cafe the other day.
Have you ever seen anyone about them?
When I was a kid.
But....they just said
I'd grow out of them.
In the end, I just got used to them.
Boyfriends never did, though.
And when they'd try and wake me up,
I'd hit them and burst into tears.
Bit of a passion killer.
Yeah.
Then the doctor said it couldn't have been
night terrors because I remembered them.
So, I just got on with it.
You do, don't you?
He was wrong.
What's that?
Remembering night terrors.
It's rare, but it does happen.
I used to have them...
and I remember them too.
You and me...
we're special, Louise.
You need to learn to control your dreams.
Seriously?
When I was younger,
I had terrible night terrors.
Everything you need to stop them
is in there.
It's like the gym.
If you put the effort in,
then you get to choose what you dream.
But the method only works
if you keep an open mind about things.
About there being more than just...
what we see.
Can you do that?
Now you think
I'm some New Age lunatic.
No, no.
I don't.
Years after my mother died,
I was stupid, but you know, I...
I went to a clairvoyant.
A friend of mine swore by her and so,
one day I just...
couldn't move with how much I missed Mom.
So I went.
And it was just a little woman
in a house out in Stockwell.
No crystal balls or tea leaves and...
She just...
knew things.
I only told her my first name,
nothing else.
But there were details
and stuff that she said that
couldn't have been about anyone else.
Things only me and my mom knew.
And she told me she was well.
And she didn't hurt anymore.
And I knew that woman knew my mom.
Somehow.
I don't know why I just told you all that.
It will help.
I promise.
Thank you.
Pack this. Pack this.
Ooh, binoculars.
Ooh...
Wow.
Snorkeler.
♪ I'm going to France ♪
- Hey.
- ♪ I'm going... ♪
Oh, hi, Mum.
I've got a new toothbrush
and new swimmers.
They're cool, Mom.
- You like them?
- I love them.
- There.
- Very good packing.
♪ I swear it is true ♪
♪ The past isn't dead... ♪
It's Dad! It's Dad!
- Hey, here he is.
- Dad!
- You ready to go?
- Yeah, can I take this?
Take one toy for the plane
and then they've got all that stuff
at the beach house.
Come on, we've gotta go meet Lisa.
You're going to have a great time.
He's gonna be fine, Lou.
- Let's go.
- Go on, give your mom a hug.
♪ When I close my eyes... ♪
- I'm going to miss you so much.
- I'm going to miss you too, Mom.
- Okay. Bye.
- Bye, Mom.
Go on.
♪ I'm gonna go on the beach and swim! ♪
See you.
"Pinch myself and say,
'I'm awake' once an hour.
Look at my hands, count my fingers...
Look at a clock or a watch.
Look away, look back.
Stay calm and focused.
Think of a door."
Who are you, then, Robert?
"Two days of counting my fingers
and looking at clocks
- and pinching the shit out of myself..."
- ...out of myself, and nothing.
But I'm not good at patience.
Never have been.
Especially not in here.
And the dreams just keep getting worse.
Every time I close my eyes...
This place isn't helping.
Everyone's dull.
Everyone's predictable.
Everyone's out for themselves.
Me included.
Not Adele, though.
Adele is properly beautiful.
Inside and out.
She's got her own shit to deal with,
but all she wants is to help me.
Fix my fucking dreams,
so even though this stuff feels stupid,
I'm going to keep doing it. For Adele.
Seriously, I would do anything
that she told me.
Of course now I've said that,
she can never see this book.
But we're friends...
Shit.
Oh, it's you.
I said that to you once.
Remember? When I saw you
in my office that first time.
Yeah. Yeah.
Eh, you called in sick.
I was just passing,
so I thought I'd... check in on you.
But it looks like you're okay.
- It was a headache.
- Ah...
It was killing me this morning,
um, but I'm feeling better now.
Good. Good. That's good.
Actually, that's a lie.
I... It was my son's last day
before he went to France,
and I wanted to spend it with him.
I meant to ask before, but...
I was acting like a prick.
A bit, yeah.
Do you want to come in?
Sorry about lying.
I don't expect sick pay or anything.
And I'd... love not to get sacked.
Don't worry about that.
Do you want one of these?
It's Pinot Grigio.
Pinot Grigio sounds good.
Okay.
I like your flat.
Thank you.
- There you go.
- Thank you.
Sit.
Were you really just passing by?
No.
No.
I thought it was because of me
that you didn't come in.
Because I was shitty to you.
They said you're never sick and, em...
I...
I didn't want there to be, em...
- I don't want us to be...
- Ever the conversationalist, David.
Right.
I didn't want to go home.
I was walking around and...
I found myself here.
You know, I wondered if it was fate...
us meeting in that bar.
I think it was simple bad luck.
Is that how you see it?
All things considered,
it didn't work out great for me, did it?
I finally meet a man
I think I could actually like,
and it turns out he's married.
So you liked me?
Men and their bloody egos.
I kissed you, didn't I?
First time I kissed anyone in ages.
We really laughed, didn't we?
People should be able
to make each other laugh.
That should always be there.
Whatever else happens.
How long have you and...
your wife been together?
Long time.
Forever, really.
She's very beautiful.
Yeah, she is.
We haven't laughed much in...
a long time.
I keep thinking about you.
That's not fair, David.
I know.
You should go home.
Louise...
Bye.
Bye.
♪ I love you ♪
♪ With all that I am ♪
♪ I need you ♪
♪ Now to understand ♪
♪ I'm trying ♪
♪ It's the only way ♪
♪ I told you ♪
♪ I can not be saved ♪
♪ I'm waking up... ♪
♪ I'm waking up ♪
♪ Can I breathe in the love from you? ♪
♪ Let me breathe
Let me breathe ♪
♪ I can feel it all ♪
♪ I'm waking up ♪
♪ I can breathe ♪
♪ I can love for you ♪
♪ And I know
That you and I, we're through ♪
♪ I am the burn
I feel it burn ♪
♪ Is it in the air to you ♪
♪ To love me like you do? ♪
♪ Is it in the air to me ♪
♪ To stay asleep... ♪
Washed me off?
Sorry.
That was...
nasty.
Took two of us, didn't it?
You've nothing to be sorry for.
I should go.
What were we thinking?
We weren't, I guess.
Don't worry.
I won't bring this to work.
Thank you.
Things should stay out of the office.
Yeah, definitely.
Things like shagging. That sort of stuff.
Go on, David.
It's all right.
Good night, Louise.
Bye.
That's really good.
You must see a side to David I never do.
Come on, dish.
What kind of boss is he?
Uh...
It's... it's only been a week,
so it's not like I know him, really.
But he's...
nice,
professional,
and the patients seem to like him.
Glad to hear it.
So, what... what do you do?
I've never really had a job.
Except for, like,
five minutes in a florist.
We have money, so...
I thought maybe we'd have kids,
but that hasn't happened.
Not yet anyway.
- Do you have any friends in London?
- Not really.
I met all the partners and their
significant others, who are nice enough.
But...
they're all a lot older than me,
and kind of stuck up, if I'm honest...
Though... Oh, God,
you probably know them all.
They're all a bit stuck up.
But now I've met you!
I know you have a son and a job,
husband I assume?
No, divorced.
- Oh!
- Three years now.
Just me and Adam.
He's nearly eight.
No new man on the horizon?
Sorry.
None of my business.
What happened there?
I...
I whacked it on my balcony
the other night.
Sleepwalking.
Do you sleepwalk often?
Often enough.
I have night terrors.
They're a right pain in the ass.
What do you dream about?
Scary stuff.
You must think I'm a right nutter.
Actually, I was just thinking
how nice it is...
talking to someone like this.
You're honest.
I don't know about that.
Sorry.
Hi.
- You okay?
- Yes, I'm fine.
Where are you?
I'm out looking for paint samples.
I thought I'd grab a quick coffee.
Are you with someone?
No, it's just me.
It's quite busy.
All right.
I'll call at 2:30.
- Will you be home?
- Yeah.
I'll be home by then.
Okay.
- We'll speak then.
- Okay.
Bye.
Love you.
David.
How long have you had that phone?
Seriously old school.
Does what it needs to do.
Hey, we should swap numbers.
Yeah.
Great!
I really do have to go, Adele.
Was lovely to meet you.
I'll try not to knock you down next time.
Louise.
This is going to sound silly...
but I'd rather you didn't mention
to David that we did this.
Probably easiest if you don't mention
meeting me at all.
Why is that?
He can be a bit funny about
mixing work life and home life.
And us girls need some things
for ourselves, right?
I won't say anything.
- See you, Adele.
- Yeah.
I really hope so.
Fuck.
♪ They're just jealous ♪
♪ Because they never do the things ♪
♪ That they wish
That they could do so well ♪
♪ That kind of girl
Yes, she's never alone ♪
♪ You leave a thousand messages
On her phone ♪
♪ But you know you never get through ♪
♪ And you could have it all
If you wanted, girl ♪
♪ You could have it all
If it matters to you ♪
♪ But then all they know
Is how to put you down ♪
♪ When you're there, they're your friend ♪
♪ But then when you're not around ♪
♪ They say, "Oh, she's changed" ♪
♪ We know what at means ♪
♪ Well it means, they're just jealous
But they'll never do the things ♪
♪ That they wish
That they could do so well ♪
♪ No, they'll never do the things ♪
♪ That they wish
That they could do so well... ♪
David's on the phone!
Adele!
David's on the phone!
Now would you get down out
that bloody tree before
something happens
and you get the lot of us sacked?
Bad for the insurance if clients fall
to a terrible death, eh, Marjorie?
- Oh!
- Robert!
You wee shite!
Rob, let me down.
Thanks, Marj.
She's in love with that boy. No doubt.
Wee streak a piss like you
has got no chance.
Well, you'd know all about that,
wouldn't you, Marjorie?
When's the last time
anyone was desperate enough
to service your fat old fanny?
- You get back here!
- And also, Marj...
I prefer cock, by the way.
Big, fat, throbbing cocks!
Robert!
No.
No, that's Marjorie.
I was getting worried
you'd run away or something.
Where would I run to out here?
You sound better.
I haven't heard you laugh in too long.
I am, I think.
I made a friend.
His name's Rob.
He's very funny.
We laugh at all the other people together.
He's helping me, I think.
I think we help each other.
Do I need to worry about this Rob fella?
Uh...
No.
I love you.
You'll have to meet him someday.
I think you'll really like him too.
Hello?
It's me.
You didn't call my mobile.
Checking I'm actually at home?
Well, you said you would be.
Heaven forbid I might be spontaneous.
It's not about that, is it?
I'm joking, David.
Just a joke.
I'll be home late.
I'm meeting a couple of charities about
some community recovery work.
Do you ever wonder what they think?
Who?
The junkies on those estates
when you turn up.
What do you mean?
Do you think they really want to stop?
Maybe they like getting high.
Well then, I've been wasting my time
all these years, haven't I?
I'll see you tonight.
I'll be here.
Love you.
"Pinch myself and say, 'I am awake'
once an hour.
Look at my hands,
count my fingers.
Look at a clock or a watch.
- Look away..."
- Look away, look back.
Stay calm and focused.
Think of a door.
What's with that watch anyway?
It's David's. I gave him it as a present,
but he can't wear it right now.
So he wants me to wear it
until I get out of here.
- Looks expensive.
- It was.
I'm loaded, remember?
You don't worry David's too old for you?
No.
Yeah, but he's at university
and you're in here.
I'd just hate to see you get hurt.
Not everyone betrays you, Rob.
You can trust people.
You have to.
Or what's the point?
You really love him...
Yeah.
And he loves me.
What's that like?
Which one?
Either.
Adele?
Adele, you here?
I'm up here!
Come and see.
What do you think?
Why would you do this?
- Come on.
- I'm coming.
Don't pull!
All right, have a good day.
I'll see you later, okay?
- Okay.
- Give us a kiss. Mwah.
Bye.
Uh-uh.
- Hey, Sue.
- Hi.
Somebody got out of bed
on the wrong side this morning.
Oh.
He was in before me.
Didn't even say good morning.
Miserable bugger.
But then... they say that about the Scots,
don't they?
- Stingy, isn't it?
- And miserable.
We all have our off days, Sue.
Doesn't mean we have to share them.
Want tea?
Love one.
Do you need something?
- Just giving you these for your 10:30.
- On the desk's fine.
Leave it.
And can you knock next time?
Actually, I did.
But next time I'll wait to be summoned.
Told you.
Scottish. Bad-tempered, aren't they?
So it turns out, yeah.
Dr. Ferguson will be with you in a minute.
Thank you so much.
Hey, hey, I don't want to do this.
- Look, I'm not a fucking addict, okay?
- Anthony, please.
Maybe she will actually listen.
Will you listen?
- I...
- Oh, my... It's like I'm fucking invisible.
Hello, can you see me?
I'm afraid you'll have to keep
your voice down.
Yeah, or what?
Sorry, Louise. Thank you.
Hello, Anthony.
I'm Dr. Ferguson.
Your parents can wait out here.
No, I'm not doing it.
It's only an hour.
What harm can it do?
And it'll keep you out of prison.
- Take a seat.
- Can I get you anything?
A cup of tea, perhaps?
That'd be nice.
We both take it white. No sugar.
- See you again, later in the week.
- Okay.
It's a process, Anthony.
We've made the first step.
- We're done for today.
- Thanks, Dr. Ferguson.
- All right, darling?
- Yeah.
- All right, I suppose.
- Come on.
Louise...
Em... I booked Anthony Hawkins
into another session on Friday.
Same time, 3:45.
Should I charge for the extra half hour
he's had today?
Eh, no. No, that was my fault.
I didn't want to stop him
once he started talking.
I know what Dr. Sharma
would say about that.
Well, I won't tell if you won't.
Mommy!
It's coming!
What do you dream about?
David?
- Have a good last day, babes.
- Okay, bye.
Bye! Love ya.
- Hi.
- Hey, good morning.
Morning.
Nice flat.
Oh, I don't know about that.
You should've seen it earlier.
Like a bomb site.
Feels like a home.
Happy.
Uh, I'll, um...
I'll just go grab my... my stuff.
No rush.
Did you want anything?
No, I'm good.
Uh... Tea?
Coffee?
No, thanks.
Well, just help yourself
if you need anything.
- I'm looking forward to this.
- Oh...
You're going to get a right laugh.
- Trust me.
- I promise not to.
I think I'm gonna wet myself!
Just ten more seconds!
You can do it!
Whoa!
Fucking hell.
Oh, God.
I'm going to be in agony tomorrow.
I still can't breathe.
You said you wouldn't laugh.
I meant it,
but it was impossible not to.
Eh... Well, that's me. Comedy relief.
It's like anything.
- Just practice and putting in the effort.
- Uh-huh.
You'll be fit as a flea in no time.
You say that
like I'm ever doing this again.
I'd like a regular gym buddy.
You could come with me
on the days you're not at work.
Come on.
I'll show you the weight machines.
Now this I can do all day.
Mmm...
I'm telling you.
This is the closest I'm getting
to a holiday this year.
You've got a month on your own at least.
I know, but Adam being gone
is going to be very weird.
I know it.
I feel a bit lost already and he doesn't
even leave until tomorrow afternoon.
Shit!
What's wrong?
I meant to ask for the day off
so I could spend it with him and I forgot!
Just call in sick.
Should you be giving that sort of advice
to your husband's staff?
You're my friend.
Besides, it's one day.
It won't mean anything to them
and it'll mean a lot to you.
Maybe I will.
How long have you been married?
Ten years.
- Whoa.
- Since I was 18.
You weren't hanging about.
His parents ran the farm on our estate.
"Estate" like...
country estate?
Told you we have money.
He saved my life, you know.
David.
- We talking literally or metaphorically?
- Literally.
The night my parents died.
What?
I'm so sorry.
There was a fire at my house. I was 17.
David broke in
and dragged me out of there.
He got burned quite badly.
I was lucky.
Our house was pretty big and I slept
in a different wing to my parents.
The fire started near them and...
they never had a chance.
What was David doing there
in the middle of the night?
Sneaking to see me.
I'm all right. Don't worry about me.
I'm tougher than I look.
We should get a salad in the cafe.
Do you have time?
I got time for pizza.
Or a sandwich.
Same thing, right?
It's just salad
between two slices of bread.
And if you look at it that way,
and I do, quite often,
then pizza is just salad
on top of some bread.
And undo all the good work
we've just done?
Says the lady who eats cake
like it's going out of fashion?
Busted. Fair point.
You all right?
Yes.
I lost track of time.
Let's do lunch at my house.
I can make us something
- and we can sit in the garden.
- Uh... I... I don't...
I'll drop you home after. Please?
Wow.
Come on in.
Okay.
This place is...
gorgeous.
Thank you.
Fuck me.
What's the emergency anyway?
I know it'll sound stupid, but it's David.
He worries if I don't answer
when he rings.
How do you know when he's going to ring?
Because he calls
at the same time every day.
Why doesn't he call your mobile?
Does he...
call the landline
to make sure you're here?
It's not how it sounds.
I'll just be a minute.
Hello, darling.
Just back from the gym.
It was good, thanks.
No, no. It's just...
See you tonight.
I love you.
Right. Let's eat.
I've got something for you.
It's for your night terrors.
You mentioned them
in the cafe the other day.
Have you ever seen anyone about them?
When I was a kid.
But....they just said
I'd grow out of them.
In the end, I just got used to them.
Boyfriends never did, though.
And when they'd try and wake me up,
I'd hit them and burst into tears.
Bit of a passion killer.
Yeah.
Then the doctor said it couldn't have been
night terrors because I remembered them.
So, I just got on with it.
You do, don't you?
He was wrong.
What's that?
Remembering night terrors.
It's rare, but it does happen.
I used to have them...
and I remember them too.
You and me...
we're special, Louise.
You need to learn to control your dreams.
Seriously?
When I was younger,
I had terrible night terrors.
Everything you need to stop them
is in there.
It's like the gym.
If you put the effort in,
then you get to choose what you dream.
But the method only works
if you keep an open mind about things.
About there being more than just...
what we see.
Can you do that?
Now you think
I'm some New Age lunatic.
No, no.
I don't.
Years after my mother died,
I was stupid, but you know, I...
I went to a clairvoyant.
A friend of mine swore by her and so,
one day I just...
couldn't move with how much I missed Mom.
So I went.
And it was just a little woman
in a house out in Stockwell.
No crystal balls or tea leaves and...
She just...
knew things.
I only told her my first name,
nothing else.
But there were details
and stuff that she said that
couldn't have been about anyone else.
Things only me and my mom knew.
And she told me she was well.
And she didn't hurt anymore.
And I knew that woman knew my mom.
Somehow.
I don't know why I just told you all that.
It will help.
I promise.
Thank you.
Pack this. Pack this.
Ooh, binoculars.
Ooh...
Wow.
Snorkeler.
♪ I'm going to France ♪
- Hey.
- ♪ I'm going... ♪
Oh, hi, Mum.
I've got a new toothbrush
and new swimmers.
They're cool, Mom.
- You like them?
- I love them.
- There.
- Very good packing.
♪ I swear it is true ♪
♪ The past isn't dead... ♪
It's Dad! It's Dad!
- Hey, here he is.
- Dad!
- You ready to go?
- Yeah, can I take this?
Take one toy for the plane
and then they've got all that stuff
at the beach house.
Come on, we've gotta go meet Lisa.
You're going to have a great time.
He's gonna be fine, Lou.
- Let's go.
- Go on, give your mom a hug.
♪ When I close my eyes... ♪
- I'm going to miss you so much.
- I'm going to miss you too, Mom.
- Okay. Bye.
- Bye, Mom.
Go on.
♪ I'm gonna go on the beach and swim! ♪
See you.
"Pinch myself and say,
'I'm awake' once an hour.
Look at my hands, count my fingers...
Look at a clock or a watch.
Look away, look back.
Stay calm and focused.
Think of a door."
Who are you, then, Robert?
"Two days of counting my fingers
and looking at clocks
- and pinching the shit out of myself..."
- ...out of myself, and nothing.
But I'm not good at patience.
Never have been.
Especially not in here.
And the dreams just keep getting worse.
Every time I close my eyes...
This place isn't helping.
Everyone's dull.
Everyone's predictable.
Everyone's out for themselves.
Me included.
Not Adele, though.
Adele is properly beautiful.
Inside and out.
She's got her own shit to deal with,
but all she wants is to help me.
Fix my fucking dreams,
so even though this stuff feels stupid,
I'm going to keep doing it. For Adele.
Seriously, I would do anything
that she told me.
Of course now I've said that,
she can never see this book.
But we're friends...
Shit.
Oh, it's you.
I said that to you once.
Remember? When I saw you
in my office that first time.
Yeah. Yeah.
Eh, you called in sick.
I was just passing,
so I thought I'd... check in on you.
But it looks like you're okay.
- It was a headache.
- Ah...
It was killing me this morning,
um, but I'm feeling better now.
Good. Good. That's good.
Actually, that's a lie.
I... It was my son's last day
before he went to France,
and I wanted to spend it with him.
I meant to ask before, but...
I was acting like a prick.
A bit, yeah.
Do you want to come in?
Sorry about lying.
I don't expect sick pay or anything.
And I'd... love not to get sacked.
Don't worry about that.
Do you want one of these?
It's Pinot Grigio.
Pinot Grigio sounds good.
Okay.
I like your flat.
Thank you.
- There you go.
- Thank you.
Sit.
Were you really just passing by?
No.
No.
I thought it was because of me
that you didn't come in.
Because I was shitty to you.
They said you're never sick and, em...
I...
I didn't want there to be, em...
- I don't want us to be...
- Ever the conversationalist, David.
Right.
I didn't want to go home.
I was walking around and...
I found myself here.
You know, I wondered if it was fate...
us meeting in that bar.
I think it was simple bad luck.
Is that how you see it?
All things considered,
it didn't work out great for me, did it?
I finally meet a man
I think I could actually like,
and it turns out he's married.
So you liked me?
Men and their bloody egos.
I kissed you, didn't I?
First time I kissed anyone in ages.
We really laughed, didn't we?
People should be able
to make each other laugh.
That should always be there.
Whatever else happens.
How long have you and...
your wife been together?
Long time.
Forever, really.
She's very beautiful.
Yeah, she is.
We haven't laughed much in...
a long time.
I keep thinking about you.
That's not fair, David.
I know.
You should go home.
Louise...
Bye.
Bye.
♪ I love you ♪
♪ With all that I am ♪
♪ I need you ♪
♪ Now to understand ♪
♪ I'm trying ♪
♪ It's the only way ♪
♪ I told you ♪
♪ I can not be saved ♪
♪ I'm waking up... ♪
♪ I'm waking up ♪
♪ Can I breathe in the love from you? ♪
♪ Let me breathe
Let me breathe ♪
♪ I can feel it all ♪
♪ I'm waking up ♪
♪ I can breathe ♪
♪ I can love for you ♪
♪ And I know
That you and I, we're through ♪
♪ I am the burn
I feel it burn ♪
♪ Is it in the air to you ♪
♪ To love me like you do? ♪
♪ Is it in the air to me ♪
♪ To stay asleep... ♪
Washed me off?
Sorry.
That was...
nasty.
Took two of us, didn't it?
You've nothing to be sorry for.
I should go.
What were we thinking?
We weren't, I guess.
Don't worry.
I won't bring this to work.
Thank you.
Things should stay out of the office.
Yeah, definitely.
Things like shagging. That sort of stuff.
Go on, David.
It's all right.
Good night, Louise.
Bye.